2

AbwZg

kvkZ wbb
4
5

gv I evevK
6

m~wPc

`evmyi
jvj myowK I gZzi M
bqb
wbf AvuP civb gj
wbii
AbwZg
A PivPi
Rvrv ivZi cwZwe^
mvc jyWy
 7

`evmyi

GLb kir AvmjB b` gvjvKvi eySZ cvi| cwKv bv `L, wKsev KvDK bv wRm
KiI m ej w`Z cvi kir GmQ wKbv| Mfxi Nygi gaI b` ej w`Z cvi GUv
kir bv wK kir bq| I kiZi M cvq; AePZb Nyg b`i eyKi ga K hb nvZzwo
cUvq; Zvi c~e cyil Gm wfo Ki Zvi AvZvi ga| IivB b`K ej `b kir Avmvi
AvMvg msev`| Avi jvK ej Mfxi Nygi ga b` Ui cvq, Kjvk _K ^qs gv `yMv
bg Avmb b`i GB Muvq, mv_ _vKb Ab `e`exMY| nvm, Ljv Ki, Avevi
Kuv`I| gvS gvS Iiv b` gvjvKviKI WvKb| `e-`eZvi Mvqi Nvg Avi PvLi Rj
wkwki we`y nq MvQi cvZvq, Nvmi WMvq wkwki we`yi gZv Qwoq _vK hv eoB cwe
`Lvq| GB NUbvjv NU kiZi iI w`K| ZLb b` gvjvKvi Nyg _K DV c_gB
Nvmi wkwki Zyj wbRi PvL jvMvq| Zvici fD fD Ki Kuv`| hviv b`K Pb bv
Zviv GB `k `L gb Kie jvKwU gb nq Kvbv `yt^c `LQ! wK G `k GLvbKvi
cuvP Mvgi gvbyli ARvbv bq| GLvbKvi jvKiv jvKivI Rvb h mKvj GB cwe
`kwU NU hvIqvi AvMi ivB `ex `yMv b` gvjvKviK WKwQjb Ges ZLbB b`
gvjvKvi Gevi `exi gyLi MobUv Kgb ne Zvi wi Ki djQ| Avi Gme HkwiK
NUbvi ejB b` gvjvKvii cwZgv fyebmiv| Gevii kir i c~eB b` fZi fZi
Ui cvq| G mgq AbK KvR Zvi| euvk, gvwU, Lo myZvwj mewKQy RvMvo KiZ nq wbR
nvZ| Avi gbvwbek KiZ nq GKkvZ GK nvRvi| Avi ZeB gb fi Zvi| wK AvR
cwZgvi LvcvwP euvavi KvR wKQyZB gb emvZ cviQ bv m| gbi ga Ah_v wKQy fvebe
Do Gm Lvwe LvQ| _K _K D`vm nq coQ b`| KvRi mgq G aibi AvPiY
mvaviYZ m Ki bv| euvk Piv dvov KiZ KiZ evmy, `evkxl Avi Mv AvoPvL b`K
j Ki, mv_ mv_ fq cvq Zviv| b` VvKzii fi nQ| KvRI Rvi `q mB mv_|
nVvr b` `yg Ki ck Ki em AvQv Mv, ejZ GB cuvP Mvqi jvK Avgvi mg hv
ej ZvwK wVK ej? Avcwb njb `eZv Kv| webqb mv_ Mv Di Ki| Avwg `eZv?
G K_v ejZ Zvi wRf GKUzI Kuvcjv bv gyL cywo! b` wei nq ej| wgkwgk Kvjv
Mvj XD Zzj Mv nm ej
wekvm gjvq nwi Z...|
evwKUzKz Avi Kvb Avm bv b` gvjvKvii| m Avevi c~ei bvq D`vm nq hvq| wbZvB
cvji Qj b` gvjvKvi cuvP Mvgi jvKi KvQ fMevb| fveZB fq nq Zvi| Avevi
 8

wKQyUv fveI jvM| GB GK mgmv b`i| G Aji aviYv, HkwiK hvMvhvM bv _vKj
KD Igb cwZgv evbvZ cvi bvwK! b` VvKzii cwZgv h K_v ej| cwZgv hvi GZ RvMZ
mI wbq Lye RvMZ| eQi GKevi Av`vkw gnvgvqvi fi nq GB gvjvKvii Ici| GB
wekvm Ke KLb Rb wbqQ Zv wVK Ki ejv gykwKj| Ri Z `ycyii Avbi gZv
Qwoq coQ GB Lei| c_g `y-GKRb ci ag eY wbwekl mKjB Avm Zvi KvQ dzu
wbZ| GgbwK mvc KvU ivMxI wbq Avm ivmybMii gvbyliv| mw`b m` weaev nZ
hvIqv h KwP eDUv evi evi Ku` Ku` Zvi cvq cowQj Avi Abyiva KiwQj VvKzi Zzwg
megj| Avgvi wmuw_i wmu`yi Ko wbI bv VvKzi| ay GKevi Ii Mvq nvZ w`q `vI
Avgiv QvU RvZ, `qv Kiv VvKzi, `qv Kiv|
Kuv`Z Kuv`Z KLb h Zvi eyKi Kvco Lm coQ mw`K Zvi c _vK bv| b`
ay AvjMvQ mw`K ZvKvq| wK cwicy wbUvj eyK! ciY `yw mwiq dj b`| m
GLb fMevb Zvi Ime mvaviY QvURvZi gqQji eyK `Lv gvbvq? Zvici fMevb
gvjvKvi Zvi Mig nvZ ivL H kxZj `nUvi Ici| ckvw bg Avm mgeZ mKji
gvS| gqUvi Pnvivq GKUv ^wi Qvc mvbv GB, givi AvM fMevbi k cj Zvi
^vgx| G eo c~bi dj| ZLb fvwi BQ nq b`Mvcvji wbRi gyLi QweUv fMevbi
Pnvivq ewmq `LZ| GfveB MZ nq kir, ng, kxZ, Zvici em| Gfve
Djcyii ZiY b`Mvcvj gvjvKvii ZviY g fvUv bg Avm| fMevbi Ni-msmvi
_vKZ bB| Pvwiw`K mvb Avi gn wewjq fvjB w`bjv fvjB KvUwQj Zvi, wK ivZ
njB fMevbi gvoK jywKq _vKv gvbylwU ewiq Avm Pvii gZvb| Avi ZLb PvLi
mvgb fm DVZ m` weaevi cwicy eyK| Kgb Rvwb myimywi Abyf~Z nq Zvi| Zvici
wPrKvi Ki ej IV Avwg gvbyl; wbZvBqi eUvb`Mvcvj| wb ivZ Zvi GB wPrKvi
MvOvwbi gZv kvbvq| mB MvOvwb Qvwcq Zvi Kvb Avm kkvbhvx`i GKNq myi ej
nwi, nwi ej..|
wbwZZ Avevi K Mj! bb gb fve b`| fq cvq m| bvwfi wbP myimywi jvMv _g
hvq|
Gevi gv AvmQb MR; Avi we`vq wbQb bKvq| cwZgvi Mvq Zzwji P~ov AvuPo UvbZ
UvbZ b`Mvcvj Avevi D`vm nq hvq| Zvi GB `xN Rxeb gvwU-Kuv`v-Rji GK e
euvav| k GuUj gvwUK fOPzi Rj wgwkq big ZzjZzj Kv`vZ cwiYZ Ki b`; Zvici
mB big Kv`v Avevi k nq; kl iO Zzwji AuvPo mB k gvwUK evOgq Ki Zvj
b`Mvcvj gvjvKvi| Zvici fvwmq `Iqv nq| b`xi Nvjv Rj me is ayq gyQ mvd nq
k GuUj Avevi big Kv`v nq| Amyii eyKi gvsmckxZ Aviv GK `jv Kv`v w`q wKQyUv
Avcb gbB b` ej IV Gevi KvR Ki Avivg cvwQ bv| KvRi gvS Kgb Rvwb GKUv
 9

Q`cZb nQ evievi| KvR dj Mv AevK weq b` VvKzii w`K ZvwKq _vK;

Zvici ej VvKzi Pv Lve? GK` evwbq w`
PZb wdi cvq b` gvjvKvi| mwZB Zv m nj fMevb| Zvi Zv Avi hvB nvK D`vm
nIqv Pj bv| fMevb`i AbK wKQyB KiZ bB; wekl Ki gZi fMevb`i| hgb
kvK KvZi nZ bB Mfxi ivZ KvgvZ nZ bB; wbuPz RvZi weaevi cwicy eyKi w`K
ZvKvZ bB; memgq mg cig e nq _vKZ nq| Gme fveZ fveZ nvZi Kv`v
dzwiq Avm b` gvjvKvii|
Aviv GKUz Kv`v ` Zv| ejZ ejZ m w`K D`vm nq Mvi w`K ZvKvq| Mv cej
DrmvZ GuUj gvwUK Qb gq`vi gZv wgwn evbvZ e| Mvi LvUv Kvcov `vwqZ fyj
Gw`K Iw`K mi MQ| we`y we`y Nvg RgvU eaQ Kvai Ici, bvKi WMvq, evi
Mvovq| cy evZvwe jeyi gZv DuwK w`Q Zvi eyKi GKUv Ask| b`i `w ILvb AvUK
hvq| fMevbi fZi cyl ivLv Kvj eovjUv nvgvwo KU ei nq AvmZ _vK|
b`iI kixi MvUv MvUv Nvg RgZ _vK| myimywi Abyfe KiZ _vK wbv|
GB w`B VvKzi| ej AmZ KvcoK evM Avb Mv| PZb wdi cvq b`| VvKzi kUv
kvbvi mv_ mv_ gb co hvq m Avmj fMevb| Av`vkwi gnvgvqvi fi nq Zvi Ici
kir ii mv_ mv_| fMevbi wK Gme kvfv cvq ? `wK mshZ Ki b`| Ze gbUvK
I wKQyZB evM AvbZ cvi bv| hZB eyS w`K m eqvov lvoi gZv ZvZB _vK|
evwoq `qv Kv`vi w`K bv ZvwKqB b` ej IV bv| AvR Avi bv|
GfveB w`b cvwjq hvq| KvRi dvK dvK Ggwb Ki AviI KqKevi `Lv cvq Mvi
nZQvov eyKi| cyoZ cyoZB cwZgv Movi KvRI kl nq GKw`b| Zvici kiZi mvi
evZvm Qwoq co a~ci M Avi AwZcwiwPZ XvKi ev`| GeviI ivq Rwg`vi bZzb aywZ-
Mw `vb Kib b`MvcvjK fw Ki| bZzb cvlvK Mvq Rwoq b` bkvjvMv PvL
ZvwKq _vK `exi cvq c~Rv w`Z Avmv maev ejvi w`K| gnvAgxi ivZ _K
b`Mvcvji Rv`yej `ex cwZgv evOgq nq IV h_vixwZ| VvKzi _vKe KZY, VvKzi
hve wemRb...| XvKi GB evji mv_ mv_ cyivwnZ mRj PvL, evRwoZ K cwe
NU bwoq g co `kgxi c~Rv kl Kib| mevB Pj hvIqvi duvK Mv Gm Mo nq b`
Mvcvji cvq co| mv_ mv_ b`i fZii Kvj gvbylUv `vcv`vwc i Ki `q| cYvg
kl Mv ej VvKzi, Avgiv QvURvZ, Afq `vI Zv ewj...| mshZ nq GKUz Kk MjvUv
gvUv Ki b` ej AvR `kgx| weRq `kgx, AvR QvU eo me mgvb| ej bv wK ejwe?
Afq cq Mv ej IV AvR hw` Avgvi Ni GKUz mev bvI VvKzi Zvnj Avgvi biK
fqUv `~i nq hve UvKzi| PvLi PvL gyL AvKzwZ| Ii w`K ZvwKq b` ej Kb hve
bv! AekB hve, AvR mvqB hvev|
 10

AvR mvUv hb GKUz ZvovZvwoB Gm hvq| bZzb a~wZUv wbcvU Ki ci dZzqvwU Mvq
Zzj Zzli bwm iOi Pv`iUv Kuva wbq gv_vi gvS eivei AvBj KU kl evii gZvb
fvOv AvqbvUv mvgb ai b`| AvR Zvi gbUv eRvq fvj| Zvi mv_ KvwZK VvKzii wekl
GKUv wgj LuyR cvq m| Zvici wbRb ivvUv cwiq Mvi Kzuo Nii SuvcUvi cvk Gm
`uvovq m| Av Ki nvZ ivL Suvci Mvq| Suvc Lvjvi mv_ mv_ Mgwb Zji fvwi
M Pvicvk gZ IV| fZiUv XyKB GKUv wekl cwicvU m Ui cvq| k PwKZ
em mB bkvjvMv PvL Mvi w`K ZvKvq b`| Kvjv Mvq bZzb KvcoUv GuU emQ
Mvi| Kvcoi fZi Zvi Aeva heb wKQyZB AvUK _vKZ PvQ bv| b`Mvcvj
AcjK Pq _vK| Rji NwUUv gvwUZ bvwgq jvRyK fwgvq Mv ej IV VvKzi Gevi
evmv| b`Mvcvj AvmbRyo em| cUvcU kl Ki jywP ZiKvwi, Mvgi imMvjv, bvo,
gywoi gvqv| b` Ui cvq Zvi fZii `vcv`vwcUv gB evoQ| Mv hLb Zvi w`K cvb
GwMq w`jv ZLb Pvwiw`K ek Nb Nvi bg GmQ| Kzuoi ga jbi Avjv QvqvZ
MvK fvwi APbv jvM Zvi| Mgwb Zji MUv AviI Zxe nZB b`Mvcvji fZii
Kvj gvbylwU `c Ki evBi jvwdq coj, Avi ZLbB b` cvb mgZ Mvi nvZUv ai dj
Ges GK SUKvq wbRi eyKi KvQ Ub Avb| cv_wgK avvUv mvgj wbq Awf Pvcv
^i ej IV GwK KiQ VvKzi? weKZ^i b` ej Avwg `eZv bB, Avwg gvbyl, KjivB
giv Zvi ^vgxi gZvB GKRb gvbyl| wbUvj nvZUv Qvovbvi Pv KiZ KiZ Mv ej
cuvP Muvqi jvK ZzgvK `eZv gvb| Avwg biKevmx ne VvKzi| Lvivc nZ cvwi; wK Zzwg
Avgvq gvd Ki `vI VvKzi| Pvc agKi myi b`Mvcvj ej| hw` `eZv gvwbm Ze
Avwg mB `eZv ZvK Av`k KiwQ AvgvK Z Ki| Zvi PvL I Mjvi ^i wK wQj K
Rvb Mv fq AvZ bxj nq hvq| ej IV Avwg wK PuPve! ahi eva f hvq
b`i| `p nvZi GK SUKvq MvK Ub Avb k PwKi Ici| Avi GK SUKvq D
hvq jbwU| biKevmx nIqvi AvZ k eyKi Zjv _K wPrKvi KiZ wMq Mvi PvL
ci b`i gyL| AevK nq Mv `L b` VvKzii gyLUv AweKj Amyii gZv `LvQ|
m wPrKvi Ki IV wK Zvi wPrKvi MvOvwbi gZv kvbvq| mvi evZvmi mv_ fm
Avm wgw a~ci M, Avi cvMji gZv evRZ _vK XvKi evj VvKzi _vKe KZY,
VvKzi hve wemRb...!
 11

jvj myowK I gZzi M

evemv ejZ, eKzcyii cavb moKi cvk gviIqvixi `vKvbi mvgb Qov PU cZ
RyZv mjvB Gi KvR Ki eyayqv| GUv Zvi RvZ evemv| G KvR bv KijI nq Zvi;
ZviciI RvwZ eemv ej GKUv K_v AvQ| mB UvbB KvRUv GLbv Pvwjq hvQ eyayqv
`vm| gvV avbx Rwg AvQ `yweNv, avb nq| eMv `Iqv AvQ| eQiv avb Avm| msmvi
jvK ejZ m Avi Zvi bvwZ kvgj| eyayqvi Qj eskx hLb gviv Mj ZLb kvgji eqm
gv GK eQi| GK eQi eqmB evci mv_ KZ LjZ, KZ nvmZ m! eskx mviv w`b
QjK Nvo wbq mviv cvov Nyi eovZ| mw`b ivZI wRBq ivLv KB gvQi gZv GB
GKiwZ kvgj Lj Lj Ki nvmwQj| Qji gyLi KvQ gyL wbq eskx ejwQj,
Avgvi mvbv; Avgvi gvwbK; DoRvnvR Pvjve eo nq; KZ eo ne? GB G eo ne!
G eo!
ivZ QvU gvQi Svj Avi Avgovi UK w`q fvZ Lj eskx| LZ LZ e
mevjvi mv_ VvvI Kij m,
e i, Zzgvi nvZi QvU gvQi Svj hw` GKevi nvU wbZ cviZvg, Zvwj GK nvUB
nvRvi UvKv!
bvI, Xs bv Ki IV ZvovZvwo, Nyg jvM|
Nyg jvM e? wKK, jB wK Zvgvi NygvZ `e bvwK; cvki Nii `vIivZ em eyayqv
meB bZ cvq| eskx`i Zv GgbB eqm| GLb Kie bv Zv Kie KLb| GB me mvZ
cuvP fveZ fveZ GKUz wSgywb GmwQj eyayqvi| wSgywbi ga GKUv kviMvj Kvb Avm
Zvi| eyayqv gb gb fve, eskx Avi mevjv eywS...!
LvwbK ev` mevjvi wPrKvi aodo Ki DV em eyayqv| mevjv, wPrKvi Ki DV,
evev Gw`K Avmb Avcbvi Qj Kgb Rvwb Ki|
GB nMvj wk kvgj fq cq dU Ku` IV| Mjv KvUv KeyZii gZv
jvdvwQj ZLb eskx; PvLUv fqsKi jvj; VuvUi `y cvk w`q mv`v dbv ewiq GmQ|
eskx ej,
evev, I evev gv GmQ gv; eD I eD; Avgvi kvgj, Avgvi gvwbK...!
 12

wKQy eyS DVvi AvMB wbjK, wb_i nq hvq eskx| WyKi Ku` DV mevjv|
eskxi wb_i eyKi Dci co wPrKvi Ki Kuv`Z _vK m| wfowfwoi kkvb mewKQy kl
nZ NUv wZbK mgq jM hvq|
eyayqvi evox duvKv nq hvq| Ame iKgi bxieZv Mvm Ki eyayqvi RxY KzwUi wUK|
`ycyii wbRb NyNyi WvKi cwieZ myi Ki Ku` Pj eskxi KwP e mevjv| eyayqv wbRi
gbB weoweo Ki ej Pj,
Mj, Avgvi me Pj Mj| Avgvi KwjRv, Avgvi PvLi gwb, gvwbK i...
Ze axi axi me wKQy kv nq AvmZ _vK| gB eyayqv mn mevjv Avi kvgj
mewKQyi mv_ gvwbq wbZ _vK| gvm QqKi ga mKj K AevK Ki, cvki Kevox
cii GK gymjgvb Rvqvbi nvZ ai eskxi KwP e mevjv nj wbik| ZLb kvgji
eqm gv `o eQi| eKzcyii jvj myowKi ivvq em eyayqv AvRv fe cvq bv, mevjv
wK fve GB wkwUK dj wbik nZ cvij! Ggb wK wQj H wgsmi ga, hv eskxi
ga wQj bv?
Zvici _KB eyayqv `vmi bZzb msMvg i nq| cy kvKK kc_ cwiYZ Ki, Qji
QjK eyK Zzj bq eyayqv| AvR kvgj eKzcyi gWj nvB zj Ag kwYi Qv| ivj
`yB| kvLv K| kvgji ic Avlvpi w meyRi gZ mZR| gvqv gvLv Kvjv WvMi `yUv
PvL fxlY gvqv fiv| eo DVQ KwP jvDqi WMvi mv_ cvjv w`q| GB m`h `L
eyayqvi wPvi A _vK bv| me mgq wPv nq| KLb wK NU! eyayqv memgq PvL PvL
ivLvi Pv Ki kvgjK| eqmUv eqvov; evc giv, gv cvjvbv eo Av`ii Qj kvgj|
kvgj Aek jLvcov Avi Zvi eqmi Zvqvv bv Ki, `v`yi mv_ Zvi evemvq emZ Pvq,
wK eyayqv ivwR nq bv| eyayqv ej,
G me KvR Zzgvi jq|
Kb bv `v`y?
Zzwg nj Mv wkwZ Qj; e`v jyKi Qj gq`i mv_ cov jLv wkL G Zzgvi KvR
jq Mv|
ZRx luvoi gZv cv VyK `uvwoq hvq kvgj| ej,
`v`y| G Avgv`i RvZ evemv AvQ; wbRi KvR wbR Kie; Zvgvi mv_ _vKe| M
Kie| M be..
GZB eyayqvi PvL Rj Gm hvq| gqjv Kvcoi LyU PvLUv gyQ bq kvgji ARv|
Zvici `Z `vKvb wUq kvgji Kuva nvZ iL evoxi c_ nuvUZ _vK Avi ej,
 13

j fvB, Ni K Pj| gb w`q cov wkL| ZzK Zv DovRvnvR PvjvBZ ne| Pj NiK Pj
\

02.
w`b Kvj h fvj bv Zv eyayqv evS| mviv w`b evRviUv duvKv _vK AvR Kvj| Pvqi `vKvb
Qj eyoviv Mjv bvwgq Avjvc Ki| mv njB eKzcyii evRvi myiR Kvgj
AvMiIqvjv eveyi `vKvb jvK fxo Ki Lei kvb| KD Kvb ge Ki bv, ay kvb
eyayqv wbR gb weo weo Ki,
^vaxb ne| Avgvi evj ne| Avi Avgiv njvg Mixe gvbyl, QvU RvZ| Zvi Dci wn`y|
Avgv`i ^vaxbB ev wK civaxbB ev wK? ^vaxbZv! ^vaxbZv cvi Avgvi eskx K wdwiq
w`Z! AbKUv nVvrB myiR evey wcQb Gm `uvwoq g`y ^i ej IVb,
eyayqvi Avi evanq GLvb _vKv Mj bv; Gevi evanq hZB ne i eyayqv!
ZvovZvwo Quov PU _K DV Ro nq `uvwoq eayqv ej,
evey, Avcwb Pj Mj Avgiv Kv_vq hve? Avcwb njb eUMvQ, Avgv`i Avkq, Avgv`i
Qvqv|
mwZ ZvB| AvR GZUv eQi evey`i RvqMvq KvR KiQ, Kvb w`b GKUv Kov K_v
ejwb, RvqMvi fvov PvIqv Zv `~ii K_v, G`i gZv gvbyl nq! Giv nj `eZv! Giv Pj
Mj G`k cwiYZ ne Pvji ivR GUv eyayqvi `p wekvm| myiR evey Mjv bvwgq ej,
`j `j gvbyl Pj hvQ Icvo, bwQm Zv? Avi ivRvKviiv duvKv evoxjv `Lj Ki
wbQ| gvbxjvKi gvb ivLQ bv Iiv...|
Gme K_v AvMB bQ eyayqv| Djcyi, ZvivbMi, fevbxcyimn wewfb Mvg _K
cvjiv Nvliv ivZi AKvi Icvo Pj wMqQ| Aek eKzcyi GB DVvDwVi nvIqv
jvMjI, jMQ Mvcb| cvki Mvg e`i evwnbxi jvKiv KqKRb wn`yK Ryvevi
bvgvR kl, gmwR`i mvgb Rvi Ki Kjgv cwoq, Mii gvsm LvBq gymjgvb KwiqQ|
XvKvZ bvwK cjq Kv PjQ| Ni Avb, alb, jyV Avi Lyb GLb RjfvZ| eyayqv Kvbw`b
cvwKvbx mb `Lwb| Ze bQ Iiv gymjgvb| G`ki ewkifvM gvbylB gymjgvb|
Zvnj, Iiv gvij Zv, G`ki wn`y`iK gvie wK Iiv Zv hviv gymjgvb, hviv bvgvR
co Zv`iKI Lyb KiQ wnmeUv wKQyZB gjvZ cvi bv| myiR eveyi K_vq w`knviv
nq eyayqv ej DV,
 14

Zvnj wK ne evey?
iLZ ne; cwZev` KiZ ne| jovB KiZ ne| `kK ^vaxb KiZ ne, Avevi wK?
Avevi ^vaxbZv| MvUv Rvjv Ki DV eyayqvi| Mixe gvbyli ^vaxbZv wK? eyayqv weo
weo Ki,
Avgiv njvg wn`y, QvU RvZ; Avgv`i Avevi ^vaxbZv! ZvQvov Avgv`i `k wn`yvb;
Avgiv njvg wn`y
Mjvi AvIqvRUv Aviv GKUz Lv` bvwgq myiRevey ej,
cwZiva i nqQ| Mwijv evwnbx Zwi nqQ| ZiY Qj-gqiv GKRvU nqQ;
fviZ bvwK Avgv`i A w`e ejQ...
ZiY`i K_v DVZB eyayqvi PvL kvgji gyLUv fm DV ZrYvr| kvgjK
euvPvZ ne| GB Zuv`vo Quvovjvi Li _K kvgjK euvPvZ ne| AvR ivZB Ii
mv_ emZ ne; eySvZ ne| Ii KwP gv_v, Muvdi iLv `Lv w`qQ gv| Lye Lvivc
eqm| wbRi bvwZi mv_ wK wK welq Avjvc Kie, Zv gb gb wVK KiZ _vK eyayqv `vm|
ivZ LvIqv `vIqvi ci fq fq kvgji cvwUi GKcvk em eyayqv| A^w KvwUq
kvgjB c_g ej,
`v`y, wKQy eje?
nuv; gvb bv, Zgyb wKQy bv, gvb
gvb - gvb wK?
gvb, fvBi `ki Aev fvj bv| ZvQvov Avgiv Mixe| wn`y| GB `k Avgv`i jq;
Avgv`i `k wn`yvb| Nvo `ywjq nvZ bvwoq Zxe cwZev` Ki kvgj,
bv `v`y, GB `k Avgv`i; Avgv`i mKji| GB `kK c`vbZ Ki ivLvi gZv Kviv
bB, Avi DwPZI bv| `v`y gv Avi Rbf~wg GK, ^Mi gZv cwe|
K_vjv ejvi mgq kvgji `pZv Avi PvLi AwM iwk `L nZevK nq hvq
eyayqv| gv bB, evc bB GB Abv_ GwZg, GZ vbi K_v wkLj Kv_v _K!
AbK vb kvgji| eo RvqMvq jLv cov Ki I| Avi G mei g~j AvQ gZje
Avjx gvvi| eKzcyii gWj nvBzji cavb wkK, G Aji wkwZ gvbyl| GKevi
`LjB fwZ gv_v byq Avm| DwbB wbMgcyii wewUk Avgj cwZwZ zj f Gb G
eKzcyii cwZv KiQb| welqwU eyayqvi KvQ ek AevK jvM ZviciI gb nq
wbMgcyii gvbyliv GLb K _vKjI GLvb Zv GKUv zj nqQ| kvgj Zv, coZ
cviQ, GZB gZje Avjxi cwZ kvi kl bB eyayqvi| mw`b Dwb wbRB GmwQjb
eyayqvi KvQ RyZv Kvwj KiZ| mw`b wbRi RxY Rvgv w`q gZje gvvii RyZvi kl
cvwjkUv w`qwQj eyayqv| eyayqvi fw `L gZje Avjx ejb,
 15

bv Mv eyayqv, Avgv`i `k gvb GB cvwKvb, Zvgv`i gvb wn`y`i Kvb Amyweav

bvB| GLvb Zvgiv AvQ gnv myL, ivRvi nvj|
Av, wVK ejQb Avcwb|
GB Zvgvi bvwZi K_vB aiv; Avwg ZvK dx Ki w`qwQ-
gv, evc giv GKiwZ Qj evey; Avcbvi `qv Ryi|
bv, kvgjiI gav AvQ; Ze...
Ze wK Ryi?
IK PvL PvL ivLe; B`vwbs wKQy evR Qj QvKov GKaibi wekLjv Zwii Pvq
AvQ; fvj fvj Qj`i wec`Mvgx Ki ZzjQ; `ki kvw web Kivi Pv KiQ|
GB K_vjv b eyayqvi ivZi K_v gb co hvq| PvLi mvgb kvgji `p PvL-
gyLi QweUv fm IV| eyayqvi gb nq, gZje Avjx gvvi Rb MQ h kvgj Zj
Zj Ggb R`x nq DVQ| eyayqvi cvqi wbPi gvwU `yj DV nVvr|
gZje gvvi ej Pj,
Avgiv Zv ^vaxb AvwQB; wVK bq wK eyayqv ej?
Av, Ryii K_v mZ|
K_v ejZ wMq eyayqvi MjvUv GKUz Kuc DV| Zvici eyayqv ej,
Avcb Avgv`i gv-evc Ryi| Avgvi Ges kvgji Avkq evey| Avi Avwg IK PvLi
Avovj nZ `Bwb evey, `eI bv|
nuv, GB bRi`vwiUv ivLev eyayqv| gb ivLev m wK fvj Qj| GB zwcWjv kvgj`i
gZ fvj Qj`iK UvMU Ki c_gB| Avi Zvgv`i kvw weavbi Rb cvwKvb
miKvii cvkvcvwk Avgiv AvwQ| AvQ wcP-KwgwU A_vr kvw KwgwU| fvj K_v, Zvgvi
KvQ Avgv`i RvZxq cZvKv AvQ Zv?
AekB Ryi, Avwg Kvj _KB Avgvi `vKvb cZvKv Gb ivLe evey, AekB|
gZje Avjx gvvi Pj hvIqvi ci eyayqvI evoxi c_ ai| ivZ jb Rvwjq cvwKvbi
cZvKv ei Ki; Aek kvgjK jywKq| GK mgq kvgj ejB dj,
wK LyuRQ `v`y?
bv, wKQy bv Zv, gvb Bq...
mKvjB eyayqv Zvi eemv cwZvb Puv`-Zviv gvKv cZvKvUv Zzj `q| cZvKvUv g`y
nvIqvq DoZ _vK| mKvj Mwoq `ycyi nq| myiR Kvgj AvMiIqvjv eveyi `vKvbi Zvjv
Lyj bv| eyayqv gb gb fve, eveyi wK kixi Lvivc? bv wK? fveZB eyKi fZiUv gvPo
w`q DV| eveyiv mwZB hw` Pj hvq Zvnj GB `vKvbi GZ gvjvgvj m wKfve `L
ivLe? Zvi wK Kiv DwPr _vKe? bv wK mI Pj hve! wK mvgb h kvgji cixv!
 16

