DeYtH

Banger

Alive (Notes #5)

Alive (Notes #5)

by DeYtH Banger
Quotes/Jokes

"I blew a speaker in my car today. Yeah, he was a motivational
speaker. It left a bad taste in my mouth but I feel a lot more positive."

- Doug Stanhope


"Tradition and heritage are all dead people's baggage, stop carrying it.
Move forward."

- Doug Stanhope



"'Raising awareness' is another form of doing nothing!"

- Doug Stanhope



"Life is like animal porn, it's not for everyone."

- Doug Stanhope
Comedy: Always Caring

01.08.2018

by DeYtH Banger

And words aren't enough... probably already repeating myself

but repeating is the same fuck as you. I have been learning for a long
time
dating advice like how to touch a girl, when to touch it... what to say it,
when to say it... how to go there... fundaments of social dynamics
learning and out there... there is ton of material you can spend your
whole life on learning it and again it won't be enough.

Come on let's go releastic.... there are stuff which people like me who
have been before few years with going with moral rules... haven't
adapted and now this material in hand it's needed to be adapted.dd
...

But why people care so much?

I care, they care... we all give a fuck!

So the storie goes this guy doesn't have 20$.. and if he doesn't he won't
give you tweny... he won't come and say "I don't have 20$...." he will go
like... not giving it and continuing asking you do you want something
else?

Or in my case giving 5$... and a girl don't returing me 0.30$ which was
how much she should give me... she said to me "We don't have money to
return..." - or do you mean... our policy is that we don't return money!?

This is whole different hell of a fuck,

So one guy comes... and he starts talking about physics and then in the
end he asks is it
cool...
LETTTTTTTTT ME FUCKING TELL,... YOU ... NOT IT DOESN'T MAKE
INTERESTED AND IF YOU USE THIS TO A GIRL SHE IS GOING TO
BE BORED AS FUCK... IS IT THIS THE IDEA OF YOUR PRODUCT
MAKING ALL CLIENTS BORED?

...

Being bored is how life goes... but let's see what happens with phones
...

Always making a hangout or meet up with somebody then it comes the

time and he or she says...

"I have meet up with somebody else."

"I can't..."
"Let's do it other day..."

or even they won't answer their phones... come on... how do you deal
with this fucked up pressure this isn't a game... but real world.

And this fucked up world drives me crazy, you can't say one thing and
then go with the other thing... I ask a guy how to close a girl... which
means how to get her phone or contacts one guy tells me... that their
aren't any specifics.. (Which is a bullshit story)... then comes the other
guy and saying

RSD, doesn't give you fundaments... aand I have told you that ton of
times...

OKAY YOU SON OF A BIATCHES.... YOU HAVE TOLD US TON OF

TIMES... AND HOW THE FUCK I HAVEN'T HEARD THAT?... hERE IS
THE THING... YOU ARE FUCKING BLUFFING YOU ARE USING THE
OLD TRICK FROM THE OLD BOOK... YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE...
AND YOU + MISTER NO SPECIFICS... HOW THE FUCK THERE
AREN'T ANY SPECIFICS AND IT'S PART OF NOT GETTING MY PIC...
COME ON... ONCE I DIDN'T CLOSE BECAUSE NOBODY
SUGGESTED THAT IDEA... THEN NOW I TRY TO CLOSE AND THEY
FLAKE... COME ON... HOW AM I DOING A GREAT DAY TO SOME
ONE... WHEN IN THE END MY ASS BEATEN UP?

cOME ON... SOMEBODY'S DAY WENT GREAT AND MY DAY WENT

UP... ON THE BACK OF A BUILDING 4 GUYS BEATING ME UP... -
TRUE STORY AS A FUCK

AND THERE AREN'T ANY SPECIFICS!

....

Black shaded biatch... aka Nigga... he comes and start telling to me that
with being nice I am going to succeed.... oh come on... I have been nice
for a long time... and I didn't went very far.

1) First I was famous with my moves in school... so when I talk to a girl

and if I fail all the school knew about my fail (Or let's say that class and
few more classes)

2) I was polite, nice... (Nothing really did happen)

...

ANd now your are saying me... to forget what I have learn and go with

- Can we be friends? (THIS IS NEEDY SHIT... showing that you don't

have abudance)
- Can you give me your phone number? (Wanting validation... from her)
- Can I fuck you? (Not grown up move)
- Why you are not nice... I am nice with you!? (Doing something and
expecting something back... needy shit...)
and then he tells me

Tell her,

- She is beautiful
- She is sexy
- She is awesome
- She is cool
...

And this deformed charcoal is saying me to say to people such easy

shit... so in other words...

he saying

"Stop listening and learning that shit... it's bad stuff go and play
with this which I gave you... it's not hard at all..."

So please listen... I was funny I joked about Jesus... I joked about

religion ... I manipulated some jokes in to my manner so in the end
all of us to throw a laugh... and I went nowhere... fucking nowhere...
Comedy: I suck = They Suck

31.07.2018


by DeYtH Banger

Come on they suck... all day listening about their bullshit stories:

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- How are you?

- What did happen?
- This don't do it?
- How are they?
- What if it didn't happen?

- What's your name?

- How old are you?
- You are too young!
- Have you ever played basketball?
- Go and build muscles
....

- What's your name?

- How old are you?
- You are too young!
- Have you ever played basketball?
- Go and build muscles
....

- What's your name?

- How old are you?
- You are too young!
- Have you ever played basketball?
- Go and build muscles
....

- What's your name?

- How old are you?
- You are too young!
- Have you ever played basketball?
- Go and build muscles
....

- What's your name?

- How old are you?
- You are too young!
- Have you ever played basketball?
- Go and build muscles
....

Statements and questions... always fucking around, people are having

fun but never calculcating it... come on... they passed 12 years of school
and now they go to parties go and give all their money... but never think
about the next day... what type of fun activity is that?

...

So the thought is:

"Today I gonna have fun... tomorrow let starve..."

"Today money doesn't mater.... (Few Days later) - WHERE ARE THE
FUCKING MONEY?"

People always pissed off

ALways fucking around...

And I suck... I suck in being a nice guy listening to morals... this is the
most fucked up thing which you can do in your whole life... sucking and
sucking morals and then what?

OBEY IT
OBEY IT

...

And really why no-one does ever call and be direct... stop with this
indirect game.. going around topics which say and imply that this
person have interested but let's be honest all this shit is false and in
the end we all play that fucking dull game...
NULL IT!
NULL IT!

NULL IT!

NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
NULL IT!
Comedy: Being a Biatch or ACTING LIKE IT!?

31.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger

What you need the most now is.... one rope... put it over your throat and

GO FOR IT
GO FOR IT
GO FOR IT
GO FOR IT
GO FOR IT
GO FOR IT
GO FOR IT

It's a rational decision... no need to listen what others are saying

depression and stress are state which are move-overs... which are going
to help you make the best choice ever you have ever made.

I am tired of the bullshit story - I don't have time, so if you don't have
time make some...

...

In my Life I spend and make time and create stuff in yours... you invest
and invest and then you seek it... you fucking want it back ... but you
AIN'T GONNA WANK IT THIS TIME

1) Once done
2) Twice done
3) Tripple done

... and you continue and now you want to fuck more around?
Fuck your game
Fuck your life

And the creator destroys you...

by dieing... natural

...

Life is the most fucked up thing which you can get inside... the curtains
are down and the game goes and goes and goes and the best one beats
in this game... how fucked up is this?

This is the best scenario which you can get over... you want it... you
gonna get it

...

