a path to the new world

Ben Sichkaryk

Sichkaryk, Ben a path to the new world Copyright 2012 Ben Sichkaryk All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without written permission of the author and publisher. Published by: Ben Sichkaryk ISBN 978-1-927588-03-1 Cover art by Amanda Ozga shownd.com/AmandaOzga

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Dedication
To Charity and Victor and a little dog named Blue.

Acknowledgements
This is a book of my spiritual progression from the time of deep pain to a path to the new world. If you have no belief in a new world, I hope I can present you with one, through the pages of this book. It was not my intention in the first place to write a book, I was just sharing my poems with people and in doing so a record of the poems was kept. When people started asking for a book, it dawned on me that a book was possible. I set an amount of thirty poems before I started to look for a publisher and soon forgot about it. People were saying to me again when Ben, when is the book going to be available. Now at forty two poems the book A Path To The New World is a reality. Through the writing of this book I have come to know that if a person has a dream, any kind of dream, one can achieve it by moving forward one step at a time no matter how long it takes and no matter where it leads a being. I kept my dream in the sight of my mind and kept walking toward it. The book is not the end of the dream it is the beginning I would like to share my deep gratitude to the people who gave me inspiration and the occasional boot to keep the dream of a New World alive in me and to the staff at PageMaster Publication Services for showing me how to fine tune this book and for publishing it. Also all the animals that kept my spirit alive and helped me to keep putting one foot in front of the other. To my friends and family for the encouragement and most of all the people and friends that made comments on the poems and kept asking for a book. To Val Daws for writing the foreword and Amanda Ozga for the cover drawing.

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Foreword
I am Bens writing confidant. We were first introduced by association in social media and have so enjoyed a literary companionship that has equally uplifted each other simply by acknowledging our personal talents and the depth of the spirit that we find ourselves writing from. I am a free thinking spiritual being who loves to empower and draw others to their highest potential. It is through my own expectation of self and the knowing of the higher mind in my own spiritual development could I at all feel worthy to lead another to their doorways. My writings help open those doorways. My mentoring helps bring one through to fruition. Its a commitment I have made for this life. Although my experiences are varied I have always been driven by the desire to learn, be challenged in that learning and bring it forth to yet another new adventure. It has proven to be a path of many roads where pain and suffering of a growing spirit eventually needed total immersion into self to grasp it all into the heart for healing. This is how a soul recognizes another and thats how Ben and I met. While we were trekking around we were unaware that life comes full circle. We would later find all our paths merging to create a whole person because it must. Then it must give, share, mentor by giving away what we have learned to encourage another its evolvement to gain its highest acclaims. Writing, art and healing is what I am. It isnt the who I am really. For who I am transforms constantly. My work may be transparent but never forgotten so I create from this space and introduce to you a special person who knows my soul because he too has grown to know his own. As we are always experiencing the lives of others so to do we grow to love and understand this fascinating journey of the soul. How our personal richness ignites those inner fires affecting and infecting everyone around us always engaging us with child-like abandon on our path of self discovery. Its what we realize our purpose was all along. Sharing, loving, creating, understanding to find constantly transforming what we thought was only believed as tangible to only find it is but an illusion, that life is more than it seems, it is precious, every moment! Ben was born in Alberta, Canada where hard work was expected living on a farm. It was about survival and no child could be lazy in the eyes of their parents and relatives, its just the way it is. All ten children had a hand in
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milking the cows and turning and harvesting their land in the dramatic climes of the prairies. It was tough but they were all in it together. It made it easier because they had each other and still do. He grew to know the value of working by learning new skills but his schooling paid the price for all his toil. He pursued his hard working destiny, making good money and enjoying the fruits of his labour. He became pretty confident in his manhood, rough neck and tough as nails he thought. The relationships were there and so was the party. Hed never believe it then that those kicker cowboy boots werent going to take him too far down that road. The love life diminished and became less present while the drinking became ever persistent. It was time to reach out and it was going to have to be a deep reach to save himself but hey, he was used to hard work. Through his own diligence and introspection did Ben find a place he could hang his cowboy hat, right up there with his love of life. Ben has brought us those very elements of his life-long love of the ever powerful horse, his adventures of the heart and his acknowledgement of the divine. He brings light to these magnificent animals how they did not abandon him nor did his inner child live without them but only left behind to be found again later in the cycle of life. They facilitated his healing, his place of safety, and his place of peace. This was home and all that he valued. To be in the flow of nature is where Bens adventure into his feelings was reborn. He shares with us undulating moments of textured feeling from rough to silky smooth in awakened states that bring us to know him well. Ah, hes not such a red neck tough guy but a sweet loving kind being who is overjoyed in the abundance of everything life brings him each day. Youll find it all here in his poems carefully etched in these pages. Enjoy Ben, hell be writing volumes you can be sure. It is my deepest pleasure to enlighten you about Ben as you will find a beautiful bright soul whos really just the biggest kid youll ever meet. Many Blessings! Val Daws Writer, Artist, Healer/Facilitator Stirling, Ontario, Canada

