Beruflich Dokumente
Kultur Dokumente
Author(s): Marianne Weems, Jessica Chalmers, Andrea Fraser, Martha Baer and Erin
Cramer
Source: October, Vol. 71, feminist issueS (Winter, 1995), pp. 120-140
Published by: The MIT Press
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THE V-GIRLS
From left to right: Andrea Fraser,
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Marianne: This is from The Handbook of Women's Liberation, by Joan Robbins (1970):
Discuss your relationships with other women. Have you ever felt
competition for men? [ Go around circle, answering yes or no.]
Discuss your relationships with men as they evolved. Have you noticed
any recurring patterns? [Go around circle, answering yes or no.]
Have you ever felt men pressured you into having sexual relationships?
Have you ever lied about orgasm? [ Go around circle, answering yes or no.]
Discuss your parents and their relationship to each other and to you.
OCTOBER 71, Winter 1995, pp. 121-40. ? 1995 The V-Girls.
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All: No.
Jessica: Five women, sitting in semicircular formation, attempting in their own way
to relive the glory days of early seventies feminism. Martha, Erin, Marianne,
Jessica, Andrea. Five girls, V-girls, nice girls, white girls, not boys. They sit
before you as daughters, staking a claim to a revolution they only barely
remember from childhood, from photos, or from books. Of course, they
retain certain fragments of the feminist past: a certain vocabulary of consciousness (false or true), of male supremacy, the dialectics of sex, abortion
on demand. Freedom now! Sisterhood is powerful! Women of the world
unite!
embroidered jackets, the granny glasses, the men's pants, those jean skirts
made from pants with triangles in the middle, those stretch socks with eyes
printed on them...
Andrea: Well, Jess, that list doesn't really represent my vision of the early seventies.
Marianne: I don't think feminists wore those triangle skirts.
You see them here, sitting before you sincerely, in homage, trying their
hand at consciousness-raising. With their CR guidebook in hand, with their
practice also humbly in question, what they are hoping is that, somehow,
they, too, might achieve what was so feelingly called "Liberation."
Like so many other women before us, we were drawn to come together
as a group. We were attracted by the idea of a collective empowerment, to
the idea that speaking together about our experience might provide the
basis for radical critique. Envious, we read about the good times, hard
times, and political frenzy of groups that began in the late sixties or early
seventies: Cell 16, The Feminists, The Furies, Redstockings, New York
Radical Feminists, WITCH. We, too, would like to join a struggle, to strug-
well, if we attend them, our reluctance to join right in, the way we stand off
Erin: Whyyy?!
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Martha: We've already talked about that sort of thing endlessly and haven't
produced anything. I don't see it informing us strategically; it's facile and
ineffectual and above all self-absorbed, and I know it won't move the more
Marianne: I agree.
Erin: Why do you agree??!
Marianne: I do agree.
Erin: I can't believe you agree.
Andrea: I don't agree.
Erin: No, I don't agree either.
Martha: Well, I agree.
Erin: Look, this is not about personalities and alliances.
Andrea: I agree.
Erin: It's about agreement.
Jessica: Yes, we are deeply committed to "something," have put our faith, sincerely,
in "something." And so you find us here this evening, semicircular in the
attempt to raise this "something," a ghost from the past, that obscure object,
the thing called "consciousness."
Unfortunately, it will not be possible to conduct a live consciousnessraising session in front of you this evening. In fact, we're reading from
scripts.
Marianne: The Origins of Radical Feminism. Some of you are familiar with the stories
of how the northern workers for the civil rights movement were organized,
how the female volunteers, black and white, were assigned the typing, the
cooking, and the cleaning of the "freedom houses." And some of you may
have heard the stories about how this kind of "organization" continued into
the student movement and led many (primarily white) women to begin to
perceive themselves as an oppressed class. The movement's egalitarian ideology only emphasized the growing oppression women experienced within it.
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Marianne: Oh my god.
Andrea: Oh, that's right. Does that count?
Marianne: That was one intense statement. Yes, that counts.
