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MAID IN MEXICO
Based on True Stories
by
Deborah Medrez Pier
Introduction
In the Mexican Jewish Community, the place where I was born and
raised, maids have a very special place. I had no knowledge of the
extent of my luck. Of having them in my lives up until I left home for
college. These women are not only housemaids. These women are the
home. Until the age of five, I thought my maids were actually the owners
of the house. No one attends to the details of the home as much as they.
Sometimes I feel like they are the ones running the home. They sort of
hold the home together. They permeate every surface. They are the
eyes of the house. They move the cards under the table. They cook all
the food.
Although, all of them come from similar backgrounds, they are all
very different-- lazy, hardworking, charismatic, loving, serious, dumb,
smart... maids that learn Yiddish. And say "Don't call me shikse! I know
what it means!" They are all very colorful. They are the strongest people
I ever met. They helped me connect to the real Mexico, - the magical,
warm and troubled country. For me, the best place in the world.
It is all exchange, but I probably got more of them, than they did of
me. Some of them I can call sisters, aunts, best friends or enemies. And
here are our stories... In memory of Lupita and Josephina
It gets weird at times when you stop and think about how this
stranger sleeps next door every night. She inhabits your space, but it is
never the other way around. How this places us in a vulnerable position.
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They are involved in almost every expanse of our domestic life. The
maid knows everything-- the sorrows, the pains, the dirty rags in the
family. She sees a lot of things that are best kept undisclosed. She has
judgments, but never renders them. She has feelings, but they are
hardly heard. She is the insider/outsider. And it gets worse when the
maid is detached. She might be spitting in your food for all you know.
And it was all even worse with Mary, because she had a heavy eye. And
because she never said a word. And because she never told us anything
about herself.
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sister answered playfully. Things just kept getting poorer as we got
closer to the wedding location. People don't understand when I try
explaining the levels of poverty that exist in Mexico. These villages had
no running water, electricity or even real houses. Thin children played
naked on the roads. At several points in our journey, we were followed
by crowds of them. "Please, a little coin, please." They looked
zombielike, like in those "end of the world movies." The crops were dry,
the cows were dry, and their skins were dry. I plugged in my iPod and
looked at the other way. Where was God in their lives?
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Medrez!" Suddenly I caught a small glimpse of the bride who was in the
back getting ready for the march. She saw my face and smiled a little.
Rocio, how to describe her to you? I'm looking for her. Please help
me find her. She knocked on our door 15 years ago. She was all wet. We
had never seen her before. And we have not seen her hereafter. She said
she needed a job. We said yes. She didn't look like a maid. Maids have a
certain look, humbleness. It is what it is. I have to be honest. Rocio
looked like a Victoria Secret model. Or at least that's how I remember
her. Like her name, she was morning dew. She'd wake me up every
morning with muffin, crumpets and sandwiches with cheese. Feisty she
was. She never did what mom or dad told her to do and thats the first
reason why I liked her. I think about her face almost every morning,
when I look at the grass. She was my favorite person.
Have you ever found someone that picks you up from your feet
and shows you the world? Can you help me find her? That person? Every
few weeks I look for her on Facebook. She is not there. She is not on the
Internet She is not in Los Angeles or in Miami, where we left her. Now
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she is even beginning to fade from my mind. I have no pictures of her.
She didn't like having her picture taken. She was Peruvian Shaman. And
shamans believe that having your picture taken steals your soul away.
Can there be anything more terrible than having your soul stolen away?
Rocio Rojas was her full name. You would recognize her if you saw
her, because her light is the strongest. She took us, me and my sisters,
to the movies. She took us on road trips. She took us fishing, shopping,
dancing in the streets. At night we broke into neighbors pools. She told
me that the most important thing for a woman, is to know her self worth.
To be able to get up alone. Because in Latin America, where we come
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from, women don't know their worth. We think we have free will,
because we can choose the guy we want to marry. But can we really?
No. We cannot decide anything beyond giving the Yes? We cannot even
pick the guy we want to date, he has to pick us. And I thought she was
being silly, but now at my 22, I can see that this is true. All my friends
are victims. They think, "If he don't love me, I am a piece of shit." And I
think, "If he don't love me, he is a piece of shit." If you see Rocio, thank
her for this advice.