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Contents
Prologue ......................................................................... xiii Two people ......................................................................... 1 Spiritual Path Beginning ............................................... 4 Animals know love when they feel it ................................ 5 Spiritual Path Day Two .................................................. 6 Spiritual Path Day Three ............................................... 7 Spiritual Path Day Four ................................................. 9 Spiritual Path Day Five ................................................ 10 If you want love ............................................................... 11 Spiritual Path Day Six .................................................. 12 Trust ................................................................................ 13 Spiritual Path Day Seven ............................................. 14 Spiritual Path Day Eight .............................................. 16 Spiritual Path Day Nine ............................................... 18 Spiritual Path Day Ten ................................................. 20 Spiritual Path Day Eleven ............................................ 22 Spiritual Path Day Twelve ............................................ 24 Spiritual Path Day Thirteen......................................... 26 Spiritual Path Day Fourteen ........................................ 28 Spiritual Path Day Fifteen ........................................... 30 Spiritual Path Day Sixteen........................................... 32 Search for meaning......................................................... 35 Spiritual Path Day Seventeen ...................................... 36 Spiritual Path Day Eighteen ........................................ 38 Spiritual Path Day Nineteen ........................................ 40 Spiritual Path Day Twenty ........................................... 42 Spiritual Path Day Twenty One ................................... 44 Spiritual Path Day Twenty Two.................................... 46 Spiritual Path Day Twenty Three................................. 48 Spiritual Path Day Twenty Four .................................. 50 The law of free will .......................................................... 51

Spiritual Path Day Twenty Five ................................... 52 Spiritual Path Day Twenty Six ..................................... 53 To create or not to create ................................................ 55 Spiritual Path Day Twenty Seven ................................ 56 Spiritual Path Day Twenty Eight ................................. 59 Spiritual Path Day Twenty Nine .................................. 60 Twin Flames .................................................................... 63 Spiritual Path Day Thirty............................................. 64 Spiritual Path Day Thirty One ..................................... 66 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Two ..................................... 68 This is a story of courage, compassion, connection, community and love. ...................................................... 71 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Three .................................. 74 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Four.................................... 76 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Five ..................................... 78 Spiritual growth .............................................................. 81 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Six ...................................... 82 The moment of NOW ...................................................... 85 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Seven .................................. 86 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Eight .................................. 89 Spiritual Path Day Thirty Nine .................................... 92 Spiritual Path Day Forty .............................................. 93 Spiritual Path Day Forty One ...................................... 94 Spiritual Path Day Forty Two ...................................... 96 A message to all holistic healers, all Red Road Warriors, all advanced light workers and all those with fourth dimension abilities ...................................... 98

Prologue
Ah where to start I have always been connected Through spirit to animals In writing this book my horses Have challenged me and taught Me to heal my heart Through the writing, I came to know The man in the body I have lived With for the last sixty-six years The realization that everyting in The universe is connected Has been a journey into self The words Know Thyself have been Ringing in my heart all through My journey into a new world I have discovered while writing A Path to the New World A man that has searched for love In all the wrong places found it Deep within hidden beneath The pain that we seem to pile On ourselves It is my hope in sharing my spiritual path others may seek to Know Thyself And travel into the unknown as I have I bless all with a wonderful journey Through Love, Light and Blissful Happiness. To become who you are really meant to be Nature whispers my love.

Ben Sichkaryk.

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Two people
A man and a woman standing Bodies pressed tightly together, Trying to feel the inner warmth of each other Searching for intimacy. Reaching to fulfill the outer limits of their beings Struggling desperately to touch a part within each other That seemed to have died so long ago It seemed then long ago No one knew or much cared That something was dying inside Now to surmount the barriers that keep them apart Although they stand bodies pressed tightly together Seems an impossible task To surrender .to surrender to each other The fear of life gone past To surrender the pains of life gone so long ago A moment in the past is a moment passed and gone Yet to surrender the past is an impossible task

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And Why that old Why is there again Because because they are strong with the walls built all around They never let it in They never shared their tears with anyone They dont know how! They dont know how to put in words their inner feelings without guilt No one has taught them how No one knew Now they stand bodies pressed tightly together Wondering what the next step is Wondering Why in the past it has always come apart What went wrong Afraid so afraid to go beyond So afraid to touch the tiny flame inside That tiny flame of love Afraid to be burned Too guilty to accept the pain of release Too hurting to accept the tears of surrender Too enclosed to accept a beautiful world beyond the walls of self