Marianne: That was so good. I don't have any; this is the only one: I grew up
entirely with men until I met the V-Girls.
Andrea: No, I've never felt that I belonged in any group.
My false consciousness is revealing itself. OK. I have a big family. I have
two brothers, two sisters, three mothers. But whenever we got together I
always had the feeling that someone was missing. Then I realized that it was
me. I was missing.
clothes. The neighbors shot our monkey and impounded our dogs and
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mous crowds, and I find it unbearable. I know that within those political
groups bound by a purpose are all of these psychological groups bound in
identification. In those groups I can never feel safe.
But this isn't about women, is it? I'm supposed to be talking about
groups of women, right? I guess I have to think about it some more.
Martha: Do you want us to come back to you, Andrea?
Andrea: Yeah.
Erin: The mother was this Martha Washington doll I had, so the father was
obviously going to be George Washington, but I didn't have a George
Washington doll, so the father was always away at the war. It was an entire
family of women-five daughters and a mother/daughter/servant team who
were made out of corn husks and attached to each other with a paper clip. I
did have one male doll, but he was so tall he could only fit in the bottom part
of the house, so he was this perpetual suitor, always in the living room, a per-
manent visitor.
All: Wow.
Erin: When I was in high school, I had this really intense group of female friends,
and a lot of us went to summer camp together. There were about ten of us in
the middle of the woods, and we had our own octagonal yurt, and it was so
fabulous running around with this band of girls.
Martha: At this point in our conversation, Erin points to an experience most of us
have had, but one that we have never fully understood. It is this experience
of being in a "band" of girls. Erin's choice of words-"band" as opposed to
the more generic "group"-is an apt one. But why? What is a "band"? Why
did so many of us join them?
Erin: People would say that we were going to be lesbians. You know, like boys say
when they're really jealous that you don't need them.
Martha: Lezzies, lezzies. Animals. Packs. As is clear from the responses of others,
the fear of our banding together was not produced single-handedly. It was
circulated by others generously. For us, however, there was a wish to protect
the secret, the secret of our desire. We never spoke a word of it.
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Erin: I'd like to say that when I got to college, Jessica was the person who convinced
Erin: I was very caught up in feeling inferior about the status of women in the
university. I took it very personally. I think that Women's Studies balanced
out all the feelings that I was having about the theory that I was reading-I
think I felt sort of disabled by it on a certain level, so the department became
Raising Rules and Topics." Bottom page under "Rules," first line: "In
questioning a speaker, you are not to judge." [Pointing into the audience] That
man in the third row from the front, sixth from the left-that man is judging me. The one with the blue shirt on.
Marianne: I noticed him, too. And there's a man in the back row who's been judging Erin ever since we sat down.
Erin: Where?
Jessica: But I feel like they're being really supportive, you guys.
I mean, I have so much on my mind. You guys, I really can't stomach any
more awareness-all these "social constructions," all these "paradigms." And
with that huge bowl of tomato soup we had for-I'm afraid if I think about
how I'm oppressed as a woman in my daily life even the least little bit more
I'm going to throw up.
Erin: What are we doing here? Are we acting out some kinky fantasy of wholeness?
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authentic self? All right, before we go any further, I want to ask you guys
something: Does anybody here actually believe in the self?
[Nobody raises her hand; finally Martha's hand goes up timidly.]
Martha: Uh, I do. Not my self. But I believe in some of yours.
Erin: Let's say for argument's sake that I did believe in the self-I mean, I do sign
my name to checks, but that's just a formality, a social convention, really, and
I only have a bank account because everyone else does. I mean, why make
your life difficult just for your principles? I have noticed that someone wears
my clothes every day and gets them dirty, which leads me to conclude that
even if I don't have a self I do at least have a body.
I guess the problem I'm having is, if you don't accept the idea of a fixed
self, how do you even begin to think about a liberated self? What would that
be? Every time I start to think about it, all I can come up with is Julia
Kristeva singing "Free to Be You and Me." I can't figure it out.
