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in the teaching of the Church that we should be most fr-ee to listen and 15 Section 33.
l6 li?i//r .srcftirg, I-ondon 2000, xi.
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When God does give commandments, then they are
given in the beautiful about this story is that the wonan makes of him a victim.
context of friendship. When Moses encounters God on
the mountain to Instead of denying it he embraces the accusation and claims the child as
receive the Ten Commandments, then he is not meeting
the cosmic law_ God's and his own. He is free.
giver but the Lonl used to speak to Moses face to facelas
one speaks to
a lriend' (Exodus 33.11). And when lesus gives the disciples
iis new
coramandment, it is because they are his friends: ,you are my
friends if Spontaneity
yoLr do what I command you'(John 15.14). Friends
have obligations to 'This is my bodl given for you.'This was Dot just a solitary action which
each other that do not so much constrajn as bind them
togeth; It is the lesus might or might not have done. The Synoptic Gospels show that
obligation of love rather than law.
everything that tesus had done before was leading up to this. The calling
So it is only in friendship and proximity tltat the
Church can be with of the discipies, those meals with pr.ostitutes and publicans, the multi-
tus l.s we face moral dilemmas and nrake ci.roices.
It is only thus thal plication of the loaves, all those events are seen to culrninate in this
people may hate the confidence to make choices tl.rat are
creative and creative act, the foundation of the community of ChrisCs Body. Without
libcrating, which go beyond the obvious alternatives and
discover what it, all the preyious story of his life would make no sense. All the freedom
is_ncrv. On that last night Jesus hacl few options open
to him, and nole which Jesus had showr.r in forgiving sins, touching lepers, transcending
of them seemed good. He could rvait and die or fjee and
be humiliated. the laq all culminate i,r this act of utter freedom. When one reads the
In either case his life rvould appear to be a f-;rjlure. There seemed
to be no whole story of the Gospel, then there appears to be a certain inevitabil-
coorl choices to ntake. But he:rcted creatively. He grasped
tltis betrayal, ity about it, that one could never have guessed beforehand. It is both
anil nade of it a gift. He transformed the disintegration
of the comrrru_ what he rn ast do and what he mostteely does.
nity into the gifi of the new covenant.
Many of us find that we have few options. But choosing Ifone thinks, as our society tends to, that freedom is just about choos-
is more than ing between alternatives, then one's life becomes just one choice aller
hovering between alternatives. With Godt grace invigoraing
our imag_ another. If one makes the wrong choice, then one can just go to Confes-
ination, we can choose creatively, opening up possibllities
oi which we sion and have it erased. Three murders and two impure thoughts this
hild never drermed. We can grasp our fate and make
it a blessing. We can week no problem! Start again. Ofcourse we all stagger to the sacrament,
discover freedom when it had seemecl impossible.
I -.t u *o."un in th.
I)hilippines who suffers from leprosy. She has asking for our sins to be wiped away, and emerge feeling cleansed: and
spent nost of her life in
one of the leprosaria that the Dominican brothers so we should. But if we remain stuck at that level, thinking of our moral
of St Martin run. lives as just successive good or bad acts, then we shall remain morally
lndeed, many of the brethren are themselves
leparr. Euan *h.r, ,fra *o,
cui ed, she did not dare to go out and see infantile. Our personal history is not, as Henry Ford said of history in
in people,s .y., th.i. f*i una
disgust she was imprisonecr by her scars. And general,'just or.re damn thing after another'. As we saw in the last chapter,
trren she discovered that
Ircr ,.lrsease could become her nrission. Slre we make sense of our lives by finding a story to tell of them. The story
began to travel around Asia,
visiting leprosaria, encouraging people to leave that we tell shows who we are. Our identity is grasped as we rewrite our
their prison, u,Jir.'fr...
'l he story is personal autobiography as we grorv older. So when we make major deci-
told of a medieval German Dominicon ,,.,y.,i,,.ul.a
13lcssed Henry of Suso. A woman sions, then we are deciding the direction of our lives, and the story that
who had an illegitimate;i;i;;;
may ultimately be told of them. We are making decisions about who we
hi-s doorstep and spread the rumour
that l.,".,rurih" fo,h;;;;r;;"..",,
all this without a word. He saicl to the child:,My ale and not just what we do.
