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Esther Jacobs
DISCLAIMER
The love story with Martin highlighted in this book is based on my own
personal experience. Let me be clear that my role in this isnt going to
win me any awards. Its not uncommon for Mr. Wrong to string along
several women at one time. You may not have all the information (or
even the right information) at first, but you cant shake the feeling that
somethings not right. Despite all of that, I chose to play the game.
Theres no such thing as black and white. Theres a bad boy/girl inside
each and every one of us. Sometimes we allow that side to harm others
or cause them pain. While it was never my intention to hurt anyone, I
take full responsibility for my actions and offer my apologies once again
to those I mistreated.
To protect those involved, names have been changed, the order of events
has been altered and as many details as possible have been omitted.
Lets just say that about 90 percent of my story is accurate and the remaining 10 percent is poetic license. Ill let you decide for yourself which is
which. But this isnt about what did or did not happen. Its about how I
changed because of this experience and what I learned from it. Thats
what Im here to share.
Whether the people in this book bear resemblance to real persons or the
Caribbean island in question brings Curacao to mind, I leave that entirely
up to you, the reader.
CONTENTS
JOURNEY TO DISCOVERY
Preface 12
Chapter 1 - The Asshole on a White Horse
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1a: Who is Mr. Wrong and What Makes Him So Attractive?
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1b: The Womanizer, the Player, and the Pick-up Artist
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1c: What Makes Them Tick? - Underlying Themes
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1d: Why Do Women Fall for the Wrong Guy?
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Chapter 2 - I just couldnt help it
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(Fun facts about evolution, pheromones, testosterone, genetics and
free choice)
Chapter 3 - Alternative Relationships
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3a: Is Monogamy Outdated?
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3b: Other Cultures
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3c: Open Relationships, Polygamy and Other Tastes
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3d: Exploring and Pushing Boundaries
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Chapter 4 - To Lie, to Please and to Delete
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(What is the truth, anyway?)
Chapter 5 - Is Mr. Right as Faithful as You Think?
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(Alibi sites, espionage stores, chastity belts and other false securities)
Chapter 6 - Can He Change? (No.)
216
Chapter 7 - Is There Hope? (Yes.)
220
Chapter 8 - Ms. Wrong
241
Chapter 9 - The Dip: Break it Off or Stick it Out?
287
Chapter 10 - Now What?
304
Acknowledgements
315
Bibliography 317
INTERVIEWS
Henk (52) is a successful entrepreneur who splits his time
between Monaco and Las Vegas. Hes seduced hundreds of
women with his striking appearance, long hair and provocative boyish looks.
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Yvonne (48) and Peter have been married for 31 years. They
each have a 10-year relationship on the side.
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Geert (63) talks about his pursuit and exploration of polygamy; the flip-side of monogamy.
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Elza (39) realized at a young age that her mother had a boyfriend outside of her marriage with Elzas father. That relationship lasted until both men passed away 25 years later. Elza
describes the doubts, the understanding that slowly dawned
and her own relationship choices.
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Lotte (40) tells how she made room in her life, head and
heart for a non-monogamous man. And how difficult that can
sometimes be.
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Andre (48) is an entrepreneur and avid sailor based on a tropical island. For years, he was seen as the stereotypical bad boy
and player, having seduced more than 250 women. Hes been
in a serious relationship with Bette for the last two years.
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Richard (42) is an entrepreneur and well-known singer. He considers himself a player, having seduced more than 50 women
- even during his marriage. Hes met his match, however, in the
much younger Anita. Shes the epitome of a maneater, coming
from a generation with completely different standards. Im
hopelessly addicted. And I have no idea where this is going
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CONTRIBUTIONS
The Manwhore by psychologist and therapist Marcelino
Lopez
Successful Relationship? Choosing the Right Convictions
by Ageeth Veenemens
A Little White Lie: Is That Okay? by Marcelino Lopez
In Therapy by Marcella Hagenaar
Smart&Sexy Advice by Lisa Portengen
Dear Reflection, Please Do Tell... by Annemarie Postma
Bad Boys Are People Too by Marian Mudder
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TEST YOURSELF
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Martin - My Story
1. Mr. Wrong
2. Temptation
3. Confusion
4. Club M.
5. Parallel Processing
6. In Love (With Someone Else)
7. Knocked Up (His Ex)
8. Missed Opportunity
9. Cold Turkey
10. Goodbye
11. Second Chance
12. Probation
13. Emergency Brake
14. Trust
15. Evidence
16. Grief
17. Analysis
18. Reconciliation?
19. Turning Point
20. Starting Over
21. Epilogue
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PREFACE
Do you have any idea how hard it is to write a book about Mr. Wrong
while youre on a romantic Caribbean sailing cruise with him?
