Ethics in final exam and its impact on your attitude development

Having a chance to be called student, to attend school as early as five years old, all for
only one reason, for me to know how to deal with the world when I grow older, wiser
in the future. But, lately Ive learned for being older simply doesnt mean I am getting
wiser. How can I be when I risked myself digging a big deep hole of attitude problem
as like all this while Ive never been aware how significant ethics play role in my life.
Thus, with the confession on having an attitude problem regarding the ethics in final
exam, here I provided a line of reasoning as a reflection for myself to not repeat it
again in the future.

Exam is where understanding on the subject being tested, not a paper that most people
think a curse to repeat the subject again. Thus, cheating in examination is a serious
unacceptable manner solely because it is not ethical but what more unethical and
completely even worse is people who collide with the cheaters, forlornly, me in
particular. To be listen on the ethical code before the exam start is a must and
truthfully its been more than 10 years with more years coming for me to say I am not
aware far more to forget every single details on dos and dont during examination.
Cheating in exam is stated, spoken, always being remembered as the first of all thing
mentioned in the list of ethics code. But, still, the one most important is the one I
failed to follow.

No one like to lose, to failed while others pass in any occasion and examination but
actually I am the one who failed to see the values that I jeopardized just for the sake to
pass, to be on the same level with others, for my friend who I collide with could feel
the same like others. I failed to show him the virtue of honesty, the value of self-
respect just because during that time I feel what most important is helping him even I
know it is a wrong action and even not in my philosophy of life. I even disregard my
value just because I think helping him to cheat, an unethical and most inhumane way
to pay the sacrifice of teachers and lecturers. I failed as a students, I failed as a friend
but crucially I failed to survive as human not as what my parents hope and longing
for. I failed as a daughter.

Cheating in examination is an issue but to be more concerned is on how it impacts the

attitude far after the things happen. I dont know either the cheaters will change or not
but what I certain on it is the tendency of that matter to happen again is high. First,
maybe its just exam, lets cheat but think back, logically, if even in exam, honesty is
not the first priority, how can you survive to trust people around you if you yourself
cheating to your own self. To live in doubt, suspicious in every thing that people tell
me, is the last thing I want to experience in my life. For that, I believed trust issue is
the thing that I have to deal, as even I am not honest to myself, how can others being
honest to me. From my action of colliding with other students does effect the
impression and reputation of me towards lecturers and peers and thus if trust issue
arrived, teamwork will hard to retained.
As when I think back on my attitude problem action of colliding, I realized that it
somehow also do affect the creativity in solving things and making decisions in daily
life. How is that possible as for me logically the simplest explanation is we are to
independent on books and the ultimate answer scheme but we forget that the first
objective of the exam is not testing us to remember, its assessing our perspectives to
solve the questions using our creativity. Come back again, in order to get creativity is
not by cheating or colliding but by thinking with deep understanding onto the subject
itself. To think back, if we cant even get creative in examination, a paper-based
question learned through out three months in a semester, how can possibly we face the
challenges and obstacles of life that never had been written anywhere in the world?
That leaves a big ending point in reflecting my dishonest action to collide with others
as a shortcut in examination.

Another thing that pop in my mind when we had been caught up by the authorities is
how this issue will badly affect my future. Thoughts run through my mind on the
imagination of being expelled, the crying me, the sadness of my parents, their
disappointment when they know their daughter cheat them. Come back to the terms,
this whole things teach me, its not me helping him called cheat but on the action of at
the root cause, why and how could am I cheating my parents when they believed me
totally to be here to learn on being a human not a collider, importantly not a cheater.
Reflect back, I asked myself, if even I cant even being honest to myself, how can I be
honest to others, to my partners in the future. Thats the turning point for me to realize
back the value of honesty and how importantly it matters in my life.

Hence, on this reflection towards my wrongdoing, I hereby modestly apologize for

my lack of value in determining what is right and wrong, blinded by short-term
success. Deepest indebtedness I forward to those who considering my wish on not
telling my parents regarding the issue meanwhile at the same time keep this matter
only with people in the circle. I highly appreciate it and only the best I can wish for
the kindness to let me still pursuing and finishing my study. I promise as the same
matter will not happen again and if it does, I should receive all of the actions intended
with the mistake I make.