The St.

Paul s Circular
March, 2014 Volume 9, Issue 1 - mystery

From the Desk of the Dean . . .

Mystery
Behold! I tell you a mystery. We shall not all sleep, but, we shall all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we shall be changed. (1 Corinthians 15:51-52) I remember hearing these words spoken at a funeral when I was a very young teenager. The priest spoke the first sentence of this passage with such depth of conviction, with such intrigue and satisfaction, that I could not help but be drawn into the invitation to listen. I was spell bound by the words. I wanted to know this mystery. I wanted this change promised. I wanted more of this unexplainable mystery of resurrection, of change. But mostly, I remember the experience of the compelling thrill of heeding the invitation to listen and by that, entering into the very mystery itself and experiencing change, resurrection in the act of listening to his words. I wanted more of this invitation to listen to the secret: I wanted to enter this mysterious holiness and be part of it. It was indeed a mystery and a mystical moment for me. God is Holy Mystery. The Great Unknowable who knows us. God is the Great Unknowable whom we seek to know more fully. On those blessed occasional holy moments in our lives when we are awake and paying attention, this Holy Mystery, this God, sweeps us up into the vortex of wonder and we get a glimpse of our deeper, truer selves: we see how God sees us. It may happen when we receive the Blessed Sacrament at the table of Jesus, or at the bedside of loved one who is ill, playing with our children, in the gaze of someone who loves us, in a moment of deep prayer, in the sacredness and beauty of creation. Holy Mystery is all around us. When we touch this Mystery and are touched by it, we are indeed changed finite and infinite at the same time: part of something beyond ourselves, yet which also dwells at the core of our being. And then it passes. We cannot always live there. As much as we might want to, there is work to be done, people to look after, tasks to be accomplished, practical earthly obligations for which we have responsibility. But our incarnational life, our return to earth, so to speak, is made holy by this mystical encounter with God. We return to the mundane day-to-day existence, changed and expanded, more alive, more gracious, more true. We live out our earthly obligations as ones changed by the God who has met us in the Mystery. We also live out our day to day existence with openness and hope and intentional seeking that we might encounter this Mystery again, and again, and be blessed again and be lost in wonder, awe and praise as Charles Wesley wrote in his magnificent hymn: Love Divine All Loves Excelling.

After a person is baptized we pray a beautiful prayer. Give them an inquiring and discerning heart and the gift of joy and wonder in all your works. This is a prayer that asks that the new Christian may live a life of seeking, searching and questioning faith and may experience the gift of encountering the Holy Mystery which is God.
(See page 2.)

Worship at St. Pauls Cathedral

Chapel, Sunday, 8:00 a.m. - Holy Communion Cathedral, Sunday, 10:00 a.m. - Holy Eucharist Chapel, Wednesday, 10:00 a.m. - Holy Communion

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Mystery (contd.):
It is a lovely prayer to say again for each other as we enter into the Lenten Season and as we prepare to be with Jesus in the great Paschal Mystery of his living, dying and rising. We will indeed be changed. Open us O holy One to your joy and wonder envelop us in your Great Mystery that we may have Life in great abundance. Amen. Mysterious and Holy blessings to all, Your Dean and Rector,

Lady Wisdom
Feminine Face of the Divine
On February 23rd, thirty-nine people listened to a lecture about the feminine face of the divine. Dr. Patricia Dutcher-Walls, Professor of Hebrew Bible at the Vancouver School of Theology, gave an engaging, informative and thought provoking talk about the wisdom tradition of ancient Israel. Being told that wisdom is reflection on experience, we were invited to write and share a proverb and to explain what is wise about it. Patricia explained that as a human being, we have the capacity to reflect on our experience and learn. Using passages from Proverbs, Sirach, Wisdom of Solomon, and other books, Patricia described how wisdom came to be seen as feminine. God created wisdom; lady wisdom was there before the rest of creation and came to be seen in the post exile times as a very wise and respected female character.

People usually consider walking on water or in thin air a miracle. But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged in a miracle which we don't even recognize: a blue sky, white clouds, green leaves, the black, curious eyes of a child - our own two eyes. All is a miracle.
Thich Nhat Hanh, Vietnamese Zen Buddhist monk.

from Cathedral Committee . . .

December
A Cathedral Committee potluck supper was held at the home of Jim and Margaret Mitchell. A short meeting followed. Thank you to the Mitchells for their warm hospitality. The Warren Atkinson Society, our tenants at 566 4th Avenue, have given notice to terminate rental as of February 28, 2014. With the Warren Atkinson Society terminating its rental of 566 4th Avenue, a new group, the Blue House Society, is being formed to continue a mens recovery program at that location. (Please see page 5 for more information regarding this property.) Motion: The Cathedral Committee approves the Blue House Society renting the property at 566 4th Avenue, providing they have adequate funds to do so, for a maximum of three (3) years. Carried. Motion: Before the expiry of the three year rental as outlined in the previous motion, the following options be explored, as outlined in the January 2014 Task Force Report (See page 5.): 1) demolish the house; 2) develop a parking lot; 3) consolidate the lots; 4) upgrade the house; 5) develop the property; 6) rent the house. Carried. Motion: The options in the previous motion be explored immediately should the Blue House Society be unable to find adequate funding.. Carried.

January
Discussion ensued regarding our Youth Ministry Trust account, established in 2012 with a generous donation from a parishioner. The funds have been used to support our youth and youth leaders to attend the Canadian Lutheran and Anglican Youth Conference and other conferences, retreats and educational opportunities. The account is low in funds and needs to be increased to continue this ministry. Motion: That Cathedral Committee continue to affirm its support of youth ministry, and specifically support youth fundraising initiatives in 2014. Carried.

The St. Paul's Circular is the parish newsletter of St. Pauls Anglican Cathedral, Kamloops, BC. Four issues are published annually: Lent/Easter; Pentecost; Fall; Advent/Christmas. Our aim is to glorify God by sharing stories about the ministries of our parish, both within and beyond our physical boundaries. The editorial board currently includes The Very Rev. Louise Peters, Miriam Baskin, Ray Beal, Mary Dove, Claire Tosoff and Chuck Kalnin.

