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TRANSFORMING CONFLICT
INTO HARMONY
The Answer to Your Lifelong Suffering
ISBN 983-42897-0-7
CONTENTS
PREFACE.........................................................................................................9
Unconditional Acceptance
31/ RELATIVITY OF TIME ................................................................150
32/ STRENUOUS STRUGGLE AND SURRENDER .........................151
Pure Concentration /
Three Advantages of Insight Meditation
50/ INSIGHT THREE......................................................................203
PREFACE
This book makes disturbing and unpleasant statements about the
behavior and state of being of an average man. In addition to
supporting evidence, it provides techniques to verify these
statements. Further, it provides a working concept of his state of
being. More important, it provides the necessary principles to
remove inner, psychological conflict in order to attain harmony.
If the reader is willing to endure much inconvenience,
disturbance and unpleasantness for a few days, he can directly
verify many of these statements in that few days. To remove all the
inner conflict, however, requires many years of ceaseless and
difficult struggle. Therefore, if the reader is not willing to be
inconvenienced or disturbed, it will be better for him to put aside
this book because the mere knowledge of these statements can be
disturbing. On the other hand, he may laugh aloud at the seeming
exaggerated absurdity of these statements. If he then proceeds to
laugh even louder at his own absurd behavior and state of being, it
will be even better.
This book focuses on the source of conflictwithin the man
himself. Carl Jung says that for the man to know himself is the most
terrifying thing. Therefore, it is primarily for the reader who is
prepared to face the most terrifying experience. It is for the reader
who has realized from observation and experience, at least to a
certain extent, that he himself is the cause of all his problems. It is
for the reader who is prepared to face and neutralize conflict, rather
than to go on living as before, piling up conflict upon conflict. And
it is for the reader who is prepared to fight against himself. The
average man is already continually fighting against himself, but the
more he fights, the more he hates himself and others. If only he
knows how to fight in the right way, then the more he fights, the
more he will love himself and will naturally love others.
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PART ONE
OF CONFLICT
The frequency and intensity of war steadily increased from Roman
times onward, and its destructive impact has escalated. Three
quarters of all war deaths since the days of Julius Caesar have
occurred in this century. The number of war-related deaths has risen
from less than one million in the fifteenth century to some 110
million so far in this one, far outpacing the rate of population
growth.
Michael Renner, State of the World, a 1993 report
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GLOBAL
CONFLICT
The entire world is awash with conflict. Though man, for eons, has
clamored for harmony, conflict has not decreased. Instead, it has
increased and has become more pervasive and subtle. War is simply
a conspicuous conflict, hiding innumerable smaller conflicts waiting
to explode later. In fact, war and these smaller conflicts are merely
effects and relatively minor. They are caused by far more intense
inner conflicts. If these inner conflicts are faced and neutralized as
they arise, there will be no war, no Hitler. Hitler might even become
Mother Teresa. If Saul the persecutor could become Paul the
apostle, if Milarepa the mass murderer could become a most revered
spiritual teacher, would it have been impossible for Hitler to become
Mother Teresa?
Anyway, what could one man do? If Hitler was not inside the
people of Germany, could they be so easily persuaded and
manipulated to do what they did? In fact, Hitler is inside everybody.
Which man, if he dares to look deeply within, will not find Hitler
lurking inside him? If he did, however, he will also find Mother
Teresa inside him.
American Civil War hero, General Robert Lee admitted, It is
good that war is so terrible or else we would love it too much.
Does man find immense pleasure and enjoyment in crippling
another man, in putting a bullet into his heart, in risking being
crippled, and in having a bullet in his own heart? Obviously so, but
why? Is life that pathetic, that lacking in value, that man can only
experience aliveness while indulging in such idiotic activity?
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PROGRESS
OF
CONFLICT
Birth of Conflict
When a baby is born, he is an adorable angel, bringing cheer to
everyone. Some years later, he has become a fretful, implacable and
rebellious devil. What is the cause of this metamorphosis?
Shortly after he was born, the conditioning and conflict begin,
primarily through association, imitation and education. Each time he
hears the word good or right, it is accompanied by reward, smiles,
approval, and everything associated with pleasure. Each time he
hears the word bad or wrong, it is accompanied by punishment,
scowls, disapproval, and everything associated with pain.
Regarding his behavior, one person tells him that it is good and
right, but another person tells him that it is bad and wrong. With the
first person, he is rewarded; with the second, he is punishedfor
the same behavior.
Even worse, one moment one person criticizes him for a certain
behavior, but the next moment the same person praises him for the
same behavior. For example, if he lies, his father may call him bad,
tell him lying is wrong, criticize and punish him. But when the
phone rings, his father may ask him to take the call and tell him, if it
is his boss, to reply that his father is not at home. Then his father
may call him good, tell him that he has done the right thing, praise
and reward him.
When his father comes home in a cheerful mood, everything he
did is good and right even though already forbidden. But when his
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him and within him, except for what is most pressing, what most
affects him, at the moment. He has become an expert in the art of
denial, avoidance, distortion, exaggerationand manipulation.
For example, why is it that in adverse and painful situations, a
woman generally indulges in sorrow and self-pity while a man
bursts in anger? Is it in the genes? Or is it conditioning, too?
When a woman puts on a sorrowful and self-pitying
countenance, not only she is not ridiculed, she usually receives
sympathy, attention and assistance. Is it strange that she constantly
drags up unfortunate incidents that happened decades ago and
indulges in self-pity at every trifle? It is a most powerful tool to
manipulate others to give in to her. What if she indulges in anger,
wont she be ridiculed? But when a man indulges in anger, no
criticism comes his way. In fact, he is often seen as manly, selfassertive, and not easily pushed; hence, he will tend to use anger to
get his way. If he indulges in self-pity even once, he will be the butt
of many peoples jokes for years.
In Anatomy of the Spirit, Caroline Myss says that it is often far
more difficult to release the power you derive from your wound
than it is to release the memory of the painful experience.
These innumerable absurd, silly and contradictory actions,
words and thoughts result in immense inner conflict and tension
within him. Further, who can tell how much more conflict and
tension are added by his colossal propensity to behave toward others
winningly in their presence, but to criticize them viciously in their
absence.
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CONCEPT
AND
CONFLICT
Beginning of Thoughts
The retaining of thoughts begins when a child is about two
years old. For example, if a ball is placed behind a couch, a oneyear-old child will not go to retrieve it, but a two-year-old child, due
to the retained image of the ball, will; and he will be upset if the ball
is not there as expected.
Further, Maria Montessori finds that when a child is between
two to four years old, it is vitally important to keep everything in its
accustomed place and to carry out only accustomed activities. The
slightest infringement is liable to upset him, and he frequently reacts
with despairing cries and tantrums. The child already has retained
thoughts of his past environment and activities; hence, any
mismatch of his thoughts with his present environment and
activities causes conflict.
How Concept Causes Conflict
In Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain, Betty Edwards
gives an excellent example on how concept conflicts with
observation. When a ten-year-old student draws a square cube that
is in front of him, instead of drawing it as it is, he usually begins by
drawing a square and then attempts to make it into a cube with other
lines. In so doing, he produces a drawing that does not resemble the
cube. The student knows that a square cube has a square surface on
all sides, and his drawing is based on this concept. If he had actually
seen the cube as it is, he will find that none of the two or three
surfaces he sees is square. Consequently, he becomes confused by
the conflict, which is reflected in his drawing.
Similar discrepancy between concepts and seeing applies to
other objects, such as table and chair. If the student cannot see
simple, concrete and static objects with clarity, how can he observe
complicated, abstract and dynamic processes?
It does not imply that his concept that a square tabletop must be
equal in length on all sides is wrong. The table will only appear
square if seen from above, with eyes directly above the center of the
table. From various other positions, the tabletop will appear to take
on various other shapes. To see clearly these non-square shapes, the
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desires always trap and control his attention. For example, the man
can easily name the three colors of the traffic lights correctly, but he
will often name the positions of the lights wrongly though he has
seen them innumerable times and often with fierce staring eyes.
(The reader may wish to verify for himself by naming the color of
the topmost light. Anyway, even if he names it blindly, he will still
get it right one-third of the time.) Further, everythingthe red
traffic light, the pedestrians, the car in frontthat blocks his way is
seen as an obstacle, as an irritant, deserving his wrath.
Buddha says, Wise people do not call that a strong fetter
which is made of iron, wood, or hemp; passionately strong is the
care for precious stones and rings, for sons and a wife. It is because
an iron fetter only controls the mans physical actions, but desire
controls his actions, feelings and thoughts. Whatever he desires
most at the moment is always good, right, most meaningful, most
important, and of most value. Anybody or anything that happens to
aid him is good and right. Anybody or anything that happens to
hinder him is bad and wrong.
For example, if a soccer player scores a goal, numerous of his
compatriots will cheer and vow undying love for him. Nevertheless,
if he happens to kick the ball into his own goal post the next day, or
even ten minutes later, he will need a dozen bodyguards to protect
him from the very people who had vowed undying love for him
earlier. But his compatriots who did not vow undying love for him
will leave him alone, unharmed, and may even sympathize with
him.
Further, the man often likes an object one moment but dislikes
it the next, therefore anybody or anything that is good and right one
moment can easily become bad and wrong the next moment. For
example, when he likes to smoke, then cigarette is good, but when
he dislikes to smoke, then it is bad.
The man, however, does not notice the contradiction and
conflict of his behavior. It has become so habitual and automatic
that he has ceased to notice them. Hence, he is always deceiving and
deluding himself.
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What Am I?
The word I is undoubtedly the most frequently used. The
wordsgood, bad, right, wrongare the second most frequently
used. But does the man sincerely ask himself, even just once in his
entire life, what he meant by these words?
What am I? If pressed, he may give the nave reply, I am my
body/brain; hence, I am also my sensations, feelings and thoughts.
If sowhy does he work his body/brain so relentlessly, ignoring all
the warning signals until it breaks down? Why does he look after his
car more diligently than his body/brain? Why does he fill his body
with so much harmful food and drink? Why does he fill his brain
with so many violent and conflicting thoughts? Does he find it
pleasurable? Obviously so! But why does he find it pleasurable to
destroy his very own body/brain? Isnt it most reasonable to look
after its welfare with the utmost diligence and care?
Why is he ashamed of some of his body parts, sensations,
feelings and thoughts, but proud of some others? Isnt it most
reasonable to look upon all his body parts, sensations, feelings and
thoughts with equal regard, equal care? What can be more absurd,
contradictory and conflicting?
He uses himself as the measure and reference point for
everybody and everything. How can he measure correctly when he
knows nothing about himself, when his measure and reference point
keep on changing? Can he use a ruler to measure an object correctly
when he knows nothing about the ruler? Wont he find the object to
be two inches one moment, nine feet the next momentand five
pounds the moment after?
Value of Thoughts
Why does the man strive so agonizingly hard to be seen and
thought of as good and right by people, particularly by himself? His
striving to think well of himself clearly implies that he has no
control of his thoughts. How then can he control the thoughts of
others? If he is badhe is bad. Will it make any difference even if
the whole world were to call him good? Will he then become good?
Why does he put so much value into what other people and he
himself think, but no value on what he actually is?
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CONDITION
OF
MAN
Behavior of Man
The man is like someone deep within the enclosure of a ship with a
dead engine. Though the howling wind tosses the ship about, though
it causes numerous changes and movements within the ship, and
though a violent current steadily carries it toward an area filled with
numerous large blocks of ice, he is oblivious to them all. He has
automatically adapted to the internal changes and movements;
therefore, he notices and experiences no movement, no change.
Though violent storms occasionally jolt him up, when they are
over, he behaves as if they did not happen. Not only does he stay
inside the ship, he is afraid even to explore the inside of it, for fear
of the unfamiliar. Eventually, he manages to deceive himself that
nothing is happening, that he is cozy, warm, safe and secure
creating a false impression of permanency.
The mans inner conditions are like the inside of the ship.
Though everything is happening to him, though he is constantly
exposed to an endless variety of external stimuli and inner reactions,
though an endless stream of vicious conflicts and battles goes on
within him, though he is a mass of confusion and contradiction, and
though he is heading toward death, he only notices a tiny fraction of
these impressionsonly the place he has locked himself in. A
traumatic experience may jolt him awake for a while, but when it is
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Mechanical Man
Gurdjieff says:
Man is a machine. All his deeds, actions, words, thoughts,
feelings, convictions, opinions, and habits are the results
of external influences, external impressions. Out of
himself a man cannot produce a single thought, a single
action. Everything he says, does, thinks, feelsall this
happens. . . . To establish this fact for oneself, to
understand it, to be convinced of its truth, means getting
rid of a thousand illusions about man. . . . Man is born,
lives, dies, builds houses, writes books, not as he wants to,
but as it happens. Everything happens. Man does not love,
hate, desireall this happens. But no one will ever
believe you if you tell him he can do nothing. This is the
most offensive and the most unpleasant thing you can tell
people. It is particularly unpleasant and offensive because
it is the truth, and nobody wants to know the truth.
