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Emma Lightfoot
April 9, 2018
Silently Suffering
A two year old girl lay draped on the floor, limbs pointing in odd directions, eyes
swollen, breath short and failing. Her supposed to be loving care taker, hiding in the back room
articulating an absurd story of how he did not beat this young girl. Firefighter, Aaron Lightfoot
recollects this story with a somber heart and expresses the toll that it took on him and his crew
members. He expresses the mental and physical exhaustion after working as fast and careful as
possible to get the girl to the hospital alive and suppressing their anger with her caretaker.
Luckily their crew has an established ritual after traumatic calls like this one; “debriefing
together at the kitchen table, the crew members take turns sharing their perspective of the call”
(Lightfoot). Maybe one saw a scene more horrific than the others, or maybe one firefighter
needs to simply get his emotions off of his chest. Each debriefing session concludes with what
most would consider dark humor. Lightfoot explains that the humor helps the healing process
because they have not been taught another way to shed light on the situation. However, he does
clarify the subject of the humor is never about the patient themself, especially when the patient is
a child. Lightfoot attests to the fact that this ritual is extremely uncommon among first
responders and their stations and has only been happening for the last couple of years. He
elaborated on the lack of communication among first responders and the detrimental effects he
has witnessed and these effects being escalated because of the lack of awareness and lack of
mental training for first responders. The effects of living through these type of experiences
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everyday and having no outlet are causing the first responders to commit suicide, ruin
“First responders to critical incidents, such as house fires, accidents, shootings, and
natural disasters, are also survivors of these events, although the public does not give this type of
participant as much consideration as a survivor” explains Nadine Garner and other researchers
(170). The majority of civilians picture first responders as goofballs, invincible, happy-go-lucky,
tough men who are emotionless during their job, when in fact most responders have hearts of
gold, connect with their patients and have life threatening effects because of the emotion they fill
on the job. This false image stems from many different causes. One being that the first
responders themselves never share any other part of their day at work besides the fun relaxed
portion. Lightfoot explains that he doesn’t even tell stories of calls he has gone on anymore
because they “are so gruesome and so out of the ordinary that it is beyond the capacity of the
normal person to be able to comprehend it that it could be so traumatic for them” and another
reason being that retelling these stories to a person who does not understand and does not have
the tools to be able to help can do more harm than good. He progresses by expressing the
beneficial impact that having an outlet for first responders would have on them and their
families. Lacking a person to vent their feeling to forces their experiences to be bottled up and
never brought out, this mentality is known as the “shove it down deep and never dig it up again”
mentality around the fire station, which has been the same fatal mentality for years. This
mentality is being to change, because first responders are realizing the Post Traumatic Stress
The suicide rate for first responders is ten percent more than the rate of the general
population (Venteicher). The infographic shown to the right reveals that first responders are a
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(qtd. in Kane).
Along with having a higher suicide rate than the rest of the population, first responders
also have about a fifteen percent higher divorce rate (Jahnke). Ruining their relationships is
expressed his experience with PTSD by admitting that he was combative with his eldest son,
overreacted when the dog ran away, etc. for nine years until he discovered his own way of
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coping and debriefing. This includes letting all of the emotions of the call flow through his body
and recognizing what the emotions are and how they are making him feel. After feeling all of
the heart break, stress, fright and other emotions depending on the call, he reassures himself that
these emotions do not make up what he is as a person and lets them go. The amount of time for
Lightfoot to be able to let go of his feelings differs depending on the call. When the feelings do
go away, they stay away for the most part, if they do happen to come back he does the same
thing: let the emotions flow right through him. Coping and debriefing remains a vital part to be
mentally stable as a first responder and many have not been taught how or have not been given
the opportunity. Spouses remain unaware of the taxing their husband’s taxing job and this
consequently causes strains on their relationship. When the first responder reacts to a seemingly
small issue irrationally, their partner quickly becomes irritated. Lightfoot explains that they
plain do not understand which results in frustrations, strains on the relationship and many times
divorce. Spouses do not account for all first responders’ ruined relationships. Many damage
their relationships with their parents, children, siblings, friends, etc. Many of these heroes live
alone or with a temporary relationship because their trauma has caused many of their irrational
As far as quality of life is concerned, the longer the first responder stays in their job
without any mental help, their quality decreases. Many are pessimistic and filled with anger.
Their negative outlook on life causes them to be unhappy the majority of the time. Because
“most physical and psychological trauma of first responders remains hidden” not only from the
outside world, but themselves, many tend to think that something is wrong with them (Garner).
This thought nags a long with countless other traumatic experiences and creates a nasty
combination of poor self worth and haunted thoughts. Some up and quit their job because they
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do not feel like they are making a difference, they have failed too many times or they cannot take
the trauma anymore. After quitting their job they feel even more hopeless and negative that it
begins to be a steep emotional spiral downwards. This spiral could be prevented or stopped with
more awareness which leads to the proper psychological help that many first responders
desperately need.
The lack of awareness of the amount of trauma that is causing “85% of the first
responders [to] ha[ve] experienced symptoms related to mental health issues” is detrimental
(Amato). The first responders themselves are aware that this statistic is unknown to most, but
who are they going to tell? Are they going to tell their neighbors that on their shift that day they
ran into a house that had two year old girl beaten on the floor or that they personally ran a dying
baby into the hospital and tried to comfort the crying mom afterwards? Not only are non-first
responders oblivious to the mental trauma that comes with the job, but new first responders are
oblivious as well because “First-responder training doesn't prepare trainees for the mental impact
of what they see” (qtd. in Venteicher). Therefore, not having an outlet causes mental damage
and PTSD but, the common population being unaware and the lack of mental training for first
responders exaggerates this issue further. “post-traumatic stress disorder at rates similar to those
found in service members returning from combat”, communities need to become more informed
of their surrounding neighbors and loved ones who courageously choose to be a first responder
(Gillespie).
Works Cited
Amato, Valerie. “Survey Shows High Rates of Depression, PTSD Among First Responders.” 9
Farrington, Brendan. Death Takes a Toll: Bill Helps First Responders with PTSD. US News
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