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Cathedral Committee
2014-2015
O God, grant us understanding that we may know your will and follow you in service and love.

Annual Vestry Meeting

After the 10:00 a.m. service on February 16th, we gathered in the parish hall for a light lunch, followed by St. Pauls Annual Vestry Meeting. Dean Louise began the meeting with prayer and with insights into our future together over the next ten years, or so. The Christian Church, the Christian experience, is going through an empirical change. This empirical change is what theologian Phyllis Tickle calls a 500-year change. After we watched national churchs video about responding to the current changes, Dean Louise shared facts as to how St. Pauls and the Anglican Parishes of the Central Interior both differ from how they were ten years ago, summarizing her reflections by saying that we need courage and faith to realize that we have an opportunity to do what God is calling us to do, from a position of strength. All of the reports were received. The financial statement for 2013 were approved. Dean Louise made appointments to Cathedral Committee, while other members were elected. (Please see the current committee members listed at the left.) Three motions dealing our property at 566 4th Avenue, forwarded from Cathedral Committee, were presented and approved. (Please see page 2 for the wording of these motions.) Our treasurer, Gordon Dove, presented a deficit budget for 2014. It was approved. The following motion was also presented and approved: Be it resolved that a committee be formed to explore the future of the Cathedral properties and report back to this vestry no later than 2016 with recommended directions. Dean Louise thanked all who attended this vestry meeting and to those who prepared, set up and helped, including Claire Tosoff, Elaine Parkes, Melissa Green and Hannah Chalmers. She also thanked folk who assisted with various ministries at St. Pauls during 2013, beginning with two fine, fine women who are great wardens Alison McKinnon and Verna Albright Also thanked were Gordon Dove, Trish Waldie, Ron Sugiyama, Viki Engdahl, Elaine Parkes, Norris & Heather Berg, Jim Waldie, Sandra and Tom Sugden, Melissa Green, Pat King and Anne Goodall. Greetings were sent to Bishop Barbara Andrews. Alison McKinnon expressed thanks to Louise for her leadership, mentorship and care. Louise was given a standing ovation.

Clergy:

The Very Rev. Louise Peters Gordon Dove Margaret Mitchell Alison McKinnon Trish Waldie Verna Albright

Appointments: Treasurer: Secretary: Rectors Warden: Envelope Secretary: Peoples Warden:

Members at Large (terms end February, 2015): Kathryn Briscoe Chuck Kalnin John Ronald
Members at Large (terms end February, 2016): D. J. Clarke Marg Holley Elaine Parkes Anglican Parishes of the Central Interior: Delegates: Melissa Green Islay Oatway Anglican Parishes of the Central Interior: Alternate Delegates: Jim Waldie Lynn Watrich Anglican Parishes of the Central Interior: Youth Delegates: Peter Chalmers Jennifer Ellis

Lay Ministers of Word & Sacrament

Lay Ministers of Word & Sacrament were approved by vestry and are to be licensed by Bishop Barbara:

Verna Albright Ray Beal Bud Forbes Alan Leake Margaret Mitchell

Christmas Worship Services

Four worship services were held at Christmas. Our annual Childrens Pageant was held at 4:00 p.m., Christmas Eve, with 168 in attendance. The candlelight Eucharist service with the choir, at the 7:00 p.m., had in attendance. Bishop Barbara participated with Dean Louise at the 11:00 p.m. service, with 57 in attendance. Sandra and Tom Sugden led the Christmas morning Eucharist with 9 in attendance.

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Buddhist Water Blessing Ceremony

by Alison McKinnon

My husband Dave and I recently travelled to Vietnam and Cambodia. It was a fascinating experience. In Cambodia which is 95% Buddhist, we attended a Buddhist Water Blessing Ceremony in the largest pagoda of the temple complex in Wat Hanchey, high above the Mekong River. The oldest part of the complex was built in the 8th century, but as a Hindu temple. Water blessing ceremonies date back to ancient times. Pagodas are very colorful, almost garish by our standards. The walls and ceilings are painted in bright colours showing scenes from the Buddha's life. There are many shrines in each pagoda, each showing the Buddha in one of many classic poses. People pray at the shrines, offering gifts of money, food or other things. We were given some instructions before going to this pagoda, though all are not as strict. Everyone, men and women, had to have shoulders and knees covered, and were required to remove hats and shoes. We were requested to sit cross-legged, but if that was impossible, to make sure that toes did not point towards the monks. It is absolutely taboo for a female to touch a monk. A monk may not even touch a baby girl. Three young monks, wearing the traditional saffron robes, conducted the ceremony. They chanted for

about 15 minutes, taking turns leading the chants. They use an ancient religious language called Pali, which the monks study when they attend religious school in the afternoons, and Khmer, the language of Cambodia. Several times during the ceremony, one of the monks sprinkled us with water, just as in our Anglican tradition of asperging. The blessings include prayers for long life, safe travel and good luck. Although we could not understand the words, there was a wonderful feeling of calm, serenity and harmony. Monks have no possessions, and it is traditional to take gifts, which can be purchased in the local markets. The packages are brightly wrapped in gold, and each of the three contained a robe, sandals, rice and other foods and toiletries. The monks then offered another prayer of thanks to us for the gifts, and we were encouraged to pose for photos with them. As we climbed the hill to the temple complex, one of the first sights was of saffron robes hanging to dry over the staircases and balconies of the many houses occupied by the monks. Men and boys can become monks for short or long periods of time - for life or they may leave the monastery and then return later in life. Monks are revered in Cambodia, and it is an honor for the family if one of its members becomes a monk.