The above quote is taken from In Search of the Miraculous. Its
author, P.D. Ouspensky, one of the most profound thinkers of the
twentieth century, had already written Tertium Organum and A New
Model of the Universe before he met Gurdjieff. During one of their
talks, Gurdjieff said to him, If you understood everything you have
written in your own book . . . I should come and bow down to you
and beg you to teach me. But you do not understand either what you
read or what you write. You do not even understand what the word
understand means.
Initially Ouspensky found the idea that man is a machine and
that he can do nothing very difficult to swallow. Nonetheless, he
soon verified for himself the truth and became Gurdjieffs disciple.
After his training, Ouspensky dedicated his life toward Gurdjieffs
teachings. The reader need not attempt to swallow or believe blindly
what Gurdjieff says; there are available techniques he can verify for
himself.
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STUDIES
OF
VISUAL PERCEPTION
place, he will often say there is nothing to see. Like the tree,
everything else has been reduced into a familiar blur. What then, is
there to see?
Due to immense desire and fear, a childs thoughts of his
mother are even more blurred, a superimposing of innumerable
contradictory and conflicting thought impressions. Further, these
thought impressions instantly evoke his sense and feeling
impressions. The blurriness is due to the blindingly fast movement
of his attention from impression to impression on the innumerable
retained impressions from his past experiences.
This cluster of disordered impressions controls his reactions
toward his mother, causing tension, hesitation, awkwardness,
discomfort, confusion, uncertainty and fear. One moment he
considers his mother a most wonderful person; the next moment he
considers her a most detestable person, and so on. His unpredictable
and contradictory reactions reflect the chaos within him. Because
reactions are the evocation of associated retained impressions, the
childs reactions depend on his present inner conditions, which
depends on his past experiences, and on the present circumstances.
To mention that the man never sees his mother accurately,
including her physical features, may seem absurdly farfetched, an
illustration involving his sense of touch will be more convincing. If
the man with closed eyes touches a snake and a fish, he will receive
similar touch impressions, but even the mere thought that it may be
a snake will evoke an avalanche of sense, feeling and thought
reactions, which will completely submerge the actual touch
impressions. The reactionsprojected onto the touch stimulus
will be wrongly assumed to be the actual touch impressions. Even
more ridiculous, his associated feeling and thought reactions will
also be assumed to come from the touch stimulus, implying that he
has mistaken feelings and thoughts to be sensations.
If the reader, on reading this, then strives to see his mother
accurately, yes, he will see her differently, but it will still be
distorted. In fact, it will be more distorteddistorted by his desire
to see accurately.
The all-knowing man is a mirage, as if he can encompass this
awesome, mysterious, unfathomable world, which includes himself,
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PART TWO
OF MAN
Men go forth to wonder at the heights of mountains, the huge waves
of the sea, the broad flow of the rivers, the vast compass of the
ocean, the courses of the stars; and they pass by themselves without
wondering.
St. Augustine
There is one spectacle grander than the sea, that is the sky; there is
one spectacle grander than the sky, that is the interior of the soul.
Victor Hugo
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To The Reader
Although the author attempts to use the terms and concepts
precisely, many terms and concepts refer to extremely fluid entities,
which constantly change in direction, size and even attributes.
Further, they often overlap, fuse and blend with one another,
because though differentiatedthey are essentially undifferentiated.
Owing to this, some terms and concepts will not be introduced
fully; they will be expanded and modified later. Nevertheless, the
reader must strive to comprehend the terms and concepts precisely,
but must not cling to them.
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DESCRIPTION
OF
A NORMAL MAN
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DESCRIPTION
OF
AN ABNORMAL MAN
But, alas, the average man is not normal; he does not even have a
trace of the soul left within him, except on rare occasions. His soul
has fragmented into a legion of selves. All the selves together
constitute the personality. An abnormal body, four abnormal
centers, and a personality constitute an abnormal man.
Each self has a particular desire or aim. Though each self
possesses the attributes of the soul, these attributes are perverted and
much weaker. Each self is a confined fragment of the soul, confined
by its aim. Its aim traps its awareness, turning it into an attention
attention on the aim. Attention is restricted and confined awareness:
it is awareness having a particular aim. Its energy has become force.
Force is restricted and confined energy: it is energy having a
particular aim. Its intelligence has become cleverness: it has become
narrow-minded because it can only access a tiny number of
impressions. Cleverness is restricted and confined intelligence: it is
intelligence having a particular aim.
Conflict Everywhere
When the soul disappears and the personality replaces it,
harmony also disappears. Conflict appears everywhere. Conflict
exists between the selves and external circumstances, between the
selves and the body, among the selves themselves, and even within
the self itself.
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FURTHER DESCRIPTION
OF
AN ABNORMAL MAN
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There is no need to watch any movies; tragicomedies are everywhere, and they evoke anguish and laughter far more intensely.
Character of a Self
A self is created by the personalitys reaction to external
influences. Its strength and size depend on the degree and number of
exposures to similar external influences. It does not mean that if two
people are exposed to exactly the same influences, they will have
the same character and behavior, that is, same group of selves.
Heredity and past lives play an important role. The character of a
self depends on how the personality experiences and interprets the
influences.
Persistency of a Self
The persistency, the permanency, of a self depends on the
degree of difficulty to create and adapt to it. The more difficult it is
to create it, the more persistent it is; thus, a cigarette-self is more
persistent than an apple-self. The natural corollary: the more
harmful is the self, the more persistent it is because more difficult
and painful changes are required to adapt to it. Hence, it is more
difficult and painful to reverse the severe changes, to neutralize it.
Two Selves as One
If the man always smokes whenever he drinks coffee, the
cigarette-self and coffee-self will behave as if they are one. But if he
is in a situation in which he can either smoke or drink coffee only,
then the two selves instantly become enemies although they may
have been inseparable friends for decades. Either choice, he will feel
deprived and frustrated.
Overflow Force from a Self
Sometimes a self can be activated if an unusually large force
enters another self even though they are not connected with each
other. For instance, if the man suddenly discovers that he had lost a
fortune, this instantly triggers an unusually large inflow of force into
the money-self, part of the force will be displaced to other selves. If
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the cigarette-self is one of them, then the man may smoke even
though he is in circumstances in which he had never smoked before.
If he chooses to smoke, then the conflict within the personality is
slightly reduced for a moment.
Small Self within the Big
A self can have many smaller selves within it. For example, a
people-self can contain many smaller race-selves. A people-self has
impressions such as All people are _______. A Chinese-self has
impressions such as All Chinese are _______. If the man meets a
stranger, the people-self instantly becomes active to handle the
situation. If he discovers that the stranger is a Chinese, then his
Chinese-self takes over the situation, nothing to it.
Self in Action
It becomes intriguing when the man interacts with people he
knows. For example, if he meets John, his John-self becomes active;
he behaves in a certain way. Maybe whenever he meets John, he
indulges in self-pity. Yet if he meets Adam the moment after
leaving John, he may start boasting, for that is how his Adam-self
usually acts. How will he behave if he meets John and Adam
together for the first time?
Even more intriguing, the man may be agreeable with John, but
if Janet joins them, then he may start attacking John. Yet when Janet
leaves them, he may quickly become agreeable again, leaving John
perplexed and upset. In any case, he does not notice anything
unusual. The changes are smooth as grease: all in the name of taking
the line of least resistance, least conflict and maximum comfort.
Legion of Is
Each self, each impression, refers to itself as I. In the course of
a day, hundreds of selves and innumerable impressions are
successively activated. Each of them refers to itself as I, though they
are different Is and many of these Is contradict one another. Yet
the man assumes that he has only one I, that his momentary active I
refers to his whole being.
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LIFE
OF
AN ABNORMAL MAN
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NORMAL MAN
VERSUS
ABNORMAL MAN
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ARE
ALL SELVES HARMFUL?
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OUTER LAYER
OF
IMPRESSIONS
No matter how the selves twist and turn, they cannot avoid or
remove the pain of conflict, resulting in impressions of helplessness,
no control, no escape and impotency. Lost among thousands of
other selves, each self inevitably notices impressions of its
nothingness, insignificance, and emptiness. Because each self is a
confined tiny fragment of the soul, it notices impressions of its
loneliness, separateness and incompleteness. Perennially obsessed
with its one and only petty aim, it notices impressions of
unworthiness, meaninglessness and aimlessness.
Further, these outer impressions evoke immense additional
impressions of shame, guilt, anguish, self-pity, self-disgust and selfhatred.
Defense against the Outer Impressions
Initially each self attempts to protect itself from its immense
fear of the outer impressions by tightening and thickening its
impressions around itself, that is, by vehemently emphasizing and
exaggerating its importance and indispensability. These additional
conflicts among the selves invariably thicken the outer impressions
furthera vicious loop. Nonetheless, these additional conflicts also
weaken and loosen the binding of the impressions around each self
occasionally; hence, it is compelled to notice the outer impressions.
To avoid this from happening, eventually the selves
compromise with one another. They counterbalance and interconnect with one another to form a stable and rigid equilibrium.
That is, the man attempts to avoid creating conflict among the
selves by following rigidly to a routine and familiar way of life,
having fixed opinions and beliefs. As a result, the impressions of
each self tightened rigidly around itself; the interconnections among
the selves are also tightened rigidly.
Because which group of selves becomes active depends on
external circumstances and the man is leading a fixed way of life,
hence which group of selves becomes active also follows a fixed
pattern. Reacting to external circumstances, the associated group is
activated. It becomes dormant again when its forces are expended;
as this group weakens, another group is gradually activated. The ebb
and flow of the groups of forces changes like clockworkregular,
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precise and even. Further, the conflicting forces within the active
group of selves have resolved into one resultant force; hence, the
active group has compromised and resolved into only one active
self.
But external circumstances are never the same, so he defends
himself by stubbornly denying, avoiding and shutting out all
unfamiliar impressions, that is, the tight connections of the existing
impressions wall off his observation. Because most of the available
force is continuously expended and lost in permanent, passive
tension, he has only a tiny amount of observation, which is
completely lost in whatever he is doing at the momenttotal
absorption. Hence, he is indifferent to everything else because he
observes nothing else.
The man has become more secure than the gold bullion in Fort
Knox. But he sinks into malaise, depression, boredom and anxiety.
His rigidity and defensiveness appear everywhere. The price for his
security isdeath before his death. He may sink into a state of sloth
and inactivity. On the other hand, he may work for sixteen hours a
day, seven days a week. In this case, less force is expended into the
body, but expended through the body. Nonetheless, in either case,
he is in a state of inertiadefined as the tendency of a body to
remain at rest if at rest, or, if moving, to keep moving in the same
direction unless affected by some outside force.
Summarizing, if there is a change in circumstances, particularly
a traumatic change, then the conflict within the personality exposes
the existing selves to the outer impressions, thus evoking fear and
anxiety. Initially each self will struggle to maintain its usual state.
Because the new circumstances prevent many selves from doing so,
initially the conflict within the personality will be increased by the
struggle, thus increasing the exposure to the outer impressions.
Eventually, they compel themselves to compromise with one
another to allow the personality to become stable again.
Increased conflict is due to the mans rebellion against the new
circumstances. If he does not rebel, but only struggles to adapt, then
the conflict is reduced to a minimum. Nonetheless, the mechanical
tendency to rebel before reluctantly resigning himself is quite
irresistible.
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GIGANTIC
SELVES
Gigantic Money-Self
Leaving out the fact that the man will inevitably get weaker with
age, what will happen if, due to luck or hard work, he is able to
satisfy his various desires? For example, if he has a gigantic moneyself because he presumes that money is everything and can solve all
his problemsand he suddenly comes upon a fortune. The
immediate reaction will be fright, with all the symptoms of fear,
such as rapid heartbeats, cold hands and feet. If he has a weak heart,
he may even die of a heart attack. Later, when his attention turns to
his newly-acquired fortune, he is filled with pleasure, smiling from
cheek to cheek, yet the havoc within him remains. Whenever there
is desire, there is fear. His behavior depends on his attention. If his
attention is on desirable impressions, he behaves one way; if on his
fearful impressions, he behaves another way.
