MY CONVERSATION WITH A GAY MONK & ADAMANT ADVICE TO HIM MY CONVERSATION WITH A GAY MONK & ADAMANT ADVICE

TO HIM
Defender of Human Rights & Peacemaker Prophetess, Apostle, Missionary, Evangelist W O R L D W I D E WORLDWIDE QUEEN OF THE SOUTH Spiritual Advice SERIES

Angelliina Lazzar nge na a ar

In fact, we must know our Mission. We must know WHO we really are. We MUST boldly confess our Mission and fulfill It. And if we are imbued with a Special Gift from On High, with a Gift of Prophecy, we MUST Speak it Straight without a hair on our tongue, as our Orthodox Serbs say . . . . As a former Nun, myself, with intimate knowledge of the monastic ascetic lifestyle, and code of such a life; as one who, herself, gave this serious vow to God, in this wise, I do not mince my words in such a crucial discussion all night long with what it turns out to be a gay monk, in fact a non-monk. My aim in publishing this is not to expose or ridicule, betray or condemn this, all in all, sympathetic persona, who will forever remain anonymous; but rather, as My Mission is Global, to be unto the benefit of all who find themselves in similar . situations and all those seeking to live the Good Life, the Christian Life, the right and honest way. Olay! +++ xo~A +++ Angelina of Serbia

Anonymous Monk: hi Angelina : +++ Hello! ANON-monk: nop. God Bless! . . . . ~ From GREECE? . . . how are you?

from . . . .

Angelina: ahhh... NICE! even WITH all the hullaballo! I hope and pray all ends up WELL in those parts.... (country) is DEAR to us . . . +++ ANON-monk: thnx

so how is greek tonight? Angelina Lazar: aha..... not too sure... am in Ghana as a Serb, ~ just born in Canada! As for Greece, that's Greek to me! ANON-monk: hehehe so you are canadian? Angelina Lazar: kinna'-sorta' Providentially and Birth-wise. In ALL OTHER ASPECTS: NO! I'm SERBIAN! REMEMBER? . . . +++ ANON-monk: mmm yes i was talking to a serbian girl today and she asks me why i am a monk Angelina Lazar: hahaha . . . Well at least you get asked WHY you are a monk! I get asked AM I a nun! You got me BEAT on THAT ONE, Father! Well Done! Just ask her WHY SHE IS NOT! Then watch her become baffled to the equatorial horizon! ~ That's where I'll catch her and throw her back to her rightful place! No worries. . . ANON-monk: hehehe not like that she said is it coz you did not find a girl or is it coz you don't love girls Angelina Lazar: hmmmmm...... V E R Y WRONG CONCEPTION! NOT AT ALL! IT IS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!

AND ANYONE WHO THINKS OTHERWISE, TRULY does NOT understand the BEAUTY & MYSTICISM and WISDOM of the MONASTIC LIFE! +++ don't worry about her! YOU don't like girls, ANYWAYS! +++! God Bless, Father! . . . God SO Bless! ANON-monk: but she said also are you a ...? and she said that she knows lots of monks like this Angelina: HAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!! B R A V O, I SAY!! o yes. . . . you ARE a spiritual-funny one! GOD BLESS, My Brother! . . . I Like THAT! ANON-monk: hehehe Angelina: GOD truly, Himself, has the FINEST EVER Sense of Humour, people JUST don't realize.... ANON-monk: but some are really as mentioned above Angelina: and ALL HIS SAINTS! did you READ the Discourses between the 3 HIERARCHS!!! WHAT a HOOT!!! +++ I LOVED THAT! REVELLED OVER THAT! WAS ENTHRALLED WITH THAT! and CHERISHED every WORD, CONCEPT, THRASHING and BASHING! OPA-PA! (yes, tis true.... but THOSE, Father, are NOT Chosen or Called) THOSE are just THERE! . . . . I dont consider those REAL MONKS or NUNS as they are MISERABLE and are there for ANOTHER reason NOT at ALL CALLED . . . NOPE! God Calls His Elect! + + + and His Elect Answer . . . . ANON-monk: yes you are right

what do you think about gays? what is your opinion? Angelina: no, Father. They are OFF! We KNOW that as it is WRITTEN in the Bible. It is a MUTATION. Curse, not a Blessing. CANNOT be Married in the Church as the Church belongs to Christ, and God does NOT accept that. He Says So. So there is NO discussion, dispute, debate. It Just IS . . . +++ ANON-monk: u r 100% right and i am gona tell you a secret if you would like to hear Angelina: S H O O T ! . . . ANON-monk: but it is almost 2 midnight here if you are busy we can talk later Angelina: S H O O O O O T ! . . . I do not really LOOK at time , much less FEEL it! ANON-monk: hehe. ok Angelina: (had NO idea, by the way!) . . . ANON-monk: you have msn? Angelina: no... best, here! here is where I am available on MY MISSION dont use that stuff ANON-monk: it is faster there which mission? Angelina: would be too much of a burden for me to be there too..

would not accomplish anything! hmmm... I posted that today! Only thing is: it's in Serbian! Cause I'm . . . . . S e r b i a n, OF COURSE! told ya' so! gottch'ya there, Father! ANON-monk: yep ok Angelina: you're behind the 8-ball! no worries... ONE fine Sunny day, I'll finally get around to writing it in English too! when the cows come home or the cows leave home! one or the other! haven't decided which comes first.... ANON-monk: ok then i want to show you how satan works ok? Ok cannot spend such a long time waiting it is already late u r not there are you? ok then good morning to u will catch u later Angelina: ok, Father.... and here, I thought the story would be all finished (by now) and I can read up a storm! ok, till tommorrow! but be more persevering next time! hop! God Richly Bless! And keep ME in YOUR Prayers . . . +++

Kindest in Him, xo~A"S" S"Z"M (the Serbian 'Nun') ANON-monk: nun? are you a nun? Angelina: F A T H E R !!! you did NOT KNOW?!?! OHHHH! are you EVER behind the 8-BALL! you are behind the 42-nd and 88th ball!!!! . . . ANON-monk: ohhhh Angelina: Y E S ! I was in Monastery Zica 8 years ANON-monk: and you left? Angelina: from there, I went to the Spiritual/Theological Academy in St Petersburg, Russia.... but was HIGHLY INVOLVED in politics at the time to help my SERBS in the SERBIAN KRAJINA and REPUBLIKA SRPSKA as we were at war then ANON-monk: aha then now still a nun? Angelina: even though I didn't KNOW it at the time! I was WONDERING WHY everyone was calling me a POLITICIAN! I'm thinkin": HEY! DO YOU SEE THIS OUTFIT!!? OR ARE YOUR EYES SHUT WIDE OPEN! HOW COULD YOU MISS ME IN THIS THING?!?! but THERE YOU GO! they ALL called me a POLITICIAN! Voila! THAT's WHAT HAPPENS FATHER, when you DO what the Scriptures SAY! they call you a POLITICIAN! but if you just READ like our BOGUS bishops, why, THEN, you're a PHARISEE, of course! so, VOILA!

