15 [Byun Baekhyun] Failure

What did you say? Did I hear wrong, Tae Shin Hyung looked at me with a shocked expression. I said, can I push back the surgery, I calmly repeated myself again. The next morning, after I had packed up in the hospital ward, Tae Shin Hyung came to fetch me. Why would you want to drag it? Dont you know that you need to get the surgery done as fast as possible so that you can recover quickly, if you drag it, it will only worsen your condition, how could you Its because, I broke him off, becauseI dont want my parents to know about it, so, Im looking for other ways to borrow some money, so, the surgery might be pushed back a little Tae Shin Hyung probably didnt expect that it would be because of such a reason, he froze for a moment. Even though thats the reason, you should never risk your health...you should find a time to tell your parents about it, at the end of the day, theyll still know about it somehow, Tae Shin Hyung sighed. You dont have to worry too much about the surgery fee, the company wont make it difficult for you. Thanks Hyung, I smiled at him, at least the discussion about when to have surgery is over. Oh yeah, they came to see you yesterday right? The members. Yes, they came yesterday. ...What did you say to them? I told them I had stomach flu, and needs some time to rest. Tae Shin Hyung sighed again, and patted my shoulders, I know you feel upset inside as well, yet you have to go through this by yourself. But now that were missing one of the members of the group, its important for them to develop as an individual artiste, they cant to be distracted I nodded. I know, even though some of the members arent close with each other, but thinking about it, if we had a member resting in a hospital waiting for surgery, when being reminded of it while recording a variety show or some sort, it wouldnt feel good. I stared blankly at the road as I sat on the car back to the dorm. There were all types of pedestrians, some rushed and others relaxed, all types of cars, from pretty race cars to trucks loaded with goods. All types of stores. All types of buildings. From rugged to smooth roads. Left turn, right turn, green light, red light. This bustling and diverse world. It felt as if I belonged somewhere out of this world. In a daze, I could recall those words Tae Shin Hyung told me when I was admitted to the hospital.

Baekhyun-ah, do you feel better? What Im going to you next dont panic when you hear itcalm down first, and listen to me. The hospital says that theres a tumour at your stomach, it was already identified at your last health check-up, thats why I had called you to the hospital again for a re-check. Dont be afraidthankfully, it isnt dangerous. Im already trying my best to arrange a surgery for you as fast as possible, if not, the tumour might Dont be too sad either, it may sound serious, but you will definitely survivebe optimistic. Im not afraid, neither am I the least bit saddened. Apart from feeling a little surprised, I have calmly accepted the fact that such a thing has happened on me. I even wonder if God has finally had enough, and decided to give the life of Byun Baekhyun who gets everyones hate where ever he goes a way to end it. Even if I were to be saved from this illness, it would only cause me pain and the others around me more trouble. Im sorry. Im also tired of this. --After I returned to the empty dorm, I went straight to bed. Recently, Ive always been feeling more tired than the in the past. Im not sure how long after, I was awoken by my phones ringtone. Incoming call: Wu Yifan I frowned, and dared not answer. Hello. Come out now. Where? I asked weakly. Im already waiting below your apartment, come down fast. He hung up after saying so. I sighed, and briefly groomed myself before heading downstairs. Seeing the familiar car opposite the road, I felt my head ache. But I had no choice, I walked towards it and opened the door before seating inside. He still had his hands on the steering wheel, as usual, in his arrogant and proud manner.

Why did you come out dressed just like that? He asked me with a raised eyebrow. I looked my own clothes they werent too different from the ones I wore in the past. But even if I were to dress up in my best clothes, wont they still end up removed by you. Seeing that I didnt reply, he replied to his own words, OhI almost forgot that you are a celebrity. You have to dress low key to prevent being recognised by the public. I turned my head to the side. Im quite tired today, can we be fast? So that I can return earlier. From my corner vision, I saw Wu Yifan staring at me, and burst out laughing. What are you thinking? In your eyes, am I just a perverted jerk to you? No. Alright, then Ill be fast today. But before that, lets go get you new clothes. Huh? I had no idea what kind of tricks he was trying to play. Im bringing you to a party tonight, how could you go dressed like that. Party? Why do you want to bring me there?...... I was even more confused. He didnt replied and grinned before starting the car engine. --When I stood before the door of the building where the party was held, I was already dressed in a black suit. You dressed up like this He examined me for a moment, looks not nice. I did not know what to say. Look at your skinny form, you really do look better dressed in thick clothes that cover your frame up. If you prefer muscular men, why did you call me along to this place with you. I muttered in a quiet voice. Is it interesting? Teasing me. What did you say? He lowered his head and leaned close to me. Nothing, Knowing that itd be better not to get on his nerves, I kept quiet.