So most people come here on this planet and :

1) I want to be rich
2) I want to be famous
3) I want more action movies
4) I want more toys
5) I want more money
6) I want more space

But hey you fucking biatch are you ready to give some value to this
world... you can't only fuck around... by wanning and wanting and
banning and vaning and all this fucked up words I want to ask you why
life isn't random as fuck?
Comedy: Life Sucks and Nobody Tells You That

31.07.2018


by DeYtH Banger

Did somebody yesterday or today... came and said to you life sucks and
all your expectations are going to get underground.... Below 15 meters of
soil... down there... that's life how it gets in you in the end... you get in
below 15 meter in a coffin.

And the most ironic thing is that people celebrate this day by crying and
saying things like

- I am sorry wasn't there for you...

- How could this happen...
- Life could be better... you and me we know it very well...
- You are a grown up man... you didn't needed to go so far...

All people wanking... and wanting... and needing you... and crying
and acting like a biatch.
After all it didn't went their way... if it doesn't go their way... this is a
reason to make them angrier...

But the best thing is when you die... this is a celebration... in which
you are invited and your body exposed and no any type of signals
are needed... - How cool is this?

...

The song could go and on and on and on... the same is for life... suicide
is the best choice you got now in your pocket... people tell to other people
to play with all their cards and why not now they don't play and with the
last card which they got, it's something like a

Ace... but down and up it's written

"Die you BIATCH"

- So here is the thing which I have learn from life...

Life can beat you up

Life can fuck you up
Life can screw you up
Life can make you feel miserable
...

But if life says you that

...

Buckle up and do what's needed after all this is going to be your prom
night... did you had such celebration in life?...
Yes

OR

NO?

Look my comedy is horrific... I write something and then I put it in

horror... because it's gets in horrific levels....

This fucking assholes could go with... (About you):

- He made the right decision... (P.S. - We both know that this isn't true..
.you don't think the same thing as what you are saying...)

- He is a fucking asshole... (Note: I fucking love this compliment...

another example of ruining my day... do you know that I hear you and see
you?... Or if this is not true... the bible is fucking wrong and the last thing
which I want to add... lies end up in making Jesus sucking my dick...)

(Note: After all... I am non religious person and I can say all type of shit
and I don't need to get punished... life is a hell... another blow of offer
won't be bad idea as for now...)

- Hey... wake up... son... I am sorry... I am sorry... please wake up....

Wake up son... (....and now is my turn once... having the chance to
ignore you wake up and sorry's... I am very tired from that crap... don't
ask yourself why I am here... it was the best investment I have ever
done...)
Comedy: Life As Whole

30.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger

Always giving a fuck

- For that
- For that and that
- For what and so
- For why and who
- For where and when
- For How and ...

Always caring life is a selfless fuck.... we all give a fuck

I have seen myself in such type of circle.

Caring:

- For others
- For nobody's
- For things
- For stuff
- For people
- For related people
- For relationship

and one moment you head is buckle up with too much fuck then it comes
the data... which I call "Important as fuck"... which is a data which your
mind you wants to write down. If you are writer your mind always
wonders around information and for better scenarious... my life went so
fucked up that I started using chess... and playing deck cards
for metaphors.
...
My mind as a writer always got what to tell one moment is good thing
other... it really fucks you up... you could be not sleeping and all day
thinking.

Like:

- What if I didn't did that... yesterday?

- What if I did that?
- Why did I got bullied in school?
- Why people start to ignoring me?
- Am I enough funny and joky?
- Am I enough the person I want to be?
- Do I know enough?
- Is there any type of reason of being here?
- Is it possible people to be selfish.... (In theory... yesterday I got beaten
up... my mom wasn't even paying attention to me... and what if I just tried
not to talk to that girl and go with my father out... whe he was still alive?...
Bullied been in school isn't even funny... it's a long-term pain it always
fucks me up when I come back to the old days stories... People stopped
answering my calls... stopped wanting to see me out and started just in a
polite way saying "Go fucking else where..." - Have you ever felt that?...
It's a cold feeling... it's a feeling which you feel but nobody says anything
which means... they don't say anything for me to quit or so on and so
on... but the way they behave you can see and feel that they don't want
you...

Have you wondered why this joke didn't went well?

..> Have you ever wondered why you are out of jokes... in my world... I
wonder... I am not always smart asshole... funny guy one moment ... I am
so much under the soil that I am like a animal... a biatchy animal... who
gets pissed off anything...)

Note: And life continues no data can help you skip this hell... the hell
wants you in there... and nobody really wants you in heaven...

- I don't think people are selfish...

- It's fucked up that I want to kill myself... it's the most arrogant... selfish
decision ever taken from me

..

It could be not questions... it could be data or things which you say and
with minutes and seconds it gets to somewhere bigger and larger... my
brain and totally ruin you... I have so much data...

...
S
t
a
r
t
i
n
g

From seducing women up to man... up to manipulation and con-crime...

and I am just a normal guy or

AM I?

...

So life is a selfish decision but not the most,

selfish one...

ANd they want to roll the game and nobody even give a fuck
to the noobies....
Cradiale

23.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger



So here is the truth we always think,Not in numbers... but my our mind
always goes somewhere,Not really in a good way.

...
So it comes a thought... then another and the whole process
fucks you up.
- "Life Sucks"- "This sounds like a cool thought let's write it down."- "Now
you should call that guy..." - "Now say that..."- "Mhm... doesn't sound...
right or cool... come with something else..."- "Oh god... this is worse than
I ever thought..."
Overthinking kills you... by building up anxiety... now that's not right, now
this doesn't give too much value...

And one moment in life you end up in the trash... constant worry isn't life
all about...

- "Now let's try this..."- "Now let's try to give some fucks..."
Your mind probably wouldn't be saying this but... sub-level this is what a
simple thoughtis perceived by the mind.

And now the person who is speaking with you is brain in anxiety,
Good Night!
Watch And Stare

18.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger



I am not a number... but one day I gonna end up like a number.

- DeYtH Banger

People pay me to stare, it's an easy job… In and Out!

I go to random houses or apartments in the middle of the night and I do it
for few hours. The whole idea is researching.

Taking Notes and Be as much silent as possible.

Note: It's fucked up the whole idea of security, it doesn't exist, it has
never existed and it will never ever exist.

People think that they are safe home from predators, but theu don't give
a thought to people which they know = predators or even home invasion.

The whole trick is to not be to noisy. (P.S. - I just can't hold myself there
are plenty of material on the internet which help you to become a con-
man, what you really need is a reason… how to and somebody who is
doing it….)

If you get in somebody home… try to do it in the moment when you

expect good stuff to come. People tell me I should feel the woman side..

It's kinda fucked up… I haven't been raised to be a gay… so to do that I

ask women questions (No dumb questions exist)… I take notes when I
stare them having sex… seeing what she does… how and why… what
next…
The truth is that no relatives or friends know about what I really work…
and it's great disguise to use... something like I study people… It's a
great thing and nobody WILL dive in this shit… WE ALL ARE SELFISH
TYPE OF GENES… WE WILL NEVER CARE AND GIVE A FUCK FOR
SOMEBODY WHO IS OUT OF OUR BODY…

Shit is getting crazy the more I do what I do the more I get invisible and
good…

RIP: 3467 Day…. End … up in jail head bashed against wall… plenty of
blood instant death.
Done Wrong

18.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger



Always searching for a match,
Always searching for perfection,
Always wanting to be perfect.

In such world in which we live clean code

is a possibility… but to want to fuck somebody's
desire isn't a real privilege you fuck.