GB me mvZcuvP fveZ fveZ GKUv wekvj RjcvB is-Gi UvK hg`~Zi gZ evey`i
`vKvbi mvgb _vgj| Mvox _K wekvj Rvqvb wKQy jvK bvgj `Z| eyayqv Kvb w`b
cvwKvbx mb `Lwb| ZviciI m eySj Giv cvwKvbx mb| GKRb eyayqvi w`K ZvwKq
ejj,
G gvjvDbKv evPv B`vi AvI|
ggyi gZ I`i w`K ZvwKq _vK eyayqv| wK j^v! wK dmv! Avi wekvj `nx! eyayqv
wbRi ARvB mvgbi w`K cv evovq| jvj gyLv ZvMov Rvqvb mbUv Avevi ej,
Zvg gvjvDb nv! Zvg Rq evvjv wf nv!
eyayqvi RvwZMZ fvlv fvRcyix njI D`~ eySZ Avi ejZ, Zvi Kvb Amyweav nq bv| m
Mo nq GKUv cYvg Ki, Kuvcv Mjvq ej DV,
nvg cvwKvbx | gvq IDi nvgviv cvZv cvwKvbKv `v u|
mbiv eyayqvi `vKvb cZvKv Avi Zvi cvkvK `L KZzK eva Ki| Zvici myiR
Kvgj eveyi `vKvb Uv `wLq ej,
GB kvjv gvjvDbKv evPv wK`vi nvq? G kvjv Rq evvjv wf nv!
KwVb cixvi mvgb co eyayqv| eyayqv wK eje, fe cvq bv| eveyiv wK AvQ bv MQ?
fveZ _vK m `Z| Gi gvS GK mb ej DV,
mvi, G kvjv Zv fvM wMqv|
jvj gyL mbUv Lye ZvwQji mv_ ej DV,
AvuM jvMv `v; Rvjv `v G kvjv gvjDqvb Kv gvKvb|

03.
cvwKvbx mb eKzcyi Avmvi ci _K cvqB Rj DVQ wbixn Mvgjv| gbvnicyi,
wbwcyi, Djcyi, wekbv_cyii AvKvk Rj Loi jwjnvb wkLvq jvj nq DVQ, gvS
ivZ KLbv ev fi `ycyi| gvS gvS ARvbv RvqMv _K fm Avm Kvb dvUvb kji
AvIqvR Avi wji k| cvwKvbx mbiv GKUvi ci GKUv jvk Mv`v `q| Zvici MvoxZ
Zvj| eKzcyii jvj myowK weQvb ivvi Dci w`q, GK Nq k Zzj MvwoUv GwMq
Pj ARvbvi w`K| Mvoxi wfZi wewfb eqmi jvk Qj, eyov, hyeK Avi hyeZx; bM!
wb_i jvkjv Mvoxi SuvwKZ boZ _vK| GKUv AviKUvi mv_ avv Lvq| Mvoxi duvK
w`q i PzuBq co| wn`y-gymjgvb, wbPz Avi DuPz RvZi i GK avivq wgk hvq jvj
myowKi ayjvi mv_|
eKzcyii Nvl cvov Avi cvj cvov Gi ga DRvo nqQ| ay gywP cvovq GLbv
Avb Rjwb; nqZv QvU RvZ ej| ZviciI AbKB `k QoQ ivZi AKvi|
 17

eyayqvI GKevi feQ, mI cvjve; AZ RvbUv Zv euvPe wK kvgj ivwR nqwb|

ZvK ivwR Kiv hvqwb| kvgj ej,
GUv Avgv`i `k| Avgiv Kb cvjve? cvjve Iiv! jR wUq KzKzii gZ cvjve...
kvgji PvL Rj IV| ivZi Avjv Avuavi evev, gv giv GKiwZ wkwUK eo
APbv jvM eyayqvi| fqI jvM| GZ wPv Avi gv_vq wbZ cviQ bv eyayqv| eyayqv eySZ
cvi, cv hvQ kvgj| mebvk `Z nq| cvjvZ ne| I evPv Qj; Ii me K_vq iZ
w`j Pj? Icvo kvgji AvZxqiv AvQ Iiv dje bv| GZme wPv wbZ cvi bv
eyayqv| nVvr gv_vUv wSgwSg Ki IV, Kuvcywb w`q hvq mviv Mvq| mg kixiUv Aek jvM
Zvi|
ivZ eyayqvi kixi Kuvwcq Ri Gj| Rii Kvc eyayqv fyj eK Pjj AbKY|
Avcwb hveb bv evey; Avcbviv Mj Avgiv Kz_vq hve; Lei`vi KD nvZ `eb bv, Gme
evey`i gvjvgvj; GB kvgj, GB; GZ ivZ Kz_vq hvm&? gvqi gZ nqQ bv? kvjv! Aviv
KZ wK! Avevi KLbv Kuv`| mviv ivZ Pj GB cjvc| gv_vi KvQ em RjcwU w`q Pj
kvgj| gvS ivZ eyayqv Nywgq hvq| cjvc e nq| fvi eyayqvi Nyg fvO| ek my eva
nQ GLb Zvi|
Lye wL` eva nQ GLb| weQvbv _K DVZ wMh gb nq cvki Ni Kviv hb K_v
ejQ| Pvcv ^i| eyayqv fve,
GZ mKvj kvgji Ni Zvi ez Kb Gj? bv wK ivZ GLvb wQj?
MjvUv eyayqvi KvQ cwiwPZ gb nq| nuv, GUv nvwg`i Mjv| eKzcyii eo cyKzii cvo
I`i evox| nvwg` wK ejQ? eyayqv Kvb cZ kvbvi Pv Ki;
kvb kvgj,GUv Zvi KvQ ivLvi `iKvi bB
Kb?
Avn, GUv ZKi mgq bv; Avwg Kvj ivZ nW KvqvUi cuQ `e; ZvQvov Zvi Zv
MbW Quvovi Uwbs bB...
eyayqv eySZ Pv Ki, wVK wK wbq AvjvPbv KiQ Iiv? Gjv eBqi Avjvc? bv wK Ab
wKQz? Gi gvS kvgji Mjv fm Avm eovi Icvk _K,
Ze nvwg` fvB mveavb, ivRvKvi nvivwgjv wK GLb Lye ewk wmwiqvm; mveavb nvwg`
fvB|
 18

K_cvK_b kl nq hvq| eyayqvi zavUvI gi hvq| m~h DV| m~hi big iv` ngi wng
Rovbv Nvmi Dci Gm co| jvj myowK weQvb, weivb, eKzcyii Avjm hb KvUZB
Pvq bv| Av axi `y'GKRb gvbyl RM IV, Avi ZvZB gb nq GLvb GLbv gvbyl
AvQ|
mKvj _KB kvgjK `Lv hvQ bv| LuvRvi BQvI nQ bv eyayqvi| _vK I wbRi gZ|
B`vwbs kvgjK wKQzUv fqI cvQ eyayqv| nVvr KiB cv MQ QjUv| Ni _K ei
nZ AvR eyayqvi Kb Rvwb BQv KiQ bv ZviciI m ewiq Avm| eyayqv hLb Zvi
GKdvwj DVvbi wVK gvS, wVK ZLbB weKU ^i GKUv KvK WK DV|
hv; hv; fvM| mvZ mKvjB KvK| ivg ivg ej, ivg ivg ej|
eyayqvi gb co evoxZ KvK Avmj fxlY wei nZ Zvi gv| Avi KvKK ivg ivg ejZ
Abyiva KiZ evi evi| AvR hw`I KvK kKzbi `k nqQ GB eKzcyi; ZviciI mKvji
GB KvKwUK Afi Pig cZxK ej gb nq| gbi ga bvbv iKgi wav wbqB eyayqv
ivvq bg Avm| ngi wkwki LvIqv ivvUvLuv Luv KiQ ZLbI| A_P wKQyw`b AvMI
fvwi RgRgvU wQj eKzcyii GB ivvwU| cyibv Afvm gZ, PUUv So wbq, Pzc Ki
em _vK eyayqv| mKvji iv`Uv ek wgw jvM Zvi| PKPK iv`i w`K ZvwKq _vKZ
_vKZ, Kgb Rvwb GKUz wSgywb Gm hvq eyayqvi| nVvr GKUv Qj, eqm kvgji gZB
A_ev Zvi _K wKQyUv eo; `o Gm nuvcvZ nuvcvZ ej,
KvKv, I KvKv, mebvk nqQ! AvR mKvj Avgv`i zji wcQb _K ivRvKviiv kvgjK
cvwKvbx Avwg Kv ai wbq MQ| K_vjv GZ `Z ej Mj QjUv h, eyayqv c_g
Zvi wKQzB eySZ cvij bv| Avi K_vjv ejB QjUv h w`K w`q GmwQj wVK Zvi Dv
w`K Pj Mj| `o| nZeyw fveUv KvUZ eyayqvi wKQzUv mgq jvMj| Zvici, MvUv
cw_exUv Zvi mvgb `yj DVj| GKUv Zxe e_v eyKi ga Qwoq ciZ i Kij `Z|
eyayqv wPrKvi Ki DV,
nvq fMevb! nvq ivgRx!
Zvi mB MMY we`vix AvZbv` eKzcyii cavb moKi cvk AvZwZ `vjvbi mv_ avv
Lq GK Zxe cwZawb Zvj| Zvici wki gZ Kuv`Z Kuv`Z eKzcyii jvj myowK
weQvbv ivv w`q evQzi nvivb Mvfxi gZ `ovZ _vK| `ovZ `ovZ eyayqv fyj hvq
Zvi eyK e_v nQ, fyj hvq Zvi eqmi msLvI |
cvwKvbx mbiv Zv`i Kv KiQ, eKzcyii Keivbi cvk KjRi wbPZjvq|
eyayqv hLb mLvb cuQvj ZLb ek ejv nqQ| KjRi cavb MUi KvQ `yRb mwU
A wbq `uvwoq AvQ| Zviv eyayqvi Avmvi KviY RvbZ PvBj ek agKi mv_| eyayqv
DRbvi fvi E`~ Avi evsjvq wgwkq ej Pj,
 19

nvgviv cvZvKv, Giv fyj Ki wbq GmQ; I Lye fvj Qv| gv-evc bwn nvq; I eo nj
DoRvnvR Pvjve...
Kb Rvwb mbiv ZvK wfZi hZ w`j| GKRb A eqmx Awdmvi eyayqvK emvi Rb
Pqvi w`jI eyayqv em bv| wgb wgb Ki ej,
mve, nvgviv cvZv wKavi nvq?
Awdmvi eyayqvK AevK Ki cwivi evsjvq ej DV,
wPv bB; I fvj AvQ| Avcwb Pv Lvb; Pv w`Z ewj?
eyayqv nuv bv wKQzB ej bv| gSi Dci PzcPvc Dey nq em _vK| Zvi PvL _K Rj
coZB _vK| eyayqvi gb nq, PvLUv GKevi Kvwj KweivRK `LvZ ne| wK, m wK
Kuv`Q? Zvi kvgji Zv wKQz nq wb| kvgj Zv fvj AvQ! wK ZvI `ix nQ Kb?
eyayqv Avevi wRvmv Ki|
Qvi, Avc, nvgviv cvZv Kv ` `v; nvg jvK Kv hvbv nvq;
Awdmvi BsiRx Leii KvMR _K PvL mwiq evsjvq ej,
Zvgvi bvwZi mv_ GzwY `Lv ne| Pqvigvb mve AvmjB|
Kzb Pqvigvb Qvi?
gvvi mve, wcm KwgwUi cavb, wgt gZje Avwj, nW wUPvi Ae `v eKzcyi gWj zj|
nVvr Avb` eyKUv fi hvq eyayqvi; gZje gvvi `eZv Zzj| ZvQvov kvgjK Dwb
fvjevmb; Avi kvgjI Zvi fvj Qv| ZLwb eyayqvi PvL gZje Avjxi PnvivUv fm
IV| eyayqv gb gb ej,
gvvi mvne kvgjK Qo Zv `eB| cvij I`iK agKI `e|
agK Lq, GB jvj gyKv `Zjvi Aev Kgb nq, Zv `Lvi Rb wKQzUv mgq GLvb
em _vKe eyayqv| wK gZje Avjx AvmZ `ix KiQ Kb? ejv Zv Mwoq hvQ! nVvr
eyayqvi gb nq, kvgj mKvj LqQ Zv?
kvgji mv_ eyayqvi `Lv nj ejv evivUvi ci| Iiv kvgj ej hvK eyayqvi mvgb nvwRi
Kij Zvi mviv kixi dzj MQ; euv PvLUv Rgv Kvjv i XK MQ; `y nvZi bL jvi
gv_vq i RgvU nq Kvjv nq AvQ| kvgj `uvovZ cviQ bv| `y Rb mb ZvK ai
AvQ| Avi Kvgo euvav `wo|
KjRi gvVi gvS GKUv nvZjqvjv Pqvi gZje gvvi em AvQ wbivc `w wbq|
kvgji GB Aev `L, eyayqvi gv_vUv emvgvj nq hvq| wPrKvi Ki DV eyayqv|
evc Avgvi! `vLb Ryi, `vLb, wK nvj KiQ Iiv kvgji| eyayqvi AvPgKv GB
wPrKvi KqKRb mb mPwKZ nq Zv`i A wVK Ki cZ nq `uvovq|
 20

ivRvKvi Kgvvi jwZd m`c GwMq Avm| LuvwK Rvgv, nvZ ivBdj, eyK wji e
Avi gv_vq wRbv Uzwc- G meB cvq eyayqvi Pbv| ay APbv jwZdi GLbKvi PvwbUv| wnsm
Pvwb wbq wnm wnm Ki jwZd ej,
kvb KvKv, Zzgvi jvwZi `vl bB; Qj fvj| ay I Avgv`i QviK eyjyK Ii e`y nvwg`
Kz_vq? evm, G UzKzb...
eyayqv `o wMq kvgjK Rwoq ai; Ri Ii MvUv cyo hvQ| eyayqv ej,
evc Avgvi, gvwbK Avgvi, ej `, ej ` nvwg` Kz_vq, Zvici Pj, Avi GKw`bI G `k
_vKe bv|
wdm wdm Ki ek K'evi ejvi ci, kvgj AaPZb Nvii ga Zvi gyLUv Zzj Ii `v`yi
w`K ZvKvq; weo weo Ki ej,
`v`y, Avgiv hve bv| G`k Avgv`i| cvjve Iiv| KzKzii gZ jvR wUq cvjve|
ivRvKvi Kgvvi jwZd wRvmv Ki,
KvKv, wK eyj?
eyayqv gZje Avjx gvvii cvq QzU wMq co| ej,
evey, I QvU gvbyl, I wKQz Rvb bv mve; Avcwb gv-evc, kvgjK euvPvb evey|
gZje Avjx gvvi Zvi wbiZvc `w cmvwiZ Ki, ivRvKvi Kgvvi jwZdK WK ej,
Svgjv we`vq Ki jwZd; AvQii Iqv nq hvq|
Zvici A eqmx cvvex Awdmvii mv_ wcP KwgwUi Pqvigvb, eKzcyii cavb wkK
gZje Avjxi mv_ BsiRxZ h K_cvK_b nj, Zvi evsjv Kij `uvovq wbg ic|
Awdmvi ejj,
Avcwb hw` ejb, G Avcbvi we`vjq Qv Ges fvj Qv Zvnj Avwg welqUv wbq cyYivq
fvee|
Avgvi we`vjq Kvb cvwKvb weivax A_vr Z_vKw_Z ^vaxbZvKvgx Kvb bvjvqK bB,
gvb Avwg ivwL bv|
Zvnj I K wbq Kx Kiv DwPr?
GKRb `k`vnxK wbq hv Kiv DwPr|
wKQz mgq Pzc _K, Awdmvi ejj,
H eyov Lye Kuv`Q|
`qvgvqv c`kbi mgq GUv bq; ZvQvov gvjvDb Kvdi`i Kvbvi Pq AL cvwKvb
AbK g~jevb|
IK Pqvigvb mve, nvivgRv`vK Avwg Avgv`i nW KvqvUvi Kzwqv wbq hve; gRi
BqvKze mvi welqwU `Leb Aek hw` ZZY G euP _vK| Avi GK Ggb fve wbq
hve, hv ne GLvbKvi BwZnvm...
 21

Avcbvi hv BQv| nvqvr gDr meB Avjvni nvZ!

Awdmvii Kzg ivRvKvi Kgvvi jwZd Awdmvii wRci wcQb k `wo w`q kvgji
nvZ eua w`j| kvgji evKx kixiUv ivvi Dci jyUvZ _vKj| Awdmvi MvwoZ DVjb|
MvoxZ DVvi c~e, nv gvBK ejjb,
Avwg GB Aeva LZibvK gvjvDb KvdiK Avgv`i nW KvqvUvi wbq hvwQ; Ggbfve
GK wbq hve, hv `L Ab KD Avi G c_ hZ PvBe bv|
DcwZ ivRvKvi I e`i evwnbxi jvKiv nvZZvwj w`q DVj| ivRvKvi Kgvvi jwZd
wPrKvi Ki kvMvb w`j,
cvwKvb wR`vev`, cvwKvb wR`vev`|
Mvox vU nj| Mvox PjQ| kvgji kixi eKzcyii myowK weQvb jvj ivvq QPuo QuPo
GQ| BU, KvV, cv_i VyKi hvQ Ii gv_v; gv_v dU i ewiq wgkQ ayjvi mv_;
jvjP ayjv Kvjv wLZwLZ Kv`vq cwiYZ nQ| Mvoxi MwZ evoZ jvMj| wcQb Kv,
ivRvKvi, cvwKvbx mb, Puv`Zviv cZvKv Avi nZevK eyayqvK dj jvj ayjvi So Zzj
Mvox GwMq Pjj Zvi Mei w`K| wcQb mvuRvqv hvb Aviv GKUv| ayjvi So XK
hvQ Pvicvk| ay ayjvi AKvi `Zi fxwZKi PvLi gZ Rj AvQ Mvoxi jvjevwZ|
GLb eyayqv eySZ cviQ, Zvi kvgj Pj hvQ AbK AbK `~i| wkvwe` gZje AvjxK
fqi nvqbvi gZ `LvQ GLb| eyayqvi eyKi e_vUv mviv kixi Qwoq coQ BwZga|
wK e_vK cvv w`j kvgj AviI `~i Pj hve| eayqv `ovZ i Ki Mvoxi wcQb|
`ovZ _vK, `ovZ _vK, `ovZ _vK... wK ewk `~i hZ cvi bv m| gyL _yeo
co jvj ivvq| wbtkvm AvUK MQ Zvi| Pvicvk AKvi nq Avm gyn~Z| eayqv eySZ
cviQ Avi GZ cvie bv m| mgq kl| Avcmvm bB GZUzKz; Zvi Zv eqm nqQ|
wK kvgj Zv _vKjv euP; GBvB mvbv !
 22

bqb

cBwP, cBwP GvB ai& ai&

Rj ajv Mvgi wekvj Rjvkqi Dj Aa Dj grm wkKvixiv GKhvM wPrKvi Ki DV|
GB, me`j Kvbv gvQ cqQ; eo gvQ! mevB QyU hvq mLvb| me`j Kvbv K wNi
GKUv QvU LvUv RgvqZ Mo DV| me`j ej DV,
Ava K.wR. Zv neB;
wK gvQ i me`j?
kvBj Mv, kvBj-Gi gvSiv!
mKj mweq `LZ _vKj, me`j `ynvZ Pc ai AvQ cvq Avav K.wR. IRbi
GKUv Av kvBj! mKji gyL nvwm Avi PvL nZvkv| Gi ga GKRb ej DV,
Avjvni wK Amxg `qv, A QjUvK AZ eo GKUv gvQ cvBq `j...
Rjvi cvo hviv gvQ aivi `k `LwQj ZvivI me`ji GB mvdj n n Ki DV|
me`ji mev Avb` So co| me`ji PvL bB| Rbv| Rb _K m ivZ Avi
w`bi cv_K KiZ cvi bv, Avjv`v KiZ cvi bv mv`vZ Avi KvjvZ, AKvi Avi
AvjvZ| Kvbv me`j GB Mvg Lye Rbwcq| me gnj GKRbi Ggb MnYhvMZv mPivPi
`Lv hvq bv| Aek me`ji Yi Kvb Afve bB| gvV wbovbxZ Zvi Kvb Rywo bB|
Kvjv mv`vq gvLvb Mvqi is, gv_vq Nb Kvjv Pzj Avi fxlY my`i Mvbi Mjv Zvi| ay
PvL bB me`ji PvL bB gvb `w bB Zvi| ZviciI cP Rxebx kwZB nvK,
Avi Kvb AvjwKK KviYB nvK, m mewKQyB hb `LZ cvq; eySZI cvi mewKQy|
Avhvb cojB m ej w`Z cvi, Rvnii bv AvQii Iqv| ivZ w`bI VvIi KiZ cvi
wbR wbR| Ggb wK gvQ aijI ej w`Z cvi GUv wK gvQ| hw`I m Kvbw`b Gme
`Lwb| ivgKcyi Rjajv Mvgi Rvg gmwR`i cyibv Bgvg mvne ejb,
meB Zuvi BQv fvBQve| wZwb BQv Kij ivZ K w`b KiZ cvib, cvib cv_i dzj
dvUvZ; ivZ-w`b, dzj-cv_i meB Zuvi mw|
me`j kvb Avi nvm| Zvi gb nq AekB wZwb mewKQy cvib| hgb, me`ji Lye
BQv _vKv mI gnvb Kibvgq ZvK Zuvi GB wekvj mw m`h ivwk `LZ `bwb| `bwb
Zvi gv-K GK SjK `LZ| A_P me`ji gv mvbvB wewe Lye avwgK wQj| w`b `yejv
Ki gwR` Ni Suvo w`Z m| me`ji evc ZvK Qo hvIqvi ci _K Zvi gmwR` cxwZ
Aviv eo hvq| gvS gvSB GUv IUv Gb me`j K Zvi gv Av`i Ki w`q ejZ,
 23

bvI evcRvb bvI Avgvi mvbv evc, Avgvi gvwbK evc

me`ji GB WvK-Uv fvj jvMZ| eySZ GB AvIqvRi ciciB gv Avme KvQ| gvqi
Mvqi M cvIqv hve| wK my`i m M, mv_ Lvevi| wLj wLj Ki nm DVZ wk
me`j, Avi mB nvwmZ gy mvbvB wewe eySZ cviZbv h Zvi Qj A| GfveB eo nq
me`j| Zvi gvI GKw`b eySZ cvi, Zvi mvbv evc, gvwbK evc A| G fveB mvbvB
wewei Rbv mve`j eo DVZ _vK| wPbZ _vK Zvi Pvicvk, Mvg, Mvgi gmwR`, Bgvg
mvne Avi Acvi Kibvgq mekwgvb Ckii gZvK| Zx nZ _vK Zvi Abyf~wZ|
GKw`b Mjvq Mvb DV Avm
Zvici wekgq GB m`h Dcjw KiI DcfvM KiZ cvi bv m| GB cw_ex wK my`i
fveZB me`ji Qj ejvi w`bjvi K_v gb co hvq...
me`ji AZ cwizU nIqvi ci mvbvB wewe w`knviv nq coj| Avjvni Ni gmwR`
mvd Kivi cvkvcvwk Abvb KvRI nvZ bq m| `wo cvKvbv, Kuv_v mjvB Kivi gvS
Cgvg mvnei evoxZ cvK mvd Kivmn me `vwqZ wbq dj mvbvB wewe| Cgvg mvnei
weweK Rxb aiQ| Dwb MZ `ygvm weQvbvq, cy| evox Nii me KvR mvbvqi nvZ| e
w`b KvU mvbvqi Avi w`bi kl GKcU LvIqv| mvgvb wKQy Ljbv wbq me`j em
_vK eviv`vq| Abw`K GKUvi ci GKUv KvR Ki Pj mvbvB| Mjv So Cgvg Qve
evoxZ XvKb, Mjv So ejb,
K AvQ, cvwbi Rvjvq Rvb hvq; GK Mjvm cvwb jvM Nii wfZi _K wewe Qve Zx
K ej DV
eyKUv dvU bv Kvb? eyKUv dU RvbUv ewoq hvq bv Kvb Avgvi cvYWv euvP
Pvc nvivgRv`x, Cgvg mve agK `q Cgvg mvnei myivjv K nVvr i Rj Kiv
RjaMxi nq DV| Gi gaB cvwb wbq mvbvB Avm,
GB bvb& cvwb, Vvv cvwb!
Cgvg mvne nvZ mn MvmUv aib| Zvici axi axi Dcii w`K DVZ _vK nvZ| GKUv
Nvi jvMv bkv gvLvbv Mjvq mvbvB wewe ej DV
Qvob, w`b-`ycyi; Avgvi jv Ki bv eywS
Avi jv wK QvU wewe; ZvQvov w`b-ivZ meB Avjvi|
LyK-LyK nm DV mvbvB| ckq gvLvbv Mjvq ej DV
Qvob, fvj nQ bv, GLb bv ci| Avgvi me`j GLbv RvMbv AvQ
Bgvg mvne ej DVb,
 24