Marianne: Let's recuperate Kristeva's statement that "on a deeper level, a woman
cannot 'be'; it is something which does not even belong in the order of being.
In 'woman' I see something that cannot be represented, something that is
not said, something above and beyond nomenclatures and ideologies."
Andrea: I don't understand. I don't know why we're making all of these academic
references. We didn't do that in our CR. Is this what we think our audience
knows? Or is this what we want them to know? Do we really think they need
this background in order to be part of the group?
Martha: I think it's what we think the audience wants us to know. For instance, we
could just tell them: "We know, we know all about it-Kristeva, history-all
of it. Promise."
Jessica: But consciousness-raising isn't an attempt to fix identification, Erin (if you
will allow me to speak to you in this tone, the tone of one who knows better).
It isn't a "kinky fantasy of wholeness," as you so, er, nicely put it. No. It's
more like this: I come to the group, they are welcoming; I'm crying, they
understand; I tell my story, they listen. Consciousness-raising is about let-
Maria,1,:.- Hey! What about a song? This is a little something called "Both Sides
Now." Can I borrow that guitar?
All: "I've looked at love from both sides now
From in and out
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Marianne: My experiences with groups of women. Well, I've always run with girl
gangs, and I'm certain that I picked up a strong sense at a very young age
that men were, well, had some kind of...
Erin: Cooties.
Marianne: Instability associated with them. You know, always flying off the handle,
scaring little girls. In high school I had a very strong group of girlfriends. We
all had boyfriends, but they were sort of secondary characters, you know,
awkwardly encountered but handy socially, in a lopey, fun lovin' way. But I
guess underneath I was mystified by them, and actually I resented them
because they seemed to come equipped with regulations and judgments that
I had no relationship to-and I still don't.
Jessica: One wonders how many sophisticated feminist theorizations in support of
separatism derive from what every ten-year-old girl knows: that boys are
gross. This knowledge, usually repressed during the critical adolescent years,
returns to haunt women with a vengeance only much later in life, when they
once again come into violent conflict with the opposite sex. During a
divorce, or faced with the opposition of an all-male tenure committee, or
washing the dirty dishes a man has left in her sink, a woman will suddenly
remember her earlier attitude. Little boys, she remembers, grab and break
things. They eat their own snot. Bigger boys are the same. They look at dirty
magazines. They are quick to smell a fart and eager to discuss it.
Martha:Just go ahead.
Jessica: Do it.
Marianne: Well, what I haven't revealed is that for the first fifteen years of my life, I
was raised entirely by a pack of wolves.
Erin: Really.
All: Wow.
Marianne: Until I was adopted by Gloria Steinem in 1969. Gloria and I became
very tight, good friends, really, until the split around Ms. in 1975. At that
time, I tried to defend her, you know, against the accusations of CIA
involvement, etc. But in the end we drifted away from each other.
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Jessica: Listen, I don't want you to get the wrong idea from what I said before. I
mean, I really do like men. I like their... I like their sideburns ... I like the
way they imitate Beavis and Butthead.
Marianne: Well, I guess I like the way they eat so much.
Jessica: Yeah, I like the way they can control everything when they want to.
Marianne: I like the way their butts are so ... tiny.
Jessica: [A la Beavis and Butthead] Heh heh heh heh. But, you know, actually I feel
kind of mad. There's such a lot of pressure on someone who is an advocate
of gender equality or transformation to make a statement like that one, to
disavow anger. Nowadays, in an atmosphere of "backlash," of what you might
Jessica: [Attempting unsuccessfully to light a bra on fire] Yeah, but so much of that is
feminism.
Erin: You guys, you're never going to believe this, but I met the two men who
single-handedly provoked the second wave of feminism!
Martha: You did? Where?
Erin: At work! At first they just seemed like ordinary middle-aged men, but then I
started to put two and two together.
Marianne: What happened?
