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Srila Gurudeva: It is very auspicious day today because when guru is in this planet there is a relation as guru and ś i ya – disciple and spiritual master. At that time, our whole energy goes to carry out his orders. At that time we can not think soley outwardly and internally what his motive is. But today, on this auspicious day, we have a time to think

on whole life what he has done, who he was, what he wanted to teach, and why he has come to this sphere.

When Caitanya Mah āprabhu, or K ṛṣṇ a, was present at that time people could not understand of K ṛṣṇ a or mission of Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu. Internally they did not know. But when He left this sphere, when He left Navadv īpa, Navadv īpa persons (quotes verse).

Now when your Prabhup āda is not here, my ś ik ṣā-guru is not here, in our opinion. He is here. He is everywhere. He is akha ṇḍ a-guru-tattva. He is prakāś a, manifestion, of Nity ānanda Prabhu or Baladeva. But yet we are not seeing, but not seeing as instance

when K ṛṣṇ a was in V nd āvana, sakh ā , gop īs with K ṛṣṇ a, dancing in r ā sa, always in yugala-vilā se, vihara. But when K ṛṣṇ a went to Mathurā, and from Mathur ā he went to

Dv ārak ā, (the) gop īs realized something more than meeting: that is vipralambha-bh ā va.

By our sight we can mostly see him on that form that you have seen. He has told something. He has ordered something. He has given so many teachings. But now, after some days, he has left this sphere and he has gone to R ādh ā-K ṛṣṇ a yugala. Perhaps he has given opportunity to know who he was and for what purpose he has come here. He has written Bhagavad-g ītā As It Is. He has written Easy Journey to Other Planets. He has written the commentary of Ś r īmad Bh āgavatam. So many things he has done. But he wanted to do something more. But he could not do because we were not in a position and were were not so qualified that at that time he could give all these things. But now, by his grace, we all are in a more good mood to understand.

When K ṛṣṇ a went to Dv ārak ā, Uddhava came to V nd āvana. When he was taking order from K ṛṣṇ a that, "You are sending me to V nd āvana but how can I live in V nd āvana without You?"

K ṛṣṇ a told that, "Don’t think like so. I am in a very lakhs and lakhs – one part of lakhs and lakhs parts, but I am fully, solely in V nd āvana with gop īs and there. When you will

go to V nd āvana you will see that I am solely in V nd āvana with gop īs and in Vraja. I am

not in Mathur ā. I am not at all in Mathur ā. I am solely in V nd āvana

So, now today is the day when we can think more and more about Sv āmīji, your Prabhup āda. That who he was, what he wanted to give in this world. There are so many teachers and so many preachers who went to Western countries. Like Vivekananda and others, so many. And nowadays also there are so many preachers, those who go to Western countries and other parts of the world. But I think what Prabhup āda has given there, they could not give there. They have taken (something) and (put it) in new bottle they have given there. But he has given what Caitanya Mah āprabhu Himself wanted to

give this world. He has given name within prema-s ū tra.

sei dvā re ā ca ṇḍā le kīrtana sañcā re

n ā ma-prema-m ā lā g āṅ thi’ par ā ila sa s ā re

[Thus He spread k īrtana even among the untouchables. He wove a wreath of the holy name and prema, with which He garlanded the entire material world.

CC Ā di (4.40)]

As Caitanya Mah āprabhu is

namo mahā -vad ā nyā ya kṛṣṇ a-prema-prad ā ya te

kṛṣṇā ya kṛṣṇ a-caitanya-n ā mne gaura-tvie nama

[I offer praṇāma unto Ś r ī K s a-Caitanya, who is Ś r ī K ṛṣṇa Himself. Having assumed the golden hue of Ś r īmatī R ādhikā, He is munificently bestowing k ṛṣṇ a-prema, the rarest of all gifts.

