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Illraanano C 61IarOClIOBOM "ryMaHa CBeTe cpncxe uapcxe lIaBpe Xnnaanapa

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Ilpeeoquouu Kcennja 3JIamo Mnporsyti AB,n;aJIOB110 Enl1CKOn Araaacxje (JeBT110)

Ilexiuypa U xopextuypa BlIa,n;l1Ml1p BYKOB110, Anexcannap J1lIlf110

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,U06a cjajae Posreje J1 Cp6J1je Heuaa.aha 6J1JIO je KpaTKO, aJIJ1 AOBOJbHO Aa ce YTBPAJ1 resrers naurea HapOAY, rseronoj UPKBJ1 J1 KYJITYPJ1, na OH Y3paCTe P;O csor MeCTa y sajeAHJ1~J1 napona. Y OHO spesre cy XJ1JIaHAap J1 CBeTOropCKa rrO)l(pTBOBaHOCT Xnnaanapaua 6J11IJ1 HerrOCpeAHJ1 J1CTOqHJ1K J1 yqeCHJ1K re rrOBeCTJ1 J1 Y3paCTalba.

Ilanac je na J1CTOM rryTy saaeurraa,a cseror Case J1 CJ1- MeOHa J13HJ1KJIa jenaa caspewena J1 6YAyhHOCTJ1 nocseheaa XJ1JIaHAapCKa YCTaHOBa y oTaI,16J1HJ1, ,,3aAY)l(6J1Ha Cseror MaHaCTJ1pa X11JIaHAapa". Iben 3aAaTaK je na aacrojn Aa y naurexr BpeMeHY J1 npen OQ11Ma CBeTa OBarrJIOT11 ABe najsehe 3arrOBeCT11: fby6u Iocaoqa Boia ceojeia CBUM cpuei« CBOjUM ••• 11 fby6u 6JluJlC1-befa ceoia xao cauoia ce6e (MT 22,37-39).

Krsnre xoje ce nojaarsyjy npen HallI11M QJ1TaOQ11Ma jenaa cy OA rrJIOAOBa AeJIaTHOCTJ1 X11JIaHp;apCKe 3aAY)l(611He. Ynosnaaajyha caspenenor QOBeKa ca 60raTJ1M J1 crraCOHOCH11M AYXOBHJ1M HaCJIe1)eM U;pKBe, 3aAY)l(611Ha Kp03 caoje 6116JIJ1- OTeKe otijaszsyje AeJIa rrpaBOCJIaBH11X ayTopa, on CBeT11X OTana AO caBpeMeH11X 60rOClIOBa, AYXOBH11Ka 11 nncana.

Taxo X11JIaHAap Kp03 CBOjy oTaI,1611HCKY 3aAY)l(6J1HY HaCTaBJba csoje rrp11cycTBO y AYXOBHOM 11 KylITypHOM rrpOCTOpy MaTMI1,e, HerrpeKMHyTMM rrMcaHMM TparoM, 3arrOQeTJfM zreJIOM Jf cnOBOM cseror Case Cpncxor,

J1rYMaH MaHaCTJ1pa Xanaanapa ApXJ1MaHAP11T Mojcnje

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Y IIETAK llIECTE HEAEJbE BEJIJ1KOf IIOCTA, J1HOKEHTJ1JA, APXJ1EIIJ1CKOIIA XEPCOHCKOf

J(YUleKopUCHY ca8PUlU8U1U qempgecemHUl-lY, U ceeiuy cegMUl-lY cuipaqatea 'teota, MOllUMO ga 8UgUMO, q08eKOJbYUtte, U UpOClla8UMO Y teo] 8ellUttUHY Teojy, U HeU3pel-lU80 gello Jby6a8u Teo]e, [equoqyUlHO eauujyhu: Tocuoqe, cnaea Te6u.

AaH aa ,n;aHOM, He,n;elba sa He,n;elbOM, W eBO, npOIIIJIa je rOTOBO qWTaBa CBeTa Herpnecernaua, Ma,n;a je, ca ,n;pyre CTpaHe, 360r HeHaBWKHYTOCTW na Y3,n;p)f(albe W nocr, OHa MO)f(,n;a ,n;eJIOBaJIa 6eCKOHa'IHO. IIoCT rpaje JOIll jenny nenelby: aJIW TW ,n;aHW He npnnanajy Herpnecernana, Ben WMajy nocetiaa saasaj, 6y,n;ynw na cy nocsehena cehaisy na cTpa,n;alba Iocnomsa. OHW cy xao KynOJIa W KpCT na xpaMy. 360r rora casra CBeTa U;pKBa aanpxcasa HaIllY na)f(lbY aa nanaunsesr ,n;aHY, smue nyn o6jaBlbyjynw: "AYIlleKopwcHY caBPIllWBIllW Herpnecernauyl" OHa TaKO nOCTyna KaKO 6w ce MW, nomasura no xpaja Herpzrecernxue, caopamr y MWCJIWMa W pa3MOTpWJIW na JIW CMO ,n;OCTWfJIW I..\Wlb cseror nOCTa? Jep Moryne je W MHoro nocejarn, a He nozosera HWIllTa; MOry ce yrrorpeoara MHom JIeKOBW, MO)f(e ce xax norpoumTW, xao IllTO xazce Iesaaherse 0 KPBOTOqWBOj )f(eHW, qHTaBO WMalbe na nexape, a He W3JIeqWTW ceo

AaKJIe, urra je cana ca aasra, TO jeer, ca HaIllOM ,n;YIllOM W caseurhyi Ocehasro JIW y ce6w HeKY 6JIarOTBopHY nposreayi MO)f(eMO JIW ca HeBeCTOM, xoja je onacaaa y Ilecax nan neCMaMa, peha: 3uMa upohe, MUHYUle gaJICgu, otuuqoiue, ~8Ujehe ce 8UgU flo sewsu (ITHII 2, ll)? Ax, MW CMO HaBWKJIW na

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J1HoKeHTHje, apXHenHCKOn XepCOHCKH

Eecena y nerax urecre nenen.e BeJIHKOr nocra

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rrpl1pop;y, xoja Hac OKPY)Kyje, Ha3l1BaMO Hepa3YMHOM: ann nornenajre KaKO CBepa3YMHO OHa BpllIl1 CBOjy P;Y)KHOCT 11 otiaan.a CBOj rrocao! CaMO urro ce mme nerrser CYHu;a oxpeHYlIO xa isoj, Tor TpeHYTKa, OHa je no-rena na ce cnnasn, 11 cana je rrOTrrYHO CBYKlIa CBOjy TernKY 3l1MCKY onehy, 06acjana 11 orpejana 3paU;I1Ma nponeha, OP;lIyqHO ce YMl1lIa on 311MCKI1X HeqI1CTOTa, 11 Y rrOTrrYHOCTI1 je MOpy Bpanma CBY BOP;Y xojy je nyronana, 11 cana, csaxor p;aHa, CBe Bl1rne 11 nmue, 113- HOCl1113 CBOjl1X Hep;apa CBe OHO nrro je nperxonne jecean pyxa 3eMlbOpap;HI1Ka rrOBepl1lIa rrOlbl1Ma 11 lhl1BaMa. Ha CBeTlIl1 rrpa3HI1K, cnyna na 3eMlbl1 he ce rrojaBI1TI1 HOBa rrpa3Hl1qHa oneha ozt aenemota 11 nseha. Iope 11 6pe)KYlbU;11 he ce orraCaTI1 panourhy, 11 HOBI1 xop rrnornua he 06jaBl1Tl1 HOBY rreCMY pap;OCTI1 11 61Iarop;apelha Tsopuy npnpone. J.1 HaMa ce, 6paho Moja, on castor noxerxa cseror nocra, MO)KeMO peha, rrpl16lIl1)Kl1lIO p;YXOBHO cyHu;e, Iocnon 11 Cnacnrezs aam: jep U;pKBa He 06jaBlbyje rana 6e3 pasnora peQI1 arrocrona: lep HaM je caga cuaceue 6JluJICe (PUM 13,11). Illra je nax npoaaselIO y HaMa TO rrpl16lIl1)KaBalhe 11 YMHO)KaBalhe CBeTlIOCTI1 11 P;YXOBHe ronnore OKO Hac? .IJ:a lIl1 ce pacrornro y HaMa lIep; HeOCeTlbl1BOr cpuai JeCMO lIl1 ce yMl1lIl1 on rpeXOBHI1X HeQI1CTOTa - CY3aMa nepe 11 noxajaisa? [e lIl1 cnpeana nama nyura, nonyr 3eMlbe, na 113HeCe nnonose lby6aBl1 11 npasnei Cycpehyhn ce ca p;aHOM BacKpcelha Iocnomser, MO)KeMO lIl1 peha p;a 11 MI1 neh HI1CMO MpTBI1 p;YXOM, na 11 MI1, rro tinarop;aTI1 Boxcajoj, I1MaMO MaKap nenah BeQHOr )KI1BOTa? Canarnlhl1 rrOCT je yrrpaBo sa OBO 11 6110 npenonpebea, Iep urra je xrena U;pKBa, nanaxcyha HaM ra? CBaKaKO He TO p;a Hac CaQYBa on ynorperie HeKOlIl1KO jena, I1lIl1 na HaM YCKpaTI1 onpeheaa 3ap;OBOlbCTBa. He, rperiano je p;a rrOCT otiysna Harny

QYlIHOCT, na YKPOTI1, a 3aTl1M 11 YMPTBM Harne CTpaCTI1, na OQI1CTI1 Harne MI1ClIM 11 »cezse, na oClI060p;11 nyx 11 casecr, na rrpooyn» y HaMa Tyry xoja je rro Bory, M cBeTY Qe)KlhY aa He- 6ecKoM oTaI,I6I1HOM, p;a Hac rrpl16lIM)K11 aetiy, OQI1CTI1, rrpoCBeTI1 M OCBeTM QI1TaBO Harne 6Mhe.

Yrrpaso 360r rora ce Herpnecerunua Ha3l1Ba nyurexoPI1CHOM . .IJ:a lIl1 je TaKBa 6MlIa 11 sa Hac? Illra CMO CTeKlIl1 on TOlIl1KOr 6poja QMTalha, MOlII1TBI1, KOlIeHorrpeKlIOlhelha, I1lIl1 rrpe, on Harne I1CrrOBeCTI1 M rrpnxeurha CBeTI1M rajaaxra XpaCTOBI1M? MM aac He MyqMMO, rrorrYT CypOBI1X HacTojHI1Ka, 6paho Moja, pap;11 nnonosa nocra, Hero xao lIeKapl1, pap;11 Barner notipa, xohexo na BaM CKpeHeMO rra)KlhY aa eras-e saurer cpu;a 11 nynre. Iep lIaKO ce MO)Ke p;OrOp;I1TI1 na HeKI1, -rax 11 )KelIehl1 cnaceise csoje nynre, HI1CY YMelIl1 na I1CKOPI1- CTe BelIl1KOrrOCHI1 nonsar, To ce noraha, na rrpl1Mep, aKO ce y BpeMe nocra orpana-raaajy casro na Y3p;p)Kalhe on xpaHe 11 nnha, I1lIM caao na amne I1lIl1 Malhe pep;OBHO onnaacerse y U;pKBy, I1lIl1 casro na nospumo I1CrrOBep;alhe CBOjl1X rpeXOBa rrpep; CBernTeHI1KOM, I1lIl1 na ncnpaanaa,e HeKaKBMX He6I1THI1X Hep;OCTaTaKa y CBOM nonauraisy 11 )KI1BOTY, rana, xana je pap;11 Harner cnaceisa ncrpeono nanexo nmne - aeonxonaa je nornyaa npoxeaa naunrx rrlIOTCKI1X MI1ClIl1 11 oceharsa, cseueno ofiaoarserse Harner p;yxa 11 cpu;a, I1lIl1, xao nrro xaxce peQ EO)Kl1ja, QMTaBO HOBO poberse onosro. AKO ce HeKO, 6yp;yhl1 Hepa3YMaH, 3aYCTaBl1 na OBOj yxasaaoj nennonHOj rrOBprnHOCTM 6lIarOQernha, raj nexa 3Ha, p;a OH, l1aKO je naxsrnen Ql1Hl10 MHoro, jour Hl1je yql1HMO Hl1rnTa KaKO Tpe- 6a, 11 na je norpeono na ce 113HOBa TPYP;M, 11 na noxae, TaKOpeha, on rroxerxa. To jeer, urra na yqMI-Il1? .IJ:a ce yp;y611 y csoje cpu;e M casecr, 11 na ce yBepl1 p;a 6e3 ocsehersa onosro

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J.1HoKeHTMje, apXMeIIMCKOII XepCOHCKM

y KOpeHY csera liITO qMHM, xax M KOP; OHMX KOjM cy P;06PM, jecre caMolby6lbe, a He CBeTa M MCTMHMTa lby6aB npewa Bory M 6JIM)KlbeM, M na je CBe lllTO M3paCTe M3 Tor xopena HeqMCTO npep; OqMMa BO)KMjMM M mrje P;OCTOjHO UapCTBa He- 6eCKor. IIoTpe6Ho je na YOqM TO, M na MOJIM Iocnona na ra OH caM naaene M3 nnasreaa CTpaCTM M JIOlllMX HaBMKa, M na caM y fbeMY casna qMCTO cpue M nonapn My nyx cxpynren - OHO cpue M3 xojer ce casre no ce6M jaarsajy 3aMCTa p;o6pe MMCJIM M nena - onaj zryx KOjM jep;MHM MO)Ke 6MTM creuaurre 6JIarOp;aTHMX napona M fiopaexurre Ilyxa BO)KMjer y nasra.

AJIM KaKO yqMHMTM CBe TO, ynarahe HeKO, xana je aeh npOlllJIa CBeTa Herpneceraaua M npOlllJIO je BpeMe najnpaKJIap;HMje sa TO? Taxno, BpeMe nOCTa je aajnpaxnanaaje aa OBO Ba)KHO p;eJIO, aJIM p;aHM crpanaisa Iocnomsnx KOjM CJIene, MO)KeMO peha, jour cy npMKJIap;HMjM. Kao lllTO na cpeP;MHM 3eMlbMHe xyrne, aa JIMHMjM paBHop;HeBMQe, MJIM TaKO- 3BaHOM eKBaTOpy, CYHQe caja TaKO CHa)KHO na aa jenaa naa CBe HapaCTe amne Hero KOP; Hac sa aenezsy naaa, TO MCTO MO)KeMO pehn M aa naae crpanaisa XPMCTOBMX KOjM HaCTYnajy. To je nam p;YXOBHM eKBaTop: Ty cy ynepeHM CBM 3paQM nyxosnor CYHQa. Cavo xana, ca name CTpaHe, He 6M M30CTaJIe cyse MCTMHCKor noxajaisa, y jep;HoM qacy M MMHy'ry, ca nauroxr p;YlllOM M CPQeM, Momo 6M ce p;orop;MTM OHO, 3a urra 6M y p;pyro BpeMe 6MJIO nOTpe6HO xexara qMTaBe aenerse M MeceQe.

,D;aKJIe, HMKO na He ry6M aanyl Ila ce non 3HaMelbeM Bepe M KpCTa ca6epy CBM KOjM saocrajyl Ila ce BpaTe na CBOje MeCTO CBM op;6emM! Ha fOJIfOTM je aa CBe sepyjyhe npncTyn, aa CBe KOjM ce xajy - onpourraj, sa CBe KOjM 3aMCTa BOJIe - )KMBOT BeqHM. AMMH.

UPKBEHO-IIOYQHA QJ1TAlhA Y CYEOTY

CBETOr J1 IIPABE,UHOr JIA3APA

CBETor JOBAHA 3J1ATOYCTOr, APXJ1EIU1CK0I1A KOHCTAHTJ1H0I10lbCKOr, EECE,[(A 63.

HA JEBAH1)ElbE CBETOr AI10CT0J1A J1JEBAH1)EJ1J1CTEJOBAHAEOrOCJ10BA*

Jep Meye joiu He 6jeme go mao y ceno, neio 6ujame na OHOMe Mjeemy fgje fa cpeiue Maptua. A Jygejl{U, xoju 6ujaxy ea /bOM ... u galbe (JH 11,30-31).

BeJIJ.1KO je 6JIaro My,n;poJby6Jbe - MJIICJIJIIM aa My,n;pOJby- 6Jbe xoje JIIMaMO (MJII xpJIIIllhaHJII**). Kon aesaatioacaua cy CBe casro peqJII JII rrpJllqe, a H casre re rrpJllqe He ca,n;p)Ke HJIIKaKBO My,n;poJby6Jbe, jep ce CBe y lbJIIMa qJIIHJII pa,n;H CJIaBe. ,[(aKJIe, BeJIJIIKO je 6JIaro My,n;poJby6Jbe; OHO Hac JII osne seh 6oraTo aarpabyje. Taxo he onaj KOjH rrpe3J11pe 6oraTcTBo seh osne 3a,n;o6J11TJII KOPJIICT, jep he ce OCJI060,n;HTH HerroTpe6HJIIX H 6eCKOpJIICHHX 6pHra. Ko rasn CJIaBY, neh osne he rrpJIIMJIITJII Harpa,n;y, jep HHKOMe HJllje po6, Hero je CJIo60- nan JIIMajyhJII JIICTJIIHCKY cnooony, Ko )KeJIJII He6eCKa tinara, seh osne rrpJIIMa rrJIaTY, jep MelbajyhJII CBe nocrojehe HJII aa nrra, JIaKO rro6el)yje CBaKY Tyry. Taxo je, eTO, JII ra zceaa (Mapaja) osne rrpJIIMHJIa Harpa,n;y aa cnoje My,n;poJby6Jbe. Y TO BpeMe, xan cy CBJII ce,n;eJIJII OKO ise - TY)KHJII JII rrJIaqHJII, OHa HHje OqeKJIIBaJIa na he joj noha YqHTeJb JII HJllje oopahana rra)K}bY aa csoje nocrojaacrao, HJIITJII je nOTJIICKHBaJIa Tyry. Oxcanourhene (xceae), rrope,n; ,n;pyrHx CJIa60CTJII, JIIMajy jour

* 110 YKa3Y Tpnona, OBa fiecena ce qMTa aa jyrpeisy /Iaaapeae cyfiore, IIOCJIe gpyre KaTM3Me M 50-Tor IICaJIMa.

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Becena 63. na Iesaaben,e no JOBaHY

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H Ty 601leCT na xcene na Y)KHBajy nourronaise npHcyTHHX. AlIH OHa aaje MMalla HHIlITa on rora, H onor xaca Ka.n; je ':Iylla (na je Iocnon nourao), O.n;Max je OTHllIlIa Hsesry. lep 11cyc JOUl He 6jeUle gOUlao y ceno. OH HHje )KypHO - KaKO 6H 6HlIO oxarnenao na OH cax He )Ky.n;M (na yqHHH) ':Iy.n;o; seh je mnao no lbHXOBOM n03HBy. MlIM jeBaH1)eJIHCT ynpaBO TO xohe na M3pa3H pe-nora: ycaiaqe 6p30 (CT. 29), HlIH OH THMe noxasyje na je (Mapzja) TaKO norpsana na 6H npe.n;yXHTpHJIa Iberos .n;OJIa3aK. Me1)yTHM, OHa He H.n;e casta Hero rrosnasa aa C060M H CBe Iyneje KOjH cy 6HJIH Y xyha, Beoxa pa360pHTO, 3aTO jy je cecrpa H n03BaJIa rajao, He )KellehH na 36ylbyje OHe xojy cy ce Ca6paJIH, H HHje peKlIa 3aIlITO: jep 6M ce MHorM y.n;aJbMJIH, a OBaKO cy nOIliJIH aa lbOM, MHcnehx na je OHa nomna na nnaxe (na rpotiy), MO)K.n;a (jesaa- 1)eJIHcT) H Kp03 TO nOHOBO noraphyje na je Jlasap 3aHCTa yMpO. 11 uage upeg note Hseioee (CT. 32). OHa je 6HlIa BaTpeHHja on caoje cecrpe. Haje ce nocrnnena HM on napona, HH nourer MHIlIJbelba xoje cy MHorH on lbHX HMaJIH 0 XpHCTY, jep (TY) je 6HJIO H MHoro aerrpnjarersa Iberonax, KOjH cy rOBopHlIH: He uoiaiue nu oeaj KOjU OW80pU ouu cnujeuoue y"tUHUWU ga U oeaj He yMpe (CT. 37). Y npHcyCTBy Y':IHTeJba, OHa je ontianana CBe Jby.n;CKO H 6pMHyJIa ce casro 0 TOMe .n;a Y':IHTeJbY YKa)Ke rronrroaaise. M 3aIlITO OHa roaopn: Iocuoge ga cu WU 6uo oeqje, He 6u YMPO MOj 6paw (CT. 32). A IlITa 'fHHH' XpHCTOc? 3aca.n;a joj He rOBopH HHIlITa; xax HH OHO IlITO je peKao rseaoj ceCTpH. Iep Ty je 6HJIO npHcyTHo MHOro Hapo.n;a, H HMje 6HlIO spexre sa TaKBe pe'fH. OH ce casro cMHpyje H caoceha, H KaKO 6H HX YBepHo y CBOjy rsyncxy npHpo.n;y, THXO rrnaxe H onnaace ':Iy.n;o no npaBor TpeHyTKa. Y CTBapH, TO ':Iy.n;o je 6HJIO BeJIHKO, TaKBO, KaKBHX OH HHje

MHoro yqHHHO, H Kp03 rsera je rpeoano na nosepyjy snrora, 3aTo, na OHO He 6H H3rrre.n;aJIO HeBepOBaTHO Hapo.n;y, aKO 6M 6HJIO M3BpIlIeHo 6e3 Ibera, H KaKO, nopen CBe BeJIH':IHHe, He 6M OCTaJIO 6e3 KOPHCTH - XPHCTOC CBOjOM rronaanourhy npHBlIa':lM MHore CBe.n;OKe, KaKO He 6H 6HJIO 6e3 KOPHCTH, H HCTH':Ie y Ce6H OHO IlITO je 6HJIO csojcraeao Iberosoj Jby.n;CKOj npHpo.n;H, TO jeer, nnaxe H Y36y1)eH je: 3aTO IlITO Tyra 06H':IHO yspoxyje nnas. IIoTOM OH 06Y3.n;aBa (bn(lI..l~aac:;) CBOjy Tyry [H3pa3: aotupece ce y gyxy (CT. 33) 3Ha'fH - saysnao je y36y1)elbe] H rnrra: fgje ciue ia MeWHYllU? - KaKO nararse He 6H 6HJIO cjenmseao ca jeuajesr. AlIH 3aIlITO OH mrra! 3aTO IlITO aehe caM na npHCTynH (aaspurersy -ryna), Hero xohe na casna CBe on .n;pyrHX H na yqHHM no lbHxOBOj M01l6H, KaKO 6H YKJIOHHO CBaKO rronospen-e npeMa ':Iy.n;y. PeKOUle My: Iocuoqe: golju ga 8ugUUl. hcycy ygapuUle cy3e (CT. 34,35). BH.n;HIlI JIH na, 'faK HH razta, OH HH'fHM HHje YKa3HBao aa aacxpceise (xoje he yqHHHTH), Hero H.n;e (npessa rpotiy) xao na HeM a HaMepy na (Jlaaapa) BaCKpCHe, seh caxo orrnaxe? A na je 3aHCTa narnenano .n;a je OH KpeHyo ca TOM aasrePOM, TO jeer na 6H onnaxaaao, a He na 6H sacxpcao (JIa3apa), TO noxasyjy Jy.n;ejH KOjH cy 3aTO H rOBOpHJIH: Tne KaKO fa lby6lbaUle. A HeKU og 1bUX pexotue: He ssotatue nu oea] KOjU OW80PU ouu cnujeaosse y"tUHUWU ga U oeaj He yupe? (cT.36,37). Hax H y aecpeha, OHH HMCY OCTaBHJIH CBOjy 3JIO- 6y. AlIH (XpHCTOC) je HMao HaMepy na H3BpIlIH .n;eJIO, jour He06H':IHHje, jep OTepaTH CMpT xoja je seh HaCTaJIa H nopa- 3HlIa (':IOBeKa) nanexo je Ba)KHHje, HerOJIH cnpesxra CMpT xoja HacTyna. Taxo OHM lhera caMHM THM npexopesajy, nOCJIe xera he yCJIe.n;HTH .n;HBJbelbe Iberosoj MohH. ,1];0 Ta.n;a rrpnxaarajy na je OH CJIenOMe OTBOPHO O'fM, aJIH YMecTo na

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Becena 63. aa Iesaahezse 00 JOBaHY

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My ce 360r rora ~MBe, rrOCJIe CMPTJ1 Jlaaapa, OHJ1 xnenehy J1 y Be3J1 C TJ1M 'Iy~OM - na ce HaBO~HO HJ1je ~OrO~J1JIo. YOCTaJIOM, HJ1je casro rro TOMe O'lJ1me~HO na cy CBJ1 OHJ1 6J1JIJ1 J1CKBapeHJ1, Hero M rro TOMe IlITO cy ra OHJ1, jour rrpe Hero IlITO je OH nouiao J1 npojasao (CBOjy CJ1JIY), rrpe~yXJ1TpJ1JIJ1 orrTY)K6aMa, He xexajyha ~a ~OBPIlIJ1 neno. BJ1~MIlI JIJ1 KaKO je fuJ1XOBO pacyhasaa,e 6J1JIO norpeumor

~aKJIe, OH rrpJ1JIa3J1 rpotiy J1 rrOHOBO 06y3~aBa Tyry.

AJIJ1 3allITO jeBaH1)eJIJ1CT, ~OCJIe~HO M sxure nyra, npnsrehyje zta je OH nnaxao J1 na je otiyanasao (CBOjy) ryry? 3aTO na 6M TJ1 saao na je OH 3aJ1CTa ofiyxao HallIY rrpJ1po~y. Ey~yhJ1 na osaj (jeBaH1)eJIMcT), O'lJ1me~HO, BJ111Ie on ~pyrJ1X rOBOpJ1 o Iberosoj BeJIJ1'1J1HJ1, OH J1 0 lherOBJ1M lby~CKJ1M ~eJIJ1Ma OB~e rrpJ1rrOBe~a ~aJIeKO CMJ1peHJ1je. 0 Iberosoj CMPTJ1 HJ1- je peKao HJ111ITa IlITO cy ~pyrJ1 (roBOpJ1JIJ1), xao, na rrpJ1Mep, na je 6J10 )KaJIOCTaH, na je 6J10 y nonsary, Hero (je rOBOpJ10) CaCBJ1M CyrrpOTHO, na rrpJ1Mep, na ce HJ1'1J1~e npenao (BOjHJ1~J1Ma). Taxo je OHO IlITO je J130CTaBJ10 TaMO nonyano OBne, roaopehn 0 rrnaxy, M caM XPJ1CTOC, rosopeha 0 CMPTJ1, xaxce: Bnactu UMaM uonoscuiuu fa (CBOj )KJ1BOT*) (JH 10,18), J1 He rOBOpJ1 HJ111ITa rrOHJ13HO. 360r rora, xana rOB ope 0 lherOBJ1M CTpa~albJ1Ma, jeBaH1)eJIMCTJ1 Ibesry J1 npnmrcyjy MHoro lby~cKor, rroxaayjyhn TJ1Me na je Hseroso osannohefue J1CTJ1HCKO. Taxo Marej YBepaBa y TO, rosopehn 0 HierOBJ1M rrpe~CMpTHJ1M MYKaMa, Y36y1)elbY J1 3HOjy, a oaaj (jeBaH1)eJIJ1CT) - rosopeha 0 (Iberonosr) nna-ry. 3aJ1CTa, xana OH He 6J1 J1MaO HallIY rrpJ1po~y, He 6M ra 06Y3J1MaJIa Tyra, J1 TO He je~HoM, Hero nsa rryTa. Ho IlITa 'IJ1HJ1 Hcyci

OH Ce6e, HM HajMalbe, He 6paHJ1 rrpe~ Jy~ejJ1Ma O~ fuJ1XOBJ1X orrTY)K6J1. M 3allITO 6J1 ce pe'lJ1Ma orroBpraBaJIJ1 OHJ1, xoje je rana rpetiano onospnryra CaMJ1M ~eJIOM? Me1)YTJ1M, TO onoapraaarse HJ1je 6J1JIO TaKO MyqHO J1 Momo je 60lbe ~a J1X rrOCTM~J1. Mcyc peue: Cxnouuiue KaMeH! (CT. 39). 3allITO ra OH HJ1je nosnao J1 sacxpcao, ~OK jour HJ1je nourao na TO MeCTO? A HapO'lJ1TO, 3allITO ra OH HJ1je sacxpcao jour ~OK je KaMeH nexcao (na rpotiy)! Oaaj KO je srorao maCOM rrO~J1- hJ1 MpTBO TeJIO M rrOHOBO ra O)KJ1BeTM, raj je CBaKaKO, naneKO naxme, Morao J1CTJ1M TJ1M maCOM nonahn KaMeH. Onaj KO je Morao, CBOjJ1M maCOM, yqJ1HJ1TJ1 na xona HeKO KO je YMoTaH y xapurase, KOMe cy CBe3aHe nore, raj je, MHoro JIaKme, Morao nonaha KaMeH. Illra ja rOBOpJ1M? OH je Morao TO yqJ1HMTM J1 He HaJIa3enJ1 ce aa TOM MeCTy. AJIJ1 3allITO HJ1je TaKO yqJ1HJ10? Saro, na 6J1 fuJ1X caxre yqJ1HJ10 CBe~O~J1- Ma 'Iy~a, na OHJ1 He 6J1 rOBOpJ1JIJ1 OHO, IlITO cy rOBOpJ1JIJ1 0 CJIerrOM: "To je OH, TO HJ1je OH:' Casre fuJ1XOBe PYKe J1 casco fuJ1XOBO rrpJ1CYCTBO na rpooy cy CBe~O'lJ1JIJ1 na je TO OH. Ila OHJ1 HJ1CY ~OIlIJIJ1, rana 6J1, rro CBOj rrpJ1JIJ1~J1, rrOMJ1CJIJ1JIJ1 na BJ1~e rrpMBJ11)efue MJIJ1 jenaor ('IOBeKa*) YMecTo ~pyror. A cana, xana cy ~OIlIJIJ1 na MeCTO (rrorpetiersa Jlasapa) J1 CKMHYJIJ1 KaMeH, J1 xana J1M je pexeno na pa3Be)KY MpTBa~a YMoTaHor y aasoje, J1 xana cy npnjarersx, KOjJ1 cy ra J13HeJIJ1 J13 rporia, rro CaMJ1M 3aBojJ1Ma npenoanann na je TO OH, J1 xa~a cy Ty 6J1JIe casre fuerOBe ceCTpe J1 jenna O~ fuJ1X je peKJIa:

Ben sayqapa, jep je "IeiIlupu gaHa y fpo6y (CT. 39) - cana je CBe TO 6MJIO ~OBOlbHO na 3aTBOpJ1 YCTa He~06poHaMepHJ1M CBe~O~J1Ma. 360r rora J1M rOBOpJ1 na CKJIOHe KaMeH ca rpooa,

* IIpJ.1M. opeB.

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KaKO 6M MM noxasao na he OH BacKpCHYTM 6allI Jlasapa. 360r rora M mrra: Fgje ciue fa MeiItl-lYllU? (CT. 34), KaKO OHM KOjM cy peKJIM: JI,olju ga 6UgUut (CT. 34), M KOjM cy ra ~OBeJIM (~O rpotia), He 6M MomM pehn na je OH BaCKpcao npyrora:

KaKO 6M M mac M pYKe CBe~OqMJIM (0 -ryny) - mac KOjM je pexao: JI,olju ga 6UgUut - pYKe xoje cy O~BaJIMJIe KaMeH M pasaesane sasoje; (KaKO 6M CBe~OqMJIM) M nomen M CJIyx - CJIyx, TaKO IlITO je CJIYllIao mac -riornen, TaKO IlITO je anneo onor KOjM je nsaurao (M3 rpotia), a jenaaxo (6M CBe~OqMo) M lbYX, TaKO IlITO je ocerno CMpa~. Iep (Mapra) je pexna:

Ben sayqapa, jep je ueiuupu gal-la y ipotiy. 3aTo cast, ca pa3- JIOrOM, peKao na 'ra xcena nnje HMIllTa pa3YMeJIa M3 XPMCTOBMX peqM: AKO U yMpe, »cuejehe (CT. 25). Ilornenaj IlITa OHa OB~e rOBopM; (OHa CMaTpa) na je TO ~eJIO (nacxpceise) Ben nesroryhe, jep je rrpOTeKJIO ~OCTa BpeMeHa. J1cTMHa, ~eJIO je 6MJIO neyotirorajeno - BaCKpCHYTM qeTBOpO~HeBHor MPrnaua qMje je TeJIO rrpe~aTO Tpylbelby. (XpMCTOC) je pexao yqeHMU;MMa: JI,a ce CUI-I EOJICuju apocnaeu (CT. 4), yxasyjyha na Ce6e caM ora; a TOj )KeHM xaxce: Buqjeheui Clla6Y EOJICujy (CT.40), MMCJIenM na Oua. BM~MIlI JIM KaKO ce 360r CJIa60CTM CJIYllIaJIau;a pa3JIMqMTO napaxcaaa? OH nonceha Mapry aa CBOj pa3roBop ca lbOM, KaKO 6M je YKOPMO sa TO IlITO OHa He pasyae (Iberose pe-ia), MJIM nax rana HMje »ceneo na 36yrsyje rrpMCYTHe, M 3aTO KpaTKO rOBopM: He pexox llU iItu ga axo ejepyjeiu, euqjeheiu Clla6Y EOJICujy (CT. 40).

,1J;aKJIe, Bepa je BeJIMKO 6JIaro, BeJIMKO 6JIaro M BMHOBHMK MHorMX 6JIara, jep lby~M y MMe DO)KMje Mory naapuraaaTM nena DO)KMja. AKO usuuue ejepe, xazce (XpMCTOC), pehu tietae iopu oeo]: opehu oga6ge iItaMo, u upehu he (MT 17,20); M oner: Ko 6jepyje y Mel-le, qjena xoja ja iIt60puM u 01-1 he

iIt60PUiItU, U eeha og 06UX he iIt60puiItu OH 14,12). A xoja cy TO neha nena, pehn henri ,1J;eJIa xoja cy xacnnje qMHMJIM yqeHMU;M; jep qaK je M Ilerposa cenxa BacKpCHYJIa MpTBau;a. Kp03 TO je, JOIll BMllIe, nponosenana M XpMCTOBa CMJIa. 3aTO IlITO mrje TOJIMKO He06MqHO TO IlITO je OH qMHMO -ryna y TOKY csor )KMBOTa, KOJIMKO TO IlITO cy rro Iberosoj CMPTM, y Iberono MMe, ~pyfM MOrJIM qMHMTM JOIll seha -ryna: TO je 6MO HecYMlbMBM noxas Iberonor nacxpcen,a. YaK M na ce OH CBMMa jaano (rrOCJIe Csor sacxpcen,a), HM TO He 6M rrpo- 6y~MJIO TaKBY Bepy, jep 6M OHM KOjM 6M TO BM~eJIM MomM pehn na je TO 6MJIO npaanhea,e. Mel)YTMM, KO BM~M na ce je~HMM rrOMeHOM Iberosor MMeHa qMHe snaaetsa, ~aJIeKO seha on OHI1X xoja je OH casr qMHMO, ~OK je 6MO Mel)y lby~MMa, raj He MO)Ke na He nonepyje, OCMM aKO mrje xpajrse 6e30cenajaH. ,1J;aKJIe, Bepa je BeJIMKO 6JIaro; oana, xana OHa nornse O~ BaTpeHor cpu;a, O~ BeJIMKe lby6aBM M rrnasrene ~yllIe. OHa Hac qMHM My~paU;MMa; OHa npaxpnaa lby~CKy HMIllTaBHOCT M nanyurrajyhn 3eMalbCKO YMOBalbe 6aBM ce My~polby6lbeM 0 CTBapMMa He6eCKMM; M JOIll BMllIe: OHO IlITO lby~cKa My~pOCT He MO)Ke 3a~06MTM, OHa TO y M30- 6MlbY M rrOCTM)Ke M ocrnapyje. 3HaqM, ~p)KMMO ce Bepe M YMOM aehesro MonM rrOBepOBaTM y nama nena. 360r xera, y CTBapM, He3Ha601lIU;M HMCY MomM HMIllTa CTenM, Ka)KM MM? HMCY JIM OHM 3HaJIM CBY cnorsaunsy My~pOCT? 3allITO OHM HMCY MOrJIM Ha~MaIlIMTM pntiape, M OHe qMjM je 3aHaT rrpaBlbelbe llIaTopa M HeYKe? Hnje JIM 360r rora IlITO cy OHM CBe nperryurraznr CBOM YMOBalbY, a OBM rrocnena,x - aepn? J13 Tor pasnora cy nocnernsa npeaasnuma ITJIaTOHa, ITMTaropy M yornure CBe 3a6JIy~eJIe lby~e, rr06e~MJIM cy yqeHe y aCTpOJIOfMjM, MaTeMaTMU;M, recnerpajn M apMTMeTMU;M, M

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* ITpWM. ITpeB.

y ona] gaH: Iocuoqe, Iocuoqe, HUCMO nu Y iueoje UMe UpOpOKOBallU? ... J1 iUaga tty UM jaeno xasaiuu: HUKag Bac HUcaM snao; uquiue og MeHe BU KOjU uunuiiu: 6e3aK01be (MT7,ZZ-Z3). Y CTBapH, Jby.n;H KOjH cy Herra)KJbHBH rrpeMa caMHMa Ce6H naxo ynanajy y nopoxe, H rrope.n; rora lIITO HMajy rrpaBy Bepy. A Ilasne, y CBOjOj nocnanaun Iespejaaa, OBaKO roBOpH H YBepaBa: Ctuapajiue ce ga uMaiUe MUp ca CBUMa U ceeiuociu, 6e3 xoje HUKO uehe euqetuu Iocuoqa (JeB 12, 14). CBeTHlbOM OH Ha3HBa ~enoMy.n;peHOCT, pa.n;H xoje CBaKOMe Mopa 6HTH .n;OBOJbHa concrneaa »ceaa, H na He rrocpHe ca .n;pyrOM. Iep aKO HeKOMe HHje .n;OBOJbHa concrseaa ()KeHa), raj ce He MO)Ke crracnra, Hero he HeH36e)KHO rrorHHYTH, MaKap HMao xarsane BpnHHa. 3aHcTa, 6ny.n;HHK He MO)Ke yhH y Ilapcrso He6eCKO; a OBO amue HHje HH 6ny.n;, Hero MHoro rope - rrpeJby60'IHHCTBO. Kao lllTO »ceaa xoja je aesaaa aa MY)Ka 'IHHH npersyoy aKO je y Be3H ca .n;pyrHM: HCTO TaKO H My)K Be3aH aa )KeHY 'IHHH npersyoy aKO HMa .n;pyry. A raKaB 'IOBeK aehe nacnemrrn Ilapcrso (He6eCKO), Hero he 6HTH 6a'IeH y an. Cnyuraj nrra 0 TaKBHM Jby.n;HMa rosopa XPHCTOC: llpe 1bUXOB He yuupe, U oiat« ce He iacu (MK9,44). MCTHHa, He nocroja HHKaKBO orrpaB.n;albe sa onora KO, rrope.n; caoje xceae, BplllH aeneno ca npyroa, jep TO je seh HeY3.n;p)Kalbe. AKO ce MHom HO.n; caoje »ceae ysnpscasajy xana HaCTyrrH BpeMe nocra HnH BpeMe MonHTBe, KaKaB onna orais sacnyacyje oaaj KOjH ce 'IaK HH CBOjOM ()KeHOM) He 3a.n;OBOJbaBa Hero je jour y Be3H ca .n;pyrOM! AKO OHOMe KO oTrrycTH H onpexae ce csoje »cene aaje .n;03BOJbeHO na ce rrosezce ca .n;pyrOM, jep je TO - rrpeJby60'IHHCTBO, KaKaB rpex 'IHHH TeK onaj KOjH nopen »cene xojy HMa y CBOM .n;OMy noBO.n;H jour H .n;pyry? Hexa HHKO He .n;03BonH na TaKaB nopox

OHe KOjH cy H3yqHnH CBaKY HayKy, H nocrann cy TonHKO 60JbH on lbHX, KonHKO cy HCTHHCKH H cTBapHH My.n;pa~H 60JbH on Jby.n;H KOjH cy rnyrrH H 6e3yMHH rro rrpHpo.n;H. 3aHCTa, nornenaj: OHH (anocrona) cy pexna na je nyura 6eCMpTna, HnH, jour fiozse, HHCY casro pexnn, Hero cy H YBepHnH y TO; a OHH (npyrn") rrpB06HTHO HHCY 3HanH urra je TO nynra, H xana cy caaaamr, onaojnna cy je on rena, H rrOHOBO cy no-rena na crpanajy pa.n;H Tor neaaarsa. Taxo cy je.n;HH rOBOpHnH na je OHa tiecrezrecaa, .n;pyrH na je OHa Teno H na aajenHO ca TenOM rrporra.n;a. Ha HCTH Ha'IHH, OHH cy rosoprora 0 He6y, na je OHO O.n;YXOBJbeHO H na je OHO Eor; a pntiapa cy yqHnH H YBepaBanH .n;a je OHO TBopeBHHa H neno EO)KHje. Yocranoxr, HeMa HH'Ier He06H'IHOr y TOMe lllTO cy ce He3Ha- 60lll~H PYKOBo.n;HnH YMOBalbHMa, amr OHO lllTO je .n;OCTOjHO cysa je lllTO TO 'IHHe OHH KOjH ce csrarpajy BepHH~HMa, H TH Jby.n;H ce noxasyjy xao .n;YXOBHH. 360r Tora H OHH nanajy y safinyne. Taxo cy, je.n;HH on lbHX, rosopana na snajy Bora xao lllTO OH 3Ha Ce6e casrora, lllTO ce HHje YCy.n;HO na xaxce HHKO, 'IaK HH Me1)y He3Ha60lllQHMa. Ilpyra cy rOBopHnH na Bor He MO)Ke paharn 6eCTpaCHO, H HHCY My naaaznr HHKaKBy Ha.n;Moh y O.n;HOCy aa Jby.n;e. OCTanH cy nax TBp.n;HnH na HH notiap )KHBOT HH noopo nnanarse He noaoce HHKaKBY KOpHCT. AnH mrje can BpeMe na OBO orroBpraBaMO.

A TO na rrpaBa Bepa npahena rrOpO'IHHM )KHBOTOM He .n;OHOCH HIt[KaKBY KOPIt[CT, TO noxaayjy It[ XPIt[CTOC It[ Ilasne, KOjH cy ce, rrpe csera, cTapanlt[ 0 .n;06pOM )KIt[BOTY. Taxo XPIt[CTOC yqlt[: Hehe CBaKU KOjU MU tOBOpU: Iocaoqe, Iocuoqe, yhu y Ilapciueo netiecxo (MT7,Zl); It[ narse: MHOtU he MU pehu

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ocraje y iserosoj nyurn, nexa ra CBaKO wrnqyna W3 KopeHa. (Flpersytio-nman) He speha TonWKO (CBOjy) )KeHY, KonWKO caxrora ce6e. Iep raj rpex je TonWKO Te)KaK W HeonpOCTWB na aKO xcena OCTaBW MY)Ka nporas iseroae sozse, xax W xana je wAononOKnOHWK, Bor je Ka)KlhaBa, a xana OHa OCTaBJ1 npen.yoo-raaua - He xaxosana je. Banmn nw KaKBO je TO 3no? AKO nexa sepyjyha »cena, xazce (I1WCMO), UMa MyJICa neejepyjyhet U OH ce I1PUBOllU ga JlCUBU ca 1-bOM, nexa fa He ociuaen.a (1 Kop 7, l3). AnJ1 sa 6nYAHw~y mrje TaKO peqeHO, Hero KaKO? CBaKU KOjU oUll1yCUlU JlCeHY ceojy, OCUM 360f upemy- 6e, HaBogu je ga t.tUHU I1pelby6y (MT5,32). AKO Kp03 aajenaaxKW )KWBOT (MY)K W xceaa) nocrajy jenao reno, oana W onaj KOjJ1 )KWBW ca 6nYAHw~OM HeW36e)KHO nocraje jenao ca lheHWM TenOM. A KaKO he, rrocne rora, qeCTWTa »cena, xao qnaH Llpxse Xpncrose, npWMWTW TaKBOr MY)Ka? liInw na KOjW naqWH he OHa WMaTW YAeo ca 6nYAHw~oM? liI nornenaj KaKBa OC06WTOCT! Ona xoja )KWBJ1 ca HeBepHWKOM He nocraje HeqWCTa 360r rora: lep ce, pexeno je, neejepyjyhu MyJIC 110cBeUlU JlCeHOM (1 Kop 7, 14). Amr sa 6nYAHw~y Hwje TaKO pexeno, Hero KaKO? Xohy llU gaKlle yseiuu ygoBe Kpuciuoee U og 1-bUX nauunuiiiu ygoBe 611ygHuu,e? (1 Kop6, 15). TaMO ocseherse OCTaje W He 0AY3WMa ce, 6e3 otisnpa na 3ajeAHWqKW )KWBOT ca HeBepHJ1KOM; a OBAe OHO 0Ana3W. 3aWCTa, npelhy60qJ1HCTBO je Te)KaK rpex, Te)KaK rpex W npwnpeMa BeqHY Ka3Hy! OHO W OBAe HaBnaqW tiesripojne aecpehe. 3anpaBO, TaKaB qOBeK 6WBa npJ1Hy1)eH na BOAW Te)KaK W ropaK )KWBOT, W n.erono crarse HWMano anje 60lhe OA craisa Ka)KlheHWKa, KOjW rajHO ynasa y Ty1)W AOM, ca CTpaxOM W BenWKWM rperrerosr, W nnaunr ce jenaaxo CBWX - W p060Ba W cn060AHJ1X. 3aTO sac MonWM, nOTpYAWTe ce na ce ocnorionare OA Te 60neCTW.

AKO He rrocrryurare, He yna3wTe y CBeTa npenaopja. OB~e KOje cy npeKpWBeHe rHOjHWM paHaMa W 3apa)KeHe 60neCTWMa He MOry J1nw aa narny sajenao ca 3ApaBWM OB~aMa; He, Hero rrx je nOTpe6HO OABOjWTW OA CTaAa, AOK ce He J13neqe OA caoje 60neCTw. Ma CMO nocrann YAOBW XPWCTOBW, He MO)KeMO 6WTJ1 W YAOBW 6nYAHw~e! aBO Hwje MeCTO 6nYAa, Hero upxsa: W TW, aKO WMarn YAena ca 6nYAHw~OM, HeMoj CTajarn y ~PKBJ1, na He CKpHaBwrn TO MeCTO. Hax W xana He 6J1 6wno naxna, qaK W xana He 6w 6wno Ka3He, W y TOM cnyxajy, KaKO TW nocne Tor AorOBopa W 6paqHe csehe, nocne re 3aKOHWTe nocrezse, nocne pabarsa neue, nocne raxsor aajennaurrsa - KaKO TW MO)Kern A03BonwTw ce6w na ce npWBe)Kern sa APYry? Kaxo ce He CTwAwrn W He upsenmu? 3ap He snaur na MHorw ocyhyjy sax W OHe xoja AOBOAe cetia Apyry )KeHy nocne CMpTW caoje (npse) »ceae, rraxo je TO neno xoje W He aacnyxcyje Ka3Hy? A TW, jour aa )KWBOTa cnoje xceae, y3WMarn cetia npyryl KaKBo je TeK TO HeY3AP)Kalbe! ,lJ;03Haj urra je pexeao 0 TaKBWM lhYAWMa: Llpe 1-bUX06 He yuupe, rOBOpw XPWCTOC, U oiate ce He iacu (MK 9,44). I1nauIW ce OBe rp030- re! Boj ce OBaKBe Ka3He! Haje TonWKO BenWKO 3aAOBOlhCTBO OBAe, KOnJ1KO je TaMO nezmxa Ka3Ha. AnJ1, na] EO)Ke, na HWKO He 6YAe nOABprHYT raxsoj Ka3HW; naj EO)Ke, na MW, nOAsnaanajyha ce y CBeTOCTW, BWAJ1MO XpWCTa W AOCTwrHeMO otiehaaa 6nara, xojax na ce YAOCTOjWMO CBW MJ1, 6naroAahy W qOBeKolby6lbeM Iocnona Harner liIcyca XpJ1CTa, KOMe ca O~eM, W CBeTwM ,lJ;YXOM, cnasa y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMJ1H.

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CBETor JOBAHA 3JIATOYCTOr, APXMEITMCKOITA KOHCTAHTMHOITOlhCKOr, EECE,lJ;A 64.

HA JEBAH1)ElhE CBETOr AITOCTOJIA

M JEBAH1)EJIMCTE JOBAHA EOrOCJIOBA *

A l1cyc itoqusce ouu iope, U pette: Owe, tinatoqaPUM tau iuiuo CU Me YCllUUlUO! A ja 3Hagox ga Me ceaiqa cllymam; neio pexox ,·tapoga pagu KOjU oeqje ctuoju, ga ejepyjy ga CU Me tuu uocnao. (JH 11,41-42)

KaMefbeM, nporaisajy ra, nacroje na ra y6J1jy J1 Ha3J1Bajy ra 6oroxynHJ1KOM. Tana, xana ce OH npencranrsa xao paBaH Bory, OHJ1 Ka)I{Y: Oeaj XyllU (MK 2,7; JH 10,33,36), a xana je pexao: Oupauuuajy UtU ce ipujecu (MK 2,9), Ha3J1Bajy ra '-IaK J1 ,n;eMOHJ130BaHJ1M, J1CTO xao J1 oana xana je pexao ,n;a OHJ1 KOjJ1 cnyurajy IDerOBY pe'-l nehe yMpeTJ1 OH 8,51). MCTO TaKO, OHJ1 ra nanyurrajy, xana je pexao: Oiuau ]« y uenu, u ja y 1VeMy OH 10,38), J1 caonaacn.asajy ce xana sa Ce6e xaxce na je CJ1- urao ca neoa, AKO OHJ1 HJ1CY MOrnJ1 na nonaecy TaKBe pexa '-IaK HJ1 xana J1X je narosapao y peTKJ1M npJ1nJ1KaMa, CJ1rypHO 6J1 ce jour Mafbe J1HTepeCOBanJ1 aa Ibera aKO 6J1 Hseroaa nopYKa YBeK 6J1na Y3BJ1llleHa J1 CBa cacrasrsena on TaKBJ1X pe'-lJ1. MeI)YTJ1M, xana OH xaace: Kaxo Me Hayt-tu Oucai; MOj OHaKO iOBOPUM OH 8,28), xao J1: CaM og ce6e HUcaM gOUiao OH 7,28), rana OHJ1 sepyjy: J1 TO ynpaBo rana, lllTO ce BJ1,n;J1 J13 pe'-lJ1 jesaahemrcre KOjJ1 nOMJ1lbyhJ1 TO xazce: Kag OH OBO ioeopaiue, MHOiu uoejepoeaiue y »eia OH 8,30). Ilaxne, aKO cy pe'-lJ1 0 nOHJ13HOCTJ1 npJ1Bna'-lJ1ne BepJ1, a Y3BJ1llleHe pe'-lJ1 onaajane on a,e, HJ1je nJ1 xpajrse 6e3YMHO He MJ1CnJ1TJ1 na je pasnor nOHJ13HOCTJ1 (pexa) TO lllTO cy OHe 6J1ne J13rOBapaHe npeMa cnOC06HOCTJ1Ma cnyuranauai TaKO J1 na ,n;pyroM xrecry, OH je xreo na xaxce aeurro BenJ1KO, ana je sahyrao, YKa3aBlllJ1 na Y3POK rora pe'-lJ1Ma: AllU ga ux He ca611a3HUMO, ugu na Mope u tiauu yguu,y (Mr 17,27). MCTO TO OH '-IJ1- HJ1 J1 osne. 3aTJ1M, xana je peKao: A ja 3Hagox ga Me ceaiqa cnyiuatu, OH je nonao: Heio pexox napoqa pagu xoju oeqje ctuoju, ga Bjepyjy OH 11,42). Iecy nJ1 TO name pe'-lJ1? ,lJ;a nJ1 je TO lby,n;CKO narahaise? ,lJ;aKne, aKO HeKO He 6J1 Morao noaepOBaTJ1 y OHO lllTO je HanJ1CaHO, na cy ce Jy,n;ejJ1 cafirrazosaBanJ1 Y3BJ1llleHJ1M pe'-lJ1Ma, MO)I{e nJ1 OH, xyaura KaKO caM

OHO lllTO caM pexao MHoro nyra TO hy pehn J1 cana - XPJ1CTOC HJ1je TOnJ1KO otipahao na)I{lbY aa conCTBeHO ,n;OCTOjaacrso KOnJ1KO na Hallie cnacerse - J1 HJ1je ce 6pJ1HyO 0 TOMe na xasce neurro BenJ1KO, Hero (ce Tpy,n;J10 na rOBOpJ1) OHO llITO 6J1 Hac Morno ,n;a npJ1Byqe. Saro y IDerOBJ1M pe'-lJ1Ma HeMa MHoro BenJ1KOr J1 Y3BJ1llIeHOr, a J1 OHO lllTO jecre TaKO (peseao), TO je npJ1KpJ1BeHO, arnr CKpOMHor J1 06J1'-1HOr J1Ma BeOMa MHoro. ITOlllTO je OBO nocnena,e smne npasna-noro (IDeMY), OH je xeurhe rOBopJ10 TaKO. Mel)yTJ1M, OH HJ1je YBeK rOBOpJ10 ca caacxohersev, KaKO He 6J1 yspenao 6y,n;yhe (czryuraoue Csor ysersa) - ana ra HJ1je HJ1 J136eraBao, KaKO He 6J1 ca6na3HJ10 ranaunse. lhy,n;J1 KOjJ1 cy ce oczrotio,n;J1nJ1 HJ1CKJ1X cxsaraa,a, MOry J1 J13 jenner BJ1COKOr norsrara CXBaTJ1TJ1 CBe, a OHJ1 KOjJ1 cy YBeK 6J1nJ1 HJ1CKJ1X cxsaraa,a, He 6J1 y nOTnYHOCTJ1 npmnna (XPJ1CTY), aKO He 6J1 '-IeCTO czryuranx CHJ1CXO,n;lbJ1BJ1 rOBOp. CJ1ryPHO saanr na IynejJ1, J1 nocne rora, He ocrajy (ca XPJ1CTOM), Hero ra rahajy

* no YKa3Y Tpaona, OBa 6eceAa ce 'IUTa na jyrpersy Jlasapese cytiore, ITOCJIe npyre KaTU3Me U 50-Tor nCaJIMa.

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XPJ1CTOC CBe~O'IJ1 na je rOBOpJ10 rrOHJ13HO KaKO ce OIm He 6J1 ca61Ia3HJ11IJ1 - MO)Ke 1IJ1 OH J1 nazse MJ1ClIJ1TJ1 na cy IberoBe CKpOMHe pe'IJ1 6J1lIe neno Iberose rrpJ1po~e, a He Hseronor cnacxohen.a! Taxo J1 na ~pyroM MeCTY, xan ce 'Iyo mac O~03ro, OH je peKao: Oeaj inac uuje 6uo scene pagu HO Bac pagu (JH 12,30). Mel)YTJ1M, BelIJ1KJ1 MO)Ke rrOHJ13HO rOBOpJ1- TJ1 0 ce6J1, alIJ1 rrOHJ13HOMe He rrpJ1lIJ1'IJ1 na 0 ce6J1 CBe~O'IJ1 HenITO BelIJ1KO J1 Y3BJ1llIeHo. To ce noraha rro cancxobersy, 360r clIa6oCTJ1 cnymanana, J11IJ1, 6oJhe, (XPJ1CTOC rOBOpJ1 CMJ1peHo) ~a 6J1 yrrYTJ10 na CMJ1peHoYMlbe, na 6J1 YBepJ10 na je OH ooyxao reno KaKO 6J1 HayqJ10 OHe KOjJ1 ra cnyurajy na He rOB ope 0 ce6J1 HJ1IlITa BelIJ1KO; a raxohe J1 360r rora IlITO cy ra HeKJ1, KOjJ1 cy ra ClIyllI all J1 , CMaTpalIJ1 aenpajarezsen Bora, J1 HJ1CY BepOBalIJ1 na je OH nourao on Bora: MJ1ClIJ1lIJ1 cy na he OH yKJ1HyTJ1 3aKOH, 3aBJ1~elIJ1 cy My J1 6J11IJ1 cy My nenpajaren,n, 3aTO IlITO je OH Ha3J1BaO Ce6e paBHJ1M Eory. A xana HeKO, He6J1TaH casr rro ce6J1, rOBOpJ1 0 ce6J1 HellITO BelIJ1KO, 6e3 J1KaKBOr nosona, HJ1 onrosapajyher HJ1 neonrosapajyher, TO MO)Ke 6J1TJ1 caxro 6e3YMlbe, 6eCTJ1~HOCT J1 neorrpOCTJ1Ba ~pCKOCT. ,lJ,aKlIe, 3aIlITO (XPJ1CTOC) rOBOpJ1 rrOHJ1- 3HO, rrpJ1 HeJ13peU;J1BOCTJ1 J1 Y3BJ1llIeHOCTJ1 Csor 6J1ha? KaKO J13 pa31Iora KOjJ1 cy pamrje pe'IeHJ1, TaKO J1 3aTO na ra He 6J1 CMaTpalIJ1 nepohenroa. Taxo ce J1 IIaBlIe, rro CBOj rrpJ1lIJ1U;J1, yrrlIallIJ10 ne-rer ClIJ1'1HOr, rra je 3aTO pexao: lep CBe UOKOpU uog note teeioee (l Kop 15,27). 3aJ1CTa, He'laCHO je 'IaK TO J1 rroMJ1ClIJ1TJ1. AKO je, ca ~pyre crpaae, OH MalbJ1 on Oaora KOjJ1 ra je pO~J10, J1 ~pyra'IJ1je rrpJ1po~e, a HeKJ1 ra csrarpajy, Mel)YTJ1M, paBHJ1M (Hsesry), 3ap OH He 6J1 yqJ1HJ10 CBe na ra He cxrarpajy TaKBJ1M? AlIJ1 OH 'IJ1HJ1 cyrrpoTHo, rosopeha:

AKO He inBOpUM qjena Ou,a ceojeia, He Bjepyjine MU. (JH 10,37).

MCTO TaKO, J1 OH~a xana xaace: fa caM y Ou,y U otaa« y MeHU OH 14,10), OH HaM yxasyje na je~HaKOCT. OH 6J1 Mopao, CBOM CHarOM, TO na ortosprae, aKO 6J16J10 MaIbJ1 (on Ou;a) J1 HJ1Ka~a He 6J1 rOBOpJ10: fa cau y Ou,y U otua« y MeHU, J11IJ1 jegHo CMO (JH 10,30), J11IJ1: Ko je BuguO scene, BUguO je Ou,a (JH 14,9). Mel)YTJ1M, xana je rOBOpJ10 0 CJ1lIJ1, OH xazce: fa U Oinau, jeqno CMO (JH 10,30), J1 xana je 6J1lIa pex 0 BlIaCTJ1, rrOHOBO je rOBOpJ10: fep «ao uuiu: Ouun; uoqusce MpinBe U OJ/CUBlbaBa, iuaxo U CUH «oje xohe OJ/CU8lbaBa (JH 5,21). AlIJ1 OH TO He 6J1 Morao na 'IJ1HJ1 xana 6J1 6J10 npyra-mje rrpJ1po~e; a 'IaK J1 xan 6J1 Morao, rana OH TO He 6J1 rOBOpJ10, KaKO He 6J1 rroMJ1ClIJ1lIJ1 na cy OHJ1 jenao J1CTO 6J1he. ,lJ,a 1IJ1 3aTO, na ra He 6J1 CMaTpalIJ1 nenpnjarersea Bora, OH 'IeCTO rOBOpJ1 J1 OHO IlITO My HJ1je csojcraeao: rra je 3aTO Mopao (TaKO ~a rrocrvnn) y TOM czryxajy, AlIJ1 OH - J1 pe'lJ1Ma: JI.a CBU UOUlinyjy CUHa xao uuuo UOUlinyjy Oua (JH 5,23), xao J1 pe'IJ1Ma: ",lJ,elIa uauo OH ttUHU J1 ja J1CTO 'IJ1HJ1M" (JH 5,19), J1 TJ1Me IlITO na- 3J1Ba Ce6e nacxpceiseu J1 )KJ1BOTOM (JH 11,25), J1 cnernomhy CBeTa (JH 8, 12) - noxasyje na je paBaH OHOMe KOjJ1 ra je pO~J10, J1 nornphyje narabaisa xoja cy J1MalIJ1 Jy~ejJ1. ,lJ,a 1IJ1 CTe BJ1~elIJ1 KaKO je OH MHoro rOBOpJ10 ~a 6J1 ce 3aIlITJ1TJ10 O~ orrTY)K6J1 na yKJ1~a 3aKoH? A MJ1IlIJhelbe 0 CBOjOj jennaKOCTJ1 ca Ou;eM He orrOBpraBa TOlIJ1KO, Hero ra J1 norsphyje. TaKo J1 OH~a xana cy OHJ1 peKlIJ1: "TJ1 XylIJ1llI, jep ce rrpaBJ11lI na CJ1 Bor" (JH 10,33), OH je TO rrOTBp~J10 yxaayjyhn na jennaxocr nena.

AlIJ1 3aIlITO ja rOBOpJ1M 0 TOMe, IlITO je CJ1H TaKO 'IJ1HJ10 (rOBOpJ10 0 Ce6J1 ca CKPOMHOllIhy), xana je J1 OTaU;, KOjJ1 HJ1je rrpJ1MJ10 reno, 'IJ1HJ10 TO J1CTO? M OH je, paznr cnacersa OHJ1X KOjJ1 cnyiuajy, norrycrno na MHoro rrOHJ13HOr xaxce 0

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Ce6J1. Taxo peql1: Aqaxu; igje CU (Ilocr 3,9), 11: Ila 6UgUM ega llU C6e 1-lUHe, xao iuiuo 6UKa gol)e upeqa Me (IlocT 18,21),11: Caga uosnax ga ce 60jum Boia (IloCT 22, 12), 11: Ilocnytuanu unu He uocnyiuanu Oe33,l1) 11: 0, Kaga 6u UM 6UllO cpue ceaiqa iTlaKo, OBOM HapO,lJ,y (IloH3 5,29), KaO J1: Heua Mel)y tioioeusca iuaxota KaKa6 CU tuu, Iocuoqe (Ilc 86,8) - KaO J1 MHOrM ,lJ,pyrJ1 CJIJ1qHJ1 J13pa3J1 KOjJ1 ce cpehy y CTapOM 3aBeTY, osnraenHO HJ1CY ,lJ,OCTOjHJ1 BeJIJ1qaHCTBa DO)KJ1jer. Taxo je peqeHO J1 o Axasy: Ko lie upeeapuiuu Axa6a (2,lJ,H 18, 19)? 1II xana CTaBlba caxiora Ce6e (Iocnon) J13Ha,lJ, MHOr060)KaqKJ1X tiorosa - ynopehyjyhn ce ca lbJ1Ma. CBe je TO He,lJ,OCTojHO Dora (rro Iberoaoxr DO)KaHcTBY), aJIJ1 je ,lJ,OCTOjHO Ibera y ,lJ,pyrJ1M 0,lJ,HOCJ1Ma; jep OH je TOJIJ1KO QOBeKolby6J1B, na pa,lJ,J1 aanrer cnaceisa aanesrapyje J13pa3e KOjJ1 onrosapajy Hseroaosr ,lJ,0- crojaacrsy. ITa J1 caxo TO je He,lJ,OCTojHo (Dora), IllTO je OH rrocrao QOBeK, IllTO je rrpJ1MJ10 06JIJ1Qje cnyre, IllTO je J13rOBapao rrOHJ13He peQJ1, J1 06JIaQJ10 ce y onehy CMJ1pelba - He,lJ,OCTOjHO, aKO HeKO 6y,lJ,e rnenao na Iberosy BeJIJ1QJ1HY, aJIJ1 je ,lJ,OCTOjHO, aKO rrOMJ1CJIJ1 aa HeJ13pe~J1BO 60raTCTBO Iberosor QOBeKolby6Jba. AJIJ1 nocroja J1 ,lJ,pyrJ1 Y3POK rrOHJ13HOCTJ1 lberOBJ1X peQJ1. KojJ1? Taj IllTO cy Oua J1 3HaJIJ1 J1 J1CrrOBe,lJ,aJIJ1, a Ibera He. 3aTO ce OH QeCTO ofipaha Ouy, jep cy lbera seh J1CrrOBe,lJ,aJIJ1, a OH cast, JOIll xao ,lJ,a HJ1je 6J10 ,lJ,OCTojaH Bepe - He 360r concrsene HeMOhJ1, Hero 360r Hepa3YMHOCTJ1 J1 CJIa60CTJ1 CJIyIllalIa~a. 3aTo ce OH J1 MOJIJ1 J1 rOBOpJ1: 01-le, tinaioqapw« ta« uauo cu Me ycnuuiuo. Iep aKO OH xoje xohe OJfCU6lba6a OH 5,21) J1 O)KJ1BlbaBa J1CTO xao OTa~, rra 3aIllTO ce OH,lJ,a MOJIJ1TBOM otipaha (Ouy)? Ho seh je npeere na rrpJ1CTyrrJ1MO pa3MaTpalbY naaenenor MeCTa. Taga cxnonutue KaMeH igje nescauie MpiTl6au,. A Ucyc uoqusce

01-lU tope, U peue: One, onatoqapu»: iuu uuuo cu Me ycnutuuol A ja 3Hagox ga Me ceaiqa cnytuatu; neio pe«ox Hapoga pagu xoju oeqje ciuoju, ga 6jepyjy ga CU Me ta« aocnao OH 11,41-42). ITJ1TajMo jepernxa: na JIJ1 je MOJIJ1TBOM OH ,lJ,06J10 CJ1JIY J1 BaCKpcao MpTBa~a? KaKO je, OH,lJ,a, QJ1HJ10 ,lJ,pyra Qy,lJ,a 6e3 MOJIJ1TBe, ronopehn, na rrpJ1Mep: "Te6J1 rOBOpJ1M, ,lJ,eMOHe, U3UI)U U3 n.eta" (MK 9, 25), J1: Xoliy, owuctau ce (MK 1,41), xao J1:

Y3e ogap C60j (JH 5,9) J1: Oupauuuajy iTlu ce ipujecu tueoju (MT 9,2) J1 (rosopeha) MOpy: 'EyiTlU, upeciuanu (MK 4,39)? 1II rro QeMY 611 OH 6110 HeIllTO BI1Ille 0,lJ, arrOCTOJIa, aKO J1 CaM QJ1- HJ1 Qy,lJ,a Kp03 MOJIJ1TBy? OCJ1M Tora J1 OHJ1 HJ1CY CBe QJ1HJ1- JIJ1 rro MOJIJ1TBJ1, a QeCTO cy (QJ1HJ1JIJ1 Qy,lJ,a) J1 6e3 MOJIJ1TBe, casro rrpJ13J1BajyhJ1 J1Me lIICYCOBO. AKO je nax Hseroso J1Me J1MaJIO Tommy CJ1JIy, KaKO 6J1 OH,lJ,a Ibexry caaoxe 6J1JIa norpetiaa MOJIJ1TBa? A aKO 6J1 J1 Ibexry 611JIa rrorpetiaa MOJII1- TBa, OH,lJ,a Iberoso J1Me He 611 I1MaJIO CI1JIy. 1II na JIJ1 My je MOJIJ1TBa 6J1JIa norpetiaa xana je CTBapao QOBeKa? HJ1je JIJ1 TaMO BeJIJ1Ka paBHOQaCHOCT? Iep pexeno je: Ila Ha1-lUHUMO 1-l06eKa (IlocT 1,26). 1II nrra 6J1 6J1JIO HeMOhHJ1je (0,lJ, Hsera), aKO 6J1 Ibesry 6J1JIa norpetiaa MOJIJ1TBa? AJIJ1 nornenajxro KaKBa je TO MOJIJ1TBa: Oue, tinaioqapus« iUu uuao cu Me yCllUtuuo. Ko ce J1Ka,lJ,a TaKO MOJIJ10? ITpe Hero IllTO je 6J1JIO urra peKao, xazce: Bnaioqapuu iuu, noxaayjyhn TJ1Me ,lJ,a My HJ1- je norpetiaa MOJIJ1TBa. A ja 3Hagox ga Me ceatqa cllymam. OH HJ1je TO peKao 3aTO IllTO HJ1je Morao caM (BaCKpCHYTJ1 J1a3apa), Hero 3aTO IllTO (OHJ1) J1Majy jemry BOlby. AJIJ1 aaIllTO je OH yonurre J1MaO naraen MOJIJ1TBeHJ1Ka? ITo cnyuraj, He MeHe, Hero Ibera casrora; a OH xaxce: Hapoga pagu KOjU oeqje ciuoju, ga 6jepyjy ga CU Me tau uocnao. HJ1je peKao:

Ila 6jepyjy, na caM ja MalbJ1 (0,lJ, Te6e), na je MeHJ1 rrorpetina

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nosroh onosro, na 6e3 MOJU1TBe He Mory y'U1HMTM (xyno), Hero: Ila CU Me tuu uocnao. A MonMTBa, MeI)YTMM, 3HaqM CBe TO, aKO je 6y~eMo jenaocrasuo CXBaTMnM. Hnje peKao: "TM CM Me nocnao nexrohnor; ynosaaror ca ponCTBOM, KOjM HMnrra He qMHM conCTBeHOM cMnoM:' Hero, OCTaBMBIllM CBe TO, KaKO TM He 6M nosonuzsao na je MCTMHCKM nOBO~ MonMTBe HeIllTO CnMqHO, HaBO~M, ynpaBo OBO: ,,)J;a Me He 6M CMarpamr nenpajarersea Dora; na He 6M rOBopMnM na ja HMcaM on Dora, KaKO 6M noxaaao ~a ce TO neno (nacxpceise JIa3apa) naapnraaa no TBOjOj BOlbM. AKO 6MX ja 6MO nerrpnjaren, Dora" - xana 6M OH TaKO ronopno - "TO (qy~o) ce OH~a He 6M noromoro" A M3pa3: tluuo cu Me YCllumuo, KOPMCTM ce M aa npajarezse, M aa paBHOqaCHe. A ja snaqox ga Me ceaiga cllymam. To jeer, ,,~a 6M ce naspunora Moja son-a, sa TO MeHM HMje norperina MonMTBa, Hero (ja TO rOBopMM), na 6M YBepMO (npyre) ~a TM M ja MMaMO jemry son-y" A 360r xera ce MonMIll? 360r nexiohaax M Hepa3yMHMx. J1 060 pexaetuu, 6UKHY iPOMKUM ina COM (CT. 43). 3aIllTO nax OH HMje pexao: "Y MMe OQa Mora M3al)M nanorse"? 3aIllTO mtje pexao:

"Oqe, BaCKpCHM ra"? 3aIllTO, HanpOTMB, OCTaBMBIllM CBe TO M Y3eBIllM narnen MonMTBeHMKa, OH na neny ncnozsana CBOje caaoanaurhe? J1 TO je neno Iberone npeMy~pocTM - Ha peqMMa M3pa)f(aBa nOHM3HOCT, a na ~enMMa BnaCT. Dy~yhM na (Iyneja) HM sa urra ~pyro HMCY MOfnM ~a ra orrryzce seh cauo aa TO na nnje on Dora, M 6aIll TMMe cy 'rponana Hapo~, 360r rora OH ynpaBo TO (Csoje 60)f(aHCKO nopexno) HapoqMTO BM~lbMBO noxasyje y CBOjMM peqMMa, M TO OHaKO xaKO je o~rOBapano lhMXOBOj cna60CTM. OH je Morao M ~pyraqMje nOKa3aTM carnacnocr (CBOjy ca OQeM), M TO yjenno ca conCTBeHMM nocrojancraoxr, ana napon He 6M Morao na ce

Y3BMCM ~O rora. Ilasape, U3UIJU uauon.e, rOBopM OH (JH 11, 43) - Y cxnany ca OHMM IllTO je panaje peKao: Ilonasu ttac, U eeti je uactuao, Kaga he Mpili6U ttyiliu inac CUHa Boscujeta, u ttY6mu fa oxcuejehe (JH 5,25). )J;a TM He 6M nOMMcnMO na je OH npMMMO cnny O~ ~pyror, OH je Te6M TO yHanpe~ pcxao, a 3aTMM je noxasao caMMM ~enOM. J1 HMje peKao: BaCKpCHM, Hero U3uIJu nauome, otipahajyhn ce MpTBOMe xao )f(MBOMe.

