Anna's Book

Compiled by

Fynn
Illustrated by Papas

CONTENTS
Foreword Introduction 1 Not Going To Church and What Mister God Is Like 2 My Darling Mummy 3 $ The Very Very irst ! The "tory o# in %nce &'on ( Time ) The Tree

FOREWORD
In Mister God, This is Anna ynn told the story o# his #riendshi' *ith this e+traordinary child, and o# her relationshi' *ith -Mister God- and the *orld around her. (nna/s story, *ith its timeless truths, li0es on in the minds and hearts o# countless readers. 1ut a#ter her death, little *as le#t o# (nna hersel# 2 e+ce't the a3iding memory o# her 'resence, and a #e* treasured #ragments o# her *riting. In Anna's Book ynn shares these *ith us. (nna/s s'elling and 'unctuation *ere, like hersel#, uni4uely original and e+u3erant. In a #e* 'laces *e ha0e altered these slightly, #or the sake o# clarity, 3ut in no *ay do these alterations detract #rom the #la0our o# (nna/s language. The 5u3lishers

INTRODUCTION
I told the story of Anna in "Mister God, This is Anna". This is how it was. Anna and I found each other in one of those pea soup, foggy nights in November. I can t remember the precise date, it was probably in !"#$. I used to wander around the doc%lands of &ast

'ondon night after night. It was a nice (uiet thin%ing place, and often I needed to thin%. It wasn t at all unusual to find a child roaming the streets at that hour ) in the !"#*s it was +ust li%e that. ,hen I had ta%en her home, and after she had washed the dirt from her face and hands, I really saw her - a very pretty little red)haired child, but as she later told me "that s on the outside". It too% me a very long time to %now her on the inside, as she demanded to be %nown. The relentless pursuit of beauty engaged the few short years of Anna s life. It was at first a little strange to be told that a picture smelt good, but I soon got used to that. Anything that delighted all your senses at once was, for Anna, God. And the microscope was a special way of seeing him. /o it was that Anna found God in the strangest of places ) tram tic%ets, grass, mathematics and even the dirt on her hands, and then somebody told you to wash it off. ,hatever satisfied Anna s idea of beauty had to be preserved, written down by anyone who was prepared to do so, and saved in one of her numerous shoe bo0es. &very so often these bo0es were placed on the %itchen table and the contents sorted out. ,here she got the idea of beauty I do not %now. In those years the &ast &nd of 'ondon was, for most people, a grimy, dirty place, but for Anna it was +ust beautiful. Anna spent most of her efforts in turning the ugly into the beautiful. This often meant inventing a whole new situation into which the ugly facts could be transformed. It was beauty that really drew Anna and me together. I can t remember a time in my life when I haven t been totally absorbed with the sub+ect of mathematics. In fact, I d rather "do" mathematics than eat or sleep. 1ld 2ohn 3., who taught me mathematics for seven years, once defined it as "the pursuit of pure beauty". Although I li%ed that as a definition, it wasn t until Anna had been with us for about two years that I really grasped what that meant. Anna and I were sitting at the %itchen table whilst I was wor%ing out the reciprocal of seventeen, which is another way of saying one divided by seventeen, which in the nature of things gave me another number, which was what I was after. A little while later it occurred to Anna to as% what happens if you divide one by the number you ve +ust found 4 ,e wor%ed it out the hard way. The answer was seventeen.. /o often we sat at the %itchen table, Anna sitting on her curled up legs, chin cupped in her hands, whilst we "wor%ed out things". 1ne evening, after we had been doing things on pieces of paper, she suddenly announced "It is +ust beautiful ideas". I don t accept that entirely, but I do accept G. G. 5ardy when he says "there is no permanent place in the world for ugly mathematics". Although I was considerably older than Anna, this pursuit of pure beauty made us companions in our e0plorations. 5er life was a continuous (uest for %nowledge and understanding as well as for beauty. Any thing or person that could answer her (uestions would be stored in bo0es or as%ed to "write it down big". This re(uest to "write it down big" did mean that her collection of writings were often spelt in various ways ) not always right ) but that didn t really matter. 1ften what had been written on her bits of paper were the %inds of things that grown ups would say. Adults words on the lips of a si0 year old child were a bit pu66ling at times, but Anna wor%ed on the basis of "if it says the right thing in the right way, use it, if not scrap it". 3uring the years that Anna lived with me and my Mum and our changing household she

wrestled with words and sentences to fit her ideas. It too% me some time to reali6e that although we lived in the same world we saw it in different ways. &verything was for Anna a means of understanding "what it was all about". Grown ups had called her +ac%daw, or parrot, little mon%ey, sprite ) she was certainly all of these things but, more than these, she was a child.

1 Not Going To Church an What !ist"r Go Is #ik"

Although Anna went to 7hurch and /unday /chool she was often more than a little irritated by this e0perience. It didn t seem to matter to her that God was meant to be the 7reator, all powerful and loving, etc. Anna saw God as something other than this. God wasn t good because he loved or was +ust. God was good because he was beautiful. The very nature of God was pure beauty. It was at first a bit of an ordeal ta%ing Anna to 7hurch, for it was the chess board floor ing that grasped her, more than any preacher s words. As she once told me "it ma%es you tingle all over", and whatever made you tingle all over was very close to God. ,hat bothered Anna so much about going to 7hurch was the fact that so many people seemed to be loo%ing for miracles. 8or Anna everything was a miracle and the greatest miracle was that she was living in it.

I dont like to go to cherch 0ery much and I do not go 3ecase I do not think Mister God is in cherch and i# I *as Mister God I *ould not go. 5e'le in cherch are misera3le 3ecase 'e'le sin misra3le songs and misra3le 'rers and 'e'le make Mister God a 0ery 3ig 3ully and he is not 3ecase he is not a 3ig 3ully 3ecase he is #uny and lu0ing and kind and strong. When you look to in it is like *en you lok to Mister God 3ut in is like a 0ery 3a3y God and Mister God is hunderd time 3igger, so you can tell ho* nice Mister God is.
Anna divided numbers up into 9eople Numbers and God Numbers. 9eople Numbers were fairly easy to understand and fairly easy to wor% out. 1n the other hand, God Numbers were even easier to understand, but sometimes impossible to wor% out. Anna seldom played with what would be recogni6ed as the usual toys these days. The e0ceptions to this were her rag doll, her paints and my old train set. This consisted of one engine, one coal)tender and eight truc%s. /he played with them for about a wee% and then put them bac% into the bo0. It was at this point that God Numbers started to appear. Anna as%ed, "5ow many different ways can I +oin together the engine, the coal)tender and the eight truc%s4" I told her how to arrive at the answer. It turned out to be somewhat bigger than she anticipated and so she thought the final answer went into the realm of God Numbers. It was #,:;<,<** and this was merely the result of finding out how many different ways ten

articles could be arranged in a straight line. It didn t ta%e her very long to reali6e that there would be a lot of (uestions with 9eople Numbers that were going to land you up to your nec% in God Numbers.