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total Bitch. When I read The Sound and the Fury by Faulkner, just
kidding! Sometimes I wonder who I really am. And my problem doesn't
end here. I also tend to project the fictional characters upon other
people. And I don't know if this wicked habit enhances or undermines my
appreciation for the real person.
We had the good fortune of having the Hernandez sisters work for
our household--Susana, Noemi & Miriam, three fine and very different
human beings that entered and departed from our lives countless times,
creating a space to put in action my ruthless custom of superimposing
the fictional personalities of The Brothers Karamazov unto their own. To
me, they are one and the same.
Susana the oldest sister was Dmitri the oldest brother. Both
ruthless, violent tempered, turbulent and dominated by their passions.
With Susana we became most familiarized with maids' blatant ability to
appear and disappear at their convenience. We stopped taking it
personally. She would run away without saying a word and sometimes
return back for work months or years later. There was always a sense of
redemptive pain that would blind us from her chutzpah. She couldn't
leave her pants on for very long. This I knew, because we would gather
at night when I was only 6 and she would tell me all about her sexual
experiences. Like Dmitri, she would always prefer the shmock vulgar guy
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over the respectable one. The way Dmitri leaves his fianc Katerina for
the vulgar Grushenka. In the end her impulsive and animalistic actions
would drive her to a remorseful penitence that only brought her to a
closer connection with God. She was always swept by emotion and
passion. She was Freud's "Id," the instinctual drive of all humanity, and
the most primitive of forces.
Noemi was Ivan, the sandwich in the family. Like him, she was all
about seeking the answers to unanswerable questions-- The existence of
God, the absolute, the roots of human suffering. A natural philosopher.
Her analytical mind drove her to madness sometimes. Although she was
not my favorite sister, I really resonated with her, because I am similar.
We would get into long debates about the roots of morality and things of
that sort. We always ended up more confused and more depressed then
when we began. It was uncanny to watch a poor village girl with no
education engaging in these existential inquiries. All her anxieties were
rooted in the problem of evil, because she was incredibly attuned to the
human suffering around her. She was not committed to one way of living
for long, because she was always trying to establish the common ground
for the dualistic nature of the world. Like Ivan, she lost her mind and had
to go back to her familys ranch. Now her visits are painful experiences,
because it reminds me of how we are still the same, incapable of living
at peace with the world as it is.
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Miriam was Alyosha, the baby in the family. She was my favorite
one, because she was all about giving, sharing and nurturing. She had
an innate love for humanity and it all mirrored in the way she drove
herself through the world. She was selfless, always dedicated to others.
Her mature faith in God was the motor to her goodness. Not one second
did she doubt his existence. She was too good for this world and this
crippled her in some ways. I remember one time my mom accidentally
slammed the car door on her hand. She did not speak up, because she
did not want to embarrass her. It took me about five minutes to realize
that her jammed hand was creating a large puddle of blood.
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"Why are the windows of our supermarket round? Because we want to
the sun to come in!" Everyone that passed her way left the store with a
smile. She could penetrate any heart with her dark eyes. She gave
lollipops to the kids and hugged the elders.
The next day she arrived at our home with 5 different types of
juicers. I never thought there was more than one type of juicer. She set
them up in the kitchen without asking for directions. My mom called her
into the different rooms to show her what type of work needed to get
done. She nodded her head and returned to the kitchen to juice out all
the fruit. While she did this she whistled the sweetest tunes with her
robust rosy lips. This filled the house with a delicious fragrance of
pineapple-pear. And although her name was Petra, we began calling her
"La Pera-Pia"-- "The Pineapple Pear" and she loved being called this
way. She called me the apricot in return, because the orange little hairs
that cover my body look like apricot fuzz. I love it! My older sisters
turned into a peach, the little one into a prune, my dad into a papaya
and my mom into a pumpkin. Soon after we stopped using adjectives
and it all became about fruit. "Stop being a persimmon! Youre annoying
me! "Don't pay attention to what he says, hes just a grape". We were a
happy cocktail.
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We all thought that the juice-fruit thing was temporary. That she
would really begin cleaning really soon. Time went by and the pitchers of
juice in the fridge went on reproducing, but so did the dirty laundry and
the dust. My mom who is the manager of the house doesn't have the
essential meanness that is required for survival in this world, she tried
suggesting, "mmm Pera-Pia! Your green juice was fantastic! I just read
a study that says that juice is not great for child development, did you
know?". Petra laughed, "I have drank juice all my life Dr. Mango, jajaja,
look how developed I am" as she squeezed together her splendorous
breast, "let me give you a little back massage, you need to relax".