Always wanting improvement without taking action,

betting on others what my daily routine is…

"She was ugly in the face… she was walking 7 if we need to rate from the
scale 0 to 10… but her body was magnificent… blonde hair and perfect
body…"

"So fuck I gave you pictures of what I like and now we gonna go to
routine, what you Like?... Is this some kinda joke?"

"I was annoting and she rejected me with BULLSHIT.. ."

…
That day I had motivation… today I feel like shit…
Suicide

17.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger




I know the weather is great nobody deserve today, but I feel
worthless... why am I alive?I don't want to tell anymore stories about
myself... I sick of this shit... One more story just I am going to tell the
writting isn't for me... I feel like a shit telling people to know how a person
like me feels... And all arrogant people are going to die.. First the junkies
then the sedative people and the spree continues and let me ask you a
question..:

- Do you feel worthless?

- Do you want to die?
- Do you want to kill yourself?
- Do you want death to take your soul?
- Do you feel like shit?
- Do you like the person who you have become?

...

O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-o-O
O-
o-O

O-o-O

If it's about me... but let's be honest I am not a selfish type of

person... But this whole story is all about me... If you want a story about
yourself..... go home and write few as for me... I am sick of fixing people's
day and creating improvement in people's life and one moment it strikes
right in the guts... Because a clown like me has a heart and one moment
it just hurts too much... This here story isn't for people who feel that day
is lost, If you feel your day is lost come and blow my balls at least doing
that One person in the roll is going to be satisfied and do you know who
is he?
It's me....!

Most people get in the place in which I am with sedatives and drugs... but
in me.. . it's totally adaptable...
I like seeing drunk teenagers who are thinking that one day their life is
going to be awesome.
(Note: Probably sometimes ruining somebody's day makes me great... I
feel like I have ruined now few days which sounds awesome... look it's on
a row... it's not on numbers...)

When people feel worst about themselfs it's like a drug for me...People
see them as a shit and me as awesome and the trick continues making
people to do what
I want... sounds funny but one moment I am going to pull and your
strings I am fucking genius...

So here is the thing... I am carefree mother fucka and don't get attached
to anything my dad is death I throw a laugh and continue... My life is
getting worst I am throwing a laugh... and I am going on and going on...
laughing is a real sedative... I am not a genius my words are just normal
like yours... This story isn't going to be long... This here is massive attack
from thoughtsThat's how it looks like whitout being a biatch and braging
about it... About what's worse and what's good in this work.

I can't attach to people... because attachment hurts... it fucking hurtsyou

don't need to be me to understand it my mother isn't my mother she is
Patricia... I call her by nameit's less investment andIt's less giving a
fuck... so one da yif she throws out the shit... I will be okay with itBut I am
sick fuck and call her like others
- Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... -
Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... -
Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... -
Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom...
mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... Mom... mom... mom...
mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom...
mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom...
mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom....
- Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... -
Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... -
Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... -
Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom.... -
Mom... mom... mom... mom.... - Mom... mom... mom... mom....

or something like

- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....

- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....

- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....

- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....

- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....

- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....
- Dad... dad... dad... dad.....

or

- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather

- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather
- Grandfather... grandfather... grandfather... grandfather

- This here is an attachment... once you have that... it's like a sedative
losing that result costs too much... I mean That's why most people don't
attach to me... I am too sociable and attachable person once I'm in your
life I can really mindfuck you... that's the word which I use when
somebody's mind
get's controlled by me...

So my day is getting worser... now explaning manipulation... next level

probably will be strangulation... life is all about savage playing chess.
Hate Me... Be Honest

17.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger




I want the fucking truth... it could be 5$ dollars... tell me the truth...
why you lie me it's
5,30 ... if you tell me the truth I am going to give few more penies... it
could be one 1 or 2 more dollars, but at least be honest with me.

And outside is raining words fly around like gimme shit... the rain is
rolling around another heavy weather and the day is going to end... I
am not a biatch without money.

Rain is a noisy biatch the day is findings it's own end... nobody ever said
that the day will first go dark... nearly impossible deaf... and one moment
a bunch of water is going to fall of from the sky... people continue to lie
this is the corruption of this universe, I am not a weirdo I am honest
dictator.

The melody is sad... but life continues so and this work and others are
going to come around and stay forever... works come and stay people
come and go, that's what's life is... I don't know what your mother has
said to you...

...

But life isn't the way she perceives or either your father or grandmother
and the big lie of this day is:
I lied to you... or I can say that... first what I know is just from TV
Movies and Series... I use them to expand my knowledge... but
songs and books also do the things... little practice and more theory
that's what my life is it... it's difficult to be me... I spend plenty of
time in everything that's what I am... 3 digit biatch ... who you can't
understand and with using all words.

Nobody did really said... that theory or what they say about themself
is a trust... that's what happen the first second when time came and
it has been accepted in since then... nowadays people say stuff
about themself... and people start trusting them... trust based on
data.... so people are walking data.

And one moment before:

Alcohol: The earliest alcoholic drink dates back to 7,000-6,600 B.C.

Residues of the drink were found in pottery shards from the ancient
village of Jiahu, in China’s Henan Province. The drink consisted of a
mixture of rice, honey, and fermented grapes or other fruit.

Hallucinogens: The earliest fossil remains of the hallucinogenic San

Pedro cactus, found in a cave in Peru, date back to between 8,600
and 5,600 B.C. The seeds of mescal beans, found in what is now
southern Texas and northern Mexico, date from the end of the ninth
millennium B.C. to 1000 A.D. And small stone sculptures called
“mushroom stones” found in Guatemala, Mexico, Honduras and El
Salvador suggest hallucinogenic mushrooms were used in sacred
cults between 500 B.C. and 900 A.D.
Opium: The earliest found fossilized remains of the opium plant,
dating back to the mid-sixth millennium B.C., were found at a dig
site in Italy less than 20 miles northwest of Rome. Remains of
poppy seed capsules and traces of opiates have been discovered in
the plaque and bones of human skeletons dating back to the 4th
millennium B.C., along with prehistoric art showing parts of the
poppy being used in religious ceremonies.
Coca leaves: The earliest evidence of humans chewing coca dates
back to South America around 8,000 years ago. The remains of
pieces of coca leaves have been found in house floors in Nanchoc
Valley, Peru, and in human dental remains and mummy hair.
Tobacco: Smoking pipes dating back to around 2,000 B.C. have
been found in northwestern Argentina, although it’s unclear whether
they were used for tobacco or other hallucinogenic plants.
Remnants of nicotine found in pipes date back to 300 B.C.

And that's what people say drugs and alcohol and and other shit
has been here for a very long time... and now lets see how the
world looks like:

Walking data with drugs and sedatives and substances in their system
and feeling extremely confident... without that anxiety and depression
drowns them up. People keep promising... keep saying promises... we
and I have plenty of friends and how much times do we get with all
outside?

Here is the answer:

- ... A Couple of videos and photos

....

But let's clear that shit.. .videos and photos make us to feel like we are
friends or relatives... just few pictures... that's what keep us close... and
one moment we remove all this shit... walking data can it be a friend?

That's what the question for today dare is it!

Money

16.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger


I am not crazy religious person... but everything is about money...
You need money to get in that place... you need money to get that girl,
you need money to get out of your home... you need money and money
and money and money and money...

It's such a big attachment which in the end will cost your whole life... I am
not fucking with you.

And I am getting crazier... wanting to slash and bash people.... I

want to kill people it's lovely concept soon on CNN or New York
Times... 20+ guy goes in killing spree

Thoughts are here to save us ... it's salvation from self-obesity. If you
start going in your thoughts paranoia is the first sympton then feeling
scared... even bluffing with somebody makes you scared...