Avi, Zvi Qj Zv Kvbv, Amyweav wKm

nVvr Ni _K Zx Mjvq Bgvg mvnei wewe wPrKvi Ki DV,
GB nvivgRv`x gvMx, cvwb `Z KZ mgq jvM?! ei ei Avgvi evox _K| Amnvq
me`j, k~b `w wbq meb Gmei A_ evSvi Pv Ki AvR AbK wKQyB me`j
evS| GI evS `w kw _vKj mw`b m wbRB Zvi PvL Dco djZ| ZvB GZ wKQyi
ci gb nq, Zvi PvL bv _K fvjB nqQ| mw`bjv Avi bB| me`ji gvI GLb
Avi bB| Ze mB Cgvg Ryi AvQb wK bv me`j wVK Rvb bv, Ze Rjajv Mvgi Rvg
gmwR` _K Ryvi LyZev hLb nq; ZLb MjvUv me`ji KvQ Lye cwiwPZ jvM| ZvjMvj
cvwKq hvq me| me`ji Avi bvgvR hvIqv nq bv|
R gvmi mvq Rvgvj dwKii DVvb Mjv Qo Mvb aiQ me`j| fvix wgw Mvbi
Mjv Ii| GKUz Avovj Mvgi gqQjivI Rov nqQ|
Mvb MvBQ me`j mB gvbyl aivi mva bvB/ Avwg Abyfe cvB/ `Lv bvwn hvq/ h_vq k
Ki gvbyl/ nvIqv bvB m_vq ...
Rvgvj dwKi PvLi Rj gyQ ej,
Ii Zv Mjv neB, IZv qs `qvji; Ii dwKi mgvU bvjbi I GK PvL Kvbv wQj
me`j ej,
Avgvi ZvwZ KvbB `yL bvB evev
`ytL _vKe Kvb Mv, Iiv PvLi `wZ `vL Avi Zzwg `vL& Aii `wZ, w`evb
cvk _K GK gwnjv ej IV
dwKi PvPv, Zzgvi mvKi` K Gevi GKUv weq `vI| Pvicvk GKUv nvwmi ivj DV|
Rvgvj dwKi GKUz Pzc _K ej DV,
wVKB Zv, Avgvi me`ji GLb GKRb mvab mwbx cqvRb| Zvgiv `LZ _vK; ek
ev` evRbv Ki Avgv`i Mvqbi weq `e Avgiv|
jv cvq me`j| gb gb cyjwKZ nq| weq !! A~Z GKUv mK| GKRb AcwiwPZ
gwnjv nVvr Avcb _K Aviv Avcb nq DV| Zviv GK mv_ kvq gB GK Acii
Avcb nq DV| me`ji gv gviv hvIqvi ci _K Zgb Kvb AvZxq nqwb Zvi| AvR
nVvr weq kUv b e Gi GKUv Qwe wbRi ga fm DV Zvi| Zvici nVvr ej DV,
_vK& evev, Ab GKUv Rxeb b Ki jvf wK| ZvQvov KB ev Kvbv-i eD nZ PvBe ?
gq`i ga _K mKj ej DV,
m wPv Zzgvi jq, Zzwg GLb RvgvB, Rvgvqi gZ _vK|
 25

me`ji weq nZ ekx mgq jvMj bv| cvki Mvgi evc giv Avi c_g ^vgxi fvZ bv
LvIqv gvgbvi mv_ Rbv me`ji weq nq Mj GKw`b| GKUv Kg `vgi jvj kvwo
gywo w`q gvgbv cvwUi Dci Pv`i weQvb PwKZ Ro nq emj| gvgbvi gv_vi Zxe
MivR Zji myM Qvwcq mnm wS wS cvKvi GK mv_ WvK i KiQ| AvR hb mv
bgQ wKQyUv AvMB| K ev Kviv GB Kzuo Nii `qvj iwOb KvMR gi Kzuo wUK evmi
Nii ic w`Z Pv KiQ| me`jB bxieZv fv,
AvBR Zzgvi LyeB aKj MQ Avi MigI ciQ eRvq|
nuv, GK Mvm cvwb `vb, wZqvm jwMP; Ze Gme Avgvi Mv mIqv|
gvgbvi Mjv w`q Lb& Lb& Ki K_v jv Kyuoi ga Qwoq co| bZzb eDqi K_vq wKQyUv
PgK DV Rxebi c_g ei mvRv me`j| Aviv wKQy fveZ wMq gvgbvi K_vq me`ji
fvebvq Q` co ; gvgbv ej Avevi ej DV,
MjvmUv fvj Ki ayBPb Zv?
cvwb Lq wZqvm wgwUq gvgbv Nygvbvi cwZ wbZ i Ki| Pzji wdZ Lvj, Kvco
Lvj, evDR Lvj| bZzb Kvco Lm& Lm& AvIqvR Avi KuvPi Pzwoi k GK Ab iKg
gv`KZvi mw nq Kyuoi Kvb Avi me`j gb| kvox Avi Pzwoi k me`ji kixi GK
bZzb Abyf~wZ `vj Lq hvq- h Abyf~wZ GZKvj nq wb| Zvici gvgbv ej DV,
Kzwci evwZ wbweq `vb- Avgvi PvL jvM- Avcbi Zv Amyweav bB Avcb njb, Kvbv|
Avcbi ivBZ w`b mgvb|
Avevi me`ji co hvq gb, m Kvbv| Zvi mewKQy mgvb gvbvq bv| me`ji eD nqQ
wK ZvK `Lv hve bv nqZv QvqvI hve bv! Kvbv gvbyli kixii k Abi mn bvI
nZ cvi| KzwcUv bfvZB KzuoUv AKvi Kei cwiYZ nq| wKQy ci GKdvwj Puv`i
Avjv DuwK gvi Kyuoi weQvbvq mLvb nvZ cv Qwoq Nygvq me`ji m` weevwnZ x
gvgbv| AvR Pj hvIqvi K_v _vKjI gvgbv hZ Pvqwb| ZvB me`jKI _vKZ
nqQ GLvb| Nyg AvmQ bv me`ji| Avi gvgbvi wbtkvmi `vjvq `yjQ me`ji
evmi, Zvi dzjkhv| Avi _vKZ cvi bv m, nvZo DV em PwKZ; Zvici nvZ w`q
k Ki gvgbvi gyL, PvL, VuvU, _yZwb, Mjv; Zvi eD Gi PnvivUv me`j Zvi gbi
gvS Lv`vB Ki ivLZ Pvq| me`ji Pj nvZ _yZwb Mjv _K axi axi bg _vg
gvgbvi DVv bvgv Kiv eyK| we`yr wkniY Lj hZ _vK me`ji kixi| gyn~Z RM
hvq gvgbv| GK SvUKvq DV em ej DV,
 26

Dnt Nyg ev` w`q Gme wK Kib? Kvbv gvbyli `wL Gw`K bvB Iw`K wVK AvQ!! Nyg hvb
mKvj KvR AvQ...ejB gvgbv Avevi Nywgq hvq| wbNyg ivZ, AwZ axi axi KvUvZ
_vK me`ji| c~e AvKvk dmv nq DV axi axi|
ciw`b GKUv fvb ei eay eii evoxi Dk hLb iIbv nj, ZLb `ycyi Mwoq MQ|
gvgbv GKUv wUbi ev wbq fvb DV em| fvbIqvjv Zvi wekl cwiwPZ| gvgbvi
`yi mKi AvZxq ej gvgbv `vex Kij gvS c_| gvgbv ej DV,
KvBj wKK Zzwg wdiwZ cviev bv nvkg fvB| GK Mvj nm nvkg Avjx ej,
ZvB wK nq? cii evox wK KvR dj _vKv hvq?
cii evox ne Kb, GUvZv Zzgviv evox|
nuv, Zzgvi evox gvbB Zv Avgvi evox| nv-nv-nv wK eyjv Mv `yjv fvB?
ejB wekx fve nm DV nvkg Avjx| ZLb Avi Kvb K_v LyuR cvq bv me`j| gvgbv
ej DV,
AvQv Avcb wK mwZB Kvbv, wKQyB `Lb bv
K_vUv bI bv kvbvi fvb Ki me`j|
bvbv ivv Nyi wiv fvb Uv me`ji Nii mvgb Gm _vg| mKjB bZzb eD `L, Vvv
Ki Pj hvq mvi GKUz ciB| ivZi LvIqv `vIqvUv AvR dwKi evoxZB mb nq|
dwKi Rvgvj ej,
nvkg evevwR Zvwj, Zzwg Avgvi GLvbB kqb hvI, bv wK?
Zx K gvgbv ej DV|
Ab RvqMv wj, nvkg fvB-Gi Nyg nq bv dwKi evev Avi K_v bv evwoq Iiv mKjB
me`ji Ni Pj Avm| me`j ej DV
GKUv Ni, fvB ZzgvK KzZvB h Z w`B; Ze K_vB ej, hw` nI myRb ZuZzj cvZvq
bRb|
PwK Avi Nii evBii eviv`vq mKji kvqvi RvqMv nj klgk| Kvw Avi AembZv
g~ZB Mvm Kij me`j K| nVvr GK`gKv evZvm Nii ga Qwoq w`j GKivk eKzj
dzji M| Zvici Nyg| kvwgq Nyg| gvS ivZ mB ckvwi Nyg f Mj me`ji,
wdmwdm k| gvgbv M` M` nq ejQ|
Qvo nvkg fvB, GKw`bI GKv _vKZ cvi bv hb; wdmwdm Ki nvkgI Di `q
GKv _vKj fq nq, cixi fq
GLb bv Aviv ci, Avgvi ei GLvbv gb nq RvMbv
 27

Avi Zvi ei Zv Kvbv; Zvi RvMv Avi Nygvwb Zv GKB| Z`vi gvS PgK DV me`j|
GB Mjvi mv_ AbK cyivb Mjvi wgj LyuR cvQ m| G gyn~Z Qj ejvi mB Ryii
Mjvi mv_ nvkgi Mjv wgj wgk GKvKvi nq hvq| cvYUv QUdwUq DV me`ji| GZ
K Kb GB Qv RxebfveZB Zvi PvLi KvUi _K dvUv dvUv Rj Mwoq Gm
wgk hvq Zj wPU wPU evwjk| Nyg nq bv Avi| ZviciI eNvi Nygi fvb Ki mKvj
ch q _vKj me`j| cieZxZ ivZi Nyg k nq IV me`ji| cvq Avm,
gvgbvi `~i mKi fvB nvkg Avjx; gaivZ Rg DV wdmwdm Avjvc| gaivZ
nvkgi K^i wgj hvq me`ji Qj ejvi mB Ryii mywg K^ii mv_| PvLi
KvUi _K jvbv Rj Gm wfwRq `q ZjwPU evwjm| Nygnxb wb_i co _K cvYcb
me`j fvii cwZv Ki| ... Gfve GKi ci GK wbNyg ivZ KvUZ _vK me`ji|
Pviw`K AKvi wbqI Ai h Avjv RjZ ZvI axi axi wbf AvmZ _vK me`ji|
Avevi GK kveY mvq dwKi evoxZ Avmi em Mvbi| cvY Lyj Mvb Mq wbR Ku` Avi
jvKK Kuvw`q Ni di me`j| ivZ wKQy bv LqB q co m| cvk q gvgbv
ej DV;
AvR Avcbi Mvb bjvg; Kvbv gvbli Mjvq GZ myi Avm KzwK?
Kb, Kvbv`i wK Mjvq myi _vKwZ bB? GKUz SuvSi mv_ wRm Ki me`j|
gvgbv ej DV,
bv Zv bv, Zve, gvbli PvL Qvov AvQB ev wK?
nVvr me`ji wfZiUv ZZ DV| AbK w`bi ebv Avi Dcvi `vevbj `vD `vD Ki
Rj DV| Kvbv me`ji wfZii meKUv cyil wmsn GK mv_ sKvi w`q DV nVvr|
me`j GK SUKvq gvgbvi kixii Dci DV em| Zvici e nq DV m| NUbvi
AvKwKZvq gvgbv evKi nq hvq; c_g mvgvb Avcw I evav Zwi KijI, me`ji
cili KvQ mewKQyB _g hvq GK mgq| me`j GK Ab `ywbqvq cek Ki| Nvg
wfR DV `yUv kixi; GK mgq me`j wkw_j nq hvq| Nvg fRv kixi Avevi m GKivk
eKzji M cZ _vK| Zvici `vib GK Abyf~wZ Avi Aemb kixi bg Avm Z`v
`yRbiB|
me`j Avi gvgbvi Rxeb `y'gii evwm`v nqB KvUZ _vK| GKw`b `ycyi gvgbv
ivbvi cvwb AvbZ wMq Kzqvi cvo Mwoq co Mj| fi `ycyi Gnb GKUv NUbv! dwKi
evoxi mKj GKevi QyU Avmj Kzqvi KvQ| me`j ZLb Ni| wPrKvi b mI GwMq
hvq dwKi evoxi DVvb ZZb gvgbv K Ni wbqQ gwnjviv| mvq mKj gwnjviv
me`ji KvQ wgw LZ Pvq| ej,
I MvZK, Avgv`i wgVvB LvIqvI
 28

me`j ej DV,
eD giQ Avgvi, Avi wgVvB Lvev Zzgiv GZv `wL fvj wePvi|
gwnjviv ej DV,
giY, MvZK `wL wKQyB evS bv; IMv Zzwg evc nwZ hvQ Mv...
me`ji MvUv `ywbqvUv GK K_vq `yj DV| evc wnmve wbRK fveZ fvwi AyZ jvM
Zvi| cigyZ MfeZx eDUvi jvRyK gyLUv `LZ BQv nq|
Gi gvSB kveY kl nq Mwoq Mj Avi wKQyUv mgq| mvivw`bi KvRi ga me`ji
gv_vq ayZvi AbvMZ fwelZi K_v NyicvK Lvq| GB fvebvq m Zvi wbRi KvRI fyj
Ki em| w`bi kl ivZ me`j ^c `L, GKUv bvsUv wk mviv DVvb `o eovQ;
evoxi cvwZnvm jvK GKUv cvVKvwV w`q gviZ hvQ; nvm jv cvK cvK k Ki
mviv evoxgq QyU eovQ| nVvr kl ivZ Nyg f hvq me`ji| gvgbv KvZivQ|
me`j wPrKvi Ki DV,
dwKi evev, eD Avgvi Kgb Ki Mv ...
dwKi evox _K AbKB `o Avm| GK eD ej DV,
gvgbvi we`bv DVQ Mv, avB WvK&
GKUv Rj nvwiKb Avi GKUv jvwV wbq GKRb `o `q cvki Mvg avB WvKZ| KD
GKRb Pzjv RvjvZ em; Mig cvwb jvMe| kl ivZ dwKi evox nVvr B Rg DV| Ze
K_vi Pq KvR ekx nZ _vK| ARvbv AvksKvq gvU nq DV evoxi cwiek| Avi GB
cwiekK fqven Ki AvksKv Qwoq `q gvgbvi kixi Rj Kiv wPrKvi|
avB hLb Gm cuQvj, ZLb me RvMvo mb nqQ Avi gvgbv I wkKo Dcovbv
jvDqi WMvi gZ bwZq coQ| avB mgq b bv Ki Mxi gyL gvgbvi Ni XvK|
wbivc` `yiZ wewQb fve `uvwoq _vK cyiliv| Gw`K Kvb KvR bv cq IRy mi
bvgvR `uvwoq hvq me`j| Zvi gb co, AbK w`b bvgvR cov nq IVwb Zvi|
gvbvRvZ cig Kibvgqi KvQ `ynvZ Zzj, me`j wKQyB PvBZ cvi bv| Gi gvSB avB
Gi Mjv kvbv hvq;
Ii me`ji LvKv nqQ!
mv_ mv_ ^w Avi bRb Qwoq co dwKi evoxi DVvb| bRb AwZ`Z Avb` wPrKvi
icvwiZ nZ _vK| mewKQy dj cwigwi Ki `o `q me`j| avB Gi mvgb wMq,
avB K Rwoq ai, wPrKvi Ki DV me`j,
avB, mwZ ej, Avgvi LvKv nwqP?
nuv Mv! Zzgvi LyKv Avi Zzgvi eD ...
 29

euvwK K_v jv XK hvq me`ji wPrKvi| me`j ej DV,

AvgvK Zziv evj, Avgvi weUvi bqb AvQ Zv? I `LwZ cvwQ Zv? I avB? avB ej
DV,
I evc me wVK AvQ| ZzB Kvb wPv Kwim bv
me`j AviI GwMq Avm avB Gi KvQ| Zvici `yUv LRyii KuvUv nvZ wbq ej DV,
avB, Ii PvLUv Zzwg GB KuvUv w`q b Ki `vI; Avwg KvDK wKQy eje bv; Zzgvi cvq
awi, PvL `y'Uv b Ki `vI| Avgvi evc, Avgvi gvwbK Kvbv nvK; A nvK! AwZ my`i
cvcgq GB cw_ex bv `LyK! eo K, eo K! ejB, nZevK wbZv K Lvb Lvb Ki m
WyKi Ku` DV| ZLb `~ii gmwR` AvRvb i nqQ| me`j Ku`B Pj|
 30

wbf AvuP civb gj

`~ii wRwbm GLb fvj VvIi KiZ cvi bv civb| Svc&mv `L; Pbv gyLjv wKQzZB
wPbZ cvi bv m| Mvg GK myuB dvUvbv Wvvi AvQ Zvi KvQI GKw`b wMqwQj civb
gj| Wvvi AbK `L b BsiwRZ ivMi bvg ej kl ejj, I `v`v, A Kiv
jvMe| G K_v Zv civbi RvbvB wQj| myuB dvUvbv Wvvi`i Rvb Kvb ing bB|
weiwZ gRvRUv Mig nq hvq civbi| ivM MR& MR& KiZ KiZ Wvvii Ni _K
ewiq Avm| gb gb ej, A! PvL Ag~j ab, mLvb A Kiv me! Kvb gvbyli
Rxeb _vKZ Zv KiZ cvi| Avi Kvb w`K gvovqwb civb| cvki Mvgi Kvwj KweivRi
mv_ `Lv nqwQj civbi| me K_v Lyj ejj civb KweivR gkvBK| KweivR gkvq me
b ejjb, Ime njv myuB dvUvbv Wvvi`i gvUv gvUv K_v; ZzB Lvwj meyR `Lwe
Ime wKQzB jvMe bv; meyR PvLi RvwZ evo| K_vUv civbi gb Lye ai| Zvici
_K wbqg Ki civb dmj fwZ gvV `LZ Avm| AvRI Zvi ewZg nqwb| meyR `LZ
Zvi fvj jvM bv| ewPnxb, cvbm jvM| civbi gb nq, cKwZ Avi bvix `~i _KB
Ac~e jvM; KvQ AvmjB gwK| ZviciI KvQ AvmZB nq| AvBji cvk `vuwoq dmj
`LZ nVvr ZvgvKi bkvUv Pb&gwbq DV Zvi| Kcvj nvZ w`q m~hi ZvcK VwKq
Avkcvk a~gcvqx LyuRZ _vK civb| cvki AvBj RwgZ GKRb nvj Pvl KiQ| civbi
gb nq myiZ Avjx| myiZ AmvaviY ZvgvK mvR| AMZv Zvi w`KB bRi w`j civb, I
myiZ, gvwUi Rv Kgb ? nvji Mii Kvua _K jvOj bvwgq myiZ Avjx Reve `q,
Aviv cvwbi `iKvi Mv civb `v`v; gvVi Aev Lye fvj bv| `y nvUzi Dci fi w`q emZ
emZ civb ej IV, GKUz bkv mvR& Zv fvB| myiZ AvjxI Kvb Avcw Ki bv|
mywe`cyii gvbyli ga GB GK Y| Giv GK Acii Rb wbew`Z cvY| G`i `ytL K
Avb` nvwm meB GKUv mxwgZ Mwi ga evuav| me wKQzB wbRi ga fvMvfvwM Ki Giv
Ab iKg Zw cvq| `yUv eo `g w`q, GK eyK avuqv Qo myiZ Avjx ej IV, AvKvk
Avi gvwU GB Ki RxebUv gvwU Ki w`jvg, Zey gvwU wPbjvg bv Mv civb `v`v! civb K_vi
Zvrch bv eyR ej IV, Kb fvB, gvwU K wPbQv ejB Zv GZ avb Ni Zvjv| KB
Abiv Zzgvi gZ cvi? Ii G Pbv m Pbv bv Aviv Mfxifve gvwUK wPbZ nq
`wLm&wb cvjiv Ggb my`i Ki gvwU Qvb h, gvwU Zvi K_v kvb; GB gvwUZ Zviv nvuwo
evbvq Avevi G gvwUZ evbvq cyZzj; PvL _vKjB wK me wKQz `Lv hvq? Zywg Zv Kvbv bv;
Zvgvi bvK Zv PvLi mv_B mv_; `LZ cvI, Zvgvi bvK `yUv eo eo Qvu`v AvQ?
cwZw`b GKUz GKUz Ki civbi `w kw Kg AvmQ Zvi Lei ivL bv myiZ| AbKw`b
 31

evuPv nq MQ civbi| Aviv nqZv evuPZ ne| mvgb AvmQ AKvi; fveZB civbi
Qvwb cov PvL cvwb Gm hvq| Aviv `yUv `g w`q myiZ Avjx evoxi w`K nvuUv i Ki|
hvIqvi mgq ej, hvB Mv civb `v`v| civb wKQz bv ej, Zvi Mgb c_i w`K Pq
_vK| ZvgvKi Avb wbfz wbfz nq Avm| civbi evox divi Zvov bB| evox ejZ Zv
mvo Pvi KvVvi gZ wfUi Dci Loi Ni| GKwU PwK; Zj wPU&wPU cvwU Avi GKwU
evwjk| msmvi ejZ Zvi GBUzKz| GB wecyj wek msmvi civb GKv| ZvB evox hvIqvi
Zvov Kg| Kevi wbRK mvsmvwiK Ki Zvjvi Pv KiQ civb; wK klgl mKjB
civbK GKv iL wbR`i c_ `L wbqQ| civbi c_g KvRUv nqwQj cvki Mvg
gbvnicyii wmivR gvwSi gq Rvmbvi mv_| Kjv c gq Rb nqwQj ej gqi
`vw` Av`i Ki bvg iLwQj Rvmbv| ic Pvu`I Rvmbvi KvQ nvi gvbZ| weqi ci
AevK weq eDqi w`K ZvwKq _vK civb| Nvi jvMv PvLi Pvwb hb klB nZ Pvq
bv Zvi| Rvmbv ej IV, Agyb Ki `vLb wK? civb wbevK! Rvmbv Avevi ej, KZv
ejb bv h? wK nj? Nvi KvwUq ej, ZzgvK `wL; Zvgvi ic `wL; Pvu`i cixK
Avgvi fvOv Nii wfZi `wL| Rvmbv ej, GZ `Lj dzwiq hve, Kg `vLb| K_vq
K_vq ivZ Mvp nq| jbi wkLvi gv_vq Kvjv avuqvi Mvj Kvwji `jv Zwi nq| Nii ga
m` weevwnZ `ywU Avi `~i em _vKZ cvi bv| Rvmbv GKUz GwMq Gm civbi nvZ
nvZ ivL| wdmwdm Ki ej, Avcwb jvKUv fvj; eySb Kg; gq gvbyl me K_v gyL ej
bv| Pjb ivZ nqQ! AvR Avgv`i dzj ivZ| ZLb civbi eqm AbK Kg| Rvmbvi ei
nIqvi gZB gvbvb| wK Rvmbv Qvuqvi mv_ mv_ civb wKQzUv hb KzKo hvq wfZi|
mnm eQii Avw` AvKlY hb wKQzZB civbK Dx KiZ cvi bv| Rvmbv Aviv GwMq
Avm, civb Zvi mg BQv kwK GKwZ Ki RvmbvK Rwoq ai| ciYB civb
Kvw eva Ki| Amnvqi gZ Loi Rvbvjv w`q Pvu` `LZ _vK| ZLb Rvmbvi cveb
g Pvicvk| wKQzY ci Rvi GKUv avv w`q civbK mwiq `q Rvmbv| m avv
mvgjvZ bv ci PwK _K gvwUZ wMq co| mv_ mv_ Zx Mjvq Rvmbv ej IV,
Lei`vi, PwKZ DVwe bv; _vK gvwUZB _vK; gvMx Kz_vKvi| civbi bZzb eDqi kl
K_vUv wcb& AvUK hvIqv iKWi gZ cvK evRZ _vK civbi gv_vi Mfxi| civb fe
cvq bv, Kb Ggb nq! Zvi kixii ^vfvweK I mej| Kvb mgmv bB| Ze wK m wnRov!
wK m w`bI gvV hvIqvi c_ Rj cvovi GK eqi fRv kixi Zvi PvL AvUK
wMqwQj| Zvi kixi fRv mywZi evi nvZi QvU KvcoUv Rj eDqi kixiUvi Dci
Lvg&P em wQj| civb PvL w`q cvY w`q wMjQ m `k| ci mvuS Mwoq Mj GKjv
weQvbvq wPr nq q PvL e Ki m `kUv `Lvi Pv KiQ evievi| G mgq Zvi
ZjcU GKUv wkiwkivbxI Abyfe KiQ civb| wK G chB kl, Kvbw`bB civb cyil
nq DVZ cviwb ZvB civb gj eo nqI AaK, Ac~Y, A_nxb GKRb| Zvici Avi Nyg
 32

nq bv civbi| mviv ivZ Nygi ga dzwcq Pj Rvmbv| dvucvwb Avi MvOvwbi ga w`q
cvwL WvKZ i Ki| fvi nq| ^vfvweK Avi cvuPUv w`bi gZ ejv MovZ _vK| Rvmbv
fiei evuK kLcvov Avi Rj cvovi gq`i mv_ Mvmj mi Avm| GK gb ivbv
Ki| wK fvZ cU XzKj bv civbi| cii ivZjv Avi ivgvwUK nqwb| Lye KvQi wQj
Rvmbv| Ni`vi wbwKq-PzwKq cwicvwU Ki djQ GKvB| weavZv nqZv civbK GKvB
`LZ PqQb, bBj w`b `ycyi GgbwU ne Kb| ivbv Nii cvk Kbv Lwo KzovZ
wMq cvKv RvZ mvci jR aiwQj Rvmbv| Lye ekx mgq `bwb Rvmbv| cvq NUv
wZbKi gaB me kl| Avevi, civb gj G-wfeb GKv nq hvq|
wfyeb wbtm nqI civb gb gb wbw nq| ivZ Rvmbvi KvQ e_ cixv w`Z ne
bv Avi ZvK| e_Zv Rxeb Kvwjgv Avb| Zvi Pq AbK fvj Zj wPUwPU weQvbvq wPr
nq q Rj eDqi fRv kixiUvK Avav ^ci gvS aivi Pv Kiv| civb wbRi ga
jywKq _vK Gme wbq| Avi Mvg Zvi gwbgyLv bvgwU cPvi cZ _vK `Z| GK chvq
Mvgi cvuP gyiex GK iKg Rvi KiB civbi Rb cvki Mvg ivavKvcyii Aveyj
gvwj_vi gR gq wbq Avm| civb nuv bv ejvi AvMB AbKB ej, AweevwnZ _vKv
kwiqZ weivax| ZvB cii Ryvq weKj bvMv` civb nvbydvi wbKv mb nq hLb Zviv
wivZ DVj ZLb m~h cwg Xj coQ| nvbydv Avi Rvmbvi ga wQj AvKvk cvZvj
cv_K| me w`K _K Giv `yRbvi m~Y wfb RMZi gvbyl| wbKv Ki Mvg Avmvi mgq
wivZ emB nvbydv ej DVj, Avcb GKUz Pc emb Avgvi emZ AvKo VKQ|
ivZ nvbydv ejj, Avcbvi cvk evwjk bB? Avcb Kib wK? Rwg wRiZ KZUzKz? mq
wKQz KiQb? civb Zvi wbRi evwjkUv bZzb eDK w`q Ab w`K gyL Nywiq Rvbvjv w`q
fvv Pvu` `LZ _vK| Gi gaB Nyg Gm hvq civbi `yPvL| ga ivZ civbi Nyg
f Mj Kov MivR Zji M| ZLb nvbydv civbi eyKi Dci| civbi kixiUvK
eyfz bKoi gZ cvYcY Lyej PjQ| nvbydv ejj, Gevi Zzwg DV; wK Nyg Zzgvi| ...
KLb _K UvbvUvwb KiwQ, Kvb mvov bB| weUv Qji kixi wK gvMx`i gZ Vvv| GK
K_vq civbi mviv kixi gb fvix nq IV| Zvi kixii mKj Mvcb Nyj Nywj jv e
nZ _vK; ZviciI meUzKz kw w`q wKQz GKUv Kivi Pv Ki civb, wK mUv wKQzB nq
IV bv| v nq civb ej IV; AvBR Qvovb `vI eD| gyn~ZB welqwU eyS bb nvbydv|
Zx Mjvq ej IV, gyi` bB Zv wbKvi cqvRb wQj wK? KvBj _K gvwUZ we; Avi
Avgvi Rwb GKUv cvk evwjk Avbwe -ejB Rvi GKUv avv `q nvbydv| m avv
mvgjvZ bv ci gvwUZ co hvq civb gj| coB eySZ cvi evwK RxebUv gvwUZ Z
ne| Gi cii w`bjv civbi KU MQ GK iKg bkvi ga| mKvj mv Abi
RwgZ KvR, mvq Ni div; ivZ dwKi evoxi Mvbi Avmi hvIqv Gi ga hUzKz mgq
 33

