The Old Age Of Youth

Soon after my daughter was born, I subconsciously changed from who I had been in
the past. I was at the young age of35 at the time. It was then that I completely
stopped drinking copious amounts of adult beverages (I was, well, a heavy drinker,
by definition- but only for about 20 years). I started exercising for hours daily. My
diet consisted of essentially everything not made by a human for a change. This
behavior I implemented upon myself was not self-centered in any way from the
perspective of acknowledging my individuality, or to display myself to others in any
way. I wished to accomplish that which I had not so far in my lifespan. And my
daughter may have been a catalyst for this. My love for her infected me.

As I approached the age of forty, I found myself looking within myselfeven more so.
I began listening to those silent voices that I had disregarded in the past I now
regret. And discovered I had much more to do that was more impactful than what I
had done, or was doing, at the time.

As a result, I left a verylucrative job with intent. I started writing- fueled by

undefined intrinsic passion. I began holding more doors for others. The ego I had
had before this occurred, which was completely delusional and the size of Asia,
became recalibrated and condensed. I no longer get angry. I have not located
conscious hate within me for many years now. At the same time, I find myself
misdirected, depressed, afraid, and often lonely from abandoning friends who were
those from my past, and question this metamorphosis I created with intent.

This is my midlife crisis- that continues with relentless persistence:

A midlife crisis has been associated and acknowledged in Western countries in the
world, and this time frame in one’s life is the least explored period due to its
perceived dullness that exists in the human lifespan. In the U.S., the existence of
the midlife crisis has been associated with our focus on our culture’s youth as being
the ideal lifespan period. Yet midlife crisis is recognized in at least 80 other
countries. It occurs to obtain compensation.

Many others believe the crisis does not exist, and is ratherattributed to amplified
life stressors, for example. While debatable, this period of time that such a crisis
exists may fall between the ages of the 30s to the 50s. Depression associated with
this crisis presents itself in one in their mid 40s of their age.

A crisis may be defined as an emotional state of extreme doubt and anxiety as one
reflects on their past successes, followed by what such a person desperately desires
to accomplish in their future. It is a turning point for an individual that consists of
incredible pain, distress, and often other unexpected dysfunctions. It is a period in
one’s life that consists of reflection and self-assessment. Often, one in such a crisis
find themselves searching for unclear goals, as they regret what they have not done
so far. Often, the one in a midlife crisis prefers isolation from others. At times, such
a person makes desperate attempts to re-acquire their youth.

Behavioral changes likely occur with one experiencing a mid life crisis. This may be
necessary as one becomes determinedto accomplish certain things that they now
view are more worthwhile than what they have done in the past. The behavior is
often impulsive. The one in a midlife crisis consistently focuses on life’s meaning
frequently- and a strong desire to do something different due to their discontent for
what they have done in the past. This is a period of deep re-assessment for those
in a midlife crisis. How the individual expresses their crisis is not dependent on
their income or ethnicity as well. Yet likely their complexes are rather overt.

Often, the midlife crisis consists of those at this age authentically striving for new
and bonafideambitions as they realize that success as defined by them in the past is
entirely void of happiness or fulfillment. Their most notable feeling or emotion
often is a strong sense of regret for what has not been done by them yet. This may
be a catalyst in some midlife crisis people to abuse substances and experience
unbelievable depths of depression.

Yet those in crisis must discover and fulfill their deep, intimate potential to meet
what is now within them, and will possess discontent until this occurs. One who
may experience a midlife crisis may do so between possibly the ages of the 30s
through the 50s. The average age typically is the mid 40s. Both genders may
experience this crisis, yet they express this crisis in different ways. These half way
points in the lives of others express themselves with others with varying degrees of
severity that depends on multiple personal variables. Over 25 percent of those in
the United States greater than the age of 35 believe they have had, or are
experiencing, a midlife crisis.

The one experiencing this crisis often soul searches while experiencing this stressful
event that often is overwhelming for them, as this alteration of themselves does not
allow such a person’s coping mechanisms utilized in the past to be of any use. Yet
the one in a midlife crisis proves to be resilient often, and their intrinsic drive to
discover and fulfill their deep and innate is a necessity. They must do something
different than what they have done in the past. This crisis is emotionally significant
to one in this crisis, and involves significant changes of status with intent on one
experiencing this crisis. So this period of time is unstable and unpleasant, yet
perceived to be crucial by one experiencing their midlife status.

While many stereotypically believes that one claiming to be experiencing a midlife

crisis is largely due to them realizing that they are in fact aging, evidence proves
that this involves a small fraction of those within a mid life crisis. Rather, the crisis
involves one exploring dreams unfulfilled, as well as the acquisition of new
intentions they wish to accomplish in their lives. Gail Sheedy wrote a popular book
in 1976 entitled, “Passages”. One thing she stated in this book about the human
lifespan was, “The task of midlife is not to look into the light, but to bring light into
the darkness.”

Dr. Carl Jung, called the father of Humanism as well as Transpersonal Psychology,
explored the midlife crisis rather thoroughly. He believed the midlife crisis is a
human condition that is completely natural. He developed stages of this crisis with
what is called a Myer-Briggs Personality model, which consisted of the following:

Accommodation- When one presents themselves as a different person. Preferences

one possesses are innate

Separation- One removes their previous mask they wore, assess what is behind this
mask they placed upon themselves, and authenticate the etiology for now rejecting
this mask that hid their ego. This is also called by Dr. Jung the word personae.

Individuation- one recognizes and integrates existing intrinsic conflicts in order to

balance them to achieve self-actualization and true awareness. To achieve totality.
The conscious and unconscious in one actually shake hands.

Liminality- the suspended animation of one in a midlife crisis during the

transformation

Dr. Jung wrote about his own midlife crisis, beginning with severing his relationship
with Dr. Sigmund Freud. He said that we, as humans, have the ability during this
crisis to experience egocide, in which the previous false self experiences apoptosis,
while the true self is born, and developed in time. This is self-realization, and its
potential, according to Dr. Jung, lies within the second half of one’s life. He once
said as well that new creation of oneself involves their instinct acting from their
inner necessity. Also, Dr. Jung said with incredible accuracy that there is no coming
to consciousness without pain.

Life is suffering, as well as determination. Others during their midlife crisis have
either noticed or have performed great things they thought were not possible in the
past regarding their ability and drive. One may become a nationally known author.
Another may re-enter the academic world and become a famous researcher.

One may become a better parent.

Personally, I’d rather consider such endeavors as what was just mentioned, rather
than buy a very fast car, and befriend girls half my age to reassure my perception of
my former self that did not exist.

Leave something behind.