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One day as I was peeing into the toilet something slimmy grazed
my butt. I looked down and it was a frog in the toilet. Two days later
frogs began appearing everywhere. A week later rats began appearing
everywhere too. My mom payed us one dollar for every trapped rat. We
earned about 20 dollars in less than a month. But then families of
cockroaches and lizards migrated to our house. This was not right, this
definiteley could not be something fixed with juice and massage. The
orkin men, the ones that deal with animal infestation control told us to
evacuate the house, because the dirt, the mold accumulated in the
sewages, corners and closets becoming an invitation for pestilence. This
happened commonly in Floridayy, but it could of been avoided. A green
tent was to placed on our house for the duration of 2 weeks. We moved
to a hotel temporarily and Pera-Pia was fired without further
explanation.
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the Pera-Pia with her juicers! With a smile she said, "I'm back! Ive
missed you. I will clean this time" and gave us one of her comforting
hugs. She "worked" for us another year. Another year of happiness, dust
and Juice
Grandmotherland
"To the people of New York, Paris, or London, "death" is a word that is
never pronounced because it burns the lips. The Mexican, however,
frequents it, jokes about it, caresses it, sleeps with it, celebrates it; it is
one of his favorite toys and most steadfast love."-. Octavio Paz, The
Labyrinth of Solitude
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The Virgin is the mother that sustains life. And The Old Female Death is
the one that concludes life. The traditional depictions of these two
images are ironically contrasting. The Virgin who represents the mother
who gives life is sad and poor, and the old corpse that takes life away is
rich and happy. The reception of the Virgin Guadalupe is a melancholic
one. And the greeting "for the death" is a happy one. This dual imagery
hints on the Mexicans complex relationship to not only the woman, but
to life itself. Life seems to be a sad thing and death a good thing.
Men are excluded from this cultural dilemma. This can be seen in
the way modern language in Mexico deals with the respective roles of
"The Mother" and "The Father." The common adjectives for "the bad,"
"the run down" and "the painful" are linked with the mother figure. For
example, when something is bad we say, "eso es una madre" -- "that is a
mother." The mother always represents the struggle, the plight. When
someone has been beat down or hurt, we say "me madriaron" -- "they
mothered me." In the case of "the father" "el padre," it is all related to
that which is good. We say, "Que padre!" "How father!" when we express
admiration for something or when we communicate a pleasurable
experience. The father stands for the ecstatic desire for liberation so
present in Mexican Identity. And the mother represents the painful, the
stressed, and the beaten. Why?
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In Mexican society the problem of "Paternity" is palpable. The
national joke, "What is the most confusing day of the year?" and the
answer is "fathers day." The father is absent from the household,
because he is entitled to the psychological aspect of liberation. The
father is unshackled and excused from the struggling aspects of life that
the woman embodies. He is either left to reinvent himself in another
realm or he is thrust out of home due to his excesses -- usually alcohol
or women. He represents the fantastical, the imaginary, the leisurely,
the passive. That is why the man reaffirms himself as the "Macho,"
because he occupies the strong psychological aspect of fantasy so
important in our culture-- that self-entitlement. The mother is also
absent from home, but for other reasons. She becomes the provider of
the home, that component of struggle. So If the father leaves the home
and the mother is the one to provide for the family, who stays at home
with the children?
Ding! Ding! Ding!! The Grandmother, La Abuela! The one who resembles
the much adored iconic symbol for happiness "The Old Lady of Death"-"La Catrina."
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homes in order to provide for the children. They are the sad virgins, the
selfless fighters that sustain life. Their obligatory departure from their
homes creates a rupture from their children. In Mexico, the mother
stands for the abandonment and poverty of the child. Life itself is turned
on its head when the supposed nurturer of love is driven away from her
nest. The man in Mexico is nothing.
For example- Lupita who now rests in heaven, had to kill her
husband, because he raped their daughter. Lupita had to then move to
the city to make money to support her children. Her children hated her,
because she left them to the care of grandma.