cvIqv hvq m mgq wPv KiB civbi w`b KvUZ| GB duvK cvqB nvbydvi evci evoxi
jvK Mwb wgTv civbi evox AvmZ jvMj| nvRvi njI ki evox bv nvK ki Mvgi
jvK Zv| ZvB LvwZi hZi Kvb KgwZ ivLZv bv civb| Avi mB myhvM gvS gvS
ivZI _vKZ i Ki Mwb wgTv| civb wKQz bv eySvi fvb Ki meB eySZ Avi wbweKvi
nq GB cw_ex bvgK biKi hYv mn Ki hZ| gaivZ Avav Z`vi ga civb bZ
cvq Zvi Nii `vIqvq ZviB wbKv Kiv eD wdmwdm Ki K_v ej Pj wgTv G me Avcbvi
evbvwb K_v; AvgvK Avcb GKUzI fvj evmb bv| Mwb wgTv ej IV, GUv Kvb KZv nj
bvwK Zzgvi bv `Lj GK nv _vKZ cvwi bv; RvbWvi ga Kgb Rvwb Avuco-dvuco
Ki| Gevi nvbydv ej, Gvq Avevi wK; GKevi Zv njv; Avi bv; wnRovUv RM hve|
nvbydvi Mjvq w`we ckqi myi| GB biK hYv mn KiZ cvi bv civb gj; gB gZ
gvbyli gZ fvejknxb nq hvq m| GfveB fvi nq; Avevi ivw nq| gvS gaB Avm
G aiYi hYvi ivZ civbi hvwcZ Rxeb| mw`b `ycyi ejv gvV _K wdi civb `Lj
Zvi kii Mvgi jvK Mwb wgTv GmQ| Avi civbi wbKv Kiv eD Mwb wgTvK Nii
`vIqvq ewmq evZvmv Avi wPo LvIqvQ| civb Avmvi mv_ mv_ Mwb wgTv mvjvg w`q
ej, wg fvBqi kixjUv fvj Zv? GKUv wekl KvR cvki Mvg wMqwQjvg; divi c_
fvejvg nvbydv eyK GKUz `L hvB; gv giv eyBb Zv, bv `Lj RvbWv cyovq|| civb ej,
LyeB fvj K_v| nvbydv NvgUv Avovj ej IV, bb Avgvi QvU PvPxi Rv-Gi Lye AmyK;
Avwg fvBqi mv_ MvjvcbMi hvwQ| GKevi hvq hvq Aev| Mwb ej, gvbyli Rvb, evqyi
mgvb GB AvQ GB bvB| civbK wKQzB ejvi myhvM bv w`q nvbydv `vIqv _K bg
DVvbi gvS Gm `vuovq| civb j Kij, nvbydv Zvi mvbvi `yj Rvov Avi icvi weQv
wbZ fvjwb| hvIqvi mgq civbK Avevi mvjvg w`q ej, fvBmve Pjjvg, `yqv Kieb;
Avevi Avmey| Iiv Avi wdi Avmwb| Avi hvIqvi mgq Rwg eK bIqvi Rb h `ynvRvi
UvKv Nii Pvji dvuK MuvRv wQj mUv nvbydv mv_ wbZ fzj Kiwb| Gme wfZii Lei
Mvgi KD Rvbj bv, ay Rvbj gwbgyLv civbi Ni nvbydv KiZ cvijbv| ZZxqevi Avi
msmvi cvZvi K_v civb gj fve wb| cvkvcvwk eqmI eoQ civbi| mvo Pvi KvVv
wfUZ AbK Rj MwRq DVQ BZvga| cvuP Mvgi gq gvbyli `qv gwbgyLv
DcvwawU wbq civb KvwUq w`j Rxebi AbKUv mgq| ZviciI gvbyli GKUv wVKvbv
_vK| civbi wVKvbv ejZ myevacyii H wfUv evwoUzKz| ZvB m~h A`k njB AKvi
civbK WvK `q| m Zvi wVKvbvq divi ZvwM` Abyfe Ki| ejv coQ AbKY|
civb eySZ cvi AbKUv mgq gvVi AvBj em AvKvk cvZvj wPv Ki KvwUqQ| GLb
mv MwoqQ| Mvgi Rj cvovq c`xc Rj DVQ GK GK Ki| GLb Avi gvV _vKv
DwPr ne bv| Ab RwgZ KvR, wbRi wfUvq jvD, kmvi gvPvb Zix Avi mvay m Ki w`b,
gvm, eQi Pj hvq civb gji| Aemi cjB bvbv wPv wfo Ki gv_vq| wZi nvU
 34

civbi dj hvIqv xiv evi evi cmiv mvwRq em co| ZLb civbi RxebUvK fvwi
AzZ gb nq Zvi KvQ| GZ K Avi hYv wbq civb Zvi RxebUvK eq Pj&j AbK
w`b| AvRKi Rxeb mvqvi Ny Ny WvKv `ycyi evmb gvRvi k bZ mva nq civbi|
gvS gvSB GB wbtm RxebUvK eBZ ek K nq Zvi| gbi K_v gb iL Nvm gyL
w`q civb myevacyiB AwZ cwiwPZ nqI AcwiwPZ _K Mj| MvgUvI GLb Avi AvMi
gZ bB| w`b e`jQ `Z| mgqi mv_ mv_ myevacyii wbfRvj gvbyljv Rxebi
bvbv RwUj wnmve wbKvki mv_ cwiwPZ nq coQ| GLb cvqB kni _K cywjki bxj
isqi Mvox Avm GLvb| BDwbqb cwil` wbevPb MZevi `yUv jvk coQ myevacyii
Rjvq| Mvgi Qjjv PvL kxZj Pvwb| Pvqi `vKvb GLb gvo gvo| mLvb
Uwjwfkb PjQ bvsUv bvP| Mvgi jvKiv AvK Pv Mj Avi wewo wmMviU Lvq wbtk|
mKjB ek mRvM GLb| mevB K_v ej Kg| civbi Aviv eqm eoQ| mv_ jvj
Pvqi bkvUvI eoQ Zvi| mw`bI mKvj GK Mjvm Pvqi Avkvq gvoi `vKvbi
gvPvi w`Z GwMq hvq civb| `vKvb`vi ej IV, I `v`v, Lei bQ bv wK? civb
wbweKvi `wZ `vKvwbi w`K ZvKvq; `vKvb`vi Quvov ej Pj, AvBR fvi Rjvq GK
gq Qji jvk coQ Mv; iBc Km, me kixj KvUv `vM AvQ; kixj Kvb Kvco
bB `v`v! civb eyS bq h, GB KviYB gvPv AvBR Lvwj; mevB MQ jvk `LZ| awlZv
gqi Dj jvk `Lvi gaI GK aiYi AbyfwZ jywKq _vK| civb wbweKvi nq GK
Kvc Pvqi Rb gvPvq em Acv KiZ jvMj Avi cieZx NUbvjvi K_v fveZ _vKj|
Gici cywjk Avme, jvki gqbv ne; Zvici Mvgi hyeK QvovjvK wRvmvev`i Rb
WvKv ne| _vbv _K divi mgq _vbvi `vivMvi nvZ gvUv AsKi UvKv uR w`q AvmZ
ne| Zv bv nj Avcbv Avcwb gvWvi Km dum hZ ne| GB nj wnmve| mnR mij
wnmve| hZB w`b hvQ myevacyii gvbyljv wbZ bZzb GB me wnme-wbKl Rwoq
coQ, Avi mnR mij _K nq coQ RwUj-KzwUj|
civb hv fewQj Zvi wKQzB Gevi djjv bv| ay GKevi m`i _K cywjki bxj MvoxUv
Avmj| GK `vivMv Mvox _K wmbgv vBj bvgjb| jvk `Ljb ZvwQji mv_; nvZ
aiv Iqvijm mU wK me Riix K_v ejjb; Zvici DcwZ mKjK ejjb; Gme njv
b Km&| G`i bv _vK wVKvbv, bv _vK RvZ cvZ| Avjv _K Giv Gm AKvi wgk
hvq| wK ZvB ej Zv AvBb Qvo bv; AvBb Pj Zvi wbRi MwZZ ..| `vivMv mvne
GKUz _vgjb| DcwZ mKji w`K cywjk `w eywjq wbq Avevvi i Kijb, GB kvjx
nqZv WvKvZ `ji Pi A_ev ekv| Ze AvBb ej cv gUg jvMe| Zvi ci jvki
kl e`ve Kiv hve| `vgx cvKU _K GKUv wmMviU Rvwjq Avkwi myi `vivMv
mvne Avevi i Kib, Ze mvi me evSb; Dwb vbx jvK; AvwgI ZvuK eySvbvi Pv
 35

Kiev| Avi Avcbviv jvki kl e`veKivi eev Kib| Avwg jvk bIqvi Rb dvm
cvVvwQ| `vivMv mvne hvIqvi mgq Mvgi gvZeii evoxZ Pv weyU Lq `vgx wmMviUi
a~qv Qo m`i wdi Mjb| mgmv evajv jvki RvbvRv I `vdb wbq| mgeZ mKji
mvgb Rvg gmwR`i Bgvg mvne Mjv So ejjb, fvB me, mgmv RwUj njI eywSq
ejj wbq eySeb| c_g Avgv`i kbv KiZ ne, jvki RvZ wK? DcwZ mKj gyL
PvIqv-PvIwq Kijv| gwnjv jvki RvZ wK Dcvq wbYq Kiv hve? Bgvg mvne ejjb,
Dcvq GKUv AvQ; Zv nj, Avcbviv hw` KD mv `b h, GB gqQj RxweZ Kvj
Avcbv`i Kvb AvZxq ev cwiwPZ wQjb? ZvQvov GB jvk RxweZ _vKvKvjxb Kvb w`b
bvgvR Av`vq KiQ, ivRv iLQ wK bv ZviI mv cqvRb| gymjgvb eZxZ Kvb
eagxi RvbvRv Kiv hvq bv| Bgvg mvnei K_vq DcwZ mKji gv_vq AvKvkUv fO
coj| GK Zv _vbvi mvnei Kzg Zvi Dci GKUv eAve jvk cKvk co AvQ GUv
mn KivI k| wK me KiYxq KZejv agxq eovRvj AvUK coZ _vK `Z|
APbv KvDK AvZxq evbvbv wK me? ZvQvov alYi Dj jvk! bv GKRb! nvK bv m
giv| ZviciI mgvR ej GKUv K_v AvQ| G mg KviY ejv evoZ jvMj; Avi bvbv
mgmvi AveZ nvuPU Lq gyL _yeo coZ _vKj myevacyii gvbyli KZeeva| G
myhvM bxj Wzgv Wzgv wKQz gvwQ DoZ _vKj jvki nv nIqv gyLi wfZi| m~hi Zvc
evoZ _vKj Avi jvj wcucoi mvwi mvi w`q jvki euv PvLi Dci w`q Pj Mj PvLi
KvVi| wK eid Mjjv bv| hve bv hve bv KiI civb KLb Rvwb GB wfoi KvQ Gm
cuQQ Zvi gb bB| wfoi ga `vuwoq civb me bwQj; bZ bZ Kgb hb GKUv
Nvi jM hvq Zvi| Nvii ga eAve jvki KvQ wMq em civb| wK Ac~e m`h;
A_P GB m`hK cvYfi AejvKb Kivi gZv weavZv ZvK `qwb| mB vfB nqZv
civb mvivUv Rxeb GB m`hKB LyuRQ Zvi Pvicvk| gy PvL bM bvixi jvki
m`hK wMjZ _vK civb Avi Mfxi ggZvq Nvoi MvgQv w`q bxj gvwQjvK ZvovZ
_vK m| nVvr gb nq, jvkUv hb K_v ejQ| wdm wdm Ki ej DV; AvgvK gvc Ki
`vb; Avgvi fzj nqQ| civb ej IV, gvc Kb? wKmi gvc? jvkUv ej IV, Avwg
hv KiwQ wbRi myLi Rb KiwQ| G Rxeb Avwg wbRi Avi Avcbvi RxebUv b Kijvg;
ciKvj hw` Avcbvi `Lv cvB| civb ej IV, Zzgvi K_v Avwg wKQzB eySZwQ bv Mv
gq| fxoi ga nVvr GK wPrKvi civbi wPvq Q`cZb nq| GKRb QvKov ej IV,
I `v`v ILvb Zzwg wK Ki? civb j Kij m jvkUvi Dci GKUz ewk SzK coQ| jvRyK
fwZ IV m PvL gvQ| GKRb ej IV, H `v`v Kv`v Kb Mv? civb ej,
gqUvK `L PvL cvwb Gm Mj| mv_ mv_ AviKRb ej IV, IK Pb bvwK?
mKjK AevK Ki w`q m ej IV, nuv| MvUv wfoUv civbi w`K Nyi `vuovq| Bgvg
mvne ej IV, K GB eIqvwik Lyj ejb; mevi mvgb cwivi mv `b; K GB jvk?
 36

civb `p fve ej, Ii bvg nvbydv, Avgvi x| wfoUv nZevK nq hvq| GKRb AwZ
PvjvK ej IV, Zvj Ii evoxi jvKRb Avmwb Kb? civb Di `vq, alYi giv
AbKB gb wbZ cvi bv| GKRb gymjx ej IV, Zvnj Zzwg mv w`jv| mKj
Avjnvg`ywjjvn& cob| gymjgvbi gq; RvbvRvq Avi Kvb evav bB| nVvrB mKj e
nq IV| GLb AbK KvR, Kei Luvov, Kvdb `Iqv, evuk KvUv, LvwUqv Avbv Ges mevcwi
jvkUvK gvwU `Iqv| cybivq Kvjvnj c~Y nq IV Pvicvk| G mei wKQzB civbi Kvb
Avm bv| m Mfxi ggZv wbq awlZ bM jvki gyLi w`K ZvwKq _vK| w`b MovZ _vK
ivZi w`K|
 37

wbii

Pvb wgTv hLb Zvi Rwgi cvk Gm welY `w wbq `uvovj ZLb ejv `ycyi Mwoq weKj
coQ| Rwg ejZ ajKv gvVi `k KvVv avwb Rwg| gbvnicyii RwgZ avbB dj ewk|
be Mv b`xi cwjZ Mov GB Mvgi Pvicvk ay ay meyR Avi meyR| h w`KB `w hvq, ay
avb Avi avb| eQi GLvb Pvi evi avb dj| Aek Pvb wgTv cvq wZb evi| KviY elvi
mgq Kv_v _K fm Avmv cvwbi AZj Kv_vq Zwjq hvq Pvb wgTvi GB wbPz `kKvVv Zv
nw`m cvIqv fvi| ZLb Ab KvR Ki cU Pvjvq Pvb wgTv| ZviciI RwgB Zvi Abc~Yv;
PvlB Zvi ckv| Gevi wK Zvi ewZg| Liv PjQ| gbvnicyii Dei gvV Gevi meyR
avbi mgvivn bB| Pviw`K ay a~mi weeYZvi RqRqKvi| gvS gvS `yGK dvwj RwgZ
meyR avb djQ MZevii gZ| Pvb wgTvi `k KvVvZ MwRq IVv avb MvQjv Gi gaB
KzuKo MQ| AvKvk ew bB; `vKvb evRvi wWRj bB; Avi _vKjI Zv Kbvi mva
`wi` Pvlxi bB| ZvB mPI bB| kni G me wbq AvjvPbv PjQ AbK| Ggwc, gx,
Pqvigvb mvneiv AbK e; ivZw`b Zv`i Nyg bB| meB bvwK MZ miKvii KvimvwR,
ZviciI AvjvPbv PjQ--- Avi ajKvi gvV `k KvVv fyuBG MwRq IVv avb MvQ jv
KzuKo hvQ; evoQ Pvb wgTvi myy`i UvKv; avbi gZ weeY nQ Pvb wgTvi `w| nVvr
Nvoi KvQ myM wbtkvm Pvb wgTv PgK DV| AZ Av`i Pvb wgTvi Nvo nvZ iL
AvjnvR gvt `wjj Dwb ej DV
Gevi avb Kgb nj i Pvb wgTv; gyL eo Kbv jvM? kixi fvj Zv?
GKici GK ckjv Ki nvRx mvne Aviv wbweo nq Pvb wgTvi mv_| md` cvvwe,
`vwg jyw; gv_vq Uzwci mv_ KuvPvcvKv `vwoZ Ac~e gvbvq `wjj Dwb mvneK| Zvi Nvoi
Dci co _vKv nvRx MvgQvUv nvRx mvnei m`hK evwoq w`qQ PviY| Pvb wgTv
Aviv GKUz weeZ nq IV| nvRx mvne mvbx jvK; Avkcvki `k Mvq Zvi wei bvg
WvK| GLbv gvV Zvi Pvli Rwg AvQ Avwk/beB weNvi Dci| evRvi `yUv Zji
MvWvDb| kni BmjvwgK `ji msM AvQ Zvi Nwb hvMvhvM|
wgb wgb Ki Pvb wgTv ej DV, gviv hve; msmvii mevBK wbq GK mv_ gviv hve; bv
LZ cq wKq gie Gevi|
nvRx mvne Kvgj nm cwZev` Ki
wQt ZIev Ki; GLbB ZIev Ki; Gme exbi eywj kvbvI Mvbvn!
avbi exR wbwQ avi; e Qj gqi cUI PjQ FYi cqmvq| Zji Afve GK evjwZ
cvwbI RwgZ w`Z cvwiwb; AvKvk gNi iLvI bB| gvVi avb gvVB kl nq hvQ|
 38

Avjvn& gnievb| wZwb PvBj cv_iI dzj dvU, RvjgI Avjg nq|
ZviciI wdeQi Zv AvgivB gwi; cwZ ivZB ivnjvi gv-ivB cUi hYvq KvZivq|
nvRx mvne wKQzUv agKi myiB ej DV
ZeyI ZIev Ki; giv euvPv Zuvi nvZ: nvqvZ wiwhK Kej ZuviB nvZ| H my`Lvi nvqvZ Luvi
vgZv wK gvbyli Rvb bq!
MZ eQi gbvnicyii C`&Mv gvV agmfv emwQj mvi ci| my`~i gviv _K GK hyeK
Avjg GmwQj IqvR bwmqZ KiZ| wZwbI Gme K_vB ejwQjb Avi ivZ KvwUqwQjb
nvqvZ Luvi evoxZ| Zvi AvMi eQi Mvqvj cvovi weaev B`y eywoK mvi ci ajKv gvVi
cye cvo Mjv KvUv Aevq cvIqv hvq| Mvgi mevB Rvb nvqvZ Luvi mv_ Rwg-Rgv Avi
my`i wnmvei Ri wbqB GB Lyb| cgvY bB h_ ZvQvov weaev eywoi Zgb KD bB
ZvB gvgjvI nqwb| ZeyI Rvbi gvwjK Avjvn cvKG K_v Pvb wgTvK wekvm KiZB
nq| nvRx mvnei K_vjv mB mfvi eqvb Gi cwZawb ej gb nq Pvb wgTvi KvQ|
nvRx `wjj Dwb ej Pj, AvKvki cvwb AvjvnwbqvgZ; gi `k ew bB Zv`i Rvb
kvwI bB; Avjvi w`j hLb ing ne; ZLb Avcbv _KB cvwb bvge|
cvwb bv AvmyK, eo weUv Avgiv Pvi cyil ai Avcbv`i gvwb GKUz Zvj RyMvo Ki `vb
Rwg Z GKUz cvwb w`; avb jvb euvPzK; mg eQii LvivK Zv !
Zvi GBUzKz RwgZ cvwb w`Z KZUzKz Avi Zj jvMe; wK Avwg Avjvni-ivm~ji `k Nyi
Avmvi ci _K Avi eemvq ewm bv; cUj wWRji K_v mwVK RvwbI bv|
Pvb wgTv AevK weq nvRx mvnei mvnbx gyLi w`K AcjK Pq _vK| co ejvi
g`y evZvm nvRx mvnei Kvb ivLv Avie `ki `vwg AvZii Lymey Qwoq co| Pvb wgTv
cvY fi mB cwe myM wbZ Pv Ki| wK Zvi bvK cvKv avbi myevm Avm evi evi|
nvRx `wjj Dwb ej Pjb
eySwj Pvb wgTv cvc, cvc! Avjv Avjv Ki; ay wZwbB cvib cv_i dzj dvUvZ| wZwb bv
PvBj, MvUv Avie Rvnvbi mg Zj Gb Zvi RwgZ Xj w`jI GKUv NvmI Rbve
bv eySwj, Avjv Avjv Ki|

Pvb wgTv eySZ cvi bv duvKUv Kv_vq| mgmvUv Kvb Lvb| Qj ejv _KB cwZevi m
ivRv Ki AvmQ| mnix Lq mvivw`b cwikg Ki mvq Qvjv Avi Avie `ki cPv
LRyi w`q ivnjv, ivnjvi gv Avi QvU `yUv Qj-gqK wbq BdZvi LyjQ m|
Zvivwei bvgvR `uvwoq cvi KiQ AbK mgq| ZeyI ivnjvi gvi cU Nv-i e_v mvi bv;
MZ eQi ivnjv wZb eQii wk Kbvi nvZ ai ZvjvK wbq Pvb wgTvi Ni Gm DVQ|
nvqvZ Luvi Mw` Nii jvj LvZvq my`i evSv fvwi nQ; Avi Pvb wgTvi `k KvVv fyuBqi
 39

avb mPi Afve KzuKo hvQ| ZviciI nvRx mvnei K_vjvK wekvm KiZB nq Pvb
wgTvK| wekvm KiZB nq h bvbv aibi Mvbvni KviY AvRK Pvb wgTvi GB Aev|
mviv eQii Avkv fimv PvLi mvgb b nq hvQ| wWRj Zv GKUv DwQjv gv|
nVvr Pvb wgTv ej DV-
eo weUv, Avie avb nq?
bv|
Zvwj Iiv Lvq wK?
D`vi nvwm nm nvRx mvne Reve `q
Avi, Iiv Zv abx; AbK AbK abx!
wKWv KiQ?
Avjvn& ieyj Avj-Avgxb; wZwbB Zv me|
Zvnj, Avgiv Kvi ev`v; Avgiv Kvb Gvgb aviv? Kvb Avgv`i Mwiex NuvP bv?; Kvb
mviv eQii Avnvi m^j gvVB kl nq hvq: cwZ ivZ ay ivnjvi gv-ivB KvZivq Kvb?
GB evi wKQzUv AevK nq nvRx `wjj Dwb ZvKvq Pvb wgTvi w`K| wKQzUv agKi myi ej
DV
mgmv Uv wK ejZ? Zvi K_vq exb Kvdi`i AvjvgZ cvwQ|
gvd `vb eo wgTv; fyj nBj gvd `vb|
Avi Avwg gvd `Iqvi K? gvd `eb civqvi w`Mvi| ZIev Zvi KvQ Ki| Avi kvb;
Cgvb `p Kiv; wZwb gvwmer w`q Avgv`i Cgvbi cixv bb| Aek Cgvb AvwK`v
gReyZ ivLv LyeB k|
nvRx mvnei eqvb Pvb wgTvi Kvb cQvq bv| co ejvq `~i _K fm Avm kvjv
cvi fU fU AvIqvR| cvi GB KKk kUzKz Pvb wgTvi Kvb fvwi wgw kvbvq, gb
nq wK gb cvY AvKzj Kiv gayi Kvb Q`| Kvb mfvMevb Zvi RwgZ mP w`Q; Zvi
Rwgi avbjv GB wSwi wSwi nvIqvq g`y `yjQ AvKzwj weKzwj Ki DV Pvb wgTvi cvYUv
mB cvwb cvIqv avb MvQ jv `Lvi Rb| nvRx mvne ej Pj
GB wek Rvnvb Avjvni; gymjgvbI Avjvni; A_vr GB weki gvwjK gymjgvbiv| ZvB exb
bvmviv, eagx, Kvdi`i nvZ _K GB wek, GB `k, GB Mvg, GB cvovK iv KiZ
ne| xb cwZvi ga w`q Avjvni kvmb Kvqg KiZ ne|
Pvb wgTv Avevi MZ eQii agmfvi K_v gb co hvq| Avjg mvneI GB myiB K_v
ejwQjb| mw`b mB mfvK wNi h MvgxY Qv gjv emwQj ZvK ABmjvwgK ej
Ryi DwVq w`qwQjb| Gme fveZ fveZ bvgvRi Iqv Gm hvq| nvRx `wjj Dwb
Pvb wgTv K mvjvZi `vIqvZ w`q gmwR`i w`K GwMq hvb| Pvb wgTv Avevi D`vm
 40

nq hvq| Pviw`K mPwKZ Ki Mvgi gmwR` _K Avhvb i nq; wK Pvb wgTv bZ cvq
bv| Zvi Kvb ay kvjv cvi fU fU AvIqvRB AvmZ _vK| AKvi axi axi Mvm
KiZ _vK gbvnicyiK|
GfveB w`b KvUZ _vK| Abvew G eQi gbvnicyii wcQy Qvo bv| Gi ga hviv Pov
`vg wWRj wKb RwgZ mP w`Z ciwQj, Zv`i avb gB mvbvjx is aiZ i
Ki| Mvgi Pvlx e`i ga `Lv `q Pvj| G mgq Kvb hv`y g ej Pvb wgTvi
wei msmviUv PvjvQ ivnjvi gv Avi ivnjv| msmvi nvwo Povi K_v bv, ZviciI wZb
ejv fvZ nQ; ivnjvi Pzj evnvix isqi wdZ `vj; Mvq dzj KvUv evDR Avi cvo
jvMvbv mywZ kvwo Kv_v _K Avm RbI RvbZ Pvq bv Pvb wgTv| GLb Zvi w`b KvU
bvZbxi `L-fvj Ki| gnicyii avb Kj KvR wbqQ ivnjv| cwZ mKvj gnicyi
hvIqvi mgq m ej
Avev Zvgvi Rb wKQz AvbZ ne?
Pvb wgTv wKQzB ej bv| ivnjv Gevi GKUz SuvRi mv_ ej DV
K_v Zv eyjP bv, `iKvi bvB ZvBwj;
AvmgvwbK `vK&ev ejB ivvq cv `q ivnjv| c_ hZ hZ wLj wLj nm DV m|
Nii `vIqvB em Pvb wgTv bZ cvq| Gkvi bvgvR `uvwoq Pvb wgTv Ui cvq ivnjv
wdiQ| ivnjvi mi gqwU wLj wLj Ki nvmZ nvmZ ej DV
`wLm Avi hb wbP bv bvg|
ivnjv Di `vq
bvgjB ev wZ wK; AbKB Zv bvgj; ejB wLj wLj Ki nm DV|
Pvb wgTvi GKvMZv b nq| Kvb Mig nq DV Zvi| Pvb wgTv eySZ cvi Cgvbx cixvq
m cvk KiZ cviQ bv| ZviciI Pvb wgTv `p nIqvi Pv Ki| Zvi gb nq, GB
bvQvivi `k Cgvb gReyZ ivLv eoB KwVb| Zvi Pvicvk NU hvIqv cwZw`bi NUbvewj
wbzc `L hvq Pvb wgTv| Avi wbRi mv_ K_v ejv Pj ivZ w`b| bvIqv LvIqvI fyj
hvq gvS gvS| wbNyg ivZI Pvb wgTv ej Pj
Avwg Pvlxi evPv; Pvl Avgvi i,ckv Avi cwikg Avgvi bkv gvVi avb Avgvi Rvb,
Avgvi cvY; Iiv Avgvi Qj gqi gZ; Avwg I`i euvPvZ cvijvg bv; evci mvgb Iiv
gi Mj cvwbi Afve G hb Avi GK Kvievjv
ga ivZi weo weo K_vq Nyg f hvq ivnjvi gvi| Sb& Sb& Ki ej DV
Nyg bv nq DVvb hvI, AvgvK GKUy NygvZ `vI; mKvj ivRi KvR|
AvR c~wYgv bv ZeyI Pvicvk ek cwivi|
 41

wbNyg Pvb wgTv `vIqvq DV em| nVvr ivZi wbZvK we`xY Ki fm Avm ivnjvi
wLj wLj nvwm Avi fyi K_vjvc
nwqQ nwqQ Gevi Qvo;
Qvoe Kvb mv?
mv bv Zv wK? Avvo bv wK ? Bm& hb wMj Lve!
LveyB Zv LveyB Zv|
wLj wLj Ki nm IV ivnjv|
gv_vi ga K hb nvZzwo cUvZ _vK Pvb wgTvi| `g e nZ _vK Zvi; w`M&wew`M vb
b nq nVvr PuwPq DV Pvb wgTv
K, K K_v Kq ILvb?
Pvb wgTvi PuPvwbZ Pviw`K mybmvb wbieZv bg Avm Avi wei nq ivnjvi gv; ej
DV Kz_vB K; Pzc Ki _vK w`wKwb; me wKQz `LwZ bB|
Pvb wgTvi gb nq ivnjvi gvi K_vB nqZv wVK|
me wKQz `LZI bB; bZI bB| Mvgi gmwR` dRii Avhvb i nq| `yGKUv cvwLI
WvKZ i Ki; Pvb wgTv eySZ cvi GLbB AKvi KU hve; mKvji Avjv dzUe;
me wKQz nq DVe| me wKQz cwivi nIqvi AvMB `Z PvL e Ki dj m|
AZtci GKw`b gbvnicyi Mvg avb KvUvi ayg jvM| Gevi hb `ywbqvi hZ avb nvRx
mvneK Avjvn w`qQb| nvRx mvnei avb `L Avb` cZ _vK Mvgi Pvlxiv| fvi
_K Mvgi jvK avb KvUZ _vK ` nvZ| KvR AbK ZvB AemiI bB| gvVi GK
Kvb nvRx mvne ewmqQb GK gvovB Kj| avb KvUvi mv_ mv_ gvovB nq ev ew`
nq hvQ| Rvi Mjvq Mvb Mq avb KvUQ jvKiv| KgeZv `L nvRx `wjj Dwb
ej DVb
KvR Kiv fvBqiv, gb w`q KvR Ki| `ycyi MvkZ Avi LuPzwi LvIqve Bb&kvjvn| KvDK
Afy iL wbR LvIqv Bmjvg eviY AvQ| nvRx mvnei NvlYvq Pviw`K n n co
hvq| G meB Pvb wgTv weim gyL `LwQj Avi GKvB weo weo Ki wK me ej eovwQj
gvVi AvBj AvBj| weKji w`K nvRx mvnei wbRi `yUv cvIqvi wUjvimn gnicyi
_K wbq Avmv Avi AvUwU cvIqvi wUjvi DPz Ki avbi ev mvwRq nvRx mvnei
MvWvDb Nii w`K iIbv nj| wVK ZLbB wK hb nq Mj Pvb wgTvi ga| e`j Mj
gyn~Z| wbRi gwiPv jvMv KvwPUv nvZ wbq `o wMq `uvovj m cvIqvi wUjvii mvgb|
Zvici wPrKvi Ki ejZ _vK m
 42

avb wbq Kz_vB hvm Zviv? Kvi avb K bq? Lei`vi GK cvI Avi Gwe bv|
Zvi GB MMbwe`vix wPrKvi mKjB nZwenej nq co| nvRx `wjj Dwb `o Gm
ej DVb
c_ Qvo Pvb wgTv, ejv hvq|
Pvb wgTv `uvwoqQ Zvi `kKvUv fyuBqi cvk| nvZ Zvi gwiPv cov KvwP; `yPvL Avb|
Pvb wgTv Avevi wPrKvi Ki DV-
Kvi avb K bq? avb `vb eo weUv, bBj gvb hvq|
`~ii AvBji Kge Pvlxiv Pvb wgTvi wPrKvi PgK IV| nvRx `wjj Dwb gyn~Z eyS
bq evZvm evi`i M| m eySZ cvi Pvb wgTvi GB wPrKvi Qwoq cojB wec`| ZvB
eev GLywb KiZ ne| nvRx `wjjDwb PuwPq DV
WvKvZ, WvKvZ, eUv w`b `ycyi WvKvwZ KiZ Pvq| ai kvjvK| mygyw`i GZ eo mvnm
Avgvi avb nvgjv KiZ Pvq|
nvRx mvnei QzU Avmvi AvMB QzU Avm Zvi lv gvKv wZb Pvi Rb| GK gyZ Acv
Ki Kzgi Rb; gZz `~Zi gZ nvRx `wjj Dwb sKvi w`q DV
gvi kvjvK; gi dvwUq `; jvMj gvgjv Avwg Pvjve; KvU KvPvix Avwg mvgjve|
Kzgi mv_ mv_B PviLvbv cvKv euvki jvwV Svuwcq co Pvb wgTvi weMo hvIqv gv_vUvi
Dci| `yej Pvb wgTvi PvL ajKvi gvVUv `yj DV GKevi; mv_ gv_vq cP e_v| KvUv
Kjv MvQi gZ acv&m Ki Mwoq co Pvb wgTv Zvici RevB Kiv gyiMxi gZ evi `yqK
SuvwK w`qB wi nq hvq| Zvi Kcvj dU wdb&wK w`q i QvU; i Pvb wgTvi eyK eq
Mwoq co Zvi `k KvVv fyuBqi gvwUZ| gvwUi k cq ZvRv jvj i gB `vbv eua
k nZ _vK| co weKji evZvm Kvjv auvqv Dwoq weKU k Ki cvIqvi
wUjvijv GZ _vK mvwie fve|
 43