Ś r īman Mah āprabhu vandan ā]

Caitanya Mah āprabhu is mah ā -vad ā nyā ya. Similarly, R ū pa, San ātana Gosv āmīs are mah ā -vad ā nyā ya. In guru-parampar ā J īva Gosv āmī, Raghun ātha D āsa Gosv āmī,

K ṛṣṇ ad āsa Kavir āja Gosv āmī, Viś van ātha Cakravartī Ṭh ākura, Baladeva Vidyābh ūṣ aa,

Ś r īla Bhaktivinoda h ākura: all are mah ā -vad ā nyā ya because they have tried to give the same thing that Caitanya Mah āprabhu wanted to give. And Ś r īla Prabhup āda, Ś rīla

Bhaktisiddh ānta Sarasvatī Ṭh ākura, sent him knowing that he is a very great personality. And he can give my heartfelt desire. He can fulfill and give in Western countries. We know that Vivekananda could not give anything to Western countries. Similarly all other preachers went there. They have given only these four things: dharma, artha, kā ma, moka – not moksa dharma, artha, kā ma, three things. Some preachers have tried to give them moka also but not this K ṛṣṇ a prema they tried to give. He went there – Alone! He went there. Perhaps guru was with him and R ādh ā-K ṛṣṇ a was also Caitanya Mah āprabhu, Nity ānanda Prabhu was with him but we could not see. We saw that he went alone. He went alone with not a single paisa with him.

I first met him in Kolatta on Ak aya Ttiy ā the establishment day of Gauḍīya Ved ānta Samiti our gurudeva Bhakti Prajñ āna Keś ava Gosv āmī Mahār āja who gave him sannyā sa

order. At that time he was not sannyā s ī, your Ś r īla Prabhupāda, he called him he came in

a g hastha vea. But I have not seen before, but I knew him by ears but not by eyes. I

think to see by ears is more valuable than seeing by this. I had heard so many times and so many things from my gurudeva. That he is a very great personality. He is a good writer and very yukti-vadi, always nirbhayāḥ, nirbhayāḥ means no fear at all. And he is preacher of satya, truth. No fear from anyone. I heard that he has written so many things in Gau ḍīya Patrika and others, Hindi Bh ā gavata Patrika and English Back to Godhead at the time of Prabhup āda – (not Back to Godhead) Harmonist. Prabhup āda has told him to give articles in Harmonist and you will have to go to Western countries to preach

Caitanya Mah āprabhu's teachings there.

When I saw him I was very much attracted to him. And anyhow I used to sit with him and talked with him and he was so much powerful in talking. At that time he used to not give lectures. But talking most influential. And when he used to do talk from Ś r īmad Bh āgavatam with meanings

ete cāṁś a-kalāḥ pu sa

kṛṣṇ as tu bhagavā n svayam

indr ā ri-vyā kulaloka

m ṛḍ ayanti yuge yuge

[All of the above-mentioned incarnations are either plenary portions or portions of the plenary portions of the Lord, but Lord Ś r ī K ṛṣṇa is the original Personality of Godhead. All of them appear on planets whenever there is a disturbance created by the atheists. The Lord incarnates to protect the theists.

S.B. (1.3.28)]

He used to give word by word explanations. So beautiful and so in good manners that all can be satisfied and they will have to agree him. So, I first saw him in Kolkata and after that he went to Allahabad. He wrote so many things in our Gau ḍīya Patrika and I used to read them so meticulously. When he came to Mathurā he told me one thing. That I was so much fearing that I should not leave this world and I will not take sannyā sa order. But I see that that fear has fallen upon me. I have read that

ś r ī-bhagavā n uvā ca

yasyā ham anug h ṇāmi

hariye tad-dhana ṁ ś anai

tato ’dhana tyajanty asya

svajan ā du kha-du khitam

[The Personality of Godhead said: If I especially favor someone, I gradually deprive him of his wealth. Then the relatives and friends of such a poverty-stricken man abandon him. In this way he suffers one distress after another.

S.B. (10.88.8)]

In Ś r īmad Bh āgavatam. Those who take shelter of K ṛṣṇa they became akiñcan ā nikiñcana and no – he become no rich and all other things. So, I used to always fear from this ś loka. But I see that by chanting and by serving here in Mathur ā I am going to take sannyā sa.

