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Smu Ovnmu

r ha l w iI opp« owd Ai. woman

'Wh.r do

you mn n you don 'r w.m to m ak~ coffee ta k ~ nora w aoh m . h"" 10 ro b«I wi.h _ • .,ou • ktbi.n or IC>ImI'hi"il'" And .r rh~

.h

• kobi.n no""' " 1fT how .h~ iru- nlifiel 1f

B1

:k,

she ill QlIIed

11.,.

w~ll

r of ou<:h. druJed r. inr. aU roo olt en. he f.U. m«kly in.o

li~, however c OVIfTf I., . &ir rhe wor d /ab;an iI on ly Ih rea l~ni rlll

xu. 1ity, or

.0 100 <Mined by il and from oumde

r hem

liP<'aki~ up fur OUMva . oh.ri na: d DM' r i

politically .nd emotionally, arl nOi rhro ~~"""'" ol Black men. B1a<k women who _k OUr own <Mini tioru. ~ zi"ll

W~

wirh '~I . W~ haw bero ' TOUnd

wi.h one . norhror

who .11ow ,hrom.d

10 .hOM' Bla,k WOlTIoOn who

intim idaled by rh~i

_ l"""" Black WOI'l\IfTI i n .uup

from OUr OWn penp«tiw .

mVlfT'li ry .mong ou

wilhin our c ommunilieo for •

piai'd piYOl:.l ptIrtS In lhe su rvival ol .how rommuni' iel: from

and F. n.

,lvn

,

IontI: Ii •• nd w~ ha w

,

n i~ Lou Ha IMl' to Lon . i

Hanobeny '" y ou r Aum M .ydi

I n ,hro 600 Black peopk _ted. l<x of ou r .u bor.n< ~ fighlirlll

'010"'" 01. "'" woo ii i ~

"'" now.

~lC h OIhror .

W ~ ea nnor

. fford

r o do

rh a!

i n

.he

!lOa, whtn

Waoh ingron, D .C. hao the hig

U.S. dry . 60 percen. ol the Bl lKk c ommuni., under

' infam morta liry

r~ ol. ny ry iI

Unftl'lployd and ~

are on

rht in<r~a

~ becomi"i Ul>tlTlployabko. l.,n<hinp

and Iell Ih.n half W

~erd BllKk

VOl Iln voced in Ih ~ l UI ~I~ lion .

you

pr~lCh, a nd who nac11., i1 1il'ffl inc!

'ion, bu, WI mu" be I't'OpOIUoi­

bk for ou , own libonrion. It iI nor pnl lObe l asy, bul "'" haw

Malcolm O!I~ . "'"

How al l you praaicing wha• .,.". prnch _

~ nOl ra ponoibk for OUr oppi

wharrv

wh. t

"'"

ha w

lra med and

whal WI ha

bern gi

,n

rha! iI

Ju

l. W~ haw rhe ~

, ,hOM' who c. InC' ~

I UI have giwn

to

mow beyond .h~ plK~ wherr l

he., _

ha\o'l dlot rrfelo • • nd w ar

,.,

and .un , .nd ou r chi~

nding. W~ . M alcolm

X don nor Ii "" in , hI dr y I ,."" olh il "

liva In Ih~ ~""'lI'/ we arner

"'" read lhem ; h~

.nd UII 10 mow .Iong Ihro vi. ""' kine r he futur~ • • w~ll ao

• io ",

"'" Ih.,~ wirh h im .

W~ ""

bonding

rhar i. wh.1 ir mnno lObo. p.n olh iotory.

to lU,vi w l he IfTIOI1lIOUI prnaura ol .he P '~lInl•• nd

Eye co Eye: Bl ack Women, Hatred, and Anger*

WI

doe. rht: pai" &0""""" ;1roa """'

EVU I Bu.c" WOMAN in America liva

Iik lOlll

hen

alo"ll

a wide curve ol .ncin>r and u

x~

.

M y Black wom .n ·"nan 10. mol l~n pond . r th~ Wfl ol

,.

my mDIIt 1\m:eI, guardo>d 1lCMf . I know how much ol my lifeao

~

frr-h

woman il laced .hlOUgh with Ihil ~ ol rage .