I'd RATHER they call me a POLITICIAN all day long as I call them PHARISEES all NIGHT LONG! Voila! +++ what else? the nite is still young! . . . ANON-monk: they tried to rape me when i was a child get me? Angelina: OOOOH! FATHER! I'M SO SORRY!...Y E S ! . . . they are HORRIBLE creatures! A M A Z I N G you still became a MONK! and what is your rank/position? in the Church? ANON-monk: for the meanwhile just a monk they tried 3 times to do that every time a different person Angelina: O GOD ALMIGHTY FORBID!!! B A S T - R D S !!!!! they will GO STRAIGHT TO HELL! HEADFIRST! WITH NO PAUSE OR FLINCHING! HORRIBLE CREATURES! GODLESS! WITHOUT CONSCIENCE! WITHOUT HONOR, INTEGRITY, VIRTUE OR ANY INKLING OF PROPRIETY! +++ ANON-monk: at the age of 15, a relative of my mom had a dildo Angelina: it is SOOOOO BAD the situation, people CANNOT FATHOM! ANON-monk: and we were in the car Angelina: mm hmmm ANON-monk: so he puts it in my mouth

Angelina: hmmmmm ANON-monk: suddently Angelina: GOD FORBID! ANON-monk: at the age of 23 was my first time of sex Angelina: . . . + a-NON-monk: it was with a woman just to see if i am straight or what coz i wasn't feeling like other guys toward girls Angelina: . . . . a-NON-monk: and after that, a coincidence puts me with a man who tried to ... but this time satan was the winner get it? Angelina: God forbid +++ S o r r y, Father .... and?... what did you make of it? a-NON-monk: didnt get you Angelina: so how did you RECONCILE the event? WHY did it happen, in your mind? WHAT conclusions did you draw? HOW did you RESOLVE? . . . within yourself ANYTHING for that matter!?... or EVERYTHING? . . . a-NON-monk: what do you mean? that i am a gay? Angelina: I dont mean anything... I was just following your story..... Are you FINISHED? . . seemed UNFINISHED to me . . a-NON-monk: yes not yet it happened 7 time again later Angelina: wow... with the SAME one?

a-NON-monk: i was always taking the role of the woman Angelina: hmmmm did you UNDERSTAND W H Y ? or WHAT was happening? a-NON-monk: no 6 times with the same one and two separated Angelina: mm hmmm.... and were you younger, older, about the same age? a-NON-monk: i felt i was comfortable with it since the first time Angelina: and was it a forced situation or you were lost, confused, consenting ...? o.... a n d NOW? . . . a-NON-monk: it is all related to my childhood Angelina: ahhhh . . . very GOOD understanding! YES! a-NON-monk: coz they tried to convince me for that Angelina: THIS is WHY that HAPPENS then MOST OFTEN! a-NON-monk: and i did not agree Angelina: very Enlightening, Father . . . Very, Very Enlightening . . . +++ RIGHT! a-NON-monk: besides, as a monk i am not very attracted to girls i mean as a one who has a calling i wasn't yet a monk Angelina: we do NOT agree at FIRST.

but WHEN the devil G R A D U A L L Y takes us THERE where we should NOT BE, we DONT GET IT! It DOESNT CLICK! We FAIL to SEE! And we JUSTIFY it to OURSELVES! that is WHY he takes ENSLAVED-MASONS through DEGREES, so they jUST DON'T GET IT! OPA-PA-PA!!! +++ THAT is his GREAT secret! was that YOUR secret?! I got it before you TOLD ME! +++ SEE THAT? a-NON-monk: hehehehe yes it is Angelina: It is the Spirit; not ME.... +++ a-NON-monk: i skipped it as an action do you think that i am a gay? Angelina: Thank You for Sharing, Confessing & Confiding, Father . . . +++ May God Heal and Soothe, Enlighten and Protect, Anoint and Correct, Reverse and Seal! +++ AMEN xo~A"S" S"Z"M NO! I do NOT! the WHOLE concept of SEX was WARPED for YOU, Father, at a VERY YOUNG AGE!

and IMAGES and CONCEPTIONS that STAY with us from CHILDHOOD take DEEP ROOT they are EXTREMELY DEEP-SEATED and INFLUENCE US GREATLY a-NON-monk: exactly Angelina: until we REPARENT ourselves! THAT is what MOST people NEED to DO! NOT ALL PARENTS are GOOD, PROPER, IDEAL or VIRTUOUS! NOT ALL PARENTS are SUPPORTIVE, LOVING, EXEMPLARY and BEFITTING! NOT ALL PARENTS are WHAT THEY SHOULD BE and DO NOT KNOW HOW TO RAISE THEIR CHILDREN! they, THEREFORE, create DAMAGE! and often, DAMAGE to the N-th DEGREE, if left UNTREATED! a-NON-monk: 100% Angelina: THUS, we MUST turn to GOD, the FATHER, CHRIST, the SON, and the HOLY SPIRIT, as Our HELPER! +++ for our Parents are VERY FAR from PERFECTION and their SINS and VICE can WARP our CONCEPTS, SELF-IMAGE and ESTEEM, CONFIDENCE and PATH, PERCEPTIONS and BEING! +++ We, therefore, must REGROUP! a-NON-monk: it is a sort of addiction Angelina: but MOST DONT! as they just EXPECT all their parents did was RIGHT! was GOOD! was PROPER! and INFALLIBLE! NOT SO, I SAY! no one ever gave them a SPIRITUAL TRAINING COURSE on HOW to RAISE their CHILDREN! and IF THEY DID: MOST WOULD NOT PASS! +++ a-NON-monk: yes but you know? it is not only related to parents

