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SHOCK IMPACT

'...BUT WHY DO I SPEAK


WHEN NO ONE HAS MY EARS!...'-FRIEDRICH
NIETZSCHE, THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA

THE GREAT INNER 'NOON'...

THE MOMENT OF ILLUMINATION OF 'EROS-


CREATIVE SACRED' SPACE DEEP WITHIN...THE
GLIMPSE BEYOND SHADOWS OF THE 'CLOSED
CIRCLE' OF THE PSYCHE' CAVE...

AN ILLUMINATION AS CLARITY IN A SENSE OF


'ONENESS' WITH THE UNIVERSE...

AWARENESS IN THE 'INNER NOON'


ILLUMINATION STATE 'OUT OF' THE ONGOING
NECESSITY OF BEING IN MEDIATION-
CONTROL...AN ALTERED STATE OF
CONSCIOUSNESS AS ONE 'GOES WITHIN' INTO
THE 'BODY ELECTRIC' OF CORRIDORINGS AND
CONGESTIONS...ONE SEES INTO THE 'ROOTS
AND ILLNESSES' THAT ARE THE SOURCINGS
OF THE 'MANUFACTURED SELF' OF BARBICAN
SHAME FORTRESSING...
THE GREAT 'INNER NOON' TIME AS LIGHT IS
SHINING ON PREVIOUSLY DARK AREAS OF
SHADOWS AND DEFENSIVE DENSENESS...
INNER AWARENESS...TO ACCESS PERSONAL
RESOLVE IN ENTERING THE 'CLOSED CIRCLE'
HUNGER SPACE OF CONTROL AND 'VANITY-
FEAR' WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY 'WISHING
FOR SAFENESS' IN SEEKING VITALITY...

THE GREAT INNER 'NOON' IS A MOMENT OF


RECRYSTALLIZATION TIME OF 'CRISIS-RISK-
OPPORTUNITY'...A MOMENT TO BEGIN...A
TIME TO FACE THE 'DETERMINISM' INERTIA
OF ONE'S PATTERNS OF 'POWER GREATER
THAN LOVE' BEHAVIORS...A TIME TO
GRADUALLY SHIFT OUT OF THE 'CLOSED
CIRCLE' SPACE OF LIMITED 'FUTURE/PAST'
POSSIBILITY...

IT IS THE MOMENT OF SEEING ONESELF IN A


NEW WAY...A VISION EXPERIENCE KNOWING
THE 'COMPRESSION' THAT IS THE
CONTAINER-ENCLOSURE OF THE 'EROS-
CREATIVE SACRED' SPACE...THE CLOSED-
CIRCLE OF AN 'IDEA VERSION' OF SELF, THE
WELL-STEIN, THE EGO, THE 'MASTER
EMOTION' AS THE 'SHAME' CONTROLLER OF
REFLECTIONS AND SHADOWS ON INNER
WALLS...THE INNER CAVE OF MEDIATION-
CONTROLLINGS AND RECURRENT
'TENDENCY'...

IT IS TIME TO BEGIN...A NEW REALITY...A


TIME OF DISTILLATION OF ESSENCES...A TIME
OF 'LETTING GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONE'...A
TIME IN A 'MOMENT OF ILLUMINATION' AS
'INNER NOON'...THE INNER 'NOON' SPACE
WHERE 'TIME DISAPPEARS' IN REVERIE AS
'DREAMS THAT ECHO DEEPLY'...THE 'INNER
NOON' CONSCIOUSNESS AS INSIGHT IN WILL
TO LIFE' IN 'VULNERABILITY AND
DESIRE'...THE 'INNER NOON' WAY OF
BREATHING IN FULLNESS IN PRESENCE...

SHOCK IMPACT...TO BE AS PURPOSE IN THE


SHIFT OPPORTUNITY OF A CRISIS...TO ALTER
AND REFOCUS...TO MOVE AS 'READINESS' IN
'INNER NECESSITY' AND GO BEYOND MERE
'SURVIVAL' WAYS...TO BE IN A 'MIND-AT-
LARGE' ACCESSING OF SIGNALS AND
SENSINGS THAT IS BEYOND THE
CIRCULARITY OF 'ORDINARY' BRAIN
FILTRATIONS...

TO KNOW...TO WILL...TO ACT OUT OF THE


'PAIN AND TRANSFERRENCES' RHYTHMS OF
SAFE AND SOUND FAMILIARITY OF 'POWER
GREATER THAN LOVE' WAYS OF 'MEDIATION'
AND FORTRESSINGS...TO OVERCOME 'FEAR
OF LOSS' AND 'SUFFERING' AS 'TENSION
NORMALCY'...

TO SEE A 'CART BEFORE THE HORSE' SPACE


OF 'BELIEF-BEHAVIOR' OF 'MEDIATION-
CONTROL' WAYS...A DIGESTIVE-'SAFE AND
SOUND' SPACE OF ECHOIC FAMILIARITY...A
'CASTLE-BARBICAN' WALLED SPACE OF
'CONTAIN-STORAGE-DEFEND'...A SOURCING
SPACE OF THE WELL-STEIN OF SECRETS AND
SECRETIONS...THE VIBRATION AWARENESS
SPACE WHERE INSTINCTS AND INTUITION
GUIDE 'INNER NECESSITY' ACTIONS...

TO SEE THE 'MIND-SET' AND 'TENETS-BELIEF'


SPACE OF RITUALS, CUSTOMS AND
TRADITIONS...THE RECURRENCE SPACE OF
INNER SHADOWS...THE 'MAKE IT FIT' WAY OF
COMPELLING 'THINGS' TO BE AS
'EXPECTANCY' AND IDEOLOGY
'DICTATES'...THE 'REARING' GREATER THAN
'RAISING' STATE OF FORTRESS DEFENSES...

IT IS GOING WITHIN TO KNOW...

IT IS GOING WITHIN TO THE EDGE OF 'NO'


AND 'NOW'...GOING TO 'NO' TO ALTER INTO
'YES' IN AN AFFIRMATION OF LIFE AS
WILL...GOING IN 'AS IS' AS 'NOW'...GOING
WITHIN TO 'BE HERE NOW'...GOING THROUGH
THE CONSTRUCTIONS AND LAYERINGS 'TO
TRANSPARENCY' OF SELF...GOING THROUGH
THE PLACES OF EARLY HARM RESONANCE
AND TRAUMAS TO DISTILL ESSENCES AND
BREATHE FULLY IN TRUE WILL...

IT IS A CHOICE OF BEING 'WILL' OUT OF THE


EXCESSES OF CONTROL OF EROS-CREATIVE
SACRED STATES OF 'RESCUE' AND 'PRINCESS'
FORTRESSINGS...IT IS LEARNING 'COURAGE
TO GENERATE' ONE'S OWN LIFE...THE
STRENGTH TO LEAVE THE EROS-CREATIVE
SACRED 'CAVE' OF SHADOW 'AWE',
FASCINATION AND MEDIATION...TO LEAVE
THE VARIOUS MEANS AND VEHICLES OF
'NUMBINGS' AND 'INTENSITY-DENSITY'
CORRIDORINGS TO BE PRESENT IN TRUTH OF
URGENCY...

TO BE CONSCIOUS IN THE SPIRIT AND


MYSTICISM SACRED SPACE OF
ENLIGHTENMENT AND ILLUMINATION IN
HEART AND SOUL...THE CERTAINTY OF A
'DEFINED-UNKNOWN' SPACE OF DOCTRINE-
TENETS...THE 'SHE LIKED IMAGINARY MEN
MOST OF ALL' FANTASY SPACE OF 'POWER
GREATER THAN LOVE' STRATEGIES OF
DESIRE...THE SPACE OF IMAGINATION,
'HALLUCINATORY SELF ABSORPTION' AND
'GRANDIOSE NARCISSISM'...

TO KNOW THE ABYSS SPACE OF EMPTINESS


AND NOTHINGNESS...

IT IS 'FACING' AND GOING INTO THE 'CRISIS-


RISK-OPPORTUNITY' SPACE OF POTENTIAL...
THE SPACE OF REORGANIZATION,
RECRYSTALLIZATION, RECONSTITUTION OF
'DESIRE' AS OPPORTUNITY SPACE/PLACE TO
SHIFT AND REALIZE 'WILL' BEYOND THE
ARRESTED BEHAVIORS OF 'WILLFULNESS-
REACTIVITY-DEFIANCE'...

