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The muster
Out of the inland sky roared the sun. It flattened the land with
its intensity and turned the horizon into lines of mirages that
shimmered along the distant foothills. Above those silver illu-
sions a range of hills rose abruptly, curves of purple smudged
with dark valleys and rocky outcrops. Below, where the red earth
had once cracked and heaved, it now collapsed into ancient and
misshapen forms as though exhausted. It was an ancient place
woven with Aboriginal stories, hundreds of miles of emptiness,
largely untouched by Europeans.
And in that particular spot of nowhere, on a Tuesday after-
noon in November 1972, a group of stockmen, including three
children, drove several hundred cattle from the scrublands of
the north towards the mirage-dotted hills of the south.
I was one of those children. My skewbald horse Sandy and
I were on the tail of the mob—the lowliest role and the one I
hated the most. It meant pushing up the slowest of the cattle,
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The Bore was miles from the homestead so we’d camped the
night before to get an early start.
The start of the muster, any muster, was the best bit of the
day. As the sun rose, the distant hills would turn to mauve then
rose-pink and finally golden brown, and the air would be crisp
and our world beautiful. We’d canter along, looking for the first
mob, then the second, and then another—and it was on. Shouts
would ring through the clear morning air: ‘Bottom of the gorge!’,
‘Down on the creek!’, ‘Up on that hill!’ The cattle were often
hiding out in gullies, some cresting the top of rocky ranges,
others inside thick mulga scrub, and the minute beast saw man
and horse it would break into a run. Then the chase would
begin. There was the thrilling sound of stockwhips cracking, the
rush of air over hot faces and sweaty heads, the leaning over
the necks of trusty steeds as we wheeled the beasts towards one
big mob with shouts of: ‘Ha hup there, cattle! Hut hut—walk up!’
‘We are adventurers, one and all,’ I’d whistle through my
teeth as I crouched low over my saddle and raced towards the
flat, although I wasn’t sure where I’d learnt that from. I loved
the rush of danger, of being one with my horse as we sprinted
across rocky creek beds and up flinty hillsides and into the grey
thickets. There was the thrill in my body of being truly alive,
the sound of thrumming hooves and thumping hearts, and the
drive for a successful outcome. Dad had drilled into us that
nothing was more important than getting the mob together and
heading home without losing a beast.
But now the rush had subsided and all I could think about
was the dust that lay thickly in my mouth. It coated my throat
and made me desperate for water. I wanted a drink so much it
hurt like a bellyache. The first drink had been at the dam earlier
that morning and I’d taken a swig from my water bag about
once every hour since then. The hessian bag hung off my saddle
on Sandy’s withers, temptingly close but already half-empty.
The rest had to last all day. And I knew the rules: drink as little
as possible to train your body to be tough and strong, to go
on as long as you can without water. ‘Drinking makes you
thirsty—makes you want to drink more,’ Dad had instructed us
from as early as I could remember.
I also knew the rules of nature. We lived on a dried-out former
inland sea where you could perish on a summer’s day, especially if
you got thrown off your horse or lost during the muster.
But all I could fantasise about now was wetness in my mouth
and the trough I would put my face in tonight, swishing my
head from side to side, lapping the water like a dog. I screwed
my eyes up under my hat and took in the miles of empty flat
that lay ahead, then swivelled in my saddle to look at the mulga
scrub I’d left behind.
The only way to survive the interminable was to escape back
into my imagination. Daydreaming got me into a lot of trouble
in the schoolroom (and with Mick) but right now it was my
saviour. It was the place I hid in to endure the heat, thirst and
boredom. It lived inside my head and was drawn from the books
I read and the stories I heard.
My dreams were about a different world, another place, a
contrasting landscape.
I had never seen this other world but it was as bright as day
to me. There were rolling meadows of golden daffodils, moonlit
lakes, fields of green grasses, shady woods, trees with delicious
names like oak and beech; there was softness and coolness and
endless water. In those lands there were children who played
and had adventures and didn’t have to muster cattle in the
stinking heat. Well, Heidi did have to walk with some goats up
took a while to pull them back into the tail. Sandy and I then
resumed our weary plodding.
