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Instead of getting the car and dragging about the driver, Clara walked to Samantha's fitting. Her
mother would greatly disapprove, no doubt, but she needed the air. It was all so new. Clara twisted the ring
round and round on her finger as she considered all that had happened. When she had gone away
Samantha had been as far from marrying as she. She supposed it was the natural order of things, but that
didnt do much to ease Claras mind. What would an engaged Samantha be like?
Clara turned down the gravel path of the large estate belonging to Samantha's family, continuing to
ponder the question. In the big french windows of the ground floor Clara could see that the party had
already begun. The big library was full of color, and as Clara approached, she could hear music from the
victrola drifting towards her. Soon she could hear peals of laughter as well. Clara paused a moment to
straighten her dress before plunging into the merriment.
Clara! called Samantha, who rushed over at once. Darling, how have you been? How was
Paris? And Rome, how was Rome? Ill bet you have dozens of dark Italian men pining after you, now that
youre here. Clara thought back to her long walks with Colette, and their more intimate moments.
Loads. But how have you been? Youre getting married!
Oh, I know! Its wonderful and just the same as its always been. Summers here, winters in the
city. Of course, I started hanging around Alfred more and more, and, well, here we are -- engaged, and
with the wedding only a few weeks away! Weve known each other for ages, Alfred and I, but it suddenly
feels -- oh, doesnt it just feel so thrilling?
The two friends were now seated together on a couch, in strictest of confidences. Soon youll
know what Im talking about, wont you? Samantha gushed on. Clara thought once more about her time
with Colette and doubted that very much. Samantha continued right along without an answer, exclaiming,
Oh, that reminds me -- theres someone just dying to meet you! Come, lets go find him before they bring
all the dresses out. Starting up, Samantha pulled Clara to her feet and made a dash for the open doors.
Clara followed her old friend out onto the lawn, smiling despite her apprehension. She had known
that Samantha would eventually try to set her up with some of Alberts friends, but she hadnt realized it
would be quite so soon. She had only just arrived, after all! Clara caught up to Samantha and they turned
round the corner of the house, their steps in sync.
With their shirt-sleeves rolled up and their hats askew, there was a collection of men playing
croquet on the lawn, roughly the size of the gaggle of ladies inside. When Samantha introduced her to the
happiest looking of the gentlemen present, Clara pretended to remember Albert with warm enthusiasm. He
seemed a nice enough man. Nothing special. Samantha waved a slightly shyer looking man over to join
the trio.
Clara, this is Jim; Jim, this is Clara!
Clara, what an absolute pleasure!
Clara could only stare in disgust at the mans mustache. Aside from that particular growth on his
upper lip, Jim was completely indistinguishable from the other gents.
Right -- I mean -- Hello, the pleasure is all mine, uh, sir! Claras words sounded forced, and they
were.
She stayed silent through all the rest of the short conversation, and soon enough, Samantha and
Clara were making their way back to the party. Clara wondered how many more conversations just like
that one she would partake in, with men remarkably similar to Jim.
Nice man, isnt he? said Samantha, and Clara wondered how many times she would have to
reply Quite to questions such as that.
Clara was looking at a wall, the bricks fiercely white until she stared long enough. Windows were
open upon her insistence, heavy stripes of light and cold air offering a sort of reassurance. She hummed
under her breath.
The more she thought about the wedding to come, the heavier her skull felt. Mother had developed
a habit of breaking Claras own nervous ticks -- swatting her raw, stubby fingers from her teeth, kicking
her in the shin when her leg wouldnt stop shaking. She wasnt here, though. Not now. She was
somewhere in the other room, sticking combs in her hair and fretting over floral arrangements. Shed
handed Clara a fistful of violet and hyssop at the door. She couldnt find it now.
Itll be alright, you know.
Clara leaned into her touch at the crown of her head, Annies nimble hands threading her hair into
some complicated knot. Clara had never liked weddings -- churches smelled like ice and hesitation, and
something about the music gave her a terrible headache. She thought it was really to do with the people.
Maybe if her upbringing had been smaller and kinder she would feel differently. If shed lived in Europe,
or something.
Women with big, ugly hats fluttered past the open door. Clara knew a few of them, but she
assumed the majority were the paper doll friends of her parents. She wondered if they felt as itchy in their
dresses as she did.
Annie leaned a wrist on her shoulder, and she remembered why she was here.
All finished. She handed her a mirror.
Its perfect, Annie. Thank you. Clara didnt know what shed done to her hair, but it didnt look
normal, and she loved it. She could see Annie smiling in the reflection.
How do you feel?
Better. She thought about it. I wish I werent here, but Im happy youre with me. Youre the
only reason Ive agreed to this, you know.
She smiled and tucked something imaginary behind Claras ear. I know.
How much longer do I have? Clara asked her.
She fell silent, but she heard her. Annie waited like this, sometimes, before speaking, so she could
flesh out her words and the tone of her voice. She had never been one to think aloud. Im not sure, she
said finally. Ill go ask someone. Dont wander off anywhere.
Wouldnt dream of it.
Clara watched her leave.
Annie returned bearing news and tiny sandwiches from a platter in the hall.
The wedding proceeded stiffly -- everything was as expected, according to plan. Not quite
beautiful. She knew her mother would wipe away a single tear at the exchanging of vows. She knew not
whether it was real or carefully rehearsed, but it didnt seem to matter anymore. Jims eyes were blue as a
swelling vein. Annies eyes were grey and intense, but she was looking at the flowers in her lap.
Heliotrope.
Clara didnt have a problem with Jim, and she looked at him when she said her vows. He knew she
could never love him. A sweet insistence in her head, Annies eyes expectant from across the room. She
thought about her promise for the spring. Well be together again, thought Clara.
And do you, Clara Elizabeth Price, take Jim William Winchester as your lawfully wedded
husband?
I do.