In the short term, his unstable condition is obvious. The
personality is violently shaken and forced to change its equilibrium,
with changes to the selves, interconnections and body. His attention
on acquiring money has shrunk; hence, his money-self becomes
smaller. Now his attention falls on satisfying his various desires
with the presumption that if only he has this and that, then he will
most definitely be forever happy and contented. The money-force is
displaced into these desirable selves, so they become bigger. On the
one hand, the money-force is significantly being released, causing
him to become energetic, euphoric and exhilarated. On the other
hand, the increased forces in the desirable selves are seeking release,
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causing him to become agitated and frustrated until their forces are
expended, which will then lead to satiation, weariness and probably
disgust. If the increased forces are not expended for a prolonged
period, then he becomes depressed due to the pressing down of
these forces.
In the long term, he is often in a worse condition than before.
All his fantasies on finding satisfaction, fulfillment, unending
happiness and contentment are false imaginations; hence, they all
disillusion him. This alone is a big blow. In addition, he is saddled
with the added troubles and false imaginations triggered by the
acquired fortune.
Of course, he may delude himself into presuming that a bigger
fortune will indeed solve all his problems; then the money-self
becomes bigger though he still has a lot of money. Or he may
imagine additional this and that, and proceed to presume that if he
has them, then he will, this time, most definitely be forever happy
and contented. So he continues to struggle, hope and pray. How
many blows are needed to wake him up and make him realize that
there is no end to it?
Instead of suddenly acquiring his fortune, if he acquires it
gradually, then there is no sudden strong reaction, but the overall
effect is the same though it may take longer.
Gigantic Wife-Self
In contrast with the above situation, what will happen if a
misfortune suddenly falls on him? For example, if his beloved wife
suddenly dies, then the wife-self instantly becomes much bigger.
Many of the other selves, which were created earlier and
strengthened over the years, become smaller; their forces are
transferred to the wife-self. Therefore, many of his desires, which he
previously considered them of importance, even indispensable, have
dwindled though previously he strove with all his might to satisfy
them. Even the instinctive desire to eat and drink has dwindled. Of
course, he becomes intensely enervated. He is also intensely
depressed because the various forces are pressed down by the
gigantic wife-self, compelling him to experience intense
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For most of the tutors life, his gigantic safety-self was active
to deal with the brutal circumstances. The safety-force was probably
expended in constant muscular tension and constant concentrated
attention, intense but narrow, only on his parents. When he was
brutally punished, the force was expended through his reactions to
the punishment.
In the absence of similar circumstances, the safety-force was
not expended; hence, his safety-self became bigger and began to
shake violently. The tutor was compelled to experience and notice
the fearful feeling and thought impressions, evoking strong
impressions of deprivation and emptiness, for he was deprived from
expending the safety-force in the accustomed manner.
The safety-force forcibly compelled him to do what he did,
enabling him to expend the force in the accustomed manner though
he was extremely frightened by the experience. He feared the
psychological pain more than the physical pain, that is, he feared the
feeling and thought impressions more than the movement and sense
impressions. And he is not unique.
For example, the man who continues to smoke, although he
fears the danger of smoking, is afraid of psychological pain more
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than physical pain. Like the tutor, to a much lesser extent, after
smoking he is often frightened and genuinely disliked it.
POWER OF EMPTINESS
Just look at any man who has a gigantic self. Any gigantic self
will do. Is there any real difference in behavior of the man with a
gigantic money-, work-, power-, or god-self from the tutor? A
gigantic self tends to compel him toward drastic activities, at times
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DESIRE AND FEAR
REACTION
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be to back away slowly, stand still or lie down with exposed neck in
submission. This response requires presence of mind and calmness,
not excessive tension and agitation. Of course, he may fight or run,
but presence of mind and calmness are needed to assess quickly the
best course to take. Further, fear evokes fear; hence, animals and
other men will often react by attacking.
Child Meets Oncoming Car
Likewise, if a child or a jungle dweller comes upon an
oncoming car for the first time, he will be startled and probably be
rooted to the spot. If the child is not killed, often he will react by
berating himself for not moving aside, especially if he is injured.
This reaction will connect the impressions of the oncoming car and
the adverse consequences of being hit to the impressions of moving
aside.
The second time the child comes upon an oncoming car; he
will probably be startled, hesitate for a moment, and then move
aside. As this reaction is repeated, the hesitation becomes shorter in
duration and the moving aside reaction becomes quicker because the
impressions of the oncoming car have become more tightly
connected to the impressions of moving aside. Hence, the safetyforce, that is, the force of the fearful impressions of the adverse
consequences and the desirable impressions for safety, is quickly
channeled into the impressions of moving aside and expended in
physical movement.
Sudden Peak Performance
True, if the man comes upon a tiger for the first time, instead of
staying rooted, he may almost instantly run away. In this case, he
has already been deeply conditioned beforehand, particularly from
movies showing gory details of being mauled by a tiger or any wild
animal. Unconsciously and automatically, these movies have
already conditioned him to run away.
And he will run a lot faster than usual. The stronger these gory
details are evoked, the faster he runs. A powerful force propels him,
so he runs effortlessly and much more effectively. In addition, he
will probably experience impressions of exhilaration, freedom and
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PERMANENT
GIGANTIC
DESIRE/FEAR REACTION
What will happen to a civilian and a soldier if they are in the midst
of war for many years?
Passive Reaction
The civilian cannot fight. In constant fear for his own safety
and life, he can only hide. After a sufficiently long time, most forces
within the personality has permanently moved into the safety-self;
thus, the safety-self is gigantic and active. Because he cannot fight,
most of the time, the safety-force is expended into the body and in
intense concentration on certain external stimuli. Because his
concentration on the external stimuli often does not help him, it may
eventually disappear. Thus, the safety-force may only be expended
into the body constantly.
If this happens, then he will become indifferent to external
circumstances because only a little active force remains within the
personality. At the height of indifference, he may continue to eat
even when another man in another table was just killed by a bomb,
as if nothing had happened. Because most force within the
personality is expended into the body, he is constantly depressed,
bored, apathetic and in a state of malaise. Even after the war, he will
continue to behave in the same way.
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Active Reaction
In contrast, the soldier can fight, run, hit the ground, and so on.
So less safety-force is expended into the body. Over the years, how
he reacts to certain external stimuli has become permanently fixed.
After the war, any similar external stimuli will instantly evoke
similar reactions. In EMDR: The Breakthrough Therapy for
Overcoming Anxiety, Stress and Trauma, writing about her
experience with Vietnam War veterans, Francine Shapiro says:
Some veterans cant walk city streets, shop in malls, or go
to sports events because the crowds and the chaotic
background noise bring up old fears and trigger terrifying
flashbacks. In a flashback, the sights, sounds, smells,
physical sensations, and emotions from the time of the
original event come back so forcefully that the veteran
believes he is back in Vietnam. For example, he may hit
the ground when he hears a car backfire or a plane
overhead. The reaction is reflexive, like a knee-jerk
response; there is no control. . . . Even the most benign
action, like a friends gentle hand on the shoulder, can set
off an immediate physical response of fear, anxiety, or
pain.
During the war, they expended the force of these fearful
impressions in physical activities. After the war, they may expend it
into the body, through various physical activities or through
violence. They may expend it through drinking or taking drugs.
According to Shapiro, They may use alcohol or drugs to dull their
pain and avoid thinking about Vietnam. They may also restrict what
they do and where they go to avoid being triggered.
Wearied and frustrated by various vain attempts to avoid the
fearful feeling and thought impressions, they may deliberately put
themselves in similar circumstances to get it over with, but the
fearful feeling and thought impressions are only temporarily
displaced and expended. Therefore, like Grofs tutor, many get
involved in high-risk activities that mirror their combat experience
in order to expend the force of these fearful impressions. Shapiro
says, Veterans with PTSD [posttraumatic stress disorder] are often
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Shapiro says:
In people with PTSD, these intrusive, disturbing thoughts
can persist for years. They are not resolved with the
simple passage of time. People with PTSD can wake up
screaming from the same nightmare month after month,
even year after year. . . . In some instances, the person has
full-blown flashbacks in which his feelings are so intense
he thinks or feels that he is reliving the event.
In general, the man fears feeling impressions most because the
feeling impressions are stronger than the other three types of
impressions; hence, they affect him most. When he is afraid to recall
a fearful experience, he does not really fear evoking the associated
thought impressions; he fears evoking the associated feeling
impressions. Similarly, when he avoids fearful circumstances, he
does not really fear evoking the movement and sense impressions;
he fears evoking the associated thought impressions, which in turn
will evoke the associated feeling impressions.
Because only thought impressions can be long lasting and
because the movement and sense impressions can only be indirectly
connected to thought impressions by the feeling impressions, the
feeling and thought impressions are therefore more powerful than
the movement and sense impressions.
In general, thought impressions by themselves are weak. This
is easily proven by the inability to use thought impressions to
change habits. For instance, the man may constantly think of
stopping smoking, but the moment he feels like smoking, he quickly
forgets about stopping and starts to smoke. After smoking, he may
quickly think of stopping again. Hence, feeling and thought
impressions together are powerful. In fact, movement and sense
impressions are merely the effects of feeling and thought
impressions.
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PART THREE
THE WAY
Unless and until a man embarks upon this quest of the true self,
doubt and uncertainty will follow his footsteps throughout life. The
greatest kings and statesmen try to rule others, when in their heart of
hearts they know that they cannot rule themselves. Yet the greatest
power is at the command of the man who has penetrated to his
inmost depth. There are men of giant intellects who spend their lives
gathering knowledge about many things. Ask these men if they have
solved the mystery of man, if they have conquered themselves, and
they will hang their heads in shame. What is the use of knowing
about everything else when you do not yet know who you are? Men
avoid this enquiry into the true self, but what else is there so worthy
to be undertaken? . . . Know the real self and then the truth will
shine forth within your heart like sunshine. The mind will become
untroubled and real happiness will flood it, for happiness and the
true self are identical. You will have no more doubts once you attain
this self-awareness.
Ramana Maharishee
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blames his lack of control on circumstances. In blaming circumstances, he has already tacitly admitted that circumstances control
the horsenot him; again, this is denied.
In quiet moments, he may notice the terrifying and horrifying
truth, so he avoids them by always projecting his attention, that is,
impressions, externally and keeping himself busy. In moving so
blindingly fast, everything he notices is vague, obscure and
uncertain. (What does the tourist who visits ten countries in a week
see clearlythe inside of a bus!) Even worse, soon he finds that he
does not know what to learn, what to do, or where to go. After all,
he already knows everything, has done everything and has gone
everywhere.
The moment of awakening hits him on the day he realizes and
is willing to face the fact that he has no control of the horse.
Meanwhile, as long as the pain and suffering are still bearable, he
continues to delude himself. If he is unfortunatemaybe fortunate
the horse goes over the precipice, and his troubles are over.
Insanity
On the other hand, he may realize his predicament but does not
know what to do, then he goes insane; it happened to Robert Pirsig.
He had an I.Q. of 170, only one person in fifty thousand has ita
most powerful thoroughbred horse. Sadly, after twenty-eight
consecutive sessions of high-voltage current running through his
brain, he becomes a fraction horse. Even then, he retains enough
gumption (a word he likes) to write the best-seller, Zen and the Art
of Motorcycle Maintenance.
Pirsig had frequent glimpses of the soul (he calls it Quality)
and therefore realized its value. In fact, he strove hard to defend it,
that is, he strove to defend that which cannot be defined. In so
doing, he was trapped by analysis, definition and his cleverness.
There is no end to analysis and each statement implies a
contrary statement. When Pirsig was asked whether a well-cooked
meal served in the best of restaurants is really something that we
should turn down, he found that each argument is easily countered
by a contrary argumentendlessly. He also found that each
statement he had made has been a brick in a wall of definition he
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cannot observe the left hand for more than a moment no matter how
hard he tries. Very little free attention is needed to observe just the
left hand for more than a few seconds, yet he will find it impossible.
He does not have even a little free attention for more than a
moment; still, he has a little free attention for a momenta crucial
and momentous factimplying that his unconscious and
mechanical state is not absolute. He can wake up. He can become
conscious.
FOURTH STEP: if he includes in the reminder to bend the little
finger of the left hand in an unaccustomed way as he walks, then he
will realize he can observe the left hand a little longer. If he bends
the wrist and all the fingers of the left hand, then he can observe the
left hand even longer, provided he remembers to keep it bent and is
able to do so. In short, the more he moves away from the habitual
way of holding his left hand, the longer he can maintain observation
on it, because the more unaccustomed it is, the more the walk-self is
disturbed. Hence, the unaccustomed position of the hand frees a
little attention and automatically traps some attention.