Sunday School Update

We have the most spectacular group of teachers, helping hands and children here at the Cathedral. They gather and create together, chat together, cook together, give together and share together! In November, Tammy Davis helped the children to make soup. They washed, chopped and stirred their wonderful creations into life - 27 containers of chicken barley and vegetable soups. Advent packages containing prayers and candles were assembled by Tricia Steenson and Dean Louise and these were distributed in early Advent. The giving tree was again decorated with socks, hats and mitts to be shared with the folks at the Out of the Cold shelter. Thanks to the whole community for providing items that kept the tree giving to others. Eighteen Christmas shoeboxes were decorated and filled with goodies for pre-teen girls and boys. They were distributed by the Kamloops Boys and Girls Club. Wasnt the Nativity Play on Christmas Eve service AMAZING ! ! ! Its always a highlight of the Christmas season and this year was no exception. A huge thank-you to Joan Lukow and everyone who helped especially to every sheep, angel, shepherd, twinkling star, plus the wise men, Mary and Joseph. With the New Year, our teen Sunday School is being taught by Denise Anderson and Kathryn Brisco. The class is Creating with the Creator - lots of journaling, creating, drawing Celtic knots - exploring scripture with hands on art! What fun! Tricia Steenson and Tammy Davis are alternating Sundays, teaching our younger group, and our helping hands are scheduled for each Sunday.
Adapted from a report by Melissa Green, presented to Cathedral Committee on January 28, 2014.

Let the rain kiss you. Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops. Let the rain sing you a lullaby. Langston Hughes, American poet, 1902-1967.

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New Office Hours

Wednesday to Friday 10:00 a.m. - 1:00 p.m.
Please leave a message at: 250-372-3912, during the off-hours. The answering machine will be monitored on a regular basis.

566 Task Force Report

The 566 4th Avenue Property

On December 1, 2013, the Warren Atkinson Society, who had been running the men's recovery program at 566 4th Avenue, informed us that they were ending its support of the program and gave notice of terminating rental of our property effective February 28, 2014. Since then, two major initiatives have begun. The Chief Financial Officer, caretaker, and a former graduate of the recovery program, who feel passionately that the program should continue, are forming the Blue House Society. The program at 566 is a total abstinence program, and funding for such programs has been cut drastically. The Blue House Society is forming a board of directors and exploring funding and partnership options. The Dean and Wardens have had several meetings with them, and are offering support for their venture. The second major initiative was the creation of a 566 Task Force to explore future options for the house and property at 566 4th Avenue. The house is listed on its title as having Heritage Recognition., which carries no legal restrictions, nor provides financial incentives to the owner. This is not the same as Heritage Designation, which has strict guidelines. Listed below are some of the options researched. 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. Demolish the house. Develop a parking lot on the site. Consolidation of the lots. Upgrade the house. Develop the property. Rent the house.

Meet Claire

Claire Tosoff began as our Office Coordinator at the beginning of January. Welcome to our St. Pauls family, Claire.
Photo: Chuck Kalnin.

New Hangings for the Chapel

Over the last few months, the Altar Guild has been looking at the white hangings in the Chapel which are getting worn along the top and cannot be repaired. Fabrics have been viewed and one has been chosen. The frontal, lectern hanging and new burse and veil have been ordered. Donations to cover costs will be accepted with additional funds, if required, coming from the Bequest & Memorial Trust Fund.
Adapted from a report by Elaine Parkes to Cathedral Committee, November 24, 2013.

Altar Guild 2014 Executive

Coordinator Co-coordinator Secretary Treasurer Flowers Sunshine Elaine Parkes Miriam Baskin Pat King Mary Rolston Joy Fudge Miriam Baskin

The Task Force recommended to Cathedral Committee that: a) we allow the Blue House Society to rent the house, provided that they have adequate funds to do so, for a maximum of 3 years; b) before the end of the 3 years, we explore the options from the Task Force as listed above; and c) the above options be explored immediately if the Blue House Society is unable to find adequate funding. (Please see page 2 for the motions which were passed at the Cathedral Committee meeting on January 28, 2014.)
Adapted from a report from the 566 Task Force, written by Alison McKinnon and submitted to Cathedral Committee on January 28, 2014.

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Primates World Relief & Development Fund (PWRDF)

The Food Security Campaign

by Joy Gothard

Fred Says is the title of a three-year campaign PWRDF is undertaking to help people understand food security and the PWRDF mission. Every two months, the Most Rev. Fred Hiltz, Primate of the Anglican Church of Canada and President of PWRDF, offers a Fredism - a unique saying dealing with food security, to be reflect and meditate on. Food security is an increasingly common term, but not well understood by some. Food security refers to the availability of food and ones access to it.

There is much to learn and ways to be active regarding food security issues both locally and internationally. Monthly updates from PWRDF are posted on the Peace & Justice bulletin board. In February, we introduced four organizations concerned with food security issues: Farmland Protection Coalition; Food Secure Canada; National Farmers Union; and Via Campesina. (Please see page 12 for the web addresses.) The Peace & Justice group invites you to be informed and to take action.

Feed your Soul while you Fast during Lent

PWRDF invites you to take a few moments each day during Lent to reflect on the meaning behind your fast. PWRDF encourages you to slow down and enter into a prayerful consideration of the physical and spiritual benefits of fasting, with the Lenten meditations. Copies of the reflections will be available at the services on March 2nd and on Ash Wednesday. They may also be downloaded online at: http:pwrdf.org/uploads/222/.

PWRDF at Sorrento Centre

This summer, PWRDF will partner with Sorrento Centre to offer the course Sharing Bread - Food Security Learning Exchange It will be led by two PWRDF staff members, Suzanne Rumsey and Sheilagh McGlynn. I encourage everyone to attend this course if possible. Sorrento Centre offers bursaries as well as "five for the price of four" rates to encourage parish participation. The Anglican Parishes of the Central Interior (APCI) will be assisting PWRDF parish reps to attend and to learn more about food security and the work of the PWRDF.

Coming to Kamloops - August, 2014

Canadian Lutheran-Anglican Youth (CLAY)

Every two years, nearly 1000 Anglican and Lutheran youth travel from across Canada to the CLAY gathering, which gives the youth the chance to meet other young Christians while learning, worshipping and studying the bible together. This years gathering will be on the campus of Thompson Rivers University in Kamloops, August 14th to 17th. CLAY 2014 will offer participants events similar to those at previous gatherings, including outreach, educational workshops, and late-night social events. This years new feature is the Ministry Project. Groups will spend time exploring a particular interest in depth, such as art, drama or social justice. At the end of the gathering, each group will present a final project or performance. The ministry project experience is designed to inspire and empower youth to express their faith using their gifts, and make CLAY more engaging, relevant and accessible for all. CLAY 2014s keynote speaker will be Irish blogger and author Scott Evans. Evans is known for his frank presentation of his own struggles with finding a place in the church, and organizers hope his experience will resonate with attendees. His blog Falling from the Front examines pop culture from a Christian perspective. This years event in Kamloops will be the third to include Anglican youth. Organizers are keen to point out that all aspects of CLAY reflect LutheranAnglican full communion partnership, and hope Anglican attendance will continue to grow in 2014. To register or to learn more, please visit the website: http://claygathering.ca/
Adapted from a press lease from General Synod, distributed by the Anglican Parishes of the Central Interior, January 16, 2014.