While Martin cooks eggs for me in the morning and washes the dishes
afterward as usual, I go digging through our past. As he plans our route
and sails to the next majestic sandy white beach lined with palm trees,
Im remembering his flirtatious Skype sessions with other women. While
romantically sipping cocktails on the beach, I cant help but think back
to the time his ex claimed to be carrying his child. While Martins out
catching fish, cleaning them, and making sure all my needs are met, Im
flipping through my dairy, reading about how awful I felt and how I questioned my relationship with this (former?) playboy. And yet, here he is,
giving me all the space I need to think and write. The sweeter he is, the
more difficulty I have remembering how it all began.
The first few years with Martin had more downs than ups. Extremely
good times laced with deep-seated doubts. What was I - an intelligent,
independent, confident woman - doing with the biggest womanizer on
the island? Would he break my heart with his charms, his smooth talk
and the promises so many other woman had fallen for? Or did he really
mean it this time?
After I met Martin, I started keeping a diary. As I read through it, it
strikes me that through all the ups and downs, I was constantly trying to
manage my expectations and change my frame of mind. The huge contrast between the unsavory events and uncertainties of the past and the
wonderful feelings I have for him now, together on this boat, is often
unbearable. Can you really leave the past behind?
That one question sparked a discussion that almost cost us our
relationship.
Why re-live the past? Martin asks me over and over again.
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Preface
I feel very strongly that this story needs to be told. Not just for my own
analysis, but as a warning and maybe even a glimmer of hope for other
men and women going through the same thing. In the end, its not about
whether your man is (or was) Mr. Wrong or Mr. Right. What matters are
the choices you make in life. What is important to you? How comfortable
are you in your own skin?
The purpose of this book is to get you thinking about these things. Its for
anyone faced with the choice between reason and emotions, between
certainty and adventure, between the safety of the comfort zone and the
excitement and risk of personal development. Be it in love or any other
groundbreaking situation.
Since my first encounter with Martin, Ive put a lot of careful study into
the Mr. Wrong phenomenon. For the first time, I started to question
things like love, relationships, honesty and respect - things I had always
taken for granted. For instance, is it right for monogamy to be considered
the norm in our society? In the past few years, our ideas regarding work,
fulfillment, individuality and authority have changed and become more
flexible. Our views on relationships seem to be evolving at a much slower
pace.
Though the story of my relationship with Martin is a very personal one,
certain themes surface that many will be familiar with. What is right
and what is wrong? Which beliefs are yours and which are imposed by
culture, upbringing and society? To what extent do you dare to choose
adventure? And when do you fall back on a (false) sense of security? Do
you stay caught up in your fear or do you dare to stand on your own two
feet?
This is my story as I experienced it. Between chapters, youll find observations, interviews, statistics and anecdotes from other women, some of
them famous in The Netherlands. I chose to keep this information separate from my story because I didnt know then what I know now.
The topic of Mr. Wrong makes for fun and interesting discussions. Men
who identify with the term Mr. Wrong insist that there is no such thing
as right or wrong. Wannabes proudly proclaim to be him. Ive had a few
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women email me their own stories. Some even offered to send me their
diaries. A selection of those experiences has been incorporated into this
book with permission and, at their request, anonymously.
Most men try to take the focus away from themselves by pointing out
that Ms. Wrong also exists. An entire chapter has been devoted to that
phenomenon. While my focus is on Mr. Wrong, everything described
within these pages can also be applied to Ms. Wrong. Some gay readers
indicated that it is even applicable to same-sex relationships. Everyone is
free to interpret this book as they choose.
Im an advocate of the no excuses philosophy, and my aim is to carry
that over into love relationships. There is never an excuse for NOT doing
what you really want. Whether it leads to an adventurous life with Mr.
Wrong (with all the risks and pleasures it brings) or to the end of a relationship thats more trouble than its worth.
I want to challenge you to let go of your inhibitions and answer these
questions for yourself from a fresh perspective. Its more about the
journey you make to arrive at the answers than it is about the answers
themselves.
