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(Extract from: Muse of the Long Haul Thirty-One Isles of the Creative
Imagination)
Copyright, Dr Ian Irvine, 2013 all rights reserved. All short extracts from the texts discussed are
acknowledged and used under fair usage related to review and theoretical critique under
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Cover Image: Farm House and Outbuilding Poplar Farm, Guisborough, UK 2010, by Ian Irvine
Publisher: Mercurius Press, Australia, 2013. NB: This piece is published at Scribd as part of a series
drawn from the soon to be print published non-fiction book on experiential poetics entitled: Muse of
the Long Haul: Thirty-One Isles of the Creative Imagination.
matterafter all Proust died before he completed the book (1922). That was thirteen years
after hed begun writing it (1909). I figure two decades to fail to read a book that the author
found too difficult to complete expresses a degree of camaraderie with the guyIm sure
hed understand!
In truth Im more interested in the stories around Proust writing Remembrance than I
am in actually reading the book itself. The idea of Remembrance is just as important as the art
object entitled Remembrance. This seems to be true for most writers and serious readers of
literature that I knowvery few of them have read Remembrance though the fact of its
existence seems to mean something important to them. Im fascinated, for example, by
descriptions of Prousts last three years (1919-1922). Sick and dispirited he lay in his cork
lined bedroom working on that monster of a book. By all accounts hed been progressively
withdrawing from the social world some years before getting ill. I like the idea that he was
slightly misanthropic. His self-appointed taski.e. to use fiction writing techniques to
examine in forensic detail the detritus of memoryis to me a good example of the way
Modernism encouraged anti-literaturesliteratures designed to critique (and explode)
conventional notions of Literature. Throughout my life anti-literatures have interested me as
much as conventional Literature.
Remembrance is also a metaphor for how artistic obsessions (and in a way the
principles of psychoanalysis) can lead creative people to retreat from the present and the
future (especially from uncomfortable truths about the decisions/choices one needs to make
in the present) via total immersion in the labyrinth that is memorythe past can be
comfortable even though, as the psychoanalysts testify, childhood has its dark moments. The
major Modernist texts exploring childhood upended forever the sunny Romantic myths
surrounding that stage of lifemyths that had dominated throughout the 19th centurye.g.
Wordsworths versions of childhood. Proust comes much closer to capturing the lived
experience of childhood and thus his work arrives as a breath of fresh air in among all the
Romantic advertising material (indeed the Modernists generally, taking a lead from Freud,
are refreshing on this score).
Thanks to the new global communications technologies it takes ten minutes or so these
daysdepending on network congestionto locate the global coordinates of most of the
places relevant to ones childhood and youth. With the help of Google Maps or Google Earth
one can view satellite and even roadside images of these places using zoom and pan features
built into the programs. Metaphorically speaking one can soar above (like an eagle, aircraft or
space rocket), or touch-down in the midst of, the haunted landscapes of our memories with
incredible ease these days.
This Google Earth/Memory metaphor helps illustrate the main goal of this chapter,
which is to assess the value of memoryof the past generallyto creative people. Between
1987 and 1989 I became reacquainted with many of the landscapes of my past via Lionel
Exells Primal-Transpersonal techniques. Some of the places I revisited mentally are
outlined below (with Google Maps reference coordinates where possible and relevant)note:
Prousts notion of automatic memorywhich implies access to vivid, sometimes allencompassing, aspects of the pastis relevant.
I can view the town of my birth, Hyde, near Manchester, by first locating greater
Manchester then panning east, out past the Manchester City football stadium, following the
Old Ashton Road in the direction of our former homethe home I dont actually remember
living in.