At first temples did not know him, that he is so qualified. When he took sannyā sa and went to Jhansi went to Agra and other places then he became – then persons used to know

that who he is. So, when he came to Mathur ā and from Mathurā he came to Rā dh ā - Damodara temple I was with him. I saw that he was so nikiñcana. Nothing with him. No quilt – nothing. Only a very torn quilt and after that I used to give my chadar on that and on that we used to sit and (have) conversation about R ū pa Gosv āmī and other gosvā m īs and what he is writing he used to let me see. At that time we both, in midday, we used to make chapati with our own hands. He used to do like this – and I used to put on (the) fire and then we took (chapatti). I was also with him at Delhi. He was always in writing chanting. Not a moment he (idle). In Mathurā I saw him. Always writing and thinking all these things. He has a plan at Mathur ā that I will go to Western countries and if they will permit I will make hostel’s and there, if it will be needed, I will distribute eggs, meat, wine also – and I have full faith that by taking holy name of K ṛṣṇ a in a very few days they will leave everything. And that is why he went there and in no time he spread in whole world his mission.

I see that (quotes verse).

I have not seen ā cā rya. Even Sankaracharya he took some time and he spread only in

India at that time. But he, in a few days, I think from 1968 to 1977. In this in whole India, Western countries, Eastern countries, everywhere. So many places. So many centers everywhere, R ādh ā-K ṛṣṇ a, Caitanya Mah āprabhu, Nity ānanda, he established. Not only

established, he brought very good boys, scholars, like Tamal K ṛṣṇa, Bhavananda, Brahamanda, Kirtanananda. Not only (these) – so many. Hundreds and thousands of boys. Not only boys. Also girls, women’s, children’s he brought and in shape of sannyā s ī, in shape of brahmacā r ī. All other groups of our Gau ḍīya Maha also admit this fact: that he has no guru-niṣṭha as ISKCON has. Certainly they admit and I also admit that you have so much faith and so much belief in your gurudeva that we have not so much faith. You are also very qualified persons. He collected magical one. He called all these things and he (quotes verse) gave a shape of (what) Bhaktivinoda h ākura said. We see now that we Indians and Westerns no hairs, with tiki, with mala, ladies and gentlemen’s and all devotees (are chanting):

Hare K ṛṣṇ a, Hare K ṛṣṇa, K ṛṣṇ a K ṛṣṇ a, Hare Hare/ Hare Rā ma, Hare Rā ma, Rā ma Rā ma, Hare Hare

I think in India we see that all our āś ramas are without ladies. But he has given a scope

for Western persons because if I will tell them that you should all have to be brahmacār ī

and sannyā s ī then it is so hard to preach there and at least every jīva has qualities to serve

K ṛṣṇ a. They have

janma siddha adhikā ra

birthright to serve K ṛṣṇ a. If they are ladies or females or any jīva – everyone has qualities and they have a right to serve K ṛṣṇ a consciousness.

So he has done so. According to Kali-yuga we will have to be so (broadminded, adaptable). So he has given a scope. If he has not given a scope I think this preaching is not so very much in this world. But he has given something as a common thing. He had no time at all at that time. He had preached only general things. He has given in books so

many things but he could not preach all. In bhakti we see that there is are so many stages of bhakti:

ā dau ś raddh ā tata s ā dhu- sago ’tha bhajana-kriyā

tato ’nartha-nivttisyā t tato niṣṭh ā rucis tata

athā saktis tato bh ā vas tata prem ā bhyudan ̃ cati

s ā dhakanā m ayaprem a pr ā durbh ā ve bhavet krama

[In the beginning one must have a preliminary desire for self-realization. This will bring one to the stage of trying to associate with persons who are spiritually elevated. In the next stage one becomes initiated by an elevated spiritual master, and under his instruction the neophyte devotee begins the process of devotional service. By execution of devotion- al service under the guidance of the spiritual master, one becomes free from all material attachment, attains steadiness in self-realization, and acquires a taste for hearing about the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Ś r ī K ṛṣṇ a. This taste leads one further forward to at- tachment for Ƙṛṣṇ a consciousness, which is matured in bh ā va, or the preliminary stage of transcendental love of God. Real love for God is called prema, the highest perfectional stage of life.