Angelina: therefore, WE MUST DO WORK ON OURSELVES! y e s . .. I did not get there yet a-NON-monk: they are not always blamed Angelina: and have one more thing to say yes! and they SHOULD BE, is MY POINT! if TRUTH be KNOWN! they create GRAVE damage! a-NON-monk: what happened to me my parents did not Angelina: Just LOOK at all the MULTI-GENERATIONAL SATANIC FAMILIES of the ILLUMINATI! and WHAT CREATURES they PRODUCE!!! a-NON-monk: and till now don't know abt it Angelina: r i g h t . . . . I understand as the TRUST is NOT there . . . the BOND is NOT there WHY? a-NON-monk: i felt it was silly to talk abt it Angelina: because they did NOT do their JOB optimally, Father! +++ THAT is WHY you felt you COULD NOT tell them! Voila! + see! . . . NOT SO! a-NON-monk: my dear we are talking abt my case Angelina: that is YOUR VERY CORE ESSENCE, BEING and MOST SACRED PART OF YOU! sex is MOST related to spirituality! THAT is WHY Christ said the TWO will become ONE! a-NON-monk: not a session for parents

Angelina: and THAT is WHY such a STRONG BOND is created between TWO! and THAT is WHY it is CLOSER than the bond between YOU and YOUR PARENTS! a-NON-monk: heyo Angelina: for ANYONE, in general! +++ a-NON-monk: heyo plz hold on i feel as if i am in a session in the school Angelina: haha a-NON-monk: i told you Angelina: session... or confession?.. o well one in the same, I suppose.... +++ a-NON-monk: as for my case my parents are not blamed at all coz i did not tell them it is not a confession also just sharing a secret get me? Angelina: same diff a-NON-monk: ok So i skipped the action but sometimes images come to the top of my mind and reproduce the sensation as if it is a kind of addiction still here? Angelina: yes! yes, THIS is WHY Christ says to STAY AWAY from IMAGES! IMAGES in our MIND!

this is WHAT the MASTER-PROGRAMMERS DO to their subjects! it is all created via IMAGES so we must CONSECRATE things, ANOINT them, PRAY over them so they do not have NEGATIVE effects on us! +++ these are TOOLS to utilize in this wise.... for THIS purpose... I CONSECRATED EVERYTHING in my monastic cell! EVERYTHING I BOUGHT! EVERY BOOK, CROSS, ICON, etc etc I had my Spiritual Father CONSECRATE IT ALL! there are certain prayers for that! so I just brought EVERY ITEM and NEW ITEM as I BOUGHT THEM to be CONSECRATED! +++ I was Very FASTIDIOUS about that NON -monk: you know? NON i did never allow them to do it for me without condoms Angelina: +++ wise... NON -monk: but yet i was dying to taste the cum NON so i swallowed mine several times still here? hello Angelina: just got back NON -monk: ok NON i donno why i was so sure that i will enjoy sex with men do u have any idea why? Angelina: do you S T I L L feel the SAME WAY? NON:: which way? NON Angelina: what did you JUST SAY? . . .

NON:: yes NON Angelina: ok . . . then you should NOT be a monk. NON:: why? NON Angelina: you should JUST live HONESTLY. because that has NO PLACE in the Monastery. whatsoever. it CORRUPTS monastics. NON:: what do you mean? NON why? was it my fault? Angelina: we give a vow of CELIBACY as monastics. IF we are NOT living THAT WAY, we should, IN NO WISE, be THERE. +++ Serves NO PURPOSE. it becomes a CHARDE then no I mean: IF you STILL ENJOY having SEX with MEN, then your FOCUS is NOT on GOD and living the CELIBATE LIFESTYLE. so you should NOT be there +++ does NOT go together NON:: i mean if NON Angelina: one can SERVE GOD without being in a Monastery it is NOT R E Q U I R E D . NON:: if it happens again NON in case do you mean that i am a gay? Angelina: but IF we are THERE: we M U S T be CELIBATE. L I V E celibately.

Otherwise, we make a M O C K E R Y of MONASTICISM, itself and are LYING to GOD and MAN as we are RENEGING on our VOWS +++ NON:: so what now? NON Angelina: y e s . IF your focus is THERE - and it is T H E R E then you are NOT under Grace and NOT Pleased to Live a Celibate Life; THEN, you should MOST NOT be THERE, my dear. Definitely N O T . NON:: am i a gay? NON Angelina: you should CONFESS to your Spiritual Father And L E A V E . HERE, you do NOT ASK ADVICE. You M U S T KNOW. KNOW Y O U R S E L F . and BE TRUE to God. NON:: i am true to god NON Angelina: for He is a STICKLER when we make COVENANT VOWS to HIM +++ NON:: i said if it happened again NON Angelina: YOU MAY BE, indeed BUT IF you are NOT focused on LIVING as a celibate

and NOT PLEASED to do so, you should, IN NO WISE, be THERE. I Assure You NON:: but am i foul to allow such a thing to destroy my spiritual life!! NON Angelina: I repeat: it is NOT Necessary to be a MONASTIC to be Saved +++ that is a MISNOMER NON:: who said i am not pleased? NON it wasn't my fault Angelina: NO, NO... THAT does NOT destroy your SPIRITUAL Life! RATHER: DECEITFUL LIVING destroys a Spiritual Life NON:: so what? NON plz tell me do you think that i am a gay? or what? Angelina: so IF the MONASTIC VOWS are: POVERTY OBEDIENCE & CHASTITY, then, we MUST Uphold All 3. OTHERWISE, WE MUST BE GONE. +++ as otherwise, we are trying to DECEIVE God, and THIS ,He Sees! REMEMBER, when the Philistines STOLE the Ark of the Covenant? NON:: will you plz answer my question? NON Angelina: and laid it down before their god Dagon?! God SMOTE THEM IN THEIR PRIVATE PARTS!

