Power of An Endless Life

Power of an Endless Life
Power of
an Endless
Life
2010 By Bill Ebert

Published 7/07/2010
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Table of Contents
Introduction by Wade Taylor.................................................... 7
Author's Introduction................................................................ 9
God Hater....................................................................9
Chapter 1................................................................................... 11
The Real Gospel........................................................................11
Preacher John............................................................ 11
The Creator Speaks................................................... 13
Reading Contradictions.............................................15
Hounded by Heaven..................................................16
The Gospel is the Power...........................................18
Chapter 2 ..................................................................................21
Living Free................................................................................ 21
Jesus at a Pot Party....................................................21

Prophetic Evangelism...............................................23
Jesus Loves the Sinner.............................................. 24
Chapter 3 .................................................................................25
Warring With Tradition...........................................................25
My First Church........................................................ 25
My Second Church....................................................26
The Gift vs The Man................................................. 29
Chapter 4 ..................................................................................33
Open Heavens........................................................................... 33
Filled......................................................................... 33
Hunger like a Crazy Man.......................................... 34
The Enemy Comes.................................................... 35
Crazy Love................................................................36
Freedom Overtakes Me.............................................37
Righteousness, Peace and Joy...................................38
Chapter 5...................................................................................39
Visitations.................................................................................. 39
Prophecy Like a River...............................................43

Chapter 6 .................................................................................45
The Book is Alive...................................................................... 45
The Scriptures Are Not as They Seem......................45

Lost Like We............................................................. 46
Flattery: The Seeds of Pride......................................47
Mardi Gras................................................................ 47
Chapter 7 ..................................................................................53
A Prophetic Life........................................................................53
War with the Cults.....................................................54

Smoke Free............................................................... 54
Overdose................................................................... 55
The Power of an Endless Life................................... 60
Face to Face with God..............................................61
The Wife....................................................................64
Miraculous Provision................................................ 65
Faithful Tither........................................................... 66
Chapter 8 .................................................................................69
The Fall From Glory................................................................ 69
Faithful God.............................................................. 70
The Way Back Home................................................ 71
Enoch and Elijah....................................................... 74
Loving Correction..................................................... 78
Chapter 9 ..................................................................................79
Kingdom vs Churchianity....................................................... 79
Home Church............................................................ 79
Invited Back to Church............................................. 80
Pastoral Authority.....................................................86
Understanding Biblical Authority ............................87
Chapter 10 ...............................................................................91
The Silver Train Dream........................................................... 91
The Prison Camp.......................................................91

Escape to Destruction................................................92
The Rehabilitation.....................................................93
The Silver Train and its Foundations........................94
The interpretation......................................................97
Chapter 11 ................................................................................ 99
Ears To Hear ............................................................................ 99
Truth........................................................................100
Comfort and Ease....................................................100
Simple Solution.......................................................102
Going Deeper.......................................................... 102
Two Anointings....................................................... 103
The Gift is to Produce Relationship........................108
No Little Foxes........................................................110
Pure Heart / Clean Hands........................................ 110
Prayer Time............................................................. 111
Two Trees................................................................ 111
Two Churches..........................................................114
Chapter 12 .............................................................................. 117
Teaching Prophetic Living.....................................................117
Neck Boy.................................................................118
Amplifiers in Heaven.............................................. 121
The Simplicity of Christ..........................................122
Breaking With Tradition..........................................123
Taking Down the High Places.................................124
Principle of Tradition vs Glory...............................126
How Do We serve & Not Offend............................127
Ok, Just One More Try Church...............................129
Chapter 13 ..............................................................................135
What Does it Look Like......................................................... 135
Lively Stones...........................................................135
Church Redefined...................................................138
Church Bashing.......................................................139
Is it Better Yet?........................................................140
Chapter 14 ..............................................................................141
Where Do We Go From Here................................................ 141
Three Things........................................................... 141

Fellowship...............................................................142
Fathering................................................................. 144
Conclusion...............................................................................145
Recommended Reading......................................................... 149
Introduction by Wade Taylor

The Lord is again about to appear, as we are in a time of
transition the closing out of the Church Age and the
birthing of the Millennial Kingdom Age. Therefore, there is
a need for the voice of a present day John the Baptist.
Many in the church of our day are not listening for a

present word, but rather, are resting in the doctrinal
positions which they have been taught. Therefore, the Lord
is beginning to call apart those, who as John the Baptist,
will hear a present word, and who will recognize and
respond to the presence of the Lord, when He begins to
reveal Himself.
There is a gathering of those who are of like spirit;

those who are no longer satisfied with their present
spiritual attainments, and are seeking to go further. This is
not necessarily a call for us to leave our churches, but
rather to come apart into the presence of the Lord, to be
trained to recognize the voice of the Lord. These are being

prepared to speak the present word that the Lord is
placing within them.
If you are hearing and responding to this call, first settle
the issue that you will be given a message to speak that
will not accord with the popular messages of our day. This
calling cost John his head.
For us to become this end-time prophetic voice, we

must abide in the presence of the Lord, and intently listen
for and respond to His voice. This requires a separation
from other voices, many of which are loud and demanding.
There is an acceleration of activity that affects us in every
aspect of our lives. The words of Jesus telling us that we
are to go into our closets and shut the door, so we can
pray in secret, has purpose and meaning today as never
before (Matthew 6:6).
Wade E Taylor www.wadetaylor.org
Author's Introduction
God Hater
At seventeen years old, I was confronted by my
coworkers. I was working at a Catholic hospital. My
coworkers suggested that I stop blaspheming God and that
I might be in trouble with God or worse if I didn't stop. So
in my heated defense, I gathered as many of the halfhearted and faithless-faithful to prove that there was no
God, for if there were, would He let me live if I said this...?
The following flow of hostility caused everyone in the
room to back up as they were sure the blasphemies, if
anything, deserved a well placed lightning bolt. It was not
just the words I uttered, but the amount of hatred and vile
communication spilling from one who would be best
conversing with mass murderers. Evil was manifest, and
God... did... nothing. Or so it seemed...
This book is a true story of God's grace. It is about real

life encounters of how He worked in me and hopefully will
increase your perspective of how He wants to work in you.
What He has done for the saints of old and the r3adicals in
our midst, He desires to do in you. I hope this testimony
and instruction will help you to find all God has for you.
I include much of my testimony, not because I am
anything, but exactly the reverse. God called one of the
most worthless people in the world to manifest His glory.
My testimony may help you understand why I say some of
the things that I do. I have included teaching intertwined in
my testimony, so that if you are brave enough, you will
take this journey with me.
Bill Ebert
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Chapter 1
The Real Gospel
Preacher John
Back in 1983, I stopped in for a steak dinner at a local
restaurant. I was rich by most standards, especially for a
23-year-old high school drop out. I drove a Porsche, ate
wherever I liked, traveled often, talked to London about the
next big deal, and enjoyed any drug or life experience I
wanted. My new waiter, John, was the happiest guy I ever
met, but John only made $2 an hour. What did he have that
was worth living for?
Drawn to this guy, I began to make regular visits to the
steak house just to be near this clowning waiter. I met
plenty of happy people but no one that exuded such joy and
contentment. In time, he invited me to his place to play
music. I thought we'd smoke drugs and party, so I said,
"Cool."
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I felt terror when I met John's roommates on his front

porch that day. They used words like, "Praise God," and
"Hallelujah." Fight or flight set in, and I chose fight. For
the next two hours, it was my intellect against theirs. My
stories of tarot cards, mind control, astral travel, hypnosis
and world philosophy were met with the simple message
that Jesus died for my sins. I had never heard this message
before. And why should it matter? I liked my sins. Love
had nothing to do with it. Forgiveness? It was truth I
longed for.
Between the drugs and fog of the party life, much of my
spare time was spent learning. I wanted to know what truth
was. I studied everything I could get my hands on and was
pretty well versed in most world religions and the dark arts.
It seemed obvious I was winning the battle with these
Bible-thumpers as my reasons were flawless and their
message was far too simplistic. Then, I got in trouble by
asking,
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"So prove to me your God is real." As only proof

mattered, all the words in the world meant nothing. I said,
"I can leave my body, go next door, and tell you who is in
the other room. What can you do?"
John said, "Well, I can't leave my body, but I can speak
in tongues." I had heard of tongues, so I let him show me
tongues. I thought it was very cool. The language that
came out of his mouth was one of the most beautiful things
I had ever heard, but tongues versus astral travel - not so
good. I needed more than that, so I said, Great. You've
got tongues, and I've got out-of-body experiences. How do
I know that Jesus is the ONLY way?
John asked me if I really wanted to know the truth, and if
I did, he would pray for me and God would show it to me.
I agreed, he prayed, and the rest is almost unbelievable.
The Creator Speaks

The first of many miracles began right away. Never
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hearing this Jesus story before, it suddenly tracked me

down from everywhere I turned. I am not exaggerating
when I say everywhere. My boss started quoting from the
Bible, my mother bought me a Bible. She started going to
church and told me about this Jesus guy, and most of my
druggie friends did the same. My girlfriend suddenly felt
the need to tell me about Jesus and the Bible. It was so
common and so regular, that I had to consider this tonguetalking guy's prayer was messing with my space, so I
decided to begin reading this little red Bible.
One night while taking a short break from playing
dungeons and dragons, I was reading the Bible when
suddenly, I saw the heavens opened up right there in my
living room. I saw the greatest man who ever lived dying
on a cross. The image so impacted me that I began to cry,
and then I got up from the game and ran outside. I tried to
shake it off, but the image stayed with me and I knew this
great sacrifice was done for me. I wept for forty-five
minutes for someone I had never met.
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Reading Contradictions
This Jesus guy was quite the character, but His words
were the most perplexing. I had studied every major
religion and the dark sides of mysticism, science,
philosophy, and psychology, as well as mind control
techniques. Though some of what He said matched my
studies, it was so different that I thought His words had to
be true or complete foolishness.
About a month after my first vision, the harassment of
friends and strangers hadn't stopped. One evening, I found
myself hiding away from others in the back of a van
reading these Jesus stories. Frustrated and confused, I
didn't understand the die and you will live, turn the other
cheek guy. In frustration, I cried out to the God of the
Book and said,
"If you are the God of this Book, and the God of this
Jesus, you can make yourself known. If you are not real,
then I quit. I'm not reading any more of this stuff!"
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The van instantly filled with a wonderful, heavy and

frightening presence that made me want to hide. Yet, I
knew and felt that it was the very essence of Love. He
began to speak to me and embrace me. His voice was so
loud that I am pretty sure if someone else had been in the
van, they would have heard Him too. He told me I had
come to meet the one called Truth, and that He would
show me the truth I was longing for and even far more than
I could imagine. The cost for this was my life, a surrender.
"Give up all that you are and follow me, and I will show
you all things."
I said, "No... I can't."
With such love and forgiveness and acceptance, He said,
"You will."
I then fell asleep.
Hounded by Heaven
The words never stopped. People continued to invite me
to talk about God and invited me to church, and my
girlfriend seemed on a quest to convince me. No one knew
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I had already met Him and was now in the wrestling match
of my life. The final battle came when my girlfriend took
my little red Bible, and in a wild attempt to convince me of
the truth, opened to the Book of Revelation where it said,
"FOREVER and EVER"
The world faded away but the words remained. The
voice of God spoke again, but this time with a new urgency
and sternness,
"This is your moment. You must decide right now to
surrender your life or not have this chance again." The
world faded back in. I stood up silently and left the
girlfriend sitting alone. I walked to the bathroom where I
fell on my knees and wept, offered my miserable life to
Him, and vowed I would do what I could to obey and
follow.
The next few weeks were a wild ride of joy and freedom.
My hatred for humanity immediately disappeared. My
addictions to almost everything fell off. I desired only to
learn more about this Jesus and the life He made available
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to us all. My very first prayer was one of request. I asked

for Bibles. I wanted to learn all I could, so I quit my job
and took a break from life while I slept on a mattress on the
floor of my mother's little house and began to read. Within
two weeks and without buying a single copy, I had about
thirty translations of the Bible. They came from
everywhere.
The voice of God was amazing - from little whispers to
revelations of the scriptures - I was cocooned in His
presence. I experienced more freedom and light than I had
ever imagined possible. Those who were part of the horde
of gospel preachers suddenly had no interest in these
things. I was now the one telling them about a Living
Jesus and a God who will free you, talk to you, and live
with you every moment of the day.
The Gospel is the Power

