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part i
CHAPTER 1
AUGUST 31
pencil across my eyelid. I look down from the ceiling and Faiths
tongue is poking out of the corner of her mouth, like it always
does when shes concentrating hard. I feel this warm glow in my
heart some things never change. Or do they? a nagging voice
in my head warns. I wish that voice would shut up. Im ner vous
enough already.
Ta da! Look, Faith says. And I dare you to tell me you dont
like what you see.
I stare at my reflection in Faiths mirror, which has pictures of
the two of us stuck around the sides at haphazard angles along
with ticket stubs from all the movies and concerts weve been to
together. I look different. The eyeliner makes my hazel eyes
appear bigger and more dramatic, and Faiths put on a pale,
almost colorless gloss to make my lips shine. I look older, more
like someone who belongs in high school. With my hair up like
this, theres nowhere to hide. I feel exposed and, I dont know,
vulnerable.
Whats the verdict? Faith asks. I think you look really
pretty.
I . . . I just dont know if its me.
Of course its you, silly! Faith teases, smiling. Its just called
you making an effort for a change.
I turn to face Faith. Making an Effort Abby is giving me the
creeps.
Why is everyone so concerned about making me into something else? Why cant you all just like me the way I am?
Faiths smile fades into a look of hurt confusion.
I do like you the way you are, Abs. Im just doing this
because . . . you know, cause I care about you and I thought,
well, youd want to put your best face forward on our first day of
Yeah, I guess.
Trust me, Abby. High school will be better. Just wear something nice tomorrow, and do your hair and your eyes like this.
Start with a good first impression. Promise?
Faith holds up her pinkie like she has ever since we met in
second grade. I curl mine around hers and mutter, Pinkie
promise, even though Im pretty sure that it wont make any
difference, and I have no confidence that high school will be
better.
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CHAPTER 2
SEPTEMBER 1
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Its sweltering in the gym. I dont know why I let Faith talk me
into wearing this stupid hairstyle, with my hair half down my
back. I try holding it up in a ponytail to let my neck cool.
It is so fricking hot in here!
I turn and find myself looking up into a pair of bright blue
eyes, set in a deeply tanned face thats framed by close-cut, dark
hair. I swallow, suddenly glad that I bothered to experiment with
Moms extensive makeup selection this morning.
Uh . . . yeah. Youd think theyd turn up the A/C.
You didnt go to Eastern, did you?
No, Western.
Thought I didnt recognize you. Im Nick. Nick Peters.
Um. Hi. Im Abby. Abby Johnston.
Yeah, well, figured it had to be something between H and
P, right? He smiles, and his teeth are blindingly white against
his tan.
Maybe Faiths right. Maybe high school wont be so bad
after all.
Nick! Hey, Nicky!
Amanda Armitage, queen of all Clique Queens and bane of
my middle school existence, is coming across the gym, smiling
and waving, and Ill bet you my favorite Viggo Mortensen poster
that its not aimed at me. Sure enough, Nick raises an arm and
waves back.
You know Amanda? I ask him.
Sure, Mandy and I go way back. Our parents belong to the
same country club. Shes great.
I take it back. High school sucks. Big-time.
I fake a smile and manage to lie, Yeah, great, between gritted teeth.
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answers, she says, tossing her blond hair over her shoulder as
she arranges her books on the desk.
Nick grins. Not so sure youd want to do that, Mandy. Math
isnt my best subject.
Um . . . its one of mine, I say, You know . . . I mean . . . if
you ever need help with homework . . . or anything.
Nick glances at me briefly. Thanks, Ally, he says. Ill remember that.
He turns back to Mandy.
He could at least remember my freaking name.
I feel like plankton. No, I feel lower than plankton, if there
is anything lower than plankton, which I cant remember because
I feel so miserable. What was the point of putting on all this
facecrap and messing with my hair? It hasnt made any difference. People like Amanda Armitage are still going to be on
top in high school, and people like me are doomed to a life as
pond scum.
Faith and I sit together on the bus home. I just want to forget
about my day, but she wants to compare notes.
Theres a really nice girl, Grace, in a few of my classes. I cant
wait till you meet her I think you guys will get along. How
about you? Did you meet anyone new?
I have a dull headache, and I really dont want to relive my day
from hell, but theres no way Im going to get out of it.