So here is the thing... I went in somebody's house... and I have seen

him 3 times and he let me inside his house... imagine this shit!?...
Can you image it?

If I can get in his house who else can?

Stalkers
Killers
Haters
LIfe is about focusing too much of this shit is going to eat you inside of
you... logically most people build there confidence not by adaptable
behaviour ..... but by using some substances... drugs... alcohol then
wanning better life... That's why an asshole kills a nerd and nerd is a guy
who even blood is going to freak him out.

Let's dive deeper.. .we have plenty of time... time isn't really an
obstacle in this here story... it's something which I get auto when I
start sharing data... all here is data... and data by itself manipulates
masses... and

GoodNight,Puppets
Thinking

16.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger



So life goes on and on ... we see people we always want to talk to
them but we never talk to them... why not? Why life goes on and on life a
slip-less paradox of brutality.

We just can't do that... You are afraid.... me too... too much

pressure... go home and watch more comedy and more movies
social life isn't for you. It's too much... there is peer pressure and
the condition isn't adaptable.

We always end up apologizing for not taking action and saying that we
gonna take action later... or in other period in life and this never helps... it
really doesn't later is never... didn't we understand that already?

Being adaptable means when people can't pull your strings easy...
it's a social damage people drink so to make it like not giving fuck
but you... dear you... you always want to talk to people and not to
drink... this path which you have choosen isn't nothing more than a
social damage created by the people around you... why you
continue in such brutal way? Life can be easy... like not giving
fuck... not caring... just grab a bottle and have fun.

Fun always has been for people to grab a bottle and have fun... that's
what your mind says... thats' what people say but where are you?... I be
that dear you is near "Now"...
People always want to proof themselfs that they are good that they are
awesome, that they are cool adn so on and so on and so on... then life
comes with it's grabs you by the throat and says last wishes?
And we like sick biatches wondering what we haven't done because of
being afraid... always living a life of denial. My words are n't complex I am
just using a vocabulary with which we are friends... but one day...
TO be simple is awesome... just go and take the bottle... you gonna
get extreme confidence people are going to love you (Note: For the
person who you aren't)... all people grab bottles to proof that they
can be cool... but they life a life full of fakeness... and leave life to
dry you up to the bottom of this fucking sea.

The moment will come

...

I am not weirdo... we are all one and one moment in life words are going
to be the weapons which are going to safe you from self-destruction.
Life Is Boring

07.07.2018

by DeYtH Banger



This story isn't one of those boring stories which you while you surf
on the social media or in the web you gonna find this story is what life is
all about.

...

So School has passed... I am not anymore a student... I am 19 years old

kid...
School has never been a good place for me... always getting annoyed by
different people... always there is a big deal guy and always... I am
somewhere in the middle of all this shit... BUt let's be honest life was
easy... or ironicaly kinda easy... because after all I had something in my
day going and kinda free... now I am not sure what to put in my time
where should I go... should I be more outgoing person?

Or just be the sad little kid which nobody likes to chat or talk with him...

It's little bit scary 2 months have passed... now 3 is starting and I am
bored...

I have been around pick up material for 2 years...

Almost two.. I am new into that shit... and there is so much things

The way you say it... what to say... how to be funny!?

How to get phone numbers, you should always close!?
...

So much details and information... if you are newbie... not like me but like
others you gonna be socially fucked up... as for me... I am around such
data for a long time... and I am starting to connect the dots...

And this is my life... all about connecting dots... it even not

interesting if you are living my life you gonna hate it... there is slash
or bashing somebody on the law and saying to him give me your
money... this is very typical for school but here in this here game...

I have been around movies, TV Series, Reality Shows, Books... if we talk

about movies... I have watched around 500 movies... for 19 years ... this
is the sum, tv series around 45 probably... but if we are talking about
series which I follow up... not about series which I watch sometimes...

Reality Shows, Larry King is a cool guy with a great show you have
plenty of what to learn from him...

books around 800 probably this year I am going to make... which means
in the sum of all my years i have read 800 books and wanting to read 400
books and the numbers go and go and go and go.

This life is little outlandinsh nothing interesting really going... I am

like a guy who knows everything in theory... I know facts... I read
books... I know stuff about statics... but this life which I am living
everyday needs improvement... if I don't improve my life... I am
living below average... if I improve it... it's extraordinary... so how
fucked up is that?

To be honest... I hate this life... lets grab one knife... and slit the throat up
to the chase... blood is going to flush out... but this is blood of freedom...
at least I am not going to be canabalistic person with manner of eating
flesh.
Visit

28.06.2018

by DeYtH Banger


Church is not some private stuff,

I can't tell you my relegious beliefs,I can't tell you where I liveI can't tell
you my mom's nameI can't tell you my uncle's nameI can't tell you where
I am nowI can't tell you what I doI can't tell you what I eat...
The rules are ridiculous, if we go and focus on this shit what we
gonna miss!?

Outside is Raining,My mail box is ful,Heavy rainingLife goes ond on...

And what do we do?... We put inside our small minds limits... which
limit us from doing so much s stuff, we could be outside with a
friend, we could be now surfing on the internet and learning and
learning abudance of information... then gatherr friends... make a
group and start sharing what "we" have learn. Everyday is a lesson
to be learn, you either gonna stay and get the feedback or go out
and again and again and again getting rejected like a piece of shit.

This here is really a visit... what I really want to say to you... is that
life is full of lessons and people shouldn't skip any type of lesson. If
outside the weather is fucked up probably is because in your life
you are missing something and this rain will stop you from abusing
your life and start going for what you need to understand.... RAIN IS
LIKE A TIME IN LIFE WHEN YOU NEED TO GET FEEDBACK... so if
it's heavy raining stay home and learn and learn and learn and
learn... once the weather has changed is time to apply what you
have learn.

So I don't know you as a person... I have never met you in real life... so
what I can sayany type of reason of not doing action is simple of excuse
which in other wordsit's "PROCRASTINATION".
You procrastinate... you don't do workyou don't do what you should do...

You stay home and bullshit yourself with simple excuses so to make you
feel greatinside and out.
Your life isn't made to stay all day home and living life to go and go and
go and go and goand excusing your actions because some kinda a
fucker is doing your thing and because he is damn good you can't
compete with him.

I am totally fucked up... if we ask that question... I can't live a life

inside a house... it's a self-torture story.
Conspiracy

25.06.2018

by DeYtH Banger


Open your pants and let's talk,clean the white shit and start it again.

God has given you the privillege to masturbate andto feel carefree after
each stage of masturbation. This is like one of those horror moviesbut no
sound at all .... or let's say positive manner from the pornstar from that
porn movie which you are watching. Sorry for being so critical but
pornography is something which makes you always edgy and horny.
And how is life going waking up with 9/11 and going in sleep with 9/11...
Life is a conspiracy... a facility in which you need to know more if you
know less... you gonna get fucked up.

...
So put one hand in your pants... go straight... bro,
and one ha nd in the pocket. And let the tail rollen

...
Don't be sleepless... godless... b iatch wake up with a reason... don't let
corruption fullfil your whole mind. And let the blow kill you slowly!
Chapter (0) - Note

So this above are stories which have been written by me and have
been published online... they tell some stuff about life but not plenty of
it... The Life Of One Kid... had as a goal to show you my life... as you saw
there my life isn't as good as most people probably think.

....

This stories tell stories about different stages in my life!