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I reclined on the sofa in contempt while Lety swept the dust from
the floor. I was thinking that we are just a speck of whatever in this huge
universe and we are decaying matter-- that someday we will die. That
our fossils might not survive the stone ages and that all we dreamt,
accomplished or didnt accomplish will fade from our consciousness into
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a black hole, that someday will suck us in. That there is nothing much
we can do in the great collective sense when we think of the 30 million
people who are still slaves in this world. That if you are reading this text
you should feel guilty for being born. That if you are born poor your
whole life will be invested in surviving and if you're born rich you are a
motherfucker to be doing whatever you wish. That you have not helped
enough people and never will, not even yourself, because someday it
will all be lost to nothing. The laws that rule our universe only scientists
really know. And religion is a nice little tale that keeps us going when we
think of the illusions we must give to our children to survive the cold
outer space that permeates the membrane of all living things. That we
werent born with a single manual, but with many and have to pick one
to make sense of ourselves, because if we dont work with guidelines we
are swimming in a hot soup that will boil our blood and turn us into a
matzo ball.
Lety saw me lost in these deliriums and turned her face in anger.
And so to distract my mind from all these circular thoughts, I asked her
for her own story. When she was born, she already had 14 siblings from
different fathers and no food. And she didn't have time to think, because
poverty was swallowing up her insides. Her Father's job was hunting
down snakes. Every time he left the door they'd say goodbye just in
case. Her uncle stuck his dick into her every night for 3 years, because
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nothing is strange when everyone around you lives the same way. Her
mother went blind when she was eight because she stayed in a sauna
for too long. She saw portraits of her grandfather who once was rich and
left her wife for "a younger bitch."
They always told Lety that she was born a bad witch, because she
had a white line that went all across her retina. A child blessed by El
Diablo! Everyone feared her. They always told her that if someone died it
emanated from her thoughts. That if she passed next to a bridge it might
fall and that was a blessing. That the bad people followed her
everywhere and the black dog with rabies was her friend. They gave her
much to drink one night to know the truth and she admitted guilt,
because it was the only thing she was ever told about herself. She
claimed that witches turn into peacocks and balls of light that float
above the trees, but this never happened to her.
Her town was famous for the apple trees that grew and grew.
"Zacatlan de las Manzanas" just two hours from Puebla, a town with 365
churches, one for each day of the year. The town was not a poor one, but
where she resided was, in the outskirts, the fields. She always found
repose in the crops of pears, berries, garlic, marihuana, and maguey
cactus, peppers. In her backyard she had two cows, a few hens, rabbits,
dogs. "Nature always makes you feel good, don't know why," She said.
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Money was scarce in the town and I was tired of it all. There was
nothing else to do, but to pull myself together and come to the city to
work for your rich Jews. My mom promised to take care of my children
and I promised to come back, every weekend, or whenever I had a
chance. And I came here to work for you and you know it is hard, but I
will not complain, because I have everything I need at hand. What is
missing, what made your heart so bitter? Why are you always crying and
depressed? You spend way too much time on that sofa. Did you lose
something?
States of Dumbness
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Oh The States, the supremacy of the immense-- the malls,
supermarkets, candies, cartons of milk, buildings, opportunities, all
grand. United States, the place where dreams come true. Where
Freedom is praised. Injustice grabbed of from peoples hands. Everyone is
educated. The streets are clean, broad. Everyone is blonde, tan,
beautiful and in need for sex. The food is cheap and delicious. Anyone
can find a job and climb up the ladder as he desires. Oh the splendor!
United States of America, how big a shadow you cast upon United States
of Mexico. (This is the name of our country if you didn't know.) It
permeates everything and everyone. We adapt our round bodies to your
anorexic style of dress, our restaurants to your exemplary gastronomy of
fried fast foods, our entertainment and values to your top-notch reality
shows. Your beaming advertising light shines through all out television
screens, helping us forget our identities by creating new voids within us.
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When we brought the maids to the embassy they were turned down
immediately. From the moment they entered the large hall, they were
looked down upon and talked rudely to. Was it because they are known
to be hard working, or because they are dark skinned? We were
accepted into the US without a hesitation and brought into a VIP hall
where we were offered free cookies, tour guides and convincing
brochures detailing the benefits of being as US citizen. Was it because
we look European and our bank statements had allot of digits? I wanted
to dye my body dark from the shame.