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After a few weeks, our idle chitchat turns into meaningful conversation. Were now having deep discussions about spirituality and
western vs. alternative medicine. At first Martin is old fashioned
in his medical opinions. But before long, I notice hes looking up
things weve talked about on the internet and is beginning to open
up to other ideas.
I discover a sharp, intelligent and analytical mind behind the indifferent playboy facade. When his comically rigid attitude threatens
to bring our conversation to a grinding halt, he invariably resorts
to humor. His sense of humor is his biggest asset, and he uses it
to turn awkward situations around. I start to appreciate him more
and more as a human being and we develop a close and intimate
bond. Because Im so fascinated by this womanizing thing, I ask
him point-blank how he does it. You know, he sighs, Im tired of
casual sex and short-lived romance. I dont want that anymore.
When I ask him what he does want, he says: all I really want is
love.
He answers all my questions with complete honesty. His core philosophy is to live in the moment and to feel love. Thats why hes
formed this habit of constantly needing someone to love who will
offer him love and affection in return. If it ends up being more than
a fling, well just see how it goes, he explains.
For a (closet) chronic brooder like me who struggles to let go and
live in the moment, this is a fascinating approach. I may come across
very free-spirited, but it couldnt be further from the truth. Maybe
thats why it intrigues me so.
And because Martin has confided all of this in me, I feel special and
different from those other women.
I am naturally inclined to inquire after and discover what it is people
want out of life, so Martin has no hope of sliding by without an
interrogation. His dream sounds suspiciously like my adventurous
lifestyle and unconsciously speaks to my feminine side. I want to
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sail around the world for a year with the girl of my dreams and come
back expecting our first child he confesses.
Nevertheless, I place everything thats going on outside of myself.
Martin is an interesting object of study which has nothing to do with
me and has no place in my life. The idea of getting involved with him
hasnt even crossed my mind.
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Situations
O Okay by me
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Dilemmas
If you had a choice, which type of partner/relationship would you
choose?
o An exciting relationship with someone whos attractive, sweet, charming and lavishes you with attention, but who has flings on the side.
o A decent, honest, reliable partner who may not always take the
initiative or make an effort, but who is predictable and will stick
with you. You know for sure theyll never stray.
What do you consider to be unacceptable in a relationship?
o Having a friend of the opposite sex.
o Having intimate conversations with someone of the opposite
sex.
o Flirting with someone else.
o Kissing someone else.
o Making out with someone else, but not having sex.
o Having sex with someone else, as long as it doesnt lead to love
or a relationship.
o In an open relationship, anything is possible.
If youre happy with your relationship, your partner and the
amount of attention you receive, would you want to know if he/
she was cheating on you?
o Yes I would want to know everything and it would mean the end
of our relationship.
o Yes I would want to know.
o Id only want to know if my partner fell in love with someone else
or the affair turned into a relationship.
o Im against cheating and all for honesty, but Id prefer not to
know. I enjoy our relationship and if I knew, it would ruin what
we have.
o No, I wouldnt want to know as long as my partner practices safe
sex.
o No, I wouldnt want to know and I wouldnt want to talk about it.
I dont even want to think about it
o My partner would never do that!
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Peter Koch,
www.stripstudio.nl
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O Okay by me
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What is wrong?
I find it interesting to see how contradictory our beliefs can be. Almost
half of those surveyed agreed that its okay for a 25-year-old man to have
gone through 30 different sex partners, while 25% viewed that same
behavior as wrong.
Fifty percent of respondents felt that cheating once was acceptable for
someone in a stable, long-term relationship. Yet 14.7% classified it as
extremely wrong. The rest find themselves in a bit of a gray area, which
means theyve either yet to form an opinion or they feel that the answer
depends on the individual situation.
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1) The bigamist whos been married to two women for several years
without either wifes knowledge or consent. (94% found this
unacceptable.)
2) Having an affair with your partners best friend or sibling. (80.9%
found this unacceptable. A striking 10.4% felt that this was okay.)
3) A man pretending to be interested in a relationship just to get a
woman into bed. (79.1% disapproved. 10.4% had no problem with
it.)
4) A man who visits a prostitute during his wifes pregnancy. (69.1%
found it unacceptable. 13.2% saw nothing wrong with it.)
5) Cheating without your partners knowledge or the feeling that
theyre being neglected. (59.7% felt that this was wrong. 14.9% had
no objections.)
Whichever side of the fence youre on, right vs. wrong certainly makes
for a lively debate. The typical bad boys I interviewed for this book emphasized that there really is no right or wrong. Some seemed to regard the
term Mr. Wrong as an honorary title while others viewed it as a disgrace.