Bhakti-ras āmta-sindhu (1.4.15–16)]

In this world we can go only up to this. Here one thing is that bhakti is only uttam ā bhakti. He wanted to preach all these things that I am saying in Western countries also. That R ū pa Gosv āmī has given in Bhakti-ras ā m ta-sindhu, Ujjvala-n īlama i, and all his other books and Raghun ātha D āsa Gosv āmī, K ṛṣṇ ad āsa Kavir āja Gosv āmī, and all our guru-parampar ā has given this. He wanted to give all things in Western countries but he could not do at that time because time was not so much. Only 10 or 12 years he has done. So, he tried to give ś r ā ddha then niṣṭha then ruci. What is niṣṭha? We should know. We are chanting harin ā ma. We are doing all activities as

ś r ī-prahr ā da uvā ca

ś rava a kīrtana viṣṇ o

smara a p ā da-sevanam

arcana vandana d ā sya

sakhyam ā tma-nivedanam

iti pu s ā rpitā viṣṇau

bhaktiś cen nava-laka ṇā

kriyeta bhagavaty addh ā

tanmanye 'dh ītam uttamam

["Prahlāda Mah ār āja said: 'Hearing and chanting about the transcendental holy name, form, qualities, paraphernalia and pastimes of Lord Viṣṇ u, remembering them, serving the lotus feet of the Lord, offering the Lord respectful worship with sixteen types of para- phernalia, offering prayers to the Lord, becoming His servant, considering the Lord's one's best friend, and surrendering everything unto Him (in other words, serving Him with the body, mind and words)–these nine processes are accepted as pure devotional ser- vice. One who has dedicated his life to the service of K ṛṣṇ a through these nine methods should be understood to be the most learned person, for he has acquired complete knowledge.'"


SB (7.5.23-24), Madhya (9.259-260)]

s ā dhu-sa ga, n ā ma-kīrtana, bh ā gavata-ś rava a

mathur ā -vā sa, ś r ī-m ū rtira ś raddh ā ya sevana

["One should associate with devotees, chant the holy name of the Lord, hear Ś r īmad-Bhā- gavatam, reside at Mathur ā and worship the Deity with faith and veneration."

(Madhya 22.128)]

We are doing. But we should go deep in all these things. Niṣṭha. What is the meaning of niṣṭha? When all anartha go away. What is the anartha?

asat-sa ga-tyā ga, — ei vaiṣṇ ava- ā cā ra

‘str ī-sag ī’ — eka as ā dhu, ‘kṛṣṇā bhakta’ ā ra

[A Vaiṣṇ ava should always avoid the association of ordinary people. Common people are very much materially attached, especially to women. Vaiṣṇavas should also avoid the company of those who are not devotees of Lord K ṛṣṇ a.

CC Madhya (22.87)]

Those who are viayī, don’t do bhakti to K ṛṣṇ a, we should not do sanga of these persons. Those who are entangled in only intoxication, and other things, we should not do all these things.

svar ū pa-bhrama (being in illusion about one’s spiritual identity); (2) asat-tṛṣṇā (thirst for temporary material enjoyment); (3) h daya-daurbalya (weakness of the heart) and (4) apar ā dha (offenses).


n ā ma-apar ā dha, vaiṣṇ ava-apar ā dha, sevā -apar ā dha, dh ā ma-apar ā dha. These are all anarthas. In Madhurya Kadambini (by Viś van ātha Cakravartī Ṭh ākura) he has written about all these things, what are anarthas. When all anarthas go away then niṣṭha comes.

Niṣṭha means (quote verse).

We know that K ṛṣṇa is so good thing. We know that hearing of K ṛṣṇ a and chanting of K ṛṣṇ a is so good. But we can not do. But when we know by buddhi, buddhi means

wisdom, that without doing so we can not go up in bhakti. Then it is called niṣṭha; niṣṭha not buddhi. I will die – yet I will die – but I can not leave K ṛṣṇ a bhakti. This is niṣṭha. I want to do one lakh of harin ā ma as Ś ri Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Harid āsa h ākur, our gosvā m īs used to do. But we go to R ādh ā-ku ṇḍ a (and other places) and gold catches us – we can not do. So, we want to do all these things but we can not do – but we try to do – this is niṣṭha. And when ruci comes, ruci means taste, then it comes in here. And when