In countries where the cost of faith can mean your very
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life, the growth and fruitfulness of the believer over there is

far more evident than here in America. In many places, the
American church is considered a cult due to its watered
down version of the truth made palatable by tradition and
preachers who want more conversions than disciples.
Americanized
Christianity
is,
in
most
places,
regurgitated tradition and culturally modified truth changing only the doctrines - selling salvation all the while.
In most cases, Americans are not hearing the truth. The
lack of passion, fruit, glory and freedom is evident in their
lives.
Paul exhorted his generation to examine themselves to
see if they were in the faith. Examine your life to see if you
are passionate for Christ. Are you receiving the basic
promises of Jesus like hearing God's voice, being
transformed into a son, and being led in the path of
righteousness and a glory-to-glory life?
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If not, go back to the watered down version of the gospel

you received, throw it out, and find a place of radical
surrender to the will of God. Commit to praying until you
find Him. Obey till you die.
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Chapter 2
Living Free
Jesus at a Pot Party
About a week after finding God, I was over at a friend's
house with my Bible, when she rolled a joint and lit it. We
were talking about God as she passed me some marijuana.
Without thinking twice, I grabbed it and took some and
handed it back. Again, she took a hit and passed it back to
me. Reading from the Bible and taking a second hit, I felt
the presence of God lift off my life. I knew He was not
pleased. He didn't say anything, but I knew.
The buzz I was feeling from the pot was nothing
compared to the high I felt from His presence, so I was
immediately afraid. I couldn't lose Him. I got up and
walked home, all the while repenting and asking for Him to
return. He did, and I stopped.
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I would sit at my friend's house while they all smoked

pot. Sitting in the circle amongst them with my Bible open,
I'd tell them all I was learning while passing the joint over
to the next person when it got to me.
My girlfriend didn't like my version of the Gospel as it
caused me to want to serve God completely and be holy.
She left, but I didn't mind.
I never got the impression that my friends were avoiding
me or upset at my stories. I was not trying to get people to
join a church or get money from them. My intentions were
obvious - I cared for them. They couldn't help but want to
be around such a lover of God and a lover of people. I was
a bit surprised later as I looked back, I almost never had
issue with the un-churched when talking about God. It was
the church folk who would object to this Jesus, but more
about that later.
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Prophetic Evangelism
I had the strongest urge to tell everyone I met about this
wild new life. I felt this inner feeling to get a bus ticket and
just ride the bus and let God bring the people to me. I don't
remember most of the people I have shared the good news
with as there have been so many, but I do remember the
first stranger. I sat at the back of an almost empty bus,
when a man got on and instead of finding a seat away from
me, he came over and sat next to me. I knew he was there
to hear from God. I turned to this 6' 2" man in his late
twenties and proceeded to tell him about his life. I told him
about how my Jesus had a plan for him and that he was
running from God. He began to weep. He said he knew I
was sent from God, and then he turned his life back to God
right there on the spot. I never saw him again. The
experience of prophesying to a stranger was so exciting! I
never stopped; I was addicted to the experience
immediately and could not let a person go past my path
unless I told them about this glorious Jesus.
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I was so dedicated to this new life I would never talk

about anything else, EVER. If people would start a
conversation about something else, I would politely leave
the room. If anyone was listening to music that was not
glorifying God, I would leave. I would not watch TV or
read anything but the Bible or christian literature. I didn't
have a doctrinal position on it or a holier-than-thou
attitude. I just didn't want to waste a second of my life not
being in His presence and not building His kingdom.
Jesus Loves the Sinner
When you first believed, God was not mad at you, did
not poke at your sin and did not condemn you for
weakness. God poured out His wrath on Christ at the cross
so that there would be none left for you. When we talk to
others about this glorious life, even though there are
standards to holiness and to deep abiding fellowship, the
first step is to accept God's grace and forgiveness. Offer
this, proclaim this, and live as if God has no more wrath
and that it really is poured out.
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Chapter 3
Warring With Tradition
My First Church
I was walking with God for almost a month when the
idea came to me that maybe I should go to church where I
would find other people who had met Jesus and it would be
wild to talk to them about their experiences. So off I went
to "Exciting Tulsa Baptist Church" or something like that. I
went in so very excited to hear the scriptures and to meet
other family members. Because the word, "Exciting" was
in their name, they had to know the Jesus I knew, right?
I sat down and after listening to some music they called
worship, this preacher gets up and starts talking about stuff
in the Bible. I strained for 35 minutes to hear about my
King or about this life or about the love of God based on
encounter and revelation of the truth, but I could not. I
thought maybe the preacher was having a bad day. After
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the message, I went to stand out in the hall and make

contact with others. It was worse out there. The people
were distracted and preoccupied. I didn't see a single
person with the light of God on them. They had no life, no
joy, and no fire. I was so very sad.
That day in my ignorance, I concluded that God must be
starting over, that maybe there were no real believers, and
that I was the first one! I was not proud or arrogant about it
at all, but kind of sincere and humbled by the thought. God
and I had a lot of people to tell, so we had better get
started.
My Second Church
Well as it turned out, I was not the first believer, but it
took me some time to find a second one. I made as many
believers as I could along the way. I preached, told, wrote
the gospel out on napkins for waiters, and left big tips so
they would read them. I was praying with people, leading
them all to the cross, and sharing the gospel of death and
surrender long before I heard there was an easier version
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like sneaking your hand up in the back of a church and

praying a little prayer while everyone's eyes are closed.
I would meet people who said they were "Christian," but
it seemed they wanted to talk about their church or some
doctrine or a preacher's message they had heard. If I tried
to talk to most of these Christians about my Jesus, they
were offended. I later figured out why, but in the beginning
this perplexed me.
One of the people who became a Christian from our
talks and praying came to me one day to tell me about a
church she visited. "They are jumping and running and
shouting. They are so excited about Jesus. They sound like
you. You've got to come!" Now this sounded promising, so
off we went.
I was in little saved boy heaven! The music was loud, the
preaching was about Jesus, and they were doing all kinds
of God stuff right out in the open! I met my first real
believer there. Her name was Martha Rae. If Jesus told her
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to do anything, she would do it. She harbored no malice,

gave everything she had to help others, prayed all the time,
and loved the Scriptures. Jesus was her best friend. Martha
was about 70 years old and radiated a glow all around her.
You could make her cry just by talking about Jesus. She
helped me a lot and encouraged me to know there were
others who would do anything for the King.
Initially, I admired many of the leaders at the church as
they seemed to be very excited about God, were very good
teachers, and were very knowledgeable about the
Scriptures. But, what I came to find out is there is a huge
difference between the gift and the man. A life connected
to Jesus, breathing in His will, has far more reward than a
gifted man who is not yet surrendered to the cross.
Come to find out, this preacher was sleeping with his copastor's wife. The man was living a lifestyle of lies and sin
abounded in so many areas of his life and yet he preached
this amazing gifted message of the Christ. He preached the
Jesus I knew, but did not know Him. Amazing how it
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seemed the same - the gift in a man and the fruit of a life
given. So many congregants in his church were everlearning but never coming to the radical saving touch of the
Master.
The Gift vs The Man

We have all witnessed or heard the horror stories of
ministers whose lives were in chaos while externally their
ministries seemed to have powerful results and the
anointing of God. Once a man in this condition is revealed
to the church, many in the church go astray and become
devastated by feeling deceived, and wonder, If this man
can't make it, how can I?"
We need to understand the truth about the gift of God,
why God would permit such things from such imperfect
vessels, and how we can learn from this and stand on a
more sure foundation.
When a pastor friend of mine stands behind the pulpit, it
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is obvious to all his giftedness and calling. He preaches

with conviction and prophetic revelation, but outside the
pulpit he is struggling to hear from God and almost sounds
insane in the defense of his lifestyle and lack of personal
growth. It is common for the gift to far exceed the personal
walk of the man. It is the nature of a gift of ministry.
The minister needs the revelation of the gift just as much
as those around him. He is also responsible to surrender to
the words he is speaking just as much as the other hearers,
lest he be guilty of being a hearer and not a doer of the
Word. Only when we hear the Word and let it change us,
will we change into the image of that word. Only then can
we become the fruit of that Word instead of just carrying
the Word.
This is why a mature believer will be able to do the
ministry of teacher, pastor, evangelist, etc. For as the
believer is around these gifts of ministry, and applies a life
of obedience and prayer to the words, he becomes those
things that he hears and sees.
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And he gave some, apostles; and some,

prophets; and some, evangelists; and some,
pastors and teachers; For the perfecting of the
saints, for the work of the ministry, for the
edifying of the body of Christ:
Ephesians 4:11-12
The gift of Pastor is given to men including the man it
resides in. It is possible for the greatest of gifts to return to
the Father and the vessel of the gift hear these words, "Yes,
you have done great things, but I never knew you; depart
from me you worker of iniquity." More about this in the
Chapter called, Two Trees.
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Chapter 4
Open Heavens
Filled
One day I was talking to my friend Martha and she
asked,
"Do you speak in tongues?"
I said, "No, but I'd like to speak in tongues. It seems so
cool".
She said, "Well, it is obvious to me you are already filled
with the Spirit, so you can just go ahead and do it. Just
open your mouth and speak in the Spirit."
I had no idea what she was talking about and the thought
of faking up a language on the spot was more than I was
willing to do. She perceived my struggle and made a wise
suggestion,
"Go home, get with God and speak to Him. He will give
you the words."
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Off I went as fast as I could to see what God would do. I

don't know why I thought God would be closer in the
shower, but I think it had to do with me hearing that the
Spirit of God was like rivers of living water. So I got in the
shower and asked God to fill me and give me this heavenly
language. BAM! Tongues of a new language popped out of
my mouth so hard I could have broken something. It was
so shocking, I began to laugh. Then more tongues, and then
more laughter. It seemed like the funniest thing I had ever
done! Tongues were not just a language but a power burst.
It was like drinking ten cups of coffee, but only better.
Hunger like a Crazy Man

I got dressed, got in my van, and drove around for hours
speaking in this new tongue. I didn't stop for days. Three
days of praying in tongues made my tongue swell in my
mouth so big I could barely use it. But I kept praying till
the swelling went down. I was reading the Scriptures like
the hungriest man alive, praying in the spirit, and then, my
first demonic attack came since my salvation.
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The Enemy Comes

The enemy came to steal the Word of God living in me.
It was a voice as clear as the voice of God, but sinister.
Accusing. Mocking. You remember the day you cursed
God when you were seventeen? You committed the
unforgivable sin. These last few days were a taste of what
you could have had, but God will never forgive you for
blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. You will now have it all
taken away and you will live the rest of your life knowing
the punishment of God's judgment.
No! It can't be. But I did. And I deserve death. No!
God! No! My heart was broken at the possibility. I was
alone. I can't live without God! I cried out so loud you
would have thought I was really going to die. I cried for a
long time asking for God to kill me or talk to me. After far
too much time, I settled down and the voice of God
returned. He showed me the scene in question, my hatred
and my mocking of God, and said,
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You see that kid, that angry little person? I loved you
then. God was not mad at me.
Crazy Love
This was my first glimpse into His heart toward all the
angry, deceived people of the world. He has no anger left
for humanity as He poured it all out on Jesus. There is a
Father/Creator who wants us all back, all to return, and our
sin is not the issue.
I began to fall in love with people, and to serve and love
them as much as I could to help them become all God
wanted for them. My transformation was so extreme that
my entire family started going to church. I was so evil
before I met God, but now I became one who would weep
openly for people and pray all the time. I never struck back
nor spoke evil of anyone. The transformation from hater of
men to one who would die for a stranger is the true sign of
being filled with the Holy Spirit, not tongues. Romans 5:5
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Freedom Overtakes Me
I have now become possessed of God. Habitual and
continual in my pursuit, asking Him continually for
correction and growth. Living in a state of continual
repentance, making sure I did nothing to offend Him, and if
I do offend, to cry out for strength, mercy and forgiveness
to never do it again.
I was addicted to speed, marijuana, pornography, anger,
and nicotine - they all fell off except one, cigarettes. I was
so free from those things and I never felt tempted to touch
them. However, for some unknown reason, cigarettes were
a crazy stronghold for me.
I prayed continually, and if I was not talking, I was
praying. I was always muttering prayers under my breath
so those around me wouldn't think I was too crazy.
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Righteousness, Peace and Joy

I can honestly say I never worried about a thing:
finances, people thinking bad of me, or what the future
would bring, as my new Best Buddy created everything
and how could it turn out bad as long as we were buds.
For a person who never cried and almost never laughed,
my life was filled with both. I never knew joy and now that
it was here, I wanted everyone to have it. Intercession and
deep prayer for those I knew and those God put on my
heart to pray for were regular and daily. The feeling of
spiritual superiority or pride never entered into my
emotions as the grace of His forgiveness kept me humble
and broken.
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Chapter 5
Visitations
After a couple of months of prayer and God-voice, I

found
myself with a following. Disciples and hungry
hearts always wanting to know what God was saying.