Chapter (0) - Stand Up

Nothing more kills depression and stress than few jokes like

Bill Engvall: WE GOT THE STONE

Bill Engvall: Aged and Confused
Ron White: A Little Unprofessional
Ron White: Behavioral Problems
Carlos Mencia: Not For the Easily Offended
Jim Davidson: The Devil Rides Out
Rich Hall: Hell No I Ain't Happy
Bill Burr: Walk Your Way Out
Bill Burr: I'm Sorry You Feel That Way
Bill Burr: You People Are All the Same.
Bill Burr: Why Do I Do This?
Joe Rogan: Triggered
Louis C.K. Oh My God
Michael McIntyre: Happy and Glorious
Chapter (0) - How I feel (Crack A Joke)

Comedy: You don't Get It (Part 1)

By DeYtH Banger

02.08.2018




Come on and come on… you just don't get it…
You don't fucking get it… you are saying that you are getting it… you got
the idea… you know what it's about… but not really know what you know.

You are confused by itself is a depricating behavior.

….

Here is the truth you fuck… you don't get it you moron… you ask
questions… no need to deep the shit.

….

So comedians like me throw a joke about daily life so to go throw it.. Life
is a hypocrite and nobody WILL tell you the truth, everyone got a story
we could start from movies up to song writers up to newspaper short-
stories and list goes. It's like endless orgasm…
Nobody in your fucking life is going to help you with your life… not in
manner of saying:

"You are good.."

"You are doing great…"
"Great… keep it going…"
"Awesome…. Great.."

- Life is hard and you never get the push of positive… living in negativity
it's like being all your life under a cloud of rain.

….

But stIll people like Raphie May … Chris Farley or John Pinette or Robin
Williams all this fucks are dead some of them people say that they have
died naturally… but I doubt about it… there is something bigger… there
is whole big conspiracy.

So this fucks were telling jokes as a job and now they are 15 meters
below us… I call this a good day with a bad karma.









Comedy: You Don't Get It (Part 2)


By DeYtH Banger

02.08.2018








How does life look from here?
How are you?

And

Is it a good question "How much years old are you?"

The mind always bothers around information like a Crazy Russian Guy,
what mind needs it's material… give it enough and your mind will start
fucking with you.

If you go with positive life you can't negative… let's be honest to remove
your anxiety and limits in discussion… Which means to have the ability to
say:

1) Insults
2) To Express yourself
3) To be Confident
4) And etc

You need a whole tail of negative BULLSHIT.. . It's going to put you down
but if you have grown up with it you gonna get the ability to control it.
…

And now who is fucked up?

Nobody says that people are fucked up…, one son of a biatch started to
shout on the phone… for no reason at all … I am calling to clear up shit
he is going with…

"AREEEEEEEE YOU CRAZY…. I CAN'T TALK NOWWWWWWW…. I

JUST CAN'T TALK NOW"… this shit is fucked up and If I start living with
such type of people… I am going to end up on the list with 30 Pounds
weight.

Why nobody makes jokes about this kinda of

A shit… It's a vicious circle and it's an example of plot line with hell of a
twizzles, sizzles… it's very twisty.

….

Nobody knocks on the door at 05:01 am and says:

"Life sucks… but you mother fucker you going to stay here for a very very
long time…"

- Life is not pernamemt …, one day a disease knocks… and in just a one
moment it knocks you out.









Comedy: You Don't Get It (Part 3)




By DeYtH Banger

02.08.2018





You wake up and you go to bed with breathing in and out….in and
out, in and out, in and out, in and out. That's what and life is… this here is
a metaphor an extraction.

Nobody can help you if you are in depression,

- Life is meaningless

(ALL type of thoughts which are in your mind go to a negative path…

your mind is build with bricks of "-" one moment so much "-" negative
builds and builds and it starts to destroy you inside…
That's how a depress guy feels…)

Note: And that's what my life looks like, each day I crack a joke just to go
throw pressure… it's too much without jokes and comedy life could be a
place of crying and sadness…. Instead of laughing!
- Food has lost it's taste

(People have gone and food doesn't have any type of taste in this stage.)

- Life is not anymore fun

(People when they grow up… they start giving more and more fuck start
reading ton of material and wasting their life.)

P.S. - It's fucked up… I got 4 meetings which were supposed to be

today… and it went like … the first one happen… the second one was on
the stove but in the end it ended up into the junk yard. Then it came a
new suggestion and I had a meeting… Dinner with a friend… trying afro
food and this got canceled… in the end of the day.

- Life sucks if you get depressed it's mood swinger style… Imagine
fucking dead body in real life depression ot's like dead but you are alive.








Comedy: You Don't Get It (Part 4)


By DeYtH Banger

02.08.2018





What's bad about not believing in God?
What's bad about not trusting the bible?
What's bad of not being religious?

So life goes on like a corruption If I don't believe in God because I got

information which is pretty reasonable… How can I believe in God when
the bible says sex, gays, racism are bad stuff and I have seen people
who believe in God and are sinners if we look it from this perspective.

Note: Yet all believers are wasting theit time to pray to invisible force
which never plays in the playground.

P.S. - So look how fucked up is life, most religious people are sad,
secondly… no answer of prayer and third people get easily offended and
how good is that?

Nobody is really tough…

….

The whole thing is like talking or creating an invisible friend and start
talking to it… It's creepy shit … it's like a demon... has possessed your
body…

Cracking a jokes makes life more than a drama and crime… it add ups
some comedy… but still this the most longest show ever launch on TV.
It's not good to waste your time with something which doesn't help you
with self-improvement. What type of fucked up race is:

- We are going out tomorrow!

(Tomorrow comes and the offer is out of the line.)

- We are going to go out… (Said before 2-3 days)

(The day comes… and goes like… "I am busy")

- I am going to give you a call

(Oh god you fucker… the day comes and you are gone what type of
fucker are you?)

- I don't know when

(What type of fucked up guy should you be of not knowing when you are
comming coming back to my country)

Note: People always say one shit and other shit comes in the way… So
here is the thing

- I will kill myself… but it's getting as dagger as a double edged sword.

P.S. - This dude wanted to have fun… , but life is a controversial show
with pleny of rules in case you start compiling this shit have in mind this
tip.

Life will
…
Is a fake promise no rules can be ever applied.

- DeYtH Banger

I don't like God… I just don't like the shitty story behind that moral fucker.

…. HEY JESUS KISS MY COCK

Comedy: Money



by DeYtH Banger

03.08.2018




Once you got money high enough you start feeling like you are God…
like nothing can stop you… You get so brain fucked that you gonna piss
or cum on somebody's food.

You feel superior…

What you need few guys who don't have money… and you have
something like 40$ and you are already superior. You gonna try to
manipulate those poor guys… you gonna use all types of net to get them
and pull all kinds of magic tricks out of your pocket by using money.
Note: You son of a biatch… living a life is nothing more than a selfish
choice made from creatures who are stupid enough to think that they
have what to give.

It's so foolish from their side…

So the story goes like you all were poor but few of you got a chance to
get few more "$" by doing stuff that your mom won't approve and look
yourself being selfish going like you are the big deal and you got 40$ it's
not too much If we look it straight away.

….

Life a shitty fucker… execute and obey….

Comedy: Suffering



By DeYtH Banger


03.08.2018
I have been on this planet for a long time… always trying not to take risks
and obey what mom says… Getting punished for good behaviour - By
them being not serious… how fucked up is when some person promises
you to return the taken money from you? Or how fucked up is when you
try to Live up to somebody's expectations and in the end you making few
people along the way ashamed.

I feel pressure… I feel the fucking pressure!