Attention automatically moves toward pain to remove it. If he
continues to hold the left hand in the same unaccustomed way, then
he will observe the pain and the desire to remove it; thus, he also
observes his left hand. Both the pain and the desire to remove it trap
his attention, resulting in conflict and tension. It is painful because
when he holds the left hand in an unaccustomed way, he is
stretching the rigid walk-self. So he experiences discomfort and
awkwardness.
The longer he keeps the left hand in an unaccustomed way, the
more painful it becomes, but if he reverts to the accustomed way of
holding his left hand, then he will experience pleasure. When the
pain is gone, the pleasure is gone, too. The attention moves to
another pain or to its accustomed place. For example, if a sharper
pain is inflicted on the right leg, the attention on the left hand will
move to the right leg; therefore, the pain in the left hand is not
experienced anymore even though it is still there. The sharper pain
has attracted the attention. If it is removed, then the attention will
move back to the left hand.
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If the man can only endure the pain of holding the little finger
differently, he can do it for only a little more than a moment longer
because he is only changing a very small part of the walk-self.
Hence, the walk-self will quickly compel the little finger to revert to
its usual position. In order to change the walk-self for a significant
duration, he must be able to endure the pain of changing a big part
of it for that duration.
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When he practices the formal methods, that is, Raja Yoga and
Vipassana (Insight) meditation, this technique will help him to
integrate his formal practice into his everyday activities. Hence,
Technique One is not just for verification, it is also vital to include it
as part of his practice.
Technique Two
The behavior of a particular self, say, the cigarette-self, can be
studied in the following four ways. If the man is not a smoker, he
can select any of his habits, but it must be a strong and harmful
habit, preferably one that he indulges in many times a day. In this
case, he may have to modify Technique Two, making it appropriate
to his chosen habit. It does not imply that he will not obtain the
same realization with a weak and harmless habit, but that it is
impossible for him to carry it out. How can he observe the weak
reactions when even most of the strong reactions are hidden from
him? Hence, the stronger the habit, the easier it is to carry out this
experiment because the strong, unusual, conflicting reactions will
automatically trap his observation, otherwise his observation will
simply be lost into other stronger reactions. In a way, Technique
Two builds on Technique One. Besides the difficulties of Technique
One, the man must now strive to observe the reactions. Hence, if he
has experimented with Technique One sufficiently long enough, he
can select a less strong habit.
FIRST: he strives to abstain without displacement. There is no
need to strive to abstain through displacement; he is already an
expert at that. To do this, he strives to abstain without changing the
cigarette-circumstances in any way. For example, if after a meal, he
used to sip coffee and smoke for five minutes; now after a meal, he
strives to sip coffee without smoking for five minutes. He must also
strive not to change anything else, that is, remove the packet of
cigarette from the table, read the newspaper or even move to another
table.
He can strive to experience the desire to smoke without
smoking by anchoring the observation on the no-smoking reminder
or any selected object. It is crucial to anchor the observationa
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INDICATION
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READINESS
Utter Disgust
When the man begins to realize from study, observation and
experience that no matter what he does and achieves, at best, it only
offers him momentary relief. In short, he is beginning to recognize
the truth of Buddhas teaching: desire can only be satisfied for a
moment, quickly followed by unease and irritation, which can never
be allayed; moreover, if it is not satisfied, he often becomes
sorrowful, frustrated and angry. As long as he clings to the
impressions, conflict and tension are inevitable.
In An Intimate History of Humanity, Theodore Zeldin
wonderfully illustrates this truth, substantiating that people
everywhere, at all times, under all circumstances, and regardless of
their positions in life, were and are faced with conflict, fear and
aimlessness. Further, though they have striven in all imaginable
ways to escape from conflict, fear and aimlessness, none has
succeeded.
To Be or Not to Be
If the man considers it better to die than to go on living as
usual, if he is utterly disgusted with his usual way of life, spent in
striving to satisfy his endless desires and experiencing the
impossibility of doing so for more than a moment, then he is ready
to tread the way. Of course, he can kill himself unless he realizes
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that doing so may not end his suffering but may even increase it.
After all, spiritual teachings claim that he is immortal, hence the
possibility of eternal suffering. They, however, also claim that
inconceivable eternal bliss exists and is attainable.
What are the risk and benefit of treading the way? If the claims
are false, he has wasted some years of strenuous struggle. If the
claims are true, what then? The benefit outweighs the risk by more
than a trillion to one. (Which true-blue gambler can pass up such
odds, such stake?) It does not mean that he will experience eternal
bliss after some years of struggle, but he will probably have enough
experiential realization, corresponding to the amount of struggle, to
convince him of the truth of spiritual teachings.
Gargantuan Dilemma
When the man is ready, it means the personality has already
weakened significantly. The soul is beginning to show itself; for
example, he may sincerely be interested in spiritual teachings. The
selves are already willing and desiring to die. They desire to die to
escape the endless conflict and tension, but are afraid to die because
it entails the need to go through more intense, unfamiliar conflict
and tension. After a lifetime of aversion to pain, the selves
automatically rebel.
The man is in a terrible bind. He finds no comfort in the selves,
yet he cannot get rid of them. One moment he desires to destroy
them; the next moment he clings to them. He is like a man who has
tightly grasped a piece of sharp glass for a lifetime for fear of losing
it. Further, he used to brag about its sharpness and the number of
gallons of blood he had bled. So now, even though he realizes his
colossal foolishness, he cannot let go because his fingers have
rigidly stiffened around it. Hence, the slightest attempt to straighten
even the little finger causes pain. Whats more, this attempt
invariably reacts by causing the little finger to stiffen around the
glass even tighter, thus discouraging him from further attempts.
Moreover, he has become so used to the glass that he still fears
losing it. Naturally, he is in a terrible bind.
Until he has decided to abandon all reservations and strive
single-mindedly to tread the way, he can stay in this wavering state
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Beware of Perversion
The man must strive unsparingly to avoid the immense
temptation to convert the warrior-self into a soul-self, a god-self or a
Buddha-self, because except for the warrior-self, the sole aim of all
other selves is to cling to pleasure and to avoid pain.
If the warrior-self perverts into an ordinary self, say, a god-self,
the man avoids the lengthy and arduous struggle to neutralize the
personality. He also deceives himself into believing that he has
found god, peace and joy. If he perverts the god-self further by
transferring the desires of the other selves into this perverted godself, he has unfailingly put himself into a worse stategreater and
deeper conflict, contradiction and hypocrisy. He can now indulge in
his desires with blessings from god, instead of guilt. If he is full of
burning rage and hatred, he can now destroy and murder while
believing that it is pleasing to god.
The warrior-self can only have impressions of the soulsense
impressions of a statue, thought impressions as images, ideas and
concepts. They are all symbols of the soul, created to suit a
particular time; at best, they are indications and signs pointing to the
soul. Nonetheless, the warrior-self needs these symbols to guide
him. The descriptions of the soul in this book are also symbols,
created to suit the present time, nothing more.
From Personality to Soul
An illustration: Jesuss disciples had gigantic warrior-selves,
created by numerous, strong impressions of Jesus. When Jesus was
with them, their gigantic warrior-selves even prompted them to
discuss among themselves as to whom was the greatest; it even gave
Peter the gigantic boldness of cutting off the ear of the High Priests
slave. Nevertheless, after Jesus was arrested, the disciples turned tail
and scattered; and Peter even trembled before a mere slave-girl.
Within a few hours, his gigantic boldness had shrunk into nothing.
No matter how gigantic any self is, it is inherently weak, completely
dependent on external circumstances; it cannot stand on its own.
Just before Jesus was arrested, he spoke of giving peace to the
disciples, not as the world gives, and of a joy made full. More
important, he mentioned that it was to their advantage that he left,
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for otherwise the spirit of truth could not come, that is, the soul
could not appear. After the disciples had gone through the terrible
conflict and tension from the loss of their warrior-selves, their souls
appeared because their warrior-selves had already neutralized most
of the other selves previously. Another way of describing itthey
were empty enough to receive the spirit of truth.
Then and only then, the disciples experienced genuine peace,
joy and confidence, independent of impressions and circumstances.
They also received the necessary power and knowledge to carry out
their missionsthe missions of their souls. Yes, the soul also has an
aim, but its aim appears only after the personality has been
neutralized.
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SOUL
REALIZATION
To realize the soul, the man must strive to perceive the impressions,
free himself from their control, and master them. He can master
them by neutralizing their forces, which will then be transformed
into energy and awareness.
To acquire mastery, obedience is necessary. Mastery of the air
and the freedom to fly imply obedience to the laws of aerodynamics. Of course, these laws must first be discovered through
investigation, experimentation and verification. Similarly, the laws
of the impressions, selves, personality and soul must be investigated, experimented and verified and then obeyed. As a result,
expansion of awareness, freedom, mastery and obedience are
inseparable.
The law of oneness stands above and encompasses all other
laws. There is no inherent difference between different impressions.
All impressions arise from undifferentiated energy, from the same
source, the soul. It is only from utter ignorance, foolishness and
delusion that the impressions, fortifying into a self, can believe that
they can separate themselves from the source and exist
independently, apart from the soul. They are always within the soul,
which is always whole, never divided or fragmented. (The soul is
divided into attributes and selves in order to talk about it.) Because
all impressions are inherently undifferentiated energy and always
within the soul, the entire struggle is to treat all impressions with
equanimity, for they are all equally part of the soul.
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advises only. Like Arjuna, the warrior-self must do all the fighting.
Consequently, progress will increase more rapidly.
At this stage, the man will often find himself in a comical and
hilarious situation, but different from the cases in stage one. For
instance, the personality may be indulging in anguish, but the soul
perceives these impressions impartially, unmoved. In short, he
experiences anguish, peace and joy simultaneously, whereas they
alternate in stage one.
Unfamiliar Reactions
Because the overall amount of tension within the personality
has decreased, the muscular tension has also decreased correspondingly. As the personality gets smaller and the soul gets bigger,
the man will increasingly experience unfamiliar physical and
psychological reactions. Physically, the muscular spasms, contraction and elongation, increase in intensity. Further, involuntary
movementsranging from muscle twitching to prolonged, intense,
twisting movements of the hips, chest and neck to prolonged, whole
body shakingare common. These are simply the reactions of the
muscles as they struggle to loosen. Spiritual practice has direct
impact on the nervous system; otherwise, harmonious control of the
body is impossible.
Energies of Transformation by Bonnie Greenwell contains a
comprehensive list of these physical and psychological reactions.
This book is also useful for the man who is just beginning to tread
the way. It helps him to prepare himself.
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If the man cannot take this list lightly, that is, if it evokes
intense desire or fear, then he must forget about treading the way for
at least a few years. There is no point in making his condition
worse. The sole aim of the way is to strive to treat everything with
equanimity. If he stubbornly persists, then this intense desire or fear
will inevitably delude him further and cause much drastic adverse
consequences.
An illustration: In an experiment, Harriet Linton and Robert
Langs gave each subject a placebo, but told the subject that it was
LSD. Half an hour later, the subjects began to behave as if they had
swallowed LSD. Their reactions lasted for several hours. If the mere
thought of taking LSD could evoke such drastic reactions, imagine
what will happen if this thought is boosted by intense desire or fear.
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The author mentioned the latter because he has not come across
it anywhere. Well, Greenwells list is comprehensive but not
complete. And though she mentioned the appearance of false
pregnancy, she did not mention how to remove it. Despite that, it is
a very useful book.
Concomitant Effects
Insights, the experiencing of various unfamiliar impressions
and the corresponding changes to the body are concomitant, or they
follow one another closely. Body therapists and psychotherapists are
familiar with this phenomenon. When clients, who may have
suffered psychological problems for years and decades, are willing
to face their problems squarely, that is, when they are willing to face
the fearful, conflicting impressions, they often experience reduction
of the muscular tension and receive insights into their problems,
insights that have eluded them for years and decades.
In fact, if the man is willing to cling to his doubt, uncertainty
and confusion, that is, if he is willing to endure the pain and tension
of his inner conflict, he will invariably resolve and receive insight
into his problem. As one spiritual master says, Small doubt, small
enlightenment; big doubt, big enlightenment.
Regarding personal problem, in most cases, it is not that he has
found the solution, but that the problem simply ceases to be a
problem as if it was never a problem. For example, the perennial
dilemma: the man is condemned if he did; he is also condemned if
he did not. Suppose he had squarely faced the fear and consequences of being condemned until they do not disturb him anymore,
then the dilemma simply ceases to be a problem, then whether he is
condemned or not is no longer a factor.