U."utif,,t .t,liJ,'l .r"ltt If one thinks that morality is about submission to rules, then one will
talc r:are of you, for you are God's child and
rrine too.,,, f ,t;;;; k"rrv
rvhrrt the brethren made of itl Neeclless tre able to assess the quality of a moral life by how many times the rules
to say, the wo'ran wl-i ;;;;;O
by this that she revealed his innocence before have been obeyed or broken. But the older tradition which we 6nd in
she died. What is so
theologians like Thomas Aquinas thinks in terms of the movement of
i7 l),)nald Nicholl, H{,/i,ess, l_ondon t98t,p.35. onei whole life. The story that we are invited to tell of ourselves is of the
journey to God fror.n whom we come. Ethics is about becoming strong
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lor the journey home. The virtuous life is one that helps us to keep on Gry.n wrote that in Auschwitz there was a radical transformation of some
moving in the right direction. 'Virtus' means literally 'strength', strength ofhis keyvalues, including that offreedom. He wrote,'Freedom is some-
for the journey. The cardinal virtues - courage, temperance, prudence thing you and I consider that we haw, and if you are imprisoned, it is
ancl justice - help us on the way. The theological virtues - faith, love and taken away. But in the camps, freedom became what you were, and, this
lrope - give us a foretaste of our arrival. shaped the attitudes you formed to your situation and your destiny.'2'
The typical modeln way ofbeing religious is, as I have suggested, to be The virtues are roads to freedom, and our deepest freedom is spontan-
a pilgrim, like Momo and Oscar. Modern people are searching, travel- eously to do what is good, because it is what we most deeply desire.
ling, not quite sure what is at the end of the journey but, at least inter- Often one is given the impression that an action is especially virtuous if
nrittcntly, on the wa)'. We nrust be with them, helping people to discover it is hard work. That the person who manages to resist having another
t hc tleedom of the road and glimpse the goal of all our journeying. The bottle of wine by an immense effort of will is rnore virtuous than the
Church must offer a pedagogy of freedom which is about nore than person who happily knows that he has had enough. But that is not what
mrking the right choices. It is becoming a moral agent whose life is dis- Aquinas thought. The virtues help us towards the freedom of easily and
co\ !.red to have a shape and meaning. We wlll only be able to do this if effortlessly doing what is good, as a good player can spontaneously
$'t irrc rvith people rvhere they arc, not telling them u,here they ought to snatch a goal without having to calculate all the angles and trajectories.
bc. \\re cannot be like the person who rvas asked the way to Dublin and His whole body knows what to do. A top-class footballer bends the ball
rvho repiied,'If I wanted to go to Dublin, then I rvould not start here.' without hardly thinking about it.
\\lherever we are, in whatever confusions or messes we find ourselves, Of course we need rules and commandments, iust as a pianist needs
I h is is the starting point of the journey home. It is no good telling
people scales. But they are only there to teach us freedom, and to remind us of
thirt they slrould not be divorced or remarried or livir.rg tvith a partner or what we most deeply desire. Herbert McCabe wrote, 'Ethics is entirely
whele tl']ey are now. When the good Don.rinican, St Anton-
girv. We treglin concerned with doing what you want, that is to say with being free. Most
inus, Archbishop of Florence, asked Cosimo de Medici to ban all priests of the difficulties arise from the difliculty ofrecognizing what we want.'22
frlnr gambling, he replied wisely,'First things first. Shouldn't we begin The Ten Commandments are not an external constraint on our freedom:
iry banning them from using loaded dice?'r3 Samuel Beckett wrote; ,To they tell us who we are. If I feel myself being carried away by a sudden
find fbrm that accommodates the mess, that is the task of the artist.'r, desire to murder the Prior, then'Thou shalt not kill'reminds me that I
That is also the task of a pastor. In whatever mess we may be living, a am his brother, and I do not really want to kill him, much. I would only
stoly can be told that will make some sense of it, and a story that leads feel remorse if I did. Regret is being sorry for what one did in the past.
to the Kingdom. Remorse is discovering that one never really wished to do it at all.