It was SUCH AN ABOMINATION to Him! a-NON-monk: will you? answer my question? Angelina: That was a COVENANT with Israel that He had a-NON-monk: oh my lord Angelina: and He remains TRUE to His Covenant - EVEN when WE DO NOT! I DO understand you . . . a-NON-monk: you talk to much my dear Angelina: I had a VERY HARD TIME deciphering WHAT TO DO when I discovered these bishops are BOGUS! a-NON-monk: i am asking a specific question and yet you are opening a non stop chat Angelina: I thought: EITHER I RESIGN or THEY MUST DEFROCK ME! ONE OR THE OTHER MUST OCCUR! AS I CAN, IN NO WISE, PLAY A DECEITFUL GAME, when I KNOW WHO and WHAT they ARE! a-NON-monk: that is not fair Angelina: so then I thought: better THEY GIVE ME THE BOOT, so I WAITED FOR THAT! As it is ON THEM! a-NON-monk: will you stop and answer me? Angelina: for I DID THE RIGHT THING to BOOT OUT OUR MASONIC BOGUS bISHOP! +++ a-NON-monk: it is almost the sun rising and you are still talking and talking Angelina: but in THIS CASE, YOU MUST DO THE RIGHT THING: WHICH IS TO LEAVE. AND DO NOT THINK YOU ARE LEAVING YOUR SALAVATION! N O !!!!

YOU ARE LEAVING A LIE! TO LIVE THE TRUTH! and NOT DEFAME or DECEIVE GOD! which is IMPOSSIBLE! a-NON-monk: good bye Angelina: but He will Honor that YOU ARE BEING HONEST and TRUE and that you REFUSE to EVEN TRY TO DECEIVE HIM OR MAN! and that is a GOOD THING! a-NON-monk: goooooooooooooooooooood byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye Angelina: NOT an EVIL thing as you surmise. . . a-NON-monk: you don't stop talking? what is that? i asked u a specific question u did not answer it Angelina: I just READ IT now I was NOT finished. a-NON-monk: and you keep on writing and writing Angelina: Y E S . You did NOT FIGHT IT BACK and FIGHT IT OUT! you are STILL under that SPELL and CURSE a-NON-monk: no need to say all these words Angelina: and are NOT winning in that spiritual battle a-NON-monk: i know all what you are saying Angelina: I am not being rude and do not at all mean to be hurtful, no.... Truly ANON-monk: and it is not easy to restore the brain Angelina: I am just trying to help you discern that you should not be there as your focus is not there you are obsessed by this ANON-monk: coz all images are in the subconscious

Angelina: s t i l l . . . RIGHT! TRUE! ANON-monk: great Angelina: YES, I Agree. . . . ANON-monk: then Angelina: Verily, Verily... it is NOT.... ANON-monk: you did not understand me yet Angelina: but is a Mighty Battle..... Indeed +++ ANON-monk: coz you keep on talking and talking by your own Angelina: I am Listening . . . ANON-monk: it is a discussion not a session of preaching plz Angelina: I was just not finished. I ALWAYS go back up to read what I missed. I am just Fastidious +++ ANON-monk: after wasting i donno how much of my sleeping time in preaching me? we are discussing and not preaching is it true? Angelina: nooooo... it was NOT a waste of time ANON-monk: it was Angelina: rather, a recouping of time. no. ANON-monk: coz i know all what you were saying but it is easy to be outside the battle and preach 1000s of hours put yourself in my shoes you have a monastic call do you leave it for such a foul subject? *fool so!!!

Angelina: YES, I DO! I put myself in YOUR shoes. I ALWAYS practise THAT! that is WHY I am saying: it is NOT an EASY decision. But it is the RIGHT One. +++ I had to go through the SAME..... kind of decision..... and it was Harder for me to TAKE OFF THE HABIT than to PUT IT ON! even though I was from CANADA and a place that does NOT WEAR HABITS! . . . They are rather EXTREMELY PECULIAR in our neck of the woods...... do NOT WORRY your SOUL so..... just DO the RIGHT thing . . . . GOD will BE WITH YOU, not AWAY from You, Rest Assured! +++ that is what He wants YOU TO KNOW.... ANON-monk: the right thing is to fight against the nature Angelina: but you are NOT! you are REVELLING in it! +++ yes it turns out. but YOU CAN FIGHT IT! with PRAYER ANON-monk: i did not get you Angelina: and DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP about it. a-NON-monk: am i a gay? Angelina: KNOW that GOD LOVES YOU and UNDERSTANDS ALL THE CONDITIONS that put you through that to have you think in that manner . . . ANON-monk: plz asnwer me specifically Angelina: just DONT LIE to Him in your Living and to Man. THAT is ALL I am saying. . .

a-NON-monk: am i a gay yes or no? Angelina: it is NOT harsh.... or condemnacious. just R E A L . I am saying: BE REAL. REAL in your FAITH and WALK in GOD. ANON-monk: heyooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Angelina: let us not PRETEND we are what we are NOT. ANON-monk: heyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo am i a gay yes or no? Angelina: YES. I said: Y E S . it turns out you ARE. a-NON-monk: and what is a gay? Angelina: but I am saying: DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP about it. As it is NOT YOUR fault, per se. It is just UP TO YOU to counter it. Voila. +++ a-NON-monk: what is a gay? Angelina: aha. that is ONE who sleeps with a man and/or LIKES to sleep with another man if he is a man. who DOES SLEEP or LIKES TO SLEEP with one of his OWN sex. THAT is WHAT. a-NON-monk: so i am right? i felt some feminine feelings after that Angelina: Y E S . YES....

Y E S ............ you ARE. ANON-monk: ok Angelina: there is a BLOCK in your PERCEPTION, my dear. as I have repeated it again and again, yet you keep not hearing/seeing it. it is D E N I A L . but WORRY NOT. UPROOT Worry. and TOTALLY CLING to CHRIST. HE can turn anything around . . . ANON-monk: can we make a deal? Angelina: ANY situation, ANY reality, ANY dilemna. . . ANY.... SHOOT!... but you dont even HAVE to SAY!... I already KNOW.... +++ so THERE, OF COURSE! Sealed. with a Kiss. the Kiss of Christ. ANON-monk: didn't get you Angelina: with Agape Pure Love +++ I Told you it was a Confession +++ ANON-monk: can we make a deal? Angelina: behind, behind the 8-th, 88-th & 888-th ball.. ANON-monk: can we?

