February 14 Yan ang araw na hindi ko talaga pinaniniwalaan. I don?t know why ever yone is so excited about that.

Well, mixed emotions daw sabi nila others are exci ted kasi magiging masaya sila for sure, yung iba naman malungkot kasi daw malami g ang February nila, meaning wala daw silang ka-date. Meron din namang petiks pe tiks lang. Kunwari walang plano yun pala planado na ang lahat while yung others pa dyan ay totally walang paki. Who cares nga di ba?! Ikaw saan ka sa kanila?? A ko? Dun ako sa last option. As in, I got no idea why I should celebrate that day . First thing first, hindi po ako bitter wala nga akong paki sa mga yan eh. Wala kas i akong sense of love ? Hay ewan ang gulo! Pero yun ang akala ko yun din ang alam ng iba. Pero iyon nga ba ang totoo? What if all of this is just a lie? What if kung dinededma ko lang talaga? What if yung sinasabi kong wala ay meron talaga? What if lahat ng what ifs? ko ngayon ay talagang totoo? The answer is yes bakit yes? Ewan! Joke! Pero noon pa man wala talaga akong inter est about hey! February 14 is coming soon o kaya naman February 14 na, Happy Valent ine?s Day! Wala talaga eh. Pero sa kanya pala meron Siya oo! Siya pero sino nga ba s iya? Three months ago nangyari ang mga pangyayari na di na sana dapat nangyari pa yun ay ng malaman niya na Mahal ko siya I never love someone not until I am now to him. I never say those words not until I told him myself. Kaya nga lang like I a lways know and expected wala na eh. Huli na ang lahat. It?s not a fairy tale there ?s no such thing as happy endings kasi wala naming endings. Masakit pero tinangg ap ko. Pero kulang pa ba yung Hello? I started talking and hear as he breathes on t he other line You still there? Please listen. Yes, I?m listening. He answered briefl y. I took a big sigh and continued First, I?m sorry What are you talking about? he in terrupted. Can you let me finish? I complained and caused him to keep quiet. Why? W hy? I?m so confused why he didn?t tell me before. But that?s not important anymore It took several minutes for me to tell the main purpose of my call in the middle of the night. Listen please just listen I gave another blow and said I?ve been loving ou The wind blew upon my skin that caused me to shiver. Shivering that night, wait ing for him to answer. But all I heard was nothing. Wala akong ma-react sa ginawa ko am I being so fast? Mabilis ba yun? Ang gulo?! I told myself that I will acce pt any answers whether favor sa gusto kong marinig or dun sa mas pinaniniwalaan kong sagot na too late. But no that?s not it. Wala sa mga iniisip ko. Walang wala. B ecause the worst answer I got is NOTHING He didn?t answer or say anything after I embarrassingly confessed to him. Sorry kung through phone call lang, ang hirap k aya lalo na at close friend kayo pero iniiwas ka na niya. How can I talk to him personally if he keeps avoiding me and ignoring me when I?m around? Try mo kaya? ! I didn?t lose my patience and understanding kung bakit siya ganoon. Days and w eeks have passed but I kept myself accepting his reasons, about me being around h indi naman ako madaling mapagod eh, I can also wait. But sa ganitong bagay, am I waiting? I am not waiting? Or I am waiting!? Di ko rin maintindihan. There was a day na parang may chance na to talk and to fix everything. Syempre, it was my chance para ayusin kung ano yung nasira sa amin which my super goal is ibalik ka hit ang close friend ko. Pero alam mo kung ano ang nangyari??? Malaking EPIC FAI L! Hindi ko alam kung dahil sa may cough and colds ako nung araw na yun kaya niya a ko nilalayuan bakit nakakamatay ba yun? Iiwasan ka, di ka papansinin na parang di ka kilala and ang pinakamalala is I WAS LIKE NOT EXISTING ANYMORE. Okay, alright? Sobrang laki ng kasalanan ko. I?m neither bitter nor mad I?m just confused. Nagu guluhan lang ako. Is he taking revenge against me?? Ang kasalanan ko lang kasi a y ang pagiging manhid that nung mga araw na magkakasama kami ay he had something towards me that he was so in love to me and he tried to show me as everyday as po ssible pero ako naman daw itong manhid na hindi ko man lang daw ba napansin? Pero bakit hindi niya nalang ako tinanong di ba? Eh di sana nalinawan din ako kung b akit everytime that I?m with him I feel safe I feel happy. Yun pala yun And they cal led it LOVE Bakit ba ang hirap mong malaman? Ang hirap ma-solve? Magaling naman a ko sa Algebra but why I didn?t instantly find out what is X?? The only result I?m holding now is I AM TOO LATE February 14 I woke up with blank state of mind and th en bigla nalang pumasok sa isip ko ang Moving on. It?s like traffic lights. Go slow down, and then, stop! Go I should thi nk kung ano nga ba ang reason and what do?s para maayos ang lahat. Yung tipong i

