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probably around thirty-three, and looked it. After the number, he sent
her a note of appreciation. She did not reply. The next night he was
back, and this time he sent her a request for ‘Ma Cherie Amour’. She
sang it extraordinarily well, he thought, and this time he went up and
told her so as she settled down by herself at her small table.
She looked at him appraisingly, noting the deep mahogany of his
skin, his foreign accent, and his shyness. Something—perhaps his
sincerity—made her gesture to the chair opposite, and after a
moment’s hesitation, he sat down. Up close, he realized he’d been
wrong. She looked thirty-two but was not more than twenty-eight, just
about his own age. They made small talk as they sized each other up,
and she was frankly admiring that he had come all the way from India
to follow a scientific hunch.
She had grown up in a large family of six brothers, none of whom
supported their aged parents. She scraped together a living singing at
bars and smaller restaurants along the southern seaboard, and sent
half her modest income home. He finished his drink and ordered
another round for them, but she refused with a smile; she had to get
on with her ‘act’.
Night after night, Bhowmick sat with her as she told him her life
story, her dreams (she wanted to marry and settle down in either
Sydney or Melbourne), and her problems. He was easy to talk to. He
listened well and said little. It seemed to Bhowmick that he had never
met a nicer person. She encouraged him to keep searching: ‘Y’know, I
have a feeling you’ll be famous one day. You just have to keep at it,
mate. Only those with faith in themselves ever succeed. I’m going to
make it, too, you can bet on that’.
She looked around at her depressing surroundings and giggled.
Bhowmick warmed to her. She was witty, practical, and very talented.
Attractive, too, he conceded to himself. She was sure to make it. He
had a gut feeling about it and told her so. She was surprisingly well
read. Apparently she had nursed an ambition to take a degree in Law
before the realities of her situation caught up with her.
For two nights in a row, she did not turn up for work. On the third
night of her absence, Bhowmick accosted the manager. He shrugged
indifferently. ‘She’s sick, cobber, they tell me. Found a replacement,
as you can see.’ Bhowmick got her address. It was on the sixth floor
of a red tenement building in a shabby part of town. At his knock, a
weak voice asked him to go away. He had to plead before she would
let him in. She tottered back to bed. Her face was flushed and she
was running over 103º temperature. He could see she was in bad
shape. She needed to see a doctor. Fast. Against her protests, her
wrapped her in blankets and bundled her downstairs and into the cab.
The doctor was more suspicious of the slight, brown-skinned man
who had brought the girl than he was concerned about his patient.
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Bhowmick finally lost his patience and put fifty dollars before the GP.
‘Look here, doctor, she’s a friend, a fellow human being in pain. All
I’m doing is my duty. If it’s a problem for you, I’ll take her elsewhere.’
The doctor’s fist closed smoothly around the currency notes: ‘No need
to get worked up, mate. It’s just that I have to be a little careful
about… er…strangers who bring white girls into my clinic.’
He had been about to say ‘blacks’. Bhowmick didn’t mind being
called black. The colour of his skin had never bothered him. He
accepted himself as he was on the outside. Colour was only skin
deep. He had always been concerned about what people were like
inside. It had always been a little hobby of his to try and see the
person behind the façade, after stress, provocation or imagined insult
peeled away the layers of carefully programmed urbanity. He was
smarter than he made out to be.
The physician prescribed some medicines, gave her an injection,
and told Bhowmick to take her home. ‘A light, low-fat, high protein,
high carbohydrate diet with plenty of fresh fruit juice…and a few days
rest before she goes back to work. No showers, only sponging with
warm water. She’s a strong girl; she’ll be fine in about three or four
days. Take her to the beach. Bondi is great this time of year. It’s too
early for tourists, and the kids are studying for their exams. All you’ll
see are beachcombers and gulls.’ Bhowmick nodded gratefully. ‘And
check with me on the phone daily, d’you hear?’ he shouted as
Bhowmick lifted her bodily and carried her to the waiting cab. Though
slight of build, he had the strength and deep reserves of stamina that
often go with a wiry frame.