It iI an d«tric: thr ead woven inro ~ ~motional raposrry

upon which I

likely to ~p11f.n.,

• fire on lhoc I. ndo<:apo:'. How to " ain th wilh aa;uracy

than o:kny ir hal been one ol W major laokaof my life. Black women .re nor thoc l'tIOI au"" nor lhoc IOUTCl ol

,. rhat pool ol a"&IfT.1 k

lilu arion may be ~n

.norhlf'l" Black woman .t .hoc

momm t . TOen why doIla chat • . p iNt eece Black

If Ih~ leall UCU!'t1 Why do 1

lhoc

nriall ol my life -

a hoi!ine hoi opring

iiI«:

poim .leaping out ol my

~

r her

Orh

Ihil, no "",tt

,.nd

n

".

,.

whar rh~ ptIr1;cul

u nl~lIh i rorlf mDIIt ulli"'y

jI,Idg,c her in. more crit i<:a1lillh. rhan . ny 01 , ba:omi raard when ohocdon
jI,Idg,c her in. more crit i<:a1lillh. rhan
. ny 01
,
ba:omi
raard when ohocdon
nor _
ure upl
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146 Smu. Clvn lD!'

En TO ETI

H7

A nd If br hind tn., objKc ci my .ttack ohou ld lie th~ fa ce' ci

my OWn

,If, unaa:optN, tMn

h.t

CO\lId poaoibly qu~nc h

fi .! 1U~k.:l by SIKh n:ciproc.ri", paooional

I

'7'y

lf

tin "" uoed Ip"'If

do il1ll wh ll l ca

IOOO, aeti

to ,

,mind

you of yout "",.,

,.,

10

1.m who I .m ,

upon 'fOIl h ke. d roll or . c hi""l

dlmlni

.1 diocoYft you In m~lf.

'It'hen I &I.nN to ""';te .bout tM IntensIty ci tM .~

~

twftn Black '<OOrTOm, I found 1had only braun to tOUl:h """ lip

hich

US from d ",

ci • thr~ ~, t he d~t und!ra ruct\l no ci

10' '' HacrN, that "",id.1 <kat h

ish d i,,,,,,eJ

,

Am~,it"1muotl""""nt oi "'" has lain like. barrier acl'Oll dte

," li

tion

01. my own J"O"I'ft'I. II

barrie r ",h ith I bed 10 I'll ­

. mi

"""""Ilia fully .nd '"" I,,,,,ly. II is easier 10 001 "';,h .h e ",erna!

ratiom . nd sexism ,h.n it is 10 do:aI wi'h I'"

. nd dismantle, ~

of

by painful piece, in order to UOC' my

nifcsu,tio

 

e

_

bor n Black .nd f!mak in AIn!'I'M:'. Fl'OfI'l th.1

n:au1 1J oi

InOfl\!n, on

 

e

have bftn 1leq>N in IuIrreJ - for OUr color. for

ociouI

out lU . for OU' dfron'!tY in darina TO ~

righ, 10

'

ouTsi<k ci ,he recognition ci

II

we had .ny ,ha' ha tteJ, pa-d it

Slill Ii"" our llV'!O

how

b.orbed

li~. ~ childr~n

hrough oun!l V'!O, Ind for d", ItlOIt pan, "'

fu nction

ci 11 !'!tUtn

,

t tha, h.treJ .~allyis and

lTudry.nd an~ r in our <k.I ·

Bu,

d \Olt!

d i'lOn lonJ

in .ern. liled 'noIlwr.

,1UC'l.

wilhin

OUr

con·

of ourS!l~a .n d 0

the na' ut e oi,lui, ,

h• • is

nce 10 COIlIt!'Cf with "c h

OIh", on .oy bu e Ihe mast supcrficiallewbl What is lhe oourcc

of

,h.1 ml

,.1

and

dist. nce

in

in

J

~

Black

"""""n?

Inll' with ~ach OIher. For each ci u. br an th~ face t hlt hllnod k••• nd W! haY! each ktrneJ to br . 1 hOlt'" with <T1ldry

,

I do n't

li ke TO tll k .bou .

har~. I don' ,

, m y w l. hed.for dea'h, teen io

member the

li ke TO ,

tII ltC~ll.t ion .nd "'<rN, """

bK.u

W! ha"" survi V!d so much ci i'

Ithln our own Ii

t he eyn 01. ID m.ny

, hite people f rom th~ 'i me' I cou ld see. It

 

I can

""; t~ aboul

Black

wome n's . "iI!t", I mu.e writ~

10'"