5e'le says Mister God is like a king 3ut #ancy 6ing Gorge coming do*n our street, I 3et he do not kno* *ere our stret is is and I 3et he do not kno* me. 1ut Mister God kno*, Mister God kno* our stret and in and Mily and T*ink and 5ilet and all the darling #lotkins. (nd I 3et Mister God kno* the mark on my #ace e0en
Anna had many friends in the neighbouring streets. Two of them were a little girl about four years old, 9ilet, who was often called "9ill" and her baby brother ,illiam, who was always %nown as "Twin%". All the children were %nown as "flot%ins". The poor of the &ast &nd were often referred to as "the flotsam of society". Anna s friends 5enri(ues and Niels called the %ids "die =inder" and the two words became "flot%ins". >ecause of the poverty in the &ast &nd at that time it was rare that any child had a new toy? most of the time it was a (uestion of pretending that cardboard bo0es could be anything you wished them to be. Many of the younger children +oined in these games of "let s pretend". 1ne of the things that I had made was a device for blowing bubbles. ,ith this I could produce a constant stream of fairly large soap bubbles ) these the children would chase and burst with their hands, cric%et bats, rolled up newspapers, etc. Twin% s special instrument was a wire fly swat. Although these games could and did last as long as an hour or two, some of the children saw in these bubbles all the colours of the rainbow and reali6ed the beauty of them. /ome, Anna in particular, saw reflections. It was my efforts to e0plain to Anna +ust how these reflections came about that made me buy a garden globe for her. This garden globe was about eighteen inches in diameter, made of silvered glass. /he soon reali6ed that the images at the edges of the globe were, to use her own words, "s(uashed up". ,hat was never and could never be seen as a reflection in this global mirror was the bit behind the globe. It was for Anna an indication that it was here that Mister God lived. Anna put together the ideas of the garden globe, soap bubbles, glass 7hristmas tree decorations and finally highly polished ball bearings, which did e0actly the same %ind of thing, as everything could be reflected in a small ball bearing) that is, e0cept the bit where Mister God lived. It was clear to Anna that everything that God had made could be reflected in a ball bearing. >eing such a tiny thing it could easily be put in your poc%et or even your ear, couldn t it4

I did not go to cherch on "unday 3ecase I did not *ant to go and in tuk me on a trane to a 3ig #orist. It is a *ond#ull #orist and in cudle me and tell sum *ond#ull story a3out Mister God and it *as 3etter than "unday school. In cherch 'eo'le make Mister God 3ig and 3ig and 3ig and Mister God get so 3ig that you dont kno*, 3ut in make Mister God so little, he get in your eye.
This would have been &pping 8orest.

In the #orist I see sum ra3it and sum 3ager and a lot o# 3ird and sum deer and a ded one too, 3ut I did not see no 'e'le 3ecase they *as in the 3oo7er and *en I sa* the ded deer it make me cry a 3it and in say it is sily to cry #or ded thing 3ut I can cry #or 'e'le in the 3oo7er. in say to tuch the ded deer and I tuch the ded deer and it 5u#t like #ace 'o*dr all u' my nos. Wen it gos all to 'o*dr it gos into dirt and then the gras gros in it and then the she' eat the gras and then I eat the she' and so I eat the ded deer and 3ecause Mister God make it all, I eat Mister God all time like the 'eo'le do in cherch. 1ut mine is 3etter 3ecase I do it all the time. Not only sometimes like they do in cherch 3ut e0ery time.
1ne of Anna s problems was the fact that things had a habit of changing shapes, from frog spawn to frogs, from caterpillars to butterflies? dead rabbits she had seen in &pping 8orest certainly changed their shapes. &ven the house near to us with the green painted woodwor%, the house that Anna called the "green house" was slowly changing its appearance and shape. It seemed to Anna that everything needed its shape to live in. I could, of course, have tried to e0plain the word "decay" but I didn t. Anna concluded that when a thing changed its shape it was because it had something else to do for Mister God. 8or Anna, death was +ust one of those things that happened. 3eath was that point in life when you began to@ change shape. Anna and I had sat by old Granny 5arding as she died? changing shape sometimes too% a long time, a very long time. &ven if Anna never %new what shape Granny 5arding changed into, who would argue with her4 Not me. After all, if Mister God wanted it, it must be good.

I ask in *here do the sha'e 8o# the deer9 go to: (nd in say a3out the green hous and in say 3ecase no one is in it to look a#ter the sha'e, it start to #all do*n 3ecase mo*s and rat go in and they *ant their sha'e and they make hols and the sha'e go to another sha'e. "o *en the deer gos out o# its sha'e, som more thing go in #or another sha'e. (nd it do too; 3ecase *e see a ded ra3it sha'e that *as #ull u' o# *orms and 3etels and s'idres to make another sha'e and e0ery sha'e is Mister God sha'e, 3ut Mister God has not got a 'ro're sha'e. Mister God is like a 'ensil, 3ut not like a 'ensil you can see, 3ut like a 'ensil you can not see, so you not see *hat sha'e it is, 3ut it can dra* all the sha'es ther is and this is like Mister God. When you gro* u' you get a 3it #uny 3ecase you *ant Mister God to ha0e a 'ro're sha'e like an old man and

*iskers and *rinkels on his #ace 3ut Mister God do not look like that. When T*ink 'lay tranes, he ha0e a 3ig *ood 3o+. "um<time the 3o+ is like a trane and somtime lik a house and sumtime like a shi' and sumtime like a car and sumtime you 'ut sum thing in it and sumtime you do not, 3ut you take sumthing out. (nd the 3o+ is like Mister God. "um<time it luk like sumthing and sumtime it luk like another thing. I# you say Mister God is green then Mister God cannot 3e red, 3ut he is. I# you say Mister God is 3ig, ho* can you say Mister God is litle, 3ut he is. (nd i# you say Mister God is #at, you can not say Mister God is thin, ha; ha; ha; 3ut he is too so; =o* can you say o# Mister God, 3ecase you can not. 1ut I can 3ecase I ha0e a sekrit 3ook in gi0e to me. It is a 'ictur 3ook all a3out sno* #lak and e0ery sno*#lak is not the same. I# you look at a sno*#lak sha'e it is not the same as another sno*#lak sha'e, so it has not got a 'ro're sno*#lak sha'e. 1ut you can only call it sno* and you can not call it a sha'e and you see T=(T I" LI6> MI"T>? G%D. @ou can not call Mister God a thing and you can not call Mister God a sha'e and you can only call Mister God Mister God.

