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acknowledgments ix
Ordinary Affects I
I am grateful to the National Endowment for the Humanities for
a fellowship year at the School of American Research in Santa Fe;
to the University of California, Irvine, Humanities Institute for
six months in Orange County; and to the University of Texas for
a Dean's Fellowship and a Faculty Research Assignment.
Versions of various small parts of this book have been published
elsewhere, as follows: Annual Review of Anthropology 28 (1999);
Intimacy, ed. Lauren Berlant (Chicago: University of Chicago
Press, 2000); Cultural Studies and Political Theory, ed. Jodi Dean
(Ithaca: Cornell University Press, 2000); Cross Cultural Poetics 3,
no. 3 (2000); Modernism, Inc.: Essays on American Modernity, ed.
Jani Scanduri and Michael Thurston (New York: New York Uni-
versity Press, 2002); "Public Sentiments: Memory, Trauma, His-
tory, Action," ed. Ann Cvetkovich and Ann Pelegrini, special issue
of Scholar and Feminist Online 2, no. I (2003); Aesthetic Subjects:
Pleasures, Ideologies, and Ethics, ed. Pamela Matthews and David
McWhirter (Minneapolis: University of Minnesota Press, 2003);
Transparency and Conspiracy: Ethnographies of Suspicion in the
New World Order, ed. Harry G. West and Todd Sanders (Dur-
ham, N.C.: Duke University Press, 2003); Histories of the Future,
ed. Susan Harding and Daniel Rosenberg (Durham, N.C.: Duke
University Press, 2005); Handbook of Qualitative Research, ed.
Norman Denzin and Yvonna Lincoln (London: Sage, 2005); and
"Uncharted Territories: An Experiment in Finding Missing Cul-
tural Pieces," ed. Orvar Lofgren, special issue, Ethnologia Europea:
Journal of European Ethnology I, no. 2 (2005).
Many people have read or listened to parts or all of the various
versions of this book. I am especially grateful to Begona Aretxaga,
Lauren Berlant, James Clifford, Ann Cvetkovitch, Steven Feld,
Donna Haraway, Susan Harding, Mary Hufford, Laura Long,
Jason Pine, Gretchen Ritter, Betsy Taylor, Greg Urban, and Scott
Webel. From the start, the life and stories of Daniel Webb have
been an inspiration for my work in this volume. Some excel-
lent stories also came from Andrew Causey, who is permanently
missed in the neighborhood, and one came from Penny Van Horn
who is still an excellent presence even though I never see her. My
mother, Claire, and my brothers, Frank and Michael, each con-
tributed a story. Other members of my family also built, and con-
tinue to build, the affective and narrative ground on which this
book roosts. The Public Feelings group at the University of Texas
has been the most intellectually and affectively stimulating and
supporting academic scene I have ever been part of I thank Ken
Wissoker for knowing what this project was about long ago and
being there for it, so patient and clear. Ronn Dula, John Dula,
and Ariana Stewart have spun around the thing, day to day, with
grace, squeals of laughter and rage, rolled eyes, whispers, head-
aches, distractions, interruptions, and smiling eyes (or knowing
smirks). Thank you for that.
Ordinary Afficts is an experiment, not a judgment. Committed
not to the demystification and uncovered truths that support a
well-known picture of the world, but rather to speculation, curi-
osity, and the concrete, it tries to provoke attention to the forces
that come into view as habit or shock, resonance or impact. Some-
thing throws itself together in a moment as an event and a sensa-
tion; a something both animated and inhabitable.
This book is set in a United States caught in a present that
began some time ago. But it suggests that the terms neoliberalism,
advanced capitalism, and globalization that index this emergent
present, and the five or seven or ten characteristics used to sum-
marize and define it in shorthand, do not in themselves begin
to describe the situation we find ourselves in. The notion of a
totalized system, of which everything is always already somehow
a part, is not helpful (to say the least) in the effort to approach
a weighted and reeling present. This is not to say that the forces
these systems try to name are not real and literally pressing. On
the contrary, I am trying to bring them into view as a scene of
immanent force, rather than leave them looking like dead effects
imposed on an innocent world.
The ordinary is a shifting assemblage of practices and practical
knowledges, a scene of both liveness and exhaustion, a dream of
escape or of the simple life.1 Ordinary affects are the varied, surg-
sity of Chicago Press, 2000) and her essays "Nearly Utopian, Nearly
Normal: Post-Fordist Affect in Rosetta and La Promesse" (Public Culture,
forthcoming) and "Slow Death" (Critical Inquiry, forthcoming) for dis-
cussions of an individual's abstract yet contingent desire to feel like he
or she is "in" something or can recognize something.
"do not have to await definition, classification, or rationalization
before they exert palpable pressures."4 Like what Roland Barthes
calls the "third meaning," they are immanent, obtuse, and erratic,
in contrast to the "obvious meaning" of semantic message and
symbolic signification.5 They work not through "meanings" per
se, but rather in the way that they pick up density and texture as
they move through bodies, dreams, dramas, and social woddings
of all kinds. Their significance lies in the intensities they build and
in what thoughts and feelings they make possible. The question
they beg is not what they might mean in an order of representa-
tions, or whether they are good or bad in an overarching scheme
of things, but where they might go and what potential modes of
knowing, relating, and attending to things are already somehow
present in them in a state of potentiality and resonance.
Ordinary affects, then, are an animate circuit that conducts
force and maps connections, routes, and disjunctures.6 They are a
kind of contact zone where the overdeterminations of circulations,
events, conditions, technologies, and flows of power literally take
place. To attend to ordinary affects is to trace how the potency of
forces lies in their immanence to things that are both flighty and
hardwired, shifty and unsteady but palpable too. At once abstract
and concrete, ordinary affects are more directly compelling than
ideologies, as well as more fractious, multiplicitous, and unpre-
dictable than symbolic meanings. They are not the kind of analytic
object that can be laid out on a single, static plane of analysis, and
. : = . w impacts
.- ..:".:::r scheming For years now her early childhood has been coming back to her as
': :': :::::",'of attune- shocks of beauty, or beautiful shocks.
: --,.-.aching and She remembers her kindergarten class walking back from
:' .:...::::=-:,:\'-tohow Woolworth's, carrying a box of furry yellow chicks. The look of
. ~ -=,L.-::-~ waved in
_______
red tulips standing upright in her mother's garden is married to
- -::",::::. another (as the taste of found raspberries and tart rhubarb ripped out of the
,= _=:: Ja\'dream-a ground when no one was looking and eaten with a spoonful of
_:-.:".·lj). There's a dirt.
.:.::."-:".::er,
the differ- The scene of her mother in a beautiful black dress and red lip-
: --::'~er:'thing that stick getting ready to go out cuts to the brilliant blood exploding
from the face of the boy next door when he fell from a cliff and
landed face down on the cement in front of her. Then the scene
cuts to the rhythm of shocks, days later, as her father and the other
men tear the cliff apart boulder by boulder. Each time one hits
the ground it shakes the glasses in the pantry with an impact that
- :. -: Te-edhabit. seems transformative.
',-,-~.;rl.Because her There is a spectral scene of her little brother hunched over
'::':e--::asand luminous something in the row of pine trees that hug the house. She passes
.T.::.:.:.==-:rs. And because him on the way to school; on the way back at lunchtime, there is
- :-: - ::.::.=0 everyone- the the sight of the house in flames and the driveway full of fire trucks
,'" - ~-.'ere-ood.) with flashing red lights. The phrase "playing with matches" seems
- - --- t:l
:::::::.c:hrough the out- to be written across the blue sky in huge, white, cloud letters.
Or there is the day that all of her grandparents come to visit and
they are floating up the treacherous driveway in a big, wide car.
Then the wheels are sliding off the icy edge and the big car lurches
to the edge of the cliff and hangs suspended. The white heads in
the back seat sit very still while she runs, yelling for help.
There are her fingers crushed in the milk door on the landing,
her screams stifled in a panic to keep the secret that there are wild Ordinary life, too. -=-:-~.
rabbits running around in the cellar. arrest. Stilllifes punc~_~'::
Sunday drives are ice cream cones dripping down sticky fingers with ribbons and wir::: ;:'-:
in the back seat and the wordless theft of the baby's cone, silent in the back seat of d'.:: ;::.: .c
tears running down fat cheeks. There is the unspoken agreement lake, the collection c,c' :'c. c~:
among the older kids not to alert the front seat. after a hike in the ffiC_C. ~"--:
There's the dreamy performance at the VFW hall. Her sister is in the closet, the mccc.O:C.
the "cancan" girl covered in clanking cans, and she's the "balloon lurch into view wi~:,,-c .~
girl" dancing in floating plastic spheres to the lyrics of "Itsy Bitsy out when a strange CC."--'-- .. O:
Teenie Weenie Yellow Polka Dot Bikini" while everyone laughs. perience that pull a~c c -,-.c_"-
Later, there are Saturday mornings spent fidgeting at her frame.
grandmother's table while her mother and her aunts tell graphic A still life is a sta:::c :~.c':
stories prompted by the seemingly simple work of remembering nance. A quivering ;c. ~.-.:: _
kinship ties and married names-stories of alcoholism, accidents, gives the ordinary th:: cc_,,--';
violence, and cancers. It is the intensity :c cc. ::
There are the nights walking the streets with her mother, peer- or a glitch in the proi::cc --::
ing into picture windows to catch a dreamy glimpse of scenes at a life. Or a simple sw:::: ._.;:
rest or a telltale detail out of place. A lamp by a reading chair or a When a still life lC~C;: ~::
shelf of knickknacks on the wall, a chair overturned. a shock or as some .~=.:~. - -
So still, like a postcard. of sheer pleasure-2.r: _cc_:
feeling. Or an alibi c'cc =-- :
insanity folded into c~_:: ::::
can be a flight from L_CC.C'.c
strategies of carrying 'c."-
A still is a state of calm, a lull in the action. But it is also a machine It can turn the self :-.~: c
hidden in the woods that distills spirits into potency through a
process of slow condensation.
In painting, a still life is a genre that captures the liveness of in-
animate objects (fruit, flowers, bowls) by suspending their sensory
beauty in an intimate scene charged with the textures of paint and There was a time ,,'le::c. ~_-_0:
desire. traipsing around sme..:.-=-.--C.
Hitchcock was a master of the still in film production. A simple vation and faded be2.:':"C'-:--.
pause of the moving camera to focus on a door or a telephone ornate, stone-cut Geccc.-'-C. c _
could produce a powerful suspense. now hosting gift shcF'
_- -- ~~--~, Ordinary life, too, draws its charge from rhythms of flow and
~, - - --_'-..~ that there are wild
arrest. 5tilllifes punctuate its significance: the living room strewn
me: :.-:::: _=_0:: -:lawn sticky fingers with ribbons and wine glasses after a party, the kids or dogs asleep
- ----- ;~ babv's cone, silent in the back seat of the car after a great (or not so great) day at the
- - ,
-~_~~:lspoken agreement lake, the collection of sticks and rocks resting on the dashboard
after a hike in the mountains, the old love letters stuffed in a box
'1.::: ~- ~ 0 hall. Her sister is
-:=T in the closet, the moments of humiliation or shock that suddenly
~_i she's the "balloon lurch into view without warning, the odd moments of spacing
- - : ~ :nics of "Itsy Bitsy out when a strange malaise comes over you, the fragments of ex-
~,~ __:~ 'everyone laughs. perience that pull at ordinary awareness but rarely come into full
I: ,-- '- fidgeting at her
':: ~:-H
frame.
Ii: ':_-"- - :-:-_:- ~_~raunts tell graphic A still life is a static state filled with vibratory motion, or reso-
-:: _0 -,'-,erk of remembering nance. A quivering in the stability of a category or a trajectory, it
::: .:c:::oholism,accidents, gives the ordinary the charge of an unfolding.
It is the intensity born of a momentary suspension of narrative,
l!I: 00:' -<::, her mother,
peer- or a glitch in the projects we call things like the self, agency, home,
e: _ ::- ~c--.-_-- dimpse of scenes at a life. Or a simple stopping.
1::: - :.--.- ::::"~ a reading chair or a When a still life pops up out of the ordinary, it can come as
~r:urned. a shock or as some kind of wake-up call. Or it can be a scene
of sheer pleasure-an unnamed condensation of thought and
feeling. Or an alibi for all of the violence, inequality and social
insanity folded into the open disguise of ordinary things. Or it
can be a flight from numbing routine and all the self-destructive
strategies of carrying on.
"3 '..Itit is also a machine It can turn the self into a dreaming scene, if only for a minute.
=_:0 potency through a
Cabins covered in creeping vines took on the solid ephemerality The snatchins ::= c.:- =.
of an inhabited place. Local characters flickered in and out of view something) wid: :.--:'C' =.'
like dream figures. The women would drift into a feeling of possi- ::-ipping over a ba~;c-'
bility and rest. are happening too.
It was certainly not small-town values or clean living they were
~~'= ::-.lI featured pies piled
after, but rather the way that the synesthetic web of fabulated
!ll-=~ :_:"z lnd whete the waitress
sights and tastes made scenes and objects resonate. It was as if
1C'::'= ,.' detail. Or the antique
_:"Z
they could dwell in the ongoing vibrancy of the ordinary, leaving
~... =,~ig
:..--_::.accent described the
_=_
c - • ::._-,-,~en-
on a dusty hill
lilt --~.::':ld skirts and head-
lil -=~'.~e ~-_e;:could be ushered The potential stored in ordinary things is a network of transfers
and relays.
! --;, -::::::. ::.z:::-
girls ride bareback Fleeting and amorphous, it lives as a residue or resonance in an
IJC,'=-=--::::e::. :::,::-hindthe dry goods emergent assemblage of disparate forms and realms of life.
tn,:: Yet it can be as palpable as a physical trace.
£1:' ::':c.::' ,=' rillcy too. There was Potentiality is a thing immanent to fragments of sensory ex-
~ ,- _- '-,~.::-:lIpaper. There were perience and dreams of presence. A layer, or layering to the ordi-
- ::.::' :::-.:::.11
the name of the nary, it engenders attachments or systems of investment in the
, ::.'•~:: :hops or the authen- unfolding of things.
, ::.= oueet. The New York
EC =--, e ::.::.:'e: ca11ed" escapes. "
-
Sunday nnd dawned dazzlingly fair but still too cold for comfort.
However, I braved the blast to give a birthday greeting to a friend-a
Dutch woman born in Holland, whose cake blazed with one hun-
dred candles. I took as a little offering a pretty birthday card and
a box of orange blossoms. The beautiful sprays were cut from rwo
trees of the Louisiana orange I bought and my daughter Faith and I
planted ourselves three years ago. The cold seems not to have touched
them and I learn that this tree will live and thrive in a temperature
of eighteen degrees. Well, the lady in attendance on the sweet cente-
narian selected a tiny wreath of the fragrant white buds and blossoms
nestling in the glossy green leaves, and pinned it on the black silk cap
of the old, old lady. The room was crowded-everyone applauded
and the recipient was charmed. The first orange blossoms she had
worn since her young girlhood's marriage.
I trust all this doesn't bore your majesty-crowned with the Ordinary scenes ca~ ~e::-::
weighty and mighty honor of rwenty-one years! I'm glad you have to
story let out of the ~~; .
work-a boy is gravely handicapped who has a well-filled purse. God Matter can shic:-::.e:: c
speed you to a true and worthy success! No matter ifI do believe that weight of received C~~~~_
work-honorable work-is the salt that savors life, had I money I'd One day she's\\'aL=-:_-_:: :.-~
fill your purse, I would. As it is-keep your dawn unsullied-and
California (where, a' :':--:
work for your purpose.
the trash cans sit c:-_ --
rows"). She comes a:::
The strangely vibrant rhetoric of the letter makes it a "some- parked at the curb
thing" in itself, as if it could embody the conventions of a past door are the word: .~
time and yet also defYcapture. your-face attitude. :~: a:
~.:-_~s a letter written Her neighbor advertises his moving sale in the paper. He's got
~_;: ~ J' medical schooL quality items: a new couch, oak bookshelves, and major appli-
- " ~-~J:,le tike to look at ances. By seven AM a hundred people are gathered outside the
gates. It's a tense and strangely vital scene as strangers, bent on
getting stuff, half bond and half vie for the best place to rush the
~: ':' cold for comfort.
gates when they open. One man goes and gets coffee and donuts
-
-_.
c-oo-;no-
:-- - - ----0
to a friend-a
to share. A woman and her daughter strategize about how to reach
__:: : _:2ed with one hun-
before anyone else both the media console sitting at the far end
: '::-=-:- birthday card and
of the yard and the washing machine propped up on a dolly in
: -.:--, ',':ere cut from two
the driveway. A grandmother is a habitual yard-saler. She laughs
: - '::':clghter Faith and I
about how it got so bad she had to buy a pickup truck and build
_ _,~_, :Lotto have touched
a second garage to store all the stuff.
. ' :. ~.-.::
__
:e in a temperature
Now bodies begin to maneuver and align. When the gates open
- .. :.:.:-_::: 0:1 the sweet cente-
at eight they rush in. By ten, everything has been carted away.
_-._~::
Duds and blossoms
. - c:' _~Jr, the black silk cap
:.~:.- ::-,-eryone applauded
: :.'.ze blossoms she had
We take our cues so directly from circulating forces that the term
"hardwired" has become shorthand for the state of things.