She was semi-conscious when he deposited her on her bed. She
was not hungry, but he had bought some provisions from the
drugstore where he’d stopped to buy medicines, so he opened a can
and heated some chicken soup. She managed to swallow half of it
before she fell fast asleep. She had given him the key to her flat, and
he pulled the door to firmly behind him until he heard the mortise
lock click soundly into place before going downstairs.
He was back early the next morning. She was coming awake,
weak and feverish. He hand-fed her, spoonful by spoonful, then
carried her to the bathroom, peeled off her sweaty clothes and
sponged her down. She did not protest, accepting his help without
demur. She watched his face steadily all the time he swabbed her
down. Her body was typically ‘Caucasian, Female’: compact, firm
breasts, narrow waist, flat stomach and long, well-muscled legs.
His mind noted all this absently while it grappled with the
immediate crisis. He knew she had no one in Sydney, or anywhere
else for that matter, to care for her. He was worried. Her skin burned
under his fingers as he scrubbed her down gently but thoroughly with
slightly cooler water than what the doctor had recommended. He
tried not to show it, but he was scared. He had never nursed anyone
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‘Sir! Your bill!…..Your bill, Dr. Bhowmick’. The waiter was politely
insistent. Chandan Bhowmick returned to the present. It was hard to
believe that so many years had passed since all that happened. It
seemed like yesterday. Time was a big fraud. He knew it for the great
illusion that it was. Back then, could he have known what the years
held for him? He had set out on what he had presumed was the last
walkabout he would ever make. But now, the receipt of a hundred
thousand Australian dollars from ‘an unknown admirer’ had
miraculously changed everything. This time, he had decided to carry
a small movie camera and adequate photographic equipment.
He traveled alone, a very foolhardy thing to do in the merciless
Outback. His only defence was a Whippet, security agency parlance
for a customised .20 bore single (choke) barrel pump-action shotgun
with a six-round magazine. He had got the barrel sawn down to 15
inches and had the stock replaced with a walnut pistol grip. There was
an aluminium skeleton shoulder stock that could be fitted quickly in
case he needed it. He could draw from the hip holster and hit a tin
can at thirty yards within a second. It was far better than a revolver.
Poisonous snakes were the real danger of the Outback, apart from
exposure, hunger and thirst. He wore thick, kangaroo leather boots
but carried anti-serum, too, as a precaution.
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puncture marks in the ankle, loosened the tourniquet and injected the
antidote. The People looked on incuriously.
Minutes passed, and the boy did not die. Gradually, his breathing
returned to normal and the faltering heart recovered its normal pace.
The circle of onlookers was huddled together, whispering. They ran to
the boy incredulously as his eyes opened and he called weakly to his
father. Then they crowded around Bhowmick, touching him, seeing
him for the first time, accepting him. When they moved off, they
looked back again and again to ensure he was keeping up.
The ground-eating lope the Bushmen had taught Bhowmick was
coming back to him. A month in the Outback had toughened him,
stretching his stamina to a level not far below that of an aborigine. He
kept up with them, pausing occasionally to take a picture or two. He
had recorded it all on film; the dying boy, the recovery after the
antidote had been administered, the smiles of acceptance, the
mother’s tearful caress, the father’s disbelieving stupefaction. They
were people, human beings—souls—just like everyone else,
Bhowmick realised with joy. They reminded him so much of his little
Kalahari friends, thousands of miles away, yet so similar in their
culture. One day, he might adopt a line of research to list the close
similarities between the two peoples and see whether a logical
explanation could be found for them.
He spent three years living with The People, three years such as
a modern man has rarely lived. He went as they went, hunting, eating
and surviving. Their tongue seeped into his subconscious. He did not
try to divine any grammar in it. He just accepted that he could make
his needs understood, and they could tell him what they were
thinking. It appeared to be very basic and survival-oriented. There
were no niceties of speech or thought, and, as far as he could judge,
no taboos or legends, and especially, nothing to do with the
Dreamtime. It was just a rumour, he decided. He was wrong.