Often the insight appears so obvious that he kicks himself for
not observing it in the first place. Be forewarnedthis phenomenon
happens frequently in stage two of the way. But if he did not
directly face the inner conflict, he still will not be able to observe it
even after a century. How can he observe it if his attention is always
lost in a particular area of the situation, but missing the rest, missing
the area that is germane to the whole situation? The problem is
solved when the conflicting impressions have neutralized one
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A Word of Encouragement
The abnormal man cannot conceive the intelligence and
strength of the soul. His conception is merely the conception of a
self, which is infinitely weaker than the soul. When Paul requested
Jesus to remove his thorn, Jesus replied, My grace is sufficient for
you, for power is perfected in weakness. Therefore, the man must
not loathe or indulge in his weakness, but strive to perfect his power
from it.
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SIGNPOSTS
The five signposts signifying that the man is facing the right
direction are the experiencing of desire, fear, agitation, exhaustion
and doubt. Though he is facing the right direction, the challenge is
to tread the way steadily, without letting the signposts distract him.
That is, he must strive to pass through these signposts. He will
inevitably come across these signposts innumerable times. The
faster he travels in the right direction, the more frequently he will
observe these signposts.
Desire
First, the way demands the elimination of all desires; therefore,
if he is traveling in the right direction, he will have to face
innumerable unsatisfied desires, resulting in self-pity, sorrow,
deprivation and emptiness.
Fear
Second, the way demands the elimination of all fears; therefore, he will have to face innumerable fears, resulting in anxiety,
worry, anger and hatred.
Agitation
Third, when the warrior-self struggles to strengthen itself
against other selves, numerous conflicts are stirred up and the
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When the man treads the way, this relativity is keenly experienced, and he must strive not to succumb to it. For instance, if he
attempts to control his observation by concentrating on the candlelight inside his house, he will quickly experience a strong and
irresistible desire to do things under usual circumstances he cares
nothing about. He may have a strong desire to look at a particular
part of the wall instead of the candlelight and strongly believes that
it will be pleasurable to do so. As long as he manages not to
succumb to this desire, it will keep on growing stronger. But if he
looks at the wall, will he find it pleasurable? Has the wall suddenly
become irresistibly attractive although he did not find it the least
attractive before and hardly ever observed it in his entire life?
The more pain he experiences in concentrating on the candlelight, the more desirable the wall will become. Numerous other
strong and absurd desires will keep on arising. It is very difficult not
to be deluded by their seeming desirability. For instance, he may
have a strong urge to urinate although he had already gone to the
toilet several times the past ten minutes, without passing a single
drop.
Unconditional Acceptance
To overcome this urge, he must not succumb to it or fight it.
The more he fights the urge, the more attention he is giving it; thus,
the urge gets stronger. He must accept the seeming fact of having to
wet his pants and allow it to happen without any rebellion and
resistance. The very moment he can accept without any reservation
the seeming inevitable fact of wetting his pants, the urge will
disappear.
If he is at stage one of the way, he will not notice its disappearance because his attention will have already moved away,
trapped by other dilemmas. The dilemma of wetting his pants
simply ceases to be a problem as if it was never a problem at all. He
will only notice the disappearance of the urge if he reflects on his
struggle later, but will not know when it disappeared. He will only
be able to observe its disappearance at stage two of the way.
This unconditional acceptance is not a trick; it must be genuine,
otherwise it will not work. Although wetting his pants is of little
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pain and suffering to succeed; it then surrenders all the fruits of its
struggle to the soul.
Without Expectation
Of course, the man does that to attain the soul, peace and joy.
But the soul, peace and joy are formless to the personality.
Therefore, it is impossible for him to have any accurate expectation
about them. How can he have any accurate idea of what is unknown
to him, of what is beyond the realm of the personality? Hence, he
must be willing to struggle without any expectations, earthly or
heavenly.
With Expectation
If he struggles with expectation or for gain, he is simply
struggling to let go of a self for another. Even if he manages to
neutralize two selves, say, the anticigarette-self and cigarette-self,
by pitting them against each other, the other remaining selves will
benefit and become bigger at their expense.
The man usually spends a considerable amount of force and
time indulging in expectation, not only in desirable expectation, but
also in fearful expectation. In so doing, he avoids the necessary
struggle of the moment; the force and time that can be used in the
struggle are wasted in expectationdaydreams, fantasies and false
imaginations. In either case, he will derive considerable pleasure
from the expenditure of force through expectation. If it were not so,
why does he cling so tightly to both desirable and fearful expectation? It can be said that struggle is active desire whereas expectation is passive desire; thus, struggle can lead somewhere whereas
expectation leads nowhere.
Enormous Expectation
The fact of his mortality is not enough to compel him to tread
the way. After all, why struggle and suffer without any expectation
of pleasure or gain, ending only in death, when he can avoid
suffering by killing himself right away? He will only tread the way
when the possibility of eternal bliss or eternal suffering is becoming
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real to him. In fact, it is highly unlikely he will tread the way unless
he had already experienced at least a few flashes of soul appearances.
In short, he has an enormous desirable or fearful expectation or
both. But he must convert this passive desire or fear into active
desire or fear, that is, into stern uncompromising labor. Otherwise,
he will only sink into desirable or fearful daydreams, fantasies and
false imaginations. If he is aggressive, he may start preaching a
cloying Santa Claus or a hell-fire version of god. In either case, he
will derive considerable pleasure from the expenditure of the godforce. Nonetheless, if he indulges in any of these activities, he is
only burying himself deeper.
Secret of Health
Buddha says that the secret of health for both mind and body is
not to regret about the past, not to worry about the future, but to live
the present moment wisely and earnestly, that the way toward
enlightenment is to meet everything with equanimity. In general,
regret is simply the omission or commission of an action in the past
that results in pain now, and worry is the fear of future pain. If the
man is willing to face whatever pain that comes and may come his
way without any expectations, regret and worry will cease. Otherwise, his expectations will evoke regret and worry. If he succeeds in
this endeavor to a certain extent, he will experience a corresponding
measure of peace, joy and confidence.
Remembering Aim
If the man truly wishes to attain the soul, he must aim at
neutralizing the personality with an unbending intent, without
indulging in any imagination about the soul. Although he must
unbendingly strive to channel his force and time to the necessary
work of the moment, yet he must never forget his aim, otherwise he
goes astray. On the other hand, it is possible to be constantly
immersed in thinking about the aim without struggling to achieve it.
If, however, he is struggling toward the right direction, this struggle
itself will remind him of his aim.
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Is it possible not to go all the way, that is, to settle for part
personality and part soul?
As stated earlier, there is no way to change or remove a self
without changing the personality as a whole. For example, if the
man in Technique One manages to keep the little finger of his left
hand bent in an unaccustomed way for a while, he will find that the
muscular changes will begin to spread to the other fingers, the left
hand, the left arm, and so on. If he manages to keep it bent for long
enough, the muscular changes will extend to the neck, face, buttocks
and even his toes until all the bodily muscles are stretched or tensed
up. As for the impressions, apart from becoming more intense, there
will be corresponding changes.
The same is true in Technique Two. For example, if he abstains
from smoking long enough without displacement, he will become
more physically tensed up, edgy and fidgety. As for the impressions,
apart from becoming more intense, he will begin to observe
impressions that have nothing to do with smoking while he is
struggling to abstain.
Half Self
It is possible, to a certain extent, to experience what a halfway
state is like. Instead of half a personality, he can experience what
half a self is like. For instance, if he has been smoking forty
cigarettes per day for many years, he can cut it down to twenty
cigarettes per day and strive to maintain it for a few weeks without
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displacement. The understanding he will obtain from this experiment is a thousand times more useful than mere reasoning.
Half Soul
Is it possible to struggle for just half a soul? Though a whole
soul is a thousand times better than no soul, a half soul is worse than
no soul; the man is neither here nor there and is frequently
unbalanced. In this state, he can observe the absurdity and foolishness of his life and the contradiction and conflict of the impressions. Further, he knows from his earlier successes that he can
neutralize the personality if he is willing to suffer longer. After all,
he is more strong and skillful now and already knows how to
neutralize the selves. More important, the soul and its attributes are
already real to him.
In this state, the warrior-self, greatly aided by the soul, can
hold its own against other selves with relative ease. Still, it must
struggle unceasingly to prevent them from converting energy into
force. Because the moment it yields to the temptation to compromise and evade difficulties, the tendency to yield further
increases rapidly in strength. Unless the warrior-self is constantly
vigilance, it can easily succumb to this lifelong tendency. Hence, the
man can end up in a worse state than before, filled with far more
intense regret, self-disgust and self-hatred.
Consequently, before he treads the way, it is crucial to evaluate
the cost and risk, to realize fully at least theoretically the necessity
to go all the way, without the slightest reservation or compromise.
When he treads the way, he will be tempted to compromise and cut
corners at every turn and often by seemingly sound and wellmeaning reasons. By the way, even Jesus had reservationa
gargantuan one.
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he will never succeed. In fact, the more he indulges in seeming selflove and self-importance, the more these impressions will plague
him.
But the moment he sincerely and single-mindedly strives to
tread the way, he will find that these impressions have reduced.
After a few weeks of hard labor, he will experience a mild impression of well-being throughout the day. This is inevitable. If he is
willing to face active tension, passive tension will reduce. The body
and personality will be a little loosened. Hence, he does not have to
wait until he dies to reap the fruit of his struggle.
In fact, he can experience a mild impression of well-being even
after a short period of intense unusual activity, such as being chased
by a tiger for twenty minutes though it will be masked by
exhilaration and exhaustion in the beginning. The exhilaration is
due to the expenditure of conflicting forces, resulting in significant
loosening of the body and personality. The body is stretched,
resulting in aching muscles for several days. Of course, the
impression of well-being quickly goes away because the body and
personality quickly become rigid again.
Many Strive, Few Succeed
To reduce the overall conflict and tension requires many
months or a few years of continuous hard labor because it is very
difficult to let even a little energy to remain as energy. To let all
energy to remain as energy requires many years of continuous hard
labor. Strength, skill, endurance, persistence, patience, diligence,
vigilance, sound discrimination and sincerity are necessary to move
continuously in the right direction. After a lifetime of desiring to
satisfy all his expectations without any labor and instantly, now he
must endure continuous hard labor without any expectation whatsoever. For these reasons, many men may strive to free themselves,
but only a few will succeed.
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PRACTICE
such as spots on it. A formless apple can freely become any specific
apple; therefore, it is most general, fine and inclusive. It is the
essence of apples. When a specific apple is not seen, the visual
impression of it is gone. The thought impression of an apple can
stay longer. The formless apple, however, never disappears; it is
eternal.
Many coarse impressions can fall within one fine impression,
that is, a fine impression is bigger than a coarse impression. For
example, the formless impression of spiritual teachings encompasses all the various conceptual spiritual teachings. Because a
normal man can perceive the essence of spiritual teachings, he finds
no contradiction or conflict between the various conceptual
differences. Therefore, he does not cling to a particular scripture and
reject all others. He has an unshakable stability and foundation.
Coarse Impressions and Their Reactions
Coarse impressions are due to fear, and there are four types of
reaction to fear. First, the man avoids circumstances that will evoke
it, expending the fearful force through the act of avoidance. Second,
if he cannot avoid fearful circumstances, then he loses himself into
the fearful feeling and thought impressions, expending them in
fearful fantasies and false imaginations. Third, he displaces these
impressions down into movement and sense impressions, expending
them through activity. Fourth, he displaces these impressions further
down into the body, expending them in muscular tension.
These four types of reaction overlap, fuse and blend with one
another. Hence, even if he can avoid fearful circumstances, he is
still constantly lost in coarse impressions.
DEBAUCHED KINESTHESIA
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THREE
WELL-KNOWN
OBSERVATION TECHNIQUES
Alexander Technique
In the Alexander Technique, the man anchors his observation on
these thoughtsallow the neck to be free to let the head go forward
and up, so that the back may lengthen and widen, all together, one
after the other. In Body Learning: An Introduction to the Alexander
Technique, Michael Gelb says it requires a great deal of practice.
Yes, it is so. To hold these thoughts simultaneously requires the
existence of at least a small higher attention.
The Alexander Technique is effective not because these
thoughts are potent or magical. Any nonsensical thoughts will be
just as effective. In anchoring observation on these thoughts, the
conflicting impressions are not displaced and observation is not lost
into these impressions; hence, they are compelled to neutralize one
another.
