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to"conve/"Nhat"@"&eel"in"m/"heart"and"Nhat"@"hear"in"m/"mind,"@"am"sure"to"create"a" Miserere"so"marvelous"that"nothin+"on"earth"could"compare"to"it,"so"poi+nant"that"on" hearin+"the"&irst"chord"the"archan+els"Nill"5oin"me"and"the/"Nill"sa/"to"the":ord:"R*ave" merc/<S8"and"the":ord"Nill"have"merc/"&or"his"poor"creature.S" " On"reachin+"this"point"in"his"stor/,"the"pil+rim"Nas")uiet"&or"a"moment"and"then," Nith"a"si+h"he"continued"speaMin+."Dhe"la/"brother,"some"servants"o&"the"abbe/,"and" several"shepherds"&rom"the"&arm"belon+in+"to"the"abbe/"Nere"all"+athered"in"a"circle" around"him,"and"the/"listened"Nith"+reat"interest." " R%&ter"that,S"he"continued,"R@"traveled"throu+h"the"entire"countr/"o&"$erman/,"all" o&"@tal/,"and"most"o&"this"classical"countr/,"searchin+"&or"reli+ious"music8"but"@"still"have" not"&ound"a"Miserere"that"could"inspire"me,"and"@"have"noN"listened"to"so"man/"that"@" thinM"@"have"heard"them"all.S" " R*eard"them"all,S"one"o&"the"shepherds"asMed,"interruptin+"him,"Rbut"have"/ou" heard"the"Miserere of the Mountain?S" " RDhe"Miserere of the Mountain<S"said"the"musician"Nith"an"air"o&"pu22lement." RUhat""Miserere"is"that?S" " R@t"is"as"@"said,S"the"shepherd"replied"and"then"continued"as"thou+h"he"Nere" e plainin+"somethin+"m/sterious."RDhis"is"a"Miserere"Nhich"those"o&"us"Nho"travel" throu+h"hill"and"dale"&olloNin+"the"herds"are"able"to"hear"b/"accident8"it"is"part"o&"a"ver/" old"stor/,"but"it"is"true,"even"thou+h"it"ma/"seem"unbelievable."@t"tells"that"in"the"most" remote"re+ion"o&"the"mountains"Nhich"surround"the"valle/"at"the"bottom"o&"Nhich"this" %bbe/"is"located,"man/"/ears"a+o,"or"in"&act"man/"centuries"a+o,"there"Nas"a"monaster/" Nhich"the/"sa/"Nas"built"b/"a":ord"Nhose"propert/"Nas"to"have"been"inherited"b/"a"son" Nhom"he"disinherited"be&ore"he"died"&or"the"evil"thin+s"he"had"done."Hntil"this"point" ever/thin+"Nas"&ine8"but"as"Ne"Nill"see"in"Nhat"&olloNs,"this"son"seemed"to"be"a"disciple" o&"the"Aevil,"or"perhaps"the"Aevil"himsel&."So"Nhen"he"&ound"that"his"Nealth"had"been" +iven"to"the"priests"and"his"castle"Nas"trans&ormed"into"a"church,"he"+athered"his"dissolute" companions"Nho"had"le&t"their"&amilies"to"participate"in"this"ruinous"li&e,"and"on"the"ni+ht" o&"#aund/"Dhursda/,"Nhen"all"the"monMs"Nere"in"the"choir"and"at"the"e act"moment" Nhen"the/"Nere"about"to"be+in,"or"had"alread/"be+un,"the"Miserere,"the/"set"&ire"to"the" monaster/"and"the/"entered"the"church"to"sacM"it."%ccordin+"to"Nhat"some"said,"and" others"denied,"the/"also"murdered"all"o&"the"monMs."