As I gazed out to the west I saw the sun had moved lower in
the big broad sky. I knew the heat would lessen as the afternoon
pushed on, lengthening the light and shadows along the plain as
we got towards the yards.
I thought about the ritual that was the second-best part of
the day.
Once we reached the cattle yards, we would herd the mob
in through the open gates, always a tricky and tense moment;
nobody wanted to lose cattle right before the end, having got them
safely there. Next was the job of getting the snorting, thirsty beasts
to water. It was important not to let the cattle hurt themselves in
their rush for the water. Once the cattle were safely drinking, we
would water our own horses, unsaddle them and let them out to
graze, loosely hobbled to ensure they were nearby in the morning.
Finally, the animals cared for, we would fall onto the water
ourselves and drink until our bellies were swollen, light the fire
as darkness fell, and eat steak cooked on the coals. We’d lean
against our swags, numb with tiredness. The dirt and grease
and red dust would make grotesque masks of our faces in the
firelight. There’d be jokes, maybe a guitar and some Slim Dusty
tunes. We kids would beg Irish stockman Ray to play ‘Nobody’s
Child,’ and he’d always oblige. My heart would ache for the loss
and loneliness of the orphaned boy who nobody wanted, as Ray’s
mournful, lilting tones delivered the tragedy of the song across
the dying embers of the fire. I’d think about my baby brother
Benny, at home alone with Mum; he lived on my hip when
I wasn’t on a horse. Ray’s songs always made me miss Benny more.
Then we’d roll out our swags and crawl in, fully clad, boots
tucked carefully at the bottom to keep them away from snakes.
The sky would sparkle with stars and we’d fall asleep under a
sliver of moon, listening to a dingo howling in the distance and
the comforting clink of the hobbles as the horses grazed nearby.
The next morning Dad and the young stockman would arrive
at daybreak in the old Land Rover, bringing branding irons and
a fresh tuckerbox packed by Mum. We kids would rush to see if
Mum had included the coveted tins of apricot jam and creamed
rice, along with the essentials of corned beef, damper, tomato
sauce, tea and sugar.
Then we’d all begin the yard work, with several days of hot,
sweaty and equally boring work ahead of us, drafting the entire
mob, branding the cleanskins and castrating the young micky
bulls. The cows and calves would then be returned to the pad-
docks through the bush gate, and the weaners and fat bullocks
kept aside for market.
Finally, the huge double-decker road trains from Tanami
Transport would emerge like huge prehistoric perenties crawling
through the dust. Into these giants the weaners and fat bullocks
would be loaded and trucked off to their destination miles away
down south.
That was my life.
But I knew there was another life. And I’d decided that when
I grew up I would go and find it for myself—overseas, in those
lands of magic. Until then I would think about it and imagine it
and tell myself stories about it.
And so, once the evening came and the ordeal of the day was
over, I knew I’d drift off to sleep, my head filled with dreams
of running across a snow-capped mountain, arms outstretched
in the joy of the moment, dancing with my prince, our eyes
shining, our voices singing, and living happily ever after.
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‘Well?’ prompted Michael, raising his voice. ‘Madame Foreign
Correspondent?’
The pub was really noisy and it was hard to hear. I leant
forward. ‘I like that idea!’ Michael always found a way to perk me
up. ‘Perhaps I could stay here and write stories about develop-
ments in Eastern Europe and not go back and face reality.’
‘You can stay in my garret,’ Michael said with a grin, ‘but you
and the rat would have to fight for the cheese.’ He swivelled in
his seat. ‘What is going on here?’
A large roar erupted from the bar. We strained our necks
to see. A television had been set up on the counter and
people milled about in front of it. On the screen were flashing
images of something—people, darkness, spotlights. What was
happening?
Michael got it first. ‘My God, it’s the Berlin Wall!’
We rushed forward to join the chaotic crowd around the
screen. Images of a huge, graffitied wall bore down upon us.