Referring to his technique, Alexander says:
Boiled down, it all comes to inhibiting a particular
reaction to a given stimulus. But no one will see it that
way. They will see it as getting in and out of a chair the
right way. It is nothing of the kind. It is that a pupil
decides what he will or will not consent to do!
And Michael Gelb says the Alexander Technique has helped
him in these ways: dealing with fear, developing attention, attention
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The man treading the way must strive to avoid taking medical
drugs for minor bodily problems. That is to say, if he has a minor
abdominal or head pain, he must go through with it and allow the
body to heal by itself. If it is quite severe, he can work less and fast
for a few days. As he progresses, apart from psychological upheaval, various physical pains will appear, severe abdominal or head
pain is common. Hence, he must strive to endure pain without
fighting against it, without resorting to machines or drugs.
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YOGA
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STEP ONE
YAMA
(Abstinence from Unwholesome Acts)
The first step has five aspects: non-violence, non-stealing, nongreed, truthfulness and continence. It deals solely with physical
restraint. In this physical struggle, the personality is indirectly
shaken and loosened. These aspects help to weaken the personality
in a general way; the loose force can then be used to create the
warrior-self. If the man is already utterly disgusted with his life, it
will not be difficult to practice this step to a significant extent.
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NIYAMA
(Cultivation of Wholesome Acts)
robbing from only one self, it is easier to acquire the same amount
of force by robbing many selves, by robbing a bit from each self.
Instead of one strong reaction, this maneuver only results in many
weak reactions; hence, the reactions are also easier to handle.
Anyway, the sexual act per se expends only a little force
comparatively. Much force is expended in the continual arousal and
stimulation throughout the day, and much force is expended in
various means of obtaining gratification, deceitful or otherwise.
Who can tell how much force is expended in the chase, suspense
and resultant trouble? Of course, the huge expenditure of force in
these activities gives much more pleasure than the sexual act per se.
Jesus did not say, Thou shall not have sex. He adjures the
man not to commit adultery, not just physically but also mentally,
because the moment he does so, he is in conflict. More important, if
there is no mental adultery, there will be no physical adultery. If
there is no mental sex, there will be no excessive physical sex.
Nonetheless, it is far more difficult not to succumb to mental
adultery or sex.
Because the body produces semen continuously, there is no
advantage in keeping it all inside. Doing so may even result in
congestion. As long as the body is not compelled to produce more
semen than it can naturally produce with ease, then there is no harm.
Celibacy is only beneficial when the man is advanced spiritually
and is able to transmute semen into energy.
In general, it is more difficult to maintain the proper balance
than either excessive indulgence or complete abstinence, not only
regarding sex but also everything else. To acquire proper balance,
he must strive to consider the whole instead of focusing obsessively
on a few areas.
Fasting
Fasting was and still is the most effective means to purify the
body; thus, it helps to weaken many harmful habits. Sound common
sense is enough to enable the man to fast for a day or two safely, but
if he wishes to fast for many days, it is advisable to do so in a
fasting clinic. If, however, he wishes to fast on his own, he must
have enough information to guide him safely. Based on fifty-five
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control over a healthy and resilient body. Once the body is healthy
and resilient, fasting is no longer beneficial.
Does fasting put on additional weight? If the man does not eat
more than his daily requirements, how can that happen? He will
only put on additional weight if he succumbs to the reaction of
fasting. His fasting evokes impressions of deprivation and emptiness
regarding food. So when he starts eating, these impressions from the
food-self compel him to eat more than usual.
In fact, after a long fast, it is better to eat little initially and
increase the food intake gradually. Later, of course, he must eat
more than usual to compensate for what he had lost during fasting,
but he must strive to avoid the compelling reaction to overcompensate. This compelling reaction to overcompensate applies to
other activities, compelling the man to keep on accumulating even
though he may already have everything to sustain him for a
thousand years. Overcompensating to play safe is antithesis to the
way. The way demands dangerous living, the willingness to risk
everything.
Devotional Practice
The predominantly emotional man focuses primarily on
devotional practice. In so doing, strong feeling impressions are
displaced into the warrior-self as devotional feelings toward
symbols of divinity; thus, the other selves are weakened and the
warrior-self is strengthened. The devotional feelings and symbols
are the warrior-impressions. They help to trap his attention on the
warrior-self, thus preventing the other selves from dragging it hither
and dither. When the warrior-self is strong enough, then it can
actively strive to neutralize the other selves, but without displacing
their forces to itself any longer, thus allowing them to be transformed into energy.
TWO COMMANDMENTS
Jesus says that the whole Law and the Prophets are included in
these two commandments: first, you shall love the Lord your God
with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind;
second, you shall love your neighbor as yourself. But it is
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In the past, there was very little information. Now an abundance of information is easily available. Nevertheless, to avoid
being trapped and prejudiced by words, concepts and symbols, it is
essential to study various scriptures and spiritual teachings in order
to extract their essence. Though separated by thousands of years and
by thousands of miles apart, the essence of the various scriptures
and teachings is the same, and the masters describe similar
experiences.
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In the past, the masters stayed hidden. Now many masters have
come into the open; their character and behavior are available for
observation much of the time. To the abnormal man, they are utter
fools, for they behave in a diametrically opposite manner. The
abnormal man desires to attain satisfaction instantly and effortlessly.
But each master does the work of twenty men daily, year after year,
decade after decade, and what do they getinsults, ridicule, abuses,
persecutions and executions. The older they get, the harder they
work. Through it all, the peace, joy, compassion and wisdom they
emanate are palpable and increasingly so. If they are not
continuously sustained by a supremely stronger power, can they
hold up?
THIRD SIGN
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STEP THREE
ASANA
(Physical Posture)
Here the man strives to anchor his observation on the movement and
touch sensations. Initially he can begin with dynamic poses, such as
the sun salutation. Later he can add static poses into his practice and
anchor his observation on touch sensations. When he anchors his
observation, he keeps the warrior-self active.
Limited Observation
At this point, the man cannot intentionally observe more than
one object or stimulus simultaneously. Initially if he can
continuously observe the stimulus from one small area for several
seconds, he has performed well. If he is practicing correctly, he will
experience much active conflict and tension because numerous
reactions or impressions are striving to attract his observation, but
he cannot observe their types or contents. It is as if he clings tightly
to a tree, to the point of squeezing his eyes shut, because many
people are striving to drag him away. Therefore, he experiences
much active conflict and tension, but does not know who are
dragging him.
Excessive Effort
When the man strives to anchor his observation, he may
deliberately knit his eyebrows and clench his jaws, assuming that
these actions will help him to concentrate, but they definitely will
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not. Nevertheless, if his eyebrows are knitted and his jaws are
clenched due to habitual reactions, then he must allow them to
happen. The aim is to anchor his observation at all costs in order to
have a reference point to guide him. As for the tension due to
habitual reactions, he can deal with it later. Of course, if he can
anchor his observation with less excessive force, he will be able to
concentrate longer.
Sensory Observation
When the man practices, his body will react to these
unaccustomed movements. Some muscles will stretch and some
others will con-tract, resulting in tension and pain. Although he is
free to choose any part of the body to anchor his observation, it is
better to anchor it on the most painful part. The pain helps to trap
the observation. It also allows him to monitor the painful area to
avoid injuring it, thereby increasing his sensory observational ability
and sensitizing his sense of touch.
If he anchors his observation elsewhere, he is compelled to
ignore the painful area. It is possible for the pain to keep increasing
bit by bit and to keep ignoring it until it becomes severe, but still
unobserved, then severe injury may result. This phenomenon is
common. For instance, is it possible for a man to have a tumor as
big as a grapefruit in any part of his body without a long period of
numerous palpable adverse effects? It is certainly impossible, yet in
many cases, the tumor remains undiscovered for a long time if it is
discovered at all. For instance, the late anthropologist and generalist
Gregory Bateson had a grapefruit-sized malignant tumor in his
lungs, but it was only discovered during an exploratory operation.
What about the innumerable less severe cases? Indeed, it is difficult
to exaggerate mans ignorance and blindness toward his inner
conditions and external circumstances.
Kinesthetic Observation
The man will experience tension when the muscles contract or
stretch, but it is difficult to distinguish whether they are contracted
or stretched. When he bends his body forward, his reason tells him
that he is contracting the front muscles and stretching the back. But
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when he practices the Corpse pose, that is, lying still on the floor,
and attempts to observe the reactions, he will find it difficult to
distinguish between the two. Therefore, when he practices the
Corpse pose, while anchoring his observation on the most intense
reaction, he must attempt to distinguish the reactions of the muscles.
Besides making the practice more interesting, it helps to trap his
observation. Further, he learns to be more observant kinesthetically,
thereby sensitizing his kinesthetic organs. As he progresses, he will
observe increased varieties of movement and touch sensations.
Asana in Activity
If the man always crosses his right leg over the left, he has
unbalanced the body. Therefore, he can strive to balance it by
crossing his left leg over the right. If he does, he will be tensed up,
uncomfortable and awkward, another great opportunity to experience the adverse reactions. In general, the most efficient way, which
uses the least amount of force, is to sit with both feet on the ground.
Nonetheless, it is useful to cross his leg periodically, with the right
over the left, and vice versa. It keeps the muscles flexible.
If he always plays badminton with his right hand, then he can
learn to play with the left. If he wishes to burn calories, he will find
that playing with the left hand will burn more calories. He will be
tired faster, and his heart will beat faster. If his peers jeer and
ridicule him for playing badly, it is even better. If he can persistently strive to play with the left hand, it will balance and loosen his
body and personality significantly. Further, his observation will be
stronger, and he will learn much about his movement and touch
sensations.
Unbalanced All Round
At present, numerous kinds of backpacks are available, ranging
from small, cute backpacks carried by teenage girls to huge, sturdy
backpacks carried by soldiers and hikers, but none for the poor
businessman. The man who designs a backpack to match a business
suit will definitely make millions of dollars. Further, he will be
helping to prevent accidents because two free hands can react better
and faster to danger. He will also be helping to remove lopsided and
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hunched shoulders. To the designersinstead of endlessly pandering to vanity, what about taking up this worthy challenge for a
change? Ah, the poor man, he is unbalanced from right to left, front
to back. In the meantime, he can improvise by carrying his suitcase
with the other hand.
Reaction upon Reaction
If the man can perform the yogic poses and these activities
without reacting to them, he is beginning to balance himself. For
example, if he carries his suitcase with the left hand instead of the
usual right hand, he will usually react to this unaccustomed action
by pushing up his left shoulder because his left shoulder has already
accustomed itself to be higher than his right shoulder. If he is
willing to experience the active conflict and tension of letting the
suitcase pull down the left shoulder, then he will eventually become
more balanced.
It will take a while to distinguish between the unaccustomed
action on the body and the tendency to react to it. In general,
unaccustomed action causes tension, discomfort and awkwardness,
so he reacts to this action in order to remove them. If he succumbs
to this tendency to remove them, he is unbalancing himself further.
On the other hand, if he is willing to experience this tension,
discomfort and awkwardness, the body and personality will become
loose and balanced, and he will experience pleasurable impressions,
but he must not cling to them, otherwise he will become unbalanced
again, in a reverse way.
Because an action is simply a reaction of a preceding action,
talking in terms of action and reaction quickly leads to confusion.
Putting it simply, the man must act in such a way that will cause
tension, discomfort and awkwardness, but he must not act in any
way that will remove them. Still, he must learn to act wisely;
otherwise, he may become more unbalanced. For example, if he
carries a heavier suitcase with his usual right hand, he will suffer,
but this suffering will only unbalance him further. The need to be
constantly vigilant and discriminating cannot be overemphasized.
One moment an action is beneficial, the next moment it can be
harmful
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PRANAYAMA
(Regulation of the Breath)
When the man has mastered step three to a certain extent, then
initially he can reduce it by a few minutes and replace it with step
four. Step four is an extension of step three.
Here he strives to anchor his observation on finer movement
and touch sensations. In general, when he is at ease, his breathing
tends to be slow, even and deep. But when he is tense, it tends to be
rapid, erratic and shallow. When the muscles of the lungs are
erratically contracted, the lungs take in less air per breath; therefore,
the breathing rate must increase to compensate. Because breathing is
finer than physical poses, it reflects the inner conditions more
closely, helping him to observe them better. It also helps to weaken
the habitual reactions.
There are many breathing techniques, from slow and shallow to
rapid and deep. Initially, irrespective of which technique he uses, he
must learn to breathe slowly, gently and evenly even when the technique requires rapid breathing. In this case, he gradually increases
the breathing rate. When he breathes in an unaccustomed way, his
lungs, heart and other vital organs, in fact his entire body, are
affected. These organs may not be strong enough to handle drastic
changes. Because the reactions are finer and subtler, he may not be
able to observe them. Like asana, pranayama, particularly nadi
shodhan (alternate breathing), helps to balance the body and
personality.
