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John Wilkes Booth

Trotter

Brit-Lit 2

09 January 2019

I can and I will

The struggle is real my guy. Life has been long road with smooth roads and lots and lots

of potholes, but I have kept steady and will continue to move forward. Trying to avoid hurt and

conflict, not letting myself fully give in to my emotions, and step out of my comfort zone which

can and have been a detriment in my life. But I have , as of late, made the efforts to fix those

problem areas in my life.

As a “Peacemaker”, I “tend to avoid conflict at all costs”, which is true. In the past I have

mind my own with my family, friends, and even myself, but as of late I have learned to

overcome those voices telling me to stay silent and face my problems. I drove straight into the

conflict that I was so afraid of and began to resolved the problems in my life and I'm all the

better for it. I have been able to grow in relationships that were previously sprained my

aggression.

Well healing externally, my true test is to confront my internal feelings. A large reason

why I never had examined my internal emotions is because “change can provoke unpleasant

feelings” that I may not be prepared to handle. I had a lot of anger towards my father and I kept

internalized for so long that I have normalized it and felt as if I didn't think about it then it would

go away and that I was scared of what would happen if I let those emotions out, but I learned that
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with the help of close friends and mentors, I can face these emotions without getting hurt or

hurting others. I have finally begun the process of healing inside and out.

Life has a funny way of putting at the edge of comfortability and “yeeting” you off. I

have found that “Nines find that they are usually well able to adapt” and giving the right

circumstances I too can find a way to adapt. I have tried for so long to change and be better and I

feel that I have finally done that. In the past year I have tried new things and discovered a world

that I was missing due to my complacency. I have made new long lasting relationship and help

those that needed it like I did.

I have been put through trials and have always found a way through it. My struggles and

worries have gone and I am beginning the process of fixing and understanding my emotions. I

have changed for the better and my life has been amazing. I have made some of the most

amazing and important relationships of my life and I will begin my life strong and optimistic.