I can then ascend like a jet airliner and head north-east for a time before descending
over central Middlesborough, near the site of the home of my first memories. The street has
been pulled down nowonly a motorway flyover above a blank stretch of tarmac and
Philip lives close by. From his house I can make out Chepstow, with its amazing Medieval
castle, as well as the Severn Bridge. We are close to the England-Wales border. The
countryside around Cwmbran is always lush and green. Whenever I return there for a visit I
usually spend a lot of time visiting Roman monuments, old churches, castles and the like. The
regions history is rich indeed.
The next Google hop was originally taken with passenger jetsDC-10s, Jumbos etc.
Its 1971 and the British Airways jet has taken off for Sydney. It flew over France and Italy,
over the Mediterranean and the Middle East, then over India and South East Asia on the way
to Australia. We could visit the East Hills Hostel (renamed later) where all the 10 Pound
Migrants were welcomed and put up on arrival from overseas. It sits beside a river on the
outskirts of Sydney and we lived there for six weeks before renting a flat in Auburnwhich
not far these days from Sydney Olympic Park. Later my parents bought a white HR Holden
from a dealer on Paramatta Road and in 1972 we drove over the Blue Mountains, through
Victorian and New South Wales border country, in the direction of Adelaide, South Australia.
The Adelaide to Sydney drive was epic given we were used to British distances. Dad
had flown to Adelaide some months earlier to buy a house in the migrant suburb of Salisbury
Downs to the north-west of the city. In those days our home at 22 Wicklow Street was
surrounded by flat, dry paddocksthese days the whole area behind it, almost to the saltpans of the nearby coast, is suburbs. Our primary school was just down the street as was the
Salisbury Downs Oval where my brother and I and friends spent all our spare time playing
cricket, soccer and Aussie rules. Huge car factories hungry for migrant labor dotted the
landscape in the early 70s and the suburbs of Elizabeth, Salisbury, Para Hills, Smithfield etc.
were consequently growing at a phenomenal rate.
I remember the heat of the South Australian summers. I remember holidays and
weekend trips inland to towns along the Murray River to fishBarmera and Renmark,
Tailem Bend and Murray Bridge or to coastal towns like Ardrossan, Port Augusta and Victor
Harbour. I remember a six foot brown snake curled up in a riverside toilet near Murray
BridgeI saw it as I opened the door for a visit and felt it slither past my ankles at pace. I
remember soccer in the winter and cricket in the summer. I remember overnight bus trips,
through Naracoorte and Ballarat, or Mount Gambier and Geelong to Melbourne to play
against suburban teams in Essendon, Sunshine and Keilor. Again, the road trips were epic but
by the mid-70s no longer unusual. I remember a representative cricket trip to the west of the
state as a 12 year old. We played on concrete pitches in bone-dry paddocks. I was billeted in
Penong further west along the Eyre Highwaythe last town before the Western Australian
border. A truly remote community the kids had an hour and a half bus ride each morning just
attend school in Ceduna (where most of our cricket matches were played).
I remember all these things and I remember us losing our house in Salisbury Downs
in 1975 after Dad got injured at work.
Google works its high tech magic once again. It is 1977 (Im aged 14) and weve returned to
Australia after a 3 month holiday in the UK. We fly over the Tasman Sea from Melbourne to
Auckland, New Zealandmore specifically to the North Shore suburbs of Browns Bay and
Mairangi Bay. Upon arrival in Auckland we stay with Mums cousin, Anne, and her husband,
Kem, at their house on East Coast Bays Road. Six months later we buy a house near-by.
To get to central Auckland from the Shore you have to cross the Auckland Harbour
Bridge. In my mind the Shore is dominated by that bridge, as well as by many attractive bays
with sandy beaches. Out in the Hauraki Gulf we notice the second major landmark of the
regionRangitoto Island, with its large cone, product of an extinct volcano. Its a great place
to visit by boat and theres always the option of climbing the mountain.