Well, theres this really cute guy, Nick Peters, whos in
my math class, but unfortunately he only has eyes for Mandy
Armitage. Apparently, shes an old family friend from the country
club and he thinks shes great.
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When I get home, I go straight up to my room, drop my backpack on the floor, and throw myself on the bed. I watch the
afternoon sunlight dapple patterns of stripes and leaves on
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the ceiling, the dust motes swirling in random patterns that seem
to mimic the confusing, uncomfortable feelings I have inside.
Theres no homework, so I grab my laptop and log on to
ChezTeen.com. Within minutes, Im surrounded by friends, even
though Ive never met any of them. There, I can pretend that my
first day of school was fantastic, because no one is going to
know anything different. I can be anyone I want to be when Im
online and I dont even have to wear makeup.
So, how was everyones first day at school? Mom asks when
were all seated around the dinner table.
Great! Lily chirps. Seventh grade is awesome. I dont know
why Abby hated it so much.
My little sister is such a freak.
Mom, Dad, now do you believe me that Lilys weird? No one
normal likes middle school.
Abby . . . Mom warns.
I liked middle school, or junior high as it was known then,
Dad says.
Yeah, back when the dinosaurs roamed the earth, Lily says,
rolling her eyes.
Watch it, sprite, Dad tells her. This dinosaur is the one who
pays for your trips to the mall.
The fact that Dad liked middle school just proves my theory.
Hes not exactly a poster child for Normal. Hes obsessed with
becoming a millionaire before hes fifty, and when we go on
vacation he reads all these business strategy books for fun.
On the beach. Its so embarrassing. And hes been a serious
workaholic ever since he left Strickham and Young, the major
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accounting firm where hed worked even before I was born, and
started his own practice. A major league workaholic barely
ever home and always totally stressed out. I cant believe hes
actually here for dinner tonight. Mom must have read him the
riot act about it being the first day of school and ordered him to
come spend some face time with Lily and me.
What about you, Abby? Mom asks. How was your
first day?
For a minute, Im tempted to tell my parents the truth about
my first day, how it was basically the same crummy scene as middle school in a bigger building. But I know that if I do, Mom will
start listing the thirty zillion ways I need to change in order to be
a success, and Lily will join in and that will be the cherry topping
on my Cruddy Day Sundae.
So I lie.
It was fine. Except it sucks because Faith and I arent in any
classes together except gym.
Omigod! Lily shrieks, throwing up her arms in exaggerated horror. How will you live?! You guys are joined at the
freaking hip!
Lily. Thats enough, Mom says, giving my sister a stern glance.
Abby, I know thats tough for you, but maybe this is a good thing.
Itll force you to branch out and make some new friends.
So now Moms not happy with my friends, as well as with me?
What if Im happy with the friends Ive got?
It never hurts to make new ones, Dad says. Who knows
where some of these kids might end up in the future? One
of them could be the CEO of a Fortune 500 company for all
you know.
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Can I be excused?
But youve hardly eaten anything! Mom says, all worried.
Im not that hungry, and Ive got some reading I want to
do, I lie.
Thats good, Dad says. Get your studies off on the right
foot. Grades really count now that youre in high school.
Sometimes I think my parents majored in cluelessness.
Mom, can I have some more steak if Abby isnt having any?
Lily asks.
Sure, sweetie.
I escape to my room and log on to ChezTeen.com. Almost
immediately, a chat screen pops up.
BlueSkyBoi: Hey, wut up, soulie?
Soulie? It takes a second or two, but then I realize its that guy
Faith and I were chatting with last night, the one who was my
musical soul mate. I grin and type back:
AbyAngel99: Not much.
BlueSkyBoi: Howd the 1st day go?
I wonder if I should lie to him the same way Ive lied to
everyone else. But then I figure, What do I care? Its not like Im
trying to impress him. I dont even know this guy.
AbyAngel99: It kind of sucked.
BlueSkyBoi: Yeah. HS blows. Did your friend like
it? Fairyfall or whatever. You always seem to be
online together.
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Okay, okay. Ill think about it. But can I at least have like a
day or two to get used to the place first?
Sure, honey. Just keep what I said in mind.
Thats pretty much the end of our heart-to-heart. He says
good night and kisses me on the top of the head. And Im left
sitting at my desk wanting . . . something, I dont know what.
Something more.
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