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STEP FIVE
PRATYAHARA
(Controlling the Senses)
Here the man strives to anchor his observation on the sense stimuli.
He can anchor his observation by listening to music, that is, he
strives to hear the music continuously. If he hums and sings along
physically or mentally, then he is already lost in it, he is not hearing
it any longer. Therefore, initially it is easier to listen to neutral
sounds, such as the ticking of a clock. Later he can practice with
sounds he likes and strive to neutralize his attraction to them. He
can also practice with sounds he dislikes and strive to neutralize his
aversion to them.
He can practice with other sense stimuli in similar manners.
For instance, he can touch his own excrement, play with it, look at it
and smell it with continuous observation.
At stage one of the way, the vast majority of what he observes
is impressions; he can only observe a tiny number of stimuli
intermittently and briefly. Further, much of the time, he is unable to
distinguish between the impressions and the stimuli. In this step, he
strives to purify his distorted sense organs, making them sensitive,
keen and accurate.
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STEP SIX
DHARANA
(Concentration)
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STEP SEVEN
DHYANA
(Meditation)
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INSIGHT
ONE
Insight one is the transition point between stage one and stage two
of the way, so please look at the previous writing about these stages.
In the earlier steps, the appearance of awareness is shallow, very
brief and infrequent. Here it is already deep enough to perceive
glimpses of the thought impressions, but the man still cannot
perceive the beginning and ending of any thought impression, he
can only perceive the middle of it. At any rate, the appearance of
awareness is significant and frequent enough for him to realize the
existence of an entity that is different from the personality and that
can perceive it. Nonetheless, his perception is still vague and
nebulous.
Sudden Breakthrough
It is here that the man will usually experience a sudden,
significant breakthrough. How sudden, how significant, he will
experience this breakthrough depends on the way he struggles. If he
strives to increase the active conflict and tension rapidlylike
taking a steep path up a hillthen he will experience a sudden,
significant breakthrough.
When Zen disciples enter a secluded training period known as
sesshin in Japanese, they are attempting to climb up the hill by the
steepest path. They are required to sit still and work on a koan for
long hours throughout the day and night for many days. If they doze
off, they are beaten. They are even encouraged to forego sleep.
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TWO
Here stage two of the way begins. The struggle becomes subtler.
The man has managed to neutralize the movement and sense
impressions considerably. The feeling impressions become predominant, but they have also weakened quite considerably, otherwise he will not be able to perceive them because he will be lost in
them.
He begins to perceive the beginning of a thought impression,
but still cannot perceive its ending. He perceives the first part of it,
and then his perception jumps to the first part of another thought
impression. In perceiving thoughts, he identifies with the perceiver;
therefore, he knows he is the perceiver, not the personality. Thus,
insight two is also the beginning of the insightpurification by
overcoming doubt.
Decreasing Warrior-Self, Increasing Perceiver
When the warrior-self is stronger than the other active self of
the moment, then the perceiver can appear. But it can only appear if
the warrior-self is willing to decrease. For example, assuming the
warrior-self has fourteen units of force and the other active self has
ten units, if all the fourteen units are anchored on a point, then there
is no perceiver although the man can observe the point continuously
with little struggle.
If, however, he anchors only twelve units on the point, the
other two units become awareness and therefore can perceive other
impressions. As the perceiver becomes bigger, it can perceive more
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MEDITATION
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change them in any way and without caring about grammar and the
sentence structure. If there are few thought impressions, then he can
describe the other types of impressions and the stimuli that fall
within his observation. How can the soul work on the writing if the
personality is never quiet and always intruding? Hence, he must
strive to write without expectation. That is, he must be willing to
keep on writing even though he had written nothing but junk for a
long time, and he must write as diligently as if he is writing to save
his neck.
As he advances, he can increase the number of writing hours
and allow a little flexibility in the number of writing hours and the
time of writing. If useful material begins to appear substantially,
then he must change his writing practice, that is, he must be willing
to experiment, in order to clothe this material appropriately.
Writing is merely one of the innumerable activities the man can
incorporate into his struggle. At insight three, the soul is already
big; hence, it is already playing a significant role in his life. He does
not have to care about what to do or where to go. As he advances,
he will increasingly receive promptings from the soul. The challenge is to be opened to these promptings and be willing to carry out
whatever task that is given him. As long as he is not sidetracked
from the actual aim, the nature of the task is immaterial simply
because he is struggling to work without any expectation.
A PERSONAL TASK
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BACK
Non-Constancy of Tension
Earlier it is mentioned that eventually the degree of conflict and
tension within the personality becomes maximum and constanta
constant maximum. It is not true. It is done in order to simplify the
subject matter lest it becomes too unwieldy. So please continue to
consider it as true until this point. By now, it must be obvious that
nothing can stay constant; nothing is permanent, except change.
If the reader finds it helpful, he may consider it an average
constant maximum. That is, if the personality is rigid, its tension
fluctuates closely around this average; if it is loose, then its tension
fluctuates more widely around this average. Further, energy is not
limited to a constant amount; it is inexhaustible. The amount that is
absorbed by the man depends on his ability to expend it, as the
personality or soul or both, through the body.
In the long term, the average constant maximum can change. If
the man constantly avoids struggle and difficulty, physically and
mentally, then his body and brain atrophy and weaken. Hence, the
average constant maximum decreases, and he increasingly gets tired
after only holding on to a little tension, after only expending a little
force, a little effort. Naturally, he can only absorb a little energy.
And if energy is continually expended through permanent muscular
tension, it will gradually be reduced because the body will gradually
be weakened by the permanent muscular tension.
Looking at treading the way from this angleit is the struggle
to remove the obstruction from the body to allow energy to flow
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into it freely and use it without hindrance. In other words, the body
must become a fit instrument for the soul. As the man advances, he
absorbs more energy; the tension increases, and only a strong,
flexible and resilient body can withstand it and act as a conduit.
Comparing the body to an elastic tube, as an increasing amount of
water passes through the tube, it is stretched, increasing its diameter
and tension. The body is also like a radio. A powerful radio can
receive signals from many broadcasting stations and convert them
into sounds clearly.
FREQUENCIES OF ENERGY
unnoticed. When he was lecturing for the first time, he was probably
self-conscious, which is merely the noticing of conflicting
impressions, compelling him to experience impressions of being
exposed, unmasked, naked.
At insight two, the man can perceive and neutralize the first
part of his thoughts, but still cannot perceive and neutralize them
completely. That is, he can perceive his intention before acting on it.
His thoughts still automatically lead to actions unless checked by
opposing desire.
At insight three, he can perceive and neutralize some of his
thoughts completely, enabling him not to act on them and not to
displace any force. That is, at times his awareness is strong enough
to neutralize some of the thoughts completely. But if there is no
active warrior-self at other times, his awareness will still be converted into attention somewhat, and his thoughts will still lead to
actions. In observation practice, the warrior-self actually serves as
opposing desire, checking the other desires.
Toward the end of insight three, at times his awareness may
even be strong enough to stand on its own. Awareness is vulnerable
but not necessary weak. Here vulnerability implies the absence of
defenses, not weakness. When awareness is small and weak, the
warrior-self must protect it, otherwise not. In fact, only the strong
can be vulnerable; the weak is always hiding behind defenses.
In short, the man can only perceive after neutralizing the
conflicting impressions, that is, conflict and tension, and he can only
notice the conflicting impressions when they are active. Otherwise,
he cannot perceive or notice.
For this reason, on the one hand, constantly immersed in
passive conflict and tension, he finds life tedious, dreary, and time
seems to hang heavy. On the other hand, due to his inability to
perceive and notice, apart from tedium and dreariness, he is oblivious to everything, including the passing of time. Hence, during the
rare moments when he happens to notice it, time seems to move so
fast that it seems to him as if he was still only a child yesterday.
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A WARRIOR-MAN
When there is the warrior-self, the man will relate to other people as
the warrior-man. That is, he treats other people the way the warriorself treats the other selves.
Remember, the warrior-self has the same nature as the other
selves. They have the same mother, the personality; thus, they are
all brothers and sisters. The warrior-self definitely does not hate the
other selves. In fact, it is so compassionate toward them that it is
willing to suffer to remove their sufferings.
An example, imagine the man and his two-year-old child in a
forest, and a poisonous snake bites his child. The man will tightly
grab hold of his child and cut his flesh to drain the poison away
although his child may be beating and cursing him, out of ignorance
and pain. Naturally, the man will attempt to cause as little pain as
possible. Later, maybe years later, the child may realize that it was
out of love that his father did what he had done, and then he will be
grateful to him.
Hence, the warrior-man must not expect any gratitude from
other people, particularly those close to him. They will be affected
most and therefore will criticize and condemn him most. If they are
grateful to him, it will be years later. Anyway, the man treading the
way strives not to seek for any recognition irrespective of what he
has done.
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Way of Aloneness
Further, the warrior-self never directly attacks the other selves.
It only strives to fulfill its own duty, which is to anchor its observation. Hence, the warrior-man must not attack anyone even if he is
attacked. He must only strive to tread the way without letting
anyone prevents him from doing so.
If he can tread the way without anyone knowing about it, it is
the best. Anyway, the way is one of aloneness. If he is practicing
correctly, even if a thousand people practice together with him, he
will still be alone. If he is not staying alone, then he can just tell his
household members that he is striving to reduce conflict and
tension, leaving it at that. And that is what the way is all about.
Aloneness is the opposite of loneliness. Loneliness is due to
contraction, separation and exclusion. Hence, the further he
advances, the less he will experience loneliness irrespective of
circumstances.
Leaving Others Alone
Regardless of how crucial and necessary the man believes in
treading the way, he must not try to convince or help others. He
must not succumb to this desire regardless of how strong it is. How
can he help others when he is still blind and weak?
Many preachers and evangelists had fallen because of this
mistake. It is unlikely that all of them had intentionally used religion
to gain wealth and power. At least some of them strongly desired to
help others, but they were dragged into the pit because they were
still weak. When a preacher is still unknown, nobody cares about
him. But when he becomes influential, then many people will strive
to manipulate him by offering desirable gifts to him or threatening
him. The first commandment of Jesus must come first. The higher
he climbs, the deeper and broader the foundation must be.
Even more imperative, the man must strive to restrain his
colossal desire to experience impressions of superiority and
importance. Teaching, advising, preaching, correcting and criticizing are the most common actions taken to experience impressions
of superiority and importance because these actions allow him to
experience these impressions without any labor on his part. But if he
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strives to teach himself, he must labor very hard and still experience
impressions of impotency and nothingness. Is it surprising that
everybody is an expert at teaching others, but incompetent at
teaching himself?
This colossal desire to teach others can only be neutralized by
his merciless struggle to teach himself. In so doing, he will realize
the colossal difficulty to teach himself and therefore the colossal
absurdity and foolishness of attempting to teach others. Further, he
will be liberated from the colossal pain due to his colossal desire to
teach, particularly his colossal propensity to be offended and
irritated by the heedlessness of others toward his teaching.
He does not have to worry about helping others. When he is
ready, when he is strong and knows how to help, he will be
compelled to help whether he likes it or not. Instead of preaching
out of desire, it is safer to be like Jonah. It is safer to be compelled
to teach. When Sri Ramakrishna told his disciple, Vivekananda, that
he would teach people, Vivekananda replied he would not do any
such thing. His master retorted, Your very bones will do it.
Well, Vivekananda ended up teaching all over America and
Europe.
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A NORMAL MAN
When there is the soul, he will relate to other people as the normal
man. That is, he treats other people the way the soul treats the
selves. The way the normal man treats other people can be
compared to how Carl Rogers treats his clients and how Maria
Montessori treats her pupils.
Carl Rogers
In On Becoming a Person, Carl Rogers gives a detailed account
of his experiences and discoveries. This book can also be useful at
the beginning of the way because the warrior-self strives to prepare
the way for the soul by striving to adopt the attributes of the soul,
particularly the attribute of treating all impressions with equal
regard.
Rogers does not write about the soul, spirit or god. To him, his
own direct experience has the highest authority. He calls the entity
that is more intelligent than all his accumulated knowledge, training
and skills his total organism. In fact, he develops the method
client-centered therapyonly after he had tried a great many of
the known methods and found them futile and inconsequential.
CLIENT-CENTERED THERAPY
his clients state, then change and constructive personal development will invariably occur. . . .