I remember my first school days at Rangitoto CollegeI didnt like the fact that we
had to wear uniforms since they hadnt been required at Para Hills High (near Adelaide). I
also felt very working classmost of my fellow students were middle class, their parents had
professional jobs and all their homes seemed larger than ours. For a long time I was critical of
Shore peoples general conservatism, as well as their white middle class values. Conformity
and consumerism dominated. More recently, however, Ive become more very grateful of the
schooling and life opportunities I received on Aucklands North Shore.
Between 1978 and 1984 I remember long days playing cricket at grounds across
Aucklandalso around New Zealand. I remember sports trips (for soccer and cricket) to
North Island places like: Kerikeri, Rotorua, Taupo Gisborne, Upper Hutt, Wellington,etc., as
well as to the South Island cities Christchurch and Dunedin. I remember the radicalness of
Auckland University life in the early 80s where I attended anti-nuclear and anti-Springbok
protests. I recall walks down town to cinemas, art galleries etc., as well as nights spent at rock
concerts to the West of the city (The Police, David Bowie, Neil Young). I also remember the
Universitys amazing bookshop where I encountered many of the thinkers and writers
discussed in these first ten Islands of creativity. It is also the place I stumbled across NZ
poets and writers such as Sam Hunt, Alistair Te Ariki Campbell and Janet Frame.
As I visited Lione Exells Primal room at Curnow Street (in Bendigo, Central
Victoria) on and off between 1987 and 1989 I explored, in microscopic detailas Proust
does via his characters in Remembrancememories from many periods of my life. British,
Australian and New Zealand landscapes flashed before my eyes at dizzying pacevivid
backdrops to the more emotional explorations I was undergoing.
In the journey described above the narrator was mostly situated above the earth, like an
astronaut or an old time polytheistic god (Hermes perhaps) observing, firstly, entire regions
before gradually zooming in (and down) toward particular locations.
Its an interesting metaphor for how memory interacts with consciousness. In ordinary
life our past presents itself to consciousness in summary formI lived here, I did this
between these years. This mechanism is how consciousness stops the past from
overwhelming usits also the means by which we falsely presume mastery over our past.
Most of us spend our lives in this safe place, lets call it the rarified upper atmosphere of the
selfthough we all experience moments of Prousts automatic memory, reminding us just
how close, vivid and strangely alive the past actually is.
Developing the metaphors associated with Google Earth still further we could say that as
we descend and zoom in on specific locationsi.e. on our past as lived detailswe begin to
lose our reified perspective. With it may go our sense of control. Immersion in vivid
memories, in the detail of the past, can feel threatening, true, but detail is also full of life,
vitality, colour etc. (i.e. elan, or what Freud called libido and eros, i.e. psychic energy).
Most of the psychoanalytic approaches weve been discussing these past few chapters
relentlessly drive the client/seeker deep into the detail, the specifics of their history
(specifically their childhood experiences) in order to generate insights, epiphanies,
perspectives that facilitate healing, transformation, positive change. The upper atmosphere
(the ego) is deemed negatively reified, i.e. in need of being reanimated by earthy,
unconscious ID energies. What we see from high up on a Google Earth image
(metaphorically, the preferred position of the ego) is seen as a delusion generated by
defenses.
One of the critiques of psychoanalytic approaches to problems with being is that they
often leaves clients stuck in the paststuck also with ready-made excuses for current
problems with being. There is always someone or something in the past to blame for clients
not making the right life choices in the present. From a humanistic/existential perspective
being mired too much in the details of problematic past experiences can lead to a kind of
paralysis of the willthe client may evade the responsibility of making the right
decisions/choices in the present.
Though I dont entirely agree with this critique it does have some meritswe all have to
retain a balance between the past and the present, even whilst in the depths of intense
experiential explorations of the past.