Erin: They seemed to feel there was a need for a documentary about feminism
told by and for white men-so they staffed it with four white men between
the ages of 45 and 75, and me. And little by little, I started to realize who
these guys were. I was at a script meeting with the producers and we got to a
line in the script that said, "Well, we've all come a long way since the first
tentative protests of the women's libbers." I said, "Do we have to use the
word 'tentative?"' And my executive producer looks at me, and he says,
"You're too young to remember, but they were tentative. I remember CBS
put out a memo saying that women had to wear skirts. And one day, all the
women changed into pants before lunch and went to the cafeteria. And
right after lunch they changed back into their skirts. They were tentative.
You just don't remember because you're too young.
Andrea: So what did you do?
Marianne: Can I go on with my CR, please? Before I took off with Neil for the
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And I'll never forget the time I was Norman Mailer. Town Hall, 1972.
There I was, stuck on stage with Jill Johnston. She brought her girlfriend up
and started making out with her. Tried to pass it off as some kind of political
action. I told her to stop it and act like a lady.
Jessica: Should I go now? [Shuffling papers] Well, I've prepared three versions, and
I'm not sure which one I should read.
Jessica: Well, I'm not really sure which one that would be. The first one I wrote is
too ... intellectual. I don't really like it. It's full of references. It's written in
French. Another one is written in, well, baby talk. The last one, though, is
very clean, totally error-free.
Martha: Read the first one.
Andrea: Read the last one.
Marianne: Read the last one.
Jessica: Ah. OK. "My mommy was my vewy first girl gwoup."
Oh, sorry. That was the wrong one. OK.
There was a sense in which my mother was my first girl group. We have
been very close. But when I became a feminist, when I took that politics to
heart, I needed her to do it too. She just couldn't. She said, "What do you
want? Do you want me to leave your father?" And with that I felt like I really
started to lose her.
Martha: The narrative. Beautiful. What would we do without it? With impressive
focus, Jessica arranges the memories of her life. Rummaging through the
material of her past, she plots a series of developments that, she hopes, will
culminate in transformation, a reinscription of who she is and a catalyst for
some unpredictable change.
Jessica: It was at an anti-rape rally anti-rape rally on Barnard's front lawn that I first bonded with
Marianne. There we were, about twelve women at the most, wearing this red
face paint, you know, to signify blood, I guess, and chanting in unison about
a woman who was gang raped in New London on a pool table. We were these
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serious young girls, weaving around with our painted faces; we called it
"keening."
I also started a group called the Feminist Union, which was really a
consciousness-raising group. There was an incredible sense that our private
experience suddenly had, you know, authority. And there were the parties,
the mutual back rubs; there was the kicking the men out, the formation of
the men's feminist union, the intense controversies over race and sex. In
some sense the V-Girls also stem from that period at Barnard. Erin was a
member, and so was Marianne, who became my girlfriend. And there was
Martha, who...
Andrea: But, but! You say all this knowing I wasn't there. You're talking about all
the fun, but you know I wasn't part of it. You think that just because I, you
think I didn't go to an Ivy League school, a Seven Sisters, you think that just
because I ... You all get together when I'm not around! You say things I don't
understand. You have a secret! You go on trips.
Jessica: No, no, that's not true, Andrea.
Jessica: The Feminist Union ended in chaos. I think we were repeating the
upheavals of the second wave of feminism without really being conscious of it.
It was considered unfair that I was the leader by some, well, by Jane, yes, by
that girl Jane. I brought it to the group for a vote: Do you want me? I asked. I
Erin: [Raises hand] I want to be a leader. I want to wield influence, redirect strategy,
fulfill fantasy. I want to be effective, competent, persuasive, seductive. I want
to voice what is best and most hopeful and feel an entire room assent. My
personality would be my politics: witty, empathetic, stirring. I would have a
stringent critique. I would win every argument. I would never feel frustrated
or eclipsed.