TO ENTER THE SPACE OF 'RATIONALIZATION


OF ENERGIES' AS THE WAY OUT OF THE 'EAR-
RATIONAL' SENSINGS OF 'ACOUSTICAL
CHAOS'...TO 'HEAR' THE EMOTIONAL AND
'IRRATIONAL' VIBRATIONS THAT ARE
FOCUSED THROUGH SIGIL ASSOCIATIONS
AND PATTERNS OF 'MEANINGS'...THE
VIBRATORY 'SOUNDNESS' WAY ACHIEVED
THROUGH EQUILIBRIUM SHIFTINGS AND
ADAPTATIONS OF PSYCHE PHYSIOLOGY IN
BALANCINGS THROUGH 'MICRO-
GENERATIONS' OF INNER EAR 'OTOLITHS' OF
CALCIUM DEPOSITS...
TO ENTER INTO THE DEPTHS OF 'EROS-
CREATIVE SACRED' SPACE IN COURAGE IN
ADVENTURE AND CURIOSITY AS 'INTENT' TO
GROW AND EXPAND IN 'MINDFULNESS'...AS
HEALTHY CONSCIOUSNESS IN GUIDING ONE'S
'BODY-BRAIN' ENERGY INTO THE
RECRYSTALLIZATION OF SELF BY 'SEEING
INTO ONE'S ROOTS AND MISFORTUNES'...

THE INNER 'NOON' MOMENT OF


ILLUMINATION IS A CRYSTALLIZATION
INTERSECT OPPORTUNITY STATE OF THE
JOURNEY OF THE 'WOUNDED-HEALER' IN
CONVULSIVENESS OF 'REVITALIZATION'...A
RECONSTITUTION OF ENERGIES THROUGH
'DISTILLATION OF ESSENCES' AND THE
'BOILING HEAT' OF ENCOUNTER THROUGH
'PSYCHE' EMOTIONAL INVOLVEMENT...

THE PROCESS OF ENCOUNTER IN


'MINDFULNESS' AS 'RESOLVE' TO HEAL IN A
HARMONIZING CLARITY OF 'HEART AND
'TRUTH OF URGENCY'...IT IS ACCESSING
'TRUE WILL' WHILE ENCOUNTERING THE
'CHAOS' WITHIN IN A TIME OF 'CRISIS' AS ONE
MANIFESTS 'TRUTH OF URGENCY' IN 'TRUE
WILL' IN UNITY WITH THE RHYTHMS OF THE
UNIVERSE...
THE INNER 'NOON' TIME OF ILLUMINATION...A
SIMPLICITY OF REALNESS NOT A 'SHOCK' OR
'ERUPTIVENESS' OF CHANGE...A REDIRECTION
AND A 'LETTING GO' WAY OF
REORGANIZATION IN 'FOCUS-DISCIPLINE' TO
MARSHAL ONE'S EROS-CREATIVE-SACRED
ENERGIES IN AN 'INTEGRITY OF BEING' OUT
OF THE MEDIATION FORTRESSINGS OF
'COPING-ENDURANCE'...

TO BE IN THE AWARENESS OF INNER 'NOON'


IS TO GO INTO THE 'BIND AND THE BLIND'
SPACE...THE PLACE OF ACOUSTICAL 'SOUND
BLINDNESS' IN PATTERNS OF BARBICAN
FORTRESSING OF 'SAFE AND SOUND'...THE
'FAMILIAR' PATTERN PSYCHE SPACE OF 'DA'
WHERE 'IMPOSITION ORDER' IS MEDIATION IN
COPING, ENDURANCE AND POWER
CONTROLLINGS...

TO ENCOUNTER THE 'EROS-CREATIVE


SACRED' AS PSYCHIC, EMOTIONAL AND
'IRRATIONAL' SPACE...

SPIRITUAL SPACE...
THE 'ECHOIC' SPACE OF FILTRATION AS THE
'SHADOWS OF SELF' OBSCURE ONE'S
POTENTIAL OF GROWING IN NEW WAYS...
THE 'INTERIORITY'MEDIATION-CONTROL
RESONANCE OVERLAPPING HIP-ZONED
'SAMENESS' OF THE MOTHER-DAUGHTER-GIRL
'SHARED' ECHOIC...THE SAFENESS IN
RECURRENCE OF THE FAMILIAR
REFLECTIONS OF 'SHADOWS OF SELF' ON THE
'INNER CAVE' WALLS SPACE...

THE HORIZONTAL HIP ECHOIC PLATEAU OF


'SEPARATE-SIMILAR' COMMON THAT IS THE
BASIS OF 'HOMEOSTASIS-GROUNDING'...A
HOMEOSTASIS SENSE OF FAMILIAR INERTIA
THAT MAY NOT BE 'GROUNDED IN
HEALTHINESS'...FOR THE INERTIA MAY BE A
HOMEOSTASIS BELIEF-BALANCE SPACE OF
ADAPTATION TO 'IMPOSITION-EXPECTANCY'
VISION INSTEAD OF 'INDEPENDENT' HEALTHY
UNITY 'CENTER GROUNDING'...

SHOCK IMPACT...ILLUMINATION...A NEW


REALISM...SEEING A WAY OUT OF THE
'CLOSED CIRCULARITY' OF 'POWER GREATER
THAN LOVE' MEDIATION-CONTROL-
FALSENESS OF HOMEOSTASIS...
IT IS COURAGE TO UNVEIL AND LET GO OF
'HARD-EARNED' BEHAVIORS OF 'WANTING TO
BE WANTED' IN LEARNING TO LOVE IN A
HEART WILL OF CONNECTION AS 'TRUTH OF
URGENCY' INSTEAD OF A POWER STRATEGY
OF CONTROL, COMPENSATION OR
DOMINANCE...FOR THE 'TRUE' OR 'FALSE' OF
A HOMEOSTASIS SPACE, AS CONSTRUCTED,
IS IN THE FORTRESS EXCESSES OF 'VANITY
FEARS' AND CASTLE DEFENSES...IT IS BEING
IN 'TRAPPED LIFE' IN AN 'INDENTURED
SERVITUDE' TO A FORCE OF IMPOSITION
THAT ONLY DENIES AND CONTROLS...

FOR THE 'CLOSED CIRCLE' BUILT IN 'INERTIA


OF A 'CIRCLING' OF HERITAGE 'IMBALANCES'
BECOMES THE BELIEF-BEHAVIOR OF LIMITED
PAST/FUTURE POSSIBILITY...A 'DEADNESS'
WITHIN AS THE 'BARBI-CAN' FORTRESS OF
MEDIATION-CONTROL BECOMES 'POWER
GREATER THAN LOVE' NECESSITY...

'...FOR SHE IS ZONED IN A


SPACE BEHIND 'A WALL OF FIRE' AS SHE
STEAMS AND STRUGGLES TO PRECLUDE HER
REAL SEXUAL AWAKENING...'

IT IS 'FEAR OF LIFE' GREATER THAN 'WILL TO


LOVE' AND BE IN 'AS IS'...IT IS DREAM AND
REVERIE GREATER THAN PRESZENCE...IT IS
FLIGHT ESCAPISM GREATER THAN WILL OF
AUTHENTICITY...IT IS A VIOLENCE OF
COMPLIANCE IN SURRENDERING EROS-
CREATIVE ENERGIES TO EXPECTANCY AND
IMPOSITION ORDER WAYS...

'...FOR THE FATHER HAS


BLOCKED THE DAUGHTER'S SEXUALITY BY
RESERVING IT FOR HIMSELF...'-SIGMUND
FREUD

IT IS THE 'SHAME' OR 'FEAR OF BEING


EXPOSED' OR 'BEING CAUGHT IN THE ACT,
AGAIN' SPACE...THE SHADOW SPACE OF
MEDIATIONS IN REPRESSION, SUPPRESSION,
DENIALS AND FEARS OF PUNISHMENT...THE
THREAT OF ANNIHILATION TERROR SPACE...

IT IS GOING THROUGH THE VEILINGS OF


'SELF-DECEPTION, ILLUSION AND POWER-
CONTROL' IN ORDER TO ACCESS 'HEART' IN
WILL TO 'INTIMACY'...THE TRUTH OF
URGENCY THAT IS 'UNMEDIATED' IN PASSION
'WILL TO BE'...

IT IS DISCOVERING ONE'S TRUE


NATURE...THE 'WAY BEYOND' THE VANITY-
FEAR' IDEA 'VERSION OF SELF'...
CONSCIOUSNESS...THE HEART IN WILL TO
ENTER THE DEEP EROS-CREATIVE SACRED
SPACE...THE VIBRATION AWARENESS SPACE
WHERE INSTINCTS AND INTUITION GUIDE
'INNER NECESSITY' ACTIONS...

IT IS GOING WITHIN TO KNOW...