I DON'T LIKE LIFE, LIFE AIN'T COOL… FIRST TO OBEY

SONEBODY'S RULES… THEN MY FRIENDS… RELATIVES AND
FAMILY MORALS AND MY LIFE GOES TO THIRD PLACE!??

DON'T ASK ME THE DUMB QUESTION WHY MY LIFE WENT

WASTED… HERE IS THE TRUTH I WAS AFRAID OF TAKING RISKS
BECAUSE IF I TOOK … I THOUGHT THAT I AM GOING TO GET
PUNISHED…
THIS HERE IS DAILY ROUTINE TRAUMA… I JUST WANNA WAKE UP
AND START BEATING UP PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME SAD AND FEEL
WORTHLESS…

I HAVE A VALUEI HAVE A LIFEI AM FUN GUYI HAVE THE RIGHT TO

BE WHOEVER I WANT

…
And bad behavior by getting reminded all my bad behavior from before…
I hate people who say:
I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"
I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by
Stephen King"I read "The Long Walk by Stephen King"

….

- Not really in the same order

…but when you start conversation with such type of guys… They don't
leave you… to say your argument… they don't give a chance to your
back up story… so
….
Me: "Okay… Here is the proof of my side…"He: "okay"…
Me: "Did you check it out?"He: "No… I don't have time"

- The problem in my case is that people repeat them self + they want you
to do stuff and they don't do what you suggest for example they suggest
you movies and you watch them in a period of 2 weeks time… (So much
time you spend if they give you 10 movies you watch something like a 1-
2 everyday… and after two weeks you are ready)… then you suggest
once they watch the movie… then there is a period in which they suggest
you to do that and that… but they don't do your part of the deal.

JESUS IS A WORTHLESS FUCKER… IF I AM IN THAT STATE BEING

JUNKIE … SO DOES HE AND GOD TO






Comedy: And Or LIFE?

by DeYtH Banger

08.03.2018



Life is fucked up program some mosquitos bite you when you are out
and one moment comedy from laugh gets to anger and screaming up to
sadness.

I am just afraid of life getting into repeation it's ain't fun when you cycle
throw the same shit shit over and over.

I HATE PEOPLE WHO TELL AND SAY THE SAME STORIES OVER
AND OVER AND OVER AND THEN START BLAMING YOU FOR
WASTING THEIR TIME.

OH COME ON… IT'S AIN'T FUN THE SQME JOKES OVER AND OVER
THE SAME STORIES OVER AND OVER.

SCREEN WRITERS - ARE PEOPLE WHO HAVE GOT A MESSAGE

ACTORS - ARE PEOPLE WHO EXPRESS THINGS OVER AND OVER

AND GETTING PAID FOR SUCH A DUMB JOB.

One moment life stops and shitty thoughts start to come out.

1) Other's People blame

2) Shame
3) Pain
4) Misery

I AM FUCKING SUFFERING FROM GETTING CUT FROM A PERSON

WHO HASN'T SHOWED ME ANYTHING AND THEN OFFENDING MY
BEHAVIOUR 10000 TIMES BY DIFFERENT WAYS THEN THE SAME
DUDES DON'T KEEP THEIR PROMISES AND THEN THEY BLAME
PEOPLE LIKE ME.

So does I suffer
So does thy suffuer

People always dissapoint others… their creatures who are wasted

fuckers breaking rules just to get more from what they have.



Comedy: Thu Truth

by DeYtH Banger

08.03.2018



Just stop, stop

That"s what I tell to my mind… but my mind doesn't stop it's a victim of
circumstances. Always thinking always making up things (Just in the
name of fun)… always overthinking, always trying to get things

….
It always tries new stuff… once repeation.. .comes over it slays all the
mind over and over…. THAT'S WHY ONE GUY SAYS THE SAME
THING OVER AND OVER AND OVER ALWAYS HAVING FUN… OH
COME ON THIS AN EXAMPLE OF BURIED MONEY IT'S BELOW IN A
GRAVE…

I am worried but why?

….

BEING WORRIED LIKE A PRICELESS MOTHER FUCKER.. . DON'T

PUT ME IN YOUR RANK…

- YOU DON'T KNOW

- YOU CAN'T

COME ON YOU SON OF A BIATCH…

SHOW ME… STOP BLAMING ME OVER AND OVER… AND THEN

SAYING THAT YOU ARE TEACHING ME…

COME ON… DEVOURING BEHAVIOUR IS DEPRICATING FUCKED

UP
BEHAVIOR I KNOW TOMORROW WON'T BE A DIFFERENT DAY…

- FEW GUYS FLAKE

(They just won't answer the phone because my jokes got OVER the
limit)

- Promise Fuckers
(Always there is a person who says we can meet and talk… have a
chat… tommorow or today and it comes the time and the guy says… "
Sorry but I am busy"… "Sorry… I don't know … don't worry"

….

- Wanted Fuckers

(HE comes when he needs things… he is ready to give you something

but still when right time comes… he disappears so WHAT TYPE OF
FUCKER IS THAT?)

I ALWAYS STUDY STUFF IN SOCIAL DYNAMICS… WATCHING

MOVIES… TV SERIES AND READING BOOKS I JUST WANT TO
BECOME THE BEST POSSIBLE VERSION… BUT IN SUCH STAGES
THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO DON'T GET JOKES (In my opinion this
people are fucked up)… THEN THE PEOPLE WHO SAY THAT THE ALL
PROGRESS WHICH I HAVE MADE IS BECAUSE OF THEM…

And LIFE IS like that when somebody says have fun… hAve a great time
in being an adult or even don't forget the child inside you…

This advice doesn't get you any near to having a life which you enjoy.
It's enough misery people say that Steve Jobs died from saying that each
day is his last… but this isn't possible to kill him… if it's possible why:

EACH DAYYYYYYY MISERY GOES COMPILING IN MY LIFE IT

LOWERS THE CHANCE OF GOING OVERVOT AGAIN?

PEOPLEEEEEE ARE A BULLSHITTERS… SAYING SOME FUCKED

UP SCREW UP SHIT…

….

I AM JUST AFRAID OF NOT DOING SOMETHING DIFFERENT

… I CAN'T WALK ON THE STREET ON THE SAME OVER AND OVER
AND OVER AND THEN THERE IS A PERIOD IN LIFE WHEN YOU
DON'T GO THERE FOR FEW MONTHS AND
THEN YOU COME OVER AND STARTING TO CON IT

….

NO NEED TO BE A COLD FUCKER LIFE ISN'T GETTING BETTER …

MESSAGE TO ALL PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT THEY GONNA GET
UNFUCKED ONE DAY…

IN MY CASE…

TODAY I AM ALIVE - GREAT

I HOPE TOMMOROW DIE - WISH


Part 2

Life Of Me
Chapter - Zero Progress

What should I say?

I am not sure as for am I helping anyone?
...

I am not sure as for am I living the life... which I should be living?

(Note: Nobody in the end is going to say to you that life is painful... LIFE
IN THE END IS ALL ABOUT COMING AND RECALLING SOME OLD
MEMORIES... WHICH ARE FUCKED UP AS HELL...)

...

In other words... I have been reading pleny of books... They have started
making me more stable as person... but still I have one of those rough
days in which I just hate my life... I feel I have not hEpping anyone... I feel
like I am useless for this complicated, sophisticated world...
Chapter - Life

I did pleny stuff in life because life is a constant sacrafice of bishop to

queen.
Come on... Everything which I did there is a reason,... but still there is
no reason to continue and to try to tell more and more stories... Life is not
meant to be a story... you must live life... stop joking ruining life like all
other people.
Chapter - Kill Yourself

As on the way to kill myself because of constantly getting confused,

because it's too expensive to get confused.... Once you get once you
gonna twice and tripple... life continues and you can't allow yourself to
experience such type of stories.


