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It is with deep regret that I must announce to the membership of The Compassionate Friends of Northeast Arkansas that our chapter leader, Toni Baker has stepped
down as chapter leader.
Toni has retired and she and her husband are moving out of state. We wish her all
the best, although we will miss her as our leader. Toni has worked tirelessly for this
chapter for over three years, with very little help. We started out with a steering
committee of four, and soon lost two members due to other commitments. I have
been the newsletter editor from the beginning, but because of poor health issues,
have been unable to do much more than that. Toni worked, not only as chapter
leader, but also as secretary and treasurer, and planner of events, so much more, as
well as holding a full time job.
We wish Toni and her husband all the best retirement has to offer, and thank her
for her devotion and hard work for this chapter; The Compassionate Friends of
Northeast Arkansas.
Starting in October, 2015, we will have a new chapter leader; Martha Akers. I met
Martha years ago when Robin Patten started the first Compassionate Friends in
Paragould. Martha lost her teenaged son in a motorcycle accident.
It is my wish that our membership will come together for our October 8th meeting
to welcome and encourage Martha in this challenging new endeavor.
Advisory Board Members
The Compassionate
Friends
State of Arkansas
Regional Coordinators
David and Dana Penn
870-759-1299
www.djdp32@hotmail.com
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60522-3696, Phone: 630-990-0010. Fax: 630-990-0246. Toll free national office: 877-969-0010Web address:
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Upcoming Events:
October
November
December
Regular meeting with new chapter leader, Martha Akers. Arkansas Regional
Coordinator, Dana Penn will also be there. Please try to make it to this
meeting to show your support.
Regular Meeting
linda@thelenoxfamily.com
Our next 3 Meetings!
October 8, 2015
November 12, 2015
World Wide Candle Lighting
To be announced
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Alone!
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"How many kids do you have?" seems like a benign question. Count your kids and say the number,
simple as that. When I'm at the park or birthday parties with my son Zachary, I'm often asked some
variation of this question, "Is Zachary your only child?" or "Do you have any other children?"
At first, I always answered truthfully. I never wanted to fake an answer to this question. I'm proud of
my children, I love being their mom. But, the reactions I got were unintentionally hurtful and awkward. So, I tried lying about how many kids I have and that was much worse. I could not stand the
heartache that accompanied my lying. Telling the truth hurt less than lying.
Truthfully though, "How many kids do you have?" is the easy question to answer -- I just say something like "two" or "Zachary has a twin brother, named Micah." Their natural next question is more
difficult. "Where is your other child?" or "Why isn't Micah here, too?"
I've decided that I cannot lie about my children just to make someone else feel comfortable. I hate lies.
I do not lie. I am honest with myself and my children.
My heart races and my confident voice shakes as I honestly answer their question. I speak the devastating truth that is my life, "Micah passed away when he and Zachary were 11 months old."
My honest answer morphs cheery faces into looks of horror. Typically, this is when people turn away
and avoid eye contact with me. They have no idea how to respond, so they don't say anything and
change -- or leave - the conversation as quickly as possible.
I don't expect anyone to spend hours talking about Micah. I don't expect anyone who's never dealt
with child loss to "get it" because unless you've lost your baby, there is no way to understand the raw,
lifelong heartache.
All I want is acceptance. Look at me. Recognize my loss. Say Micah's name. No need to say something
profound, just speak empathetically and sensitively from the heart. Here are some of the most appreciated responses I've received:
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Nathan Kidd
Haylee Kidd
Nicholas Zurosky
Jennifer Cook
Samantha Cook
Ashlyn Dunn
Shane Palmer
Tabitha Marsh
Stephanie Sluder
Timothy House
Carter Smith
Olivia Jurkin
Mattie Bryant
Terry Brown
Shayla Jo Miller
Jayden Wilkinson
Caiden Billups
Betty Luker
Blake Howerton
Stephanie Morgan
Rita Tritch
Joanne Hamner
Matthew Russo
Morgan Crockett
Brent Hawkins
Nathan Swafford
Daryl Ponder
Billy Ray
Noah Spencer Boyd
James Clapp
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I realize that child loss is an incredibly difficult thing to talk about, , especially for people who are blissfully unaware that thousands of U.S. families
lose their babies every year. But, just because I realize that it's hard for other
people, doesn't make it any easier on me. It hurts when Micah is not acknowledged or spoken of. It hurts when our tragic loss is brushed over. It hurts
when people act like Zachary is my only child. Micah is my son and always will be. I will never "move
on." I love Micah just as much as I love Zachary. Micah is gone from our arms, but not from our family. Zachary needs to know that we will never forget his twin. We will never minimize his loss. We will
always be open and honest with him. We won't try to hide our heartache or pretend like nothing happened.
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. On the surface, my family looks perfect. My
husband and I are healthy, and we have a vibrant, healthy toddler. Our years of infertility, our miscarriage and the death of our firstborn son Micah are all invisible. There are thousands of families
who share our story. It's very likely that you know a family who's lost a child... you just might not
know about their loss. Please, help us honor, celebrate and remember our precious babies by:
Lighting a candle on October 15th
Joining a Walk to Remember
Learning how to talk about child loss
Even life's most amazing blessings -- another child, a nurturing partner and all the happiness in the
world -- can never replace Micah. Micah is not physically with me, but he is always with me. He is always my son. I am always his mama. Nothing can ever change that -- not death, not the passage of
time, and certainly not anyone's questions. I have two children, Micah and Zachary. Micah's in my
heart, Zachary's in my arms. I am incredibly blessed and proud to be their mama.
TCF of NEA Telephone or email Friends
Linda Lenox, 870-573-6920 orlinda@thelenoxfamily.com
Lindas daughter Melissa died in a flooded creek.
Jo Cook, 870-249-1290
Jos daughter, Jennifer died in an accident with a train.
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