IT IS SEEING THE WAYS OF SEDUCTION AND


MANIPULATION AS 'MISTRESS OF
INDIRECTION' POWER GREATER THAN LOVE
BEHAVIORS...THE COQUETTE WAYS OF
FANTASY-FLIRTATION MANIPULATIONS
USING 'TIME AS A WEAPON' TO COMPEL
'CAVE' DEFINED 'SHADOW VISIONS' TO
ENTICE IN 'WOOINGS' THROUGH
VULNERABILITIES AND 'WOUNDEDNESS'...THE
LEVERAGE AND HOLDING, WITHHOLDING AND
THWARTING, LIMITING AND DENYING AS A
CONDITIONAL WAY OF LOVE...A
WOUNDEDNESS OF BEING SEEKING
'COMPENSATORY' SOLUTIONS THROUGH
'WANTING TO BE WANTED' MANIPULATIONS
OF 'DESIRE'...A 'POWER GREATER THAN LOVE'
MANEUVERING IN AN EMULATION 'STRATEGY'
OF 'FORTRESSED CIRCULARITY' WAYS...
IT IS A JOURNEY TO ENCOUNTER
AWARENESS AS 'ONLY WHAT IS FELT IS
TRULY KNOWN'[ARTHUR JANOV]...TO SENSE
REALNESS IN INTUITION, INSTINCTS, SENSES
'OUT OF THE CONSTRUCTED' AND 'SELF-
MANUFACTURED' RECURRENCE VISIONS OF
'IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT'...TO SEE
ONESELF IN A 'TRANSFORMATIVE
OPPORTUNITY' PATHING OUT OF 'MAKING
THINGS' FIT...

THE MAKING THINGS FIT 'CART BEFORE


HORSE' OF 'CLOSED CIRCLE' VISION...A
'SPIDER WEBBING' IN SENSES OF
CONTAINERING AND ENVELOPING IN
'MAKING' THINGS 'FIT' INSTEAD OF
NATURALLY EVOLVING IN AN 'AS IS' TRUTH
OF URGENCY...A 'CART BEFORE THE HORSE'
WAY OF 'BAGGAGE' AND 'MEDIATION' THAT IS
FOUNDED IN 'MISTRUST', TRADITION AND
'DOCTRINE COMPLIANCES'...

FOR THE 'CLOSED CIRCLE OF 'EROS-


CREATIVE-SACRED' CIRCULARITY' IS A
SYSTEM OF QUESTING TO OVERCOME THE
AGITATIONS OF 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH' AND
'LACK'...A WAY OF 'MEDIATION-CONTROL' TO
HOLD ON TO AN 'IDEA VERSION' OF SELF AS
ONE IS UNABLE OR UNWILLING TO 'LET GO OF
ALL THAT IS NOT ONE'...A WAY OF
'LEVERAGE, STRIVING AND ROLE-
PERFORMANCE' TO BE IN CONTROL...

TO SEEK 'SPOTLIGHT' OR 'POWER'...

A 'CART BEFORE THE HORSE' WAY THAT IS A


'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS'...

'...FOR WHAT IS
INCOMPLETE FROM THE PAST, WE TEND TO
RECREATE...'-SIGMUND FREUD

TO BE IN TRUTH OF URGENCY IS BEING IN AN


INTENT OF WILL TO 'FREE WILL'...WILL TO
LEAVE THE 'CLOSED CIRCLE' OF WATCHING-
MONITORING-SUSTAINING-FORTIFYING THE
RHYTHMS OF THE SHADOWS ON THE INNER
CAVE WALLS...WILL OUT OF THE 'FORT LOW
WELLS' OF CONTROLLED POLITICAL
MEDIATIONS...

FALSE HOMEOSTASIS IS IN THE 'REARINGS'


OF MEDIATION-CONTROL IN ZONING
THROUGH OF THE 'BACK WALLING' OF THE
VAGINA...A FEAR-POWER WAY OF VOLLEYING
IN AN 'IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT' OF
STRATEGIES OF REPETITION AND
FAMILIARITY...THE STREAMING SENSES OF
FUELS, BREATHING AND CONTAINMENT
WITHIN THE ACCEPTABLE CONSTRAINTS OF
THE 'CLOSED CIRCULARITY' OF 'EROS-
CREATIVE-SACRED' SPACE...

THE POWER TO BE IN 'GIVE AND TAKE'


RECIPROCITY YET BE UNABLE TO GENERATE
FULLNESS OF LOVE IN EXPRESSION AND
PHYSIOLOGY...THE 'MAKING THINGS FIT'
DISTORTIONS IN CONTROLS OF ACCESS AND
PRESENCE...

THE WAYS OF 'ARRESTED


DEVELOPMENT'...THE WOMAN-CHILD, THE
MAN-CHILD, THE 'EROTIC-NEUROTIC' SELF-
ABSORBED NARCISSISTIC BEING OF
'HYSTERIA-SENSUALIZATION'...THE
'TROUBLED' IN THE 'DISTORTIONS OF
HUNGER' AND 'OBSESSED VANITY' OF
'IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT'...

TO ACCESS 'PRESENT' WITHIN...A 'NOON'


MOMENT...A 'MEDITATIVE' PRESZENCE OF
CONSCIOUSNESS...A STATE TO LEAVE THE
'MIRRORINGS', 'MEDIATIONS' AND THE
SHADOWS OF THE 'INNER CAVE'...A STATE TO
LET GO OF THE 'HARD-EARNED' BEHAVIORS
AND 'INERTIA' DEFENSES OF WALLING AWAY
FROM 'INTIMACY'...A 'BARBI-CAN' SHAME
FORTRESS WAY OF WALLING TO 'DEADEN',
'PARTITION', 'ENDURE'...A STATE OF WILL TO
LEAVE THE 'MIND-SET' INERTIA OF 'FALSE
HOMEOSTASIS' GROUNDING THAT
CONTINUOUSLY 'CONSUMES POTENTIAL'...

...'MAN IS A CREDULOUS ANIMAL,


AND MUST BELIEVE SOMETHING; IN THE
ABSENCE OF GOOD GROUNDS FOR BELIEF, HE
WILL BE SATISFIED WITH BAD ONES'.
-BERTRAND RUSSELL

IT IS 'INNER NOON' AS ONE SEES THE


ENDLESS CIRCULARITY OF AN 'ALL IS
CLOUDED BY DESIRE' SOCIO-ECONOMIC-
ADVERTISING FOSTERED 'CONSTRUCTIVE
DISCONTENT' AND THE SEXOMONEY MEDIA
PSYCHE PENETRATIONS THAT ARE IN THE
WORDS OF MACHIAVELLI IN CLIZIA
CLIZIA...'FOR
...'FOR THE
CLOSER A MAN IS TO HIS DESIRE, THE MORE
HE DESIRES IT AND SINCE HE CANNOT HAVE
IT, IT CAUSES HIM GREATER TORMENT'...

IT IS 'AS ABOVE, SO BELOW' AS 'AIR WAVES'


ENERGIZE IN 'CURRENCY' AND 'REACTIVITY'
TO THE LATEST 'MASS-OCCUR' MOMENTS OF
MADNESS...IT IS INNER-OUTER IN
COMPRESSIONS AND FORTRESSINGS TO
COUNTER THE 'SHOCKS' AND 'OVERLOADS'
OF 'EXCESSES' OF ELECTRONIC 'COOL-FIRE'
IN SIGHT AND SOUNDS...

IT IS A MEDIATION RATHER THAN


ASSERTION...A COMPROMISE INSTEAD OF A
REALIZATION...IT IS TENDENCY IN VANITY-
FEAR 'APPROACH-AVOIDANCE' THAT
BECOMES MEDIATION INSTEAD OF 'TRUTH OF
URGENCY'...THE 'EROS-CREATIVE SACRED
SPACE' SERVING AS A PRIVATE 'UNTOUCHED'
AND 'UNFELT' ZONING OF SAFENESS...

VANITY-FEAR...DEEP TERROR IN THE


'UNSTABLE' CLIMATE OF 'GLOBAL
ELECTRONIC HERDING'...MISTRUST IN A
WORLD OF CHAMELEON 'LEVERAGES AND
MASKINGS'...STRATEGIES OF 'POWER
GREATER THAN LOVE' AS INSTITUTIONAL-
CORPORATE RHYTHMS DRIVE 'MORE SO'
VALUES OF 'BODY ELECTRIC'
CORRIDORINGS...THE 'AVATAR-SAVANT' AND
MEDIUM 'AMPLIFIED' HONINGS OF
'PERFORMANCE, ROLE, IMITATION,
EMULATION' AS USEFULNESS GREATER THAN
AUTHENTICITY-PRESENCE...

IT IS VANITY-FEAR AS 'A NARROWING' OF


'LIFE FORCE' INTO AN 'INTENSITY-DENSITY'
OF PATTERNING IN PERSONALITY OR
'TALENT, SKILL, WAY' THAT IS 'MEDIATION-
CONTROL' INSTEAD OF AFFIRMATION IN
FULLNESS OF HEALTHINESS IN BLOOD
CIRCULATIONS AND BODY ELECTRIC
DISTRIBUTION 'BALANCES'...A WAY OF
'HEALTHY CENTERING' OUT OF THE
STRIVING, LEVERAGING AND PERFORMANCES
OF 'TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING'...