Ill ra ce MO)f(e ynope~MTM ca TaKBOM CMnOM? AnM aKO OH TO He qHHJ-1 conCTBeHOM CMnOM, urra he OH~a BenMKO nOKa3aTM npe~ anocromoaa, KOjM rosope: llltua ineqaiue y Hac, xao ga CMO C60jOM CUllOM UllU il060JICHomhy yttUHUllU ga oeaj xogu? (,Uan3,12). AKO OH, Y cnyxajy na He nenyje conCTBeHOM CMnOM, He nona OHO IllTO cy anocronn ronopamr o ceria, OHM he na HeKM HaqMH 6MTM qaK My~pOlby6MBMjM on Hsera, jep cy o~6aQMnM cnaBy. J1 na ~pyroM MecTY (anoCTonM xaxcy): lbygu, milia iuo «unutaei J1 MU CMO xao U 6U cuptunu lbygu (Ilan 14, 15). 3aTO cy anOCTon11, nOIllTO H11CY H11- nrra q11H11n11 conCTBeHOM C11nOM, TaKO 11 rosopann, KaKO 611 YBep"n" y TO. 3ap OH He 611 onosprao TaKBO M11Illlbelbe o Ce611, aKO 611 anao aa isera, ynpaBo y czrynajy xana He 611 neaosao no concraeaoj C11n11. An11 KO TO MO)f(e yTBp~11T11? Mel)yTMM, XPMCTOC q11HM cynpoTHo, rosopeha: Hapoga pagu KOjU oeqje ciuoju, ga 6jepyjy ga CU Me iuu uocnao; jep aKO 611 BepOBan11 OH~a He 611 611no norpetie aa Mon11TBOM. J1, aKO Mon11TBa H11je y necxnany ca lherOB11M nocrojancrnoxr, 360r xera 611 OH~a OH Hapo~y 113HOC110 Y3POK (Mon11TBe)? 3aIllTO H11je peKao OBaKO: ,,)J;a 11Majy Bepy na caM ja paBaH Te611?" - rpeoano je TO na xaace, npeMa M11IlllbelhY (xoje je nocrojano 0 Ibexry). Kana cy (Iynej«) cYMlhan11 na OH napYIllaBa 3aKOH - OH je, npe Hero IllTO 611 OH11 pexznr 611no

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nrra, M3rOBopMO OBe pe-m: He scucnuiice ga caM qouiao ga YKUHeM 3aKOH (MT 5,17); M Ty norsphyje lhMXOBe cysm,e. J enHOM pesjy: 3allITO cy 6MJIa norpetina TaKBa OKOJIMllialDa M 3arOHeTKe? ~OBOlbHO je 6MJIO pehn: "Ja HMcaM pasaa', M TMMe pellIMTM np06JIeM. 3ap HMje, peha hem, OH rOBopMO: He ga iU60pUM 60lbY C60jy OH6,38). AJIM M TO je (rOBopMO) npMKpMBeHO, npasrepcao lhMXOBOj CJIa60CTM, M M3 MCTor pa3JIOra 360r xor je 6MJIa M MOJIMTBa. AJIM urra 3HaqM: Illiiu: cu Me YCllUUlUO? 3HaqM na y MeHM aexra anurra llITO je rrpOTMBHO Te6M. J1 xao llITO re peqM: Illuio cu Me YCllUUlUO, He yKa3yjy na TO p;a OH HaBop;HO HeMa CMJIY - jep y TOM cnyxajy y XpMCTy He 6M 6l1JIa casro nesroh, Hero M aeaaarse, nourro 611 3HaqMJIO na OH rrpe MOJIMTBe, Oql1rJIep;HO, mrje snao na he ra Bor YCJIMllII1TM; a, aKO Hl1je saao, KaKO je onna Morao peha: MgeM ga fa up06ygUM (CT. 11)? Iep HMje peKao: "J1p;eM na ce rrOMOJIMM Ouy', na 6M ra OH nporiynno - 3aTO llITO, Ka)KeM, 're peql1 He osaasasajy HeMon, Hero jep;HOMI1CJIMje, xao 11 pexa: Ceaiqa Me CllYUlaUi. J1JIM (re pe-ra) rpetia TaKO pa3YMeTM, I1JIM (p;onYCTMTM) na cy OHe pexeae y CKJIap;y ca Ml1llIlbeTheM Iyneja. AKO je nax OH 11 anao, M Hl1je 6110 HeMOhan, jacao je na OH rosopa rrOHl13He pe-nt 360r rora na 611 ce TM, 360r lhMXOBe xpajrse rrOHM3HOCTl1, YBepl10 11, xax 11 HeBOlbHO, rrpnanao na cy OHe 113peQeHe He rrpeMa lherOBOM p;oCTojaHCTBY, Hero rro cnncxohersy. A urra Ka)KY aenpnjarersa I1CTMHe? .Kana je XPI1CTOC peKao: 'YCJIMlliMO CI1 Me', Hl1je rOBOpl10 rro HeMonM cnyuranaua, Hero na 611 noxaaao (CBOjy) nanxoh" AlIl1 TO He 6M 3HaQMlIO nOKa3MBaThe nanMonM, Hero xpaja.e YHM)KaBalhe ce6e, 11 nOKa3MBaThe na OH HI1 no QeMY mrje seha on QOBeKa. Jep TO na ce MOlIM Hl1je csojcrneao Bory, HM OHOMe KO sajenao ca lhl1M cenn na

rrpeCTolIy. BMP;MllI JII1, na ce OH HM 360r xera npyror HMje no-reo MOJIMTM, Ben casto pana lhMXOBor aenepjai Hero rrornenaj KaKO 11 caao neno CBep;OQI1 0 Hieroaoxr casiosnaurhy. OH je BI1KHyO 11 usuhe YMPllU yeujeu OH 11,43-44). A 3aTl1M, p;a TO p;eJIO He 611 M3rJIep;alIO xao 06MaHa QYJIa - jep TO llITO je naaurao HeKO xoje je CBe3aH HMje p;eJIOBaJIO mrurra MaThe QyP;HO on castor aacxpceisa - OH je pexao na ra pa3Be)KY, KaKO 6M OHM, noraxasum ra 11 npaurasunr 6JIl13Y, BMp;eJII1 na je TO - ynpaBo OH. J1 pexe: Ilyctuutae (ra) nexa uge OH 11,41). BMP;MllI JII1 KaKO je OH p;aJIeKO on cyjerel He M3BOP;11 ra, He rr03MBa ra ca C060M, na He 611 HeKOMe p;eJIOBaO xao cyjeraa - TOJII1KO je OH 6110 cxpoxraal Kana je Qyp;o M3Bpureno, jep;HI1 cy ce P;I1BMlIM (Ibesry), a p;pym cy OTl1llIJII1 11 peKJII1 ¢apMcejI1Ma. A ¢apl1cejl1? YMecTo na ce sa-ryne M 3ap;I1Be - noroaapajy ce na ra y6l1jy - Ibera, KOjl1 je sacxpcao MpTBa~a. KaKBo 6e3YMlbe! MI1CJIl1lIl1 cy na npenajy CMpTI1 Onora KOjl1 je rr06e1)I1BaO CMpT y TeJIMMa p;pyrl1x. Illtua ga paquuo? Oeaj 1-t06jeK ~UHU ssnoia snauen« OH 11,47), Ka)KY OHM. [our ra nasneajy QOBeKOM, P;06MBllIl1 TaKBe noxase IberOB or EO)KaHcTBa. llliua ga paquuo? Tpeoano je rroseposaTM, rrOCJIY)KI1TI1 M rrOKlIOHMTM ce (Hsexry), M He CMaTpaTI1 ra Bl1llIe QOBeKOM. AKo fa ociuaeuuo tuaxo, C6U he uoejepoeaiUu y teeia, ua he qohu Puwsanu U ysetuu HaM U sewey U napoq (CT.48). IIlTa TO OHM MI1CJIe na yqMHe? Xohe na y36yHe Hapop;, KaKO I1X, T060)Ke, yrpO)KaBa orraCHOCT 360r cyMThe p;a )KeJIe na nparpaoe BpXOBHy BJIaCT. Y6p30 he, Ka)KY, PMMlbaHI1 Ca3HaTl1 aa Hsera xao rrpep;Bop;HMKa Hapop;a, nocysrisahe y Hac, saysehe M pasopahe aaure rpap;oBe. A 3allITO TO, Ka)KM MM? 3ap je OH rrponosenao npoaene? Hnje 1I11 3anosenao na ce naje nopes xecapyi HMcTe 1I11 ra BI1 XTeJII1

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CBen1 JOBaH 3naTOYCTl1

Becena 64. na Iesaahen,e no JOBaHY

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ytU1HMTM uapesr, a OH ce caxpao? Haje JIM OH BOP;MO CKpOMaH M npoCT )l(MBOT, aexajyha HM P;OM, HM 6MJIO nrra CJIJ1'-IHO? O'IMrJIep;HO, OHM HMCY TaKO rOBOpMJIM 360r onaCHOCTM, Hero M3 3aBMCTM. J1 nopep; rora TO ce p;OrOp;MJIO, Map;a npoTMB lhMXOBMX oxexasaisa: (PMMlbaHM) cy 3aY3eJIM M Hapop; M rpap; - 3aY3eJIM cy ra, HaKOH rora IlITO cy onn Ibera (XpMCTa) y6MJIM. 3aMCTa, Iberosa nena cy 6MJIa M3Hap; CBaKe CYMIDe. Ko je JIe'IMO 60JIeCHe, yqMO BPJIMHCKOM )l(MBOTY M sanosenao nOKopaBaIDe BJIaCTMMa, raj CMryPHO HMje nJIaHMpaO npacaajarse BpXOBHe BJIaCTM, HanpOTMB, MCKopelhMBao je CBaKM noxyuraj ocaajarsa BJIaCTM. "MM", xaacy, ,,3aKlbyqyjeMO OBaKO no paHMjMM (yqMTelbMMa):' AJIM OHM cy yqMJIM no- 6YHM, a OH - cynpoTHO. BMP;MIlI JIM KaKO cy lhMXOBe pe'IM 6MJIe JIa)l(He? 3aMCTa, na JIM je OH rOBopMO neurro CJIM'IHO? ,Il;a JIM je BOP;MO (ca C060M) CTpalliHe IlITMToHollIe? Ila JIM je ByKao P;BOKOJIM~e? HMje JIM, HanpOTMB, Tpa)l(MO nycrmsy? AJIM p;a ce He 6M nOKa3aJIO na rOB ope non yrmtajesr CBOjMX CTpaCTM, OHM TBpp;e na ce cas rpap; HaJIa3M y onaCHOCTM, na sajenaaua npeTe necpehe M na ce OHM nname aa nOCJIep;Mue, Haje TO 6MO Y3POK saurer sapoozseaaurrsa, Hero HacynpOT TOMe - canaunser (on PMMlbaHa), M BaBMJIOHCKOr, M oaor xoje je P;OIlIJIO nOCJIe (BaBMJIOHcKor), aa BpeMe AHTMoxa. Hnje TO - IlITO cy Me!)y sasra 6MJIM lbYP;M KOjM nOIlITyjy Bora, Hero TO - IlITO je Me!)y nasra 6MJIO nenpasenaax, npoTMBHMKa EO)l(MjMX - TO je OHO IlITO nac je yqMHMJIO sapo6lbeHM~MMa. KaKBa 3aBMCT! OHa, xana jep;HoM OCJIenM P;yllIy, He p;03BOJbaBa joj na BMP;M HMIlITa IlITO je nOTpe6HO. Haje JIM (XpMCTOC) yqMO na 6yp;eMo KpOTKM? (Hrrje JIM 3anonenao) - na xana re yp;ape no jep;HoM otipasy - oxpeaem M npyrn? (Hnje JIM caaerosao) BeJIMKop;YIlIHO nonaoureise

yBpep;a M nOKa3MBao BeJIMKY cnpeMHOCT - na rpnrsen.e 3JIa, Ma KOJIMKO p;pyrM 6MJIM cnpeMHM - na 'IMIDeIDe 3JIa? ,Il;a JIM je TO, Ka:lI<J1 MM, caojcrseao OHOMe KO )l(eJIM na OCBOjM BPXOBHY BJIaCT? 3ap mije, HanpOTMB, (CBojcTBeHO) OHOMe KO Je MCKopeIDMBao CBaKM noxyuraj npncaajan,a BJIaCTM.

Ho, xao IlITO caM peKao, 3aBMCT je CTpalliHO 3JIO M nyna je JIM~eMepja. OHa je McnYHMJIa BaCMOHY 6e36pojHMM necpehaaa, On re 60JIeCTM cyp;HM~e cy nyHe OHMX KOjM ce cyne. On IDe nOTM'Ie CTpaCT xa CJIaBM M cTM~aIDy; on tse je anacrorsyfizse M ropnocr. Op;aTJIe cy pa36ojHM~M na nYTeBMMa M nMpaTM na MopMMa. Op;aTJIe cy y6McTBa - no BaCMOHM; Op;aTJIe - nonene aaurer pop;a. KaKBO ron 3JIO na cna- 3MIlI, suaj na je OHO on 3aBMCTM. OHa je npop;PJIa M y ~pKBy. OHa je onasao 6MJIa Y3POK MHOIliTBa 3aJIa. OHa je pOp;MJIa cpetiporsytin,e. Ta 60JIeCT je CBe npeoriparnna M pa3BpaTMJIa MCTMHy. Ilapoeu, pe'IeHO je, ocneumyjy ouu upeMygpux, U xao KOPMUllO na yiuhy, oqepahajy xaptuea (CHp20,29). OHa M CJI060p;He npeTBapa y potiose. 0 rso] MM rOBopMMO CBaxor nana, aJIM 6e3 MKaKBe KOpMCTM. Ilocrajexro ropn on 3BePM, OTMMaMO CMpOTMMa, ororsyjesro ynose, 3aKMp;aMO yHecpeheaaaa, p;op;ajeMo 3JIO na 3JIO. TeUlKO MeHU (rOBopMO je npopox), ueciua U060JICHoIa ca sesoee (MHX 7,2). J1 HaMa je cana BpeMe aa nnaxatse, MJIM, 60lbe, (M MM) CBaKop;HeBHO rperia na rOBopMMO OBe pe'IM. Hehesro HMIlITa nocrahx MOJIMTBaMa, HMIlITa - caaernxsa M HaroBopMMa; 3aTO OCTaje casso nnaxaa,e. Taxo je nocTynMo M XPMCTOC: xana JepyCaJIMMlbaHM, nOCJIe MHorMX Hierosnx casera, HMCY HMIlITa on IDMX MCKOPMCTMJIM - OH je nJIaKaO 360r IDMXOBor CJIenMJIa. Taxo cy nOCTynaJIM M npopoun: TaKO M MM rpetia cana na nocryrnoao. Cana je BpeMe nnasa, cy3a M TyroBaIDa.

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Becena 64. aa Ieaaaherse no JOBaHY

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Ilpaso je BpeMe na H MH Ka)KeMO: 308uiUe napuxaue nexa qohy, U uouonuue UO ejeuuue nexa goljy (Jep9.17). MO)Ke 6HTH na heMo Kp03 TO nocnern y crarse na ce HCQenHMO on OHHX 60neCTH, xoje Kpa~OM rpa,n;e cserne ,n;OMOBe H CTH':ly norsa. Ilpaso je BpeMe sa nnax, ana H BH, xojusra je OTeTO H 3aKHHyTo, Y3MHTe yseurhe y MOM nnaxy, nonajre CBOM nnaqy H Moje cy3e. Hehevo nnaxarn caao panx ce6e caMHX, aero H pa,n;H lbJ1X; HHCY OHH aac ourrernna, Hero cy ce6e norymonr. BH here sa yBpe,n;y ,n;06HTH Ilapcrso netiecxo: a OHH he pana aenpasromor crnuaa,a nocrrern y naxao. 3aTO je 60lbe 6HTH ycxpahea, Hero YCKpahHBaTH. Ilnaxahesro - sa lbHX, anH He lby,n;CKHM nnaxese, Hero (Y3eTHM H3 CBeTor rnrcxra) OHHM KOjHM cy nnaxamr H rrpopOQH. SannaxaMO ropKO ca J1caHjoM, H peQHMO: Teiuxo oHUMa KOjU caciuaen-ajy Kyny c KynoM, U 1bU8Y na 1bU8Y naciuaenajy. ga eett He 6yge MjeciUa U 8U cauu octaanetue y seweu; ... y 8ellUKUM U llujeuujeM nehe 6uiUu HUKOfa (Me 5.8.9). 3arrnaqHMO sajenHO ca HaYMOM, H peQHMO ca lbHM: TemKO OHOMe KOjH rpa,n;H ,n;OM CBOj Y BHCHHy! J1nH jour 60lbe, nnaxahexo pana lbHX OHaKO KaKO je caM XPHCTOC (nnaxao) pana OHHX KOjH cy )KHBenH y TO BpeMe (Jy,n;ejQHMa), rosopeha: TeUlKO 8aMa tiotatuusca. jep ctue Ben UPUMUllU Harpa,n;y CBOjy H yiujexy CBOjy (JIK 6.24)! Taxo, MonHM aac, rrOqHHMO HerrpeCTaHo ,n;a nnasevo H MH; a aKO HHje aenpanaxao, y,n;apHMO ce xax y rpy,n;H 360r 6e36pH)KHOCTH (Harne) 6pahe. Hesrojsro onnaKHBaTH onora KOjH je seh yMpO, Hero onnaxyjero xpanzsaaua, KOpHcTolbyrrQa, cpetipozsymta, onora KOjH Mp3H. Saurro nnaxarn sa OHHMa KOjH cy seh YMpnH, KojHMa (THMe) BHme He MO)KeMO ,n;OHeTH HHKaKBY KOpHCT? I1naqHMO aa OHHMa KO,n; KOjHX je jour Moryha nposreaa. AnH y spexre xana

MH nnaxesro OHH ce MO)K,n;a cMejy? J1 TO je ,n;OCTOjHO cysa, mTO ce OHH cMejy Ha,n; OHHM nan qUM 6H rpetiano TyroBaTH. AKO 6H OHH 6HnH, MaKap Mano, ,n;oTaKHYTH HamHM jeQajHMa, rana 6H rpeoano npecrarn ca nnaxarsesr, y Ha,n;H na lbHXOBO norrpasrsarse. AnH KaKO OHH ocrajy 6e30cehajliH, TaKO heMO H MH HaCTaBHTH na rmaxesro - He casro aa tiorare Hero H sa cpetipozsynue, xopncrozsynue H xpanzsasue. Borarcrno HHje sno: OHO ce MO)Ke ynorpetiarx H na KOPHCT, aKO ra, na rrpHMep, TpomHMO na CHpOMaxe. AnH je sno - CTpaCT xa CTHQalbY; OHa BO,n;H se-nroj Ka3HH. Ilaxne, rrnaqHMO. MO)K,n;a he (on rora) H noha HeKaKBO nonpaszsaise, AKO ce OHH KOjH ynanay (y raj rpex) H He ocnorione (on lbera), oana ce, MO)K,n;a, ,n;pyrH aehe rrOTqHHHTH TOM sny, Hero he ce qYBaTH on isera, AnH, naj BO)Ke, na ce H OHH ocno- 6o,n;e on re 6onecTH, H na ce HHKO on Hac He rrOTqHHH isoj, KaKO 6H ce CBH yztocrojnn« ofiehaaax 6nara, rro 6naro,n;aTH H qOBeKolby6lbY Iocnona Harner J1cyca XpHCTa, KOMe cnaaa y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMHH.

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Cn1XOBW:

Tlnaueiu Mcyce - iflo je ceojciueeuo upupoqu osptunuxa;

OJICUBlbaBaZU CBofa upuiaiuen«: - iflo je CBOjcuieeno EOJICaHcKoj MOnU.

TOMe, OH HarrYIlITa Iopnan M ynyhyje ce y BMTaHMjy. A BMraaaja je ynarsena on Iepycanrora OKO nernaecr cramrja". Y cycpeT TheMY, M3allIJIe cy Jlasapoae cecrpe M peKJIe: "focnone, na CM TM 6MO osne, He 6M yMpO tipar aam, aJIM M cana, aKO je casro Te6M yronao, TM heur ra BacKpcHYTM, jep TM MO)l(elll:' Hcyc samrra Hapop; rne cy ra caXpaHMJIM, ~1 CBM cy ra CMeCTa nOBeJIM xa rpotiy, Kana cy YKJIOHMJIM KaMeH, Mapra xaxce: .Beh 3ayp;apa - jep MMa seh '-IeTMpM nana xaKO je YMPO:' Tana Hcyc, nOMOJIMBIllM ce M npOJIMBIllM cy3e Hap; YMPJIMM, rpOMKMM maCOM y3BMKHy: Ilasape, usahu Hauon.e! M yMpJIM je OP;Max naanrao, M xana cy ra pa3Be3aJIM, ornurao je xyha. OBO nopaacasajyhe -ryno M3a3MBa 3aBMcT y jeapejcxosr Hapop;y, KOjM nocraje OrOp'-leH na XpMCTa. Mel)YTMM, XPMCTOC je, nOHOBO ce KPMjyhM, H36erao onaCHOCT. IIpBocBeIllTeHMU;M cy OP;JIyqMJIM na y6Mjy M Jlasapa, jep cy ce MHorM, BMp;eBIllM rsera, OKpeTaJIM XpMCTy. AJIM Jlaaap, caanaaum aa HaMepy, 6e)l(M na OCTPBO Knnap M ocraje raMO rne ra, xacmrje, anOCTOJIM nocraszsajy sa apxajepeja rpana Knraja. Ilourro je cpehao M 60rolby6MBo nO)l(MBeO TpMnecer ronnna nOCJIe csor aacxpcersa, nOHOBO yMMpe, TaMO 6MBa M caxpalbeH, yqMHMBIllM MHora '-Iyp;eca.

Kaxcy na nOCJIe BacKpcelba HMje jeo HMIllTa OCMM CJIaTxor, M na My je Ilpexacra Marep Boxcaja nOp;apMJIa OMO<Pop, KOjM je HanpaBMJIa CBOjMM pYKaMa. Iberose '{aCHe M CBeTe MOIllTM je npeMyp;pM u;ap JIaB (y 9. BeKY), 360r nexor 60)l(aHCKOr BMl)elba, npeHeo y KOHcTaHTMHonolb, M ca cTpaxonourrosas.ev M nocrojancraosr MX nOJIO)l(MO y xpaM XOjM je carpanno y MMe osor caerrrrezsa, p;eCHO on YJIa3a y xpa».

CMHAKCAP HA JIA3APEBY CYEOTY*

(Onor nana (na JIa3apeBy Cy6OTy) npaaayjesro BacKpcelbe caeror M npasennor npnjaren,a XPMcToBor, Jlaaapa KOjM je '-IeTMpM nana 6MO MpTaB.)

Jlasap je POP;OM 6MO Ieapej, M3 penosa <papMceja M 6MO je CMH, KaKO ce cMaTpa, <papMceja CMMOHa, nOpeKJIOM M3 cena BMTaHMje. Kana je Iocnon nanr Hcyc XPMCTOC apunro CJIY)l(elbe na 3eMlbM, pap;M cnacersa pona naurer, y TO BpeMe, p;pY)l(elbe ca ThMM nosmse M Jlasap. Kaxo je XPMCTOC '-IeCTO pa3roBapao ca CMMOHOM, npe csera yaepasajyhn ra y Csoje nacxpccrse M3 MPTBMX, M CBe xeurhe 60paBMO y a.erOBOM p;OMY, JIa3ap je 3ap;06Mo Iberosy Hapo'-lMTy rsytiaa, aJIM He TOJIMKO HM OH, KOJIMKO iserose nne ceCTpe - Mapr'a M Mapaja, Mel)YTMM, xana ce npM6JIM)I(MJIO cnaCOHOCHO crpanaise, M xana je rpetiano nornynaje YTBPp;MTM Bepy y TajHy BaCKpcelba, Hcyc ce HaJIa3MO npexo Iopnaaa, rne je pamrje BaCKpcao M3 MpTBMX Iaaposy xhep M yP;OBM'-IMHor CMHa. Iberos npajarezs nax JIa3ap, nopaacen renrxoxr 60JIeurhy, yMpO je. Hcyc KOjM HMje 6MO TaMO, xazce yqeHMU;MMa:

Ilasap, upujamelb naiu, sacuao je, a MaJIO xacnaje rOBopM:

Ilasap yupuje. Kana cy ra Jlasapeae ceCTpe 06aBeCTMJIe 0

* ITo YKa3Y 6orocny)!(6eHOr YCTaBa, osaj omaKcap ce tuna rrocne ureCTe necxe.

* Crannj J13HOCW OKO 192 MeTapa.

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Cnaaxcap na JIa3apeBY Cy60TY

rropep; npemser 311p;a CBeTOr onrapa. M no nanac TaMO rroql1Bajy n.eroae xacae MOlllTI1, ucrryurrajyhn HeKaKaB He113- pe~I1B MI10MI1PI1C. A npaaaoaaa,e rseroaor BacKpcelba na naaaunsa nan, YCTaHOBJbeHO je 3aTO lllTO cy CBeTI1 11 60roHOCHI1 0~11 nannt, 60Jbe peha, CBeTI1 anocromr, )Kenenl1 zta rrocne o-nnnhersa qeTpp;eCeTOp;HeBHI1M rrOCTOM YKa)KY aa CBeTa crpanaa.a Iocnona naurer Hcyca XpI1CTa, ynpaso OBne CMeCTl1nl1 TO aarnpxponao qyp;o, jep cy, rrpBeHCTBeHO y TOM qyP;y, nanasnna noxerax 11 rroson rrOMaMe [yneja npoTI1B XpI1CTa. Osaj norahaj onacy]e jep;I1HO jeaaahenxcr IoBaH, P;OK ra p;pym jeBaH~enl1CTI1 1130CTaBJbajy, BepOBaTHO 3aTO lllTO je Jlasap jour YBeK 6110 )KI1B (xazt cy OHI1 rnrcana [eaaahezse") 11 CBI1 cy ra BI1p;enl1. Ka)KY na je yrrpaBo 360r rora nanncano 11 ocrano y jenanbezsy, jep p;pyrl1 He nasrre Hl1lllTa 0 6eCrrOqeTHOM poheisy XPI1CTOBOM. Ilocrojana je norpetia na ce yBepl1 na je XPI1CTOC - CI1H BO)Kl1jl1 11 Bor, na je OH BaCKpcao 11 na he 6l1Tl1 BaCKpcelbe MpTBI1X, a yrrpaBO TO ce norsphyje JIa3apOM. Hnurra Jlaaap Hl1je pexao 0 any: MO)Kp;a lbeMY Hl1je 6l1no HI1 naro na BI1P;11 urra je TaMO, a MO)Kp;a My je pexeao na He rOBOpl1 0 OHOMe lllTO je BI1p;eo. Onarne je 11 TO, na ce CBaKI1, TeK yMpnl1 qOBeK, Ha3l1Ba JIa- 3apOM, a norpetiao oneno - JIa3apeBI1M, nperrrocraarsasro, y 3HaK cehaa.a na npaor /laaapa. Kao lllTO je Jlaaap, rro peql1 XPI1CTOBOj, YCTao 11 rrOHOBO O)KI1BeO, TaKO 11 oaaj, l1aKO je yMpO, xana YCTaHe ira nocnemsy rpytiy, )KI1Bene BeqHO.

MOnl1TBaMa npajarersa Tsora Jlaaapa, Xpl1CTe BO)Ke, rrOMl1nyj Hac. AMI1H.

BECE,UA CBETor KMPMJIA, EI1MCKOI1A TYPCKOr, HA UBETHY HE,UElhY*

Beznrxa 11 p;peBHa 6nara, P;I1BHO 11 pap;OCHO orxpaaaise noripor 11 Cl1nHOr 60raTCTBa, Hel1C~prrHI1 p;apOBI1, KOjl1 ce najy 11 OHI1Ma KOjl1 cy 6nl13Y 11 OHI1Ma KOjl1 cy yp;aJbeHI1, I1CKyCHI1 rpanarersa cnasaor 11 BeOMa xacaor p;OMa, 06l1nHl1 11 rrpel1306l1nHl1 OCTa~11 uapcxe Tprre3e, on KOjl1X ce amuraeHI1 xpaae xpaHOM, He OHOM nponanzsnnoj«, Hero OHOM KOja je y BeqHOM )KI1BOTY. Ieaaahencxe peql1, xoje je XPI1CTOC amne rryTa 113peKaO pap;11 cnaceisa qOBeqaHCTBa, jecy xpana aaunrx nyura: Iberos CnaBHI1 11 qaCHI1 P;OM - ~pKBa I1Ma I1CKycHe rpantrrezse: narpnjapxe, MI1TpOrrOnI1Te, ernrcxorre, I1ryMaHe, jepeje 11 CBe ~pKBeHe yql1TeJbe, KOjl1 cy Kp03 Bepy 11 QI1CTOTY nocranx 6nl1)K11 Bory, 11 KOjl1 finaronahy Ilyxa Cserora rrpl1Majy pa3He napose noysasarsa 11 I1C~eJbI1Balba rro Mepl1 napa XPI1CTOBor. 3aTO ce 11 MI1 y60m, Y3l1Majynl1 MpBI1~e OCTaTaKa ca re I1CTe Tprre3e, XpaHI1MO lbl1Ma: jep CBaKI1 p06 xsamr csora rocnonapa, a HaMa je, 6pano, nanac panocr 11 secerse QI1TaBOr csera, 360r npasnaxa KOjl1 nacTyrra, y xojea ce ncrryrsaaajy rrpOpOQKH cnacn 0 saaaersy Xpl1CTa, xoje ce yrrpaBo ocrsapyje.

Cana XPI1CTOC l1p;e 113 BI1TaHl1je y [epycanasr, jaure aa Marap~y, na ce I1CrryHI1 3axapl1jl1HO npopourrso 0 lbeMy:

Pagyj ce MH010, xhepu CuoHCKa; e80 Ilap Ut80j uge K Ute6u,

* IIpHM. npes.

* qHTaHo y cy60TY yaexe, na AaH cseror H rrpaaennor Jlaaapa (BHAH: 36opHHK, 1647, Mocxsa).

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* y CM~CJIy TOBapHe )i(~BOT~lbe (B~A~: E60 Llap iU60j uge iUe6u KpOtuax, u jauie na scatapuuu, U scatapeiuy, MlIagYHtteiUy tuoeapne JlCU60iUutee, MT21.S) (npaa. npes.).

MHlIOCTHlbY H He31I06HBOCT, YA06HO YlIa3H y He6eCKO IlapCTBO; a OHH lllTO 1I0Me rpaa-ume ca npneha jecy OCTalIH JbYAH H rpelllHHU;H, KOjH, pasnajyhn CBOj nyT cKpYllleHHM cpuesr H YMHJbeI-beM nyure, nOCTOM H MOlIHTBaMa, npHlIa3e Bory, KOjH je peKao: fa caM uYUt u UCUtUHa U JlCU60Ut OH 14,6). Cana, OHM KOjH HAY HcnpeA, H OHH KOjH HAY H3a, yaanxyjy:

"OcaHa CHHY ,D,aBHAoBOM, 61IarOClIOBeH KOjH AOlIa3H y HMe Iocnomse!" OHH KOjH HAY ncnpen jecy npopOU;H H anOCTOlIH: OBH npBH cy YHanpeA npopOKOBalIH 0 AOJlaCKY XPHCTOBOM, a OBH ApyrH cy qHTaBOM CBeTY nponoBeAalIH bora KOjH je nourao OA Bora H y Iberoso HMe cy KpCTHlIH napone. OHH KOjH HAY H3a jecy CBeTHTeJbH ca MyqeHHU;HMa: jeAHH ce aa XpHCTa xpa6po 60pe ca jepermnora, H xao aerrpajarezse HX H3rOHe H3 u;pKBe, APYfH cy nOCTpaAaJlH sa HMe XpHCTOBO xax AO KpBH, H cxiarpajyh« CBe sa TpHu;e, HllllIH cy sa I-bHM, KaKO 6H nOCTalIH CYAeOHHU;H Iberosor CTpaAalba. Can cy Y3BHKHBalIH: "OcaHa! TH, CHH bO:>KHjH, OBanJlOTHO CH ce na 3eMJbH na nonaraeur AAaMa, KOjH je rpeXOM nocpHyO; paAH 61IarOClIOBa Tnora, MH hesro ce nOTpYAHTH na qHHHMO A06pa Aella y HMe Iocnomse"

Cana ce noxpenyo ueo Iepycamor pana YlIacKa Iocnoniser: crapnn cy 6p30 nonma na ce nOKJlOHe Hcycy, xao Bory; YCKOPO cy CTHfJlH MlIaAHhH, KaKO 6H ra npoclIaBHlIH 360r -rynecaor sacxpcersa /laaapa, AeqHu;a, xao na cy KpHnara, KpY)luma cy OKO XpHCTa M Y3BMKMBalIa: "OcaHa CMHy ,D,aBMAoBoM! Bnarocnosen KOjM AOlIa3M y MMe Iocnomse! Bor Iocnon jaaa ce naxal" KaKBo oTKpMBaJ-be rajne M w:nyrseise npOpOqKMX cnncal Ilon crapmora ce nonpasyaesajy He3Ha60lllU;M: jep cy OHM nocrojann npe Aspaaxra H Hspaazsa: M 'rana cy ce, 6YAyhM npeneurhena, YAaJbMJlM OA bora,

jauie na scaiapuy (3ax 9,9). Cxsarajyha OBO npopOlllTBO, MM ce BecelIMMO: jep nyure CBeTMX ce aaansajy KhepMMa ropiser Iepycannna, a Marape* - TO cy OHM MHor060lllU;M KOjM cy nOBepOBalIM y XpMCTa, xoje je OH, nocnarsexr anOCTOlIa, oClI060AMO OA nacxaisa 1)aBOlIa. Cana je MHOlllTBO HapOAa naamno y cycpeT Hcycy, AP)l(ehM y pyxaaa nanxrrrne rpaHqMu;e, yxaayjyhn My TMMe noxacr, jep je nossao Jlasapa M3 rpotia M BaCKpcao ra M3 MpTBMX. Ilpennano caenosetse napOAa, KOMe cy nOBepOBalIM He3Ha60lllU;M M npM3HaJlM CMHa Boxorjer y XpMCTy; jep XPMCTOC je qMHMO qYAeca Me1)y JyAejMMa, a He3Ha60lllU;MMa je naposao 61IaroAaT crraceisa: IvAejM cy 06jaBMlIM Xpncra, a He3Ha60lllU;M cy ra npMMMJlM; M3paMJb ce OApeKao OHara KOjM ra je npnasao y BeqHH )l(MBOT, M XPMCTOC je YBeo y Ilapcrso He6eCKO neanatiourue KOjM cy nOBepOBalIM, M sa Iyneje je 6MO nocpayhe M cafina- 3aH, a aa CTpaHu;e 6y1)elbe Kp03 Bepy. Cana cy anOCTOlIM nOlIO)l(MlIM csoje XaJbMHe na Marape M XPMCTOC je ceo aa J-bMX: KaKBa npojana npeClIaBHe rajnel Xpnurhaacxe BplIMHe cy XaJbMHe anocrona, KOjM cy, CBOjMM noy-raaatsesr, OA 61IaroBepHMx JbYAM HaqMHMJlM npecro bO)l(MjM M 06MTalIMnrre CB. ,D,yxa; jep, peqeHO je: Ycenuhy ce y HJUX, U »cuejehy y HJUMa, U 6uny UM Bot, U OHU he 6uUtu MOj Hapog (2 Kop 6,16). Cana HapoA npocTMpe npeA Iocnona csoje XaJbMHe no nyTy, a ApyrM, JloMehM rpaHqMu;e ca npseha, nOlIa)l(Y MX nopeA nyTa. ,D,06ap M npaBM nyr, sa CBeTOBHe BJlaAape M CBe sezraxame, jecre XPMCTOC, KOjMM ce, npocrapyhx no J-beMY

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a cana Bepy noxnaisajy CMHY DQ)KMjeM. Mnannha npencraszsajy CBeqaCHM, p;eBCTBeHM, MOHaWKM qMH, KOjM nenpeCTaHO cnasn XpMCTa M qMHM qyp;a tinaronahy DQ)KMjOM. Ileua ocnnxaaajy CBe xpmnhane, KOjM HMWTa He ncmrryjy o XpMCTY, Hero lbMMe )KMBe M sa Hsera YMMPY, yrryhyjyhn My aasere M MonMTBe. Cana aeronyjy AHa M Kajarpa: CBMMa je panocr M necezse, a lhMMa Tyra M HeMMp, P;OK 6M ce oxexnaano, na CBeUITeHMqKM qMH pacybyje M p;a npOBepM KOP; npopOKa: na nM je onaj XPMCTOC, xojer je JaKOB otiehao CBOjMM CMHOBMMa xana je rosopno: "vb rsora rrneraeaa Iyno, M3anM he Bnaznnca netia M 3eMlbe; OH je nana napomoaa, OH sexce sa qOKOT Marape csoje" (BI1):1I1:IToer49, 10, 11). AnM CBeWTeHM~M ce HMCY cerronr onora; HMCY ce cernna HM ,1J;aBMna, KOjM je OBaKO npopOKOBao: Y yctuussa Malle ge""e U xoja cucajy 1-lUHUUl ce6u X6allY (ITe 8,3); qMTanM cy CO¢OHMjy, He cxsarajyha, a OH je OBaKO nncao: "BecenM ce Iepycanasre, M nopaanaj nyT Dory TBOMe, jep nonasn y ~pKBy CBOjy oaaj KOjM TBOpM qyp;eca M noxaayje aaasrea.a" Hacynpor TOMe, cBeWTeHM~M cy cTBopMnM casea npOTMB P;06pOqMHMTelba, KaKO 6M norytixnx He caxro J1cyca Hero M Jlaaapa. OHM HMcy XTenM, aajenno ca Hapop;OM, na Ka)KY: "BenMKM CM Iocnone, jep je rnac TBOj nOTpecao ancxe p;y6MHe, xan CM ncrprao P;ywy yMpnor M3 YTp06e ana - M nOHOBO je naaurao JIa3ap, cnacea, na 6M )KMBeo:'

Cana ce necenn TBap, jep je ocnotiohena on hasoncxor nenaisa, a BpaTa M nospaua ana norpecna cy ce M p;eMOHCKe cane cy ce Y)KacHyne. Cana rope M 6pp;a rose cnanocr, nonaHe M norsa npMHoce nnonose Dory. OHM KOjM cy rope nesajy, a OHM none jeuajy, Anhen« ce p;MBe, rnenajyhn na 3eMlbM Oaora KOjM je HeBMp;lbMB na He6ecMMa, rnenajyha KaKO

cernr na MarapeTY Onaj KOjM cenn na npeCTony xepYBMMCKOM, rnenajyhn KaKO je OKpY)KeH Hapop;OM Onaj KOjM je Henpncrynaxaa He6ecKMM canasta. Cana neua panocao xsane Onora xora cepa¢MMM, ca CTpaXOM, aenpecrano cnase na BMcMHaMa. Cana y nOBop~M onnaan y Iepycamor - Onaj KOjM je npeMepMO He60 nep;lbMMa M 3eMlbY p;naHoM; yna3M y upxsy - Oaaj xora netieca He Mory cMecTMTM. Cana ce CTapeWMHe MHOr060)KaqKe rnese na Onora KOjM qMHM eemnca qyp;eca; KlhM)KeBHM~M M ¢apMcejM neronyjy na neny xoja ca rpaa-rauaaa Tpqe y cycpeT XpMCTy M yaanxyjy: "OcaHa CMHy ,1J;aBMp;OBOM!" qyp;He nM CTBapM! Kaxo cy OHM KOjM HeroP;yjy 3a60paBMnM OHO WTO cy npopO~M nacaznr 0 XpMCTY? HapaBHO, TO ce noronnno pap;M cnaceisa Hac, He3Ha60)Kaua. Iep, peqeHO je: "MM nehexro CMHOBe Hspanzsese: jaano caM ce OHMMa KOjM Me He Tpa)Ke, M pehn hy lbyp;MMa KOjM HMCY MOjM: lbYP;M MOjM jecre BM:'

Saro, opaho, MM, xao lbYP;M DO)KMjM, rpeoa na npocnaBlbaMO Xpncra, KOjM Hac je aasoneo. Ilpnbare na ce nOKJIOHMMO M npMnap;HeMo lbeMY, MMcneHO uennaajyha npeqMCTe aore Iberose, nonYT 6JIyp;HM~e. Op;YCTaHMMO, nonYT rse, on nOWMX nena: M3nMjMo, xao MMpO na lheroBY rnasy, Hawy Bepy M lby6aB. lhy6aBlbY M3at)MMo, nonYT MHOWTBa Hapop;a, Ibesry y cycpeT; npenoMMMo xao rpaHqM~y men KOjM MMaMO; npoCTpMMO npen Ibera, nonYT xarsmra, Hawe BpJIMHe; YCKnMKHMMo MonMTBaMa M neanotinaourhy nonYT p;eqM~e; MP;MMO npep; lbMM MMnOCTMlhOM npeMa CMpOTMMa; cnep;MMO ra cMMpelheM M nOCTOM, 6p;elheM M 6JIa)KeHMM noxajaisesr, M HeMojMo YHMWTMTM Hanope xerpneceronneanor nOCTa, KOjMM CMO ce nonaaaasana, qMCTenM ce on CBaKe HeqMCTOTe, KaKO 6M M Y Haw Iepycamor cana

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ymao XPMCTOC, jep ce cacras Harner Terra Ha3MBa IepycannMOM, KaKO je pe'leHO KO,n; Hcairje: .Ha nnanosrora caM Te M3- pe3ao; 3M,n;OBM cy TBOjM jenaaxo npe,n;a MHOM, [epycamoae, M HaCTaHMny ce y Te6M" (Me 49, 16). I1pMnpeMMMO, xao onajy, Harny ,n;yrny CMMpelbeM, na Kp03 npnseurhe yhe y HaC CMH EmKMjM M yqMHM I1acxy ca CBOjMM yqeHMQMMa; M nOOMMO ca OHMM KOjM M,n;e na ,n;06POBOJbHO CTpa,n;albe, Y3eBrnM CBOj KpCT rpnzsersexr CBaKe yBpe,n;e; pacnHMMo ce y 6op6M npoTMB rpexa; YMPTBMMO renecae nOXOTe; Y3BMKHMMO: "OcaHa ua BMCMHM, tinaroczroaea CM TM, KOjM CM nourao na ,n;o6poBOJbHO crpanarse, KOjMM CM YHMrnTMO an, M3Beo A,n;aMa M notienno CMpT!"

3aBprnaBajynM OBY 6ece,n;y, necxrasra, xao unehexr, OBeH'IajMo CBeTY UpKBy M YKpaCMMO npa3HMK, Y3HeCMMO crraBOCrrOBJbe Bory M Y3BerrM'IajMo XpMCTa Cnacrrrersa Harner, oceisena 6rraro,n;any Cnerora ,[(yxa, KaKO 6MCMO panocao M y MMpy noxexana Tpo,n;HeBHo sacxpcerse Iocnona Harner Hcyca Xpncra, KOMe npMrrM'IM CBaKa cnasa, 'IaCT, cnna M noxnoisetse ca OQeM M ca CBeTMM M 6rrarMM M )I(MBOTBOPHMM ,[(YXOM, cana M YBeK M y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMMH.

UPKBEHO-IIOYQHA QJ1TAI-bA Y UBETHY HE~EJbY

CBETO[ JOBAHA 3JIATOYCTO[, APXMEIU1CK0I1A KOHCTAHTMHOnOJbCKO[, EECE;::(A 66.

HA JEBAH1)EJbE CBETO[ AI10CTOJIA M JEBAH1)EJIMCTE MATEJA *

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M Kag OHU U31IaJICaxy** U3 [epuxona, 3a 1bUM uolje Hapog scnoiu. M file, gsa otujeuua cjeljaxy xpa] ayiua, U ~yswu ga ldcyc aponasu, aoeuxaiue ioeopehu: IIoscuny] Hac, Iocuoqe, CUHe Ilaeuqoel (MT20,29,30)

1. 06paTJ1 naxosy, OAaKJIe je nourao Crracnrezs y IepvcaJIJ1M, J1 rne je 60paBJ10 rrpe rora, no MOM MJ1lllbelhY, 3aJ1CTa je norpetino pa3MOTpJ1TJ1 saurro OH OAaTJIe HJ1je OTJ1llaO npaso y [aJIJ1JIejy, Hero je muao Kp03 Caaapnjyi OCTaBJ1MO TO, nnax, paA03HaJIJ1Ma. AKO 6J1 HeKO xreo caBeCHO TO na J1CTpa)KJ1, raj 6J1 casnao na jeBaH1)eJIJ1CT JOBaH TO AOBOlbHO aaroseurraaa J1 yxasyje na pa3JIOr. MJ1 ce nax uehesro YAazsasara OA Ben nasenene TeMe Haller pasrosopa J1 rrOCJIyllahesro, smue rryTa rrOMJ11baHe, cnenue, KOjJ1 cy 6J1JIJ1 60lbJ1 OA MHOrJ1X KOjJ1 BJ1Ae. Hesiajyha HJ1 BOAJ1Qa, HJ1 MorynHoCTJ1 na BJ1Ae Iocnona KOjJ1 ce rrpJ16JIJ1)KaBa, OHJ1 cy nnax CHa)KHO )KeJIeJIJ1 Aa My npahy, J1 rrOQeJIJ1 cy maCHO na A03J1Bajy; xana cy J1M OHJ1 OKO lhJ1X TO 6paHJ1JIJ1, OHI1 cy jour Bl1lle rroAJ13aJIJ1 mac. ETO nrra 3HaQJ1 CJ1JIHa nyma! Casta rrperrpeKa BOAJ1 je AO ~l1lba. XPJ1CTOC HJ1je HapeAJ10 na J1M ce sarsope YCTa, KaKO 6J1 ce jour saure rrOKa3aJIO lbl1XOBO ycphe, J1 xaKO 6J1 TJ1 saao na OHJ1 Ao6J1jajy ncuezserse. OH J1X 3aTO J1 He

* DBa 6eceAa ce qHTa na jyrpersy UBeTHe nenerse. ** Pa3ITHKyje ce on CITOBeHCKor npesona.

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IIJ1Ta: .Bepyjere lIl1?" - liITO je 0611qHO ql1HI10 ca .n;pYfJ1Ma. Kpl1K 11 ycp.n;Ha :>Kelba na My ce npahe - CBI1Ma, BeOMa jacao, noxaayje lbl1XOBY Bepy. Hay-nr ce, onarne, lby6lbeHI1, na 11 MI1, KaKO He 611CMO 611lII1 6e.n;HI1 11 0.n;6aqeHI1, MO:>KeMO, CaMI1 no ce611 npanaaehn Bory ca I1CTI1HCKI1M ycpheu, 113MOlII1TI1 on Hsera OHO liITO Tpa:>KI1MO. Ilornenaj, KaKO cy 11 OBI1 czen~11, 6e3 yxemha 611lIO xor on anOCTOlIa 11 cnyurajyhn on MHOfJ1X napeheise na hyre, I1naK CMOflIl1 cnare na npesaaaby CBe re npenpexe 11 rrpnhy CaMOM Hcycy: l1aKO, no CBe.n;OQaHCTBY jeBaH1)elII1CTa, lbl1XOB :>KI1BOT nnje 6110 y CKJIa.n;y ca lhl1- XOBOM cxrenourhy, sa lhl1X je, YMeCTO csera, .n;OBOlbHO 611lIO casro ycphe. Peanyjao 11 MI1 xao OBI1 cnerrun. AKO 611 Bor 11 oxnesao na HaM nourazse CBOj .n;ap, aKO 611 Hac MHOrl1 11 on- 6a~l1lIl1, HeMojMo npecrajarn na MOlII1MO, jep hexro CaMI1M TI1M YMl1lIOCTI1BI1TI1 bora. Ilornenaj 11 osaj crryxaj - KaKO je 611lIO BelIl1KO ycphe cnenaua: HI1 Cl1pOMalliTBo, HI1 cnerrnno, HI1 MI1CaO na aehe 611TI1 YClIl1llieHI1, HI1 aaopane napona, HI1 611lIO nrra .n;pyro nnje I1X 3aycTaBl1lIo. TaKBa je .n;Yllia BaTpena 11 crpananaal A nrra je yql1HI10 Hcyc XPI1CTOC? llliua xoheiue ga BaM ytiUHUM? Pexouie My: Iocaoqe, ga ce OiIlBOpe ouu Haute. 360r xera I1X OH rnrra? 360r rora na He 611 nOMI1ClII1lIl1 na OH naje OHO lliTO OHI1 He xcene, 3aTO je OH, 06I1QHO, YBeK npBO nOKa311Bao 11 OTKpl1BaO npen CBI1Ma BPlIl1He OHI1X xoje I1c~elbyje, 11 TeK nOTOM I1X je I1C~elbI1BaO - C jenne crpane, 360r rora na 611 11 KO.n; .n;pyrl1x n06y.n;110 ClIl1QHY peBHOCT, a ca .n;pyre - KaKO 611 noxasao na OHI1 KOjl1 .n;06l1jajy .n;ap, .n;06l1jajy ra npeMa BplIl1HaMa. Taxo je OH nocTynl1o ca :>KeHOM Xauaaejxon, TaKO ca KaneTaHOM, TaKO je nOCTynl1o 11 ca KPBOTOQI1BOM :>KeHOM; 'ra Qy.n;Ha xcena je QaK npe.n;yxl1Tpl1lIa mrraise Iocnona, saurro je, YOCTalIOM,

OH mmourro nnje OCTaBI10, He 06a311pyhl1 ce, Hero je, neueJII1Bllil1 je, OTKPl10 iseno cpne .n;pyrI1Ma. Ha raj HaQI1H, OH ce YBeK Tpy.n;110 na npBO noxazce caspureucrao OHI1X KOjl1 My npl1lIa3e; xao lliTO je yql1HI10 11 oane - ca ClIen~I1Ma. 3aTI1M, xana cy OHI1 I1CKa3alII1 CBOjy :>Kelby, OH I1X ce, yMl1lIOCTI1BI1Bllil1 ce nan lbl1Ma, noraxao, Mnnocphe je 611lIO jenaHI1 pasnor I1C~elbI1Balha, pa.n;11 xor je OH 11 nourao y cser, na I1naK, Hcyc XPI1CTOC - OBa osannohena Ml1lIOCT 11 tinaronar, Tpa:>K110 je nocrojae. A TO na cy ClIen~11 611lII1 .n;OCTOjHI1, BI1- .n;11 ce 113 rora KaKO cy OHI1 rpOMKO .n;03I1BaJII1, xao 11 113 rora lliTO OHI1, nourro cy .n;0611lIl1 ncuezserse, HI1CY ormurur on Hcyca XpI1CTa, xao lliTO cy yql1Hl1lIl1 MHOrl1 KOjl1 HI1CY npl1- 3HaBalII1 Iberona notipa nena. He! OBI1 ClIen~11 HI1CY TaKBI1; npe .n;apa 611lII1 cy CTpnlbl1BI1, a nocne .n;apa 3aXBalIHI1, jep cy nourmr sa IbI1M. ,IJ;albe: 11 Kaga ce uputinuxcutue lepycanUMY U go~oute y BuiIl¢aiy upesca Macnuncxoj iopu, oHga Ucyc uocna gBa ytieHuKa. Ioeopehu UM: 11guiIle y ceno uuuo je upesca BaMa, U ogMax hetue nahu »uiiapuuy upueesany U scaiape c /-bOM; oqpujeiauiue je U qoeequtue MU. U aKO BaM KO pene tuiuo, xancuiue ga OHU iIlpe6ajy Iocuoqy, U ogMax lie ux uocnatuu. A OBO je cse tiuno ga ce UCUyHU uuuo je Ka3aHO upexo upopoxa (MT 21, 1,6) 3axapl1je KOjl1 je peKao: Pagyj ce MHOio, xhepu Cuoncxa; eBO, uap iueo] uge K iIle6u, «potua« U [atue na scaiapuy, U na scaiapeiuy (3ax 9,9). Hecro je, 11 npe osora, Mcyc XPI1CTOC I1lliao y [epycazrror: amr HI1Ka.n;a Hl1je mnao ca TaKBOM ClIaBOM. 3alliTo je raxo? 3aTo lliTO je rana jour 6110 nOQeTaK Hseronor nena, 11 OH caM Hl1je 6110 TOlIl1KO n03HaT, 11 BpeMe crpanaisa, jour YBeK Hl1je 611lIO 6lI113Y. 3aTO je OH :>KI1BeO, HI1 no QeMY ce He paannxyjyha on OCTalII1X, 11 HajBehl1M .n;elIOM ce cxpnaao: jep na je 611lIO npyraxaje,

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Iberosa nojaaa He 6M 6Mna TonMKO aanaszsyjyha, M casro 6M rrpotiynnna BenMKM rnes Me1)y Jy,qejMMa. A xana je OH, y ,qOBOlbHOj MepM, noxaaao noxase Csoje cnne, M KpCT je seh 6MO rrpe,q BpaTMMa, rana je OH CBe smue M amne npojaszsanao Ce6e, M CBe smue je jasno qMHMO CBe IlITO 6M Morno na MX pa)KeCTM. Hapasao, TO je Morno 6MTM (yqMlbeHO) joriI na caMOM noxerxy, ana TO 6J.1 6Mno aerrorpetino J.1 HeKOpJ.1CHO. Pa3MMCnJ.1, sajenao ca MHOM, KonMKO je osne J.13BpllIeHo qyna, J.1 KonMKO je rrpoposancraaa ncrryrseao? Mcyc XPJ.1CTOC je peKao: Hahu newe waiapuuy - J.1 Ty je rrpopeKao na HJ.1KO aehe CTBapaTJ.1 rrperrpeKe, Hero he casco nocnyurarn, yhyraTJ.1. Ynpaso TO IlITO OH rrpJ.1MOpaBa OHe KOjM ra He snajy J.1 KOjJ.1 ra HMCY BM,qenJ.1 na My 6e3 MKaKBor npornazsersa najy CBOjy MMOBMHY HJ.1je Mana orrryzcoa nporas Iyneja, KOjJ.1 MY, MaKO cy 6J.1nJ.1 csenoua TOnJ.1KJ.1X qy,qa xoja je yqJ.1HJ.10, xax J.1 npexo CBOjJ.1X yqeHJ.1Ka, HJ.1CY BepOBanJ.1.

2. Sancra, osaj norahaj He rpefia CMaTpaTJ.1 6e3HaqajHJ.1M. IIlTa je rrpMMopano 're CMpOTe lby,qe, MO)K,qa aesrzsopamnnce, na 6e3 norosopa najy CBOjy MMOBMHy? ,D;a - xao IlITO Ka)KeM, 6e3 noroaopa? He - He rrOCTaBJ.1TJ.1 qaK HM naraise, He yrrMTaBIlIM, eahytuatuu u upeuycuuuuut AKO OHJ.1 HJ.1IlITa HMCY pexnn, xana cy o,qBo,qMnM lbJ.1XOBY CTOKY, J.1nJ.1 cy MO)K,qa neurro J.1 peKnM, anM cy je, qyBIlIM na je Iocnony norpetiaa, rrperrYCTJ.1nM 6e3 J.1KaKBOr norosopa: TO je, TJ.1M rrpe, jennaxo aammzsyjyhe, IlITO OHM Ibera casrora HJ.1Ka,qa HJ.1CY BJ.1,qenJ.1, Hero casro yxeaaxe. CaMJ.1M TJ.1M, Mcyc XpJ.1- CTOC naje na ce CXBaTJ.1 na je OH Morao na ce ycrrpOTJ.1BJ.1 pasjapeamr Jy,qejJ.1Ma, xana cy OHJ.1 nouma na ra YXBaTe, J.1 na J.1X yqJ.1HJ.1 6e3rnaCHJ.1M, (casro) OH TO HJ.1je xceneo. C ,qpyre crpaae, OH TJ.1Me yqJ.1 ysenaxe na 6e3 rrorOBopa )KpTByjy

CBe, He caxo IlITO je Ibesry norpetiao Hero M caMY ,qyllIy; jep aKO cy ce Ibesry rrOBMHOBanM He3HaHU;M, pa,qM IberoBe norpeoe, TJ.1M rrpe, yqeHMU;J.1 6J.1 rpetiano na My )KPTByjy cae, Ilopen rora, Hcyc XPMCTOC je osne McrrYHMo jour J.1 ,qBOCTPYKO npopourrso: jeaao - rrpeKo nena, xana je ysjaxao Marape; J.1 npyro - npopourrso pesjy, r]. peqM npopoxa Saxapaje, KOjJ.1 je pexao na he u;ap jaxarn na MarapeTy. Y3- jaxasura Marape J.1 J.1CrrYHJ.1BIlIJ.1 OBO nocnemee npopourrso, OH je, J.1CTOBpeMeHO, aarroxeo ,qpyro npoponrreo, TaKO IlITO je, CBOjMM ,qenJ.1Ma, npencxasnaao 6y,qyhe norahaje. KaKO? OH je rrpensaneo rrpJ.13Balbe HeqJ.1CTMX MHOr060)Kau;a, Ti. na he OH 6J.1TJ.1 rrOIliTOBaH Me1)y IDJ.1Ma, na he My OHJ.1 npnhx M cnenara ra. Ha raj HaqJ.1H, rrpopOIliTBO je ycnemoro 3a rrpoPOIliTBOM. YOCTanOM, Mcyc XPJ.1CTOC, rro MOM MJ.1llIlbelbY, HJ.1je casro 360r rora 6nar0J.13BOneO na jaure na MarapeTY, Hero J.1 3aTO na 6J.1 HaM noxasao oopasan noaaurarsa. Iep OH HJ.1je casro ncrryaaaao npopourrna J.1 IlIJ.1PJ.10 J.1CTJ.1HCKO yqeIDe, Hero je CaMJ.1M TJ.1M ncnpaazsao J.1 aaur )KJ.1BOT, csarna HaM yxasyjyha aa rrpaBJ.1na xoja 06aBe3HO MopaMO rrOIlITOBaTJ.1, KOpJ.1CTehJ.1 CBa cpencrsa aa McrrpaBlbaIDe aaurer )KJ.1- BOTa. 3aTO OH, KOjM je 6nar0J.13BOneO na ce po,qJ.1 na 3eMlbM, HJ.1je Tpa)KJ.10 HH 60raTO ypehea ,qOM, HJ.1 60raTY J.1 YBa)KeHY MajKY, Hero je J.13a6pao CJ.1POTJ.1U;y, 3apyqeHy aa cTOnapa; po,qJ.10 ce y urrann J.1 6J.10 je nonozcen y jacne; M xana je 6Mpao ysenaxe, OH mrje naaopao rOBopHMKe M My,qpau;e, Hero HajCJ.1pOMaIlIHJ.1je, J.1 Me1)y HajCJ.1pOMaIlIHJ.1jJ.1Ma, OHe HajMaIDe nosnare: xana je nocraszsao Tprre3Y, noaexan je Hy,qMO jeqMeHJ.1 xne6, nonexan je sanoaenao yqeHJ.1U;J.1Ma na Kyrryjy na TP)KHJ.1U;J.1, YMeCTO nocrezse KopnCTMO je TpaBy; oneha xojy je HOCJ.10 6Mna je cxposraa, sax ce HJ.1je paanaxosana

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OA onehe HajHJDKer cnoja lbYAVl; AOM yorrulTe nnje HVl VlMao; xana je rperiano VlnVl Vl3 jenner MeCTa y APyro, OH je neura-nro, ysrapajyha ce nonexan, xana je cenao, HVlje rpaaoro CTOJIVlU;y, HVl MeKO yarnasrse, Hero je cenao na rOJIY 3eMlbY - nonexan na ropVl, nonexan rropeA Vl3Bopa, nonexan caxr; pa3rOBapao je Vl ca Caaapjaaxov: raxohe, VlMao je Mepy Vl y casroj )l(aJIOCTVl; xana je rpetiano rnraxarn - nnaxao je TVlXO, Y CBeMY, xao WTO caM peKao, rrocraszsajyha npanrora Vl rpaamre, AO KOjVlX ce MO)l(e VlnVl, aJIVl xoje He rpetia rrpeJIa- 3VlTVl. 3aTO Vl y OBOM cnyuajy, aKO 6Vl ce AOrOAVlJIO na je HeKOMe, 360r HeMonVl, 6VlJIa norpeona CTOKa, Mcyc XpVlCTOC je rrOCTaBVlO rpaHVlU;y, rroxaayjyhn na HeMa norpefie na ce jypn na KOlhVlMa Vl MyJIaMa, Hero ce rpetia 3aAOBOlbVlTVl Maraperoa, Vl He rrpY)l(aTVl ce sxure Hero WTO je HeorrXOAHO. Pa3MOTpVlMO 3aTO casro rrpopOWTBO Vl3pa)l(eHO pe-rjy Vl neJIOM. KaKBO je TO npopourrso? Eeo, u,ap uieo] uge K we6u, xpotua« u jaiue na scaiapuy, u na ssaiapeiuy. OH He nyryje na KOJIVlMa, xao ApyrVl uapean, HVlCY My norperian AaHU;Vl, He sacrpauryje C060M, He oxpyacyje ce xonzsaaaunxra, Hero Vl Ty noxasyje najsehy CKPOMHOCT. ITVlTaj [ynejua, KOjVl je u;ap ywao y Iepycaznor jauryhn na Marapu;y; HVl sa jenaor APyror ce TO He MO)l(e pehn, Ben caxro aa Ibera, AJIVl Vl TO je, KaKO casr paanje peKao, OH qVlHVlO xao npensaax 6YAyner. Marape OBAe npencrasrsa Ilpxsy Vl HOBVl HapOA, KOjVl je Hexana 6VlO HeqVlCT, aJIVl xana je Mcyc XPVlCTOC ceo (na isera), nocrao je qVlCT. 3arra3Vl, KaKBa AOCJIeAHa TaqHOCT qVlTaBOr npaoripasa. YqeHVlU;Vl onseayjy nonjapsosene - Vl JYAejVl Vl MVl CMO rrpVl3BaHVl y HOB06JIarOAaTHY Ilpxny npexo arrOCTOJIa, Vl YBeAeHVl CMO y lhy, raxobe npexo arrOCTOJIa. ITOWTO je Haw CJIaBHVl yneo Vl rr06YAVlo pennocr Mel)y JYAejVlMa,

Marapau; VlAe nsa MarapeTa. H 3aVlCTa, rrOCJIe rora WTO ce Hcyc XPVlCTOC YCTOJIVlqVlO HaA He3Ha60IIIU;VlMa, Vl JYAejVl My rrpVlJIa3e Vl3 3aBVlCTVl, KaKO jacno noxaayje arrOCTOJI ITaBJIe, xana xaxce: Iluo 113paulba oiuepqny, gOK ne ylje iiyn 6poj I-le- 3I-la60JICau,a; U iuaxo lie ce cuactuu caa Hspaun. (PI1Mll,2S). Iep jacno je peqeHO na je TO 6VlJIO rrpopowTBO. Y cynporaox cnyxajy, He 6Vl 6VlJIO rrorpeono na rrpopoK TOJIVlKO rosopn o y3paCTy MarapeTa. AJIVl TO HVlje BVlAHO casro Vl3 OBAe aaneneaor, Hero Vl Vl3 rora WTO l1X arrOCTOJIVl rrpVlBOAe 6e3 Harropa. Kao WTO arrOCTOJIe HVlKO nnje CrrpeqaBaO na Be)l(Y Marape, TaqHO TaKO je 6VlJIO Vl Y Be3Vl ca He3Ha60wU;VlMa, HVlKO OA OHVlX KOjVl cy panaje 6VlJIVl HaA lhVlMa HVlje 6110 y craisv na CrrpeqVl lhVlXOBO otipahen.e. 3aTVlM - XPVlCTOC He cena na rOJIO Marape, Hero aa xarsnne arrOCTOJIa, jep, npaaesaaura Marape, arrOCTOJIVl npenajy Vl CBe csoje, xao WTO xaxce ITaBJIe: fa liy apllO pago iupoiuuuu: u uciupowuhy ce uotuuyuo 3a gyute eauie (2 Kop 12,15). AJIVl 06paTVl rra)l(lhY Vl na rrOCJIyuraise MarapeTa: KaKO OHO, rrOTrrYHO He06yqeHO, jour He snajyha aa Y3Ae, naje 6p30 nojypnno, Hero je VlWJIO TVlXO Vl cnoxojao. H TO je raxohe 6VlO rrpeA3HaK 6YAynera, Vl3pa»casajyhx rroKopHoCT uesnafioscaua VllhVlXOBO 6p30 oxperaise A06po ypehenoza )l(VlBOTY. CBe TO je Vl3BpweHO peql1Ma:

Oqpujeuuuue je u goaeguwe MU; HepeA je npemao y A06po ypeberse, Vl HeqVlCTO je rrOCTaJIO qVlCTO.