Little undulations are felt as pleasures and warning signs, as
intoxications and repetitions in daily routine.
In "July Mountain.
incipient universe.
and a sensation. It is a potential mapping of disparate and in- noon. These are gooc :':: :::
commensurate qualities that do not simply "add up" but instead lotions and rubs the~~ ~..
link complexly, in difference and through sheer repetition and He maintains a c-=-:~~_
not through the enclosures of identity, similarity, or meaning, or to be going well for ~.~~
through the logic of code. It is fall colors, maple syrup, tourist A few minutes lace:
brochures, calendars, snow, country stores; liberalism and yet the biscuit man, "Of co-.::::
fight over gay marriage; racial homogeneity and yet everywhere nodding. "Of course, :.
white lesbian couples with babies of color; the influx of New York and gravy. His eyes ',' -=-.:-,
:::: ,
wealth long ago rushing in to shore up that certain look of rolling the range of possible :c":: ::'
hills and red barns and yet also the legacy of the dairy industry plate and eats.
written onto the landscape and property laws; and the quirkiness, She wonders hO'o-, -.
quaintness, dullness, and! or violence of village life in this time before Internet dar:L~
and place. The question is not where, exactly, this Vermontness local newspaper. i\ k: ~"O'
came from - its "social construction," strictly speaking- but the aged people in the (,y...:: =-
moment when a list of incommensurate yet mapped elements Just to see what ,,'OL.: ,':::
throws itself together into something. Again. One time among right, even though ":, .
many. An event erupting out of a series of connections express-
ing the abstract idea- Vermontness-through a fast sensory relay.
Disparate things come together differently in each instance, and
yet the repetition itselfleaves a residue like a track or a habit-the
making of a live cliche. Face-to-face interac=:::.
quick relay to floati:::=:::' -
tion that link us.
In Las Vegas in r}~e~-=-
==:
ad hoc storefront wir~~-=- =.:
She stops in at a cafe on a town square in Ohio. with eclectic inexpeLs:: :='
Two middle-aged people sit awkwardly together at the next and store are closed -'~:
table. A thin, blonde, carefully tanned woman is having a grape- uses the space.
fruit while the heavy-set, pasty man is eating biscuits and gravy. In one meeting a .
, ~ ,~, -'-:noment is al- It's an odd scene-clearly their first meeting. The woman is talk-
",-~::--,-d~'
problema- ing about her workout schedule and what she eats. She says she's
~_:_~c;TO happen. It not obsessive about it but she likes to keep her body in shape. She
_ :::--,-:,bag of quali- pulls out bottles of vitamins and herbal supplements. "I take two
~=~~::-~into an event of these when I wake up, these are with meals, these in the after-
---=.-':Jarateand in- noon. These are good for energy if! feel a little low." She takes out
~~'::''':'F''but instead lotions and rubs them into her skin .
. :=~rc:petition and He maintains a careful look of interest. But things don't seem
',I'I,r meaning, or to be going well for him.
=-'-; i::- ,nup, tourist A few minutes later she hears the grapefruit woman say to the
. ~:-~:,:n and yet the biscuit man, "Of course, you'd have to lose thirty pounds." He's
- ",--, ~ :.'c:teverywhere nodding. "Of course, oh yes." He's looking down at his biscuits
" = ,~_=-..:.s of New York and gravy. His eyes wander around the table at a level well below
::'-:-'-~,look of rolling the range of possible eye contact. Then he lowers his head over his
-- =__,:': dairy industry plate and eats.
",--.
~ :he quirkiness, She wonders how these two people found each other. This is
....=~= .J:~ in this time before Internet dating, so maybe they used personal ads in the
::,:=~, Vermontness local newspaper. Maybe they were the only two single, middle-
'-~:Jina-but
' __- b the aged people in the county. Whatever it was, it was an experiment.
.' :-:'-,-ppedelements Just to see what would happen. And things were happening, all
=-":1C: time among right, even though "it" was so "not happening."
~.~.c:;::rions express-
_;. -'-I~'t sensory relay.
. ::--,-=h instance, and
r-=.::.=,-~
or a habit-the
Face-to-face interactions and common encounters jump in a
quick relay to floating sensibilities and the conditions of connec-
tion that link us.
In Las Vegas in the late 1980s, a post office outpost shares an
ad hoc storefront with a flower shop and a gift shop sparsely filled
with eclectic inexpensive ceramics. At noon, when the post office
.::.
: zc:.::.her
at the next and store are closed for lunch, a color therapy group sometimes
- ~_ ~,having a grape- uses the space.
-; ~is;::uitsand gravy. In one meeting a dozen people sit in a circle on gray-metal
folding chairs. One man is talking about a relationship problem might begin to piece to§:~~:-~~ :
that has something to do with the fact that he's a magenta. The making things up.
people in the group respond with intricate discussions of the But the people \'vhe ~: ~=;
shades of color and color combinations that connect different colors as symbols or coC~,. -=-~-:
personal energies and styles. Then a young woman begins to talk colors and what the\,-G:':-~ .~: -:-
about a problem at work that stems from her being a yellow. They're fooling arounc "-
Now alternative health practitioners and mystics advertise color are made of Theywam ~::~ ~
therapy on the Web. They use colored gemstones, candles, wands, talking things over witt
prisms, light bulbs, water, fabrics, bath treatments, and eyewear
to balance the body's energy and stimulate healing. Each color has
a vibrational frequency; warm colors are stimulating; cool colors
are calming; a strong attraction to certain colors might signal a
particular imbalance. Meanwhile, down the ,,:::~
You can playa game with color codes if you want to. Red is that the color therap:~ g:: _~
active, daring, passionate, and optimistic. Red people are coura- cal factory explodes ac": :.
geous, confident, humanistic, strong-willed, spontaneous, hon- Nevada.
est, and extroverted. Purple is grand, idealistic, and sensitive, but The FEMA hearincr, - -: c'
t:'~ '-- --::-
may lack self-criticism and maturity. Purple people make good Small businesses have
inspirational leaders. They are kindly and just, humanitarian, self- carrying dangerous ch::-:~~:
sacrificing, visionary, creative, and strong mentally. Magenta is of backyards where in=--~:..:
~__~ _
less aggressive and more spiritual than red and also more practi- big business operations '_:::: -
cal than purple. Yellow is intellectual and communicative. Yellow of callous disregard for ~:.~_:: ~
people are good-humored, optimistic, confident, practical, and She starts talking \,,~:
t:-.~~-:~:
intellectual. owners. He feels sligh'::": ::' _
You can imagine yourself through the model of one of the frontations with local F=~~ ~~: ~
types. Or against it. Maybe you'd like to be orange. Orange is are fights. They're diggi=--.;:. ~ ::
more ambitious and self-sufficient than red, but lacks its warmth. voting his life to the C2':": ::-::
It has the intelligence of yellow without its loftiness. Orange distance phone calls :',:'- -
people are enthusiastic, happy, sociable, energetic, sporty, self- unearth stories: the vo':'=--~~ -..:.
assured, and constructive. But then you might think you're actu- poisonous snakes in i:, :::c"--=
ally probably closer to a green. And that's on a good day. Green everything in the blast: ~~-~:
'~-
is healing, sympathetic, steadfast, and restrained. Green people looking for peace or sc:-:~::_-_~
are understanding, self-controlled, adaptable, sympathetic, com- sound of windows and
passionate, humble, generous, nature loving, and romantic. You and the smell of gas.
__ - : :-_,~ipproblem might begin to piece together combinations of colors and blends,
- :-:'2.genta.The
-=--
making things up.
- =-_:-.:-ssionsof the But the people who are really into color therapy don't read
- - -:: -_:-_~;::L different colors as symbols or codes. They're into the real surface qualities of
-- : -~~(Tins
_0·--- -'-:::-
to talk colors and what they can do. They don't care what colors "mean."
,- -:~_:-_:2.nllow. They're fooling around with the forces that be, to see what things
::' 2.dnrtise color are made of. They want to set things in alchemical motion. They're
_, -:2.-1dles,wands, talking things over with like-minded people. You never know.
, - ~:-_:O. and eyewear
, __,-_: Each color has
- _-=--:::-.~: cool colors
::' Tight signal a
Meanwhile, down the street, at practically the very same moment
: _ ".am to. Red is that the color therapy group is meeting in the post office, a chemi-
- _=-~~:ple are coura- cal factory explodes and blows up half the town of Henderson,
::: :1:aneous, hon- Nevada.
, - sensitive, but The FEMA hearings drag on for months. There is testimony.
,. c' : ~y::, le make good Small businesses have been ruined by the blast. Unmarked trains
- ~,-.:-~anitarian, self- carrying dangerous chemicals have been running along the edges
..•.c':-.:jl:-. Magenta is of backyards where innocent children play. There's talk of secret
_~=-':":'50 more practi- big business operations supported by the federal government and
_ :-:'_:-:·,'-.:-rricative.
Yellow of callous disregard for future generations.
- ~ =-c':_:,practical, and She starts talking with the de facto leader of the small business
owners. He feels slighted by FEMA. He and the others have con-
-- :::.d of one of the frontations with local politicians. There are sinister threats. There
. : :ange. Orange is are fights. They're digging for dirt and finding plenty. Bob is de-
-:..::~acksits warmth. voting his life to the cause. He spends hundreds of dollars on long
:: ~oftiness. Orange distance phone calls every month. He organizes a campaign to
_:-,~:~c'[ic, sporty, self- unearth stories: the young man who was raising tarantulas and
-~:,: chink you're actu- poisonous snakes in his apartment to pay for college and lost
: :-_2.good day. Green everything in the blast; the retired couple who came to the town
:: 2.-:lcd. Green people looking for peace or something and who awoke that night to the
__ ,-,-mpathetic, com- sound of windows and glass doors smashing all over the house
_ 2.-1dromantic. You and the smell of gas.
When Bob and the other small business owners get no satisfac- izes his talk has becoT~ -
tion from the government, they decide to take things into their happening. The air gOe'
own hands. They come up with an idea to start over by building moving toward the -, -"
a chemical factory of their own. They already know plenty about leaves the house. He c~.'
manufacturing. This is America and they can do anything. Some- to report on the pro:;~~':
one says he knows an engineer who'll work with them. Now they him on the phone, no: ~~.::
just need someone who knows something about chemicals. ing her distance (too l,,-:~
Things keep getting worse. Bob is calling her every night. Then
he's piecing together a conspiracy too big to talk about over the
phone. She meets him in a church parking lot on the edge of
town. The sunset is spectacular. Bob wants to tell her his life story:
the big, beautiful, wild Nevada of his childhood; hunting and Watching and waitim: ~.-'-:~..
fishing in a pure land; his return, years later, to start his own busi- She's no different f~c~. -'---
ness and raise his children right; then the explosion, just when .mg "pay attentIOn.'
. I" b C::~.:.
he was beginning to get on his feet again. Now there are days he idea.
just wants to end it all. He takes his son fishing up at the lake and Hypervigilance has :-'--':~--
they're floating in a pristine scene. He has his gun with him and pulsives who keep elm:: :::0:,..
he's going to blow his head off. Because he's the kind of guy who, Like the guy she heard "-~: .... :
ifhe comes to the bottom of a mountain, he elimbs it, straight up, life recording everyth:,.~ .-.::_'
no problem, that's just who he is. But the system is throwing up splashed cold water 0" .-:: ~:...
roadblocks in front of him so he can't even get to the mountain to the bathroom, 6:45 m,,-d~ ...::-:. :
dig his heels in and start working. Or there are those ;:~:~:_ ~ :
It's getting dark. He's talking too much about himself. She gan where she and n\·o: :.-.~-:.
says she's talked to other people who have experiences like his houses. The neighbor's::'. ~~.
and think the way he does. This makes him mad (much to her his walks in the woods .. -..: . :J.
surprise). He's an individual. There's no one in the world like him. into Polish folk dances ".-.~:~ .
He isn't like anything. He comes on to her. She gets out of there dance floor together, d-.e~. :.~'':
but now she's anxious and her stomach is queasy. He keeps call- lic church in town. Or.:: ;:: - ,
ing. She visits him once more-this time at his house with his gathered at one of thei~ ~.:..:::
wife and children. There's no furniture left in the house. They sit of himself walking aroc:..~.:.-- ~
on the carpet in the empty living room and eat pizza out of the (At the same time he ~':
box. Everyone's very quiet. It's scary and depressing; there's some- without explanation. -=:-.~.....-::
thing just a little bit "off' and terribly wrong. Now he's mumbling have a nice evening.) _~-=-:~~ :..::.
bitterly about things she can't quite hear and then she half real- home video. They hear ;-.. _ 0:
-~~:~'get no satisfac- izes his talk has become lewd and is directed at her. This can't be
•.~~~-~incrs
~-- -" - 0
into their happening. The air goes out of the room. She stands up and starts
- -.: .:.~.erby building moving toward the door. She thanks his now wide-eyed wife. She
~:.:-~
.:.'.•.~plenty about leaves the house. He calls only once more, a couple of days later,
- ~: -=..n\L:hing. Some- to report on the progress of his case with FEMA. She's cool with
~ - ~_ ~lem. Now they him on the phone, not encouraging him to keep in touch. Keep-
-< _~ :iemicals. ing her distance (too late).
- :--:~ :""'0' night. Then
.:.~_-:about over the
-; :.:. :m the edge of
.:.:_~",r his life story:
~-_~.:.::.:hunting and Watching and waiting has become a sensory habit.
- ~ '.:.-=..:t
his own busi- She's no different from anyone else. All her life she's been yell-
=::?" ~5ion, just when ing "Pay attentionl" but now she's not so sure that's such a good
::.~ereare days he
~ : ~.c~ idea.
-~ ..:.::'at the lake and Hypervigilance has taken root. There are the obsessive com-
~..:.nwith him and pulsives who keep close track of everything because they have to.
-_-: ~;:ind of guy who, Like the guy she heard about on the radio who spends his whole
= :~~_--:_:'5 it, straight up, life recording everything he does. "Got up at 6:30 AM, still dark,
-:.:."':-::-_
is throwing up splashed cold water on my face, brushed my teeth, 6:40 went to
-,.:..:.:~'le mountain to the bathroom, 6:45 made tea, birds started in at 6:53 ... "
Or there are those like the neighbor on a little lake in Michi-
-=-::: y~[ himself. She gan where she and two other anthropologists live in a row oflittle
:c:riences like his houses. The neighbor's hobby is video taping every move he makes:
- ~:-=-i (much to her his walks in the woods, his rides in his Model T Ford, his forays
- ::.-_C ,,"';oddlike him. into Polish folk dances where old women go round and round the
;:-: gets out of there dance aoor together, the monthly spaghetti suppers at the Catho-
.:._ c-=..5~". He keeps call- lic church in town. One night when the three anthropologists are
e':' _-_:, house with his gathered at one of their houses he stops by to give them a video
-- :_~:house. They sit of himself walking around the lake in the winter snow and ice.
.- _~-.:. :-=-: Dizza out of the (At the same time he also gives them an xxx-rated porn video
.
_"=~:c":::lg; h'
teres some- without explanation. Then he just leaves, saying he hopes they
:- ~".:.'.'.~
he's mumbling have a nice evening.) After dinner, they settle down to watch his
_- ~ ::-c",nshe half real- home video. They hear his every breath and footstep. There are
some deer droppings on the path and some snow piles that have
suspicious shapes. Then he's walking up to Bob and Alice's cabin
(they're in Florida for the winter) and he's zooming in on a mas-
sive lump pushing out the black plastic wrapped around the base
of the house. Uh-oh. Could be ice from a broken water main.
Maybe the whole house is full of ice. He wonders what will hap-
pen when the (possible) ice thaws. Could be a real problem. He
says maybe he'll send a copy of his video to Bob and Alice down
in Florida. Then he moves on. Back to the breathing, the icicles,
the footsteps in the snow. Things are (potentially) happening and
he is in the habit of paying strict visual attention. But he is not
necessarily in the habit of getting to the bottom of things or of
making a decision or a judgment about what to do. He is making
a record of his own ordinary attention to things and it's this-
the record of his attention-that he shares, indiscriminately, with
the anthropologists gathered next door and maybe with poor Bob
and Alice down in Florida. Possibilities and threats that pop up
in the process remain lodged in the actual look of things and are
preserved as such. He's an extremist, pushing things for some rea-
son, but the close, recorded attention to what happens and to
the intense materiality of things make some kind of sense to a lot
of people and not just when they're watching America's Funniest The anthropologisrs ~:~:=- .:.
Home Videos or reality TV. poking around. The' ~=-.-,-::
There are those who give shape to their everyday by mining huts on the frozen l'e-:-::-=---
it for something different or special. Like her friends, Joyce and sit down on the benc~_ -
Bob, who live in the woods in New Hampshire. He is a lumber- Not even "Who are -::.
jack. She cleans the little I950S tourist cabins with names like Swiss sit together in a wile . .:c-'
Village and Shangri-La. Joyce left her husband and four kids after hole in the ice to the:: ~~=-
years of living straight in a regime of beatings under the sign of a single question that :::~:."