« hoed in

-spaptn

.nd movi

nd

holy pictures .nd

ch~

abou t dlo! poisonou. stepIlg! ci hl " eJ .h lt IUds t lult ."iI!t", and

ci t IM, audtv t hai it .pawmd wh~n

".

mftI.

my OWn np!tTations oi

her Black wom ~n, by followin g tM Ihleldo oi my OW n rall! a t

I

"" found t hl' out by sc

,

lini'i

oc

BlKk womanf1<'N back into tit! hatreJ and dnpioal thlt ~m·

broi&:reJ my lif" with fi", Ionc b!fo,

ca

know only th

that hltlN

,n

rnsono for I"" M"""nlngo in ,h!;r

,

I knnr

hen

from, 0. why it 10''' b!ing """peJ upon me. Child,

So ci rou r

child 1 d!cid!d. t hen mun "" ~

thi nll

t

ibly wrong wllh

,hll inapiIN such con

p'

.

~

bus

driV!T didn't look at OIlwr p!Opl! like that. All tbe .hinao my

mother had _tno:'<I In!'- 10 do and "" .h

a""-d .nd don! and bftn mUlt "" '0 blame.

be wilhna 10

lttOV! tht'OUlilh b.1ng afraid to ,"'ha'eV!t lift beyond. If 1look at my lI>OII vulnerable places and K kllOtll'kdF t'" pain I ha"" felt,

,nal•.

, NOlhinll1 Kt:!p' eboce

.rrOWI .hen,

. nd Ih. t leucno .he,r powt"T OYH

I h. d II""" nahl

To

a",h

for powt"T

ithln m~lf "",

"

I m

j I can My hilt"'y tln'- "" UoN 10 fta d,,,, my

,

,mo""

the IOlIrce' of tha, pain from my enemies'

,ia'

comic book. and A moa ' n A ndy , .d io progr . ma. I had no tools

to dilK'Ct ii, no Ian llW'llI' to name it.

tr.ln to Harlem. I dUlch my mother'IIIC'!'V!,

AA

bw.y

~

l mell

Ihe " . in's lu",hing. My mothe< spots .0

.lmos l oeat, pu '",," my little

~per. On d' e ocher,. wom'n In.

IUr h

i,h i•. He< learh"'-i[oy"d

hand p1ucks.t the Ii

,I"" k IUt COl' mcc<. She jerks he< COl' c101lH to her . I k>oI<. 1 do

noI _ ",ha,e-ver <errible ,hlng . he i' -

ro

ing, so I pull my I"""",""i. c1011!t TO me' Ioolr. up l he wom.o.n i, ,llIllt.ring.I

, lwr h Ull'". A nd .uddenly I rea lit< l here is noIhi ng c

nd <hen

mi

lwr.rmo full of . hopping b.p. chrilun

of winler doth

t-.vy.

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i'

e<! body down . O n 0

r

side of me • man ,

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her Il.t< d.opa dov.

,adi"ll'

inlll< me. Her mourh ""';Idtes .ssh!

pull"

w",,", my new blue .nowpan

Il!!i"ll on the

,

~

nd her

n

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probably. roech. But .hr h

communklle<! her horror

$he·.look­

I, muat be ",","hing "" tVbad from ,he

y from ii, too. WIwn I

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c.-t l o rouch. n •• hu dder .nd holds

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t bHwttn u.; II is me" '" dean't _nt

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Bl IC k womI'n gjYl' our chlld

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lhem """,,"hi I""" can uw to fahlon l!>dr own lWW.nd Ie.

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1did l'iOI oilll

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m, 11. 1 IIlk .boul t he be", world ohe ••

il .11. I li

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ilea

J.hidt

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ohe

m, ""ined need to

de<ermll\ed to i'W111<e1" In opll c1.n ohe _

~. knowleJp of Ihll world II """ eI.n

Cln uw 10 ch. n

L il lo: BlICk li rla. l utored by

.nyfhi

n. 1~ 11'110 w.nting . 0 becornr br<:,uw ohe eIIn on ly

" oeerned 10 know _

eIoe. W I WI 00,lf f'YW .1

,bod,

I'I'I'Itct whl'

eIoe exorpl mo

lhat

UN>lcIlCG. W

cou",ed faro

If WI" can

WITI "-nful, or

,Iy.

<II

h leoo, but cenllnly nor whill:, 10

_

l'iOI boys .nd

,.,. han l'iOIbtrc. n~ to our mom

p~ ourwl

e

WI"

learn to

RalII'ition Ind IoOCIp-I

II",,", I

B1

WI n.w come to IllpICI only from OUr momll1ll, .t

,.n .,n be Ible to _

lleh OIM much _

dn rl,

,k

and dnI

,lh

nch orher mU<h _

dinaly.