Angelina: meaning, YES, I will keep your name out of it! it is between God and YOU! Voila. ANON-monk: i have something to say Angelina: ok.. let's do it your way: ok, WHAT is the deal? speak! ANON-monk: do you agree to become my spiritual mother and follow me up concerning this issue? Angelina: I Already Am by the Grace and Providence of God +++ My Honour . . . . No Worries..... xo~A"S" ANON-monk: i said my spiritual mother do you agree? Angelina: I heard you . . . . again... no worries...... as God said: "I AM" . . . . ANON-monk: ok so Angelina: it is MORE than AGREE; it IS what IS. . . +++ a-NON-monk: until now i am still a gay right? Angelina: Y E S , RIGHT. ~ Was it CLEAR this time? . . .

g-y a-NON-monk: a gay from the feminine side a gay from the feminine side isn't it? Angelina: Y E S . It IS. and since God Said. which was Before YOU Heard It. + ANON-monk: which is? Angelina: back a few hundred lines . . . ANON-monk: i wont do that i still have almost 3 hours to sleep them Angelina: you needn't. but you asked. so there, you have it. ANON-monk: ok then i am your only son now right? Angelina: ok.... but if you utilize more hours for vigil and prayer than sleeping, you can BRAK the HABIT! Excuse the pun . . . . +++ Angelina: actually, NO. I have MANY others who do NOT KNOW I am their Spiritual Mother. A Whole Nation of them . . but such is Life . . . +++ A-NON-monk: am i the only gay among them?

Angelina: p e r h a p s. but most probably NOT! +++ ANON-monk: uff can i tell you something? can i? Angelina: S H O O O O O O o o o o o o o O O O O O T ! . . . A--NON--monk:: i donno why i feel happy when i see or hear someone calling me gay A NON monk any explanation? Angelina: Y E S ! You are GAY! And WANT CONFIRMATION of THAT! it is at the same time, a RELEASE and RELIEF for you! I told you: you are NOT focused on MONASTICISM. It is MOST NOT FOR YOU! +++ so you must NOT pretend it IS. and YES, you can STILL Save your Soul . . . +++ ANON-monk: but tell me plz after all is it related to my childhood? or since i was born!! so!!! still here? Angelina: to your CHILDHOOD. Yes. Still here . . . ANON-monk: related to what happened to me? Angelina: For ALL that God made was GOOD. VERY GOOD.

ANON-monk: aha Angelina: so the problems are created from SIN: our OWN or OTHERS' . . . . then, we must clean up the mess! like with generational family curses..... A-NON-monk: so since that time i was a gay or now? Angelina: Y E S . Related to WHAT happened to you . . . +++ ANON-monk: since that time? Angelina: it was a P R O C E S S . Gradual, I told you... So it would NOT be Noticed or Spiritually Discerned. THAT is HOW the devil operates MOST effectively +++ ANON-monk: and why i did not agree with them? i mean to do that for me? Angelina: because you were NOT gay. and INSTINCTIVELY KNEW it was w r o n g and improper ANON-monk: but i have had the desire Angelina: even though you could NOT explain any of it ANON-monk: and i was afraid Angelina: that is a PHYSIOLOGICAL thing. They KNEW that would be the CASE! THAT, itself, is NOT sinful. IT was the whole COMBINATION that WAS . . and IS . . . +++ ANON-monk: so i wasn't gay at that time?

So hello where do you go? hello Angelina: NO. You were NOT at the time.. It P R O G R E S S E D into that as it ALWAYS does. . . . ANON-monk: so i became stepperly a gay? Angelina: step by step, Y E S . A-NON-monk: then why when i was putting the condom for the guy the first time i was boiling from excitment? so!!! Angelina: he introduced you to it. and that was your FIRST experience. you were YOUNG and IMPRESSIONABLE and and your SIGNALS were CROSSED! ANON-monk: who introduced me? plz few more minutes will you focus with me? Angelina: WHO was your FIRST encounter? A--NON--monk:: a guy A NON monk it was recently Angelina: THAT is WHO. A--NON--monk:: ok A NON monk and why while putting the condom i was impassioned to put it in my mouth? Angelina: so be SURE nott tto TARRY iin tthe monastterry.. so be SURE no o TARRY n he monas e y As that is NOT for you. Your HEART is NOT in it, MUCH LESS your MIND. +++ ANON-monk: where is it then?

Angelina: on THAT. MEN. and having SEX.

ANON-monk: who? Angelina: so WHAT are you DOING in the MONASTERY, pre tell? . . . NOT your PLACE! you need to GO! and NOT TARRY there . . . ANON-monk: where to? Angelina: h o m e . to A HOME. ANYPLACE you will call HOME. WHEREVER first comes to YOU. THAT is WHERE. THEN you GO FROM THERE and ADJUST ACCORDINGLY. A--NON--monk:: and stay a gay? A NON monk Angelina: N O . But, gradually STILL fight it . . . ANON-monk: so i can fight it here Angelina: step by step . . . backwards. +++ NO. ANON-monk: why? Angelina: You must have CLARITY to be there. And ONCE you HAVE THAT, IF you are Called and THAT is WHAT you wholeheartedly WANT, THEN and ONLY T H E N you GO! - N O T BEFORE. +++

ANON-monk: so now what i am? so!!! ok bye Angelina: the s a m e . ok..... nitey-nite. God Bless +++ _______________________________dawn breaks _______________________________ dawn breaks NEXT DAY:: NEXT DAY ANON-monk: hiiiiiiiiiiii Hello heyo hello Angelina: +++! ANON-monk: hey Hello hey are you here? Angelina: yes, back! I am here SOLEY on MY MISSION, Panteleimon, not just for chatting. while I am working away.... BEST & GOD BLESS! +++ Kindest, xo~A"S" ANON-monk: ok catch you laetr hello again Angelina: +++ ANON-monk: how are you now?