Wu Yifan is probably one of the major people in the business industry. People who looked similar to his status came up to us as soon as we entered the hall. Hey! Long time no see, Mr Wu. Wu Yifan returned to his composed self and interacted with each of the people, briefly introducing me when needed. This is my friend, Baekhyun. I bowed and greeted them, after all, they all looked like respectable seniors or higher status. This youngster here seems likehmm, isnt he the main vocal of which group? One of the bosses was trying hard to recall. M1, I replied respectfully. Ah yes yes yes yes. My daughter really likes them a lot, and that who? She goes on and on about him all dayChansomething. Chanyeol. The moment I say out your name, I felt as if in a daze. Look, only your name is enough to make my heart flutter. Id rather just die, because no matter how you spite me for being a bitch, as long as you are Park Chanyeol, youd be more like a drug I am addicted to, unable to escape. Well be going over first, While I was in a trance, Wu Yifans voice came from beside me, a hand also reached over. I tilted my head to look at him, he nodded politely at the group of people and softly pulled me towards the seats at the corner. Just hearing his name would bring you into a daze? He asked expressionlessly. No. He didnt speak, and asked me to seat down beside the table. I have to go somewhere to discuss some things, you sit here first, He said. Yea, I nodded. Dont ever drink wine, not even when someone offers, He nagged again before he left. After watching him leave, I sat quietly alone at the table. Bored, I fiddled around with the forks and spoons on the table. All around me were people chatting, only I seemed like someone out of this circle. On the hand, Wu Yifan was at another faraway area talking to some people, a glass of wine in his hands. He looked like one of those young masters in dramas. Thinking of when I first met him, it was in a similar occasion. After that dinner party, many things have started to change into unpredictable directions. Just as I was in my own world, someone suddenly sat down on the empty seat beside me.

I turned my head around. My eyes widened. Hayeon I muttered while looking at her shocked, Why are you here? You dont wish to see me? Byun Baekhyun. I justthe way you speak to me harshly, its almost exactly the same as Park Chanyeol. No, Im just afraid youll end up in the same situation as last time. I looked around her, Youre here alone? But she didnt answer my question. Why? Dont you want to ask me why I said that to Chanyeol about you? I froze for a little, then realised that Hayeon was referring to her telling Chanyeol that I was the one who worked together with Wu Yifan to try to harm her. You wanted revenge. I have nothing to say, I lowered my eyes. Afterwards, I heard her laugh, similar to that of a winners towards the loser. Byun Baekhyun, you must not know yet, but I finally got the script in a drama not long ago. Congratulations. Even though, you caused me to be unable to debut, I still did it, all by myself. She stared at me, like a complain, but more like as if she was trying to show off. Yes, Hayeon, look how fast karma has done its job. You will soon appear in front of the publics eye like a star, just as charming and pretty as back then while Byun Baekhyun would have to slowly disappear from it. Isnt it always like this in the dramas? The main characters go through hard times, but still end up having their dreams come true, but still end up with the person they love, while the once malicious bitches end up in a pitiful state. I hope I havent interrupted your little chat, Just then, Wu Yifan appeared in between the both of us, one hand supported on the back of my chair. Hayeon looked at Wu Yifan, expression still filled with fear, probably being reminded of their horrible past encounter. MMr Wu, She called, afraid. Ms Lee, if there isnt anything, Ill be leaving with my friend first, He said as he began to pull me up. Lee Hayeon bit her lip, not speaking. Ah, and also, thanks to Ms Lee, I managed to become friends with Baekhyun.

