My Pathway of life (in brevity)

By: S.P.Talukdar, January 8, 2009

We are under the thickest tree of holocaust deviated

from the partisan policy dividing Indian sub-continent
into two major groups Hindu and Muslim creating
vacuums for others in 1947, and since then our living
is an ordeal experience. I am not well disposed to
writing the sketches of my life owing to the fact; I am
now over to the hills being born in 4th January, 1941,
now approaching the final stage of life.

Genealogically, I come down from Range clan (goza) of Chakma

Community in Chittagong Hill Tracts (CHT), now in Bangladesh. My
ancestry comes from the head of Kachalong Mouza (tax zone) called Taluk
and the title Talukdar derived from it. In my mind’s eye, I still can see my
happy child hood days in the house of my maternal grandfather Dr. Madan
Mohon Dewan near Chakma Rajbari, now sub-merged in water of Hydro
Electric Project dam on Karnapuli River at Kaptai.

My father Dr. Promode Bikash Talukdar was inducted in medical corpse of

British Army in the Second World War in the war front Middle East. After
having returned from there he was asked whether he would join in India or
Pakistan. He opted to India, but his mother land fell in Pakistan and we were
segregated from our community. A wave of nostalgia was hitting us often
since then.

My wayward life began with merchant Navy, cursing many countries since
1963, but impelling force in heart remained to meet my blood relations.
Later I joined government Job in State administrative Service in a lofty
mountain State adjoined to CHT, getting breath of space meeting my own
people in distant land. But in the inner recesses of mind the feeling of
thirstiness for knowledge and making mental notes for writing began
piercing me and finally, I gave up service from the post Director Relief and
Rehabilitation on voluntary retirement, Superannuation in 1997, and since
then my abode has been in Guwhati, Assam.

It was the beginning to impart another facet of life and I set off to join
retreats in numerous denominations of Buddhist sects namely Zen, Shin,
Pure land and Theravada and became familiarized with Universal
Buddhism. I followed dialectic method to deplete my misconception and
gradually the shroud of ignorance began drifting away with preciseness of
facts Universal life that is as follows:-

The origin of life in the universe is eternal (Sassata), never ending.

Perishing, like Light and Darkness, Good and Evil, Creation and
Destruction (two forces in nature). In Buddhism two bodies, one material
body and the other subtle body (unnoticeable). After death the gross body
Gets destroyed, but the subtle body enters into a new body and gets a new
name, as explained in Buddhism. In science it is chromosome, DNA. When
conception takes place of a mother, life enters (vayu dhatu-air-power)
through her nose, her mouth or piercing through abdomen. Some believe it
as Atma (atta, heart, prana), an axis straight link (union) with God. Gautama
Buddha did not agree the transfer of atta (atma) living entity. A new life, a
fresh mind arises (name + rupa) from one existence to another as
conditioned by one’s karma, cause and effect. Four noble truths of
Buddhism are anatta.

Gautama Buddha propagated that through pure consciousness of mind one

can peer three period of time past, future and present. One method of
consciousness is called “Vipassana meditation” through one’s body, eye,
ear, nose, language and mind that denoted anatta (non-soul). In the
terrestrial world, achieving emptiness through Jhana (Dhyana) deep
concentration dispelling name and rupa ( material body) ending Dukkha (
suffering, sadness) and no more cause and effect, dependent origination
link that is the final fruits of Buddhism, ultimate bliss and peace.
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