There were thousands of people in a square; enormous black
gates were opening.
‘East Berlin tonight is a city in chaos,’ a journalist shouted to
camera. He stood against a backdrop of barbed wire and towers
and piercing lights. ‘The East German government appears to
have collapsed, people are escaping into the West and no one is
stopping them. Are we seeing the fall of the Berlin Wall at last?
The end of the Cold War? Whatever the outcome, history is
rewriting itself before our very eyes.’
The bar was overflowing and the place was in uproar. People
were glued to the screen. More pints were pulled; Michael and
I ordered another round and watched, agog. Before I knew it,
my words were out, breathless, rushed.
‘Michael, we’ve got to get tickets. We’ve got to get to Berlin—
we’ve got to see this ourselves!’
Michael pushed his glasses up his nose and, uncharacteristic-
ally, shook his head. ‘We’ll never get tickets—’
‘—but we can try!’
‘I’ve got a conference tomorrow, in Manchester. It’s really
important. My boss is expecting me . . .’
Really? The greatest antidote to misery was action and I’d had
enough misery. No one had ever thought the Berlin Wall might
fall and the Cold War might end. Certainly not Mrs Howe,
who in Year 11 predicted that Stalin’s evil legacy would live on
forever. I was driven by a force greater than me.
‘Michael, come on! We’re here, we’re so close. It’s meant to be.
Your boring old conference can wait . . . and besides’—this was
the clincher—‘this is my chance to be a foreign correspondent.
If we go together I’ll write a story about it for you!’
Michael looked at me as if I was mad. But I was on fire. I’d had
enough of travelling alone for months, looking for something
that no longer existed. Now I had the chance to share some
thing extraordinary that did exist, something that in fact was
taking form and shape as we spoke. I wasn’t going to give it up.
‘Alright, alright.’ Michael finally capitulated like an exhausted
parent with a pesky child. ‘Better find a phone box and ring
my boss.’
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The next morning we caught a flight to Berlin, scoring two of
the few remaining seats. As Michael predicted, the entire world’s
media had the same idea, and the flight was abuzz with the
uncontrolled energy of the first day on a school bus trip—just
without the singing.
We landed in fog. Berlin was icy, dirty and unforgiving to
physical extremities. My feet, fingers and nose froze. But I didn’t
care. The scenes down at the Wall were everything the TV jour-
nalist had reported, and more. My eyes worked overtime, soaking
in the expressions of thousands of bewildered, ecstatic East
Berliners flooding to freedom through the Brandenburg Gate.
Adventures, ahoy!
November 1993
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I flew back to Alice, dizzy with excitement. Peter called me within
a few days, confirming the school was happy to take me on in the
new year and looking forward to my arrival. I resigned immedi-
ately and wrote off to Canberra for the relevant visas.
Not everyone was as enthused. ‘What are we going to do with
all your cases?’ my boss demanded. I apologised repeatedly, my
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‘We’ll miss you terribly,’ Mum whispered to me at the airport,
her eyes brimming with tears.
I hugged her, struck by that same sickening feeling of being
twelve years old again and saying goodbye to her at the boarding
school gates.
M’Lis held me tight and we clung together for a moment. Dad,
Brett and Benny gave me a last hug. Then the flight was called.
I headed across the tarmac. All around me were the huge
blue skies of Central Australia. The sun shone hot on my bare
shoulders and the light was intense. In the distance, the moun-
tain ranges shimmered purple under the midday sun. Catching
one last glimpse of my family standing close together at the gate,
I swallowed down tears.
But I knew there was more to life than what I was experi-
encing at home and I felt driven to discover what else was out
there. A whole new world was waiting to be explored, and if
I didn’t take the opportunity now, I might never do it. And I
didn’t want to live with regrets.
There would always be time to return and be a conventional
girl later.
Perhaps.
Breathing in a last deep gulp of clean, fresh air, I waved my
final goodbye. The scent of eucalyptus from the flowering gum
trees lining our path drifted to me and felt like a good omen. Even
with tears on my cheeks, I couldn’t wait to get on that plane.