I put here some of my stories too look it the way I feel... it's not like a
what I have written... but more likely how makes you feel.

In Reddit Collection... it goes as a story... and life continues... Joke
and joke.




....



I just was feeling like I am not helping anyone... I am not making any
type of impact and once this is happening... why even bothering and
doing something. After all the end result isn't anything.


...

Life loses it's meaning once you lost the big "WHy" of life!


Chapter - Be Fuck

Yeah be... fuck... Life is getting worser after all I am posting there and
there my works... Really nothing interesting is happening, it's just...
it's like a movie in which nothing is happening... no killing... no
shouting... no anger... nothing... it's just going and going and going and
mysteries no suprises...

If life was like that... like this type of movie... I ain't gonna participate.


...

I would love some sauges after I tell you that pornography is fucking
younger and more younger generations... life is getting more and more
screw up. It's not like the way it is... but the way it feels....


People watch motivation and really nothing do... I watch motivation...
because I have lost hope in life
Part 3

Sick as fuck
Chapter 1 - Criminal

Note: The resolution of each being can continue so far until an error
stops it... a glitch comes... when it gets fixed it starts another circle of
resolution.... The whole thing is paradox so do and your life.

Mr. Addiction: Life gets better

DeYtH: You are full of shit

...

Mr. Addiction:

- Reading 37 Books is an addiction

- Horror fanatic

...

Mr. Addiction: You go out from one addiction and another start playing
in your mind.

DeYtH: SILENCE... REMOVE THIS PARADOX

Clap ... slap

..
.

Jump

Mr. Addiction:

Obsession with
- Movies
- People
- Documentaries

All this are co-category of addiction. Obsession is the other name of

addiction

DeYtH: Shape shifter...

Mr. Addiction: This which you do... won't help anyway.

This which you say seals forbidden thugs nothing else... your words have
no weight at all.

Mr. Addiction: You don't need any words you are fine and without them

....

Scene 2

(Wooden Cabin)

Mr. Addiction: Your words can't make anything on a coffin... you are
hurried
60 Feet Under The ground.

"The Person who commands is me" - Mr. Addiction

Mr. Addiction: I have a name because you gave me one... the fun thing
of this whole conversation I am one of you.
Mr. Addiction: You need a face for your addiction that's why you gave
me a name.

Mr. Addiction: As weak as your father

DeYtH: This is not true

Mr. Addiction: Denial won't help you.

- Confess your sins

Mr. Addiction: I won't die... if you are alive so do I

DeYtH: I can control myself.... and I will kill you.

Mr. Addiction: This all here is an example of the most foolish

determination a human has ever faced.

DeYtH: I am fool so What?

Mr. Addiction: SILENCE will destroy you

Mr. Addiction: When you are alone you read stories aboit heroes, but
when you are around people you watch forbidden content you think that
this is the way of socializing with different types of people.

Mr. Addiction:

You put that this forbidden content have negative sides - This helps you
to stop it for a week... but after a week you again come back.
Negative sides don't stop you.

DeYtH: Forbidden content was stopped by all negative sides.

Mr. Addiction:

Humans are

- Weak
- Abusing alcohol (Addiction)
- Using Drugs (Addiction)
- Smoking (Addiction)

- Weak in (thinking that they have control... of their choices but this is a
lie, everything is already written and it's on the paper... You can't change
the inevitable..)

Abusing Alcohol

- Still curious how the fuck does this helping.

Drugs... and Smoking

- Just need a reason to take one... but then it comes an excuse for two
and being apologetic to take five and letting be sentimental to take few
more. Without 15 more what type of dessert eh it be?

Mr. Addiction: Once stress overcomes, you will come back again.
Chapter 2 - Why

My problem is more likely coming from adaptable ENVIROMENT. I

adapt stuff... I can't just see them a picture... and act like a copy cat... I
want to see them and feel them.

Life is seeing... feeling and words to mouth.

...

Shhhhh

..

Shhh

...

And this here is the silent jerk-off...

Throwing one and another and then fuckin around... Masturbating... I
don't do it because of sleep back feeling... but because anxiety and
depression... Getting constantly abandoned... It doesn't motivate you to
go to somewhere...

Jerk-Off... is a stuck of behavior... YOU JUST NEVER GOING TO GET

OUT FROM THIS LOOP HOLE.
Chapter 3 - Say

by DeYtH Banger

Bullshits... bullshits... bullshits... are runing around... depression and

anxiety books are costanly ruining moods of comedians and other
people. Probably down here I am going to be fucking wrong... fucking
wrong that's what I want to underline.

Lay of undercare
Nobody really care
Careless
And
Carefree

Why people just have self-sabotage mechanism... a mechanism which

ruins... self-destructive... really ask yourself this... why nature why God
even created this feature with human... he could have done pleny other
good shit... why God gave us Devil's hand and tail and the Angel is
somewhere where no money are needed and soul is ever needed. Again
wrong and again wrong... say it and proof it... say it and proof it... I don't
have pleny stuff to lose... just I don't have... nothing really is funny...
everything is just words... sentences....texts..... nothing is really funnny...
beating the shit out of you... jealousy is a emotion which makes another
person to feel guilty.... and one other... to make him... anger and even
violent.

W
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a
t
t
y
p
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story is this... to introduce yourself in this video... in this movie....

OKAY.... OKAY... I DON'T CARE...

I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOUR NAME AND WHAT YOU DO
PROVIDE WITH THE TRUTH NOT WITH THE GARBAGE

Ribbing.. .rabbit... and blowhole... I am not sure where I am ... I just

insulted few people... I used the pick up material to do that... so put it in
the high-intellectual category... we are not talking about the Dean Koontz
world or even Stephen Kings world.... their books are genius filled with
compelx words... when you read them you feel the superiority. There is
pleny of bullshit out there... to get it clear it out... and to categorize the
whole shit you need a bullshit detector... you need
to know that the dating advice is bullshit, the recycling thing is bullshit,
breast implants... dick enlargment, bible... all marketing bullshit.... fucking
markething bullshit. Rapping and rape and killers... and skills....

All this things we can't see in the real life... boring people face with day to
day challenges..
proffesors saying bullshit, entrepreneurs selling bullshit...

HARD WORK
HARD BEAT UP
GETTING UP
DOING IT
HERE IS THE FUCKING TRUTH
FUCKING MOTIVATOR
I FEEL GUILTY
I AM NEAR SUICIDAL
AND THIS MOTIVATION YOU CAN PUT IT IN YOUR ASSHOLE
FILLED
IT
FILL THIS SUCKER
IF YOU DON'T PUT THAT
YOU GONNA GET
A DICK
A FUCKING
DICK

YOU NEED TO BE FUCKING BRAVE TO DO THAT

THINK ABOUT IT... THE GUY WHO IS A HOMO IS 1000% W
IN OTHER WORDS INTO MEN AND FUCKS ASSHOLE
IS A VERY VERY
BRAVE HUMAN KIND
JUST THINK ABOUT IT
GIVE A THOUGHT

DON'T THINK ABOUT THE PHONE

DON'T THINK ABOUT FACEBOOK
DON'T THINK ABOUT THE PAST
DON'T THINK ABOUT THE FUTURE

Did you know that there is law of attraction... (I CALL THIS A

BULLSHIT....ATTRACTION OF BULLSHIT... LAW OF BULLSHIT)... this
law says that what you say that you attract what you do this what you
attract.... and "don't" doesn't exist in the universe...