\\then 5t Thon.ras looked at the moral life, he began by asserting that Spontaneity is the fruit of being single-hearted.
rve ale ntade in God's own image, and so we are intelligent ancl free, and So spontaneity is not doing the first thing that comes into onek head.
thc source of our own actions.zo Becoming virtuous, then, is not about lt is acting from the core of one's being, where God is, sustaining one in
suirmifting to external constraints. It is about acting from the very core existence. Think of the utter spontaneity of fesus. He sees the disciples
of one's being. It is being auto-mobile, self rroving. We rnay begin life on the shore and l.re calls them. He had not made a mental note to find
fecling that physically we are sports cars and end up feeling like ancient some disciples, and then considered whether these men might be suit-
lolrics, but in the mor al life, hopeful\, it is tlre other way arouncl. When able candidates. He sees the rich young man, and he loves him without
wc lhink of freedom as choice, then it is something that we have. We hesitation. I{e sees Zacchaeus up the tree and immediately he says,
nrLrst identifr a deeper heedon, which is being who we are. Rabbi Hugo 'Zacchaeus, nake haste and come down; for I must stay at your house
today' ( Luke 19.5). lesus often acts with speed. Like Captain Jack Aubrey,
l8 l)iul Slrathern, ?Jr. h4edici: GoLllalrcrs of th. Rc,rdirsdr.(, Lonc]on 2003, p. 124.
l9 (luoled in ?i?,r.i /.;r'nry S
lplotrcnt, 15 t.I.It cl1 2OO2. 2l llugo Gryn with Naorni Gryn, C/rnsirg Sfiddows, London 2000, p. 233.
l(l Sl', Prologus 1i.2ae. 22 Low,l.ave a d Lang age,p.61.
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in the novels of Patrick O'Brian,,There is not a nroment to be lost., ln
is fieer than if one had just two brands. But when one has grown into
Pasolinit'The Gospel According to St Matthewl lesus is in a perpetual that deeper freedom which is spontaneity, it may become the other way
bustle. It is not that he is hurried, but that his actions are unh.rituting
around, There are just a few cleep and fundamental choices to be made,
and sure. Think of the contrast between Judas, whom l imagine waver_
and these are concerned with becoming free and happy in God. There
ing in confusion, drifting into evil, arrd lesus who is utterly in every act, is
one single long-ter m goal, which shapes one,s life and gives it coherence.
incarnate in the deed. He is fully in what he does. Cl.rrist in us makes all
So one has to opt for certain choices because they are simply part
our actions ours.'The just man justices; keeps grace: that keeps all his of
being oneself. Think rgain of /esus. Rowan Williams argues briiliantly
goings graces."'
tlrat his deepest freedon wirs that he could do no other than the Father's
For us, such spontaneity is the fruit ofa deep travail, of rebirth. Think
will.
of the Franciscan in Auschwitz, Maxirliliarn Kolbe. One day in the
summer of 1941, three prisoners escaped from the concentration camp,
There nay be turmoil at the level of feelings, a keen awareness of the
so the Gestapo decided to kill ten prisoners in return. When these were
cost, a shrinking from what lies ahead, but there is no ultimate uncer_
lined up, Father Kolbe suddenly stepped forward and pointed at one of
tainty. And this does not mean that Jesus is somehow spared the awful_
thc' men, who was mar ried and had children, ancl took his place.
Kolbe ness of human decision in the face of terrible risk and agony only that
wls cxecuted. It rvas the spontaneous act of a deeply ti.ec person. It tool<
who he is is what settles the matter once and for all. He is completely
years of small good acts to learn to do that, making mistakes
and trying free to be himself As a matter of fact, it is unthinkable that he should
again, practising the scales of spontaneity.
refuse his calling - it is only abstractly possible in so much as any
Donald Nicholl, then director of the Ecumenical Institute of Tantur,
human beir.rg can, in the abstract, say yes or no to anything. But this
tells a story of how one day he was out jogging near
Jerusalen, and as he does not reduce his freedom; instead it establishes what is the most
wcnt around a corner he met a group ofyoung Muslim workers. He was
important freedom of all.,s
past them in just a couple of seconds but one of them had
the spontan-
eous reaction of popping into his hands a bunch of raisins,
shouting,you Mark tells us time and again that the Son of Man must go to
.rlc thirsty.' Nicholl gives this as an exanple of ,that cleep sponta-neity ferusalem,
where he must suffer and die. In embracing this necessity
characteristic of holy people who do not simply react, Iesus is
suier.hcially, but supremely free, because what he must do expresses who he most deeply
lather.respond immediately from the depths of their being,
from the is.
heart'.ra WhenI read that, I realized that same morning I hJ done the Entering into that freedom, which is Christ,s own gift, requires that we
opposite. While I was in the church for my time of meditation
before be liberated from the wrong idea of God. We must destroy the idol of
Mass, a very dirty old man came up to me and produced from his pocket
God as a big, powerful person, usually thought ofas male, who bosses us
rr glLrbby okl digestive biscuit, which he attempted
to give me. I was so around and tells us what we must do if he is to like us. We must get rid
irritrrtcd at.being disturbed at my prayers thai immedlately
I said ,No, of the God who opposes our freedom, and keeps us trapped in iniantile
llr;rrrl, you.' llc tltcn gave it to a Dominican sister
beside nte rvho zubrnission. So many peoplet lives have been crucified by worship of
.rcc cptcd it graciously. I was dceply
ashamed, He had come with his small
tiris alien idol. We must discover the God who is the source of freedom
gilt ;rnd I had refused it. I used to wait for him
to come and hope that I bubbling up in the very core of our being, and granting us existence in
might bc given another chance. I was not,
every moment.