INNER 'NOON' IS SEEING INTO INNER


DISTANCE...INNER SPACE...THE TENDENCIES
IN EXPANSIONS OF BARRIERS AND
WALLINGS...THE FORTRESSINGS OF
HYSTERIA 'AUTO-EROTIC' SENSUALIZATION
IN POWER QUESTS OF 'WANTING TO BE
WANTED'...A 'SELF-ABSORBED' WAY OF
'POWER GREATER THAN LOVE' AS
ENDURANCE THAT LIMITS, THWARTS AND
CONTROLS ACCESS IN 'SPLITTING',
'PARTITIONING' AND 'MEDIATING' IN
'CONDITIONAL' EXCHANGES OF FORMS OF
'LOVE'...THE POWER 'DEAL-MAKING' IN
RECIPROCITIES OF AN EXCHANGE 'RATE' OF
ORBITS AND NEEDS...

IT IS AS THE 'TWIG IS BENT, SO GROWS THE


TREE' AS A 'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS'...A
FALSENESS ONE LEARNS TO SUSTAIN IN
WAYS OF 'FIGHT AND FLIGHT' AND THE
SHIFTS OF 'INTENSITY-DENSITY' THROUGH
DECEPTIONS OF 'NUMBINGS' AND 'SPIKINGS'
OF DREAM STATES AND CORRIDORINGS OF
'MORE' OF THE SAME'...IT IS REPETITIONING
IN 'MORE SO' WAYS DRIVING THROUGH
'NARROWINGS' OF MERIDIAN CHANNELS OF
BEING...

IT IS 'LIMIT' AND 'TERRITORY' OF 'WAY'


THROUGH 'IMITATIONS, EMULATIONS,
IMPOSITIONS, INDOCTRINATIONS' AS
'HERITAGE' AND 'EXPECTANCY' BECOME
SURRENDER OF LIFE ENERGIES IN
'CASTRATION' CUTTINGS THAT BLOCK
ASSERTION IN REAL 'TRUTH OF URGENCY'...

IT IS 'DESIRE AS A STRATEGIST' SEEKING


POWER THROUGH IMITATION IN USING AN
OBJECT LIKE A 'BARBIE-DOLL', A 'MODEL' OR
'BARBI-CAN' TO FORTIFY A 'CASTLE OF
DREAMS' IN BEING 'FILLED WITH CREATIVE
ENERGIES' FOR POWER-CONTROL STATES OF
'WANTING TO BE WANTED' THAT IS REALLY A
COMPENSATORY QUEST OF 'POWER GREATER
THAN LOVE' FORTRESSING...

IT IS THE DIFFERENCE OF 'BEING FILLED


WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES' VS. THE 'WOMAN
SATISFIED IN SEXUAL HEALTHINESS'...FOR
THIS 'BARBI-CAN' CONSTANCY OF
ADAPTATION IS A 'RECURRENT CIRCULARITY'
OF VANITY-FEAR AS A LIMIT AND CONTROL
OF 'ACCESS' TO INTERIORITY BY
PARTITIONING AND 'IMAGE-MAKING'...

IT IS THIS ONGOING RECURRENT 'TENSION'


AS 'SENSES' OR 'MOISTURES OF
DIFFERENCES' IN ECHOES OF A POSTURAL
STANCE OR 'POINT OF VIEW' THAT IS A 'BLIND
SPOT' OR 'HEART OF A DREAM'...IT IS
AWARENESS THAT 'SEXUAL ORGASM MAY
NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED' AS 'REDIRECTIONS
OF EROS-CREATIVE SACRED SPACE' ARE
MORE VALUED THAN STATES OF THE 'WOMAN
SATISFIED IN SEXUAL HEALTHINESS'...

IT IS 'THRIVE' ON THE FUELINGS OF INNER


CIRCULARITY GREATER THAN CHANGE IN
TRANSFORMATIVENESS AS THIS 'BARBI-CAN'
CONSTRUCTED 'ZONE' OF FALSE
HOMEOSTASIS IS A 'MEDIATED' ORDERING
INTO A 'NECESSITY UNITY' IN ORDER TO
COPE AND ENDURE...A REACTIVITY
'SPLITTING OFF' FROM ONE'S REAL 'INNER
NECESSITY'...AN 'ALIENATION' OF BEING
SPLITTING OFF FROM REALNESS...
'...SOMETHING IS MOVED
AWAY FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST'...

THERE IS A DEEP ANGST FEAR OF 'BEING


SEEN' IN OTHER THAN 'IMPRESSION
MANAGEMENT' WAYS...IT IS THE
CONSEQUENCE OF COMPLIANCE IN
'SURRENDERING' TO 'EXTERNALIZATION' OR
'IMPOSITION ORDERING' THAT BECOMES THE
TEMPORARY 'MEDIATION' AS A CHRONIC
'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS'...THE 'ACTIVATIONS'
OF SENSES IN CONTINUING 'COMPENSATORY'
DRIVES TO 'OVERCOME' INADEQUACY
FEELINGS OF 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH...

FOR THE 'MEDIATION-CONTROL' SUSTAINS AN


'IDEA VERSION' SELF AS A 'MYTHOLOGY SELF'
OF DOCTRINE, DOGMA, IDEOLOGY, 'FANTASY'
OR 'HEROISM' OR 'DEFEATISM'...A
'MEDIATION-CONTROL SELF' THAT
INCREASINGLY CORRIDORS, THWARTS AND
DENIES TO MAKE THINGS 'FIT'...

A 'MEDIATION-CONTROL' SELF UNWILLING


AND UNABLE TO 'SURRENDER' TO REAL
INNER NECESSITY...AN 'ARRESTED
DEVELOPMENT' SELF OF 'RESTLESS
AGITATION' SEEKING 'AFFIRMATION' IN
'WANTING TO BE WANTED' QUESTS OF
'POWER GREATER THAN LOVE' RHYTHMS...

IT IS AS NIETZSCHE DESCRIBED THE


'INVERSE CRIPPLES' OF 'TOO MUCH OF' A BIG
MOUTH, A BIG BELLY OR SOMETHING ELSE
BIG...IT IS THE AFFECT OF THE 'TEMPORARY'
CRISIS 'SOLUTION' THAT BECOMES A
'CHRONIC' WAY OF DISTORTION-LEVERAGE
FORTRESSING OR 'MEDIUM-AVATAR-
SAVANTING'...IT IS THE 'SOLUTION' AS A
GENERATION OF ANOTHER CRISIS AS THE
RECURRENT CIRCULARITY BECOMES AN
'INTENSITY-DENSITY' EXCITEMENT IN A
'CORRIDORING-STREAM' OF THE BODY
ELECTRIC...

IT IS THE SURGING OF 'REDIRECTED


REPRODUCTIVE' EROS LIFE FORCE INTO
'ROLE-PERFORMANCE' THROUGH 'MERIDIANS'
IN PATTERNS OF 'POINTS OF LIGHT'...IT IS
THE DENIAL, 'SHUTTING DOWN' OF SOME
FUNCTIONS TO 'MAXIMIZE' TRAITS THAT ARE
VALUED...

IT IS A 'NARROWING' OF LIFE FORCE INTO


'TENDENCY'...AN INNER INERTIA OF THE
'ADAPTATIONS' OF THE 'BODY ELECTRIC' IN
AN INCREASINGLY 'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS'...A
'ROBBING PETER TO PAY PAUL' IMBALANCE
COPING AND ENDURING AGAINST AN
'EXTERNALIZED' SERVITUDE...AN
'ACROBATIC' MIND-SET OF 'IDENTITY'
FORTIFYING AND FORTRESSING FOR 'POWER
CONTROL' WHILE MOVING IN 'WANTING TO BE
WANTED' WAYS...

FOR THE TRUTH OF 'WILL' IS BEYOND THE


'REACTIVITY WEBBED' BEHAVIORS OF
'WILLFULNESS' AND DEFIANCE...TRUE WILL IS
BEYOND THE 'ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT' OF
MEDIATION ADAPTATIONS TO 'PEER' OR
'PATTERNINGS'...FOR TRUE WILL IS THE 'WAY
OUT OF' THE WAYS OF 'MEDIATION' OF
'SPLITTING' THAT CONSUME 'HEALTHY
ORGANIC UNITY'...