Jesus. She went out the back window one day and never looked When they take \,.-~~:::-
back. Then she met Bob when she was tending bar and they took They are more talLe::--:
a walk on the wild side together that lasted for a dozen happy anthropologists to kr.: -, :",
years (though not without trouble, and plenty of it). She let him some other hunters ""=-: :_
have his drinking problem because he worked hard. He would hit nice. They've been to c: __~::::
~~:~'. piles that have the bottle when he got home at night and all weekend long. She
~ ~:: "-red.L'\lice'scabin called him Daddy even though she was a good ten years older and
: ~_:::_gin on a mas- pushing fifty.
": ::::.:."-::oundthe base They moved from rental cabin to rental cabin in the north
c ::::n water main.
::::: woods. They invited raccoons into their cabin as if they were pets.
" .:.::::,\\-hat will hap- They got up at 5 AM to write in their diaries. When they got home
_" :::: "- ::::J problem. He at night they would read their daily entries out loud and look at
:= ::: "--''1d
Alice down the artsy pictures Bob took of treetops and bee nests. Finally, they
::::::"-~~ing, the icicles, were able to get a low-income loan to buy a little fixer-upper they
- ~"--_- iappening and had found in some godforsaken place on the north side of the
_"::~.:~:::".But he is not lake.
- ~-:: ~_ of things or of But then a card came from Joyce that said Bob had left her for
- c-:: 20. He is making "that floozy" he met in a bar.
-_-__::~:::'and it's this- She wonders if Joyce still keeps a diary, if she still fancies the
::. .:.~,:::::minately,with serendipitous discovery of happiness and looks for ways to deposit
_~:--:~:c~~~:: \\~ithpoor Bob it in the ordinary, or if something else has happened to her ordi-
" :: ~-_:::arsthat pop up nary.
~~__ rhings and are
-;: ~-:~::.§:s for some rea-
=~.:.:iappens and to
-- : ~'=-::-.': of sense to a lot
- ".:::_-:'i!{'i'icas Funniest The anthropologists keep doing the fun things they do together,
poking around. They knock on the doors of the little fishermen's
:~::::-day by mining huts on the frozen lake. They invite themselves in for a visit and
~ -::: ~::::nds,Joyce and sit down on the bench inside. But the fishermen don't say a thing.
::"_.:::. He is a lumber- Not even "Who are you?" or "What are you doing here?" So they
_:!" :lames like Swiss sit together in a wild, awkward silence staring down through the
- ..".:. "--=,_d
four kids after hole in the ice to the deep, dark waters below. They can't think of
::-;o_:lder the sign of a single question that makes any sense at all.
-: ::.:- ':'Ld never looked When they take walks in the woods, they come across hunters.
- =_=;::a and they took They are more talkative than the ice fishermen. They want the
~::.:.::-:':a dozen happy anthropologists to know that they aren't "Bambi killers." Maybe
- _" =-~ :::- ir). She let him some other hunters are, but not them, the new breed. They're
: .:._-_ad.He would hit nice. They've been to college and have things to say about politics
and the environment and the state. Most of the time there's a
woman in the group. They're teaching her to hunt.
The game wardens are the bad guys. Everyone cowers when
they come around a bend looking for poachers. They drive post-
apocalyptic cars with burned paint that have been specially outfit-
ted with giant guns and spotlights mounted on the hood. Rogue,
mean-looking guys, they fix hard stares on you and you can see
the muscles jump under their camouflage suits. These guys are
Jumpy.
In Austin, joggers passing over the high bridge on the river stop
to stretch their hamstrings on the metal rails. The expansive scene
from the bridge suspends elements together in a still life: fisher-
men sit upright in flat-bottomed boats; giant blue herons perch
on drowned cottonwoods; limestone mansions on the cliffs above
throw reflections halfway across the river. Crew boats glide silently
over the water. A riverboat thrusts itself slowly up the river, dredg-
ing the hard mass of the water up and over its wheel.
At times, the bridge is a stage for human dramas of intimacy,
rage, quiet desperation, or simple pleasure.
One morning a crude sign is taped to the railing. At the top
of the sign, two names, ANGELA AND JERRY, are slashed through
with big black Xs. Below the names, the sign reads: RELATION-
SHIP DESTROYED, WITH MALICE, BY FEDERAL AGENTS & A.P.D.
- ==--.Y:lecowers when TIVE PEOPLE WHO CONSPIRED TO TAKE YOU FROM ME, AND
: _:~_=:'.They drive post- DID SO WITH SUCCESS. ANGELA, I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS
= ::'een specially outfit- AND FOREVER. I MISS YOU BABE, Then another pierced
JERRY.
_- -=::.: ~_:he hood. Rogue, heart memorializes YANKEE GIRL. On the ground beneath the
- --:~ and you can see sign there is a shrine of yellow ribbons and a Sacred Heart of Jesus
- ;-':'::5. These guys are votive candle with half-burned sticks of incense stuck into the
wax.
The sign is both cryptic and crystal clear. Its fury quivers in its
wavering letters. It does not ask to be interpreted, but heaves itself
at the world, slashing at it like the self-slashing of people who cut
themselves to feel alive. This is a poetics as common as it is strik-
:.. :: ::.~eon the river stop ing. It's the kind of thing you see everyday in the graffiti written
-=-:.,;: expansive scene on train trestles, or in the signs the homeless hold on the side of
::'c -.' ":: _::. a still life: fisher- the road, in the wild talk of AM radio talk shows, in road rage,
::..:....-_:
~lue herons perch in letters to the editor, or in the barely contained resentments of
on the cliffs above
. : ~.S workplaces and intimate spaces .
= :e··· ~oats glide silently This is the ordinary affect in the textured, roughened surface of
.. _-- '",p the river, dredg- the everyday. It permeates politics of all kinds with the demand
=: .:' ",.-heel. that some kind of intimate public of onlookers recognize some-
. -.:....:_:::amas of intimacy, thing in a space of shared impact.9 If only for a minute .
People might be touched by it, or hardened to its obnoxious
::.-. :.:_erailing. At the top demands. But either way, a charge passes through the body and
_ c, dIe slashed through
C lingers for a little while as an irritation, confusion, judgment,
_::.~_
reads: RELATION- thrill, or musing. However it strikes us, its significance jumps.
::.::. :::c_'-.::. .-\GENTS & A.P.D. Its visceral force keys a search to make sense of it, to incorporate
:;- -\R--\NTEED UNDER it into an order of meaning. But it lives first as an actual charge
: '.ass YOU ANGELA, immanent to acts and scenes - a relay.
. ::.<.T-\YS, Below
JERRY.
: _ :..:=encased in a pierced 9 For a discussion of "intimate publics," see Lauren Berlant, The
.:..:ehighlighted with a Queen of America Goes to "Washington City: Essays on Sex and Citizenship.
.• c : :..~e.the sign continues: Durham, N.C.: Duke University Press, 1997.
Affects are not so much forms of signification, or units of knowl- Positions are taken, l:>c~_~:
edge, as they are expressions of ideas or problems performed as wounded.
a kind of involuntary and powerful learning and participation. And just about e'.e-:-:-
Alphonso Lingis noted the jump of affect in his description everyday life to get \\'~.c.~.
of touring a mine at the Arctic Circle: "The young miner who She thinks it's son:: -
showed me the mine put out every cigarette he smoked on his face tension of some ~::..:.c.::. :.:
hand, which was covered with scar tissue. Then I saw the other cipient vitality lodgec :C. ::..----=-.,
young miners all had the backs of their hands covered with scar And nimble. If YOL:e
tissue .... when my eye fell on them it Binched, seeing the burn-
ing cigarette being crushed and sensing the pain .... The eye does
not read the meaning in a sign; it jumps from the mark to the
pain and the burning cigarette, and then jumps to the fraternity
signaled by the burning cigarettes."lo There are games vou cc.:-: -:_..c
/
Here, the abstracted sign of collective identity-the scar tissue Like the game of c_:~: .;
on the back of everyone's hands-not only retains its tie to the about to change lane,. ::::::--:_
problems of sense and sociality but demonstrates, or proposes, about this. They can te::
an extreme trajectory. It shows where things can go, taking off in driver isn't signaling 0: ~.'.e:.c.:-
their own little worlds, when something throws itself together. the edge of the lane 0: c.:~._-;
Ordinary affects highlight the question of the intimate im- Or there's the game:': ~-:-.=-
pacts of forces in circulation. They're not exactly "personal" but in a glance. This one', C.c.:::::
they sure can pull the subject into places it didn't exactly "intend" woman have coupon,: -:--.c'
to go. one looks like a talke:. -:-:: ':
gencies. Even a brilli2.'-~ :.=
dreaded price check c: c.-:;
you've made your cho:::e
Stuck in a fast lane;: c.: :
10 Alphonso Lingis, "The Society of Dismembered Body Parts," in perate for something:: ::.:
Deleuze and the Theatre of Philosophy, ed. Constantin Boundas and a list in your head, ge: ~: -
Dorothea Olkowski (New York: Routledge, 1993), 296. the surrounding bodie' c.c::, .
-, :: units of knowl- Positions are taken, habits loved and hated, dreams launched and
: _==-::15 performed as wounded.
IImr1:L --~; .'.--:.dparticipation. And just about everyone is part of the secret conspiracy of
jllm:Jr - ,:- ,=-_his description everyday life to get what you can out of it.
1..,'
!l'--
I ~ 0 ',',"una
- b
miner who She thinks it's sort of like being a water bug, living on the sur-
.e,~'" :::= =-_= smoked on his face tension of some kind ofliquid. Seduced by the sense of an in-
ifB;:;.c _: -:-:_==-: I saw the other cipient vitality lodged in things, but keeping oneself afloat, too.
- ,.:-_ =-0:oyered with scar And nimble. If you're lucky.
":-n -
~",jJ(
i
-:-==-, seeing the burn-
~,':T'_ --: :- .'.-=-", , . The eye does
~,,- ~-: =-:::Lhe mark to the
~j_ _-=-,-::'0
La the fraternity
~_=_~> propagated by
-, <rge, experiment,
~ :.::..~:-eof a surprise bed and bath, pizza, tacos, hamburgers, toys, babies, office.
- :~~~ie. Keep moy- Banality is the vitality of the times. You can slip into any of the
: :: :-:-:~.or whiteness, places where it's on display and check out for a while without ever
- - c-' :-~.::mrewith sur- feeling disconnected for a second.
- c::- --=.eetingor insig- Everyone knows there's something not quite right about suburban
:.::_:"'_derlyingcauses sprawl: the deserts of plywood spreading over hayfields; the kids
getting fat eating potato chips in front of the TY; the creeping lure
of the affordable dream house that comes in the same four basic
plans no matter where you are.
But the houses are big, beautiful, white, more than you ever
expected to have. More than you can resist. One day you walk
into a model home. It feels like walking into a dream. Everything
is set up for the perfect family: the boy's room, the girl's room, the
- _::..iedup. We dream baby's room all ready like they're saying "Come on, family, move
: r the dream body in." It makes it look so easy. So over and done with.
She visits a master-planned community built on an empty
in a flash. The
~ : ::-:10:5
plane outside of town. There's a fire station, a school, a police sta-
-- ,-_enYOU are still in tion, a day care, and a green belt with running paths. There are no
: '.' in primary colors trees around yet and the house siding is still unmarred plastic.
She stops at a convenience store built to look like a southern back. Everything is
country store. The sales office next to it is a cute little bungalow. mostly couples, mos:>~
Two men wearing pressed shirts are playing horseshoes on the have bumper stickers : ~.c:-::
lawn. They wave at her, big smiles. They yell, "Hey, neighbor!" She "On the road and of- ~,= ~:~
realizes these guys must be the realtors staging a scene. But this is beginning. If you dOL: ':' ~
obvious. It's as if it's not nostalgia for a small town that is being and drive away. The:' :~_.c:':<
offered but the fabulousness of the built environment itself. It's as They visit war monu:-::-_=:-~-_
if the value of the new and emergent-the up-and-coming mode and Clark Trail. Or d-_='~
of community itself-is embodied in a shared dream of finished hunt treasure with ill:::-=-: :,-
surfaces. It's a game of living lite. A value that only goes so far. They seek out beautif~: '::=-:':
Maybe it's not only the dream house (the more-house-for-your- gazebos.
money) that people are after when they buy a house here, but also They use the natioL-=-~.
the move to be part of what's happening and to be part of the light their itineraries. The- ':==:: ..
inevitability of it all, too, the seamlessness. day of driving, the:' cc.:-_,~~~..
The air is full of sneering stereotypes about gated communities. back out to the parkiL~ .::: -:
There are cartoons about it all over the place, like the one about a walkie-talkie set so ::-~=' ::~.
the older couple sitting in their living room complaining that meet other Rvers in (h:: :::c..:.'__-:
that dead body is still out there on the lawn next door. But the Wal-Mart is bad for ~;~c._:-;~:
sneering at cliches of conformity and isolation doesn't really get at without competition: -=--:-.:'
what's going on. There's also something more basic about how the what can you do? Ib:;::: :::.;;=
dream world is desirable precisely because it only goes so far. And
something abour how that dream wants to be sutured to the mo-
ment when things snap together. It's like flexing one's watching
and waiting muscles, keeping them limber. And it's just as attuned
to the possibility that things will fall apart, the elements dissipat- The objects of mass
ing or recombining into something else. Not exactly "passive," it's itself-travel, instam
hypervigilant and always building itself up to the intensity where lure of new lifestyles Fc.::::-~=:"
action can become reaction. into scenes of a possil:<=._::~:
The experience of 2::::-.; .=
sory experience oflitcc....' :" -
happening.
But nothing too h::c.-
Three million retirees live in upscale RVS fully loaded with
kitchens, bathrooms, marble countertops, and TVS front and
. : : =; like a southern back. Everything is built in, tucked away, clever. The retirees are
__ .::.::little bungalow. mostly couples, mostly white. They wear matching T-shirts and
. -;:: :-_=rseshoeson the have bumper stickers that read "Home is where you park it" or
. :-:::~,,"
neighbor!" She "On the road and off the record." For them, every day is a new
-r.;:: c.scene. But this is beginning. If you don't like where you're at, you can just get in
IF -:-.:... ::.::.",'.n
that is being and drive away. They have pets and projects. They're history buffs.
•• .r: :-.:-:lentitself. It's as They visit war monuments and ghost towns or follow the Lewis
jllw":~ . ~- ':"cd-coming mode and Clark Trail. Or they visit theme parks all over the country. Or
1Iir~1 -cC:: '::'reamof finished hunt treasure with metal detectors or prospect for gold nuggets.
~. 0- __ : ::,,-.c.::'
only goes so far. They seek out beautiful scenery or little New England towns with
jiml:IL" .'.~.: r::-house-for-your- gazebos.
~ . _ :: .·.yc:.sehere, but also They use the national Wal-Mart atlas of store locations to plan
.m"r:::~L:-:- _' ::.::.:r,c part of the light their itineraries. They sleep in Wal-Mart parking lots. After a hard
p.n:c:" . day of driving, they can shop for whatever they need and then go
""f"-~: .::. ;::c.::.cdcommunities. back out to the parking lot to make supper. They buy gadgets like
~""'::' - c::' = .:l",ethe one about a walkie-talkie set so they can find each other in the store. They
I-' :-: .:-r. complaining that meet other Rvers in the parking lot and tour their rigs. They know
~ r. r.clI door. But the Wal-Mart is bad for Main Street but where would this country be
E=:cc
t-.
-~~~:~::~:lr~~~~
::.= s·..lmredto the mo-
without competition? They say social inequality is a fact oflife-
what can you do? Their biggest problem is the price of gas.ll
===:':'rlgone's watching
, : ---=- . .::.:I"S just as attuned
::"'.::elements dissipat- The objects of mass desire enact the dream of sheer circulation
.: ::.:::,:c.CI
I"·"
y paSSIve, It . ,s itself-travel, instant communication, movies, catalogues, the
_r ::.:::.~-:.eintensity where lure of new lifestyles patched together from commodities gathered
into scenes of a possible life.
The experience of being "in the mainstream" is a concrete sen-
sory experience ofliterally being in tune with a "something" that's
happening.
But nothing too heavy or sustained.
~Jllv loaded with
.:..-.i TVS front and
It's being in tune without getting involved. A light contact zone catastrophe, isolation. ~:-.~ :..
that rests on a thin layer of shared public experiences. beaten to death in tic.: .'.
A fantasy that life can be somehow seamless and that we're in worker; men who bur,: .:-': -,
the know, in the loop, not duped. That nothing will happen to them and their new .~,
us, and nothing we do will have real consequences - nothing that after the neighbors he~: ::-~ "
can't be fixed, anyway. News of the weird feaL":':~:.: -
The experience of being "in the mainstream" is like a flotation middle-class couple v.':-.:
device. behind a hundred ca" -; -
But its very surge to enter life lite leaves in its wake a vague in the walls.
sense of all the circuits that give things a charge.
Sylvie's neighbor Tommy has been "into it" in his house at the
bottom of the hill. He has a woman in there with him. She's a
1 : ~c ~ _.:-_'::'e and slam the door.
drinker. She sits in front of the tube and never sticks her head out .
.me:- ~::: ~_:11Odity-to-live-in, the
:. :~: .:-_::
and precious metals, Sylvie has seen her down there drunk in the yard and the foulest
language you've ever heard. One time it got so bad that Sylvie had
- -a::'~~,::sia of being at home
_ ~: : ~ ,he prevailing public to send Juanita down there to see about them. When Juanita got
.., --:-__a::on, family values, or down there, Tommy had this woman handcuffed to the radiator
and he was smashing her head against the floor. The police had to
It: - ::- :::~l.:ng.
a still life: the little take him away. And then, of course, she went right back to him.
