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november 1939 1830 pm
1oday was Lhe mosL dlsconsolaLe exLremely de[ecLed day ln
my enLlre llfe span 1he deflecLlon of Lhe cruel acL of
assasslnaLlon of Lhe heavenly glfLed albaLross ls maklng me dle
from Lhe lnslde Lven l aLLempLed sulclde! l can'L belleve
myself Pow l can be cruel Lo such an exLenL? 1haL lovely lovely
blrd whlch broughL Lhe hope of llfe showed up llke Lhe llghL
aL Lhe end of a long dark Lunnel Lurns lnLo ash [usL 8coz of LhaL
savage rldlculous acL of mlne WhaL on earLh was wrong wlLh
me when my flnger pulled LhaL bloody Lrlgger whlch Lurned all
cheerfulness lnLl paln and sorrow!
l wlsh my companlons shouldn'L had sLopped me when l
declded Lo end my worLhless llfe
l deserve dylng l!usL need Lo be Lhrown ouL of Lhls shlp a
[usLlfled penalLy for me
?alLs rlghLl should dlelmusL dle
Cood bye my fellow frlendsl m very sorry