Many of my new friends were local Bible college students
who would go to school all day and hang out with me all
night. We would pray and wrestle Scripture and preach the
gospel. We found a little church that was open all night, so
we would gather and pray there. The voice of God and
angels would be a nightly adventure. Spontaneous worship,
repentance, and more hunger were a constant in our lives.
My first visitation came like a tornado. I felt Him so

close all the time, but the build up of hunger and meeting
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was increasing daily. My prayer times would often bring

me to the place I can only call "pain". As He drew near, my
body and soul would hurt. It was like my molecules were
being taken apart. It hurt so bad that I always backed up. I
now wish I would have kept going to see if I would have
died or if He would have backed up.
A group of friends and I visited a little church one
Wednesday night and I was hoping for more of Him.
Anything more was ok with me, just as long as it was
more. Before, during, and after the service, my friends
were all having a good time laughing, joking, and talking
about their day while I was pressing into prayer to see
more. The laughter in my crowd continued and the overall
atmosphere in the church was casual and regular.
It
seemed to me that no one knew what could be if we just

sought Him. Worship was non-emotional and the leaders
also just seemed to be going through the motions.
It
grieved me.
Then it happened! The whole world faded to smoke and
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the front of the church building turned into a set of huge

thirty-foot tall wooden doors. When they swung open, a
bright light came down from heaven and lit the ground.
The entire place that I was now in was illuminated by the
glory of the Light. Jesus appeared standing in the doorway.
His face shone brighter than the sun, so it was not possible
to make out His features.
He had His arms stretched out and I could see the
wounds on His hands. Before He spoke, I felt His heart
and it shocked me. I was feeling the burden for God's
people. The burden that was in His heart was grief and
sorrow for the lack of pursuing God. And then He spoke to
me,
"My people are far from Me. I have told them but they
still don't know how much I have for them and how much
they are missing by not seeking after Me. I died to give
them all things, but they settle for earthly things. Call after
Me and I will show you the kingdom. Seek me with your
whole heart and you WILL find Me."
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My words are nothing like the words that Jesus spoke. I

not only understood the meaning, but I felt His heart and it
was almost more than I could handle experiencing the
feelings of God. Who knew Jesus was so passionate?
The earth faded back in and I was alone. The presence of
God makes you separate in so many ways I cannot explain
(not better, not more powerful). It is only hearing that
separates. I tried to tell one of my friends on the way out
that Jesus was here, but I could not talk and he could not
hear. I followed the group as we went to a pizza place just
down the road. My heart was still in grief and glory
because I carried the weight of His words. I was silent as
they ordered, silent as the cokes were placed on the table,
and weeping still. One of my friends, John, asked,
Are you ok?
I looked at John unable to speak and he knew. He called
the group around and said,
Bill has something to say. I think He saw Jesus.
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I recounted my story as the pizza arrived at the table.

Now all eyes were crying and God's presence was so
strong we knew we could not eat. We left and went to the
24 hour prayer church where we worshiped God, repented
for our laziness and mediocrity, and sought Him. It was an
amazing time of visitation for us all.
So far in my story I am still about 3-4 months old in the
Lord. My understanding of Scripture and the weight of His
presence carried me daily. I took a job as a busboy at the
same steak house restaurant, so that I could be close to my
waiter-buddy John, who was now one of my best friends.
So much was happening, I understood when the Bible
talked about if everything Jesus did was written, there
would not be room to hold all the books. God's continual
presence and voice led me in all things.
Prophecy Like a River

If I was not praying or reading the scriptures, I was on
the streets telling strangers about God. It was so amazing
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how much love I felt from the Father as I talked about

Him. I was also amazed at how much people loved to hear
the message. Though there were a few times that I did have
my life threatened by the demon-possessed and the
occasional drunk, I was unafraid and loved everyone.
I met other radical street preachers who let me carry a 12
foot cross at heavy metal concerts and introduced me to
these things called tracts; little Gospel messages preprinted on paper wow, what concept! My life wasn't a
formula; it was a walk. God would lead me to those He
wanted and gave me the words to tell them. It wasn't about
converting people; it was about obeying God, loving
people, and proclaiming the Kingdom. The prophecies and
words of knowledge were so regular I don't know how
anyone could counsel or teach or preach without His "now
Word". I relied on God completely. I knew nothing and He
knew everything.
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Chapter 6
The Book is Alive
The Scriptures Are Not as They Seem
I was not trained by American Churchianity on how to
obey the Book or to scripturalize my life. I was saved from
this in the school of His presence. God showed me how the
writers of the letters in the Bible were all dialogs of
encounter. Each one seeing the Creator and interacting with
Him in different ways, all of them opening up the
revelation of God's glory so we would follow hard after
God.
I found most "believers" were still using the Bible like
the Old Covenant Pharisee, trying to apply truths to their
lives to please God, obeying a Book instead of meeting the
Writer and Author of their lives. I had, and still have, such
a hard time explaining this to the indoctrinated.
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Lost Like We
I visited a mega church well known for its excitement,
growth and preaching of the Gospel. I told some of its
young adult members about my God-encounters. I shared
about Jesus, His power, and His presence, but the reply
from a young man was,
"I remember those days. That's called the honeymoon
period. Don't worry, in a few months it will wear off and
you'll be just like us."
I almost began to cry, He could not have said a worse
thing to me. I said in my heart something like,
"I will never be like you, and I walked out. My prayer to
the Father was to keep me and to never let me grow so cold
and so religious. Little did I know how true that young
man's words would become.
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Flattery: The Seeds of Pride

One evening during one of our nightly Bible studies, I
was sharing with the group all the things God was
downloading to me from heaven as the Scriptures were
more alive to me than you can imagine. As I was talking,
one of the people said,
You know, we have been going to Bible school for
years now, and none of our teachers say the things you
say.
The comment was meant as an encouragement, but my
heart took it and became proud. I didn't know it was a seed,
and I didn't know how much power pride had to kill me. If
I would have known at that moment, I would have rejected
it and run from it, but I didn't and I am sorry.
Mardi Gras
I made some new friends preaching on the streets who
loved sharing the gospel as much as I did. We brought our
twelve-foot cross and bull horn with us. Some of the guys
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would carry a coffin and someone else would jump out of

it and start preaching from the grave. We could feel God as
we talked and saw so many people touched, healed, and
saved from depression and darkness. I loved the streets.
One of them invited me to go with him to Mardi Gras to
preach on the streets with his group. I said I'd love to go
and began planning the trip. My Dad lived in New Orleans,
so, I called him and asked him if he could fly me down. He
said he would get me a ticket and I could just go to the
airport and get it on the day. He never bothered to tell me
he had no money and that he couldn't come up with any
before the time, so I showed up at the airport expecting a
ticket. However, the man at the counter said there was no
ticket. While my new buddies stood and watched, I told the
ticket agent that I was on a mission for God and I had to go
to New Orleans to save souls and preach the Gospel. He
pushed a few buttons on his computer and handed me a
round trip ticket.
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Recognizing God's grace on the moment, I told him my

friends were also going and wondered if he could give
them free tickets too? He gave them refund vouchers and
new tickets as well. I was pretty excited, but by this time,
God's provision and grace were so common I was not that
surprised.
I had now quit my bus-boy job and moved in with a
Bible student. I wanted more time to preach the Gospel, but
I knew that I still needed a source of income. Earlier, I
prayed and asked the Lord for a specific kind of job,
Lord, I only need $85 a week to survive and I'd love to
work in a place that lets me continue to preach your
salvation. A part-time job for a ministry or something
would be perfect.
Sitting on my way to New Orleans, a tall man introduced
himself as the director of a street ministry. He told me how
he thought the free ticket thing at the counter was one of
the coolest things he'd ever seen. He asked me,
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"You wouldn't happen to know anyone who could work

for me running my printing press? I need someone part
time, but can only afford to pay $85 per week."
I smiled. Working for this ministry was one of the
greatest gifts God ever gave me.
Mardi Gras was going to be where I showed the devil
who was boss and go preach and get so many people saved
that the demons would know my name! With my pile of
tracts and the Holy Ghost, I went to make war with the
enemy.
Day one, I found myself in a crowd of tens of thousands
of people most of whom were making sounds and actions
of worship with hands raised to the masked faces on the
parade floats. The crowds were screaming for attention so
that the masked people would toss them beads and trinkets.
I stood and wept. I saw this was not just a parade, but a
mockery of humanity orchestrated to show God how
subjected His creation was to worshiping demons for
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worthless trinkets. I also saw how great the harvest was

and how little my pocket full of tracts were going to do to
turn the tide. I could do nothing but pray in humility.
All of us street preachers slept for free on the floor of a
local church. We ate food donated by the local church folk
and went out in shifts after much prayer and instruction by
those who had done this before. The masses were all
around, but I only focused on God's direction. I waited to
see who He would have me talk to and what He would
have me say.
I walked up to one very drunk group and started to talk
to them. One guy in particular was my focus, but his
friends decided they didn't want to hear any more. He
stayed and after I prophesied to him and prayed for him, he
sobered up right on the spot and turned his life back to
God. Many, many people got saved that week and it was a
testimony to the power of God, to prophetic evangelism
and to His love for the lost.
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Chapter 7
A Prophetic Life
Life in God is supposed to be full of direction and voice.
As Paul declared, maturity in Christ is found in those who
are continually LED by the Spirit of God.
For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if
ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of
the body, ye shall live. For as many as are led
by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.
Romans 8:13-14
We have for far too long looked to the current hearinggifted as the giants of the faith, not realizing that even
those who are high prophetic voices are still only hearing
at levels that we should all be hearing. There is coming a
day when all will hear so clearly from little children to old
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timers. No one will have to tell you, God is talking,

because you will know for yourself. But you don't have to
wait till it is common place - you can deny your flesh,
press into God, pray and hear God's voice now.
War with the Cults
Working for "World Shakers for Christ" was so much
fun as I had no boss to mess with me and I was left alone in
a room with a printing press to print gospel tracts.
I had some printshop experience, but when I got in the
room, I realized I had no idea how to use this type of
printing press. I immediately asked God for wisdom, and
He not only taught me how to print, but 30 days after I
began, the director said I was the best pressman he had
ever had. It really was a miracle to learn that fast.
Smoke Free
While I was still figuring out how to get free from
smoking, God never talked to me about it. I felt convicted
all the time and repented regularly for my weakness. I
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asked the Lord to take the cravings away. My deliverance

came through a TV preacher. As the preacher spoke, God
Spoke and bore witness with the words and the gift of
repentance was offered to me. I didn't know, but even
repentance requires God's initiation. As I put out my
cigarette, I knew I was free and I was no longer tempted to
smoke and had no withdrawals.
Overdose
I traveled to see a young seventeen-year-old preacher,
who was reportedly walking with God in such glory and
manifestation that God moved at every meeting. I had to
see one as hungry as me. Driving many miles to a little
church to hear this young man, we arrived early enough to
get front row seats. The place began to fill with hungry
hearts. I had never seen so many hungry young people
before and the room was electrified by it. The young
preacher took a chair and sat on the stage. He didn't stand
at all because he seemed to be under a spiritual weight or
cloak that was so heavy he couldn't carry it. As he spoke, it
was more like a 1,000 year old man than a boy of
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seventeen. His words cut through the room, touched hearts

and ignited even more hunger in the hearers. The young
preacher spoke of the reality of God's presence and God's
great love for us. The message was so filled with
possibility and promise because God was calling us to meet
with Him.
I was leaning forward expecting the manifestation of
God. I was pulling, which describes the level of hunger
and drawing from the gift in a minister or from the
presence of God. Pulling is kind of like what a little kid
does when he wants mom to buy him something from the
store. The child's concentration is unbroken, and he tugs on
mom's skirt until she gives in.
The young preacher's assistant stopped the meeting and
came over to me and told me to stop "pulling so hard". I
didn't know you could pull too hard and how did he know?
The preacher was nearing the end of his time and
announced if anyone wanted more of God to come up
front. I bolted to be first, but was sixth in line. I guess I
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wasn't the only one hungry for more. As he prayed for

people, they all fell to the ground. Now, I have seen people
courtesy-fall before, but I'm not sure I've ever seen people
really get knocked over by God. As it was my turn to step
up on stage, the preacher roared at me,
"STOP RIGHT THERE!"
The entire room seemed to hold its breath. The preacher
reached behind his head as if grabbing something and
threw it at me while yelling,
"OVERDOSE OF THE HOLY GHOST!"
Whatever it was, hit me like a car! I was thrown back
over the top of the crowd and was unconscious for what
people tell me was about twenty minutes. I woke up full
and free.
To tell you how free and how full would be impossible,
but I can say that I did not know the meaning of the word
freedom until that day. I ran to the back of the room and
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began to twirl and dance, even though there was no music.