TRUE WILL IS MOVING OUT OF THE ANALOGY


OF THE 'SOCRATES CAVE' IN WHICH PEOPLE
ARE BOUND TO A WALL WATCHING 'SHADOWS
CAST ON THE WALL'...TRUE WILL IS
RECOGNIZING THAT THEIR REALM OF 'INNER
EXPERIENCE' IS MERELY IN THE MEDIATIONS
OF FEARS AND VANITY WITHIN THESE INNER
'CAVE' SHADOWS...

FOR THE LESSON OF BEING 'BOUND' IN THE


CAVE IS IN KNOWING ONE IS ENMESHED IN A
PARALLAX CONSTANCY 'WAY' OF MEDIATION
TO SUSTAIN A 'CONTROLLED VISION' OF
WHAT IS 'TENSION' NORMALCY...A PARALLAX
PATHING WHERE THE DIFFERENCES ARE
ONGOING AND NEVER MEET OR INTERSECT...

THE 'CLOSED SYSTEMIC CIRCULARITY'...A


STATE OF 'FALSE HOMEOSTASIS' SUSTAINED
IN THE ONGOING 'NECESSITIES' OF ILLUSION,
FANTASY, DECEPTION, IMAGERY AS A
'TENSION NORMALCY'...THE 'FOUNDATION' AS
A BASIS FOR 'MEDIATION-CONTROL' TO
'THWART, TO SEDUCE, TO MANIPULATE, TO
GET' IN 'POWER AS STRATEGY GREATER
THAN LOVE AS PRESENCE'...

IT IS THIS STRATEGY SUSTAINING A SYSTEM


OF 'TENSION NORMALCY' THAT SERVES AND
MAINTAINS A BARBI-CAN FORTRESS THAT
SEEKS RECONCILIATION OF OPPOSITIONAL
ENERGIES IN A NEVERENDING 'ACROBATICS'
OF CLOSED CIRCLE 'MEDIATION'...A DRIVING
SENSE OF 'MAKING IT ALL BE AS IT IS
'SUPPOSED TO BE' BY DOING SO IN A 'ONE
SIDEDNESS' OF COMPLIANCES...

THE QUIET INNER VIOLENCE THAT


CONSUMES ONE'S POTENTIAL AS ONE
SUSTAINS THE 'FORTRESS' OF 'TENSION
NORMALCY'...

'...TO BE IN PRIMORDIAL FEAR


IN THE POINT WHERE ONE ECHOES THE FIRST
SPLIT FROM THE BODY OF THE MOTHER,
FINDING AT ONCE IN THAT BODY AND IN THE
TERRIFYING GAP THAT OPENS UP BETWEEN
THEM THE ONLY SPACE FOR CONSTITUTION
OF ITS OWN IDENTITY, THE ONLY DISTANCE
WHICH WILL ALLOW IT TO BECOME A USER OF
WORDS...A MEANS OF SPEECH TO CONTROL
DEPTHS OF FEAR...'-JULIA KRISTEVA,
POWERS OF HORROR.

'...LOOK WISE, SAY NOTHING,


AND GRUNT. SPEECH WAS GIVEN TO
CONCEAL THOUGHT'-SIR WILLIAM OSLER

'...I WAS STILL VERY MUCH


ENSLAVED BY THE TERMS OF MY
RELATIONSHIP WITH FORD...FOR HE WAS A
GREAT USER-UP OF OTHER PEOPLE'S
NERVOUS ENERGY'...STELLA BOWEN RE:
FORD MADDOX FORD IN RELATION TO WRITER
JEAN RHYS

IT IS RECOGNIZING 'FOSTERED DEPENDENCY'


AS PARENTAL ENFORCEMENTS OF
EXPECTANCY AS THE CHILD IS FORCED TO
SURRENDER 'CURIOSITY' AND 'EXPLORATION'
FREEDOM TO THE CONSTRAINTS OF 'BEING'
AS PRESSURED TO BE...

IT IS LEARNING THAT TRUE WILL IS PATHING


OF HEART OUT OF THE 'UNCONSCIOUSNESS'
OF THE BOUND...TRUE WILL IS COURAGE OF
RELEASING IN HEALTHY FULLNESS OF HEART
BEYOND THE SELF ABSORPTIONS OF THE
'CAVE OF SHADOWS'...TRUE WILL IS LEAVING
THE ENDLESS CIRCULARITY AROUND AN
'OBJECT' THAT IS THE 'BASIS' OF 'FALSE
HOMEOSTASIS'...

'...FOR SUCCESSFUL ORGASM


MAY NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED' AND THE
GOAL MAY BE THE CIRCULARITY, AS SUCH,
NOT THE ORGASM RELEASE THAT MIGHT BE
A THREAT TO THE 'CONSTRUCTED SELF' OF
MEDIATION FORTRESSING...

IT IS KNOWING 'YOU CANNOT REPAIR


CONTROL'...AS TRANSFORMATION IS
'LETTING GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONE' WHILE
CONTROL IS THE COLLECTION-
CONTAINERING-APPLICATION-USE IN ONE'S
OWN 'POWER' AND CONTROL PURPOSE THAT
IS 'GREATER THAN LOVE'...
TRUE WILL IS MOVING BEYOND BEHAVIORS
OF 'LEVERAGINGS' TRYING TO FILL AN
EMPTINESS THAT CANNOT BE FILLED BY
COMPENSATORY ACTIONS...

...'WHEN YOU ARE IN DEEP


TROUBLE, DON'T DESPAIR TOO QUICKLY,
LOOK AROUND CAREFULLY, THE SOLUTION
MAY BE JUST AROUND THE CORNER'-
HOLDERLIN

TRUE WILL IS THE 'COURAGE TO CREATE'


AND GENERATE ONE'S SELF IN A VEHICLE OF
ONE'S WORK...TO LEAVE THE EMPTY AND
FORMLESSNESS BY GENERATING PERSONAL
EXPRESSION...

'...WORDS, WORDS TO STOP


THE DELUGE THROUGH THE THUMBHOLE IN
THE DIKE'...-SYLVIA PLATH

TRUE WILL IS SEEING HOW ONE IS MIRED IN


MEDIATION EFFORTS 'TO SATISFY' WHILE
'LIVING IN A 'CLOSED CIRCULARITY OF ALL
BEING CLOUDED BY DESIRE'...TO SEE WITHIN
IN THE MOMENT OF 'NOON' AS A GLIMPSE OF
THE DEEP PSYCHE DREAM AGREEMENTS OF
'GOING ALONG TO GET ALONG' WAY OF BEING
IN A COMPROMISED AND CONDITIONAL LIFE...

IT IS SEEING THE SHAME [IN A 'FALSE


HOMEOSTASIS'] AS A 'MASTER EMOTION'
CONTROLLER FUNCTIONING AS A DEEP
CHAMELEON MEDIATING IN A 'HIDDEN'
IMBALANCE MASQUERADE...A 'DWARF LION'
AS A 'CHAMELEON' OF THE PSYCHE IN A
PATTERNED 'ACROBATIC' PERFORMANCE
WITHOUT A HEALTHY 'UNITY IN GRAVITY'
CENTERING...A TRUE WILL IN HEALTHY
HOMEOSTASIS PRESZENCE...

A NEW REALISM...TO RECOGNIZE AND UNDO


THE CONSTRAINTS AND BINDINGS OF
MEDIATION...A CREATIVE REDIRECTION INTO
GENERATIVENESS...

'...IF YOU BRING FORTH


WHAT IS WITHIN IT WILL SAVE YOU, IF YOU
DO NOT BRING FORTH WHAT IS WITHIN IT
WILL DESTROY YOU...'-RUMI

IT IS THE COURAGE TO LEAVE THE 'CLOSED


CIRCLE'...TO LEAVE THE CIRCULARITY...TO
LEAVE THE 'CAVE' OF MEDIATION-CONTROL
OF SHADOWS...
THE COURAGE OF CREATING...

FOR ONE IS BOUND 'NOT' TO HAPPEN


INSTEAD OF BOUND 'TO HAPPEN'...IT IS A
WRENCHING, DIONYSIAN TEARING,
DISMEMBERING IN A COLLISIONISM WITH AN
APOLLONIAN RATIONAL ORDERING...IT IS
'AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS' IN CHARGES OF
'EXPECTANCY' VIA 'NAME CORRIDORINGS' OF
MERIDIAN POINTS OF LIGHT PATTERNS...

PATTERN RECOGNITION...IDENTITY IN A
SERIES OF SUCCESSFUL GESTURES,
IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT, BARBICAN
FORTRESSING, POWER QUESTS OF
OVERCOMING SENSES OF 'NOT GOOD
ENOUGH'...THE ONGOING 'AGITATIONS' TO
COMPENSATE KNOWING 'ONE IS NOT THE
PERSON' ONE IS 'SUPPOSED TO BE'...