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A woman and a man . Standing bodies pressed tightly together Crying my god give us peace If we have anything to hold against each other Let it not be the pain of the past or ignorance either Let it not be hate or resentments built up because of fear The fear to express ourselves honestly Let it not be the strength of the walls of protection that separate us But let it be two people standing Bodies pressed tightly together the only things we hold against each other
Ben Sichkaryk 2/25/1986

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Beginning

Last night as I walked alone on my spiritual path I met a man, who said to me When you pray, listen to your brother and sisters For the answer to your prayers As I walked and thought about what he said to me I listened to the voices and soon came to a cross roads, With signs pointed in all directions, two signs came to my attention And both pointed in the same direction One sign said Never, ever, ever fear or guilt yourself of or for money The other sign said Never, never, ever fear or guilt yourself for loving someone Or for someone loving you I chose that road to walk along and to listen to my brothers And sisters, for we are all one Thank you brothers and sisters Now on to the next cross roads
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Notes along my path

Animals know love when they feel it

While walking one of my two dogs tonight, a wonderful thing happened to me. I met a minister with a little dog that has cancer. I asked him if I could channel healing energy for the little guy. He said that would be great. I told him that I would channel after I put my dog in the house. So the minister walked off on his way and the little dog took about four steps and sat down. I took my dog into the house and came outside and the minister said, I am happy you came back outside. I asked why? He replied that the little dog would not move. My dog wont move. I said that it is ok and I sat down on the bench to centre myself in preparation to channel energy. The little dog stood very still and watched me. As soon as I sent the energy, his tail wagged. He turned then and walked toward his owner.

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Day Two

As I walked alone on my path, I saw a man coming toward me In the dim morning light he lit my path as he approached me In meeting, I asked Are you not going the wrong way? He replied, No I came to meet you and walk with you awhile I shared my water and he shared his thoughts. We are all one you know, share your joy and peace and love Ok I said as he asked how my journey was so far I replied. Sometimes it is a hard path and sometimes it is easy And sometimes I am lost in thought and I dont see anything Sometimes I see all the beauty the world has to offer He raised his hand to my shoulder and touched me gently Oh I felt so good as if his light was glowing in me We walked along to another cross roads As I came to many signs, I looked around and he was gone I never saw him leave I felt as if he never left me There is a sign that said Oh it feels so good to feel good and I could feel his hand on my shoulder At that moment I knew that this was the road to follow Oh my brothers and sisters, It feels so good to feel good! Thank you for all your guidance I am grateful
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Day Three

As I walked the rain stopped It was late afternoon The drops of water shone like silver On the flowers and the trees and grass too My world is silver and gold Silver drops of water and golden sunset How wonderful it all is Onward down my path feeling like a king Toward the next cross roads Seeing a man advancing my way With his back to the sun Bathed in gold and smiling He raised his hand in greeting And said to me My peace be with you my brother A cross roads is not far away You can rest there in my shelter There are many signs to ponder Choose your path well This part of the road is not an easy one Go in love and joy of your experiences I will be with you I rested as I read the signs Anger, resentment, pity, depression, ego and many more All pointing in different directions The sign indifference stopped my viewing In small letters underneath, it said This path Is neither good or bad, it just is As with all things, your brothers and sisters, Worldly possessions, emotions, and feelings Just is is indifference As I move along the path to indifference It gets fainter and fainter until... There is no path anymore

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Not many travel this road, I stop and look around A voice in my head says You fool turn around and go back Then another voice in my heart says Follow me, I will lead I will show you the way Trust me I am the Light and the Way
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Day Four

As I walked alone through the day I came to a meadow with a road at the edge Many signs pointed in all directions I drank water and ate my evening meal I made my bed on the soft moss and grass The sun was going down with beautiful colour Red, orange, pink and yellow, darkening blue all over I sat in wonder as the splendour of the colour Turned to a starry night, candles over head everywhere Morning came with the songs of birds As I ate and prepared my pack for the day I read the signs one by one and decided On the one that pointed, out across the meadow To the flowing water that sang me to sleep last night The sign read Acceptance in big bold letters I am not sure about this came a voice Then my heart spoke to me through my feelings You must accept who you are And where you are at, before you proceed Your will and my will are the same Keep love, joy and peace in your sight in front of you You are the caretaker of love in your world If you can do that, I will share my love and peace in your world Accept you are love, Reach with your mind into your heart And feel the wonders there as your path unfolds Before you, to follow in joy and peace Accept there is no fear in love and no love in fear And you will be protected and safe on your journey I stood there rooted to the ground listening and feeling As my mind joined my heart we became one With the journey in experience in a new life of love joy and peace I feel the fear disappear as I move along loves path
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Day Five