$ !y Dar%ing !u&&y
As Anna began to grapple with her ideas and those very important things she had as%ed people to write down for her, she began to weave them into little stories. &verything had to be loo%ed at and (uestions had to be as%ed. 5er (uestions flowed li%e a flood tide around and over everything. All this activity made me glow with some pride. ,hile she sorted through her store of ideas and pieces of paper contained in her numerous shoe bo0es, I had

to admit to myself that there was indeed something a little strange about Anna. /he had no strange powers, no special senses, no special abilities or anything li%e that. Now, about half a century after her death, I can see that she had the strangest of all (ualities. /he could ,AIT. ,ait for the right moment, wait until, for her, everything was +ust right. I m fairly certain that Anna had never been seriously abused. >adly neglected, yes. >adly treated, yes. >ut, Anna still %ept hold of her idea of the perfect mother. Anna s "3arling Mummy" was no real person, but something li%e putting together the +ig) saw of the many stories she wrote about her ideas. 5er waiting was li%e coo%ing - the mi0ture of the various bits came out as a different dish.

1e#ore I go to slee' I think a3out Mummy and this is *hat I think. Did you e0er see stars on a #rost nigt: They look 0ery clos and it is like they are tide to you *ith string and yor #eet dont tuch the ground and you ha0e not got any < *ate and *hen I luk in Mummy eye it is like I ha0e not got no *ate and i# Mummy dont hold me tite I shall go u' in the air like a 3ird. Did you e0er 3um' into a s'idre *e3 *hen you didnt no and did you e0er go aslee' on the cul gras and did you e0er ha0e a hot drink *hen you *as cold and tired and did you e0er strok a duk/s tummy: Well, *hen Mummy kiss you, it is like that. "umtime Mummy li's is delekat like a s'idre *e3. "umtime cul lik gras and s*eet. "omtime hot and 3erning like soo' and somtime so#t lik a duk tummy 0ery smooth. (nd *hen you kiss you ha0e to 'ut yor li's toogethre and so Mummy 3reeths on you and it smel like all the #lo*rs in the *orld and you can tell 3ecase that is *ot lu0 smell like so you can tell ho* lu0ly Mummy is. I# you see a #uny thing you lar# out lo*d, 3ut i# you ha0e a s'esial sekrit insid you, you dont. 1ut you ha0e a s'esial smile. (nd this is like a #lo*er 3ud that is Aust going to o'en, you cant see it 3ut you no it is so 3ute#ull inside. (nd Mummy smile is like that, 3ut you cant see all the #lo*rs in the *orld at the sam time. "o then Mummy dont smile all her secret smile at the sam time and I am 0ery 'ashent 3ecause Mummy has got milions and milions o# sekrit smiles and I lu0 her so much. "umtime Mummy ly do*n and clos her eye and she luk like Mary, *ho I sa* in a cherch in a candel lite, 3ut I dont remem3r *ere. 1ut Mummy luk so lu0ly and cuddly it make me trem3ul *ith Aoy. Dont you think that Mummy is the most 3ute#ull one in all the *orld: (h 3ut I am going to tell you sum more. I told Neels ho* lu0ly Mummy is and Neels told Mister =enriks and I here Neels say i# Mummy 3utey

corsed com3ustion then the hole *orld *uld go into #lams. Neels say it is a com'lemant. 1ut Neels dont no* sumtims. Mummy make me 3erst in #lams. (nd I ask Neels *hat is the most 3ig num3re I could say #or lu0ing Mummy 3ecase I am not 0ery gud *ith sums and Neels say i# I rite do*n -in#inity- that is the most 3ig. 1ut it dont luk 0ery 3ig 3ut milions and milions o# them *old 3e, 3ut I lu0 Mummy so much and I *ill rite sum more. Mummy is not like no one els 3ecas she dont ha0e to s'eak i# she dont *ant to. (nd somtime it is nice *hen she dont s'eak and somtime it is nice *hen she do s'eak. 1ecas *hen she dont s'eak, Mummy smile and this is 0ery good. Mummy has got a s'eshul smile and you dont no *here it is going to start. "omtime it start #rom her toes and somtime #rom her #inger and somtime #rom her tummy and then it 'o' out o# her eye and out o# her mouth and this is 0ery nice 3ecas you no* it is coming and you *ate #or it to cume. "o it cum like a 'ressant *ich is a 3ig sir'rise. (nd *at is nice a3out Mummy is *ate0er she do is like a 'ressant. (nd *en you think a3out Mummy this is good too. When you think a3out 'e'le you can think 3ad thing and narsty thing like hurt and 'ane and sick, 3ut *hen you think a3out Mummy, you cant. (nd you can only think nice thing that are ha''y like Mister God. (nd *arm. (nd ho* nice to 3e me, 3ecas i# I *as not me I *ould not kno*, *ould I: %h dear, ther is so many things I *ish I culd say, 3ut I do not kno* ho* to say 3ecas ho* can you say a3out lo0e *ith a 'ensel and a 'a'er 3ecas you can not reely. 1ut you can try, cant not you, so I *ill try. Lo0e is a 0ery #uny thing 3ecas you cant see it and you cant here it and you cant tuch it *hen it 3elongs to you. "o ho* do you kno* you ha0e got it: Well I *ill tell you. When Neels say to me 'retend you ha0e #or s*eets in one hand and si+ s*eets in another hand, ho* many ha0e you got: "o I say I ha0e not got none, 3ecas I ha0e not and i# I say I ha0e got some, it is a lie and this is 3ad to do. Wen someone say I lo0e you (nna, ho* do I kno* i# it is true:

' Th" ("ry ("ry First

The >ible at home was one of those huge brass)bound boo%s. It was from this that Anna read or was read to. /eated at the table she wor%ed her way through some of the passages of the >ible. At /chool and at 7hurch she was told which passages to read? at home she was free to read whatever she wanted to. This meant that she was often pu66led as to the meaning and I had to do my best to help her understand. Trying to understand that Adam %new &ve was not the same as Anna %new 8ynn, or that God as%ed Adam, ",ho told thee that thou wast na%ed4" and caused her many problems. The more she read the more pu66led she became. 1ften she was presented with passages that simply did not ma%e sense to her, passages that seemed to contradict

other passages. 'i%e 'u%e ;A;# ) "&very male that openeth the womb shall be called holy to the 'ord." And 'u%e ;.#A;" ) ">lessed are the barren and the wombs that never bare." It seemed to Anna that the >ible was sometimes a bit muddled and that it as%ed more (uestions than it answered, but whatever its shortcomings, it was beautiful and since for her beauty was all important, there was no reason why she should not add her own idea of beauty to it. 9erhaps the most e0citing thing about Anna was how she always managed to put together to her own satisfaction various ideas that in the normal course of education would have been frowned on. 1n one occasion she glued together shadows, mathematics, God and sundry ideas, to my delight and her satisfaction. It happened li%e this 1ne evening I had been e0plaining to Anna how to tell the time from a sundial. &arly ne0t morning I too% her to see the sundial in the local churchyard. I pointed to the part that cast the shadow and said this is called the "Gnomon". As usual, I had to write this word down on a piece of paper. 'ater that day the word Gnomon had to be loo%ed up in the dictionary. The definition read "That part of a parallelogram left over when a similar parallelogram is ta%en from its corner". This idea was passed over for about a year until it became another idea to wor% on. ,hat e0cited her was the fact that it came from a Gree% word meaning "Indicator". As she carefully wrote this down on her piece of paper, her eye caught the ne0t word "Gnosis" - %nowledge of spiritual mysteries. This bit of information made Anna search for all the words that started with the letters GN, which you must admit is an odd combination. All these words were carefully written down - gnarled, gnash, gnat, gnathic, gnaw, gneiss, gnome, gnomic, gnomon, gnosis, gnu. Anna felt that these strange words which all started with GN ought, because of their very strange beginnings, to have something in common. And then - on the same page, was the word G13. I did try to e0plain to her, but it was no use, she had found her clue, the GN words now made sense. /erendipity is the faculty of ma%ing happy and une0pected discoveries by chance. 1n one evening we were scribbling numbers and ideas on pieces of paper. ! was trying to e0plain to Anna the mysteries of the binary system by as%ing the (uestion what is the fewest number of weights and what is the value of the weights that would enable you to weigh anything up to !,*** lbs in steps of i lb? after a little while she grasped the idea of how to "do it"A !, ;., B, <, !:, #;, :B, !;<, ;$:, $!;. It was then (uite clear to her that these !* weights could weigh up to !,*;# lbs. This was certainly one of those beautiful things that had to be written down and treasured. All this was nice and organi6ed, but things are not always (uite li%e you wor% them out. The greengrocer in the mar%et didn t do things (uite li%e that. Anna too% me to the mar%et place to show me this new miracle. 1n our wor%ings out we had put the article to be weighed in the left hand pan and the weights in the right hand pan, but the man in the mar%et place wasn t doing this, for he seemed to put weights in either pan. It certainly

loo%ed as if the man was cheating, so we went bac% to wor%ing it out again. In the first case we only put the weights in the right hand pan, and in the second case you could put the weights in the right hand pan or maybe the left hand or sometimes even both, and the numbers we had found for the first case certainly didn t wor% in the second case, so I had to e0plain how to wor% out these other weights, and they turned out to be !, #, ", ;C, <!, ;B#, C;".

This is a story a3out the 0ery 0ery #irst. Mister God is 0ery 0ery old, 3ut a long time ago he *as yung and 3e#ore that he *as only a 3a3y and 3e#ore that he *as not e0en 3orn and their *as not a *orld and their *as not a star and there *as not anything. 1ut there *as Mister God/s Mummy and Daddy. 1ut you could not see them. (nd you could not see them 3ecause they *as so 3ig. I# you ha0e a 0ery little thing, you ha0e to go 0ery clos 3e#ore you can see it and i# you go #ar a*ay, you cant. I# you ha0e a montain *ich is 3ig you cant see the to' i# you are clos, 3ut you can i# you go #ar a*ay and this is like Mister God/s Mummy and Daddy. @ou cant go #ar a*ay #rom them, so you cant see them. I# you go too #ar a*ay, you can see them 3ut you get 0ery lonly, so you cant. "o you ha0e to stay 0ery clos and you kno* they are there 3ut you cant see them, so that is *hy they had a little 3a3y. Well, you see, *hen the little 3a3y G%D *as getting redy to 3e 3orn he *as in his mummy *oom, that is *ere all the 3a3ys is made. It is 0ery dark in there. When the 3a3y G%D *as 3orn, then he must ha0e some light and *hen his Mummy and Daddy had a 'arty to sele3rate *ith all the angles, they 'ut lots and lots o# light in the sky and make it look 'ritty and this is stars. The Mummy and Daddy are 0ery 'olite and teech the little 3a3y G%D to 3e 'olite too and to say -I# you 'lease- and -No thank you- and thing like that. The little G%D ha0e all the thing he *ant. ( gold s'oon and a gold 'late and a gold chair and e0erything and then he *ant a 3all to 'lay *ith, so his Mummy tuk a lot o# dirt and s'it on it and roll it into a 3all and this is the *orld, so you can see ho* 3ig the little 3a3y G%D is. (ll the thing *as 0ery 'ritty. (nd 3ecause the little G%D *as 0ery 'olite and kind he *ant to share all the thing, so he told his Mummy and his Mummy say I cant make you a little 3rother and sister 3ecause it take such a lot o# time. (nd the little G%D said -%h dere *hat shall I do-:. (nd the Mummy say -I ha0e got a good idea- and she tuk o## the ta3le a looking glas and say -What can you see:-. "o the little G%D look and say I can see my #ace, it is a re#lekshun. (nd Mummy say -Can you 'lay *ith yor re#lekshun:- and the little G%D say -=o* can I share all the 'ritty thing *ith my re#lekshun: That is greedy-. (nd it is too; Then the Mummy say -Do you kno* *here you come #rom:- and the little G%D say -@es, I come #rom yor *oom- and the Mummy smile a 3ig smile and say, -@es, 3ut #irst you come #rom a 'ictur in my hart and the 'icktur in the hart come true