J[[ :: -::-:.-a;.',
::.:_ looking up, stock Sylvie said you'd only have to beat up on her once. Juanita told
Tommy and the woman she didn't care if they killed each other,
ilL :. ::-a:-::nentsup to date, yards
_.:-::.::~
Their belts, community she hoped they did, but they better not do it in front of Tommy's
little girl. Juanita took the girl to stay with her up on the moun-
IllL -:- ~~Jtfers advice on the fin-
tain until things settled down.
ill .~':-.:: :light she heard him man. Since she had to go to work the next day, she told him, "I'll
up loud at night, its the counter, and I'll mail you the check ... By the way, don't worry
::•. -'.:'.d him laughing loud about my Doberman ... He won't bother you, but whatever you do,
.:: :.:..:.ght him standing at do NOT under ANY circumstances talk to my parrot!" When the re-
pairman arrived at the homemaker's place the next day, he discovered
I' 1~ = .. :,:::Sie got heavy curtains
lit _ ':' .. : :::e the top of his head
the biggest and meanest looking Doberman he had ever seen ... But
just as she had said, the dog just lay there on the carpet, watching
II::~C" ,:-. .: .'.\' panels on his living
the repairmen go about his business ... However, the parrot drove
1ISl:._ .. :;: ::-. ::.istiptoes. She thought
tiir~ '_,: :ake a quick scan to see name-calling ... Finally the repairman could not contain himself
any longer and yelled, "Shut up, you stupid, ugly bird!!" The parrot
f" 0-::..=\yindow.
..
in. -_. - :.d her the same story. replied, "GET HIM, Spike!"
Home is where the heart is. But take one foot out of the frame
and things get sketchy fast. At the unwanted knock on the door,
or the sudden ring of the phone at night, you can feel the un-
canny resemblance between the dazed state of trauma and the
.. = :epairman arrives he says, cocooning we now call home .
: ...: :~,-athe's been on the news. The home cocoon lives in a vital state-open, emergent, vul-
:-Ie was down on his knees nerable, and jumpy.
It lives as a practiced possibility, emergent in projects like home the late leader of the :'~.:.~ . -
remodeling, shopping, straightening up the house, rearranging nization. The book is .:.::~: _ _
furniture, making lists, keeping a diary, daydreaming, or buying on racial genocide. 1L" ,~~ ~'-
lottery tickets. invented past when go'·: :::-.- ,,- -
Practices that stage the jump from ideal to matter and back tore apart seemingl.v 5::<_ .••.
again can fuse a dream world to the world of ordinary things. rested hordes of peop:: ::: _:: =-
Objects settle into scenes of life and stand as traces of a past still gin trauma incites a IT':~:::':' =
resonant in things; on a dresser top are loose change, pens, re- through the details of.:. r· .1
ceipts, books, scattered jewelry, knickknacks, a kid's drawing, and "how-to" manual for r:c::~-~~ ~~ -.::
- ~
a long-discarded list of urgent things to do. A small wooden table ists, and it has been ere: .••._~=.••.
arranged by a window holds the promise of a profoundly secluded homa City bombing. S: =." =-
interior. description at the end:: ~~-: ::.:
But the dream of approaching the ordinary lives only in the the Pentagon and the 2.::::-_-,-- . -:.~1
moment of its surge- in the resonance of the still life or the prac- 2001. In the book, SC:::~==:::- ::
tice of the perfectly manicured lawn. Left to its own devices, it nization" carries OUt 2.r~ ~.:: _-
undoes itself through its own excesses. It drifts off in a flight of date is also William L:~-.::,:: ~::'-::
fancy, leaps into a wild plan of action, and overextends itself. It strange and floating L-_:~ .•..-~- -
grows wild tendrils that harden into nodules of paranoia, perfec- But what is most 5:"::::: =.: _=,- .3
tionism, or private dysfunction. It tries to fix itself into a code as ~ mestic scenes and the:::::. -.:..-
if it could imprint itself on the world -like magic. In the gated offers are not just aboL~ .-.:
community the rules of community order soon reach a tottering but also how to set L:: ::..- _
point open to parody and endless legal contestation: garage doors underground. The her:::· ::..:.••.=
have to be kept shut at all times, drapes must be in neutral colors bravery and camarader:: r _~:: :
only, no digging in the yard without permission, no clotheslines shooting, sexual perfo=-=.:.:-::::,:..
in the yard, no pickup trucks in the driveway, no planting without It's a recipe book to::::. -:-.::::
permission, no grandchildren visiting in a senior compound. No A little world comes ~:-.~:
exceptions. model of communir.· .:.r.••.
with the textures and '::-. . __
world.
This lived, affecti',-: ::: r- __~.
make the book not iL':::..r~ -
The Turner Diaries is a racist, fascist novel from 1996 written under is) but also a scene o::~~.::~= - -
a pseudonym (Andrew MacDonald) by William Luther Pierce, sions, and hoped-for 5:~
-..::- -~_ ?rojects like home the late leader of the National Alliance, a white separatist orga-
- - -:: ~_:use, rearranging nization. The book is a prophesy of a new world order founded
--=-~::-,-~ing,or buying on racial genocide. The story begins with "the terrible day" in an
invented past when government thugs broke into citizens' houses,
:: :natter and back tore apart seemingly solid walls to unearth hidden guns, and ar-
-:- ordinary things. rested hordes of people, rounding them up like cattle. This ori-
:: -,-cesof a past still gin trauma incites a militia movement, which the book imagines
: ':: change, pens, re- through the details of a postapocalyptic "ordinary." It reads like a
.c~id's drawing, and "how-to" manual for right wing conspiracy theorists and survival-
-_ ;:-:18-11
wooden table ists, and it has been credited with inspiring, in detail, the Okla-
- ~ :---::oundly secluded homa City bombing. Some also draw uncanny links between the
description at the end of the book of a suicide mission to bomb
- -=-_-~- hes only in the the Pentagon and the actual attack that occurred on September II,
--:: ;:Jllife or the prac- 2001. In the book, September II is also the date that "the Orga-
-- :: ::s own devices, it nization" carries out an assault on the city of Houston (and the
::.: _:=-:' off in a flight of date is also William Luther Pierce's birthday). Such is the world of
:-:::extends itself. It strange and floating links that The Turner Diaries comes from.
_ ::: ::- paranoia, perfec- But what is most surprising about the book is its focus on do-
_:,;:1finto a code as mestic scenes and the ordinary details of everyday life. The tips it
_ ::"_-'-gic.In the gated offers are not just about how to organize armies and make bombs
: : ~_:each a tottering but also how to set up cozy shelters and keep house while living
- -:::-,-:ion: garage doors underground. The heroes distinguish themselves not by acts of
: c e in neutral colors bravery and camaraderie but by honing their skills in engineering,
<:1. no clotheslines shooting, sexual performance, and housekeeping.
_ ~_c planting without It's a recipe book for domestic competence.
=~_:J[ compound. No A little world comes into view. It is a world based on a military
model of community and skill, but it is one that is filled, too,
with the textures and sensory details needed to imagine a dream
world.
This lived, affective constellation of practices and sensibilities
make the book not just an ideological diatribe (which it certainly
-- - _.-_=996 written under is) but also a scene of life filled with worries, fetishes, compul-
__:-,-m Luther Pierce, sions, and hoped-for satisfactions.
It is possible to imagine how, for those readers who fInd it com- know them all, indul§=:c.;.
pelling but are not about to build bombs, it's a kind of self-help to help them ifhe co--.:: .:..;_
book. Self-help racism. But then they woulc: '~
For the uninducted reader, on the other hand, reading it is an starting the cat-and-c. _: :- -
eerie experience haunted by what seem at fIrst to be bizarre links But at exactly 4 ..IX '-... - :
between a racist rage at disorder, contamination, and decay and lie down on the floor ~.
an appreciation for the well-tended suburban lawn, the Martha He said he guessed c,'c- ~ . _.
Stewart-inspired interest in interior design, and the fantasy game weird, though, hO\\-ic
of reading catalogues to imagine oneself in that dress, with that
face, or holding that particular gun.
A dollar bill stuck out of a car window gets a quick surge for- weirdly upbeat sloga,':=
ward and the heightened, unassimilated, affect of a raw contact. a Hero" give shoppir:.~ -'.
"God bless you." pricing cards stick oc:.:.c-.- :::-. _:
miss the sale items.
If you have plen n- '-.-:-
::. -.-
have no money at aL :::-.-
If the money is ti;:--.-
numbing, penny-pine:-_.:-.;:.~--
. :...:.might raise your Things have started to float .
- ':'~~:'=1ofahalf-known It's as if the solid ground has given way, leaving us hanging like
tender cocoons suspended in a dream world. As if the conditions
;~_' of personal/pub- and possibilities of a life have themselves begun to float.
- ~:" iaunt the solidity We notice our common drifting and the isolation and confor-
..:__-=-_"1-=:"
hold up signs mity in it. We know it's fueled as much by circuit overloads and
:~:':lwork for food," meltdowns as by smooth sailing. But there's no denying that it has
~_-,~ mesmerizing and a buoyancy too. A vibrancy alive with gamblers, hoarders, addicts,
. in passing. It and shopping malls.
- ~ "--:-::~s the
value of will-
_:: .:.simple dream of
.:.~_It offers no affect
-: :i \-itality to follow,
- : ,:" [or safety or good We shop.
Sometimes, or all the time.
- :': __'.\-hat to do about Too much or not enough.
___:-':5 \vhen confronted With flare or with shame.
For necessities, for therapy, on vacation.
,~.~.: ~i-=homeless
sign as At Dollar Store or Neiman Marcus or Sears, depending.
--" _;=1also prompts the We shop at the megastores because they're cheap and conve-
nient and everywhere and because they're what's happening. Their
;:~' a quick surge for- weirdly upbeat slogans like "Getting It Together" and "Go Home
. ~--:-:t of a raw contact. a Hero" give shopping a slightly surreal charge. Day-glow orange
pricing cards stick out at right angles from the shelves so you can't
miss the sale items.
If you have plenty of disposable income, that's one thing. If you
have no money at all, that's another thing.
If the money is tight, you're supposed to shop with mind-
numbing, penny-pinching care. All those coupons. All those cata-
logs, the fantasies, the games of imagining having this thing or three other men - n'.~,:=- ~ - .
that and what you would do with it. Then the splurges on a tub of are carrying big yelle"!
ice cream or the suicidal squandering of a trip to Las Vegas. ing, "Isn't this great: y:~.~- ~.::
She shops with Ariana at supermarkets that play loud music. fast, nervous and ex::::~~ ~ _~
She runs up and down the aisles to make her laugh. People smile sidewalk they hesita::e.~~-- : '
or come over and say something. One day a group of kids follow says something aboL: c ~:: _~ -
them around the store, bouncing in single file and making peek- SHIT!" A cop car pd' _::-- -
a-boo faces for the baby. Another day a man next to them in an man bravely goes m~e:~::: .::'
aisle starts making birdcalls. Ariana snaps her head to attention the red-faced guy sh,,~~ _ _ __
and stares at his mouth, amazed, while he runs through dozens of campus more than SiT:-~ .
expert imitations.
One day in Walgreens she sees a handsome young man waiting
in line. He wears a mechanic's uniform with his name stenciled
on the pocket. When he talks or smiles he holds his hand up over
his mouth but everyone stares anyway. His teeth are grossly mis- The ordinary can hapFe: : ~- ':'
shapen. A few stick straight out of his mouth. There's a double ences of shock, recog:~~::.:-
row on one side. Like he's never been to a dentist-not as a child, most ordinary practi:ec ~_- :: -
not now. to catch up with \\~he:~~.~_ :~
Sometimes she shops at Foodland-a poor people's supermar- In Target the casr_:e~
ket that everyone calls Food-stamps-Iand. The music is more rau- she's buying are for. "':". ~::
cous than at the other stores. It smells of disinfectant and the asking. Maybe vacuur:.: :~e~- : - :
cashiers wear layers of thick gold chains around their necks or thing. The cashier 5a~c
thick baby-blue eyeshadow. Homeless people walk up from the she just throws it a\\~8.~~.
river for cheap beer and bread. People live in cars and vans in the they made bags for \8.: __: _
parking lot. She begins to notice a woman who lives with her they make disposablc~: ~~- . ':
two kids in a truck. She has long, black hair and there's always a that's what the you:,; ::e ~:: _ .
big circle of white on the crown of her head. One night there's a alarmed. Or disorieme:. -
jumpy, red-faced man with her. He runs up to her, excited by his One day in PetS'T~::: '.
discovery that they have six-packs for two dollars. She gives him a talking to a clerk in r:- ~:~:: - ~- ..
hard stare. He says "What? Coke! I'm talking about coke! I found wanders from tank te ::.=.:.:::
a good deal on coke for the kids!" He tries to act outraged, as ifhe There's a wall of aqucr.=.:~: -:- .:
thinks he's an unsung hero, but it's like he's not quite up for it. orange. She has the se:;~:: ~
A few days later, she sees the jumpy, red-faced man on campus. before, if only in a dre~:~
He's on foot, crossing the street at the entrance to campus with In the early 19905 c..':~::
r - .' - - ~- . .:.::--.g this thing or three other men-two Latinos and one African American. They
~ -:--=-==-.:.-.= o?lurges on a tub of are carrying big yellow street signs, and the red-faced guy is say-
iErlJ~': .'.:. :,:? to Las Vegas. ing, "Isn't this great? What did I tell you? MAN!" They are moving
F.---.. '.-2t play loud music. fast, nervous and excited. But the minute they hit the campus
, - =, laugh. People smile sidewalk they hesitate, gathering in a loose circle. The black man
J> .:. ;roup of kids follow says something about security ... the cops. "What the fuck! Oh,
IIl: ;: ~:= andmaking peek- SHIT!" A cop car pulls up to the curb in front of them. The black
iar· L next to them in an
-. -'---. man bravely goes over and sticks his head in the window. Then
~. - .-.=: head to attention the red-faced guy slowly sidles up to the car. They haven't been on
~;ciL.:: ': , _:--.0 through dozens of campus more than sixty seconds.
lIIa:..
- -::-.= ~.'oungman waiting
••. II'.•·•·· ,.- . ~~ :-Cisname stenciled
"'IlL". '. - : .::ishis hand up over
~i ,:==:h are grossly mis- The ordinary can happen before the mind can think. Little experi-
"6IT." - _':~.. There's a double ences of shock, recognition, confusion, and deja vu pepper the
~~;"'! =. -: ~_ :~st:- not as a child, most ordinary practices and moves. Sometimes you have to pause
!
! to catch up with where you already are.
I'
- :: . : , ?cople's supermar- In Target the cashier asks her what the vacuum cleaner bags
_=-.= .-:lusicis more rau- she's buying are for. "What?" She doesn't understand what she's
- ::..oinJectant and the asking. Maybe vacuum cleaner bags have gone defunct or some-
c: :..:.nd their necks or thing. The cashier says when her vacuum cleaner stops working
. =-= -.-.,alk up from the she just throws it away. "What?" The cashier says she didn't know
-. : ~:s and vans in the they made bags for vacuum cleaners. "What?" She thinks maybe
-no lives with her they make disposable vacuum cleaners now, or something. Maybe
. . -'--cdthere's always a that's what the young people use. Whatever. But she's a little
, . c:: IJI1enight there's a alarmed. Or disoriented. Or something.
_ =- ':: her, excited by his One day in PetSmart she has deja vu. Her partner, Ronn, is
= : _~rs. She gives him a talking to a clerk in front of the bank of fish tanks, while Ariana
-:: ~::,outcoke! I found wanders from tank to tank, pressing her face up against the glass.
- -. ~:: outraged, as ifhe There's a wall of aquamarine blue water with shimmering flecks of
: =-,: ': quite up for it. orange. She has the sensation that she's been in exactly this scene
k''" >-:.::::. man on campus. before, if only in a dream.
• . -:: ':':--
..:e to campus with In the early 1990S a stapler built into a copy machine takes her
aback. It's the last week of a fellowship at the Humanities Research and then morph into ': :-'.:-- -
Institute in Irvine. She's frantically copying journal articles to take tories take root and Lt.o::-.