They were moving west. It took time for the fact to sink in. There
was a purpose in their easy drift now, for a general direction of travel
was now discernible to his compass. It no longer was an aimless
wandering, sometimes this way, sometimes another, following the
kangaroos or the birds. A certain excitement was in the air, a sense of
anticipation, like that of a joyous homecoming. As the days passed,
the line of direction grew tighter and tighter till the needle held
steady at west-southwest. Bhowmick consulted his map and found
they were headed for Ayers Rock, five hundred miles away. At their
present pace, they would reach it a month hence.
It dawned on him gradually that they were not the only ones
moving towards Ayers Rock. In some subtle way, it was borne in on
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They were in the Light, inside the mountain. That was why The
People had always believed it was a holy place. They were men, but
not black or white or brown. Just men. Made of light. Bhowmick
accepted it, knew it was no fantasy. They gave their message, the
one they gave whenever it was needed. There were no words, just a
thought-transference better than any language. The Dreamtime was
in the past, they ‘said’. But it was also in the Now, the one they lived
in. If they could find it. Ethereal music, as if of Angels, played in the
background.
The Dreamtime was a beacon to all men who were not yet Men.
They still but slept. The Elders simply passed on the wisdom of ages
from where they were now stationed. They taught them how to
awake from their sleep. To the real Life that was here…and
beyond...in the Dreamtime. When they awoke, they would be Men…at
last.
The bookshop was crowded, but not because of his book launch.
He was supposed to autograph the first hundred copies of his maiden
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homework well, and was preparing to slip the steel between her ribs.
She didn’t flinch.
‘Yes, in a way.’ Her disarming frankness took the wind out of the
newshound’s sails. ‘I’ve had my share of…um…friends, but this one—
he was really special.’ She giggled, the enchanting giggle he had
never forgotten! It seemed to echo down endless centuries to him as
he stood there, lost in the crowd. She was close to him now; he could
almost reach out and touch her. He inhaled the warm, tantalising
aroma that came off her like a tender offshore breeze. He was a man
of the Outback, and his senses were far keener than those of a city
slicker. But she couldn’t possibly remember he existed, it was all for
publicity. He was happy for her: he wanted nothing from her.
She was almost past him when she stepped smartly sideways
and put her arm around his shoulders. Ron was grinning
conspiratorially from ear to ear. He was the best, no doubt about it!
‘And here he is, boys!’ she yelled happily to the shoving throng of
reporters and cameramen ‘…Mr. Mystery Man himself. Dr. Chandan
Bhowmick! From India! Give him a big hand!’ She waited for the
thunderous applause to die down. ‘The real reason I’m here, by the
way—surprise, surprise—is to launch his book…the one on Australian
native peoples. Buy it, folks! It’s fantastic! My l’il album will take care
of itself, by the looks of things. Right now, this is more important to
me.’
Then she was kissing him, right in the media spotlight, as the
whole world watched. The strobe lights were going crazy and the TV
cameramen were yelling ‘A bit sideways! Perfect! That’s it! Hold that
pose, you two!’ The roar of the crowd drowned out the speakers in
the mall…and Chandan Bhowmick knew instant stardom…and fame.
His little favour of long ago had come home to roost.
She smelt the way she always had, warm and sweet, like early
spring. The expensive Coty perfume didn’t register. He held her
gently, as if she was a delicate porcelain doll. The softness and
warmth of her banished all memories of the hardships of the Outback,
the ache of the cold, lonely nights. The magic of her still had the
power to intoxicate him and render him speechless. He just stood
there mutely, holding her hand. The miracle of her! It was an omen…
from the Elders. He was sure of it. It was not coincidence, no chance
meeting. There was a hidden purpose that would reveal itself in due
course. Meanwhile, it was June again!
from practically everywhere. The next print was half a million copies.
They were gone by Thanksgiving. With Christmas and Easter still to
come! It had the smell of a cult book about it. It debuted in the New
York Times Bestsellers list at No.5. The next week, it was at No.1!
legs tucked under her. At the head of the hall was a low rug-covered
platform, with flowers in vases and incense burning in two ornamental
brass holders.
Presently, a man came through the curtained door at the side of
the hall and bowed low to them before seating himself in the
padmasana yogic pose on the deerskin spread out on the platform.
