THE BAD WIFE...

SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...SHE KNEW HE KNEW THAT SHE HAD NOT BEEN THERE WHEN SHE CO
ULD HAVE...SHE KNEW SHE HAD GONE BEYOND UNAVAILABILITY, WITHDRAWAL, FLIGHT AND T
HE SAFENESS OF 'YIN'...THE 'YIN' SPACE OF CHARGED DISTANCING AND WATCHING...THE
'YIN' SPACE OF GREAT HUNGER IN 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' AND SOMEHOW OVERTHROWING T
HE ECHOES OF THE INNER GATE OF DEATH DEEP IN THE PERINEUM...THE DEADENED AND WIT
HHELD PLACE OF RAGE AGAINST THE BETRAYALS THAT HAD BEEN DONE TO HER AND THE BETR
AYALS OF HER REALNESS SHE DID IN MEDIATIONS AND FILTRATIONS TO 'GET NEEDS MET'..
.
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...
IN THE SHADOWS...THE WOMAN IN THE DARK ROOM WAITED IN THE RHYTHMS OF DAYLIGHT AN
D USED WHATEVER TO FOSTER ORBITS OF RELATIONS THAT PROVIDED 'INTENSITY-DENSITY'
MEANS OF COUNTERING THE DEADNESS OF THE DEEP 'YIN'...FOR IT WAS NOT THE 'STILLNE
SS' OF SPIRIT AND HEALTH BUT THE CONTROL OF RESONANCE AND RELATIONS...
IT WAS POWER GREATER THAN LOVE AS SHE STRUGGLED TO OVERCOME ROOT FEELINGS OF VIO
LENCE AND BETRAYALS THAT TOLD HER SHE WOULD NEVER BE LOVED ENOUGH...SHE ACHED FO
R THE LOVE YET INCREASINGLY DISCOVERED THE NECESSITY OF BUILDING NEW ILLUSIONS T
O MEDIATE THE 'MYTHOLOGY' OF HER FAMILY HISTORY AND THE DESTRUCTIVENESS OF THEIR
FORTRESSINGS MASKED IN 'BELIEF-FAITH' IDEOLOGY STRUCTURES...
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...
SHE KNEW THE DIFFERENCES IN MANIPULATIVENESS, DISAPPOINTMENTS AND CONTROLS AS BE
HAVIORS OF NOT BEING SEEN...NOT HAVING ANYONE MEET HER IN REALISM OF EMOTIONALIT
Y...THE VERSION OF WHO SHE WANTED YOU TO SEE...THE IDEALIZED AS PORTRAYED IN THE
IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT OF TIMES ENCOUNTERED AND THE GAP OF REALITY OF THE FULLNE
SS OF HER STRUGGLES TO BE LOVED AS IS...
THE CONTROL OF OUTCOMES WAS NOT POSSIBLE...
FOR SHE SAW HER WOUNDS AND LACK AND EXPRESSED THEM KNOWING THEIR RECURRENCE AND
SOUGHT ACCEPANCE..TO STILL BE LOVED...
AND HE LOVED HER FOR WHO SHE IS YET HE KNEW HE WAS NOT AS SHE ENVISIONED...THE S
HARED 'YIN' MAGNETIC FIELD SEXUALITY' AFFORDED OPPORTUNITY IN HEALINGS AND GROWT
H YET IT WAS 'YANG' STRENGTH IN FULLNESS AS OPPOSITES THAT SEEMED UNATTAINABLE..
.FOR RHYTHMS OF YIN TO YIN IN COUNTERING THE 'DEEP DEADNESS OF THE BOTTOM' GATE
OF DEATH WAS A SOURCE OF SOMEONE BEING THERE TO SHARE AND MOVE...A 'TEMPORARY CU
RE' FOR THE LONELINESS AND INCOMPLETED...
REALNESS WAS EVOLVING INTO ENCOUNTER...FOR HIS GROWTH THROUGH HIS DAMAGES MOVED
IN YIN DEPTHS WITH A RARENESS TO BECOME THE YANG THAT FEW MEN ACHIEVE...FOR THE
'YANG' OF LIFE FORCE IS DIRECTION AND PROMETHIAN...IT IS ALIVENESS TO STEAM AND
INSPIRE AGAINST THE YIN CURRENTS OF MOSTLY WATERS OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS...
IT IS WILL TO ONENESS IN CREATIVE INTEGRITY...HEART CENTERING IN KNOWING WHAT ON
E HAS DONE...TO BREATHE THROUGH GUILT, SHAMES AND KINWEB OPPRESSIONS THAT COMPEL
DECISIONS TO AVOID EXPOSURE...ACTIONS OF COURAGE BEYOND WEBBED MODES OF REACTIV
ITY AND THE DANCES OF 'ACCEPTABLE' VERSIONS OF THAT'S WHO SHE IS...
SO SHE INVESTS IN THE LOSSES AS CONSTRUCTIONS IN INERTIA...SHE MOVES IN FAMILIAR
ITY AND SEEKS TO WIN THE THEMES THIS TIME...TO ENDURE IN A DISTANCE AS THE VULNE
RABILITY FOR REAL KNOWLEDGE AND GROWTH IS NOT YIN BUT THE WILL OF YANG...EXPOSUR
E, STANDING ON ONE'S OWN...SPEAKING TRUTH TO THOSE WHO WOULD SUPPRESS AND TAKE A
DVANTAGE OF 'YIN' SILENCES AND NON CONFLICT/CO0NTRADICTION...
MAKING PEACE IN INNER DEADNESS CLOSE TO THE PERINEUM GATE OF DEATH...BEING IN TH
E HIDDEN AGENDA AS THE PLATEAU OF 'MASS-OCCUR' WAVES...FOR THE CREATIVE MOVES TO
YANG OUT OF 'SILENCE IS DEATH'...COURAGE OF DAATH AND ASSERTIONS OF WILL...RIGH
T TO ONE'S LIFE AS ONE'S LIFE...
IT IS GETTING OUT OF THE SELF-RECRIMINATIONS OF THE 'BAD WIFE' AND THE BLACK SHE
EP INTO AN ASSERTION OF IDENTITY.........TRUTH OF URGENCY OUT OF FALSE ANGST MED
IATIONS AND OVERLOAD RELEASES...