AbwZg

NygUv nVvr f Mj kvn`i| RgvU evuav AKvii ga c_g avvq kvn` wVK VvIi
KiZ cvi bv Zvi AwZcwiwPZ eWigUvK| mvgvb wKQzY ci I eySZ cvi
BjKwUwmwU Pj MQ, Avi m KviYB AKviUv ek RvwKq emQ Pvicvk| gv_vi
Dcii Qvcvb Bw eWi dvbUv GLb Mfxi kvK gyngvb| Avi GB dvuK Qov gkvwii
dvuK Mwjq `ywZbUv A_ev ZviI ewk gkv XzK coQ gkvwii ga| GKUv wk-iwmK gkv
kvn`i Kvbi KvQ gaivZi ivM evRvZ _vK weiwZnxb|
Nyg Rovb Mjvq kvn` weoweo Ki IV,
evR KUv GLb!
BZvga AKviUv PvL mn nq GmQ kvn`i| kvn`i gb nq, Mjv eyK
wKq Kvievjv nq MQ| fxlY Zv cqQ kvn`i| gb nQ MZ GK mvn m GK
XvK Rj Mjvq Xvjwb| wK weQvbv _K DVZ BQv nQ bv gvUI| ga gi fcmv
gvU Migi ivZ| hw`I gv_vi Dci GKUv e`ywZK cvLv AvQ, we`yr _vKj weKU k
Ki NviI wK evZvm gkvwii ga XvK bv| mvivivZ Nvg| evwjk wfR hvq, weQvbv
wfR hvq dj kixi _K chv jeb ewiq hvqAvi kixi nq co Kv| wK ZvUv
Aviv cej nQ gB| kvn`iI weQvbv _K bvgZ BQv nQ bv| weQvbv _K bvgvi
GKUv Amyweav AvQbxjvi Nyg f hvIqvi mvebv| GB Mig mI Mfxi Nyg NygvZ cvi
bv, hv KiQ ZvK ej Z`v; GB Z`v QzU MjB wec`! ZviciI kvn` Av DV em|
Avi DV emv gvB kvn`i gbUv fvj nq hvq| weQvbvi cvk Rvbvjvi evBi KvK
RvQbv| KvuPv mvbv isqi Ac~e RvQbvi cveb Zwjq MQ PivPi| AvKvk nvjKv gNI
RgQ| ew nZ cvi| kvn` Gevi bxjvi w`K wdi| GKdvwj RvQbv Gm coQ bxjvi
Nyg kixi; Mjvq Zji gZv Nvg PKPK KiQ; dmv wUKvjv bvKi wbP PKPK Nvg|
wKQzUv Lvjv eyK RvQbv Gm coQ| eyKUv wbw` Q` IVvbvgv KiQ| bxjvi wbvc VvU
mvgvb wZ nQ Avevi ^vfvweK nQ| mvgvb bo DVQ VvU `yUv^c `LQ bxjv|
gRvi Kvb ^c nqZv `LQ, ivZi RvQbv gvLvbv kv mgy`; dwbj XD Gm coQ
evwji mKZ; wfR hvQ bxjvi dmv cvqi cvZv, wknwiZ bxjv Zvi kvoxUv Avi wKQzUv
Dci Zvj, mgy`i bxj Rji mv`v dbv bxjvi dmv `ycvq gvLvgvwL nq hZ _vK|
A_ev, Kvb ewZ wKQzUv Zwjq hvIqv `~ev gvVi GKcv bxjv jvj GKUv QvZv gv_vq GKv
`vuwoq Kviv Rb| GK mgq h Avm| mI KvK fRv| mj Rvov Zvi nvZ| gyL
ckvwi nvwm; m nvwmZ bxjvI hvM w`qQ; Zvi kixi nvwmi `gK `yj `yj DVQ; mB
feb gvwnbx nvwmZ isaby AvuKv AvKvkUv Aviv gvqvgq nq DVQ| ay jvKwUi gyLUv Pbv
 44

hvQ bv| kvn`i gb nq, nvmyK cvY fi nvmyK bxjv GKUv `y gkv nVvr bxjvi AbveZ
evZ Gm em| GKUz wei nq bxjv; cvk wdi kvq| Avi GB myhvM kvn` weQvbv
Qo bg co| axi axi GwMq hvq Rvbvjvi KvQ| GLb AvMi gZv Zv eva nQ bv
kvn`i; Rvbvjvi evBi feb gvwnbx RvQbv kvn`K nvZQvwb `q| kvn`i gb co,
fMevb e GK RvQbv ivZ MnZvMx nqwQjb| me wKQzK wcQb dj MZg ey
GgbB GK KvK RvQbvq weevMx nqwQjb| kvn` cvi bv| hw`I AvRKi GB D_vj
cv_vj RvQbv ZvK fxlYfve UvbQ| c~wYgv ivZi Uvb mgy`I Aev KiZ cvi bv| dzj
IV| Rvqvi Avm, wK GB Avnevb, GB nvZQvwb gvm eviv nvRvi mvZkZ UvKv eZbi
mvgvb PvKix KiI kvn` cvi GB Avnevb mvov bv w`q evi evB lvj dzUi AKvi Ni
Zvi Rj LyuR wdiZ _vK| MjvUv Avevi Kbv gb nQ| GgwbZB AKvi Kvb
wRwbm LyuR cvIqv KwVb Zvici wbwZ ivZi AKvi Aviv RwUj| wbwZ ivZ mvgvb k
evcK AvIqvR nq| AwZ mveavb LvwbK Pv Kivi ci Rji RM Avi MvmUv nvZ cvq
kvn`| wUbi RMi evwm M gkvb Mig Rj| ZviciB wKQzB eva bv, kvn`i Zvi
KvQ| Rj Lq ek LvwbK Zw eva Ki kvn` Ges ZviciI Zvi wmMviUi bkvUv
Pbgwbq IV| wK G KvRUv wKQzZB Ni Kiv hve bv gb gb cev` `q kvn`
wbRK| bxjvi NvY kw fxlY cLi| Nyg ev Z`vi ga wVK I RM hve| Avi RM
MjB wec`| gvP Avi wmMviU _vK kvn`i cwiwPZ RvqMvq| ZvB I `yUv cZ
kvn`i `wi nq bv| AwZ mcb kvn` Nii evBi Gm `vuovq| evBi Nii gZ `ytmn
Mig bB| BZvga AvKvk Qq djQ Kvjv gN| Vvv evZvm AvmQ Kv_v _K K
Rvb! evZvm wgk AvQ bvg bv Rvbv dzji myM| kvn` wmMviU Rvjvq| eyK fi avuqv
wbq wbR^ Xsq Mvj Mvj wis Ki evZvm QvoZ _vK| RvQbv ivZi evZvm wmMviUi
wis Kiv avuqv axi axi evZvm wgk hvq| avuqvi wis evZvm wgwjq hvIqvi kl ch
kvn` wZxq Uvbi Rb Acv KiZ _vK| GK mgq wmMviU LvIqv wQj ek bvqKvwPZ
welq GLb Avi Ime bB| wmMviUi wis auvqvi gZv wgk MQ nvIqvq| bxjv fxlY
cQ` KiZv kvn`i wmMviU LvIqv| KjR Kvvm, Kvei eviv`vq A_ev jvBewii
gvV hLvbB `Lv nZ, bxjv ejZ,
Zzwg wK Dg Kzgvii gZv Ki wmMviU LZ cvi? cw_exi Kvb cyilB Dg Kzgvii
gZv wmMviU LZ cvi bv|
kvn` AwZ ZvwQji mv_ ej,
Zzwg Avi KUv cyilK Pbv hviv wmMviU meb Ki?
Avi KvDK wPwb bv, wPbZ PvBI bv; wmMviU hviv Lvq Zviv bkvLvi| bkvLviiv fvj
jvK nq bv|
 45

Zvnj Dg Kzgvi eveyI Lvivc jvK, bkvLvi ejB kvn` Avqk Ki wmMviU Uvb
`q| bxjv ej,
bv|
Avgvi wmMviUi i PqMyqfviv! bvg bQ?
mnR mij PvL `yUv Zzj bxjv wRvmv Ki,
wmbgv Ki? bvqK? we`wk; Kvb `wk?
AvjvPbv Avi GZ cvi bv| Gici eva nq GbvI wVK bq| kvn` weiw Pc Ab
Kvb KvR e nq IV| Avi bxjv `yPvL mnm ckq wbq kvn`i Mgb c_i w`K Pq
_vK| bxjvi VvU `yUv `L mevB eySZ cvi h m wfZi wfZi nvmQ|
nVvr KvK Do Avm gNvix| gNvix bxjvi cig ez| bxjvi Nvo nvZ iL gNvix
ej,
GwK KiwQm bxjv! kvn` fvB Avi ZzB GK f~ebi evwm`v bm| mveavb n| mebvk `Z
nq|
Avi wKQz ejZ hvIqvi AvMB bxjv ej IV,
wKi Kvj h winvmj G Avmwj bv? wK evcvi?
gNvix eySZ cvi, bxjv K_v cvvQ| mI Qvoevi cv bq| gNvix Avevi i Ki,
kvb, Avgvi gR gvgv j^v my`kb, bvivqYMi miKvwi KjR evsjv covb, ZvK
`LQb| LyeB cQ`| gvgv wc.GBP.wW KiQb| KgwcU nj evsjv GKvWwgZ Aviv wK
Rvwb Kie| AbK KvbKkb AvQ gvgvi| ZzB fzj Kwim bv bxjv|
gNvixi K_vjv wKQzUv bxjv kvb, wKQzUv kvb bv| Avi GfveB gNvixi Rgvbv
K_vjv RgvbvB _K hvq; kl nq bv|
gvbyli me w`b GK iKg hvq bv| e`jvq| bxjvI e`jQ| GKUz gvUv nqQ m| eva-
eywI wKQzUv gvUv nqQ kixii mv_ Zvj wgwjq| cwieZb GmQ kvn`i gaI|
AvMi gZv Kvb wKQzZB Avi Kvb wW cvq bv m| w`b gvm Avi eQijv eo Bu`yi
Mjv Rj Xvov mvci gZv Kvb iKg cvi nq hvq c~e _K cwg| Rxebi mB Pbgb
fve GLb Avi bB| GLb kvn` ekvLi c_g w`b weMZ w`bi gZv Kvb ZvwM` Abyfe
Kibv eis G fvwi weo^bv gb nq Zvi| evwoZ mvi w`q AvmZ _vK nvjLvZvi KvW|
wbRb ivZ KvWMyjv kvn`K we`c Ki, wdK& wdK& Ki nvm| mKj wgj GKmv_ hb
Zviv ej,
wK n KgiW kvn`; ni Mj Zv klgl!
Avi kvn`I w nq IV wfZi wfZi| Amn jvM Zvi Pviw`K| Amn jvM Rxeb|
 46

cvvi PUv Rxeb mB nvivbv MwZ wKQzZB AvbZ cvi bv kvn`| civwRZ ew` mwbKi
gZ gv_v wbPz Ki w`b KU hvq Zvi weeY mgqjv|
Abw`K bxjvi Rxeb _gK MQ KvbvMwji AKvi| Zvi Rxebi mKj mvebvi Kzwojv
GLb bv cvIqvi nZvkvq KzuKo MQ| Avi mB myhvM fvjevmvi `p Mwjv nq coQ
wkw_j| cyivb w`bi D kjv GLb GZUvB wngkxZj hv KvDKB b~Zb fve
Av`vwjZ Ki bv Avi| Mn evwoi gZv DVvb Svo w`q wZi gwbKvVvq Rg _vKv mKj
myLgq wZ Avi AbvMZ ^cjvK Rov Ki Rvwjq w`qQ BwZga bxjv| GLb Kvb
^c bB Ii| wbRi AvZxq, evex mevi mv_ AwjwLZ cwZhvwMZvq ni MQ bxjv|
GLbv ch bxjv Zvi wbRi msmvi ZZxqRb AvbZ mg nqwb| Mvwo evwo cfwZ ^c
`Lv AbK w`b AvMB ev` nqQ| wbtmvb Rxeb bxjvi GLb mePq eo hYv| m hYv
k KiQ kvn`KI| kvn`i ivRbxwZ nvivbvi hYv, Rxeb wKQz bv KiZ cvivi hYv
me wKQzK Mvm KiQ GB hYv| fvj bv jvMvi gnvmvMi wbgwZ GB `wZ GLb
wbwZ PvqwK Zviv h wK _K wbwZ Pvq mwVK fve ZvivI nqZv Rvb bv; Avi m
KvibB Q` cZb nq evievi| GB me AvKvk cvZvj fveZ fveZ kvn` nvZi wmMviU
cvq dywiq Avm| wcQb _K bxjv Nyg Rovbv Mjvq ej IV,
evn&! evBi Zv ek evZvm!
Pg&K IV kvn`| `Z wbRK mvgj wbq ej,
nvu, KvQ wcV evanq GK ckjv nq Mj; Zzwg NygvIwb?
GZY Zzwg wK Avgvq dzUej LjZ `LwQj?
bv, gvb- Bq!
Avmj Zzwg K_v LyuR cvQ bv; Avi Zvgvi K_v nQI bv| bv Nywgq GZ ivZ RM wK
fveQv Zzwg?
bxjvi K^i Dvi Avfvm cvq kvn`| G Aevq wbzc _vKvB kq ej gb Ki kvn`|
AvRKvj A mgqB Awi nq co bxjv| cwZ wbqZB Ii ga wK `nbUv Aviv Zxe
nQ? bxjv my Zv me dj kvn` fveZ _vK| gv_vi Dci w`q Do hvq Kvb GK
ivZRvMv cvwL| ivZ Lvjv AvKvkUvK GLb Aviv wekvj Avi kv `LvQ| eo ivvq
Kvb UvK Zvi nY evwRq ivv Kvuwcq e`ivwM `Zi gZ Pj hvq| AvPgKv k Nyg
KzKzi RM IV Zvi ^i wPrKvi KiZ _vK| bxjv ej,
AvR weKj Avjvwgb fvB GmwQjb| fvBqvi evwoUv cvq KgwcU|
weKj KLb?
Avgvi nvZ Nwo wQj bv| fvBqv nvuUwQjb; GZ wKQzi gaI nvuUb|
wbRi ARvB kvn` evg nvZ w`Z wbRi bv`ym cUi Aw^ZUv Abyfe Ki| AvM fzwo
 47

`~ii K_v, nvjKv wQcwQc kixi wQj kvn`i| GLb cvQ mewKQz| ZviciI Ab`i
gZ kvn`I nvuU gvb nvuUZ eva nq| bxjv GLb fxlY ^v mPZb| mwZ m cvovi
GK nRve cov GK fvexK mv_ wbq KweivRi KvQ abv w`Q| Dk gvZZ jvf|
KweivR Ryi ejQb,
evevwRi kixji Pie kixji ZvK` Lq djQ; kixj cvZjv Kiv cqvRb| cwZwbqZ
mvjvZ Av`vq Kiv diR|
bxjvi agcxwZ GLb ek cej| Aek GLb ch Zvi _j_j mv`v kixiUv eviLvi wbP
jywKq djwb| Ze, h Kvb Ryvi w`b GwU NU hZI cvi| Gme KviY fvii Nyg
dj kvn`K nvuUZ hZ nq| kixj ZvK` Kg GmQKweivRi GB K_v m wekvm
KiI bv Avevi GB gnvb DwwUK fzj cgvY Kivi Rb gwiqv nq PvI KiZ kvn`i
BQv nq bv| Ze nvuUZ hZ nq ZvK| kvn` fvii GB AZvPviwUK GK iKg gbB
wbqQ| mKvj nvuUj bxjv Lykx nq| ZvQvov mKvj ivvq GK`j gvbyl nvuU evuPvi Rb;
eo gmwR` dRii bvgvR Av`vq Ki, gv_vq Uzwc iLB Zviv nvuU; KD axi axi
`uovq| fvwi KZzK eva Ki kvn`; fvwi AevK jvM Zvi| GB gvbyljv avgxK Avi
Zviv Mfxifve wekvm Ki evuPv, giv, LvIqv me Zuvi nvZ, ZviciI mB AvgvN wjLbK
cwieZb Kivi wK A`g cqvm| kvn`i nvuUZ BQ nq bv cvqB| ZviciI nvuU m| bxjv
Lykx nq| nqZv kvn`i GB Nvg Sivbvi ga bxjv Kvb my`i cwe ^c `L Avi Zvi
RbB kvn`K nvuUZ nq|
gyLi KvQ nvZ Zzj bxjv ej,
Avgvi Nyg cvQ, Avwg Ni Mjvg| ZywgI Gmv|
BZvga eo eo dvuUvq ew coZ i nqQ| Pviw`K kxZj evZvm Qwoq coQ| kvn`
AvKvki w`K ZvwKq GKUv `xNkvm wbRi ga Pc kvqvi Nii w`K cv evovj; Avi
Zzwb AvKvk o o Ki gN WK DVj| we`yrI Gm Mj mv_ mv_B| weQvbvi cvki
RvbvjvUv e Ki kvn` q co bxjvi cvk| bxjv weQvbvq qB Nywgq MQ| kvn`i
Nyg Avm bv| kvn` eySZ cvi eqm dzwiq AvmQ `Z| GKevi Nyg fvOj Nyg Avm bv|
AvKvk k nq o o og| weKU! kvn`i PvLi cvZv fvwi nq Avm g|
kvn` Gm `vuovq wekvj GK gvV| AbK AvqvRb mLvb; Pviw`K _ _ KiQ jvK|
gjv nQ| evwlK xov cwZhvwMZv| wK GLb `kK wk; Avi Ljvq AskMnYKvix
mKj eq Avi ga eq| kvn`i eziv DcwZ AbK AvMB| kvn` I `oi jvBb
`vuwoq hvq| kvn` e`ijK wPbZ cvi| kvn`i KjR ez| GLb AbK eo eemvqx|
cvki cvovq cvuPZjv dvU _vK| kvn` wPrKvi Ki WvK e`ijK, m mvov `q bv|
mevB DrKv wbq ZvwKq AvQ, cU gvUv GKRbi w`K, hvi Mjvq evuwk| kvn` eySZ
 48

cvi DwbB Avmj mBRb evuwk eR IV Zxe k| `o i nq| mevB `ovQ|

mevB e`ij, mwjg, Avjvwgb, Pvu`y mevB kvn` wK Kie eySZ cvi bv| GK mgq mI
`o i Ki| `o! mvgb jvj `wo Qvuqvi Rb `o| nVvr kvn` j Ki, m wcwQq
hvQ gk| BZvga GwMq hvq ZvivI, hviv kvn`i wcQb wQj| kvn` Pv Ki
cvYcb| nvuwcq DVQ m| Avevi Pv| Aveviv| Zvici wPrKvi Ki IV kvn`,
cvwb cvwb, Avi cviwQ bv Avwg|
kvn`i Nyg f hvq| kvn` DV em weQvbvq| mviv kixi Nvg fRv| Zzzwb bxjv Mfxi
Nyg Avevj-Zvevj ejZ ejZ cvk wdi Avevi Nywgq Mj| msweZ wdi cj kvn`|
kvn`i nVvr gb nq ek Kw`b nvuUvnuvwU e AvQ| kixi Pwei Dci Aviv Pwei AviY
coQ gk| Avi `wi bv Ki gkvix _K ewiq co kvn`|
cyibv UvIRvi Avi GKwU wU-kvUi ga wbRK Mwjq kvn` hLb ivvq Gm `vuovj ZLb
icvwj _vjvi gZ Pvu`Uv Kv nq cwg Xj cojI ivZi Afvm ZLbv KvUwb| ivvi
cvk Kzwj cvwKq q _vKv KzKzijvi `yGKUv DrmyK `w Zzj kvn`K j Ki; AwZ
Drmvnx KD Avevi ND ND Ki IV| gaivZ nq hvIqv ewi dj ivvq Rg AvQ
Rj| kv wi Rj Xj cov Pvu`i cwZwe^ co fvix my`i `LvQ| kvn` eySZ cvi,
gwbs IqvK Avmvi gZ mKvj nqwb GLbv| A_P Ni wdi hZI kvn`i BQ nQ bv G
gyn~Z| Avgv`i `k mgqi KvR mgq KiZ nq| bv njB mgmv| GZ mKvj, gvb GB
fviivZ RwMsGi Dk KvDK Lye ewk `Lv hvq bv| Avi G KviYB nqZv
KzKzijvi gv_v ev_v| Iiv nqZv kvn`K fveQ nq e` jvK A_ev cywjk Avi G
KviYB GKRb wPrKvi Ki mZK KiQ AbK| kl ivZi wngj nvIqvq wbRb GB
ivvUv `L evSvi Dcvq bB h, Avi KqK NUv ciB GUv nq DVe fxlb e ivv|
gUzi Pvqi `vKvbi dvuKv gvPvq kvn` em co| BZvga KzKzi`i jvdvjvwd e
nqQ| PvicvkUvK Lye gvqvgq gb nq kvn`i| kv Pvicvk, kv AvKvk, kv Pvu` Avi
kv Rxeb| AvmjB wK kv Rxeb! GKL Kvjv gN nVvr Pvu`Uv XK dj| AKvi
bg Avm Pvicvk| kvn`i gb nq, Kvb GK Af gN Zvi Rxebi Avjvi c_ Avo
nq `vuwoq MQ| RMj H gN f` Ki gv_v ZzjZ cviQ bv kvn` wKQzZB| AvR
wbRK wbRiB evSv gb nQ kvn`i| GK mgqi iex`-KweZv Avew Kiv bxjv GLb
dmv _j_j; ag-Kg nVvr KiB fxlY wbew`Zv; cvki evwoi nRve civ GK gwnjvi
KvQ Aviwe kL; KweivRi KvQ hvq kvn`i c_g Rxebi mgvR cwieZbi ^c,
Awdmi cwfW dv Rgv nIqv UvKv, mwZ evox Kivi Rb nvDR wews jvbi
GvcwjKkb A_ev ivRKvi KvK fvi heb ai ivLvi Rb RwMsme wKQzB G gyn~Z
dvjZz A_nxb gb nQ kvn`i|
 49

Ai AvZv Kvuwcq ivvi bvBUMvW Ab RbK mRvM KiZ evuwk evRvq| mvgvb Kuc IV
kvn`| ivvi Ab cv _KI fm Avm myZxe cZyi| ivvi cvnviv`viiv GK AbK
fimv `q, GB h, GLvb Zzwg Avi Avwg Qvov Avi KD bB| AKviYB wbRK eo z`
gb nZ jvM kvn`i| GB fvi ivZ ivvq _vK cvnviv`vi, ekv Avi cywjk| Avi
Zv`i mv_ hy nqQ kvn`| GB wgwQj mvwgj nIqvi KviY AwZ ZzQkixi A_vr heb
wVK ivLv, evwo Kiv, `xNKvj evuPvmeB wbR Kw`K; hv kvn`i gvbvq bv AZ kvn` ZvB
gb Ki| Avi GB AbyfwZi KviYB w`b w`b m wcwQq coQ cwZhvwMZvi Bu`yi `o
_K| Avi wcwQq covUv Zvi e_Zv ejB MY nQ Avi mUvB ^vfvweK| GKUv AzZ K
kvn`K Qq dj| Mjvi wfZiUv ZuZv ZuZv jvM| kixii wfZi _K DV Avm
weiw Avi Kvw gkvb nvB|
weiw Avi nvB Pc kvn` gvPv _K DV `vuovq| cv evovq ivvq Mvuqvoi gZ| Zvici
nvuUZ _vK| gB nvuUvi MwZ evovZ _vK m| kv Kvjv AvuKv-evuKv wcP ivv w`q nuU
Pj kvn` wbtm GK fzZi gZ| nuU hvq knii Kvjvnji wecixZ| kvn`i kvm-
ckvm `Z nq; nvuUvi MwZ evovZ _vK| ivvUvi hLvb mvc evuK mLvb nVvr GKUv Avjv
`Lv hvq| AvjvUv KvucQ wZi wZi| c_g eyKi wfZiUv aK Ki IV kvn`i| ciY
eySZ cvi, kvnvievwU _K AvmQ mewR| Pj hve knii evBi cvBKvwi evRvi|
Zvici Avevi Avme evRvi| c_g evRviUv aivi Rb kvjv PvwjZ AvMjvgb evSvB Ki
AvmQ Zi mewR| hZ `Z cQvb hve ZZ jvf! ZvB WvBfvii j cvBKvix evRvi,
AvMjvgbi MwZi w`K bq|
kvn`i gb nq, GB PvjKK WvBfvi ejv wK wVK ne? WvBfvi kwU Avmj eenvi nq
abx`i | cvBfU Kvi A_ev gvBvevmi PvjKK WvBfvi ejj fvj gvbvq|
Kv_vI KvwKj WK IV Kz Kz Ki| fvi nQ; wKQY ci iv` DVe; ejv evoe
kvn`I wdi hve cwZw`bi AwZ Pbv cwiek| AvjMvgbi Avjv wZi wZi KvucZ _vK
mv_ MMb we`vwi fU fU fU k Lvjv cvi Qwoq coQ| wKQzZ avv Lq cwZawbZ
nq|
GKUv AzZ AbyfwZ AvPgKv kvn`i mgM wPvi RMrUvK Mvm Ki| kvn`i gb nq,
GfveB fU fU weKU k Ki GwMq hvQ KzrwmZ mgvRUv Kv_vq GQ Zv wbRB
Rvb bv| Avi GB AMhvvi bZZ w`Q GB kvjv gwkb PvwjZ AvMjvgbi WvBfvii
gZ KD GKRb| GB mvgvb AvMjvgbUvI GwMq hve kvn`K wcQ dj! kvn`i
wfZi KD GKRb ZLbB R`x wki gZ Mvu ai em
KLbv bv; Ggwb nZ cvi bv Ges nIqv DwPrI bv|
kvn` Zvi nvuUvi MwZ evovq| gb gb ej,
 50