:.~=
home with her. One of the other research fellows walks in, sticks Ian Hacking's Rei,.. ::
some papers into a slot on the side of the machine, and pulls them Sciences of Memol)' ([2.~0:' .-.:
out stapled. She feels a slight shock at the discovery that copy daIs morphed into Io:~
machines now have staplers built into them. A sense of unease extreme trajectories L:o: •. _ ~rl
spreads through her in a tangle of thoughts. What else doesn't she Satanic Ritual Abuse ~~_"
know about? Why doesn't she hear about these things? She feels Day care was (anci:, :c:: :.<
her mother's anxiety about answering machines, cell phones, self- work, gender, class, r2.~: -=--: Ii
serve gas pumps, and ATM machines. It's the fear of being caught mother had a drinki:-.~ :::: I:::
up in something you can't master, of being found out. A kind of that was articulated ,,'.:_-. -=--:
illiteracy. situation-the guilt. :.-.c::~=
She uses eBay to buy crib sheets and Teletubbie videos. One and sexual abuse were ::-~- - -
day she gets an e-mail with a colorful certihcate of achievement. her small child relate~ :c:.-
"Congratulations on your success! You're A Rising Star at eBay!" dream world blosson~~~ := =~ I-~
She's earned a yellow star for getting a good feedback rating from cases, convictions lie
eBay sellers. She's a valued member of the eBay community. "Keep care, women pulled 0''':': :: ..
shooting for the stars!" She feels slightly depressed, or slightly of the picture permar-.o::-.:.
stunned. Mass-market books ~ r _. : :
Her friend Andrew comes back to the neighborhood for a visit vided the prototypes :: f __- =
after being away for a year and a half He says it's great to be back abuse. Then therapis:; __0: f _r
but unnerving ("Have I been away?"). So many things are the multiple personalin' ': f.c
same, and then every once in a while there's something really dif- patients, asking theIT. ::
ferent that comes as a shock, like a house all of a sudden where symptoms and cause',
there used to be an empty lot or an open field. How did it get sonality disorder b:·
there? Who are those people inside, and how did they get the presenting symptoms :c:-. r.-:~ -:
basketball trophies up on the wall so fast? dard quickly shifted r~:r:-.-:' _
over a hundred, and ::--.0: -=--C-c:I'
ing to reintegrate the ?o:: .
loging the "multiples.
Conflicts bet'iveeE --
Big social shifts float by on distant, cloudy discourses and scan- trauma culture and [2.::::- .
dals. The conditions of life assemble themselves into something ries of these moveme·.:':
Il.[~ -- -: ~ _~_;.nities Research and then morph into something else. Sometimes extreme trajec-
articles to take tories take root and then take off with a life of their own.
.,., \yalks in, sticks Ian Hacking's Rewriting the Soul: Multiple Personality and the
- c: -:-e. and pulls them Sciences of Memory traces how the 1980s day care (sex abuse) scan-
.':' ::"O:iJ\'erythat copy dals morphed into recovered memory syndrome and then into
., : =-=-. .:c. ,ense of unease extreme trajectories like Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) and
---:-,:-t else doesn't she Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA).
II _' .-:' e tiings? She feels Day care was (and is) a tense issue rooted in the conditions of
iim!s;: r._,t.-e' :ell phones, self- work, gender, class, race, the family, and the state. One working
R ": :'e:-:of being caught mother had a drinking problem that led to a working problem
:: ..:.:-.ci out. A kind of that was articulated with the mass of public feelings about this
situation - the guilt, the stress, the rage. Stories of child abuse
•• _ -:-:e:..:.=:
bie videos. One and sexual abuse were beginning to circulate with force. Somehow
.:L. C ::-==of achievement.
- - her small child related a story of sexual abuse at day care and a
. -:: .'::1g Star at eBay!" dream world blossomed. Before we all woke up, there were court
•. =.tee ='·::<ack
rating from cases, convictions (all later overturned), kids pulled out of day
_
- =.::t:1mumty.
- - c
. "K eep care, women pulled out of work, male day care workers pulled out
=.e=::essed, or slightly of the picture permanently.
Mass-market books and the popular movies they spawned pro-
.: ~-.=:=.'rhoodfor a visit vided the prototypes for the extreme trajectories of trauma and
.=, great to be back abuse. Then therapists helped their patients write the original
:-=-.:-:='
.. things are the multiple personality stories and suggested the disorder to other
: :-=-.erhingreally dif- patients, asking them to identity with a compelling narrative of
~ =.:.a sudden where symptoms and causes. Talk shows spectacularized multiple per-
~e.='. How did it get sonality disorder by showcasing victims with ever more elaborate
r - .. iid they get the presenting symptoms and more and more personalities. The stan-
dard quickly shifted from having sixteen personalities to having
over a hundred, and the therapeutic aim shifted from one of try-
ing to reintegrate the personalities to one of identitying and cata-
loging the "multiples."
Conflicts between believers and disbelievers, and between
•. =-.' =.oursesand
scan- trauma culture and rationalism, also fueled the extreme trajecto-
• -:' .=s into something ries of these movements. A professional couple whose daughter
had recovered memories of child abuse founded the False Mem-
ory Syndrome Foundation - a highly focused and sophisticated
pressure group that was eventually able to shift the blame from
parents committing child abuse to therapists and their troubled
patients producing an abuse hysteria. People with multiple person-
ality disorder founded a society of their own that celebrated rather Flash mobs are lea2~~::
than pathologized their symptoms, thereby turning the "disorder" e-mail, and the \i7eb. -=---::
into a liberation movement. They began to use the term "alters," onstrating only that e.:= • ~ - -_::- _.
articulating with the diffuse New Age celebration of altered states At a Toys 'R Us, aid' •.• -
of consciousness to experience spiritual energies. Rationalists at- saurus rex, and ther: ~'::._
tacked the "pseudoscience" of the movement as a symptomatic of hands before quick'> :.. ~:
disease in itself Strands of feminism promoting the recognition of sembled at the food cc_:- -
child abuse contributed to counterattacks. Some therapists who nizers (identifiable k ••::: '
had become activists for their patients accused skeptics of being a they were holding) §:c':: •.
support group for child abusers. what to do next. Sr"c~._
Then even more extreme trajectories took off. Increasingly suddenly assembled 0::-_ •. -:: '. ==
bizarre events were recalled and accusations took a strange turn next to Grand CemL_ ~.~-
into the highly scripted story of Satanic Ritual Abuse. A radi- onds, then left.
cal wing of the movement came to believe that patients suffer- When Howard Dee.:: .
ing from dissociative disorders had been ritualistically abused by comic strip called for d ::-= .
satanic cults run by their parents and featuring the bloody sacrifice September 13, IO:35 _".'_ = _ ..
of babies. Police and social workers developed elaborate lists and Link arms in an eno .::•• _. _ -:
maps of the elements and scenes of Satanic Ritual Abuse, using "The Doctor is in:" D:,..-::: ::
them as diagnostic tools and standards of evidence in hundreds of Howard Dean's "Get 1... : '--
court cases. The opposing side argued that the therapeutic move- Another Bash mob .:.:::'
ment itself had practices that were very much like cult initiation, puter to compete \\'it:_ •.'.:: -' -
including hypnosis and suggestion. in the world by bring:::-_;:. ~.
Such trajectories and metamorphoses are not just dead social tion, networking thee •• ::::--:'
constructions that we can track back to a simple origin, but forms major scientific problc: = -:., '
e=--,-::cdsophisticated
-__~ ,he blame from
- - -,-=-_d
their troubled
.,=-:J1Ultipleperson-
- ,_-.o, celebrated rather Flash mobs are leaderless gatherings organized by cell phone,
-_=-=-_::cg the "disorder" e-mail, and the Web. The mobs usually do something silly, dem-
_,~ ,:,e term "alters," onstrating only that a floating connection can flash into flesh.
- -_-.: ::cof altered states At a Toys 'R Us, a flash mob stared at an animatronic Tyranno-
: -:: :.~'. Rationalists at- saurus rex, and then fell to the floor with screams and waving
: -, .os a symptomatic of hands before quickly dispersing. In New York, participants as-
- =-; ,:,e recognition of sembled at the food court in Grand Central Station, where orga-
: : ::ce therapists who nizers (identifiable by the copies of the New York Review of Books
-:-=-
'~,eptics of being a they were holding) gave mobbers printed instructions regarding
what to do next. Shortly after 7 PM about two hundred people
: ,: off. Increasingly suddenly assembled on the mezzanine of the Grand Hyatt Hotel
- ,::'-"'-a strange turn next to Grand Central Station, applauded loudly for fifteen sec-
----
_, _~ Abuse. A radi- onds, then left.
: ,_-.-'-,patients suffer- When Howard Dean was running for president, a Doonesbury
- _-'---:5 Iically abused by comic strip called for a Howard Dean flash mob. Time: Saturday,
- ; , e bloody sacrifice September 13, IO:35 AM. Place: Foot of Space Needle. Activity:
:-e=-e:aborate lists and Link arms in an enormous circle, hop up and down chanting
-: ;~wal Abuse, using "The Doctor is in!" Disperse. The idea immediately appeared on
- : _=-c::ccein hundreds of Howard Dean's "Get Local" Web site as an action tool.
- :_-_c,herapeutic move- Another flash mob tried to produce a momentary supercom-
_:_- ::ke cult initiation, puter to compete with the fastest and most expensive computers
in the world by bringing conventional computers to a single loca-
I:: =-_JIjust dead social tion, networking them together and putting them to work on a
--.=:::: origin, but forms major scientific problem. It didn't work, but it almost did.
of O. J. playing go~i.:-.=-.
skyrocketing. \'\Te ,T,:, ~:- ~ ,,"
lying at the feet of a still-smoking building. The plots become or something. Th::~=-. ._
so familiar we can list them in shorthand: disgruntled workers exactly, such thing:' .:.~e
going postal; jilted lovers and kids with guns opening fire in pub-
lic; orderly men who keep too much to themselves revealed to
be serial killers butying bodies in their backyards; the black men
beaten, raped, and killed by cops; homegrown militias whipped
into rage at the sight of unmarked helicopters and the stench of Jokes circulate abc .:~-
lost freedoms; messages coming through the mail as literal letter directly to semar:.:-. ~ _~
bombs or with anthrax in white powder or in a brown sandlike together.
substance. One day, shon:" .:.~e·
These scenes have an afterlife; it isn't like you can put a stop to the neighborhooc .. -.
them. Following the details of a breaking event is as compelling on quirky characr:::' ~. . -TIc:
as doing a crossword puzzle; once you get into it you have to stick fabricated on dro-.','-- :..- .
with it so you can get to the end and get out. One day there is
the amazing scene of O. J. Simpson's white Ford Bronco traveling
down an L.A. freeway, and before you know it you are into the
glove, the blood stains, the barking dog, the racist words of the
detective, the verdict, the reactions. Later, there are the sightings
of o. J. playing golf in Florida and the sales of white Ford Broncos
skyrocketing. We watch, amazed, as the Clinton-Lewinsky scan-
dal spreads through a string of serial fetishes: the stained dress, the
thong panties, the tapes, the neckties, the cigar. The details incite
a sensory imagination that spirals off, following leads.
Scenes of public attention routinely drift over the fence of offi-
cial news into eccentric circulation. Andrew Cunanan goes on a
killing spree. After a few days of trying to track the traveling clues
of his love life, his friendships, and his murders, the story flashes
into a life of its own in multiple sightings of the actual man on the
run. Someone spots him in Lebanon, New Hampshire, in a gray
Mercedes Benz with Florida license plates and his pockets stuffed
with money. The money is falling out of cracks and crevices in his
-'-~::-ailerwrapped clothes like a twisted fashion statement from the guy who killed
- c~::. '::--"ttedanimals the king of fashion. But all that turns out to be just apparitions
-::. -=-:-." dots become or something. There is never any real effort to determine what,
~ z::-'-":-:ded
workers exactly, such things are.
-.
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'-.:-=-.'''.cs revealed to
~::.' ~:lCblack men
=-. :-:-:: :ias 'whipped
::-'::. ~.~ ~:le stench of Jokes circulate about how we might as well just wire ourselves
-': -=-.:.... -=..s
literal letter directly to sensation buttons and skip the step of content al-
. - -'-::'::-,w.-nsandlike together.
One day, shortly after 9/n, she gets an e-mail from a friend in
. _ ::.:...-:.
Flit a stop to the neighborhood who likes to keep up a running commentary
IIE:JL:":: . : =-.: .' compelling
2.S on quirky characters and scenes spied from her studio windows or
::-" iave to stick fabricated on drowsy afternoon walks. Her friend writes:
_: = :-.Cday there is
- :::.:3 ::-:,:-:cotraveling Here's a good story we would have had a few yuks about during
::---::"-"are into the coffee club. A friend of mine works @ St. Luke's Roosevelt hospital
::-:'::'.'~\\'ords of the in a building that housed several psychology and psychiatry offices.
:.' ::~ ~" the sightings Of course, it's not the big money area and the building is very rinky-
dink and tenament-ish, not a big target for anthrax, let's just put it
that way. She works with mothers who have drug abuse problems,
and the office downstairs treats juvie-delinquent adolescent types.
Apparently, a few weeks ago one of the women who work in the office
downstairs turns on the ale (window unit) for a little conditioning
action and a white dust sprays out all over her. Yikes! They call the She's living in a tra::::~ ~' J
Center for Disease Control and men in white suits and gas masks Vegas. Her place is 2":'~;",-'' , .:
invade. My friend who is working upstairs is dubious-and so the brick through a winc.~··
people in her office just stay and work while the downstairs is cor- less old stereo, and 5':::,:': :' '.
doned off and investigated. They rush the substance off to the lab and large pair of scissors. -::-',::' . '.C
put everyone who was in the office on Cipro. Then the test results the police. "Kids," ti,,::,:: ~- =
come back. Low and behold, the substance tests positive for cocaine! at all the stuff pulIce ': _.: . : ':,':,
So good, isn't it? They think one of the juvies hid their stash in the ready to go. She sho'." :.',:- ::J
ale when he was afraid of being searched. I think it's a brilliant idea look at it and then c.~~ ,
to start pumping cocaine into the workplace. No need for caffeine black-and-white pho.:: ;~:~'_
anymore, let's just move right on up to the next level of productivity "Did they stick the':: _~ -
inspiration. Whadaya say? at her.
She calls the ma:" '::::-.:..'
can't get a piece of .
her computer over ':0 '
We will follow any hint of energy, at least for a little while. had emptied the pIa::: c...' .:
When something happens, we swarm toward it, gaze at it, sniff kids with her. And
it, absorb its force, pour over its details, make fun of it, hide from five-piece blue veh-e.: •
it, spit it out, or develop a taste for it. We complain about the for the kids in the \'8.: C'
compulsion to participate. We deny its pull. We blame it on the rough, handmade ch::~:
suburbs and TV and ourselves. Bur we desire it too, and the cure is of the three bears: a :-:=:~'':
usually another kind of swarming, this time under the sign of re- He had been planni:-:;, ~':' ;,:
demption: a mobilization for justice, a neighborhood watch com· girlfriend is calling -', c -
mittee, some way of keeping our collective eyes open. Something great the sex is with h:: ~ :-,:
to do. over to fix their toilet ":-,: ' '::'
Out of the blue he .:..<.:' ='
she's alone. They cou.~ :,: ~
,~ _' .:. -'--
..::''1r~x,let's just put it
. ': ::.~ugabuse problems,
III: _. - r ::':::'.:adolescent types.
-'::. "'::'0 \York in the office
11:;;, _: . :':::. :inle conditioning
':r 'likes! They call the She's living in a trailer park outside Nellis Air Force Base in Las
lIIIi::' , ... :: ';lits and gas masks Vegas. Her place is burglarized in plain daylight. Someone hurls a
=-_Jious-and so the brick through a window, rifles through everything, steals a worth-
c :.-.: jo\Ynstairs is cor- less old stereo, and sticks a note onto the living room wall with a
_= ::.=::.= off to the lab and large pair of scissors. The note says, simply, "Yeah, boy." She calls
-=-:-.=:1 the test results the police. "Kids," they say.They roam through the rooms looking
'. := :,::.' iLi,'e for cocaine! at all the stuff pulled out of drawers, the computer unplugged and
, :-,::' :ieir stash in the ready to go. She shows them the note stuck in the wall. Their eyes
. -"':-..:: ::', a brilliant idea look at it and then drift over the walls, skimming the dozens of
- ~,~:::,
:1~ed for caffeine black-and-white photographs of weathered characters tacked up.
'c' .:-=1 of productivity "Did they stick these up too?" "No, those are mine." They look
at her.
She calls the maintenance man to come fix the window. He
can't get a piece of plywood until the next morning, so she carries
her computer over to his trailer. His living room is empty. He
tells her he came home the week before to find that his girlfriend
~ . ':' __:c[c: while. had emptied the place and left, just like that. She took her three
~::. ::. gaze at it, sniff kids with her. And she took the only thing he had ever won-a
- c..: =_== of it, hide from five-piece blue velvet living room suite. He had built a playscape
=: =-=-,=,lain
about ~he for the kids in the yard: a wooden bridge over a little plastic pool;
= _, --:: dame it on the rough, handmade chairs lined up against the trailer like the chairs
"= ,= = =c!. and the cure is of the three bears; a machine of some sort covered with stickers.
- = _=.-=-::r the sign of re- He had been planning to get goldfish for the pond. Now the old
'= :':' =,=:--.oodwatch com- girlfriend is calling him in the middle of the night to tell him how
: ~'::'=!pen. Something great the sex is with her new boyfriend, and one day he even went
over to fix their toilet while they stood watching him.
Out of the blue he asks her to marry him since he's alone and
she's alone. They could help each other. She says no thanks. The
next day he helps her move to a single-wide trailer three streets station and he slips c.'c.
over. He won't take any money so she takes him out to dinner. him.
He wants to use a coupon a woman gave him in lieu of a day's The park manager f-'--. :(
pay for helping her move her office. He doesn't know where the that all the break-ins "'fce
place is, though, so she gets the name and address off the coupon. pened. A line ofbulb.-. '~ce~r'
Dean's Roadside Cafe. She drives up and down a long road lined the back wall of the Q..:: r::' , .
with strip malls. She asks him ifhe can see the place. "What letter to the other. Thev m ·":ffr._~
does it start with?" She looks at him: "a D." Minutes pass. She once and for all. One ':~.~.:-.
ce- ...
asks him again if he can see it. He admits he doesn't know what a can't quite read.