Many women's groups disbanded around the frustrations of women who
thought the movement promised the chance to become leaders but who
found themselves unable to seize the opportunity. Women tried to circumvent
the emergence of leaders, usually unsuccessfully. Dissatisfactions boiled over
about who spoke, when, how much, and for whom, especially when the media
was involved.
all the women who could. I would compare myself to them-things like,
"Well, she's a good speaker, but she doesn't get this part of the issue." Since I
never felt I could speak for myself, I was always in the frustrating position of
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appropriate, that it-how shall I say it-works best. Which is not to say that
the rest of you can't participate freely when I open the floor to discussion.
Jessica? Do you want to continue?
Andrea: [Reading from Robert's Rules of Order] "Paragraph 34. Debate. When a
motion is made and seconded, it shall be stated by the chairman before
being debated. When a member is about to speak in debate he shall rise and
respectfully address himself to 'Mr. Chairman.' ('Mr. President' is used when
that is the designated title of the presiding officer. 'Mr. Moderator' is more
common in religious meetings.)"
Um ... [flipping desperately through book] Mr. Chairman ... [raises hand] I
object.
Martha: Andrea, you can't object. No motion has been put forward.
Andrea: Well, I motion to disband.
Martha: The task-the task tonight is to eye someone, to pick her out of the
crowd, run your eyes down her neck, and then, by apologizing for nothing
and seizing upon every impression of sexual demand you've collected from
your littlest childhood through all your thirty-odd years, to go after her, grab
her wrist till it hurts, and take her home.
When I go to the women's bars, it's like that, demanding and fierce ...
and entirely luxurious. It's like walking into some vibrant, high-pitched
movie without for even a beat interrupting the flow of the dialogue. And not
only that, but it's the right movie, precisely the one I'm supposed to be mak-
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And it's private, it's ours, queers only. Just us dykes are allowed in this
selective, edgy, dangerous world that's perfectly sealed. I walk into these
steamy, seedy rooms that no one else would go to, and I look at these girls
filling up the dark, and the fun they're having is rare and uncontestableand completely earned. I can pick a shy one, all furtive, doing her boyness
like it was a thing she'd just stolen, snuck in here ingeniously and at her
peril. Or I could get a dark one, older, who teases me all night in just that
way that anybody else would call ungiving and mean. It's not. She doesn't say
a thing, and she doesn't crack a smile at me; she stares me down, and the
cruel expression on her face is completely intoxicating because I know that
what it means is: It's bad, get ready.
Jessica: I remember once when Martha went around and asked every single
woman in the bar whether she had read Jane Bowles's novel Two Serious
Jessica: Girlbar.
According to Freud, "group feeling" among children is only a reactionformation to envy. Identification only occurs as a result of the fear of being
left out entirely and getting nothing at all. The golden rule is that everyone
must have the same and be the same. Identification demands equivalence.
Out of this rule a group culture emerges in which individual qualities, attributes, differences are reduced to quantities of capital that circulate in the
market the group becomes.
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Magazine subscriptions
Electronic equipment
Cable TV
Experiences traveling
And memory, recollections of childhood, the invasion of
Grenada, the details, the complexities, the failures and
illusions of the things you've thought before.
Jessica: The fantasy was that 'Jane Bowles" could name what the words "feminist"
or even "lesbian" or "woman" had not been able to: a communality between
us. We thought we could live in an outrageous world, one in which the ladies
are drunk and their desire excessive. We wanted Morocco to reflect back to
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But this fantasy of a group life was also exactly that shift to aesthetics
that marked the ascendancy of cultural feminism in the mid-seventies. In
some sense we actually believed that dancing like that and looking at other
women was equivalent to the political work we'd been doing before with the
Feminist Union.
Jessica: No, I'm filibustering tonight ... But as for the future of our politics, the
hope is that consciousness-raising could lead us back to a more meaningful
feminist politics. So let's, you know, rap. Let's make the world a safer place
for, well ... for me, I guess. Girls, could we all hold hands for a minute?