3. Hero 06paTVl rra)l(lhY na HVlCKOCT [ynejal Kana je XpaCTOC qVlHVlO TOJIVlKa -ryneca, OHVl My ce HVlKaAa HVlCY TOJIVlKO AVlBVlJIVl: a cana, BVlAeBWVl oKyrrlbeHVl HapOA, AVlBe ceo Iloiupece ce caa ipag, ioeopehu: KO je oeaj? Hapogu, ua«, pexouie: oso je l1cyc IIp op OK, U3 Hasapeiua Ianunejcxoi. H OBAe, sana cy HaVl3fJIeA rOBOpVlJIVl HeWTO Y3BVlweHO,

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IbJ1XOBa MJ1CaO je 6J1lIa npaaexraa, HJ1CKa, ynarana-rxa. YOCTalIOM, Mcyc XPJ1CTOC TO HJ1je qJ1HJ10 pap;J1 ClIaBOJbY- 6Jba, seh pap;J1 rora, xao IlITO CaM peKao, na ce J1CrryHJ1 rrpoPOIliTBO J1 na ce npeaece rroyqHa nexuaja: a yjenao C TJ1M J1 na ce YTellie yqeHJ1~J1, KOjJ1 cy ryrosana 360r Iberose CMPTJ1, J1 na ce noxaxce na CBe TO OH TprrJ1 P;06pOBO~HO. A TJ1 ce 3ap;J1BJ1 TJ1Me, ca KaKBOM raxaourhy je CBe npencxa- 3aHO KOP; rrpopoKa, jenao KOP; ,1J;aBJ1p;a, p;pyro KOP; Saxapaje, M MJ1 heMo TaKO nocrynarn, ClIaBJ1heMO ra J1 naaahevo xaJbJ1He OHJ1Ma KOjJ1 Thera noce. Y cyrrpoTHoM, xera heMo ce yP;OCTOjJ1TJ1? Tap;a, xana cy jep;HJ1, rrpJ1 XPJ1CTOBOM YlIacKY y Iepycamor, CBOjOM onehosr rrOKpJ1BalIJ1 Marape, aa KOM je OH jaxao, p;pyrJ1 cy rrpOCTJ1palIJ1 XaJbJ1He rrpep; iserose HOre: MJ1, KojJ1Ma je pexeao He casco na CKJ1p;aMO onehy ca ce- 6e Hero J1 na CBe csoje rrOTpOIlIJ1MO aa p;pyre - nehesro 1IJ1 rrOKa3aTJ1 HeKaKBY p;ape)KJbJ1BOCT J1 rana xana BJ1P;J1MO thera ororseaor? Taxro ra je Hapop; rrpaTJ10, J1p;yhJ1 J1 ncrrpen J1 J13a, 3ap hesro ra MJ1 0p;6a~J1BaTJ1, rrpOrOHJ1TJ1 yBpep;aMa, xana OH caM HaMa p;01Ia3J1? O! KaKBY Ka3HY OBO 3aClIY)KYje, KaKBY 0p;Ma3p;y! ,1J;01Ia3J1 TJ1 BlIap;J1Ka, KOMe je aeurro rroTpe6HO, a TJ1 aeheur HJ1 na xyjem Iberosy M01I6y, Hero ra jour ocyhyjeur J1 spehaur, cnymajyha re Iberose pexa, Ho, aKO TJ1 J1 nanr jenan XlIe6 J1 aenrro HOB~a, TaKO IlITep;JbJ1B, nenapezcsaa J1 IlIKpT, IlITa 6J1 ce onna p;eCJ1lIO, aKO 6J1 on re- 6e Tpa)KJ1lIJ1 CBe? 3ap TJ1 He BJ1P;J111I KOlIJ1KO MHoro cyjernn JbyP;J1 rponre na paasparae )KeHe, y rr030pJ111ITy? TJ1 nax He najeur HJ1 rrOlIOBJ1HY rora, a qeCTO HJ1 najtiesuasajaajy CJ1THJ1~y. Kana haao, npanpevajyha naxao, Hapep;J1 na ce na 6J11I0 KOMe, TJ1 najeui: a xana nax XPJ1CTOC aanosena na ce naje OHJ1Ma KojJ1Ma je HY)KHO, otiehasajyha Ilapcrso sa TO,

TJ1 He caxro IlITO He najeur Hero jour J1 spebaur, HJ1je sazsp;a 60Jbe, rrOBJ1HOBaTJ1 ce hasony J1 nonaprnyrn ce MyqeIby, Hero rrOBJ1HOBaTJ1 ce XpJ1CTy J1 p;06J1TJ1 cnacersei IIlTa MO»ce 6J1TJ1 6e3yMHJ1je on oaora? Kon jenaora je naxao, KOP; p;pyror UapCTBO, a BJ1 OCTaBJ1BIlIJ1 nocnernser, TpqJ1Te rrpBOMe. CaM XPJ1CTOC p;01Ia3J1 aaxra, a BJ1 ra OTrrpaBJbaTe, a hasona CaMJ1 rrpJ13J1BaTe nanaaexa. To je HalIJ1K TOMe, na ~ap y noptpnpa, ca KPYHOM, He MO)Ke na Hac npanotiaje na CBOjy cTpaHy, a pa360jHJ1K nax, KOjJ1 Mallie MaqeM J1 rrpeTJ1 CMPhy, ycrreBa y TOMe. Taxo, pa3MJ111IJbajyhJ1 0 TOMe, Jby6JbeHJ1, OTBOPJ1MO csoje OqJ1 MaKap cana, J1 rrOQHJ1MO na 6P;J1MO. IIpJ13HajeM, BJ111Ie Me je cpaMOTa na rOBOpJ1M 0 MJ1lIOCTJ1- IbJ1, jep QeCTO rOBOpJ1M 0 isoj, a (nocrojae) nzronose rrponosena He BJ1P;J1M. AKO J1X J1 J1Ma aeurro BJ111Ie Hero paHJ1- je, TO HJ1je OHOlIJ1KO KOlIJ1KO 6J1X ja xceneo. [a BJ1P;J1M na BJ1 cejere, alIJ1 He 6allI p;ape)KJbJ1BO; 3aTO ce ja J1 nzraurasr na He noacarsere OCKYP;HO. A na cejeao OCKYP;HO casnaheao xan J1CrrJ1TaMO, aKO TO )KelIJ1MO, xora je BJ111Ie y rpap;y - CJ1pOMaIlIHJ1X J11IJ1 60raTJ1X; J1 J1Ma 1IJ1 MHoro OHJ1X KOjJ1 HJ1CY HJ1 CJ1pOMaIlIHJ1 HJ1 60raTJ1, Hero aayaasrajy Cpep;J1HY Met)y lbJ1- Ma. [a MJ1ClIJ1M na je p;eCeTJ1 neo 60raTJ1X J1 p;eCeTJ1Ha CJ1pOTJ1X KOjJ1 nesrajy arrCOlIYTHO HJ111ITa, a OCTalIJ1 cy ocpemser crarsa. ,1J;aKlIe, aKO rrOp;elIJ1MO 6poj CBJ1X CTaHOBHJ1Ka rpana ca 6pojeM CJ1POTJ1X, BJ1p;eheTe KaKBa cpaMoTa he 6J1TJ1! BeOMa 60raTJ1X je MallO; alIJ1 OHJ1X KOjJ1 J1Majy P;OBOJbHO je MHoro; CJ1pOMaIlIHJ1X je nax nanexo MaIbe y nopehersy ca OBJ1Ma. Met)YTJ1M, rropep; raxsor 6poja 60raTJ1X, KOjJ1 6J1 MOflIJ1 XpaHJ1TJ1 rnanae, MHom cnasajy rnanaa: nnax, TO HJ1je 360r rora IlITO JbyP;J1 KOjJ1 He ocxynesajy nesrajy noronHJ1X cpencrasa KojJ1Ma 6J1 3ap;OBOJbJ11IJ1 IbJ1XOBe norpetie,

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Hero 3aTO lIITO cy (OHVI caMVI) rpyria VI He'lOBe'lHVI. [ep aKO 6VI 60raTJ1 VI OHJ1 KOjJ1 nonase aa lbJ1Ma Mel)y C060M nonennlIVI OHe KojJ1Ma je norpetian XlIe6 J1 oneha, jensa na 6J1 na nenecer J1l1VI CTO lhYAJ1 OCTao jenaa CJ1pOMax. Ho 6e3 063J1pa na TOllJ1KVI 6poj lhYAVI, KOjJ1 cy Y CTalbY na rrOMOrHY, BVIAJ1MO OHe KOjVI CBaKOAHeBHO rrlla'ly. ,IJ;a 6J1 BVIAeo He'lOBe'lHOCT 60raTJ1X, rpetia caxro na 06paTJ1111 rra)KlhY na TO KOllVIKO je MHoro YAOBVIu;a J1 AeBVIu;a KojVIMa aeonxonno J13Ap)KaBalhe naje U;pKBa, xoja aesra BehVI rrpVIXOA Hero je~aH Haj60raTVIjVI VI jenaa He TaKO 60raT. A 6poj OHJ1X xoje 1J;pKBa J13Ap)Kasa VIAe AO TpJ1 xarsane. OCVIM lbJ1X, OHa VI3Ap)KaBa J1 3aTBOpeHe y TaMHJ1u;aMa, OHe KOjVI cy y rOCTOrrpJ1MHJ1u;aMa, KaKO 601leCHe, TaKO J1 3ApaBe, CTpaHu;e, 60ralhe, OHe KOjVI rrpoce nopen xpaMa aa xpaHy J1 onehy, VI Apyre KOjJ1 cBaKoAHeBHo AOJIa3e, VI OHa nrrax He OCKYAeBa. ,IJ;aKlIe, KaA 6J1 ce naurno caxro necer lhYAVI, KOjVI 6J1 )KellellJ1 na rrOTpOllle caxro rrpJ1- XOA, He 6VI 6J1110 HVIjeAHor CJ1pOMalllHor.

PehVI here: "lllTa he OCTaTJ1 y HaClIeAcTBO nanroj Aeu;VI?" [lIaBHVIu;a he OCTaTVI, VI rrpJ1XOAa he 6J1TJ1 jour BJ1111e, jep he, na ra] Ha'lJ1H, 6VITVI npanpenzsena pVI3HVIu;a aa He6ecJ1Ma. AJIVI, aKO sajaa He OArOBapa na na raj Ha'lJ1H KOpJ1CTVITe CBOjy VIMOBJ1HY pagJ1 CJ1pOMalllHJ1X, BJ1 J1M OABojJ1Te MaKap no- 1I0BVIHY, J1JIVI TpehVIHY, VIJIVI 'leTBpTVIHY, J1l1VI rreTVIHY, VIlIVI 'laK AeCeTJ1HY. Iep, nonohy 611arogaTVI EO)KJ1je, VI y TOM clIyxajy, naur rpaA 6VI 6VIO Y cTalbY na npexpaisyje cVIpoMalllHe VI3 necer rpanosa, 11 TO Mory na AOKa)KeM, aKO xohere, VIaKo, YOCTallOM, HeMa norpeoe na ce TO noxasyje, jep O'lJ1fJIeAHO je caxo rro ce6J1 KOllJ1KO je lIaKO TO yqVIHVITJ1. I10fJIeAajTe KOlIVIKO TpOlllVI 'leCTO jenan AOM na rpaACKe 06aBe3e, J1 nnax ce He orrrepehyje, jenaa -rax VI npavehyje HeKVI ry6J1TaK!

Kana 6J1 CBaKO OA 60raTVIx noxceneo na J13BPlllVI ClIJ1'lHO clIY)Kelhe y OgHOCy rrpeMa CJ1pOMalllHJ1Ma, OH 6J1 y6p30 OAYnresno He60. ,IJ;aKlIe, KaKaB onpourraj MJ1 MO)KeMO g06J1TJ1, KaKaB noaon aa VI3BVIlbelhe, xana MJ1 OHO lllTO MopaMO OCTaBVITJ1 xana ce 6YAeMo CellVIlIJ1 onasne He AellVIMO OHVIMa KojJ1- Ma je rrOTpe6HO, OHaKO BellJ1KOAYlllHO KaKO ApyrJ1 pacanajy na nenornue, a sa TO 6VI MOfJIJ1 rr06paTVI jour VI nennxe nnoAOBe? AKO 6VICMO MVI J1 3aYBeK ocrajana OBAe, J1 rana He 6J1 rperiano na )KallVIMO 360r Tor rrpegJ1BHOr ry6J1TKa; HO aKO Kp03 HeKO BpeMe 6YAeMO MOpallJ1 na ce npecenaao onasne, J1 TO 6e3 J1'lera, HarJ1 - KaKBO orrpaBAalbe OHAa MO)KeMO J1MaTJ1 sa TO lllTO HVICMO csoje rrpVIXOAe nasann fJIaAHVIMa VI OHJ1Ma y HeBOlhJ1? [a TVI He napebyjesr na TPOlllJ1111 VIMarse, He 3aTO lllTO VI TO He 6J1X xceneo, Hero 3aTO lllTO BVIAVIM KOg reoe MallO pacrrOJIO)Kelbe aa TaKO neurro. ,IJ;aKlIe, ja TJ1 jour He rOBopVIM 0 TOMe, Hero na najeur MaKap OA npaxona VI Aa HJ1111Ta OA lbVIX He YTajJ1111. ,IJ;OBOlhHO je OA retie J1 TO Aa J1Malll HeKJ1 J13BOP J13 xor nonase HOB'laHVI rrpJ1XOAJ1; nonelIVI VIX ca CJ1pOTVIMa, J1 6YAVI A06ap eKOHOM y OHOMe lllTO TJ1 Bor naje, PehJ1 hem: "Ja nnahaa Aa)K6J1He:' 3Ha'lVI 360r rora TJ1 TO HeMapHO 3aAp)KaBalll, jep HVIKO TO yrropHo He Tpa)KVI OA Te6e? Onora KOjVI Tpa)KJ1 OA retie naaax, VI MO)KAa ra CJ1- 110M nanyhyje, He srozcenr na oA6VIjelll - nonena TJ1 3eMlha nnonose VIlIJ1 He: a CVIpOTOMe, KOjJ1 re ca xporourhy MOllJ1, VI TO casro y npeiae y6VIpalha nnonosa, TJ1 He OArOBapalll HVI pe'l? Ko he re nax VI36aBJ1TJ1 OA Be'lHVIX MyKa? HJ1KO. AKo ce TVI cano 360r rora cTapalll na nnaham Aa)K6VIHe, jep onaj KOMe He rrllaTJ1111 crporo Ka)KlbaBa OBAe, snaj na ce TaMO rrpJ1rrpeMa jour crpannrn]a Ka3Ha - He OKOBJ1, He TaMm'Iu;a, Hero Be'lHJ1 orais. ,IJ;aKlIe, rrpe csera nnanoao re Aa)K6J1He.

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PaAJ1 rora hexro J1Man1 J1 BJ1Ille OA YA06HOCTJ1, J1 BJ1Ille heMO aa TO A06J1TJ1 narpana, J1 BJ1Ille KOPJ1CTJ1; a aKO OCTaHeMO HeOCeTlbJ1BJ1 na CBe TO, qeKa Hac Ka3Ha xoja je HecpaBfbJ1BO rezca - BeqHa Ka3Ha. AKO TJ1 6YAelli pexao na Mopalli na najeur sa J13Ap)f(aBafbe sojcxe, xoja ce aa retie 60pJ1 ca nenpajarersioaa, rra J1 OBAe je sojcxa - CJ1POTJ1, J1 OBAe je 6J1TKa, xojy OHJ1 BOAe aa retie: jep npioaajyhn MJ1JIOCTJ1fbY OHJ1 Bora YMJ1JIOCTJ1BlbaBajy CBOjJ1M MOJIJ1TBaMa, a yMJ1JIOCTJ1BlbaBajynJ1 Bora OHJ1 YHJ1IllTaBajy KJIeBeTe, He sapaapa, Hero AeMOHa; He norryurrajy JIYKaBOM AYXY na ce ocaaxcyje J1 na re nenpecraao nanana, Hero cnatie lberOBY caary.

5. ,1J;aKJIe, BJ1AenJ1 OBe BojHJ1Ke, KOjJ1 ce SBaKoAHeBHo 60- pe ca 1)aBOJIOM paAJ1 rerie, MOJI6aMa J1 MOJI\.rTBaMa, OABOjJ1 OA ce6e raj rrpexpacna AaHaK - KaKO 6J1 ce OHJ1 rrpeXpaHJ1- JIJ1. Ilap He6eCKJ1, rro CBOjOj KPOTOCTJ1, aehe na re MyqJ1, Hero )f(eJIJ1 na TJ1 cast najeur A06pOBOlbHO. AKO JIJ1 naur MaJIO, OH he 3arra3J1TJ1; aKO 360r HeMaIllTJ1He OAJIO)f(J1Ill J1 na AY)f(e, snaj na OH He rrpJ1MOpaBa na TO onora KojJ1 nexra. Hnax HeMojMo OMaJIOBa)f(aBaTJ1 Hserosy nyrorpnezsasocr: aa ce6e CKJIaAJ1IllTJ1MO, He rues, Hero cnacerse, He CMPT, Hero )f(J1BOT, He Ka3HY J1 Myqelbe, Hero xacr J1 seaue. OBAe HeMa norpeoe na rrJIaTJ1MO aa npenoc onora IllTO HOCJ1MO; HJ1- je norperiao pa3MefbJ1BaTJ1 HOB au. Ilpenaj rsoje TeJIO, a caxr BJIaAJ1Ka he OCTaJIO rrpeHeTJ1 aa He60; OH caM he aa retie aarrpaBJ1TJ1 najnoaozsnnja 06pT. OBAe He rpeoa Tpa)f(J1TJ1 xoaexa KOjJ1 6J1 npeneaao HOB au; KojJ1 HOCJ1Te: casro naj J1 CMeCTa he OHO IllTO CJ1 nao OTJ1nJ1, He aa J13Ap)f(aBafbe Apymx BojHJ1Ka, Hero aa YIllTeAY J1 yaeharse Y TBOjy KOPJ1CT. OHO IllTO je OBAe AaTO He MO)f(e ce rrOBpaTJ1TJ1, TaMO hem, aanpoTJ1B, A06J1TJ1 cnoje BeJIJ1KJ1M AeJIOM, J1 CTenJ1 hem najsehe

J1 najnyxoaaaje KOPJ1CTJ1. OHO IllTO ce osne naje je neurro A06J1jeHo aa 3aXTeB, a TaMO je A06J1TaK, sajaxr 11 nyr, Iep cax Bor TJ1 je nao MeHJ1U;y, peKaBIllJ1: Iocuoqy U03aUMa KO iuncnatea cupoMaxy (ITpw.J 19,17). ,1J;ao TJ1 je TaKO J1 3aJIOr J1 rapaaunjy, 6e3 063J1pa na TO IllTO je OH Bor, KaKaB je TO 3aJIOr J1 rapammja! CBa 6JIara canaunser )f(J1BOTa, J1 qYJIHa J1 AYXOBHa, xao Ha3HaKY 6YAynJ1X 6JIara. 3aIllTO OHAa 6J1TJ1 HeOAJIyqaH J1 ABOYMJ1TJ1 ce, xana CJ1 Ben TOJIJ1KO A06J10 J1 jour TOJIJ1KO o-rexyjetu] Bnara xoja CJ1 A06J10 cy cneneha:

OH je 06JIJ1KOBaO rnoje TeJIO, rrOJIO)f(J1O AYIllY y reoe, retie je jeAJ1HOr na 3eMlbJ1 YAOCTOjJ10 YMa, nao TJ1 je npano na snanaur CBJ1M BJ1AlbJ1BJ1M, CaOrrIllTJ10 TI1 je snarse 0 Ce6J1, nao je aa retie CJ1Ha, AapoBao TJ1 je xpurreise, xoje OAJ1Ille TOJIJ1KJ1M 6JIarJ1Ma; rroHYAJ10 TJ1 je CBeTY Tprre3y; otiehao TJ1 je u;apCTBO J1 HeJ13peU;J1Ba 6JIara. ,1J;aKJIe, Ben rrpJ1MJ1BIllJ1 TOJIJ1Ka 6JIara J1 osexyjyh» jour TOJIJ1KO A06pJ1X AeJIa, 3aIllTO TJ1, oner hy pehn J1CTO, TOJIJ1KO npeueisyjeur HeCTaJIHY J1MOBJ1HY? VI KaKBO hem J1MaTJ1 rrOCJIe csera onpasnarse! Ban.na ce He nanaur na heur ce J13BJ1HJ1TJ1 TJ1Me IllTO J1Malli neuy? TJ1 CJ1 AY)f(aH J1 fbJ1X na HayqJ1Ill Aa CTJ1qy TaKBY KOPJ1CT. AKo TBOj HOB au, KOjJ1 CJ1 nao HeKOMe y aajaxi, 6YAe AOHOCJ10 rrpJ1XOA, J1 AY)f(HJ1K 6YAe HeKJ1 xacran qOBeK, HeCYMfbJ1BO hem CTO rryTa 60lbe yqJ1HJ1TJ1 aKO, YMeCTO 3JIaTa, CBOM CJ1HY ypyqJ1Ill MeHJ1U;y, jep he ce na raj HaqJ1H HOBau; YBenaBaTJ1 J1 OH nehe MOpaTJ1 na Tpa)f(11 lbYAe KOjJ1 6J1 MOrJIJ1 Y3eTJ1 raj HOBau; y aajasr. 3aTO na] Ty MeHJ1U;y AeU;J1, J1 OCTaBJ1 J1M Bora aa AY)f(HJ1Ka. HJ1 TJ1 caM He nponajem cena, Hero J1X ocrasrsaur AeU;J1, J1 TO qJ1HJ1Ill Y HaMepJ1 KaKO 6J1 ce CaqYBaJIJ1 rrpJ1XOAJ1 J1 TJ1Me ce YBenaJIO fbJ1XOBO J1Mafbe; rra 3aIllTO ce OHAa 60jJ1Ill Aa OCTaBJ1Ill TaKaB pYKOrrJ1C KOjJ1 je

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KOpMCHMjM O~ csaxor cella M csaxor rrpMxo~a, jep ~OHOCM caxro KOpMCT? KaKBa myrroCT M KaKBO 6e3YMJbe! JOIlI BMIlIe, aKO 3HaIlI na, M nopen rora IlITO OCTaBJbaIlI Ty MeHM~y ne~M, M TM caM ~o6MjaIlI O~ rse. Jep TaKBO je ~yXOBHO - OHO je BeOMa ~ape)KJbMBO. Heerojsro 6MTM TaKO ytiora, TaKO HeMMlIOCp~HM M OKpyTHM rrpeMa caMMMa cetix: Hero, OKpeHMMO ce OBOj npezmaaoj TprOBMHM, KaKO 6MCMO M caMM rro CBOM onnacxy ~06MlIM, M CBOjOj neun OCTaBMlIM, M y~OCTOjMlIM ce 6y~yt1MX 61Iara, 61Iaro~ahy M QOBeKOJby6JbeM Iocnona Hamer J.1cyca Xpncra, ca KOjMM Ouy M CBeToMe ,1J;yxy cnasa, CMlIa, QaCT, cana M YBeK M y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMMH.

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06jaBJ1MO pe'I, xoja Me nO,[.(CTJ1'Ie, Pe'I jenaocyunry Eory J1 Ouy, xoja je, He aarrynrrajyha aenpa O'IeBa, HeJ13peU;J1- BO aaxera y yTp06J1 Iljese, J1 nOCTaJIa pa,[.(J1 MeHe OHO IllTO casr J1 ja. Pe'I, xoja je no CBOM EO)KaHCTBY crpana cnaxoj CTpaCTJ1, 06yKJIa ce y CMPTHO TeJIO, xao IllTO je Moje. Oaaj KOjJ1 ce,[.(J1 ira xepYBJ1MCKJ1M KOJIJ1Ma, ,[.(OJIa3J1 cenehn na Maiapeiuy (JH 12,15). Ilap cnase, xora, ca Ouest J1 ,[(YXOM, cnase cepaq)J1MJ1, cnyurao je HeBJ1Ha ,[.(e'IJ1ja renaisa. Bor, HeTBapHJ1 J1 HeBJ1,[.(JbJ1BJ1, npJ1MJ10 je BJ1,[.(JbJ1BO J1 OnJ1nJbJ1BO reno, J1 jaBJ10 ce xao czryra, ,[.(06POBOJbHO ce rronspraanm CTpa,[.(alby, KaKO 6J1 MeHJ1 napoaao 6eCTpaIllne. Iep xana je TBOpeBJ1- na pyKy EO)KJ1jJ1X - 'IOBeK, KOjJ1 je casnaa 0,[.( Bora no rrJ1KY J1 nonorinjy IherOBOM, 360r nyxane 06MaHe 3MJ1je nocrao npecTynHJ1K EO)KJ1je 3anOBeCTJ1, J1 TJ1Me ce nO,[.(Bprao npona,[.(JbJ1BOCTJ1 J1 CMPTJ1: rana ce Bor; no MJ1rrOcpl)y CBOMe, caxcanno na 'IOBeKa KOjJ1 je npeTpneo TaKaB nan, J1 BJ1Ille rryra J1 na BJ1Ille Ha'IJ1Ha ra n03J1BaO na otipahea,e J1 noxajaise, ypaaysosyjyh» ra, aexan xao He3aXBaJIHOr crryry, Hexan xao Hepa3YMHor CJ1Ha, KOpJ1CTenJ1 CBa cpencraa na 6J1 ce 'IOBeK, 36aU;J1BIllJ1 ca ce6e reurxe OKOBe, 06paTJ10 CBOM TBOPU;Y. AJIJ1 xana ce je,[.(HoM nop06J10 rpeXOM J1 noopoBOJbHO ce npenao 3eMaJbCKJ1M nOXOTaMa, 'IOBeK HJ1je J1MaO

* Tpaon oztpehyje 'IUTalbe OBe 6ecege na jyrpersy Bennxor noaenersxa (rrocne rpeher KaHOHa).

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cnare na ce, caM OA ce6e, oxpene Bory, ~aKJIe, cseonarn [0- cnon je, snajyhn KOJIMKO je cnaoa lbYAcKa npMpoAa, yseo lby caxr na Ce6e. BMAeBlllM na ce qOBeK He nOKopaBa HM Hseronoj pe-nt, HM 3anOBeCTMMa, HM cnaCOHOCHMM nOYKaMa, Bor xao na je pexao: "Ja MopaM, na caMOM AeJIY, HayqMTM oaora KOjM He 3Ha; ja MopaM nOCTaTM qOBeK M 3aA06MTM BpJIM He, KaKO 6MX sronexa npM6JIM:>KMO lbMMa. Ia MopaM 6MTM BMAlbMB, KaKO 6MX MCQeJIMO 60JIeCHOr; ja MopaM npoaahn M3ry6lbeHY OBQY M AOBecTM je y npB06MTHY pajcxy nocroj- 6MHY· AJIM aa KOjM HaqMH hy je nponahn, aKO He 6YAeM BMAlbMB? KaKO hy BOAMTM onora KO He MO:>Ke na BMAM Moje rparose?" C TMM QMlbeM je OH nocrao qOBeK, KaKO 6M na caMOM Ae.JIY (rj. CBOjMM AeJIMMa M c~aAalbeM) noxasao OHOMe KO)M He 3Ha KaKO MO:>Ke OCTBapMTM BpJIMHe; KaKO 6M ce MM, BMAeBlllM Ibera KaKO M3 OqeBMX nenapa CMJIa3M na 3eMlbY paAM aaurer cnacea.a, ca panourhy Y3HOCMJIM lheMY ca 3eMlbe; M na xpajy, KaKO 6M 06jaBMo M306MJIHO 60raTCTBO csoje lby6aBM npexa lbYAMMa. Iep HMKO He MO:>Ke noxa- 3aTM sehy lby6aB, OA re ga KO »cueoii; C60j UOllOJICU 3a upujauien,« ceoje (JH 15,13). A MO:>Ke JIM TaKBY lby6aB nOKa3aTM oaaj KOjM HeM a nyury?

~aKJIe, Iocnon naur pana rora npMMa TeJIO, KaKO 6.J1 ce jasno na 3eMlbM J1 nO:>KMBeO ca lbYAMMa; pann rora npaxa nyury, KaKO 6M je nOJIO:>KMO sa npajarezse Csoje. Ka:>KeM: sa rrpnjaren,e - aJIM He OHe KOjM Bone Hsera, Hero OHe xoje OH BOJIM. Iep, MaKO CMO MM Ibera 3aMp3eJIM M OABpaTMJIM ce OA Ibera, CJIY:>KenM ApyroMe, OH je y CBOjOj lby6aBM npeMa HaMa OCTao ncnporaeazsnn. 360r re lby6aBM, OH AOJIa- 3M OHMMa xoja ra Mp3e, nparn y cTony OHe KOjM 6e:>Ke OA Ibera, M npern-ryhn MX, He M306JIMqaBa MX ca crporourhy,

He Ka:>KlbaBa MX 6MqeM, Hero MX JIeqM, xao MCKYCHM JIeKap, He 06a3MpyhM ce aa CBa orOBapalba, nlbYBalba M ynapue xoje TpnM OA lbYAM KOjM cy nOMaXHMTaJIM YMOM. Kao JIeK, OH je KOPMCTMO Caoje EO:>KaHCTBO - JIeK HajAeJIOTBopHMjM M CBeCMJIHM - xoje je M cjenanno ca lbYACKOM npMpOAOM. Ynpaao TO je OHO lllTO je cJIa60 TeJIO yqMHMJIO CMJIHMjMM OA caMMX HeBMAlbMBMX CMJIa! Jep xao lllTO je rsozche paCTOnzseno orlbeM aesroryhe AOAMpHyTM - TaKO M npOJIa3HOCT aaure npMpoAe cjeAMlbeHe ca orlbeM EO:>KaHCTBa nocraje HeAOCTynHa l)aBOJIY. J1 xao lllTO JIeKapM Ka:>KY na ce cynpoTHO neqM cynpoTHMM, TaKO M Iocnon cynpoTHo ymmrrana cynportnoa: pacxour M HaCJIaAe - OnJIaKMBalbeM M nOABM- 3MMa, ropAocT - CMMpelbeM. Iep OH je, MaKO npecnasan no CBOM EO:>KaHCTBY, Ce6e He casro CMMPMO, nocrasunr qOBeK, Hero ce M YHM3MO npen caMMM lbYAMMa. 3aMcTa, KO je 6MO TOJIMKO YHM:>KeH? OH nrrje MMao rne rnaBY na CKJIOHM, HMje MMao HM ABe xazsnae, HM ApyrM XMTOH*. OH 6pUjehan, He ysepahaiue Y6pegoM; cuipaqajytu: He upuiehaiue (2IlT 2,23); nohen je na saxnan,e, xao HeBMHO jartse, jenaaxo ncrpajasajyha, He npornapeveha: xana cy ra YAapaJIM, OH je paAO oxperao 06pa3 OHOMe KO ra YAapa, M nnje OKpeTao rnaBY OA nocpasosyjyher nzsyaan,a, M xana cy ra Ha3MBaJIM CaMapMhaHMHOM, M rOBOpMJIM Aa MMa AeMOHa y Ce6M - OBa M CJIMqHa M3pyrMBalba, CTpnlbMBO je nOAHOCMO, KaKO 6MCMO MM KpeHyJIM Iberomoa cronasra. A CBe TO je qMHMO 6JIarOBOlbelbeM OQa, M xao jeA.J1HOpOAHM M jeAHOCYlllHM

* XI1TOH - KpaTKa 6ena, BYHeHa I1nl1 JIaHeHa XaJbI1Ha, 6e3 PYKaBa xoja ce HOCI1JIa CJII1'lHO HaIIIoj KOIIIYJbI1, no rozror Ten a 11 nacana nojacoxr (npI1M. npes.).

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Hseros Om TMMe je p;OKa3MBao zsytias Cnor Oua npexa HaMa. Jep Bor Orau Hac je TaKO 3aBOJIeO na je M jennaoponnor CMHa Caor nao aaxra, pap;M namer ncxyrrrscn,a. 0, xaKBa Hep;OCTM)I(Ha lby6aB! Bor je jep;MHopop;Hor CMHa caor, KOjM sajenao ca lhMM uapyje, yqMHMO J1cKyrrMTelbeM HerrOKopHMX CJIyry, rnpnorrranax nenpajarezsa, KOjM CJIY)l(e nerrpajarezsy DO)l(MjeM, xor csrarpajy 60rOM! 0, KaKBa je p;y6MHa 60raTCTBa p;06pOTe Bozorjel AJIM HM jep;MHopOP;HM CMH DO)l(MjM ce HMje ycrrporxaao OBOj OP;JIyU;M, mrje on- 6aU;MO BOlbY Oua Csora, MMajyhM y caMOMe Ce6M BOlbY M xreise Oua. Iep npapona Oua M rrpMpop;a CMHa jecre jenaa rrpMpop;a; M 3aTO ce CMH DO)l(MjM noaaay]e Oxesoj BOlbM xao concrsenoj, M rrOCTaBIlIM qOBeK ocraje rrOCJIYIlIaH OU;y CBOMe, xarc P;O CMPTM, CMpTM Ha KpCT\ KaKO 6M M3JIeqMO xroje nenocnyuraise!

Xarajyhn na ncnaje qaIlIY CMPTM, sa cnacerse qMTaBOr CBeTa, HaIlI Hcxymrren, y6p30 0p;JIa3M aa CTpap;allie, onna- 3M xceneha cnacerse xoeexa, M He HaJIa3M rrJIOp;OBe. OBY 6ecrrJIOp;HOCT HaM noxasyje CMOKBa (MT 21.19). Ko je Osaj KOjM )l(eJIM p;a OKYCM xpaHy y paHMM jyTaplliMM caTMMa? Uap, [0- cnon, YqMTelb. 3ap je OH TaKO paHO oraanaeo M rrozceneo xpaHy y HerrpMJIHqHO spesre! ITa 3aIlITO je OH yqMO Csoje yqeHMKe p;a nocre M na nooebyjy CTpaCTM? IIlTa TO 3HaqM? Iocnon HaIlI, xao IlITO je YCMeHO noysasao rrpMqaMa, TaKO je rronexan H caMMM rrocTyrrU;MMa rroxaaasao rrpMqe. ETO OH, ornamrenura, rrpMJIa3M CMOKBM. CMOKBa nax npencraszsa lbYP;CKM pOp;. ITJIOP; CMOKBe je CJIap;aK, aJIM cy rpy6M M HeKopMCHM llieHM JIMCTOBM, M noronax caao sa cytuerse. TaKBa je M zsyncxa rrpMpop;a; KaKO je on Dora npenonpeheaa na paha aajcnahe rrJIOp;OBe BPJIMHa, OHa, YMecTO TMX

rrJIOp;OBa, no-nose na paba cawo rpy6e JIMCTOBe. Iep, IlITa MO)l(e 6MTM rpyozse on )l(MBOTHMX 6pMra? Ap;aM M EBa cy Hexana 6MJIM nara, M HMCY ce CTMp;eJIM; 6MJIM cy Ham, xana cy BOP;MJIM rrpOCT M HeBMH )l(MBOT; HMCY rr03HaBaJIM HMKaKBe BeIlITMHe, HM )l(MBOTHe 6pMre, M HMCY MM 6MJIa norpetiaa cpencrsa KaKO 6M rrOKpMJIM CBOjy TeJIeCHY rOJIOTMlliY. Hero cy ce, 6yp;yhM TeJIeCHO Ham, rrOKpMBaJIM 6TIarop;ahy DO)l(MjOM; M nestajyha BeIlITaCTBeHY onehy, 06TIaqMJIM cy ce onehOM 6ecMpTHoCTM, rro MepM rrpM6TIM)I(aBallia Dory, Kp03 MCnyrsaaaise Iberose norse. AJIM KaKO ce y6p30 rrOKa3aTIO na cy HerrOCJIYIlIHM, OHM cy ce, JIMIlIMBIlIM ce 6JIarOp;aTM xoja I1X je 06JIaqMJIa, JIMIlIMJIM rnenaisa JIMu;a Boxcajer M carnenasaisa Dora, M YBMp;eJIM cy CBOjy rOJIOTMlliy. Tana cy nozceneJIM )l(MBOTHa 3ap;OBOlbCTBa, M rrOCTaJIM cy ocyhemr na OCKyp;aH M ytior )l(MBOT; cnojrorx cy JIMCTOBe CMOKBe M on lliMX cy HarrpaBMJIM rrojace aa ce6e; rrpOHaIlIJIM cy pa3HOJIMKe rrOMMCJIM M rpy6 )l(MBOT, ncrrytsea 6pMraMa M )l(aJIOCTMMa. Ca suojei« llU4a ceojeia, peKao je Bor, jetuheiu xlbe6. 3eMlba ga je upoxneiua c iUe6e; C MYKOM heiu ce og tee xpanuiuu go ceojeia eujexa (TIOCT 3.17.19). AKO TM 6yp;eIlI MMao aesrarscxe rrOMMCJIM, rrpeMa 3eMlbM heur ce oKpeHYTH; TM CM nocrao CJIMqaH aepaayxraoj CTOU;M, He ocrajyhx nyro Y qaCTM (TIc 48.13); xao 60r na 3eMlbM, TM HMCM noanao 6JIarOTBopHY BpJIMHy, Hero CM joj rrpeTrrOCTaBMO aesrazscxe aacnane M 3aBOJIeO CM 6eCJIOBeCHM )l(MBOT. 3eMlba CM y 3eMlbY hem OTMhM - 3HaqM, TM heur, nonyr 6eCJIOBeCHMx )l(MBOTMllia, HaCJIep;MTM CMpT! On Tor speaeaa qOBeK je no-reo na 06JIaqM KO)l(He xazsaae! )KMBehM, rrpe rora, y pajy CJIap;OCTM, y u;apCKOM P;OMy, M 3aY3MMajyhM, npexra CBOMe TeJIy, cpeP;MHy M3Me~y )l(MBOTa M rrporrap;lbMBOCTM, OH, rrOCJIe rora,

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I1Ma CaMO rrpOrrapJhl1BO I1 CMPTHO Te110, 113110)KeHO 6011eCTI1- Ma. Y CTBapl1, rpytia 11l1CTOBl1 CMOKBe - TO je nama rrpl1pOna, isena rpeXOBHa nena! Toj CMOKBI1, r]. Jhy,n;CKOj rrpnpona, rrpl1llIaO je CrraCI1TeJh, rrranan, rpaacehn na isoj najcnaha nnon - Dory najyrommje Bpl1l1He, rrocpe,n;cTBoM KOjl1X ce 113- BpllIaBa Hallie cnaceise. Al1l1 OCI1M 11l1CTOBa - OCI1M ropxor rpexa I1 necpeha xoje on isera nacrajy, OH nnurra na rsoj Hl1je nanrao. J![3 Tor pa3110ra OH joj I1 rOBOpl1: .Jia HUKag 6UUle He 6yge og taece poga go eujexa (MT 21, 19). Cnaceise nnje on xoaexa, spnaaa Hl1je on Jhy,n;CKe CI111e. [a hy yCTpOjl1TI1 crracerse: napyjyhn BaCKpcelhe Kp03 sroja CTpa,n;alha, ja hy, sajenao ca TI1M, ,n;apOBaTI1 I1 ocnotiohen,e on )KI1BOTHe ryre" IIlTo je 3al1CTa I1 OCTBapl1o.

3aTI1M, KaKO 6J1 jacanje J13pa3J10 rrpJ1lIY, CrraCI1TeJh nam nocehyje ,[10M Cnora Oua, J1 ,\OllIaBllIJ1 y xpaM, Ty nal1a3J1 3110qJ1Hu;e - apxajepeje, KaKO cene na Mojcajesoj CTO- 1111U;J1 - BYKOBJ1, O,[leBeHJ1 y OBqJ1je KO)Ke - I1CTe re JhY,[le, KOjJ1, rrorrYT nennonne CMOKBe, HJ1CY J1Mal1l1 na ce6J1 Cl1aTKJ1 nnon, Hero cy ce caxro rrOKpJ1Bal1J1 mnnher«. Ilorrrenaj, KaKO cy rpy6e lhJ1XOBe peqJ1: KaK60M enaiuhy tuo 1-IUHUUl? 11 KO illu gage illy enacuii (MT21,23). BJ1,[1J1llI 1111 nennonnocr neaepyjyhnx nyma? YMecTo na Ka)KY: "YQJ1TeJhY 611am, KOjJ1 CJ1 sacxpcao QeTBopo,n;HeBHor MpTBau;a JIa3apa, KOjl1 CI1 HayqJ10 xpoMe na xonajy XJ1TPO, KOjJ1 CJ1 CJ1errJ1Ma BpaTJ10 QY110 BJ1,n;a, KOjJ1 CJ1 J1Cu;el1I10 pacnaozseae, KOjJ1 CJ1 J1311eQJ10 cBaKY 6011ecT J1 cBaKY nesroh, KOjJ1 CJ1 rrpOrOHJ10 nesroae, KOjJ1 CI1 rroxasao rryT xa cnacersy!" YMecTo rora, OHJ1 rOBOpe: "KaKBoM nnaurhy TO QJ1HJ1llI?" ,,0, He3aXBal1HJ1!" - OH BaM xazce - "aKO CTe ce oxynzsamr OKO JOBaHa nessajyha Bepe, J1 aKO CTe lheMY J1CrrOBe,n;al1J1 csoje rpexe, J1 aKO aac je

KPCTJ10 360r crpaxa, a BJ1 CTe OCTal1l1 aeaepyjyhn: xohere 11J1 rrOBepOBaTI1 MeHJ1, xana BaM ja 6y,n;eM rOBOpJ10? 0, po,n;e l1YKaBJ1 J1 HeBepHJ1! BJ1 Kojl1 QJ1HJ1Te 3110, KOjJ1 npoacnnpere BJ1HOrpa,n; Iocnona CaBaOTa! Kora on rrpopOKa BJ1 HI1CTe y61111J1? Iep MOj Orau BaM je cnao cnyre Moje, rrpopOKe, ,n;a Tpa)Ke on nac rr110,n;OBe Csor BJ1HOrpa,n;a. [a caM rrpeHeo MOj BI1HOrpa,n; J13 Ernrrra, MojCJ1jeBoM PYKOM, I1 He urrenehn napo,n;e, HaCTaHJ10 cast ra na nnonaoj 3 eMJhJ1 , nonenno ra na ,n;e110Be, I1 iseroaa napaurrajn, rro peQI1 rrpopOKa, pallIJ1pJ1- 11J1 cy ce rro 3eMJhJ1, ,n;OCTl1fJIJ1 cy QaK no Mopa J1 peKa ,n;pyrnx Hapo,n;a; a BJ1 CTe YHJ1IIITI111J1 n-eroay orpany, rj, onyse- 11J1 cy My 3allITJ1TY, xojy My je nasao 3aKOH, J1 MOj annorpan, 11l1llIeH orpane, no-rene cy na nzsa-ncajy J1 jerry ,n;J1BJhe aaepn. J![ xana cy cnyre sroje, rrpopOU;J1, no-rena ,[Ia Tpa)Ke rr110,[l0- Be J1CTJ1HJ1TOr, rr110,n;OHOCHor BI1HOrpa,[la, KojJ1 cast ,n;J1BHO 3acamto: rana CTe BJ1 jennor nperecrepncamr, jenaor CTe 6aU;1111J1 y jasry, jenaor CTe y6J111J1 xaxrenoaatsesr. EBO, nomao caM ja casr - CI1H I1 HaCl1e,[lHJ1K! ITOCTJ1,[1I1Te ce ripen rrpaBOM CI1HOBCTBa, YBa)KJ1Te nocrojaacrso rrpl1po,n;e OQeBe: jep caM [a y O~y U otua« y MeHU OH 14, 10). [a caM J13 cazcazseisa npesia MOM BJ1HOrpa,n;y caurao na 3eMJhY; 6e3 063J1pa na TO, llITO ja rrOQI1BaM y He,n;pJ1Ma Mor Ou;a. Ilpenajre MJ1 rr110- nose ca Mor J1Malha! Al1J1 BI1, KOjJ1 QJ1HI1Te tiesaxorse, npnnpexiare ce na noapunrre ,n;e110 BallIJ1X oraua. OHJ1 cy y611- 1111 rrpopOKe, a BI1 here y6l1Tl1 Dora 11 npeaaanhn here l1X y tieurxamhy! [a cax HaCl1e,n;HI1K; ja caM onaj xpajeyraonn xaMeH, KOjl1 he sac, I1 nopen rora llITO CTe ra 0,n;6aU;J111J1, nnax rrOKOpJ1TI1. [a cje,n;l1lhyjeM nse TBOpeBJ1He, He6eCKY J1 aesrarsCKy. [a hy J13rpa,n;J1TJ1 jenny U;pKBy on anhena I1 on Jhy,n;l1. BI1, nourro CTe nenpajarezsa Ou;a Mora, Kp03 MeHe here ce

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rrOMHpHTM ca I-bHM. Ia o6jaBlbyjeM MHP, H 3aBeT Tor MMpa 6Hhe xroja KpB, xoja ce nponasa sa cnaceise CBeTa:'

AlIM Iocnon urrje CBOjOM rrpHqOM ypa3YMMO rapnornaBe. Iep OHH cy rrOKpHlIM csoje OqH, na He BHp;e, H noxnornrlIM cy yunt, na He xyjy, M3 Tor pasnora, aa lbHX H HHje sacjarra CBeTlIOCT jesanhen,a. 0, 6e3YMHO cnernoro Iynejal OHH ocyl)yjy caMH ce6e, He cxaarajyhn csoje peqM, H caMM ceria H3PMqy rrpecyp;y. Iep xana HX je Iocnon mrrao: "illTa he rocnonap yqMHMTM OHHMa KOjM TaKO qMHe?" OHM cy, HeXOTMue, M3peKlIM ncrany: 3110 he norytiara 311e (jep rro caaxoj npanna, OHH KOjM P;06POBOlbHO qHHe 3110 aaczryzcyjy HeMM- 1I0CPP;HY Ka3HY), a euuotpaq he qauiu gpyfuM eunotpaqapuMa, KOjU he My qaeatuu iotoqoee y ceoje epujesce (MT 21,41). Ha raj HaqMH, CBeIlITeHMU;M M <l>apHcejH cy 3aMCTa rrpopoKOBallM, HH caMH He snajyh« na TO qHHe. Iep je nnaorpan - napon Iocnonrsa - 3aMCTa npenaa p;pymM rrOClIeHMU;MMa, KOjM cy y onroaapajyhe BpeMe noaena Iocnony HajH306HlIHHje nnonone. IIo C80j semnn: oiuuqe inac fbUX08, U go xpajeea eacemene pujenu fbUX08e. Kaxo cy xpacne noie OI-lUX xoju tinaioeujectue MUP, xoju tinaioeujeciue g"o6po! (PUM 10,15,18). OHM cy, xao onue, P;OIlIlIM Mel)y nyxose, H on caMMX BYKOBa cy HaqHHHlIM osue: rj. Iemme, aexana yp;albeHe on Dora, naqHHMlIH cy osuasra XPMCTOBMM, H npxsena cy Iocnony I-lapog usatipanu xoju peenyje y g06pUM qjenusca (TuT2,14).

Ilaxne, 6paho, otipahaer ce CBMMa sasra KOjH HOCl-lTe HMe sepyjyhnx H KOjM CTe ce yP;OCTOjHlIH na ce Ha30BeTe aaponosr XPHCTOBMM! Hesrojvo nocpaxnrrn csoje HMe M HeMojMo rrOMpaqHTM HaIlIY Bepy p;ellHMa 6e3aKolba. 3a Hac HMje P;OBOlbHO casro na ce Ha3HBaMO sepyjyhaaa: He, MM HaIlIY Bepy MopaMO rrOKa3aTM p;ellMMa. IIHcMO xaxce na je

jenaa orau HMao nsa CHHa, H na je rrpBoMe on lbHX orau peKao: "MP;M, pap;H y BHHorpap;y:' CHH je nao otiehaise, anx ra mrje HcrrYHHo. MCTO TO, orau je peKao H p;pyroM CHHy. AlIH oaaj KOjH je onycrao na peqMMa, HcrrYHHO je BOlbY oua na p;elly; 3aTO je rrpBH 3aClIY)l(HO rrpeKOp, a p;pym noxsany (MT 21,28-31). Taxo ce H MH MopaMO ceharn onor onpnuarsa H onor cjenmsaaan,a, na IlITa CMO ce ofiaseaana na CBeTOM KpUlTelDy. Op;6aU;HBaheMO l)aBolla, iserose aahezre H CBaKO ClIY)l(elDe lDeMY, KaKO 6M OCTallH BepHH CBOM 3aBeTY. A nena basona cy: npen-yrioxaacrao, lby6oMopa, 3aBHCT, Herrpnjarerscraa, lbYTlDe, lIHu;eMepje, anopesje, noncsresan,e, raes, anonaaherse, ocybaaaise, xneserarse, xraraja, 3HaU;H nenepja cy: HeMHlIocpP;HOCT, Mp)l(lDa, renecna lby6aB, reneCHa rrOXOTa, IlIKPTOCT, pacxonr, nnjancrno. Cnyxcea,e l)aBOllY: OXOllOCT, cyjera, caMolby6lbe, Hap;MeHOCT, ropnocr, CTpaCT aa YKpalliaBalDeM rezra, 0p;6aU;HBIlIH CBe OBO, rrpHnemoro ce XpHCTy H peaayjsro y BpllMHaMa - qHCTOTH, uenoxrynpenocra, CHpOMaIlITBY, TprrlbelDY, MHPY, lby6aBM, caCTpap;aBalb y, MMlIOCpl)y, IlIHpOKorpyp;OCTH rrpeMa CHPOTHMa, rrpHcTojHOCTH noaauran.a, onesarsa H rrocTyrralba, npaBep;HOCTH, CMMpelDY, H HapOqHTO, y rrOHH3HOCTM XPHCTOBOj, KaKO 6H rrOCTaBIlIH cyneomnnr XPHCTOBM y CTpap;albY, MorrrH cynenoaarn H y Iberosoj ClIaBH, H rrpMHOCHTH )l(HBY, HerrOpOqHY )l(pTBY Dory H OU;y, Y U;PKBH rrpBopop;HHX, y P;OMy OHHX KOjH ce panyjy!

Ha xpajy ce o6pahaM Te6H, lby6lbeHa HeBeCTO XPHCTOsa! ,lJ,OCTOjHO BOllH Oaora KOjM je rerie saaoneo P;O xpaja. OTBOPH xpasr cpu;a csor, na ce ycellH y reoe XPHCTOC ca Ouea H ,lJ,YXOM. MCKopeHH H3 rsera CBe sexazscxo, KaKO 6H rrpHrrpeMHlIa rryr XpHCTy. 0p;6aU;H cyjeray ClIaBY, xoja je

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MajKa nenepja, no peqM XPMCTOBOj: KaKO BU uoxeiue ejepoeamu Kaga opuuatue CllaBy jeqan og qpyioia OH 5,44)? MCTepaj M3 3eMlbe cpua csor CBaKO MalllTalbe 0 ceria. CBM BMCOKOyMHM cy HeqMCTM npep; Borose Boi ce UPOlllUBU fopguMa, a cuupenusca gaje tinatoqau; OaK 4,6). Yp;albM on ce6e CBaKY CaMOHaCJIap;y M CaM03ap;OBOlbCTBO, KaKO 6M ce nOKOpMJIa saKOHY jennnora Bora: M OH he re yrryrnrn y npacrannnrre Cnoje norse. He YBOp;M p;pyror )KeHMKa y P;BOP cpQa csora: jep XPMCTOC, )KeHMK TBOj, pesny]e aa reoe. OH je caa CJIaP;OCT M »cersa. Jep;MHO Ibexry OTBOPM cPQe csoje, M sanamr My: "Cpu;e je Moje nospebeao, lby6aB npeva Te6M Me je pacrraJIMJIa M nOTrrYHO Me rrpOMeHMJIa, Iocnone! [a caM notiehena lby6aBlbY npesra Te6M, y1)M y nsopan TBOj, M ja hy lby6MTM crone Tsoje. Iep caM aenocrojaa rora p;a Te6M Ka)KeM:

TlOlby6M Me rrolbyrrQeM YCTa TBOjMX' (IlHIl 1,1). )KMBM M XOP;M Y MeHM, rro TBOM HeJIa)KHOM otieharsy, M yqMHM Me xpaMOM Ilpecserora ,Uyxa! 3arroBep;aj cpu;y MOM, Iocnonel M rocnonapa Hap; lbMM. OHO je Tsoje HaCJIe1)e, M HaqMHM y MeHM 06MTaJIMlllTe, aajenao ca Ouesr M ,UyXOM, pacnpocrpana y MeHM BJIap;aBMHY TBOjy - nenoaarse Csecaerora Tsora ,Uyxa! Iep TM CM Bor MOj, M ja hy Te rrpOCJIaBMTM, ca 6eCnOqeTHMM TBOjMM OQeM, M ca 6JIafJ1M M )KMBOTBOPHMM TBOjMM ,UyXOM, cana M YBeK M y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AM~H:'

CMHAKCAP Y CBETVI VI BEJIVIKVI IIOHE,UEJbAK*

CTVlXOBYI 0 rrpeKpaCHOM JocVI<PY:

L(elloMygpeHu Jocurfi UOKa3ao ce xao apaeeqHU enaciuenuu U xnetioqaeau: 0, KOllUKO OH 8pllUHa

UMa!

CTYlXOBVI 0 nennonaoj CMOKBVI:

Xpuctuoc, KlleUl80M oCYUIU CMOK8Y, U30611Ullaeajyhu cuuatoiy jeepejcxy KOjOj cy myl)u gYXOBHU UllOgOBU: u36efHUMO »en ygeo.

Y CBeTM M BeJIMKM noaenezsax, cehasro ce 6JIa)KeHOr [ocMcpa, rrpeKpaCHor; (cehaxro ce M, on Iocnona npoxnere.) oCYllleHe CMOKBe.

On nanannser nana rrOqMlbY CBeTa crpanarsa Iocnona naurer Mcyca Xpncra, a rrpe rora, xao Iberonor npaotipasa, cehavo ce rrpeKpacHor Iocropa. OH je 6MO CMH narpnjapxa Iaxona, xojer My je pOp;MJIa Paxnrsa. OMP3HYT on cnoje 6pahe, 360r HeKMX cnoaaheu,a, OH rrpBO 6MBa 6aqeH y P;y60Ky jasry, P;OK neua 06Malbyjy oua OKpBaBlbeHOM onehoxr, xao p;a cy ra, T060)l(e, pacTprne 3BepM. 3aTMM, sa rpxnecer cpe- 6pHMKa 6MBa npop;aT VIcMaMlbnaHMMa, KOjM ra rrOHOBO rrpenponajy Ilererppnjy, yrrpaBHMKy esnyxa, ernnarcxor napa - cpapaoHa. Kana je rocnoha 6e3YMHo HacpHyJIa na u;eJIOMynpeaocr MJIap;Mna, OH je, He xceneha na yqMHM 6e3aKOlbe, notierao OCTaBMBlllM CBOjy xalbMHy. OHa ra je OKJIeBeTaJIa rrpep; rocnonaposi, M OH 6MBa 6aqeH y OKOBe M MpaqHY TaMHMU;y. IIoTOM ra, 360r TYMaqeTha CHOBa nsaone (M3 TaMHMue), npencrasrsajy ra u;apy, M OH nocraje rocnonap -nrraae ernnarcxe 3eMlbe. Ha xpajy, rrpMJIMKOM nponaje mnemrue,

* Onaj CYlHaKCap ce tIViTa nocne rrpBe necsre rpnnecaeua.

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nOHOBO ce OTKpl1Ba CBOjOj tipahn, 11 6JIarO'ieCTI1BO npoaorBeBUIl1 'iI1TaB )1G1BOT yMl1pe y EmIITY, CMaTpaH, rrope,n; ,n;pyrnx BpJII1Ha, BeJII1KI1M y u;eJIOMy,n;peHOCTI1. OH je rrpaotipas XpI1CTa, jep 11 XPI1CTOC crpana on (IberOBI1X) CarrJIeMeHI1Ka Iyneja, 11 Y'ieHI1K ra nponaje aa rpnnecer cpetipennxa, 11 6auajy ra y TaMHy 11 Mpa'iHy jaMy - y rpoo, onaxne ce, caxoBJIaCHO ycrasura, sauapno nan Erl1rrTOM, rj. nazt CBaKI1M rpeXOM, 11 rrOTrrYHO ra rr06e,n;110, 11 snana 'iI1TaBI1M CBeTOM 11 rro 'iOBeKOJby6JbY Hac I1CKyrrJbyje TajaHcTBeHI1M ,n;aBalheM muemme (XJIe6a), rrpenaaunr casror Ce6e aa Hac 11 xpaaehn Hac XJIe60M He6eCKl1M - CBOjl1M )KI1BOHOCHI1M TeJIOM. yh Tor pasnora ce cana rrOMl1lhe rrpeKpaCHI1 JOCI1<P.

3ajeAHo ca TI1M, cehavo ce 11 ocyurcne CMOKBe, jep 60- )KaHCTBeHI1 jeBaHljeJII1CTI1, yrrpaBo Marej 11 Mapxo, rOBOpe 0 TOMe 0AMax rrOCJIe xasnaatsa 0 rpaH'iI1u;aMa. MapKO:

M cyiupaqan Kag usuhoiue U3 Buiuanuje, otnaqiee (MK 11,12), a ,n;pym: Yjympy epahajyhu ce y tpaq oinaqiee; U yineqaeuiu CMOK6Y jegHy tepa] aytua golje teo], U He nahe na teo] nuuuua OCUM nuuiha, U pene joj: Ila HUKag euuie He 6yge og me6e poga go eujexal M ogMax ycaxHy CMOK6a. (MT 21,18,19).

CMOKBa rrpe,n;CTaBJba jynejcxy CI1Harory, y KOjOj CrraCI1- rezs Hl1je rrpOHalllao nnon KaKaB ,n;OJII1Kyje, seh casco ceHKY 3aKOHa, 360r xera 11M je onyseo 11 Ty ceHKY, knYHI1Bllll1 3aKOH y rrOTrrYHOCTI1. AKO 611 HeKO yrrl1Tao: 360r xera ce I1cyuryje ,n;PBO, xoje HeMa AYlllY, saurro ce OHO, xoje Hl1je mmrra carpeunoro, rrOABpraBa npOKJIeTCTBY; nexa raj 3Ha na je TO 3aTO lllTO cy JYAejl1, rnenajyha XpI1CTa, KOjl1 je YBeK CBI1Ma 'iI1HI10 noopo 11 HI1Ka,n;a HI1KOMe Hl1je yql1Hl10 mmrra noure, MI1CJII1JII1 na OH I1Ma BJIaCT na 'iI1HI1 caao noopo, aJII1 He 11 na xaaosasa. AJII1 nourro je 'iOBeKOJby6I1B, BJIaAI1Ka HI1-

je xreo na noxaxce na 'iOBeKY, ,n;a MO)Ke 11 TO; 3aTO, KaKO 611 YBepl10 He3axBaJIHl1 HapOA na OH I1Ma BJIaCT 11 na xazosasa, cano xao CBe6JIarl1 nehe (TO), OH nonsprasa Ka3Hl1 6e3- ,n;ylllHy 11 HeOCeTJbI1BY rrpl1po,n;y. AJII1 nocroja n jenao rajaaCTBeHl1je TYMa'ieIbe, xoje je no Hac AOlllJIO OA rrpeMy,n;pl1X crapaua, KaKO xaxce MCI1,n;op I1eJIYCI10T - TO 6l1JIO ,n;PBO Henocnyuraisa, 'il1je cy JII1CTOBe 11 ynorpeoronr aa rrOKpl1Balhe (ce6e, npsn) rrpeCTyrrHI1U;I1, 360r -rera je OHO 11 osne, rro xoBeKOJby6JbY, on CTpaHe Xpl1CTa nonsprnyro rrpOKJIeTCTBY, xoje Hl1je rrpl1MI1JIO paanje, KaKO HI1Ka,n;a He 611 ,n;OHOCI1JIO nnon KOjl1 je yspoxoaao rpex. A pa3JIOr nopehersa rpexa ca CMOKBOM je oxarnenaa, jep 11 rpex rrpY)Ka npnjarno sanoBOJbCTBO - rpexonna aacnana, a 3aTl1M ,n;OJIa311 - orropocT 11 rOp'iI1Ha CaBeCTI1. YocTaJIOM, 0U;11 cy osne CTaBI1JII1 rrpl1'iy 0 CMOKBI1 paAI1 YMI1Jbelha, xao 11 rrpl1'iy 0 JOCI1<PY - 3aTO lllTO je npaotipas XpI1CTa. (Hennomra) CMOKBa je CBaKa nyura, KOjoj je cTpaH CBaKI1 AYXOBHI1 nnon, xojy Iocnon yjyTpy, rj, rrOCJIe osor )KI1BOTa, He nautaanm Ce6e y rsoj, ncyuryje KJIeTBOM 11 6au;a je y orais Be'iHI1 - 11 OHa nocraje xao HeKaKaB I1CYllleHI1 CTy6, KOjl1 sacrpanryje OHe KOjl1 He noaoce nnonoBe nocrojne BpJII1Ha.

MOJII1TBaMa npeKpaCHor JOCI1<Pa, Xpl1CTe EO)Ke, rrOMI1- nyj Hac. AMI1H.

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CBETOr JE<DPEMA CMPMJCKOr o ITPEKPACHOM JOCM<DY*

J13 JaKOBlheBOr OKpJ1lha CBOjOj 6pat'lJ1. M KaO liITO cy HeMJ1- nocpzma JOCJ1<pOBa 6paha, BJ1~eBllIJ1 JOCJ1<Pa KOjJ1 ce rrpJ1- 6nJ1)1(aBa, no-rena na cxnrnrrsajy nYKaBCTBO rrpOTJ1B isera, ~OK J1M je OH ~OHOCJ10 noanpas O~ oua, TaKO cy YBeK lhyTJ1TJ1 Iyneja, BJ1~ehJ1 Crtacnrersa, rOBOpJ1nw: ,,3aJ1cTa, Osaj je HaCne~HJ1K, y6J1jMO Ibera, J1 CBe he 6J1TJ1 name" (MK 12,7). JOCJ1<pOBa 6paha cy rOBOpJ1na: .Flpenajsro ra CMPTJ1, M J136aBJ1heMO ce on iseroaor CHOBJ1t)elha": na J1CTJ1 TaKaB HaqJ1H cy rOBOpJ1nJ1 M Jy~ejJ1: ",IJ:ot)J1Te, y6J1heMO ra J1 npncaojaheMO Iberoso J1Malhe" (Mr21,38). JOCJ1<poBa 6paha, y TpeHyTKy xan cy jemr sa rpneacsr, npenann cy opara, 3aKnaBllIJ1 ra y CBOjOj caMOBOlhJ1: J1CTO TaKO cy J1 MPCKJ1 Jy~ejJ1, jenyha rracxy, saxnann Cnacrrrersa. ,IJ:ona3aK JocJ1<Pa y Ernnar 03Ha-rana CJ1na3aK aamer Crracnrersa na 3eMlhy. Kao llITO je IoCJ1<p na ~BOpy rrOra3J10 CBY rpexoBHy CJ1ny, aanotinjajyha CBeTnJ1 senau aa nooezry nan CBOjOM rocnonapauov ErnnhaHKoM - TaKO je J1 Iocnon nanr, Cnacnren, ~yllIa HallIJ1X, CJ1llIaBllIJ1 y an, rasro, ~eCHJ1~OM CBOjOM pacyo CBe MohJ1 HajHecHOCHJ1jer J1 Herr06e~J1BOr MyqJ1Telha. JOCJ1<P, xana je rr06e~J10 rpex, 6J10 je aarnopea y TaMHJ1~y, ~OK HJ1je noumo speae ~a rrpJ1MJ1 neaau: TaKO J1 Iocnon naur, KaKO 6J1 yseo aa Ce6e cas rpex CBeTa, 6J1Ba rronoacen y rpoti, JOCM<P je rrpoBeo y TaMHJ1~J1 ~BOrO~J1llIlhJ1 nepnon, )l(J1BehJ1 TaMO y sennxoj CJ1ryPHOCTJ1; J1 Iocnon aaur je TpJ1 nana nperiaaao y aAY, rne, rro CJ1nJ1 xojy J1Ma, HJ1je nperpneo rpyzserse. [ocJ1<pa 6naroHaKnoHo J13BO~e J13 TaMHJ1~e, 360r <papaoHoBor CHa, J1 xao MCTJ1HCKJ1 otipasau XpJ1CTa, OH 6e3 nanopa TyMaqJ1 aaaserse CHOBa J1 npensaha J1306J1lhe y 6y~yhHOCTJ1; a Iocnon naur Hcyc XPJ1CTOC, np06y~J1BllIJ1 ce J13 MPTBJ1X CBOjOM conCTBeHOM CJ1nOM, OnneHJ10 je an, J1 xao nap Ouy

Boxce Aspaasroa, Boxce Hcaaxos, Boxce Iaxosn.es, 00- »ce 6naroCnOBeHJ1, KOjJ1 CJ1 naaopao CBeTY noponnrry cnyra TBOjJ1X KOjJ1 cy Te 3aBOnenJ1, xao 6nam, napyj na ce nOTO~J1 6narO~aTJ1 y BenJ1KOM 06J1lhY J13nJ1jy na MeHe, KaKO 6J1x MOrao na J13pa3J1M cBeTny J1 BenJ1qaHCTBeHY CnJ1KY - npexpacaor JOCJ1<Pa, KOjJ1 je YBeK 6J10 qaCHJ1 ocnonan najnytvse CTapOCTJ1 narpnjapxa [axonal Iep casr raj nexax JOCJ1<P, O~ ManMX nory, 6J10 je CnJ1Ka nsa ,I(OnaCKa XpJ1CTOBa: npBor, KOjJ1 ce ~orO~MO on ,IJ:jeBe Mapaje, J1 ~pyror, KOjJ1 he CBe noBeCTJ1 y TpeneT. 3aTo, BOlheHJ1 XpJ1CTOBJ1lhy6J1M~J1, nOQHJ1- MO cana CJ1nHO na ce panyjesro nymosr, KaKO 6J1 nepacejauo cnynramr J1 coaepuaaamr 0 TJ1M ~enJ1Ma najnocrojaacrsemrjer nerera. A ja, 6paho sroja, Ha3J1BaM ra He caao najnocTojaHcTBeHJ1jJ1M Hero J1 rrpexpacmoa Mna~J1heM, J13BOPOM ~enoMy~peHOCTJ1, caBpllIeHMM rr06e~HJ1KOM, KOjJ1 je ~J1BHO rrOpa3J10 irenpajarerse. ITo TOMe je OH, HapOQJ1TO, nocrao otipaaau 6y~yher nonacxa Iocnomser, 3aTO aexa CBaKO O~ sac ocn060~J1 CBOjy ~yllIy O~ CBaKe 3eM~CKe opnre, J1 Hexa ca lhy6aBlhY rrpJ1MJ1 necxre xoje ce nesajy: 3aTO llITO cy OHe AYXOBHe J1 secene AyllIy.