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If you don't have a Job, it is because you are lazy. Because as I sit
in this cafeteria or at any other business in the country, I see Mexicans
and other unrequited races operating the cashiers, the kitchens, the
crops, the garbage trucks. And they work the hardest, because only that
leave their comfort zone can grow. There was a time where being a
grocer or a waiter in the US was a respectable job, but now you have
transcended into this "superior" being that needs to be served. You have
become lazy. No one is taking your money. Learn a little bit about
economy, the money pie theory was debunked centuries ago. And
wasn't "the melting pot" or the so-called "foundations" of this country
based
on
expanding
the
capitalist
economy
by
welcoming
the
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Fractured
Paty Limon & Veronica
If you touch the crown of your head, around the area where your
hairline begins (if you happen to have a hairline), you can feel a small
crease in your skull that marks the beginning or the end of the left and
right hemispheres of your brain. This indenture in me was deeper than in
anyone I ever saw and it caught my attention early in life, because it
throbs in moments of excitement, initiating blurred visions or what
others call deliriums. It could have been avoided.
Pa and Ma were late to synagogue that morning. They ran off with
Yael, my older sister and life companion, leaving their one-year babe to
the care of Paty Limon.
The Medrez family usually has two housemaids around the house.
They were always busy. The first, the kitchen maid, was Veronica. This
post required more skill and responsibility than the other-- cook three
meals a day, scrub the first floor, entertain the older children, answer
phone calls and other logistical tasks. The second post was for Paty
Limon, the chambermaid; she cleaned bedrooms, laundered & ironed,
took care of the dog and me.
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Paty Limon was roughly 15 when she started working for us. She was
dishonest about being 22. Age granted her with some sway of credibility.
Her work did not reflect the finished touch that comes with maturity.
Paty made things seem clean on the surface; counters, floors and steps
were always spotless, but under the rugs and curtains, all the filth was
hiding.
When the patrons are gone, the housemaid festivities begins-Televisions and radios blast, phone calls are made to international
numbers and boyfriend visit. You have to stay sick in bed from school to
see it. Paty Limon left me on a couch while the frenzy went on. And since
I've always been a curious one, I probably tried doing something like
walk or fly.
Paty found me on the floor with my skull cracked open. She locked
me with her in a bedroom. She wanted to safeguard my fracture. Instead
of calling an ambulance or telling the other maid what had happened,
she tried gluing my head together with crazy glue. Not only did she not
ask for help. When my parents arrived they tried entering the bedroom.
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She could not bring herself to open the door. She screamed, "I cannot
open. The child is hurt. I am so sorry."
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We don't realize that our fractures only duplicate with time. That
we must accept our flaws, because we those too-- The stumbling blocks,
the challenges, the brokenness, our freckles gifts from a burning sun. We
are because the fractures have grown so big that have created a huge
gap within ourselves. We don't know anymore who we are.
When we returned from the hospital Paty was already packing her
stuff to go home. "You don't have to leave Paty, the kid is alright, you
were scared, but she did leave. Because She was afraid of being
reminded of her fractures. Because she was afraid of becoming better. In
this corrupt world, we are the only ones that can provide our own light.
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This is the story about how the soul of Josepha Montes de Oca
departed from this world even before she departed. Of how she sat down
on the train of death too early in the morning before anyone could
recognize her beautiful face. Of how her dreams were never dreamt,
because she never saw herself in her dreams.
Josepha Montes de Oca, the frailest being I have ever seen. Her
laps were scraped during the Easter, when all the sick peregrinated on
their knees to the Basilica of Guadalupe, the largest catholic worship
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center in the world, an ugly postmodern building illuminated by melting
candles and extinguished passions. In this place mourning is stamped on
each forehead so that the "right" type of worship takes place. Not the
worship that elevates the soul, but the one that humbles it into the
depths of the sinning human condition.
Josepha worked in our house when our own Easter holidays took
place. A time of the year when we celebrate our liberation from
servitude. We used to be slaves in Egypt. In this Holiday Where we sing,
dance, drink and eat on the Acapulco bay. But we are never to be driven
to the excess, because the reception of life always takes place in the
middle, not in the extremes. I am glad Josepha spent those ten blissful
days with us.
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sacrificed, because they lost. And the winners get sacrificed, because
only the best is exclusively for the Gods.
Motes de Oca went to meet with her wizard on Tuesdays, her sister
informed us. He was said to save the soul in order to save the heart. He
would boil herbs and embalm them over her emaciated body. Smash her
bones with a hammer. Then wrap her in plastic until she sweated out all
her interiors. Until the day it did happen.
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Reflection
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Although English is my second language, I am happy to express
myself through it, because my favorite writers did. And I want to be in
constant dialogue with them and the culture.