Life isnt about how to survive the storm, but rather how to dance in the rain. Author unknown.

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Outreach Designations for 2014

Each year Cathedral Committee in partnership with the recommendations of the Peace and Justice group identify six local outreach ministries to support through prayer, education and the donations of our membership. These local outreach groups are complemented by the global focus of outreach through the Primates World Relief and Development Fund (PWRDF) which supports and engages in Anglican global mission. We strive for a balance between Month Outreach Fund local and global ministries. January Out of the Cold To the right are the Outreach Designations for 2014. When donors identify where they would like their Outreach to go, the funds are directed according to their instruction. When the Outreach donation is unidentified, or given without instruction, it is sent to the Outreach ministry for the month in which the donation is received, according to the pattern outlined on the list. Information about each of these outreach ministries is shared each month in the bulletin. Thank you for your generous support of the needs of the community both locally and globally. In 2013, St. Pauls membership supported local and global outreach with $25,214.55. February March April May June July August September October November December PWRDF YMCA Womens Y Shelter PWRDF Boys and Girls Club PWRDF PWRDF SHOP Program ASK Wellness PWRDF Elizabeth Fry Society PWRDF Clergy Discretionary

Pit Stop
The objective of Pit Stop is to provide nourishment and outreach to people in our community. Its a hot meal program held every Sunday afternoon throughout the year at the Kamloops United Church (KUC). The dinners are served by various volunteer teams coordinated by KUC. Teams have represented KUC itself, other churches, service clubs, businesses, the University, and groups of families and friends, etc.
On December 8 , a team from St. Pauls hosted Pit Stop for a second time, at the Cathedral. Our hall filled with guests and volunteers. This will now to be an annual event at St. Pauls, on the second or third Sunday of December. In recent years, unused Christmas cards have been collected and handed to guests so that they can give them to their families and friends. This year stamps were also provided. On December 8th, volunteers were present, assisting those who need help writing and addressing cards.
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Out of the Cold

Since last November, Out of the Cold has provided shelter for the homeless in Kamloops on over 30 nights. The St. Vincent de Paul Society began the program in 2006. Due to a lack of space, they approached St. Paul's the following year and Cathedral Committee approved their request to use our basement as the shelter.
Previous to this year, the shelter opened two nights weekly, regardless of temperature. Due to the availability of more housing, this has been changed to once weekly. However, the shelter does open on those nights when it falls below an extreme temperature of 7C. As of the end of January, the shelter has been open on 20 nights with 394 guests staying overnight. The St. Vincent de Paul Society provide and fund three shift captains for each night of operation. Volunteers assist these captains during night. Others operate the kitchen, providing a light supper in the evening and a light breakfast in the morning.

If you wish to volunteer, please contact the volunWe extend heartfelt thanks to Kathy Moore for coordinating and organizing the Pit Stop at St. Pauls, teer coordinator, Christine Jeffrey, at 250-318-0236. and the numerous awesome volunteers who made Another way of supporting this ministry is by providing warm gloves, socks, toques, sweaters and jackets the day a great success. that can be provided to those in need.
Adapted from information on the Pit Stop website and from discussions of volunteers at the dinner at St. Pauls. Adapted from a pew bulletin insert for Sunday, January 26th.

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Travels in the USA - Some Churches Visited

by Margaret Mitchell

When Jim and I were travelling in the US during past winters, we were in a different city or town every week or two, and would usually arrive on a Thursday or Friday. We would take a trip into town in the car, explore the community and find an Episcopal or Lutheran church to attend on the Sunday. For the most part we worshipped in the Episcopal church where their Common Prayer Book is very similar to our Book of Alternative Services, but with more of the Book of Common Prayer language.

Maybe we could say the Birthday blessing prayer together at St. Pauls as we gather around the birthday cake in the hall! Just a thought. In Benson, Arizona, we attended St. Raphael in the Valley for five consecutive Sundays and came to know the priest and congregation quite well. At t he close of the service, just prior to the dismissal, the congregation recited their mission statement together we found this to be very affirming. At one church that we attended regularly in Baja California for two consecutive winters, each member of the congregation turned and faced another person to recite the Apostles Creed. Standing face to face with another person and sharing what I believe . . . was extraordinarily powerful. Try it one Sunday! There are lots of various little traditions, but the underlying foundation is the same. Its comforting to know that when we travel outside of St. Pauls we can be certain to find other communities of faith who welcome us in.

In every church visited, we were welcomed by the greeters just as we are at St. Pauls. However, at the beginning of the service, the priest would ask newcomers or visitors to stand, say their name and where they were from. Each person was welcomed and a small gift was given to them - a bookmark, a pen, a church mug - just a small token of remembrance from that particular community. It was a good opportunity for the congregation to be made aware of who the visitors were; and we were always approached at the end of the service by members of the congregation. We were never alone at coffee hour, but usually found ourselves in a small group talking about the commonalities and differences of our respective communities. We learned a lot!
One Sunday we were at a church in Arizona, newcomers and visitors stood and introduced themselves, including Jim and me. A lady from Manitoba introduced herself, and among other things said shed driven 30 miles to this church, as the community she was staying in had no church at all! After the service, this lady approached Jim and me and asked us to say again where in BC we were from; she couldnt remember if it was Kelowna or Kamloops. When we said Kamloops, she said, Then you must know Gordon and Mary Dove. To which I responded, Then you must be from Brandon, Manitoba! This lady and her husband had befriended Gordon and Mary after they had moved from Kamloops to Brandon and knew them very well, especially as Gordon and Mary had developed the Resource Centre in Brandon. Small world indeed! Another tradition we encountered in most churches was for people in the congregation celebrating a birthday or anniversary during the coming week, to be called to the front of the church where the priest prayed a blessing over them. Sometimes the congregation would join in with the Birthday or Anniversary prayer from the prayer book. I liked that.