Kao llITO je Iocnon J13 OQeBJ1X He~apa nocnaa nasra, xaKO 6J1 crracao CBe Hac; TaKO je M ~eQaK JOCJ1<P 6J10 nocnan

* ITo 6orocJIy)!(6eHOM yCTaBy, onpeheno je na ce OBa 6ecep;a ql1Ta na xaCOBI1Ma aa BeJII1KI1 nonenen.ax.

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CBOMe napyje aaure M36aBlbelbe, npononena nacxpceise M BeqHM )I(MBOT. JOCM<P ce B03HO na KOlIHMa <papaOHa, xana je A06HO BlIaCT HaA qHTaBHM EmrrTOM; H Iocnon HalII, Ilap rrpe CBMX BeKOBa, Y3HeO ce na netieca na MYlheBHTOM 061Iaxy, H ca ClIaBOM ceo ca AeCHe CTpaHe Oua, H3HaA xepyansra, xao jeAHHopOAHH CHH. Kana je JOCH<P napenao y Ennrry, A06HBlIIH BlIaCT HaA CBOjHM aenpajarersmra, rserona opaba A06pOBOlbHO rrpHlIa3e rrpeCTOlIY onora, xora cy OCYAHlIH na CMPT, npanase KaKO 6H ce ca cTpaxoM H rpenerosr rrOKlIOHHlIH OHOMe xora cy rrpoAalIH na CMPT, H Y cTpaxy ce rroxnaisajy JOCH<PY, xora HHCY )I(elIellH xao napa HaA C060M; JOCH<p, npenoaaaaum CBOjy 6pany, jeAHoM CBOjOM pexjy je noxasao ytimry; a OHM nax, npcaosaanura rsera, crajaznr cy H36e- 3YMlbeHH, ca BelIHKHM CTHAOM, He ycyhyjyh« ce na rOBope, H nesrajyhn arrCOlIYTHO HHlIITa xao csoje orrpasnan,e, nornyao cy carnenamr CBOj rpex, KOjH cy H3BplIIHlIH onna xana cy ra rrpOAalIH; onaj xora cy OHH 3aMHlIIlbalIH KaKO TpylIH y aAY, H3HeHaAa ce noxaaao xao onaj KOjH uapyje HaA lbHMa. Taxo, H y raj CTpalIIHH AaH, xana Iocnon Ao1)e na Ba3AYlIIHHM 061Ia~MMa, ceaeha na rrpeCTOlIY I..1;apCTBa Csora, CBH nenpnjaren,n Iberosa, KOjH HHCY )I(elIelIH na OH uapyje HaA lbMMa, 6Hne npaseneaa rrpeCTOlIY Iberoaosr, CBe3aHH CTpalIIHHM aH1)elIHMa. Iep 6e3aKOHH JYAejH cy MHClIHlIH rana na he aKO 6YAe pacner yMpeTH xao qOBeK; TH necpehaaun HHCY BepOBalIH Aa je OH Bor, KOjM je AOlIIao paAH cnacersa - na crrace AYlIIe naure, Kao lIITO je JOCH<P tn060AHO pexao CBOjOj 6panH, xana cy My npmumr ca CTpaXOM H rpenerosr:

"Ja, JOCH<P, xora CTe AalIH y porrCTBO, cana napyjesr HaA saMa, KOjH TO HHCTe zceneznr" Taxo je H Iocnon, y BHAY Mylbe, noxaaao KpCT na KOM je pacner, H OHH cy npenosnana KpCT

H CHHa BO)I(Mjer, xor cy pacnenn. BHAHTe lIH, KaKO je JOCH<P y nornynocra 6HO HCTHHCKa ClIHKa CHHa BO)I(Hjer - csor BlIaAHKe?

I10lIITO cy BplIHHe unerane KOA Iocarpa, jOlII y iseroaoxr AeqaqKOM y3paCTy, rrpeMa iserosoj notipoj BOlbH, cana heMO, xana CMO HarrpaBHlIH YBOA, HaCTaBHTH nazse rrpnrrosenarse, npaxaayjyhn BplIHHe cseror nexaxa.

Osaj 61Ia)I(eHJl je nposeo cenaxmaecr rOAHHa )I(HBOTa y OqeBOM AOMy, yapacrajyhn csaxora nana y CTpaxy BO)I(HjeM, y A06po ypehenosr )I(HBOTY H nourronan.y ponrrrezsa. AlIH rnenajyha HeAOlIHqHOCT csoje 6pahe, rrOHelIITO je, OA MHorHX crsapa, yKpaTKo, caonurrasao CBOM o~y, 3aTO lIITO BplIHHa 3aHCTa He MO)I(e 6MTH sajemro ca HerrpaBAOM; TO joj He rrpHlIHqH. 360r rora cy OHH 3aMp3elIM JOCH<Pa; rrOlIITO cy lbeMY 6HJIH CTpaHH lbHXOBH rropO~H. Osaj MlIaAHn, xora cy xpacnne AHBHe oc06HHe, HMao je CHOBe, y KojHMa My je 6HlIO OTKpHBeHO lIITa je rpetiano na ce AorOAH ca lbHM, rro AOMOCTPOjy cseaaunser Bora. AlIH OTa~ JaKoB HHje snao sa Ty rajay MP)I(lbY npesra JOCH<PY, H jeAHocTaBHO je soneo JOCH<Pa 360r nenore iseronax BplIHHa, xoja ra je csarna OAlIHKOBalIa, jOlII OA nexaaxor y3paCTa. Kana cy 6pana nacna OB~e y CHxeMY, AorOAHlIO ce na JOCH<P OCTaHe ca ouesr: a OTa~ JaKOB, xao He)I(HH pOAHTelb, 6pHHyO ce 0 OHHMa KOjH cy 6HlIH y CHxeMY, H OH xazce JOCH<PY: "CrrpeMH ce, xeAO, H HAH CBOjOj 6pahH H rnrraj HX rroAP06HO aa lbHXOBO 3ApaBlbe, H yjenao sa CTaAa, H BpaTH ce lIITO npe," ,1J;06HBlIIH napeheise OA oua, JOCH<P je paAOCHO nonrao CBOjOj 6paha, aocehn HM rr03ApaB OA pOAHTelba, a yjenao H 6pHry KOjy je HMao sa lhHX. Ho, HAyhH, OH ce H3ry6Ho na rryTy, He HalIIaBlIIH 6pahy ca CTaAHMa. ,1J;OK je TyroBao H Y3AHcao sa

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tipahoxr, cpeo je xoaexa KOjJ1 My je nOKa3aO nyT. Kana J1X je YCKOPO yrncnao, J13 .n;alhJ1He, norpxao je ca panourhy, »ceJIehJ1 na J1X CBe J13lhy6J1. M OHJ1 cy BJ1.n;eJIJ1 rsera KaKO noJIa3J1, J1 xao .n;MBlhe 3BepJ1, HaMepJ1JIJ1 cy na y6J1jy JocJ1<Pa, a OH, xao He3JI06J1BO jarrse, 6J10 je cnpesran na ce npena y pYKe TJ1X najn.yhnx BYKOBa. Kaxo ce nax y6p30 npJ16JIJ1- )J(J10 J1 n03.n;paBJ10 J1X ca lhy6aBlhY, noaocehn J1M noanpas on pomrrezsa, OHJ1 cy, CMeCTa YCTaBllIJ1, nonYT .n;J1BlhJ1X 3BePJ1, CBYKJIJ1 ca isera llIapeHY XalhJ1HY, y xojy je 6J10 06yqeH, J1 CBaKJ1 on lhJ1X je llIKpryTao 3y6J1Ma, )J(eJIehJ1 na ra )J(J1Bor npo)J(.n;epe; OKPYTHJ1 J1 HeMJ1JIOcp.n;HJ1 y CBOM nenpajarersCTBy, y 06eCTJ1, MHoro cy MyqJ1JIJ1 onor xacrror J1 panocnor MJIa.n;J1ha. JOCJ1<P, BJ1.n;eBllIJ1 zra je y onaCHOCTJ1, .n;a HJ1KO ne Ma cascarsea,a npesra .fheMY, na xpajy rrpaoeraaa MOJI6aMa, CY3aMa, J1 Y3.n;J1llIyhJ1, nomose.caoj mac J1 mrra nx roeopehJ1: ,,3allITO ce BJ1 rHeaJ1Te? MOJIJ1M nac CBe, 6paho Moja, J1CTpnJ1Te Me jour MaJIO, na BaCHellITO YMOJIJ1M. Majxa Moja je YMpJIa, M Iaxoa no cana naaxe aarsosrcsaxor nana, a BJ1 xohere aauresr ouy na npnpenare HOBJ1'rrJlaq, xanarrpan jour YBeK rpaie J1 ,n;o naaac Hl1je npeKJ1HYT. MOJIJ1M CBe sac, J1CTpI1J1Te MejOIl1 MaJIO,.n;a ce He paanaajasr jour op; JaKOBa, xaKO a.erosa CTapOC1'ca tioneurhy He6J1 C:J1llIJIa yan, ,lJ,aKfle, 3aKJIJ1lbeM sac CBe .Borose-orana HallIJ1X, ABp~aMa, Hcaaxa J1 JaKOBa, BoroM KOjJ1 je y noserxy.noaaao Aspaaaa J1pexao My: "M,n;J1·"3. 3eMlh'e csojen on pona csojera J1 "3 noMaOu;a csojera y 3eMJbY xojy hy TJ1 ja nOKa3aTJ1 (ITocT12, 1) J1. nahy 1'J1, J1 YMHO)KJ1hyceMe rnoje, KaO asesne na He6y, J1 xao necax aa 06anJ1MOpa, KOMe liJ1 6poja HeMa"; 3aKJIJ1- lbeMCaeaJ1llIIM1M BorOM, KOjJ1 je Aapaasry nao rpmseise, .n;a ca CBJ1M ycp~eM rrpxaece rra *PTBY jemrsropomror CJ1Ha

csor Hcaaxa, KaKO 6J1 Tpnlhelhe Aspaasra npeurno y nOXBaJIy; 3aKJIJ1lbeM Boroxr KOjJ1 je J136aBJ10 Hcaaxa on CMPTJ1 J1, YMecTo rsera, nao OBHa sa 6JIarOrrpJ1jaTHY )J(pTBY; 3aKJIJ1- lheM CBeTJ1M Borosr KOjJ1 je nao 6JIarOCJIOB JaKOBY, J13 YCTa Hcaaxa, n.eroaor OU;a; 3aKJIJ1lbeM Boron KOjJ1 je J1llIaO ca JaKOBOM y Xapan, y Meconorasmjy, onaxne je Aspaasr J13amao: 3aKJIJ1lheM BorOM KOjJ1 je J136aB"0 JaKOBa on )J(aJIOCTJ1 J1 otiehao na he My .n;aTJ1 6JIarOCJIOB - na ja He O)J(aJIOCTJ1M JaKOBa, xao llITO ra je O)J(aJIOCTJ1JIa Paxarsa, .n;a OH He nnase aa MHOM, KaKO je nJIaKaO aa PaXJ1lhOM, na ce He noxrpaxe nOHOBO OqJ1 Iaxoazsese, KOjJ1 -rexa na BM.n;J1 MOj nonparax lheMy. Ilourazsnre Me JaKOBY, ouy MOMe, Y3MJ1Te Moje CY3e, a MeHe nourazsure lheMY:'

, Taxo je OH 3aKJIHlhao BorOM oraua, a OHJ1 cy ra o.n;Max 6aU;"JIJ1 y jaMY, lhYTJ1TJ1, He tiojehn ce Bora, He YBa)J(J1BllIJ1 HM KJIeTBe, J1 nopen rora nrroje CBJ1Ma rpJIJ10 HOre,J1 IIlTO je CY3aMa naranao TparOBe 6pahe, nartajyhn J1 ronopehn:

"TIOMJ.1JIyjTe Me, 6paho"; nnax, J1CTOr xaca cy ra 6aU;J1JIJ1 y jasry. M TOCJ1<p, 6aqeH y rrYC1'J1lbCKY jaMY, y HajrOpqJ1M cy- 3aMa, )J(aJIOCHJ1M nnaxea, OrrJIaKJ1BaO je ce6e J1 oua J aKOBa, J13aJIJ1BajyhJ1 ce CY3aMa ca npJ1ryIIleHJ1M Y3.n;aCJ1Ma, npo.n;y)J(J10 je.csoj rOBop,OBaKO .rosopeha: .Flornena], o-re JaKOBe, IIlTa ce noronano ca CJ1HOM TBOjJ1M; eTO, 6aqeH CaM y jasry, xao MpTBau;. ETO TJ1, po.n;J1Telh, oxexyjent na TJ1 ce BpaTJ1M, a ja cana JIe)J(J1M y jaMJ1, xao y6Hu;a. TH cast, pO)J,MTelby,peKao 01 MJ1: 'M)J,J1, rr03)J,paBJ1 opahycaojy, J1 BpaTJ1 ce urroopace', J1 eBO, OHJ.1 cy rrOCTaJIJ1 xao canpena BYKOBJ1, J1 ca rHeBOM cy Me O)J,BOjHJIH on.retie, .n;06pJ1 pO)J,J1Telhy. TM Me aehenr.sanre BJ1)J,eTH, neheur qyTJ.1 MOj rnac, Hebe ee SJ1llIe aa MeHe ocnalbaTJ1 crapocr .rsoja. HJ1ja nehy BJ.1,n;eTJ1 name rsojycsery

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ceny KOCy, jep ja HVlCaM HVlIlITa amue on norpetienor MpTBaua. Onnasu, pOp;VlTeJbY, xeno csoje, VI TBOj CVlH he rrJIaKaTVI aa onexi, 3aTO IIITO je y nermscray onaojen on nnua rnora, Ko he MVI p;aTVI rOJIy6a BeCHVlKa, KaKO 6V1 rrpeHeo TBOjOj CTaPOCTVI MOj rrJIaq! Hehe y MeHVI rrpeCTaTVI cy3e VI Y3p;acVI, xax VI xana MVI mac oCJIa6V1, VI He 6yp;eM VlMao nnxora na MVI rroMorHe. 0 3eMJbO, 3eMJbO xoja sanrrnr CBeTOM Bory sa rrpaBep;HVlM ABeJboM, KOjVl je HerrpaBep;HO y6V1jeH (rro rrpep;alhy rrpeAaKa oraua, Aa je 3eMJba namora Bory 360r KpBVI rrpaBeAHVlKa), TVI aasann VI cana JaKOBY, ou;y MOMe, VI jacno My xa)l(VI IlITa ce MeHJ1 AOrOAVlJIO OA Moje tipahe"

A 6e3AYIlIHVlU;VI, caxio IlITO cy 6aU;VlJIVI Iocnrpa y jasry, caMVI cy ceJIVI na jeny VI nnjy ca panourhy: VI xao IlITO ce rrpeY3HocVI onaj KOjVl rr06eAVI nenpnjarezsa, TaKO cy VI OHVI, ca panomhy y cpu;y, ceJIVI aa Tprre3y. Kana cy jeJIVI VI rrVlJIVI, oAjeAHoM rrOAVI)l(Y caoje OqVl VI BVlAe KaKO VlAY TproBU;VI J1cMaVlJbhaHVI, rrYTeM sa Ernnar, VI noce MVloMVlpVlce, seaaHe na KaMVlJIaMa. J1 6paha rosope jenaa ApyrOM: "MHoro je 60Jbe na npOll.aMO 1001.<\la Tl1.M CTpaHl1.M TprOBll,l1.Ma; Hexa OH l1.Ae VI yMVlpe y crpanoj 3eMJbVl, na He 6YAe aaura pyxa na HaIlIeM 6paTy:' J1 isera cy, csor concrnenor opara, Vl3BYKJIVI Vl3 jasre, xao AVlBJbe asepa, VI Y3eBIlIVl sa rsera HOaau, npenamr ra rproaunsra, 3a60paBVlBIlIVl ~ rOpqVlHY VI Tyry csor oua.

TprOBU;VI, nacraszsajyhx CBOj rryr, CBpaTVlJIVI cy na XVInonposs, rne je 6V10 PaXVlJbVlH rpoo, jep, Paxnrsa je TaMO yMPJIa, aa rryTy sa xVlrroApoM, xana ce JaKoB spahao Vl3 Meconorascrje (nOCT 35,19). lJVlM je JOCVlcp yrnenao rpofi csoje MajKe Paxnzse, AOTpqaBIlIVl, rrao je rrOBpx rpotinnne VI rrOAVIraaum CBOj mac, sajenao je ca cyaasra, VI y jany caoje nyure

je saaamro, roaopehn: .Paxnn,a, Paxnn,a, MajKo Moja, ycraHVI Vl3 casiohe VI nornenaj na Iocropa, xora CVI BOJIeJIa, IlITa ce C lhVlM AOrOAVlJIO; eBO rrpeAaH je, VI xao 3JIOqVlHu;a, aapo- 6JbeHVlKa, OABOAe ra y Ernnar, y pYKe ryhaaa, Bpaha xroja, CKVlHyBIlIVl Me AO rOJIOTVllhe, rrpeAaJIVI cy Me y porrCTBO, a JaKOB HVlje snao na cast ja rrpOAaH. OTBOPVl MVI, MajKo MOja, rpoti CBOj, VI rrpVlMVI Me y rpof CBOj; nexa raj rpoo 6YAe jenaa nocrersa VI aa retie VI sa xreae. I1pVlMVI, Paxnzsa, xeno cnoje, KaKO He 6V1 yMPJIO HaCVlJIHOM cxphy: rrpVlMVI, MajKo, MeHe KOjVl caM Vl3HeHaAa OCTao 6e3 JaKOBa, xao IlITO caM y AeTVllhCTBY OCTao 6e3 Te6e. I1oCJIYllIaj, xrajxo Moja, ysnaxe cpu;a Mor VI rrpVlMVI Me y rpoti CBOj; 3aTO IIITO Moje OqVl He Mory BVlllIe rrpOJIVlBaTVI CY3e, VI Moja nyura He MO)l(e smne jeuarn VI Y3AVlcaTVI. Paxnzsa, Paxxzsa, 3ap He CJIYllIallI mac CVlHa csor JocVlcpa? EBO, HaCVlJIHO Me OABOAe; sap aeheur na Me rrpVlMVlIlI? I1pVl3V1Bao casr ja VI JaKOBa, aJIVI OH nnje qyo MOj mac; eBO rrpVl3V1BaM VI reoe, 3ap Me HVI TVI He -ryjem? YMpehy OBAe na rpotiy TBOMe, na He 6V1X muao y ryhy seMJbY, xao 3JIOqVlHau;?"

Kana cy J1cMaVlJbhaHVI, KOjVl cy KyrrVlJIVI Iocarpa, BVlAeJIVI Aa je OH oraurao VI JIVlu;eM rrao na rpoo csoje MajKe Paxnrse: rana cy CBVI, y jenan mac, peKJIVI jenan APyroMe: "OBaj MJIaAVlh xohe na Vl3BeAe MarVljy HaA nasra, KaKO 6V1 Morao na OAe OA Hac, VI KaKO MVI He 6V1 CXBaTVlJIVI KaA nocrane HeBVlAJbVlB aa Hac. 3aTo Y3MVlMO VI Be)l(VlMO ra Vl3 rrpep;OCTpO)l(HOCTVI, KaKO Hac He 6V1 CBe ocneneo," J1 npaurasur«. peKOllIe My nperehn: "YcTaHVI, HarrOKOH, VI rrpeCTaHVI na BpaqallI, VlHaqe hesro, aKO 're npetiajevo HaA rp06HVlU;OM, Vl3ry6V1TVI HOBau; KOjVl CMO AaJIVI sa Te6e:' AJIVI, xana je OH YCTao, 'rana cy CBVI YBVlAeJIVI na My je nnue ropeno OA ropxor nnaxa, VI CBaKVI je

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no-reo na ra rnrra, caocehajyhn: ,,3aIlITo TM nnaseur? 3aTO IlITO CM ce CMlIHO Y3HeMMpMo xana CM anneo raj rpoo, nonaaehn OBaMO, na nyTy npexra OBOM xMnop;poMy. ClI060P;HO HaM pe~M, He nnanrehn ce KOjM je TBOj 3aHaT M 360r xera cy Te nponamr. OHM naCTMpM, xana cy re nponasamr, rOBOpMlIM cy HaM: notipo ra npzorre, KaKO BaM He 6M notierao na nyTy; MM sa TO He onroaapawo, jep CMO BaM OBO pexrnr ynanpen . .IJ:aKlIe, nonporiao HaM ncnpnxaj qMjM CM TM p06? .IJ:a lIM TMX nacrnpa MlIM nexor p;pyror cnotionnor -rosexai J.1 06jacHM HaM 360r xera CM, TaKO BaTpeHO, nao na rp06HM~y? MM CMO re KynMlIM M nOCTalIM CMO TBOjM rocnonapn, Ka)KM HaM CBe 0 cetia. AKo on Hac TO caxpxjeur, KOMe lIM hem onna MohM OTKpMTM? AKO nax TM, HaIlI p06, KaKO cy HaM pexmt OHM naCTMpM, MMClIMIlI na notiernem, KaKO onna na He na3MMO na rerie? Hero YMMPM ce, M Ka)KM HaM OTBOpeHO xoje je rnoje 3aHMMalbe? qMHM HaM ce na CM TM ClIO- 60p;aH qOBeK, M MM ce nehesro OP;HOCMTM npeMa Te6M xao npesra potiy, Hero xao npexra 6paTy M BOlbeHOM CMHy. Jep BMP;MMO y TBOM nOHaIlIalbY p;OCTa cnotione M p;OCTa saaisa. TM CM nocrojan, MlIap;Mhy, na ce nOKa)KeIlI ~apy M 6yp;eIlI nOIlITOBaH ca BelIMKaIlIMMa; 3aTO IlITO he TM ra rsoja nenora y6p30 p;OHeTM BelIMKO nocrojancrao M xacr M Moh, M 6Mhem HaM npajaren, M n03HaHMK, TaMO rne hexro re onsecrn, M )KMBeheIlI TaMO y panocrn, Iep KO nehe 3aBOJleTM TaKBOr MlIap;Mha, KOjM je na OKO TaKO npennean, TaKO 61Iaropop;aH M Myp;ap?"

JOCMCP MM onroaapa, Y3P;MIlIyhM: "HMcaM 6MO HM p06, HM Bpaqap, a raxohe HMcaM HMIlITa HM norpeumo KaKO 6M Me npenann y Bailie pyKe, Hero caM 6MO OMMlbeHM CMH Mora oua M HajMMlIMjM CMH MajKe. OHM naCTMpM cy Moja 6paha,

M OTa~ Me je nocnao na MX BMP;MM M caaaasr 0 lbMXOBOM 3p;paBlby, jep cy ce HeKO npesie aanpzcana na nJIaHMHM, 360r sera Me je OTa~ M nocnao na MX BMP;MM; M OHM, Y3eBIlIM Me, op;Max cy Me npep;alIM y ponCTBO naxra, M n06y~eHM crpaIlIHOM 3aBMIlIhy, OP;BOjMlIM cy Me on oua, He nonaocehn Ty lby6aB, KOjOM Me je soneo pop;MTelb; a osaj rpoo osne - TO je rpoti Moje MajKe, jep, xana ce MOj OTa~ aexana spahao M3 Xapana, Mp;yhM xa MecTY y KOM cana )KMBM, npOlIa3MO je osyna, M y BpeMe nYToBalba Mor oua, osne je YMplIa Moja MajKa, M caxpalbeHa je y TOM rpooy xoja BMp;MTe:'

OHM, qyBIlIM CBe TO, npomnuc cy3e 360r isera M peKOme My: "He 60j ce, MlIap;M xoaexe: TM nneur y Ernnar pap;M BelIMKMX nOqaCTM; raoje upre noxasyjy TBOjy nlIeMeHMTOCT; 60lbe ce parry] TOMe, IlITO CM ce oClI060P;MO on 3aBMCTM M Mp)Klbe 6pahe xoja cy re nponana HaMa:'

qMM cy npenann JOCMcpa, a.eroaa 6paha Y3eIlIe jape, 6p- 30 ra saxnaure, iseroaov KPBlbY YMplbaIlIe xalbMHY cseror JOCMcpa, M MCTor xaca je rrocnanre CBOM ony, rosopehn: "HaIlIlIM CMO Ty xarsnny tia-reay y nlIaHMHM, M op;Max CMO npen03HalIM na je TO xazsnaa naurer 6paTa, M CBM CMO Y )KalIOCTM sa lbMM; 3aTO CMO, He HaIlIaBIlIM csor tipara, nOClIalIM Te6M, oxe, JOCMCPOBy IlIapeHY xarsmry: npenosnaj M caM, na lIM OHa npMnap;a TBOM CMHY; MM CMO nax CBM npenosaana na je OHa J OCMcpOBa:'

BMp;eBIlIM xazsnny, JaKOB sasana nnaxyha M ropKO jaP;MKyjyhM, M pese: "OBO je xarsnaa Mora CMHa JOCMcpa. 31Ia 3Bep je nojena CMHa Mor:' Panajyha, rOBopMO je reunco Y3p;Mnryhn: ,,3aIlITO ja HMcaM nojenen YMeCTO retie, CMHe? 3aIlITO 3Bep HMje panaje cpella MeHe, KaKO 6M ce HaCMTMlIa MHOMe M OCTaBMlIa retie, CMHe MOj? 3alllTO mrje MeHe pacxanana

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ra asep, M saurro ja HMCaM rrOCTaO XpaHa sa aanosozsea,e isene rJIa~M? Asaj, aaaj MeHM, KM~a ce cpue Moje O~ ryre sa JOCM<POM! Asaj, asaj MeHM, rne je nojenea MOj CMH, na O~eM TaMO M rrOqyrraM csoje cene BJIaCM Ha~ JIerrOTOM iserOBoM? He )KeJIMM amne )KMBeTM 6e3 Iocnrpa. [a caM caM KpMB aa TBOjy CMPT, xeno, ja casr caM TaM OM rrOKpMO CBeTJIe OqM rnoje: ja caM caM retie npenao CMPTM, nocnaaum 're na M~elll rrYCTMlbOM, KaKO 6M BM~eo CBOjy 6pahy M xotiane. I1JIaKahy 360r rora, M nponasahy cyse csaxora xaca:

M CMhM hy y an KO~ reoe, CMHe MOj. M YMeCTO TeJIa rnor, JOCM<Pe, nonoxorhy xalbMHY TBOjy rrpe~ OqM, KaKO 6M nenpeCTaHO rrpOJIMBaO cy3e nan lbOM. M eTO, rrOHOBO je raoja xalbMHa, CMHe MOj, rrOBO~ HOBor ropxor janxxoaaa,a, OHa je qMTaBa, M 3aTO ja MMCJIMM na retie HMje nojena 3Bep, MMJIM MOj CMHe, Hero re je lby~cKa pYKa CKMHYJIa M 3aKJIaJIa. ,IJ;a re je rrpO)K~PJIa 3Bep, xao lllTO Ka)KY raoja 6paha, raoja xazsnna 6M 6MJIa MCKM~aHa na ~eJIOBe, jep 3Bep He MO)Ke rrpBO na re CKMHe, ITa na ce HaCMTM TBOjMM TeJIOM. Hax M na CM rrpBO CKMHYT, ITa nojenea, rnoja xarsnaa He 6M 6MJIa sanaaaaa KPBlbY; a cana na xalbMHM HeM a HM KaHI,IaMa rro~epaHMx MeCTa, HM pyrra O~ sytia 3BepM. O~aKJIe OH~a KpB? Orrer, aKO je 3Bep, xoja je nojerra JOCM<pa, 6MJIa caxra, KaKO je OHa MOrna yqMHMTM CBe TO? ETO MeHM jenaaxo nzraxa M )KaJIOCTM, na rrJIaqeM aa JOO!<POM M TyryjeM nan xalbMHor.r; MMaM nsa nna-ra, nse ryre, nse najropxe ropxaae, aa JOCM<i>OM M aa xalbMHOM, KaKO je OHa CKMHYTa ca n.era. YMpehy ja, JOCM<Pe, CBeTJIOCTM Moja, Tyro Moja; nexa xazsnaa rnoja cana cahe ca MHOM y an. Hehy na rJIe~aM nana 6e3 retie, CMHe MOj [oCM<pe• Hexa He ocraje Moja nyura y MeHM, 6e3 raoje nyure, seno Moje, JOCM<Pe!"

MCMaMlbhaHM nax Y3eBlllM JOCM<Pa, 6PM)KlbMBO cy ra ~OBeJIM y Ernrrar, jep cy CMaTpaJIM na he sa lberoBY nerrory ~06MTM HOBa~ on nexor neznrxama. M, ~OK cy rrpOJIa3MJIM rpa~oM, y6p30 cy CpeJIM Ilererppnja, M OH MX, BM~eBlllM [ocM<pa, yrrMTa: "Ka)KMTe, TproB~M, O~aKJIe je Taj MJIa~Mh? OH He JIMqM na sac, jep CTe BM CBM MCMaMlbhaHM, a OH je npexpacaa" OHM cy nax o~rOBOpMJIM: "To je BeOMa 6JIarOpO~aH M yqeH MJIa~Mh:' OH MM nane HOBa~ KOjM cy Tpa)KMJIM M Kymr JOCM<Pa O~ lbMX. M ~OK ra je O~BO~MO y CBOj concrnenn ~OM, ncmrrao ra je KaKO 6M casaao 0 rserososc nacnrrratsy, Kao MCTMHCKa rpaHa cseror cexietra npaaennor Aspaaaa, McaaKa M JaKOBa, uanpenosao je JOCV1<P y BpJIV1HaMa V1 }J,O- 6POTM, Y Ilererppxjeaosr ~OMy, CBaKMM ~aHOM, y MMCJIMMa M peqMMa, 3a~06MjajyhM BMlllM crenen nenoxrynpaja, MMajyhM aenpecrano rrpe~ OqMMa cseror Dora csor, cneanneher Dora oraua, KOjM ra je M36aBMo M3 jaMe CMpTM M Mp)Klbe 6pahe. Me1)YTMM, n.eroso cpue je qeCTO 06Y3MMaJIa Tyra sa lberOBMM ouest, CBeTMM JaKoBoM.

Ilererppnje, BM~ehM ~06pOTy MJIa~Mha, rseroso BeJIMKO snan.e M qeCTMTOCT, CBe lllTO je MMao nao je y pYKe npexpaCHOM JOCM<PY, xao pohenosr CMHy, a caM yonurre HMje snao KaKO je JOCM<P otiaarsao CBe rrOCJIOBe; Ilererppaje ce y TO naje sremao qaK HM pexjy, caxo je y norosopeno BpeMe jeo XJIe6. Jep je snao na je JOCM<P BeOMa BepaH, HapOqMTO xana ce YBepV10 V1CKYCTBOM na ce qV1TaBO iseroao V1Malbe yMHO)KMJIO Y JOCM<POBMM pYKaMa; a p060BM M p06Mlbe 6MJIM cy BeOMa pa~OCHM, jep cy IIO~ JOCM<POBMM Ha~30pOM Y)KMBaJIM CBa 60raTCTBa.

AJIM n.eroaa rocnonapaua, menajyhn JOCM<Pa, yxpaurenor JIerrOTOM M 3HalbeM, 6MJIa je norohena lby6aBlby M ca-

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TaHCKOM crpaurhy rrpeMa lDeMY, H CHIIHO je »cenena na 6yp;e ca lDHM, xcenena je na Tor xacaor MJIap;Hha, raj H3BOP ueJIOMyp;peHocTH, rypHe y npoaannjy pa3BpaTa. Pacanajyhn XHlbap;e na CrrJIeTKe H yKpace, MHCJIHJIa je na he p;eJIOBaTH na CJIa60CT MJIap;Or xonexa, csaxor xaca je MelDaJIa onehy, nonajyhn cjaj CBOM JIHQY, KHTehH ce 3JIaTOM, caTaHCKHM rromep;HMa H op;BpaTHHM OCMeCHMa, MaMHJIa je necpehunua CBeTe OqH npasemnoca, OHa je MHCJIHJIa na he, THM CBOjHM MeTop;aMa, JIaKO YXBaTHTH P;yllIy CBeTOra y CBOjy Mpe)l(y. AJIH JOCH<P, orpahen CTpaXOM EO)l(HjHM, mrje na lDy xax HH nornenao, J1 OHa ce, BHp;eBIllH na MHorH yKpacH aa xoje je paqYHaJIa He nerryjy na rrpaBep;HHKa, pacnanana JOIll jaqHM rrJIaMeHOM H CHJIHO ce 3aMHCJIHJIa, He HaJIa3ehH nrra JOIll na yqHHH ca lDHM. Ha xpajy, CMHCJIHJIa je na ra OTBopeHO rro- 30Be na HeqaCHO p;eJIO, H -rexajyha noronno apesre, xana 6H rrorrYT zsyre 3MHje H3JIHJIa na lDera cas OTPOB paaspara, 6eCTHp;Hor JIHQa, peKJIa je CBeTOMe: "JIe3H ca MHOM (ITOCT 39, 12), H HHqera ce He rrnaunr, CJI060P;HO MH npahn, no CHTOCTH hy ce HaCJIa1)HBaTH TBOjOM JIerrOTOM, H TH caM ce HaCHTH MOje npnjarae cnozsaunsocrn. TH HMaIll rroTrryHy BJIaCT Hap; CBHM CJIyraMa y p;OMY; HHKO p;pym aehe CMeTH na nohe H rrpncnyuncyje urra MH pamoao. AKO ce He cnaacem, nnamehH ce Mora MY)l(a, ja hy ra yMOpHTH, nahy My OTpOB . .IJ:01)H MeHH, HcrryHH Mojy )l(elbY, ja CBa rrJIaMTHM lby6aBlby npesra Te6J1:' AJIJ1 OH, J1 TeJIOM J1 p;YllIOM, p;J1jaMaHTCKJ1 KaMeH, HHje ce noxoneoao y P;yIllH, -rax HH ycp~ TaKBe 6ype, Hero jy je, 0p;6MBIllH CBe CTpaXOM EO)l(HjHM M rrpeKpaCHOM noripoTOM xoja lDeMY rrpHJIHqH, y6ep;Mo pexjy EO)l(MjOM, OBaKO rosopehn: "HHje noopo TO, )l(eHO, na ja rrOqMHHM rpex ca TO- 60M, MOjOM rocrrop;apHQoM. [a ce Bora 60jHM; jep, eTO, MOj

rocnonap je CBe caoje HMalDe, H y p;OMY, H Y nozsrrsra, rrpenao MeHH, M HeMa HHllITa anure IllTO nnje y MOjHM pYKaMa, OCHM jep;MHo retie, rocnonapnne Moje. 3aTo He npacrojn MeHJ1 p;a HH y urra rrpeTBopHM TaKBY lby6aB raxsor rocnonapa, HapOqJ1TO jep Me je OH TOJIHKO 3aBOJIeo. KaKO hy yqHHHTH TaKaB rpex npen EorOM KOjH noaaaje cpua H YTp06e?"

OBe CBeTe pe-nt je cnaxor qaca noaasn.ao JOCH<P CBOjOj rocnonapmm, caaeryjyha, MOJIehH, npexopenajyhn, ocyhyjyhH je; aJIH OHa HHje rrpHXBaTaJIa HHIllTa 60)l(aHCKO, Hero je xao acnnna rrOKpHBaJIa csoje yIllH, H JOIll nnnre ce pacrralbHBaJIa on 3JIe )l(yp;lDe xoja je KHrrTeJIa y n.oj, Henpexnnno je speriana QeJIOMyp;peHora, KaKO 6H naurna noronao BpeMe H 6e3 CTHp;a ra rrpHMOpaJIa na rpex. J OCH<p je nax, BHp;eBunr zta ra »ceaa TaKO 6eCTHp;HO, xao snep, nacphe aa rsera, KaKO 6H ra 06eIllqaCTHJIa, nonnaao OqH csoje Bory OTaQa M qeCTO ce MOJIMO CBeBHllIlDeM, OBaKO rosopehn: .Boace Aspaasra, Hcaaxa H JaKOB a, BeJIHKH H CTpaIllHH, H36aBH Me on Te 3BepH. J ep, eTO BHP;HIll casr, BJIap;HKO, 6e3YMlbe xcene, xoja rajao )l(eJIM na Me rrorytia p;eJIHMa tieursaurha, KaKO 6HX ja yMpO sajenao ca lDOM y rpecuaa, H nocrao norrryHO onaojeu on sror oua Iaxosa. TH, BJIap;HKO, KOjH CH Me crracao CMpTH on pYKe 6e3aKOHe 6pahe, H36aBH Me H cana on lbYTHTe 3BepH, KaKO He 6HX CBOjHM p;eJIHMa nocrao naJIeK oQHMa MOjHM, KOjH cy CJ1JIHO H 6or060ja)l(lbHBo 3aBOJIeJIJ1 Te6e, Iocnone," 11 y3p;J111Iytm J13 p;y6J1He csora cpu;a, OH je rrpH3HBao H rtoxtoh JaKOB a, rosopehrr: "I10MOJIH ce H casr, pop;MTelbY, aa CHHa cnora JOCH<Pa; jep ce CHJIHa 6HTKa nonnrna na MeHe; H MO)l(e Me OP;BOjHTH on Bora: OHa je MHOro crpaunrnja on CMpTH KOjOj cy XTeJIa na Me npenajy 6paha. OHH 6H y6HJIH jenuo TeJIO, a OHa onsaja P;yIlly on Bora.

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3HaM, pOp)1TeJby MOj, na cy raoje MOJB1TBe sa MeHe nourne no cseror Bora, M ja caM ce 3aTO M36aBMO M3 jaMe CMpTM. 11 cana, MCTO TaKO, YMMnOCTMBM CBeBMllIIDera, ,n;a Me M36aBM on OBe 3BepM, xoja xohe na 06ellI'IaCTM rnora CMHa, nessajylur CTM,n;a y O'IMMa, HMTM crpaxa Bozcnjer y cPQY. Ilor-ronM ce, po,n;MTeJbY, na ja, xao llITO caM TeneCHO nnnrea rnor OKpMJba, He rrOCTaHeM CTpaH M TBOjOj nyunr. [a caM nonrao opaha, a OHM cy nocrann xao 3BepM, M xao HajJbyhM ByKOBM cy Me o,n;ByKnM on retie, ,n;06pM ponnrezsy, M ja cax onsenea y Ernnar, y pYKe Ty1)MHa; ana M osne Me je rrOHOBO rrpecpena ,n;pyra 3Bep. Bpaha cy xrena na Me y6Mjy y rrYCTM}bM, a OHa ce Tpy,n;M na Me paCTprHe y CBOjOj rrOCTeJbM. Iloxrona ce, O'Ie, KaKO ja He 6MX yMpO rrpe,n; Boron, M rrpe,n; oQMMa MOjMM:'

Kana, na xpajy, amne HMje xreo na ce 06a3Mpe na pe'IM rocnozepnne, xoja ra je HerrpeKM,n;Ho nananana, rrorrYT 6eCTM,n;He acrnme, OHa je Tpa)KMna noronan TpeHYTaK na ra Ha1)e y CBOjOj crraBaOHMQM, M na raj Ha'IMH ,n;a yqMHM rpex. A xazta ra je nauma xpaj caoje nocrerse, xao llITO je TO »cenena, 6eCTM,n;HO rrpMcTyrrMBllIM uenoxrynpeaoac, rrpMMopaBana ra je, rrpMByKaBllIM ra cetin, na rrO'IMHM 6e3aKoIDe. A OH, BM,n;eBllIM HeM3MepHY 6ecTM,n;HoCT »cene, TPKOM je notierao on IDe, M3 cnanaonaue. 11 rrorrYT opna, KOjM xana BM,n;M nOBne Y3neTM na He60 KpMnMMa CBOjMM, TaKO je JOCM<P 6e)Kao M3 ,n;Bopa, KaKO ra He 6M nooemora na)KJbMBMM pe'IMMa MnM nocrymneaa: M OCTaBMBllIM CBOjy XaJbMHY y pYKaMa rocrro,n;apMQe, nstierao je 1)aBOJbe Mpe)Ke. OBY xceay, BM,n;eBllIM KaKO OH 6e)KM, otiyaeo je BenMKM rnes, M \.OHa je CMMcnMna na rrpaBe,n;HMKa notienn HajfRycHMjMM pe'IMMa, naxrepaaajyI'm na ra OKpMBM rrpe,n; CBOjMM MY)KeM, KaKO 6M IDeH MY)K,

'IyBllIM TO M aanamrsura ce Jby60MOpOM, y6MO JOCM<pa. CaMa ca C060M je paasonun-ana OBaKO: ,,3a MeHe je MHoro 60- Jbe na yMpe JOCM<P; rana hy M ja 6MTM cnoxojna: jep He Mory nenpexanno rnenarn TaKBy iserosy nenory y CBOM ,n;OMy, He nanaaehn xroryhnocr na, rajao MnM jasno, nocezryjexi rserosy nerrOTY MnM MCKOPMCTMM IDerOBa aennxa 3HaIDa:' 3aTo je, ,n;03BaBllIM p060Be M p06MIDe, IDMMa peKna: ,,3HaTe nM urra MM je yqMHMO p06 [espejmr, xora je MOj My)K nocraBMO nan CBOjMM ,n;OMOM? Xreo je 6eCTM,n;HO 6MTM ca MHOM. Hnje My ,n;OBOJbHa BnaCT nan MOjMM ,n;OMOM, M xreo je na Me pasnsoja on Mor MY)Ka:' M Y3eBllIM JOCM<P0BY XaJbMHY, rroxasa je CBOM MY)Ky, )KanehM ce M rosopehz: "ETo, TM CM ,n;oseo poria Iespejana na MM ce Hapyra M O)KanOCTM Me, TBOjy cyrrpyry; sap TM He anam, rocnonapy Moj,}J,a casr ja QenOMYnpena M,n;a caM TM 3aTO TO pexnai"

l.JyBllIM TO, My)K o,n;Max noseposa )KeHMHMM pe'IMMa, na je TO 3aMCTa TaKO, M CMeCTa Hape,n;M na ce JOCM<P rrpe,n;a y TaMHMQY; y3 MHore norspne M rrpeTIDe, 6e3 cacnYllIa}ba M ncrpare, pexaaunr: .Hapebyjesr na ce JOCM<P 6aQM y TaMHMQY, M na My ce He najy HMKaKBe onaxunrue" AnM ca }bMM je 6MO Bor Aspaaaa, Hcaaxa M J aKOBa, KOjM noanaje cpQa M yrpooe, M nao My je na npoaahe caocehaise y O'IMMa TaMHM'IKMX CTpa)Kapa; M crpaaca ra je OCTaBMna na MMPY, jep Bor anxana He HarrYllITa OHe KOjM ra ce 60je CBMM CPQeM.

Ilocne rora, ABa eBHyxa cy nO'IMHMlla rpellIKy npeA uapeM - <papaOHOM: rnanmr nexapnax M rnaaan rreKap, M Qap Hape,n;M na MX 6aQe y TaMHMQY. A JOCM<P HX je cnY)KHo. Ka,n;a cy 060jHQa rrpoBenM y TaMHMQM nse ronnae, Kp03 HeKOnMKO nana, M jenan M ,n;pyrM, MManM cy can 0 TOMe urra he ce YCKOPO noronarn ca IDMMa. CBeTM JOCH<P nax, 6y,n;yhM na

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HX je CllPKHO, KaO anasajne lby,n;e, rro 06Hqajy je nomao ,n;a HX YCllPKH H naurao HX je y nennxoj )I(allOCTH; 3aTO IllTO cy 06a CHa, xoja cy BH,n;ellH, 6Hlla cyxropna H cerna. Kana je OH xceneo na casna pa3110r lbHXOBe ryre. 060jH~a cy My peKllH: "VIMallH CMO CHOBe, H cana ryryjexro. jep nexra -rosexa xojn 6H srorao rrpOTYMaqHTH CHOBe xoje CMO BH,n;ellH:' OH HM je pexao: "DO)I(Hje neno je ,n;a TO orxpnje OHOMe KOjH ra ce 60jH; Hero Ka)I(HTe MH cnoje CHOBe, KaKO 6H Bor OTKPHO

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lbHXOBO anaserse rrpeKO MeHe. aCllYIllaBIllH OBO, maBHH

nexapanx H maBHH rreKap, HcrrPWIallH cy csoje CHOBe, urra je CBaKH snneo, H JOCH<P HM je, ca MallO pe-nt, oojacano CBe nerazse onora IllTO he ~ap yqHHHTH ca lbHMa, KaKO ce H noronnno, a TO je: maBHOM rrexapHHKY je spahea paanja qHH, a rnanaor rreKapa ~ap je OCYAHO aa CMpT.

JOCH<P, npenaanenuta.riyrryhy noxacr fJI'aBHOr nexapHHKa, MOllHO .ra je, pexasura: "IloMeHH Me <papaOHY;H He ycrpyxasaj cena My otijacnnur CBe IllTO caM yqMHMO, KaKO 6H Me M3Beo onasne, [a HJ1CaM HMIllTa rrorpeumo H HMcaM yqHHJ10 HMIllTa 1l01lIe, rra nrrax caM saxzsyvan y TaMHl<HW:' AllH 3alIITO TH, M3a6paHO H 611aiKeHO cesre, MOJIMill CMPTnor qOBeKa? Ocraazsajyhn Dora, MOJIHllI qOBeKa? Ben CM y TOllHKMM aenozsasra rrpoeepno na C~6H DO)I(Hje sacryrmaIIITBO, xana CH It[ xalbHHY csoje ~eJIOMy)J;peHocTH caxyaao qHCTOM? 360r sera CH Mallo,n;YlIIaH, 611a)KeHH?Dor nnamrpa ,n;a TM napyjenapcrso H czrany, xana lbeMy 6yp;e yronno. AKo jYHaqKJ1 nonaeceuracxynrea,e, jour caernnjahe 6MTH n06e,n;HJl'IKH BeH~M. Ho ,n;a 611 ce ncrryaano TYMaqelhe 06a CHa,KaKO je pexao JOCJ1<P, <papaoH je Kp03 TpH nana npnpe,n;HO f036y aa CBe caoje aemrxaute, ceTMO ce K rnasaor nexapa H' rnasnor nexapnnxa, M nexapajixa je IT03BaO na csoie

MeCTO, a nekapa je OCy,n;HO na CMpT. AllH, maBHH rrexapHHK je 3a60paBHO ua JOCH<Pa.

Ilocne jour nse ronnne, rro nposcrcny DO)I(HjeM, <papaOH je YCHHO He06HqHe CHOBe, KOjH cy npeBa3HIIIllH YMOBe CBHX ernrrarcxax My,n;pa~a H qap06lbaKa; H <papaOH je casnao CBe My,n;pa~e H 06jaBHo HM csoje CHOBe, ann HHKO HHje Morao na My xaxce xoje je lbHXOBO aaaserse. VI KaKO je ~ap 6HO y aennxo] )I(allOCTH, maBHH nexapnnx ce ceTHO Iocadra, H nonpoono je ~apy rrpeHeo CBe 0 lbeMY H rseroBOj My,n;pOCTJ1. qyBIIIH aa rsera, ~ap ce BeOMa oripanosao M rra)I(lbHBO ra noanao KO,n; ce6e. VI xana je JOCH<P nonrao H3 TaMHH~e, <papaOH My je pexao rrpe,n; CBOjHM semncannoaa:

"Cllylliao caM 0 Te6H,,n;a CM TH My,n;ap qOBeK H na MO)I(ern npOTYMaqKTM Ba)I(HeCHOBe:' JOCH<P je O,1:\rOBOpHO <papaoRY: "TYMaqelhe CHOBa npwrra,n;a OHOMe KOjH Aaje MYfl.POCT." VI <papaOH je HcrrpMqaO cnoje CHOBe rrpe)J, JOCH<POM J1 CBMM CBOjHM BeJU1KalliMMa; H· MCTor rperryrxa je qyo TYMaqelhe CHOBa M3 JOCM<P0BHX YCTa H H3 YCTaDOiKHjl1X. VI 3a,n;J1BMO ce <papaOH JOCM<POBOM aaaisy J1 rserososa H3Y3eTHOM caneTy, jep ra jeJOCH<pcaBeTOBao, OBaKO rosopehn: "IlpbHa1)J1 ce6M, nape, nexor pa3yMlfor J1 My,n;por xosexa, w. rrOCTaBM rana caxynzsa ernnarcxy mneionry, KaKO 6w., xana HacTY'nM BenJ1Ka rnan, 6MllO MHoro nnonosa y pesepaa, y apesre HeBOJbe:' VI ~ap je peKao: "Te6e nocraszsaa, on osor nana, Ha)J, qMTaBHM ErHnToM, xana eM nao TaKaB caner,' M nexa Errmar H can MOjP;OM rrpMMa cyr; J13 ycra TBOjMX:'

Tana je JOCM<P ceo y csoja xorra, M CBH 'BeJIHKallIW cy 'MIIIJIH ncnpen M OKO JOCM<Pa. Ileredipuje, KOjJ1 je paanje 6a~MO JOCMq,a y TaMHM~y, BJ1p;eB'lliH TO He06HqaO qy)J,O, KaKO je JOCH<P ceo na <papaOHOBa xona, BeOMa ce yrrnaurno,

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H HerrpHMeTHO ce OP;BOjMBllIM on aemtxaura, 6p30 je OTMllIaO CBOjOj xyhn, M ca BelIMKMM CTpaXOM, peKao je CBOjOj )KeHM:

"JeCM lIH TM nnnena, )KeHO, TO He06MqHO qyp;o? I1peTM HaM BelIHKM crpax, 3aTO llITO je raj naur p06 JOCM<P, nocrao rocrrop;ap Hap; aaxra M Hap; qMTaBMM ErMrrTOM, M eBO y ClIaBH cena na <papaOHOBa xona H CBM My yxasyjy nourrosan.e xao Qapy. [a ra HHcaM Morao BMp;eTH, M 3aTO caM ce HerrpHMeTHO yp;aJbMO:' Ilereopnjeaa »ceaa, caClIYllIaBllIM CBe TO, oxpaopn ra, roaopehn: .Peha hy TH CBOj rpex; ja caM TO yqMHHlIa; ja casr aasonena Tor QelIoMyp;peHor rrpeKpaCHor JOCM<Pa, M CBaxor -raca caxr ra HerrpeCTaHO yana-nota y 3aMKe MHOlliTBOM YMMJbaBalha, KaKO 6MX 6MlIa ca lhMM M nacnahnnana ce lberOB OM lIerrOTOM, amr HMcaM MorlIa OCTBapMTM CBOj QMJb; OH Me mrje ynocrojasao HM pe-nt: xax caxr ra jenannyr YXBaTMna H npnxropana na 6yp;e 61IarOHaKlIOH rrpeMa MeHM, alIM OH je MCTpqaO M3 p;OMa; TO je 6MlIO oana, xana caM TM noxasana rserony XaJbMHy. ,IJ,aKlIe, ja caxr My oxroryhana QapCTBO M BelIMKy ClIaBY. ,IJ,a ja HMcaM TaKO sasonena JOCM<Pa, OH He 6H 6MO 6aqeH y TaMHMQY; OH MeHM M p;yryje aaxsanxocr, xao KPHBQY sa lberoBY clIaBY. A JOCM<P je rrpaBep;aH M CBeT, jep HHKOMe HHje OTKPHO OBO. 3aTO YCTaHM cana M MP;M ca panourhy M rrOKlIOHH My ce sajenao ca BelIHKallIMMa:' I1eTe<PPMje je ycno M ormuao na ce ca nourrosarsexr rrOKlIOHM JOCM<Py.

Me1)yTMM, CBe ronmre BelIMKe rrlIop;HOCTH cy aaspnreHe, M paClIa je map; y qHTaBoj 3eMJbH Xanancxoj, H JaKOB je TyroBao ca CBOjOM p;eQOM. A JaKoB je ClIYllIao na y ErHrrTY MMa xpaHe y M306MJbY, M peKao je CBOjMM CMHOBHMa: "CrrpeMMTe ce H nohare M KyrrMTe HaM ernnarcxe xpaHe, 0 KOjOj caM cnyurao, KaKO He 6HCMO YMPlIH on rnann" I1pHMHBllIH napentiy, CBMX necer JaKOBJbeBMX CMHOBa nohoure na xyne

XlIe6; caao HHCY 3HalIH na je TaMO lbMXOB ripar, qHM je IoCM<p ymep;ao CBOjy 6pahy, OH HX je rrpenosaao H JbYTMTO je pexao: "OBHX necer JbYP;H cy lIYKaBe yxone, M 3aTO cy P;O- 1lI1IH Y Ernnar: Y3MHTe H notipo MX Be)KHTe, jep cy p;OllIlIM OBaMO na OCMOTpe HallIY 3eMJbY:' A OHH, Y TperreTY M y cTpaxy, onrosapana cy MY, OBMM peqMMa: "HHje TaKO rocnonapy! MH CMO CBM 6paha, neua jennor oua npaaezraaxa: nexana Hac je 6HlIO nnanaecr, H jenaora je y6MlIa p;MBJba asep:

OH je 6MO npexpacan H HajBOJbeHHjH CMH csor oua: OTaQ M P;O naaac nnaxe sa lhHM. ~pyrH nax aam tipar je cana ca aallIMM ouex y 3eMJbM Xanaacxoj, reura ra," AlIM JOCM<P MM ca rHeBOM op;rOBopM, rosopeha: "I101lITO ce ja 60jMM H nourryjeM cserora bora, yqMHMhy BaM Ty MMlIOCT: Y3MMTe mnenaQY, M 6p30 Hp;HTe CBOMe oQY, casro aKO rosoprrre MCTMHY, a sanrer fipara, xora BOlIH Balli OTaQ, nosennre MeHH, osne. CaMO rana hy BaM rrOBepOBaTH:'

Y3eBllIH mnemnry, OHH cy ca TyrOM OTHllIlIH CBOMe OQY y 3eMJbY XaHaHCKY, H HCrrpHqalIH My 0 aerrpnjarnoa ncnaTMBalhY xoje cy p;O)KMBelIH, H 0 JbYTlbH xonexa. J1 lhMXOB OTaQ ce CTpalliHO O)KalIOCTM TMM peqMMa H Y3P;MllIyhH pese: "lllTa CTe BM TO yqMHHlIM? 360r xera CTe peKlIH BlIap;apy Ernrrra na osne HMaTe p;pyror 6pan?" OHJ1 cy My onroaoPJ1lIH: "OH ce casr paCrrJ1TJ1BaO 0 nasra H nauroj rropomonr, ca CBJ1M p;eTaJbHMa:' JaKOB HM peqe: "bOJbe MH je na yMpeM Hero p;a BaM p;aM na onsenere BeHJ1jaMHHa H3 sror OKpMJba:' AlIJ1 xana je no-rena p;a J1X casnabyje man, JaKOB J1M pese:

"AKO je, xao llITO xazcere, norpefiao na H3ry6J1M PaxJ1JbJ1- Hy neuy H OCTaHeM 6e3 MOjHX HajBOJbeHHjHx CHHOBa, oana YCTaHJ1Te, Y3MHTe y pYKe napose H saurer 6paTa, H Hp;J1Te sajenao"

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Omr Y'U1HMllle KaKO MM je JaKOB 3anOBep;MO. J1 xana cy, ca BeJIMKMM CTpaXOM, P;OIllJIM y Ernnar, rana ce CBM nOKJIOmnue JOCMCPY. A JOCMCP nax xana je yrnenao csor 6paTa BeHMjaMMHa, KaKO CTOjM npep; lbMM y CTpaxy M 60ja3HM, CMJIHO ce Y36YP;MJIO iseroao cp~e; OH je 3a)KeJIeO p;a 3arpJIM M M3Jby6M 6paTa, M yrnrrao ra je: "Je JIM )KMB OTa~?" Bpar MY, ca crpaxosr, onroaopa: ,,)KMB je cnyra TBOj, naur orau" [oCMcp ra jonr yrnrra: "Je JIM JOCMCP jour YBeK y n-eroaosr cpuy?" Osaj onronopn: ,,)J;a, BeOMa My je y cp~y; P;O nanac M3- rap a Jby6aBJby npeMa TheMY:' KaKO JOCMCP mrje Morao na ra 3arpJIM M na ra nazse ncnxryje; OH je ormuao y nOCTeJbY M ropxo sannaxao. Iep, Tor TpeHyTKa xana je yrnenao cnora opara, onsrax ce ceTMO npenasnor CTap~a JaKOB a, M ca cysaMa je pexao: "DJIa)KeHM OHM KOjM rnenajy CBeTe upre rsoje CTapOCTM, p;06PM pOp;MTeJbY! Ana] MeHM, CBe uapcrso M CJIaaa Moja He spene KOJIMKO TBoja CTapOCT, npemraaa POP;Mrersyl )l{eJIeo caM na ce YBepMM, M3 BeHMjaMMHoBMX ycra, P;P)KMlll JIM Me y CBOMe cp~y, M BOJIMlll JIM Me, xao lllTO ja retie BOJIMM; 3aTO caM JIYKaBO npMMopao MOjy 6pahy na ca C060M noseny BeHMjaMMHa, Mora 6paTa. Iep lbMMa HMcaM seposao OHO lllTO cy rOBOpMJIM 0 Te6M, M na MMajy oua M aajsmaher opara, MMCJIMO caM nax na cy, samnnhy nooyheHM, OHM y6MJIM M najeorseaajer rnor CMHa, najsoraher BeHMjaMMHa, xao lllTO cy MeHe y6MJIM no CBOjOj )KeJbM, M TMMe ca najsehara jap;oM TBOjy p;yrny 6a~VlJIVl y an, Jep Hac 060jVl~y cy OHM Mp3eJIVl, jep CMO ja M BeHVljaMVlH on jenae MajKe. 3HaM pOp;VlTeJbY na CM ce CMJIHO O)KaJIOCTMO 360r Hac, M cana noceoao xnroro ryryje crapocr rnoja aa 6paTOM MOjMM BeHMjaMMHoM. EBo, M ja CMJIHO 60JIyjeM sasonuzsajyha )KaJIOCT TBOjy, 3aTO lllTO HMKO on Hac He CJIY)KVl TBOjy CTapoCT.

Hnje 6VlJIO nocra rnor panajer nnaxa, Hero casr nonao jour nnaxa na TBOj nnax, pOp;MTeJby. [a casr KpMB aa rsoje jenaje M TyroBalba; 3aTO lllTO casr noasao OBaMO BeHMjaMMHa, aJIVl xcersa p;a CJIYlllaM 0 Te6Vl Me je npasropana, »ceneo caM na 3HaM na JIM je TaqHO na je )KMB MOj OTa~. Ko he MM p;aTVl na nOHOBO BVlP;VlM raoje CBeTe ~pTe Vl na ce HaCVlTMM rnenalbeM rnor anheocxor JIM~a?"

3aTVlM, ropKO nnaxame y nOCTeJbVl M, yMVlBlllM JIVl~e, M3a1)e seceo: Hapep;Vl na ce CBM noseny y P;OM, KaKO 6Vl CeJIM ca lbMM aa Tpne3y. Cnyuiajre, 6paho Moja, KaKO MX JOCMCP CBe sacrpauryje. Cnaxora on ThMX je II03MBao na cezme, Haanaajyh« csaxora no VlMeHY M no pep;OCJIep;y poben.a, Vl CBaKOMe je nOKa3MBao, na ra naasrnen, noraha no nocyna: a TO je 6MJIa cpeopaa xaura, xojy je OH p;p)Kao y CBOjOj py~Vl. IIoCTaBVlBlllM Ty qalllY, OH je ynapno npCTOM caoje necae pYKe M nocyna je nOCJIe yp;ap~a nYCTMJIa cnazcan 3BYK, KOjM cy qYJIM CBM npMcyTHM y P;OMy. 3aTMM, yp;apMBlllM oner, rOBOpMO je: "IIpBM PYBVlM, uexa npaa cenne na nOqaCHO MeCTO:' Yp;apVlBlllVl nOHOBO, np03Bao je p;pyror, roaopehn: ,,)J;pyrVl - osaj CVlMeOH nexa cenne, no pohen.y" Yp;apVlBlllM nax TpehM nYT, peqe: "JIeBMje nexa cenae Vl npMMVl xacr" Taxo je paaxrecrno CBe aa CTO, naanaajyhn VlX no MMeHY M no pep;ocneny, A 3aTVlM MX je noseo y yzcac Vl BeJIMKVl CTpax; "KaKo" MVlCJIVlJIVl cy OHM "OH 3Ha CBe Hac?" HapOqVlTO VlX je y BeJIVlKVl CTpax P;OBOp;VlJIa xanra, Vl OHVl cy MVlCJIVlJIVl, rosopehn jenan p;pyroMe: ,,)J;a OH He 3Ha M sa OHO liITO CMO ra paan]e CJIaraJIM, na je JOCVlcpa y6MJIa 3JIa ssep" J1 360r rora cy 6MJIM BeOMa Y3HeMMpeHM. AJIM na OHVl He 6M nOCYMJDaJIM, OH VlM naje neo csor concrsenor oopoxa, a najannre CBOM 6paTy BeHVljaMMHy; lbeMY je nasao p;eceTOCTpYKO amne Hero

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Csern Je<ppeM CMpMjCKM

OCTaJIMMa. A 360r sera je JOCM<j:> TaKO nocrynao ca 6panoM, M xaurora nposnnao MMe cnaxora on lhMX? Saro na 6M lhMXOBy KpMBM~y yqMHMO jOIIl Te)KOM.

Tap;a je aapenno CBOM ynpaBHMKy p;a MM HanyHM ropoe nlIleHM~OM, He HanJIaTMBIIlM, M na y BeHMjaMMHOBY ropoy rajno CTaBM !herOBY xaury, M 3aTMM MX y6p30 ca panonrhy nosnpaezsa. Kana cy ce OHM, pap;OCHM, MaJIO yp;albMJIM on rpap;a, crnrao MX je aa nyTy JOCM<j:>OB ynpaBHMK, M napexao MM reunce peqM, ooacyo MX npeTlhaMa, naasao JIOnOBMMa M Hep;ocTOjHMM qaCTM xoja MM je YKa3aHa. OHM cy onrosopaJIM ynpaBHMKy: "J1 paanje CMO MM HalIlJIM 3JIaTO y CBOjMM roptiasra M p;OHeJIM CMO ra CBOMe rocnop;apy. 3ap CMO MOmM cap; p;a YKpap;eMO qalIlY rnora rocnonapai Hehe 6MTM raKO!" Ynpasrrrers MM pexe: "CKMHMTe csoje roptie, KaKO 6MX Morao na MX nperpecesr" J1 OHM 6p30 CKMHYlIle roptie ca ByqHe CTOKe; M xaura 6M npoHa1)~Ha y BeHMjaMMHoBoj TOp- 6M. BMp;eBIIlM TO, OHM pasnepaure csoje xazsnae, M ca MHOIIlTBOM npeTlhM noxeure na KpMBe M onryzcyjy PaXMlbY, a 3ajenao ca MajKoM M 6paTOM, M JOCM<j:>a, rosopehz: "IIoCTaJIM CTe Ca6JIa3aH naurexr ony, M TM, M JOCM<j:>, Paxazsnaa neua. JOCM<j:> je xreo na uapyje Hap; HaMa, a TM, iseroa 6paT, noseo CM Hac P;O CTMp;a M npeKopa. HMcTe JIM BM neua Paxxzse, KOja je yKpaJIa Mp;OJIe CBOMe o~y, M pexna p;a MX HMje YKpaJIa?" BeHMjaMMH, nonaraaum CBOj mac, ca jeuajexr M ryroa, no-reo je p;a y6e1)yje csaxor on !hJ1X J1 zta rOBOpu: "EBO 3Ha casr Bor HalIlUX oraua, xojrr je yseo PaXUlbY ceria, xazta My je 6UJIO yronao, KOMe je 3HaHa CMpT npexpacaor JOCM<j:>a, KOjM qyBa JaKOBa YTeXOM 360r pacraaxa ca JOCU<j:>OM M KOju ra U cana reum HaqMHUMa KOjM cy caste Hsesry n03HaTU, KOjM BMP;M CBe y CBaKOMe on Hac, nosuaje cp~a M yrpooe,

OH casr 3Ha na Ty qalIly, KaKO BM xazcere, ja HMcaM yKpao HMTU cass U nOMMCJIMO HelIlTO CJIMqHO 0 isoj. ,l],a 6MX snneo CBeTe cene Iaxoszseae, p;a 6MX M3lby6MO iserona KOJIeHa, ja HMcaM yKpao ry xaury! Asaj, asaj MeHM, Paxazsa! Illra ce p;eCMJIO ca TBOjOM p;e~oM? Ilpexpacaor locmpa, KaKO Ka)KY, y6MJIe cy 3BepM; a ja, eTO, MajKo, nOCTaO caM Hajep;HoM xpap;lbMBa~, M He 3HaM KaKO; ocrajex y ponCTBY y Ty1)MHM. IoCM<j:> je BanMO y nYCTM!hM, P;OK cy ra npO)Kp,MpaJIe 3BepM, xaKO 6M naurao nexora na ra J136aBM, aJIM HMje namao, EBO M ja, p;MBHa MajKo, YBepaBaM CBOjy 6pahy, M HMKO He oryura, HMKO He sepyje TBOMe CMHY:'

J1 nparmne ce JOCM<j:>y y rpap;, He snajyha qMMe he ce onpaBp;aTM aa TO. A JOCM<j:> MM je nax lbYTMTO onrosapao: ,,3ap je TO Harpap;a aa MOjy P;06pOTy? 3ap caM sac 3aTO noIIlTOBao, KaKO 6M Op;HeJIM MOjy xaury, KOjOM 'lMHMM MarMjy? HMcaM JIM BaM ja rOBopMO na BM HMCTe MMpOlby6MBM lbYP;M, Hero yxop;e? Hero, pap;M cTpaxa EO)KMjer, yqMHMhy OBaKO: onora, KOjM je yKpao Ty xaury, sanpacahy xao csor poria, a BM OCTaJIM Mp,MTe CBM:' J1 jenan on lhMX, no MMeHY [yna, MCTynM ncnpen OCTaJIMX M npeKJIOHM KOJIeHa M noxe MOJIMTM, roaopehn: "He lbyTM ce, rocnonapy, M naj MM na Ka)KeM pes. TM CM Hac cax mrrao, cnyre rsoje, rosopeha:

MMaTe JIM oua MJIM 6paTa? J1 MM CMO peKJIM na MMaMO oua, KOjM je, CJIyra TBOj, MMao nsa erma, xoja je BOJIeO uajnmne M npe CBMX Hac, M na cy jennora paCTpme 3BepJ1 y nJIaHJ1HaMa, M OTa~ ra onnaxyje aenpexanno, M no nanac je ojahen M TY)KaH, M MO)Ke ce peha na caaa 3eMlba nnaxe na iseros mac, a p;pyror CMHa OH P,P)KM y3 ce6e xao yTexy 360r npBor CMHa; aJIM cana, KaKO CM TM aapenno, MM CMO p,OBeJIM 6para M HalIlJIM CMO ce, MM, rnoje cnyre, y CypOBOj HenpaBp;M.