IT IS SEEING OR 'MIND THE GAP' WAY OF


CONTRADICTIONS...THE DEEP FALSENESS IN
FOSTERED THINKING, BELIEF AND RITUALS
THAT IMPRISON AND SUPPRESS TRUTH OF
EXPRESSION...THE 'MIND YOU' VALUES OF
AUTHORITY ENFORCING CODES OF
CONTRACTIVENESS IN A DIMINISHMENT OF
ONE'S RIGHT TO PRESENCE...
THIS INNER VIOLENCE OF DENIAL AND FEAR
IS LIKE AN OPPRESSIVE POLITICAL SYSTEM
OF 'COMPLIANCES' THAT ALTERS
EVERYTHING AND 'EVERY'...'THING'...THE
DENIAL OF REALNESS BECOMES THE 'MASK
OF NORMALCY' IN DISTORTION, ILLUSION,
DENIAL IN ORDER TO SUSTAIN THE BARBI-
CAN FORTRESS OF SELF-DECEPTION IN
MEDIATION...THE ONGOING ILLUSION
RHYTHMS OF 'ORDER' CORRIDORED INTO
ROLE PERFORMANCE 'PERSONALITY' OR
'MEDIUM-AVATAR-SURROGATE' STATE AS
REWARDED...THE ONGOING SKEWS OF 'WHO
OR WHAT HAS VALUE IN 'LIP-SERVICE' AS A
'HUGE GAP' BETWEEN 'TENETS' AND 'AS IS'...

IT IS ENTERING INTO
CONSCIOUSNESS...SEEING THE 'TEN' NETS OF
WEBBINGS...THE '10' AS STRUCTURAL
BELIEF...THE 'TENNIS' OF 'LOVE-FORTY' AND
'GAME-SET' OF DUALITY DYNAMISM...THE '10'
OF 'TEN-SHUN' DIFFERENCES WITHIN THE
SAME ORDERING...THE POWERS OF 'TENSION'
IN THE 'COMPRESSIONS OF CRUSH' AS
ENFORCED 'REACTIVITY-COMPLIANCE-
DEFIANCE' SUSTAINS ARRESTED WAYS AS
THE 'PRISM VISION' OF THE 'PSYCHE-CHILD'
OF DISTORTIONS OF HUNGER...
TEN-SHUN IN TEN 'WAYS' IS THE SOCIO-
ECONOMIC-RELIGIOUS IN 'WALLINGS' OF
'VOLLEY' AND 'VOWEL-LY' ADVERBINGS OF
CONVULSIVE STREAMS OF CHANGE...

IT IS 'TENSION' IN THE VOLLEYINGS OF A


'PROJECTIONISM' IN PROTECTING THE EGOIC
DEPTHS IN AN AGGRESSION ASSERTION THAT
'EVENTUALLY WEAKENS' AS WHAT IS
'PROJECTED' OR 'EVICTED' IS INTIMATELY
BOUND UP WITH THE 'POWER, POTENCY,
STRENGTH, KNOWLEDGE AND MANY OTHER
DESIRED QUALITIES' OF THE SELF[MELANIE
KLEIN]...

IT IS ENMESHMENT OF 'BELIEF' IN 'THINGS'


THAT BECOME DISTORTION OF HUNGERS IN
'POWER GREATER THAN LOVE' WAYS AS WELL
AS THE MEANS IN 'REMOVALS' OF 'THINGS'
FROM FROM 'WHERE THEY WORK BEST'...

'...ICH WEISS NICHT WAS


SOLL ES BEDEUTEN'...
'...I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IT
MEANS'...

'AN IRREDUCIBLE HESITANCY IN LANGUAGE'


IN A GERMAN SONG OF SYLVIA PLATH'S
CHILDHOOD...THE INABILITY TO RETRIEVE
THE MEMORY AND THE MEANING...THE
INCOMPREHENSION VOICED IN THE
WORDS...THE ZONED CONTAINMENT OF
SOMETHING FROM 'AGO'...

IT IS ANGST PERMEATING THE 'EROS-


CREATIVE SACRED SPACE' OF DEEP YIN...THE
FORTRESSED BARBI-CAN CONSTRUCTION OF
MEDIATION AND VIGILANCE...THE 'WORDLESS
TERRAIN' OF THE NON-VERBALIZED AND
UNEXPRESSED...THE 'CLOSED CIRCULARITY'
SACRED SPACE OF 'TENSION NORMALCY'
THAT IS THE SOURCE OF THE 'SOCIO-
ECONOMIC-RELIGIOUS' THAT APPROPRIATES
'THINGS' FOR A 'DIFFERENT PURPOSE' AND
THEREBY REMOVES THEM FROM NORMAL
HEALTHY ORGANIC FUNCTIONING...

THE 'TEN-NETS' AND 'STRIVE-DRIVES'


BECOME THE LEVERAGINGS IN WAYS OF
REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS...A FORM
OF 'CASTRATION' AS 'NATURAL INSTINCTS'
ARE 'CHANNELLED' INTO 'ROLE' OR
'PERFORMANCE'...A 'CO-OPTATION' OF EROS
AS LIFE FORCE IS COMPELLED TO BE IN THE
EXTERNAL 'EXPECTANCY' OF 'IMPOSITION
ORDERING'...
THESE DISTORTIONS OF FALSE
HOMEOSTASIS ARE THE 'TEN' SHUNS OF THE
SPEED OF THE GREED...THE ALTERED STATES
AND UNNATURAL IN VIGILANCE AGAINST
'FEARS OF EXPOSURE' AND 'SHAME' AND THE
THREAT OF VULNERABILITY OF LOSS OF A
'CRAFTED' OR LEVERAGED IMAGE...IT IS
POWER GREATER THAN LOVE AS FEELINGS
OF POWERLESSNESS DEFINE IN A CLIMATE
OF MEETING DEMANDS INSTEAD OF
ASSERTION OF 'TRUINGS OF NEEDS'...

IT IS 'USE IT OR LOSE IT' IN HEART PATHINGS


OF 'INNER NECESSITY' FOR THE 'FALSENESS'
BECOMES 'LOSS OF ORGANIC INTEGRITY'...AS
HEALTHY ORGANS BECOME 'NONESSENTIAL'
ORGANS THAT ATROPHY AND 'SHRINK' IN
LEVERAGINGS TO SERVE OTHER ACTIONS...

...'WE HAVE MET THE ENEMY AND


HE IS US'-POGO

YET...

FOR MOST THE GOAL BECOMES THE


REPETITION OF THE OSCILLATION NOT THE
GOAL OF COMPLETION...SEEING THAT
'SUCCESSFUL ORGASM' MAY NOT BE WHAT IS
DESIRED IN A SPIRALLING IN THE CAVE OF
SHADOW FASCINATION...SEEING
'INCOMPLETION' OR 'MEDIATION' AS MORE
VALUED THAN THE SUCCESSFUL RELEASE TO
TRANSFORMATIVENESS...IT IS THE
EXCESSIVENESS OF CONTROL AS 'POWER
GREATER THAN LOVE' FOSTERING
DEPENDENCY OR AFFILIATION THAT IS MORE
IMPORTANT THAN 'LOVE GENERATIVENESS'...

IT IS 'FORTRESS MANIPULATION' OF AN
'AUTO-EROTIC' SELF ABSORPTION THAT
FAILS TO KNOW JULIA KRISTEVA IN 'ONE
MUST RENOUNCE ONE'S AUTO-EROTICISM' TO
FIND A PARTNER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX'...TO
CHOOSE TO MOVE OUT OF THE 'ENDLESS
CIRCULARITY' AROUND A 'THING'...THE
FAMILIAR 'INTEND' OF 'INTENSITY-DENSITY'
AS 'FAILURE BECOMES TRIUMPH' FOR THE
SELF ABSORBED 'NARCISSIST'...

THE ONGOING 'TENSION NORMALCY' OF THE


CLOSED CIRCULARITY SEEKING 'INTENSITY-
DENSITY' OF THE BARBICAN FORTRESS AND
'RELIEF-RELEASE' FROM THE BINDINGS...IT IS
SEEING THE GREAT WEBBING THAT COMPELS
RECURRENCE IN THE 'FASCINATION-
AMAZEMENT' OF MONITORING THE 'SHADOW
DANCINGS' WITHIN...
THE ANGST OF ALONENESS...THE VANITY
FEARS OF NOT FEELING 'LOVED'...THE DEEP
ECHOES OF MORTALITY GRASPING FOR THE
SOCIO-ECONOMIC-RELIGIOUS' AUTHORITY
THAT 'REWARDS AND CONTROLS' TO COMPEL
SURRENDER OF INSTINCTS AND
INTUITION'...THE INSTITUTIONAL SOCIAL
'SAFE' COLLECTIVE AS 'REALNESS OF
FULLNESS'...THE BEING 'FILLED' WITH
CREATIVE AND SPIRIT ENERGIES THAT
BECOMES 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' NOT THE
SEXUAL POTENCY OF THE WOMAN
SATISFIED...