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hlnk .boul I N h .nh.- I hll " iou

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oh ~n wilhin th~ ~U1

n><:OIJnler br1""ftn B1k k _1'1. Ih~ JU~ nI . nd ' M ,i .inll

up . Ih.1 c

1rJu

l lo COI1nc<:I.

( know 1IOm~,lmn I ftd like II

f ,h

b.ck 11'110 I N web eI my

11

ptOIO'CIioN. I UI

w.

"". lly Wl nted _ Iftll her rip Wall .nd w lire Iwr

' ''11\' buildJ"'.'11If

I wukI hUIllwlp her do it nor

rchl", Wh lll

worked It ou l hoI by hunful hoI _ whir w

ilea

do II for her. nor _Id ohe .u lhat. "'

A

U """hen

!twir da.othren

8I«k """hen

II

hIppmi",

I IIIrnhor fhmo.ch lhe Yl'lI 01 hatred hu

bh­

.n

da

a

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in lhe pMh

len f!>d . morhen

,

bJor.c lheu d-.chl<e1"'L All

8bck IIrlo _ II hawtu'"

\ thTOUllh I wi! ellhreaIeaed iIoIIIlon no (;

of truoI,

pOItus.

ill worlh my Ilk It> di" lll~ "'llh lnol:her Black W<llNIn. Bnt<e1"

.Olmd 00 , juM don~ dnl

10 IlInor~ Ivr. wllhd

", from her ,

w l.h

Nor JUII br<:

w ,h~ i rTlt.,

me, b .n beu

W

mith l dftoroy row wllh ,h~ Cf\M!1 force 01 hoe< ~

1 ~I ll k~ '1'1 I ffronl, no.md y me.

m

Or I mieh' deIuoy br1

wl lh lhe fofu 01 mIne, lor d ", """" II"'"

equ.l.

T'h.r iNn

Or- I u n ,

b e

~mcul.n 01 m, hie

Black woman,

.nJ m uiliply Ihc-m by my TWO c hlkm n.nd.U tht da.,. 01

~lecrl

Black Ii,,", . nd I do ROO fal m bn>noh tht

' _

lal momh I hdd .hUIlher Black

bb

incDnlDl.ohW

dir8llck _Ct.n Mld

n in my .tmI II

whl l fIlI, k woman 10 ROO. orld>r.tion. lik

!ik. rock -

11 11 .ny wondf.r , hal my ~

'l U I", of mywlf Ih~ ~Hort ol .w.~

1<e1".lih

n!i&h"

t

, out IN lllicf.nd dopri\llllOl'l eI her """her', liNlh. H<e1"

IN empI,.- 01 riM! l'I'I'OtlooaI landoaljX

is h,""",~ t>:ow m te­

10 lhat n.nhncM will

l he w•

,;'"

In fron l 01 her _ lIpOkl 0Uf of her moulh from,

nul fuoctlon

In

1M pl

II

I, Iooc

 

_

.-.rd my

place 01 u nlOUCn.hW .lonencM 1n.1 could

ad mll ."""h er

 

Bil<:k WOInlIn clooI '""""'" .,lll<> 1NI11er. "Tbeworld I, di

Wh y do BI

k WOInMl ~

 

,

pll1lcu l

voia:

01 fury Ind

ed into TWO k1ndo of peoplr,"

.nd lhole .ho don't. And I don~ n.Yl' • moeher

WhIt I 1'wIrd her tlVI

uld,"thoie who haYl' moIMn

.ny_

."

lhat no <llher Bl ICk """'1'1 _Id

_

Il'WI _

.-ho one _, Il'WI truoI <II be lTUIIed by Ivr lpin. I

heard In Iwr ay a 1onell

IN KlUI'a of the TOmIInor ~n

d l

ppoInlrrwn l lor I

,h

"'

, wt-.> 11 11 _ muor: drolroy when

lIl<k

n,:h OIher with 1"-1 lOne of p. "hiined Ind 001"

I'O'CI .nnlhilallonl \\'1 ,

h.a

anooher to OUr own Ioweoo

_

common obln<e1"lI. wh" WI" _

lematic wlf. unclaimedbul r

Jrnomlnltor•• nJ

lhen

WI"

p<lCffd

10

~

and

pr0b­

deIIte to 10- and """h, d

u+r

,dId

&om tht other.