ā sakti comes then without doing we can not live. As if we will die if we don’t take name

or we don’t hear hari-kath ā . If a man. There are two kinds of persons. Ś r ā ddha is of two kinds. One is vaidhi- ś r ā ddha and other is r ā g ā nuga. Ś r īla Bhaktived ānta Sv āmī Mahār āja has spread vaidhi-bhakti. At that time he had no chance, no appropriate time to tell about r ā gā nuga-bhakti. He has written in his books but if he at that time told, I think at that time we were not so qualified that we could learn that thing. So he has not given. But he has shown the part that how we can by doing vaidhi-bhakti we can go in r ā g ā nuga- bhakti. Rā g ā nuga-bhakti from lobha maiyī ś r ā ddha. Greed. By greed, by hearing some Ś r īmad Bh āgavatam. If a man has greed in Ś r īmad Bh āgavatam in gop ī-bh ā va or vā tsalya-bh ā va or sakhya-bh ā va especially Caitanya Mah āprabhu has come here to give:

anarpita-car īṁ cir ā t karu ayā vatīr a kalau

samarpayitum unnatojjvala-ras āṁ sva-bhakti- ś riyam

haripura a-sundara-dyuti-kadamba-sand īpita

sad ā h daya-kandare sphuratu va ḥ ś acī-nandana

[May the Supreme Lord who is known as the son of Ś r īmatī Ś acī-dev ī be transcendentally situated in the innermost chambers of your heart. Resplendent with the radiance of molten gold, He has appeared in the Age of Kali by His causeless mercy to bestow what no incarnation has ever offered before: the most sublime and radiant mellow of devotion- al service, the mellow of conjugal love.

C.C. ( Ā di 1.4, Ā di 3.4, Antya 1.132) & Vidagdha-mādhava (1.2)]

Meaning is so deep. Especially he has come. Your gurudeva has also come. Sv āmīji has also come to give this thing. But, he (prepare) this soil, land. So that he may give this seed in that (soil). So much time he took only to make soil for seed. He has given seed but so much time passed in only to making good soil. He has told that any one (has) m ā yā vā da or advaita-vā da bhakti can not be there. Prabhup āda has also told this. But for the thing he has come down to this sphere only to give Caitanya Mah āprabhu mission:

anarpita-car īṁ cir ā t karu ayā vatīr a kalau

samarpayitum unnatojjvala-ras āṁ sva-bhakti- ś riyam

What is that thing? I have told perhaps so many times but again I want to say. And that was the mission of Ś r īla Prabhup āda also. That:

anarpita-car īṁ cir ā t karu ayā vatīr a kalau

samarpayitum unnatojjvala-ras āṁ sva-bhakti- ś riyam

unnatojjvala-ras āṁ is gop ī bh ā va. Not svakīyā -bh ā va of Dvā rakā but parakīya-bh ā va of Vraja. Caitanya Mah āprabhu or Sv āmīji has not come to give this thing. unnatojjvala- ras āṁ is of Ś r īmati R ādhikā. Caitanya Mahāprabhu has come to taste these things, not to give to others. unnatojjvala-ras āṁ sva-bhakti-ś riyam. sva means R ādhik ā. R ādhik ā is praying:

ś r ī-r ādh ā yāḥ pra aya-mahim ā kīd ṛś o vā nayaivā -

svā dyo yen ā dbhuta-madhurim ā kīd ṛś o vā madīya

saukhya cā syā mad-anubhavata kīd ṛś a veti lobh ā t

tad-bh ā vāḍ hya samajani ś acī-garbha-sindhau har īndu

[Desiring to understand the glory of R ādh ār āṇī’s love, the wonderful qualities in Him that She alone relishes through Her love, and the happiness She feels when She realizes the sweetness of His love, the Supreme Lord Hari, richly endowed with Her emotions, ap- peared from the womb of Ś r īmatī Ś acī-dev ī, as the moon appeared from the ocean.

CC Ā di (1.6) & CC Ā di (4.230)]

Caitanya Mahāprabhu was K ṛṣṇ a. He came in Caitanya Mah āprabhu's form, having stolen the inner bh ā va and complexion; He came in the shape of Caitanya Mah āprabhu, Lord Gaur āṅga – Ś acī-nandana. Why Ś acī-nandana? Because He was very dear to His mother and mother was so humble and kp ā lu (merciful). So, Caitanya Mah āprabhu, I think, R ū pa Gosv āmī is telling: ś acī-nandana that Ś acī-dev ī is so much dayā lu , merci- ful. So her Son must be so kp ā lu as a mother (is). And He will give us, as a mother gives her breast to her son, so Caitanya Mah āprabhu will give that prema to us. So he is pray- ing to Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

He is not at that time K ṛṣṇ a. (He is) K ṛṣṇ a but in the form of Ś r īmati R ādhik ā. R ādhik ā is also so much merciful; more than K ṛṣṇa. Rādhik ā is whole kp ā of K ṛṣṇa in the form of

R ādhik ā. So much merciful.