In my case the Google Earth metaphor is particularly relevant. Given the
circumstances of my childhood and youth, i.e. constant movement, change, adaption (to
different geographies, social circumstances, etc.), at some point I had to confront the impact
of migration and what Ill call relational distance i.e.distance from significant others e.g.
grandparents etc.on my internal life. Id lived in three countries, five cities and eight
different homes by the age of 14. Even now Im not entirely sure how this adventurous aspect
to my early years impacted on my emotional life and overall personalitythough the
negative outcome was clearly ,by the age of 20 or so a sense of fragmentation. By the age of
23 I had an identity dispersed across the various landscapes discussed above. Much of my
later adult life has probably been an attempt to guard against the almost acidic identity
dissolution that comes with too much [change] too young (to quote from Aussie rock band
The Divinyls) leading to insecure roots and connection to place and people in place. Its one
of the main reasons Ive lived in Bendigo for the past quarter centurydespite numerous
trips overseas. In todays global world my childhood experience is becoming more and more
commona number of books have even been published on the topic.
Stepping outside the purely psychological perspective for a moment and looking at the
impact of those early travel experiences on my creative development I find quite a few
positives. I didnt really acknowledge these positives until 2007specifically whilst flying
over Malaysia on the way back from a five week family holiday to Vietnam. The airline was
experiencing severe turbulence at the time.
I had an epiphany of sorts 34,000 feet above Malaysia. In a nut-shell it involved
acceptance of my lotacceptance of the pros and cons of dispersed identity. Sue and I had
been treated to a lunch in Hoi An with a number of Vietnamese writers, poets and editors
several weeks earlier. During the delicious meal wed been asked a number of questions
about how it was that we could travel around the world so easily. I was asked: Are
Australian poets rich?
At the time it seemed like a slightly absurd questionof course were not rich! In fact
Western world poets are usually at the bottom of the income barrelby Western standards.
However, this seemed like a strangely lame thing to say to a group of famous Vietnamese
writers because it was immediately obvious that by global standards we did appear rich that
dayif only because teaching poetry, fiction writing, literature etc, in Australia is a middle
income vocation.
On the jet home, with the plane pitching and rattling, I was still thinking about that
question. It occurred to me that for better or worse, childhood migration experiences had
opened me up to the worldeven as it highlighted the importance of long-term
relationships. Aboard the jet, I felt moved to accept in particular the creative positives
associated with having been exposed to so many landscapes in those early years. The trick
for any creative person coming into adulthood with experiences similar to mine, is to process
ones dispersal experiences as early and effectively as possible.
These insights lead us back to Prousts Remembrance and a question I had about why Ive
been unable to complete the book all these years.
I suspect one response might be that I didnt want the past (my past?) to become a
static neo-Freudian thing. In my experience there is no once and for all revelation regarding
the true meaning of any particular childhood experience (positive or negative). The
epiphanies associated with childhoodwith any aspect of our pastare never final, never
static and closed off. One can never exhume once and for all the Modernist corpse labeled
my childhood. Rather the early events of our lives, even if partially analysed or catharted
into relative harmlessness, go on resonating in countless unexpected ways throughout our
lives. Childhood never endsas a realm of being it constantly permeates the present. It
amounts to a psycho-organic layer in the psyche that endlessly invites our re-engagement, our
re-assessment, etc. throughout life. Even obvious negative experiences can suddenly reveal
unexpected positive dimensions later in life.
Certainly, I believe it is important for creative people to approach the Islands of
Memory with the twin goals of stripping away idealizations, and airing traumas and repressed
emotions. It is equally important, however, to balance exploration of the past with a
determination to face the present as a human being with free will. I suspect (probably
unfairly) that Prousts gradual withdrawal from society in later life was in part fuelled by the
notion that the past is fundamental to understanding the real meaning of a life. In the
labyrinth of personal memory Proust perhaps sought the Philosophical Balm cherished by
the alchemists. There are treasures there, I have no doubt, but the present and the future also
have their treasures.
In the late 1980s, after a prolonged period of navel gazing, I gradually became more
optimistic about the futureeven as my present situation became increasingly neglected.
The time for decisions and choices in the present was fast approaching.