Erin: That's beautiful, Martha. I hope that this performance will bring people
together in one big powerful movement because together we can change the
world. And I hope you all feel that. I'm feeling a lot of love up here, and I'd
like to find a way to give it back. I just hope that every woman in this room
will look inside herself and realize she's a groovy person. I hope every man
will look inside himself and realize that at least he knows some groovy
women. Through our performance, I hope we become better listeners, and
that we've learned something about sharing. That we do have selves and that
they can be liberated like beautiful banners unfurling in the wind. That
being in a group is tough because you can get hurt, and some people speak
more than they should and have opinions that they pointlessly reiterate,
again and again, but it's worth it in the end because together we know more
than we do apart. Sisterhood is Powerful!
Andrea: Right on!
of people it stopped at a certain point, maybe in the midseventies, when they said, "Now everything that I do is politi-
Erin: Speaking of politics, many of you may be wondering if we have any. It's
complicated. I've marched. I was arrested once; I've done clinic escorts. And
I've gone to a lot of meetings. I believe in political activism. So there is something problematic to me about our reaching back into feminist history and
only recuperating the part about subjectivity, where we just change ourselves
and defer social inequity to some other agenda. Some people, who've
accused the women's movement of being white and middle class, would
think this fitting. Why didn't we just organize? There are material conditions
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out there or, for that matter, in here. For example, women are nine times
more likely than men to quit jobs because of sexual harassment and three
times more likely to lose theirjobs. In the United States, it's estimated that a
woman is raped every 1.3 minutes. Do you think this performance is some
kind of substitute? We don't. OK? We don't.
This, for me, is the greatest promise of the women's movement. It's the
Jessica: But we have not yet answered the question, are we really oppressed? As
women? I, for one, have always found it kind of flattering when guys on the
street make that slurping noise, that slow slurp, when they say "hot tits," or
grab their crotch, or mine, or follow me down the street, or complain when I
don't respond, or stand in my way, or ask me "Baby, don't you like men?" I
mean, so what?
Erin: I'll take it! I also wanted to mention something I've noticed during my heterosexual activity: what I've encountered with every man I've dated is that
they're looking for an ideal.
Marianne: Yeah, and so they compare you to other women.
Andrea: I mean, I compare men to other men. I mean, I would compare Don, well,
let's call him "John" to protect his anonymity. I compared Jim, OK, OK, I
mean ... Jack, to other men. And even Charles, alias Charlie, alias Chuck,
alias Chuckie. But I would never articulate it as a demand. I would never say
that, I mean, not in public.
Jessica: And who doesn't compare men? Which one of us doesn't? I want the best
man. I make choices. For example, I don't want a "sensitive man," some guy
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SCUM will conduct Turd Sessions, at which every male present will give a speech beginning with the sentence: "I am a
turd, a lowly, abject turd," then proceed to list all the ways in
Martha: Look, I'm finding this a little insulting, actually. I can't quite believe you
are all chanting like this without any regard to how I might feel about it, as if
I would feel attacked or ganged up on or left out. I'm a man, and I don't
think I fall so simply into this "them" category. Just because I have a penis,
even two or three penises, depending on how you define them, just
various labels: feminists (19 percent), "riot girls" (12 percent), "The
Unrepresentable" (68 percent), and V-Girls (88 percent).
Jessica: In a survey, four out of five women who were asked to choose between
being (a) a brilliant woman who will always think she is stupid and (b) a stupid
man whom everyone thinks is brilliant, preferred death.
Marianne: I went to visit some friends of mine who have a five-year-old daughter,
Isabella. They have been determined to raise her outside of the typical
boundaries of girlhood. You know, no television, providing her with nongendered toys, no dolls, no "Suzy Q" ovens. I walked by her room one day and
saw her playing with a toolbox. She had a screwdriver in one hand and a
hammer in the other, and she made the screwdriver say, "Do you want to go
out to dinner tonight? And the hammer answered, "No, not tonight, I'm
busy."
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Jessica: Uh, would this be an OK time for me to say about how I ordered a push-up
bra recently from Victoria's Secret?
Andrea: I think it's Martha's turn.
Jessica: I never thought before, you know, that I wanted to be, you know, "pushed
up.
Martha: OK, so should I talk about my experiences with groups of women? I'm
very resistant to this topic, I have to say. I don't want to talk about it. But...