Dancing with God

When I meditated on the word Guidance, I kept seeing dance at the end of the word. I remember reading that doing Gods will is a lot like dancing. When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesnt flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky. When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. Its as if two become one body, moving beautifully.
Dance takes surrender, willingness and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other. My eyes drew back to the word, Guidance. When I saw the G, I thought of God, followed by u and I. God, you and I dance. As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life, once I was willing to let God lead. May Gods blessings and mercies be with you on this day and every day. May you abide in God as God abides in you. Dance with God, trusting God to lead and guide you. Author unknown.

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Reboot, Refresh, Revision - Day 2

Saturday, February 1st. Forty-seven parishioners gathered February 1st, as we held the second day in our visioning process. We were welcomed by our facilitator, Peter Mutrie, who told us the agenda for the day. He said that Verna Albright and Alison McKinnon this gathering greet Barry Baskins as he arrives. was to be a day of collective wisdom and sharing. Dean Louise led prayers asking for guidance in determining our hopes and vision for the Cathedral in the future. Bud Forbes briefly recapped what had happened on our first visioning day when we had identified eight ministry themes that St. Pauls is and hopes to be. These themes became the basis for developing this days agenda. This sentence was compared to our existing vision statement: St. Pauls is a joyful community of Christians who are rooted in the best of the Anglican tradition, hospitable and welcoming to seekers, and responsive as a Christian community to the needs of others and those who come to us. Louise shared a mission statement that is in progress, which reflect our eight words: St. Pauls is an inclusive, diverse community of Anglican Christians who worship God, follow Christ, and are led by the Spirit. As loving, committed, caring, curious, reconciling, generous, hopeful people, we strive to intentionally follow Jesus, and honour the mystery of Christ in all. We welcome all to join us on the Way. Peter asked, At St. Pauls what do you hope to see in the future in the area of . . . Each person was asked to discuss their thoughts at three of eight tables representing the eight ministry words: outreach, sustainability, youth, relevance, worship, leadership, spirituality, and inclusiveness.

David Lidster, Bob Hunter, Jim Freathy and Tricia Steenson visited the Relevance station facilitated by Richard Cane.

Our facilitator, Peter Mutrie, welcomes us and describes the agenda for the day.

Dean Louise shared a sentence that was drafted after the first day of visioning to capture the essence of our eight words: St. Pauls Cathedral is a Spirit filled and Inclusive place of Worship with Relevant offerings for Youth and the wider community including pro-active Outreach programs and Sustainable plans that are facilitated by a bold and flexible Leadership.

After the allotted time, the table facilitators reported back to the plenary session. Peter closed this session by sharing four words: dream, believe, dare, do. He said that it takes courage to dare and to do in order to make our dreams a reality, but that as a group we have the collective power to affect change. We have only to have faith and believe. Giving thanks for this day and for what we were about to receive, we enjoyed a lunch provided by Jo-Lynn Forbes and Reid Albright - delicious borscht and pea soup, wonderful open-face sandwiches, raw veggies and an array of delectable goodies. (See page 10.)

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Reboot, Refresh, Revision (contd):

What else do we need? Among the numerous responses were many of the challenges that face us and the need for a clear plan as we journey into the future.

Jo-Lynn Forbes and Reid Albright looked after our nourishment needs for the day.
Photos: Chuck Kalnin.

The afternoon plenary session offered deep and heart felt discussion led by Dean Louise and Peter Mutrie.

After lunch, we gathered in the Cathedral where the pillars were adorned with eight large red hearts, each with one of our eight words. Peter began by asking, What did our mornings work tell us about where God is calling us to go? As a congregation, where are we to use our time, talent and treasure? Louise then led us in a meditation based on Matthew 6:19-21. Do not store up for yourselves treasure on earth, where moth and rust consume and where thieves break in and steal; but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is there your heart will be also. (Matthew 6: 19-21 NRSV) We were invited to select a gemstone from a collection contained in the font and to reflect silently on where St. Pauls treasure should be placed. After a time, we placed our gem on the heart of our choosing, then visited each heart to see the results: outreach (8); sustainability (7); youth (6); relevance (4); worship (3); leadership (3); spirituality (3); inclusiveness (0). For some the choice was easy; for others not so much. For some, the morning discussion had influenced their decision. For some the space, music, silence and scripture helped with discerning where to place their gem. Back in plenary, Peter asked us to comment on the days events. What do we see? Where is God calling us? What needs to be let go? Lively discussion ensued; many insights were shared. Peter explained that our current tool box (our ministry pamphlet) contained the ministry tools we currently have.

As the day wound down, thanks were extended:

to Peter Mutrie for facilitating this day; to the table facilitators for their work before and during this day; to Margaret Mitchell for recording the words from this day; to Jo-Lynn Forbes and Reid Albright for lunch; to Denise Anderson for caring for the children.

Nancy Mutrie and Jon Buckle were acknowledged for the tremendous amount of work they have done on our behalf. Louise thanked all in attendance for the hard work we had done; and closed, saying, We are now ready to ask some serious, important and difficult questions for our faith to continue in the future. The day ended in prayer. The feeling remains that God is on a journey too.
Teresa of Avila, Spanish mystic, 1515-1582.

A Prayer for St. Pauls

by Joan Newman

O Lord, who taught us to pray, Thy Kingdom Come. We thank you for your presence among us. Help us to so maintain the life and witness of our Cathedral Church, that it may be a light to the way for us and our families, and a beacon to all those in this city and beyond, who would worship with us; To your honour and glory. Amen.
Editors note: Joan Newman was a long time parishioner and leader at St. Pauls and a Lay Canon in the Diocese of Cariboo, Her prayer of several years ago seems quite relevant to our current visioning process.

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Whodunnit??
by Margaret Mitchell

The Mystery of God

Throughout my journey, I have, at times been sustained by the still small voice of God. Sometimes, when my life is in turmoil and I am spinning out of control, whether in the quiet of the night or in the crowded mall, I have experienced that surprisingly calm assurance of Gods faithful love and protection. I know that such a feeling was not created by me and I see it as the peace that passes all understanding. I am grateful for Gods mystery in my life. Anonymous.