i# you lo0e them enogh. What is the 'icktur in yor hart little one:-. (nd the little G%D say -Ther is a 'icktur o# 'eo'le and animal and I *ant to share all this 'ritty things and you and Daddy and all the angels *ith the animals and 'eo'le-. In the night time all the 'icktur come true 3ecase the little God lo0e them so much. (nd all the 'eo'le and animals come out o# the little God/s hart. (nd you kno* your hart is not 0ery 3ig, so you can see #or milions o# 'eo'le and animals to cum out, they must 3e 0ery tiny and so they *ere. Well, at the 0ery #irst e0ery3ody *as ha''y and the little G%D teech the 'eo'le to talk and 'lay musik and make things and e0ery3ody *as ha''y 3ecause all the 'eo'le could see him. 1ut *hen the little God gro* u', he got so 3ig that no3ody could see him and all the 'eo'le tuk the 'ritty things and say -This is mine-. %# corse, they *asnt 3ut that is *hat they said and then they got greedy and greedy and then start to hit each other and thro* stomes and make 3oms. 1ecause the little G%D gro* u' and got so 3ig that they culdn/t see him and they needy #orgot him. "o a lot o# 'eo'le make a statoor o# G%D small enogh to see and then another lot o# 'eo'le make another statoor o# G%D and then they #ite to see *hat statoor is 3est. (nd they make 3oms and guns and a lot o# 'e'le is hurt and it is 0ery silly 3ecause Mister God is much 3igger than statoors. Well, Mister God lu0s 'e'le 0ery much, so he says -1 kno* *hat, 'eo'le cant see me 3ecause I am too 3ig, so I *ill send my little 3a3y 3oy *ho is the rite sise-. "o he send his little 3a3y 3oy *ho is called Bether to a lady called Mary to luk ar#ter and Mister God say -That is all rite no*, Bether is Aust the rite sise-. (nd you *ould think that *as the end, *ould not you: (r#ter all the tru33le Mister God tuk, *oodnt you: 1ut it *asnt, %h no;
Anna very rarely used the name 2esus? she preferred the name 2ether, which she found in the 7oncordance. This is the ne0t name in the list of proper names in the 7oncordance. Its meaning is "5e that e0cels or remains? or that e0amines, searchesA or a line or string". It was the idea of "line or string" that so attracted Anna. ,e had often spent hours lying on the dec% of a deep water sailing vessel, listening to Niels s e0planation of what all the ropes and gear were for. The fact that every rope had a place and a purpose, and that &nglishmen, 8renchmen and Germans, every nationality, understood where the rope for a certain sail was to be found, was sufficient for Anna to rename 2esus as 2ether. =urt, a German sailor, told Anna she was "wider sinn", that is to say "against the sense".

When Bether *as a man, he started to tell all the 'e'le a3out Mister God, 3ut a lot o# 'e'le didnt *ant to here 3ecause #irst Mister God *as too 3ig and then he *as

too little and 'e'le are eccas'erating. They dont kno* *hat they *ant. (nd Bether kee' on telling the 'eo'le -@ou ha0e got to 3e<cum little %r you *ont kno*-. (nd they *ant to 3e 3ig alredy, (nd you cant, 3ecase ansy 3eing 3orn #ull sise; Then a lot o# 'eo'le cort Bether and 'ut nales in him and stuck him on a tree and stuck sords in him and then he *as ded. (ll 3ecause he *asnt 3ig enogh. "ome o# the 'eo'le nearly kno* him, 3ut not 4ite and like the statoors o# Mister G%D they *as rong. "o they had another #ite and this time a *orse #ite called a *ar and this time *ith tank and aro'lane and 'e'le kee' on #iteing 3ecause they dont kno* *hat sise they are and they are silly, 3ecase Mister God and Bether and Vrach and all the angels are so lu0ing. "o I *ill tell you sum story a3out them.
Drach was Anna s own spelling of the 5ebrew word Ruach, meaning spirit or breath, which was used in the 1ld Testament but lin%ed with the 5oly /pirit of the New Testament. I was surprised these words ) Drach, 2ether ) were so important to her, but felt that she had to find her way, in her own words, in her relationship with Mister God.

I# you dont kno* *hat Mister God and Bether and Vrach look like I *ill tell you. No* I *ill tell you a3out Mister God #irst. =e dont luk like me and you. =e has not go no arms and legs and no #ace and no 3ody like me and you so you *ill kno* he luk di##rent 3ut he luk 0ery lu0ley all the sam. I# you go #or a *alk you see a lot o# things and you think a lot o# things in yore hed. Well one o# the things you think o# is going home. "o then you think it is a long *ay a*ay and all the thinks is insid you and yore home is outsid you. "o *hen you go home, all your think cum out o# you and yor home go insid you, you see. Wen I am not *ith Mummy I ha0e a lot o# think in my hed, I think I *ish I culd hold Mummy hand and I *ish I culd kiss Mummy and I *ish I culd tuch Mummy, 3ut it all stay in my hed. 1ut *hen I go home, it all come out o# my hed, 3ecase I do it. (nd *hen I do, Mummy go insid me and I go insid Mummy. I# I dont go insid Mummy, ho* can I luk at me 3ecause I luk the rong *ay. "o *hen I lu0 Mummy then I go insid her and luk out out o# her eye and see me and see ho* much Mummy lu0 me and this is 0ery nice and thriling.

I# someone lu0 you they let you cum insid. 1ut i# they dont lu0 you, they dont. Well Mister G%D is like that to. =e let you com insid and see yoursel#, 3ut you got to let MI"T>? G%D cum in too, 3ecase he *ant to luk out to see himsel#. @ou see, MI"T>? G%D dont like no re#lekshun and i# he dont luk out o# 'e'les eye, ho* do he kno* *hat 'e'le think o# him: and this is the only *ay MI"T>? G%D can see himsel#. I# you luk in a luking glas and see yor #ace re#lekshun and then *ink yore rite eye, the re#lekshun *ink the othre one, 3ut i# you see yor re#lekshun *ink its rite eye then you kno* it is not a re#lekshun, 3ut you.