"D" looks like. She finds the place-a sport's bar-and they order Then people stan r'.: ~.:~.; '- .
sandwiches. Nervously, he gives the waitress the coupon and ex- jeep patrolling up an.~ ..::
plains that someone gave it to him. The waitress stares at the little with its headlights 06.= r:: ';::
piece of paper, scowling. "What's this supposed to be?" "She said of it slowly passing. s:-::..
it was a coupon to get one free." "No, you can't use this here. It's or five men hanging -=-_-~ :
l~ ~- .J
been whited out." She looks at him like he's a criminal. guns and spotlights ir'. ~':-.:.. ..:..:.
On the way home, they have to stop at a casino. He insists of" commulllty.". ane ..c.:~.:r.." :
they use valet parking. Then he rushes in, changes a twenty dollar if they've been taken i:: ..~-::~c.
bill, and loses it in a slot machine in less than a minute. She can't tions of reality TV CO?'.-: -.
believe how perfunctory it is-like blowing your nose or going to over some line intO d s~"'~::
the bathroom or something. They leave immediately. He says he surreal scenes of SUdC:: :,
never brings more than twenty dollars. silently in the nighL.
A few days later he leaves on a midnight bus to Houston. He She and some or ~.-.ce
asks her if she knows where the bus station is and how he might meeting to get these ;_'
get there. Then he's just gone. He doesn't say goodbye to anyone. teenager.
He doesn't let his boss know he's leaving because he's afraid he'll The soldiers do \';:l.c.~ ~,-.
be mad and won't let him go. She finds out the manager has only
been paying him enough for some food and letting him stay in his
trailer. Now he's off, looking for a life. He's got an old girlfriend
in Houston. She's married now, so she's out, but her daughter had
a crush on him when she was kid. She's a paraplegic now from a The nightly ne,vs re?: r-:.'
car wreck. He's hoping he can go there and take care of her and be popping under pres,_::
her man. That's his plan. He sells everything he can to get a hun- canes. Then a reco'.-o.:-·-fr.:
dred dollars for a bus ticket. Somehow he gets himself to the bus stop watching the no." .
. ::.= ~~ailerthree streets station and he slips away. She never hears anything more about
II1U : .~':= .-.:0 out to dinner. him.
1iL,,~ :.' "'.~. :n lieu of a day's The park manager calls a community meeting. He announces
-: ::..",:-.'~lillow where the that all the break-ins are over. She points our that hers just hap-
11111 ' ::. c::' ::.~=
's off the coupon. pened. A line of bulky, stern-looking, air force guys leaning against
'ili':-. a long road lined the back wall of the Quonset hut shift their weight from one foot
It :-" :.'.= -::ace.
"What letter to the other. They murmur something about putting a stop to it
'. ::nures pass. She once and for all. One of them catches her eye with a hard look she
t".,,:-.· .,,::.: ",m'tknow what a can't quite read.
t- _., ~-'.: - and they order Then people start noticing a late-model, brightly colored, party
~__.'" coupon and ex- jeep patrolling up and down the streets at all hours of the night
I.. ::=;; stares at the little with its headlights off. One night, when she wakes up to the sound
;ildIJ =~ ~o be?" "She said of it slowly passing, she looks our and sees the dark shapes of four
"~"i : ~. ~ ·.lse this here. It's or five men hanging off the sides of the jeep with semiautomatic
IIIlE ::. : ::oinal. guns and spotlights in their hands. It's as if some floating images
~ ,. ::.:asino. He insists of "community" and "action" have suddenly become visceral. As
IIIIIIli . :...-.~=s a twenty dollar if they've been taken too literally, merging with the graphic repeti,
~tlIT ::.:::. __. ::. 8:nute. She can't tions of reality TV cop shows. As if "community" itself has drifted
It :: .. : ::.~nose or going to over some line into a state of free-fall, scripting the everyday with
, . - -:-=::.:ately.He says he surreal scenes of strange community meetings and jeeps passing
silently in the night.
~ ;101 _: ... ~ _' ~o Houston. He She and some of the others have to call another emergency
• a__
~dhow he might meeting to get these guys to stop before they shoot someone's
~iillli ~ :~,dbye to anyone. teenager.
. ,,:::.::.:'"he's afraid he'll The soldiers do what they're told .
, . ::.:.=::lanager has only
.=:-:::::ghim stay in his
:I - : ~ : ~ an old girlfriend
I _. ::. _~her daughter had
l ' ::.::..:-a?:egic now from a The nightly news reports an endless series of incidents of people
, ::.:.c.::=::.areof her and be popping under pressure or getting hit by stray bullets and hurri-
~'·i,., ....
_" ' can to get a hun-
; .'.'" canes. Then a recovery-movement guru recommends that we just
IIfrr .: ::':mself to the bus stop watching the news, listing it as one of the five major sources
.
of stress today. And, for a second, there's a pause in the flow as if
we stop to wonder if this is the little bit of advice that will finally
reach us like a fortune cookie shot straight from the factory to our
personal plate to spawn a quiet moment of clear thinking.
Too clear, maybe.
parenting? What kind of parenting?); or for some suddenly rec- red wine a day (or Li:: :::~~_~
ognizable copycat phenomenon coming from something in our oil; don't eat carbs :..:'-_
"society." It's as if some quick knowing of why bad things happen from your arteries: ::~~
would be a sign that we care, or notice things, if only in retro- lesterol; try antio:\::c~:-~
spect. Against this tenc::-:-
But the kids, or the records they leave behind, tell stories that into a fictional sac::='c: -:
have their own complex trajectories: they're caught in an obsessive pacts onto stages. R:: _. -
focus on the details of a BIG scenario; they're surging to escape ing both practical t:: c -:::
a trapped life; they're dangerously depressed; they're alone with hitting, lived recog::'..~
~_:-
their cadre and their plan. These stories don't end in a moral but compulsions perm:::..~:::::::..
are left to resonate with all the other ways that intensities rise out to get free of them (,:-~c: :...-:..-
I
The body hums along, rages up, or deflates. It goes with the flow,
meets resistance, gets attacked, or finds itself caught up in some-
thing it can't get out of.
It gyrates to mold itself to every new techno-gadget that comes
. =,_-_::,Qts;or for a along. The fast, edgy corrections of self-help regimens give it
- ~"'-~:-:_
.
~:D.g?
~ roo litde something to do: take an aspirin a day (or not); drink a glass of
•:-:-:-suddenly rec- red wine a day (or not); eat butter, or low-fat margarine, or canola
: :1~:-thingin our oil; don't eat carbs at all; eat oatmeal to strip the bad cholesterol
~"'-=-
~bngs happen from your arteries; eat wild Alaskan salmon to add the good cho-
.~-:':1lv in retro- lesterol; try antioxidants or kava kava or melatonin.
Against this tendency, a spate of memoirs works the lone self
~:-llsrories that into a fictional sacrifice powerful enough to drag the world's im-
_ : c _~:_ an obsessive
~ ::' pacts onto stages. Recovery groups add density to the mix, offer-
_ -= ..:.~§:i:1g ro escape ing both practical recipes for self-redeeming action and a hard-
_:. -=--_:---.~-: alone with hitting, lived recognition of the twisted, all-pervasive ways that
- :::_~ ::-:.a moral but compulsions permeate freedoms and are reborn in the very surge
- c -:_~:-=-_,i[iesrise out to get free of them once and for all.12
-.~_.=_"':TIorvdims or
to the more
-- = .-. ~.:..-:.
.- =--,~~acrsus from
:::. ,_-_:-: .., what could Benny has been straight for a year and a half. He starts going to
.:::-:.g hands, were a wild Pentecostal church. Then he decides to start a Bikers for
-.:-=-~J a violent end. Christ church of his own. The members go to prisons, visiting.
:- : .:-=-_
r name or pre- Benny has a vision of a big trip to Huntsville or someplace like
that. They'll ride in on, like, 150 Harleys and go up the aisles in
her daughter Lilly from a bad addiction. She says it's like Lilly's an actual fold or Ie-';~~;c
in a dream world and she just doesn't care. Joyce realizes how bad There are man\' c;;:'-; ,-'
things are when she goes to bail Lilly out of jail one night but work better than c ~:-,c:-
Lilly refuses to leave her girlfriend and her girlfriend's baby. She Some can be prolc:-,;c ~
demands that her mother go get diapers for the baby as if that's and have to be co:-,'~-'.:-.~.
the only thing that matters. The difference ofcer:~c-; c- ~
Now Lilly's back staying with Joyce and working at Wendy's. work with.
She's saying she wants to get straight so she and her girlfriend But even thosecc,:-:',c
and the baby can get a place of their own. Her license has been behind them are s:i~~~. - ~'
revoked, so Joyce is spending four hours a day driving her over the and they still make r:~:' -
mountain to work and picking her up at midnight. not the smartest lhi:-::
The road is bad, especially at night, and twice this week Joyce that's not always Ihe ':-:-,~;::
has been followed by the same truck and car. The first time they the possibilities e\'C::-,:: "C ~_- ci
were shooting and she didn't know if they were shooting at her,
at each other, or at the road signs. But they finally passed her. The
other time they appeared out of the fog right behind her, but after
a while they just cut out their lights and disappeared.
One day Joyce called one of the hospitals that advertise addic- Sometimes the scel,C
tion programs. They told her it would cost four hundred dollars figure on the horizcl=-_ -
a day. She said ''Are you crazy?" She said, "Those ads are wrong suspended in the a:r -, -
that say if you need help you can get it. The rich people can help out of place can be -'. ;c ~.-'-: ,
their kids but not the poor people. Now if I thought I could get Or just funny, quir~-:-.-'.:-:
off cigarettes I'd stand naked in the four-lane to town. But now simultaneously to ,:--,C ':"-", '-=-- =:=
wait 'til you have kids; you can just kiss your mind goodbye." nary affects that anic-'.;c .~ -'--~
Her mother's p2.i:-..;::-;
says it really is, becc..•.'c ~,-:;: .3
- ~- .:::--_:: ::ngines. He sees
IN'i _- - _::-_,:-Ie feels the eyes
: ~-_::::-::-_
.:.::hrill.
.iH
•••. ;:
~
-::,:: shooting at her,
=::-_.:.:_~,-passed her. The
- -- - ,:::--.indher, but after
ll-., _::- , c:: -: ::2Ied.
i!i) advertise
::"'-.:.:: addic- Sometimes the scene of a finished life appears like a beautiful
.IJ1LL: hundred dollars
- --• ..:., figure on the horizon. For a minute, it's like a snapshot hangs
-=-_-_:s:: ads are wrong suspended in the air while we watch, wide-eyed. But a little detail
- -: ,::-: people can help out of place can be a telltale sign of something terribly wrong.
- : :",_,:mghtI could get Or just funny, quirky, a boink in the perfect scene. We're drawn
__- -::::0 town. But now simultaneously to the amazing bubble image and to all the ordi-
goodbye." nary affects that animate it and pull it apart.
Her mother's painting class has become a support group. She
says it really is, because there are interesting people in it, mean-
ing they have interesting lives, meaning they all have their prob- Her mother, Claire
lems-something to talk about and something to hide, too. her problems. So the ::: ~.
Mary is the quiet one who never says a word and everything is life. When she gave ::--.~:-:
. .:....~ :
always fine with her. But one day she lets something slip about a novel The Notebook, :.'~ c.
first husband and they're all over it. To make a long story short, husband were like, 0:-.= c:
she married the guy who helped her get away from her first hus- a woman who did soc=:.· __~'- :..
band and now they're so happy they eat low-fat vegetarian food, do that, but I bet C::
take all kinds of pills, and measure and weigh everything so they
can go on living forever.
Sue's first husband was cheap. He wouldn't spend a dime. He
took to his bed on their wedding day and never got up again. He
finally committed suicide on the day of her second marriage. The Like a live wire, ,he '.: =:. c..::
others notice that she talks fast and never seems to sit down. in the process of its
They suspect Betty comes from money. She's more of the gar- agulation of intensit:e;
den club crowd. But her family isn't exactly what you'd call good pressions, it's a thins .=. ". .
to her and she lost her only son in a car wreck. She paints too events it traverses or ::-..'.:: .'
fast; she's just happy to get one thing done and get on to the next Things happen, ~'.~~: -
one. Her husband makes the little boxes and plaques she needs to someplace it didn't e·,::::.
keep her busy. She's nice talking but once in a while she'll swear-
"That son of a bitch."
Carol's husband quit working because he couldn't take the
stress. He roamed around the house all day. Then he decided that
most of his stress came from her. He started following her around A cheerful e-mail.=c:-:'.=
the house, writing down in a little leather notebook everything When he lived in r~~~ ~_~_- _
she did that stressed him out. he would stop b:·, 2:-;:-; ~_
Donna's husband left her and their four kids for a younger the streets, or dolls 0: -::..- - -
woman. She finally found another man but the others are suspi- objects, real or imag::-.~c
cious of him because he told Donna that she was 50000 beautiful sional phone calL
and he said that she was going to turn his life around. (The eyes
roll). She has his ring and he's moved in with her and right away Mike was here ~:: :.' .
he's quit his job and he wants her to sell her house and buy an- around, and then :-~'c' _
other one because he doesn't want to have to be reminded of her a wonderful week cr. C .:. ~ ~.
former husband. And it looks like he drinks. She's counting. It to Wisconsin, no::: :~.
looks like it's four cocktails a night, at least. rather, it turns ou:. ::
;ml- c-_:,aye their prob- Her mother, Claire, is the good listener. She doesn't like to air
I. hide, too.
- :: :: her problems. So the others think she's the one with the perfect
z' ' ~:: c-;d everything is life. When she gave them all a copy of Nicholas Sparks's romantic
,', ~:.';r1g slip about a novel The Notebook, they decided that was what Claire and her
m:. - - c.c::: :: .::::1gstory short, husband were like. One day when one of them was talking abour
Ir' _ ,~ ::-:1her first hus- a woman who did something daring she said, "Well I would never
l"" '"~getarian food,
.~::: do that, bur I bet Claire would."
~;al _ c:. - ::':::::-::::hing
so they
it: " : -<~g her around A cheerful e-mail comes from her friend Andrew in Chicago.
- J~ everything When he lived in his tiny little house down the street from her,
he would stop by, bringing acorns that had dropped in piles on
- ror a younger the streets, or dolls or paintings he had made, or stories of found
'1lIJ - - _ - ":: : :::ers are suspi- objects, real or imagined. Now it's e-mails coming in and an occa-
iii ,.'::.' ,")1)00 beautiful sional phone call.
IllEr' :.l::1d. (The eyes
:::
c::: ---.::: ,:'::1dright away Mike was here for the week, and it's always so fun to have him
iI[J . ::~.: :'::c and buy an- around, and then he has to go, and I get a little blue. 0, well, we had
1m ::::: :::::minded of her a wonderful week and did all sorts of fun things. Yesterdaywe drove
~ .-.::c', counting. It to Wisconsin, not to get apples, though we intended to do that, but
rather, it turns out, to snoop on Kenosha and Racine. In Kenosha,
which was as cute as a bug, and just about as small, we saw a sign that dumfounded. \'('112,' ,~c-
said "Estate Sale" ... oh; you can imagine me salivating at that can't gats! Fuck you fagge,'
you? An estate sale in Sneekcraggle, Wisconsin?! Let's go! There's a sad siJ,::-.-=-:'
So we do. It's down a regular street of suburban homes. And then "But how did dre-
down a road that's narrower and the houses smaller, then down a "Hellooooo~
gravel path to homes that are EASILY half the size of my house in enjoying themsek:,
Austin! Really! It's like miniature people live on this street. All sorts "Oh."
of trees and bushes separate the homes and the grass is mowed "up
to a certain point" and then it's just weeds. The garage with the sale
is about six inches below ground level and is filled with the most
charming display of things and more things. And it's all half off. I get
a cluster of old rusty knives and forks taped together with the price Encounters can hacC' ::-. ,--" ','1
"$I.48 for ALL (8)," and Mike gets two crimson sateen brocade pil- ones, either.
lows that looked like they are inspired by the Ali Baba-in-the-Harem One day the \yc:-:-. .=....' ,
look. Inside, I can't pass up the crocheted carnations, which you are turns and stares 2I ~.:, ;:,--=- _".J
supposed to use as pulls for your window shades! So many other spreading over her '2:-.-=-: ,_
wonders that we can't or won't buy but it is a lovely dream. And the She smiles bac~~ 2, ~-:
sellers! Mike and I are ready to move in just to hang out with them. ment of locked ga.=> '
All of them very Wisconsiny, lots of O's and gee-whizzes. There is a young woman nod, e':: .J
room full of Betty Whites! All trying to help us figure out the half "Well I live in Ihe :-:e~- _ . -- ••
price. She keeps saying "0, gee. This is a hard one! One forty-eight! so)." The woman ::-2':-:.'
o gee, what would that be, then? Wow, well let's go on to this one, lips as if to say, "He":'. :-c.:-.
half of twenty-five, well, let's call it twelve cents, ok?" and on like her eyes are gleam::-:~
that. I am totally cuted our because they are all over seventy and are She slides her IT." -=-. e ,-
wearing Bulls parkas. The day is like that. No apples, bur lots of yel- "Ok, then. Bye-ke, ._
low and butterscotch and red trees. Just calming to drive through. sees her come OUI 2":-.= ~:-
She tells the SIC:-- 2, '
Then another e-mail comes from Andrew about a trip through course the woma:-: -'2,
things together.