I love a good mystery! Give me a good mystery novel and you can keep me quiet for hours! Mystery movies and detective TV series are my favourite genre; you may not want to watch with me, as I do tend to voice my opinions on whodunit as the program progresses! And what about jigsaw puzzles - especially the ones where the picture on the box isnt the same as the completed puzzle - or crossword puzzles? Its so much fun to fit all the little pieces together until the big picture is revealed and to enjoy great satisfaction from solving the clues. Maybe thats why Im a Christian because God is a great mystery to me! God keeps me guessing and keeps me on my toes. Just when I think I have something figured out, it gets turned on its head, and there I am re-thinking, questioning and trying to fit the pieces together again. There is no team of sleuths tracking down the clues, helping me to reach a conclusion. The good guys dont always win, nor the bad guys always get whats coming to them. I cant turn to the back of my Bible to find the answers to the puzzle. Sometimes, the little pieces dont fit together as I think they should and the big picture isnt revealed. You know how frustrating it is to have pieces of the jigsaw puzzle missing, not to be able to solve the clue in the crossword, to miss the end of the whodunit, or to have the end of the book revealed before youve made the journey through all the Pages. As much as I love to solve mysteries, none of that is important in my Christian faith. I dont need to have all the answers. Being a part of the mystery of God is different for me on a physical, mental and spiritual level. Its okay not to have the mystery revealed - not yet.

Opportunities for Ministry

Altar Guild: This wonderful group quietly and faithfully work to prepare the altar and worship spaces for all regular and special services, including weddings and funerals. If you are interested in helping to do this, please speak to Elaine Parkes or any other member of the Guild. Garden Project: Do you like to have your hands in the earth? Join the Hands in the Dirt Gang and grow veggies to share with parish members, local agencies & groups, those in need, our own ministry programs and others. Please speak with Miriam Baskins, Jo-Lynn Forbes or Chuck Kalnin. Photo Contest: Someone is required to organize and run our annual photo contest. For information about what is involved, please talk to Chuck Kalnin. Thrift Shop: There is a need for assistance with putting away the display racks on Friday afternoons, from 1:30 to 2:00 p.m. Please call 250-852-3852 for information.

Sorrento Centre
Sorrento Centre has celebrated 50 years; and have initiated a capital campaign in order to renovate and replace buildings and to establish endowments that will ensure their existence for another 50 years. Recently many St. Pauls parishioners attended a presentation to hear more about this campaign. We heard Bishop Gordon Light, Bishop David Crawley, Josh Keller, Melissa Green and David Wyse describe the various plans for the facility and programs on the Centre. For more information about the capital campaign or this years programs, please visit Sorrento Centres website. (See page 13 for the link to their website.)

So I keep at it daily: reading The Book, watching out for clues, trying to solve the cryptic messages, gathering together with other like minded individuals on a weekly basis, my faith team, as together we search for answers to the greatest mystery of all. And I know in my heart, one day the mystery will be revealed.
Thanks be to God. I do not at all understand the mystery of grace - only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us. Anne Lamott, American writer.

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The Stewardship Page

Learning as I Go
by Miriam Baskin

From the Treasurers Desk

For the Twelve Months Ending December 31, 2013 Actual Revenue Offering Rental Income Other Income Total Revenue Expense Salaries & Benefits Premises & Office Programs & Other Christian Sharing Total Expenses Operating Surplus $231,922 47,074 36,036 $315,032 $144,880 35,138 46,662 66,737 $293,417 $ 21,615 Budget $246,600 43,596 36,964 $327,160 $153,490 34,436 49,758 72,000 $309,684 $ 17,476.

Summary of Revenue and Expense

As an active participating person of faith, I am called to be a steward of the life that God has given to me - all that makes me fully alive in Christ. We weave God into all that we are. When I was five I was baptized. I remember the cross being traced onto my forehead by the priest. What a simple profound act of love, yet so full of responsibility from then onward.

I am a slow learner, not academically, but for sure in fully trusting that God always has my best interest at the forefront. It is good that hind sight is 20/20 and I am able to look back, shaking my head in humility at how I questioned, voicing my dislike at what was unfolding. I see the mosaic of my life laid out, how God intervenes, how often I have been picked up after stumbling. God puts me back on the path, wipes the dirt from my knees and says okay away you go lets try again. Thank God for forgiveness, for looking beyond my unbelief, for opening my eyes, helping me to see that all I have is of God. I will never go without what I need. There is a sense of freedom that comes with that awareness, a sense of abundance for what I do have, and to give what I have away is all right too as there is always more.
Once I was in need of a swim suit. It was for my work and I had no money. I did what I needed to do. I prayed and not long afterwards a bag of clothing was left at our door, including a swim suit that fit me just right. It was not exactly my style as I was quite round at the time and the print was that of a leopard! Since then I have been more specific in my prayers. I am not a perfect specimen, but thats okay with God because with all my mistakes and struggles, God loves me still. I continue to practice my faith with the Grace of God, learning as I go.
Written and read by Miriam Baskin as part of the presentation on Stewardship Sunday, November 17, 2013.

Whats Important?
Take time to get relaxed and centered. Prayerfully focus on this question: What is most important in your life? Write down your thoughts: family, garden, working in a room with a window, having free time, my health, my relationship with God, etc. Keep the list so you can reflect on it and add to it in the future. How honest have you been with yourself? What things can you get by giving or sharing? What things can you have through self-discipline? Which things on your list do you have to buy? Do you arrange your life so that you give time to the most important things?
Nancy Roth, adapted from Organic Prayer: A Spiritual Gardening Companion, 1993, 2007, Seabury Books.

Questions to Ponder
During a sermon on September 29, 2012, Dean Louise posed these questions for reflection: Am I doing all I can for God? Am I doing all that I am for God? Whats the difference between these two questions? What do they mean for you?
Adapted from the workshop Chant Chart Converse: Know Yourself - Know Your Gifts, October 27, 2012, led by David Lidster, Jennifer Betuzzi and David Darwin.