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MOJIJ1M 're, ,n;03BOJIJ1 MJ1 na 6y,n;eM TBOj p06 YMeCTO osor nexaxa, caxro ,n;a ce OH BpaTJ1 OIW, sajenno ca tipahosr, 3aTO liITO caM ra ja yseo y pYKe on Mora oua, J1 6e3 isera He MOry na ce BpaTJ1M MOMe ouy, jep hy BJ1,n;eTJ1 ropKy CMpT Mora oua"

JOCJ1<P, CaCJIYlIIaBlIIJ1 OBe TY)KHe pe-m, J1 BJ1,n;enJ1 CBe lbJ1X KaKO croje ca CTJ1,n;OM, BJ1,n;enJ1 J1 BeHJ1jaMJ1Ha, KOjJ1 je pa3,n;epao CBOjy XaJbJ1HY, J1 y CY3aMa rrao npen KOJIeHa OHJ1X, KOjJ1 cy J1CTyrrJ1JIJ1 na YMJ1JIOCTJ1Be JOCJ1<Pa aa rsera, KaKO 6J1 My OH ,n;03BOJIJ10 na J1,n;e ca opaho«, HeJ13MepHO ce Y36y,n;J1o, norohen no ,n;y6J1He cpu;a. J1 6p30 je napcnno na orry CBJ1 KOjJ1 cy Ty 6J1JIJ1; J1 xana cy CBJ1 J13alIIJIJ1, rrOBJ1- CJ1BlIIJ1 CBOj mac, ca cysaxa, JOCJ1<P J1M je CJI060,n;HO, jespejCKJ1M napexjea, pexao: "Ja caM JOCJ1<P, BalII ripar. HJ1CY Me nojene 3BepJ1, xao lIITO BJ1 xaxcere: MeHe CTe BJ1 CKJ1HYJIJ1 J1 6aU;J1JIJ1 y jaMY, J1 6J10 caxr rrpo,n;aT/J1cMaJ1JbnaHJ1Ma, J1aKO caM BaM CBJ1Ma rpJIJ10 KOJIeHa J1 crone: rana ce HJ1KO HJ1je CMJ1JIOBaO na MeHe, y raxnoj HeBOJbJ1, Hero CTe ce nonauraJIJ1 rrpeMa MeHJ1 xao ,n;J1BJbe 3BepJ1. AJIJ1 aexa ce HJ1KO on nac, 6pano Moja, He npenyurra 60ja3HJ1 J1 cTpaxy, Hero narrpOTJ1B, 60Jbe ce J1 BJ1 panyjre rrorrYT MeHe, jep ja uapyjen. J1 xao lIITO CTe paan]e rOBOpJ1JIJ1 HalIIeM ou;y, na je MeHe y rrJIaHJ1HJ1 YCMpTJ1JIa 3Bep; TaKO, BpaTJ1BlIIJ1 ce, oner jaBJ1Te JaKOBY: '}KJ1B je JOCJ1<P, TBOj CJ1H, J1 eHO B03J1 ce y KOJIJ1Ma ernnarcxor uapcraa."

,IJ;OK je JOCJ1<P TO rOBOpJ10 ripahn, OHJ1 cy 6J1JIJ1 xao MPTBJ1 on CTpaxa J1 60ja3HJ1, a JOCJ1<P, rpana JaKOBJbeBa, Jby- 6J10 je csaxora on lhJ1X ca Jby6aBJbY, safiopaazsajyhn 3JIO, xaKO My je J1 rrpJ1JIJ1qJ1JIO, J1 ,n;apOBJ1Ma J1 BeJIJ1KOM panourhy J1X je YTelIIJ10. J1 noorao J1X je CBe JaKOBY, rOBOpenJ1 OBaKO:

"HJ1KaKO ce aessojre cBa1)aTJ1 rryresr, Hero 60Jbe 6p30 J1,n;J1- re ou;y J1 Ka)KJ1Te My: 'OBO TJ1 xazce CJ1H TBOj JOCJ1<P: Bor Me yqJ1HJ1 u;apeM qJ1TaBOr Ernnra (ITOCT 45, 9); ,n;01)J1, o-re, y seceJby cpu;a, KaKO 6J1X BJ1,n;eo anheocxo JIJ1u;e rnoje CTapOCTJ1.'"

J16p30 ce BpaTJ1BlIIJ1, rrpeHeJIJ1 cy JOCJ1<pOBe pe-nr JaKOBY, xao lIITO J1M je 6J1JIO napeheno. qyBlIIJ1 J1Me J OCJ1<pOBO, JaKoB ropKO Y3,n;aXHY, J1 3arrJIaKaBlIIJ1, peqe J1M: ,,3alIITO BJ1 csryhyjere MOj nyx, KaKO 6J1X ce CeTJ10 u;pTa npexpacnor IoCJ1<pa, J1 xohere na rrOTrraJIJ1Te 60JI KOjJ1 je TeK MaJIO yTJ1XHyO Y MOMe cpuyi" J1 BeHJ1jaMJ1H, rrpJ1lIIaBlllJ1, J1 J13Jby- 6J1BlIIJ1 iseroaa KOJIeHa J1 6pa,n;y, pe-te: "J1cTJ1HJ1Te cy OBe peqJ1, ,n;06pJ1 ponnre.sy" J1 OH My noxasa CBe lIITO je JOCJ1<P nocnao. J1 rana OH rrOBepOBa BeHJ1jaMJ1HOBJ1M peqJ1Ma. J1 ycrane ca CBJ1M CBOjJ1M ,n;OMOM, peBHOCHO J1 ca BeJIJ1KOM panourhy, ynyrx ce y Ernnar, JOCJ1<PY, CBOMe CJ1Hy.

J1 xana qy JOCJ1<P na je CTJ1raO JaKOB, n.eron OTaU;, yCTane ca BeJIJ1KOM panourhy, J1 J13a1)e y rpa,n; ca <papaOHOBJ1M BeJIJ1KalIIJ1Ma, J1 TaMO ra noxexa y BeJIJ1Koj rrOKOpHOCTJ1. l.JJ1M je JaKOB yrnenao JOCJ1<Pa, CJ1Ha csor, nao je rrpe,n; lberoBY rrojasy ca BeJIJ1KOM Jby6aBJbY, rOBOpenJ1: "Ca,n;a hy YMpeTJ1, Kana caM snneo JIJ1u;e raoje, HajCJIa1)e qe,n;o, jep TJ1 CJ1 3aJ1CTa jOlII YBeK )KJ1B:' J1 060jJ1u;a rrpOCJIaBJ1lIIe Bora,

3a CBe OBO Y3HeCJ1MO CJIaBY Ouy J1 CJ1HY J1 CBeTOMe ,IJ;yxy. Hsesry CJIaBa J1 CJ1JIa, xacr J1 noxnorsen,e, cana J1 YBeK J1 y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMJ1H.

Ilpeeena KCeHJ1ja 31IaTJ1n

U;PKBEHO-IlOYQHA QJ1TAlhA Y CBETJ1 J1 BEJIJ1KJ1 YTOPAK

CBETor JOBAHA 3JIATOYCTOr BECEAA 77.*

HA JEBAH1)ElbE ITO MATEJY

A og CMOKBe nayuuiue aOYKY: Kaga ce ipaue IbeHe Ben aogMlwge U onuciuajy, snaiue ga je 61lU3Y!beiuo. Taxo U BU Kag euquiue CBe oso, 3Hajme ga je 61lU3Y apeg epauiuua. (MT 24, 32-33)

1. ITOIlITO je Hcyc XPl1CTOC peKao: OgMax tie ce UO He60- lbU iUux gaHa tcynue uOMpat.tuiUu u tiuhe cepiueiuax eexa), yqeHl1~l1 cy ra ynl1TaJIl1 sana he TO 6l1Tl1, l1 )KeJIeJIl1 cy na anajy casr nan, a OH l1M je l13HeO npl1Mep y KOMe je cnoveHyO CMOKBY, l1 Tl1Me rroxasao na je OCTalIO MaJIO BpeMeHa l1 na he ce Iberos P;pyfl1 p;OJIa3aK 36l1Tl1 yCKOpO. OH je TO nOTBpp;l10 TOM npl1QOM, aJIl1 l1 peQl1Ma: 3HajiUe ga je 6JlU3Y upeg epaiuusca. Hcyc XPl1CTOC y l1CTl1 Max npencxasyje l1 p;YXOBHO JIeTO, TO jeer OHY Tl1111l1Hy xoja he Tor nana HacTymrra sa npaBep;Hl1Ke HaKOH 3l1Me xoja l1X cana oncena, rpelllHl1~l1Ma, HanpOTl1B, npencxaayje 3l1My no l1CTeKY JIeTa, lllTO je nOTBpp;l10 xacnnje, xana je peKao na he l1X raj p;aH sarehx ycpep; Y)Kl1BalDa l1 3ap;OBOlbCTaBa. OH je cnoMeHYo CMOKBY xao npl1Mep He TOJIl1KO na 611 op;pep;l10 BpeMe, jep je Morao ra na onperm l1 na p;pyrl1 HaQl1H, KOJIl1KO na 611 noTBPP;l10 p;a he ce Iberoso npep;cKa3aIhe Hel130CTaBHO l1cnyHl1Tl1. Kao lllTO Mopa na nocrojn npBO, TaKO Mopa na nOCTOjl1 l1 rrocnemse. Csoje npep;CKa3aIhe 6yp;yher Hcyc XPl1CTOC YBeK oojaunsasa xasobeisea 3aKOHl1Tl1X nojasa y npl1pop;l1: l1CTO TO, no ymep;y na Hsera, Ql1Hl1 l1 CBeTl1 anOCTOJI ITaBJIe.

* OBa 6ece,n:a ce tuna aa Bem1KH YTopaK, na jyrpeisy, no KaTH3MaMa.

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Taxo, oecenehn 0 BaCKpCelhY MpTBYlX, J1cyc XPYlCTOC rOBOPYl: AKO 3pHO iuuenuue uaqnyeiuu na 3eMlbY He YMpe, oHga jeqno ociuane; aKO llU yMpe, pog MH01U gOHOCU (JH 12,24). J1 CBeTJ1 aIIOCTOJI DaBJIe, Iberos yqeHYlK, ynorpeozsasa YlCTYl rrpYlMep y paarosopy C KOpYlHhaHYlMa 0 BaCKpcelhY: Ee3YMuuue, rOBOpYl OH, OHO uuuo tuu cujeui nehe oscuejeiuu aKO He yscpe (l Kop 15,36). 3HajyhYl na he My yqeHYl~Yl rrOHOBO Yl y6p30 npacrymrra ca rrYlTalheM xana he ce TO necarn, J1cyc XPYlCTOC YlX onsrax HaKOH osora onoscnse na ce TO BpeMe rrpYl6JIYl)KaBa: sauaua 6aM KaJICeM: Oeaj napauuuaj nehe upohu gOK ce 060 c6e He 36yge (MT 24,34). Hlra OH pa3yMe non peqYlMa 080 ceet OHO IIITO je 3ap;eCYlJIO lepycanme paroae, rnan, nonop, sesosorpece, JIa)KHe XpYlCTOCe, JIa)KHe npopoxe, IllYlpelhe jesaahen,a, MeTe)Ke, pasnope Yl CBe IIITO ce, KaKO peKOCMO, Mopa 36YlTYl P;O Iberosor p;OJIaCKa. A 3aIIITO je pexao: Oea] napauuuaj nehe UpOiPzU? Osne HJ1- je peq 0 aapaurrajy KOjYl je rana )KYlBeO, Hero 0 napaurrajy BepHJ1X, jep napaurraj He oaaasasa YlCKlbyqYlBO spesre, Hero J1 rrpnxrep pemrrnje Yl )KYlBOTa. Taxo je peseao: 060 je pog OHUX KOjU iUpaJICe Iocuoqa (Ilc23,6). OCYlM osora J1cyc XpaCTOC je paanje pexao: Tpe6a cse tuo ga ce 36yge, Yl: IIpouoeujeqahe ce 060 jeeauhene. To YlCTO OH rOBOpYl Yl osne, Yl xaxce na he ce CBe TO HeYl30CTaBHO 36YlTYl, a napaurraj BepHYlX he OCTaTYl Yl nehe ra nperonryrn HYljep;Ha on rope rroMeHYTYlX necpeha. Bnhe pa30peH Iepycamoa Yl Yl3rYlHyhe sehana Iynejaua, aJIYl HYlIIITa nehe nanszranarn osaj napaurraj: HYl rnan, HYl nosrop, HYl 3eMlboTpec, HYl yxcacn 6YlTaKa, HYl JIa)KHYl XPYlCTOCYl, HYl JIa)KHYl npopoua, HYl IIpeJIeCTYlTelbJ1, HYl Ca6JIa3HYlTelbYl, HJ1 Yl3p;ajHYl~Yl, HJ1 JIa)KHa 6paha, HYl p;pyra, OBYlMa CJIJ1qHa, ncxynren,a. ,1J;a 6Yl lhYlXOBO y6el)elhe 6YlJIO

join sehe, OH rOBOpYl: He60 U sewea he upohu, anu pujewu Moje nehe upohu (MT 24, 35), TO jeer rrpe he ce CpyIIIYlTYl He60 Yl 3eMlba, TaKO qBPCTYl Yl HerrOMYlqHYl, Hero IIITO he IIpohJ1 jenaa Moja peq. Kojn cyMlha y OBO nexa J1CIIYlTa CBe IIITO je peqeHO, Yl Tap;a he rrpYl3HaTYl na je OBO YlCTYlHa, jep he nahn na je CBe TaKO, Yl aKO 6yp;e CYP;YlO rro OHOMe IIITO ce 36J1JIo, nosepoeahe y OHO IIITO he ce 36YlTYl, nexa y CBe peBHocHo npoanxne Yl YBYlP;Yl na cy norahaja KOjYl cy YCJIep;YlJIJ1 norrryHo rrOTBpp;YlJIYl YlCTYlHY IIpOpOqaHCTBa. J1cyc XPYlCTOC je cnosreayo CTYlXYlje p;a 6Yl noxasao na je UpKBa nparonesnja on aetia Yl 3eMlbe, aJIYl Yl TO na je OH Tsopau csera IIITO IIOCTOjYl. OH je pexao J1 0 xpajy CBeTa, y KOjYl MHOfYl He Bepyjy; yrrpaBo 3aTO CIIOMeHYO je He60 Yl 3eMlbY Yl TYlMe noxasao CBOjy neaspeunsy Moh Yl ca rroTIIYHoM snaurhy 06jaBJ10 zta je OH Iocnon BaC~eJIOr CBeTa: TaKO OHYlMa KOjYl cysusajy Y Hserone pexa noxasyje na cy CBe OHe rroTrrYHo YlCTYlHYlTe. A 0 gaHy iUOMe u 0 ttacy HUKO He 3Ha, HU anhenu He6ecKU, HU CUH, go otaa« MOj caM. Pe-neaa HU anhenu J1cyc XpaCTOC rroyqaBa csoje yqeHYlKe na ce He Harrpe)KY na casnajy OHO IIITO He snajy HYl CaMYl aahemr. PeqYlMa HU CUH saopaisyje J1M Yl na saajy, J1 na mrrajy 0 TOMe. ,1J;a je OBe peqJ1 Yl3- rOBOpYlO yrrpaBo C TOM HaMepOM, nosna] na OCHOBY rora na YlM je rro BaCKpcelhY C aajsehosr nnauthy YCKpaTYlO 3HaTJ1- )KelbY qYlM je rrpYlMeTYlO na joj ce onnaure npenajy, Cana je OApeAYlO MHore J1 netipojene 3HaKe, a 'rana je jeAHocTaBHO peKao: Huje eatue snaiuu epeuena U pOK08e (,lJ;arr 1,7). J1 na yqeHYl~Yl He 6Yl peKJIYl: .Flpeanpy Hac 360r HaIIIJ1X Hep;0YMJ1- ua, a sap CMO TO 3aCJIY)KJ1JIYl?': OP;Max nonaje: Koje OiUa4 saqps:« y C60jOj enaciuu. OH ce BeOMa 6PYlHyO 0 TOMe na YlX ynaacasajy Yl na HYlIIITa on lhYlX He 6yp;e CKpYlBeHO, aJIYl y

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OBOM cnyxajy OH rrperryillTa caMOM OU;y na 3Ha spcsrena H pOKOBe, a qHM je H3Heo na je TO ,n;eJIO Ba)l(HO, 3a6paHHO HM je -rax H na rnrrajy 0 TOMe. ,Ua TO HHje 6HJIO TaKO, na CHHY fimKHjeM 3aHCTa nnje 6HO rr03HaT xac xpaja, xana 6H OH TO caaaao? 3aje,n;HO CHaMa? A KO he no-tern ,n;a TO yrnphyjer OH je snao Oua OHOJIHKO KOJIHKO H Orau CHHa, H 3ap HJ1je snao 0 nocneznsexr ,n;aHY? OCHM osora, pyx cse ucuuiuyje, u qytiune EOJICuje (l Kop 2,10). A 3ap CHH mtje snao H xac cy,n;a? OH je snao KaKO rpetia Cy,n;HTH, snao je rajae csaxora: H sap je Moryhe na HHje snao OHO lllTO je Malhe Ba)KHo? AKo cae Kp03 ieeia uociuaqe, u 6e3 ieeia nutuiua He uocuiaqe, na JIH je Moryhe na OH HHje snao raj nan! AKo je OH CTBOPHO BeKOBe, onna je CTBOPHO H apexiena, a aKO je CTBOPHO apevena, onna je, HeCYMlhHBO, CTBOPHO J1 nan, KaKO je Moryhe na He 3Ha raj nan, xan ra je OH CTBOpHO?

2. BJ1 roaopnre na 3HaTe H Boaorjy CyiuTJ1HY: 3ap CHH fiO)KHjH, KOjJ1 nenpccraao npetinaa y He,n;pHMa Oua, He 3Ha rrocnemsa nan, 6e3 063J1pa na TO lIITO je casnarse CYlIITJ1- He snroro Ba)KHHje, oecxpajao Ba)KHHje, on casnatsa ,n;aHa? KaKO npncaajare ceria sehe, a Malhe He nparmcyjere CHHY y KOMe cy caKpuaeHa caa tinaia upeMygpociIlU U snatea (KOlI 2,3)? A xao lIITO ce, HarrpOTHB, He MO)Ke peha na CTe BH 3HaJIH Boxcajy CYlIITJ1HY, HaKO TO BeOMa qeCTO, 360r csor tiesyMlba, TBp,n;HTe, TaKO HHKO He MO)Ke pehrr na CHH HHje snao raj nan: He, OH My je caCBHM notipo rr03HaT. OH Hl1lIITa HHje pexao je,n;HHo 0 ,n;aHy ynpaso 3aTO lIITO je rrpe 'rora CBe pexao, 03HaqJ10 spexreaa, poxose, H noseo csoje ~eHHKe no caMHX spara (jep je pe-reno: EllU3Y upeg eptuuuua). "AKo rnrram 0 nany H qacy, neheur 0 TOMe HHlIITa on MeHe qyTJ1': roBOpH OH; "aKO nax mrraur 0 BpeMeHY yorrlIITe H 0 3HaU;HMa

KOjJ1 he nperxonarn, HHlIITa nehy CKpHBaTH H otijacnnhy TJ1 CBe nonpotiao. M3Heo caM MHoro noxasa 0 TOMe na MH je rr03HaT raj nan: xan caM peKao 0 ynazsenocrn apevena, npencxasao caM CBe 6y,n;yhe norahaje, onpenao caxr qaK H TO KOJIHKO je OCTaJIO BpeMeHa on nanac no rora nana (TO TH 06- jaunsana rrpHqa 0 CMOKBH), H TaKO caM re noneo no casror npensopja. AKO TH HHcaM OTBOPHO npara, TO je pa,n;H rsoje KOPHCTH:' Pamr seher y6e1)elba y TO na nesnaise mrje pasnor 360r xora XPHCTOC HHje HHlIITa peKao 0 nany CBplIIeTxa, 06paTH jour rra)KlhY na OH rope rrOMeHYTHM 3HaU;HMa 0 CBOM rrOHOBHOM ,n;OJIaCKY npanonaje HOBO: [ep xao uuuo y gaHe upeg UOiIlOUOM jeljaxy U uujaxy, »ceteaxy ce U ygaaaxy go anoia gaHa Kag Hoje ylje y xoeuei, U He cxeatuuiue gOK He golje aoaio« U ogHece cae; taaxo lie tiutuu U gOlla3aK CUHa Hoeeuujeia (MT.24,38 1139). Hcyc XPHCTOC je OBO peKao xao noKa3 na he ,n;OhH H3HeHa,n;a H HeOqeKHBaHO, xana ce nehnaa 6y,n;e YTarraJIa y 3a,n;OBOlbCTBHMa. MCTO rOBopH H arrOCTOJI ITaBJIe: lep Kaga toeope: Mup je U CUiYPHociIl, iuaqa lie Hauhu na 1tJUX u3HeHaga uottuiuja (l COlIS,3). ,Ua 6H otijacnno Ty HeHa,n;aHOCT, arrOCTOJI nonaje: Kao 6011 na iIlpygHy »ceny. A KaKO je Hcyc XPHCTOC pexao: ITo He60lbU tuux qana! AKo rana (y rrOCJIe,n;lbHM BpeMeHHMa) 6y,n;y 3a,n;OBOlbCTBa, MUp U CUiYPHociIl, KaKO peqe arrOCTOJI ITaBJIe, 3alIITO oana OH roBOPH: ITo He60lbU tnux qaua: KaKBe cy TO nesozse y pa,n;oCTHMa? 3ap;OBOlbCTBa I1 Ml1p I1Mahe je,n;I1HO OHH KOjl1 nexrajy HJ1KaKBOr ocehaja. Ynpano 3aTO arrOCTOJI HJ1je pexao - xana 6y,n;e MUP, Hero: Kaga ioeope: M up je U CUiYPHociIl, H THMe H3pa3HO lhHXOBY HeoceTlbHBOCT, nourro cy ce H y Hojeso BpeMe 6e3aKOHHU;H rrpe3aCHhJ1BaJIH aanoaozscraaaa, ,n;OK cy npasemnnnr rrpOBo,n;HJIH )KHBOT y HeBOlbJ1 H )KaJIOCTH.

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yb rora ce BI1.n;11 na he ce ca .n;OJIaCKOM aHTI1Xpl1CTa Me1)y HeqaCH1BI1M 11 OHI1Ma 6e3 nane y csoje cnacerse YMHO)I(I1TI1 He06Y3.n;aHo cnacrorsytirse: rana he 6l1Tl1 06JIarrOpHOcT, rrpejenarse 11 najaacrso. Ha raj Haql1H rrpl1Mep KOjl1 je Hcyc XPI1CTOC naaeo rroTrrYHo oojaunsasa cTBap. Kao lllTO y TO speae, rOBOpl1 OH, xana je rrpl1rrpeMaH xosser, lby.n;11 HI1CY BepOBaJII1, Hero cy, -rax 11 rana xana je xosxer 6110 rOTOB 11 npencxaarrsao 6JIl1CKY necpehy, cnoxojao rrOCMaTpaJII1 11 npenaaamr ce 3a.n;OBOlbCTBI1Ma, xao na I1X He xexa HI1KaKBa aecpeha, TaKO HI1 cana, aKO ce 11 jaBI1 aHTI1XpI1CT, sa KOjl1M he YCJIe.n;I1TI1 cnpurerax, a rrOCJIe cBpllleTKa Ka3He 11 Hel1CKa3aHa Myqelba, HI1 re 6y.n;yhe aesozse aehe 113a3BaTl1 HI1KaKaB ocehaj cTpaxa y lby.n;I1Ma xoje je pa3BpaT rroTrrYHo onao. Ynpaso 3aTO he 11 lbl1X xao 6011 iUpygHy »ceny, KaKO xaxce arrOCTOJI, cnaha re Y)I(aCHe 11 HeYMI1THe nesozse. 3alllTO Hcyc XPI1CTOC mrje crroMeHYo aecpehy xoja je Hal1111JIa ua Conosesanei OH je xreo na 113HeCe Kar rrpl1Mep CBeTCKI1 norahaj y KOjl1 raxohe HI1CY BepOBaJII1 HI1 xana je 6110 rrpe.n;CKa3aH. IIOlllTO MHOrl1 HI1CY BepOBaJII1 y nonasehe, OH I1X y6e1)yje y TO TaKO lllTO HaBo.n;11 npasrepe rrpOlllJII1X norahaja, 11 TI1Me rrOTpeca lbl1XOBa cpu;a, a yjenao yxasyje na je OH .n;eJIOBaO 11 y rrpeTxo.n;HI1M CJIyqajeBI1Ma. 3aTl1M Hcyc XPI1CTOC 113HOCl1 HOBI1 3HaK csor .n;OJIaCKa, TaKO na na OCHOBy CBI1X TI1X 3HaKOBa nocraje OQl1rJIe.n;HO na je OH snao raj nan, Koja 3HaK? Tag he sutau gea na teueu: jeqan he ce y3etuu, a gpyzu ociuaeutuu. Ileuje he MlbeiUu na »cpeteeeusca; jeqna he ce Y3eii1u, a gpyza ociuaeuiuu. Ciupancuiue, gaKlle, jep He snaiue y KOjU he wac qohu Iociioq eaiu (MT 24,40,41,42). CBe OBO CJIY)I(11 xao .n;OKa3 na je OH snao raj naa, aJII1 je je.n;I1HO CBOjl1M y'leHI1U;I1Ma saoparsaaao na mrrajy 0 lbeMy.

Ynpaso 3aTO je crrOMeHYO Hojese nane, pa.n;11 rora je peKao na ha rana euta« gea na 1bU6U 11 OCTaJIO, 11 TI1Me 11M yKaaao aa CBOj .n;OJIa3aK, TOJII1KO 113HeHa.n;aH na yornnre nehe MI1CJII1TI1 0 lbeMy. M qeuje he MlbeiUu, 11 TO raxohe CJlY)I(11 xao 3HaK na ra yorrlllTe aehe OQeKI1BaTI1. 3aTl1M ce Y3l1Majy 11 ocraszsajy 11 CJIyre 11 P060BI1, 11 OHI1 KOjl1 ce6e 6y.n;y Be)I(6aJII1 y Tpy.n;OBI1Ma, 11 OHI1 KOjl1 ce aahy y JIelbOCTl111 Hepa.n;y, 113 CBI1X CTaJIe)I(a, nourro ce 11 y CTapOM 3aBeTY rOBOpl1:

Og ouoia KOjU cegu na upecuiony go cnytuxutee sa JlCp61beM (yn. J-131I 11,5). MaKO je Hcyc XPI1CTOC pexao na he ce 60raTl1 reurxo CrraCI1TI1, OH osne YBepaBa na nehe CBI1 60raTallll1 CTpa.n;aTI1, xao lllTO HI1 CBI1 Cl1pOMalllHI1 nehe 6l1Tl1 crraceHI1: 11 on OBI1X 11 on OHI1X HeKI1 he 6l1Tl1 cnacemr, a HeKI1 CTpa.n;aTI1. [a sax MI1CJII1M na ce osne yxaayje 11 na TO na he ee Iberos rrOHOBHI1 .n;OJIa3aK 36l1Tl1 y noha: TO norsphyje 11 jeBaH1)eJII1CT JIYKa. Cap; BI1.n;I1111 na Hcyc Xpl1CTOe Ta'lHO 3Ha cse OKOJIHOCTI1 KOHaQHOr CBpllleTKa (JIK 17,34). A na ra IberOBI1 yqeHI1U;11 He 611 rrOHOBO rrl1TaJII1 0 TOMe, jour je.n;HOM nonaje: Ctupascuiue, gaKlle, jep He snaiue y KOjU he 1iac qohu Iocuoq 6am; Hl1je peKao He 3HaM, Hero: He snaiue. 11I1M 11M je 06jaBl10 CKOPO 11 CaMI1 'lac, OH orreT npenycpehe lbl1XOBa mrraisa 0 TOMe jep )I(eJII1 na OHI1 aenpecraao CTpa)I(e. OH 11M je pexao: CiUpaJICuiUe, 11 TI1Me OTKPl10 CBOjy HaMepy na 11M He otijanzsyje xan he noha nocnemsn nan, AllU 060 snajme: Kag 6u suao qoscahun y xoje he epujesce qohu xpaqn-u- 6a~, ctupascuo 6u U He 6u gao ga My apoeanu xyhy. 3aiUo U 6U 6ygume cupesutu; jep y KOjU «ac He scucnuiue qohu he CUH lf06je1iuju (MT.24,43,44). OH 11M TO rOBOpl1 na 611 crpa)I(I1JII1 11 YBeK 6l1JIl1 CrrpeMHI1. IIOlllTO je »ceneo na YBeK 6yny CrrpeMHI1 aa cycpeT C lbl1M 11 na YBeK 6y.n;y BpJII1HeKI1,

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peKao J1M je na he nohn OH~a xana ra He o-rexyjy. Pe'-IJ1: Kag 6u snao qoscahun J1T~. 3Ha'-Ie cnenehe: xana 6J1 lbyp,J1 3HaJIJ1 xan he YMpeTJ1, CJ1rypHO 6J1 ce rr06pJ1HyJIJ1 0 TOM nany,

3. ,na ce, ~aKJIe, He 6J1CMO CTapaJIJ1 0 caxro je~HoM nany CMPTJ1, J1cyc XPJ1CTOC He onpehyje HJ1 ~aH CBeOIllIITer Kpaja, HJ1 nan CMPTJ1 6J1JIO xor nojemmua: OH )I{eJIJ1 ~a TO YBeK oxexyjesso, na raj ~aH 6y~e npensrer aenpecranor CTapalDa. 3aTo xpaj )I{J1BOTa csaxor '-IOBeKa ocrasrsa y HeJ13BeCHOCTJ1. 3aTJ1M oTBopeHo Ha3J1Ba Ce6e Iocnonov, a ~OTa~ TO HJ1Kana HJ1je TaKO jacno rOBOpJ10. CeM rora, ja MJ1CJIJ1M na je y OBOMe Ca~p)I{aH J1 npeKOp JIelhJ1Ma, J1 TO rrpeKOp 360r 'rora llITO ce Malhe 6pJ1Hy 0 CBOjOj ~ylllJ1 Hero lllTO ce OHJ1 KOjJ1 oxexyjy JIOnOBa 6pJ1Hy 0 CBOjJ1M HOBU;J1Ma. ,nOK oxexyjy JIOnoaa, OBJ1 nOCJIe~lhJ1 cy na onpesy J1 He noaaorsasajy na ce 6J1JIO nrra onnece J13 lbJ1XOBJ1X OCTaBa; a BJ1, rOBOpJ1 OH, J1 nopen rora lllTO 3HaTe na he Iocnon noha, na he CJ1rypHO nohn, yorrlllTe He CTpa)I{J1Te, He crrpeMare ce, J1 CMpT he nac 3a~eCJ1TJ1 nenanano: raj ~aH ~OJIa3J1 ynpaso 3aTO na 6J1 noneo nporraCT 6e36pJ1)I{HJ1Ma; xao lllTO 6J1 60raTalll J136erao na 6y~e rrOKpa~eH, Ka~ 6J1 snao xana he TO 6J1TJ1, TaKO 6J1CTe J1 BJ1 3alllTJ1TJ1JIJ1 ce6e xan 6J1CTe 6J1JIJ1 CrrpeMHJ1. ,narse, OH je cnoxrenyo cyn, J1 eBO cana ce, aanoxon, oripaha nohaua J1 rOBOpJ1 0 Ka3HaMa J1 Harpa~aMa. fIpBO rOBOpJ1 0 Cy~6J1HJ1 OHJ1X KOjJ1 naspuraaajy cnoje 06aBe3e, a oana ce 3a~p)I{aBa na Cy~6J1HJ1 rpelllHJ1Ka, C U;J1lbeM rta 3aBplllHJ1M pe'-IJ1Ma J13a30Be cTpax y CJIYlllaOU;J1Ma. Pap,J1 rora najnpe roBOPJ1: Ko je, qaxne, iua] ejepnu U MygpU cnyia «oia uociuaeu iocuoqap teeioe Hag C60jUM qostahux«: ga UM gaje xpany na epuieue? Bnaio tUoMe cnyiu xoia tocaoqap teeioe, qowaeiuu, Hal)e ga 1iUHU tUaKO. Sauciua 6aM KaJICeM: uociuaeuhe ta

Hag C6UM usuuees: C60jUM (MT.24,4S,46,47)? Iecy JIJ1, Ka)I{J1 MJ1, OBe pe'-IJ1 3HaK Iberosor neanan.a? AKO na OCHOBY IberoBJ1X pe'-IJ1: Hu CUH (He 3Ha) (MK 13,32), rOBOpJ1111 na OH He 3Ha ~aH cnpurcrxa cnera, urra hem OH~a pehn na pe'-IJ1: Ko je, gaKlle, iUaj? 3ap hem pehn ~a OH HJ1 TO He 3Ha? He; HJ1- jenan 6e3YMHJ1K TO nehe pehn: y npBOM cnyxajy jour ce J1 MO)I{e HahJ1 KaKaB-TaKaB pa3JIOr, aJIJ1 OB~e HJ1 TO HJ1je Moryhe. III ra 3HaqJ1 Hseroso mrraise: Iletupe, mytiuiu nu Me (yrr. JH 21, IS)? 3ap HJ1je 6J10 y6et)eH y Ilerpoay lby6aB? J1JIJ1 OBe pe'-IJ1: Tgje ciue fa MeiUHYllu OH 11,34)? Cm1qHO rnrraise MO)I{e ce '-IyTJ1 J1 on Dora Oua: TaKO je J1 OH rOBOpJ1o: AgaMe, fge cur (yrr. DoCT 3,9) Taxohe: BUKa je y COgOMY U TOMOPY eenuxa. ... 3atUo tty cuhu ga 6UgUM ega nu C6e 1iUHe xao iuiuo 6Utea gol)e upeqa Me; aKO nu nuie iUaKO, ga 3HaM (DOCT 18,20,21). J1 na ~pyroM MeCTY: AKO »ri» snahei (yrr. Je3 2,5) J1 Y JeBaHhen.y: Bamqa he ce sactuuqeiuu Kag 6uge CUHa scota lby6lbenoia (yrr. flK 20,13). CBJ1 OBJ1 J13pa3J1 noxaayjy neaaarse. AJIJ1 DOr HJ1je OBO rOBOpJ10 3aTO lllTO He 3Ha, Hero C HaMepOM na rrpJ1KJIa~HJ1je OCTBapJ1 CBOj U;J1lb. C A~aMOM je OH OHaKO roBOPJ10 C HaMepOM na ra rrO~CTaKHe na Tpa)KJ1 onpourra] aa CBOj rpex. CO~OMlbaHJ1Ma je OHO pe'-IeHO ~a 6J1 Hac nOy'-IJ1JIo na HJ1Ka~a He Cyp,J1MO aKO He 3HaMO casro neno. Kon npopOKa je OHO peqeHO na 6J1 ce cnpe'-IJ1JIa OHa 6e3YMHa MJ1CaO - na npencxasaise, T060)Ke, HeXOTJ1QHO BO~J1 HenOCJIYlllHOCTJ1. Y jeaaahezrcxoj rrpJ1QJ1 OHO je pe-reno na 6J1 ce noxasaJIO na cy OHJ1 6J1JIJ1 p,Y)I{HJ1 na ce rora ~p)Ke - na nourryjy CJ1Ha. A OB~e na He 6J1CMO 6J1JIJ1 O~BJ1111e 3HaTJ1)KelbHJ1, J1 yjenao na 6J1 YKa3aJIO na J13Y3eTHY Ba)KHOCT Tor naraisa. fIPJ1TOM pa3MJ1CJIJ1 xoje je TO Iberono nesnaa,e J1CKa3aHO TJ1M pe'-IJ1Ma, aKO OH He 3Ha '-IaK HJ1 onora xora nocrasn,al

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A Ha3J1Ba ra 6JIa)KeHJ1M: EllaJICeH je, xaxce, iUaj cnyia, a He xaxce KO je raj, neh casro: Koia uociuaeu tocuoqap NJefOB, J1:

EllaJICeH je, xoia Hafje ga I1UHU iUaKO. OBO, ~aKJIe, HJ1je pe'leHO 0 caMOM J1MalbY, Hero J1 0 YMY, J1 CHa3J1, J1 Ha~apeHOCTJ1- Ma, J1 0 CBJ1M 06aBe3aMa xoje cy CBaKOMe HaJIO)KeHe. OBa rrpJ1'la MO)Ke na ce O~HOCJ1 J1 na CBeTOBHe maBape 6y~yhJ1 ~a CBaKO rpetia na yrtorpetirsaaa OHO 'lJ1Me je orinapea na KOPJ1CT CBJ1X. AKo CJ1 otinapen My~pOlllhy, J1JIJ1 aKO TJ1 je nara y pYKe BJIaCT, aKO CJ1 60raT, J1JIJ1 nocenyjem urra ~pyro, He rpetia ~a yrrorperizsasaur TO 'lJ1Me CJ1 otinapen na nrreTy csoje ca6pahe, J1JIJ1 na concrseay norxtiajy, O~ cnyre, rroMeHYTor y rrpJ1'lJ1, saxrenajy ce nse CTBapJ1: My~pOCT J1 BepHocT (jenaa on Y3poKa rpexa je J1 Hepa3YMHOCT); OH ce Ha3J1Ba eepnusc 3aTO lllTO on J1Malba csora rocnonapa HJ1- urra HJ1je norajuo rrpJ1CBojJ10 sa ce6e, J1 HJ1111Ta HJ1je norpolllJ10 6e3 norpeoe J1 6e3 ~J1lba, a MygpUM (pa360pJ1TJ1M) saTO lllTO je YMeo na na rrpaBJ1 Ha'lJ1H yrroTpe?J1 J1Malbe xoje My je nosepeao, M HaMa cy J1CTO TaKO norpetiae BepHOCT J1 My~pOCT, KaKO 360r rora na He 6J1CMO rrpJ1CBajaJIJ1 ce6J1 OHO lllTO rrpnnana Iocnony, TaKO J1 360r rora na 6J1CMO rrpaBJ1JIHO yrroTpe6HJIJ1 OHO 'lJ1Me CMO 06~apeHJ1. AKo HeMaMO jenay on 're nse OC06J1He, oana je J1 OHa ~pyra HecaBpllleHa. AKO je cJIyra J1 BepaH, J1 He Kpa~e, aJIJ1 yrrporralllTaBa J1MaThe TaKO lllTO ra paCJ1rra na nenorpetiae CTBapJ1, OH~a je J1 TO BeJIJ1Ka KpJ1BJ1~a. AKO nax YMe notipo ~a BO~J1 J1MaThe, aJIJ1 y J1CTO apexe Kpa~e, OH~a je J1 TO raxohe He 6alll MaJIa KpJ1BJ1~a. Hexa na OBO otipare rra)KThY OHJ1 Meryy HaMa KOjJ1 J1Majy HOBa~, jep ce XpJ1CTOBe pe'lJ1 He onnoce J1CKlbYQJ1BO aa nohe, Hero H na 60raTe. M je~HJ1Ma J1 ~pyrJ1Ma rroBepeHO je 60raTcTBo: yqJ1TelbJ1Ma OHO xoje je BJ1111e norpeono,

a sasra 60raTJ1Ma OHO xoje je MaThe norperino. AKO nohe HelllTe~J1MJ1~e pacnnajy 6JIara, OHa Ba)KHJ1ja, a BJ1 He )KeJIJ1Te ~a noxaxcere J13~alllHOCT y MaJIO Ba)KHOM, J1 He casro J13~alllHOCT Hero xax HJ1 6JIarO~apHOCT, 6y~yhH na ce naje rybe, KaKBO here rana J1MaTJ1 onpasztaise? Hnax, rrpe Ka3He, KOja xexa nenpaaenae, nocnyurajxro KaKO he 6J1TJ1 aarpaben onaj KOjJ1 nocryna OHaKO KaKO rrpJ1JIJ1'lJ1: Sauctua BaM teaJlCeM: uoctuaeuhe fa Hag CBUM UMaNJeM CBojUM. Koje saarse ce C OBJ1M MO)Ke J13je~Ha'lJ1TJ1? Koja pe'l he YBeplbJ1BO J13pa- 3J1TJ1 TO anaise, TO 6JIa)KeHCTBO, xana Ilap He6eCKJ1, KojeM CBe rrpJ1rra~a, rrOCTaBJ1 xoaexa nan CBJ1M CBOjJ1M J1MaTheM? A Ha3J1Ba ra uyqpu»: yrrpaBo 3aTO lllTO BepHocT y MaJIOM BO~J1 xa ~06J1jalby BeJIJ1KOr; aa My~pO nocrynaise OH OB~e ~06J1ja He60.

4. ,lJ;albe Mcyc XPJ1CTOC rroCTyrra OHaKO KaKO YBeK J1 noCTyrra: OH yrrpaBlba cnyuraoua TaKO lllTO J13HOCJ1 J1 Harpa~y xoja xexa noope, J1 Ka3HY xoja rrpeTJ1 3JIJ1M. 3aTO J1 nonaje:

AKO nu iUaj phaeu cnyia pene y cpuy CBOMe: Hehe MOj tocaogap jotu saqyio qohu; U UOI1He iuyhu qpytoee ceoje, a jeciuu U uuiUu C uujanuuaua; qohu he tocaoqap tuo:« cnyie y gaH Kaga ce He Haga, U y «ac Kaga He MUCllU, U pacehu he fa Hauona, U qahe My yguo ca nuueiqepusca; onq]« he 6uiUu una« U iuxpiyu; sytia (MT 24,48-51). AKO HeKO xaace: "BJ1~J1111 JIJ1 ~O KaKBe je MJ1CJIJ1 ~Olllao CJIyra 3aTO lllTO naje snao xana he 6J1TJ1 Taj ~aH? jep je peKao: Hehe MOj iocuoqap joia saqyio qohu", OH~a hesro o~rOBOpJ1TJ1 na no re MJ1CJIJ1 HJ1je nourao 3aTO lllTO HJ1je snao xana he 6J1TJ1 raj nan, Hero 3aTO lllTO je 6J10 3JIJ1 cnyra. 3alllTO TaKBa MJ1CaO HJ1je nana na naxrer BepHOM J1 My~pOM CJIyrJ1? Hecpehmr-re! - HaKO ce rocnonapy He )KyPJ1, saurro yonurre He oxexyjeur iseros ~OJIa3aK?

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3alllTO ce He safipnaeur? vb onora, naxne, noaaajesro H TO na Iocnon He OKJIeBa. OHaKBa MHcao He rrpHrrap;a Iocnony, Hero JIYKaBOM CJIym, H 360r rora ce OH H ocyhyje. ,D,a [0- cnon He OKJIeBa, nocnyiuaj arrOCTOJIa I1aBJIa, KOjH rOBopH:

Iocaoq je 611U3Y. He tipunuiue ce HU 3a uuuo (<1>lJII 4,5,6), H:

Ona] xoju mpe6a ga golje U Helie oqounuiiiu (JeB 10,37). A TH nasa na OHO lllTO p;OJIa3H H nasrra KaKO 'leCTO Hcyc XPHCTOC orroxnnse 0 HeH3BeCHOCTH nana H THMe noxasyje KOJIHKO je 'ra HeH3BeCHOCT KopHCHa cnyrasia na ce npotiyne. III ra aKO HeKH HHCY H3 osora H3BYKJIH HHKaKBY KOPHCT sa ce6e? J.1 p;pyra cpep;cTBa, nara Ha cnaceise, raxohe HeKHMa HHCY p;OHeJIa KOpHCTH. Ho Iocnon He OCTaBlDa csoje p;eJIO. IIITa p;albe - yrnrraheur - rosopa Iocnon? Iiotn: lie y gaH xaga ce He Haga, U y nac Kaga He MUCllU, H sanecnhe rora CJIyry Haj)KaJIOCHHja cynrinaa. BHP;Hlll KaKO 'leCTO OH OBO noaasrsa H noxaayje KOJIHKO je crraCOHOCHa He113BeCHOCT nana yrrpaBo 3aTO lllTO Hac P;P)KH y nenpecraaoj 3a6pHHYTOCTH. Ilpenxer a.erone opare je TO na CTaJIHO 6yp;eMo na orrpe3y: xao lllTO CJIa6HMO YBeK xazt nposomoao cpehan H MHpaH )KHBOT, TaKO Hac necpehan )KHBOT najsnure yrnphyje: 3aTO Hac OH CTaJIHO rrOY'laBa na HaKOH MHpHor 11 6e36pH)KHOr )KHBOTa cnene necpehe, J.1 xao lllTO je na rrpeTxop;HHM crpaHH~aMa noxasao na Hojy, TaKO H osne rosopa: xana ce ouaj CJIyra onnja H nyrryje, rana My ce crrpeMa Y)KaCHa Ka3Ha. Hehesro, nnax, 06paTHTH CBY na)KlbY HCKlbY'lHBO na Ka3HY KOja je lbeMY onpeheaa: pa3MOTpHneMO jour H TO He nocrynaMO JIH H MH HCTO TaKO, Map;a TO He npasrehyjexso. J.1 3aHCTa, lbeMY cy CJIH'lHH OHH KOjH HMajy HOBa~ H He nOMa)KY CHpoxrannuuaa, Iep H T11 caxro BOP;Hlll csoje HMalbe, 6alll xao lllTO CJIY)KHTelb ~pKBe ynpaBlba OHHM lllTO OHa nocenyje,

Kao lllTO nocnemsn nexra onnaurrersa na no CBOjOj BOlbH H 6e3 pena pacHna onara xoja CTe BH npHHeJIH y KOPHCT CHpOxraunmx, jep cy OHa nara sa xpaHy CHpOMalllHHX, TaKO HH TH He MO)Kelll na paCHnalll csoja 6JIara no CBOjOj BOlbH. J.1aKO CH P;06HO pomrrerscxo nacnehe, HaKO je THMe CBe HMalbe nOCTaJIO, peKJIO 6H ce, rnoja csojnaa, CBe TO, nnax, npHnana Bory, Kan H TH CaM aaxresaur na HMalbeM, xoje CH TH nao, pacrrOJIa)KY OHaKO KaKO CH TH op;pep;HO, 3ap MHCJIHlll na Bor CBOjy HMOBHHY nehe 3aTpa)KHTH on Hac C BenOM nnaurhy H na nehe 06paTHTH naxosy na TO xana je pacnnaMO 6e3 HKaKBe KOpHCTH? He, TO HHje HCTHHa. OH TH je noBepHO 60raTCTBO na 6H TH nanao p;pyrHMa xpaHy y npano epeue. IIITa 3Ha'lH qaeaiuu y npaso epeue, p;aBaTH CHpOMalllHHMa, map;HHMa? Kao lllTO TH rrOBepaBalll sohea,e HMalba CJIym KOjH je CJIH'laH Te6H, TaKO je H Bory yronno p;a TH Iberoso 6JIaro ynorpeon.aaaur KaKO npHJIH'lH. J.1 Map;a MO)Ke na re JIHlllH 11Malba, OH ra ocraarsa KOP; retie yrrpaBo 3aTO na 6H TH HMao rrpHJIHKy p;a rroxazceur CBOjy BpJIHHy. THMe je OH CBe lbyp;e rrOCTaBHO TaKO na cy nOTpe6HH jenHH p;pyrHMa KaKO 6H Kp03 TO lby6aB jenner npesra p;pyroM yqHHHO najapenajoxr. AJIH TH, p;06HBlllH on Bora, He najem:

TH 'IaK H ry-rem OHe KojHMa rpetia nasara, npnnnu nacnn,e. AKO je aenasaa,e 3JIO'lHH, KaKO he onna 6HTH rrOMHJIOBaH onaj KOjH spurn nacarse?

5. MeHH ce 'lHHH na Hcyc XPHCTOC OBO rOBopH na pa'lyH HaCHJIHHKa H JIaKOMa~a, H oojasrsyje HM OlllTPY ocyP;y sa TO lllTO myKy OHe xoje rpetia na xpane, MHClI11M, TaKOhe, na OH osne ~Hlba H na cnacrorsyrrue, 6yp;ynH na CJIaCTOlby6lbe raxohe oxexyje reunca Ka3Ha: Jegy U uujy, xaxce, c uuianuuasca, 'IHMe je HCKa3ao npeaacnhaaaa,e CTOMaKa.

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3aJ1CTa, HJ1CJ1 TJ1 p;06J10 J1Malbe na 6J1 Y)KJ1BaO, Hero na 6J1 qJ1HJ10 MJ1JIOCnHhy. )J;a JIJ1 je TO J1Malbe rnoje concrseao! OHO rrpJlIIap;a CJ1pOMalI1HJ1Ma, a Te6J1 je caao nosepeno, J1aKO CJ1 ra HaCJIep;J10 on oua, J1aKO je OHO CTeqeHO qeCTJ1- TJ1M J1 MHOrJ1M panov. 3ap Bor HJ1je Morao na ra Y3Me on retie? AJIJ1 OH ra He 0p;Y3J1Ma 3aTO na 6J1 Morao na qJ1HJ1lI1 MJ1JIOCT CJ1pOMalI1HJ1Ma. 3arraMTJ1 na Hcyc XPJ1CTOC y CBJ1M nproraxra pa306JIJ1QaBa OHe KOjJ1 HJ1CY yrroTpe6JDaBaJIJ1 CBOje 60raTCTBO aa xpaHy CJ1pOMalI1HJ1Ma. Taxo J1 nesojxe HJ1CY ocybene lI1TO cy rpa6J1JIe ryhe, Hero lI1TO HJ1CY nane csoje:

HJ1 onaj CJIyra KOjJ1 je saxonao CBOj TaJIaHT HJ1je 6J10 JIaKOMau;: OH carao HJ1je yP;BOCTpyqJ10 raj TaJIaHT; HJ1 OHJ1 KOjJ1 cy npespenrr rrraznre He Ka)KlbaBajy ce aa TO lI1TO cy rrpJ1- CBOjJ1JIJ1 ryhe, Hero aa TO lI1TO HJ1CY YMHO)KJ1JIJ1 caoje, xao J1 rrOMeHYTJ1 crryra, Hexa otipare rra)KlbY na OBO OHJ1 Me1)y HaMa KOjJ1 yrabajy CTOMaKY J1 60raTCTBO, xoje HJ1KaKO He rrpJ1rrap;a lbJ1Ma, Hero CJ1pOMalI1HJ1Ma, pacnnajv aa 60raTo nocrasrsene CTOJIOBe. Hesroj MJ1CJIJ1TJ1 na OHO lI1TO TJ1 je rro DO)KJ1jeM QOBeKolby6lbY aarroseheno p;a pasnajeur xao CBOjy J1MOBJ1HY 3aJ1CTa J1 jecre rsoje. CBe TO Bor TJ1 je nao na 3ajaM na 6J1 Morao na ra yrrorperin.asaur na KOPJ1CT. Ilpesra TOMe, He csrarpaj CBOjJ1M xana najem Ibexry on onora lI1TO HieMy rrpJ1rrap;a. HJ1Kap;a neheur pehn na je HOB au, KOjJ1 CJ1 TJ1 nao na 3ajaM HeKOMe na ra ynorpetin na crnuaa.e aexer KOpJ1CHOr, 6J1o lberOB. Taxo je Bor nao Te6J1 60raTcTBo na 6J1 TJ1 lhJ1Me KyrrJ10 He60. He ynorpeozsanaj na najsehe 3JIO HserOBO QOBeKolby6lbe na re He y3J1Majy xao npasrep He3aXBaJIHOCTJ1. Pa3MJ1CJIJ1 KaKO je nparoueao J1MaTJ1 cpencrso xoje 6J1 rrOCJIe xpurrersa pa3pelI1J1JIO name rpeXOBe. )J;a Iocnon HJ1je pexao: "YQJ1HJ1 MJ1JIOCTJ1lbY", KOJIJ1KO 6J1 lbyP;J1 peKJIO:

,,0, Kap; 6J1 ce )KpTBOBalbeM J1Malba Momo J136aBJ1TJ1 on Hecpeha xoje cy ce Hap;BJ1JIe Hap; nasra!" Kana je OBO rrOCTaJIO xrorvbe, oana ocrajy y HeMapHOCTJ1. AJIJ1 TJ1 rOBOpJ1lI1: "Ja p;ajeM:' IIlTa najeur? HJ1CJ1 nao HJ1 OHOJIJ1KO KOJIJ1KO je nazra OHa xceaa xoja je nana carao p;Be nerrre, HJ1CJ1 nao QaK HJ1 najMalbJ1 neo y nopehersy C lhOM; TJ1 BJ1lI1e pacnrraur na Herrorpetine J13p;aTKe, na 60raTe r036e, na nnjancrao, na npoacnplbJ1BOCT, xac rr03J1BalI1 ce6J1 p;pyre, xac caM lbJ1Ma J1p;elI1, xac caM TPOlI1J1lI1 na )KJ1BOT, xac p;pyre rrpJ1MOpaBalI1 na TpOlI1e na )KJ1BOT, a CaMJ1M TJ1M CrrpeMalI1 aa ce6e BeOMa BeJIJ1KY Ka3Hy, rrpBO aa TO lI1TO casr TO QJ1HJ1lI1, J1 p;pyro aa TO lI1TO p;pyre rrpJ1MOpaBalI1 na TO QJ1He. CeTJ1 ce onor cnyre KOjJ1 je ocyhea sa TO J1CTO: jeo je J1 rrJ10 C nrrjamrnaraa. Ka3Ha He CTJ1)Ke jep;J1HO najamme Hero J1 OHe KojJ1 cy sajenao C lbJ1- Ma rrJ1jaHQJ1JIJ1, J1 TO je rrOTrrYHO rrpaBep;HO: 3aTO lI1TO OHJ1 J1 CaMJ1 ce6e YHJ1lI1TaBajy J1 He xrape 0 cnacelbY 6JIJ1)KlbJ1X. AJIJ1 HJ1lI1Ta TOJIJ1KO He pasnpaacyje Dora KOJIJ1KO neripara 0 cnacersy 6JIJ1)KlbJ1X; OH je napenno na CJIYry paceKy natrona yrrpaBo 3aTO p;a 6J1 J13pa3J10 CBOj rnes: 3aTO je J1 ypenno na HajBa)KHJ1ja OC06J1Ha lherOBJ1X yqeHJ1Ka 6yp;e lby6aB: Onaj KOjJ1 BOJIJ1 06aBe3Ho ce 6pJ1He 0 6JIarOCTalbY sozseae ocotie. Ilpxcahexo ce, naxne, rora rryTa, jep je raj rryT yrrpaso onaj KOjJ1 Hac BOP;J1 na He60, QJ1HJ1 Hac OHJ1Ma KOjJ1 ce yrnenajy na XpJ1CTa, J1 rro MorynHOCTJ1 rrOp;06HJ1M Dory. 3arraMTJ1 na cy rrpe OCTaJIJ1X norpetiae rrOmaBJ1TO OHe BpJIJ1He xoje 06J1- rasajy na TOM rrYTY. AKO xohere, pa3MOTpJ1neMO J1X, J1 cyp;J1neMO 0 lhJ1Ma rro DO)KJ1jeM cyP;y. Hexa nocroje nsa rryn BPJIJ1HCKOr )KJ1BOTa, J1 nexa jenan on lhJ1X QJ1HJ1 P;06pJ1M jeP;J1HO onora KojJ1 lbJ1Me XOP;J1, a p;pyrJ1 yjemro J1 6JIJ1)Klhera. Ilornenajao, KOjJ1 Hac on lbJ1X nornynaje J1 60lbe Y3HOCJ1

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na aajaxunr crenen npnnae. Anocron ITaBlIe BeOMa qeCTO ocyhyje onora Kojl1 ce 6pl1He jenano 0 CBOM conCTBeHOM noopy (sana rOBOpl1M: ITaBlIe, pa3yMl1 non Tl1M castor XpnCTa), a onora KOjl1 ce CTapa 0 noopy 611l1)Klhera npocnasrsa noxsanasra l1 no-racruxra. Onaxne OBO 3HaMO? IT 0 ClIyIll aj urra OH rOBOpl1 0 je,n;HOM, a urra 0 ,n;pyrOM: HUKO nexa He tupascu Ulmo je lVe1060, neio C6aKU OHO iuaio )e qpyiota (1 Kop 10,24). Bnnmu 1Il1 KaKO OH jenno onrianyje, a ,n;pyro nanaxce? VI oner: C6aKU og Hac nexa yiaha 611UJlClVeMY na qotipo pagu naupeiiuca (PI1M 15,2). ,1J;albe cnemr HeJ1CKa3aHa xsana, cje,n;J1lbeHa C YBepelbeM: Iep U Xpuciuoc He YIOgu ce6u. ,1J;OBOlbna 611 6l1l1a Ben l1 OBa pa3MaTpalha na ce noxazce na KOjOj CTpaHl1 je notiena. YOCTalloM, na 6J1 TO 611110 on senaxe KOPl1CTl1, rrornenahesro xoja cy notipa nena 3al1CTa y l1CTl1 Max KOpl1CHa l1 sa Hac casre l1 sa 611l1)Klhe. ITOCT, nexcarse aa seMlbl1, qYBalhe ,n;eBCTBeHOCTl1 l1 QelloMy,n;peHOCT KOPl1CHl1 cy ynpaBo aa OHe KOjJ1 TO qJ1He, a 611l1)KlheM KOPl1CT nonoce MJ1110CTl1lha, rroysaaan,e l1 lby6aB. Ilocnynraj l1 OBOM rrpnlIl1KOM ITaBlIa, KOjl1 rOBOpl1: J1 aKO pasqai« cse usuuee ceoje, u aKO upeqai« iuujeno ceoje ga ce caJICeJICe, a lby6a6u HeMaM, uuuuua MU He «opuciuu (1 Kop 13,3).

6. Bl1,n;l1Illlll1 KaKO ce lby6aB caaa no ce6l1 npoclIaBlba l1 oaensaaa. A aKO xohere, npehn heao na rpehe nopehea,e. Y3Ml1Mo,n;a je,n;aH nOCTl1, ,n;P)Kl1 Ql1CTOTY, npenaje ce MyqeHl1- IllTBy l1 caxcexce ce, a ,n;pyrl1 pana Hanpe,n;OBalha 611l1)Klher onnaace MyqeHHIllTBo, l1 He casro onnaxce Hero l1 yMl1pe 6e3 rora. Koja he on IbHX, no npellaCKY l13 osor )Kl1BOTa, 6l1Tl1 ynocrojea Bene cnaaer Hexrasro norpetie ,n;a osne MHOro rOBOpl1MO l1 6ece,n;l1MO nanyro H HaIlll1pOKO jep HaM TO otijaunsaaa CBeTl1 ITaBlIe H rOBopH: J1MaM JlCelbY yupujeiuu

u ca Kpuctuoi« «utau, tuiuo je MHOIO tione: anu ociuaiuu Y iuujeny uotupeiiuuje je 6ac pagu (<l>JJn 1,23,24). Hyjeur na na ce Hanpe,n;OBaThY 611J1)KThera naje npe,n;HOCT y O,n;HOCY na onna)Kelhe Xpl1CTy? Iep 6l1TH ca XPl1CTOM npe csera 3HaQl1 Hcnyisaaarn Iberony BOlbY, a Xpl1CTOBa son.a He Tpa)KH ,n;pyro no casro tipnry 0 KOPHCTl1 611H)Klher. AKO xoheur, nanehy Tl1 H QeTBpTl1 ,n;OKa3. Ileiupe, lby6uUl llU Me, rOBOpl1 XPl1CTOC, nauaca] [aiateue Moje (yn. JH 21, 15): l1 nOIllTO ra ynl1Ta l1 Tpenl1 nYT, peQe ,n;a je TO 3HaK lby6aBl1. OBO HHje pe-reao jenaHO caMHM CBeIllTeHHQl1Ma, Hero H CBaKOMe on Hac KOMe je nOBepeHO MaKap H MallO crane. He npesnpa ynpaBo MallO, jep je OTaQ MOj, xazce anocron, lheMY naxnorsen (JIK 12,32). CBaKO on Hac HMa OBQY l1 ,n;y)KaH je na je BO,n;l1 na nooap nannsax. ql1M YCTaHe H3 nocrezse, My)K rpetia na ce CTapa je,n;l1HO 0 TOMe na l1 ,n;ellHMa H peQl1Ma IllHpl1 y CBOjOj Kynl1 H CBOjOj noponnua aernrxy n060)KHOCT; nexa l1 xceaa HCTO TaKO nanrnena xyhy, allH OCl1M OBe ,n;y)KHOCTl1 OHa 06aBe3HO Mopa ,n;a ce CTapa l1 0 TOMe na ce uezra rroponnua Tpy,n;H aa Ilapcrso He6eCKO. AKO l1 Y CTBapHMa osora CBeTa, npe KynHl1X nOClIOBa, HaCTojl1MO na l13BpllIl1MO ,n;pYIllTBeHe 06aBe3e, KaKO, y npOTl1BHOM, He 6l1CMO 6l111l1 no,n;BpfHyTl1 cTaBlbalhY y OKOBe, Cy,n;CKl1M Myqelhl1Ma l1 caaxojaxosr cpaxroheu.y, Tl1M smue y ,n;YXOBHl1M ,n;elll1Ma xropaao aacrojarn na l1CnYHl1MO npBeHcTBeHo nena Llapa csera - DO)Kl1ja nena, na He 6l1CMO 6J111l1 nOClIaTl1 TaMO rne je IllKpryT sytia. Tpaxorhexio OHe sprnore xoje cy l1 HaMa CaMl1Ma ua cnacea.e l1 611l1)KTheM na KOPl1CT. TaKBe cy Ml1110CTl1lha l1 MOlll1- TBa; MOlll1TBa, naxne, caxra yaajsrn.yje CBOjy Cl1l1Y l1 ,n;06l1ja Kpl1l1a on Ml1110CTl1lhe. Monuiuee iueoje, pe-reao je, U MU- 1l0CmU1tJe tueoje ysuhoiue na CUOMeH upeg EOIOM (Ilan 10,4).

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J1 He caero MOIU1TBe Hero xax H rrOCT raxohe on MHlIOCTHlbe Y3ajMlbyje CBOjy HCTpajHoCT. AKO rrOCTHIII 6e3 MHlIOCTHlbe, onna TBOj rrOCT nnje nocr: TaKaB qOBeK je ropH on rrpo:>K,n;plbHBu;a H mrjannue, H TO OHOlIHKO KOlIHKO je IIIKPTOCT ropa on paCKOIliHOCTH. AlIH IIITO rOBopHM: nocri AKO CH H HerrOpOqaH, aKO H ,n;p:>KHIII ,n;eBCTBeHOCT H u;elI~My,n;peHOCT, a He qHHHIII MHlIOCTHlbY, 6Hhelli H3BaH 6paqHHX onaja, IIlTa ce MO:>Ke H3je,n;HaqHTH ca neacrnenourhy, xoja je 360r csoje H3BPCHOCTH H Y HOBOM 3aBeTY 6HlIa rrocraarsena xao o6aBe3HH 3aKOH? AlIH H OHa ce o,n;6au;yje aKO HHje y,n;pY:>KeHa C MHlIOCTHlbOM. AKO cy nesojxe ontiasene 3aTO IIITO HHCY qHHHlIe MHlIOCTHlbY, KO onna 6e3 lbe MO:>Ke ,n;06HTH onpourraji HHKo. Onora KOjH He qHHH MHlIOCTHlbY xexa HeH36e:>KHa norntiaja. Kan y rrOClIOBHMa osora CBeTa HHKO He :>KHBH pa,n;H casror ce6e, Hero ce CBaKH, H YMeTHHK, H BOjHHK, H seMlbopa,n;HHK, H rprosan npenaje rrOClIY pann ,n;pYIliTBeHe KOPHCTH H ,n;06HTH - KOlIHKO BHlIIe Mopa 6HTH OBO HcrrYlbeHO y ,n;YXOBHHM ,n;elIHMa! Ynpaso y TOMe ce y CTBapH cacrojn :>KHBOT; HarrpOTHB, KO :>KHBH HCKlbyqHBO aa caxor ce6e, a HH 0 KOM ,n;pyroM He BO,n;H 6pHry, raj je CYBHlIIaH, raj HHje qOBeK Hero H3pO,n; lby,n;CKor pona. "A IIITa he 6HTH': Ka:>KelII, "aKO csoje OCTaBHM, a 0 Ty1)eM 6y,n;eM BO,n;HO 6pHry?" He, HHje Moryhe ,n;a oaaj KOjH BO,n;H 6PHry 0 ,n;pyrHMa y HCTH Max He BO,n;H 6pHry H 0 cetin. Oaaj KOjH BO,n;H 6PHry 0 6lIarocTalbY ,n;pyrHx, nnxora aehe O:>KalIOCTHTH, ca CBHMa he cacTpa,n;aBaTH, CBHMa he rroxrararn OHOlIHKO KOlIHKO MO:>Ke, HH on xora HHIIITa aehe o,n;Y3HMaTH, nehe npacaajarn ce- 6H ryhe, HH KpacTH, HH lIa:>KHO CBe,n;OqHTH, yanpacasahe ce on cnaxor nopoxa, xysahe cBaKY BplIHHy, MOlIHhe ce aa Henpajarezse, ,n;o6po he qHHHTH OHHMa KOjH My pane 0 rnana,

HH ca KHM ce aehe cBa1)aTH, HH 0 KOMe nehe 3lIy peel H3rOBOpHTH MaKap CaM ClIYlIIao aeopojena xyzseisa, Hero he pehH sajenao C arrOCTOlIOM: Ko ocnatiu, a ga U ja He oClla6uM? Ko ce Ca611aJICl-ba6a, a ja ga He fOPUM (2Kop 1l,29)? AKO nax 6yneur Tpa:>KHO casro csoje, onna ce yorrlIITe neheur 6pHHyTH o Ty1)eM. Y6e,n;HBIIIH ce, TaKO, na HaM HeM a cnaceisa aKO He 6y,n;eMO BO,n;HlIH 6pHry 0 ornuroj KOPHCTH, H rnenajyhn pacexeaor narrona, H onora clIyry KOjH je saxorrao CBOj TalIaHT, H3a6epHMO onaj 60lbH rryT zta 6HCMO ,n;06HlIH BeqHH :>KHBOT, xojer CBH,n;a 6y,n;eMO ynocrojean rro 6lIaro,n;aTH H qOBeKOlbY- 6lby Iocnona naurer J1cyca XpHCTa, KOMe cnasa y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMHH.

