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    Upon Sadness
    Upon Sadness
    Upon Sadness
    Ebook83 pages21 minutes

    Upon Sadness

    By Jesse Toban

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    The ramblings of a hormonal teenage girl. Join me on trip through memory lane with the streetlamps off. This book is a collection of poems and pictures from a time in my life where I was in love with an abusive man. The first time I fell in love with an abusive man, anyway. The back and forth, the push and pull. It's all there in black and white along with several pictures I drew from the same time period. This is the first in a two part series chronicling my poor judgment when it comes to love. These are also my initial forays into publishing and I have immensely enjoyed the process. Maybe someone will read this and feel less alone. Maybe someone will read this and have a good laugh.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherJesse Toban
    Release dateJan 23, 2015
    ISBN9781311849007
    Upon Sadness
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    Jesse Toban

    I am a budding author playing around with self-publishing on my way to creating some more serious content when I am finished with my degree as a Psychology student at my local university. I have been through two major relationships that were emotionally and physically abusive. These poems were a way for me to frame the intensity of what I was dealing with.

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