Differences of at ~=--
tion, sometimes aIT.-':;~:-:':
_.
interest in somethi,.Z ; .
The labor of looking has been retooled and upgraded so we can are displays ofkiI~d:-.~
cut back and forth between the images popping up in the living can be noted as a .~
room and some kind of real world out there.
America's Most V01nted airs photos of bank robbers with and
without beards so you can scan the faces at the 7-II for a match.
Mimicking the moves of surveillance technologies, the citizenry
now practices self-discipline on the level of a bodily impulse. Of She and the bab:' §:~~c-
course there are refusals too, and all kinds of ambivalence, hesita- port there are ba:1:·2'
tions, and sidesteps. Practices gathered under the sign of discipline hotel shuttles. It's :::. .:..-:. ~ _
actually have tendrils spreading out to complex and shifting states room, but then a :-~~-==:__-_ :I
of attraction and distraction, pleasure and sadness, belonging and Suites. He says it's ~'-.~-: . ~c.:::
longing. Little half-lived games like scanning the faces at the 7-II sive. It's right dO\\·:-.~=-.=
are not just a matter of festering alienation or a mean-spirited will The place is sc:.:-.~~ ~ .
to bend others to the rule of law. There is also the simple seduc- calm, and next to c.-.~~~'
tion of the game of recognition itself. Or the fascination with the cases stocked wid:. _~:. =- .. ..
moment when something snaps into a frame to become more The suites are hu§::::':':-._ . - .
real, or at least more particular. Excesses of all kinds draw special ately brings up a :~i~:. ~
attention-successes and failure, surges of action, wild trajectories sheets and a bab,.-':-:.:.:-.:~'
that lead somewhere. They go do\\-n c.: c.' ~
There are socialities of the watching. In the convenience store, bar has been set L:- c.:-.:' :. .
there is an aggressively casual, noncommittal noticing-half fur- pizza and talking a:~: :
tive, half bored. If there's a checkout line, it's loose; people mill five-dollar bill. Th::::-.:.~~
= . :. c' ~
around waiting. They buy lottery tickets, cigarettes, junk food, yourself to some pi.:.:.:
and beer. There are those who buy a single giant can of cheap people gathered ar:'-'::'.:.
beer early in the morning. There are those who have a habit of eating together in s:~~~ "I.
two or more trips to the "rip store" a day. There are those who The hotel is 0\',:-. ~ :.
build a routine of going once a day just to get out of the house; everyone, except le·:. c. := ..:!
to have the transaction of buying something; to make brief, light color. It's like a set:': ~ .: _' = -
talk. There are those who only stop in occasionally for a quart of differently. A nene ~~.-'-::. -
milk or a newspaper because it's efficient and they're busy holding
things together.
Differences of all kinds are noted automatically. There is irrita-
tion, sometimes amusement, or a hard-boiled, hard-hearted lack of
interest in something someone else is doing. And sometimes there
.' _ - ~ _:,zraded so we can are displays of kindness-brief, Bickering, half-made gestures that
~ -~~:-.; up in the living can be noted as a bright moment in the day, or ignored.
It can be leaked or harvested for future reference. He's in his forties \"+.~=-.
,.:
It can spread like wildflower seeds randomly tossed on a sub- house next to her t~ic:=-.':'-~=-.-:1ii
urban lawn. lived before that.
We do things with power, and to it. There are palpable pleasures At first, he and _~~::' .
and acid stomachs in questioning it, spying on it, digging it up, and talking about :".': _ _ _
calling it out, evading it, ingratiating oneself to it, sacrificing one- goes out to get his e-'---. .
self on its altar, putting something over on it, or somehow coming pointedly and snee:', .. ::
to rest outside its whirlpool even for a minute. talk to Andrew at
Sometimes \"her. 'T.: :".'
guy out in his fron=·~:.:.
raged if someone cr>,,: :
foul language at the =::: =: .
The young woman who lives next door starts to pour a gallon jug says he's never hea=- ~---=--. -.::
of Round-Up around a tree in her front yard so she can plant a The guy becoIT,c:' -
decorative lawn cover there. Danny runs over to tell the woman attic. He starts talL::.:: ~ =
she'll kill the trees and poison everything with that stuff. He says the niceties of tra J:--'r
n ~: -:' : - -.
--:- ~,-
it's really just Agent Orange in an over-the-counter jug. He says Andrew comes haec: ~-: .::-_
he doesn't think the woman's all there. A year or two later, she dies shocked. All he sa',', :' -
in a car accident. Her husband is screaming and smashing walls in his attic again, at-:c::::: = - ..
in the house. Hordes of men move in with him. They hang out just lost it. He got a ,,:--. =~:- _,.. _. :
on the front porch, drinking beer and heckling women walking ceiling. Blood and ~:...=':....'
by on the street. They get puppies and then neglect them. So the white carpet.
puppies howl all day in the backyard or escape and run around Now he's standins: .=-.=__ .:
~. '~:-.::'
.~.
r sensory alarm killing neighborhood cats. The men start to fight with each other.
The grass grows to four feet tall and they park a large boat on a
trailer in the front yard. One day one of them gets in his truck
and starts ramming all the other trucks parked over there. Finally,
they're evicted. The landlord calls them hippies .
1Ihe:"'" ' =::c.:.x tWOlater, she dies shocked. All he says is "Oh! It's bad! It's bad!" He heard the coons
.i'.,=,:~=_.:-.'::md smashing walls in his attic again, after months of coon-proofing strategies, and he
unintended and disastrous consequences; and that all agency is it plays itself Out, .~ :,==~ ::::
frustrated and unstable and attracted to the potential in things. dreams popping up~, . __. _
It's not really about willpower but rather something much more in workplaces ane ::-.=.r='::': .•
complicated and much more rooted in things. her children to sa',:: =~~:- .- -
Junta-the "hockc:' ::::: -
the ice. Or Juma's: r ::=,",
~:: _-:::
and battery with a 'C-d ;:: _ ::
at a Best Buy emplc:'c~
Redemption: The recovery of something pawned or mortgaged. A receipt.
second chance born of suffering and still resonant with loss.
The dream of redemptive violence has become the ready matter
of commonplace dreams. Dramas of a clarifYing surge of action
saturate ordinary life, macho movies, laws, publics, institutions,
and diffuse, existential dilemmas of personhood and power. Something huge aIl~ .:- ~~.
Mythic heroes sacrifice themselves to rebirth the world. Tight mysteriously intimc.-::::- ~~.=.~__i~~
little circles of religion wrap themselves in apocalyptic dreams. concrete, it's both 2. :>=.:-"- -,
The nation-state gets tough on crime on behalf of family values. claustrophobicall:~-=~;= ~:: ~~: -
The death penalty comes to stand for the execution of evil itself, stuck in a customer ,~:- ,::: --
one individual at a time. And everyday life is hot with the con- to get to the bottoD ::='::,-. .
stant clash of people butting up against each other followed by the
consuming dream of righteous revenge.
To say that a thing like redemptive violence is a myth is not to
say that it's like a bad dream you can wake up from or an idea you
can talk people out of. It's more like a strand in the netting that
~.:-_::,gs, passive, or holds things together. A conduit for bits and pieces of political
-~. -:\ot usually a beliefs, networks, technologies, affinities, dreamed-of possibilities
and events.
~~: a life"). But It can take many forms. It can be a mean pettiness, a disso-
~'. ;:onnections. It lute rage, a habit of self-destruction, an overcharged and swollen
=~'5 liyed through will, a body in a state of alarm. It can be a derailed sensibility
_ -:c:-'.;:,ion;that the thrashing around at full throttle. Or something really small. It's
~ ~ - T';" a;:ted on, or to road rage, or parents whipped into violent deeds to protect their
~; :'2. move to lose children, or drug addicts slashing at the American dream as they
~_-_.:.
~ -'.;:,ionscan have spiral out of it. There's always something a little "off" in the way
- :. ~_-_2.t all agency is it plays itself out. A little sad. It's the teenagers who kill, the pipe
- - = :: : ~c:=-_:ial in things. dreams popping up all over the place, the smoldering resentments
- --- - ~-:...
-
---
in a much more
;:, in workplaces and intimate spaces. It's Andrea Yates drowning
her children to save them from eternal damnation. Or Thomas
Junta-the "hockey dad" -killing his son's coach in a fight on
the ice. Or Junta's brother, arrested shortly thereafter for assault
and battery with a dangerous weapon when he threw a cell phone
at a Best Buy employee who wouldn't let him return it without a
__ _ _ ::_~::.J:: mortgaged. A receipt.
: =-_~: \yith loss.
:-_":~e ready matter
.:.:~=-_~surge of action
:: --,-"=, L;:s, institutions,
-::': : =-__ _:.ood and power. Something huge and impersonal runs through things, but it's also
-:'-: :~_ The world. Tight mysteriously intimate and close at hand. At once abstract and
- ':'?~Kal:rpticdreams. concrete, it's both a distant, untouchable order of things and a
- : ~ ::_2.::- of family values. claustrophobically close presence, like the experience of getting
-_- = ~:" :-,,:ion of evil itself, stuck in a customer service information loop every time you try
: _' hot with the con- to get to the bottom of things.
It's as if a net has grown around a mutating gelatinous sub- an act of vengeance 2~-'--:- .. ,
stance. emerge on the parai.::. ~:..;~
It's also as if the net is full of holes, so that little pieces or whole into place: the h:Te::- .; ..~"
blobs of things are always falling out of it and starting up some bottomless rage agai,,-,: :" .
new thing on their own. signs of what "the::' "-:~ _: .
It harbors fantasies and fears. action as a spectacle: ~ : - :,. ...0
It spawns trajectories. But there's more :: .: :.'~: -
It sets up a quick relay between things. theory. An intima:e ~::-.:'
It induces both rage and the softly positive sense of being activities, and little:: ..c., ..
connected and so somehow safe (or not, but at least "in it "they" are doing. __ ,
together") . tices, the indeterm::-.c.:~::. ::-
There's a promise of losing oneself in the flow of things. But panics, the dream :: : : ? : .:;
the promise jumps in a quick relay to the sobering threats of big kind of final truth (': ': .
business, global warming, the big-box corporate landscape, the what this is all abo..::
master-planned community, the daily structural violence of in- Conspiracy the:::- :-.J
equalities of all kinds, the lost potentials, the lives not lived, the routes, articulating 2 --.:'::: ':.:.;I
hopes still quietly harbored or suddenly whipped into a frenzy. by an all-pervasi\';::,'::-:.::::.' -~. 1
Either that, or the promise of losing yourself in the flow be- that be are funcrio:-.-,--,.:::.
comes a dull, empty drifting that you can't get yourself out of is structural, and t:-.2:: :
intentional, and o:=:--:--=-_ -~ - -
always already m::,:;:::..: -
a reversal or a retL::-. 2' .•': . :e.
around or some::,-::-.:::
Investigative reports, talk shows, TV series, movies, novels, and
textbooks present a diffuse, sometimes panicked, sense of struggle
against unknown forces-a deep worry that normality isn't nor-
mal anymore, that somebody has done something to the way
things used to be, that we have lost something, that we have been She's flying back :'-,::-::.': 'c::-~a
changed. Near the end of tr.:c=-=-.z." -..- = :1
Conspiracy theory follows power's secret moves through the heavy rain in the H: _: _ =,,,-
telltale signs inscribed on banal surfaces. It takes the vaguely lived has flooded (there' "-~..~ ._
sense that something isn't quite right and then snaps it into a the airport. Her -;:2:-.:::
puzzle form, a search for underlying causes. It dreams of a return By the time the:'
to a pristine past and the redemption of a human agency born in But then by the ti:-::~:'. -C-.J
an act of vengeance against the actual state of things. Extremists
emerge on the paranoid edge. A profile of the loner/loser snaps
~c-c~
~c_-:-dcpieces or whole into place: the hypervigilant over-the-edge look in his eye; the
c c ':""-c:'
srarting up some bottomless rage against the system; the obsessive compilation of
signs of what "they" are up to; the guy free-falling into violent
action as a spectacle of some kind of crisis of agency.
But there's more to it than this. There's pleasure in conspiracy
theory. An intimate knowledge of secret collusions, clandestine
~:cc sense of being activities, and little collaborative worlds of an "us" tracking what
='-J.rat least "in it "they" are doing. There are the small, inventive interpretive prac-
tices, the indeterminate trajectories of where things might go, the
- ~c:-:='ow of things. But panics, the dream of popping up into the limelight with some
- :::-;:ring threats of big kind of final truth or something, the moment of the "Ah ha! That's
c: -::-: ::-dlelandscape, the what this is all about!"
~~.
_:~-_rJ violence of in- Conspiracy theory travels through divergent and conflicting
~-c:-~i';esnot lived, the routes, articulating a widely shared sensibility of being controlled
. ::-?cdinto a frenzy. by an all-pervasive something. It takes for granted that the powers
.
: _..-,elfin the flow be- that be are functionaries of the opposing camp; that the problem
- ~ :::-~-,'ourselfout of. is structural, and that social structures are mysterious, motivated,
intentional, and often malevolent. It nods to an ordinary that is
always already mixed up in all of this, and yet it also beckons to
a reversal or a return as if a sudden magical jolt could turn things
around or something.
rrlovies, novels, and
- ~ .. ::~;:d,sense of struggle
,- ~..-'-~rlormality isn't nor-
:...-:'.ethingto the way
- ::~c-c. .,=. that we have been She's flying back from Guatemala en route to Austin via Houston.
Near the end of the flight the pilot announces that there has been
_i::'.- moves through the
:-:::-~ heavy rain in the Houston area. The new air traffic control tower
.r:,__ :: ~i.--;.cs
the vaguely lived has flooded (there's a flaw in the design), and they have shut down
~_.:.~ien snaps it into a the airport. Her plane is short on fuel, so it's diverted to Austin.
liB' -< I~dreams of a return By the time they land thirty minutes later, Houston has reopened.
p' • . ~.:-
..:.managency born in But then by the time they refuel Houston has shut down again.
The pilot announces that there is no plan. No one can get off the tise gain purchase ie c.'.~ ::~, ,.
plane since there is no immigration office in Austin. They wait on erate in the very dFo::-,,:
the runway for nine hours. They run out of water and toilet paper. She's in Las Vega'. ~:
One man in a wheelchair has to be taken off the plane. partment of Energ:.- ::.._
They fly back to Houston, but they have just missed the last pository in the desc': ::-:.,.
plane back to Austin. They're given vouchers for a discount on a ings. The format is 21''-':-' '.' c
hotel and are assigned to flights in the morning. It's 2 AM when say that science cae :-,':'::-.::"'::
:.,::
they get checked in at the hotel and set off on foot across an urban only incites reactio:1. =-:::::: ,:: C..L...
expanse of highways to find an all-night diner. scenarios of what cce.:..::. ' ':::1
The next morning at 6, the lines stretch hundreds of yards out- country from a hLL'::':::::' '
side the terminal. Inside, three lines snake around the lobby fill- gency cleanup cre\,'s "
ing every inch of it with bodies pressed together. Sometimes the spill. Or they come '_? "
lines cross or merge but no one knows which one is best, or which could do with the sc.:.:=:: '
one they are supposed to be in, or where the lines are going. She ocean floor.
endures along with the rest of the passengers. Occasionally an air- Sometimes the D::::' ,. ',--
line employee dressed in red moves through the crowd, drawing the opposite of whc.: ':.::' :: "-='
frantic questions. But the employees don't know anything. The geology is not a prec:c':.'~ . =:
monitors are dead. At IO she makes it to a ticket counter and is happen to plutonic:...-c.:_--c_
told that her 9 o'clock flight has long been canceled. The agent years.
says she can book her on a flight the next afternoon. She says no One day at a he.:..c::::.;-- ."
way. Somehow she gets on standby on a flight that might leave in waste transportation c.:..: .': .
four hours. themselves. Thev
Inside the terminal, the working monitors show all flights as very systematic-Iook:::-.=
"delayed." Hers doesn't show up at all. She wanders around until irrational public fec.c-. =.- c
she finds a gate with a mob of people trying to get to Austin. feet high with barrels: " .-._ ~ ::__ ,'
Later, she gets on a flight. The next morning the news reports entrance to a Ke\y ",:: = - -.
that Houston airport is back to normal, and we try to forget, as if hanging over their :e.:.:::,: .:..':::
nothing happened. Just move on. a bridge clearance s;;:::, :.c.~'
has fallen off the cc:.c:: ::""::'
tunnel. It's the mor:-.~:::.:
"Go for id" The DOE -.:-'
technology to circu.-:::·::.'.-
There are uncertainties (to say the least) in the links between control systems. Ar c':::.~::
human action and complex systems. Notions of truth and exper- his hand on the nud::.:..':' ::...-:::.;
j;]n ' ~ :Jne
can get off the tise gain purchase in the gap, but sketchy connections also prolif-
mr - _~_.~_;.:.s,in.
