Beruflich Dokumente
Kultur Dokumente
ByIsabelKrull
Iwasperchedonmybedwithmytwopitbullscurledupatmyfeet.Ihadajournalinmy
hands,anovelonmyrightside,andacupofgreenteaonmyleft.Iclickedmyblack,inkypen
andopenedmyjournaltothenextavailablepage.Ietchedatitleonthefirstlineincursive
handwriting.
OutoftheWindows
Todayisastormyday,withsnowmanagingtoslipthroughthemassofgrayclouds
everyfewminutes.AsIlookoutmywindow,tranquilityconsumesmeablanketofsafety
surroundsme.RainydaysinDurango,Coloradoaremyfavoritebecauseofhowrarethey,not
tomentionhowbeautifultheymakethelandscapeappear.Fogencirclesthetopsofthe
massivecliffsoutofmywindows,andraindropsracedowntotheirsills.Thelandseemsto
standstilllikeeveryoneandeverythinghadbeenputintoacomafromthefreshair.
Inthismoment,Iaminatrance.Theworldofgrayenvelopsmeintoasedateddream,
andyetsetsafireinsidemysoul.Afamilyofmallardducksareswimmingtowardsthemuddy
islandquicklyastoescapetherain,andIhearafamilyofgeesesquawkinginthedistance.I
imagineourbearhidinginhisdenontheridge,eatingchokecherriesandeyeingtheducks.I
seethislittlebrowneveryfewdays,andIeventuallyhadtonamehimRubiobecauseofhis
burnedrubycolor,andhowsweetIimaginehiseyestobe.
AsIpeeroutofmywindows,IrememberhowmanytimesIhaveplayedtugofwarwith
mydogsinthelawn.Somanytimes,Ihavejumpedintothepondonblowupboatswithmy
sisterandbrother,onlytoswimthroughthealgaeplantsgrowingatleast2feettall.Endless
dayshavebeenspenttakingcoldplungesinCoonCreek,andsomanytimesmysisterandI
havewalkedonourtrampledtrails,takingpicturesofeachotherhangingontrees,tucking
dandelionsintoourbraids,anddoingbackflipsonourtrampoline.
Ihavemademybedroomthehalfwaypointbetweenthisbackyardutopiaandmyhouse.
Locatedattheendofthehallway,withcornerwindowsoverlookingtheentirespace,ithad
becomeabridge.Witharoofformetositonovertwelveaspensandthesoundoftreefrogs
echoingthroughthescreensatsunset,ithasbecomemycradle.
Ihavespentsomanynightsinthisbridgeroom,contemplatingmyfuture.Isitonmyroof
duringthetwilighthours,lookingoverthetopsofthemountainsthatsurroundme.Ihavefelt
panickedatsomepointsbeinginavalleywithrockwalls,andothertimesIhavefeltcomforted.
Gazingatthesewalls,Ihaveponderedwhatwaitsformeovertherainbowoffog.OnceIclimb
overtheseskyhighmountainsandtravelthroughtheopenblue,whatwillIfind?
Duringthesenightsofcontemplation,IhavethoughtabouteverywhereelseIbelong,or
whereIwillgoonceIgraduate.IbelongwithmybiketripalongthePacificCoast.Ibelongat
PalmerQuarterHorseRanch,Ibelonginthedancestudio,inSewardParkandPikePlace
PublicMarketinSeattle,Washington.
WhileImightbelonginotherplaces,thisbackyardandthisbridgeroomiswhereI
alwaysreturn,itismybasecamp.
EventhoughIamgoingtocollegeoutofstate,andwillnotliveinDurangoforever,the
connectiontothisbedroomandtothislandisforeveringrainedinmysoul.Thememoriesof
summerswimming,andwintermemoriesoficeskatingonourpondwillalwaysresthere.Even
aftermyhousesresidentsleave,thememorieswillstillbeplayinghideandseekbehindthe
scruboaks,orripplingdownthecreek.Theywillbepreserved.
Iamkeptupatnight,worriedaboutwhatwillhappentomyCountyRoadhomewhenmy
familydoesnotlivehereanymore.Willthenewownertakecareofthewildlifeasmuchaswe
have?Willtheyleaveoneacretothemselves,andthreetothewildlifelikewehave?
WillRubiotheBearstillbesafeupontheridge,orwilltheyhavehimrelocated?Willthe
mallardducksandtheheronstillhavefreerangeinthepond,orwilltheyscarethemaway?
Iamnotalwaysapreservationist.Likeanyrationalhuman,Itooadmitthatthingsmust
change.Butnotthishome,notthisland.Itmustremainuntouched.Thealgaeinourfrontpond
mustbeleftalonetoprovideshelterforthetreefrogsthattakebathsinit.Themuddyislandin
themiddleofourpondmustremainungroomed,forthegeeseandduckshavebuilttheir
mansionsinsideofit.Thescruboaksandcottonwoodswithvinescreatingnetspastourlawn,
cannotbeexcavated,forthisiswheredeerpranceinandbearslumber.
Somanyplacesinthisworldarebeingchanged,butwecallprogresstojustifyit.But
thisspotintheAnimasValleyrequiresnoprogress.Theinhabitantsthatlivehere,would
arguethattheirprogressofnestsanddensandfamilieswouldallbedestroyed.
AsIamhere,inmybedroomwithpaperbutterflieshangingfromtheceiling,andcacti
lineduponmyshelves,IbegintofeellikeIhavejustruntenmiles.Iblinkonce,thentwice.I
starttocomeoutofmytrance,andlookoutofthewindows.Myheartbeathasjoinedin
synchronicitytothesoundsofhailpoundingmydrivewayandtinroof,andmyspiritisas
restlessasthejaggedwavesbeingcreatedinthepond.Thebackyardhasbecomeacontrolled
chaos,anda
Ithrewmyjournaltothesideandclickedmypenclosed.
IcalledmydogstofollowmeasIrandownthehallway,downthestairs,unlockedthe
doorandsprintedoutintothehail.Ithrewmyhandsupintotheairandlettheicemattdownthe
topofmyheadandnumbmybarefeet.Iranintothelawnandrolledaroundinthemuddy
grass.Istopped.Iwasinthemiddleofarainstorm,lyingontheopenlawnwithmyheartbeat
echoingthroughtheearth,withmyhandsfullofdewygrass.Iwhispered,Home.
ExhibitionIntro:Hello,mynameisIsabelKrullandtoday,Iwillbesharingmysenseofplace
writing,writtenasajournalentry.Inthiswriting,Iillustratemybackyardandmybedroomasmy
basecamp,andnomatterwhereItraveltoorwhereIgo,thiswillalwaysbemyplace.