I came to a cross roads tired and beaten The path was extremely hard I sat down too exhausted to eat As I looked at the signs everywhere The sign Surrender stopped me cold I felt the tears sliding down my cheeks My chest heaved in great sobs I curled my arms around my knees and cried Into my despair and loneliness until I fell asleep When the suns warmth woke me in the morning I was facing surrender and knew inside The two Rs were for Release and Relief A stray dog was licking my face The birds were singing everywhere I shared my morning meal with the dog Love is everywhere I am and everywhere I go As I prepared for the day ahead I realized how letting go all that made My journeys difficult in the yesterdays past In my release was my relief I could feel the love flowing inside I could feel the love all around me as well Hearing footsteps, I looked up to see A beautiful woman walking toward me Hi would you care for some company As her voice floated to me strong and vibrantly I heard myself say Yes that would be wonderful As we came together in a greeting I hear her say Namaste We can hold hands and share our path One will fall behind or maybe the other for a time The other will wait to share in coming to gather again There is no pain in waiting only Anticipation of being with each other again

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Did you see my dog this morning? Yes he woke me licking my face Good we can all travel together I surrender in the love of another
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Notes along my path

Vistas of experiences
As I walk the vistas of my experiences I am able to see where I have been and to some degree where I am going. My unfulfilled dreams are beginning to unfold before my very eyes. My heart sings of joys I have never felt before. Blissfully I swirl in the vortex of my imagination to far off worlds filled with something I have always looked for, something I have always wanted and it has always eluded me. Really it is me, it was inside of me all the time. I never knew it, I never felt it, until the horses showed me it was there. It is everywhere, in everything in the universe. It is the energy that holds everything together and keeps everything going around and around. I got down on the floor and banged my fists until I cried and it eluded me. I banged my head against the walls of others until I was bloody and beaten and it eluded me. Ah if at the time I only knew that it was all around, it is everywhere it is all things, even me. It drew me to my path, it drew me to inspiration and it drew me to itself slowly and surely and now it surges through me like a tornado. It is LOVE.

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Day Six

I sat down on a rock on the path blocking my way It is only mid day and I am tired I will rest my spirit, my mind and body here for awhile For inside I know what is in front of me I am in the beginning a trickle of water I am a stream following a course downhill I am a river flowing to oneness with all that is or is to be Sometimes I let someone or something block my path I build and build until I find another way Then in a rush I move toward the sea Of greater love then me And in all of this I am still on my path Sometimes when the stream is blocked It rests and soon a little trickle finds its way out Then another and another and another Until I am a stream again flowing on my path To become the river that I am in this place in eternity Sometimes I feel like a naked newborn babe Lying in the wet grass waiting for the sun to dry me I wait for Mother Earth to feed and nurture me Waiting still for my spirit to teach and guide me On a path of destiny on to oneness Rising on tired legs I find my way Through the forest around the rock To my path again, only to see a cross roads Littered with way signs pointing in all directions I stop again for a meal and to read the signs Trust is the road I will travel now Away I go to follow the sign pointing To the road of trust Truth will find me well on my way to the Great sea of love Called Oneness
Ben Sichkaryk Feb.18 2011

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Search
I have searched the world over for truth and the only real truth I have found is the truth within. I have read thousands of books and talked to many people. I have allowed my experiences to guide me down many paths. I have discovered guides and angels that guide and look after me. The world has been an exciting place to be in. I feel the vibrations from her through my feet as I sit quietly in meditation. I have learned the language of animals and I have found that there is no guru or teacher or book that can teach me anything that is not already inside of me. I must allow my experiences to come forth and follow my very own path and in doing so I have learned that each being has their own path. It is not up to me to interfere with another on their way through experiences. This is a difficult lesson to learn, interference is the lesson that is taught throughout the world. Governments make laws through a system of justice that is unequal and unbalanced. Religion does it through a heaven and hell teaching of punishment and reward. Even when I was very young I knew that there was something wrong with this system. I was pushed, manipulated and even bullied into believing these untruths, I became part of the system that controls everyone and everything, destroying everything in its path, the people and our Mother Earth until there was nothing to live for anymore. With a broken heart and new life seeping slowly into the cracks of my heart I began to seek the truth, I began to look within for answers. Low and behold, slowly answers came to me from nature, the soul of all there is and all that is to become, began to speak to me through the animals and the earth and the angels and my guides and helpers. The famous words from Platos dialogue Know Thyself became my path.

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