He was Sri Sri ‘Guruji’ Swami Ujjwalananda Giri, the legendary sage-
savant whose books on the Bhakti route to Supreme Consciousness—
a mystic process intuited rather than explained—for attaining the
soul’s desire, had sold well even in the West. He had been a leading
economist, scientist and social worker before taking sanyasa, the
total renunciation of the world, the fourth and final stage of life as
prescribed in the shastras, the Hindu scriptures.
He looked at them, and the love shone in his eyes. ‘My children…
it is my great good fortune to address you today. We were fated to
meet. I am blessed to have this opportunity of serving Him by
delivering His Word to you. The way to Him is so hard…and yet so
easy for householders like you. He is attainable by all, if we really,
truly want to…if we always fix our minds on Him, if we do everything
with detachment, doing our best and dedicating our actions to Him.
We should never be attached to the fruits of our actions, for that is
not what we are here for. We are here to realize Him. His kingdom is
within us, as Jesus told us it was. We just have to let go mentally of
the world, always doing our best in the physical world but secretly
dwelling in His kingdom. He is merciful, He will always respond. Do
your best and leave everything to Him, and He will take over your life.
If you call, He will never fail to answer. He will show you the blessed
way to Him. Then what bliss, what joy, what fulfilment!’
The wise old voice went on: ‘There is no single way to Him, I have
come to realize. All paths are different, yet they are the same, as
everything leads to Him. There is only Him, no other. There is nothing
but Him. The rest is illusion, the play of maya. Those who realize this
are well on the way to reaching Him. May you find your own way of
reaching Him. I can but help by inspiring you, by telling you of the
paths others took in reaching the goal, in the hope that it will open
your mind to the possibility of finding Him in your own personal way.
You shall certainly succeed…if you want it badly enough.’ Guruji went
on to teach them the basic principles of meditation, of breathing
exercises developed by the ancient ages to still the mind and take it
to another plane of thought, of action, of receptivity to the Om sound
of the universe.
The next day, they learnt the importance of concentration, a
concentration so effortless yet so complete that advanced yogis
became one with Supreme Consciousness. They could harness all the
forces of nature, achieving such harmony with them that they could
do what was regarded as impossible. Once the mind had grasped the
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It was the last day of the program. They felt deeply relaxed,
refreshed. Their mental horizons had expanded. Guruji was no
humbug. He was extremely learned in economics, physics,
engineering and mathematics. He drew upon these things, things that
belonged to the world of ordinary men, to deliver his message. He
was a towering intellect who felt he was a little child before the
Higher Intelligence that had created Him. His enthusiasm, his
objectivity, his humility, his sense of humour and his childish sense of
wonder were infectious. It was a revelation to them all, a man who
could leave wealth and success and opt for poverty, renouncing
everything for his quest.
Guruji had laughed heartily when someone told him this. ‘My
child, you’ve got it the wrong way round! I abandoned useless things,
mere baubles, for the incalculable wealth and bliss of His kingdom! I
was the gainer, not the loser. After all, I am basically an economics
man (he was an alumnus of the London School of Economics). I know
a profitable deal when I see one.’ His eyes twinkled merrily. ‘Make no
mistake, I got the best of the bargain!’ then he added seriously ‘and
so may you. Remember, He always responds when we surrender to
His will. This is my personal experience, mind you, not something
from a textbook, something I’ve seen time and again.’
The last meditation session was under way. Chandan Bhowmick
tried hard not to let his mind drift off to the Outback, his mysterious,
unfinished quest…for what? What was the significance of the
Dreamtime? How could he play a role in revealing, in a way men
could see and understand, what it stood for? A lesson for all men to
learn from, to …’ He felt a light touch on his shoulder. He opened his
eyes. Guruji was sitting next to him! ‘Don’t think of the problem. It
cannot be solved that way. Think of the Supreme Power, pray to it to
show you the way…if you ask it of Him, He will never let you down!’
Chandan Bhowmick marveled: Guruji had read his innermost
thoughts.
Guruji smiled affectionately. ‘I prayed to Him with all my devotion
to help me to help you. He tells me you are looking for a way for all
men to reach a high stage of evolution, something you caught a
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*
They checked into a hotel incognito. Sydney was a big place, but
not that big if it meant evading media scrutiny. Fame had its
drawbacks, the most irksome being the constant glare of publicity.