IT IS THE 'BODY ELECTRIC' OUT OF ITS OWN


NATURE, NATURAL WAYS...IT IS IMBALANCE
AND DISTORTION IN BREATH AND BLOOD...IT
IS THE 'FORCED' COMPRESSION OF A TOP
DOWN AND 'TRICKLE DOWN' RHYTHM OF
'BUILDING PYRAMIDS'...THE GREAT SPEED OF
NICHE AND 'AL'-LOCATIONS IN THE 'ONE OUT
OF MANY' PATHINGS OF 'THEY ONLY COME
TO THEIR SENSES SLOWLY AND ONE AT A
TIME' AND THE 'SCARCITY-RARITY' ANGST OF
'WHO IS' OR 'WHAT IS' THE 'EXCEPTION THAT
MAKES THE RULE'...

IT IS ALIENATION OF SELF...TO SEE ROOTS IN


FEELINGS OF 'AGITATION' THAT ONE IS NOT
LOVED FOR BEING ONESELF...ONE MUST BE
AS 'EXPECTANCY' OR 'PUNISHMENT'
DEMANDS...IT IS 'TRIANGULATION' WITHIN
THE 'CLOSED CIRCULARITY'...A
TRIANGULATION CURLING FORWARD AS IF
ONE WERE STILL IN A FOETALIZATION
DREAM...A CURLING TRIANGULATION OF
'EYES IN VIGILANCE' HUNGERS MEDIATING
THE 'GUT-BUTT-BRAIN' PATTERNINGS OF THE
PSYCHE 'CLOSED CIRCLE' OF EROS-CREATIVE-
SACRED SPACE...

IT IS A DEEP BETRAYAL OF REALNESS


WITHIN...IT IS FALSENESS IN BUFFERINGS
AND FORTRESSINGS TO SUSTAIN CONTROL
THROUGH 'IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT' IN
DISPLAY 'IMAGE-MAKING'...IT IS IMITATION IN
STATES OF 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' TO
OVERCOME INNER BETRAYAL OF REALNESS
THAT HAUNTS...THAT ALTERS...THAT
COMPELS STRIVINGS IN 'ALTERED STATES'
OF DENIALS AND CONTRADICTIONS...

IT IS THE TRIANGULATION DIALECTIC IN SELF


ABSORBED 'DREAMS THAT ECHO
DEEPLY'...THE 'CLOCKWORK' OF THE
'MEDIATION-CONTROL' RHYTHMS OF
SUFFERING IN ADAPTATIONS...THE
MOMENTUM OF THE 'CLOSED CIRCULARITY'
OF 'TENSION NORMALCY'...THE SAFE AND
FAMILIAR IN 'MAKING THINGS FIT' IN
DOCTRINES AND INERTIA...

FOR GOING WITHIN IN IS LEARNING TO


CONQUER A 'FOSTERED OR FALSENESS'
STATE OR WAY...IT IS GOING WITHIN AS
ACCESSING TRUE WILL AND THEREBY
'SOMEHOW' FIND A WAY OUT OF THE CAVE OF
FAMILIAR SHADOWS...A WAY INTO SEEING
AND BEING IN 'AS IS' PRESZENCE...A WAY OF
TRUTH OF URGENCY' OUT OF THE
EXPECTANCY-MEDIATION-'CONTROLLINGS OF
OUTCOMES' AND 'POWER DEFINITIONS'...

IT IS WILL IN ENCOUNTER TO BE IN PSYCHE


EMOTIONALITY AND ZEN STILLNESS
PRESZENCE ENCOUNTERING THE STATE OF
SELF AND OTHER...TO FACE A 'STATE'...THE
STATE OF MEDIATION OR THE STATE OF
INDULGENCE...THE STATE OF REGRESSION
OR GENERATIVITY...THE STATE OF DENIAL,
DECEPTION, IMAGE-MANIPULATION, OR
HUMILIATION...
HUMILIATION...THE
THE STATE OF CONTAINERING
AND THE STATE OF FREEING LIQUIDITY...

IT IS THE 'BARBICAN' FORTRESS AS A PRISON


OF DESIRES...THE CASTLE OF 'DISTORTIONS
OF HUNGER' COMPELLING 'APPETITES' THAT
SERVE BEHAVIOR 'OPPORTUNISM' AND
PHYSIOLOGY AND SENSORY EMOTIONAL
'DEADENINGS'...APPETITES OF 'CONTROL'
AND 'REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS'....

THE EXCESSES AND CONTROLS OF


'APPETITES' IS DIMINISHMENT OF REALNESS
IN 'HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION' NOT A
'HUNGER' FOR VITALITY FORCE OF LIFE...THE
EXCESSES OF APPETITES REPRESENT THE
ENDURANCE THAT THE 'PUNISHMENT-
REWARD' OF 'SUFFERING' FITS THE CRIME OF
'GOING ALONG WITH THE SURRENDER' OF
ONE'S REAL NEEDS...

IT IS THIS TENDENCY THAT IS IN A PATTERN


OF 'INTENSITY-DENSITY' FLOWING AS 'FEAR
OF LIFE' WHILE ONE RACES IN THE
'ESCAPISM' OF BEHAVIORS AND
BELIEFS...THE 'FEAR' THAT IS IN THE 'VANITY-
FEAR' SEEN IN THE 'IMITATIVE SEXUALITY'
OF SELF-ABSORPTION 'INNER BOMBINGS'...IT
IS THE 'POWER QUEST THAT IS GREATER
THAN LOVE' AS REFLECTED IN THE 'PAIN
RELIEF CONTROLS OF A
MASTURBATORY['INNER BOMBING'] SCHISM
OF ENERGIES...
THE 'MASTURBATORY' INNER BOMBING OF
PAIN RELEASING INTO PLEASURE YET
GENERATING A FURTHER SPLITTING WITHIN
THE CLOSED CIRCULARITY OF THE IDEA
VERSION OF SELF...

AN INNER SPLITTING IN DRIVINGS OF


STRATEGIES OF DESIRE WITHIN THE
FORTRESS 'CONSTRUCTED LABYRINTH' OF
CLOSED CIRCLE 'CAVE' WALLINGS AND
DEFENSES THAT IS THE 'BOUND'...THE
PERSONALITY SELF OF 'MEDIATIONS',
FILTRATIONS AND DENIALS...THE
RECURRENCE 'MANUFACTURED AND
MEDIATION-CONTROL' SELF...

THE 'MANUFACTURED SELF' OR THE FALSE


SELF OF 'BUY THIS AND BECOME THIS'...THE
FALSE SELF OF FACADE DISPLAYS AND
'IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT'...THE FALSE
SELF OF DOGMA OR 'BELIEF CONTAINERING'
THAT BLOCKS BASIC INSTINCTS...

IT IS THE SELF IN THE SHADOWS 'MEDIATING'


THE IMPOSITIONS THAT BECOMES A 'DEEP
CARBONIZATION' WITHIN AN 'UNCONSCIOUS'
CAVE OF ONION LAYERED REFLECTIONS...THE
ONGOING FORTRESSING IN THE MIRRORS
AND CLOCKS OF SHADOWS ON ALL THE
WALLS...

SHOCK IMPACT...

...'FOR
'FOR A MAN'S WOUND IS
WHERE HIS GENIUS WILL BE'-ROBERT BLY

IT IS WORKING THROUGH THE VIOLENCE


COMPRESSED IN 'PERMANENT' DENTS...THE
'CLOCK SET' AFFECT OF A DAMAGE ZONING
'ACCIDENT' OF SHOCK OR AN
'ACCENTUATION' OR 'AMPLIFICATION' OF AN
ACTION OR STATE...

IT IS WORKING THROUGH THE 'SPASMS' AND


'MUSCLE FIRINGS' OF ADAPTATIONS IN NEW
TIMINGS OR RHYTHMS THAT ALTER IN A
'TRUTH OF URGENCY' OUT OF
'FORTRESSINGS' AND 'PERSONALITY'
MEDIATIONS...

SHOCK IMPACT

COPING, ENDURANCE AND MEDIATION...TO


CONSTRUCT A FORTRESS DEFENSIVENESS OF
'DEADENINGS' AS A 'THICK SKINNED'
POLITICO OR 'TALKING SMITH' OF
RESONANCE...A FACADE MEANS OF
MEDIATING OF 'EXPECTANCY' AND DEMAND
TO SATISFY...A 'CASTRATION'
CONTRACTIVENESS IN AN ELECTRONIC
CHARGE OF 'POWER GREATER THAN LOVE'
IMPOSITION...