) Th" Story o* Fin

This is a story o# in. "ome 'eo'le do not kno* ho* in is and I am sad #or that 3ecause in is the 3est 'erson in all o# the *orld. in is 0ery 3ig and 0ery strong 3ut he is 0ery delikat and 0ery gentle. (nd he can #ro* me rigte u' in the air lik a 3al and catsh me too. =e is like a 3ute#all #lo*re made #rom stone. in say i# you li0e in a ho*se and you let the *indo* get s'loshd and dirty and i# you look out o# the *indo* it look like the *orld is dirty, 3ut it is not. I# you look inside it look dirty too 3ut it is not dirty 3ecase the *indo* is dirty. Well I *ill say sum more o# in 3ecase in say all o# the 'e'le ha0e t*o *indo*s. irst all 'e'le ha0e got eye *indo* and then a hart *indo*. The eye *indo* is to look out and seen thing #rom and the hart *indo* is to see inside to see you. in say *en you cry it is #or to *ash the *indo* so you can see 3etter. %ne day I ask in #or som s*eet and in say no and I *as sad and I cry som ters and I cry som ters to *ash my eye *indo* 3ecas my eye *indo* *as all dirty, dirty *ith greedy #or s*eets. (nd in did not say nothing and in 'iket me u' and 'ut me to a luking glas to see my #ace re#lecshun and it *as all #uny like rain on a ho*s *indo*. (nd I culd not see 'ro'er and then I sto' the cry and see in #ace re#lecshun and it *as all smilig. (nd so I smile too and then I see my eye s'arklin 3ecas I can see good. (nd then I see that in say no, 3ecas he ha0e got no mony, 3ecas he gi0e it all to Missis 1arkr to 3uy som 'enuts to sell to get som mony to 3uy som #ood and I did not see good, 3ecase I ha0e got a dirty eye *indo* and it *as all s'losht *ith greedy dirty.

Mrs >ar%er was a little old lady who sold peanuts outside the cinemas called the 7oli) seum and the 9alladium in the Mile &nd Eoad. 1ne day I found her without any stoc% so we too% a tram towards Aldgate and bought about F# worth of peanuts, which we brought bac% to her.

>0er3ody has got a eye *indo* and a hart *indo*. in teech me ho* to clean my eye *indo* and my hart *indo*. (nd i# you kno* in then you ha0e got a 0ery s'eshal in *indo*. (nd this is 0ery nice to ha0e. I# you take some dirt to in he say a3out it and make it lik dimons and i# you take to in a tram tiket he make it like a 3ute#all 'iktur. in is 0ery 0ery s'eshal and 0ery 0ery 3ute#all 3ut you ha0e to 3e little inside or you can not see 'ro're.
Anna and I e0plored dirt under the miscroscope, where anything seemed to be transformed. The tram tic%ets were of different colours and collected from the streets very easily, so they could be used to ma%e patterns, or folded into complicated paper chains and even turned into 7hristmas decorations.

%ne day in *as 0ery sad 3ecase Danny *as kild *ith a 3ig stiker Ckni#eD. "o in the nighte I cre' in 3ed *ith in. in go to sle' and I then see the ters on his #ace 3ecase *e ha0e a stret lighte in the stret to see *ith. I cry a 3it too 3ecase I *as sad #or Danny. There is on thing a3ot in. ( lot o# time he is not #ull u' *ith his sel# 3ut is #ull u' o# som othre 'eo'le. "om time he is Aust #ull u' o# his sel#. I like this time 3est o# all 3ecase I do not *ant to see no thing els and I am #ull u' o# laghin. I ask in can I ha0e a nothre name and in say yes I can ha0e t*o names. %ne is Mo*se, 3ecase in say I cre' in his hart and make a nest ther. (nd the nothre name is Boy 3ecase I make him ha'y and I am 0ery glad #or that 3ecase that is 0ery 0ery holy. "omtime I think that in is an angel. I# you *ant to kno* the di##rence #rom a 'erson and an angel I *ill tell you. (n angel is easy to get inside o#, and a 'erson is not. >0ery 3it o# an angel is inside and e0ery 3it o# a 'erson is not and most o# a 'erson is outside. %ne 'erson *ho is 0ery s'ecal is dere in. It is like loking at the 0ery 0ery inside o# lo0e. (ll the thing are nice to do *ith in and some o# the thing are 0ery nice an s'ecal. %ne o# the nice things is to go #or a *alk *ith in in the simitery CcemeteryD. %nly in do not call it a simitery. in call it an orchard, 3ecase Mister God come to 'ick u' the sols *hen they are redy like a'les. I like going to the orchard *ith in

3ecase there is no one ther, only ded one and Mister God and sols. in say no on go to the orchard 3ecase 'eo'le are a#rade to 3e ded, 3ut I am not a#rade 3ecase the orchard is 0ery 3ute#all and ther is millon o# #lo*re and it is sily to 3e a #rade to 3e ded in all them #lo*re. When *e go to the orchard in tell the name and ho* old and *en they *as ded and ther are a lot o# little children ded in the orchard. %nly they are not ther no more, 3ut they are in he0en. When in tells the name, I say hello "usan this is (nna and in talking and then I say ho* 3ute#all the orchard is and thing like that and then *e say a litle 'rer and say *ill you gi0e all our lo0 to Mister God and to Bether and to Vrach and to all the angel and to all the 'e'le. What I am sory #or is Budas and 5ontas 5irot and all the 'e'le that 'ut Bether on the cross. (nd one day I cry in the orchard #or them and in cudle me and then say *e rite all the names o# them on som 'a'er and 'ut it in a tin and 'ut in the holy ground and lee0e it to Mister God. in say e0ery 'e'le ha0e got a 3it o# Budas inside and a 3it o# 5ontos 'ilot inside and e0ery 'e'le 'ut a nother nale in Bether. in say one thing to remm3er and this is it. I# it is good to do, then do it, i# it is not good to do, then do not do it. (nd so I say ho* do I kno* i# it is good and in say it is easy. Do not git stuck inside o# you, com out and go inside o# 'e'le and animles and #lo*res an trees and see i# you like it and i# you do like it, then it is good and i# you do not like it, then it is 3ad. I# you 'ertend to 3e a cat and you kik it, it hert, so it is 3ad. I# you stroke it, it is nice, so it is good. in say i# you lok at a ho*se on the outside it is a ho*se, 3ut i# you look at a ho*se on the inside, it is not a ho*se 3ut it is a home. (nd that is like 'e'le. I# you lok at one on the outside it is a 'erson, 3ut i# you lok at one in the inside then it has got a reel name. (nd so has e0erything got a reel name. >0en #lee and s'idre. (nd in say somtime this is hard to lern, to see inside a thing. "omtime you can not tell 3ecase a church look like a me*seum and lik a #lic ho*s and you can not tell #rom the outside, 3ut you can only teii #rom the inside and that is *at to 3e ali0e is. %h %h %h I do lo0e in 0ery much and I ask Mister God e0ernighte i# I can marry in and ha0e a ho*s and som 3a3y too. I# I am si+ and in is t*eny then I can mary in *hen I am t*eny and in is tirthy #ore. I ask Backy and "ally and Corry i# they marry in #irst can I too and they say yes. or nerly e0er3ody do*n our stret say u' the to' Co# the streetD is 3ad, 3ut it is not 3ecase in say it is not 3ad. Nerly e0er3ody say they are 0ery *icked and they are not *icked 3ecase in say *e must not say that. %nly Mister God can say that and Mister God is 0ery good.
At the top corner of the street was a