KLbv bv, AvMjvgbi WvBfvi, Zvgvi GwMq hvIqv gvb Avgvi wcQb co _vKv; AvR
Avwg cuQve mevi AvM; AvR AvwgB nev dv|
kvn`i kvm Aviv `Z nq| kvn` nvuUZ _vK; Rvi Aviv Rvi| AvMjvgbi Avjv
GwMq Avm Aviv KvQ| PvjKi j fvii evRvi; ZvQvov G mgq ivv dvuKv| AvMjvgb
PvjK kvn`K nVvr Avwevi Ki ivvi gvS|
jvKUv cvMj bvwK! gb gb ej m| wK jvKUv Agb Ki `ovQ Kb? Avi mvBW
w`Q bv Kb?
kvn`i nvU nvcii gZ IVvbvgv KiQ| w`knviv kvn`i GLb GKUvB j, wRZZ
ne|
AvMjvgb Avi mvgvj w`Z cvi bv wbRK| Kzwo gb KvuPvgvj wbq Kvbic SzuwK bIqvi
ckB IV bv| wZZ&wZi Avjvi mvgb kvn` coB hvq| bviKj fvvi gZ k nq,
dUvm! mv_ mv_ AzU AvZbv`, hv XK hvq AvMjvgbi fU& fU& k|
wcQb wdi ZvKvq bv AvMjvgbi PvjK| hv evSvi I eyS wbqQ| ZvovQv GB KvK fvi
`ygo gyPo hvIqv iv wefrm `k `LZ Zvi BQv nq bv gvUI| eis PvjKi gv_vq
GKUvB wPv, AvjMvgbi Kvjv PvKvq jM _vKv gMR Avi iUv ivvq Rg _vKv Rj
ayq bIqv hve Zv !
 51

A PivPi

D_vwj MvgwUK GLb Avi wPbevi Rv bB| Pvicvk Kvb Wvv bB; bB AevwiZ meyR
gvV; Pvl-evm bB; KvR bB, AvQ ay Rj Avi Rj| Kvjv bvsiv wi Rj D_vwj MvgwUK
Mvm Ki _ _ KiQ| Abevi G mgq ch ebvi Rj bg hvq| wK, `Lj`vi`i b`x-
bvjv `Lji dj Mj evi _K G Mvgmn Avkcvki Rj bvg bv| KjKviLvbvi eR
gkvbv Kvjv Rj gvQ bB| ZeyI Mvgi KeZ cvovi gvbyljv Rji w`K ZvwKq Vuvq
em _vK `xN mgq| jvf nq bv wKQyB; mgq KU hvq Avkvq| Kvjv Rj gv_v Zzj
RjKwj Ki Pj njy` isqi Xvov mvc| Rji Zj Zvi cwigvc evSv hvq bv| G mgq
nZvk Mjvq wbcb ej,
I kxavg`v GKwU wewo RvjvI w`|
wewo bvB|
RvjvI bv GKWv; `yfvBq Uvwb|

kxavg KxZb Mq msmvi Pvjvq| ek KeQi nj KxZbi GKUv QvU `j MoQ m| g~j
Mvqb m Avi Zvi e mvwex| mvwexi Mjv fvj| `i` AvQ Mjvq| `wk wmgi gZv
D`vm Kiv PvL Rj Gb m hLb nvq K, nvq K Ki Ku` Ku` ivwaKvi gvb
fb cvjv Mvq, ZLb gi mvgb emv eyov Avi Ava eyov f`i PvL Rji evb
WvK| eyovjv mvwexK cgvwjb Ki| ZvB `L Ava eyov f`i fwI wekvLv b`xi
Rvqvii Rji gZ duc dzj DV| ZvivI Avwjb Ki ivavicx mvwexK| Avwjb `xN
nq; `xNZi nq| Gme wKQy `LI `LZ Pvq bv kxavg| mvwexi `vnviv kixi, Mjvi myi,
mv`v Avi Miqv embi gvS jywKq _vKv DZ heb, Gmei KviY GB KxZwbqv
cwieviwUi KvQ wewfb RvqMvq KxZb Kivi AvgY Avm| Mjv, kixi, KxZb Gme mZR
Avi Ave`bgqx ivLZ kxavgi msmvi ag wVK VvK nq IV bv| `xN GMvi eQii eevwnK
Rxeb GLbv I`i msmvi wZb b^i m`mwU Avmwb| ZvB mvwexi gb Rg _vKv `ytLi
Kvjv Rj wKQyZB bvgZ Pvq bv| wi nq _vK D_wj Mvgi evbi Rji gZ| GLb
Gmei mv_ hvM nqQ fvZi K| MZ cbi w`b hver w`b hb KvUZB PvBQbv GB
KxZwbqv cwieviwUi| Kvb iKg `yUv fvZ dzwUq fvZi gvomn jeY w`q gL Lq
Kvb gZ euP AvQ kxavg Avi mvwex| Ni ivav Ki g~wZ AvQ| ivR mvevwZ RvjZ
nq; cwZ enwZevi mvvwnK c~Rv Kivi wbqg `xNw`b ai Pj AvmQ G evoxZ| c~Rvq
 52

Kjv-evZvmv w`Z nq| GLb ZvI RyUQ bv| Dcvl hvQ kxavgi ivav-KI|

gvS gvS m`i _K mvnvh Avm wekvLv b`x eq| hPvwjZ bKvZ| mvnvhi mv_
Avm bZv-g^vi-mvsevw`K, dUv Zvjvi Kvgiv, jvK jmKi Aviv KZ wKQy! bKv
Bwb fU fU k nq, Kb mw nq wekvLvi Rj Avi Gw`K `y'Uv fvZi Avkvq bo
Po DV D_wj Mvgi KvRnxb Abvnvix gvbyljv| gvQi Avkv Qo wbcb kxavgi KvQ
Aviv wKQyUv GwMq Avm wewoi Avkvq| wbcb ej,
I `v`v, eyaevi bv wK Pvj Avme? bP wKPz?
aywZi LyU _K KUv wewo ei Ki AwbQv mI Rvjvq kxavg| eo `yUv `g gi LvwbK
Kuvk| Zvici eyK _K GK `jv cyibv Kd Zzj, _y Ki wKQy `~i `jv cvwKq Qyo gvi|
Zvici ej,
AvwjB ev wK, bv AvwjB ev wK! LvIqv Zv mB GKejv, b wewo Uvb; Aviv GKWv wewo
Kg Mj| Kvb iKg cwZev` Qvov wbcb Ava LvIqv wewoUv MnY Ki Ges AgZ vb Ki
UvbZ _vK| Zvici ej,
ZvI wVK; Zey Zv fvZ! `v`v I `v`v, evoxZ cvqvwZ, Zzwg Zv Rvbv gb nq,
g, eqm KZ?
GB cuvP gvm| hZ bvB Mv `v`v; GB kixi wbqB Lvj hvwZ nq cvwb dj ZzjwZ! eo K
Mv! wK Avi Kivi, evoxZ fvZ bvB h!
ay Zi evoxZ Kv? mviv wMivgB fvZ bvB gvi evoxZI ivav-Mvwe` Dcvm| KvR Kvg
bvB| bvMicyiZ KxZbi WvK Avkvi KZv AvwQj, ZvI Zv...!
cwZevi G mgqi ga bvMicyi _K KxZbi WvK Gm hvq| D_vwj Mvgi GB wKZwbqv
cwieviwU hZUv bv mvnvh evwn bKvi Rb Acv Ki Zvi Pq AbK ekx Acv Ki
_vK bvMicyii GKUv AvgYi| cwZ mvq ivav-Mvwe` PiY mvwex Ku` AvKzj nq
GKUv mvbi Avkvq Avi kxavg Kuv` bvMicyii KxZbi AvgYi Avkvq| GKUv WvK
Gm cuQvjB `ytL kl| AvM GZ wPv wQj bv| KeQi nj bvMicyi KZc RvMvo
KiQ GKUv gwnjv `j| `jUv Mvq fvj| mevB Kg eqmx| hebeZx| Kuv`Z cvi Avevi
bP bP MvBZI cvi| cvi, kxavgi `j mvwex GKv KZUzKz VKve? wPvUv
mLvbB| ZviciI MuvmvB wnmve kxavgi GKUv cwiwPZ AvQ G jvBb; mB cwiwPwZi
RviB GLbv WvK cvq Zviv| AbK bvg QwoqQ bvMicyii bvg KxZbi| wekvj gjv
em nwimfvi KxZb cvY Ryo| cuvPw`b Avkcvki MvgjvZ eq hvq Avb` wnjvj|
hPvwjZ hvb evSvB Ki fiv Avmb bvg Mvb bZ| mv_ KZc eev Ki Ab
cmv`i| mv`v dzji gZ fvZ! Mig! me mgqB auvqv DV m fvZ _K| mv_ ZiKvix Avi
Wvj; fvM fvj _vKj `yGK LvI cvwZ jey| GKUz AvaUz bq GK`g cU fi| cvY fi
 53

LvIqv! Zvici nvUji Ni wekvg| bvMicyi cuQvbvi mv_ mv_ wewo LvIqv e|
KZc `q wmMviU eK mv`v, wcQb njy` Zzjv jvMvb| wmMviUi MB Ab iKg| mv
njB, Kcvj wZjK GuK Miqv co, Mvq bvgvewj Rwoq g DVv| fe` bvgMvb b
AvKzj nq| Mo nq cYvg Ki| fiv wewfb ckvi| mviv w`b e _vK bvbv KvR|
KvRi ekx AskUvi mv_ Rwoq cvc| cvc Avi AbwZKZv AKvi njB Zv`i gb gZz
fq Rbvq| mv_ mv_ D_j DV fw| wbRi `ygi K_v wPv Ki Zviv Kuv`; Avwjb
Ki GKRb Ab Rbi KvQ _K mvnm mq Ki AvPvii bvg| mviv ivZ bvg Mvb keY
Ki| Zvici wdi hvq wbR KvR| cvc Ki UvKv Kvgvq `ynvZ| Zvici cvc gvPb Ges
cvigvw_K cyY ARbi Avkvq `vb Ki agvjq| cyRv `q, bvg msKxZb `q NUv Ki|
Avi m `vb Ki| m `vb DcP Gm ci kxavg Avi mvwexi AvuPj| fvM mycmb nq
c~ei Pq| cvcxi UvKv| Avi K`i evo ivav K gwngvi| bvgx`vgx eemvqxiv kxavgi cv
Qyuq Kuv`| cwZeviB AwZ Drmvnx wKQy f `xv bq| f nq| kxavg MuvmvB i nq
Zv`i| ZLb, GB `yM Kvjv wb_i evbi Rj AvUK _vKv KeZ cvovi wbcbi mv_
fvM wewo LvIqv Avi mvnvhi Rb Acv Kiv GB RxebUvK gb co bv| ZLb gb nq
hb mB e`veb; hLvb `ytL bB, bB nZvkv Avi bv cvIqv ebvi nvnvKvi|

Gme fvebvi ga w`q m~hUv jvj nq `~i wekvLv b`xi cwg cvo gB Zwjq hvIqvi
Rb e nq DV| kxavg Avi wbcbi wewoi AvbI wbf Avm| nVvr Iiv j Ki
wbcbi wQc gvQ VyKvQ| Rj Wye _vKv mv`v bjUv `Z IVv bvgv KiQ| gyn~Z wbcb
mRvM nq DV Ges wQc Uvb `q| wKQyY ci Kvjv wi Rj _K DV Avm GKUv Xvov
mvc| jvf co Rj wbP SzjZ _vKv KuPvi XvcUv wMjZ wMqwQj jvfx Xvov mvcUv;
wecw NUvj wbcbi wQc Avi eowk| Ggb Rvo Uvb w`qQ wbcb, Xvov mvcUvi
GKPvLi wfZi XyK MQ eowk| giQ I| ZviciI kixiUv cvKvQ| KzrwmZ Mvwj w`q
IV wbcb| mvci gZzi GB wekx `k BQv KiB `LZ Pvq bv| kxavg Ab w`K Pq
ej DV,
Pj i wbcb, evwoZ Zi ew` GKv AvQ|
n Pj `v, nvjvi KcvjWv `vLjv|

ZZY m~hUv ek wKQyUv cwg Xj coQ| KeZ cvovq muvRvj Rj DVQ| w`bi kl
Avi AKvi ii GB mwY GB `yBRbi gbUv Avevi Lvivc nq hvq| Pzc nq hvq
AvcwbZB| Zvici c_ PjZ _vK wbtk AKvi Qq Avmv Mvgi c_ ai| eyaevi
D_vwj Mvg mKvjUv hb GKUz ZvovZvwoB nj| AwZ cwiwPZ m~hUv AvKvk IVvi AvMB
Mvgi Ni Ni cyil gvbyljv RM IV| kxavgI AvR GKUz ekx fviB DVQ| cvovi
 54

Bu`vivq vb mi ivav-Mvwe`i c~Rv mi djQ BZvga| AvR c~Rvq wKQyZB gb

emvZ cviwQj bv kxavg| evievi gb nwQj, Pvicvk Zvi hPvwjZ bKvi fU fU k
nQ| nvRvi nvRvi gb Pvj Gm gwo Lq coQ wekvLv b`xi cvo- GB D_vwj Mvg|
kxavgi Kewj gb nQ; mKvj nZB mKjB mLvb cuQ MQ| ay `ix nQ Zvi|
ZviciI c~Rv mi kxavg mvwex K ej,
wKQy LvwZ `vI Zv, AvBR Avevi M hvwZ ne|
mvwex Ajm fwZ ZLbv Nii `vIqvZ em| Zvi kixi ivZi Nygi AvgR Qwoq
AvQ ZLbv; Kvjv Nb Aweb GK ivm Pzj Zvi wcV Qovb; Gjvgjv AmshZ Kvcoi
duvK jyKvPzwi LjQ Zvi cUi fuvR| dmv ev, AaK eyK mw`K ZvwKq GZwKQyi
gaI kxavgi Kgb hb A^w eva nj| GLbv c~Rvi dzj cmv` nvZ AvQ, Zvi ga G
me `k `Lv ev wKQy wPv Kiv mgxPxb bq kxavg Ab w`K gyL wdwiq cm cvvj,
GKUz mKvj mKvj M hvwZ ne; bvg jLvI, wUc `vI nvRvi KvR, cU wKQy bv w`wj
kixj ej Avn bv h!
mvwex D`vm fve ej DV,
ej w`wq Avi wK neb! kixj ej gvbB nQ, ekx w`b evuPv| GB kkvb cyixZ Aviv
Kw`b euP _vKwZ BQv RvM bv Mv MuvmvB!
ah ai eD, ivav-Mvwe`i cwZ fimv ivLv; me wVK nq hveb|
mvwex Avi Kvb K_v bv ej AvuPj gyL XK Nii fZi Pj hvq| wKQy ci, GK evwU
fRv wPo Avi mvgvb jeY Gb kxavgi mvgb bvwgq ivL|

Rwjj, eiKZ, kjb Avi wbcb`i mv_ kxavg hLb M Gm cuQvj ZLb ek ejv
nqQ| evW Awdmi mvgb Ro nq AbK gvbyl| Kvjv Kvjv RxY cvkvK, kxY `n;
GKevi `LjB evSv hvq, Giv evbfvmv| PvLi KvUi _K So coQ Afvex Pvbx Avi
jvf| GLbv Pqvigvb mvne Gm cuQvqwb| bZvK mv_ wbq Pqvigvb mvne
Avmeb, m Avme Leii KvMRi jvK m KviY Acv KiZ nQ D_vwj Mvgmn
cuvP Mvgi Rjew` gvbyljvK| mKjB wei; ZviciI Zviv Acvq _vK KvwZ
mvnvhi Avkvq|

GKmgq Acv kl nq| DcwZ mKjK LqivwZ Pvj Avi bMZ GKkZ cvk UvKv `Iqv
nQ| mv_ `Iqv nqQ wekvLv b`x gy Kivmn Aviv AbK cwZkwZ| kl UvKv c`vbi
KvMR RbcwZ wZbkZ UvKvi wecixZ mKji wUcmB MnY Kiv nj| gb gb AbKB
Avcw KijI gyL KD Kvb K_v ejj bv| kxavg gb gb Lye LcQ; Zvi mvbv GB
h, GB UvKvUvI hw` bv w`Z ZvI wKQyB ejZ cviZ bv Zviv| Pvji evUvi Dci em evox
 55

divi K_v fveZ _vK kxavg| wKQy cqvRbxq wRwbm Kbv cqvRb Kivwmb, cvb,
mvgvb Kbv Lvevi Avi c~Rvi evZvmv GBme| nVvr wbcb nuvcvZ nuvcvZ Gm ej,
I`v, jI GB wgWvBWv LvI; zavi gvS fvj VKc; kixj ej cvev|
Pig AvMn wbq wgVvB Uv `vL kxavg| Zvici wbZ wMq Zvi gb co hvq, AvR m evBi
Kvb wRwbm Lve bv; AvR GKv`kx| ZviciI `yPvL cej m`n wbq kxavg wbcbK
wRvmv Ki,
G Amgq wgWvB cvjv KB?
wKQy m`vq Kijvg `v; evoxi Rwb KWv dj wbjvg; eo wgqvWvi Rwb KWv wgWvB| Zvi
wfZi _wK ZzgvK w`jvg|
Uvnv cvjv KB?
LvwbK Pzc _vK wbcb; Zvici ej,
evoxZ GKWv Kuvmvi evmb AvwQj; ZzgvK wgQv Kebvb; gnvRbi Ni evmbWv wew w`jvg
`v`v| bvq Abvq ci, AvM Rxeb euvPvB
K_vjv ejB evox divi cwZ bq wbwcb| ej,
Pj `v`v, evox wdwi ejv cwo Avjy|
kxavg Ab`i gZ wbRi gvj mveavb eua wbq gv_vq DVvbvi gyn~Z wcQb _K K hb
DuPz ^i WvKZ _vK,
I MuvmvB, I MuvmvB, I kxavg `v, kx ..av...g...`....v ?
MjvUv cwiwPZ gb nQ| Lye cwiwPZ gb nQ| AwbQv ^ZI wcQb di kxavg| Zvi
mv_xiv GwMq hvq wKQyUv| `o Gm cuQvq me`j| nuvcvQ m| nuvcvZ nuvcvZ ej,
I `v`v, GZ WvKwP bwZQ bv h; wMivg hvQ|
h_vmva weiw Pc kxavg ej,
Zzwg KzwKv?
bvI wbqv M AvBwQjvg AvR mvZw`b; gnvRbi Ni wKQy cvIqv AvwQj| nvjvq wK `q?
Gevi mwZB wei nq kxavg| ej,
cuvPvj dvjvq Lei KI|
fvj Lei AvQ `v`v|
wK fvj Lei? Avgvi gibi ZvwiL Rvbvb MQ?
GKMvj nm me`j ej,
GLbv Zv Rvbv hvq bvB; Zq bvMcyii KxZbi ZvwiL Rvbv MQ| Zvgvi WvK AvBP,
bvMicyiZ
K_vUv GZUvq AcZvwkZ wQj kxavgi KvQ, h c_gUv m wKQyB eySj bv| LvwbK ci
me`j Avevi ej,
 56

AvMvgx ci ZvgvK hvwZ KqP| gnvRbi KvQ gvevBj KiP|

nVvr-B kxavgi gb co hvq, MZevi wdi Avmvi mgq bvMicyi KxZb KwgwUi cavb
i`vm nvj`viK GB wVKvbv Avi b^i w`q GmwQj kxavg Avi mvwex| me`j Avevi
ej,
Gevi wKK Avwg hvevb| MZ evi Avwg hvwZ cvwiwb|
Avb` kxavgi mviv `n Aek nq Avm| gv_vq mvnvhi evSvUv co hvq ac Ki|
Avb` w`knviv nq me`jK Rwoq ai kxavg| Zvici ej DV,
Rq Mi nwi; Rq Mi nwi| ivav Mvwe` hw` Kcv Ki AekB ZzB Bevi hvwe|

me`jK `j wbj eo DcKvi nq kxavgi| me`ji Pnviv `ya AvjZvq bv njI Kvjv
bq| Uvbv Uvbv PvL Avi KuvKov Pyj m hLb K mR euvwk nvZ g `uvovq ZLb
ivavicx mvwexi mv_ gvbvq Ac~e| me`j me h evRvZ cvi| AmvaviY Zvi Mvbi
MjvI| ZvQvov kxavgi `j hLb `~i `k AvgY hvq, ZLb mLvbKvi fiv ay KxZb
kvb RvZ wbq gv_v Nvgvq bv| Ab agi jvKiv G KvR AvmeB ev Kb? ay me`j
ewZg| Zvi Kvb ag bB| gvwSi KvR Ki| b`xZ bvI evq| GLb b`xZ Rj _vKjI
bKvi eenvi AvMi gZ nq bv| Avi nq bv ejB me`ji AfveI hvq bv| Zvi KvQ
agi wqv Kgi Pq Mig fvZ Avi Wvj iZc~Y nq DV| ZvB gvS gvS kxavgi
`ji mv_ me`j hvq| Kcvj wZjK GuK Miqv co mvab bvg wbq KxZbi g DV
hvq|
Iiv hLb D_vwj Mvg Gm cuQvj ZLb weKj nq MQ| m~hUv GK cvk ek wKQyUv nj
coQ| co GB Avjvq Rje`x MvgwUK kxavgi KvQ c~ei gZ jvMQ bv| AbK w
Qvqv mywbweo gb nQ| mB cwiwPZ Mvg c_ ai kxavg Avi me`j evwnbx mvgbi w`K
GZ jvMj| kxavgi gb nQ RxebUv KZ my`i; meB ivav gvaei BQv| evoxi DVvb
`uvwoq wPrKvi Ki WK DV kxavg,
KB Mv, bQ? Kv_vq Mj, `vL wKWv AvBQ|
cibi Kvco wVK KiZ KiZ Avjy Lvjy fve RxY Kzuoi ga _K ewiq Avm mvwex|
DVvbi gvS me`jK `L jvq ivv nq IV m| we`vq m~hi mvbv is Qwoq co
Zvi `vnviv kixi| me`jK `L mvwex GKUz ekx jv cvq GUv kxavg Rvb| Kvb
KviY Qvovq I`i `yRbi gvS GKUv evSveywS Zwi nqQ GB KxZbK wNi| meB `L
hZ nq kxavgK| Mvcb me`j Avi mvwex GKUz KvQvKvwQ hvq, ZvI m evS;
ZviciI mewKQyB gb wbZ nq ZvK| euP _vKvi msMvg Mixe`i G me AZ j Kij
Pj bv| mvwex gv_vq Kvco w`q ej,
Avcbiv LvivBqv Kvb? `vIqvq eb|
 57

`vIqvZ em GKUz wRwiq wbq, myLi LeiUv kxavg ejj mvwexK| gyn~Z cw_exi mePq
myLx cwievi cwiYZ nq D_vwj Mvgi GB Afvex KxZwbqv cwieviwU| Avb` wLjwLj Ki
nm IV mvwex| kxavgi gb nq, AbK w`b ci Zvi evoxZ KD nvmjv| GB nvwmi
duvK Aviv GKevi jvRyK `w wewbgq nq hvq mvwex Avi me`ji ga| A mgqi
ga kxavgi `ji jvK`i Lei `Iqv nj| jvKjv kxavgi evoxZ Gm Mj Aviv
`Z| Zvici i nj gnov| mvwex Rvwjq w`qQ ayc; ayci M Avi kxLvji Zvj
gB Rg DVj KxZbi gnov| GKmgq Q` Zvj Avi fwZ DcwZ mevB PvL eyR nwi
bvg RcZ _vK| ay mvwexi PvL me`ji PvLi gwbZ AvUK _vK| cg Avi
fwZ fm hvq Iiv `yRb| Avi cvY wdi Avm GB Avmi DcwZ mKji cvY|
GKmgq aycI wbf Avm; gnovI kl nq mw`bi gZ| gnv Avb` Avi AwgZ cvY kw
wbq wbcb, myej, Mvwe` Avi me`j Pj hvq| ivZ bg D_vwjZ Mfxi nq| evBii Puv`
DwK `q Ni| mLvb em mvwex Zvi Pzji MvQv LyjZ _vK| Kvco mwiq kixi AvjMv
Ki Avjm nvB Zvj| Zvici ej,
I MuvmvB AvR wK c~wYg; `vL evBi Puv` DwVP|
kxavg Puv` `LZ GwMq Avm| mvwex ckqi myi ej,
GwK AvR bv GKv`kx; kixj aKj MQ AbK Nyg hvI|
kxavg Aviv GwMq Avm| gyn~Z Lm co mvwexi evav, Qwoq co mvwexi Kvjv Pzj;
evDRi evZvg; Kvco ivZi wb_x fvwi nq DV Mxi wbkvm Avi mvwexi Avek gvLvbv
MvvwbZ|
kxavg cvMji gZ Zvi nvwiq hvIqv myLUv LyuRZ _vK mvwexi `vnviv kixi| Avi mB
myL mvwex PvL eyR Zvi Ki avb KiZ _vK| hvi Mjvq fxlY myi j^v Pzj Avi PvL
`y'Uv cggq|

2
kxavg Zvi `j wbq hLb bvMicyi cuQvj ZLb mv nqQ| bvMicyi cuQB Zviv Ui
cqQ KxZbi RgRgvU AvqvRbUvi Dvc| bvMicyii ivvi gvo gvo coQ
cvvi; wekvj wekvj ZviY Zwi nqQ is e ii Kvco w`q| KxZb hLvb ne mB
nwimfv gw`i BZvga emQ wekvj gjv| Pywo, gvjv, ejyb, agi eB, jx `yMv mn
evev ZviKbv_i Qwe wew nQ ``vi| wRjvwc, ev`vg fvRv cvb Avi jvj Pvqi cmiv
mvwRq emQ AbKB| Avi emQ KvVi gjv| GB gjv weZZ nqQ AbK `~i
ch| jvK jvKviY Pvwiavi| kxavg-mvwexi `j bvMicyi nwimfv cvY cuQvb gvB
msev` cq QyU Gjb AvqvRK KwgwUi cavb i`vm nvj`vi; AvwiK Mjvq ejjb,
Avcbv`i wbq LyeB wPvq wQjvg| c_ Kvb K nqwb Zv?
 58

Mjvq Pig webq Gb kxavg ej,

ivav-Mvwe` mnvq| Avcbv`i Gw`K me Kzkj fvjv Zv?
VvKzii Kcvq AvqvRb KvbB wU bB|

Avcbviv `~ii `j, Avcbv`i Mvb iZ w`Bwb| AvR Dvab| G Aji Gg.wc. mvne
Avmeb Dvab KiZ| Ab cmv`i eev AvQ fe`i Rb| Avi Avcbviv _vKeb,
wekvg beb nvUj| Ii iNybv_ GB MuvmvBK Zvi nvUj iL Avq Zv evev| ejB
nvj`vievey bgvi Ki Pj Mjb| bvMicyii KxZbi wbqgUv nj, w`b wZb PviwU `j
KxZb Kieb| KD MvBeb ivmmxjv, KD ivav Ki gvb fRb cvjv cfwZ| `j `j
gvbyl Avme bZ| wn`y gymjgvb mevB| Pje cmv` weZiY| nvUji gSZ em mevB
wbR wbR ev`h wVKVvK Ki wbZ jvMj| Gevi kxavgi `ji mv_ me`jI GmQ|
Aek GLvb Zvi bvg nqQ mvab| mvab Zvi euvwk wVK KiZ KiZ `jbZv kxavgi
wb`kbv bZ jvMj|
kxavg ej,
Bevi AvqvRb Mj evii P evcK; Mvb KD duvwK w`ev bv| gb ivLcv `j wUKvZ Mwj
fvj Mvb MvIqv jvMc; AvgvMi mv_ Bevi me`j, Rq Mi nwe, mvab AvQ| ZvB wPv
Kg| evRbv fvj nwj Mvb AvgvMi KD euvawZ cvie bv; Zzgiv wK KI?

mKjB kxavgi K_vi mv_ GKgZ nq Rvi ej DV,

Rq Mi nwi; Rq ivav Mvwe`v|

iZB bvMicyii Pqvigvb Ges G Aji gvbbxq Gg.wc. gn`q Zvi jvKRb wbq j^v
fvlY w`q KxZbi Dvab NvlYv Kijb| fvlY Gg.wc mvne G `k weklZ GB
Aj Zvi Avgj wn`y-gymjgvb mcxwZ c~ei Zzjbvq AbK eoQ ej `vex Kijb|
wZwb Rvo w`q Aviv ejjb,
G `k mKji| mevB mevi ag Kie m~Y ^vaxb fve| Ze RvbvRv I bvgvRi mgq
Mvb-evRbv, Avi `ynvZ Zzj jvdvjvwd GKUz e ivLjB fvj nq| GKUz c`v Kieb; gq-
Qji ec`v nZ nq bv; Avjvn cvK eRvi nb|
gvbbxq Gg.wc. gn`q GB Abyvb `k gb Pvj `vbi NvlYvI w`jb| DcwZ gvqiv
Djyawb w`j; Avi ev`KMY, kxLvj PuvwU cvij|
Gg.wc. mvne Pqvigvb mvneK mv_ wbq Avi _vKjb bv nwimfvq| Pj Mjb
bvMicyii Luv cvovq GKwU Bmjvgx Rjmvq kixK nZ| Bmjvgx Rjmvq eqvb KiZ
GmQb wewk Avjg, Uwjwfkbi mywg K^i ZiY I my`kb ev nhiZ gjvbv gvt
 59