TO 'ROLE' IN A CORRIDORING OF TALENT,


SKILL, PERFORMANCE, PERSONALITY AS IF
ONE IS A 'CONDUIT' OR 'MEDIUM' DEADENED
[EXCEPT FOR EXTERNAL USEFULNESS]...A
TEMPO OF AMPLIFIED TENDENCY OF 'DON'T
FIGHT FORCES, USE THEM' AS THE
'SAVANTING' SEEMS 'INTENSE' AND 'VALUED'
EVEN AS IT 'ROBS ONE OF ORGANIC
INTEGRITY'...IT FITS IN TO A PHILOSOPHY OF
'ONE OUT OF MANY' AS THE DEPTH SENSES
THAT FEEL THREAT OF ANNIHILATION
COMPLY IN BEING AS 'SUGGESTED'...

THE MOMENT BECOMING THE PATTERN IN A


'THREAT OF ANNIHILATION' WAY OF
'SURRENDERING' TO THE 'POWER' THAT HAS
AUTHORITY OVER ONE'S BEING...TO BE
ENMESHED IN THE WEBBINGS OF
COMPLIANCES EVEN AS ONE BEHAVES IN
'DEFIANCE', 'WILLFULNESS' AND 'DENIALS'...A
POWERLESSNESS THAT STILL NEEDS
'SOMETHING' FROM THE 'IMPOSITION'
SOURCE...
SHOCK IMPACT...

THE CHILD IS THE PARENT OF THE


ADULT...TO ACCESS THE BURIED INNOCENCE
AND VITALITY WITHIN...THE DEEP 'INNER
LOST CHILD' OF FRIGHT AND 'VANITY-
FEAR'...SOMETHING IN THE VULNERABILITY
OF 'PLAY' AND ASSERTIONS OF REALNESS
BEYOND TENETS OF VALUES AND
INDOCTRINATIONS OF SOCIO-RELIGIOUS-
ECONOMIC 'HOMEOSTASIS' ALLEGIANCES...

TO SEE AND HEAR 'ADHERENCES' IN THE


'SAFE AND SOUND' THAT MAY BE FAMILIAR
YET 'SUFFOCATING'...FOR THE
IMPOSITIONING AND/OR TRAUMA RULES THE
RHYTHMS AND WAYS OF APPROACH-
AVOIDANCE...TO KNOW THAT THIS WAY OF
'MANAGE THE DAMAGE' IS GREATER THAN AN
'HONEST' WILL OF CONNECTION...THE MEANS
OF THIS POWER SEEKING IN 'WANTING TO BE
WANTED' GREATER THAN TRUTH OF
URGENCY...

THIS BASIC HUMAN RIGHT OF SELF


ASSERTION IS NOT THE 'NARCISSISTIC'
INDULGENCE OF THE 'CRAVE AND CRAZE' IN
SPOTLIGHT NOVELTY AND ARRESTED
DEVELOPMENT 'WILLFUL DEFIANCE'...IT IS
NOT THE 'HUMILIATION' IN 'UNWORTHINESS'
OR 'FLAGELLATION SUFFERING' IN
COMPLIANCE IN A DEAL WITH GOD TO BE
SAVED...IT IS THE WILL OF HEART IN LOVE
GREATER THAN THE POWER OF MEMBERSHIP
IN ELITE 'GUARANTEES' OF HEAVEN OR
REWARDS FOR MARTYRDOM...

IT IS BEYOND THE DAZE OF STAINED


GLASS...IT IS BEYOND THE RULES OF FOODS
AND RITUALS OF TRADITION...IT IS
SIMPLICITY IN LOVE GREATER THAN
INSTITUTIONALIZATION IN INERTIA OF
'BUILDING PYRAMIDS' OF DOCTRINES...

IT IS THE INNER DECONSTRUCTION OF THE


LAYERINGS OF 'ALL THAT IS NOT ONE'...THE
WILL IN UNITY WITH THE RHYTHMS OF THE
UNIVERSE...IT IS TO KNOW 'PATH OF HEART'
SEPARATE FROM SEEING ELITE TOP OF THE
PYRAMID 'TITANS' CONSUMING THE
ENERGIES OF THE MANY...THE VAST OCEAN
OF HUMANS AS FUEL AVAILABLE IN THE
'MASS-OCCUR' MOMENTS OF MADNESS AND
DISTRACTION...

TO SEE ABSENCE OF HEART IN THE ONGOING


'EXCEPTIONS THAT MAKE THE RULE', THE
'MORE THERE ARE OF YOU THE LESS YOU
ARE OF ANY VALUE', THE COST OF DOING
BUSINESS THAT 'CONSUMES LIVES' INSTEAD
OF ENHANCING QUALITY OF LOVE...IT IS
'STRIVING' IN A TOXICITY OF 'NON-
PRESZENCE' AS MOST ARE IN 'WANTING TO
BE WANTED' POWER QUESTS QUITE
AVAILABLE FOR 'TRADE-OFFS' OF THE SELF...

TO IDENTIFY STRENGTH OF 'WHAT NEEDS' TO


COME FORTH THAT WILL REDEEM IN THE
OPPORTUNITY IN THE TIME OF CRISIS...THE
DISTILLATION OF IDENTITY IN NEW 'RISK' AS
ASSERTION OF REALNESS..THE SHIFTING OF
'THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO' AS ONE
BECOMES 'AUTHENTIC' IN 'AS IS'...

THE NEW REALISM...

TO DECONSTRUCT 'HARD EARNED


BEHAVIORS' IS AN ASSERTION OF 'REALNESS'
PAST THE MEDIATIONS OF THE DISTORTIONS
OF HUNGER...A BREAKTHROUGH OUT OF THE
INNER FAMILIARITY OF SHADOWS...A
CREATIVE WILL IN GENERATING
'ORIGINALITY OUT OF THE SHADOWS' IN A
'CRIME' AGAINST THE INERTIA OF
COMPLIANCES OF THE 'LAW OF FLAWS'...AN
ACT OF RUTHLESS ASSERTION OF SELF
CONTRARY TO THEIR LAW...

AN OVERTHROW OF THE FALSENESS OF THE


IMPOSITION TO ACHIEVE A SOUNDNESS OF
ONE'S OWN STATE'...TO BREATHE THROUGH
THE ANGST OF ALIENATION AND TERROR OF
THREAT OF ANNIHILATION IN ORDER TO BE
IN ONE'S OWN 'BA'...OWN ONE'S OWN SOUL...

IT IS AN INNER 'NERVE WAR' IN THE TEMPO


OF CONSTANT DESIRES THAT RESONATED IN
ZONES OF GREAT ANGST AND TRAUMA
ANTICIPATORY AVERSIONS AND FANTASY
VISIONS THAT BORDERED ON
HALLUCINATORY ECHOIC VIBRATIONS...A
HOMEOSTASIS FALSENESS THAT SEEMED TO
BE A SERIES OF PATHINGS OF IMITATION
SOLUTIONS THAT SUGGESTED ACTING OUT
'BEHAVIORS'...

THE 'HEROIC ORDINARY' INNER


MACHINATIONS OF REVERIE THAT
SUSTAINED CIRCULARITY IN CAVE
SHADOWINGS...THE FRUSTRATIONS BECOME
'THUMOS'...THE ANGER AS THE FIRE IN THE
BELLY THAT SEEKS CONNECTIONS YET
INCREASINGLY RESULTS IN FRUSTRATION,
DESPAIR, LONELINESS, ALIEN STATES OF
ISOLATION...A FEELING THAT ONE'S DREAMS
AND WISHES WOULD ALWAYS REMAIN AS
DREAMS AND WISHES...

A NEW REALISM...

SOMETHING IN THE WAY...

A RAGE OF INCOMPLETION AS A TRIGGER


EXACERBATED BY THE CLOCK OF TIME
RUNNING OUT...

A SENSING OF INNER NERVE WARS...

TO WALK TO THE LIGHT OUT OF THE


SHADOWS OF THE CAVE KNOWING THAT 'THE
OTHERS' ARE NOT GOING TO LEAVE THE
FAMILIARITY OF MEDIATION IN THE 'TRAPPED
LIFE' OR DENIAL PATTERNING OF THE 'KA'
LAWS OF FLAWS IDENTITY AS 'MEDIATED'...

TO BE IN 'BAOKA'...THE SPIRIT RESOLVE


THROUGH THE MEDIATION ACCEPTANCE OF
IMPOSITION FACING THE EMPTINESS AND
EMERGING INTACT AS HEART AND TRUTH OF
URGENCY...

TO LEAVE THE 'CLOSED CIRCULARITY' OF A


'KA' FORTRESSED WELL OF DEFENSES
AGAINST THE 'O' OF NOTHINGNESS AS ONE
OWNS ONE'S SOUL 'BA'...