Our reliance on our homelands bounty is not simply about taking what we need to sustain ourselves. It is about a debt to the lands and water that have nurtured our peoples since time immemorial - and about a promise to future generations that we will hand down the same bounty to them and their children. Jessie Housty, Heiltsuk First Nation in Bella Bella.

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Glancing Back at St. Pauls

St. Pauls Circular

Winter Social Gatherings

In the late 1970s and early 80s, St. Pauls held some winter social gatherings. Among the events were a night of tobogganing and cross-country skiing at the old Kamloops Ski Hill, located near where Costco is now. On a sunny afternoon, several parishioners gathered with their families at Lac le Jeune to enjoy a wiener roast and some skating, snowshoeing and skiing on the frozen lake. At left: Terry Watkins, Lorna Turnbull and the Rev. Harvey Carmichael (St. Pauls parishioners and clergy at that time) were among those who gathered in 1980 at the Kalnin residence in Brocklehurst, for a wonderful evening of cross-country skiing at the nearby Kamloops Golf & Country Club. The mulled wine was great too!
Photo: Chuck Kalnin.

Newsletter Distribution Policy

Due to increasing postal costs and current fiscal restraints, a new policy has been implemented for the distribution of the St. Pauls Circular. For those who have requested electronic copies, distribution will remain the same. For those who have received hard copies in the past, hard copies will continue to be available for pickup for a two week period after publication. If they are not picked up in that time, they will be emailed if possible. Please let us know your email address if we do not already have it. Hard copies of each issue will continue to be available in the hall foyer and near the Cathedral Office. Each issue will also continue to be posted on our blog site, with a link to it on our Facebook page.

World Day of Prayer March 7t, 2014

Streams in the Desert

Each year, Christian women of many cultures and traditions around the world observe a common day of prayer. This years worship service was written by women from Egypt. Egypt is a place where history flows across its every aspect as the Nile River flows through its land - a place of both exile and of refuge, where history calls us to remember our past. Its where streams filled with nutrients flow through desert lands. Streams are not only the physical rivers. We are invited to seek the streams of living water which Jesus offers. In Kamloops services will be: Kamloops United Church at 1:30 p.m. 429 St. Paul Street

Interesting Internet
CLAY 2014: information and registration for the Canadian Lutheran-Anglican Youth (CLAY) gathering in Kamloops, August 14 - 17, 2014. http://claygathering.ca/ Farmland Protection Coalition: support of farmers and food systems in BC. http://farmlandprotection.ca/ Food Secure Canada: news and information about food issues. http://foodsecurecanada.org/ National Farmers Union: information & actions supporting famers in Canada. www.nfu.ca/ Pit Stop: news and information about Kamloops United Churchs hot meal program. http://kamloopsunited.ca/pit-stop/ PWRDF: information and news about the Primates World Relief and Development Fund. www.pwrdf.org/ Sorrento Centre: information on events, programming and the facilities. www.sorrento-centre.bc.ca/. Via Campesina: news and updates regarding international food issues. http://viacampesina.org/ World Day of Prayer: information and news for the 2014 World Day of Prayer. www.worlddayofprayer.net/

Mount Paul United Church at 7:00 p.m. 140 Laburam Street

All are welcome to come and support these efforts towards justice, peace, healing and wholeness.
Adapted from the website of the World Day of Prayer International Committee.

Chant - Chart - Converse

Another half-day experiential workshop in this series is being planned for Pentecost. Please watch for dates and details.

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Lent & Easter at St. Pauls Cathedral

Triduum & Easter Services
Maundy Thursday, April 17
7:30 p.m. Holy Eucharist Foot Washing Stripping of the Altar
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More Dates
Shrove Tuesday
Tuesday, March 4th @ 5:00 pm Pancakes in the Parish Hall

Cathedral

Ash Wednesday
Wednesday, March 5th @ 10:00 am Imposition of Ashes in the Chapel

Good Friday, April 18th

11:00 a.m. Meditation on the Cross and Passion of Our Lord Cathedral

Wednesday, March 5th @ 7:00 pm Imposition of Ashes in the Cathedral

Palm Sunday
beach off Schubert Dr. Chapel Cathedral Sunday, April 13th @ 8:00 am Holy Communion in the Chapel Sunday, April 13th @ 10:00 am Liturgy of the Palms, Eucharist Baptism and Confirmation in the Cathedral

Easter Sunday, April 20st

5:00 a.m. 8:00 a.m. 10:00 a.m. Sunrise Eucharist Holy Communion Holy Eucharist

Haloes and Hidden Things

Exploring the Light & Shadow of the Spiritual Life
Thursdays during Lent
Lectures at 12:15 p.m. in the Cathedral. A light lunch follows in the Parish Hall. March 6 March 13 March 20 March 27 April 3 April 10 April 17 Bruce Chalmers Bruce Comrie Ivy Thomas Brian Krushel Dan Hines Jennifer Betuzzi & David Lidster Carolyn Ronald

2014 Lenten Lectures

St. Pauls Annual Parish Picnic

June 9th
after the service at Prince Charles Park
watch for details

St. Pauls Thrift Shop

Fridays: 9:30 a.m. to 1:30 p.m. Come Visit - Fill a Need - Find a Treasure
CLOTHING - SHOES - LINENS TOYS - MUSIC - BOOKS - MAGAZINES YARN - MATERIAL - CRAFT SUPPLIES KITCHENWARE - CHINA - POTTERY PICTURES - JEWELRY - KNICK-KNACKS GAMES - JIGSAW PUZZLES - GREETING CARDS

Annual Mens Dinner

March 15th - 5:00 p.m. in the Parish Hall
Its a western theme! Dig out those jeans, dust off your ole cowboy hat, and join us for a really great time. Proceeds will be designated to the Youth Trust Fund which is used to send youth and youth leaders to retreats, conferences, educational courses, etc.

Your donations are appreciated and may be left in the foyer of the upper parish hall during office hours. Please take the time to toss clothing in your washer and dryer and please wash up the pots, pans and dishes. We have to stop and be humble enough to understand that there is something called mystery.
Paulo Coelho, Brazilian novelist.