I was the only one dancing and I didn't care. I never knew
the whole earth was filled with His glory until that
moment. There was a presence or glow around everything
and there was nothing in this world that did not manifest
His life. This was the beginning of three days of the most
miraculous walk in which I have ever known.
For three full days I could not sleep nor do I recall
eating. I would hear God's voice so clearly. It was clearer
than my own thoughts. I had such energy and inspiration to
serve the Lord, I believed I could be caught up like Enoch
at any moment. If I asked for it, it would happen. When
God directed me to do something, the manifestation of
healing or salvation, it would happen instantly. I would get
just as much revelation from the morning newspaper as
from the Bible. He was everywhere and in everything, and
for three days I felt alive and immortal. It wasn't that my
body couldn't be killed, but that I was now alive and my
body was of no consequence.
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It seemed clear to me that this inner life of abiding was

what Jesus paid for and that what I was doing was the
ultimate call of every believer. I began to understand that
life in God wasn't just about gifts, power, or manifestations
of His presence. The inner life of hearing and abiding
could have just as easily led me to poverty or
imprisonment for the sake of His name, and that life would
have been sufficient.
After three days of this glory, I was reading the book of
Hebrews and suddenly felt tired, so I laid down to nap. I
woke the next morning to the intensity of His glory being
gone. I cried and said,
"God, I don't want to live! I can't live without your
presence. I'd rather die than live blind again."
The Lord spoke to me saying that He had not left me and
that this place was a special taste of glory. He said that I
was not permitted to live in that place full-time right now. I
was so very homesick that until this day I understand Paul's
desire to depart this earth to be with Him. Compared to that
life, we are all blind beggars.
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The Power of an Endless Life

Speaking of Jesus, the book of Hebrews says,
...After the likeness of Melchizedek there
arises another priest, who is made, not after
the law of a carnal commandment, but after
the power of an endless life. For God testifies,
You are a priest forever after the order of
Melchizedek.
Hebrews 7:15-17
Jesus was the first among men to resurrect into an
eternal life and ministry. Therefore, His ministry has
eternal consequences and fruitfulness. As it is written,
Jesus' ministry had only to be done once and forever the
price of sin was paid. His Words of life are the same, for
they carry the power and glory sufficient to save a man for
eternity.
The words that He speaks are not of reason or earthly
means, but from the same creative source that made us in
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the beginning. This is now your calling - to go and be the

voice of the Creator. With life and death in the power of
your tongue and in the deeds of your hands, we are
ambassadors of the eternal, following His command rather
than principles or doctrine. A new and living way to serve
and change men... forever.
Face to Face with God
Skipping ahead to about 6 months old in the Lord, I was
attending a local camp meeting with thousands of people
from all over the world. I was the chauffeur for all my
friends and some traveling visitors, one of which would
become my wife. We traveled back and forth to the
convention center three times a day for all the meetings,
but one meeting I will never forget.
During a time of preaching, a roar started in the crowd.
From the top left of the auditorium all the way across the
room, the roars carried a huge wave of sound. As the
presence of God struck the people, they would join into the
shout.
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When the wave hit me, I fell to my knees and was

immediately taken out of my body. I was swept into the
universe escorted by an angel and we moved so much
faster than anything I have ever heard of before. We passed
entire galaxies. Slowing down, we stopped at a doorway
that hung in the midst of the heavens and it seemed
illuminated from all sides and gave off its own light.
I approached the doorway and passed through. As soon
as I did, there was this thin sheet of blood that covered me
and seemed to wash my being. It was like the sheet of
blood went through all my parts and cleaned me out. I
seemed to know that sin was left behind and the enemies of
God could not come through this way. I was clean and free.
On the other side of the door, there was a throne. It is
impossible to explain the throne and what I saw. Whenever
I try to explain the throne, it makes no sense. I understood
why Daniel and John wrote their visions and used the word
like as often as they did because heavenly things are so
different and there are simply no words for them. All I can
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say is that the throne had no end, and seemed as if it had no

beginning, but reached us from somewhere unexplainable.
The One seated on the throne was the center of all things
and so filled with glory. His face shone so bright and had
no visible features. I could do nothing but fall on my face
in His presence. Even though I was clean and free from sin,
I was still not like Him. I could not stand.
My overwhelming desire to give Him something caused
me to look inward to see what I had that was worthy of this
One. I found in my heart a light. This light was exactly
like the light He was made of and I somehow offered it to
Him. As I lifted up my hands, I cried out with my voice
and offered Him the gift. The Light from my mouth struck
Him in the face and immediately I knew He was wellpleased. He returned the gift, and from His heart He gave it
back but many times greater. I offered Him back the same
and we became a circle of Light. As He continued to pour
into me His light, I would offer it all right back to Him. I
experienced fellowship with God on such a deep level it
was as if I ceased to exist and yet not at the same time.
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After an unknown amount of time, I found myself back

in my body worshiping and singing out to the Lord. The
experience did not fade for some time even though the
vision was over. When I found my friends at the
convention, they said I was glowing and radiating a light. I
was not surprised, because I felt electrified.
The Wife
As full of God as I was, I had one earthly desire, which
was to have a godly wife with whom to share my
adventures. Almost every girl I met, I would ask the Lord
if this was the one, and almost immediately He would
answer, and I would no longer be distracted by the thought
or pursuit - until Maria. During a break in one of our camp
meeting sessions, the whole group went out for lunch.
While talking to her for the first time alone, we were
caught up in such glorious fellowship and conversation of
God and His Kingdom that we did not realize how long we
had been sitting. All of our friends left us at the mall food
court and returned to the camp meeting. Walking back, I
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asked her if she had ever considered marrying an

evangelist.
After a few more talks, she had to fly out early, so I
dropped her off at the airport. I already missed her. I asked
the Lord if she was the one and He said,
Yes, you can marry this one.
I wrote her five letters a day. I sent her Bibles and gifts.
Fifteen days later, I flew out to Ohio and proposed to her.
She said, Yes. We continued our talks by mail and by
phone. The rich times of fellowship, prophecy, prayer and
preaching the Kingdom became the foundation of our
relationship.
Miraculous Provision
Nine months later, we married. Returning to Tulsa, I
found out that the ministry I worked for was moving to
California. I now had a wife, an apartment, bills and soon a
baby on the way.
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It was a hard time balancing faith and responsibility. Up

until then, it was just me and God. Before marriage, I never
worried or wanted for anything.
There were times that we would find ourselves without
food, and suddenly someone would show up at our door
with groceries. One Sunday after church, Maria was
waiting for me to drive around and pick her up and two
ladies just walked up and handed her bags of groceries. I
started to keep a journal of all the miracles. The miracles
were becoming so regular that I had to stop writing them
down.
Faithful Tither
One of my favorite times was the tithe experience. One
Saturday afternoon, we received a gift of $200. This gift
was such a relief because Monday was our eviction notice
deadline. I told Maria I was going to give 10% of that
money as a tithe on the upcoming Sunday morning, to
which she replied,
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$180 is not $200, and we will still get evicted. I

answered,
I know, but I really have to tithe. If God can give us
$200, He sure can give us $20 more!
So off we went completely in disagreement as to tithing.
Sunday morning arrived and the offering bucket came by. I
dropped the 10% into the bucket. The moment I let go of
the bucket, a lady sitting next to Maria handed her a tithe
envelope. The lady was going to place her tithe in the
offering bucket, but said,
The Lord just told me I needed to give this to you
instead of putting it in the offering bucket.
I knew without opening it how much money was in the
envelope, and I said to the Lord,
Thanks for the $20.00 God, but if I tithe off the twenty
I'll still be two dollars short.
Just as I finished praying, the same lady began to laugh
and said,
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This is so embarrassing, but the Lord told me to give

you all my change, too. She proceeded to empty her purse
and pour all of her change onto Maria's lap. I didn't count it
right there, but I was guessing it was $2.22.
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Chapter 8
The Fall From Glory
The first few months of married life was hard, but full of
God. Miraculous provision, prayer, and faith. I took a job
and we joined a church. I was always faithful to tithe, went
to all the services, participated in children's ministry.
I was an usher, church photographer, and a childcare
worker. We began to look like the rest of the crowd.
Faithful. Nice. Dead.
It happened so fast. I was externally doing all the stuff,
reading my Bible, and listening to all the sermons. We
went to all the meetings. But within six months, I found
myself sitting on the front row of one of the biggest
churches in the world. I stood at the front and as the
worship music played I wept, not like I used to weep as His
presence touched me and convicted me and changed me,
but as one who could no longer hear His voice. I was
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powerless against anger and sin, and the love of God was
fading.
I was not alone in my condition, but I was alone in my
sorrow. My condition was the condition of almost everyone
I met in the church; they just didn't know how sad it was.
I was making all the right confessions and staying away
from all the bad things, casting down the bad thoughts and
doing all the do the church said we should.
Faithful God
In the ten years that followed, God continued to be
faithful. There still was miraculous provision in our life.
The things we learned and the things we saw, proclaimed
the glory of God. But mostly it was the God of a hardhearted people who would trust Him for needs, but not
meet Him in heaven.
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We heard His voice from a place of giftedness. We bore

the fruit from a life dedicated to serving and had a ministry
where people looked up to us in many areas. But the
power from a relationship with God was gone and the fruit
of a broken and contrite heart was so far away I had no
idea how to get back.
The Way Back Home
My journey back began with hearing a forty-five second
prayer from a man named Stan. He was a minister who
returned to the States and was invited to pray over the
offering of the church we were attending.
GOD OF ABRAHAM, ISAAC, AND JACOB! Were

the only words I needed to hear to know that this man had
something I lost and I needed to get it back. There was
relationship in his voice, but I still had no idea how to find
the God of Bill.
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The next piece of the map home was found in an article

written by a man named Rick Joyner. The article was
published in James Robison's newsletter. That one article
woke something in me that would start a journey back. I
was hearing a voice in the letters that spoke to my old
radical self that reminded me of a life I left many years
ago. In my newfound excitement, I began immediately to
talk to those around me of the freedom and the system of
American church that we were all caught up in and how it
was killing us and keeping us from seeing God.
My eyes were opened and I was determined to never go
back. I initially saw the church system as evil and contrary
to the will of God. I was not even willing to consider any
of it as from God as I hardly knew one person who was
able to be active in the system and have a radical
connection to the Father.
Not that many believers were not well-meaning and
doing all they knew to do, but in almost every case their
religion, church, denomination, truths and doctrines were a
substitute for this amazing life. The American religious
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machine was leading people to a commitment to principles,

truths and its local vision, but hardly allowing real and
radical connection to obedience and surrender.
In my zeal and early attempts to help people see, I threw

a lot of rocks. I was adamantly opposed to organized
religion and resisted it with passion. This became a
distraction for me, and even though I knew the way back,
the message became a burden and my focus became a
distraction.
It was like I was speaking a foreign language to

Christian believers. Even worse, what I was saying was
being interpreted as heresy and opposing the God of
creation. According to some Christians, I was rebelling
against the church and God's leaders. It was then that I was
visited in a dream by Enoch and Elijah.
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Enoch and Elijah