· _ n. ·0000

nu. nuel", 1,""la"

cl n.1I wl,h whi<h

d uo ftanh"- II • piIu cl riw .,.

WITI i

t.ted

&om .he lime

WI"t.

.,

I

I

\

160

&nw. Ovnwu

born by

ho

lnfended il 10 be . n Injection d

de. fh. Bur

we o

pled,ln ",wd TO l i ke II in a nd

It ,ullIC run nUcQ. Y.,

11 _"- «1111 In ordn

10 _hM.nd d~ "," ther, _

brulle

ro

,1"", upon dWOIher who

h

t

bue:.w.-one, and now _

Ioea.:-.:.

How do 1alter-

10

Neh Black -.n ',f.:e 1

the f.ced m. modwr Of my killerl

-10

nor

I

, ""'_, .1--1

,

,

IoIlk

:IIO

,

far '-" 1ft 1ft)'

_ "m", """"" •

n

bnaida", t«h "'~~"-

--

001,

*""odw'~Ncla,

"W ,"

"

,

odwr ""

~

,

<Wry rrrrw I

"'" iouo ,

001 ,,,,

""'" Ih.r "

, r>f/ict .1iocIIi1ld 1M M.m.,.;.1

da~ l

w

ID

I\C

"""1IfC1r

Thtft '''' ., mn y oruolont in heh 0( ou r li_ for rith.eoul

IUry, mul'lplled . nd dIYldl

• Black ~

be1

and

I re

wont, but _

told ,h'f we cell be KJmthow hoof '

equal. To N.c.

,

nom. To OIhrr

wonwn. T

• n

,~

.,

" ~f'lII.

1

, ie f om.i nilll

, n.

tht 11 10 II

!

1lIis

Brod,rc

u

l

M, &.cia m

,

beau. nowilll_ "". eN"""

10 dnJ .-l,t. r8dlm wlrhoul N

Bleck undiluted by ar'- colen. Whir

10 IKe thr haMl'onI d

It tIw don nor

N~

10

8110:1",,

n.mine

,

d

nor dnI 'WId. rho. 'ryn aI Black "'Omm . So 1"'1

her _n

opectIk

end

loollhl

_

1.1,. wilt. """"

dirtY ucl,. mnn &.en, .n K~

up ,0

I n.

tinw!

• n

.lcll l ll1""lrl plftil(.ho I thou"', I h.,d handled 00 po_

limd,. a nd well. I d'dn't blow up h ll d. mMd machine. I ex­

pbol nnl how "II ' K Ia! blind """ modo moo fftI and how

CDlJl<J be , h .-l TO h.",

.1_IOn IIp my hou. '00 m, ~

.nl

,oed

h it lilm

H r prob.b ly lnmed

""","hinc lIboullhowl nl m.d, l-.n. l'hrn I Qmr homr.oo

inYit1lnc.n.

ri nat'

10 bI' mlllp"lnled. Nof wori"l ""hewdw r

• A oonvitlfd 8l«k _n • • ronu_

ann.,-Ir.incd lObi'. killrr. -nr

•n.

-

c

r

0I000o _

,

r

, ",- ., _

~

in

ri

'''"'.00 rhi ldrrn,

jou rnel in hiI &.m cdl:

1"""

~ ~_~o-;,

oII

e- "-- Wow.,

En

TO En

161

"I . m

M

I

-.ndoilf1nc

type of prnon you ."" _

lihl., to find drivi"'ll •

In lhor neculh.e o/fIc.,. d 100 biaClOl'pOl"'·

1Iono.' And hr'. rlihl . EItnpI hr·18Ia<k.

Ho.- do

"

I

nd

.eep rn.n "'_"1 our •

,h

1Ho.-

II Ih.rm upon

,.

do I Iter m.,.lffrom rhil poioon

1_

1nM

fIJI,

too

l.d lib. 5InobufJ 100M unrill-

oI.nyrh,

nouNh

rJw b-III eI,

,.,

II.on

,

, •

ilfd

dw

t./r

Utr dw ~

,.

Ib ' b

We etoeh Iamrd 1M

a-n 01d

our woNo

maaion.

II " idIl,," I<nt'* IUllilo-

r

f1ndi,

,h

a1hrr

in.