So here, ś acī-nandana means so much merciful. What He will give? He can not give three things. What Ś r īmati R ādhik ā tasted r ā dh ā yāḥ pra aya-mahim ā how K ṛṣṇa is beau- tiful, how He blows His flute

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So mañjar īs are: rupa mañjar ī, ananda mañjar ī, rati mañjar ī, lavanga mañjar ī, and all mañjar īs, vinode mañjar ī, kamala mañjarī

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That you should all enter in his priya bhakti, r ā g ā nuga bhakti, and prema bhakti and in this life also you should go, enter in this bhakti realm.

(Speaking Hindi)

Gaura premānande!

GBC: Ś ̄pad N ār āyaa Mah ār āja has satisfied (everyone) by breaking his vow to speak in Hindi and he has spoken in English so that we can all relish very much his glorification of Ś r īla Prabhup āda. And he has reminded us of what Ś r īla Prabhup āda's mission is actu- ally. He is no less broad-minded than Ś r ī Caitanya Mah āprabhu. No less broad-minded than Ś r īla R ū pa Gosv āmī. No less broad-minded than his Guru Mah ā r ā ja Ś r īla Bhaktisid dh ānta Sarasvatī Ṭh ākura. And that is that he has come to give the world the greatness gift of all. And Ś r īla N ār āyaa Mah ār āja has ended and spoken very clearly that the real purpose is to develop love of God. Ś rīla R ū pa Gosvāmī has taught:

sevā s ā dhaka-r ū pea

siddha-r ū pea cā tra hi

tad-bh ā va-lipsunā kā ryā

vraja-lokānus ā rata

[The advanced devotee who is inclined to spontaneous loving service should follow the activities of a particular associate of K ṛṣṇa’s in V nd āvana. He should execute service ex- ternally as a regulative devotee as well as internally from his self-realized position. Thus he should perform devotional service both externally and internally.

CC Madhya (22.158) & Bhakti-ras āmta-sindhu (1.2.295)]

That we have to understand how to render devotional service and all of the practices which must be followed in order to qualify for love of K ṛṣṇa. Ś r īla N ār āyaa Mah ār āja has spoken that Ś r īla Prabhup āda wanted us to, and does want us, to develop the higher stages of love of K ṛṣṇ a – practicing r ā g ā nuga-bhakti eventually.

So, how will this be done? Ś r īla Rū pa Gosv āmī has described how this should be done. As a s ā dhaka we should not think ourselves prematurely advanced but we should follow the practices of s ā dhana bhakti. And what is the most important principle of s ā dhana bhakti? Guru-p ā dasaya: firm faith, love, and devotion to the lotus feet of the spiritual master. And, as he has said, in all of the Gau ḍīya Mahas they appreciate so much how in ISKCON there is this firm faith on the lotus feet of the spiritual master. Why? Perhaps because, as you have said, Prabhup āda came with a magic wand. Because we know ex- actly what we were and we did not understand what he was; but we knew very well what we were. We were the most fallen persons. We did not know the name K ṛṣṇa, we did not have any good qualities whatsoever, but he acted like a touchstone. By his association, as San ātana Gosv āmī has said, bell metal can change into gold something by the touch of

the alchemist's stone. So, in the same way, by his contact those with very base qualities have become transformed. It was done by his desire. He had such a strong desire, he had so much love for Ś r ī Caitanya Mah āprabhu and so much appreciation for giving Caitanya Mah āprabhu's mercy, that he worked day and night tirelessly. His Guru-Mah ā r ā ja gave him his order and he had absolute faith in that order and, as Prahlāda Mah ār āja said, "I don't want liberation, so long I can serve my Guru-Mah ā r ā ja, I don't want liberation."