It is usLrally
assuned iu our consuiler world that the more
choices one Paul Murray OP wrote a poem called ,The Space Between':
has, the fieer one is. Ifone can choose
between telt rort, ofb"". tha,l on"
What happened was for me wasted on some silly cause, or trampled upon as without value? Will
A kind of miracle even the Church always respect the gift we make ofourselves to her? The
test of whether this self-gift is free is whether it makes others free. Does
Like being suddenly able it build the communion of the liberated? Jesus gives away his life so that
To breathe under water we might be liberated.'For freedom Christ has set us free'(Galatians
5.1). Freedom is never just individual, the consurrer hesitating between
The astonishment at finding alternative products. Freedom is the space in which we flourish together.
It possible again to believe The freedom of spontaneity is founded on the communion between
God and humanity which is the foundation of our existence. The
And at firding the space freedom of giving our lives away aspires to the communion of all
To breathe and breathe deep humanity in the Kingdom.
James Mawdsley is a remarkable young man who went to Burma to
Between the word'freedom' protest against the tyranny of the government. He chained himself to a
And the word'God126 building in Rangoon, distributed pamphlets and played tape recordings
denouncing the reginle. He was imprisoned for a short while until the
'l hcn our acts can be coutpletely ollt' owr.l, utterly with external con- British Ambassador came and negotiated his release and put him on a
straint, what we most deeply wish and delight to do, and also most plane home and told him not to be a silly boy. But he came back again
Lrttcrly God'.s acts, because all that I do springs from being rooted in and again, and each time spent longer in prison in solitary confinement.
(lod. There is no competition. He wrote, 'Mankind is one body. We cannot move forward except
together. We cannot leave Parts of our body behind. None of us is free
rrntil we all are free.'27
The freedom to give away one's life No one can be really tree if anyone remains a Prisoner' Nelson
At the Last Supper Jesus performs the freest act in hun.ran history. He Mandela is a man who gave away his life. He let an ordinary married life
gives away his life:'This is my body, given for you.' It appears an almost slip through l.ris hands fol the sake of the whole peoPle. If he were to
recl<lc'ss act, placing himself in the hands of his disciples, the very people become free himself, then he had to work for the liberation of all South
rvho will betray and deny him, and run away from him. It ever.r looks like Africans, black and white. He wrote in The Long Road to Freedom,
the loss of all freedom. The various levels of freedom tl.rat I have
described trace a path like a boonerang, curving around the freedom of In that way my commitment to my People, to the millions of South
choice and coming back again. For the freedom of choice is the most Africans I would nc ,er know ot meet, was at the exPense of the people
obvious sort of freedom, the ordinary model which we immediately I knew best and loved most. It was as simple and incomprehensible as
understand. Spontaneity looks like a loss of choice; it is being free to do the moment a small child asks her father,'Why can you not be with
what mrlst be done. And he began to teach them that the Son of man us?'And the father must utter the terrible words: 'There are other chil-
rrr.rsl suffer many things, and be rejected by the elders and the chief dren like you, a gr€at many of them . . .' and then one's voice trails off
prirsls and the scribes, and be killed, and after three days rise again' . ..1 found that I could not even enioy the Poor and limited freedom
(N1ark {t.31). But his deepest Eucharist freedon, giving us his body, I was allowed when I knew that my peoPle were not free. Freedom is
brirgs us back to fudas and his betrayal, which is grasped firrnly and indivisible; the chains on any one of my people were the chains on all
gcnerously. of them, the chains on all of my people were the chains on me.23
llo\v cilt we dare to throw .twily oLrr livcs? Might they not just be
27 '1
fu l-leott Must lJrtdk: Bto nd - I)etlnt:racy drrl 7irlrr, l,ondon 2001' P l16.
lar Trfrc B/ark Sro^, Dublin 2003, p. 52. 28 'l lrc Larywalk k) Irr*/orrr, l-ondon 1994,p.750.
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