Rvdi Djvn| Gg.wc. gnv`q mLvb `xNY gbvhvM w`q mvwbZ gngvbi eqvb
bjb Ges RvgvZ bvgvR Av`vq Ki `vRvnvbi bKx nvwmj Ki M wdijb| gayi
^i ejjb,
gymjgvb wbRi Afve gUvbvi Rb ag ZvM KiQ; wekvm nvivQ; bvDRywejvn| Avi
bvjvqK, gnvb ivwej Avjvwgb Zvi cqviv ev`vK wec` dj Cgvbi cixv bb| m
cixvq hviv dj Ki Zviv eBgvb|
bvMicyii AwZ mvaviY gvbyli ga fq Avm; AvLivZi fq| agi cwZ AbyivM evo|
Avi GB AbyivM bvMicyii w`b gRyi Kvkg Avi MYki ga `~iZ mw Ki, `~iZ Zwi
nq Aveyj Avi KvbvB-Gi ga| ZviciI agmfv bZ Avmv Kviv Kviv zav KvUZB Pvq
bv; mfv kl zav Zxe nq; Ryii Dc`k gb _vK bv| Pzwb wMq cvZ Ki nwimfvi
KxZbi cmv` weZiYi Ni| Gw`K Lvm gngvb wPrKvi Ki bvMicyii gymjgvb`i `xb
Bmjvgi c_ wdwiq wbq Avmvi Rb eqvb KiZ _vKb| Ab w`K, wZwiK `xg wZwiK
`xg evRZ _vK kxLvj| bvMicyii KxZb hvM `Iqv gwnjv `j Mq Pj ivgvqYi
mxZv niY cvjv|
kxavg I mvwexi `ji mLx wezwcqv-i cvjv AvR evi| AvR bvMicyii nwimfvq
jvK hb DcP coQ| Rg DVQ gjv| ay nwimfv Kb MvUv bvMicyiB GLb agi
bMi cwiYZ nqQ| nhiZ gjvbv gvt Rvdi Djvn mvnei D`v Avnevb e_v hvqwb; G
Aji gvbyli ga AvLivZi fvebv c~ei Pq cej nqQ| Qj eyov mKjB AvR
GB cwe Ryvevi gmwR` gyLx nQ| Avi wVK GB mgqwUZB kxavg`i g DVZ nQ|
mgqUv fvwi Amgq| GLb fiv Nyg Xvj| gvqiv mvsmvwiK KvR e _vKb; Avi gwnjv
fiv gi Pvicvk wfo bv Kij KxZb `g Avm bv| wK wK Avi Kiv; G mgqB kxavg
mvab`i g DVZ nQ| Miqv cvkvK co mvab hLb Ni _K eij, ZLb Kvb
KviY QvovB Zvi eyKUv hb wKq DVj| mv_ mv_ cP cvmvei Pvc Abyf~Z nj| A_P
Gmei Kvb KviY bB| mvabi gb nj, jY fvj bq| nvUj _K ewiq mvabi
GKUv wewoi Rb eyKUv nuuvwcq DV| GKUv `vKvbi w`K mvab GwMq hvq, ZZY Zvi
`j wKQyUv GwMq MQ| mvab `vKvbxK ej,
fvB, GKWv wewo `vb, LvB;
`vKvbx DrmyK `w wbq Zvi w`K ZvKvq ; ej,
wewo bvB; GLvb wewo Pj bv|
Zvwj GKWv wmKvWB`vb; GK Mjvm cvwb ne fvB?
`vKvbxi Drmvn PviY nq| `vKvbx GK Mvm cvwb mvabK GwMq w`q ck Ki,
cvwb Lq KxZb Kieb fvB! AvR Ryvevi, AvwgI `vKvb e Kie|
me`ji PwKZ gb co hvq, m GLvb mvab| gbi ARv fxlY wec` WK AvbZ
 60

cvi, fe me`ji nvZ cv wng nq Mj| wmMviU `yUv Uvb w`q gv_vUvK cvZjv Ki
wbZ PvBj me`j icx mvab| Miqv emb Kcvj mv`v wZjK GuK KxZbi g DVvi c~e
gyn~Z G aibi wPv gv_vq Avmv gvbB Mvbi gvb zY nIqv| Avi Mvb fvj bv nj, AvMvgx
Abyvb WvK bv cvIqv; Avi WvK bv cjB Avevi mB hYv`vqK Rxebi bvM cvk e`x
nq civ| ZvB mvab icx me`j gbUv ay GK w`KB wbek KiZ Pv KiZ jvMj|
AvR Aviv Ac~e jvMQ mvwexK| ek Kw`b K Zvi kixi AvMi Pq nvjKv nqQ;
dj mvwex GLb Aviv igYxq ic Qwoq coQ Pvicvk| Avi m ici Avb KLbv
fwi KLbv ev Kvgi `vevbj Rvwjq w`Q f`i ZwZ cvY| Kvb w`K bv ZvwKq
i`e Avi B `eZvi bvg iY Ki mvwex gi w`K GwMq hvQ `x c`c|
mZevbi cvY divbvi Rb ejv GwMq hvQ `eivR B`i ivRmfvq bZi Zvj
mKjK gwnZ KiZ| Zuviv gy njB cvY wdi cve mZevb| Avi GB Avmi mKjK gy
KiZ cvij cvY wdi Avme D_vwj Mvgi GB KxZbxqv cwievii mnR mij GBme
gvbyljvi cvY| g DVvi kl gyn~Z ay PvLvPvwL nj me`ji mv_| mB `wZ So
coj AbK Avv, fimv Avi fvjevmv| KxZbi mnwkxiv wbR wbR ev` hi myi Zvj|
PuvwU co kxLvji gyL- wZwiK wZwiK `xg... mvwex Zvi myijv Mjvq myi Zvj| wbcb
euvwkZ dzu `q| mvwexi myi Mjv gjvq mvab icx me`j| myii GB Acic gjeb
gB cuQ hvq, fi cvY| fivI aq AvmZ _vK bvMicyii nwimfv cvY| Avi
fe`i DcwwZ evoZ _vKvi mv_ mv_ KxZbi fve AvmZ _vK|
Gw`K bvMicyii Rvg gmwR`I AvR Kvbvq Kvbvq c~Y| Rvg gmwR`i Cgvg Lyrev w`Qb
AveM RwoZ K| mB Lyrevi gvS KLbv DV AvmQ wekewc gymjgvb`i nZvh,
KLbv Avevi gymjgvb`i Cgvbx `yejZv Avevi KLbv ekvLx gjv, Kwe`i Rb w`em cvjb
A_ev nwimfvq AvqvwRZ KxZbi gZ e`v`x I Kvdix KgKvi cwiYvgi K_v| Cgvg
mvnei Lyrev DcwZ gymwj`i KwjRvi ga XyK hvQ| KD AvLivZi wPvq nqQb
wPvgM; KDev wbR`i KgKv I `vhLi wbggZv Kbv Ki PvLi Rj fvmQ; Avi
ek wKQy hyeK Gme Pjgvb e`vwZ bvdigvbx KgKv `L Zv`i wfZi wfZi vai
AMyrcvZ nQ| Zv`i Pvqvj k I nvZ `y'Uv gywe nqQ BZvga| Cgvg mvne ej
Pjjb,
Avgv`i wK `yfvM KvRx bRij Bmjvg Avgv`i RvZxq Kwe; GK mv KvRx cwievi
Zvi Rb; wkKvj wZwb gyqvwb wQjb; Zvi BKvji w`b, Zvi ii gvMdivZ Kvgbv
Ki cvK civqvi `Mvii KvQ `vqv Lvqi bv Ki, Zvi KeiK gvRvi evwbq dzj w`q
cyRv Ki ZvK RvbvZ _K Ub wnuPo bvwgq Avbv nQ AvmZvMdijvn!
Bgvg mvne Aviv wKQyY ejjb, Zvici mKj Kuva Kuva wgwjq bvgvR `uvwoq Ryvvi
bvgvR Av`vq Kijb| wbZv gB eo Mj Pvicvk; mKjB avbgM njb mekwgvb
 61

`qvevb mB KiYvgqi avb| Ze gvS gvS `ycyii evDwi evZvm fm AvmZ jvMj
nwimfvi KxZbi Kvjvnj| mvgvb njI euvavM nZ jvMj gymwjMYi GKvZZv| Avevi
vai AMyrcvZ i nj hyeK`i ga; wbMZ vai jvfv gyn~Z Mvm Kij DcwZ
AbKKB| gmwR` _K gymwjiv mvwie fve ewiq AvmZ _vK; mKjB AvR GKUz hb
ekx Mxi| gaeqmxiv GK Acii mv_ g`y ^i Avjvc KiZ KiZ evox hZ _vK|
wK ek wKQy hyeK Zviv QvU QvU `j fvM nq `uvwoq _vK| Mfxi gbvhvMi mv_ Zviv
civgk KiZ _vK| evZvm kvi M Qwoq coZ _vK| wKQy `~i `uvwoq Bgvg mvne
RUjvi `k `L Z nb; gb gb Avb` cvb, AvRKi Lyrev hyeK`i Qyuq MQ| Lyrev
cvVi mv_KZv GLvbB| RUjvi ga _K GKRb nVvr wPrKvi Ki DV,
HLvb KxZb KiQ GK gymjgvb!
ekvLx Soi AvM gyn~Z Kvjv gNi Avovj _K gNi WvK hgb Soi fqvenZv Rvbvb
`q, wVK Zgwb RUjvi ga GK Pvc b Qwoq co| `~i _K GB bK evNi g`y
MRbi gZ kvbvq| hyeKwU Avevi wPrKvi Ki ejZ _vK,
hLvb Avgv`i cvkeZx `k gmwR` f gw`i Zwi nQ, `j `j gymjgvbiv cvwjq
AvmQ G`k Avi wVK m mgq GKRb gymjgvb Qj gyL is gL wKQy cU ei Kiv
eagx gvMx`i mv_ agi bvg aB aB Ki bvPQ...
G`i ga Ab GKRb ej DV,
I`i ga gymjgvb AvQ Zv Zzwg Rvbj wKfve? ZvQvov Iiv Avgv`i gngvb|
gngvb`i Rvb-gvji ndvRZi K_v
K_v kl Kivi AvMB Abiv ZvK agK DV,
Pvc, kvjv gvjvDbi `vjvj| G`i RbB G Aev| AvM GB kvjv`i GKUv eev Kiv
DwPr|
hyeKwU evZvmnxb ejybi gZ Pzcm hvq wbwglB| gymjgvbi QjK Iiv KxZb eva
KiQ; bvivqL ZKexi!
DcwZ mKjB wPrKvi Ki DVj,
Avjv ... qvKei!

gyn~Z Pvwiw`K Pig DRbv Qwoq coj| Gi gvSI wKQy eq gvbyl GwMq Avmb| nvZ
Zzj _vgvbvi Pv Kib| wK Zv`i K_v KD Kvb ZzjZ Pvq bv| DRbv Aviv `Z
QovZ _vK| Mxi `ycyii Loi Pvj Rj IVv Avbi gZ Qwoq coZ _vK| G`i
ga GKRb `uo wMq Cgvg mvneK ej,
Ryi, Gfve wZ KivUv wK wVK nQ? weavb `b|
RjM^xi K Cgvg mvne ejb,
 62

wbR agi cwZ mwZB hw` Kvb AvNvZ Avm, Avi mB AvNvZ VwKq agK iv Kivi
KgKvK wZ ej bv eis ej aghy|

mgeZ hyeKMY Aviv Rvi wPrKvi Ki DVj| AvPgKv mB wPrKvi gvqi Kvj Nyg
beRvZK PgK DVj|

Gw`K nwimfvi KxZb mgeZ nIqv fe` `yev Zzj bgvb` nwinwi awb w`Z
_vK| kxavgi msMZ Avi mvab icx me`ji Acic m~i f`i cvY K cgi
cveb eq hZ _vK| fe` Akwm PvL GKRb AbRbK Avwjb KiZ _vK| GK
gaeqmx f mvabicx me`jK Rwoq nvcym bqb Kuv`Z _vK| m Kvbv wbwgl Ab`i
Qyuq hvq| KgKZv`i mvwiZ em i`vm nvj`vi, evm eveyiv wP fwZ M` M` PvL
me wKQy bv `Lvi `w w`q `L hvQb; Avi mdj eevcbv `L Zw Abyfe KiQb|
wVK m gyn~Z LeiUv Gm cuQvj Ges cv w`j mewKQy PvLi cjK| Lei b evm evey
AvuZK DVjb; wevwiZ b ejjb,
mebvk! GLb Dcvq?
K GKRb wPrKvi Ki ej DVj.
cvjvI cvjvI, gymjgvbiv Zo AvmQ!
nVvr Pviw`K wbZv bg Avmj| wVK So ii AvM gyn~Z hgbwU nq| ciYB fxlY
eZv, wPrKvi Avi owo Qwoq coj| h eyov f GZY K cg gvwnZ nq PvLi
Rj fvmwQj m jvwdq DV emvgvj aywZ wVK bv Ki RyZv eB dj cvjvZ jvMjv| Ab
GKRb AcvKZ Kg eqmx f QyU Gm kxavgK MvjvMvj KiZ jvMj| kxavg wKQy eyS
DVvi AvMB GKUv Pjv KvV w`q Zvi kxLvjUv f w`j| Avi wPrKvi Ki ej DVj,
kvjv boi evPv; gw`i DV Avgv`i ag b KiZ GmwQm? fxlY wPrKvi PuPvgwPi
ga kxavgi AvKzwZ, Kvbv nvwiq Mj| KgKZv`i KvDK Kv_vI `Lv hvQ bv| Gi
ga `~i _K fm Gj, iwng Kiv vi,
bvivqK ZKexi, Avjv -AvKei!
 63

Rvrv ivZi cwZwe^

Avlvp-kveY gvm b~i Avjxi KvR eiZ BQv Kibv gvUI| evoxi `vIqvq LuRyii
cvwUZ q Kov Svj w`q PvjfvRv LZ, Avi Zvi aygmx e-Uvi mv_ Mvj-M Ki
KvUvZ BQv nq Zvi| hw`I evoxZ _vKj b~i Avwji eqi mv_ Lye ewk M Kiv nq
IVbv| e, Re`v mvivY MvjvMwji Ici ivL b~i AvjxK| A_P, mew`b b~iv wgTvi
KvR hZI bB| Zvi KvR LyeB wnmvei KvR| wZw_-bI wePvi KiZ nq KLbv
KLbv| b~iv Avwj Pvi| cvuP Mvg ZvK b~iv Pviv ej Pb| Avkcvki Kvb evoxZ eo
ev QvU Pzwi nj meB ai bq; I kvjv b~iv Pvi Pywi KiQ| gvS gvS m`i _vbv _K
b~ivi WvK co| eo eveyi mv_ `Lv Ki nvZ wKQz uR w`q AvmZ nq Gi eZq njB
wec`! gnv wec`| B`vwbs b~iv wQP&K KvR Kibv; Avi bnvZ cqvRb bv nj KvR eivq
bv m| nvuwoZ Avav KwR Pvj Avi UuvK cvuP `k UvKv _vKjB b~iv Lykx| `ycyi Avi
weKj GKUz MvuRv njB b~ivi Avi KvR eibvi K_v gv_vq Avm bv| wKy, mgmv evavq
Re`v| hgb AvR| mKvj _KB Avlvpi AvKvk Zvi meUv hb DRvo Ki w`qQ byiv
Pvivi DVvb| BwZga DVvbi Pviw`K Rg DVQ wcP wcP Kv`v| Zvi gvS nvuUz Aw
mvqv Zzj, Kvjv Mv-wcV ei Ki KvR Ki PjQ Re`v eMg| Kv`vi ga m cv djQ
Avi wcP Ki GKUv k nQ ; Kv`vi gvS Rg _vKv Rj Re`vi gvUv cvqi Kyrwmr
Avyji dvuK w`q wdbwK w`q eiQ| Re`vi gyLI PjQ Avlvpi ewvi gZ| Re`v
MR MR KiQ Avi ej PjQ gib bvq Avgvi| evoxZ GKLvbv Kbv Lwo bvqKv;
AvLv-Uv Rvjev wK w`q? Avgvi gv_v w`q? Avi wgbmi Kvb wPv bB ...
wPv h b~ivi bB Zv bq| AvR fvi ivZ _KB fvewQj m KvR eie| Ni wKQzB bB|
wKy KvR hvIqvi Rb GKUv cywZ `iKvi nq| KvR hvIqvi AvMi w`b fvj Nygi
cqvRb| gvQi Svj w`q fvZ LZ nq; cvuKvj gvQ nj cqv| GUv Zvi Iv`i
Dc`k| weKj mviv Mvq chv mli Zj gL ivZ bvgvi AvM KvR eiZ nq| G
meB Zvi Iv` Pv`y wgqvi Dc`k| Dwb Gme Ai Ai gvbZb| KvRi nvZhkI wQj
Zvi| Nyg gqQji Mjv _K weQv nvi LyjZ cviZ PvLi Bkvivq| M KiZ KiZ
cvuwPj DV coZ wUKwUwKi gZ| Avi wmua KvUvi nvZ wQj Zvi Rv`yKii Bkviv| GK evi
XvKvq GK cvwUi mv_ nvZ wgwjq ijMvwoi gvj Lvjvm Ki; wmbgvi gZ| Avi fvMvfvwMi
mgq RevBI nj wmbgvi gZB| wZb w`b ci jvk wgjwQj kbi GK Wvev cyKzi|
Iv` ejZ,
wewq Kiwewb, Lei`vi! wewqi ci Lvwj mB gvMxi wPv nq KvRi mygq| ivZ weiZ Kvb
 64

Nyg gqQj `Lwj gb nq Nii gvMxUvi KZv|

GLb b~ivi gb nq Iv` vbx jvK| b~ivI Iv`i cvq me Dc`k gb PjQ ay
weevn-Uv Qvov| b~ivi nvZi KvRI LyeB cwivi| Zvi cvq `o AmvaviY| MYwcUzwbi
mgq b~iv Ggbfve wfgwo LZ cvi, hvZ mKjB fvee gviv MQ| GKevi Migi mgq,
kvnvievwo Mvg KvR wMqwQj b~iv| GKevox _K KvR kl Ki eiZ wMq nj k|
evm| mevB Mj RM| w`j Zvov| Mvgi evMvb wQj Pvsov Qvoviv, Avg-wjPy cvnviv
w`wQj| ZvivI Ryoj Zvov| b~iv w`j `o| fvu `o| ivZi Avuavi wKfve `ovZ nq
ZvI wkwLqwQj Iv` Pv`y wgTv| mw`b mviv Mvgi jvK ZvK aiZ cviwb| Avi GKevi
RZvicyi, RbZvi nvZ aiv covi ci MYavjvB i nZB b~iv Pviv wfgwo Lq kUvb|
PvL Nvjv Ki gyL dvcov Zzj wi; `g e| mKjB fvej evUv giQ| Avi GB myhvM
b~iv w`j `o| GLb Aek w`b e`jQ| AvMi gZ Avi cvi bv b~iv| `g cvq bv m|
GjvI evanq weevn Kivi dj| ii Dc`k bv gvbvi Awfkvc!
Gme K_v gb nIqvi KviY, wmv wbZ AvR `ix nQ b~ivi| ZviciI gb nQ KvR
hZ ne ZvK| MZ ci GKUv evox AvjMvQ iwK KiQ m| evoxUvi `Iqvji cvk
cvve Kivi Qj emwQj m ek wKQzY| evoxi QweUv GKgb fveevi Pv Ki b~iv
Avwj| wKy Re`vi wPrKvi evievi GKvMZv f nQ Zvi| Re`v ej Pj,
wgbm Lvwj MuRv Lve, Avi Bq _vKwe| Avi ivZ nwjB mB GK avv| Gw`K nvwo
Rje wKm Zvi w`K Zvi Kvb wPv AvQ!
b~i Avwj gb gb fve, GB avvUv ev` w`q `e| wKy m Kie wK? m Zv Ab Kvb
KvR kLwb| ZvQvov Pvi bv K ? H h _vbvi eo evey, b~iv Avwji KvQ eLiv Lvq, mUv
wK Pywi bv? G iKg eo eveyiv GLb `k Ryo| ZvQvov m wfv Ki bv; MZ LvwUq Kvgvq
Ki| evoxi gqQjiv Rvb bv wKQz Lvwj wPrKvi Ki| b~iv Pviv GKgb mB evoxi K_v
wPv KiZ _vK| gbi ga mB evoxUvi GKUv gvc GuK bq| H evoxi Qj _vK
we`k| evoxZ GLb _vK eyov evc-gv Avi KwP eD| we`k _vKv Qj Kw`b AvM
GmwQj, Avevi wMqQ| cvKv evoxi cvPxi cvq kli w`K| GLb GKUv mvgvb RvqMvq
evuki eov `Iqv AvQ XyKZ ne mw`K w`qB| Mvgjv e`j hvQ `Z| evoxi cyil
gvbyliv Pj hvQ we`k| ILvb wMq Mi gwnli gZ cwikg Ki, Avi `k UvKv
cvVvq| Zvici KvuPv evox cvKv nq| evoxi m`i `iRv eo nq| eo `iRvq UvBjm& em|
Zvici mB evoxi bvg nq AvKwjgv KzwVi A_ev Kveivbx wfjv| kixi Rj hvq b~ivi
Gme `L| we`k wefuBG m gyL i Zvj Zvi Mvg mvbvi gvUv evjv nvZ Zvi eD
eovq `eii mv_| KLbv ev evsK KLbv ev wQU Kvcoi `vKvb `vKvb| GK mgq
me UvKv cqmv nvwZq wbq mB `eii mv_B dziZ| Mj me Mj! ga _K avv e
 65

nq b~iv Pvivi| wKy AvR KvR ZvK eiZB nQ| Mvq mli Zj gvLZ wMq b~iv
`Lj, Zji evZjUv bB| Re`v `vIqvi GK Kvb em GKgb Zj gvLvQ Zvi
cvq| Re`vi cvq cvKzuB (GK aiYi Nv)| Zj w`j wKQzUv Avivg jvM| fxlY gvqv nq
byivi| ePvixK wKQzB w`Z cviwb G ch| Re`vB ZvK w`qQ AXj| Gevi wKQz GKUv
w`Z ne Re`vK| b~iv Avwj hZUzKz Zj nvZi KvQ cj mUzKz Mvq gL Iv`i bvg
iY Ki, AvKvki w`K ZvwKq wemwgjvn ej `L bq, Zvi bvKi Kvb wQ` w`q kvm
AvmQ| Zvici m cv evovq m| ZLb Kej mvuS-mv| GLb b~iv Pviv evRvi wMq
Pvqi `vKvb Uwjwfkb bvP-Mvb `Le; LvwbK ci GKUy AmyZvi fvb Kie Ges evoxi
c_ aie mKjK Rvwbq Ges GK mgq m evoxZ bv XyK Ab c_ aie GUvI Zvi
Iv`i wkv|
b~iv Pviv hLb Zvi Awf j wbq cvki Mvgi ivv aij, ZLb Avevi wQcwQc ew i
nqQ| cvki Mvg hvIqvi mvRv ivvq bv wMq Nviv c_B eQ wbj| gvV, KjvevMvb,
Mvivb cvi nq cvki Mvg| cKv GK Kvjv gN nVvr Pvu`K XK w`j| Pviw`K
wgkKvjv| AKvi Pjv cvYx Avi b~iv Pviv Qvov Avi KDB eva nq GB wbweo Nb
AKvi PjZ cvie bv| Ze, Pv`y Iv` ejZb, c~wYg ivZB KvRi Rb Dg; GB
AvjvZ gvbli PvL avuavu jvM ewk| gvbyl mwZK wgw_ fve Avi wgw_K mwZ| KvR
mviwe ZzB Avi gvbyli m`n coe wbiciva jvKi Dci|
Ze ivw Ckii GK inmeZ mw| wZwb wZj wZj G mgqUzKzK mvwRqQb| mw
KiQb RvbvK cvKv; wS wS cvKv hv w`b `ycyi WvK bv eis ivZ WvKj ivZ Aviv
inmveZ nq| kqvji wUwKUvI cvIqv hvqbv w`b; wKy kqvj ivZi Mnbv| ivZ gvbyli
AbyfwZi Mnxb wgk AvQ Abvw`Kvj _K| ivZ gvbyli jvf evo, Kvg RvM; gvbyli
gv_vq Avm wPv| Avevi gvbyli gvS ivZB Avm Kz-wPv, RvM wRNvsmv, Avi fq
Avevi ivZB gvbyl nq IV A`g mvnmx mvnm gv_v AvDj hvq| AvR c~wYgv; wai
wai Kvjv gN mi hvQ; Pvu`i Avjvq Pviw`K Sjgwjq DVQ gB|
gvV KjvevMvb, Mvivb cwiq b~iv Avwj Gm `vuovq wbw` evoxUvi wbw` Nii wcQb|
ZLb wQcwQc ewUv Aviv wKQzUv RvuwKq| wUbi Pvj ewi dvuUvjv GKNq GKUv myi
ZzjQ; wUbi Xvj eq ewi cvwb Mwoq wbPi gvwUZ co QvU QvU MZ Zix KiQ|
mB MZ Rg DVQ Rj, mB Rj ewi Rj Mwoq coQ| GLbB mgq| GB ki gvS
evowZ k Kviv Kvb cuQve bv| b~iv Avwj Iv`i bvg iY Ki, jv Bjvnv Bwb wKy
.... `vqv co, hv Iv` ZvK wkwLqwQj, co eyK wZbevi dzu w`q AvKvki w`K ZvKvq
Zvici wemwgjvn co Av Av Ki evuki eovq nvZ ivL b~iv Pviv| eovi Svuc
Zvi w`q evuav| m Zvi LyjZ b~ivi mgq jvM eo Rvi `o wgwbU| gv_v Mjvbvi gZ
 66

GKUz dvuK Ki, c_g wbRi jywUv wKQz GKUvi mv_ euvwaq wfZi XzwKq w`j| hw` Kvb
AvNvZ Avm Zvnj jywi Dci w`q hvK| hnZz Kvb mgmv njbv ZLb b~iv Pviv gv_v
XzKvq Ni| AbKY AKvi _vKvi KviY mvgvb AvjvI AbK eo nq PvL jvM
b~ivi| AevK nq m `LZ _vK, Ni fwZ wmgUi ev, mvgvb _vjv evmb, GKUv QvU
Avjbvq kvwo Kvco me Qvb| GKcvk GKUv nwiKb mvgvb Avjv QovQ| Zvnj, G
Ni _K wK be m fveZ _vK b~iv| Zvici ZvKvq PwKi w`K| GKUv eD| mvqv
evDR civ q AvQ| nvZi cvLvUv `yjQ Gi A_ nj GLb m Mfxi fve Nygvqwb| nVvr
b~iv GKUv myM cvq| Aviv mZK nq IV m| wKmi myM? mvc bvZv| Iv` ejZ,
RvwZ mvc evmbv Qovq| ciY fzj fv b~ivi| myMUv cvDWvii| Avlvpi fvcmv Mig
Awi eUv kixi cvDWvi gLQ| Mig cvLv NvivQ| b~iv mixmci gZ eyK nU
PwKi wbP wMq em| b~iv eySZ cvi, Zvi wbtkvm e nq AvQ| b~iv gv_v Zvj Dci|
wPr nq NygvQ eDUv| myXvj eyK `yUv mgvb Zvj IVvbvgv KiQ; eyKi `yUv evZvg
Lvjv| Mjvq weQ nvi AKviI PKPK KiQ| wK my`i kixi, ZvZ Lymey| b~ivi Re`vi
K_v gb co| ePvixi cvq Nv; eoB K KiQ m| AbK w`b ZvK wKQz w`Z cviwb
b~iv| Re`vi gb eo K m Pvii eD| b~ivi evoxi K_v gb coQ| Iv`i K_v wVK
wVK dj hvQ| b~iv wPv ev` `q, Zvici axi axi DV PwKi cvk `vuovq m| Zvi PvL
e-qi cy eyK Qo Zvi Mjvi weQv nvi wMq AvUK hvq| gv_vUv k~b nq hvq Zvi; Kvb
wmv bIqvi AvMB b~ivi gv_vq me wKQz D hvq| m Zvi GKUv nvZ Av Ki eqi
gyL Pvcv w`q ai| Zvici gyLUv Wzweq `q `yeyKi Mfxi LvuR| Avav Nygi gvS RM
DV e nvuPvo-cuvPvo Ki Mvu Mvu Ki IV m| eyK _K Vj dj w`Z Pvq b~ivK|
wKy ZZY b~iv Aviv Zrci nq DVQ| mvgvb wKQz ciB e-qi evav wkw_j nq|
AevK nq b~iv, hZLvwb evav m Avkv KiwQj evav ZZLvwb nqwb| eUv Zvi avivj bL w`q
b~iv Pvivi wcV LvgP ai| m Zvi AvwiK kw w`q Avi Kvg Xj `q ARvbv APbv
eUvi mev| GK mgq me _g hvq| b~iv wdmwdm Ki ej IV,
Avcbvi myqvgx KB?
Pzji MvQv evuaZ evuaZ eUv ej IV,
we`k, Kb?
bvn, Kzb `k?
eUv Gevi wnm wnm Ki ej IV
Zvi wK i LvbKxi weUv? Zvi evox Kz_vq?
b~iv Di Ki
H cvki wMivg|
 67