Cn1XOBI1:

BeJ1UKU YUlOpaK OUOMUlVe ua geceiU qeeoiaxa «oie c8ego4e a uo6egu (cygy) HeuoiUKYUlbU80f Iocuoqa.

cnaonene 06HlbeM Ylba yhoure ca >KeHHKOM, a JIyp;e, xoje HHcy Y3eJIe P;OBOlbHO yzsa, noxeure na ra Tpa>Ke xan ce npotiynnure. J1aKo cy XTeJIe, Myp;pe HHCY MOrJIe na najy (JIyp;HMa on csor yrsa) jep 6eIlle speve sa caxro YJIa>Kelbe (rj, y 6paqHe onaje), H 3aTO HM op;rOBopHIlle: J1.a He 6u neqociuano U naua U BaMa, tion.« uquiue T1pogaBI1UMa, rj. CHpOMaIllHHMa, U tcyuutue. AJIH TO HHje H3BOP;lbHBO, jep, 360r CMPTH, snnre nnje xroryhe. To HecYMlhHBO noxaayje H ABpaM: y npHqH 0 rioraraury H yooroi« JIa3apy OH rosopn: OHU KOjU 6u xiujenu OgOByg K BaMa upujehu, He MOlY (IlK 16,26).11 nopep; csera, nyne nesojxe, xoje cy nourrre 6e3 CBeTJIOCTH, nannjy H yp;apajy y BpaTa: Iocaoqapy, Iocuoqapy! OWBOpU HaM. AJIH casr [0- cnon H3rOBapa onaj CTpaIllHH op;roBOp: Oqnasutue, KaJICeM BaM, He T103HajeM Bac. KaKO here BHp;eTH >KeHHKa xan aexrare BHHO MHJIOCTHlhe?

DorOHOCHH OQH cy, naxne, CTaBHJIH osne npHqy 0 necer nenojaxa p;a 6H Hac HayqHJIH na YBeK 6yp;eMo 6YP;HH H crrpesnnr na HCTHHHTor )KeHHKa no-rexano C P;06PHM p;eJIHMa H npseacraeno C MHJIOCTHlhOM, jep He 3HaMO p;aH H xac xpaja, 6aIll xao IllTO Hac JOCH<P CBOjHM npmaeposr yqH na 3ap;06HjaMo QeJIOMyp;peHocT, a CMOKBa na YBeK P;OHOCHMO p;YXOBHH nJIOp;. Koja HcrryHH jenno, -rax sehe, a p;pyro, naPOqHTO MHJIOCTHlhY, 3aHeMapH, raj nehe yha ca XPHCTOM y BeqHH nOqHHaK, Hero he ce nocpaMlbeH BpaTHTH nasan, jep HHqer nesra )KaJIOCHHjer H cpasnrajer on p;eBCTBeHOCTH KOjy je n06ep;HJIa CTpaCT npeMa 60raTcTBY.

)KeHHqe Xpncre, 3P;PY)KH Hac C Myp;pHM nesojxaaa, npHp;pY)KH Hac TBOM H3a6paHoM crany H nOMHJIyj Hac. AMHH.

CJ1HAKCAP HA CBETJ1 J1 BEJIJ1KJ1 YTOPAK*

Ha CBeTH H BeJIHKH YTopaK qHHHMO cnosrea na (jesan~eJICKY) npn-ry 0 necer nesojaxa.

Iocnon naur J1cyc XPHCTOC rOBopHo je OBaKBe npHqe CBOjHM yqeHHQHMa P;OK je YJIa3HO y Iepyca.noa, npep; csoje crpanarse. J1Ma H TaKBHX npHqa xoje jeOn yrryhnnao IynejQHMa. A npHqOM 0 necer nesojaxa [OCIlOp; noncrrrse na MHJIOCTHlhY, H yjenno noyqaBa CBe lbyp;e na cnpesnto noxexajy xpaj. Paanje je OH snroro rOBopHo yqeHHQHMa 0 p;eBCTBeHOCTH H 0 YIllKonlbeHHQHMa. ,lJ,eBcTBeHocT 3aCJIY)Kyje BeJIHKO ysaacaaan,e, jep je YHCTHHY BeJIHKa, aJIH na HeKO, xyaajyhn jenaao Ty BPJIHHY, He 6H sanexrapnaao H p;pyre, npe CBHX MHJIOCTHlhY, KOjOM CBeTJIe CBeTHlbKe p;eBCTBeHOCTH, CBeTO Ienanhezse xaayje OBY npHqy. Iler nenojaxa Ha3HBa OHO MyP;pHM 3aTO IllTO cy p;eBCTBeHOCTH npHp;Op;aJIe 06HJIHO H CKynOQeHO YJbe MHJIOCTHlbe, a ner OCTaJIHX Ha3HBa JIYP;HM 3aTO IllTO HHCY HMaJIe onrosapajyhy MHJIOCTHlhY, HaKO je H lhHX raxohe Op;JIHKOBaJIa nescraenocr, OHe cy JIyp;e ynpaBo 3aTO IllTO cy HcnyHHBIllH nehe npenetiperne xraa,e, H crora ce HH no qeMY He pasnnxyjy on 6JIyp;HHQa: 6JIyp;HHQe je n06ep;HJIO TeJIO, a lhHX - HMeTaK. Kan je rrpOJIa3HJIa noh osor )KHBOTa, CBe re nesojxe saqpeuaiue U oocuaiue. rj, YMpeIlle, jep ce osne non CHOM nop;pa3YMeBa CMpT. A ycpep; lhHXOBor CHa, y T10HOPtU, cuiaqe BUKa, oraopnure ce .opara, H OHe IllTO cy ce

* tIl1Ta ce na jyrpeisy, rrpe nojarsa nsonecneua.

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usjeqnauu ce ca CiUOKOM Hepa3YMHOM U i10ciUage joj cnuuan (Oc48.13). qOBeK 01, 06p;apeH peqjy, a peq He BOJU1llI? Ka)KJ1, KaKBO orrpaBp;aIDe hem J1MaTJ1? 3aTO CTe MJ1 on CBJ1X BJ1 najrroTpe6HJ1jJ1, jep, xao na KpJ1JIJ1Ma, nonehere C pa3HJ1X CTpana (na CJIYllIaTe) peqJ1 0 BPJIJ1HJ1 J1 peq EO)KJ1ja BaM je sa)KHJ1ja on csera. IIpJ1xBaTJ1MO ce J1 MJ1, naxne, Hallie resre J1 HaCTaBJ1MO 6ecep;y 0 OHOMe 0 qeMY CMO OHOMap; rOBOpJ1JIJ1: ja BaM TO nyryjea J1 pap;o hy Op;Y)KJ1TJ1 CBOj p;yr jep MJ1 TO He P;OHOCJ1 CJ1pOMalliTBO, Hero rrpY)Ka 60raTCTBO. Y rrOCJIOBJ1Ma osora csera P;y)KHJ1~J1 oeace on 3ajMop;aB~a KaKO J1M He 6J1 BpaTJ1JIJ1 (nyr): ja jypJ1M (sa saxra) na BaM BpaTJ1M - J1 TO je CaCBJ1M rrpasenao, jep y rrOCJIOBJ1Ma osora CBeTa Bpahaise yMaIDyje J1MeTaK, a spaharse peqJ1Ma cTBapa 60raTCTBO. Ha rrpJ1Mep: ja p;yryjeM HeKOMe HOBa~, J1 aKO ra BpaTJ1M, OH He MO)Ke 6J1TJ1 J1 KOP; isera J1 KOP; MeHe; He, OH je J13 MOjJ1X pyKy OTJ1llIaO y IDerOBe pyKe. AJIJ1 aKO BpaTJ1M peqJ1, OHe J1 KOP; MeHe ocrajy, J1 BJ1 J1X CBJ1 J1MaTe. A aKO 3ap;p)KJ1M y ce6J1 peq J1 He CaOrrllITJ1M (je), onna caM ja CJ1pOMallIaH, a aKO BpaTJ1M, nocrajera 60raTJ1jJ1. AKO He BpaTJ1M pexa, OHp;a caM casso ja 60raT, a aKO BpaTJ1M, onna p;06J1jaM nnon sajenao ca CBJ1Ma aasra.

BpaTJ1MO, naxne, p;yr. A KaKaB je TO p;yr? OHOMap; CMO pa3rOBapaJIJ1 0 noxajarsy J1 peKJIJ1 na nocroje MHOrJ1 J1 pa3- JIJ1qJ1TJ1 rrYTeBJ1 noxajaisa, J1 TO 3aTO na 6J1 HaM cnaceise 6J1- JIO JIaKO. ,lJ;a HaM je Bor nao jenan rryT cnaceisa, MJ1 6J1CMO no-rena na J13HaJIa3J1MO J13rOBOp: He MO)KeMO J1hJ1 OBJ1M rryTeM, aa MO)KeMO ce CrraCTJ1. A na 6J1 TJ1 onyseo MoryhHOCT raxsor J13rOBOpa, OH TJ1 je nao MHore J1 pa3JIJ1qJ1Te rryrese, a He casro jenaa, HJ1 nsa, HJ1 TPJ1, na 6J1 360r Tor MHOlliTBa yqJ1HJ10 na TJ1 ycxoheise aa He60 6yp;e JIaKO. PeKJIJ1 CMO

3HaTe JIJ1 Op;aKJIe CMO onosran no-rena nam pa3roBop J1 rne CMO ra rrpeKJ1HYJIJ1, J1JIJ1: on xera CMO KpeHyJIJ1 J1 p;OKJIe CMO p;OBeJIJ1 nperxonny 6ecep;y? BJ1 CTe, nperrrocraszsav, 3a60paBJ1JIJ1 na qeMY CMO 3aycTaBJ1JIJ1 naur pa3roBop; aJIJ1 ja 3HaM, J1 sa TO nac He KPJ1BJ1M, He ocyhyjex. CBJ1 BJ1 J1Mare »cene, crapare ce 0 p;e~J1 J1 BOp;J1Te paqYHa 0 rropop;J1qHJ1M 06aBe3aMa; jep;HJ1 CTe BOjHJ1~J1, p;pyrJ1 3aHaTJIJ1je; peqjy: CBaKO on sac 6pJ1He 0 CBOjJ1M 06aBe3aMa. A MJ1 C OBJ1M** J1MaMO rrOCJIa, OBJ1M ce 6aBJ1MO, J1 y OBOMe rrpOBOp;J1MO CBOje BpeMe. Bac, naxne, He Mory na KOPJ1M sa TO***, aJIJ1 MopaM na nac rrOXBaJIJ1M aa peBHOCT - 360r rora llITO Hac HJ1jep;He aenerse He OCTaBJbaTe caxe, Hero Op;JIa)KeTe CBe p;pyro J1 P;OJIa3J1Te y ~pKBy. Ynpaso cy peBHOCHJ1 J1 CpqaHJ1 )KJ1TeJbJ1 najnernua yKpac aaurer rpap;a, a He rserosa 6YKa, npenrpaha, nosnahene xyhe J1 onaje ca rrOCTaBJbeHJ1M CTOJIOBJ1Ma. J1 notipo P;PBO noanajesro rro poP;y, a He rro JIJ1CTy. MJ1 ce pa3JIJ1KyjeMo on Hepa3YMHJ1X )KJ1BOTJ1IDa TJ1Me llITO J1MaMO (nap) peqJ1, llITO ce J13pa)KaBaMO peqJ1Ma J1 BOJIJ1MO peq. qoBeK KOjJ1 He BOJIJ1 peq MHoro je Hepa3yMHJ1jJ1 on )KJ1BOTJ1- IDa: OH He 3Ha pap;J1 xera je ynocrojen (naposr pexa). Iloripo je rrpopOK peKao: 11 1i06eK y «aciuu tiyqyhu, He pa3YMege,

* GBa 6eceAa je naaen.ena Aa ce 'una na Bem1KH YTopaK, aa qaCOBHMa, nocne qeTBopojeBaHl)eJba.

** Tj. C nporrosenau.esr.

*** Tj. aa uecehaise 0 npeAMeTY nperxonae 6eceAe.

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raxohe na noxajan,e HJ1je TellIKO, J1 na Y lheMY HeMa HJ1KaKBe reuncohe. [pellIHJ1K CJ1? Y1)J1 Y ~PKBY, J1 Ka)KJ1: "Carpe- 1lIJ10 CaM" - J1 6J1nelli pa3pellieH OA rpexa. ITOBOAOM rora rrOMeHYJIJ1 CMO J1 ,lJ;aBJ1Aa, KOjJ1 je CarpellIJ10 J1 6J10 pa3peurea OA rpexa. 3aTJ1M CMO J13HeJIJ1 J1 onaj APyrJ1 nyr, TO jeer nnas J1 rpex, J1 rOBOpJ1JIJ1: KaKaB je TO TPYA? He rpeoasro HJ1 na TPOllIJ1MO HOBa~, HJ1 na nyryjeao HaAaJIeKO, HJ1 na qJ1HJ1- MO neurro APyro CJIJ1qHO OBOMe, HO caxro zta nxasesro 360r rpexa. 3a OBO CMO HaBeJIJ1 OHe pexa J13 ITJ1CMa na je nor rrpoMeHJ10 cnoje onpehen.e npexra AxaBY 3aTO llITO je Axas YAaPJ10 Y nnax J1 0)KaJIOCTJ10 ce, J1 na je caxr (nor) pexao MJIJ1- jJ1: lecu llU Bugeo KaKO ce Axas rrOHJ13J10 npena MHOM? 3aTO nehy rrYCTJ1TJ1 OHO 3JIO (yn.l U:ap21,29). 3aTJ1M CMO YKa3aJIJ1 J1 na rpehn rrYT noxajaisa J1 HaBeJIJ1 peqJ1 ITJ1CMa 0 ¢apJ1cejy J1 ~apJ1HJ1Ky. <PapJ1cej je HaAMeHO caxr ce6e rrOXBaJIJ10 J1 raKO OCTao 6e3 onpasnarsa, a ~apJ1HJ1K je noxasao AYX CMJ1persa, J13allIaO ca rrJIOAOM rrpaBeAHOCTJ1 J1, 6e3 J1KaKBOr TpYAa, 6J10 onpasnaa: nao je peqJ1, a rrpJ1MJ10 AeJIa. Carta J1AeMO nazse na rrOKa)KeMO qeTBpTJ1 rrYT noxajaisa. A KaKaB je raj nyr? To je MJ1JIOCTJ1lha, ~apJ1~a BpJIJ1Ha, xoja Haj6p)Ke y3HOCJ1 lbYAe na neriecxe CBOAOBe, najtiorsa 3allITJ1THJ1~a. BeJIJ1- KO je AeJIO MJ1JIOCTJ1lha; 3aTO je J1 COJIOMOH KJIJ1~ao: Benuxa je ciueap uoeex, a joiu qpasca «oeex KOjU ttUHU MUllOCUtUl-bY (yn. TIpJ1l.J 20,6). BeJIJ1QaHCTBeH je JIeT MJ1JIOCTJ1lhe: OHa paceua Ba3AYx, rrpOJIa311 nopen xreceua, YCXOAJ1 J13HaA CYHQeBJ1X 3paKa, AOCTJ1)Ke AO CaMJ1X aetieca. ITa HJ1 TY He sacraje, Hero rrpOJIa3J1 J1 He60, 06J1JIa3J1 J1 catiope aH1)eJIa J1 360poBe apxanhena J1 CBe BJ111Ilhe CJ1JIe J1 J13JIa3J1 npen CaMJ1 ~apCKJ1 npecro. IToYQJ1 ce TOMe J13 caxror ITJ1CMa, xoje rOBOpJ1: Kopnunuje! ... seonuiuee taeoje U scunociuusee UtBoje ysuhotue

na CUOMeH upeg Boiom (JJ:an 10,4). A peQJ1 upeq Boiou 3HaQe:

J1aKO CJ1 MHoro rpellIaH, nexroj ce 6ojaTJ1 jep MJ1JIOCTJ1lha je rsoja 3allITJ1THJ1~a. HJ1jeAHa BJ111Ilha CJ1JIa lhY He 3aYCTasrsa; OHa Tpa)KJ1 OHO llITO je 3aCJIY)KeHO jep J1Ma Y PYKaMa J1CTJ1HCKJ1 pYKOrrJ1c. To je mac casror Iocnona: Kag yttUHUut jegHoMe og OBe Moje HajMal-be 6pafie, MeHU cu yttUHUO (yrr. Mr 25,40). Taxo, Ma KOJIJ1KO J1MaO Apymx rpexosa, rnoja MJ1JIOCTJ1lha he CBe npeaanryrn.

2. 3ap He saaur jeBaH1)eJICKY rrpJ1Qy 0 necer nesojaxa, KaKO cy OHe xoje HJ1CY QJ1HJ1JIe MJ1JIOCTJ1lhY OCTaJIe J13BaH opa-nre JIO)KHJ1~e J1aKO cy ce rrOABJ13aBaJIe y AeBCTBeHOCTJ1? nellie, rOBOpJ1 (ITJ1CMO), necer nenojaxa, ner JIYAJ1X J1 ner MYAPJ1X. MYApe cy J1MaJIe yzse, a JIYAe HJ1CY J1MaJIe Ylbe J1 3aTO cy lhJ1XOBe CBeTJ1lbKe no-rene na ce race. JIYAe npnhome MYApJ1Ma J1 peKOllIe: ",lJ;ajTe HaM Ylba J13 BallIJ1X rrOCYAa" (Mr 24, 1-8). CTJ1AJ1M ce, J1 ~pBeHJ1M, J1 rrJIaQeM KaA QyjeM 0 JIYAoj AeBoj~J1; ~pBeHJ1M KaA QyjeM na cy OHe TaKO Ha3BaHe J1 KaA cy 3aA06J1JIe TOJIJ1KO BeJIJ1KY BPJIJ1HY, rrOCJIe rrOABJ1ra AeBCTBeHOCTJ1, J1 KaA cy csoja TeJIa Y3HeJIe aa He60 J1 HaAMeTaJIe ce ca He6eCKJ1M CJ1JIaMa - rrpeTprreJIe BaTpy J1 OAOJIeJIe rrJIaMeHY cnanocrpaurha. M HaKOH csera rora Ha3BaHe cy JIYAJ1M, J1 TO C npasoxr, 3aTO llITO J1X je, J1aKO cy yqJ1HJ1JIe BeJIJ1KO, rr06eAJ1JIO MaJIO. M nohoure, xasce ce, JIYAe, J1 peKOllie MYAPJ1M: ",lJ;ajTe HaM Ylba J13 BallIJ1X nocyna" A OBe OArOBOpJ111Ie: "He MO)KeMO BaM AaTJ1 Aa He 6J1 HeAOCTaJIO J1 nasra J1 BaMa" (Mr 25, 9). OHe TO HJ1CY yqJ1HJ1JIe 360r xparxohe BpeMena, jep cy OQeKJ1BaJIe AOJIa3aK )KeHJ1Ka, a He 360r 6e3AYllIHOCTJ1 J1 3JI06e. JIYAe cy J1MaJIe CBeTJ1lbKe, aJIJ1 y CBeTJ1lbKaMa MYAPJ1X je 6J1JIO yzse, a KOA OBJ1X HJ1je. ,lJ;eBcTBeHocT je nnaMeH, a MJ1JIOCTJ1lha ylbe. 3aTo, xao llITO ce nnaaen raCJ1 aKO

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nocyna, My,ll;pe 11M onronopmnet .; e MO)KeMO BaM nara.

OBO HI1CY peKJIe 113 3JI06e, Hero 113 60ja3HI1: ",1J;a He 611 aenoCTaJIO 11 nasra 11 nasra, na He 611CMO 11 MI1 11 BI1, l1aKO ce CBe CTapaMO na y1)eMo, OCTaJIe (113BaH 6paqHe JIO)KHI1u;e). DOJbe 11,ll;I1Te nponasmora 11 xymrre" A KO cy nponasua oaor YJba? Cl1pOMaCI1 KOjl1 cene rrpe,ll; U;PKBOM sapan MI1JIOCTl1lbe. A rro KOjOj u;eHI1 ce OHO nponaje? ITo KOjOj TI1 xoheur: u;eHy He O,ll;pe1)yjeM na ce TI1 He 611 rr0311Bao na Cl1pOMailiTBO. KoJII1KO 11 MaIll, sa TOJII1KO 11 Kyrrl1. MMaill JII1 HOBql1h? Kymr lbl1Me He60, He 3aTO IllTO ce He60 JIaKO xynyje, Hero 3aTO IllTO je Iocnon QOBeKOJby6I1B. Hesraur HI1 HOBQI1ll? ,1J;aj xaIlly xnaznre none. J1 aKO HeKO nauoju jeqnoia og 08UX scanux caMO waiuoi« ciUygeHe 80ge scene pagu, nehe My anatua upouaciuu (YIT. Mr 10,42). He60 ce xynyje 11 nponaje - 11 MI1 ce HeheMo Tpy,ll;I1TI1! Ila] XJIe6, 11 rrpl1MI1 paj; naj MaJIO, 11 Y3MI1 BeJII1KO; naj CMPTHO, 11 Y3MI1 6ecMpTHO; na] nponanzsaao, 11 Y3MI1 nenponanzsnso. Kan 611 na HeKOM Bailiapy je<pTI1Ho 11 y BeJII1KI1M KOJII1QI1HaMa nponaaamr )KI1BOTHe HaMl1pHI1u;e, rra 611 ce MHoro rora Momo ,ll;0611TI1 rro HI1CKOj u;eHI1, aap He 611CTe pacrrpO,ll;aJII1 I1MeTaK, OCTaBI1JII1 CBe rro CTpaHI1, 11 yseCTBOBaJII1 y TaKBOj TprOBI1HI1? A eTO, rne je rrponaznsaso, TaMO noxasyjere TOJII1KO peBHOCTI1, a rne ce pa,ll;11 0 6eCMpTHOM, TaMO CTe TOJII1KO HeMapHI1 11 JIaKOMI1CJIeHI1? ,1J;aj Cl1pOMaxy, rra he, MaKap cax hyrao, xnzsany yCTa rrpOrOBOpl1TI1 na re 3aIllTI1TI1 jep he MI1JIOCTl1lba YCTaTI1 11 3aIllTI1TI1 (re):

MI1JIOCTl1lba je I1cKyrrJbelbe nyme. Kao IllTO ce rrpe,ll; upxseHI1M BpaTI1Ma HaJIa3e nocyne, narryrsene BO,ll;OM, na 611 TI1 rrpao pyKe, TaKO npen U;PKBOM cene Cl1pOMaIllHI1 na nepeur

pYKe csoje nyure. Iecn JII1 TeJIeCHe pYKe orrpao BO,ll;OM? Orrepl1 MI1JIOCTl1lbOM 11 pYKe nyure, He rr0311Baj ce na Cl1pOMaIllTBO. Y,ll;OBI1u;a je y xpajrsoj OCKy,ll;I1U;11 YBeJIa y CBOjy xyhy MJIl1jy 11 rrpl1MI1JIa ra C BeJII1KOM panourhy jep Cl1pOMailiTBo Hl1je 611JIO (sa lbY) npenpexa: 3aTO je 11 ,ll;0611JIa nocrojae nnonose 11 catipana 3peJIO xnacje MI1JIOCTl1lbe. Mozena he CJIYIllaJIau; peha: ",1J;aj HaM MJIl1jY:' 3aIllTO Tpa)KI1Ill MJIl1jy? Iocnona MJIl1jl1Hor TI1 ,ll;ajeM, 11 He XpaHI1Ill ra: KaKO 611 TeK rrpl1MI10 MJIl1jy, xan 611 ra aaurao? XPI1CTOC, Iocnon CBI1X, peKao je: Kag ynunuciue jequos«: og 08e Moje HajMal-be 6pahe, MeHU yuunuciue (Mr25,40). Kan 611 uap nosnao aexora na sesepy, 11 xan 611 cnyre 113aIllJIe ripen rsera, OH 611 11M pexao: ,,3aXBaJII1Te My ce MHoro y Moje I1Me, OH Me je rrpl1MI10 y CBOjy xyhy 11 HaXpaHI10 xana casr 6110 Cl1pOMaX, OH MI1 je y HeBOJbI1 yql1HI10 MHoro notipax nena" - 3ap He 611 CBaKO Y3eo cas CBOj HOBau; 11 rrOTpOIllI10 ra na onora KOMe je u;ap I1CKa3ao TaKO BeJII1KY 3aXBaJIHOCT? 3ap ce He 611 CBaKO rroTpy,ll;110 na ce C lbl1M 36JII1)K11 11 cnpajarersn!

3. Iecre JII1 BI1,ll;eJII1 cHary (uapcxe) peQI1? ITa xan TaKBO neno 3aCJIY)Kyje TOJII1KY QaCT KO,ll; napa, KOjl1 je, mrax, casro QOBeK, 3aMI1CJII1 na ce XPI1CTOC onor nasa npen aH1)eJII1Ma 11 CBI1M CI1JIaMa otipaha C rr0311BOM 11 rOBOpl1: "OBaj QOBeK Me je na 3eMJbl1 YBeo y CBOjy xyhy, OH MI1 je MHora notipa nezra yq11H110, OH je MeHe, crpanua, rrpI1MI10:' 3aMI1CJII1 aaTI1M O,ll;Ba)KHOCT (Tor QOBeKa) Me1)y aH1)em1Ma, panocr Me1)y He6eCKI1M Ca60pl1Ma. 3ap raj 0 KOMe XPI1CTOC 6Y,ll;e cseaoQl10 aehe I1MaTI1 sehy O,ll;Ba)KHOCT on aH1)eJIa? Ilpesra TOMe, 6paho Moja, BeJII1KO je neno MI1JIOCTl1lba. 3aBOJII1MO je, jep lbOj HI1Qer paBHor nesra; OHa MO)Ke 11 rpexone na rrOpaBHI1, 11 na 1136aBI1 on cyna. TI1 hYTI1Ill, a OHa CTOjl1 11 6paHI1 re:

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J1JU'l, 60Jbe, ,n;OK TJ1 nyTJ111I, xmsane YCTa 61Iaro,n;ape sa retie, TOlIJ1Ka 61Iara on MJ1lIOCTJ1lhe, a MJ1 He MapJ1MO J1 HJ1je Hac 6pJ1ra? .IJ:aj, no MorynHOCTJ1, xnetia, Her-ram xnefia? .IJ:aj oana HOBqJ1n. Hexraur HOBqJ1n? .IJ:aj qallIY xnanne norte. Hesraur HJ1 TO? I1lIaqJ1 ca HeCpenHJ1KOM, J1 ,n;06J1nelli Harpa,n;y, J1 TO Harpa,n;y aa clI060,n;HO yqJ1lheHO, a He aa J13Hyl)eHo neno, Decenehn 0 OBOMe, cxernycao C YMa pasroaop 0 nesojxasra. BpaTJ1MO ce, naxne, uaruoj TeMJ1. ".IJ:ajTe HaM:' Belle, "YJba J13 BallIJ1X nocy,n;a. He MO)I{eMO BaM ,n;aTJ1 ga He 6u neqociuano U naua U BaMa; 60Jbe J1,n;J1Te nponasunsra J1 KynJ1Te:' A Kag OHe oiuuqoiue ga xyiie, qohe JlCeHUK, J1 OHe qJ1je cy CBeTJ1Jbxe CBeTlIJ1lIe yhouie C /-bUM, U saiueopuuie ce epaiua tipasrne 1I0)I{HJ1Qe . .IJ:ol)ollIe J1 neT lIy,n;J1X J1 noxeure na xyuajy na Bpara 1I0)I{HJ1Qe J1 maCHO rOBope: "OTBOPJ1 HaM"; a )I{eHJ1K J1M J13HyTpa o,n;rOBOpJ1: "O,n;lIa3J1Te on MeHe, He noanajesr sac" (MT25,8-12). Taxo, TO cy, 3HaQJ1, QYlIe HaKOH TOlIJ1KJ1X aanopa? He rrosnajexr nac. To 3HaQJ1, KaKO caM peKao, ,n;a cy palIy,n;HO J1 6e3 KOPJ1CTJ1 3a,n;06J1lIe BelIJ1KO nocrojancrso nesCTBeHOCTJ1. BJ1,n;J1: OHe cy onoaseae HaKOH TOlIJ1KO BelIJ1KJ1X nanopa, HaKOH llITO cy 06Y3,n;alIe CBOjy HeY3,n;p)I{JbJ1BOCT, aaKOH Ha,n;MeTalha C He6eCKJ1M CJ1lIaMa, HaKOH llITO cy ce HaCMejane aan CTBapJ1Ma osora CBeTa, npeTpnelIe BelIJ1KY CTpaCT, npeurne npeKO nperpana, Y31IeTelIe on 3eMJbe na He60, HJ1CY pa31I0MJ1lIe nesare rena, 3a,n;06J1lIe BelIJ1KY lIenoTY ,n;eBCTBeHOCTJ1, Yllille y aansreraese C aHl)elIJ1Ma, caTplIe norpetie rena, 3a60paBJ1lIe na npJ1po,n;y, y TelIY J13BpllIJ1lIe OHO llITO je csojcraeno 6eCTelIeCHJ1M, HaKOH llITO cy 3a,n;06J1lIe BelIJ1- KO J1 He060pJ1BO nocrojancrso - HaKOH csera OHe cy QYlIe:

"O,n;lIa3J1Te on srene, He noanajexr sac," Hesioj na nOMJ1ClIJ1l1I na ja CMaTpaM na je BplIJ1Ha ,n;eBCTBeHOCTJ1 MallO Ba)I{Ha:

,n;eBCTBeHOCT je TaKBa na je HJ1KO on CTapJ1X HJ1je Morao caQYBaTJ1. Cana je nOCTalIO BeOMa nocrynao OHO llITO je sa npopOKe J1 aa CTape 6J11I0 CTpalliHO - 3aTO TO J1 jecre BelIJ1- xa 61Iaro,n;aT. Illra je, 3aJ1CTa, 6J11I0 najrexce J1 najaeasnp)I{JbJ1BJ1je? .IJ:eBcTBeHOCT J1 npe3J1palhe CMPTJ1. AlIJ1 lhJ1X ce cana He nnaure HJ1 MalIeHe nesoj-nnre, Osyaan,e ,n;eBCTBeHOCTJ1 je, 3aJ1CTa, 6J11I0 TOlIJ1KO 'reurxo na HJ1KO on CTapJ1X HJ1je Morao na je QyBa. Hoj je 6J10 npaBe,n;aH, TO je J1 Bor 3aCBe,n;0- QJ10, alIJ1 je )I{J1BeO ca )I{eHOM. Ca »cenassa cy J1CTO TaKO )I{J1- BelIJ1 J1 ABpaM J1 J1caK, HaClIe,n;HJ1QJ1 DO)I{J1jer sanera, IlenoMy,n;peHJ1 JOCJ1<P je 0,n;6J10 rra yqJ1HJ1 BelIJ1KJ1 rpex rrpezsytie, alIJ1 je J1 OH )I{J1BeO ca )I{eHOM jep je reurxo 6J11I0 ocrajaise y cTalhY ,n;eBCTBeHOCTJ1 . .IJ:eBCTBeHocT je yrevezsena onna Ka,n; je J13paCTao QBeT ,n;eBCTBeHOCTJ1. Ilpesra TOMe, HJ1KO on CTaPJ1X HJ1je Morao na QYBa ,n;eBCTBeHOCT 3aTO llITO je BelIJ1Ka CTBap 06Y3,n;aTJ1 reno, HaClIJ1Kaj peQJ1Ma ClIJ1KY ,n;eBCTBeHOCTJ1 J1 nosnaj BelIJ1QJ1HY re BplIJ1He. OHa CBaKJ1 nan BO,n;J1 6J1TKY, xoja ce HJ1Ka,n;a He MO)I{e CTJ1III aTJ1; ra 6J1TKa je ropa on paTa npOTJ1B BapBapa. Y paTy npOTJ1B BapBapa J1Ma npenaxa, xana ce sone nperOBOpJ1; y TOM paTy nexan ce oope, a aexan He; TaMO ce MO)I{e 3ana3J1TJ1 pen J1 apesre. A y paTy KOjJ1 ce BO,n;J1 npOTJ1B ,n;eBCTBeHOCTJ1 HeMa npe,n;axa 3aTO llITO paryje haso KOjJ1 He 3Ha onpeheno BpeMe sa nanan J1 He Tpa)I{J1 ,n;orOBOpeHJ1 3HaK sa 60p6y, Hero ce YBeK 60pJ1 J1 CTapa ce na nahe HeHaopY)I{aHY nesojxy na 6J1 joj sanae CMPTHY paHY; J1 nesojxa HJ1Ka,n; He MO)I{e na npenaxae on re 6J1TKe, Hero YBeK HOCJ1 y ce6J1 J1 HeMJ1p J1 paTHJ1Ka. OcyheHJ1QJ1 ce TOlIJ1KO He Y3HeMJ1pe, J1aKO cynajy BJ1,n;e TeK nospeMeHO, a nesojxa, Ky,n; ron nounra, YBeK ca e060M HOeJ1 J1 cy,n;J1jy J1 xenpnjaren,a. Taj aerrpajaren, joj He ,n;a na npenaxxe

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HJ1 nasese, HJ1 aohy, HJ1 yjyTpy, HJ1 Y nomre, Hero sojyje HerrpeCTaHO, rrpenrrazce joj nacnane, yxasyje na 6paK, p;a 6J1 J1Illqyrrao J13 lbe BpJIJ1Hy J1 rr06yp;J10 y IDoj rropOK, na 6J1 J13amao J13 IDe ~eJIOMyp;peHocT J1 rrocejao y IDy 6JIYp;: csaxor xaca ce pasropesa orais KOjJ1 cnanocrpaurhe npnjarao nornarsyje, BJ1p;J1, KaKO je Te)KaK osaj nonaar: a OHe (rryne nesojxe) HaKOH cnera rora cy qYJIe: "Op;JIa3J1Te on MeHe, He noaaajesr sac" I1a3J1, KaKO je BeJIJ1KO p;eJIO p;eBCTBeHOCT: xana xpaj ce6e J1Ma ceCTpy MJ1JIOCTJ1lbY, aehe je Hap;BJIap;aTJ1 HJ1KaKBa nesozsa, Hero he OHa rrOCTaTJ1 J13Hap; caera, OHe HJ1CY YIllJIe (y 6paqHy JIO)KHJ1~y) 3aTO IllTO rropep; p;eBCTBeHOCTJ1 HJ1CY J1MaJIe J1 MJ1JIOCTJ1lbY. CpaMOTa je peha: notieP;J1BIllJ1 cnanocrparnhe, TJ1 HJ1CJ1 npespena HOBa~, Hero, xao neaojxa xoja ce Op;peKJIa )KJ1BOTa J1 pacnenunr ce6e, BOJIJ1Ill HOBa~! )1;a CJ1 rrO)KeJIeJIa MY)Ka, He 6J1 6J1JIa TOJIJ1KO KpJ1Ba jep 6J1 rrO)KeJIeJIa (ce6J1) paBHO 6J1ne; aJIJ1 cana je rsoja KPJ1- BJ1~a MHoro seha 3aTO IllTO CJ1 rrO)KeJIeJIa CTBap xoja je Te6J1 ryha. Yp;aTe »ceae 3JI06HO J1CKa3yjy CBOjy HeqOBeqHOCT raKO IllTO ce noanaajy aa neuy: aKO J1M xaxcem: ,,)1;aj MJ1 MJ1JIOCTJ1lby" - "J1MaMO neuy', Ka)KY OHe, "He MO)KeMO': Bor TJ1 je nao neuy, p;06J1JIa CJ1 nnon yrpooe p;a 6J1 6J1JIa qOBeKolby6J1- sa, a He nesose-ma: pa3JIOr aa qOBeKolby6lbe He rrpernapaj y J13rOBOp sa HeQOBeqHOCT. Xoheur JIJ1 na OCTaBJ1Ill CBOjOj p;e~J1 notipo HaCJIe~e? qJ1HJ1 MJ1JIOCTJ1IDY na 6J1 Te CBJ1 rroXBaJIJ1JIJ1 J1 p;a 6J1 ce6J1 OCTaBJ1JIa 6eCMpTHJ1 crrosren. AJIJ1 3aIllTO catinpaur HOBa~ xan Ben aesraur neuy J1 xan CJ1 ce pacnena aa )KJ1BOT?

4. )1;0 cana CMO rOBOpJ1JIJ1 (y yMy) J1 0 rrYTY noxajarsa, J1 o MJ1JIOCTJ1lbJ1. PeKJIJ1 CMO na je MJ1JIOCTJ1IDa BeJIJ1Ka P;06J1T: 3aTJ1M CMO rrpeurmr Ha Mope p;eBCTBeHOCTJ1. Ilpesra TOMe,

BeJIJ1KJ1 rryT noxajaisa J1MaIll y MJ1JIOCTJ1IDJ1, xoja MO)Ke na re OCJI060p;J1 on OKOBa rpexa. AJIJ1 J1MaIll jour jenaa rryT rroxajaisa, raxohe BeOMa JIaK, na KOMe ce J1CTO TaKO MO)KeIll OCJI060P;J1TJ1 on rpeXOBa. MOJIJ1 ce aenpecrano, He rrOCYCTaj y MOJIJ1TBJ1, MOJIJ1 BO)KJ1je QOBeKolby6lbe, aJIJ1 He C nenourhy, a Bor ce nehe Op;BpaTJ1TJ1 on onora KojJ1 ce HerrpeCTaHO MOJIJ1, Hero he TJ1 OrrpOCTJ1TJ1 rpexe J1 YCJIJ1IllJ1ne rsoje MOJIJ1- TBe. AKO y MOJIJ1TBJ1 6yp;eIll YCJIJ1IlleH, HaCTaBJ1 na ce MOJIJ1Ill na 6J1 rrpJ1HeO 6JIarOp;apHOCT Bory: aKO nax He 6yp;eIll YCJIJ1- urea, 06J1TaBaj y MOJIJ1TBJ1 He 6J1 JIJ1 6J10 YCJIJ1IlleH. J1 He roBOPJ1: "MHoro casr ce MOJIJ10, J1 HJ1CaM YCJIJ1IlleH': jep J1 TO ce QeCTO neurana pap;J1 raoje KOPJ1CTJ1. Bor 3Ha na CJ1 JIeID J1 aesrapaa, J1 na hem, aKO p;06J1jeIll TO sa nrra MOJIJ1Ill, OTJ1nJ1 J1 BJ1Ille ce neheur MOJIJ1TJ1; J1 eTO, caMOM rrorpetioxr Bor 're rrpJ1MOpaBa na xeurhe pa3rOBapaIll C lbJ1M J1 na ce Be)K6aIll y MOJIJ1TBJ1. Jep aKO ce nersrrur J1 He aacraszsaur MOJIJ1TBY HJ1 xan J1MaIll TaKBY norpetiy, urra 6J1 TeK 6J1JIO xan He 6J1 J1MaO HJ1KaKBe norpeoei )1;aKJIe, J1 TO OH QJ1HJ1 pap;J1 raoje KOPJ1CTJ1 jep )KeJIJ1 p;a He onycrajeur on MOJIJ1TBe. Ilpesra TOMe, npetinaaj y MOJIJ1TBJ1, lby6lbeHJ1 MOj, J1 He 6yp;J1 JIeID, jep MOJIJ1TBa MO)Ke na yqJ1HJ1 MHoro J1 He rrpJ1JIa3J1 joj xao xaKBOM MaJIO Ba)KHOM neny, A na MOJIJ1TBa rrpY)Ka onpourraj rpexcsa, MO)KeIll Ca3HaTJ1 J13 60)KaHCTBeHor Ieaanhezsa, IIlTa OHO rOBOpJ1? Ilapcrno aetiecxo je xao QOBeK KOjJ1 3aTBOPJ1 csoja spara J1 nerne ca CBOjOM neuox, Y noaoh p;OJIa- 3J1 HeKO na rr03ajMJ1 xneria, xyua, J1 rOBOpJ1: "OTBOPJ1 MJ1, rpefia MJ1 xnefia," A OH My op;roBapa: "He MOry TJ1 cana naTJ1 jep CMO JIefJIJ1 J1 MJ1 J1 nama nena" Onaj aacraazsa na Kyna na Bpan, a osaj My oner rOBOpJ1: "He MOry TJ1 cana p;aTJ1 jep CMO JIefJIJ1 J1 MJ1 J1 neua," AJIJ1 onaj J1 HaKOH onora

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HaCTaBJba na xyua, M HMje OTMIllaO P;OK p;oMatlMH HMje peKaO: YCTam1Te, najre MY, M nexa one" (JIK 11,5Mcn.). Ilpesra TOMe, (ITMCMO) 're yqM na ce MOJIMIll M na He osajaaatu, aJIM M na rana xana He p;o6MjeIll (OHO aa urra CM ce MOJIMO), npetinsam y MOJIMTBM, P;OK He p;o6MjeIll. J1 MHore p;pyre rryrese noxajaisa HahJ.1 heur y ITMCMY. Iloxajarse je, M rrpe XPMCTOsor p;OJIaCKa, nponosenao Iepesorja, KOjM rosopa: Ko uaque, He yciuaje nu, KO cepaiuu C uyiUa, He epaha nu ce (YIT. Iep 8,4)? J1 orrer, HaKOH onora, a rrOCJIe yqMlheHe rrpe~y6e, xazce joj:

Bpaiuu ce K MeHU (Iep 3,7). Bor HaM je nao M M:HOrO M P;pyrnx" pa3JIMqMTMX rrYTeBa noxajarsa na 6M HaM onyseo CBaKM M3rOBOp sa HeMapHOCT. Kan 6MCMO MMaJIM caxro jenaa rryr, He 6MCMO MOfJIM nohx lhMMe. A yrrpaBo on osor 0PY)Kja carana YBeK 6e)KM. JeCM JIM carpeunror Yl)M y ~pKBy M MCKyrrM CBOj rpex. KOJIMKO ron rryTa nannem na yJIM~M, CBaKM rryT ycrajem: MCTO TaKO, KOJIMKO ron rryTa carpeunnn, noxaj ce sa rpex, He oxajaaaj: aKO carpeIllMIll jour jep;HoM, jour jep;HoM ce noxa] KaKO He 6M 360r HeMapHocTM norrryao M3- rytiao nany y ooehaaa 6JIara. Y P;y60KOj CM cTapocTM - M carpeIllMo CM? Yl)M (y upxsy), noxaj ce: osne je JIeqMJIMIllTe, a He cynnnna, osne He xaxosaaajy Hero najy onpourraj rpeXOBa. CaMOM Eory pe~M CBOj rpex: Te6u [equnosu: caipetuux, U 3110 upeg To6oM yt.tUHUX (Oc50,6) M TBOjM he TM ce rpeCM orrpocTMTM. J1MaIll jour jenaa rryT noxajaisa, He Te)KaK, Hero HajJIaKIllM. Koja je TO nyr? ITJIaqM 360r CBOjMX rpexona, 0 OBOMe hem ca3HaTM M3 60)KaHCTBeHor [enanhezsa. ITeTap, BPXOBHM arrOCTOJI, rrpBM y U;PKBM, p;pyr XPMCTOB, KOjM je orxpaserse rrpMMMO on Oua, a He on lbYP;M,

* To jeer OCMM MMJIOCTMlhe M MOJIMTBe.

IllTO je M caxr XPMCTOC rrOCBep;OqMO xan je pexao: Bnascen cu, CUMOHe, cune JOHUH! Jep iuujeno U KpB He oiuxpuiae tau iuo, neio oaia« MOj KOjU je na netiecusca (MT 16,17), raj Ilerap (xana Ka)KeM Ilerap, rro TMM nonpaayaesaxr HeCaJIOMMBM KaMeH, HerrOMMqHY CTeHY, BeJIMKOr arrOCTOJIa, rrpBor yqeHMxa, rrpBor ssaaor; M rrpBor KOjM ce onasnao), yrrpaBo OH je yqMHMO He HeKM MaJIM, Hero BeJIMKM rpex - onpexao ce caMor Iocnona. OBO He rOBopMM na 6M OCYP;MO rrpaBep;HMKa, Hero na 6M Te6M nao rrop;CTpeK aa noxajaise. Castor Iocnona nacezseae, Craparezsa M Crracrrrersa CBMX OH ce op;peKao. Ho na rrpMqy 0 TOMe MCrrpMqaMO ncnoxerxa. Crracnrezs je snao na he sa BpeMe Iberose npenaje HeKM seh OTMhM (on Ibera), M 3aTO je Ilerpy peKao: .Xohenr JIM M TM na onenr" (yrr. JH 6,67)? AJIM Ilerap op;rOBopM: Hehy me ce oqpehu »uucap scopao U yMpujeiUu c m060M! (MT 26,35). Illra rOBopMIll, ITerpe? Bor npecynno, a TM nporaspe-nnui J1 Map;a je (Ilerap) noxasao notipo xacrpojetse csoje norse, XPMCTOC je nnax M306JIMqMO CJIa60CT (ITeTpOBe) npapone. Kap;a? OHe aoha xan cy XpMCTa YXBaTMJIM. Tana Ilerap, aanncaao je, crajaure rropep; sarpe M rpejanre ce; M npnhe My aexa CJIY)KaBKa M peqe: "Jyqe CM M TM 6MO C OBMM qOBeKOM"; a OH onrosoPM: "Ja He noanajexr rora xoaexa" 3aTMM ce (onpexe) M P;pyrM, M rpehn rryr, M TMMe ce (Boxorje) rrpencxasaise McrrYHMJIO. HaKOH osora XPMCTOC je nornenao Ilerpa OqMMa xoje rOBope; HMIllTa My nn]e peKao jep HMje xreo na caor yqeHMxa M306JIMqM M rrocpaMM rrpep; Jyp;ej~MMa, seh My nornenosr peqe: "ETO, Ilerpe, McrryHM ce OHO 0 qeMY caM rOBopMO:' Ilerpa OBO BeOMa p;MPHY M nose na nnase, aJIM ropxo, a He 06MqHO rtzraxame, M CY3aMa aanotin p;pyro xpnrrerse. TMM TaKO ropxaxr rrJIaqeM OH je MCKyrrMo CBOj rpex, TaKO na cy

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My HaKOH osora nonepenn He6eCKM KlbyqeBM. A xan je I1eTpOB nnax ncxynao TaKO BelIMKM rpex, KaKO oana TM Hehem MCKyrrMTM CBOj rpex, aKO oyzteur nnaxao? Onpehn ce caora Iocnona HMje MalIM, Hero BelIMK M BeOMa Te)KaK rpex - rra orrer cy cy3e ncxymore rpex. I1lIaqM M TM 360r csor rpexa, casro He rrlIaqM rrpOCTO M na re ,n;pyrM BM,n;e, Hero ropKO, KaKO je (rinaxao) Ilerap, M31IMj peKy cy3a M3 casre ,n;y6MHe ,n;Yllle na 6M ce Iocnon CMMlIOBao M orrpOCTMO TM rpex. l..{oBeKolby6MB je Iocnon, M caM je peKao: He i4faJICUM cMplli ipetunuxa, neio ga ce ipeiunux epauiu, noxaje, U JlCUB 6yge (yrr. Je3 33, 11). On retie Tpa)KM MallO Tpy,n;a, a caM naje MHoro; on retie oxexyje rrosona na 6M Te6M nao 61Iaro cnacetsa, )J;aj cyse, a OH he TM ,n;aTM onpourraj, nprraeca noxajaise, a OH he TM ,n;apoBaTM oTrrYlllTelbe rpexoBa. )J;aj MaKap MalIM noBO,n; M notiaheur sazsano onpourreise, jep (y ,n;elIy cnaceisa) jenao 3aBMCM on Thera, a ,n;pyro on Hac. AKO MM ,n;aMo OHO lllTO 3aBMCM on Hac, oana he M OH ,n;apoBaTM OHO lllTO 3aBMCM on Thera. AlIM OH je seh naposao OHO lllTO je 3aBMCMlIO on Thera - rrOCTaBMO je cynne, Mece~, ortpenno pa3HOlIMKM pa3MaK M3Me~y snesna, pa31IMO saanyx, rrpOCTpo sesosy, Mopa orracao KorrHOM, nao nnaaane, ,n;OlIMHe, 6perOBe, M3- sope, jesepa, pexe, aeopojene BpCTe 6MlbaKa, M npaehe M CBe OCTalIO. I1pMHecM M TM MallO na 6M TM TaKO OH naposao M najseha 61Iara. Ilpexra TOMe, nehesro 6MTM HeMapHM 3a caste ce6e, M aehexro onycrarn on csor crraceisa xan seh MMaMO TaKBY 6e3,n;aHY rryqMHy qOBeKolby6lba Iocnona CBera, KOjM ce xax xaje sa aaure rpexe. Hy,n;M ce Llapcrao netieCKO, M paj, M finara, uuuo OKO He euqje, U yxo He 1-IY, U Y cpue 1-I0BjeKY He qohe, OHO tipuupescu Eof OHUMa KOjU fa lby6e (1 Kop 2,9) - rra sap nehesro nacrojarn na CBe Moryhe HaqMHe

na YHeceMO aeurro csoje xao ,n;orryHy na He 6MCMO 6MlIM lIMurenn TMX 61Iara? 3ap He anaur urra je rOBopMO I1aBlIe, KOjM ce MHoro Tpy,n;MO M onaeo aeripojeae notiene nan CaTaHOM, y TelIY npourao can CBeT, ofirnnao 3eMlbY, M Mope, M nasnyx, M, xao na je aa KpMlIMMa, 061IeTeo nacezseny, 6MO 3acyT xaMelbeM, naparsaazsen, rrpeTprreo ynapue, CBe nonneo pa,n;M MMeHa DO)KMjer, M onoaro 6MO npnaaan He6ecKMM rrracosr! I1a3M nrra rosopa M KaKBe cy TO peqM: "I1PMMMCMO': rOBOPM, ,,61Iaro,n;aT on Dora, aznr M ja ce rroTpy,n;MX M yqMHMX CBOje; U tinaioqaiu teeioea xoja je y MeHU He ocuia upasna, neio ce uOllipygux BUUle og CBUjy 1-bUX" (1 Kop 15, 10). 3HaMO, rosoPM, 3HaMO KaKO je BelIMKa 61Iaro,n;aT xojy rrpMMMCMO, alIM mrje naruna na casr M ja 6eCKopMCTaH: nosnara cy Moja nerra. Taxo heao M MM HaBMKHYTM pYKe na najy MMlIOCTMlbY, na 6MCMO M MM xao ,n;orryHy YHelIM nenrro MallO, nnaxaheMO 360r rpexoBa, pnnahexro 360r 6e3aKolba, na 6M ce BM,n;e- 1I0 na M MM YHOCMMO xao ,n;orryHy nenrro, MaKap srano, a na je OHO lllTO he HaM 6MTM naponano, BelIMKO M na rrpeMalllyje name cnare, To cy paj M Llapcrao neriecxo - 'rora CBM MM na 6y,n;eMo ynocrojean rro 61Iaro,n;anl M qOBeKolby6lbY [0- cnona naurer Hcyca Xpncra, KojeM sajenao ca O~eM M ca CBeTMM )J;YXOM cnasa, CMlIa, M xacr cana M YBeK y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMMH.

U;PKBEHO-IIOyqHA qMTAlbA Y CBETY M BEJIMKY CPE,IJ;Y

CBETor JOBAHA 3JIATOYCTOr EECE.D:A 80.

HA JEBAH1)ElhE ITO MATEJY*

"A Kag hcyc tieuie y Butuauuju, y xyhu CUMOua iytiaeoia, upuciuyuu My »ceua ca anaeaciupoeou UOCygOM MUpUCa cxyiiouenoia, U U311U na inaey 1be- 108Y xaqa cehauie 3a U1pUe30M." (MT 26. 6. 7)

Ha npBJ1 norrren 6J1 ce peKJIO na je Ta xcena jemra 're J1CTa KOP; CBJ1X jeBaH~eJIJ1CTa 6e3 J13Y3eTKa. A, 3anpaBo, HJ1- je. HanpOTJ1B, no MOM MJ1IllJbelhY, rpojaua jeBaH~eJIJ1CTa cy npJ1Ka3aJIa jenay re J1CTY, a JOBaH HeKY p;pyry Heo6J1qHY )KeHY, J1 TO Jlaaapeay cecTpy. CJ1MOHOBY ry6y jeBaH~eJIJ1CT HJ1je nOMeHYO Y3aJIyp;HO, Hero na 6J1 noxasao 3aIllTO ce »cena ycyp;J1JIa na npJ1CTynJ1 Hcycy, ITOIllTO je ry6a csrarpaaa BeOMa HeQJ1CTOM J1 op;BpaTHOM oonemhy, J1 nOIllTO je TJ1X naaa BJ1p;eJIa na je Hcyc J1cQeJIJ10 QOBeKa J1 OQJ1CTJ10 ra on ry6e (sap 6J1 OH nozceneo na OCTaHe KOP; rytiaaoralt), J1 QaK KOP; isera ceneo aa Tpne30M, OHa je CMeJIO nOBepOBaJIa na he je OH JIaKO OQJ1CTJ1TJ1 J1 on nyureane HeQJ1CTOTe. HJ1 na- 3J1B rpap;a BJ1TaHJ1je jeBaH~eJIJ1CT He nonaje Y3aJIyp;HO, Hero na 6J1 TJ1 J13 rora pa3YMeo na XPJ1CTOC P;06POBOJbHO nne na crpanarse. M 3aJ1CTa: Hcyc je panaje J136eraBao Iynejue, a cana, xazta ce lhJ1XOBa 3aBJ1CT CJ1JIHO paCnJIaMCaJIa, OH J1M ce npJ16JIJ1)KaBa aa nernaecr crannja. Cana je OQJ1fJIep;HO p;a je J1 nperxonao yp;aJbaBalhe 6J1JIO p;eJIO nnana cnacersa ... )l{eaa, naxne, BJ1p;e Hcyca J1 npJ1CTynJ1 My ca CMeJIOM Hap;OM. A aKO je xcena xoja je 60JIOBaJIa on rosersa KPBJ1 npJ1CTynJ1JIa

* qJ1Ta ce na BelIJ1KY cpeny, na jyrpeisy, no KaTJ13MaMa.

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ca rperreron J1 36YlDeHO J1aKO HJ111ITa He'IJ1CTO HJ1je ncnoBeAJ1lIa Y ce6J1, jep je n.ena He'IJ1CTOTa, O'IJ1TO, 6J1JIa rrOCJIeAJ1u;a isene rrpJ1pOAe, KOJIJ1KO JIJ1 je BenJ1 CTpaX J1 CTJ1A MOpaJIa na oceha OBa xcena 360r cso]e He'IJ1CTe CaBeCTJ1! 3aTO je J1 rrpJ111IJIa Y1cycy rrOCJIe MHOrJ1X )KeHa - CaMapjaHKJ1, XaHaHejKJ1, KPBOTO'IJ1Be J1 ApyrJ1X, J1 TO He rrpeA HapOAOM, Hero y KynJ1. Y1 AOK cy APyrJ1 AOJIa3J1JIJ1 na J1M J1Cu;eJIJ1 reJIO, jeAJ1Ha je OHa nomna na ona nourrosaa,e Hcycy J1 paAJ1 onpasnarsa AYllie. OHa nnje J1MaJIa HJ1KaKBY rrOBpeAY ua CBOM TeJIY, J1 HapO'IJ1TO 3aTO CBaKO rpetiana joj ce AJ1BJ1. OHa He rrpJ1JIa3J1 Hcycy xao 06J1'IHOM 'IOBeKY - J1Ha'Ie He 6J1 otipncana IDerOBe nore CBOjOM KOCOM - Hero xao 6J1ny xoje je J13HaA 'IOBeKa. Ynpaao 3aTO nonaace npen XpJ1CTOBe nore onaj neo KOjJ1 ce y uenoxyrruoss 'IOBeKOBOM TeJIY ueHJ1 BJ111Ie OA CBJ1X OCTaJIJ1X AeJIOBa - CBOjy rrraBy. A Kag OBO euqjeuie y~eHu~u HJefOBU, neioqoeaiue ioeopehu: LJ.eMy OBa miUeiUa? Jep ce scoiatue oea] MUpUC upoqauiu cxyuo U qaiuu cuponacuua. A pasyujeeiuu J1cyc pe~e UM: lliiuo oueuuuue »ceny? OHa y~UHU g06po qjeno na MeHU. [ep cupouaxe UMaiUe ceaiqa ca C060M, a MeHe neuauie ceaiqa. A OHa U3nUBuiu MUpUC oeaj na iuujeno Moje, y~UHU tuo 3a Moj uoipeti. Sauciua BaM KaJICeM: Tgje ce fog ycupouoeujeqa OBO jeeanheme UO cBeMY ceujeuiy, xasahe ce 3a CUOMeH HJeH U OBO uuuo OHa y~UHU (MT 26, 8-13). OAaKJIe ce yqeHJ1U;J1Ma jaBJ1JIa TaKBa MJ1Cao? OHJ1 cy 'IyJIJ1 na je Y'IJ1Telb rOBOpJ10: Munociu xolty, a He JlCPiUBOUpUHOmeHJe (MT 9,13; yrr. Oc 6, 6), jep je OIITY)KJ1- sao Iynejue sa TO llITO cy OCTaBJ1JIJ1 HajBa)KHJ1je - apaeqy U scunocta U ejepy, J1 na je na ropJ1 MHoro 6eCeAJ10 0 MJ1JIOCphy, ITa cy J13 rora, corrCTBeHJ1M YMOM, 3aKlbyqJ1JIJ1 rta, aKO He npaxra cnecnazseaaue J1 yorrllITe CTapo 6orOCJIY)Kelbe,

nehe rrpJ1MJ1TJ1 HJ1 nosrasaise MJ10MJ1PJ1CHHM YlbeM. Taxo cy MJ1CJIJ1JIJ1 yqeHJ1U;J1, aJIJ1 Hcyc je, KaA je BJ1AeO )KeHJ1He MJ1CJIJ1, AorrYCTJ10 )KeHJ1 na My npahe 3aTO llITO je lbeHa rro- 60)KHOCT 6J1JIa BeJIJ1Ka J1 ycphe HeJ1CKa3aHO, M A03BOJIJ10 joj na J13JIJ1je Ylbe na IDerOBY rrraBy. AKO ce HJ1je rnyurao na nocrane 'IOBeK, Aa ra srajsa HOCJ1 y yTpo6J1 J1 XpaHJ1 J13 rpYAJ1, xoheur JIJ1 ce OHAa 'IYAJ1TJ1 TOMe llITO HJ1 OBO HJ1je OA- 6aU;J1o? Kao llITO je Iberos Orau rrpJ1MaO AJ1M J1 MJ1PJ1C ca )KpTBeHJ1Ka, TaKO J1 OH rrpMMa 6JIYAHJ1U;y J1 onoopasa, KaKO caM Ben peKao, lbeHY HaMepy. OCJ1M rora, J1 JaKOB je rrpeJIJ10 YlbeM KaMeH nocaehen Dory (I10CT 28, 18); Ylbe je rrpJ1HOureno J1 y )KpTBaMa (JIeB2,4); MJ1POM cy, HarrOKOH, rrOMa3J1BaHJ1 J1 CBellITeHJ1U;J1 (JIeB 8, 10). AJIJ1 yqeHJ1IJ;J1 cy je, He aaajyhn CKpJ1BeHJ1 CMJ1CaO )KeHJ1HOr nocrynxa, HeYMeCHO orrTY)KJ1- JIJ1. OHJ1 cy 'IaK J1 y casroj CBOjOj orrTY)K6J1 J1CTaKJIJ1 Aape)KlbJ1BOCT re »cene TaKO llITO cy pe'IJ1Ma: Jep ce scotatue iuaj MUpUC upogaiUu 3a eutue og iUpuciUa gUHapa, YKa3aJIJ1 na je MHoro rrOTpOllIJ1JIa na MJ1pO J1 na je OTKpJ1JIa y ce6J1 BeJIH'IJ1HY nyure. 3aTO J1X Hcyc J1 rrpeKopeBa pe'IJ1Ma: Illiuo owetaatae JlCeHy, J1 nonaje Y3POK rora, jep )KeJIJ1 na J1X jour jeAHoM orrosreae na Csoje crpanaise: (OHa) y~UHU iuo 3a Moj uoipeti; raxohe HaBOAJ1 J1 ApyrJ1 pa3JIOr: cupouaxe UMauie ceatqa ca C060M, a scene HeMaiUe ceaiqa, J1: Tgje ce fog ycupouoeujeqa OBO jeBaHlje!be, xasahe ce 3a cuouen HJeH U OBO iuiuo OHa y~UHU. BJ1AJ111I JIJ1 KaKO XPJ1CTOC jour jeAHoM npencxasyje yqeHJ1U;J1Ma lDJ1XOBO J1CTyrralbe rrpeA HapOAOM na nponosenn J1 TaKO J1X xpaopn y norneny csoje CMPTJ1? Y1 3aJ1CTa, rrOCJIe CMPTJ1 na KPCTY aacnjahe, rrorrYT CBeTJIOCTJ1, TaKO BeJIJ1'IaHCTBeHa CJ1JIa na he ce jeBaH1)eJICKa rrporroBeA rrpOllIJ1pJ1TJ1 CBYAa aa 3eMlbJ1. Ko he ce, HaKOH osora,

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Harm TOIH1KO )KanOCTaH ,n;a ce ycnponmJ1 osaxsoj J1CTJ1HJ1? EBO, J1CnYHJ1nO ce OHO llITO je OH pexao: Ky,n; ron xpeaem 6enJ1M CBeTOM, csyrne hem qyTJ1 na ce rOBopJ1 0 TOM nocTynKY)KeHe, J1aKO OHa HJ1je 6J1lIa 3HaMeHJ1Ta nJ1qHOCT, HJ1- TJ1 je J1Mana MHoro CBe,n;OKa 6y,n;ynJ1 na ce caM norabaj HJ1je o,n;J1rpao na n030pHIiJIJ;J1, Hero y rrpasarnoj KynJ1, J1 TO Y KynIiJ nexor rytianua, y npncycrsy J1CKJbyqJ1BO CaMJ1X XPJ1CTOBJ1X ysenaxa.

Ko TO jaazsa J1 IIIJ1PJ1? HeCYMlbJ1BO CJ1na Onora KOjJ1 je TO J1 rrpencxaanaao. ITpenyTaHJ1 cy no,n;BJ131f MHOfJ1X napesa J1 sojcxosoba 0 KojJ1Ma ce J1 cana xyaajy CnOMeHJ1IJ;J1; HJ1 no QYBelbY, HJ1 no J1MeHY HJ1CY OCTanJ1 n03HaTJ1 HJ1 rpannreJbJ1 rpa,n;OBa, HJ1 OHJ1 KOjIiJ cy J1X onacamr 3J1,n;J1HaMa, HJ1 OHJ1 KOjJ1 cy o,n;HOCJ1nJ1 nooene y paTOBJ1Ma, HJ1 OHJ1 KOjJ1 cy CMeCTJ1nJ1 rporpeje J1 nOKOpJ1lIJ1 MHore napone, J1aKO cy (ZJ;a 6J1 J1X nOTOMCTBO cnasano) nonaaamr cTaTye J1 onpebasana saKOHe - a TO IIITO je 6ny,n;Ha )KeHa J131IJ1na MJ10MJ1PJ1CHO YJbe y KynJ1 aexor ryriasua y npJ1cycTBy nsanaecr Jby,n;J1, npocnanzsa ce no IJ;enOM CBeTY, J1 ycnoereaa na raj norabaj HJ1- je J1IIIQe3na J1aKO je Ben npourno TaKO MHoro BpeMeHa. HanpOTJ1B, J1 ITepCJ1jaHIJ;J1, J1 MH,n;J1jIJ;J1, J1 CKJ1TJ1, J1 TpaQaHJ1, J1 CapMaTJ1, J1 noxonerse Maspa, CTaHOBHJ1IJ;J1 EpJ1TaHCKJ1X OCTpBa npeHoce C xonena na KOlIeHO TO IIITO je yqJ1HJ1na y Jy,n;ejJ1 61Iy,n;Ha xceaa, J1 TO yqJ1HJ1na rajao, y KynJ1. KaKO je BenJ1KO QOBeKOJby6Jbe Iocnona! OH npJ1Ma 6ny,n;HJ1IJ;y, 6ny,n;HJ1IJ;y xoja IJ;enJ1Ba aore, nosraayje J1X MJ1PJ1CHJ1M YJbeM J1 6pJ1IIIe CBOjOM KOCOM, J1 He caMO na joj ,n;03BOJbaBa na My npJ1CTynJ1 Hero jour npeKopeBa OHe KOjJ1 je onTY)I(yjy, jep HIiJje rpetiano 36YlbJ1BaTJ1 )I(eHY 360r raxsor iseaor ycpba. AnJ1 TJ1 06paTJ1 na)I(lbY J1 Ha TO aa KOjOj BJ1CJ1HIiJ cy 6J1nJ1

yqeHJ1IJ;J1 J1 KaKO cy 6J1nJ1 peBHOCHJ1 npeMa nerry MJ1nOCTJ1- lbe. 3aIIITO J1M Hcyc HJ1je jeznrocrasno cxpenyo na)I(lbY na je OHa yqJ1HJ1na noripo neno, 3aIIITO je pannje peKao: Illiuo oueiuaa;« J/CeHY? (OH je TaKO pexao) na 6M noysno na He rpeoa on cavor nOQeTKa on HeMOnHJ1X Jby,n;J1 3aXTeBaTJ1 BenJ1Ke nonanre. MMajynJ1 TO y BJ1,n;y, OH CTBap He nocsrarpa npOCTO, casry no ce6J1, Hero IiJ3 yrna nJ1QHOCTJ1 re »ceae. ,Ua je nanao HenpOMeHJbJ1B 3aKOH, OH ce He 6J1 n03J1BaO na zceHy; HO nourro je »ceneo na TJ1 noxaace zta je TO pexeno pa,n;J1 lbe J1 C IJ;J1JbeM na yqeHJ1IJ;J1 He HaIIIKo,n;e BepJ1 xoja ce y iso] paba, Ben na, HanpOTJ1B, norrpnnecy paCTy re Bepe, OH ynpaso pana Tora J13rOBapa rope nOMeHYTe peQJ1 J1 TJ1Me Hac noysaaa .n;a HJ1 rrpexra KOMe KO je yqJ1HJ10 zrezro ,n;OCTOjHO xsazre He 6y,n;eMO rrpccrporn, seh na ra npJ1XBaTaMO J1 HaCTOjJ1MO na ra no,n;CTaKHeMO J1 Y3,n;J1fHeMO npeMa HajBJ1IIIeM caBpIIIeHCTBY, He aaxresajyha na caMOM nOQeTKY nOTnyHy caBpIIIeHOCT. Ila je XPIiJCTOC J1 caM »ceneo yrnaBHoM ,n;a J13- BPIIIJ1 neno MJ1nOCTJ1, BJ1,n;J1 ce J13 rora IIITO je 3anOBe,n;J10 na ce ca C060M HOCJ1 xeca aa HOBaIJ;, J1aKO casr OH HJ1je J1MaO rne rnaBY na CKnOHIiJ. Y OBOM cnyxajy, naxne, nocrynax je rpeoano casro npJ1XBaTJ1TJ1, a He J1CnpaBJbaTJ1. M 3aJ1CTa, na ra je HeKO nJ1TaO npe osor )I(eHJ1HOr nocrynxa, OH He 6J1 J13HeO TaKBO MJ1IIIJbelbe, a xan je OHa Ben yqJ1HJ1na TO IIITO je yqJ1HJ1na, OH J1Ma y BJ1,n;y caMO TO na )I(eHY He 36yHJ1 onTy)I(6a xojy cy joj ynYTJ1nJ1 yqeHJ1IJ;J1, Ben na, npe Hero IIITO one on Thera, nOCTaHe 60Jba J1 jour cnpesnraja na My cnY)I(J1· Ilpexop KOjJ1 cy joj yqeHJ1IJ;J1 ynyTJ1nJ1 HJ1je 6J10 YMeCTaH Ben HaKOH J13nIiJBalba MJ10MJ1pJ1CHOr yJba. Saro J1 TIiJ, aKO BJ1,n;J1III na HeKO npJ1HOCJ1 CBeTe yTBapJ1 xoje je npJ1npeMJ10, J1nJ1 ce C Jby6aBJby Tpy,n;J1 nan HeKJ1M ,n;pyrIiJM IJ;pKBeHJ1M

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yKpacoM, Ha rrpVIMep yKpacoM 3VIp;oBa VI nona, He noasorsasaj na ce npona VIJU1 yHYfIlITM TO llITO je HarrpaBMO p;a He 6M OCJ1a6MO rseroso ycphe: aKO nax HeKO TO MCTO y'IMHM rrpe osora KOjM rrpMHOCM csoje napone, aanonenn na ce pa3p;a CMpOMallIHMMa, (MMajyflM y BMP;y) na je M caM XPMCTOC rrocTyrrao MCTO TaKO na He 6M rrOKBapMO p;YllIeBHO pacnonoacen,e re »cene, M p;a OH CBe csoje pe'IM YCMepaBa na TO na je nonCTaKHY. ,IJ,a He 6M nsrnenano na caM P;OBOP;M )l(eHY y nenoyMMQY TMMe llITO je crrOMeHYO TaKBY CTBap, Ii-rp06 M CMPT, OH, op;Max HaKOH pe'IM: (ona) Y1.f.UHU Ui.o 3a MOj uotpeti, jour jep;HoM - 06paTM na TO rra)l(lhY - xpatipx Ty )l(eHY pe'IMMa:

IIo c6eMY ceujetay, «asahe ce 3a cuouen HJeH U 060 UlUi.O OHa Y1.f.UHU. To je 6MJ1a onoraena yqeHMQMMa, a YTexa M rrOXBaJ1a )l(eHM: "CBM he je", rOBopM OH, "KacHMje rrpOCJ1aBlbaTM, a cana je npencxasana CTpap;alhe TMMe llITO je p;OHeJ1a OHO llITO je aeonxonao aa rrorpe6. 3aTO HMKO aexa je He npexopeaa! CaM ja HeMaM HaMepy na je ocyhyjesr xao HeKY xoja J101lIe nocrymora, MJ1VI rrpeKopeBaM xao HeKY xoja je (casro) HerrpaBMJ1HO rrocryrnora, a, ceM rora, 'IaK nehy P;03B0J1MTM na osaj norabaj OCTaHe Herr03HaT, M norpynahy ce na ueo CBeT casna sa p;eJ10, yqMlheHo y xyha M Y rajnocrn, jep je 6MJ10 nnon rr060)l(HOr MMllilbelha, nnasrene sepe M CKpYllieHor P;yxa," 3allITO joj XPMCTOC HMje nao ofiehaise p;YXOBHor xapaxTepa, Hero rpajan cnoxren na lhy? ,IJ,a 6M Kp03 TO yceJ1MO y lhy nany p;a he P;06MTM M nyxosna 6J1ara: xan je yqMHMJ1a no- 6po p;eJ10, onna he, aecysm.aao, P;06MTM P;OCTOjHY Harpap;y.