We had one Prabhup āda's disciple speaking. He was Prabhup āda's servant. He said Prab- hup āda was forcing the servants to force him to preach more and more and they could see that by doing this preaching he was gradually getting weaker and weaker and going to- wards death, but he was saying to them, "I want this blessing. I want this blessing that I should die like a soldier in the field."

When Prabhup āda was here in 1977 he was so weak that he could not lift his hands by himself. So, he was staying now in the room, he called me late in the night, maybe it was 11:00 o'clock at night. He said, "We have tried everything and all medicines have failed me. So, now I think that K ṛṣṇ a wants me to go back – so kindly let me go back." So, as a disciple, how could I say, "Yes"? Because as Narottama d āsa h ākura sings: the disciple breaks his head on the stone thinking of the separation of his Guru-Mah ā r ā ja. So, I was thinking, "What to do?" How to convince Ś r īla Prabhupāda that he should not give up his will? Then I said, " Ś r īla Prabhupāda, the problem that V nd āvana is a place to come to die. Your Guru-Mah ā r ā ja didn't tell you to stay in V nd āvana. He told you to go to the West. So, I think that the reason you are dying is because you are in V nd āvana. You should go to the West. I said, "If you go to the West" and then I quoted the Bhagavad-g ītā verse – I quoted it in English. That, if you die, K ṛṣṇa told Arjuna, "If you die, you will to the heavenly planets and if you live you can enjoy the Earthly kingdom." So, I said, "If you live then you can preach so much and if you die, so what, you are always in V nd ā- vana. Wherever you go is V nd āvana."

So, when Prabhup āda heard this, although he was so weak, he sat up like this. And he said, "Actually, K ṛṣṇ a has spoken through you." He said, "Let us go to the West and we will preach and I will die like a soldier in the field. And if I die in New York," he said, "you will have to bury me on the roof of the building because there is no place on the street, there are only buildings, so you will have to bury me on the top of the roof."

So, this was Prabhup āda's mood that we saw. And I only say this: that, what is the qualifi- cation, what is our qualification for entering r ā g ā nuga bhakti? Surely the best qualifica- tion we have is the preaching mission which Prabhup āda gave us because without that preaching, what are we? We are not very good s ā dhus, we fall asleep while chanting our japa, we become tired while reading, we commit so many mistakes and offenses. But I think that, a word that Prabhup āda told: One day I approached him in Bombay and I said Ś r īla Prabhup āda, "You are sending us to the bank, you are forcing us to do all these ap- parently worldly acts, so I don't think I can quote Ś r īmad Bhagavad-g ītā as well as I can quote the Bombay municipal laws."

So, Prabhup āda says, "That is not very good. You should be able to quote Bhagavad-

g ītā."

And I said, "But you are giving us all these things to do."

So then he said, "For so many lifetimes, you have spoiled your life. Now somehow you have come to K ṛṣṇ a consciousness, so I am requesting you, that in this lifetime you sacri- fice it for the mission to Caitanya Mah āprabhu. If you give your life whole heartedly in the service of Ś r ī Caitanya Mah āprabhu then I promise you that whatever you are lacking Ś r ī Caitanya Mah āprabhu will personally come and cover for you and take you back to Godhead."

So, guru-p ā dasraya. What is the mission of Ś r īla Prabhupāda? It is a two-fold mission. One the one hand it is to spread K ṛṣṇ a consciousness all over the world with all of our en- ergy and on the other hand it is to personally become K ṛṣṇa conscious ourselves. You can not spread K ṛṣṇ a consciousness if you are not K ṛṣṇa conscious. Why was Ś r īla Prabhup ā- da successful? Because of his K ṛṣṇ a consciousness. Because he had so much love for Ś r ī Caitanya Mah āprabhu and the lotus feet of Ś r ī Ś r ī R ādh ā-K ṛṣṇa.

So, unless we get that love our mission will not become successful. Some scholars who are close to our movement they have written in a book that the success of the K ṛṣṇa con- sciousness movement will depend on whether the members of this society can actually develop love for R ādh ā-K ṛṣṇ a. If they can not then the movement will not succeed.

So, I think that, as N ār āyaa Mah ārāja has told us, that Ś r īla Prabhup āda will act as

will guide us through the vaiṣṇ avas, through our godbrothers. He will guide us and help us in all respects, if we are progressive, to go to the highest stages of K ṛṣṇa bhakti. If we don't do that, Prabhup āda said, the guru is not so pleased to take money from the disciple as much as to see that the disciple is dancing in spiritual life.