-try para maayos ang kahit kaunting part nito. Kung baga sa isang nabasag na sal amin, kahit hindi mo na siya maibabalik sa dati at least kapag napagdiki-dikit m o ang bawat piraso ay mayroon pa ring mabubuo. Pero kailangan din mag-slow down. Hindi ito pagka-pagod it?s not giving up too. It?s just taking the action of acc eptance that after all I need to stop. Because on this part, it?s not always try a nd try until you succeed. It?s about feelings and emotions versus desires. If I desire to be with him but our feelings don?t meet, it only means we?re not meant to be. Loving someone the most doesn?t mean that it is meant to be kaya kahit g aano man ito kasakit, kailangan tanggapin dahil I am living in reality. It ends. It meant to end. Pero nagswi-switch ulit siya sa go meaning to let go letting go of the past and take action for the present. Letting go doesn?t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. And on the same day Fe bruary 14 Ui, Kacey! May naghahanap sa?yo sa labas? napalingon naman ako sa kumalab it sa likod ko. Si Ren, ang best friend ko. Kanino pa daw siya dun. This girl know s everything. Sino daw? tanong ko kahit na I keep my focus on the book I?m currentl y reading. Pakisabi later nalang, pwede? Kasi nasa climax na ako eh. Ayaw ko kasi nang na-iistorbo ako sa pagbabasa. Lalo na at ma-a-unlock na ang mystery ng sto ry. Grabe ka naman, kanina pa daw naghihintay dun eh. Eh bakit kaya hindi ako hina nap kanina kung matagal na yun nandun. Syempre I stopped reading na lang and sto od up. Sino ba yun? She flashed an evil grin basta puntahan mo nalang. I got no idea with that face ewan ko sa?yo pero pupuntahan ko nalang din. Grabe! Pahirap naman ito, pinaakyat pa ako ng roof top kala ko ba nasa labas ng room... hay naku! Tap os baka naman hindi importante. Tsk tsk! Umakyat na ako narating ang tutok ng building. I opened the door. I looked around , wala namang tao. Ano ito joke? I stepped in to look around still pero wala pa ri n Wow talaga. Ang lakas talaga ng trip ng baba---- bigal naman umihip ang malaks na hangin na parang liliparin na ako and caused me to automatically shut my eyes Pe ro nung muli kong binuksan ang aking mga mata, a familiar figure flashed in fron t of me maybe, then steps away. Sean? I puzzled out. What are you doing here? He sta rted walking towards me I?m so sorry Kacey he stopped about three steps away and ga ve me a bouquet of blue roses I?m so sorry I was afraid. I chuckled Ano ito? Peace of fering? Ano ka ba?! Ayos lang ako. Nakatitig lang siya sa akin na parang may sasa bihin. Yun lang ba? I waited for him to say anything pero wala I think, mauna na ak o I turned around but before I start walking, he just caught me on my wrist. I loo ked back yes? Please don?t stop loving me he said habang nakayuko. Akala ko kaya kong limutin ang nararamdam ko para sa?yo but every time I try to be away from you, p arang sasabog ang puso ko sa sobrang pagka-miss sa?yo. Please Kacey, give me anot her chance. Pinilit kong tumawa. Ano ito joke ulit? Ui, Sean. Ano ka ba? he lifted his face looking at me. Wag ka ngang mag-joke. Natatawa kasi ako. No his eyes locked on mine. I?m serious please let me love you I am frozen halos two minutes ata kaming n agtitigan lang before I removed his hand around my wrist Sean Thank you. Thank you for loving me on those days. Thank you for making me realized na kaya masaya ako at sobrang na-mi-miss kita noong mag araw na yun ay sa dahil natuto akong magmah al, na natutunan kitang mahalin. Ikinagulat niya ang aking mga sinabi. I showed a weak smile pero I also realize na we?re not really meant to be. You really deserve someone who?ll love you, na papantayan o mas hihigitan pa ang pagmamahal mo naka-m ove on na ako yun ang paulit-ulit na tumatakbo sa isipan ko Siguro nga I?m not that girl. Hindi niya inaalis ang tingin niya sa akin He then said I?m sorry Ayos lang yun. I for ed laugh and walked away pero bago pa ako makalayo. Inabutan niya ulit ako pulling my hand and hugged me Sean Please kahit limang minuto lang hinigpitan niya pa ang pa kayakap sa akin. Minutes pass Kahit pa sabihin mong wag akong maghintay matigas ang ulo ko hihintayin ko ang araw na sana ay mahalin mo ako. I?ve been loving you hin di yun magbabago humiwalay na siya sa pagkakayakap. I?ll be waiting for you, Kacey he repeated. I just smiled and walk away Bakit kung kalian nag-let go na ako tsaka mo pa sinabi na mahal mo ako? Bakit hindi magtagpo ang oras ng ating pag-ibig sa isa t-isa? Pero sa paglalakad ko akala ko, this smile will remain. Akala ko, this is a smile of acceptance of moving on but then naramdaman ko ang unti-unting pagtul o ng mga luha sa aking mata. I still love you too Sean. But February 14 this day just told me that you and I are not meant to be - The End -