Taga jeqan og Ileanaeciuopuue, UO uMeHY Jyga HcxapuOUi.CKU, ouiuqe upeoceeuiiaenuuusca. J1 pe'Ie: llliua hetue MU gaUi.u U ja hy 6aM fa usqaiuui (MT 26, 14, 15). Taga - aJ1M xana Ta'IHO? Tana xana je J1cyc rOBopMO TO, xana je pexao:

Y1.f.UHU Ui.o 3a MOj uotpeti. Jyp;y aaje P;MpHyJ10 TO (XpMCTOBO YKa3MBalDe na CBOjy CMpT), M mrje ce YIlJ1aUIMO pe-nr na he jeaaahezse 6MTM csyna rrporroBep;aHo (a TO llITO je pe'IeHO, YMCTMHY, HOCMJ10 je y ceria HeMcKa3aHY CMJ1Y), He: OH je yqMHMO ~aBOJ1CKO p;eJ10 6allI rana xan cy xceae, M TO »ceae xoje cy narre HM'IMQe, YKa3MBaJ1e TaKO BeJ1MKY 'IaCT J1cycy. 3allITO jeBaH~eJ1MCTM nasone JYP;MH Hap;MMaK - "J1cKapMOTCKM"? 3aTO llITO je nocrojao jour jenan Iyna. OHM 6e3 60- ja3HM ronope M TO p;a je OH 6MO jenan on ,IJ,BaHaeCTopMQe. OHM, naxne, HMllITa He cxpnaajy, 'IaK HM OHO llITO ce MO)l(e rrOKa3aTM xao cpaMHO. J1aKo je 6MJ10 Moryhe jennocraaao peha na je Jyp;a 6MO jenan on XPMCTOBMX Y'IeHMKa (6yp;yhM na cy nocrojarnr M npyrn), OHM, nnax, (y OBOM cny-rajy) P;Onajy: [eqan og Iieanaeciuopuue, M TMMe xao na rOBope: on rrpBor p;pYlliTBa, on Haj60lbMx M3a6paHYIKa, KOjM cy 6MJ1M 3ajenao C Ilerpoxr M JOBaHoM. To je 3aTO llITO cy ce jesanheJ1MCTM CTapaJ1M na rrpeHecy MCKlbyqMBO caMY MCTMHY M na cTBapHe norahaje He OCTaBe 6e3 crroxreaa. 3aTO OHM He noMMlDy MHora snaxrersa, aJ1M He cxpnsajy mnura TaKBO llITO ce noxasyje xao cpaMOTHO, M CMeJ10 jasrsajy 0 TOMe, 6MJ10 OHO pe'I, MJ1M neno, MJ1M UITa p;pyro.

o OBOMe He xaayjy casro rrpBa rpojaua jeBaH~eJ1MCTa, Hero 'IaK M JOBaH, KOjM jasn,a BeJ1MKe rajne. OH 60lbe on CBMX ronopn 0 cpaMohelhMMa M MCMeBalhVIMa XpMCTa. 110- rnenaj KOJ1MKO ce 3J106e jaBMJ10 y JYP;M xana ce P;06POBOlbHO OP;J1yqMO na nsnajcrso M yqMHMO TO 360r HOBQa, M TO TaKO CMTHor HOBQa! ... Jlyica rosopa na ce Iyna p;orOBopMO C BOjsonaaa, (PMMlbaHM cy, HaKOH YCTaHKa [ynejaua, rrOCTaBMJ1M xpaj lhMX nojae onpene, KOjM cy nanrnenann pen: caMOCTaJ1- na BJ1aCT Jyp;ejaQa rana je, CXOP;HO rrpOpO'laHcTBy, rrpellIJ1a

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y ,n;pyre pyxe.) Jy,n;a J1M, naxne, npahe J1 pe-te: uua« tietue MU gaw.u U ja ny 8aM fa usqaiuu. A OHU My UOllOJICUUle iupuqeceia cpetipnuxa. J1 og tuaqa tupaxcaiue sioqno epujeue ga fa u3ga (MT26,lS,16). OH ce 60jao aapona J1 xreo je na yXBaTJ1 J1cyca nacasro, 0 lIy,n;OCTJ1! ~o xor crerrena ra je OClIerrJ1- lIO IDerOBO cpeoporsytirsel Ee3 063J1pa aa TO lllTO je 'leCTO BJ1l)ao na je J1cyc HeOMeTaHO rrpOlIa3J10 Kp03 napon J1 na je MHoro rryTa 063HaJDJ1BaO ,n;OKa3e csoje 60)J(aHCTBeHOCTJ1 J1 Motm, Jy,n;a je nnax HaMepaBao na ra 3a,n;p)J(J1, ,n;a 3a,n;p)J(J1 Oaora KojJ1 My je TaKO 'leCTO yrryhnnao J1 nperrse J1 yMJ1lbare pe-m C ~J1lbeM na YHJ1111TJ1 IDerOBY any rrasrepy, Hax HJ1 aa Be'lepJ1 J1cyc HJ1je npecrajao na ce crapa 0 Jy,n;J1, Hero je ,n;o caaor nocnemser nana paarosapao C IDJ1M 0 TOMe, J1 Ma,n;a Jy,n;a HJ1je rrpJ1MaO on lherOBJ1X y6el)J1BaIDa HJ1KaKBY KOPJ1CT, OH je HaCTaBJ10 ,n;a naapmasa caoje zreno. Taxo J1 MJ1, snajyha TO, MopaMO, He KlIOHYBlllJ1 ,n;YXOM, 'lJ1HJ1TJ1 CBe aa aaorrynene J1 lIaKOMJ1ClIeHe - y6el)J1BaTJ1 J1X, yqJ1TJ1, TelllJ1TJ1, xpa6pI1TJ1, caBeTOBaTJ1, MaKap HeMalIl1 HI1KaKBor ycrrexa. J1 XPJ1CTOC je BJ1,n;eo na ce J13,n;ajHI1K Hl1je noxajao, a nnax HJ1je npecrajao ,n;a ce crapa 0 JDeMy, na ra y6el)yje, na y JDeMY noncraxae CTpaXOBaIDa, na ra cazcazsesa, 11 YBeK je TO 'l11H110 rrpJ1KpI1BeHO, a He OTBopeHO 11 jaBHO. OH je xax y caMOM TpeHyTKy nsnajcraa ,n;orrYCTI10 ,n;a ra rrozsyfia. Ho CBe je TO sa Jy,n;y611lIO 6eCKopI1CHO. KaKO je BelIJ1KO 3lIO cpe- 6polby6lbe! OHO je yqJ1Hl1lIO Iyzry Kpa,n;lbI1B~eM CBeTI1IDe 11 113,n;ajHI1KOM.

I1a)J(lbI1Bo caczrynrajre CBe OBO, cpeopozsynua, CBI1 KOjl1 crpanare on Jy,n;I1He 60lIeCTJ1, cacnyurajre J1 caxyaajre ce6e on Te CTpaCTI1! Iep Ka,n; ce onaj KOjJ1 je )J(J1BeO ca XPI1CTOM, 'l11H110 'ly,n;a 11 ClIY)J(110 ce TaKO BI1COKI1M yqeJDeM, cypsao y

TaKaB 6e3,n;aH jep mrje 6110 clI060,n;aH on re 60lIecTI1, TI1M BI111Ie aac, xoja He cnyurare xax CBeTO rrl1CMO 11 CTalIHO CTe npenarz 6p11raMa 0 OBOM ()J(I1BOTY], lIaKO MO)J(e ,n;a 3aXBaT11 CTpaCT cpe6polby6lba, aKO He 6y,n;eTe npnnarana nenpecraHO craparse. Jy,n;a je csaxor nana 6110 y rrpncycray Onora KOjJ1 HJ1je I1Mao rne na CKlIOHI1 rnany, CBaKo,n;HeBHO noyxaBaH 11 ,n;elII1Ma, J1 pe'lJ1Ma na He rpetia J1MaTJ1 HI1 3lIaTO, HJ1 cpe6po, HI1 nsa onena, rra nnax ce Hl1je ypa3yMl10. KaKO ce, oana, TI1 MO)J(elli Ha,n;aTI1 na heur J136etm Ty 60lIecT xana, C jenae crpane, He KOPI1CTI1111 npaso rrexeu,e, a C ,n;pyre, 11 caM He rrpJ1lIa)J(elll BelIl1KI1 Tpy,n;. Y)J(aCHa je, BeOMa Y)J(aCHa - rroHaBlbaM - t a snep, alIJ1 y CBaKOM cnyxajy TI1 heur je, aKO XOheur, lIaKO rr06e,n;I1TI1. Ta CTpaCT Hl1je cnojcrnena xosexonoj rrpl1po,n;11 - TO noxasyje 'lI1IDeHI1~a na nocroje OHI1 KOjl1 cy clI060,n;HI1 on IDe, ,n;OK cy npnponaa csojcrsa CBI1Ma sajenHl1'lKa - nocrojn casro nnon lIaKOMI1ClIeHOCTI1: J13 rora 113- sopa OHa 113611ja, 113 n.era 113paCTa 11, HarrOKOH, saxaara OHe KOjl1 joj CaMJ1 l1,n;y y cycpeT, 11 'lJ1HI1 IDI1XOB )J(J1BOT rrpOTI1Bnpaponaasr. 3a11CTa, xana cperiporsynua He xcerre na 3Hajy HI1 cyHapo,n;HJ1Ke, HI1 npajarezse, HI1 6pany, HI1 pobaxe, a HaKOH IDI1X 'laK HI1 ce6e, He 3HatI11 lIJ1 TO na OHI1 y CBOM )J(I1BOTY l1,n;y rrpOTI1B npnponanx rrpaanna. J13 osora je jaCHO na cy rrpOTI1BHI1 npaponn KaKO 3lI06a, TaKO 11 60lIeCT cpeopozsyczsa, 11 Jy,n;a, KOjJ1 ce, nonnerasma ynpaBo TOj 60- lIeCTI1, npernopno y 113,n;ajHI1Ka. Pehrr henr: .Kaxo je Morao ,n;a nocraae TaKaB, xan ra je 6J10 rrpJ13BaO XPI1CTOc?" To je Moryne 3aTO lllTO EO)J(l1jl1 rrpl1311B caM rro ce611 He npncazsasa HI1 na IlITa, He rrpl1MopaBa BOlbY OHJ1X xojx He )KelIe na nsaoepy BPlIl1HCKI1 rryT: CBOjl1M rrpI13J1BOM Bor caxro orrOMI1- IDe, caneryje - pesjy, CBe 'lI1HJ1 J1 YCMepaBa xa TOMe na I1X

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rrO~CTaKHe na rrOCTaHY ~06pJ.1, a aKO HeKO He )l(elIJ.1, OH He rrpJ.1CJ.1lbaBa. AKO xoheur na casnaur 3aIllTO je Jy~a nocrao TaKaB, OH~a hem Y3POK IDerOBe nponacra HahJ.1 y cpe6polby6lbY. Ha KOjJ.1 HaqJ.1H je, yrnrraheur TJ.1, IDJ.1Me osnanana Ta crpacri OHa ce IDeMY jannzra 3aTO IllTO je 6J.10 lIaKOMJ.1ClIeH. J13 'rora rrp0J.13J.1lIa3e TaKBe rrpoMeHe y qOBeKY, a J.13 rra)l(lbJ.1- nor onnoca npesra ce6J.1 - cynporue. KOlIJ.1KO 6J.1 ce, 3aJ.1CTa, Momo HaBeCTJ.1 TaKBJ.1X KOjJ.1 cy 6J.1lIJ.1 CypOBJ.1, a cana cy rroCTalIJ.1 KpOTKJ.1jJ.1 on CaMJ.1X osaua, KOlIJ.1KO je TaKBJ.1X KOjJ.1 cy 6J.1lIJ.1 ClIa~OCTpaCHJ.1, a OH~a rrOCTalIJ.1 u;elI6My~peHJ.1, KOlIJ.1KO je TaKBJ.1X KOjJ.1 cy paan]e nacrojann ~a ce 060raTe, a cana cy 0~6aU;J.1lIJ.1 on ce6e corrCTBeHJ.1 J.1MeTaK? ... 360r naKOMJ.1ClIeHOCT11 nax ~eCJ.1lIO ce cyrrpoTHo. Taxo je Iajesnje )l(J.1BeO ca CBeTJ.1M qOBeKOM J.1 nocrao HeqaCTJ.1B, oner 360r re 60lIeCTJ.1. Cpeopozsytirse je crpacr, jaxa on CBJ.1X OCTalIJ.1X:

OHa qJ.1HJ.1 lby~e rrlbaqKaIllJ.1Ma rp060Ba J.1 y6J.1u;aMa, OHa J.13a- 3J.1Ba paTOBe 11 6J.1TKe - pesjy, OHa je Y3POK csaxor ana, KOje ron naseo. Cpe6polby6J.1BJ.1 He o~rOBapa HJ.1je~HoM MeCTY na xoje je nocranzsea, MaKap OH 6J.10 xax CTapeIllJ.1Ha sojcxe J.1lIJ.1 napona, Ho, OCJ.1M qJ.1lbeHJ.1u;e na HJ.1je nooap y ~pyIllTBeHJ.1M rrOClIOBJ.1Ma, OH JOIll BJ.1Ille HJ.1je nooap HJ.1 y CBOM rrpJ.1- BaTHOM )l(J.1BOTY: aKO HaYMJ.1 na ce O)l(eHJ.1, OH aehe Y3eTJ.1 BPlIY )l(eHY, Hero OHY xoja je ropa O~ CBJ.1X; aKO CMJ.1ClIJ.1 na KyrrJ.1 xyhy, OH aehe 0~a6paTJ.1 OHY xoja rrpJ.1lIJ.1qJ.1 6lIaropo~HOM qOBeKY, Hero OHY xoja MO)l(e ~aTJ.1 BJ.1Ille rrpJ.1Xo~a; aKO aaacemr na xyna clIyre J.1lIJ.1 nrra ~pyro, OH ce rrOCTapa na ~O- 6J.1je HajjecpTJ.1HJ.1je. A J.1 3aIllTO na rOBOpJ.1M 0 IDeMY, Hapo~HOM BlIa~apy, xao ~oMahJ.1Hy? Kana 6J.1 OH nocrao qaK u;ap, OH 6J.10 6J.1 najnecpehmrjn J.1 HajcpaMHJ.1jJ.1 na u;elIOM CBeTY J.1 xax HajCJ.1pOMaIllHJ.1jJ.1. OH he ce, J.1 xao u;ap, rrOpe~J.1TJ.1 ca

CBaKJ.1M nojenanuexr J.13 Hapo~a, a OH~a he, nourro aaponno J.1MaIDe He CMaTpa CBOjJ.1M, Hero ce onaaja O~ CBJ.1X, J.1 anepCKJ.1 OTJ.1Ma O~ ~pyrJ.1X, no-rern na MJ.1ClI11 na OH J.1 rana J.1Ma MaIDe O~ CBJ.1X. 'Iaxo, rropenehn OHe KOjJ.1 seh J.1Majy 60raTCTBO C OHJ.1Ma KOjJ.1 crpacno »cene na ra cTeKHY, OH rrpBe CBO~J.1 HJ.1 na urra rrpep; nocnemsroa.

ETo 3aIllTO je HeKO pexao: HeMa HJ.1qer 6e3aKOHJ.1jer on cpeoporsynua (Ilpon 10,9). J1 3aJ.1CTa, QOBeK Tor KOBa caM ce- 6e nponaje 11 xrano-nonano rrpeTBapa ce y ormrrer aenpnjarersa uenov cBeTY TJ.1Me IllTO )l(alIJ.1 IllTO 3eMlba He P;OHOCJ.1 3lIaTO YMeCTO xnacja, IllTO cy na IDOj YMeCTO py~HJ1Ka - J13BOPJ1, YMeCTO p;paror KaMeIDa - nnanxae, aeronyje na lbeHY POP;HOCT, nana Y oxaj xan BJ1P;J1 onurre 6lIaro, 0p;6J1ja CBaKO 3aHJ1MaIDe xoje He ~OHOCJ.1 HOBaU;, rrOp;HOCJ1 CBe na 6J1 p;06J10 nsa 060lIa, Mp3J1 CBe, 6e3 J13Y3eTKa, J.1 CJ1pOMaIllHe J1 60raTe: CJ1pOMaIllHe 360r 60ja3HJ1 na he My rrpahn J1 3aTpa)l(J1TJ1 MJ.1lIOCTJ1lbY, a tiorare 3aTO IllTO HeM a IDJ.1XOBa 60- raTCTBa. OH cxarpa na cy CBJ1 OTelIJ1 iseroso 60raTcTBo, na cy ra CBJ1 OIllTeTJ1lIJ1, J.1 3aTO neronyje na CBe, He 3Ha sa aaP;OBOlbCTBO, He oceha CJ1TOCT, peajy, noxasyje na je najtienHJ1jJ1, tiam xao IllTO onaj KOMe je cpetiporsytirse ryhe J1 BOlIJ1 J1CTJ1HCKY MYP;pOCT nocraje y najsehoj MepJ1 nocrojan nanMeTalba jep je jep;J1HO BPlIJ1HCKJ1 QOBeK, 6J1o OH clIyra, J1lIJ1 rocnonap, CpenHJ1jJ1 o~ CBJ1X p;pyrJ1x. Ilocnemsea HJ1KO Hehe HaHeTJ.1 3lIO, MaKap CBJ1, J13 uenor CBeTa, 3BeU;KalIJ1 oPY)l(jeM, noxperann nernje J1 OH~a ce cKyrrJ.1lIJ1 p;a KpeHy y paT rrpOTJ1B IDem. A lIYKaBJ1 J1 3lIJ1 QOBeK, yrrpaBo OHaKaB xaxsor CMO ra OrrJ1CalIJ1, MaKap OH 6J10 u;ap, oKpY)l(eH netipojeHJ1M MHOIllTBOM ~J1ja~eMa, MO)l(e p;O)l(J.1BeTJ.1 BeOMa BelIJ1- xe necpehe QaK on QOBeKa KOjJ1 ce nojaan aenpensaheao.

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ETo, KOlIH:KO je nexrohaa 31I06a H: KOlIH:KO je MonHa BplIH:na! 3allITO ce )I(alIOCTH:Ill y CH:pOMaIllTBY? 3aIllTO nnaseur na npa3HH:K, xan je OBO BpeMe npaamrxa? 3aIllTO mrjeur CY- 3e? CH:pOMaIllTBO je sa rene npa3HH:K, aKO caxro notipo MH:ClIH:Ill. 3aIllTO nnaxem, nere! - jep raxsor MopaM Ha3BaTH: p;eTeTOM. Ie 1IH: 're HeKO H:CTYKao? ITa urrai YqH:HH:O 're je TpneJbH:BH:jH:M. Oreo TH: je H:Malbe? CKH:HYO je ca retie CYBH:IllHO 6peMe. flH:IllH:O re je cnase? Oner MH: rOBOpH:Ill casro 0 npyroj BpCTH: cnooone. Ilocnyuraj, KaKO He3Ha60Ill~H: 0 TOMe MYp;PO MH:ClIe H: rosope: "HH:CH: npeTpneo HH:K<y<BO 31I0, aKO ra casro He npanncyjenr ceria," Op;Y3elIH: cy tH: OHY BelIH:Ky xyhy, onacany orpanozr! ITa eTO, npen TBOjH:M OqH:Ma je CBa 3eMJba H: p;pYIllTBeHe srpane, KOPH:CTH: H:X H:X, KaKO XOheur - na 3ap;OBOJbCTBa H:1IH: aa KOPH:CT. J.1Ma 1IH: urra rrpnjarHH:je H: nernue on netiecxor csonai! ,lJ;oKlIe here 6H:TH: CH:pOMaCH: H: 6ep;HH:~H:? He MO)I(e ce 6H:TH: 60raT npyraxa]e, Hero 6H:TH: 60raT p;YIllOM, He MO)I(e ce HH: CH:pOMaIllaH 6H:TH: p;pyraqH:je, Hero 6H:TH: CH:pOMaIllaH p;YXOM. J.1 3aH:CTa, aKO je nynra Heynopep;H:BO jasa on rena, oana OHO aajcnafinje H: He MO)I(e na je npH:Byqe na CBOjy CTpaHY; HanpOTH:B, YBeK OHO IllTO je jaxo BOP;H: sa C060M OHO IllTO HH:je TOlIH:KO jaxo H: Melba ra. Taxo je H: ca cp~eM: xana oceha HeIllTO y cetix, OHO P;OBOP;H:

Y H:CTO TaKBO craa.e H: reno: aKO, na npH:Mep, TpnH: HeKY 60- lIeCT, onna OHa npelIa3H: na ueno reno, a aKO je 3p;paBO, OHna H: ueno reno nocraje snpano, AKO rrax, 06pHyTO, y HeKOM p;pyroM neny rena HacTynH: omreheise, a cp~e, xoje ce nana- 3H: y YHYTpaIlllbOCTH: rena, ocraje snpaao, oana OHO lIaKO OTxnaisa Hep;OCTaTKe y TH:M p;elIOBH:Ma. Yocranosr, na 6H: OBO IllTO CMO pexnn 6H:1I0 jacanje, onrosopa MH: KaKBe KOPH:CTH:

H:Ma on rora IllTO je rnnnhe 3elIeHO, aKO ce KopeH cyunr]

J.1, ca p;pyre crpaae, H:MalIH: H:KaKBe urrere on rora IllTO ce mnuhe cyunr, a xopen ocraje snpaai Taxo je H: y OBOM ClIysajy: HeMa KOPH:CTH: on HOB~a xana P;yIllH: rpetia xpaHa KOJOM ce OHa XpaHH:, HH:TH: H:Ma nrrere op; CH:pOMaIllTBa xazta je nyura tiorara. Kaxo, xazceur TH:, p;YIlla MO)I(e 6H:TH: tiorara y nenocrarxy HOB~a? Ynpano 'rana OHa HapOqH:TO MO)I(e 6H:TH: 60raTa 3aTO IllTO ce y TOM BpeMeHY OHa 06H:qHO H: 60raTH:. J.1 aKO ce 60raT qOBeK, KaKO CMO qeCTO rOBOpH:lIH:, onnnxyje TH:Me IllTO npe3H:pe HOBa~, IllTO My OH yonIllTe HH:je nOTpe- 6aH, oazta ce y CH:pOMaIllTBY, HeCYMlbH:BO, npe MO)I(e nOCTaTH: 60raT 3aTO IllTO je y CH:pOMaIllTBY Heynopep;H:BO naxme, Hero y 60raTCTBY, H:MaTH: npe3pH:B OP;HOC npeMa HOB~y. CH:pOMaIllTBO, naxne, nmne p;OnpH:HOCH: otiorahnaaisy xonexa. CBH:Ma je n03HaTO na 60raTaIll MHoro BMIlle Tpa)I(H: HOBa~ Hero CH:pOMaX, 6aIll xao IllTO onaj KOjH: je nonno MHoro BH:na oceha sehy )I(eQ on oaora KOjH: je rronno YMepeHO. CBOjCTBO CTpaCTH: mrje na ce CTH:Illa nocne BelIH:KOr 3ap;OBOJbelba - OHa ce, HanpOTH:B, Kp03 TO jour nmne pacnnaacasa. Kao IllTO BaTpa nocraje CBe csnpenaja IllTO nnure npH:Ma TO IllTO ryra, TaKO H: CTpaCT npesra 60raTCTBY nocraje CBe jasa IllTO sxure p;06H:ja 61Iara. AKO je, narore, orienezcje CH:pOMaurrna reaosa rrpesra 60raTcTBY, H: aKO, ca p;pyre CTpaHe, y 60raTCTBY qOBeK jour srrure )I(elIH: p;a yseha CBOjy H:MOBH:HY, oana je 60raT qOBeK nocetino CH:pOMaIllaH. BH:P;H:Ill 1IH: na p;YIlla nocraje CH:pOMaIllHa rana xana je qOBeK 60raT, H: 60- rara rana xana je CH:pOMaIllaH. AKO xoheur na OBO nojacnaMO npH:MepOM, onna 3aMH:ClIH: P;BOjH:~y JbYP;H:, on KOjH:X jep;aH H:Ma necer XH:Jbap;a rananara, a p;pyrH: caxo necer, H: on 060jH:~e OP;YSMH: raj HOBa~: xoja he on lbH:X amne )I(alIH:TH:? 3ap nehe onaj KOjH: je OCTao 6e3 necer xnzsana rananara?

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AIm: OH BJ.1IlIe )KaIIJ.1 aa HOB~eM 3aTO IlITO ra BJ.1IlIe BOJIJ.1 Hero CJ.1pOMaIlIHJ.1; a aKO BJ.1IlIe BOJIJ.1, onna J.1 BJ.1IlIe )KeJIJ.1, a aKO BJ.1IlIe )KeJIJ.1, onna je BJ.1IlIe J.1 caposrauraa. ,lJ;OJ.1CTa, MJ.1 nocetiao jaxo )KeJIJ.1MO OHO IlITO HaM MHoro aenocraje, jep )Kelba YBeK rrp0J.13J.1JIa3J.1 J.13 nenocrajaisa, a TaMO rne je J.130- 6J.1Jbe, OHa HJ.1je Moryha. )Kel) Hac nocetiao MY'"IJ.1 rana xana ocehaao norpeoy sa nnhea. CBe OBO peKao caM na 6J.1 noxaaao na HaM HJ.1KO nehe HarrpaBJ.1TJ.1 IlITeTY aKO 6yp;eMo YBeK rra3J.1JIJ.1 na ce6e, jep Y3POK IlITeTe HJ.1je y CJ.1pOMaIlITBY Hero y nasra CaMJ.1Ma. MOJIJ.1M sac, naxne, na ca CBJ.1M crapaisea op;CTpaHJ.1Te on ce6e rropoK cpetiporsytin,a na 6J.1CMO J.1 osne rrOCTaJIJ.1 60raTJ.1 J.1 3aTJ.1M p;06J.1JIJ.1 aexaa 6JIara 6JIarop;ahy J.1 qOBeKolby6lbeM Iocnona naurer Hcyca XpJ.1CTa(KOMe CJIaBa y BeKOBe BeKOBa. AMJ.1H.

CMHAKCAP HA CBETY M BEJIMKY CPE,lJ;Y

CTI1XOBI1: )KeHa UOMa3a XPUCUlOBO iUeno MUPOM, U iUaKO upeiUe'le HWWgUMOBY CMUPHY U anojy.

Ha CBeTY J.1 BeJIJ.1KY cpep;y CBeTJ.1 0~J,1 cy 3arrOBep;J.1JIJ.1 na qJ.1HJ.1MO CIIOMeH na )KeHY 6JIyp;HJ.1~y, xoja je noaasana Iocnona MJ.1POM, jep ce TO p;eCJ.1JIO npen casta Cnacarezsesa CTpap;alba.

Kana je Iocnon nourao y JepycaJIJ.1M J.1 HaJIa3J.10 ce y KyhJ.1 CJ.1MOHa ryriasora, rrpJ.1CTyrrJ.1JIa My je )KeHa (6JIyp;HJ.1~a) J.1 J.13JIJ.1JIa na Iberony rnany cKyrro~eHo MJ.1pO. Ty je YCTaHOnzseno (na iso] qJ.1HJ.1MO cnoxrea) C ~J.1lbeM na ce, rro peqJ.1 Cnacarersa, cayna J.1 CBJ.1Ma rrporrOBep;a 0 TOM lbeHOM P;J.1plbJ.1BOM nocrynxy, KOjOM rr06yp;OM ce OHa PYKOBOp;J.1JIa? IToIlITO je rrpJ.1MeTJ.1JIa na je XPJ.1CTOC Ca)KaJbJ.1B rrpeMa CBJ.1Ma J.1 p;pY)Kelby6J.1B, HapOQJ.1TO cana, xana je BJ.1p;eJIa na je OH Ylliao y xyhy rytiasora, a 3aKOH je nanarao na ce TaKaB CMaTpa HeQJ.1CTJ.1M J.1 Op;JIyqeHJ.1M on npyurrna, OHa je 3aKlbY'"lJ.1JIa na he OH, xao J.1 CJ.1MOHOBY ry6y, J.1C~eJIJ.1TJ.1 J.1 lbeHY p;YIlIeBHy 60JIecT. M eTO, P;OK je OH YBeQe ceneo aa rpneaosr, OHa je J.13JIJ.1Ba aa Hserosy maBY MJ.1pO, spenao OKO TpJ.1 CTOTJ.1He p;J.1Hapa, TO jeer uresnecer acapirja, necer nenesa J.1 TpJ.1 cpe- 6peHJ.1Ka. YQeHJ.1~J.1 cy je CrrpeQaBaJIJ.1, nocetino Iyna MCKaPJ.10TCKJ.1, HO XPJ.1CTOC je crao y lheHY 3alllTJ.1TY na OHJ.1 He 6J.1 rrpeKJ.1HyJIJ.1 iseny notipy HaMepy. ITpJ.1 TOMe je crrOMeHYO J.1 CBOj rrorpe6, J.1 TaKO onspahao Jyp;y on J.13p;ajCTBa J.1 yp;oCTOjJ.10 )KeHY QaCTJ.1 TJ.1Me IlITO he ce csyna rro ~eJIOM CBeTY rrporrOBep;aTJ.1 0 lheHOM P;06pOM nezry,

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Mopasro HamaCJ1TJ1 na ce, no HeKJ1Ma, J1CTa OBa xcena nonpasyaeaa KOP; CBJ1X jeBaH~eJU1CTa. AJIJ1 TO HJ1je TaqHO. Tpojnua, xazce CBeTJ1 3JIaToycTJ1 (y Becenn 13 na Mareja), ronope 0 J1CTOj, J1 Ha3J1Bajy je 6JIYP;HJ1U;OM, a KOP; JOBaHa je nOTnYHo p;pyra, J1 TO XBaJIe nocrojna Mapnja, /Iasapeaa cecrpa, xojy je Op;JIJ1KOBaO xacraa )I(J1BOT, J1 xojy XPJ1CTOC, na je 6J1JIa 6JIyp;HJ1u;a, He 6J1 BOJIeo. On lbJ1X je OBa rrocnemsa Mapnja, nrecr nana npe I1acxe, y CBOjOj xyhrr, y BJ1TaHJ1jJ1, P;OK je OH YBeqe ceneo aa Tpne30M, J13BpIllJ1JIa nosrasaise TaKO IllTO je J13JIJ1JIa MJ1pO na rrpe-nrcre aore J1 06pJ1caJIa J1X CBOjOM KOCOM, J1 TJ1Me nOKa3aJIa na ra J13Y3eTHo nourryje. OHa je npJ1HeJIa MJ1pO XpJ1CTy xao Bory, je? je notipo 3HaJIa (lt13JI 30; IlOCT 281135) p;a je Ylbe npJ1HOIlleHO Bory J1 y )I(pTBaMa, na cy MJ1POM nOMa3J1BaHJ1 J1 CBeIllTeHJ1U;J1, na je J1 JaKOB npeJIJ10 YlbeM KaMeH nocsehen Bory, OHa je TO, OqJ1- rnenno, npJ1HeJIa pap;J1 6JIarOp;apHOCTJ1 YqJ1TelbY, xao Bory, aa O)I(J1Blbelbe csora 6paTa. 3aTO joj ce J1 He otiehasa Harpana. Ty ce J1 ryabarse xyje jep;J1HO Iyne, xao JIaKOMOr xoaexa. CBeTJ1 Marej J1 Mapxo xasyjy na je p;pyra »ceaa, J1 TO 6JIYP;HJ1u;a, p;Ba naaa npe I1acxe, xana je XPJ1CTOC JOIll 60paBJ10 y TOj J1CTOj BJ1TaHJ1jJ1, y KyhJ1 CJ1MOHa rytiasora, ysexe, P;OK je ceneo 3a Tpne30M J13JIJ1JIa TO cxynoueno MJ1pO aa IDerOBY maBy. 360r rora caoje neronoaarse npeMa 6JIYP;HJ1- U;J1 J1CKa3yjy J1 yqeHJ1U;J1, KOjJ1 cy J13BPCHO 3HaJIJ1 C KaKBJ1M ycpbesr je TO yqJ1lbeHO na 6J1 ce p;06J1JIa XpJ1CTOBa MJ1JIOCT. Iboj je J1 aarpana onpebeua y TOMe IllTO he TO notipo neJIO 6J1TJ1 npOCJIaBlbaHO cnyna no CBeTY. Ilpexia TOMe, HeKJ1 pasyaejy jenny, 3JIaTOYCTJ1, nax, no OBOMe, nse )I(eHe. lIlMa J1 OHJ1X KOjJ1 rrpnanajy qaK TpJ1: p;Be rope nOMeHYTe, y caMOM npJ16JIJ1)I(aBalbY XPJ1CTOBJ1X CTpap;alba, a OCJ1M OBJ1X

J1 rpehy, raxanje peqeHO npBY, xoja je TO npJ1pep;J1JIa Herne OKO nOJIOBJ1He jeBaH~eJICKe npOnOBep;J1. OHa je 6J1JIa J1 6JIyp;HJ1u;a, J1 rpeIllHJ1u;a, J1 J13JIJ1JIa je MJ1pO na XpJ1CTOBe HOre, aJIJ1 He y KyhJ1 ryoasora, Hero rpapnceja CJ1MOHa J1 6e3 npacycrsa Hen03HaTJ1X. Tana ce jep;J1HO caM q,apJ1cej carina- 3HJ10. Kao Harpap;y Crracrrrers joj je nao orrryurretse rpexosa. Ynpano 0 iso] CBeTJ1 JIyKa xasyje OKO Cpep;J1He csor [esaahezsa (7,36-50), xao IllTO je pexeno. Henocpenao nOCJIe xaaasarsa 0 TOj 6JIYP;HJ1U;J1, OH aacrasrsa rOBOp na cJIep;ehJ1 HaqJ1H: J1 6u uocnuje iuota, u OH upoxohauie UO tpaqoeuua U UO cenuua upouoeujeqajyhu U tinatoeujeauehu I1apcUl60 EOJICuje (JIK 8, 1), J13 xera jacao np0J13J1JIa3J1 na TO HJ1je 6J1JIO aa BpeMe cTpap;alba. Ilpesia TOMe, cyneha no BpeMeHY, J1 no MeCTY, J1 no JIJ1qHOCTJ1Ma, J1 no xyhaxia, HanOKOH, no caMOM HaqJ1HY MJ1pOnOMa3alba, nsrrrena, na cy TO 6J1JIe TpJ1 zcene: nne 6JIyp;HJ1u;e, a rpeha je Jlaaapesa cecrpa Mapnja, xojy je Op;JIJ1KOBaO CBeTJ1 )I(J1BOT. 1Il jenaa xyha je xyha cpapnce]a CJ1MOHa, p;pyra je ryoasor CJ1MOHa y BJ1TaHJ1jJ1, J1 rpeha je xyha OHa y KOjOj cy )I(J1BeJIe Mapnja J1 Mapra, JIasapese ceCTpe, y J1CTOj TOj BJ1TaHJ1jJ1, a 113 osora ce xropa 3aKlbyqJ1TJ1 p;a cy XpJ1CTy 6J1JIe npnpeheae J1 nae rpnese, J1 06e y BJ1TaHJ1jJ1. Ienaa je yqJ1lbeHa urecr nana npe I1acxe y JIa3apeBOM p;OMY, y KOjOj je C IDJ1M ysecraoaao J1 Jlasap, o qeMY CJ1H rpoxra rOBOpJ1 OBaKO: A J1cyc ua iuectu gaHa upuje IIacxe go~e y Buiuauujy, fgje 6jeUle Ilasap KOjU yMpUje, KOla OH uoguJlCe U3 MpUl6UX. OHgje My aa« 3ioUl06UUle eeuepy, U Mapiua CllYJICaUle, a Ilasap 6jeUle jeqan og OHUX UlUlO cjehaxy ca 1-bUM 3a iupuesoi«. A Mapuja, Y3e6Ulu nutupy upaeota Hapgo6a cxyaoujenota scupuca, UOMa3a HOie Hcycoee; U o6puca KOCOM C60jOM noie teeioee (JH 12,1-3).

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Ilpyra Be'Iepa 6WlIa je npnpeheaa Ibesry ~Ba nana rrpe I1acxe, xana ce XPWCTOC jour HalIa3J10 y BWTaHWjW, Y Kytm CJ1- MOHa ryoasora, xana My je J1 6JIy~HJ1l\a rrpJ1llllIa ~a J13JIJ1je cKyrrou;eHo MJ1pO: TaKO xasyje CBeTJ1 Marej W rrpeHOCJ1 XPJ1- CTOBe pe'IJ1 yqeHJ1l\J1Ma: Snatue ga fie 3a gBa gaHa tiuiuu IIacxa, J1 y6p30 HaKOH osora nacrasrsa: A Kag J1cyc 6jeute y Buiuanuju Y xyhu CUMoHa iytiaeoia; upucmyuu My »cena ca anaeactupoeou UOCygOM scupuca cxyuoujenoia, u U31lU na 11la8Y teeioey Kaga cjehatue 3a tupuesoi« (MT26,2H6-7). C InJ1M je carnacan J1 Mapxo, KOjJ1 rOBOpJ1: Eujaxy joiu gBa gaHa go upasuuxa IIacxe u 6eCKBaCHUX xnetioea ... J1 Kag OH tiujaiue y Buiuanuju y xyhu CUMOHa iytiaeoia u cje~aute;a iupue- 30M, go~e »ceua (MK 14,1, 3) J1T~. 3acTyrrHwu;w rapmse ~a xeTBOpJ1u;a jesanhemrcra rOB ope 0 jennoj re J1CTOj )KeHW xoja je noxraaana Iocnona MJ1POM, na cy CWMOH cpapJ1cej J1 CJ1- MOH ry6aBJ1, xora HeKW csrarpajy 'IaK Ol\eM Jlaaapa W tseroBWX ceCTapa Mapnje J1 Mapre, jenna re J1CTa lIJ1'IHOCT, na ce pa~J1 0 jennoj re J1CTOj Be'IepJ1, jenaoj re J1CTOj rserosoj xyhx, y BJ1TaHJ1jJ1, rne je aasonao 6J1lIa W BelIJ1Ka ropIna onaja, 3aCTpTa W rrpwrrpeMlbeHa W rne je 6J1lIa Tajna nesepa - MJ1ClIe rrorpellIHo. Te nse se-repe 6J1lIe cy rrpnnpesoseae XpJ1CTy J13BaH Iepycamoaa, y BJ1TaHJ1jJ1, urecr J1 nsa naira, KaKO je peseao. rrpe 3aKOHOM onpehene I1acxe, a J1 xcene cy rrpJ1HelIe XpJ1CTY MJ1pO na pa31IJ1'IJ1T Ha'IJ1H. A Tajna se-repa J1 BeJIJ1Ka ropisa onaja 6J1lIe cy rrpJ1rrpeMlbeHe y caMOM rpa~y Iepycanaxy jenan naa rrpe 3aKOHOM onpeheae I1acxe J1 XPJ1CTOBJ1X crpanan.a, rro MJ1llllbelbY je~HJ1X, y KyhJ1 Henosnaror 'IOBeKa, a rro MJ1llllbelbY ~pyrJ1x y KyhJ1 Iberosor yxenaxa J1 HarrpCHJ1Ka JOB ana, na CBeTOM CJ10HY, y KOjOj cy ce J1 yqeHJ1U;J1 CKpJ1BalIJ1 360r CTpaxa on Iynejaua, y KOjOj je

TOMa nocne Bacxpceisa MeTHYo CBOj rrpcT y paHe on KlIJ1HOsa J1 CBOjy pyKy Y XpJ1CTOBa pe6pa, y KOjOj je, na IlenecerHJ1l\Y, CBeTJ1 ,Uyx cmnao na arrOCTOJIe, J1 y KOjOj cy y'IJ1lbeaa pa3Ha ~pyra CKpJ1BeHa J1 rajaacrnena nena,

.vIMajyhJ1 OBO y BJ1~y, HaMa ce 'IJ1HJ1 na amne o~rOBapa J1CTJ1HJ1 31IaTOYCTOBO MJ1llllbeIne, rro KOMe ce Ty rOBOpJ1 0 nse xceae: jenaoj, 0 KOjOj rpojnna jesaahenacra rOB ope na je, xao 61Iy~HJ1l\a J1 rpelllHJ1l\a, J131IJ1JIa MJ1pO na XPJ1CTOBY rnaay, J1 npyroj, KO~ JOB ana, MapJ1jJ1, Jlasapeaoj CeCTpJ1, xoja je rrpJ1HelIa MJ1pO J1 J131IJ1lIa ra, J1 TO na XpJ1CTOBe 60- )KaHCKe aore. Je~Ha CTBap je, raxohe, sesepa y BJ1TaHJ1jJ1, a CaCBJ1M ~pyra - Tajaa Be'Iepa. To je jacno 'IaK J13 rora lllTO Cnacnrezs, nocne Ka3J1BaIna 0 TOj 61Iy~HJ1U;J1, nrarse yqeHJ1Ke y rpa~ na rrpJ1rrpeMe I1acxy. J1guiUe y fpag mOMe u mOMe, u KaJICUme My: ... KOg iuetie fiy ga Y'iUHUM IIacxy ca Y'ieHuu,UMa ceojuu (MT 26,18) • .vI jour: J1 cpeuihe Bac uoejetc KOjU HOCU xpnai Boge ... U OH fie BaM uoxasaiuu fOmOBY eenuKy fOPI-bY oqajy, 3acmpmy U upuupeweeny: oHgje HaM stotuoeuu;« (MK 14,13-16; lIK 22,8-13), O'lJ1TO, npencrojehy 3aKOHcKY I1acxy, xojy je, nourasur«, J1 yqJ1HJ10 C yqeHWU;J1Ma, KaKO roBOPJ1 60)KaHCTBeHJ1 31IaToycTJ1. 3aTJ1M, sa BpeMe Be'lepe, rj. Tajne se-repe, HaKOH 60)KaHCTBeHor rrpalba HOry Y'leHJ1l\J1- Ma, XPJ1CTOC rrOHOBO cena sa Tprre3y, npenaje J1 HalllY I1acxy na J1CTOM TOM CTOlIY, KaKO nonaje 31IaTOpe'lJ1BJ1 JOBaH. .vI TO je Ta'lHO. A ~J1BHJ1 JOBaH, xao J1 Mapxo, 60)KaHCTBeHJ1 jeBaHl)eJIJ1CTJ1, 03Ha'IJ1JIJ1 cy J1 KBalIJ1TeT MJ1pa TaKO lllTO cy

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ra Ha3BalIJ1 'IJ1CTJ1M J1 cKyrrou;eHJ1M. J1ClIe na "rrJ1CTJ1KOH ,

rj. BepHo, 3Ha'lJ1 rrpaBo, Hapa361Ia)KeHO J1 J1CrrJ1TaHe 'IJ1CTOre, a MO)K~a je TO J1 Ha3J1B aajoozser J1 rrpBOKlIaCHor MJ1pa. Mapxo nonaje ~a je »cena on ycpha 'laK pa36J1JIa J1 cyn, aa

164 CBeTOOTa'IKe nOYKe aa nane Crpacne ceAMHQe

KOjH xaxce na je OA anasacrpa, 3aTO IllTO je rpno Tor CYAa 6HlIO rrpeYCKO. Taj CTaKlIeHH CYA, KaKO rosopa CBeTH ErrH<paHHje, HHje HMao p)"lKe, H Ha3HBa ce BHKHOH. MHpO je 6HlIO cacraszseno OA MHorHX MaTepHja, a yrnasuoa OA CMHpHe MHOMHpHCHor usera KHHaMoHa, MHpHCHor KopeHa, MHOMHpHCHor Hcorra H ylba.

)J,YXOBHHM MHpOM rrOMa3aHH, XpHCTe Boxce, oClIo60AH Hac OA crpacrn xoje nasazsyjy aa Hac, H rrosorrry] Hac, jep jeAaH je CBeTH H xoaexozsyean. AMHH.

QPKBEHO-IIOyqHA qJ1TAfhA Y CBETJ1 J1 BEJlJ1KJ1 qETBPTAK

CBETO[ JOBAHA 3JIATOYCTO[ ITPBA EECEAA 0 JYAMHOM M3AAJCTBY

o JY,lJ,J1HOM J13,lJ,AJCTBY J1 0 IIACXJ1, 0 IIPE,lJ,ABAI-hY CBETJ1X TAJHJ1, KAO J1 0 HE3JIOIIAM11EI-hY (J13fOBOPEHA) HA CBETJ1 J1 BEJIJ1KJ1 QETBPTAK*

AaHac MopaM MallO na rOBOpJ1M samoj Jby6aBJ1; MallO MopaM na rOBOpJ1M, alIJ1 He 3aTO llITO 6J1 sac nyra rrporrosen 3aMapalIa - snajre na HeMa rpap;a KOjJ1 6J1, xao Balli, C TOlIJ1KO Jby6aBJ1 6J10 onan ClIYllIalhY p;YXOBHJ1X 6ecep;a. [0- BOpJ1ny, naxne, MallO, alIJ1 He 3aTO llITO 6J1X BaM nocanno p;yrJ1M rrporrOBep;alheM, Hero 3aTO llITO nanac nocrojn na)KaH pa31I0r na CKpaTJ1MO rOBOp: BJ1P;J1M na MHOrJ1 BepHJ1- ~J1 )Kype na ce rrpJ1QeCTe CTpallIHJ1M rajaaaa. 3aTO, na He 6J1 OHJ1 OCTalIJ1 J1 6e3 OBe J1 6e3 OHe rpnesc, xpaHy MopaM paCrrOp;elIJ1TJ1 cpa3MepHO KaKO 6J1CTe J1 ca jenae J1 ca p;pyre crpane J1MalIJ1 KOPJ1CTJ1 J1 OTJ1llIlIJ1 cHa6p;eBeHJ1 aa rryT TOM Tprre30M J1 MOjJ1M 6ecep;aMa, J1 rrpJ1CTyrrJ1lIJ1 crpaumoxr J1 TperreTHoM rrpnaeurhy ca cTpaxoM, TperreToM J1 neonxonHOM rr060)KHOllIhy.

Ha nanaunsx nan, Jby6JbeHJ1 MOjJ1, npenan je Iocnon naur Hcyc XPJ1CTOC; OBe aacrynajyhe BeQepJ1 Jyp;ej~J1 cy ra YXBaTJ1lIJ1 J1 Op;BelIJ1. Hexroj, nnax, na re casnana yHJ1HJ1je xana xyjeur na je Hcyc 6J10 rrpep;aH, J11IJ1, 60lbe: ryryj J1 ropKO naaxa, HO He Hap; npenaamr XPJ1CTOM, Hero Hap; J13p;ajHJ1KOM JYP;OM, jep M3p;aHJ1 je crracao BaCeJbeHY, a J13p;ajHJ1K

* Borocnyaaiena TUUUK onpehyje ,LIa ce OBa fiecezta tuna na BenYlKYI -reTBpTaK, na jyrpen.y, nocne rpehe necxre KaHOHa.

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je M3ry6Mo CBOjy ,n;ylIly; Jl13,n;aHM cana ce,n;M ira aetiy ca necne crpaae Oua, a M3,n;ajHMK ce cana HaJIa3M y naKJIY M oxexyje HeM36e)f(HY Ka3Hy. Han IDMM nna-nr M Y3,n;MlIlM, aa IDMM ce )l(aJIOCTM, xao lIlTO je M naur Iocnon nJIaKaO nan IDMM. Kan ra BM,n;e, rOBopM (CBeTo rnrcao), Meye ee Y36ygu gYXOM ... U peue: jeqan og aae usqahe Me (JH 13.21). 0, KOJIMKO je BeJIMKa MMJIOCT Iocnona: J13,n;aHM ce )l(aJIOCTM aa M3,n;ajHMKOM! Kan ra BM,n;e, rOBopM (jeBaHljeJIMCT), Meye ee YJ6ygu gYXOM ... U peue. jeqan og eac usqahe Me. 3alIlTO je OH nocrao )l(aJIOCTaH? ,Ua rroxaxce CBOjy lby6aB M na Hac yjenao HayqM na He rpetia rrenpecrano onJIaKMBaTM oaora KOjM TpnM 3JIO, Hero onora KOjM qMHM 3JIO. qMHMTM 3JIO je rope Hero crpanarn, MJIM, 60lbe pexeao, rpnern 3JIO HMje 3JIO, a qMHMTM 3JIO jeCTe 3JIO. Tpnzserse 3JIa npasona Llapcrsy tretiecxoa, a qMIDeIDe 3JIa npenaje naKJIY onsenoxr M xazcisaaaisy, EllaJICeHU, rOBopM Iocnon, upoinanu upaeqe pagu, jep je teuxoeo ll,apctaeo netiecxo (MT 5, 10). BM,n;MlIl JIM KaKO onaj KOjM rprra 3JIO ,n;06Mja nJIaTY M Harpa,n;y - UapCTBO neoecxo? A cana qyj KaKO ce oaaj KOjM qMHM 3JIO npenaje xaxosanarsy M npasenHOM cy,n;y. Kan je pexao ,n;a cy Iyneju« Iocuoqa ytiunu U ceoje upopoxe upoinanu (yn. 1 Con 2, 15), TIaBJIe je nonao: Kojuua he ceptueiuax tiutuu UO qjenusca 1bUXOaUM (2 Kop 11,15). BM,n;MlIl JIM KaKO rOIDeHM notinjajy ~apCTBO, a rrporoaarezsn ,n;06Mjajy y HaCJIe,n;cTBo raes (Eo)l(MjM)? OBO lIlTO caxr cana pexao MMa CBOj U;Mlb - ,n;a ce HM MM He lbYTMMO na name aerrprrjarerse, HO ,n;a MX )l(aJIMMO, ormaxyjesro M caxcarseaasro: ynpaBO OHM Tpne 3JIO TMMe lIlTO HaM qMHe aerrpnjarezscrea. Kan CBOjy nyury TaKO ype,n;MMO, Motm heao ce M MOJIMTM sa IDMX. Beh qeTBpTM naa pa3roBapaM C saxra 0 MOJIMTBM sa HenpMjarerse, a TO qMHMM na 6M ce OBe peqM nOYKe YKopeHMJIe M

rpajao npMMMJIe y naxra HenpeCTaHMM Ha,n;aXIhMBaIDeM IhMMa. 3aTO ce nenpecraao M M3pa)l(aBaM peqMMa ,n;a 6M cnao OTOK rnesa M npecrana ynaJIa, na 6M onaj KOjM npMcTyna MOlIMTBM 6MO M31IeqeH on rnesa. XPMCTOC je OBO 3anOBe,n;MO KaKO pa,n;M aenpajarezsa, TaKO M pa,n;M Hac, KOjM MM onpalIlTaMO rpexe, jep TM caxi, qMM npecrajem na ce rnesaur aa uenpnjarezsa, nmne ,n;06MjalIl Hero lIlTO najeur, A KaKO BMme ,n;06MjaM, nrrraur! AKo TM onpocTMlIl rpexe nenpajarelbY, oana he Te6M 6MTM onpourrenn rpeCM npOTMB Iocnona. OBM cy HeM3JIeqMBM M HeonpOCTMBM, a OHM ce JIaKO nexe M onpaurrajy, Ilocrrymaj urra je L1lIMje rOBopMO CBOjMM CMHOBMMa: AKO 1JOaeK sipeiuu 1JOaeKY, uomonuhe ee 3a tecta Iocuoqy, anu aKO sipetuu Iocaoqy, KO he ee UOMOllUiUu 3a 1befa? (yn. 1 CaM 2,25). OBY paHy He lIeqM JIaKO HM MOlIMTBa; arnr, aKO ce M He lIeqM MOlIMTBOM, lIeqM ce onpanrrarsesr rpeXOBa 61IM)I(IDeM. 3aTO je XPMCTOC rpexe npexra Bory naanao necer xazsana ranaaara, a rpexe npeMa 61IM)I(IDeM CTO ,n;MHapa (MT 18,23-35). OnpOCTM CTO ,n;MHapa, na 6M Te6M 6MlIO onpourreHO necer xarsana rananara,

2. ,UoCTa CMO, naxne, pexna 0 MOlIMTBM aa aenpajarezse:

BpaTMMo ce, aKO xohere, aa peqM 0 M3,n;ajcTBY, M rrornenajsro KaKO je naur Iocrron 6MO M3,n;aH. Taga [eqan og Iieanaectuopuue, UO uMeHY Jyga ldcxapuotuctcu, ouiuqe upeoceeuuuenuu,uMa, U peue: Illiua tietae MU qaiuu U ja liy aaM fa usqaiuu? (MT 26, 14, 15). OBe pe-or cy, HaM3rJIe,n;, BeOMa jacae M He rOBOpe mnnra smne on oaora lllTO je IDMMa pexeao, aJIM aKO CBaKY pes na)l(lbMBO npoyqMMo, nahx heMo y IhMMa MHoro ressa sa pasxonuzsarse M BeJIMKY ,n;y6MHY MMClIM. Ilpe cnera spexre: HMje 6e3 pa31I0ra jeBaHljeJIMCT onpenao TO apexre M HMje je,n;HOCTaBHO peKao: oaiuqe, seh je nonao: taaqa ouiuqe.

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Caern JOBaH 3naToYCTVI

Ilpsa oecena 0 JY,lV1HOM 113,L\ajcTBy

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Taga; Ka)KM MI1 xana? J.1 pa.n;M -rera je 0.n;pe.n;110 spexre? HeMy xohe na Me HayqM? Hnje 6e3 U;Mlba pexeao TO: iuaqa, jep onaj KOjM rOBopM ,IJ;YXOM, He rOBopM 6e3 pa31I0ra M 6e3 U;Mrsa, Ill ra 3Ha'-ll1 'ra pe'-l iUaga? Henocpemro rrpe 'rora, npen caMM raj -rac, rrpMCTyrrMlIa je 61Iy.n;mtu;a ca anaeaciupoeosc UOCygOM scupuca cxyuoujenoia M M31IMlIa TO Ylbe na maBY [0- cnona (Mr 26,7). OHa je TI1Me noxasana BelIMKY YClIY)KHOCT, BelIMKY Bepy, BelIl1KO rrOClIYllIalhe M rr060)KHOCT; M3MeHMlIa je rrperxonan )KI1BOT, nocrana 60lba M uenosrynpeaaja, J.1 6allI rana, xana ce 61Iy.n;HMu;a noxajana M 3a.n;06MlIa MMlIOCT on Iocnona, yqeHMK je M3.n;ao Y'-lMTelba. 3aTO je M peseao: iUaga na TI1 He 6M orrTY)KMO Y'-lMTelba sa clIa60CT xana BI1- .n;MllI na yqeHMK nanaje Y'-lMTelba. Cnna Y'-lMTelba je 6MlIa 'raKBa na je M 61Iy.n;HMu;e npxanasnora rta My 6y.n;y nocrryume.

A KaKO, mrram TM, onaj KOjM je otipahao 61Iy.n;HMu;e HMje xrorao na rrpMByqe cetia yqeHI1Ka? Morao je Oir na rrpMBy-re ce6M ysenmca, amr nnje xreo na ra rrpMMopa na nocraHe noriap MlIM 11 rrpl1Byqe ce6M rrpoTMB iserose sozse. Taga oiuuqe. BeOMa Ba)KHa rexra aa paaanunsan,e ca.n;p)KaHa je M y TOj pe'-lM: oiUuge; HI1TI1 cy ra rr03BalIM rrpBocBellITeHMU;I1, HMTI1 cy ra rrpexa norpetia MlIM CMlIa rrpMHy.n;MlIe na TO, Ben je casr rro ce6M M y cetix CMMClI110 TaKBY nonnocr M crrponeo TaKBY HaMepy 6e3 caysecanxa y TOM 6e360)KHM'-lKOM nerry, Taga jegaH og Ileauaeauopuue oiuuqe. Ill'ra ana-nr TO: leqan og Iieanaeciuopuuet J.1 TI1M pe'-lMMa: Ieqan og JI,8aHaeciuopuue, ncxasyje ce najseha ocy.n;a rrpOTMB isera. J.1cyc je MMao M .n;pyre yqeHMKe, lhMX cenaanecer, alIM OHI1 cy 6MlIM na .n;pyroM MecTy, HMCY 6MlIM ynocrojean TOlIMKe '-laCTM HI1- TM cy MMalIM TaKBY cnotiony, HMCY y-recrsoaann y TOlIMKMM rajaasra, xao nsaaaecropnua yqeHMKa. OBM cy ce nocetino

MCTMu;alIl1 M ca-nnsaaan« cy u;apCKM catiop ClIY)KMTelba; TO je 6111I0 Y'-lI1TelbeBO Haj61IM)Ke .n;pylliTBO, 11 onasne je rrao Ivna. J.1 na 6M snao na ra anje M3.n;ao 06M'-laH Y'-leHMK, Hero jenan on M3a6paHI1X, jeBaH~elIMCT rosopa: [eqan og JI,8aHaeciuopuue. A CBeTM Mare] ce He CTI1.n;M na TO namnue. 3allITO ce He CTM.n;M? ,IJ;a 6M TI1 anao na jeBaH~elIMCTI1 YBeK M y CBeMy rOB ope MCTI1HY 11 HMllITa He cxpnaajy, xax HM OBO llITO je noaaacasajyhe, 3aTO llITO 11 TO, O'-lI1TO, nomosaaajyhe noxasyje xoaexon.yozse Iocnomse: M3.n;ajHMKa, pa360jHI1Ka, 1I0- nona OH je y.n;OCTOjI10 TaKBI1X tinara M no nocnernser xaca ra rpneo, noysaaao, M na CBaKM HaqMH noxasxeao na ce CTapa 0 lbeMy. A 360r rora llITO OH HMje clIYllIao HMje KpMB [0- cnon, TO nocaeno-ryje 61Iy.n;HMu;a: OHa je no-rena na naan na ce6e, M cnacna ceo Ilpesra TOMe, He o-rajasaj, Ka.n; Ben BM.n;MllI urra je 6111I0 ca 61Iy.n;HMU;OM; He ysnaj ce MCKlbyqMBO y ce6e, xan Ben BM.n;I111I urra je 6111I0 ca Jy.n;OM. J.1 jenno M .n;pyro je noryono, M ysnaise MCKlbyqMBO Y ce6e 11 ouajaaan.e: onora xoja CTOjl1 ysnatse MCKlbyqMBO Y ce6e rrpMMopaBa na nanHe, a OHOMe KOjM je rrao oxajan,e He nosaorsasa na ce nonnrHe. 3aTO je M I1aBlIe onosnosao: Koju MUCllU ga ciuoju, nexa uasu ga He aaqne (1 Kop 10,12). J.1Malli rrpMMepe M sa jenao M aa .n;pyro: M KaKO je rrao yqeHMK KOjl1 je cssarpao na CTOjM, 11 KaKO je YCTalIa 61Iy.n;HMu;a xoja je 6MlIa nana, Ham yM je CKlIOH nany, nama nozsa lIaKO KlIOHe; 3aTO HaM HeMa .n;pyre Hero na ce6e ca CBMX CTpaHa saurrahyjesro M orpahyjesro. Taga jeqa« og Iieanaeciuopuue. UO uMeHY Jyga MCKapuoiUCKU, oiuuqe. BI1.n;MllI lIM M3 xaxsor je 360pa OH orrrao? BM.n;1111I lIM KaKBO je yqelbe npeapeor BI1.n;MllI lIM KaKBO je 31I0 lIaKOMI1ClIeHOCT M nesrap] ITo uMeHY lyqa MCKapuoiUcKU. 3allITO nosonseur M rpa.n; M3 xojer je? Ex, xan ra He 6MX snao!

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ITo WMeHY Jyp;a J.'fcKapwOTCKW. 3allITO nOMWlDelll W rpan W3 xojer je? 3aTO lllTO je 6wo jour jenan yqeHwK Iyna, 3BaHW 3wnOT (penmrrers). ~a He 6w 360r WCTOBeTHOCTW WMeHa 6wna yqwlDeHa aexa rpenrxa, jeaaahemrcr je WCTaKao pa3nWKY W3- Mel)y jenner W p;pyror; jenaor je nasnao no lDeroBoj noopoj OC06WHW: Jyga Sunotu, a p;pyror Hwje naasao no iseroaoj 3n06w, Hwje pexao: Jyga usqajuux. J.1aKo je, xan je seh jennor naasao no notipoj OC06WHW, caxro no ceria cnennno na W oaor p;pyror Ha30Be no snoj OC06WHW, W xaxce: Jyga usqajHUK, OH, na 6w re nay-nro na CBOj jeanx P;P)l{Wlll qWCTWM on cyhersa, nourrehyje W casror w3p;ajHwKa. Omuge, rOBOpw, jegaH og Iieanaeciuopuue, uo UMeHY Jyga ldcxapuoiactcu, upeoceeuuuenuuusca, U peue: Illiua tiesae MU qaiuu U ja hy 8aM ia usqaiuui 0, na, necpehnnx nw pexa! KaKO My ce W3 YCTa oreure, KaKO ce jesrrx noxpeny? KaKO ce ueno reno He CKaMeHW? KaKO ce yM He rroxrpa-m?

