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Narrative Reflection
Ryan Crisp
One of my first memories of my involvement in this program was when I received the
email saying I had been accepted to begin my studies in the fall semester of 2015. I had recently
moved to Chicago to start a new life chapter after having lived in Kansas City and worked in the
art museum education world for nearly a decade. It was a pivotal moment in my life, and I was
filled with excitement for the new educational chapter that was stretched out before me. At that
moment, I was imagining the experience as a strictly academic experience, and had no idea that
it would result in a newfound sense of social justice and of my place in this world, or the myriad
new friendships and professional connections I would make along the way. It has truly been a
transformational experience, and I will always be grateful to have had this opportunity.
Regarding the course content that resonated strongest for me, one of the most difficult
challenges I faced was in relating theory to professional practice. As a result of this struggle,
when I reflect on my experience I am most proud of the growth I achieved in this area and the
countless ways I was able to think outside the box regarding theory and critically analyze the
literature. This personal growth was most pronounced over the course of the Fall 2016 semester
when I took Leadership in Higher Education, taught by Karen Coleman. Her style of teaching
was to consistently bring her own lived experiences to the table and relate them to theory. For
every abstract theory we analyzed, she would then relate that theory, or elements of that theory,
evolve my understanding with theory during the Spring 2017 semester when I took Student
Development in Higher Education with Darren Pierre. Darren helped me to break free of the
more linear tendencies of my mind and discover new ways to extract various facets of theory to
Additionally, I would be remiss to not mention the positive trajectory that the
Multiculturalism in Higher Education class provided for me. It was the first class I took in this
program and was my first memory of entering a classroom again since I completed my
undergraduate degree in May, 2004. Prior to the start of that class, I thought this program would
be focused on administration, history, and the overall structure of higher education institutions.
While these components have been integral to the experience, the multiculturalism class
emphasized out of the gate that this program would, first and foremost, focus on social justice
and the role that all student affairs professionals can play in co-creating a better world for new
generations of learners from all socioeconomic backgrounds, all racial identities, and all sexual
and gender identities. It was an eye-opening experience, and one that caused a great deal of
reflection at a time when such a process was greatly needed in order to prepare me for the
journey that lay ahead. I will always be grateful for the experience I had in that class, and I will
This vulnerability would prove to be essential in the coming semesters. For example,
when I began the Leadership class, I didnt view myself as a leader. The narrative that I had told
myself about my limitations all of my life did not depict me as a leader. In my own mind, I was
a constant follower. However, I gradually learned through the course content, the literature, and
through Karen Colemans teaching style, that we all have the ability to be leaders in our own
ways. This was demonstrated in the pieces I created for the class. For example, at the start of
the semester we were asked to create a movie that showcased what leadership meant to us. Due
to the fact that I enjoy creating multimedia presentations and combining various media, and the
fact that I truly couldnt articulate my definition of leadership at that time, I threw together a
video with music and images and quotes. It looked slick, but didnt communicate my vision of
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leadership. At the end of the semester, we were asked to put together a presentation of our
leadership philosophies, and by that point I was fully able to articulate my leadership values and
More broadly, I have become a more socially conscious individual as a result of this
program. I didnt realize until this program how little I knew about people that were not like me.
Ive been so focused on my own experience of the world as a cisgender white gay male that I
didnt realize how firmly my blinders were in place. This program has torn the blinders from my
eyes and humbled me beyond words. I feel privileged to have experienced the program as a part
of a diverse cohort that is representative of many racial, gender, and sexual identities. I also
grudgingly and glacially realized how much I can learn from individuals so much younger than
myself. I was intimidated when I began this program due to the fact that I was about 15 years
older than everyone else, and I had a chip on my shoulder for a long time as a result. When I
finally was able to put aside my insecurities and forget about our age differences, I realized how
much we can all learn from each other when we bring our honest, authentic, and whole selves to
the table.
I have worked full time for Loyola University Chicago for the duration of my time in this
program. I didnt realize prior to starting it that the Higher Education M.Ed. inherently has a
focus on student affairs work. This was a blessing for me due to the fact that my current position
is focused primarily on faculty and administrative staff, and I eventually would like to transition
to a position focused on student advocacy. It was tremendously helpful to come to class and
learn more about student affairs work not only through the coursework but also by hearing the
During the Fall 2017 semester I had the privilege to undertake an internship with the
Chicago Center Program at Loyola University Chicago. This experience provided me with
another layer of understanding about the university, as the Chicago Center serves as the hub for
all international students visiting Loyola from around the world. Having worked with the director
of the program, Jason Obin, on course evaluation processes in the past as a part of my full time
job, it was a perfect option to balance this work with my other role at the university, and
provided me with direct experience in another realm of the higher education world. Having had
the extraordinary experience of studying at the John Felice Rome Center in the summer of 2017
and experiencing life as an international student in Italy, it was cathartic and rewarding to work
In my process of reflecting on this program and everything I am taking away from it, all
roads lead back to social justice. For most of the time that I was in this program, I was operating
under the assumption that Hillary Rodham Clinton would be our next president. My entire
worldview was shaken in 2016 when this did not come to pass, and I will forever be heartbroken
about it. Appropriately, this was also the semester in which I studied leadership and assessment.
As a result, I am reflecting not only on the social justice priorities of higher education
professionals, but also on the social justice initiatives I can undertake as a private citizen.
Looking ahead to the future, I see a lot of dark days ahead. I hope that things will improve, but I
fear that they will get worse before they get better. Therefore, it is imperative that individuals in
our line of work lead by example, and live the social justice values that we all hold rather than
just talking about them. I have always believed in the power of pragmatism, and now is a time
for us to face the reality of the challenges ahead, and lean in to overcoming them together.
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Please never stop believing that fighting for whats right is worth it. We need you to keep up
these fights now and for the rest of your lives. One of the ways I coped with the grief I felt
following the election was to buy a print of this quote. I hung it on my hallway wall so I see it