So, I think, I recall, Prabhupāda got one letter from Girir āja Mah ār āja. And Girir āja Mah ār āja wrote that: when the ā rati is being performed to R ādh ā-R āsabihari sometimes I start to cry; and when I am reading your books sometimes the tears come. So I am wor- ried because I know that I am a fallen person and you have warned us not to be sahajiyā . So please tell me what is this. And Ś r īla Prabhup āda said, "Actually this is the mercy of R ādh ā-K ṛṣṇ a upon you. This is Ś r īmati Rādhik ā's mercy upon you. This is not bogus this is genuine."

So I saw how much Prabhup āda was pleased and he became very much pleased to read this letter. He was very personally pleased inside. I could see by this that he was so much pleased to know the advancement of the disciple.

So, I think we must do two things all of us who are Prabhup āda's followers –as we say R ū p ānuga there is also Prabhupādanuga. Those who are genuine Prabhup ādanugas they should do two things: that with their s ā dhana they should become more and more ad- vanced. Not to mechanically do s ā dhana but to actually develop some taste. To get some actual greed in the heart for chanting, for worshiping the deity, for serving the vaiṣṇavas. And at the same time with all of their efforts they should sacrifice their life to spread this K ṛṣṇ a consciousness movement. If we do both of these things, just like the two rows of train tracks, and as R ū pa Gosv āmī has said:

sevā s ā dhaka-r ū pea

siddha-r ū pea cā tra hi


tad-bh ā va-lipsunā kā ryā

vraja-lokānus ā rata

[The advanced devotee who is inclined to spontaneous loving service should follow the activities of a particular associate of K ṛṣṇa’s in V nd āvana. He should execute service ex- ternally as a regulative devotee as well as internally from his self-realized position. Thus he should perform devotional service both externally and internally.

CC Madhya (22.158) & Bhakti-ras āmta-sindhu (1.2.295)]

Externally we should act as a s ā dhaka and vigorously preach and internally we should try to understand what is R ū pa Gosv āmī, who is Rū pa Gosv āmī, who is Ś r īla Prabhup āda, and who are all of the different ā cā ryas in our line that they are all coming, following

R ū pa Gosv āmī who is Rū pa mañjar ī.

So, internally understanding their real identity we should try to qualify ourselves one day in some future time, whether in this lifetime or some future lifetime, to be qualified to perform pure s ā dhana pure bhajana so that when we chant there will actually be some taste, some feeling. But the feeling will come. At least we can desire that, "please let that feeling come one day." And this will actually please Ś r īla Prabhup āda. When he sees that the devotees are feeling ecstasy when they are dancing in kīrtana and there are ecstatic feelings within their heart and when they are spreading K ṛṣṇa consciousness as Ś r īla Prabhup āda did without any fear. Conquering in all directions. That the whole world should be K ṛṣṇ a conscious. Not just on the platform of kaniṣṭha mentality but on the plat- form of an advanced devotee madhyama-bhaktas and one day uttama-bhaktas. Ś r īla Prabhup āda said that Ś r īla Bhaktisiddh ānta Sarasvatī Ṭh ākura said that his mission would be successful if he could create one pure devotee. And Prabhup āda said the same thing. He said, "If I could create one pure devotee my mission would be successful."

So, I think that Prabhup āda actually doesn't one pure devotee, I think he wants many many pure devotees. So, I am simply requesting all the devotees of ISKCON they should fulfill this desire of Ś r īla Prabhup āda. That every one of them should one day, by the grace of guru and vaiṣṇ avas, become pure devotees. And that will please our spiritual master and it will fulfill the prediction of Ś r īla Bhaktisiddh ānta Sarasvatī Ṭh ākura, Ś r īla Bhaktivinoda h ākura, Ś r ī Caitanya Mah āprabhu. Prabhup āda said, "I will be satisfied if in the history books it is written that the K ṛṣṇ a consciousness movement saved the world.

Ś r īla Prabhup āda k ī jaya!

vaiṣṇ ava-v nda k ī jaya!

Gaura premānande!

Hari hari bol!

transcribed September 2012 (Devananda dasa)