June had worn a gaily-coloured silk scarf she had bought in Delhi, and
covered her eyes with dark glasses, something she usually never
wore. Her beautiful blue eyes were one of her greatest assets. Right
now, they were a sure giveaway.
They now lived together. There was no guilt, because there was
no sin…and vice versa. When two people wanted each other, loved
each other this much, how could it be sin? They were so deeply
committed to each other that the question of it being wrong did not
arise. No amount of vows could evoke or consolidate the love and
reverence they had for each other. They could hardly bear to let each
other out of sight. They just wanted a few more days together, to
savour their Himalayan experience before the world intervened and
tore them ruthlessly apart. In any case, even going by conventional
morality, no one really bothered about such things any more.
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They discussed what they had learnt from Guruji…and from the
mountains. Faith, patience, surrender, humility, gratitude, action
without laying claim to the fruits, love, humour, charity, forgiveness…
it was a long list. They had done just those very things in their lives
unconsciously, things prescribed by all the scriptures, and the
universe had repaid them. The formula worked! They analysed,
argued, and agreed, the best of mates, the best of friends. They were
the lucky ones of the earth and they knew it.
They looked at each other and wondered at it all. At the sheer
immensity of the scale of things, the interconnectivity of everything…
and the underlying pattern, woven long ago by the hand of the Master
Weaver, was revealed to them. In that moment, the whole tapestry of
Creation seemed to glow before their eyes…a glow that grew
brighter, flared up, became a brilliance that dazzled them so that they
cowered before its glory and clung to each other in terror. And deep
at the heart of the flame, the children ran and leaped and laughed
and sang, as they seemed to beckon to them to hurry up and join
them.
‘You see it, of course, Chandan? Don’t you?’ June asked him
impatiently. Bhowmick shook his head, puzzled. ‘This is the second
time with the children business, June’’ he said. ‘The first was on the
plane, on the way back. I told you about it. What can it possibly
mean?’ he asked, shaken by self-doubt at his inability to pierce the
fog.
‘But it’s clear as crystal, darling!’ June was ecstatic. ‘The
children! They are the key…the way to the Light, the road to the
Dreamtime for all others to follow.’ She sprang off the bed and
fetched her bible, and opening it to Mark 10.14 she read aloud:
‘Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not; for of
such is the kingdom of God.’ Then she looked up John 1.1: ‘In him was
life; and the life was the light of men. And the light shineth in
darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.’
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They adopted them from all over the world, the abandoned waifs
no one wanted. Black, brown, white, yellow, yet all children, and they
brought them up in a hermitage they established in eastern Australia,
far from civilisation. They had enormous wealth between them, and
they bought a huge estate and cordoned it off with an electrified
fence, barbed wire and deep moats. Even an army would have found
it difficult getting in. They grew their own food, and had their own
livestock and poultry. They just fed the children, told them they were
their parents, and let them run free, letting Nature be their teacher.
There was no radio, no television, and no books. The sun and the
moon and the stars were all they had. They learned to depend on
themselves and the elements for answers to satisfy their endless
curiosity. Their parents never professed to know anything. They could
only be relied upon to teach them to love each other; they never
taught anything else. They had to discover everything on their own.
They had the best facilities at their disposal, the best that modern
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science could offer, but there was nobody to tell them what they were
for or how they worked. They had no telephone, no musical
instruments. They had to depend on their own minds and heads and
hearts to fill the empty spaces.
They learnt speech, but by the time they were seven they had
dispensed with it. They never seemed to be separate units. One of
them would think of a joke…and they all laughed. They started to
teach their parents how things worked, with the patience normally
reserved for the stumbling, inadequate children outside. They lovingly
explained to them the nuances of calculus, trigonometry, and the
structure of the atom. They doted on their parents, but to them they
were dear, under-developed oddities. Never did they make fun of
them. They knew that their parents’ sacrifice had made it possible for
them to become what they had become.
They made their minds their laboratories and solved the
problems they kept encountering. They strove and vanquished. Soon,
their minds had overcome the weak test of the physical world and
encountered another reality beyond it that was far more exciting.