am i disturbing you? so!! no answer? i want to ask you for advice Angelina: SHOOOOOOT! +++ A-NON-monk: thx first are you sure that i am a gay? Ok thx Angelina: Y E S ! ANON-monk: 100%? Angelina: and you MUST ttake offff tthe ttiittlle "MONK".. and you MUST ake o he e "MONK" and you MUST LEAVE tthe Monastterry.. and you MUST LEAVE he Monas e y PLAY NO GAMES wiitth GOD.. PLAY NO GAMES w h GOD YES. I am SURE. And it is ONLY the devil who makes you UNSURE. You MUST FIGHT IT. But you DO NOT and ARE NOT. You MUST NOT CONDEMN YOURSELF and NO ONE ELSE SHOULD. Butt THAT iis NOT tthe pllace tto FIIGHT such a tthiing.. THAT iis a PLACE TO GO when we have ALL OUR Bu THAT s NOT he p ace o F GHT such a h ng THAT s a PLACE TO GO when we have ALL OUR DUCKS IIN A ROW and DEDIICATE OUR BEST TO GOD!! +++ DUCKS N A ROW and DED CATE OUR BEST TO GOD +++ Watch to Correct this ASAP. And DO NOT TARRY . . . Kindest, xo~A A-NON-monk: was it my fault that i am a gay? Angelina: we are NOT talking about FAULTS, neither CONDEMNATION. There is NO PLACE for that at all in Christian Life. We are talking about WHAT WE MUST DO to CORRECT the WRONGS done unto us. and THAT is ALWAYS the BATTLE! ANON-monk: then why i should handle the punishment and leave the monastery? Angelina: ahhhh, no!

that is NOT punishment AT ALL: that is JUST BEING REAL! As tthe MONASTIIC LIIFE iis NOT FOR YOU!! As he MONAST C L FE s NOT FOR YOU iitt makes a MOCKERY off MONASTIICIISM.. makes a MOCKERY o MONAST C SM and tthatt iis NOT FAIIR fforr ANYONE,, and ha s NOT FA R o ANYONE norr iis iitt RIIGHT,, no s R GHT norr iis iitt HONEST,, no s HONEST norr iis iitt REQUIIRED.. no s REQU RED iitt iis allso NOT ttrryiing tto DECEIIVE God,, whiich iis off PARAMOUNT IImporrttance s a so NOT y ng o DECE VE God wh ch s o PARAMOUNT mpo ance +++ +++ ANON-monk: why? Angelina: no punishment at all!... YOUR MIND and HEART are NOT THERE, my dear! not at all! not in the least! THAT is WHY. ANON-monk: who can judge and assume that this person can be in the monastery or no? and who told you that my mind is not there? Angelina: it is CLEAR. YOU just need to be CLEAR on that. It is for NO ONE to JUDGE, I have said. But you MUST have CLARITY. ANON-monk: but i want to be sure who i am in order to skip it Angelina: you must GET REAL and stop being in DENIAL. Have a REAL HEART TO HEART with God. do some RESEARCH on WHAT GAY IS to help you gain C L A R I T Y . . . but even then, your heart is not in it, no matter what. . . so you are JUST THERE. and but should NOT be THERE. . . serves NO purpose . . . ANON-monk: why?

who said so? so!!! ok thx Angelina: GOD. the vows are: POVERTY, OBEDIENCE & CHASTITY. You have one of three covered. So it is NOT befitting for YOU. That is all. ANON-monk: who siad it is covered? if i am seeking to know myself in order to be stronger that means something wrong? Angelina: no no.... not there. THAT is a place where we go ONCE we KNOW ourselves and we DEDICATE ALL WE HAVE TO GOD. It is a LIFESTYLE for GOD'S CHOSEN who can LIVE THAT LIFE and have DECIDED TO DO JUST THAT! It is NOT for those who DO NOT KNOW THEMSELVES, do NOT KNOW what they WANT or WHO THEY ARE, REFUSE TO LIVE THAT LIFESTYLE or CANNOT. IT makes NO SENSE and makes a MOCKERY out of the MONASTIC LIFE and does NOT fulfill THEM or SERVE God. IT is just BOGUS and SENSELESS and a SHEER WASTE of TIME, EFFORT, and a LIFE! +++ ANON-monk: i never was sure that i am a gay but all what i knew is that i adore the life style of the monks Angelina: you ARE. and EVEN if you WEREN'T, the MONASTIC LIFESTYLE is STILL NOT for YOU. Your HEART and MIND are NOT THERE at all! +++ ANON-monk: and i was feeling deep inside that i have a call Angelina: I know... you may ADMIRE IT, indeed. It LOOKS GOOD from the OUTSIDE, but it is MOST NOT FOR YOU. that is OK it NEED NOT BE

it is ANTI-NATURAL and is NOT REQUIRED for Salvation. Spiritual Fathers and Mothers should REALLY STOP PEOPLE from entering monasteries if it is NOT for them, and NOT RUSH THEM to make their VOWS! that HURTS them and is MOST NOT HELPFUL! then they have SERIOUS ISSUES trying to RESOLVE having MADE A VOW and going another PATH! A-NON-monk: i will never go to another path Angelina: but if the SPIRITUAL FATHER/MOTHER: ABBOT or ABBESS was DOING THEIR JOB PROPERLY, this NEVER would have happened again and again . . . they are MORE concerned with other matters than the SPIRITUAL LIVES of their CHILDREN! NEITHER are they COMPETENT to be in THAT position... THUS, such situations ARISE... for MANY! NOT just for YOU! +++ but YOU must deal with it! and get over it.... truly and NOT just YOU! ANON-monk: i will Angelina: I MUST TOO . . . . ANON-monk: and in the monastery Angelina: GOD SO BLESS! + + + ANON-monk: where god is Angelina: God is Everywhere, My Dear.. and FIRST AND FOREMOST: IN THE HEART! +++ do NOT be fooled He is ONLY in the monastery! ANON-monk: he is Angelina: not at all! . . . He is NOT JUST THERE! ANON-monk: i know but there i am exclusevly for him

