Expectations

By: Jeliza E. Manaligod

I looked at him, but he didnt meet my gaze

I talked to him, neither did he respond
I sent him messages, he didnt give reply
I called him up, but hes phone was off
I lied in bed, and stared at the ceiling,
Until such time, that I fell asleep,
Though Im asleep, my dream was awake,
Without his presence, I feel so weak
Then I woke up,
And looked beside me,
Nobodys there,
He was not there
I closed my eyes and blinked away my tears,
I shut my mouth, and sob in the silent hour,
I expected him, to be home when I wake up,
I expected him, to feel what I feel
This is my fault, my mistake, my expectation
That pushed me deep, enough not to sleep
A slash in my heart, in my battered heart
The pain I caused for my expectation.