Marianne: Why not?
Martha: Well, I was thinking about my family, definitely in my family, the women's
space was really privileged. My mother, it was always-to me it was always the
woman who ran the drugstore, or the teenage girl from Haiti who came to
live with us, or the woman from the drugstore and the teenage girl from
Haiti or, eventually, any woman in any drugstore. I was conscious, I think,
really young, that there was some cachet, there was some special status
attached to being with just women. Well, if you look at my father-if you
knew my father. The opposition was established right away. You know the old
Martha: I don't know what else to say about it. I'm just very resistant to this topic. I
basically don't want to address this question. Is that a breach of V-Girl trust?
Andrea: It would be if this were a real consciousness-raising group.
Marianne: Right. We would beat it out of you.
Jessica: I don't think you have to talk about things that you don't want to talk
about.
Marianne: But, Martha, if there's really this thing that you don't want to share ...
Erin: Maybe we could just narrow it down a little.
Jessica: Is it something from your past or something current?
Andrea: Is it about us? I mean, if it's about us, I think you should really try to talk
about it.
Marianne: No, it's probably about her family. Isn't it about your family?
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Andrea: Why don't you just talk a little about why you don't want to talk about it,
and then maybe that'll loosen you up.
Erin: I know, Martha, it's all those people out there, isn't it? It's all those people
out there, listening?
Martha: Them? Oh no, I don't feel as if they're just listening. They're participating. They're going through all this with us, you know.
Marianne: Wait! All of a sudden I am ready to say something personal! I feel it; I
can do it! I am not afraid! A real turning point in my feminist education was
the "Take Back the Night" march in 1986. I really felt that I was taking part
in a historic process, a brave moment, as we marched down Forty-second
Street past the curious crowds lined up on the sidewalks. But then at the
rally behind the Forty-second Street library, the head of Women Against
Pornography began her speech by admonishing us to remember that "all
men are rapists; all men are the enemy; and if you're not with us, you're
Unfortunately, one of her female bodyguards dragged me off to the side and
started to pummel me. The woman finished her speech, and I ended up with
a bloody nose.
Erin: Andrea? It's your turn.
Andrea: OK. Well, I started out by saying that I haven't had experiences with
groups of women other than the V-Girls. Why did I say that? I'll think.
Martha: Andrea is thoughtful. She can feel the interest and support of the
group. The group remains silent, in the hope that Andrea's unconscious
experiences of her feminine past will surface.
Andrea: I didn't think my family counted because -why?-because gender wasn't
constituted in my family in a very clear way. I tell people, "Well, I grew up in
a lesbian feminist household." That's true. That's something that I say; that's
a way I represent my childhood, but then at the same time I can say, "But
that didn't constitute a group of women." It's a very odd thing.
Martha: The issues are coming into focus. The group is really behind her.
Andrea: When Ellen came into my life as my mother's lover, she was taking my
father's place. She was going to be the good father. So I guess it was a matter
of position more than gender...
Martha: Yes. Ellen's gender was not merely biological. It was positional.
Andrea: She was going to be the good father. And there were some ways in which
she was different from my mother that perhaps ... I don't know if you can say
really coincide with gender differences, but she was a more public person;
she was less private; she was less domestic. She was not a mother. So I don't
know... That hasn't gotten me very far, has it? I've been speaking for a long
time, but it hasn't gotten me anywhere.
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sexuality, and all of their friends were lesbians, but it wasn't a problem. And
there were no ... it wasn't about secondary characteristics, about how you
dress or how you talk. It never seemed to be in opposition to anything. It
Andrea: And I was sort of thinking, how do I manage to identify with those things?
Martha: How did we all? We had to identify, in order to be. There we all were, a
million young girls, falling into formation.
Andrea: It was odd how that could happen so late and in such a self-conscious
way. And even with this group, too-if you think of a group as a space of
identification or of where an identity as a woman is constituted. I looked at
all of you and tried to figure out how it's done, how these things are done.
Martha: And how is it? How is it done?
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