In a way, Rogerss awareness serves to illuminate the clients
impressions, helping the client to observe them. It is like a one-way
mirror used in an interrogation room. Rogers, outside the room, can
look through the mirror as if it is a piece of transparent glass. When
his client, inside the room, looks at the mirror, he sees his own
reflection, that is, he observes his own impressions. His projection is
reflected back to him.
Initially the client will react to his desire for approval and fear
of disapproval. When, however, Rogerss unconditional warm
regard for him and absence of approval and disapproval no matter
what he says or does eventually breaks through, then his defenses
come down. Because he is never praised or criticized, his reactions
slow down, enabling him to observe them. More important, in the
absence of praise and criticism, his attachment to or rejection of
these reactions weakens.
An example of a rudimentary client-centered therapy in everyday life: if John teases Janet and Janet reacts with annoyance, John
will probably keep on teasing her because his desire to annoy her is
satisfied. If Janet attempts to ignore him, it will only provoke John
to intensify his teasing. But if Janet calmly looks at him or calmly
carries on with her work, Johns behavior will be reflected back to
him like a mirror. He will observe his silliness, become uneasy and
uncomfortable; hence, he will cease to tease. It does not bring
pleasure anymore but pain. This technique of neutralizing the
actions of others can be applied effectively to other interactions,
such as indulgence in self-pity, pride or anger.
EXPERIENCE OF ONENESS
The peace and joy they exhibited are palpable even to visitors.
Gabriel Marcel, the famous French writer, speaks of the astonishment which I felt when, for the first time, I visited a small
Montessori school at Sevres. What struck me mostit is not too
much to say, what caused me a profound emotionwas to see with
my own eyes in this school, children not only working with perfect
calm, but children who were in the grip of a mysterious happiness.
A mysterious happinessI repeat the wordsfor I would have
them penetrate your souls like a melody.
INTELLIGENCE AND HARMONY
Many of these pupils, ages from four to five years, spontaneously begin to writewithout having been taught. In an appropriate environment, their intelligence automatically starts to acquire
useful information and skills.
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To The Reader
The author is now experiencing the ending of insight three. He
is also experiencing some glimpses of insight four. Hence, he has
understated the normal mans abilities and attributes simply because
he is still not yet completely normal. The aim of what is written
previously is to attain the soul.
From here onward, what is written is primarily based on what
he has read and on his theoretical understanding. It is primarily to
point the way beyond the personality and to close the subject of this
book. Some of the previous terms and concepts will be modified
and expanded.
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INSIGHT FOUR
AGAIN
Insight four is known as the ten corruptions of insight. Has the man
struggled for many arduous years to arrive here to experience
corruptions? Well, the ten corruptions are brilliant light, mindfulness, knowledge, faith, rapture, tranquility, happiness, energy,
equanimity and subtle attachment. These are extremely fine states.
The personality does not have any accessed to these corruptions.
The rare flashes of the soul impressions the man may have experienced are just a tiny fraction of these states.
They are known as the ten corruptions because insight four is
only the intermediate stage; there is more distance to tread. Hence,
he must not assume that he has attained enlightenment and that he
can now rest and enjoy himself for eternity. Spiritual teachings state
that there is no rest; the struggle is endless. Here the soul
consolidates its control over the body and personality, preparing
itself for even more terrible struggle. Therefore, if the man clings to
these extremely desirable and fine states, he begins to regress.
Consequently, now he must struggle to avoid clinging to these soul
impressions. Here he can struggle to do more than one activity at the
same time and do them well.
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INSIGHT FOUR
night of the spirit in his second book, he also writes about insight
four in the first two chapters of his second book.
World-Creator
The manner the confined spirit creates the world can be
compared to the manner the personality creates the impressions. An
example, imagine an abnormal man walking alone through a
graveyard at midnight after watching a ghost movie. If his reactions
to the movie are mild, he notices the thought impressions of the
ghost. If his reactions are strong, then he feels its presence. If they
are stronger, then he sees and hears it. At its height, he is touched
and may even struggle with it.
The stronger the reactions, the more the impressions of the
ghost are stepped down to the coarser impressions. Hence,
impressions of the ghost become coarser. (If the mans thoughts
frequently evoke such strong impressions, particularly impressions
not normally noticed by others, then he is labeled a neurotic, a
psychotic, a schizophrenic, or by another fancy name.)
Just as the coarse impressions faded away when the selves are
neutralized, so the world will fade away when the souls are
neutralized. At insight four, the inner conflict is gone; the man has
acquired inner harmonythe first liberation. At enlightenment, the
entire conflict is gone; the man has acquired complete harmony
the second liberation.
At enlightenment, the man is conscious of nothing not because
he is unconscious, but because there is nothing to be conscious of.
He has attained pure awareness and oneness. About this state, in The
Science of Yoga, Taimini writes:
Each successive stage of unfolding of consciousness
increases tremendously its vividness and clarity, and
brings an added influx of knowledge and power. It is
absurd to suppose therefore that in the last state which
marks the climax of this unfolding, consciousness lapses
suddenly into a vague and nebulous state.
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Impeccable Action
Below is a tangible demonstration of an ability of a man who
can penetrate deeply into the void at will.
In Zen in the Art of Archery, Eugen Herrigel gives an account
of his practice. For years, he was required to draw the bow and hold
it at the point of highest tension indefinitely, without any intent to
release the shot and without aiming. For a long time he found it
impossible to hold it for more than a few moments.
His Master Kenzo Awa stressed that the shot does not depend
on the bow, but on the presence of mind, on the vitality and
awareness with which you shoot and that The hits on the target
are only the outward proof and confirmation of your purposelessness at its highest, of your egolessness, your self-abandonment,
or whatever you like to call this state. There are different grades of
mastery, and only when you have made the last grade will you be
sure of not missing the goal.
Herrigel replied, That is just what I cannot get into my head. I
think I understand what you mean by the real, inner goal which
ought to be hit. But how it happens that the outer goal, the disc of
paper, is hit without the archers taking aim, and that the hits are
only outward confirmations of inner eventsthat correspondence is
beyond me.
Master Awa answered, You are under an illusion if you
imagine that even a rough understanding of these dark connections
would help you. These are processes which are beyond the reach of
understanding.
To demonstrate what he meant, Master Awa shot at the target
twice in darkness. It was so dark that Herrigel could not even see
the outline of the target. When Herrigel switched on the light, he
discovered to his amazement that the first arrow was lodged full in
the middle of the black, while the second arrow had splintered the
butt of the first and ploughed through the shaft before embedding
itself beside it.
On critically surveying the shots, the Master said, The first
shot was no great feat, you will think, because after all these years I
am so familiar with my target-stand that I must know even in pitch
darkness where the target is. That may be, and I wont try to pretend
otherwise. But the second arrow which hit the firstwhat do you
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make of that? I at any rate know that it is not I who must be given
credit for this shot. It shot and It made the hit. Let us bow to the
goal as before the Buddha!
Is there any need to comment on the supremely impeccable and
harmonious action of Master Awa? Is it possible to make any
sensible comment? Anyway, probably he is still not perfect. Perhaps
perfection implies the ability to be that impeccable in all activities
and under all circumstances.
In Zen: Dawn in the West, Roshi Kapleau says:
Before awakening one can easily ignore or rationalize his
shortcomings, but after enlightenment this is no longer
possible; ones failings are painfully evident. Yet at the
same time a strong determination develops to rid oneself
of them. Even opening the Minds eye fully does not at
one fell swoop purify the emotions. Continuous training
after enlightenment is required to purify the emotions so
that our behavior accords with our understanding. This
vital point must be clearly understood.
For interested readers, The Holotropic Mind by Stanislav Grof
and Hal Zina Bennett contains numerous accounts of experiences
beyond insight four, that is, in the realm of the transpersonal. The
Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot contains numerous
research findings regarding people with paranormal abilities. Many
researchers and scientists find that the holographic model helps to
explain many mysterious phenomena of nature. Besides that, the
holographic model also helps to explain practically all the
transpersonal and paranormal experiences.
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IN
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OF
MAN
Physical Man
When the man is predominantly physical, he is just above the higher
animals. As long as the basic needsfood, clothing, shelter, and
safetyof his family and himself are met, he is contented.
Therefore, if there is little change in external circumstances, he
faces little conflict. He lives from day to day and seldom worries
about the next day. His personality is composed primarily of
movement and sense impressions, but very few feeling and thought
impressions. Because for eon his instinctive life revolved around
food, shelter and safety, naturally his thought impressions
automatically focus on food, shelter and safety.
Emotional Man
Further along, when more thought impressions appear and
when the elastic bands connecting these thought impressions to the
movement and sense impressions become stronger, he becomes
predominantly emotional. He can now worry about the immediate
future. This naturally increases the desire to acquire more necessities to safeguard him against it. Further, he needs to be reassured
that he is loved and will be cared for a hundred times a day. Hence,
the conflict increases. He still cannot think rationally; all his thought
impressions are focused on what he desires. If he cannot get what he
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EVOLUTION
already done much needed work in their past lives. Living as normal
man is merely the first step up and an initial fruit.
During involution, the man is a slave to matter. He strives to
evolve when he strives to be a slave to the soul, that is, when he
strives to be obedient to spiritual laws, but that is not the end. Just
before Jesus was about to be crucified, he said to his disciples, No
longer do I call you slaves, for the slave does not know what his
master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I
have heard from My Father I have made known to you. Hence,
after reaching a certain point, he becomes an active participant in
the spiritual realm until eventually he realizes his oneness with
everything, that is, until he becomes the master of everythingthe
final fruit.
It is possible to expedite evolution and to reduce conflict and
tension to the minimum necessary. Of course, the man can choose to
be half beaten to death before consenting to move a step forward.
That is, he can repeat the same mistake a million times before
struggling to abstain. In contrast, the more he struggles to avoid
repeating the same mistake, the faster he advances, and the less
conflict and tension he has to endure.
Referring to the Finland study, in terms of one lifetime, it was a
disaster to the diet group. In terms of evolution, it is probably a
success, and one lifetime is merely a drop in the ocean. Although
the diet group suffered a lot more and died earlier than the control
group, in terms of evolution, the diet group would advance faster
because the diet group would realize the futility of neutralizing
conflict and tension within the personality faster. Nevertheless, if
the diet group knew how to struggle rightly, that is, how to
neutralize the personality itself, then for the same amount of
suffering, the diet group would have advanced even faster and
further.
In terms of mans history, Jesus is a complete disaster. His very
birth already caused numerous deaths. Why, his first speech in his
hometown almost caused him to be thrown off a cliff. And who can
tally up the atrocities committed on his behalf? In terms of
evolution, he is a complete success, for he appeared to cast fire and
bring division. He probably succeeded in bringing the hidden inner
conflicts to the surface more than anyone known to mankind.
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A. H. Almaas says:
Our situation really is much more difficult, much more
profound than we allow ourselves to see for a long time.
Thats why we speak of the terror of the situation
because it is so frightening to finally realize and admit
how lost we are, and how at the mercy we are of so many
elements that we have no handle on. The terror of the
situation has a lot to do with how much we believe what
we think we know, with how much we are caught in the
gravity of our planet of conventional reality, believing it to
be the center of the universe and sometimes all that
exists. We usually do not realize that our experience of
reality has to shift only a little bit and all will disappear,
leaving us totally terrified.
The way is truly very difficult. The first essential step is to
acknowledge its difficulty sincerely, followed by the struggle to
accept it unconditionally to a certain extent. Paradoxically, the
moment we can unconditionally accept its difficulty, the difficulty
lessens, but it is difficult to unconditionally accept anything that
gives us pain.
The Dalai Lama says, I believe deeply that we must find, all
of us together, a new spirituality. This new concept ought to be
elaborated alongside the religions in such a way that all people of
goodwill could adhere to it. Perhaps this book, written as a result
of grace and as an act of faith, can contribute a drop toward this aim.
I do not know whether this book is of any value to you, but it is
of value to me. Everyday I find myself making the same mistakes
again and again. Mistakes I have succeeded in abstaining many
times before. Mistakes I know I can continue to abstain if I am
willing to face the pain of doing so. But time after time, I indulge.
Hence, I need to be repeatedly kicked by my own blunt statements.
By the way, I am definitely not a master. A master can enter
the void at will. He can perceive his disciples inner conditions
directly. How can he be responsible for his disciple if he cannot do
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that? I am still far away from that; merely one amongst many on the
journey of endless discovery.
Each of us is indispensable.
Each of us is heading home.
No one will be left behind.
No one can be left behind.
Each of us has traveled long and far.
As we head for home,
As we reduce our own conflict,
We will be able to help one another,
Thereby bringing harmony to the world.
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