In this dream/vision, I found myself standing on a grassy
hillside. Before me, at a bit of a distance, appeared two
very old men.
As they got closer towards me, I could tell they were
very, very old. Yet, they had the life and joy of the Lord
and had no feebleness in them. One man came closer and
the other stayed a bit behind. Hi, I am Enoch and this is
my friend Elijah. We are the two witnesses spoken about in
your Scriptures. We have come with a message, and I
would like for you to go with me.
Enoch was not serious and intense as I would have
thought, but rather full of so much joy. I had the very word
joy redefined for me as I listened to him and watched
him.
I had nothing to add to this man's words, but just
followed him. Elijah went a different path while Enoch and
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I walked. Enoch, of course, led the way. Our first stop was
not far down the road where we stopped just short of
entering a church parking lot. Enoch was always careful
not to step on the property of the church. He began to
explain and to preach,
"We preach in heaven and some of our favorite messages
are these three:
Part one, is the story of 'The Word' born as a baby, grown
in stature, and the story of his proclamations, miracles,
death, and resurrection.
Part three of this preaching we tell of things you are not
able yet to hear, of that same Word, now exalted, whose
eyes are a flame of fire and hair white as wool and whose
majesty cannot be explained to you at this time. You will
have to wait for this part.
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Part two, is what I've come to declare and what you all
should be preaching and living right now. The story of His
life you proclaim well, but it is part two you should be
focused on."
He preached with such joy and such hope there seemed
to be glorious vision being poured out as he spoke. But
even with all these words of power and truth, many people
would step out of the church building to see what this old
man was saying and walk right back in, ignoring him and
his words. As we went church building to church building,
many would ask him silly questions or mock him by asking
for a miracle or a sign. I don't remember one person
responding to or following Enoch.
These people had no effect on Enoch's joy, resolve, or
message. He was here to serve the King of the Universe
and it was all that mattered. The response of the people was
not his concern. His message went something like this:
"Jesus has made in you a great deposit, and the life you
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have been offered is so full of victory and hope. The ability

you now have to touch the Father's heart has never existed
like it does now since Jesus made this new way for you.
Your freedom has begun but it is now waiting for you to
grasp it in its fullness. The kingdom of darkness cannot
stand against even the least of those who would dare to
enter in.
The Kingdom is so rich and full of fellowship with the
Father of Lights. The path that you have started on is so
rich with adventure and reward. Very few have even begun
to see all that He has for you.
Sin is done away with and it no longer has you. The way
to perfect fellowship is now within your grasp. Give up
your life to this new way and embrace this life. He is
waiting and willing to help you cross over."
I learned many things in my time with Enoch and Elijah.
They would meet up at the end of each day to talk, laugh
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and tell the stories of the day. I believe that the time I spent
with them was three days, even though it only took 20
minutes to have the dream. I woke up and remembered
every detail as if it was a real life experience. I determined
to not write it down for years until the Lord led me to
understand all of its meaning and directed me to do so.
Loving Correction
The dream brought great correction to my attitude. It
showed me clarity of the message and the posture of those
who would proclaim the glory of God instead of the
traditions of men. People's acceptance of you or your
message should have no effect on your joy, your message,
or your heart towards them. We must persevere, we must
teach, exhort, and instruct. But our service is to God the
Father and our reward is through a faithful heart. Keep the
message pure but never lose heart or focus.
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Chapter 9
Kingdom vs Churchianity
Home Church
Early on, it seemed evident that trying to find a church
that would allow us to experience this life would not be
possible because the system of church was not set up for
this. We began to meet in homes. The things we learned
about ministry, prophecy, hunger, and discipleship were all
being directed by God.
We did a lot of things wrong in the early days. We tried
to make the home church look like a mini version of the
American church and overwhelmed some of our first
disciples with too much shepherding. Taking offense with
the church system allowed and promoted mistrust and
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bitterness in those wounded by the system. There were so

many things we learned and there are still so many things
we are learning.
We began to hear God clearly again and the spirit of
family was increasing. We were learning this thing called
body ministry where each of us, as we were being set free
and alive, would each have a part to play and each have
words from God and ministry.
LIVING stones fitted together EACH part supplying.
Invited Back to Church
I was happy with our little family of believers. Everyone
in our home group was hungry after God and growing at
the time.
I met Pastor Dave. He was one of the nicest guys you'd
ever want to meet. Dave was the pastor of a small church
in Oklahoma and had been pastoring for about 23 years
when I met him. Our first meeting happened because
Pastor Dave was having computer issues and my company
sent me out to help him.
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After forty-five minutes of talking about God, Dave

excitedly said, You have to come to my church. I have
been praying for someone like you; God has sent you here.
I have been having these God-encounters and I would love
for you to start coming.
I replied, I don't think so. You don't want me here. I'll
only cause trouble and mess up this good thing you got
going on. Back and forth we went until he convinced me
he really was hungry for this God thing and away we
went.
We became instant best friends. The glory and hunger
on us both was contagious. We would go out to eat and the
presence of God was so strong that we'd start crying right
there in public. Waitresses would come over to our table
and comment about the obvious presence of God over our
conversation.
On Sunday mornings, people were REALLY getting
saved. There were tears and questions and surrendered
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hearts. Many times, Pastor Dave would stand at the pulpit

and just cry. He couldn't say anything but, Jesus. Jesus.
Jesus, and weep.
We were on the verge of a revival. The Pastor was
teaching Sunday morning in the main sanctuary and he
gave me his office to teach Sunday school classes to a
small group. One time, he let me teach behind the pulpit,
Not really something I was looking for, but it was fun.
Friday nights at my house was growing as the hungry
came to visit. All meetings, including the church, were
growing.
Then it happened - and it happened so fast that I was
shocked. After months of trust, friendship, and God
encounters, our first change in conversation happened. The
events that followed wounded me so desperately it felt as
though I would die. My heart was broken.
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Pastor Dave told me of a conversation that one of the

more immature disciples had with him outside of the
church hallway. Brian went up to Pastor Dave and asked,
Why don't you teach like Bill? It was odd, but I knew
what Brian meant was that as far as depth and style, he was
far more inclined to my style and assumed it was more
spiritual than Dave's.
I laughed it off and assumed Pastor Dave did also.
During our next meeting Dave was not his happy self, but I
had no idea he had an agenda. He started talking about his
position as pastor and asked if I believed he was called to
be the pastor.
The next conversation did not go as well. A few days
later, Dave asked me if he was 'my' pastor, and if I
recognized him as the leader of the church. Now, I
suddenly knew where we were going and I was not going
to have any part of it.
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Up to this point, we had never argued, and even though I

am sure we had points of disagreement, it was so odd to me
to suddenly feel like I was under attack.
Dave insisted I submit to his authority and shut down my
Friday night meetings for a season until he gave me
permission to reopen it.
But Dave, I thought you asked me to come and help
you? You and I never agreed I was to be your church
member.
The night before I was called to stand before the elders
of the church to answer for my crime of rebellion, I was
awakened by a voice. The voice said, MY - OH - PIA.
Over and over again the words rung in my ears. I could not
go back to sleep. I went and grabbed my encyclopedia to
look up the word. As I searched for it, the word kept
getting revised so that now it said myopia. Shocked to find
it was a word, I brought my M encyclopedia with me to
the meeting.
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I was excited that I had the word of the Lord to fix our
problem. I happily read and told my account of the voice. I
was met with anger and accusation. There was insistence
that I submit to the God appointed-leader.
Myopia is a word that means nearsightedness. It is when
the eyes focus incorrectly, making distant objects appear
blurred.
The doctrines of church submission are wildly misused
in today's church circles. I was not going to have any part
of this kind of control. It would have lead to the death of
my abiding-life. Sadly, Dave kicked me and my family out
of his fellowship. It broke my heart.
After twelve years of no conversation with Pastor Dave,
I received a phone call one afternoon and it was Pastor
Dave! He called to apologize and to tell me he loved me. I
am thankful to God for this friend and I am so glad God
brought him back.
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Pastoral Authority
When talking to many pastors, especially young pastors,
they remind me of my first arguments as a newly married
husband. If I had any conflict in my marriage, I would
always argue (wrongly) that it was the "lack of submission"
in my new wife. My approach was at least some, if not
most, of the problem. I have been counseling marriages for
fifteen years now, and you would not believe how many
times I hear the "lack of submission" complaint from
husbands.
It is interesting to see the emotional place this brings all
the participants during a marriage counseling meeting. I
hope you can follow this. While the husband is telling me
his great crisis, both he and his wife are hopeful or worried
because I, being a man, wonder what my position on this
"Biblical" authority might be. I'm sure it was much the
same when Jesus talked to His new disciples and listened
to them talk about casting fire down on those who would
not hear or argue who would get to be seated on His right
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side. Authority doctrine is so many times wielded by the

immature in the faith.
Understanding Biblical Authority
I was just as bad - if not worse - than all who hold to the
false doctrines of submission and control. Being a young
and a highly aggressive male, I ruled my house with
pentecostal strictness. I was the head, and what I said was
the rule. I learned that it is not the pentecostal strictness
ruling that Jesus would have us wield when we are
commanded to rule our house well.
Do we want true followers or do we want fearful
members?
My first lesson on this subject came to me on a day
where I was sure I was right and frustrated by my wife's
'ignorance and lack of submission' to her "smarter and
God-given head". She said to me, "You know, you might
be right...." Those first words shot me down as fast as
anything I could have heard. I was silent and wanted-
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needed to hear the next words. This was the first time I
could remember hearing these words and I was floored by
them. Whatever she said next had my undivided and lack
of oxygen attention (I was holding my breath).
"You know, you might be right," she said again, "And
you know... I think... if Jesus were to walk into this room
right now and say the very things you are saying, I could
hear them because I know He has my best interest at
heart."
I was shocked. I was silenced. I knew she was right, but
I didn't understand it all. I decided at that very moment to
find out what it was that I was doing wrong and how I
could win my wife's trust so as to communicate on a real
and human level. I vowed within myself to not correct her
again until she asked me for advice. I would prove to her
that I was there to serve her, since nothing I was doing was
getting through to her anyway. It took two years...
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Shepherd the flock of God which is among

you, serving as overseers, not by compulsion
but willingly, not for dishonest gain but
eagerly;
nor as being lords over those
entrusted to you, but being examples to the

flock; and when the Chief Shepherd appears,
you will receive the crown of glory that does
not fade away. Likewise you younger people,
submit yourselves to your elders. Yes, all of
you be submissive to one another, and be
clothed with humility, for God resists the
proud, But gives grace to the humble.
1 Peter 5:2-5
I know most of the control freaks stopped reading a long
time ago, but I was going to lose them anyway.
You will notice that the Bible never tells the leader to
REQUIRE submission. The 'leader' should be a person that
people want to submit to. Submission is a gift. All the
justification for this type of control is justified by words
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like, It's my job to protect the flock, and The Bible says
you should submit. The focus of a Kingdom leader is
service and death - not someone else's submission. The
moment you own or coerce submission, it stops being true
heart submission.
After five attempts at pastoring successfully or
unsuccessfully, depending on your definition of kingdom
success, I have really and truly learned one thing: if the
Lord does not build the house, we labor in vain.
I submit to you that true authority is based mainly on
intimacy and truth. In our current Americanized ministry
model, in many cases, "authority" is established through
intimidation, fear, tradition, obligation or coercion.
Declaring our authority in an attempt to get people to
submit is against the very spirit of Jesus' teaching on
Biblical authority.
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Chapter 10
The Silver Train Dream
The silver train was a dream I had that marked some
very important points about this walk of freedom and
relationship. I removed the longer version of this dream
and placed it on my blog.
The Prison Camp
I found myself a prisoner in the world's largest prison.
We were all encamped in a fenced area stretching for
untold miles. I could tell I was dreaming. Something about
this place just didnt feel right. It was as if we were all
under a microscope, very small, and part of something
much larger than this life.
My only friend was Sam. He and I shared pain and
poverty. We didnt really care for each other, but there was
some comfort having another human to share the struggles
with.
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One day, armed guards forced Sam and I to a

rehabilitation station. Rehabilitation was a new word for
us; we never thought rehab was an option. As we moved
closer to what looked like a large fenced basketball court,
the atmosphere and lighting seemed to change. The
darkness that seemed evident even in noon-day had faded
some.
There were voices coming from the skies like the voices
rats might hear while being examined by their scientists.
For the most part, the voices were unintelligible, but
occasionally I would have a glimmer of their meaning. I
somehow knew they wanted us to get out of prison.
Escape to Destruction
Escaping the open prison, I saw the rest of the world as
they lived. The cities of the world were in ruin. They
looked like the pictures you would see of a planet after
nuclear destruction. Most of what I saw were destroyed
inner cities. The people left behind were all part of
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different gangs who robbed and fought with each other and
protected the others in their gang.
I knew my old friends would be glad to see me and hear
of the torments of prison. But when I arrived, it seemed my
extended absence and new clothes drew so much fear and
suspicion that I knew if I tried to stay, they would
eventually kill me, so I headed back to the likeliest place of
survival, the rehabilitation. They just never saw someone
dressed so well and definitely have never seen someone
return from the camps so it had to be a trick.
The Rehabilitation
I went back to the fenced area hoping not to be punished
for my escape but somehow knowing that I probably
wouldnt be. I met up with Sam again as we lost each other
when I went back to see my old friends. We concluded the
same thing, that our only possible chance for survival must
be the rehab.
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He seemed almost happy, still scarred from terror and

hardship, but now with hope and not as much fear. He was
carrying a book; I was handed one of the same. It was the
color of soft gray stone. We would read this book and gain
great insight into many wondrous things. The books were
magical, and somehow we knew that when we finished this
one, an endless supply of these books awaited our reading.
We began to be made free and strong in our hearts as we
read them, and the light we gained helped us to see
sunshine like we had never known. As each moment went
by and as we read more of the books, we moved further
away from the fenced area and were led to a new area just
beyond the fenced rehab. The new area had a thick row of
very green trees, and beyond the trees, a railroad track that
stretched farther than the eye could see in both directions.
The Silver Train and its Foundations