OH GOD...
THIS BULLSHIT MAKES ME NERVES
"Don't"... exist... I have read thousand of books... I am reading pleny of
books and now and reading articles and watching films and movies and
being in school and it exists...

"Don't"
"No"
"Not"

and all other bullshit....

"don't" exist... people say it to day to day life... they express it

RECYCLING
LOSING 10000000 TIME
WASTING TIME
IGNORING ALL THE PRODUCTIVITY

Oh humans...
oh fucking humans

always wanting to help

and to give
and be nice
and be right
and be perfect

...

And the whole thing is bullshit

no need for this holly dumb shit

stop being so egoistic

and real

and authentic...
OH GOD GET A GRAMMAR
BOOK
FUCK RSD JULLIEN
LET RSD MAX SUCK SOMEBODY'S COCK
LET JEFFY ALLEN TO GET SLAUGHTERED IN A HOUSE
LET OWEN COOK.... TYLER DURDEN WHO DA FUCK HE IS... LET
HIM
GAG... ON A COCK
LET HIM DIE
LET HIM DIE
LET HIM IN
IT'S TIME TO FUCK HIM

oKAY... judge me I am damn wrong... I am fucking wrong... tell it... proof

it... think about it....
just give a thought

Yoga is a bullshit
Stretching
Stetching

labels
labels
that's what we believe
labels is what believe give a nice
dumb ass story
a fucking nice
a good one
a obstacle
a challange
day to day problems a character faced with reality then give him super
ability and now we have Jason Capital a bullshit a scammer... just say it...
I am bullshittter
I GOT A PROBLEMS WITH GETTING OUT
I HAVE PROBLEMS WITH MANNER
AND THOUGHTS
AND BODY LANGUAGE
JUST FUCKING SAY IT
I AM BULLSHITTER
STOP READING
STOP WASTING TIME

OKAY... OKAY
I GONNA STOP
I GONNA STOP
BUT SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE

Knowledge... knowledge i love it... I love i t

I like to sleep i like to get in paranoia state losing and wasting time and
getting to do stuff... I lvoe it
I like the day to day stress... it's lovely process... no need for motivation...
I just don't need it
I got anxiety
I got bipolar
I got depression

Lovely
lovely
adventure of life no commentarry!
Chapter 4 - Sabotage

The brain is always trying to sabotage you... If you need to talk to
people...

- Do they hate me?

- Will they like it?
- Am I doing any favorite?
- I am small
- I am big
- I don't Have enough time
- Not today
- Not now

....

If you are talking to someone.. . Or you want to talk to a sweet attractive

girl... that's the bullshit which spins around your brain... it's sick...
IT'S FUCKING SICK

It's how people say.. .. brain is a good servant and terrible master.

The brain bullshits you all day... it happens to me... and it happens to
thousand other men...
It just happens

Complaing... and bullshit stories... is the thing which fucks us...

Excuses... Excuses.
. Excuses



Chapter 5 - Runner

And the story continues...

...
I am a runner and walker... I like to go out... at night. And to run and to
walk as much I desire... I like playing bets with my friends, I like bets
because it's DAMN difficult to see me = lose there. No such case has
ever been recorded.
...
Or has it been?


(The whole running thing started because of challenge... I don't
decline challenges... if somebody challenge me... I am going to do...
it... of course there should be some kinda guranteen of what you
offering is safe... I mean there isn't pleny of risk...)


The story was less run and more walking I started from home... at first
it sounded a crazy idea to start a km counter app on my phone and start
walking... walking and walking... I liiked the idea because I love walking...
did it before for going up to school... to home... from home to school.... to
park... . to see a friend... I just did because the sake of doing it.


The walking at first it was easy... 5 km... 10... 15... I started doing this
in the days of Satuday or Sunday or the holidays... in which I wasn't at
school...


Then 20... 25.... 30.... when I started the raw numbers... I started
feeling my legs... I started feeling my feet it was hurting... but I did... i
fucking didi it... I did it

I did 34.... kms...

 My friend gone... and gave up... probably it was around that year...
that day probably it was the day for him to get motivated to get a car. One
day before long time... he call me.. and said "My Feet hurts... but Iam
doing it... I am like 22 km..."

and somewhere in the night he told me that he wrongly pressed a
wrong button or something like that... and he started this km thing on the
next day.


It was a new beginning a new start...
Chapter 6 - Ignore

Don't fucking ignore the people which "Ask"... or look you right in the
face.
All this is symbol of somebody being mood to talk with dear, "you".


If you ignore your chances nothing more than... losing your best
chance.

...
In the end the story is going to go into directions like... The Girl trying
to make you notice her and you like "What?".
Chapter 7 - Suspense

Isn't it fun, to make somebody to wait and wait and wait and wait and
wait?
....

Until he or she gets an answer?
...

The feeling first is like
"Ohh, I have done something wrong. Bet on that!"
And even making you feel more addicted to social media.
...

Waiting and waiting to get an answer... it fucking slowly kills you
inside.

...


But that's for the greater good... after all
if something could kill ya... it's going to be "Within the Shadows".... I was
expecting a killer or serial killers, but it goes like typical pornography with
arguments.
Chapter 8 - Bullshit

Books are fulll of shit... there are chapters which you fucking love...in
a book... you love the way it's said and the way it has went. But then it
comes the chapters of which you just don't want to open... you don't want
to read... you want to skip. I have been around novels in which there isn't
anything going... one scene and all it playing around with bullshit... there
are some kinda negotiator



We won't lie... books are full of shit, porn is full of shit and all
moral codes are just fucking fat lies.



I don't know as for will I help you by this book or just another huge
turn off, I have been curious around pleny of subjects and the real truth
is that curiosity ruins my life it just makes me to focus on pleny of data
and focus on pleny books and information. This is not good!

...

Let's go back to the story... to don't go to far with the lines with the
sentences... because labels are words... words are letters and
somewhere near there... there is certain amount of sentences... by itself
it's text. If somebody has been around philosophy ... it could be spotted
lonly behavior. Depression... deep problems... and you could come in
reading such type of book with one problem in the end of the book you
got pleny of other problems to spot.

People read about stuff they don't care

Do stuff they are not interested
Talk about shit... which isn't nearly what they want to do...


Life is also like that... life is fullshit of bullshit... if you don't have bullshit...
detector your mind is going to explode.

It's going to fucking explode...

it's crazy shit!





Chapter 9 - God

Please, please bless every soul of the each dinner.. . Because I just
lost the original audiobook - #6 Of The series "Notes"... and now I am
throwing random dices.. .

...

Sorry!
Chapter 10 - Good is Good

If you are going into the right directions you are going to get signs...



Which are going to guide you - SPOIL ALERT WE BITCH
Chapter 11 - Holy Spirit Of God

I know that what I
- Smell
- See
- Taste
- Touch
...
Won't change people... I do different variantshions of one action.
I go around
- Music Classic

Note: For my mom is like hell

She says: "tuRN OFF THIS FUCKING HELL"

- Being around VHE

Note:
She says: "Time to go to sleep."
Me: "A Minute."
She says "Okay.. ."
...

After one minute

She says: "It's time"

...
After All and with VHE, it comes a time in life in which "I" should go to
sleep the same and with music.

..
- Dubstep
- Rap
- Hard Complex Music

P.S. - Won't remove this piece of wasteful hell.

Publication Date: December 20th 2018

https://www.bookrix.com/-amd935e35df1e85