Angelina: NO, NO. . . You are NOT EVEN THEN Exclusively giving yourself to Him. so DO NOT PRETEND YOU ARE. it is OK. He says . . . +++ A-NON-monk: i know coz i have had this conflict it was before and i decided to stop it when i took the descision to be a monk again Angelina: (it was a mistake) but can be corrected and needs to be... it's alright ANON-monk: and now it is back coz the unconscious mind is bringing images again Angelina: if MORE people MADE THAT CORRECTION, Monasteries would be MORE what they SHOULD BE! +++ yes. so CLARITY will COME. ANON-monk: and has no answer Angelina: THEN and ONLY THEN should DECISIONS be MADE. Voila! +++ ANON-monk: but now i have the answer with your help so i can start fighting but before!!! Angelina: AMEN +++ A-NON-monk: i was afraind of both genders whom shall i prevent? men or women!! if i smile for a man

why did i do that? and also the same for a woman Angelina: right. you should have CLARITY now on that. A-NON-monk: if i talk to a man why a i talking to him? Angelina: you need to do SOUL SEARCHING and STUDY the matter right. ANON-monk: no need anymore but i would like to ask you if you allow me Angelina: shoooooooot! (then I must go) A-NON-monk: am i 100% gay? Angelina: no. ANON-monk: then what? Angelina: you must work on yourself . . . then SEE what IS. and CAN BE. right now, there is NOTHING ELSE as you crowded it out, out of default ANON-monk: ok but which gender i have to be aware of? so!!! Angelina: men, of course. A-NON-monk: sure? so i assume now that i am a gay? so!!! Angelina: I have repeated that again and again but YOU GET OFF ON THAT to SAY THAT.

I told you: YOUR MIND and HEART are NOT IN THE MONASTERY. SO LEAVE. +++ A-NON-monk: i am fully here now and since now if you tell me to leave the monastery you will be judging me. And you will be responsible of this judgment infront of the lord. Angelina: O STOP YOUR DAMNED NONSENSE! YOU ARE EXTREMELY IRRESPONSIBLE AND CRAFTY! YOU ARE BOGUS! AND NO MONK! NO ONE TAKES UPON YOUR SINS BUT YOU! WE ALL NEED TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR OURSELVES AND OUR OWN SINS! I DONT CARE TO JUDGE YOU OR WASTE MY TIME WITH YOU! I VALUE MY TIME ON THIS LIFE AND SPEND IT WISELY, NOT WITH MANIPULATIVE BUGGERS, LIARS, AND BOGUS MONKS, NUNS, BISHOPS & PRIESTS! BE OFF WITH YOU! BUT YOU ARE LYING TO GOD, MAN AND YOURSELF. AND FOR THAT: YOU WILL RESPOND: BE SURE. +++ S"Z"M ANON-monk: hello hey ok i just wanted to greet you and know how you do today Angelina: +++. Yes, Well, Thank You. In Him, Verily, Verily . . . +++ ANON-monk: i miss talking to you and thx for your words and for your time also our god is the god of the living, not of mortals and he can make out of stones sons for abraham

you are a good person ready always to help people in your own way Angelina: To His Glory +++ He just wants us to be REAL and HONEST and TRUE. THAT is the thing . . . a-NON-monk: and i appreciate that and i am so happy to know you Angelina: don't mention it. We are all Obliged to be Real Christians; not just talk about it. It comes in the Doing . . +++ ANON-monk: it is an honor for me 6:23am Angelina: Glory Be to God.... +++ Kindest ~A ANON-monk: doing needs time we are all filled with memories Angelina: y e s . . . . we just must TURN TO HIM and ALLOW Him to work on US . . . THAT is the thing... and sometimes, that requires HUGE TRAVAIL to get there ANON-monk: our unconscious minds are filled with images from all kinds Angelina: otherwise, we JUST WILL NEVER be MOLDED.... ANON-monk: what do you mean? Angelina: so HUGE TRIBULATIONS are NOT ALWAYS a BAD thing. ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER TOWARD GOOD for those who LOVE God and work according to HIS PURPOSE +++

Indeed . . . so yes, OTHERS MUST NOT JUDGE. OR they ONLY JUDGE themselves . . . but if ONE PURPOSELY DECEIVES and PRETENDS and ACTS the part of what they are NOT, God has NO TOLERANCE for this, please be advised. We have a CHURCH FULL of such bogus bishops..... and they are DESTROYING our Church to SMITHERINES! and INDEED, Already HAVE . . . . +++ A-NON-monk: well i am not one of them and i am responsible of what i say Angelina: No, I was just saying that God is the one to MOLD US... FORM US if we only ALLOW HIM TO. and that is a GOOD thing. A-NON-monk: maybe in time you will know who i am Angelina: but if we DONT - I am speaking IN GENERAL - then, He has NO TOLERANCE for ACTORS in the Church... HIS Church +++ . . . 6:28am A-NON-monk: but i am not you misunderstand me if i wasn't suffering i wasn't to share it with you no one say about himself that he is a gay Angelina: no worries about that . . . I understand and do not judge you I am just saying what God tells me to SAY as THAT is WHAT I am Obliged to Do. I told you: I, TOO, went through GREAT TRAVAIL... when I realized these bishops were all BOGUS and I KNEW then: EITHER: I let THEM defrock me OR

I must RESIGN as THIS is a MOCKERY! and I CANNOT BE OBEDIENT to THEM and GOD at the same time! They have INFILTRATED the CHURCH and have DESECRATED and CORRPUTED it! I told you: it was HARDER to TAKE OFF THE MANTLE than PUT IT ON! EVEN TODAY.... I said EVEN TODAY: I STRUGGLE WITH THAT as I GAVE A VERY SERIOUS VOW to GOD and TO GOD, I CANNOT LIE. and so.... ANON-monk: so do i Angelina: I do NOT KNOW... I AM NOT CONVINCED I have God's Blessing to get Married. Not only that, but BY NOW, I KNOW HOW FALLEN MAN IS and really DO NOT BELIEVE there is anyone WORTHY. I SEE VERY CLEARLY what they have fallen to and am PLUM, NOT INTERESTED, if you want the GOD-HONEST TRUTH FROM ME! +++ so DO NOT FEEL I judge you or do NOT understand. Yet STILL, we MUST do the RIGHT THING. ANON-monk: dear i am sorry plz forgive me Angelina: and I am ALL FOR GIVING PEOPLE THE WAIVER ("RAZRESENIJE") to LEAVE the Monastery and stop STRUGGLING with themselves, and YES! take that UPON MYSELF to FREE THEM! In Jesus' Name, AMEN! +++ As their spiritual fathers and mothers did a PATHETIC JOB and were MOST MOST SELFISH to RECEIVE them when they were NOT READY!!! and that is SINFUL and WRONG