house that was a lot bigger than the rest. In this house lived Milly, /ally, 7orey, and a few other young ladies. The fact that these young ladies were for the most part prostitutes was the reason why it was commonly called the "dirty house". Anna had a vague idea of what it meant but that was no reason why she couldn t be friends with the girls. In fact, she thought that Milly, who was usually %nown as the Denus de Mile &nd, was the most beautiful girl in the world and I would never have argued with that. The care and protection that these girls gave to Anna could not have been sweeter. I had %nown them for a number of years, and I %new them as very good friends. Given other circumstances they would have been different, but with poor homes, little education, and even less money, prostitution was the only way they %new how to ma%e money. I have %nown these young ladies save over F;** to send little Maria to have her leg corrected after the ravages of ric%ets. It was more than I could have done. Many times Anna and I have sat with them and so often the tal% turned to the sub+ect of religion and God. The passing years have made me reali6e that they were among the few people who could admit to themselves that they were sinners, but then they had families to %eep and it was the only way they %new how. Anna s friendship with these young prostitutes taught her a lot ) perhaps a bit too much, who %nows. I do %now that they were always very careful in what they said when Anna was around, but things slip out occasionally and Anna, li%e most children, would often repeat what she had heard the older people say without %nowing what was meant by it. ,hat was pu66ling for me was the fact that some of the girls s customers did regard themselves as good solid citi6ens, to say nothing of good churchgoers, but that *as my 'ro3lem, not (nna/s. or her the girls *ere Aust nice to 3e *ith. What 'u77led (nna *as ho* such nice 'eo'le could 3e called -dirty-. (nna *ould ha0e none o# it, neither *ould I. Milly taught (nna ho* to make 3ead 3elts, necklaces and 3racelets. (ll the adults #or streets around kne* *hat the girls did, 3ut it *as only (nna and her #riends and me *ho kne* *hat they could do. They *ere a 3it s'ecial to those o# us *ho kne* them and de#initely not dirty.

%ne o# the thing that make me 0ery sad is this. I *uld like all the 3ig girls u' the to' to ha0e real 'ro're s*eet lo0e. in culd do it so gentle and s*eet and culd make the 3ig girls so ha'y and holy and it *uld 3e so lo0ly. in go u' the to' to see them and in mummy say I can go too and in mummy rote this on some 'a'er and say to 'ut it in my 3ook. I# they are 3lind, gi0e them your hand, i# they are only in the dark, gi0e them a candel. (nd then she la#t out loud and say a candel calld (nna.

+ Onc" U,on A Ti&"

,henever Anna was confronted by the latest miracle or had one of those very important children s (uestions to as%, she wrote it into a little story. This could be very confusing, since you could not as% a (uestion of an oa% tree that was meant for a beech tree,

neither could you as% a blac% cat e0actly the same (uestion you could as% a ginger cat. 5er little stories were nearly always about some aspect of a thing or person. This habit of writing about some aspect of a thing or a person meant that there could be as many as ten or more little stories about dogs or whatever, which had to be put together before any one could understand her more complete picture of dogs, or whatever she was writing about. Anna s "1nce upon a Time" was the result of many, many little stories that were finally put together after a long time. This putting together was a very solitary and intense activity which could totally absorb her for many days. Nothing was allowed to intrude into this part of Anna s life. It too% me some while to reali6e how important this "putting together time" was for her. /ince those days I have heard Anna s "putting together time" called by many names, but I still thin% "Tal%ing with God" is the best I ve found so far.

When I *ok u' in the morning it *as stil neerly dark and it *as Aust 3ecuming ligte and I thort this is not a nice day. "o I 'ull the sheets o0er my hed and Aust my nos *os out and then I here sumthing. It *as going dri', dri', dri'. (nd then I *as 0ery sad 3ecase I thort it so*nd like all the angels criing. 1ut then I here it more dri', dri', dri', so then 1 no it *as rain that *as making the noise. When I luk out o# the *ido* I see the sun *as all like 3lood and all the miss *as e0er*ere and it *as 0ery cold to get out o# 3ed and as I stud at the *indo* I #el my to*s get cold and I think o# my 3ed *ich is *arm so I go 3ake to 3ed *ere it is nise and *arm. Then I 'ut my nos under the shets and I lissen to the 3ird sing in the tree and *under *hy 3ird sing *en the day is so 3ad. "o then I thort I *ould like Mummy to make me *arm and I thort I *old like to kis Mummy, 3ut it *as so cold I did not *ant to go out o# my 3ed. (nd I thort soon Mummy *ill cum out o# 3ed and cum to kiss me, so I *ate and think o# Mummy to cum to 'ut her arms ro*nd me and to kiss me and I think ho* nice it is. "o all my to*s kirl and so do I like a 3al and so I *ate. Then I here a #uny thing and it go s*iss, s*iss, s*iss. It is like the *ind 3ut it is not the *ind. Then a son3em cum in the *indo and hit me in the #ace, so I Aum' out o# 3ed and see a sun3em rite u' #rom the clo*ds and on the sun3em *as a man. The man *as sho*ting Were is la7y (nna: *ere is la7y (nna: and all the 3ird and all the ra3it and all the 3ear say it too and I *onder 3ecase I am (nna, 3ut I am not la7y and then the man slid do*n the son3em rite in my room and

