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Invisible Anxiety
Emily Neier I
tip
the
white
cap
b ack,
pouring
10
mL
of
mouthwash
diluted
in
water
into
my
mouth.
The
alcohol
stings
my
chapped
lips,
but
I
hold
the
solution
in
and
swish.
The
inside
of
my
lips
begin
to
burn
as
the
mouthwash
brushes
over
the
tiny
sores
covering
them.
Do
they
notice?
I
ask
myself.
Do
they
see
me
pluck
the
skin
from
my
lips
like
feathers
off
a
chicken?
I
reach
for
my
toothbrush,
swishing
the
mouthwash
religiously
while
I
uncap
the
toothpaste
and
squeeze
the
tiniest
amount
onto
the
brush.
Is
it
obvious?
Or
do
I
just
look
like
a
nail-biter?
I
spit
the
mouthwash
into
the
sink
and
turn
the
faucet
on
to
wash
it
away.
I
begin
to
brush
my
teeth,
scrubbing
at
my
gum
line
like
I
havent
brushed
in
weeks.
Its
only
been
twelve
hours.
I
am
a
nail-biter
though.
A
nail-biter.
An
eyelash-puller.
An
obsessive
zit-picker.
A
lip- chewer.
Does
it
count
as
self-harm,
what
I
do?
I
lean
over
the
sink
again
to
spit
out
the
frothy
toothpaste.
Theres
drops
of
blood,
sometimes,
and
a
little
bit
of
pain.
My
eyes
water
when
I
snag
a
p articularly
tough
lash.
But
I
dont
cry.
I
dont
bleed.
I
dont
hide
it
from
anyone.
Do
they
ever
notice
though?
I
rinse
my
foam-covered
hand
and
toothbrush
under
the
cool
water
before
resuming
brushing
in
hopes
of
scraping
off
a
few
more
specs
of
plaque.
Another
spit,
another
rinse.
I
dry
my
toothbrush
and
chin
on
the
hand
towel
before
dropping
the
brush
back
into
its
cup.
They
must
not
notice;
no
one
says
anything
to
me,
anyway.
I
pull
a
length
of
floss
from
the
plastic
box
and
wrap
the
waxy
ends
around
my
pointer
fingers.
Hug
each
tooth,
I
think
as
I
press
the
floss
between
my
teeth.
Up
and
down,
up
and
down.
Am
I
really
that
stressed?
What
do
I
worry
about
so
much?
I
dont
feel
overwhelmed.
I
twirl
my
fingers
to
release
them
from
the
cutting
grip
of
the
floss
and
drop
the
used
piece
into
the
trashcan.
It
would
be
nice
though
if
someone
other
than
the
dental
hygienist
noticed
that
I
floss
daily.
That
I
use
mouthwash
morning
and
night.
That
I
chew
the
inside
of
my
mouth
whenever
I
start
to
worry.
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