%&ter"this"these"evildoers,"alon+"Nith" their"leader,"marched"o&&"to"$od"MnoNs"Nhere,"perhaps"the"boNels"o&"the"earth."Dhe" &lames"reduced"the"monaster/"to"ashes8"Nhat"remains"o&"the"ruins"o&"the"church"is"still" located"on"top"o&"a"holloN"rocM"&rom"Nhich"Nater"&loNs"to"&orm"the"stream"Nhich"comes" to"Nash"the"Nalls"o&"this"%bbe/.S" " R'ut,S"the"impatient"musician"interrupted,"RNhat"about"the"Miserere?S" " RGust"Nait,S"the"shepherd"replied8"R@"Nill"come"to"that"in"due"time.S"*avin+"said" that,"he"continued"Nith"his"stor/." " R%ll"the"people"in"the"surroundin+"re+ion"Nere"shocMed"b/"the"crime:"&rom"&ather" to"son"and"&rom"son"to"+randson,"the/"told"the"stor/"o&ten"and"on"man/"di&&erent" occasions8"but"Nhat"stands"out"in"their"memor/"is"that"ever/"/ear,"on"the"ni+ht"Nhen"it" Nas"burned,"one"can"see"li+hts"shinin+"throu+h"the"broMen"NindoNs"o&"the"church8"one" can"also"hear"the"m/sterious"sounds"o&"music"and"mourn&ul"son+s"that"are"carried"b/"the" +usts"o&"Nind."@t"is"the"monMs"Nho"perhaps"have"died"Nithout"bein+"able"to"pur+e"their" sins"be&ore"the/"entered"the"7ourt"o&"$od"and"have"there&ore"come"bacM"&rom"Cur+ator/"

to"asM"&or"merc/"b/"sin+in+"the"Miserere. S" " Dhose"Nho"Nere"listenin+"to"the"stor/"looMed"at"each"other"in"ama2ement8"it"Nas" onl/"the"pil+rim"Nho"seemed"to"be"deepl/"concerned"b/"the"events"o&"the"stor/,"and"he" asMed"the"person"Nho"Nas"tellin+"it:" " R%nd"/ou"sa/"that"this"Nonder"still"occurs?S" " R@n"three"hours"it"Nill"start"a+ain,"because"this"is"the"ni+ht"o&"#aund/"Dhursda/," and"it"5ust"strucM"ei+ht"on"the"clocM"in"the"%bbe/.S" " R*oN"&ar"aNa/"is"the"monaster/?S" " RCerhaps"about"one"and"a"hal&"lea+ues.S" " R'ut"Nhat"are"/ou"doin+?"Uhere"are"/ou"+oin+"on"a"ni+ht"liMe"this?"*ave"/ou"lost" /our"mind?S"the/"e claimed"as"the/"saN"the"pil+rim"rise"o&&"his"bench"and"taMe"his"sta&&," NalMin+"aNa/"&rom"the"hearth"toNard"the"door." " RUhere"am"@"+oin+?"Uh/"to"hear"this"marvelous"music,"to"hear"the"real"Miserere," the""Miserere"o&"those"Nho"return"&rom"the"dead"and"MnoN"Nhat"it"is"to"die"in"sin.S" " Dhe"Nind"moaned"maMin+"the"doors"creaM"as"i&"a"poNer&ul"hand"Nas"tr/in+"to"tear" them"o&&"their"hin+es8"the"rain"Nas"&allin+"in"torrents,"beatin+"a+ainst"the"+lass"in"the" NindoNs,"and"&rom"time"to"time"a"streaM"o&"li+htnin+"lit"the"hori2on." " R*eQs"mad<S"the"la/"brother"said"Nhen"the"&irst"moment"o&"astonishment"had" passed." " R*eQs"mad,S"the"others"a+reed,"as"the/"stirred"the"&ire"and"+athered"around"the" hearth." " " " @@" " " %&ter"travelin+"&or"tNo"or"three"hours"the"m/sterious"pil+rim,"Nho"Nas"considered" a"madman"b/"those"in"the"abbe/,"&inall/"reached"the"stream"Nhich"had"been"mentioned"b/" the"shepherd,"and"at"this"point"he"Nas"&inall/"able"to"see"the"darM"and"imposin+"ruins"o&" the"monaster/." " Dhe"rain"had"stopped8"lar+e,"darM"clouds"Nere"still"&loatin+"across"the"sM/"and" &rom"time"to"time"a"&urtive"ra/"o&"li+ht"shone"throu+h"them8"the"Nind"Nas"still"moanin+"as" it"Nhipped"the"massive"buttresses"and"spread"throu+h"the"deserted"cloister."Fevertheless," there"Nas"nothin+"stran+e"or"supernatural"that"strucM"the"ima+ination.".or"someone"Nho" had"spent"man/"ni+hts"sheltered"b/"the"ruins"o&"an"abandoned"toNer"or"a"solitar/"castle," Nho"had"passed"throu+h"thousands"o&"storms"and"torments"durin+"his"len+th/"pil+rima+e," all"these"si+hts"and"sounds"Nere")uite"&amiliar." " Arops"o&"rain"that"dripped"throu+h"cracMs"in"the"broMen"arches"and"&ell"on"the" stone"slabs"Nith"a"rh/thmic"sound"liMe"that"o&"the"pendulum"in"a"clocM8"the"hootin+"o&"an" oNl"perched"under"the"stone"halo"o&"a"statue"that"Nas"still"standin+"in"a"recess"o&"the"Nall8" the"hissin+"o&"snaMes"Nho,"aNaMened"&rom"their"lethar+/"b/"the"storm,"poMed"their"u+l/" heads"out"o&"their"holes"or"slithered"throu+h"the"Needs"and"brambles"+roNin+"at"the"&oot" o&"the"altars,"or"throu+h"the"5oints"betNeen"the"burial"slabs"that"&ormed"the"&loor"o&"the" church,"all"these"stran+e,"m/sterious"sounds"o&"the"countr/side"and"the"solitude"o&"the" ni+ht"Nere"perceptible"to"the"ears"o&"the"pil+rim"Nho"Nas"seated"on"the"broMen"statue"o&"a" tomb,"an iousl/"aNaitin+"the"hour"Nhen"the"marvelous"event"Nould"&inall/"occur." " Dhe"moments"passed"b/"and"still"nothin+"happened8"the"con&usin+"sounds"o&"the"

ni+ht"could"still"be"heard,"and"the/"blended"to+ether"in"thousands"o&"di&&erent"Na/s"but" Nere"alNa/s"the"same." " R7ould"@"have"been"deceived?S"the"musician"Nondered8"but"5ust"then,"he"heard"a" neN"sound,"an"ine plicable"sound"liMe"a"clocM"maMes"in"the"moment"be&ore"it"striMes"the" hour:"the"sound"o&"Nheels"that"are"turnin+,"o&"cords"that"are"stretchin+,"o&"a"mechanism" that"is"shaMin+"and"about"to"use"its"stran+e,"mechanical"vitalit/8"and"a"bell"chimed"oneT" tNoT"threeT"until"eleven"chimes"Nere"heard." " @n"the"ruined"church"Nhere"the"pil+rim"Nas"seated"there"Nas"no"bell,"no"clocM,"nor" even"a"toNer"that"Nas"still"standin+." " Dhe"last"stroMe"o&"the"clocM"Nas"passin+"&rom"echo"to"echo"and"its"vibration"Nas" still"tremblin+"in"the"air,"Nhen"the"+ranite"canopies"that"covered"the"sculptures,"the" marble"steps"o&"the"altars,"the"stones"o&"the"vaulted"arches,"the"ornate"railin+"o&"the"choir," the"+arlands"o&"clover"on"the"cornices,"the"blacM"buttresses"o&"the"Nalls,"the"&loors"and"the" vaults,"the"entire"church,"Nas"illuminated"spontaneousl/,"even"thou+h"there"Nas"no"torch," and"no"candle"or"lamp"could"be"seen"to"cause"the"m/sterious"bri+htness."Dhe"remains"o&" the"church"resembled"a"+iant"sMeleton"Nhose"bones"Nere"emittin+"a"phosphoric"+as"that" Nas"shinin+"in"the"darMness"Nith"a"timid"and"uncertain"+loN." " @t"all"seemed"to"come"alive"but"Nith"a"+alvanic"movement"that"imposes" contractions"on"death"so"that"it"parodies"li&e,"an"instantaneous"chan+e"that"is"even"more" &ri+htenin+"than"the"inertia"o&"a"corpse"shaMen"b/"an"unseen"&orce."Stones"reconnected"to" stones8"the"altar,"Nhose"broMen"pieces"Nere"scattered,"rose"up"intact,"as"thou+h"the" architect"had"5ust"made"the"&inal"bloN"o&"his"chisel8"the"altar,"the"demolished"chapels,"the" broMen"spires,"as"Nell"as"an"immense"netNorM"o&"broMen"arches,"rose"up"and"reconnected" Nith"the"&allen"columns,"&ormin+"an"ama2in+"lab/rinth"o&"stone." " Once"the"church"Nas"restored,"a"distant"chord"Nas"heard"that"could"have"been" mistaMen"&or"a"+ust"o&"air,"but"Nas"a"solemn"chorus"o&"voices"that"seemed"to"rise"&rom"the" boNels"o&"the"earth"and"spread"out,"little"b/"little,"becomin+"more"and"more"noticeable." " Dhe"bold"pil+rim"became"&ri+htened,"but"stru++lin+"a+ainst"his"&ear"Nas"his" intense"and"lon+=lastin+"&anaticism,"and"encoura+ed"b/"it"he"arose"&rom"the"tomb"Nhere" he"had"been"seated,"bent"over"the"ed+e"o&"the"ravine"Nhere"the"stream"had"become"a" torrent"that"Nas"pourin+"over"the"rocMs,"and"his"hair"stood"on"end"in"horror." " 'arel/"covered"Nith"the"remains"o&"their"disheveled"habits"and"hoods,"under" Nhich"the"empt/"cavities"o&"their"e/es,"their"&leshless"5aNs,"and"their"Nhite"teeth" contrasted"Nith"the"darM"&abric,"he"saN"the"sMeletons"o&"the"monMs"Nho"Nere"climbin+"out" o&"the"Nater,"holdin+"onto"the"cracMs"in"the"rocMs"Nith"their"bon/"hands"until"the/"reached" the"ed+e"o&"the"ravine"and,"Nith")uiet,"sepulchral"voices"and"a"pro&ound"e pression"o&" sorroN,"the/"Nere"repeatin+"the"&irst"verse"o&"the"psalm"o&"Aavid:"Miserere mei, Deus, secundum"magnam misericordiam tuam! " " Uhen"the"monMs"reached"the"colonnade"o&"the"church"the/"&ormed"tNo"columns" and,"marchin+"into"it,"the/"Nent"to"Mneel"in"the"choir"Nhere,"Nith"sli+htl/"louder"voices," the/"continued"sin+in+"the"verses"o&"the"psalm."Dhere"Nas"music"accompan/in+"their" voices:"the"music"Nas"the"distant"sound"o&"thunder"Nhich"becomes"so&ter"as"the"storm" disappears8"it"Nas"the"sound"o&"the"Nind"that"Nas"moanin+"in"a"holloN"o&"the"mountains8" it"Nas"the"monotonous"noise"o&"a"cascade"that"Nas"&allin+"over"the"rocMs,"o&"the"drops"o&" Nater"that"Nere"drippin+,"the"hoots"o&"an"oNl"that"Nas"hidden,"and"the"slitherin+"o&" restless"reptiles."

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