'rft IooIr. how

k

lm~

itd,fflcuh lO~rucr. ""hd

rvlved

for •

""rounded _I. """"'INi for fillh. Bur not im~bk. We

h.",. Ihn

,-­ "pall rhl. n nh n I betin by •• ",hina for dw riahl

- 1_,,", lIloO<:Id

-.n

. (}ioor

hrn "

,

m,

do I ddlnr

De

Leo n.

For rwo 8*. wornr n 10 r nrn .n

Ime: or Ihrnprutic

rn.l'ionIhip

.nd 1-

~nnl,.

iOUmrr. n.,."

.n _ nlilll, unchInN

no proI~ l>O~

nD ob;ecIi",l, 10;

,hie body d

eJ<I'E.itrw;e a1hrr man

ou

Im n lCt

M I.n d

by whith

n

r.rhr opeci6<:drNmiQ dour

It 81«1< wornrn. Yn Ihil inln oo;rion ~

a1her p-~hic mltfn IItmoIIed pmloundl,. k io

10 lLTUtinue 1"'1 YfI'( imtra"lice\ Ihll I

p

!

inc m,

-'I It Ih

11,• •nd I hi", _

, IhrOUlh ou r limil

IU _

I hi l

1

,.,

OUt

it mnlll pi<:• •

i rin.nd ou r dillfttrQa

our hiltOi'in d Clkullled misrnw .nd

droil• •

8ecI

il

not been done brfore or If kilt not been

with

notfd. rhJo p-nlcul., KTUUn," ~nful . nd

fr

r

f.I. U'tOI.fd by our _I'll BlICk ""lA"En in •

d

wnrr.bilir,

d

llil poychil: """tiniet pi

Id.

'00 BIIC

n

ho

'"

rvlved.

idI d dw pil·

h;qo

_

'This it

lr

",rurin, olrm IIIo:Ie.Itpptd or ( a1l111id", fd "nimpOl'tlnl or

taldt rhe poinl. EXAMf'l.£: I an'! rftI '(OIl ""'*

n.,

.,

nrr i' I .m BlICk or ""hire!" "" ho IO'OUld nrvtr think d

. "Wh, ohouId •

d

wtulE JllY"hwornrn

'" Mid to _

162

SISTU.Ovn'D!"

saying, "Why d.,

it matter if I am ~male or male!" EX.

En TO E

163

III

AMPLE: I don'. know who you are in .upoervillon with, bu . I can bet it'. not with another Black woman.

There h

been 00 much oot h and lou around me recently,

So

this . erTi.ory betw

n

u. f

l.

w

and frightening a.

wirhou'

meta phor or redeem ing . ymbol, t hat oometi

I feel

well

di vidual .acial hi.tori

which each of u. bean the Karl from. And th05e are pa•• ticula. to each of us. Bu, then: is a hisrory which ~ .hare because we are Black wo~n in • rad$t sexi., cauldron, and that mean, oome part of ,hi. journey i. you,", aloo.

I have man y tr oubled a. ea. of .elf rha' will be neither new nor problematic to you a. a trained and capable

psych""rson. 1 think you are a brave woman and I r""pea that, yet I doubt th at your training can ha ve prepared you to explore the tangle of need, ~ar, di.tru.t, despair, and hope which operat"" between U', a"d certainly not to the

of u, is male nor while,

depth roe«I$ary. &cau.e neit her

~ belong to a group of human beIngs that ha' no! been

tnought wort hy of that kind of

ud y. So we have only

urt!"nt, rigged wi,h detonatit\i pi~eoofour own in·

whic h nei . !let of US ch05e bu'

napped into one idiom only - lhal one of oulfering . nd il. codidl, to bear. The same problem exi'15with . nfle1. 1 have pro­ cased too much of il recently, or else the machine ry is .lowi "ll down or becoming leos efficiem, and it creepo into my moot

nu cial interch.angeo.

Perh. po thi. is why il is often e"'ier for Black women to in·

te.aa

often a dead end emotionally. For with white women there is a

ci interaction possible and ,uKain able, an emo­

, Now why is th is nor 00 with Franc"", who i. whi'e, end whom I meet at a depth beyond anyoll<"l Whe n I.""ak of Fra"'"" and me I am ,alking .bout. rel.tion.hip not only of greal depth bu.

even though those imeraetiorn are

wil h while women,

midd le depth tional Iimil to

relatio", hipo of

,If upon

If acknow led ged.

one of greal breadth aloo, a totaling of d itferen= with out me'll' ing. I am aloo "",aking of. love .haped by ou r mUlUal commit·

who we are , with or withou' the couragf' ro use Ihoot

mem to hard wo. k and oonfrontation over many ".,a

,

each of

selv,,"for further explontion and c1arifkation of how what li"" betwttn us a. Black women affects u. and the wor k we

u. refuoing 10 Il<"l"tle for whal wu easy, or . imple, or lKXepta.bly oonvenielll.

do togerher.