A newly-divorced, upstanding family man confided that hed recently
begun to receive a lot of attention from women and that he occasionally
takes them up on their offers. Afraid that this might result in a broken
heart here or there, he resolutely labeled himself Mr. Wrong. Another
man told me even he felt his behavior was extremely wrong. Sometimes you just want sex or a little attention, he confessed. He became
quite emotional as he explained that, while his girlfriend was crazy about
him, he was, as he put it, not quite as in love with her. He felt like hed
misled her. Despite my best efforts to convince him that this was not
typical Mr. Wrong behavior, he continued to blame himself, even though
their relationship had only lasted a few months.
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Mr. Right?
If all that sums up Mr. Wrong, how do we define his antithesis? Heres
how the women surveyed described Mr. Right: trustworthy, serious,
boring, complacent, a nice guy, a pal, wants to settle down, a goodygoody, the neighborly type, wimpy, does crossword puzzles, honest, responsible, a family man, committed, sensitive, follows you around like a
lost puppy, a softie, a man you can rely on, honest, straightforward, what
you see is what you get, stable.
Its worth noting that the responses to this segment of the survey describe two distinct versions of Mr. Right:
o The perfect, good man
o A boring man
Needless to say, those women whod had bad experiences with men
were inclined to describe the perfect, good man as the opposite of Mr.
Wrong. The women whod had a taste of the adventurous life with Mr.
Wrong tended to describe his counterpart as a boring man.
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Expectations
Mr. Wrong is a label that is often applied too easily. Like, when a woman
is disappointed with her man or the progression of the relationship,
for example - regardless of whether the issue is his behavior or her
expectations.
In her book Wusses! (Slappe Zakken!) author Astrid Theunissen writes
about her quest to find a father for her unborn child. The men who told
her up front that they didnt want children (or at least not with her) were
unceremoniously dubbed wusses.
It appears as though expectations play an important role when assessing
an affair with Mr. Wrong. Women who thought they had a relationship
with such a man were generally disappointed. Those who were able to
enjoy being in the moment and had few expectations or demands, experienced more pleasure from the encounters.
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Martin 2 - Temptation
This one day Im having drinks with a good friend. Hes trying to hit
on me, so I tell him Im not interested. Frustrated, he asks Well
what kind of guy is your type, then? I take his question seriously
and start thinking out loud. Intelligent, original, unconventional,
adventurous. Someone who is confident and doesnt feel like he has
to prove anything. Humor is really important, too.
Do you know any men like that? he asks. So far, Ive yet to meet
anyone who fits that description, and I dont expect to either. But all
of a sudden, Martin pops into my head. It comes as a complete shock.
Hes not that far off from my ideal man! I had never thought about it
beforeFor the first time, Im seeing him in a totally different light.
I return home that evening with this lovely, strange, conflicted feeling.
I see the potential, the opportunity. But I also see the enormous risk.
Should I just let go and see what happens? Or not take any chances
since theres really no hope of it working out anyway? Ive been staying with Martin for several weeks now, observing him like some sort
of anthropological project. But now Im on a different mission.
Its extraordinary to meet someone who, just like me, chooses not
to live by the book, makes his own decisions and dares to be adventurous. All our conversations confirm my feeling that we approach
life in the same way. I find Im no longer an observer. Without even
realizing it, Ive begun to invest in him.
When he comes home drunk, I ask him why he drinks so much.
I think its a shame, I explain. Youre such a fun and intelligent
person, but all that disappears when youre drunk and you just
become annoying. He seems surprised that Ive noticed and my
concern seems to flatter him. He tells me Im right and promises to
be more cognizant of it in the future. I feel a rush of excitement.
I have so many fun experiences with Martin. Like the time we found
out about this Pimps and Hoes party in town. Id love to go, I tell
him, but I dont have anything appropriate to wear for the occa-
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The Womanizer
I can get any woman I want a Dutch actor told Elle Netherlands Magazine. Seduction is not a trick, it has to come from the heart. If I really like
a woman, suddenly Im capable of anything. All of a sudden I can write
poetry or I can cook really well. A woman wants a man to put her on a
pedestal.
The womanizer can read a woman like a book. Whether good or bad,
attractive or ugly, she arouses his curiosity, his desire to discover her, to
read her. In order to enjoy sex, he needs a certain level of emotional or
intellectual tension. The woman has to need him, to want him, to love
him. Its because of this focus and his sincere attention that it feels so
real for the women involved.