Avi Kvb w`b hw` G wMivg `wL Zvnj ZvK KPz KvUv Ki dvje; hv nqP ZzB Rvbwj
Avi Rvbjvg Avwg GLb fvM|
Avi _vKvi BQv bB b~ivi| Zvi KvR kl| KvRi ga Wvb nvZ w`q eqi Mjvi weQv
nviUv LyjZ fvjwb m| GLb wbtk cvjvZ ne| e Rvb ay GKUvi wnmve| nvii
LvuR cvIqvi AvMB b~iv wbtk Ni _K ewiq Avm Lvjv AvKvki wbP, mvu`v gvwUi
eyK| ZLb Pvu` gv_vi Dci| b~iv `Z cv Pvjvq| ewi ci Rvmbv hb Aviv LvjZvi
nqQ| Zvi ga b~iv cvi nq Mvivb, KjvevMvb| Gevi gvV cvwo bv w`q m m`ii cvKv
ivv ai| GB ivZ `ycyi ivvq KD _vKe bv, ZvQvov AvQ ew| AvR evox hvIqvi UvbUv
hb GKUz ekx Abyfe Ki m| nVvr Ki m Avwevi Ki, wKQzY AvM NU hvIqv NUbv
Zvi gv_vq AvmQ bv GKeviB| GLb ay GKUvB wPv, evox div| evox A_vr mB w_K&
w_K Kv`vq fiv GKdvwj DVvb; eD Re`v, hvi cvq cvuKzB jMQ; mviv Mvq Nvgi
M; Kvco ewi fRv e` M mLvbB wdiZ Pvq m| jywi wbP cvUi j^v cKU
nvZ w`q Avevi nvii Aw^ZUv Abyfe Ki b~iv| Zvici mRvM nq IV m| evZvm GKUv
k fm AvmQ| wKQz ci cvKv ivvq jM _vKv ewi Rj PKPK nq IV Aviv| mv_
Mvoxi k Avi Zxe Avjv| b~iv ivvi cvk cvU Zi ga Pj hvq wbwgk| GB mgq
Pvi WvKvZi Rb GB cvUZwj Afqvkq| MvoxUv `~i _g hvq| cvU Z Rg
DVQ ewi Rj| Zvi ga nvuUz Muo em _vK b~iv Pviv| GB dvuK Zvi wcQbi cv-Uvi
Dci w`q GKUv eidi `wo wKjwej Ki cvi nq hvq| GKUv kxZj fq Mvm Ki b~iv
PvivK| cywjki Mvox Kb Rvwb Gw`K Avmbv| `yevi evuwk evwRq Pj Mj m`ii
c_| b~iv ewiq Avm cvUZ _K| KvQB Kvb MvQi Wvj GKUv cuPv WK DVj|
b~iv hLb Zvi evoxi wcQi evMvbUvi gvS Gm `vuovj, ZLb Avlvpi ewmvZ Pvu`K wNi
P`kvfv emQ, Avi Zvi cvk w`q fm hvQ Zzjv gN ARvbvi w`K `Z| AvKvki
w`K ZvwKq gy nq hvq m| weo weo Ki ej IV,
`ywbqvWv eoB m`i; eoB gvqvi ... ...
Zvici Mfxi fwZ Iv`i bvg iY Ki jZvj XvKv mi c_i mvgb cv evovq| gb
gb wbqZ Ki, dRii Iqv nj bvgvRUv Av`vq Kie m; AbK w`b bvgvR cov nqbv;
A_P, AbK cvc RgQ Zvi| KjRUv Zvi Kuc IV AvLivZi K_v wPv Ki| nVvr
wLj wLj nvwm Gm Kvb avv `q| b~iv wbtk GK jvd GKUv eo MvQi Avovj wMq
`vuovq| LvwbK `~i `yUv Qvqv g~wZ bo IV| Kvb Lvov Ki m| c_g Kvbi fzj gb
njI GLb m kvb mB feb gwnbx nvwm| mB nvwm AvlvXi ewi avivi gZ Qwoq
coQ GB Avjv AKvi XvKv wbwZ Rj| AKviI b~iv eySZ cvi, nvmQ Re`v|
Ggb cvY Lyj nvmZ cvi Re`v! wKy, Zvi mv_ Aviv GKUv Mjv AvQ, mUv cyili -
 68

jvKUv K? jvKUv ejQ ZzB IK ZvjvK `|

hyeZxi nvZi KvuPi Pzwoi gZ Avevi wLj wLj nm Re`v ej IV,
Kvb IK ZvjvK `ev? Avgvi `yUzB jvM|
I kvjv Pvi !
Bk& Pvi! ZzwgI Zv Pvi|
evj wK Pzwi Kijvg? KLb Pzwi Kijvg?
bvKv ; Kvb Avgvi gyb Pzwi Kiwb ?
Gevi cyilUv nm IV| ckqi K Re`v ej IV,
Avevi Avevi! Gevi wKyK Avwg gvbyl Rov Kiey eyjjvg ; GLb Qvov ; dvmv nq Gjy ;
wgbm Avevi KLb Avm ...
cyilUv ej,
Avevi Ke ?
gayi PvK hgb GKUv Ae b _vK, b~iv Pvivi eD, Re`vI m iKg GKUv Ae
b Zzj ej hw`b Avevi I KvR hve| Zzwg GLb mveavb hvI, evMvbi GB c_Uv
Lvivc, cvKv gvKo _vKZ cvi|
ejB Re`v wLZwLZ Kv`v Rg _vKv DVvbi w`K iIbv `q|
b~ivi mgM cw_exUv `yj IV wbwgl| wmuaKvwV w`q kvjvK Mu_ `Iqvi Rb gb I nvZUv
wbkwcl Ki IV Zvi| ciY gb nq, ZvZ wK Zvi Kvb jvf ne? Kvb jvf ne wK
Re`vi? nVvr Pviw`KUvK eoB bxie wb_i gb nq| ay gv_vi Dci Avlvpi Zzjv gN
fm hvq jnxb| `Z| b~iv Pviv nvZ w`q weQ nvii Aw^ZUv ciL Ki bq Aviv
GKevi| PvLi mvgb APbv eDUvi Kvg KvZi Nyg gyLUv fm IV| fm IV, Zvi
ivMx gyLUvI b~ivi gb nq, mKvj eDUv wec` coe Lye| Zvi ejvi wKQzB _vKe bv|
mviv w`b nvi nvivbvi M Zix Kie m; MUv wekvmhvM nj wKbv Zv wbq m _vKe
DwM|
nVvr b~ivi gb nq, nviUv diZ w`j Kgb nq? wKy eDUv hZ eviY KiQ evi evi;
ZvQvov ivZ evwK bB ekx Avi; mevcwi AvQ aiv covi fq| ZviciI wbwkZ cvIqv
gvbyli gZ gvnwe nq b~iv Avevi dj Avmv c_ cv evovq| gb gb fve ivZ kl
nIqvi AvM wdiZ cvie Zv m; Zvici AvKvki w`K Pq weo weo Ki ej IV
wdi Avmvi Lye wK `iKvi AvQ ?
wVK ZLb KvQ wcV Kv_vI GKSvuK kqvj weKU ie wPrKvi Ki ivZi wbtZv Lvb Lvb
Ki `q|
 69

mvc jyWy

wbD gvKU NyiZ NyiZ gNvix fyj Mj m wK wKbZ GmQ| Aek BZvga ek wKQz
wRwbm m wKb djQ gv_vi wKc, evmb gvRvi gvRywb, Pv QKwb, mcwUwcb, Mig
ZiKvwi bvgvbvi Rb QvU cvW wK Aviv wKQz Kbvi K_v wQj Zvi, gb coQ bv
GLb| gNvixi cvqB Ggb nq AvRxgcyi miKvwi Kvjbxi Qv dvU `ycyii w`K fxlY
GKvwK nq hvq m| Ni Kbvi KvR dzwiq hvq AwgZ Awdm hvIqvi ciciB| ZLb Leii
KvMR, Uwjwfkbi cvbcvb wmwiqvj Avi gvbv ` gNvix mx nq IV| Zvi AvM
AwgZi bvv Zwi, jv iwW Ki `Iqv, gvRv RyZv mvwRq ivLv, UvB nvZi KvQ `Iqv;
klgl AwgZi bwfey dzjwc kvUi Kjvi UvBqi bU euvaZ euvaZ cwZw`b GKB K_v
ejv,
mveavb hve; Avi ZvovZvwo Avme wK...|
Zvici Qv dvU Ame GKv nq hvq gNvix| gvS gvS GB GKvwKZ ZvK Pvwiw`K
_K Ggbfve Avwc eua dj ZLb KjR dj Avmv QUdU mBme wZjv
fxo Ki wZi Rvbvjvq Avi ZLb gNvixi BQ Ki QzU cvjvZ; gb nq, myLx gvbyli
wfoi mvZ wgk hZ| RxebUvK eo RxY, eo ZzQ gb nq| XvKv kni GiKg RvqMv
GKUvB, Avi mUv wbD gvKU| Gw`K-mw`K eovZ hvIqvi evcvi AwgZi c _K
Kvb euvav bB| AwgZ cvqB ej, mviv w`b ig em wUwf bv wMj, GKUz Gw`K Iw`K
MjB Zv cvi| cwZ mvn gb Ki AwgZ gNvixK Gw`K Iw`K A_ev wbD gvKU
hvIqvi Rb wKQz UvKvI `q| mB MvwQZ UvKv _K wKQz UvKv wbq AvR gNvix wbD
gvKU GmQ| GUv-IUv wKbQ Avi wewQbfve NyiZ NyiZ fyj em AvQ Avmj Kvb
wRwbm m wKbZ GmQ| Kvjvnjc~Y wbDgvKU gvbyli Afve bB| wekl Ki Zib-
ZiYxi| RjmvZi gZ XyKQ ZiY-ZiYxiv| XyKQ gaeqmx cp Avevi gNvixi
eqmxivI| GZ gvbyl cwZw`bB Avm GLvb? gNvix fveZ _vK, gvbyli cwZw`b GZwK
Kbvi _vK? gvbyl wK Lye Afve AvQ? bvn! Afve gUvZ cqvRb UvKv G cRbi
Qj-gqiv `vKvbxi mv_ Lye ekx `vg `i Ki bv| gNvixi wnme wbKl me RU
 70

cvwKq hvq| m Avevi D`vm nq hvq| wKQz bv `Lvi `w wbq m PvicvkUv `LZ _vK|
GKUv evPv Zvi gvqi nvZ ai Ub wbq hvQ AvBmxgi `vKvb; GK Rvov ZiYx
`vKvb `uvwoq Aewjjvq ev `LQ D-cv; GK`j ZiY DP ^i Pjgvb ivRbxwZ
wbq nZvkv cKvk KiQ| Avi Zv`i gv_vi Dci Lvjv AvKvk! bxj! Zzjv gN Do hvQ
BQv gZb| bxj AvKvk Zzjv gN Avi evZvm bvg bv Rvbv dzji wgk _vKv M gb
Kwiq `q kir GmQ| AvKvki w`K ZvwKq gNvixi gbUv fxlY Drdzj nq DVj; Avi
mv_ mv_ Zvi gb coj m Avmj GLvb GmQ Zvi ^vgx AwgZ Payixi Rb Avmb
gnvjqv Dcj GKUv wMd&U wKbZ| Avi mvZ w`b ciB gnvjqv| Zvi mvZ w`b ci `yMv
c~Rv| cwZ c~RvZB gNvixK hZ nq Zvi ki evox w`bvRcyi| Avi jx cyRv mviZ
nq Zvi evci evwo dwi`cyi| mvgvb KUv w`b QzwU _vK AwgZi| `o Suvci gaB
KU hvq| cwZeviB gNvix bvbv cwiKbv Ki wbtm `ycyijvZ| wK hZB cyRvi
w`bjv KvQ AvmZ _vK, evoZ _vK eZv| Gme feB mw`b ivZ weQvbvq q
AwgZ ejwQj,
Gevi Avi Ni SvoZ hI bv gNy, wcR; Zvgvi GjvwRUv Avevi evoe MZ evii gZ|
ayjv evwjZ gNvixi GjvwR| PvL Rvjv Ki, nuvwP nq, bvK w`q Rj Si| ivZ gv_v Avi
PvL e_v Ki| evR Aev| wK Ni Svov gNvixi KvQ GKUv HwZni gZ| mB Qj
ejvq m Zvi gvK `LQ, AvUco kvwoUv gvRvq Rwoq wecyj Drmvn Zv`i cyivb
evwo-Ni SvoZ| cyivb Ni gvbB cPzi ayjv-evwj, cyivb RyZv, evk, Quov gvRv, wdZ
KvUv , Pzji wdZ, BjvkwUK wXj Rvwqv, K Quov ev nvweRvwe Aviv KZ wK!
Zvici Rj w`q Nii gS ayq `Iqvi ci cyivb Ni evwoK byZbi gZ `vLvZv|
mvq ayci M cyRvi Aven mw KiZ|
Zvici _K wbR msmvi cwZeQi gNvix cyRvi AvM wekl Ki gnvjqvi AvMi w`b Ni
So-gyQ GKevi bZzb Ki dj| gNvix Di Ki, Ni evwo cwiQb bv _vKj gv `~Mv
Avmeb Kv_vq? wK gv `~Mv Zvi `~MwZ webvk KiZ Avmb bv| AwgZ Rvb gNvix ek
fwgvwZ gq, ZvB K_v bv evwoq ZvK Rwoq ai| mvgvb Avcw KijI AwgZi
cejZvq m mvgvb Avcw fvv KuvPi UzKivi gZ Qwoq co| Zvici Zviv `yRb
g`vwKbxi XD Gi `vjvq `yjZ _vK `yjZ _vK|
GfveB KvUQ AwgZ I gNvixi GMvi eQi mvZ gvmi `vZ Rxeb| GLbv Iiv KD
Kviv KvQ cyivb nqwb wVKB, wK Zviv wZbRb nZ cviwb GLbv| MZgvm AwgZ GK
 71

Wvvii mv_ GvcqUgU Ki Gm ejwQj,

AvR weKj Wv. Lvb Gi KvQ hve fvewQ; GvcqUgU Ki GmwQ; Zvgvi Avcw
AvQ?
Wv: Lvbi bvg gNvixi Rvbv| G welq wZwb GKRb weLvZRb| gNvix GKUz Avo
fwZ ejj,
bv, bv, GZ Avcwi wK AvQ!
Zvnj Zzwg Zwi _K, Avwg Awdm _K ZvovZvwo wdie| !
mw`b fxlY welbZvq WyewQj Iiv `yRb| GK ARvbv ksKvq bxj nqwQj Zviv| evmvq
gNvix Kvb wKQzB gb w`Z cviwb bv Uwjwfkb, bv gvbv `i Mvb| Ab w`K bvbv
DrKvq KUQ AwgZi mvivUv ejv| Zvici AwgZ evmvq mw`b ZvovZvwoB wdiwQj|
gqwUI wQj Zwi| AwgZ ejj,
Zzwg Zwi gNy ?
nuv|
Zvnj hvIqv hvK|
Pj|
`iRvq Zvjv jvMvZ wMq gNvix j Kij Zvi nvZ KuvcQ| AwgZI wKQzUv AmsjM|
Zvici wm,Gb,wRZ hZ hZ c_ cv wQj AwgZ| bvn, AwgZiv mw`b Wvt Lvbi
P^vi hvqwb| dzPKv Lq msm` feb em, Pvi Kjvi mvgb Qwei nvU cyibv ez`i
mv_ Pv Lq, Avv w`q ivZ Ki evmvq wdiwQj Zviv| gNvixI Wvt Lvbi P^vi
hvIqvi Rb wcovwcox Kiwb| evmvq wdiZ wdiZ AwgZ ejwQj,
Mjvg bv evUvi KvQ| wK jvf Avgv`i wbR`i ga nvi wRZi| cejg AvQ nq
Zvgvi A_ev Avgvi; cqvRb wK GUv cgvYi!
AveM gNvix Ii nvZUv Rwoq wbtk Ku`wQj wKQzY| Iiv hLb evmvq wdij ZLb
ewk ivZ| Zvici weQvbvq wMq mviv w`bi Kvw fyj hvq AwgZ| gNvixI mw`b Ame
fvjevmv wbq AwgZK ckq w`qwQj| GmeB nj Zvi hvwcZ Rxebi L wP, hv mgq
Amgq gNvixi wZZ Do Avm| wK GLb AbK wKQz `LI gNvix AwgZi Rb
wMdU cQ` KiZ cviQ bv| ewW c, UvB, UvDRvi, AvdUvi mf me wKQzB Kgb Rvwb
LyeB mvaviY gb nQ Zvi KvQ| mvZ cuvP fveZ fveZ gNvix Avevi wKQzUv D`vm nq
GKUv mv wcP `LZ _vK| nVvr wcQb _K GKRb ej DV, Avi `qx bv?
 72

`qx kUv gNvixi keY Bw`q f` Ki `ni me Qwoq co g~Z| GB Rxeb

GKgv GKRbB GB bvg ZvK WKQ, Avi Zvi cwZUv WvK wQb-wewQb nqQ gNvix
mv`vgvUv cw_ex| ZviciI GB WvKUv kvbvi Rb PvZK cvwLi gZ gNvix Acv KiZ
Anwbwk| Avi `q wkniY RvMvbv gvbylwU wQj ZvjvZ| AvR GZw`b ci GB cwiwPZ
mvlY b fzZ aiv ivMxi gZ Kuc DVwQj m| cvk wdiZB GKRb myVvg `nx my``kb
cyil GwMq Gm ejj,
wKQz gb Kieb bv; Bq gvb, Zzwg `qx bv?
gNvix c_g bRi ZvjvZi w`K ZvKvZ cvi wb| Zvi K^iB BZvga ZvK Zxiwe
cvwLi gZ Mu_ diQ| ZvjvZi w`K bv ZvwKqB gNvix ej DV,
ZvjvZ Zzwg KvK?
`qx, Zzwg Zv `wL AvMi gZB mx AvQv!
jvq Avo nq DV m| PvL Zzj PvicvkUv GKevi fvj Ki `L bq gNvix; Zvici
ej,
cvvI wb `LwQ|
nv nv Ki cvY Lvjv nvwm w`q Pvicvk mPwKZ Ki ZvjvZ ej DV,
bvn; cvvZ Avi cvijvg KB!
Kv_vq wQj GZKvj?
wQjvg bv, AvwQ; GLb KvbvWvq AvwQ| QywUZ GmwQ; mvgbi gvmi c_g mvn dvBU|
Zvgvi mv_ `Lv nq fvjB nj| Zvici, wK Lei?
GB Zv|
Zvgvi ei KB?
Zv w`q Zvgvi wK `iKvi? weq KiQ?
PgrKvi GKUv nvwm w`q ZvjvZ ej;
bv Kij wK, Zzwg Kie?
GK wPjZ nvwmi iLv Lj hvq gNvixi XD Ljvbv cvZjv VuvU|
gNvix ej,
ek AvQv `LwQ| wK Ki ILvb? Wb wKbvi?
Avi bvn| Zvgvi Qvbv-cvbv KwU? Iiv KB?
Gevi gNvixi bKvi Quov cvj jvM `gKv nvIqv| G-aibi cki cvqB Di KiZ nq
 73

ZvK| wK GK mgqi wbRi ^ci cyili mvgb GB cki Di w`Z BQ KiQ bv

Zvi| gbi gvS wZi Bwjkwo i nq gNvixi| Avi mB BwjkwoZ Svcmv nq
Avm Zvi eZgvb|
mvj ZvwiL gb bB gNvixi| KjRi dvmU Bqvi| cwiPq nj ZvjvZi mv_| ZvjvZ
ZLb Aviv DQj, Aviv QUdU| Zvici gNvixi cg, Aek m cg wQj wKQzUv GK
Zidv Avevi GKeviB h GK Zidv mUvI Kx wVK? ZvjvZ gNvixK WvKZv `qx ej|
cw_exi me GKw`K Ab w`K ZvjvZi mB cvYfiv mvab| ZLb gNvixi gb nZ,
`qx-B mZ gNvix wg_v| gb nZ G-Rxeb Avi hvq nvK, AZ GKevi GKevi
ZvjvZi k gZzi ci j eQi ^Mevmi _KI AbK KvwLZ| Ze GLvbI gv `yMv
`qxi mnvq nbwb| nqwQjb gNvixi c| wewfb KviY weklZ agxq KviYB ZvjvZ
`qxi nq DVwb| ZvjvZ nq _KQ ^ci `Lv ^c-ivRi ivRcyzi nq| Avi cRvcwZ
Fwli Avkxev` gNvix w`bvRcyievmx GK evsKvii Pvicvk mvZcvK Nyi Zvi Mjvq
bwZq hvIqv iRbxMvi GKUv XvDm gvjv cwiq, cwe cvbcvZv mwiq f`w mb
KiwQj Mva~jx jM| Zvici GZUv mgq|
gNvix GLb gNvix nqB myLx| Zvi gbi eviv`vq GLb Sjgj iv` Ljv Ki mKvj
`ycyi weKj| ivZ wSwiwSwi Rvmbv| wK ZviciI Kvb D`vmx `ycyi A_ev Nyg fvv Kvb
gaivZ ^c `ki ivRKzgvi cxivR Nvovq Pc AvRv Avm| Zvi gyL XvKv _vK gN
Avi Rvmbvi Pv`i| m Pvicvki welbZvK LvbLvb Ki WK DV, GB `qx...GB!
cm cvvZ ZvjvZ ej, Avgvi mj b^i Uv bvI, Avi Zvgvi Uv `vI; hw` Zvgvi Avcw
bv _vK| ejB m Zvi Gvcj-Gi AvB dvbUv ei Kij dvb Kivi Rb| mvwnZ
gvbyli gZ wbRi mj b^i axi axi ej Mj gNvix| 01715.... Pj hvIqvi AvM
ZvjvZ ejj,
bZzb GKUv dvU wKbwQ; GB wbD gvKUi wcQbB; gv_v MvRvi GKUv VuvB Zv `viKvi|
ivW bs- 107/12/wm cyivZb..
Aviv wKme hb I ejj, Kvb XyKj bv gNvixi; Zvi gb nZ jvMj, Avmj mZ KvbwU
`qx? bv gNvix? Avevi gb Zvi Bwjkwo SoZ _vK; mv_ `gKv evZvm|
gNvixi wMdU cQ` Kiv nq bv| wbD gvKU _K ewiq GKUv wiv wbj m| gbi ga
Rgv mg AveM nVvr hb ewiq AvmZ PvBj ZLywb| PvLUv Rvjv Ki DV gNvixi|
Avi mg Kvjvnj Qvwcq, AvKvk evZvm we`xY Ki `qx bvg ai A`k KI GKRb
 74

wPrKvi Ki WvKZ _vK| `ynvZ Kvb WK Svcmv PvL gNvix `L kiZi

AvKvkUvK, AvR AvKvkUv hb AbK ekx my`i, gvqvgq Avi bvjwRK `LvQ|

cieZx w`bjv gNvixi KU hZ _vK Ajmfve| Zvici GKw`b KvRnxb `ycyi, wbkx
cvIqv gvbyli gZ gNvixi wiv Gm _vg ZvjvZi Suv PKPK dvUi mvgb| hPvwjZ
gvbyli gZ Kwjs ej nvZ ivL gNvix| Avi ZLywb Pvicvki AvKvk evZvm GKmv_
`qx `qx ej wPrKvi Ki DV| mvgvb wKQzY ev` `iRvi GKcvU Lyj nvwm gyL
ZvjvZ ewiq Gm ej DVj, Avi `qx h Avwg RvbZvg Zzwg AvmeB| mvgvbZg
weqi jk bB Zvi ga| GKRb `qx-i Dci GKRb ZvjvZi GZUv Avv wKfve
Rbvq fe cvq bv `qx|

`ycyii m~hi iv` `vgx iwb KuvPi ga w`q `qx-i Mvjvcx kvwoi AvuPj fvwmq `q| mB
Avjvi Avfvi mv_ GKvKvi nq hvq `qxi jv AebZ wav| Lye mnR fwZ ZvjvZ ej
DV,
wfZi Gm|
wfZi cek Ki AevK nq `qx; AvMi mB DQj Pj QjUv GZv MvQvj nq DVj
Ke?
GK mgq ZvjvZi AMvQvj Pzj nvZ eyjvZ BQv KiZ Zvi| AvR mB ZvjvZ GLb fxlY
MvQvj cwicvwU| ZvjvZ ^vfvweK fxZ `iRvi wQUKvwb jvMvZ jvMvZ ej DVj,
eiveiB ZvgvK MvjvcxZ my`i jvM, Ze AvR hb ewkB my`i jvMQ| wK be `qx
Pv bv Vvv?
G g~Z ZvjvZi gyL `qx kwU Pvi `Iqvji gvS avv Lq i gvsmi `qxi ga
GK A^vfvweK AbyiY Zwi Ki| Avi mB avvq `qx Ki Ku` dj| AvPgKv GB
Kvbv ZvjvZK weg~p Ki Zvj| evi K `qx ej,
ZvjvZ, AvgvK gyw `vI; Avwg Avi cviwQ bv; ZvgvK fyjZ PvB Avi Zvgvi fyj
hvIqvi Rb, GLvb Avmv Qvov Avgvi Avi Kvb c_ wQj bv|

ZvjvZ ewj nvZ `qxK Rwoq ai| axi axi ZvjvZi Ni j j nvmbvnbv dzU
DV; myLi g`vwKbxZ Rvqvi Avm Kjk MxZ! QvU-eo XD LjZ _vK Avi mB
 75

Zi fvmZ _vK Avw`g `yUv bi-bvix|

Zwi Avek `qx ZvjvZi Lvjv dmv wcV, bLi AvuPi ewmq `q fvwi nq DV `vgx
KuvP Avi c`v Niv Nii evZvm Avi Aviv gvqvgq nq DV evBii cKwZ|

GK mgq Kv nq GB Avw`g bi-bvix| Pzji MvQ wVK KiZ KiZ nVvr `qx wnkwnk Ki
ej DV,
Avwg nviZ nviZ wRZ Mjvg ZvjvZ; AvR `qx-i gZz NUj| euP iBj ay gNvix|
gNvixi PxZ Avi Kvb w`bB `Lv hve bv, `qx A_ev ZvjvZ-K|
ZvjvZK Kvb wKQz ejvi myhvM bv w`q `iRvi wQUwKwb Lyj gNvix Aviv Zx K ej
DV,
ZvjvZ, Zzwg Avi Kvbw`bB `qx-i mv_ hvMvhvM Kie bv| `qx bB; AvQ gNvix|
ayB gNvix|
mRi `iRvUv e Ki gNvix ewiq Gm GKUv wivq IV| wbRi mv_ hy Ki GLb
m Kv| eo Kv| wfZii Rg _vKv Aciva eva, Awfgvb, hYv Avi A^w Mvvbx Avi
dvdvwb nq Mjvq DV Avm| AbK Pv KiI Kvbv PvcZ cviQ bv gNvix| kiZi
AvKvk AvRv Zzjv gN fm hvQ ARvbvq| wkDwj dzji M gvLv evZvm AvQo co
gNvixi Kvj-gyL-eyK| AvKvki w`K ZvwKq gNvix gb nq `exci m~Pbv nq
MQ| Drme Avmb; Avb` gyLwiZ Pvicvk| ZeyI wbRK mvgjvZ cviQ bv m| wivi
SvwKZ m GKUz RvoB dzwcq DV| mvgbi wivK UcK hZ hZ wivAvjv Nvo
Nyo ZvKvq; bv eySB ej KuvB`b bv Avdv; me wKQz wVK nqv hvBe, BbkvAvjvn|

eo kvbv cvq, gNvixi gb nq GB Kvjvnjc~Y e cw_exZ wbZvB m GKv bq|

76