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Upcoming Special Dates

March 4 5 5 6 7 13 15 20 27 3 10 13 17 17 18 20 20 20 May June 14 23-24-25 15 Tuesday Wednesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Thursday Saturday Thursday Thursday Thursday Thursday Sunday Thursday Thursday Friday Sunday Sunday Sunday Wednesday Fr-Sa-Su Sunday 5:00 p.m. 10:00 a.m. 7:00 p.m. 12:15 p.m. 1:30 p.m. 12:15 p.m. 5:00 p.m. 12:15 p.m. 12:15 p.m. 12:15 p.m. 12:15 p.m. 10:00 a.m. 12:15 p.m. 7:30 p.m. 11:00 a.m. 5:00 a.m. 8:00 a.m. 10:00 a.m. 5:00 p.m. -----------after service Shrove Tuesday Pancake Dinner Imposition of Ashes Imposition of Ashes Lenten Lecture: Bruce Chalmers World Day of Prayer Service Lenten Lecture: Bruce Comrie Mens Dinner Lenten Lecture: Ivy Thomas Lenten Lecture: Brian Krushel Lenten Lecture: Dan Hines Lenten Lecture: Jennifer Betuzzi & David Lidster Liturgy of the Palms, Holy Eucharist & Confirmation Lenten Lecture: Carolyn Ronald Maundy Thursday Eucharist Meditation on the Cross and the Passion of our Lord Easter Sunday Sunrise Eucharist Easter Sunday Holy Communion Easter Sunday Holy Eucharist Momma Mia Spaghetti Dinner Equip 2014 Parish Picnic Parish Hall Chapel Cathedral Cathedral United Church Cathedral Parish Hall Cathedral Cathedral Cathedral Cathedral Cathedral Cathedral Cathedral Cathedral Schubert Drive Chapel Cathedral Parish Hall Williams Lake Pr. Charles Park

April

Dates and times may change.

We would be open to mystery:

Share your Faith Journey

We invite you to write a few words about your faith journey, near or far. How does your faith interact with your job and other parts of your life? Could you share a spiritual experience or moment? What sights and experiences have been God moments? What was the church you grew up in like? Or any church, worship space or spiritual location that you visited?

the mystery of God whom we can never fully define the wonder and joy of love expressed in poetry and metaphor the strength and beauty of the Bible along with its human frailties and error the mystery of scientific exploration and all other search for knowledge the mystery and beauty of human beings in our proper interdependent place in the whole natural order.

All of nature and continuing evolution we would see as wonder and delight, learning from the Divine Lover to dance and celebrate life.
Rev. Bob Purdy, retired Anglican Priest, in Without Guarantee: In Search of a Vulnerable God.

Though it appears to be un-Anglican to witness, we would very much welcome such articles, or any other items that glorify God.
On the back page of each issue of the Circular, we list a theme for our next issue, loose guidelines used to help plan and organize. You might use these themes as points on which to reflect about your own faith journey. The theme for our Pentecost issue will be healing. Where has Gods grace and healing presence been present for you?

May the God who dances in creation, who embraces us with human love, who shakes our lives like thunder, bless us and drive us out with power to fill the world with her justice. Amen.
Janet Morley, British writer and trainer.

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Bishop: Rector & Dean: Honourary Assistant: Honourary Assistant: Honourary Assistant: Rectors Warden: Peoples Warden: Youth Coordinator: Music Directors: Office Coordinator: The Rt. Rev. Barbara Andrews The Very Rev. Louise Peters The Rev. Sandra Sugden The Rev. Tom Sugden The Rev. Viktor Gundel Alison McKinnon Verna Albright Melissa Green Heather & Norris Berg Claire Tosoff

visit our blog stpaulscathedral.blogspot.com/ follow us on Facebook next issue submission deadline May 28, 2014 theme for the next issue: healing

Chucks Chatter . . .

Mystery creates wonder and wonder is the basis of our desire to understand. Neil Armstrong, American astronaut, 1930-2012. this mystery is available to all. The New Westminster Dictionary of Liturgy & Worship notes that, since the earliest of times, there has been a search for the meaning of mystery: Major scholars have studied the mystery: of the divine, of God, of the transcendent, of the universe, of life. Mark McIntosh, in his book Mysteries of Faith, sees mystery not as a puzzle or problem to be solved, but rather as the deep dimension of life where meaning dwells. He adds, Most of the time we walk along the surface of things happily enough. But every once in a while there is a bend in the path and we find ourselves at the edge of a vast dimension of meaning, hope, pain, courage or love. Mystery is what beckons and speaks to us at such moments. It is not something different from our everyday lives; it is the real meaning of our lives, the secret truth of them. Many feel that life has at least some kind of meaning, which we might realize through Newells grace of wonderment. However, he also asks, How do we reclaim [the sense of wonder] and learn again to gaze at the light of the Mystery that dapples through creation and through our lives? In answer, he suggests we are to become like a child and that we move more deeply into who we have been created to be as we go forward on our journey. Amen. The real mystery of life is not a problem to be solved. It is a reality to be experienced.
J.J. van der Leeuw, Dutch philosopher, 1890-1950.

In the early 1960s, Harry Belafonte recorded the song, Why n Why, in which a daughter asks some questions that her father tries to answer:
Why n why n why/Because, because, because. Why cant a mouse eat a streetcar/Because a mouses stomach is too small to hold a streetcar. Why cant a cow have kittens/ Because a cow has little calves and a cat has kittens/And besides its easier that way. Why dont you answer my questions/Cause I dont know the answers/ Goodnight, goodnight.

As a teenager, I too had my own set of why questions that I seemed to dwell on a lot. Why is there life? Why am I here? Whats it all about? Indeed, for me, existence was and remains mysterious and I am inquisitive! Celtic spirituality writer, J. Phillip Newell, suggests that we search for answers to such questions because, the grace of wonderment has been planted deep within us. The Oxford Dictionary of English tells us that mystery is something that is difficult or impossible to understand and that within Christian theology, mystery is seen as a religious belief based on divine revelation, especially one regarded as beyond human understanding. Mystery is a word that Anglicans seem to use freely and often. Each week in our liturgy, we proclaim the mystery of faith. At St. Pauls, we invite all who seek Jesus to the table, noting,