3. Illiua heme MU qaiuu U ja tty 8aM ia usqaiuu? 3ap re je XPWCTOC TOMe nay-nrc, xaxor MW? Haje nw HacynpoT TOMe ronopno: He HOCUme snaiua HU cpe6pa, HU tiaxpa y uojaCUMa C80jUM (MT 10,9), na 6w TWMe yHanpep; ooysnao TBOjy CKnOHOCT xa cpetipozsytirsy? 3ap Hwje aenpecrano y OBO YBepaBao W yjenao rosopao: AKO me KO ygapu co gecHoM otipasy m80M, OKpeHU My U gpyiu (MT 5,39)? llltua heme MU gamu U ja tiy 8aM ia usqaiuu? 0, 6e3YMlbe! Sanrro] xazor MW. KaKBY TO Many wnw BenWKY lDerOBY KpWBW~y nahe, re nsnajeur YqWTelba? 3ap 3aTO lllTO TW je nao BnaCT Hap; nesroHWMa? 3ap 3aTO lllTO TW je nao sroh na ncuezsyjeur tionecra W o-nuuhyjeur rytiase? 3ap 3aTO lllTO TW je nao cwny na aacKpcaBalll MpTBe, lllTO re je nOCTaBWO sa rocrronapa Hap; CWnOM CMpTW? J.1 sa TaKBa noopa nena, TW My TaKO ysapahaur?

llliua tietae MU gamu U ja hy 8aM ia usqaiuu? 0, 6e3YMlbe, wnw, 60lbe, cperiporsytirse! OHO je nopomoro CBe TO sno, lbeMY cas npenar, OH je W3p;ao YqWTelba. TaKaB je raj 3nw xopen: OH rope on nesrona P;OBOP;W y MaXHWTOCT p;Yllle xoje 06Y3WMa, naaomr WX p;a satiopaae CBe - J1 ce6e, W 6nw)I{lbe, W 3aKOHe npwpop;e, nrrrnana nx castor pa3YMa W qJ1HW 6e3- YMHWM. Ilornenaj KonWKO je crnapn W3 JYP;WHe p;Yllle yHWurrno: paarosope (ca J.1CyCOM XpWCTOM), npnjaren.crao, onurrerse sa 3ajep;HWqKOM Tpne30M, qyP;OTBOPCTBO, yxerse, caseroaarse, noyxaaarse, CBe je TO cperiporsytizse rana 6a~wno y 3a60paB. 3aTo je Ilasne C npaaoxr rosopxo na je KOpU[en C8Ujy 3alla cpe6polby6lbe (1 TJ.:IM 6, 10). llliua heme MU qaiuu U ja hy 8aM ia u3gamu? BenWKO je 6e3YMlbe y OBWM peqwMa. 3ap MO)l{elll, Ka)l{W MW, na nsnatu Onora xoja CBe P;P)l{W, WMa BnaCT Hap; p;eMOHWMa, sanoaena MOPY, W xoja je Iocnon sacuene npnponei J.1 na 6w YKPOTWO TO 6e3YMlbe W yjep;Ho W noxaaao na He 6w 6wo W3p;aH na OH caM Hwje npWCTao na TO, nornenaj urra (Iocnon) qWHW. Y cavo npexe nsnajcrsa, xazta cy noumn no Ibera ca 6YKmWbaMa U c8jemUlbKaMa U opYJICjeM, OH WM roaopn: Koia mpaJICume? (JH 18,3,4) OHW HWcy noaaanamr Onora xora cy naxrcpaaamr na YXBaTe. Jyp;a je 6wo TonWKO nanexo on npamnce na ra W3,n;a na qaK aaje BWneo na je Ty npncyran Onaj xora je HaMepaBao na W3p;a HW rana xan cy 6wne ynarsene 6YKTWlbe W tiauane TonWKY CBeTnOCT. Ha TO je YKa3ao W jeaanhenncr xan je peKao: "J.1Manw cy 6YKTWIDe W CBeTWlbKe, na otter ra HJ1CY Bwp;enw:'

Iocnon je csaxor nana p;enWMa W peqJ1Ma onoscnsao IyP;y TWMe lllTO je ynasao y rserony P;yllly pexa p;a ce oaaj KOjw he ra W3p;aTW nehe Mohw CKPWTW (on Ibera), ana Hwje ra YKopaBao janao W npep; p;pyrwMa na ra He 6w nocrnneo,

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M HMje TO HM npehyrao na onaj, MMClIehM ,n:a ce MO)Ke CKPMTM, He 6M rrpMcTyrrMo M3,n:ajCTBY 6e3 CTpaxa, Hero je xeCTO rOBopMO: [eqan og 8ac usqahe Me (JH 13,21), a otter HMje MMeHOBao M3,n:ajHMKa. OH je MHoro rOBopMO M 0 rraKlIY onseaosr, M 0 Ilapcray He6eCKOM, M y je,n:HOM M y p;pyroM noxasnaao CBOjy CMlIy, M Y Ka)KlbaBalhY rpeummca M y narpahnaarsy npaaenamca, Ho Jy,n:a je CBe TO 0,n:6aQMO, a Bor ra mrje ByKao na CMlIy. I10IllTO Hac je Bor casnao xao rocnonape KOjM clI060,n:HO 6Mpajy M3Me~y P;06pMX M 31IMX nena, M nonrro )KelIM ,n:a 6y,n:eMo P;06pM rro CBOjOj BOlbM, OH Hac, aKO MM TO He )KelIMMO, He rrpMMopaBa M He npucnrsasa, jep 6MTM rro rrpMHy,n:M notiap He 3HaqM 6MTM notiap, I10- IllTO je (Iyna) 6110 rocrro,n:ap CBOjMX rrOMMClIM 11 nourro je y rseroaoj BlIaCTM 6MlIO na MM ce He noannyje M He Te)KM xa cpetipozsytirsy, OH je, OqMTO, caM OClIerrMO CBOj yM M onYCTao on concrsenor cnacersa qMM je pexao: llliua tieme MU gamu U ja hy 8aM fa usqaiuu? JeBaH~elIMcT M3061IMqaBa cnernmo Jyp;MHor YMa M iseroao 6e3YMlbe TaKO IllTO rOBOpa na je, xan cy CTMrJIM, [yna crajao 61IM3Y lhMX, M pexao:

Illiua heiue MU gamu u ja hy 8aM fa usqaiuu? VI HMje OBa OKOlIHOCT jemrno M3 xera ce MO)Ke BM,n:eTM Xpacrona CMrra: OHa ce BMP;M M M3 rora IllTO cy OHM, xan MM je XPMCTOC pexao: fa cast, oncrynronr nasan M nonanazm na 3eMlbY (JH 18,6). Ho nourro OHM M nocne osora HMCY o,n:YCTalIM on csor 6e306pa3Hor nena, OH ce, nanoxon, rrpep;ao, M xao na je OBaKO rOBopMO: "CBe IllTO ce MeHe TMQalIO, ja caxr yqMHMO; OTKPMO cax CBOjy CMlIy, noxaaao caxr BaM na npenysroaare nexroryhe neno: xreo caxr na 06y3,n:aM BaIllY 31I06y, amr xan BM TO HMCTe XTelIM, Hero CTe OCTalIM rrpM CBOM 6e3YMlbY, eBO ja BaM ce npenajea,"

A ja caM CBe OBO pexao na He 6M KO ocybnaao XpMCTa peqMMa: ,,3aIllTO OH HMje nanao [yny? 3aIllTO mrje yqMHMO na nocraae npasenan M nooapr" A KaKO je rpetiano na ra yqMHM p;06pMM? I1PMHy,n:OM, MlIM rro clI060,n:HOj BOlbM? AKO je rpetiano rrpMMeHMTM rrpMHy,n:y, OH lhy mrje rrpMMeHMo 3aTO IllTO ra na raj HaqMH HMje Morao yqMHMTM 60lbMM, jep HMKO He MO)Ke 6MTM nofiap rro rrpMHy,n:M: aKO je rro BOlbM M clI060,n:HOj O,n:lIYQM, oana je OH (XpMCTOC) rrpe,n:y3eo CBe srepe xoje cy MOrJIe na McrrpaBe BOlbY M HaMepy. 3a TO IllTO HeKO nehe na Y3MMa nex mrje KpMB nexap, Hero onaj KOjM 0,n:6Mja nexerse. A nornenaj urra je Iocnon yqMHMO na 6M ra rrpM,n:06MO M crracao: yqMO ra je csaxoj )KelbM aa My,n:pOIllhy, M ,n:elIMMa M peqMMa, rrOCTaBMO ra aan ,n:eMOHMMa, yqMHMO crrocofiaasr na qMHM MHora qy,n:a, M3a3MBao y lheMY CTpaxosaisa on orraCHOCTM naxna orrseaor, ypa3YMlbMBao ra otiehalheM IJ;apCTBa nefiecxor, nenpecrano M3061IMqaBaO iserose rajne aasiepe a na ra HMje MMeHOBao, orrpao My je rrore xao M OCTalIMMa, yqMHMO ra yqecHMKoM Csoje aesepe M rpneae, M nn]e rrporrYCTMO HMIllTa, HM MallO HM BelIMKO; alIM OH je ,n:06POBOlbHO OCTao nenorrpaszsira. A na 6M ce ysepno na OH HMje xreo na ce rrpoMeHM MaKO je aa TO MMao rrpMlIMKy, M zta je CBe rrpOM3aIlllIO M3 lherOBe lIaKOMMClIeHOCTM, rroclIyuraj ... qMM je rrpe,n:ao XpMCTa, Jyp;a je 6aQI10 rpnnecer cpe- 6pHMKa M pexao: Caipujetuux uuuo u3gagox Kp8 1-le8U1-lY (MT 27,4). IIlTa je TO? Kan CM ra rnenao KaKO qMHM -ryna, HMCM roBOPMO: Caipujetuux uuuo u3gagox Kp8 1-le8U1-lY, Hero: uua« netae MU gamu u ja tiy 8aM fa u3gamU? A xan je 31I0 y3Hanpenoaarro, M xan je nsnajcrso yqMlheHo, M rpex yqMlheH, razta CM nosnao raj rpex? Illra M3 osora MO)KeMO na HayqMMO? To, na HaM casern He nonoce HMKaKBe KOPMCTM xan

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ce rrperrycn1Mo JIaKOMJ1CJIeHOCTJ1; a xan CMO na orrpe3y, OHna J1 CaMJ1 MO)l(eMO YCTaTJ1. Taxo J1 onaj: P;OK ra je YqJ1TeJb yqJ10, HJ1je cnyurao, a xan ra HJ1KO HJ1je yqJ10, casta ce rserosa canecr rrp06YP;J1JIa, re ce J1 6e3 njernror yqJ1TeJba nposreHJ10, oCyP;J10 TO na nrra ce P;P3HYO, J1 6a~J10 OHJ1X TpJ1p;eCeT Cpe6pHJ1Ka. uuu« tieaie MU qatuu U ja hy 6aM fa u3ga1Itu? A OHU MY, rOBOpJ1 jeBaH1)eJIJ1CT, i101WJfCUUle 1Itpugece1It cpetipnuxa (MT 26,15); rrOHyp;J1llle uerry sa KpB riecneny. A sanrro Y3J1- Malll, 0 Iyno, TpJ1p;eCeT Cpe6pHJ1Ka? ITa XPJ1CTOC je nomao na Ty cBeTY KpB nponnje sa BaC~eJIJ1 CBeT, nnurra He rpazceha 3aY3BpaT, a TJ1 ce 0 n.oj 6ecpaMHO norahaur J1 yrosapaur. ITOCTOjJ1 JIJ1, p;OJ1CTa, urra CpaMHJ1je on TaKBe noronoe!

4. Tana upuctuyuuuie yuenuuu (MT26, 17). Tana. Kana! Kana ce OBO 36J1JIO, xana je asnajcrao yqJ1fueHO, xana je Jyp;a caxrora ce6e rrorytiao, rana i1PUC1Ityi1uUle yuenuuu Mcycy ioeopehu My: rgje xoheiu ga aiu yf01It06uMO ga jeqeiu llacxy? BJ1P;J1lll JIJ1 yxeuaxa? BJ1P;J1lll JIJ1 OCTaJIe yqeHJ1Ke? Onaj J13p;aje Iocnona, a OBJ1 ce 6pJ1Hy 0 ITacxJ1; oaaj cxnana yronope, a OBJ1 ce cnpenajy na ra YCJIY)l(e. A rrpJ1MaJIJ1 cy jenaa re J1CTa qyP;OTBopcTBa, jenny re J1CTY HayKy, jenny 're J1CTY BJIaCT. ITa urra je onna Y3POK TaKBe nposrexe [Jyp;J1He JIJ1qHOCTJ1]? BOJba; OHa je YBeK Y3POK CBJ1X notiapa J1 CBJ1X 3aJIa. Tq]« xohetu ga iuu yf01It06uMO ga jeqeui Ilacxyi OBO ce noronnno aa naaannsn nan, ysexe: Iocnon HJ1je J1MaO CBOjy xyhy J1 3aTO My OHJ1 rOBope: Tq]« xohetu ga tau yf01It06UMO ga jeqeu: Ilacxyi MJ1 HeMaMO onpeheno YTOqJ1lllTe, HeMaMO HJ1 lllaTOp, HJ1 xyhy, Hexa OBO -ryjy OHJ1 KOjJ1 )l(J1Be y BeJIeJIerrHJ1M P;OMOBJ1Ma, rrpOCTpaHJ1M TpeMOBJ1Ma J1 umpoKO pacrrpOCTpTJ1M orpanasra, na XPJ1CTOC HJ1je J1MaO rne na CKJIOHJ1 maBy. Saro (yqeHJ1~J1) J1 mrrajy: rgje xoheiu ga 1Itu

yf01It06UMO ga jeqeiu Ilacxyi KaKBY ITacxy? He OBy, nanry, Hero sacana jynejcxy: OHY cy rrpJ1rrpeMJ1JIJ1 yqeHJ1~J1, P;OK je OBY HalllY YCTaHOBJ10 OH cast, J1 He casro na jy je caM YCTaHOBJ10 Hero je J1 caM OH nocrao ITacxa. rgje xoheui ga 1Itu yfo1It06UMO ga jeqetu Ilacxyi To je 6J1JIa jynejcxa ITacxa, KOja je YCTaHOBJbeHa y ErJ1rrTY. ITa saurro je fuy XPJ1CTOC jeo? Ila 6J1 ce J1CrrYHJ1JIO CBe lllTO je Tpa)l(J10 3aKOH. Kana ce J1 KpCTJ10, OH je rOBOpJ10: lep iUaKO HaM tupeoa ucayniuuu c6aKY apaeqy (MT 3, 15); "ja cax nourao na J1CKyrrJ1M xosexa on rrpOKJIeTCTBa 3aKOHa; jep uocna Boi CUHa ceojeta, KOjU ce pogu og scene, KOjU 6u i10g 3aKOHOM, ga UCKyi1u OHe KOjU cy i10g 3aKOHOM, J1 na rrpeCTaHe casr 3aKOH" (yn. fall 4,4,5). A na HeKO He 6J1 peKao na je OH yKJ1HyO 3aKOH 3aTO lllTO HJ1je MOrao na ra J1CrrYHJ1, jep je rescax, MYKOTprraH J1 nesronaa aa J1CrrYlbaBafue, OH ra je najnpe rrOTrrYHO J1CrryHJ10, a 3aTJ1M yKJ1HyO. 3aTO je J1 rracxy jeo, jep je J1 OHa 6J1JIa 3aKOHOM nponacaaa. A saurro je 3aKOH rrpOrrJ1CJ1BaO na ce rracxa jep;e? Iynejn» cy 6J1JIJ1 nerinaronapax CBOMe ,U06pOqJ1HJ1TeJbY J1 3a60paBJbaJIJ1 cy aa EO)l(J1jy 3arrOBeCT op;Max HaKOH yqJ1fuenor p;06pa. Taxo cy rro J13JIacKY J13 Ernrrra, xax J1 xan cy BJ1- p;eJIJ1 na ce Mope pa3p;eJIJ1JIO J1 rrOHOBO CaCTaBJ1JIO, J1 HaKOH p;pyrJ1x He6pojeHJ1X qyp;a, rOBOpJ1JIJ1: HatfUHU HaM 60 f06 e, KOjU lie uhu i1peg naua (Jt131I32, 1). IIlTa TJ1 roaopmu! qyp;eca cy jour rrpep; T060M, a Ben CJ1 3a60paBJ10 aa 'u06pOqJ1HJ1TeJba? ITOlllTO cy 6J1JIJ1 TOJIJ1KO 6e30cenajHJ1 J1 neonaronapaa, Bor J1X je YCTaHOBJbelbeM rrpa3HJ1Ka ooaaesao na ce rrpJ1cehajy lherOBJ1X napoaa: 3aTO je OH 3arrOBep;J10 na ce yqBpCTJ1 J1 ITacxa na 6J1 TJ1, xana Te TBOj CJ1H, rOBOpJ1 OH, yrrJ1Ta nrra je TO ITacxa, 0p;rOBOpJ10 na cy nama rrpe~J1 y Enrrrry rrOMa3J1BaJIJ1 aexana BpaTa KPBJby osana na ce HaCJ1JIHJ1K,

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xana nohe J1 TO BJ1AJ1, He 6J1 YCYAJ10 na yhe J1 sana YAapaQ (v13/1 12,27,28). Taxo je raj rrpa3HJ1K KaCHJ1je nocrao CTanHO nonceharse na J136aBlbeIDe. OHJ1 cy na raj HaqJ1H, rropeA KOPJ1CTJ1 OA rora UITO J1X je OH noncehao na ra ApeBHa A06poqJ1HCTBa, J1Manl1 J1 APyry, nehy KOPJ1CT OA rora llITO je OH TJ1Me nao npaoripas onora IlITO AOna3J1. To jarrse je 6J1no npacmrxa npyror, AyxoBHor [artsera, OBQa - OBQe; OHO je 6J1na cena, a OBO je 11CTJ1Ha. Kana ce nojasnno CyHQe J1CTJ1- He, rana je cena HarrOKOH J1IlIQe3na, jep KaA CYHQe J13na3J1, cena ce CKpJ1Ba. 3aTO ce na J1CTOj TOj rpnesa J13BpIlIaBajy J1 jenna J1 Apyra IIacxa, J1 OHa y npacmnm J1 OBa y J1CTJ1HJ1. 11 xao IlITO )I(J1BOrrJ1CQJ1 na jennoj J1CTOj AaCQJ1 rrosnase nJ1- HJ1je J1 uprajy CKJ1QY, a OHAa aa AaCKY nanoce rrpaBe 60je, TaKO je nocrynao J1 XPJ1CTOC: na jenao] J1CTOj Tprre3J1 OH je J1 npenaaczorxao IIacxy y rrpacnJ1QJ1 J1 IDOj rrpJ1CajeAJ1HJ10 J1CTJ1HCKY. Tgje xohetu ga iuu ytoiuoeuuo ga [eqetu IIacxy? Tana je 6J1na jynejcxa IIacxa, anJ1 xana je J13aIlInO CYHQe, aexa ce CBeTJ1lbKa BJ1IlIe He nojaszsyje, xana je aacryrmna J1CTJ1Ha, nexa cenxa Ben HeCTaHe.

5. fOBOPJ1M OBO JYAejQJ1Ma 3aTO IlITO OHJ1 jour csrarpajy na npasayjy llacxy, J1, neoopesanor cpua, C 6eCTJ1AHJ1M naMepaMa nocraszsajy 6ecKBacHe xneriose. Kaxo TJ1, JYAej, BPIlIJ1IlI Ty IIacxy? Tsoj xpaM je cpYIlIeH, )I(pTBeHJ1K pasopea, CBeTJ1lba HaA CBeTJ1IDaMa norascena J1 CBJ1 HaQJ1HJ1 )I(pTBOBaIDa yKJ1HYTJ1; rra KaKO csreur na J1 nazse QJ1HJ1IlI TaKBa 6e3aKoHJ1Ta nena? TJ1 CJ1 OTJ1IlIaO nexana y BaBJ1nOH, J1 TaMO cy TJ1 OHJ1 IlITO cy re rrop06J1nJ1 rOBOpJ1nJ1: Ileeajiue HaM og uecaMa CUOHCKUX (ITc 136,3), amr TJ1 HJ1CJ1 aa TO rrpJ1CTao. To je J1Cxaaao ,lJ;aBJ1A, KaA je peKao: Ha pexaua Baeunoncxuu, iUaMO cehaoso U UllaKaCMO... na eptiasca aocpeq ieeta 06eCUCMO

xapcfie naiue (CT. 1,2), rj. rrcanTJ1p, QJ1TPY, nJ1py J1 ocrano, jep cy J1X CTapJ1 ynorperirsasann J1 y3 IDJ1X neaamr ncamre. qaK J1 OHAa xana cy 6J1nJ1 OABeAeHJ1 y porrCTBO, OHJ1 cy J1X nonenJ1 ca C060M na 6J1 J1X noncehann na )I(J1BOT y AOMOBJ1HJ1, a He Aa 6J1 J1X KOpJ1CTJ1nJ1. TaMo Hac, rOBOpJ1, sauuiaaiue OHU KOjU Hac sapotiuiue 3a penu ueeaiea, a MJ1 peKocMo: Kaxo hesco aeeeu:« ueCMY TOCUOg1Vy na seweu iUyl)oj (ITc 136,3-4)? Illra rOBOpJ1IlI? Ha Tyl)Oj 3eMlbJ1 HJ1CJ1 nesao rrecMY IocnonlbY, a aa ryhoj 3eMlbJ1 BPIlIJ1IlI IIacxy Iocnomsy? BJ1AJ1IlI nJ1 KaKBa je TO He6narOAapHOCT? BJ1AJ1IlI nJ1 KaKBO je TO oeaaKOlbe? Kana cy J1X nenpnjarezsn npacnzsaaarra, OHJ1 HJ1CY CMenJ1 QaK HJ1 ncanasr na sarreaajy na Tyl)Oj 3eMlbJ1, a cana CaMJ1, 6e3 rrpncane J1 6e3 aarosopa, rrOAJ1)I(Y par rrpOTJ1B Dora. BJ1AJ1IlI nJ1 KaKO cy HeQJ1CTJ1 6eCKBaCHJ1 xnetioan, xaKO je 6e3aKOHJ1T IDJ1XOB rrpa3HJ1K, KaKO BJ1IlIe He nocroja jyAejcKa IIacxa? Ilocrojana je aexana jynejcxa llacxa, HO cana je OHa YKJ1HYTa, J1 HacTyrrJ1na je AyxOBHa IIacxa xojy je rana rrpeAao XPJ1CTOC. Kana cy OHJ1 (yqeHJ1Ql1) jena J1 rrJ1nJ1, rOBOpJ1 (Ienaahen.e), Y3e Mcyc xlbe6 ... upenoscu ia U peue: oso je iuujeno Moje xoje ce pagu eac 1l0MU 3a ouuiyuauen« ipujexoea (yn: MT 26,26-28). OHJ1 KOjJ1 cy rrOCBeneHJ1 y rajne, pasyaejy OBO IlITO je peQeHO. 11 KaA Y3e QaIlIY, peQe: Oso je «pe Moja Hoeoia saejeiua xoja ce uponujeea 3a scnoie pagu oiUuyutiUe1Va ipujexoea (CT. 28). 11 JYAa je 6J10 Ty rrpJ1CYTaH xana je XPJ1CTOC OBO rOBOpJ10. Oeo je iuujeno sco]«, xoje CJ1 TJ1, JYAO, nponao aa TpJ1AeCeT Cpe6pHJ1Ka; Oeo je xpe Moja, o KOjOj CJ1 HeAaBHo CKnOrrJ10 6eCTJ1AHJ1 yronop C netinaroAapHJ1M cpapJ1CejJ1Ma. 0, QOBeKolby6lba XPJ1CTOBor! 0, 6e3- YMHOCTJ1, 0, MaXHJ1TOCTJ1 JYAJ1He! Osaj ra je rrpoAao aa TPJ1- necer Cpe6pHJ1Ka, a XPJ1CTOC HJ1 nocne rora He 6J1 oA6J10 na

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CBOjy npop;aTy KpB na OHOMe KOjJ1 ra je nponao pagu oiuuyUliUe1Va tpujexoea, casro na je Jyp;a TO sazceneo. Iep J1 Iyna je npJ1CYCTBOBao J1 ~eCTBOBao y cseroj Tpne3J1. Kao IllTO My je, xao J1 OCTaJIJ1M ~eHJ1~J1Ma, onpao aore, TaKO ra je ~J1- HJ10 J1 ~eCHJ1KOM CBeTe Tpne3e na He 6J1 J1MaO HJ1KaKaB J13- rOBOp KOjJ1M 6J1 ce npaBp;ao, aKO J1 nazse OCTaHe y CBOMe 6e- 3aKOlbY. XPJ1CTOC je ~J1HJ10 CBe IllTO je 6J1JIO no Ibera, anJ1 Iyna je ynopHo OCTao npJ1 CBOjOj aexacnoj HaMepJ1.

6. Ben je, J1naK, BpeMe na npJ1CTynJ1MO OBOj crpanmoj Tpne3J1. ITpJ1CTynJ1MO, naxne, CBJ1 ca aeonxonnosr CMepHOurhy, J1 na3J1MO; J1 HJ1KO Mel)y BaMa na He 6yp;e [yna, HJ1KO Hel.J:aCTJ1B, HJ1KO OTPOB Y ce6J1 na He CKpJ1Ba, aoceha y CBOjJ1M YCTJ1Ma jenuo, a y yMy p;pyro. XPJ1CTOC J1 cana CTOjJ1 rrpen nasra; KOjJ1 je onna ypep;J10 OHY Tpne3Y, 'raj nanac ypeI)yje J1 OBY. He npeTBapa l.J:OBeK npennoaceae p;apoBe y reno J1 KpB XPJ1CTOBY, HO caM aa Hac pacnern XPJ1CTOC. CseurreHJ1K, KOjJ1 rrpencraarsa Iberos nJ1K, CTOjJ1 J1 J13rOBapa OHe pel.J:J1, a nejcrsyje CJ1na J1 6narop;aT DO)KJ1ja. 060 je iuujeno woje, peKao je OH. OBe pel.J:J1 npersapajy rrpennozceae p;apoBe, J1 xao IllTO ce 3anOBeCT: Pahajiue ce u MHOJICuiUe ce, u HaUYHuiUe 3eMlbY, (ITocT 1,28), J1aKO napeueua casro jep;HoM, J1CnYlbaBa 6e3 npeCTaHKa y CBJ1M BpeMeHJ1Ma J1 na neny, J1 naje nanroj npJ1pop;J1 CJ1ny sa paharse HOBe neue, TaKO J1 OBa pel.J:, jep;HoM pexeaa, CBe on Tor spesreaa na P;O nanaunsax nana J1 no P;PYTor XPJ1CTOBOr nonacxa, l.J:J1HJ1 )KpTBY caBpIlleHOM na csaxoj Tpne3J1 y ~pKBaMa. HJ1KO, rOBOpJ1M, na He npJ1CTyna C nYKaBCTBOM, HJ1KO KO je J1CnYlbeH 3n060M, HJ1KO KO OTPOB HOCJ1 Y CBOjJ1M MJ1CnJ1Ma, p;a My npaxeurhe He 6yp;e 3a cyg u ocygy. A rana, xan je yseo p;apoBe rrpenno)Kelba, y Iyny je Yillao l)aBo, ana He 3aTQ IllTO je npespeo

reno Iocnomse, Hero 3aTO IllTO je npcspeo JyP;y 360r lberoBe 6eCTJ1p;HOCTJ1, na 6J1 J1 TJ1 anao na OHe KOjJ1 aenocrojao nprrxtajy 60)KaHCTBeHe rajae haso nocetiao nanana J1 HenpeCTaHO yna3J1 y lbJ1X, xao J1 rana y Iyny, Taxo p;apOBJ1 P;Onoce KOPJ1CT casro P;OCTojHJ1Ma, a OHe KOjJ1 J1X nenocrojao KOpJ1CTe nonaprasajy senaxoj Ka3HJ1. He rOBOpJ1M ja OBO na sac 3aCTpaIllJ1M, HO na nac orrcsreaeta. HJ1KO, naxne, na He 6yp;e Iyna, HJ1KO, P;OK npacryna npasemhy, nexa nessa y ce6J1 OTPOB 3n06e. OBa je )KpTBa p;YXOBHa xpaHa. J1 xao IllTO renecaa xpaHa, YHeTa y )Kenyp;a~, l.J:J1jJ1 cy COKOBJ1 noIllJ1, jour BJ1Ille nosehaaa 60neCT, He 360r csoje npJ1pop;e, HO 360r 60neCTJ1 »cenyua, TaKO 06J1l.J:HO 6J1Ba J1 ca p;YXOBHJ1M rajaaaa. J1 OHe, xan ce yHecy y P;yIlly J1CnYlbeHY 3n060M, BJ1Ille joj uncone J1 nanoce norntiajy, oner, He 360r csojcrsa TajHJ1, HO 360r 60neCTJ1 p;YIlle xoja J1X npJ1Ma. HJ1KO, naxne, nexa HeMa y ce6J1 3nJ1X nOMJ1CnJ1, HO aexa Ol.J:J1CTJ1 CBOj yM; npacrynajsro l.J:J1CTOj )KPTBJ1, ~J1HJ1MO P;yIlly CBeTOM, a TO ce MO)Ke nOCTJ1nJ1 J1 aa jenaa naa, Ha KOjJ1 Hal.J:J1H? AKO J1Maill neurro npOTJ1B aerrpnjarezsa, OCTaBJ1 raes, J13nel.J:J1 paHY, npeKJ1HJ1 aerrpnjarezscrso na 6J1 J1MaO KOPJ1CT on OBe Tpne3e jep npacrynam crpaunroj J1 cneroj )KPTBJ1. ITOCTJ1- P;J1 ce onora IllTO cnY)KJ1 xao OCHOBa casror Tor npnaomelba. ITpep;nO)KeHJ1 p;apOBJ1 cy 3aKnaHJ1 XPJ1CTOC. A 3aIllTO je OH aaxnaui Pap;J1 xera! ~a nOMJ1pJ1 netiecxo J1 3eMalbCKO, p;a refie ~J1HJ1 npajarezsesr aahena, p;a Te6e nOMJ1pJ1 c .60- rOM CBJ1X, na re on aenpnjarersa J1 npOTJ1BHJ1Ka HanpaBJ1 npajarersea. OH je nao CBOjy P;yIlly aa OHe KOjJ1 ra Mp3e, a TJ1 J1 nazse rajaur aenpajarerscrso npeMa cnyrJ1, Te6J1 seoMa CnJ1l.J:HOM. ITa KaKO oana MO)Keill na npJ1CTynaill OBOj TPne3J1 MJ1pa? OH HJ1je 0p;6J10 na sax yMpe pap;J1 rerie, a TJ1

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nesraur cnare na pap;J1 ce6e caxrora 3aYCTaBJ1W J13JIJ1Be raesa na Te6J1 BeOMa CJIJ1l-IHor CJIyry. KojJ1 je raj xora TO MO)Ke yP;OCTOjJ1TJ1 onpourraja? Haneo MJ1 je HerrpaBp;y, pehn hew, J1 MHoro rora npeoreo on sreae. ITa WTa? Illrera je jep;J1HO y HOBU;Y: oner 're HJ1je TOJIJ1KO paHJ10 KOJIJ1KO je Iyna XPJ1- CTa, rra orrer je XPJ1CTOC caMY CBOjy KpB, xoja je rrpOJIJ1Bena, nao na cnacerse OHJ1Ma KOjJ1 cy je rrpoJIJ1JIJ1. A WTa TJ1 J1MaW na J13HeCeW WTO 6J1 6J1JIO jennaxo onosre? AKO HJ1CJ1 OrrpOCTJ10 nerrpajarezsy; rana HJ1CJ1 IbeMY Hayp;J10, HO casroMe ce6J1. Ibexry CJ1 y canauneesr )KJ1BOTY qeCTO Hayp;J10, a ce- 6e castor yqJ1HJ10 nenocrojaasi onpourraja J1 6e3 op;roBopa na 6yp;yheM CyP;Y. HJ1Kora TOJIJ1KO Bor He onspaha KOJIJ1KO xosexa KOjJ1 je 3JIOrraMTJ1JIO, KOjJ1 J1Ma Hap;MeHo cpu;e J1 pa3- p;pa)KlbJ1BY P;ywy. A nocnyuraj J1 WTa rOBOpJ1: AKo, qaxne. upunecetu gap C60j JlCpUWeHuKY, U oHge ce cetuuuc ga 6paiU iU80j UMa neuuuo UpOiUU8 taese, oauaeu oHge gap C80j upeg JlCpiU8eHUKoM, U ugu iUe ce najupe UOMUpU ca tipatuo« C8ojUM, aa oHga go~u U upunecu gap C80j (MT 5,23-24). Illra pexe: na OCTaBJ1M (nap)? ,1J;a, pap;J1 MJ1pa ca TBOjJ1M 6paTOM, rOBOpJ1, J1 npanera je OBa )KpTBa. AKO je OBa )KpTBa rrpJ1He'ra pap;J1 MJ1pa ca 6paTOM, a TJ1 He CKJIarraW MJ1p, onna ysaJIyP; ysecrnyjeur y OBOj )KPTBJ1; 6eCKOpJ1CHO aa retie nocraje OBO 6JIaro. McrrYHJ1, naxne, najnpe OHO pamr xera je OBa )KpTBa rrprraera, J1 rana hew je na KOPJ1CT rrpJ1MJ1TJ1. CJ1H EO)KJ1jJ1 je cmuao p;a 6J1 Hawy rrpJ1pop;y rrOMJ1pJ10 ca Ouest:

J1 HJ1je OH caM jep;J1HO pap;J1 rora nourao, HO (jOW 3a6pJ1HYT Hap; TJ1M) p;a J1 Hac, KOjJ1 TO qJ1HJ1MO, yqJ1HJ1 3ajep;HJ1qapJ1Ma csora MMeHa. EllaJICeHU, rOBOpJ1 OH, MUPOiU80PU,U, jep he ce CUH08U EOJICuju naseaiuu (MT 5,9). A OHO WTO je yqJ1HJ10 jeP;J1HOPOP;HJ1 CJ1H EO)KJ1jJ1, yqJ1HJ1 J1 TJ1, rro MohJ1 lbYP;CKOj,

J1 rrOCTaHJ1 Y3POQHJ1K MJ1pa J1 pap;J1 casror ce6e J1 pap;J1 P;pyrnx. Ynpaso 3aTO retie, MJ1pOTBOpu;a, OH Ha3J1Ba CJ1HOM Eo)KJ1jJ1M, 3aTO ce J1 y apene npxaouren,a )KpTBe He rOBOpJ1 HJ1 0 KOjOj npyroj 3arrOBeCTJ1 ceM 0 rrOMJ1pelbY ca 6paTOM, J1 TJ1Me ce J1CKa3yje na je TO Ba)KHJ1je on csera. )KeJIeo caM na OBY CBOjy 6ecep;y yqJ1HJ1M jour p;Y)KOM, allJ1 J1 OBO WTO je P;O cana peqeHO P;OBOlbHO je sa OHe KOjJ1 naacsnso cnymajy, casro aKO TO J1 sanasrre. OrrOMJ1lbJ1MO ce nenpecrano, lbY- 6lbeHJ1 MOjJ1, OBJ1X peQJ1, J1 CBeTJ1X yaajauaax nenanarsa, J1 CTpaWHJ1X Me1)yc06HJ1X rr03p;paBlbalha. To cjenmsyje name p;ywe J1 QJ1HI1 na J1 MJ1 nocrajesro jenao reno, aKO HJ1 360r xera p;pyror, a OHO 360r rora WTO ce CBJ1 npnsemhyjeao jep;HJ1M TeJIOM. ITa cjep;J1HJ1MO ce y jenno TeJIO, aJIJ1 He crrajalbeM TeJIa jep;HJ1X ca p;pyfl1Ma, Hero Me1)yc06HI1M rrOBe3J1- BalheM nyura caBe30M lby6aBI1; TaKO hexro I1 MI1 CJI060P;HO Y3J1MaTJ1 on npennozcene Tprre3e. M MaKap nama notipa neJIa 6J1lla HeJ136pojI1Ba, a 3JIOrraMTJ1MO, CBe he HaM 6J1TI1 HJ1- WTaBHO J1 Y3aJIyp;HO, I1 on lhJ1X nehesro MohJ1 P;06J1TJ1 nnon aa cnaceise. 3aTO, xan TO 3HaMO, rrpeKJ1HI1MO CBaKJ1 men J1 OQJ1CTJ1MO CBOjy casecr, ca CBJ1M CMl1pelbeM J1 xporourhy rrpJ1CTyrrJ1MO rpnesa XPI1CTOBOj, KOMe nexa je sajenao ca Ouesr J1 CBeTJ1M ,1J;yXOM CBaKa CJIaBa, QaCT J1 CJ1JIa cana J1 YBeK (J1 y CBe BeKOBe BeKOBa). AMJ1H.

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CnlXOBM aa CBeTO npan.e Hory yqeHML\MMa:

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CTMXOBM na qYAecHY MOlIMTBY:

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CTMXOBM na M3AajcTBO:

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~eHI1IV1Ma, KaKO Ka)KY HeKI1, Me1)y lDl1Ma CBeTI1 311aTOYCTI1, no 3aKOHY, npe csera crojehn, onojacaa, y caanaaasra, OClIOisea na )Ke311a: naxne, OHaKO KaKO nanazce 3aKOH, na He 611 6110 npecTynHI1K 3aKOHa. To je npl1npeMl10 3eBeAej; OH je HOCl10 flIl1HeHI1 Kpqar BOAe, KaKO rOBOpl1 Aranacnje BeznrKI1, MaAa Apym I1Majy APyraql1je Ml1llIJbelhe 0 TOMe. 3aTI1M, noxaayjyhn ~eHI1~I1Ma TO llITO je ~l1lheHO, npenaje TajHy 11 Hallie Ilacxe y senaxoj ropisoj onaja, xana je seh HacTymota noh. A Kag 6u Y6ette, xaxce ce, cege 3a mpue3Y ca Ileanaeciuopuuosc ytteHuKa. BI1Al1llI na TO Hl1je 61111a 3aKOHCKa Ilacxa: OBAe ce CeAI1, OBAe je Beqepa, XlIe6 11 BOAa, a TaMO CBe neseao na BaTpl1 11 6ecKBacHo. Ilpen CaMI1 noxerax Beqepe (raxo rOBOpl1 CBeTI1 311aToycTI1), XPI1CTOC YCTaAe, OA- 1I0:>K11 caoje ropise XaJbI1He 11 Hacy BOAY y YMI1BaOHI1K, 11 CBe TO ~I1HI1 cast, Aa 611 TI1Me nOCpaMl10 JYAY, a yjeAHo nonceTl10 ocrane ~eHI1Ke na He Tpa:>Ke CTapellII1HCTBO. XPI1CTOC no~aBa ~eHI1Ke 11 HaKOH npalDa HOry, noxaaasunr TO conCTBeHI1M npl1MepOM, 11 rOBOpl1: Koju xohe ga 6yge Up6U Hexa 6yge uocneqteu og C6U)y. Harnena na je XPI1CTOC onpao aore npso JYAI1, KOjl1 je 6e30qHO ceneo y npoqeJby. Ilerap, nocneznsa ~eHI1K KOMe je XPI1CTOC npl1llIaO, sarpeaaja OA OCTallI1X, 6palhallie YqI1TeJbY, amt 0AMax HaKOH rora ca 3aAOBOJbCTBOM A03BOlll1. KaA onpa lhl1XOBe aore 11 noxasa na he ce Y3Bl1Cl1Tl1 CBaKI1 onaj KOjl1 ce6e nonnayje, 11 nOHOBO Y3e XaJbI1He 11 cene, nose na I1X no~aBa Aa BOlle jenaa Apyrora 11 He Tpa:>Ke CTapellII1HCTBO. A AOK cy OHI1 jelll1, XPI1CTOC nosene pa3roBop 0 TOMe Aa he ra 113AaTI1, azm He nOMeHY I1Me Tor 113AajHI1Ka. DOlliTO Te peql1 36yHl1llIe ~eHI1Ke, Mcyc peqe TI1XO caMOM JOBaHY: OHa) KOMe)a gogaM xneti ga yMOuu, ma) lie Me usqaiuu. ,[(a je Ilerap OBO xyo, OH 611, OHaKaB,

Ha CBeTI1 11 Belll1KI1 qeTBpTaK CBeTI1 0~11, KOjl1 cy AO- 6po ypeAl1l1l1 npeY3eTo OA CBeTI1X arrocrona, CBeTI1X 11 60- :>KaHCKI1X Iesauhen,a, npenaznr cy HaM Aa npasnyjeao qeTI1- pl1 norabaja: CBeTO npalhe HOry ~eHI1~I1Ma, Tajay Beqepy, r]. npenaaarse CTpallIHI1X TajHI1 HaMa, qYAecHY MOJII1TBY 11 caxro 113AajcTBO.

BYAyhl1 na ce jynejcxa Ilacxa Mopalla ~I1HI1TI1 y nerax, a nourro je npl111l1ql1110 na I1CTI1Ha 6YAe y CKJIaAY ca npao- 6pa30M, rj. na 611 rana 11 XPI1CTOC 6110 npl1HeT xao nacxa aa Hac, Iocnon aanr Mcyc XPI1CTOC je, no peql1Ma CBeTI1X OTaua, ~I1HI10 Ilacxy ca ~eHI1~I1Ma npe rora, yqeTBpTaK naaexe. To aexe 11 ueo nerax JYAej~11 csrarpajy xao jenan AaH, jep OHI1 TaKO paxyaajy naae. 3aTo jy je 11 ~I1HI10 rana, ca

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I1JIaxOBMTJ1jJ1 on CBJ1X ysennxa. y6J10 [yrry, lour pe-te: Koju YMOt-tU ca MHOM PYKY Y 3gjellY ... J1 3aJ1CTa ce p;eCJ1JIO J1 jenao J1 p;pyro. Henyro HaKOH osora, pe XJIe6 J1 peqe: Y3Mui11e, jegui11e; J1CTO TaKO Y3e J1 qallY J1 peqe: Ilujuie U3 tee CBU, OBO je KpB sco]« H080la saeeuia, 080 nunuuu: 3a MOj CUOMeH. M CaM je, naapmaaajyha TO, jeo J1 I1J10 C lbJ1Ma. 06paTJ1 I1a)I(lbY aa TO na XJIe6, a He 6eCKBaCHe XJIe60Be, Ha3J1Ba CBOjJ1M TeJIOM, na 6J1 ce I10CpaMJ1JIJ1 OHJ1 KOjJ1 na )I(pTBY I1pJ1HOCe 6eCKBaCHe XJIe60Be. Kan je Jyp;a 3aJIO)I(J10 XJIe6, y isera je Yllao caraaa:

OH ra je J1 panaje J1CKYllaBao, a cana ce I10TI1YHO (y rsera) yceJIJ1o. Kan je naaurao, xaxce ce, p;OrOBOpJ10 ce ca I1pBOCBellTeHJ1~J1Ma na J1M J13p;a XpJ1CTa aa TpJ1p;eCeT Cpe6pHJ1Ka.

yqeHJ1~J1 ce I10CJIe Beqepe YIIYTJ1lle na MaCJIJ1HCKY ropy, y jenao MeCTO xoje ce 30Be feTCJ1MaHJ1ja. ITOCJIe J13BeCHOr BpeMeHa, Hcyc J1M pexe: C8U tietae ce 8U catinasnutuu 0 MeHe 08Y nott (MT26,31 I1MK 14,29). Ilerap My (na OBO) op;rOBOpJ1:

Hehy tue ce oqpehu MaKap siopao U yupeiiu: C i11060M! A 6J1- JIO je Ben KaCHO, rj, 6elle p;y60Ka aoh. Hcyc peqe: Ilpe neio mi110 ueiuao saaeea, tapu uyu;« heiu Me ce oqpehu. YI1paBO TaKO ce J1 p;eCJ1JIo: xana je Ilerpa ooyseo I1peBeJIJ1KJ1 CTpax, Bor je I10Ka3aO CJIa60CT lbyp;CKe I1pJ1pop;e. YI1paBO 3aTO je lbeMY KaCHJ1je ypyqJ10 neo CBeT na 6J1 OH, J1CKYCJ1BllJ1 na ce- 6J1 JIaKY KOJIe6lbJ1BOCT lbyp;CKe I1pJ1pop;e, 6J10 MJ1JIOCTJ1B I1peMa rpeunnnnoaa. Ilerposo TpOCTpyKO Op;pJ1~albe, naiore, J1306pa)I(aBa rpex CBJ1X lbyP;J1 I1POTJ1B Dora: I1PBO, 3aI10BeCT, xojy je Ap;aM I1peCTyI1J10, p;pyro, I1pecTYI1albe I1J1CaHOr 3aKOaa, J1 rpehe, aajsan, I1POTJ1B castor OBaI1JIOneHOr JIoroca. To je KaCHJ1je CI1aCJ1Telb I10HOBO J1cQeJIJ10 xana je na TpJ1 I1yTa I10CTaBlbeHO I1J1Talbe: IIei11pe, lby6um nu Me, TpJ1 I1yTa J1CKa- 3aHO J1CI10Bep;albe. IToCJIe osora pe-noaa: )f(allocHa je gyma

sco]« go CMpi11U craszsa P;O anaisa yqeHJ1~J1Ma na je CMpT CTpallHa sa CBe J1 TJ1Me OTKpJ1Ba CBOjy lbyP;CKy ~pTy. 3aTJ1M Op;CTYI1J1 on lbJ1X KOJIJ1KO ce MO)I(e KaMeHOM p;06a~J1TJ1, J1 TpJ1 I1yTa J13rOBOpJ1 MOJIJ1TBY: One MOj, aKO He MOJICe ga Me MUMouije 08a «aiua ga je He uujeM, nexa 6yge eon-a i1180ja. M jour: Ot-te MOj, aKO je ssoiyhe ga Me MUMouije natua 08a! OH je OBO, C jenne crpaae, rOBOpJ10 xao qOBeK, a ca p;pyre, y J1CTJ1 Max je neurro 0p;6J1jao 1)aBOJIa, na osaj I10CJIep;lbJ1, MJ1- eJIenJ1 na je XPJ1CTOC, qJ1M ee TOJIJ1KO I1JIallJ1, 06J1qaH qOBeK, He 6J1 CIlpeqJ10 rajay KpCHe CMPTJ1. Kan ce BpaTJ1, J1 nahe yqeHJ1Ke me cnasajy, 06paTJ1 ce Ilerpy peqJ1Ma: 3ap He MUiaciue jeqa« t-tac up06gei11u ca MHOM? rj. TJ1, KOjJ1 eJ1 otiehao na nell ce I10p;BJ13aBaTJ1 qaK no CMPTJ1, TaKO cnasaur sajenHO C OCTaJIJ1Ma. Kan npehe aa P;pyry CTpaHY I10TOKa Kenpona, rne 6elle BpT, OH TaMO sacrane ca CBOjJ1M yqeHJ1~J1Ma.

Hecro je OH J1MaO 06J1qaj p;a p;OJIa3J1 OBaMO, 3aTO urro je J1 Jyp;a snao OBO MeCTO. Onna Jyp;a Y3e HeKOJIJ1KO BojHJ1Ka J1 y I1pJ1CyCTBy Hapop;a I1pJ16JIJ1)I(J1 ce Hcycy, I1olby6J1 ra, J1 TJ1- Me J1M nane 3HaK na je raj, A OBO yqJ1HJ1 3aTO nrro je qeCTO 3ap;p)I(aBaHJ1 (Hcyc) HeI1pJ1MeTHO 0P;JIa3J10 on lbJ1X. AJIJ1 OBne caM XPJ1CTOC I1PBJ1 J13J11)e I1pep; lbJ1X, J1 3aI1J1Ta J1X: KOla i11paJICui11e? OHJ1 ra J1I1aK He I103Halle, J1aKO J1X aoh HJ1je y TOMe cnpexaaana I10llTO cy, xazce ce, 6J1JIe YI1albeHe 6YKTJ1- lbe J1 CBeTJ1lbKe, Ben, 06Y3eTJ1 CTpaXOM, Op;CTYI1J1lle nasan. A xan I10HOBO I1pJ11)e, caxr J1M ce 06paTJ1. Kana Jyp;a I10Ka3a yroBopeHJ1 3HaK, XPJ1CTOC peqe: Ilpujaiuemy, na UtO llU CU qoiuaot rj. OHO pap;J1 xera CJ1 nonrao, [yno, qJ1HJ1 6JIarOBpeMeHO. M TOM I1PJ1JIJ1KOM J1X 0I10MeHY: Kao na pastiojnutca usaiunu cute c HOJICe8UMa U xomes« ga Me YX8ai11Ui11e! A nohy cy P;OllJIJ1 na He 6J1 J13a3BaJIJ1 HeKO aerononatse y Hapop;y.

Tana paazsyhemr Ilerap J13Bap;J1 HO)l(, OHaKaB KaKaB cy KOPJ1- CTJ1J1J1 aa ncxepoa, J1 yp;apJ1 rrpBOCBeIIITeHJ1KOBOr CJ1yry, rro J1MeHY Manxo, J1 once-re My p;eCHO yxo J1 TJ1Me CTaBJ1 no 3Harsa na rrpBocBeIIITeHJ1K HJ1je notipo HJ1 yqJ10, HJ1 pa3YMeBao 3aKOH. A XPJ1CTOC 3a6paHJ1 Ilerpy, jep HJ1je noopo na CJ1ep;- 6eHJ1K nyxosnor Oua yrrorpeozsana Maq, J1 J1c~eJ1J1 ManxoBO yxo. Kan YXBaTJ1Ille XpJ1CTa, nonenoure ra caesaaor y P;BOpJ1IIITe rrpBocBeIIITeHJ1Ka AHe, qJ1jJ1 je TaCT 6J10 Kajarpa. TaMO cy ce seh 6J1J1J1 oKyrrJ1J1J1 CBJ1 KOjJ1 cy orrTY)l(J1J1J1 XPJ1- CTa: q,apJ1cejJ1 J1 KlbJ1)1(eBHJ1~J1. Osne, rrpep; CJ1YIIIKJ1IbOM, Ilerap ce onpexe XpJ1CTa, a xana Cpep;J1HOM HohJ1 nerao sanena J1 rpehx rrYT, OH ce orroMeHY J1 ropKo sannaxa. A xan 6J1 jYTPo, XpJ1CTa onsenome on AHe rrpBocBeIIITeHJ1KY Kajaq,J1, rne My rrorrlbYBaille J1J1~e J1 yp;apaxy ra, J1 rne 6exy rro- 3BaHJ1 J1a)l(HJ1 CBep;O~J1, a xan oCBaHY p;aH, Kajarpa ra npenane ITJ1J1aTY. A OHJ1 KOjJ1 cy ra p;OBeJ1J1, xaxce ce, HJ1CY yIIIJ1J1 Y CyP;HJ1~y na ce He 6J1 OCKBPHJ1J1J1, Hero na 6J1 MOfJIJ1 jeCTJ1 rracxy. OBO, naxne, 3HaqJ1 na cy rrpBOCBeIIITeHJ1~J1 J1 q,apJ1- ceja rana rroCTynJ1J1J1 rrpOTJ1BHO 3aKOHY jep cy J13MeHJ1J1J1 Ilacxy, KaKO rOBOpJ1 CBeTJ1 3J1aTOYCTJ1, 6yp;yhJ1 p;a je 're HohJ1 rpetiazo jeCTJ1 rracxy, aJ1J1 cy OHJ1 TO OP;J10)l(J1J1J1 360r XPJ1- CTOBor y6J1CTBa. A na je yrrpaBo rana rpetiano na je jezry, noxasao je XPJ1CTOC, KOjJ1 je nperxonae HohJ1 OKYCJ10 Beqepy, a 3aTJ1M npenao J13BpilleHY TajHY, jep je J1 J1CTJ1Ha, KaKO je pexeno, MOpaJ1a 6J1TJ1 y CKJ1ap;y ca 3aKOHOM. V1 JOBaH rOBOpJ1 na je CBe TO 6J1J10 rrpe rrpa3HJ1Ka ITacxe, y qeTBpTaK J1 xeTBpTaK nasexe. J1 MJ1, naxne, npasuyjao, J1 ca CTpaxOM qJ1- HJ1MO crrosrea na re crpanme J1 HeJ1CKa3aHe norahaje J1 nena.

HeJ1CKa3aHOM MJ1J10Illhy TBOjOM, XpJ1CTe Bozce nanr, noMJ1J1yj Hac. AMJ1H.

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Crpaxyjesi na rOBOpJ1M J1 roeopox p;OTaKHeM OBO crpaIIIHO rrpep;albe 0 Cnacarersy, 3aJ1CTa je CTpaillHo rrpJ1rrOBep;aTJ1 0 OBOMe. Iocnon naur npenar je na nanaunsn nan y pYKe rpeIIIHJ1Ka. 360r xera je rrpep;aT OH, CBeTJ1 J1 6e3rpeIIIHJ1 Iocnoni Ilpenar na nanaunsa nan, a HJ1 y qeMY HJ1je 3rpeIIIJ10?

ITpJ1~J1Te, J1 rtosnahesro pap;J1 qera je XPJ1CTOC, nam Cnacnrers, npenar? Pap;J1 Hac 6e36o)l(HJ1X rrpep;aT je Iocnon. ITa KO ce nehe 3ap;J1BJ1TJ1? Ko nehe rrpOCJ1aBJ1TJ1? Cnyre cy CarpeIIIJ1J1e, a Iocnon je rrpep;aT na 6J1 CBOjOM cstphy OCJ1060- P;J10 rpeillHe CJ1HOBe. CJ1HOBJ1 CMPTJ1 J1 neua rasre P;OIIIJ1J1 cy na y MpaKy sanpace cyaue, xoje y jep;HoM TpeHy MO)l(e CBe p;a crrp)l(J1. Kan je BJ1p;eO IbJ1XOBY 6e30qHOCT J1 rHeBHO KOMeillalbe, Iocnon ce KPOTKO J1 P;06POBOlbHO rrpep;ao y pYKe 6e36o)l(HJ1Ka. A 6e3aKOHJ1~J1 cseaaure ITpeqJ1CTOr Iocnona J1 noxeme na ce pyrajy OHoMe xojer cy qBPCTO Be3aJ1J1 Hepa3peIIIJ1BJ1M J1aH~J1Ma, a KOjJ1 je Hac pa3peIIIJ10 on naaaua rpexa. CrrJ1eJ1J1 cy seaan on csor TPlba, Tor nnona jynejcxor BJ1HOrpap;a. PyraJ1J1 cy My ce, Ha3J1BaJ1J1 ~apeM jyp;ejcKJ1M, rrlbYBaJ1J1 6e3aKOHJ1~J1 y J1J1~e ITpeqJ1CTOra, on qJ1jer nomena yanpxranajy CBe He6eCKe CJ1J1e J1 aHl)eJ1CKe xere. V1 oner Moje cpue CTe)l(Y J1 Tyra J1 cy3e xan rrOMJ1CJIJ1M p;a Iocnon

* ITo ynyrcrsy THrrHKa OBO ClIOBO ce '1HTa na BelIHKH '1eTBpTaK, na nocnenoaaisy CBeTHX MyKa Iocnona Hamer J1cyca XpHCTa, nocne '1HTalha cenaor jeaaahen,a.

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TpIU1 on cllyry TaKBe YBpe,n;e H rropyre, umfiaise, rrlbYBalhe H y,n;apalhe rro 06pa3HMa. I1pH1)HTe, H rrosnajre npeofian,e ,n;apOBa, rpnrsen.e H MHllOCT najcnaher Iocnona. J1Mao je OH xopacaor cllyry y pajy Clla,n;OCTH, H OH je carpeunro H 6HO npenar M)"IHTelhHMa. Ho Bnarn anne na je czrati ,n;YXOM, CMHllOBa ce aa CJIyry, cazcamr ce Ha isera, H ,n;a,n;e Ce6e caMor na ra unrtiajy YMeCTO lhera. I10)I(elleO caxr zta 3aHeMHM 360r rrpeBellHKe 36YlheHocTH YMa, rra oner ce notiojax na CBOjJ1M hyrarse« He YHJ111ITJ1M Cnacarezsesy 6llaro,n;aT. Ca CTpaxorrOIliTOBalheM, naxne, rOBOpJ1M nasra, jep Moje KOCTJ1 npxre xan 3aMJ1CllJ1M na 3aje,n;HH'IKH Casnaren, CBHX, caxr [0- CIIO,n; naur, CTOjH cana npen Kajarpoi« xao ocyheanx, J1 jenaa on ClIyry y,n;apa ra rro 06pa3HMa. Cpue MJ1 ce CTe)I(e xan rroMHllIlbaM na CBe TO. Cnyra cemr, a Iocnon CTOjJ1 npen lhHM (rrcpecrrpce): onaj KOjH je HcrrYlheH 6e3aKOlhHMa J13pH'le rrpecy,n;y Besrpeumora. 3a,n;pXTalla cy netieca, y)I(aCHYllH cy ce TeMelhJ1 CBeTa, CBJ1 anhen« H apxanhenn cy aanarsean, Iaspioro J1 MJ1XaHllO cy rrOKpJ1llJ1 caoja ]U1~a KpHllJ1Ma, xePYBJ1MJ1 cy ce CaKpJ1llJ1 J13a TOqKOBa npecrona, cepacpJ1MJ1 cy y,n;apJ1llH KpJ1llHMa jenan ,n;pyrora y qacy y KOM je cllyra y,n;apHO Iocnona rro 06pa3J1Ma. KaKO, ,n;OJ1CTa, TeMelbJ1 aeMlbe J13,n;p)I(allie J1 lbYlbalhe J1 ,n;pxTalhe y TOM qacy xan ce Hapyrarne Iocnonyi 3aMHllIlbaM TO, J1 ,n;PXTJ1M, J1 oner rrocrajesr CKpYllleH qHM nocaarpasr ,n;yroTprrelbJ1BOCT 6llaror [0 cnona. J1 eBO, CBa Moja yrpotia ,n;PXTJ1 ,n;OK rOBOpl1M na je Casnarezsa, KOjH je rro MHllOCTJ1 CTBOPJ10 xoaexa on 3eMlbe, ra sesosa y,n;apJ1lla rro 06pa3J1Ma.

I1pJ11)HMO ca CTpaXOM, 6paho, J1 He orymajao npocro CBe TO IlITO je Crracnren, nperpneo pa,n;J1 Hac. Ka)I(J1, Cllyro )I(allOCHJ1, 3allITO CH Iocnona y,n;apJ10 rro 06pa3HMa? CBaKJ1

crryra, xan ra nyurrajy J13 porrCTBa, aa CTJ1Qalhe rrpJ1BpeMeHe cnotione ,n;06Hja y,n;apa~ rro 06pa3HMa; ann TH CJ1, necpehHHqe, caM nerrpasenao y,n;apJ10 rro 06pa3J1Ma Ocrrofionnoua CBJ1X! IIlTa CJ1 OqeKHBaO na hem ,n;06J1TJ1 on Kajarpe xao narpa,n;y aa TO yp;apalhe rro 06pa3J1Ma? J1JIJ1 HJ1CJ1 qyo, HJ1CJ1 HH on xora casnao na J1cyc jecre He6eCKJ1 Iocnoni Y,n;apJ10 CJ1 rro 06pa3J1Ma Iocnona CBJ1X, J1 nocrao sa BeKOBe BeKOsa cllyra cnyry, rrpe,n;MeT rropyre J1 OMpa)J(eHOCTH, 3aYBeK ocyhea na ce M)"IHIll y orrsy HeyraCJ1BOM. BellJ1KO je -ryno, 6paho, BJ1,n;eTJ1 KPOTOCT XpJ1CTa Ilapa! Mynpo, KPOTKO J1 ca CBaKOM notiosorourhy onroaapa Onaj xojer czryra yp;apa rro 06pa3J1Ma. Crryra neronyje, Iocnon TprrJ1; ClIyra je menan, a Iocnon J1CrrYlheH 6llarollihy. Ko he y qacy raesa 3a,n;p)I(aTJ1 y cetia mea J1 npenepaacenocr? Ho Iocnon naur )"IHHH CBe TO CBOjOM 6llarollihy. J1 KO he MohJ1 na J1306pa3H Tsoje ,n;yrorprrrseise, Iocnone!

I1pJ11)HTe, BJ1 xoje XPJ1CTOC )I(J1BO )I(ellJ1 J1 lby6J1, BJ1 KOjJ1 CTe 3ap;o6J1llH Cnacarersesy cKpYllleHocT J1 lby6aB, rrpJ1- 1)J1Te na noanare IlITa ce necnno na nanannsa nan y CJ10HY, ,lJ,aBJ1,n;oBoM rpap;y, IlITa je na naaaunsn p;aH )"IJ1HJ1llO lhy- 6lheHo J1 J13a6paHo Aapasroao cejae. OHO je na nanaunsa p;aH rrpep;allO CMPTJ1 I1peqJ1CTOr Iocnona. XPHCTOC, Cnacnren, nanr, pYKaMa 6e3aKOHJ1Ka aenpasenno je pacrreT na KPCTy. I1pH1)J1MO CBH, J1 ca Y3p;aCJ1Ma o6llHBajMo caoje reno CY3aMa jep je Iocnon naur, IJ;ap cnane, rrpe,n;aT CMpTI1 pa,n;J1 Hac 6e36o)I(HJ1X. Kan HeKO J13HeHap;a xyje aa CMpT norsenor Cpo,n;HJ1Ka, J1llJ1 J1CTO TaKO J13HeHa,n;a BJ1P;J1 rrpe,n; OqJ1Ma csor aozseaor KaKO lle)I(H MpTaB, 3ap ce aehe rrpoMeHHTH y rnruv, 3ap aehe 3racHYTH CBeTllOCT iserosor nornenai Taxo ce H jacao cynne, qJ1M je C He6eCKJ1X BJ1CJ1Ha yrnenano KaKO ce

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pyrajy Iocnony na KPCTY, npoxeaano y lU1QY, sanpacano spaxe cnoje CBeTlIOCTM: HMje MOrnO na nazse rnena KaKO ce pyrajy Iocnony, rra ce 06YKlIO y Tyry M TaMy. MCTO TaKO M CBeTM ,lJ;yx, KOjM je y OQY, xan BM,n;e CMHa lby6lbeHora na KPCTY, pasnpnje saaecy, 'raj yKpac xpaMa, on Bpxa no naa, M o,n;Max ce y,n;albM y 0611MKY rorryoa. CBe TBapM 6MlIe cy y CTpaxy M ,n;pXTalbY xana je crpanao Cnacnrezs, He6eCKM Ilap. A MM, rpellIHM, pana KOjMx je M rrpe,n;aT Je,n;MHM BeCMPTHM, jour YBeK ocrajesro HeMapHM. Cxrejexro ce csaxora naaa xan qyjeMo sa Cnacnren.eaa cTpa,n;alba M pyrarsa KOja je nonaeo. Y)I(MBaMO CBaKM ,n;aH, M CBY CBOjy tipary yna)l(eMO y YKpalliaBalbe CBOjMX onena, Kan je BM,n;ellO na cy ce Iocnony HapyrallM, neoecxo cYHQe je nperaopnno CBOjy CBeTlIOCT y TaMY na 6MCMO ce M MM, BM,n;eBllIM TO, aa n-era yrvrenann. Pann retie cy ce napyrann Iocnony aa KPCTY, a TM, »canocraa, He npecrajem ,n;a nonajeur CBe annre yxpaca na csoje xazsnae. M He ,n;PXTM rnoje cPQe, He yzcacaaa ce raoja MMcao, xan OHO -ryje. Pana retie 6e360)l(HOr Je,n;MHM Besrpeunm rrpe,n;aT je CMPTM, pyran.naa, cpavohersy, a TM pacejano cnyuraur CBe TO.

Ilezroxynao pa3YMHO crane rpetia na nenpecrano rrrena y csor Ilacrnpa, M na ra YBeK BOllM M nourryje, jep je OH, 6eCTpaCHM M npe-nrcrn, rrOCTpa,n;ao sa csoje crane, TBOPQY rpetia yraharn rro,n;BM3MMa M CBMMe qeCTMTMM, a He xaanncalbeM nponanzsamoa xarsrrnaxra, )l(MBlbelbeM y paCKOllIM, CBeTOBHMM jellMMa. Hehesro ce yrnenara aa Iynejue, TO je HeMMlIocp,n;aH M nenoczryuran Hapo,n;, KOjM je YBeK 0,n;6aQMsao Boacnje napose M ,n;06pOqMHCTBa. CBeBMllIlbM Bor je, pa,n;M Aapasra M csor aasera, cxnonzseaor C lbMM, on casror no-rerxa rpneo 3110ny,n;HOCT Tor napona: nao MM je aa xpany

MaHY C neoa, HO OHM cy, He,n;OCTojHM, )l(ellellM xpaHy xoja 3ay,n;apa - 6ellM nyx (oxopooc). ,lJ;ao MM je M sorry M3 xasrena y rrycrnn,n, a OHM cy My sa 0130, paCrreBllIl1 ra na KPCT, naliM OQaT. I1PMlIO)l(MMO craparse, tipaho, na He 6MCMO 6MlIM caysecaxun C Jy,n;ejQMMa, KOjM cy pacrrellM Iocnona, csor Casnaren,a. I1pMCTyrrMMO ca CTpaXOM, M MMajMo YBeK rrpe,n; OqMMa Crracrrrezsena CTpa,n;alba. YBeK pa3MMllilbajMo 0 IberOBMM crpanarsioaa. Iep pa,n;M Hac je nocrpanao 6eCTpaCHM Iocnon, pa,n;M Hac je pacrreT Je,n;MHM Bearpeunm. qMMe heMO BpaTMTM sa 0130, 6pano? I1a3MMo na ce6e caxre, M He rrpe- 3MpMMO Iberosa crpanaisa. Ilpacrynare CBa neno U;pKBe, xoja CTe orxynzsena qaCHOM M CBeTOM KPBlbY npe-rncror Iocnona, I1pMCTyrrMTe - npenahexro ce MMClIMMa 0 CTpa,n;albMMa ca cY3aMa M Y3,n;aCMMa, M csoje MMClIM rrpeMcrrYlbaBaTM CTpaxorrOlliTOBalbeM, TperreTHO rrpMcTyrraTM pa3MMllilbalbY, M caMM ce6M rOBopMTM: "Pa,n;M Hac, rpeuranx, npenar je CMPTM XPMCTOC, Cnacrrrers aaur,"

CXBaTM, tipare, urra 3HaqM 0130 llITO CM qyo. Bearpeumn Bor, CMH Caeaaunsera, rrpe,n;aT je pa,n;M retie. OTBOPM CBOje cPQe, ynosaaj TaqHO Hierona CTpa,n;alba, M Ka)l(M y cetia: .Besrpenma Bor na nanaunsn naa je rrpep;aT, na naaannsa nan je MCMejaH, na nanaunsa nan je HapyraH, na naaaunsn nan je y,n;apaH rro 06pa3MMa, na nanaunsa nan je rpneo unr- 6albe, aa naaaunsx naa je HOCMO BeHaQ on Tplba, na nanallIlbM nan je pacrreTO He6eCKO [arrse," Hexa 3a,n;pX'TM rsoje cpue, nexa ce Y)l(aCHe rsoja ,n;yllIa. CBaKM p;aH lIMj cyJe ,n;OK OBaKO paasonnrsam 0 Iocnomsma crpanatsasra. Te cyse rrocrajy ClIaTKe, a ,n;YllIa xoja HerrpeCTaHO passonnzsa 0 XPMCTOBMM crpanaisnaa nocraje caernaja. Taxo YBeK paasraunsa] M rrllaqM csaxora nana, M 611aro,n;apM Iocnony aa CTpa,n;alba

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xoja je npeTpneO pap;M retie na 6M ce na nan Hseroaor noHOBHOr p;OJIaCKa rsoje cy3e npeTBOpMJIe Te6M y XBaJIY M npOCJIaBy npep; CYP;OM. J.1 TM nOp;HeCM 3JIO, M npM TOMe paaMMllllbaj 0 CTpap;albMMa 6JIaror Iocnona. Ilonnecn MCKYllleisa, M aaxsazsyj on cpu;a. DJIa)KeH je qOBeK KOjM npen OqMMa J1Ma netiecxor Iocnona M Hserona CTpap;alDa, KOjM je pacneo ce6e casror sa CBe CTpaCTM M sa CBe 3eMHO, M no-reo na ce yrnena na csor Iocnona. ETO 6JIarOpa3YMHocTM, eTO notipe norse 60rolby6J1BMX cJIyry YBeK xan ce yrnenajy na Iocnona y P;06pJ1M p;eJIMMa. BMP;Mlll, qOBeqe, npe-nrcror Iocnona, KOjM BMCM na KPCTY, M ycybyjeur ce, 6eCTMp;HMqe, na y nacnanaMa M csrejan.y npOBop;Mlll CBe apesre xoje )KMBMlll na 3eMlbM! J.1JIM He snam, necpehmrse, na he pacneTM Iocnon Tpa)KMTM onrosop sa caa osaj TBOj HeMap, 360r xora TM, M xan TO qyjeur, nnnrra He npep;Y3MMalll, csrejeur ce M Y)KMBalll, J1 npoBOP;Mlll BpeMe y pa3HMM satiaaaxrai ,ll;OhM he onaj crpannnr nan xana nehem npecTaTM na nnaseur J1 nn-reur y orlbY 360r MyKa xoje 6yp;elll Tpneo, M HMKO TM aehe narn op;roBopa, HJ1KO ce nehe Ca)KaJIMTM Hap; TBOjOM nyuro«.

Knarsaa ce Te6J1, Iocnone, 6JIarOCJIOBMM Te6e, DJIam, MOJIMM ce Te6M, CBeTM, npMnap;aM Te6M, Hoaexorsyrrse, M npocnasrsaa Te6e, XpMCTe, jep CM TJ1, Jep;MHopOP;HM, [0- cnon CBMX, Jep;MHM Bearpeuraa, pap;M xreae nenocrojaor, rpennnrxa, npep;aT CMPTM, M TO KPCHOj CMPTM, na 6M OCJIO- 60P;MO P;yllly rpelllHMKa M3 OKOBa rpexa. J.1 qJ1Me hy TM BpaTMTM sa OBO Iocnone? CJIaBa Te6M, Hoaexozsynxe! CJIaBa Te6M, MMJIOCpp;HM! CJIaBa Te6M, nyrorprrezsnaal CJIaBa Te- 6M, KOjJ1 onpalllTalll CBe rpexonel CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM CMmao na cnaceur name nyure! CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM ce OBanJIOTJ10 y yTp06M ,ll;jeBe! CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM noneo OKOBe!

CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM MlllM6aH! CJIaBa Te6M, xoja CM MCMejan! CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM pacner! CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM norperien! CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM nacxpcao! CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM ce nponoaenal CJIaBa Te6M, y xojer nepyjexio! CJIaBa Te6M, KOjM CM ce Y3Heo na He60! CJIaBa Te6J1, KOjM CM ca BeJIMKOM CJIaBOM ceo ca necne CTpaHe Oua, M KOjM heur nOHOBO P;OhM ca CJIaBOM Ou;a M ca CBeTMM aH1)eJIMMa na cymnn csaxoj p;ylllM xoja nnnonaurraaa Tnoja CBeTa crpanaisa! Y TOM TpeneTHOM M crpaumox sacy, xana ce nOKpeHY He6eCKe CMJIe, xana npep; TBOjy CJIaBY ca CTpaxoM M rpenerox npMCTyne sajenao aH1)eJIM, apxanhena, xepyBMMM J1 cepa<pMMJ1, xana ce jour nOTpecy TeMelbM 3eMlbe, M xana ce CBe lllTO mnne 3ap;J1BM TBOjOj necpasisaso BeJIMKoj CJIaBM - y TOM qacy Hexa Me 3aKpMJIM Taoja pYKa, M nexa ce M36aBM Moja p;Yllla on crpaumor ortsa M lllKpryTa syria, M 'raste najxpajrse, M nexnor nnaxa, na 6MX M ja, 6JIarOCJIOBehM, Morao na Ka)KeM: CJIasa OHOMe KOjM je xreo na cnace rpeunnnca no BeJIMKOM MMnocphy csora noopor cpu;a!

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