The tracks were a similar color as the books but a lot
more silver and shinier. Just as we approached the tracks,
we heard and felt the most fearful noise we had ever
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experienced. The sound of a coming train was so great and

so fearful that it shook the ground miles before it reached
us. We lunged back wildly from the tracks as this train
would surely kill you if it passed too closely. Its speed was
astonishing and its glistening silver body was impressive.
It too, was the color of my book but far more polished. Its
power and speed seemed almost supernatural and caused
great fear to all who came near. I felt released of my pain
and fear now that it had passed.
Immediately, we saw just beyond the tracks a hill
sloping down that was totally set of rounded stones. The
stones were of different sizes but all the color of soft gray.
We stood at the top of the tracks looking down at this hill
and noticed that it was the foundation for the train. In both
directions as far as we could tell, the hill went on and held
this train as strong as any foundation could. Walking down
the hill, we noticed the rocks were cemented in place and
could not be moved.
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We were suddenly left alone. Finding ourselves freer

than we ever thought possible, we walked a little lighter
and taller. We slowed at the bottom of the hill as
momentum from its steepness allowed us to rest. Sam sat
down to rest and ponder all the things he had learned. I was
feeling a little tired but decided rather than stop, Id run.
Feeling wildly alive the moment I began to run, I began to
hear a song in my head. As I began to sing along, I was
enlightened and energy like I had never known flooded my
being. Angels began to sing with me, like a choir joining
me from the sky. The rest happened faster than you can
read the account.
I ran at the speed of a fast runner but when the song
began and the angels joined in, I began to run at the speed
of a racehorse and started singing as loud as I could. I
found myself passing the land of the stones and entering a
quiet little neighborhood. The song became louder with
each scene, my pace became faster while my joy and song
became wilder. Now running the speed of an airplane, I
passed the other scenes faster than my eyes could record
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them. Then I warped to the speed of light, then the speed of

Angels. Suddenly, I found myself at the edge of creation.
At this place I stopped, turned to behold all of the created,
where I swallowed it, and awoke.
The interpretation
Part one and two were pictures of our enslavement to the
world and its systems: being mistreated, rejected, enslaved
and imprisoned. Even freedom from extreme bondage still
leads us back to hopelessness and a world of selfish
society. It shows that unless a person finds real freedom,
even our cultures and societies offer unreal fellowship,
mistrust and fearful agendas.
Part three was the beginning of freedom, which comes in
the form of the Word of God. The Word of the Lord
sometimes comes through the Bible, but many times
through people or direct revelation from God. That is why
there is an endless supply of these books as the words of
God are not limited to a single book, doctrine or
denomination. For even Jesus said, You think these books
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lead you to eternal life and they 'point' to me, but you won't
come to me.
Next, was the train and its tracks. The tracks represent
time and history and the fearful train represents organized
religion or the church system, looking like the book in
appearance but having the polish of man's hands so to
appear shiny and appealing to the eyes or flesh. The stones
that the tracks lay on are the believers whose bodies and
souls the train had run over and built its foundation upon.
If you were to make it past this place, there are
opportunities that are supernatural, but if you choose to
stop and read only, you will not know. Sam enjoyed his
book, but did not press past his weariness and pleasure to
see what more there was if he had kept going.
Angels await your joining into the song of heaven and
help you to fly and become more than human. To fly past
this earth, this age, and even to transcend the creation to
become like the Creator Himself in nature and abilities.
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Chapter 11
Ears To Hear
There is a cry from the wilderness that is not heard but
by a few. Jesus would make many calls ending with the
phrase, "Those who have ears to hear, let them hear what
the Spirit says...." There are people who are ready for the
calls of God, and at different stages in their lives, are ready
for the higher callings and dealings of God.
Paul had trouble in his letters writing to an immature

crowd and as he desired to tell them more, saying, "I desire
to tell you much on this subject but your hearing is dull...."
It is possible to learn how to increase our hearing. The
Scripture is clear: we should grow into the deeper things of
God as believers, and we should press higher and deeper
all the time.
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Truth
We are warned about stopping on this journey and
possibly falling back by not pressing forward. There are
things we can do to "hear better" and signs we can look for
to see if we are still "in the faith". Jesus said to his
disciples, The reason you do not know these things is
because you do not desire to know the truth. The first
thing we must do is be willing to hear the truth. This is not
as easy as it first appears. Almost everyone on this planet
wants to hear things that will make them happy or make
their lives better, things that do not require self-inspection
or work. Truth, on the other hand, is not concerned with
your comfort, and is what it is.
Comfort and Ease
Our modern comforts and sound-bite society have
numbed us from wrestling with ideas or reason. A person
who desires truth has a "teachable heart"; it's a heart that
says, No matter how it is said, no matter who says it, and
no matter what it may do to me or my lifestyle, I desire to
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know truth. I have been counseling for many years, and it

is very rare to find this kind of person.
It comes down to two problems: sin and/or unbelief. If a

person is trying to hold on to some sin or idea and is
unwilling to let it go, he cannot hear or "enter". If he does
not trust God or is in unbelief, he will be unwilling to hear
and change because he is not sure God will be there for
him to replace his solutions, doctrines, lifestyle or
pleasures with something of equal or greater value. "If I let
this go, will God take care of me? If I stop this sin, will He
replace it with something better?" The heart of a sinner is
stubborn and self-fulfilling. There is no room for truth in
his heart, so truth is not heard, and the faithless/unbeliever
is too afraid to embrace truth as it frightens him to trust an
invisible promise.
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Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being

left us of entering into his rest, any of you
should seem to come short of it. For unto us
was the gospel preached, as well as unto them:
but the word preached did not profit them, not
being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
For we which have believed do enter into rest,
as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if
they shall enter into my rest: although the
works were finished from the foundation of the
world. Hebrews 4:1-3
Simple Solution
Faith is the answer to this dilemma of blindness and
embracing of lies: faith in the form of trust, to trust that if
we jump from this tree of self-preservation and comfort,
God will be there to guide us and not let us die.
Going Deeper
If you are not willing to do the things in this chapter, it is
impossible for you to understand the deep things of God or
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find anything but confusion or offense when they are

proclaimed. So, if giving up your life for God is not an
option (your future, your hopes, your plans, your sins all
surrendered to God) you can stop reading here and say like
you do with most sermons, "Well that was nice" or "I know
who needs to hear that," and go on your merry way. If you
are willing to die so that you may live, then here goes....
Two Anointings
There is only one anointing, but for the purpose of this
book there are two 'types' of anointing: the grace anointing
and the personal or fruit anointing.
Anointing in Scripture is the Spirit of God. It is also
referred to as the ability or special power that God gives
His people for service or imparting revelation.
But the anointing which ye have received of
him abides in you, and ye need not that any
man teach you: but as the same anointing
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teaches you of all things, and is truth, and is

no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall
abide in him. 1 John 2:27
How God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the
Holy Ghost and with power: who went about
doing good, and healing all that were
oppressed of the devil; for God was with him.
Acts 10:38
And he gave some, apostles; and some,
prophets; and some, evangelists; and some,
pastors and teachers. Ephesians 4:11
The grace anointing comes with corporate worship or
within a person who has a gift to bring forth the glory of
God or revelation of Christ. Jesus gave this grace to the
seventy when He said,
"Go and preach, and when you preach, lay
hands on the sick and cast out devils".
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These people had not yet been born again as children

of God, and yet Jesus gifted them with special ability to
preach the good news.
He also gives a gift of ministry or anointing to those who
are called to build up the body of Christ or to proclaim the
Gospel to the lost. These gifts are many in number, but
most people have heard or been taught about the five-fold
ministry gifts that God gave to the Church for the
perfecting or maturing of the believer. These gifts of faith
or ministry are given without cost or reward for a person's
faithfulness or holiness. So then, the grace anointing is
given to prepare the way for personal anointing. It is
intended to produce the lasting fruit, for the believer to go
deeper and find the second type of anointing, the personal
anointing. The grace anointing is the taste and see; the
personal anointing is the fruit of our relationship with God,
and when we develop intimacy with God and bring forth
the fruit of a godly life, we gain the, "Well done," of God.
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He that hath my commandments, and keepeth

them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth
me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love
him, and will manifest myself to him.
John 14:21
If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you,
ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done
unto you. Herein is my Father glorified, that
ye bear much fruit; so shall ye be my disciples.
John 15:7, 8
With intimacy and alignment to the Father's will comes
glory. As we are yielded to the Father and obedient to His
guiding, He fills our life with His Word and Spirit. Those
who are filled need to be continually filled by separation,
death to self, and radical obedience to His whispers. When
we go deeper and deeper into this death to self, we find
more and more of the revelation of His Son and the next
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measure of grace to enable us to hold fast to His dealings

with us. In this season, we hear and see things in the spirit,
many of great wonder and encouragement, but then comes
the test and the death required to self to see it realized.
Always bearing about in the body the dying of
the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might
be made manifest in our body. For we which
live are always delivered unto death for Jesus'
sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made
manifest in our mortal flesh. So then death
worketh in us, but life in you. 2 Cor 4:10-12
Many who have this pruning or purging work being done

in their lives stop at the pain and retreat to more
comfortable places. The retreat does not remove the call or
the anointing or the glory from our giftedness, but it does
remove the next step in glory in our personal life. If retreat
continues, it can cause such a withdraw in our souls that
God is not actively working in the fiery press with us.
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Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man

draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in
him. But we are not of them who draw back
unto perdition; but of them that believe to the
saving of the soul. Hebrews 10:38
The Gift is to Produce Relationship
There are times when we gather together with others to
worship or when a gifted teacher teaches, we feel the
presence of God, but during private times He seems far off.
The corporate anointing is God's grace to call His people to
sanctification or surrender to His will. Without personal
surrender, there is no personal anointing and the Scripture
is fulfilled, "Ever learning, never coming into the
knowledge of the truth".
The Scripture tells us God has no fellowship with
darkness, and if we will hold compromise or darkness in
our hearts, He will not dwell there. This is one of the cries
of today's ministers. They are curious why the presence of
God is so strong when they teach, but absent from their
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homes. The gifted minister many times does not realize this
truth and assumes the anointing on his ministry is an
endorsement of his life, when just the reverse is true. The
lack of personal anointing should be a great concern and a
warning that our life is not measuring up to the call.
But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers
only, deceiving your own selves. James 1:22
There is widespread deception in the world right now as
most church-goers lead lives of compromise and sin, living
standards of worldliness that unbelievers 50 years ago
would not allow. Many of us do religious things and halfsurrender our lives just enough to feel better, but then we
go back to comfort and pleasure as soon as we can. This is
about to change. There is a call going forth for the church
to rise, to begin to pray, and to put off sin.
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No Little Foxes
"...The little foxes, that spoil the vines".
Jesus taught it was the little things in our lives that most
of us miss and that keep our hearts from being pure before
God. Since it is only the "pure in heart" who will see Him,
it is time we put off our laziness, cast down our fleshly
imaginations,
live
repentant
lives,
and
continually
surrender our hearts and hands to live in radical surrender.

Though it may take years of training, growth and grace to
grow up and to master our tongues and flesh, a surrendered
heart takes only moments and is the first call of every
believer for every day that he lives.
Pure Heart / Clean Hands

The grace message has been watered down so far that it
has become an excuse to sin in some circles, rather than the
power of God to live free from sin. Many churches and
Christians use grace doctrines to make room for their
weaknesses rather than for its true purpose--to empower us
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to be holy and free from all bondage, lies, and darkness.