Giacomo Casanova is probably the best-known womanizer in history. In
his memoirs (more than 4,500 pages worth), he describes in detail his
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The Casanova Complex: Compulsive Lovers and Their Women (Peter Trachtenberg)
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relationships with 150 of the hundreds of women he seduced throughout his eventful life. During the eighteenth century that was an unprecedented achievement. In her historical novel Casanovas Women: The
Great Seducer and the Women He Loved, Judith Summers writes: He
has had women in almost every city, town and port on his remarkable
64,000-kilometre journey around Europe, and sometimes on the coach
journeys in between. He has slept with actresses and opera singers,
housekeepers and shopkeepers, a slave and a serf, lawyers wives and
businessmens daughters, noble women and fallen women, high-class
courtesans and common whores. He has made love to and experienced
married ladies and he has deflowered countless virgins. He has enjoyed
sex with women in their late fifties, and - a particular predilection of his
- girls as young as eleven years old (which was not uncommon in those
days).
His secret? According to Casanova, theres not a woman in the world
who can resist the advances of a man determined to seduce her. Even
as a small boy he was fascinated by women. Over time, he learned how
they thought and felt about life, literature, love and men. He learned
how to talk to women, how to make them laugh and how to befriend
them. He learned to love women as they loved him.
Seducing women is second nature for the Casanova or Don Juan. Their
magnetic personalities make them irresistible to everyone around
them.
In the film Don Juan DeMarco, Johnny Depp plays a young man whose
insistence that he is Don Juan, the worlds greatest lover, lands him in a
psychiatric hospital. He claims to have made love to 1,503 women. With
just one look, Don Juan can determine what a woman wants, and then
give it to her. He offers her ultimate happiness which, in turn, makes him
happy too. The young patients power of attraction manages to charm all
the nurses - even the males. The psychiatrist charged with curing Don
Juan must become familiar with his patients life story and philosophy.
The psychiatrist is fascinated and, when he applies what hes learned on
his own wife, their relationship flourishes.
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What kind of woman falls for the womanizer? Any woman can succumb
to a womanizers charms, although it doesnt always feel as though
youre being victimized. Quite the opposite, actually. Youre being offered an extraordinary experience. A womanizer showers you with gifts,
attention and love. He can even break down the walls intelligent, confident women put up to defend themselves. But womanizers typically
have a preference for more vulnerable women.
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The Player
Eliza, a confident American in her early forties, travels the world on
peacekeeping operations for the United Nations. After countless failed
relationships, shed given up all hope of settling down. Then she met a
man through a friend of a friend who, much to her surprise, didnt try to
sleep with her on the first date. They hit it off and would often go out to
eat or to the theatre together.
After a few weeks, he made it clear to her that he wanted to be more
than friends. Eliza preferred to wait until she was certain he wasnt just
trying to get her into bed. Three months later, they wound up in her hotel
room after dinner, where they made passionate love. Before climbing
out of bed he whispered to her tenderly: I think youre very sweet and
I sincerely hope you find a good man who wants to marry you. He got
dressed and disappeared. She never heard from him again.
Players are hunters. Its all about the chase, the score, getting the girl
in the sack; not about the friendship. This type of man either already
knows or makes it his business to learn the tricks necessary to turn a
situation in his favor. He loses interest the minute he gets what he wants.
For some of these men, as in Elizas case, the more difficult the chase,
the bigger the challenge, the more exciting it is. Most hunters prefer
setting their sights on the wounded and therefore easy prey. Women
who are insecure, who lack positive self-image, who are too young or not
quite so attractive are easy pickings for a man willing to give them some
attention. Whatever the pretense, once the hunter has caught his prey,
the thrill is over.
According to a large number of players, they meticulously study womens
behavior and are able to recognize the signals a woman subconsciously
gives off when shes interested or open to flirtation or a relationship.
They have extensive practice in what to say and do, and what reactions
they will provoke. Through years of experience, they perfect their techniques until they become second nature. A player is so well-versed in how
to approach women that he does it on autopilot, just like a Nascar driver
switching from one gear to another.
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Over at bit.ly/player-smile youll find a comical clip of a player practicing his seductive smile. As soon as he lays on the charm, this initially unattractive man makes a complete transformation. As you can
see, he practices frequently to achieve the desired effect.
The player that needs to work a little harder than the rest is known as
the pick-up artist.
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