Trevors Precious Life

I believe that Trevor would first like me to honor our parents for the unconditional love that they have shown us. Mom, Dad, Trevor and I could never fully describe to you the depth of gratitude we have for all you have done for us. You truly laid down your life for Trevor and though he did not fully know how to express it to you, I know with all my heart that He loved you more than anything in this world , and I know that He honors you even now and will for all eternity. Second I would just like to tell Trevor how much I loved him. Dear precious Trevor, I loved you deeper than any sister ever could. I dont think you ever knew this, but I want you to know that I prayed for you every single day since I can remember. As I got older this desire to pray for you got stronger and stronger and stronger. Your happiness, my precious brother, became the soul desire of my heart. When you smiled my heart was instantly filled with an indescribable hope and Joy. And when there was pain in your eyes My heart grieved deeper than you will ever know. Trevor, I do not think I have ever wanted anything stronger in this life, than to have you happy, healed and whole. God not only heard my prayers for you, but I believe that He poured them out on you in the most magnificent, awesome way possible. Lastly and most importantly , I would like to talk about someone who loved Trevor deeper, truer and stronger than anyone. There is One who pursued Trevors heart with a passionate, jealous love. There is One who knew him and loved him before the foundations of the world. . My brother loved Jesus. Trevor had a hunger and a thirst for the righteousness of God. But For most of His life, my brother thought that he wasnt good enough for God to love him- never holy enough, never quite perfect enough. Regret and shame held him hostage and often lured him to loneliness and fear. But there was One who never left Trevors side- One who held Trevor through some of the darkest, most painful seasons of his life. There was One who wasnt afraid to humble himself and bow low to make Trevor great. I believe that my brother did Not struggle in death- but rather ran into the arms of the life giver and for the first time in his life- truly lived. . I believe Trevor is drinking from the river of living water that flows from the throne of God and the Lamb. I believe Trevor is enveloped by the emerald rainbow of mercy that surrounds the Throne of an all loving all merciful savior. Jesus Christ the lamb of God is pouring out the depths of His love on Trevor and will for all eternity You see my brother wasnt good enough- not of us are. He didnt earn God affections- none of us can. He didnt achieve eternal lifenone of us will. For it is by Gods grace we have been saved through faith- we cannot earn it- it is the gift of God. Trevors life brings Glory to God because it causes me to fall deeper in love with Jesus than ever before and makes my heart burn with jealousy for fullness of Joy Trevor is experiencing in the arms of Christ. Trevors life is the Gospel . So be blessed dear brother, for Jesus has given you beauty for your ashes. Jesus has given you the oil of gladness for your mourning and Jesus has given you a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. You will be called an oak of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of His splendor. You were made for His glory. You satisfy your maker Trevor- You satisfy your creator Trevor- just the way you are.