All over the world, the bride is beginning to take holiness
and relationship seriously. There is an increase in prayer
and abiding, and we believers are going to be given great
power if we will move into what God is doing.
Prayer Time
My house shall be called a house of prayer. We, the
house of God, need to begin to pray - not just more prayer
but continual prayer. There is a Scripture that says we
should "pray without ceasing". This is abiding prayer,
where our life and words and deeds are all prayers, where
we no longer do anything without leaning, listening and
subjecting our lives to His will. Abiding prayer,
intercession, fellowship with God, is a topic worthy of its
own book.
Two Trees
One of the foundations of the Christian faith is
repentance from dead works. This is not the same as
repentance from sin. Repentance from dead works brings
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us all the way back to our fall in the garden. When we, in
Adam, took from the wrong tree - we died. Our death came
as deception in our life, sin in our nature, and no longer
being allowed to eat of the tree of life. The cross, the
blood, and the resurrection gave us redemption from this
curse, and yet many still minister and live from the wrong
tree.
The tree of the knowledge of good and evil presents us
with the impossible task of making God happy with our
carnal works, as if we could ever cross the line of doing
enough good to counter the evil we have done or continue
to do. This is a never-ending cycle of hopeless pursuit, but
we still hear most sermons and most of today's counselors
teaching from the wrong tree. We hear the rules of the
church or the requirements for holiness taught from a
backwards place. The obedience required from a Jesus-life
is based on Love, Relationship and Revelation, not dead
rules and obedience to the letter. We have a NEW AND
LIVING WAY to please God, and it's by loving Him, doing
works based on love, through the power of our relationship
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with Him, by the power of His grace in our life. We are

now changed into the likeness of His Son by "beholding"
Him, not becoming good people through obeying the
Book.
With hearts turned toward God in absolute surrender and
with obedience to His leading and separation from sin
based on faith and love, we are transformed into those
whose nature is like God, instead of obedient followers of a
religious order. Now, rather than practicing patience, we
become patience, or instead of resisting lust, we become
God-minded and stop lusting as we see His heart and are
changed into His children.
The new covenant declares we have a new and LIVING
way. This means the life we now live, we live in reality and
life. We ALL behold Him, we ALL encounter Him in
reality not just in blind faith. This new life is a supernatural
life based on Jesus opening the Holy Place for all of us to
go in and meet with God. New life obedience comes from a
heart of love and faith, not fear and rules. We must always
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offer the RULES and REQUIREMENTS of the faith tied

directly to relationship and the power of Christ in our lives
to empower and keep us. The guides of what is sin and
what is right in the New Covenant have become to many
individuals the same as Old Covenant. What we should do
rather than hold people to the Book, is to help them be full
of the Spirit, hold them to the cross, and apply the
Scriptures as a guide to see if the LIFE is real in their lives.
The tree of the knowledge of good and evil is often
propagated and promoted through systems of control in our
organizations and in many cases we call this "church." It is
time we re-define church to help people find their way to
God instead of finding their way to a system or
organization or more rules.
Two Churches
Though there are many definitions and distinctions of
the local church, for the purpose of this book, there are two
churches. The first is the visible church, the organizations
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with names, titles, buildings, and service times, sound

equipment, songs and prayers, memberships and rules, and
statements of faith.
There is a second church. This church is made up of
people, all of them alive unto God. This is the church God
talked about that would NOT be built by hands, but is the
habitation or dwelling of God on the earth. This church is
both visible and invisible and is both in the local church
and outside the local church. Only God can know fully
who is and who is not part of this church. Some people
who we think are mighty members of God's church have
never even entered the gates of salvation. Some who we
see struggle on the fringes are some of God's faithful
warriors. Membership in this church is through faith and
"real" surrender to Jesus.
In many ways, the two churches are working together,
helping each other. And yet in many ways, they oppose
each other, warring against the will of God. When the
organization is seen as a tool and its order is led of God, it
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promotes freedom of worship, personal growth, and

activates individuals to radical faith and the work of God.
If it is not ordered of God, it intimidates the very people it
is supposed to inspire making ministry an office, exalting
people, rules and ideals above service and empowerment. It
offers rules for control and manipulation with fear as part
of everything it does. I do not know a person or church
who is not guilty of some of this. We all need to see it as a
cultural and historical curse that we all need to repent from
until we are free.
Some of the things we do as tradition are rooted in
control and propagated by fear. Many of today's doctrines
are not true doctrines and need re-evaluation. There is a
new hunger rising in the leaders of God's people to see
things change, but that change needs to begin in us. How
radical are we willing to be to have our doctrines, our
beliefs, and our control messed with, in order to see God
move in the masses?
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Chapter 12
Teaching Prophetic Living
The promises of God and the miraculous seem to be tied

to the living voice of God. What He is saying and what He
has said carry the promise and the power. Stepping out to
pursue God and His promises is hard or impossible if you
are relying on a Bible verse, but when the written becomes
the living or revealed, now you have something to walk on.
You have not His word abiding in you: for
whom he hath sent, him ye believe not. Search
the scriptures; for in them ye think ye have
eternal life: and they are they which testify of
me. And ye will not come to me, that ye might
have life. John 5:38-40
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Prophecy has become for us more than something we

hear between two songs in a worship service. It is a regular
abiding, listening for His unction, direction, and wisdom.
Stepping out on the hearing of God rather than the assumed
will of God is where Kingdom fruit is born. As Jesus said,
I ONLY do what I SEE the Father do and ONLY speak
what I HEAR the Father speak. This is our commission as
well: to learn to hear His voice so perfectly that we can
always know the will of God.
Neck Boy
My second son was always going to be an Army soldier,
from the time he was five - he was sure. He told us since a
young age that he would be in the Army and believed it
was the call of God for his life to join.
The chiropractor said, There is no way you can get into

the Army; your neck is so messed up they can't take you.
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When Michael was little, he was pushed off a second

story porch by a neighbor kid and hit his face on the dirtground. The injury caused a minor fracture in one of his
vertebrae and misaligned his neck so bad, that by the time
the chiropractor took x-rays at 14 years old, some of the
bones had already grown together and there was no motion
in them. He suffered daily migraines and had limited
motion in his neck. Years of pain medication and
chiropractic visits did not make it better.
At 17 years old, Michael and I were in the car and Mike

asked me, How can I get into the Army? I know what the
doctor said, but I still feel like God wants me to join. He
was very sad and confused how God could put this in his
heart and not let him do it.
I said, There are only two ways: the Army would have
to change its policy or God is going to heal you. Since it
seemed to him that the second option was more likely, he
asked, So how do I get God to heal me?
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Just ask, I said. He bowed his head right at that

moment and made a quiet request. Then he looked up and
said, I think we need to go back the the chiropractor.
A few days later, in the chiropractor's office, I asked the

Dr. to x-ray his neck. As soon as the film was out and on
the glass, the doctor ran out of the room and started yelling
to the nurse, Get me Michael's original x-rays! Returning
with the nurse and the film, the doctor put them side by
side. It took no doctor to see what happened. He was so
shocked he was shaking his head and didn't speak for
almost a minute. The only thing he could conclude was,
Man, am I a good chiropractor or what?
The Chiropractor asked me how this was possible and

we told him the story. His neck was and still is repaired,
with no sign of ever having had a fracture and all the bones
are separated with a healthy and perfect space between
each bone.
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The Chiropractor gave me copies of both x-rays, which I

have shown to other doctors, and none of them can explain
it, except that it must have been a miracle.
Amplifiers in Heaven
Do you ever wonder why some preachers are always
yelling? From what I have seen, God's voice needs no
amplification. He whispers and nations rise or fall. He
unctions and man's life is changed forever. The
emotionalism and hype we add to His dealings are human
and God still works in spite of them, but we don't need
them. Only His voice matters.
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The Simplicity of Christ
But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent

beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your
minds should be corrupted from the simplicity
that is in Christ. 2 Corinthians 11:3
Depending on your level of religion, the simplicity of
Jesus being our life, the Father being our focus, and the
Spirit of God being our companion is lost with religious
service. We have exchanged simplicity for religious
obedience to doctrine and dead works. The training of
Spirit-led living has been replaced by a teaching church,
one who is ever-learning and never able to come to the
knowledge of the truth (2 Timothy 3:7).
The simplicity of Christ is an ever-abiding heart, one
whose mind and passions and obedience are stayed on
Him-- a real moment-by-moment encounter that is ever
increasing and always taking you deeper into the Spirit. It
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is not just a principled life based on the Bible, but a

desperate heart that is abiding and conversing. It is being
led and transformed by living encounters with your
Creator.
Breaking With Tradition

The most amazing thing about this topic is almost
everyone believes I am talking about someone else. They
think, This can't possibly be me because my thinking or
my church are the true. Let me begin this section by
saying that we are ALL in need of refining, and unless you
are face to face with the Father and walking in the fullness
of Sonship and power, this section applies to you.
Beware lest any man spoil you through
philosophy and vain deceit, after the tradition
of men, after the rudiments of the world, and
not after Christ.
Colossians 2:8
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Making the word of God of none effect through

your tradition, which ye have delivered: and
many such like things do ye. Mark 7:13
This chapter is usually the hardest part for people to
fathom, that we might be doing church wrong or even
worse, we might have some ways and traditions we hold
dear that are actually contrary to life in Christ.
There are people in almost every religious group who are
hungry, who want God so bad, and who do have ears to
hear and are willing to throw off tradition and religion to
move deeper into God.
Taking Down the High Places
We find in many places in Scripture, that when the
presence of God was brought back to His people, it was
always necessary to take down the high places, meaning
the king or priesthood went in and destroyed the temples,
the places of worship, and the idols that the people had set
up during the times when they had rebelled against God.
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And Asa did that which was right in the eyes of

the LORD, as did David his father.
And he took away the sodomites out of the
land, and removed all the idols that his fathers
had made. And also Maachah his mother, even
her he removed from being queen, because she
had made an idol in a grove; and Asa
destroyed her idol, and burnt it by the brook
Kidron. 1 Kings 15:11-13
And even though we are commanded to honor our

fathers and mothers, we are never to tolerate idolatry or the
religious tradition of our fathers.
Today we are seeing the same thing happening. There is
a move for the hungry to run into God and away from old
systems and man-made rules of religious order. There are
millions of believers who are feeling it is time for
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something fresh and real and alive. Even in the most lively
of church services, the cry for more is evident.
Much of what we have in place in the local church for
order and training is either old tradition based on old
religious systems, or in some cases, doctrine modified just
enough to keep people from growing and finding their
place in God. In some local church organizations, it is even
worse; the techniques of mass-hypnosis, mind control, and
power games are as bad as any cult Ive ever seen.
Principle of Tradition vs Glory

We know that Jesus taught and Paul warned that
traditions sown into a group have the potential to kill the
very life of God. We are warned to find and destroy the
unfruitful doctrine at every turn.
I marvel that ye are so soon removed from him
that called you into the grace of Christ unto
another gospel: Which is not another; but
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there be some that trouble you, and would

pervert the gospel of Christ. But though we, or
an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel
unto you than that which we have preached
unto you, let him be accursed. As we said
before, so say I now again, if any man preach
any other gospel unto you than that ye have
received, let him be accursed. Galatians 1:6-9
How Do We serve & Not Offend

I have heard it said, that we need to do more preaching
of the real and not focus on the counterfeit. The best way to
detect a counterfeit dollar is not by studying all counterfeit
dollars, but by knowing the real so well that we can discern
error when we see it. This is a very good principle and one
I mostly agree with, which is why this book focuses mostly
on the glory and the promise.
What we also need to be careful of is the potential for
people to fall back into the lies of religion once they see the
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truth because no one is making it clear enough that those

things are dangerous. Let us remove or take down the high
places so as not to become rebound by them.
Speak unto the children of Israel, and say unto
them, When ye are passed over Jordan into the
land of Canaan; Then ye shall drive out all
the inhabitants of the land from before you,
and destroy all their pictures, and destroy all
their molten images, and pluck down all their
high places: And ye shall dispossess the
inhabitants of the land, and dwell therein: for I
have given you the land to possess it.
Numbers 33:51-53
What we have seen in almost every revival in history is
the local leaders take control of the fire, build
denominations and buildings around the life, and
eventually kill it, having only buildings and people left,
with no fire.
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Tearing down and plucking up is something I believe is a

necessary part of restoration of God's presence. Great care
needs to be taken in this process because it is very likely, if
it is not done correctly and with the right heart, you will
breed rebellion and feed woundedness in the hearers. Many
people will be able to see what's wrong in any person or
group of people, but we are only changed by beholding
Him, not by beholding error.
Ok, Just One More Try Church