say, There is la7y (nna; Then I see the man is Mister Vrach, so I say I am not la7y and you must not say that 3ecase *e are #rends. @ou are la7y say Vrach. @ou must com *ith me. (nd then I say, I *ate #or Mummy so I cant come. @es you *ill com and Vrach 'ickt me u' and *ent all u' the sun3em again. Wen *e got to the to' o# the sun3em Vrach say, This is a la7y *erld #or la7y children and you are la7y and *en you are not la7y I *ill take you home again. (nd then he *ent a*ay. It *as 0ery cold and I *as 0ery lonly, so I sit do*n 3ecas I *as sad. (nd then I here a lot o# 'e'le talking 3ut it *as not 'e'le, so I luk, 3ut it *as not there, and then I kno* the talking is in the gro*nd and in the air. "o I 'ut my eer on the gro*nd and lissen and I here it say It is 0ery cold today so I *ont gro* today. "o then I say Who is talking in the gro*nd: (nd it say Who is that: and I say It is (nna. Who is talking in the gro*nd: (nd it say I am a little #lo*re seed. Why dont you *ant to gro* today: 1ecase it is too cold and I am *arm in my 3ed, so I *ill gro* t*o times as much the ne+ day. 1ut it *ill 3e cold the ne+t day too. Then I *ill stay in 3ed again, say the little seed. 1ut i# all the seeds stay in 3ed there *ill not 3e any s'ring and a little seed cant gro* t*o times as much in one day. 1ut he did say noting 3ecase he gon to slee' agan and I thort the seeds are sily and la7y. Then I *ent to *alk 3ut all the things *as stil and la7y. The tree *uld not gro* and the lee0es *ould not o'en and the 3ird *ould not sing and it *as a 0ery sad *erld. Them I cum to a ri0er that *as not going, so I say ?i0er *hy are you not going: and the ri0er say 1ecase I am la7y. (nd soon I cum to a *ater#al, 3ut the *ater do not #all, 3ut stay in the air and I say Water#al, *hy do you not #all: and the *ater#al say 1ecase I am la7y. 1ut you must #all, say (nna, 3ecase a *ater#al must lar# and 'lay and go gugle gugle gugle and i# you dont then ho* can you 3e a *ater#al: %, says the *ater#al, I did not think o# that and he start to cry and sum little dri's o# *ater #all do*n and mak a little 'ule and so I cry, % 'lese mister *ater#al, dont cry 3ecase *ater#al is ha'y thing, not sad thing. "o then he sto' and say, % (nna i# you culd mak me lar# then I *uld 3e a reel *ater#al agan. "o I thort 0ery hard and said Mister Water#ul I *ill tell you a #uny story. "ay *en you are redy. (nd the Water#al say I am redy. "o I 3egin. %nce u'on a time and the Water#ul go Gug gug gug gugel gugel gugel and start to #all do*n and start to lar# so much I am s'losht *ith all the *ater and the *ater#ul say =a; =a; =a; =o; =o; =o; (nna; that is a 0ery #uny story; 1ut I do not kno* *hat it is to lar# at 3ecase I ha0e not start the story yet. "o I say I ha0e not start the story yet. 1ut the *ater#ul lar# mor and more. Then a little 3ear com out o# a hole and say Mister Water#ul Wat do you lar# a3out: and the *ater#ul say =o; =o; =o; little 3ear (nna has told me a 0ery #unny story. (nd the little 3are

say Wat is the #uny story: tell it to me, so I can lar# too. "o the Water#ul say, (nna say %nce u'on a time. Then the little 3are lar# and lar# and lar# til he #all o0er and roll on the gro*nd and say =o; =o; =o; (nna say %nce u'on a time; Then a little 3ird start to lar# and then a little ra3it start to lar# and the little #lo*r seeds com out o# the gro*nd to see *hy all things *as lar#in #or. (nd then all the trees and #lo*rs lar# and lar# and say, (nna say %nce u'on a time; and all the #orest tingl *ith lar#in, 3ut I do not kno* *hy. "o I sit on the gras. I am a ma7e. Then a lot o# angels cum dansing and singing in the orest and all the #orest *as a<*ak and *as not la7y any mor, so I get u' and say to the angel >ccuse me, i# you 'lese, *hy is all thing lar#in: "o the angel say 1ecase you tell a #uny story. 1ut I did not start it e0en. I only say %nce u'on a time. Then the angles say That is *hat is #uny, you see, (nna. @ou can not 3e t*ise u'on a time. Then the angle dans a*ay, 3ut I stil do not think it is #uny. "o I sit do*n agan and I think and think and think and then I kno*. %# cors you can not 3e t*ise u'on a time 3ecos you can not do t*o thing at a time. "o I get u' and ran and call Mister Vrach I am not la7y no mor. (nd then ther *as a s*iss, s*iss, s*iss and Mister Vrach say =o; =o; =o; (nna you are not la7y no more. Wat did you lern: and so I say I lern I *as la7y 3ecase I *antd to kiss Mummy 3ut I *as too la7y to get #rom my 3ed 3ecase it *as cold 3ut *ate #or Mummy to come to me. Then Mister Vrach say 1ecase you ha0e lern 0ery good I *ill gi0e you a 'ressant (nna. Wot *uld you like: "o I say Mister Vrach *ill you take me 3ack to the 0ery 3eginning: "o Mister Vrach take me to the to' o# the son3em and smile a 0ery 3ig smile and kiss me and then 'uss me 0ery hard do*n the son3em and I *as going #ast and #ast and #ast and I *as most 3rethles and then ther *as a 3um' and I *as in my 3ed agan. Then I o'en my eye and it *as Aust 3ecuming ligte and I hear dri', dri', dri' and then a son3em com in the *inder so I ran to the *inder and see a man on the son3em and he *a0e to me and all the little 3ird sing and then my to*s get 0ery cold, 3ecas it is 0ery cold, 3ut I am 0ery *arm inside and I *ant to kiss Mummy 0ery much and I do not care ho* cold it is. "o I ran to Mummy room and Aum' to

3ed *ith Mummy and kiss her 0ery much 3ecase I am #ull u' o# lo0e and Mummy hug me 0ery tite and I am 0ery ha''y and then Mummy say, (nna it *ill 3e a 0ery nice day and I say @es Mummy; and lar# 3ecase it needy *as not. The end

Th" Tr""
I sa* a lo0ly tree today "o lo0ly that it made me 'ray The le#s *as all harts and lo0ly gren The most lo0ly tree that you ha0e e0er seen It mad my hart sing and my hed go hummy "o I tuk some o## to gi#t to Mummy (nd *en I did it make her smile (nd I think that is 0ery *erth *hile (nd do you kno* that Mister God Made a 3ig smile and gi#t his hed a nod