ANON-monk: not all who are in monasteries are bad Angelina: so BE FREE in JESUS + + + the SPIRITUAL NIVOU, my dear, is VERY, VERY LOW even to the point of being PATHETIC! There are ONLY a few EXCEPTIONS and ALWAYS have been and believe me, THEY are SUFFERING, too ANON-monk: i know Angelina: as those ALL around them are NOT CHRISTIAN, NOT VIRTUOUS, NOT REBORN and DO NOT HAVE LOVE +++ ANON-monk: all humans are suffering Angelina: ~~~> AGAPE LOVE . . . 6:36 am ANON-monk: we are born in suffer Angelina: JESUS gives us Peace. HIS OWN. THAT is WHAT we NEED. and if THAT is NOT in the Monastery, it is SENSELESS to be there. OLAY! +++ ANON-monk: good point! Angelina: but Jesus sends Us the Comforter and Fights Our Battles for Us! So We Prevail ... Many are the afflictions of the Righteous, but GOD delivers them from all! (Ps 34, 19). ANON-monk: but we have to fight in our turn to deserve what he gave us as a priviliedge Angelina: we actually DONT DESERVE.... It is ONLY by His GRACE that we are SAVED. through Our Faith ONLY . . . ANON-monk: but when we have faith

we have to fight 6:41am Angelina: Y E S . But we are NOT deserving. ONLY OUR FAITH makes us WHOLE and GOD'S GRACE. We are NEVER Deserving . . . +++ ANON-monk: and if we don't fight what are we gona gain? 6:42am Angelina: yes, we MUST RELY WHOLLY on HIM. + + + I guess, that is what you call "FIGHT" but WITHOUT Him, we can do nothing. so in essence, it is more FULLY RELYING ON and SURRENDERING to CHRIST +++ THAT is the CONCEPT A-NON-monk: he said so Well as for me i told you that i am trying hardly 6:45am Angelina: well . . . . no, you're not. but all the same: don't try it by YOURSELF. GIVE YOURSELF TO HIM IN ENTIRETY! +++ SURRENDER TOTALLY TO HIM. that is the BIGGEST LESSON of all I learned in Christianity. +++ and we can most of all, NEVER learn it if we do not go through GREAT TRAVAIL for us.... it is JUST THAT HUGE a Lesson . . . +++ and VERY FEW will make it through those Doors they are what I like to call SECRET doors... and coming out through the other side is what has MOLDED us as we WILL MOST NOT COME OUT THE SAME. +++ Best & God Bless, P! I must go now..

Kindest Regards in Him, And Prayers for Your Every Herculean Victory! +++ xo~A"S" S"Z"M 6:47 am ANON-monk: well in my turn i give you holy kisses and i am proud to know you forgive my weakness you will also be in my prayers 6:51am Angelina: A Most Humble Thanks, P... God Richly Bless, Heal, Comfort & Soothe ALL the Pain you have been through and wrongdoing and unrighteousness done unto you by others +++ May the Holy Spirit take over and Transform in All Its Healing Capacity. GOD. RICHLY. BLESS, my Dear. . . . +++ Remember: WORRY NOT! Just GIVE yourself to HIM in your ENTIRETY! And LEAVE THE REST UNTO HIM with FULL FAITH and NO DOUBT! AMEN +++ xo~A"S" . . . ANON-monk: have a great time kisses

Angelina: +++. ANON-monk: no kisses from your side? Angelina: +++! In the Holy Trinity.... Indeed... xo~A"S" x- means spiritual kiss o-means hug that's tucked away in my SIG. ANON-monk: aha ok so i accept it gladly with honor to know a new child of god who is touched by him be holy my dear for our lord is holy Angelina: A m e n +++ We Try . . . xo~A"S" ANON-monk: amin holy kisses i will leave now coz after a while we have a prayer and i need to set my spirit ready for it Angelina: +++ AMEN, You Do. . . As Do We All . . . ANON-monk: Amin ----------------------------------ANON-monk: gd morning u hello Angelina: +++

ANON-monk: how are you today? so !! Angelina: Well, Thank You. Please just MESSAGE ME when you have something to say as I am here SOLELY on MY MISSION and MY MISSION is GLOBAL and for the BENEFIT OF ALL: not ONE-ON-ONES. I only have SO MUCH TIME on this Earth. And have MUCH ON MY PLATE and many BOOKS STILL TO PUT OUT and FILMS to EDIT. Please be advised and respect this. I do not just spend my time anyhow as you might surmise. TAKE the ADVICE I gave you and RUN WITH IT! GOD SO BLESS! +++ Kindest in Him, xo~A"S" ANON-monk: sure my teacher sorry for disturbing you Angelina: +++ no worries.... God Bless! +++ xo ANON-monk: you are such an adorable person. so i don't know what to call you. you tell me what you want me to call you. will you tell me plz? so what can i call u? Angelina: God's Angel or just Angel . . . that might work . . . +++

ANON-monk: my angel? Angelina: "OUR" angel, they usually use.... MY MISSION is GLOBAL. +++ Best & God Bless! xo~A"S" ANON-monk: but i want to call you something related to me and not global. Angelina: well . . . then, best GLOBALIZE your Understanding. Then, it will be Befitting! Best! +++ xo~A"S" ANON-monk: so tell me what? Angelina: angel will have to do . . . ANON-monk: my angel? Angelina: o u r angel . . . which would include YOU! Best! xo~A"S" ANON-monk: ok

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ZIIVELII!! + + + xo ~ AS Z VEL + + + xo ~ AS And again, I say, the CASSOCK and MANTLE do NOT SAVE! It is, rather, our SINCERITY in STUDYING and ADHERING to the World of God. It is Studying the Scriptures and being Obedient to the Lord, not in trying to deceive Him or others, by living a lifestyle that is not suited to us. Nor was it meant for us. All in all, all the priests I know are too afraid of losing their rank and habit, and so conform and listen to their bogus Masonic bishops. And will, therefore, partake in their destiny, which, in no wise, will get them to heaven. They are hirelings, and not true sherpherds of their flock - Beware. Rather in, NOT fearing to lose the habit, and losing it oneself, if need be, In the pursuit and defence of the Truth will save us, rather than retaining it - Please Be Advised. . . . Please, in Jesus Name, understand this once and for all. For Our Salvation will depend upon it during these pre-apocalyptical times . . . A M E N + + + xo ~ AS A M E N + + + xo ~ AS