That middle depth of rd ation .hip more u.ually

pouib1e be­

Yet if we do not do it here betw

n

u., each one ci \II

rweoen Black and whire women, however, is I"",

th rea'ening

will have ro do ir oomewhe.e dse, lIOffieti~.

I know rhese rhin gs: I do not yer know wha r to do about

them. But I do wam to make Ihem fit toge,her to Il<"l"ve my life and my work, and I don', mean merely in . way th at feels safe. I don'e know how they can further and il· lumina ee you r life .nd work, but I k now t hey c an. It i. lIOffietim"" both .he cu rse and the bl""'i"ll of Ihe poet 10 perceive wilhou' yet being .ble 10order those perceptiorn, and tbae is another name for Cha"". But ci COUrse i' i, our of Chaoo that new world. a.e

th an the tangle of unexplored needs and futi"" th a' face .ny two

Black women who _ k 10 enPi<' each other dir<"Ctly, emo­

tion.lly, no marie< wha'

be. Thit hold. true for office worken and polilical acrivim as

well 1151ove

villio

Again, I am . ""aking hen: of sod.] relarioruhipo, for i. is (!'\Idal thar we exam ine dynamics between women who are not love Ii ~lIa.between women who are.

I a.k my", lf, do I ever u'" my war agoirnt racism to .void

the con' ext of rheir relation . hip may

Bm it is through threadi ng this " "lIle Iha' new

of self and possibility betwttn Black women etRe'll".

bow-

other

even more

unan. werable pain l

And if 00, doeon'r th al

I

look forward to our m~ingeye to eye.

make

Ihe ener llY behind my hanl"" againK raci.m oometimn

A",,"

more tenuou., or I"", d earheaded, or ",bj"cr to un expecled

ppoi"rmentll White people can n eve r truly

01

. nd

di

,

I
I
I
166 s.ru 0uTIuJp En TO En 167 ,v Of cordo", IMm 011 in •• and

166

s.ru 0uTIuJp

En TO En

167

,v

Of cordo", IMm 011 in •• and

habIo poIi'

Wh.c _

illllh 10 ~

IOU&hI Lnn.ed aueky l

No. lher, It bound ""

10 be • YOKe

ri

"'n't

dMI &.k

1

WOITM'n

It 1M

.l"'.ra helped one . noIhcr, pIIr.dox et ou r inner conniel. W,

_ h. ", • Arone .nd .nd,n'

I And 1

tr.dilion d bondl

nd

muru. 1

ppon,

.nd dw n. ,,-u.d

thraJo et IhM Ir.di 'lon ftlo<

d.ur-.r .nd M VJo ·"nluodo" eJ by ~If"""tc.

llhi n each 01

'I'Iwoo ""

u

qNJUI "'"

w

"

~

in OJ"P'*non 10

Jro-o 1 /1

.uec. pw ""

He."

I

-.cI

Ndc

dro

, /«1- •

wwda ha p proyo!.;eJ .M _ prO'

,.

found .nd poIFMnI

",.n.eJ ' 0 (

ai

,l

.nd could IlOl

_

within

,

for

_

hi", J

il h.d """" h.ppened for

,.

Ther,

, _

Black """"" n for ",hom

il h

For Ol M "ol

ua, 1

1

,1*

ofbei

ble 10 dq>

nd

upoa rock bouom

ppon

&om OUr Mal", ItlOlMlhi"ll_ dram .bou •• nd

k

raIi_ d

,

k I "",

d ,

d",

il

I"*ible. bul -*' "ft"I" p obk lNlK

nd

"pic:ion I'i

bt1:.u"'

l

I. """","" 0Yn 1WVi

0IIr

dow_

.,.1

/ira., oho.mcreJ bdund

oddotr:

Of doc bl.anl OUI d OU r "'"" at ft

u

Lool"

up &om bftwu n I h,

kp ai ,

Jo.>.n

,

nowboolo: in It"" middle d,IKtu",. nd I .I moar: lc:.t my "

l hou. hl. lirei

nd

up FO<CT

in lhe "'1""".rJr.", filb", ou l II",

form bc hind d", uncmploynw nc offic:" window , Meppinl OUI et

on d"'.rm ole buoi.-moon

I open lhe

doxw. lo"ld

lVnoua.

l&'hm oN "'•• link IIrl, .~ "'" "'8I'T .boul _h ,l'lI,

My daqhteT

hom Laaoo, '""-Pi", .head 01 "'" into • ti'oop

,ca b i n lhe m ldd lto et Br

inlO

,h

n

,

"'"" for,. oplil tKond ""I, _

", _

.u II", Ii_

f .

1"M

II

""'''' i'lodl'" un;

n&od

Up! MCM, un""meJ.

illli

end pmcrwd forewT. W. ~

oondvee.

find oond_ in bold pli"l fi

"

"'It e nd "","n And ciftllinl" ,Iwre

_,

11

Muffed

wrrh furia,

.'n11 . K h OIlMr, lifTtfi.ed CO n.nunc l hem 1.:1<

ed.nd

meJ

ploftornd au

,

",oolh 'XC

1

l"", to

h.ve

be

­

in.u au' li_

can

ou'

IlIh

oI,•

-.h

b

man,

_

himmn

'I.', can aVDid confroo,• •ion wlIh each odwr "ft"I"

to much

to

"','"

ou

;dUn

rncbly. II doni thM

(nW,,,",,,1 d .

mn

. nd

, ionIlly unk-deJ ir

II to much

co n~

OUr

,n lhow IIIidcfk dq>ch

.d.tionth;~ IIM I do "'" ,h

'f'I el",.,. l ha l h u

tint the

inc "' f

powrc . And

bel.nce Jr."""' '' •• h u ngn tinr

the ruI . hared, tinr the Mo,

",ho

11

II he rd to . I. nd

up i n the ,_h

et

h", dw

iJIcl

e nd Ii '

I"

i

et

n.dcr

,n"',

h. ,,

j

end

. "kk . 11 •

,n

to much haroo 10

",ho mey ~ ouifOl

_kk ~

II", rej«llon et8lM:k

IMy he

,.

nDI d1

Iin m, f.or """"

lOr . who

,

rdeJ m that

mor·

~

by

l he WI" lhey he"" a>rnc IU""

<>Ir.c<I

bt1:

BlKk

dorirown. So ofr"" ,Iua In. 1I

,

,iiI'n

die

.w

ai nWo. rorn~nion.pIiW'II' or

h.

cfrO'f. For

we he

Ito Mn "uaht ,h.1• m.n ICqU,.w "'. ,he-

mu

et~ ••nd yfllh"" .lrnoII ~

()n., Black

Iaolc

hooot oM

n

en&.

1111 .nd

how

IenII,

~

ohc im~

.", .

.norl=. hooot ohc

hno.

The:

fj

,.

n'

• .:.In 'ro

,hIed

"'"

If. SN 10

 

rilll

II", im~bk.SN 1I

-r

'

lhe d

ohcdoeo "'" fully

m

10 bc . SM doeo nor

nI co IItaP tl

 

noI

r

Ac BlKk IMm. u llcclllwm _ "

hU ll eJ IIwm iflla

, lhe lmJ-"t. Bo"I by end

n.

ai

' ''*II

end

m

h

 

beauty . SI'w

;.heo

,he "'her

WCItI&n

1d

, . Sk

h.ve ,",&IIeJ our

100often, buneJ

me odwr

,

".n

ld

NOli

0Il

,.,

011=

, I,, '•• COIMl hem 1riIdI, inco "",.1lI

lhen .nod",.

Bl ack

n . S he hco 0'I'lllUllh ttOUbIo! dNh",

from

raoundod.

Iwr'. l«1 h .nd l hen du c ked to ,YOid

;"" ai IIwm,

which no vibr

_

.vol<l Of"'nftjH

ion

wi lh bc1 nl hnwlf. "'Wh, du n 'l you \c n to n, lIT

oara I"

n."Don~

;

V<IU undonl.nd .hM your

,

poor oho.1", Mra

1

m If I could A, rd orruinl, do.

· '- '

-

loo

I _'- A

·

a.-

bt«

job lhan Nr , c.n~ you put""

,

e

.n- I

1"M "'

Ie

II'"

It . MubI

cculd '"

10 chow "'"

 

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