They leapt to the new challenge with glee, full of wonder and curiosity
and love for everything.
Twenty years had passed. They were old and grey and tired…but
few on earth were as happy as they were. They sat hand in hand
under the eucalyptus trees and talked about what blessings the years
had brought them. This was the real pay-off, to look back on life and
feel it had been a great privilege to receive such a grand gift. To have
made a success of it, in material as well as non-material terms. To
have achieved something, helped others.
They were still as deeply in love as they had ever been, but they
never had to say it…it was obvious from their faces. The Children…
they were the crowning glory of their brief lives. The Children were of
the Light, immortal, the first of the New Men that would henceforth
walk the planet, cruise the universe. Their Children! It was a matter of
great pride and joy for them.
The Light was ever with them, with this contented pair whose
work was done. It was with them now, expanding, dissolving
everything in its golden, soothing radiance. It was such a comfort to
let go, to return to the Light, to allow oneself to be sucked back into
it, to the End…and to the Beginning…of it All.
They buried their parents where they slept, hand in hand under
the eucalyptus trees, at the spot that was bathed in sunshine. They
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wept for them; they were, after all, their children. They had not been
immortal like them, but they had sacrificed themselves so that their
children could be Things of Light, be Men. But they rejoiced also. They
would meet again. Then they prepared themselves for the next
upheaval that was sure to come.
They themselves were in the first flush of their youth. Time was
nothing to them. They were immortal. Not for a long time had the
earth seen men and women such as these. They were the gods the
outside world only talked about. They were the perfect men all could
one day become. They no longer had to be bodies. They were
fundamentally agglomerations of Light, clad in bodies by choice, all
knowing, all seeing.
One day they conferred amongst themselves. The term is used
because it makes sense to Old Men like you and I. They were One,
totally and completely integrated with each other. They had come to
know that the outside world would not allow them to live if they could
help it. The men outside were unenlightened: they had no knowledge
of the Light! Once before, long ago, they had crucified one of them
when He had tried to show them the Way. They looked with deep
distaste and hostility at anything and everyone they did not
understand. Men with weapons were coming to forcibly enter their
retreat.
The children did not regard the hermitage as their home any
more. There was nowhere that was not home to them. They were
Masters of the Universe. Their ‘parents’ were gone, the only Old Men
and Women they had ever known and whom they had loved so
dearly. The time had come to break with the Past. There was no other
way. It was time to spread their wings.
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‘Yes, Sir! I’ll take another look. But it’s no use. We can’t do
anything with Nothing, Sir! No, Sir! That’s not what I meant. Yes, Sir!
Quite. Absolutely, Sir. I fully agree with you. Sorry, Sir, I was not being
impertinent, just telling it like it is, Sir!’ He put down the field
telephone and mopped his face with his handkerchief. The Prime
Minister had been in a foul mood over his report. Maj. General Roger
Willoughby was a confused man. He was a soldier who followed
orders to a T. His Action Force had followed the coordinates to the
place they had marked on the charts. They found…emptiness!
There was nothing there. Nothing. Just a grey, indistinct
nothingness that was impervious to tanks, shells, mortars: anything
he could throw at it. He had failed in his mission. But he didn’t have to
take this kind of talk from any man. He sat down at the green baize
table in his field headquarters and carefully drafted out his
resignation. Let the old man find some other sucker to solve this one.
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Half way across the globe, at the foot of the Himalayas, an old
man sat alone, lost in deep meditation. He was seated on a deerskin
in the lotus pose of the ancient sages, smiling happily to himself. The
lamps had been extinguished, but his form was ablaze with light.
He was in communion with The Elders, the Old Ones. And with
the New Ones he knew were coming, the long awaited New Men. His
work here was over. He left his physical body for good and became a
sphere of luminous energy that beamed itself to the giant monolith in
the wastelands to the east.
A new age was in the offing, and further labours awaited him…as
they did the two orbs even now waiting for him in the golden dawn,
companionably together as always, the two whom he knew were
called The Keepers of the Flame. It had been a privilege working with
them.
~*~
© Subroto Mukerji
‘The voyage is not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes’.
~ Marcel Proust