Isnt it Ms Lee who told others that we were partners in crime, trying to harm you together? Wu Yifan continued to smile, yet his words made one afraid. So, me and Baekhyun must look as if we were friends, right? Hayeons face turned pale. Seeing such a situation, I immediately nudged Wu Yifan a little, and said my goodbyes to Hayeon, Well go first. Hayeons eyes were still filled with hatred as she looked at me. I smiled bitterly, shes probably guessing that I was the one who told all these to Wu Yifan. --In the car, Wu Yifan smoked a cigarette, while I sat silently beside the drivers seat. After a long time, I opened my mouth to break the silence. You did it on purpose right? He took a drag of the cigarette, and slowly huffed out the cloudy smoke. What are you saying. I sighed silently, and leaned onto the car window, tired. You knew Hayeon came, thats why you brought me here. Am I right? He listened, and laughed softly. Looks like you are a lot more smarter that I thought you wouldve been. Why are you doing this? Because, He turned his head around to look at me, Im very curious, wheres your bottom-line. I looked back at him, confused. Youre helping Lee Hayeon so much, but she doesnt appreciate it. Looks like this pitiful lady, doesnt know what she had exchanged for to ensure a successful debut. This topic made me slightly uncomfortable. I was suddenly reminded of how on the bed, how this person had shamed me by making me lose all my pride. You saw it too just now, what an unappreciative little lady, how upsetting. So, let me ask you again, our deal, do you still want to continue it? Its still your own choice. My hands balled up into fists. The token in exchange to her position, do you still pick yourself, or her

Myself, I cut in and answered, before he finished. Im already this rotten beyond repair, Im not afraid of being worse. Now youve heard my answer, can I go back now? I shut my eyes out of exhaustion. After sometime without a reply, just as I was about to open my eyes to look over, I was pulled over by someone, and then pressed into a firm chest. Wu Yifanis embracing me. Im a little afraid, afraid that hell do something to me, but I didnt dare to push him away. You doing all these silly things, is it all for Park Chanyeol? He suddenly asked, I could not identify his emotion from his words. No, I said this before, its only because I owe Hayeon. Dont you feel as if you are wronged and suffering? I shook my head, but I felt an ache in my heart from those words. Maybe I do feel that way. Hatred and misunderstanding from the person I love, Im repaying for my sins, yet no one is willing to forgive me. I want toI want to become closer with that person, but all I see is coldness and despise. But, a person like me, am I even fit to feel wronged? Seeing that I did not speak, Wu Yifan let me go. How old are you already, yet you are dropping tears, He looked at me, words with a teasing tone. His hands reached over. I duck instinctively, hurriedly, wiping off the tears on my cheeks. He watched me, he put down his hand in mid-air awkwardly. I immediately arranged my emotions, silently scolding myself if it was because of my illness that Ive became this weak and emotional. It felt as if that hug never happened, we went back to our distant state. Oh yeah, He opened his mouth to speak, When is your surgery? His question made me froze. Youhow did you know? I thought about it, Tae Shin Hyung told you? Who is Tae Shin Hyung? He asked me with a frown. My manager, the one you saw last time I knew he had a bad memory and didnt bother to explain much.

Ah, the one I met at the hospital. He nodded, After I met you at the hospital, I assigned someone to take note of your medical records. Is this even possible? I looked at him, shocked, Isnt that the patients privacy? I was a little unhappy, as if I was betrayed by the hospital. He ruffled my hair, Looks like you have quite a lot of energy, getting angry at me. I did not, I stopped looking at him and turned back to my seat. Really, tell me, whens your surgery? Ill find someone to arrange you the best surgeon, No need for that. I replied simply, not wanting to stay longer on this topic, I asked, Are we not going back? The car was already at its original spot for half an hour. Go back? Go back to my hotel? I paused, hearing his words, after a long internal struggle, I realised that he was playing a joke on me. You Alright, alright. Ill send you back. He could not help but laugh, following that, he started the car and drove onto the road. ---

Authors note () : I think I did so much wrong to Chanyeol. My longest chapter yet is all KrisbaekI almost decided to title this chapter Wu Yifan I even forgot if I wanted Kris to be the bad guy or the nice guy when I first started off. When I reached the end, even I felt Krisbaek was really cute And, I know you are going to insult the group name in the fic ..M1.I know Your author-nim here really sucks at naming, so I just used this old name (its good enough that I didnt use something like Youth Universe) Original writer: Translatorchanbaek-xoxo.tumblr.com