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Frustration; Feeling Alone; Something's Missing; Seeking...

A difficult to name feeling, that is shared by many of us. We may be unable to e


xplain it to others, or even to ourselves. Sometimes, we believe that we know th
e reason, but later realize that it is something else.
This feeling comes in different forms. It could be ongoing, or repeatedly waxing
and waning. It may be gone for several years and then come back. It may feel li
ke seeking, disconnectedness, loneliness etc'.

Consider this;
There's a word: 'I'. We use it all the time: I work I am reading I wish Etc'. Words
labels for mental concepts. It doesn't mean that what these concepts represent i
s Real, only that we - both as a society and as individuals - have created them
and now use them. The moment that we use the word 'I', we create separation.
/If there's an 'I', than the 'I' stands separate from everything else./
When there's a word for 'I', and there another word for 'God', God and I are sep
arate. We use language so automatically that most of us are oblivious to the fin
er "side effects" of language, and yet subconsciously, the emotion that we exper
ience by such use, is that of separation. Many of us make significant efforts to
be closer to God or the spiritual, or "the beyond" - or whatever word one wishe
s to use. At the same time, only very few of us experience proximity or unity wi
th a higher spiritual essence. 'I' and 'God' remain separate, by virtue of our e
xistence as separate manmade concepts.
This being the case, separateness can be substantially reduced through some pers
onal work, though perhaps of a somewhat unfamiliar kind.
Below, is a practice that may change all that.
We are trying to become aware, of ourselves using the word 'I'. As soon as we re
alize that we have just used the word 'I', we should do the following:
1) STOP!
2) We may experience a sudden inner silence. When this occurs, we allow the sile
nce to be (without any doing, acting or interfering on our part) for as long as
it lasts. There's a consciousness shift taking place at this time, one which is
beyond words, concepts, thoughts, emotions or sensations.
3) Once the experience of silence has ended, we move on with whatever we were do
ing previously, as if nothing happened.
There's no need to avoid using 'I', although that may be an added layer to this
practice, one which some of us may wish to try.
This practice takes some patience and perseverance. There is no end result, only
an increasing sense of connectedness, relief and liberation.
When we begin this practice, we are likely to be using the 'I' without noticing,
practically all the time, which is completely understandable. Gradually we beco
me more aware and notice our use of 'I' more and more often.
This is an exercise in awareness. We increase our awareness to include something
which has previously been below the radar of our consciousness. Each time that
we do this practice, we create a tiny hole in the wall of separation. Tiny enoug
h that we may not notice anything. Continued patiently over a period of time how
ever, we will notice several things:
1) We will be noticing our use of 'I' more and more frequently.
2) We will become aware of /being about/ to use 'I' even before we actually say
it.

3) We will begin to have an experience of increasing unity with all things: know
n and unknown, familiar and unfamiliar, physical non-physical and spiritual, ins
ide of us and outside of us, of this world and beyond. It is a very powerful exp
erience, awe-inspiring, amazing, uplifting and liberating and certainly not of t
his world.
When we begin, It would best serve us to put our expectations away. It will allo
w us to stay with this practice over an extended period of time - long enough to
reap its remarkable benefits.