Twenty five years ago as a young street preacher, I met a
young man zealous for God and ministry. This young man
was also a youth pastor. After a time of preaching on the
streets with him, we returned to his home church. While
standing in the church lobby, the Spirit of God came on me
and I prophesied to him that he would be the next pastor of
this local church and God would do great things. Then I
laid hands on him and prayed for him.
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A few years ago, we moved back to my wife's

hometown. Our first intent was to bring this new life to
our family and begin building people. In great hope and
expectation, I met many times with my old friend who is
now the pastor of his local church. He was so open to this
new life and radical faith that the first time we talked, we
both wept openly at a restaurant salad bar. Since the time I
had prophesied to my pastor-friend, the church had grown
to house many members.
Once we settled into our new town, we started a home
meeting right away and opened our doors to praying twice
a week. Most of the friends that came to our home were
ones that we had known for 25 years. Being that many of
these same friends were also members of the pastor's
church, we modified our meeting times so as not to
conflict with the church's scheduled meetings. We didn't
want to give an impression of competition.
We also never took up personal offerings and never
spoke evil of the pastor. Spending personal time with the
local pastor and knowing he was traditional in his church
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views, I spoke words of honor and respect and expected

those in his church to do the same.
I say all this to say that after 25 years of talking to the
churched, it is very easy to offend the relationship and
divide over the smallest of issues. We took extra care as to
not unintentionally offend.
I invited my pastor to attend, but that never happened.
We were confronted five different times by the elders of
the church, suggesting we close down our unauthorized
prayer meetings. My disagreements with some of his elders
began to reach the ears of the pastor and some concern was
brewing as to what I was saying. There were those who
would see my influence with some of the people of the
church and wanted to know where my allegiance lay. Was I
faithful to the vision of the church and obeying the pastor
in all things? As you can tell by my stories and
experiences, my responses didn't go over very well.
There is a false doctrine that holds men back in the
American church -- one of leadership, office, and
submission. Its words and principles seem to come from
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Scripture, but its fruit is control, restriction, and lifeless

Christianity. When used as God intended, these things
bring freedom, life, and true covering.
Even though neither the pastor nor his leadership ever
bothered to come visit our home, we spoke often. I told the
pastor that the systems that he had in place were
systematically killing the very life of God in some of these
people. The voice of God was restricted in his place, and
the life of God in his people was nonexistent or at least
invisible. In the early times and talks, the pastor agreed
with all of these things. I was unwilling to endorse this
process or system, but I loved him and these people and
was willing to help bring life back to a church that used to
be alive.
After two years of struggle against the religious culture
and the traditions, the conversation changed and it was
clear to us all that my radical definition of discipleship
really didn't fit the direction of this fellowship. That's a
nice way of saying, Get out.
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The last time I was there, I sat and looked over the
crowd and could see prophetically the desperation and
lifelessness of the people. My pastor-friend was making the
congregants laugh and telling some exciting Bible story.
He went back to appeasing the crowd, giving them classes
instead of glory, and messages instead of discipleship. I
was sad and pray for him till this day. I love him; I am his
friend.
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What Does it Look Like
Lively Stones
The house begins to fill with people. Both rich and poor
show signs of true friendship and greet one another without
the need of an official greeter. Everyone is welcomed and
feels right at home because the casual atmosphere of care
and coffee and cookies leads to a meeting where both
young and old "lean in," hungry for God, with some
already beginning to pray.
The room begins to quiet and someone begins to pray

out loud. All other voices go silent, and then the hush turns
to a soft whispering, agreeing with the words of the one
leading the prayer.
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The formula? God.

The plans and programs? Jesus & Jesus.
The flow? The Holy Ghost...
Jesus is invited, the Father is given control, and all hearts

feel the atmosphere begin to change. The meeting at this
point is never the same. As we all listen, the Spirit of God
directs the flow. Sometimes one person teaches, sometimes
many people do. Each person takes a part in teaching or
instruction and adding to the next. Some have questions,
and at times they are addressed, and other times they are
not.
The focus is always the same - the Father's will.
Emphasis is strong on surrendered hearts, abiding in His
will, and learning to walk in practical, real encounters with
God in victory and holiness.
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"Tonight we are learning about sonship," and as the

teaching begins, lives are set free as the word of the Lord is
spoken under His anointing and everyone seems to hear a
different word that is custom-built just for them, including
the speaker. Those in the room are free to share their
personal encounters with God and add words of
encouragement or testimony.
A word may come from one of the teenagers about
surrender and sonship, while another may share what
dream she had last night. Young and old are inspired and
humbled by His presence, and we begin to pray. With just a
brief word of encouragement and push to find Him in
reality, we enter into His presence through worship or
prayer.
Praying. Worshiping. Pressing. Everyone is free to
walk around the house or hide in one of the rooms while
surrendering. The room goes loud, then quiet, then songs,
then intercessory prayer. Some of the younger people begin
to cry and travail while others gather around them to help
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carry the burden. Everyone knows God is in the room and

our lives are being transformed.
After over an hour of prayer, we gather back in our seats

and ask people what they heard and what God has put on
their hearts.
"...you also, like living stones, are being built
into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood,
offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God
through Jesus Christ". 1Peter 2:5
Church Redefined
As we get closer to the end of this age, God is having
His way in the hearts of His people. The bride is making
herself ready, and God is defining His habitation instead of
it being defined by traditions and religious men.
In the past, many of the moves of God were preceded by
hearts
in
the
church
feeling
discontent,
birthing
reformation, with the end result being a new people

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gathered around a new truth or set of truths. This move is

going to be different.
One difference is the hearts of His people are beginning
to cry for more than a change in methodology or doctrine.
A hunger is rising to know and behold the heart of God.
Pastors all over the world are saying they are tired of
"doing church" and crying out for us to "become the
Church".
We need to begin to give ourselves permission to think
about traditional church differently and give others
permission to find God bigger than the box we have placed
Him in. This is a day in which we are seeing many desiring
more, while the systems of Christianity are not equipped,
and never have been, to feed the people of God.
Church Bashing
If you are wounded by the system or a church leader,
you may wish to use this book to reinforce your desire to
bash the church or to justify your anger. This is not the
intent of these words. I do believe there are leaders in
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God's house who do not bow to the systems of control and

manipulation and desire God at any cost.
I have been to places where the eldership is all about
empowering and releasing everyone to find God's call on
their lives and where the pastors use their influence to
inspire and guide lives into prayer and encounter.
Is it Better Yet?
Jesus said It is better that I leave you.
Jesus was talking about a life that should exceed the life
He was living with His friends, where He was there in the
flesh every day, providing the miraculous and teaching
from God's very table.
The life Jesus offers you as a believer is supposed to be
better. The reason we don't see the better is very few are
pressing in to get it.
Revival and awakening are already here; God is calling
you to come up. Be revival; don't wait for it. The promises
are for now and today, not yesterday and tomorrow.
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Chapter 14
Where Do We Go From Here
Three Things
The Lord spoke to me one day as I was asking Him for
direction. He spoke to me three days in a row and said the
exact same three things. He told me that if I were to be
employed by Him, I was to commit to three things as if it
were my life's very purpose, learning and mastering these
as a foundation for my life.
1) Continual Repentance Living not a perfect life but
one continually humbled by my weakness and His
greatness. Living in such a place of lowliness,
teachability and humility that even the slightest
misstep is met with a renewed surrender to His
voice and will. Walking carefully to never quench
His Spirit.
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2) Diligence in Prayer Make abiding and deep

prayer my number one priority, praying about every
decision, leaning into His voice and direction for
each step of my life. Be trained in the school of His
presence to grow up into perfect hearing and perfect
obedience.
3) Obedience unto Death Resolve to obey, serve,
give at all cost and at no regard for myself but only
for the King.
My first response was that these steps were a bit radical,
but after a few days of meditation on them, I realized they
really are what we say yes to if we come into His
Kingdom correctly.
Fellowship
Forsake not the assembly of yourselves.... In this
current season, it is easier said than done. New Covenant
standards, it is really hard to find those who are truly
assembling.
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If you will seek God as described in this book, you may

find yourself alone. You may even find yourself rejected
and persecuted, trying to tell others of the glorious life.
Start by becoming the message, and God will direct you to
fellowship. Many times your life will begin a chain
reaction in others, and you will be the leader of this new
and living way.
The new awakening we are all waiting for begins with

those who will die to see it. Be one of those. Don't just
read this book, but become the message, pray, die to
yourself.
I am hoping for the day when this book and my

experiences are so common that this kind of book is not
needed and the revelations coming from the average
believer is so fresh and alive, no man will need to tell of
such stories.
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Please join us as we press to find Him. Don't let this just

be another book. Let it be the beginning of such a radical
walk with God that you and those you know will never be
the same.
Fathering
We have moved into an age of great hardship for the
earth which is quaking and groaning. The kingdoms of the
earth are being shaken and we are possibly on the verge of
global shifts like this earth has never seen.
In the midst of these earth shiftings are coming shifts to

the Body of Christ. His people, who are called by His
name, are about to make major changes in their
understanding and walk. The final harvest has begun and
the manifestation of the Sons of God are eminent.
In all of this shifting and realigning, a very important

thing we are going to come to understand is the revelation
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of the Father's heart. The fathers will turn to their children,

and the children will turn back to their fathers.
We will no longer be about our buildings and programs,

because the true apostolic leader of God's people will be
fathering, mentoring and releasing - not correcting,
changing or controlling. The change in this one area alone
will bring such life to our churches and gatherings that it
will transform the face of Christianity.
Conclusion
Moses led a mass of humanity to free places - not to
wander free in dry places - but to first meet with the God of
freedom.
The children of Israel were met at a mountain of fire and

death by the One who would consume flesh and raise up
new life, but they would not come, rather settled for dry
and free. Let Moses speak to God and let Moses speak to
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us for we are afraid. Free they were, and yet slaves to fear,
delivered not to wander but to enter.
A land flowing, a promise given, a dream cast with

blood, and flies, and frogs, and death cast in the sand and
made real forever by the deaths of their captors.
Yet they all died, never receiving the promise.

Wandering ignorant slaves like lemmings to their deaths;
their carcasses were an embarrassment to a nation and a
lesson to us. For are we not like them? Given a promise of
flowing life and settling for wandering, dusty, freedom?
Are we brave enough to even ask these questions?
Is this American Christian life ok or enough? Is going to

church and being free from the world's death party all we
really need? Is it enough being good employees, nice
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people, and ever-learning about the Book? Are we

bordering in suffering death, teetering between fear and
salvation? Is the promise so great and the price paid so
high that we are on the verge of wrath?
Well, everyone else is going this way.
I believe that we are living on past revelations, at best, in

almost 100% of American churches. We play church, going
through the motions, while the call is still Come up and
die so that you can live. Meet God in His fiery mountain,
be known of Him and know Him, and walk like God
people (not church people).
The Other Side

We have read and heard of men and women who have
been to the other side, seen the Promised Land, walked
as grasshoppers in the land of giants, and come back with
revelations the size of watermelons. Wade Taylor, Rees
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Howells,
Maria
Woodworth-Etter,
and
Smith
Wigglesworth, to name a few, came back to tell us Come

over, there is a place for you.
The God who forced deliverance upon our wilderness
wanderers never forced them into the promise. He offered
it to them and let them die in rebuke for not entering.
Therefore, since a promise remains of entering
His rest, let us fear lest any of you seem to
have come short of it. For indeed the gospel
was preached to us as well as to them; but the
word which they heard did not profit them, not
being mixed with faith in those who heard it.
For we who have believed do enter that rest,
as He has said: So I swore in My wrath,
They shall not enter My rest, although the
works were finished from the foundation of the
world. Hebrews 4:1-3
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It's interesting how we will pay forty dollars to stand in

line for hours just for the opportunity to ride an amusement
park ride that lasts for two minutes, but we won't spend the
same amount of time to find the Creator of all things?
Let us determine to put away our flesh and our desires

and begin to DO what we were created for. There is so
much waiting for those who will seek Him.
See you on the other side, Bill
Recommended Reading
Wade Taylor Secret of the Stairs

Bill Ebert http://PowerOfAnEndlessLife.com
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