They wait on erate in the very effort to solidifYsome kind of order.
mur _ - : :"'.o:er and toilet paper. She's in Las Vegas, following the conflict over whether the De-
Ill:: - - : -::: : e plane. partment of Energy (DOE) will build a national nuclear waste re-
1I[- .oe.1S' missed the last
. pository in the desert north of the city. There are regular hear-
eI _--e:' Tora discount on a ings. The format is always the same. Experts deployed by the DOE
!i1I'1 - : :- __ng. It's 2 AM when say that science can handle the nuclear waste. But this statement
Ii[ . ~ : :_:-ootacross an urban only incites reaction. People call them liars and then offer detailed
scenarios of what could happen to nuclear waste trucked cross-
I: .1.-:.dreds
_:- _-_ of yards out- country from a hundred sites on back roads where local emer-
D::: ~:e .o:'Jund the lobby fill- gency cleanup crews won't have a clue what to do with a nuclear
.: .::e:l-cer.
-=- Sometimes the spill. Or they come up with bright ideas about what else the DOE
liT','" - ::_ ,Jne is best, or which could do with the stuff, like shoot it to the moon or bury it in the
IF _ -" : e ~inesare going. She ocean floor.
:-_;e:,. Occasionally an air- Sometimes the DOE scientists, put on the spot, end up saying
1Ir: -- - . _;.- Thecrowd, drawing the opposite of what they've been brought there to say. They say
lilII'i:" -=- :._: ~-:-,owanything. The geology is not a predictive science; there's no saying what might
i1ic - -. ::cket counter and is
-=- happen to plutonium buried underground for ten thousand
I::: : ee._ canceled. The agent years.
_::=:ernoon. She says no One day at a hearing in a casino, the DOE displays a nuclear
~ _ =-_;:c: rhat might leave in waste transportation cask so that people can see it and touch it for
themselves. They show charts of the DOE chain of command (it's
.'::: - .• :.:s show all flights as very systematic-looking). Then they show cartoons that parody
1Il1:_ :-_ e --anders around until irrational public fears. One is of a pickup truck piled fourteen-
• :: ::--::1g to get to Austin. feet high with barrels of nuclear waste. The truck is stopped at the
.e:- -: .:__ ng the news reports entrance to a New York City tunnel. Workers with beer bellies
IIJ,- -=-=-_-=- '.\-etry to forget, as if hanging over their jeans are standing around in traffic looking at
a bridge clearance sign that says "eleven feet." One of the barrels
has fallen off the truck and is rolling down the ramp into the
tunnel. It's the moment of decision. One of the men is saying,
"Go for it!" The DOE says their system is not like this. They have
technology to circumvent the human factor. They have quality
I1II 0. _ _=: :n the links between control systems. At one point the DOE general manager places
III -: ._.,_5 of truth and exper- his hand on the nuclear waste cask for a full minute to show that
a body doesn't blow up on contact with nuclear waste (of course
the cask he has his hand on is empty). Then he invites the public
to the parking lot outside to see the cask that has just made the
first dry run across the country in an eighteen-wheeler. They go
inside the trailer to touch the cask and listen to the loud hum of
its "containment systems." It has a lot of flashing lights. The 0rdinary is a IT.:'. __~ :~-~
Then she goes up and talks to the truck driver sitting in the cab. sense of, but a set or 'e: __.: ~- -
He's wearing a cut-off Harley Davidson T-shirt and he has several The possibility tb: ': :-:-::'~:
earrings in one ear. He wants to talk about his high-level security untapped.
clearance-a G clearance, which is better even than a C clearance. We struggle to rr::':e: :
She asks him about the computer keyboard sitting on the passen- boards on the side 0:' : ...:: : .
ger seat. He tells her a story. As he was driving away from the ori- We track it thro'J~:-. :::. -
gin point in New Jersey, they told him to log in every fifteen min- versa!, or flight.
utes so they'd know where he was at all times. He had never used We signal its force ::-.'. _
a computer before, so he responded as if it were a joke: "Yeahsure, drifting, running in :<':'~e:
I'll call you when I get there." But the keyboard turned out to be It can be traced iL C:.· -=-.' -
easy to use-nothing to it. Except that the first time he logged built environments.
on, the people reading the satellite that was tracking him sent an Or in the direct ccc::-' .
urgent message asking if he had been rerouted. When he punched Or in the way th2.: :__ .e: ::. _
in that this was the route he'd been given, he received an alert that Or you can find :: .__ . .:.--.:"_
he was on the wrong route, which was accompanied by a second the stress registered ir. __
.::::: - _,
urgent request that he specifYif he had been rerouted. So he shut spring up like blades::' ;:-'-:
off the computer because ifhe'd had real nuclear material onboard dreamy surges.
he certainly wasn't going to listen to these people. Anybody could The ordinary mOYe' .__ . -
have gotten control of the satellite-terrorists or nuts. There were faire attitudes with tl'.e .:.:::"-.':,
terrorists out there who'd love to get their hands on this stuff. race and class. Or in :~.::__:.." ,
He ended up driving cross-country with no system tracking is given in the game 0:' ::::~:
his location, following the route he'd been given by his dispatcher. choices now.
For three days he was off the grid and they had no idea where he
was. Or at least that was his story. And she was happier ending her
own day's story there rather than inside with the DOE'S claim to
the banality of business as usual.
The American dream c: :-:-.:
There are only "WiLc.e:: ~ _
~~~=-_-...:.clear
waste (of course
~r:- -=-:-~::l he invites the public
~. :'--:~::har has just made the
[ ~~ ::_~.-:.:een-wheeler.They go
: ~- :- ~;:eE IO the loud hum of
- _:.==_,--,iing
lights. The ordinary is a moving target. Not first something to make
It:~- _ ::: :-::,,-ersitting in the cab. sense of, but a set of sensations that incite.
!!l.:- _ - -=-·:~-:.:nand he has several The possibility that something will snap into sense or drift by
: _: ~-:.:s high-level security untapped.
,:-:~::: ::-~E rhan a C clearance. We struggle to trace it with big stories thrown up like bill-
-.: ~:- ,:ning on the passen- boards on the side of the road.
~_:-.:=-.~ away from the ori- We track it through projects and lines of progress, failure, re-
:: .:;:n every fifteen min- versal, or flight.
.•[ _. :~:'--_::', He had never used We signal its force through dull routine and trouble, through
III ~-_: -"~:e a joke: "Yeah sure, drifting, running in place, and downtime.
E -": :: -: : ~d turned out to be It can be traced in conditions like speedup and the banality of
pr -.~:=.:..-.::irsI time he logged built environments.
£: c.' :.-acking him sent an Or in the direct commodification of the senses.
m:;::r _ ::::" \\nen he punched Or in the way that the consumer is now the citizen.
II - __ .:: .-eceived an alert that Or you can find it in all the drugs, or the prison buildup, or
I ::::.--.?aniedby a second the stress registered in neck muscles, or in the little lifeworlds that
I: .-erouted.
• ::::.--_ So he shut spring up like blades of grass around the body's compulsions and
_ -:_ - _:.::.::I material onboard dreamy surges.
::~::•? le. Anybody could The ordinary moves in the articulations of who cares / laissez-
11::- '.::' .Jr nuts. There were faire attitudes with the apartheidesque hardenings of the lines of
- .. _.--_,--=-_::
on this stuff. race and class. Or in the harsh responsibilities that the individual
IIWJI...-:---. ::10 system tracking is given in the game of becoming a winner or a loser. The only two
iI:"~ .::' ;.'::=-.by his dispatcher. choices now.
. c.: no idea where he
'--'iappier ending her
-:=-_ :he DOE'S claim to
Or in holing up to watch your favorite bad TV show, or spin- Now she takes OL::c: :.:-:~ -
~
ning classes at the gym, or singing along to loud music in the casino on the borde:. -=-.-::: '--
car. the casino and imc", -=--:::: ..~
Or the drugs of all kinds. the time isn't righr. ': - i..J
There's the grim pleasure of a meal at a shelter, or a free bus ride part of a James BO:1~ =-=- -]
because it's an ozone action day, or a whole box of donuts in the back to check the c.=.: __
._=-= .:J
dumpster, or a place to sleep on a church floor because it's freezing with the woman aT ,~.:': =- .~
tonight. But these, of course, are not the same as a little sensory bar, drifts by the mc.:- - - _'-__ 0
vacation to liven up your day. More like forced treading water-
-~_~':'~Qces and veiled the busy work of constantly repeating the unsupported search for
'--~.~:onspiracy, while a starting point.
:-::= : '--: reckless hopes of There's the dream of checking out for good.
Or the dream of getting something for nothing.
couple of dollar slots and hits the jackpot. She gives the neighbor finger left and could=-.~.. :
a cut because she figures her cheering helped and it's good karma snake" outside Aus,:=-.
anyway. Later that night, she returns to the same machine and it ing he slipped on a bc....-'--..c -::1
pays off again. tally shot himself i~ ~.-.~ :: ..
Carrie says it's hard to explain how she knows when a machine was drinking hard. T.-.",:~:
is right; it's just a feeling. Some machines are just for fun, some cowboy who injures :-'--".:' -
are serious, but they all hold some promise of a payoff. Her tal- loses a toe or cu,s a,. -'-~~~ - ..
ent for spotting the promise in a machine lends substance to the just puts on his boo~ c....-.::. .::.:""
dream of beating the odds, and it turns the vague but compelling By the time he geLS~: -""::1
hope of "coming out a winner" into the sensory practice of keep- blood is pouring oc:~'.'~'::' .
ing her eyes on the prize through the din and the Bashing lights. These stories ,ak", ~.-.~ _. c
Her gambling is not just the residue or symptom of distantly de- at work to an end ::: .=-.:.
termining forces but an actual instance of affective and material away with things. ==-- :..- ~ - ..
emergence-a singularity that literally catches her attention and of agency and trieL .--.::.
holds it long enough for her to do something with it. parts become aClL~ .:: .:'_-= ::.JI
a young man in the community hot tub. He's just moved from drivers were char:;e:' .
the Midwest. He can stay here with family for a little while, but and then steer ,her:::~: :..-:
he's already found a job humping tires for minimum wage. He the personal injuf': ~"'?. ~
shows her a missing finger lost at work the first week on the job. The effort to ge~.:' .:.:.'
He talks about it as if it were like losing a fingernail or something. dent, especially \,-r.C'" ? ~: ~
Something to be expected from a young man's work.
This reminds her of stories about people who injure themselves
for cash. Stories that turn a routine desperation into an odd mo-
ment fueled by a character, Stories that add a weird form of agency
or life (or something) to the hard core of desperation, adding up There are bodies O'..:~ • .- .:
to something like desperation plus. There are plen r: . :~. ~~:..
_-C' .:..:-.:;ht.She sits down
::-::-
.. There's the story, for instance, of the old miner in West Virginia
the next machine
.•..•...-'.:-.3., who thwacked off his own fingers for workman's compensation
r- ==~ier on. She plays a every time he was sick or needed money until he only had one
. ~ :-.C giYesthe neighbor finger left and couldn't work at all anymore. Or there's the "lake
e:rr .. C r == ,,--,-'1d it's good karma snake" outside Austin who collected insurance money by claim-
H."'""'. . -.-. = '-'.rne machine and it ing he slipped on a banana in the supermarket. Later, he acciden-
tally shot himself in the leg, becoming completely disabled. He
,_...-
.• ',':' when a machine was drinking hard. There's a story genre in cowboy poetry about a
m~". ~= JUSt for fun, some
- cowboy who injures himself in an accident out on the range. He
lit ~ = .::,'a payoff. Her tal- loses a toe or cuts an artery in his leg. There's lots of blood, but he
. IL., __ .==" .=:-.2,substance to the just puts on his boot and drives himself a long distance into town .
"""" .:..;uebut compelling By the time he gets to the hospital he's barely conscious and the
lB" . ,::.-.:. rc: practice of keep- blood is pouring out of the top of his boot.
~'II: .:..:-~.2 ::,heflashing lights. These stories take the trajectory of expected or accepted injury
1tI;: ·'~·.:-::'Jm of distantly de- at work to an end point outside ordinary rationales. They run
.::,.c.: ::,. ,,--,-"::-'cctiye
and material away with things. In them, anything's possible and weird forms
1:::.--'. .c-r.-.=' her attention and of agency and tricky moves become real in twisted bodies. Body
III . :-.: ,,'.·ithit. parts become actual commodities that can be converted into
modest cash payments in a pinch.
They say Lawrence, Massachusetts, is the insurance fraud
capital of the state. An insurance fraud was uncovered when a
grandmother who was sitting in the back seat of a car was killed
.:-. ::"25 Vegas, she meets in a deliberate head-on high-speed crash with another car. Both
- :-:.c:,just moved from drivers were charged with fraud. Runners would find the drivers
.. ~'::,
r a little while, but and then steer them to the lawyers and doctors who would fill out
-. ~ ::-::-.inimum wage. He the personal injury reports for a cut.
-- " '=~,tweek on the job. The effort to get by can quickly become a self-defeating acci-
'=:-;c:rnailor something. dent, especially when people are pushing it (but not only then).
iii" _.::'.~ .-".-'.:-.', work.
- .:-:0 injure themselves
1II':r _ .. ::'''::'-'.::':In
into an odd mo-
. ::'::'-'.":eird form of agency
::'==,?eration, adding up There are bodies out of place.
There are plenty of people in free fall.
There are people whose American dreaming is literally a dream-
ing cut off from any actual potential. But that doesn't stop it-far
from it.
This situation isn't exactly functional but it's not necessarily
"bad" either. Though it can be.
She hears a ston- o~'~ ~
barely twenty, haH' :C":.- - '~~
try to get work be ~:-:'
driver's license or ~~=.:-=-
She remembers a night in West Virginia. A group of striking down, their tweke:': ..~ .
miners sits waiting to see the doctor in the poor people's health all day at the food ~-=:-~-_~ -- _'_
clinic. Their bodies are huddled together, their eyes are focused that one day the,d! ~:
on the dark looming hills outside, they talk in a slow, intimate thing and shoot tt.e ~.=:- ~. >::
rhythm of story and ruminative pause. It's the end of a long con· always talking aboL~ :-:'.c..::".-=- '~~
tract strike and it's suddenly clear that the strike will fail spectacu- cially if they eyer r~:-.I'-=-
larly. Everyone is saying that the union is dead, that the mines world was coming C~ ' : :-:',. ~:_ r~
are closing down for good this time, that the miners have been would, and it's as it'::. :='::.'
reduced to "company sucks." You can feel the mantra of stunned streets and into the :.:-:I,: :":' '
defeat settle on the room. Heavy talk gives way to even weightier kind of real ending~:.: ':
pauses filled only with the shallow, suffocating breathing of men Bur these tvm ',":.I'.:: ~. d
with black lung disease. easy·desperate plar: ~: ..:': .
Then Johnny Cadle starts in on an elaborate fantasy. Someday and tried to rob a cC.·::I'.: - .: '::1
they will scale the big brick walls of Governor Rockefeller's man- caught them before ~'.: ::' . - :
sion and loot it for all it's worth. The others draw their focus to the no money, no paro.e, .:-.:' :-,'-'
story. Power grows palpable in the image of high brick walls that their heads. That's .:::,:-,.
can be breached by a potent, collective, working-class masculinity,
and then broken up, as if tactile, and dispersed like loot.
The story lurches up and passes in an odd moment. It works
not as a representation of a real possibility or a model for action,
but instead as a live event-a fleeting conduit between the lived
and the potential hidden in it (or hidden from it). Potentiality
resonates in its scene. It's an experiment compelled by the drag
of affect in the room, and when it's over the men just sit calmly WHEATON, ILL. -.~_ .-:-
together, as if something has happened. prison for killing ~.:' :::: ': ." _
"It: :..-' ::~--:._.~.~ is literally a dream-
r.:;:L ~ _~ ~-.-'.~ doesn't stop it-far
been found guilty of the 1995 slayings of Debra Evans, 26, and her in their bus tickets. -=-:-. ~:-
daughter, Samantha, 10, and her son, Joshua, 7. He was also con- They soon found he-: :.: - -"
victed of kidnapping the baby, who survived and is being cared for As it turned out. th:o -, ::l
by Ms. Evans'sfather. for child abduetioL
These are not t~,-=
The story takes her back to a visit with friends in the country. dream. Stories like t:-. - ,
Five women in a kitchen are trying to piece together the details
of the murders. A man and his new girlfriend cut the baby right
out of his ex-girlfriend's belly! What in the world! Then the new
girlfriend took the baby home like it was her own, like no one
would notice! The women are puzzling this over. Maybe she just Stories are leakin~
wanted a baby, or not a baby, exactly, but the little fame of instant night to prevent e:c,?::'~= .- " _
motherhood. shelves on the o\'e:-,: Z.': .:_~
She thinks it must have been like a weirdly literal surge to have when an electron:c ::-.:: .::. .. '
a picture-perfect life. It's as if, in the act of turning image into ankle. There vvas lee ~'. .:..' ~Z=-
matter, things got out of hand. workers had been t,.:::: : .. ~ .J
The women imagine it must have been like being in a dream for any reason mhe-: :__ .~-. _ ",.
you can't wake up from, but it's not real. get there while), 1r. :? ~ .::.: : __ ,
Then the weird murder story prompts the memory of another dog in the street:'
story about the guy down the road who stole from his father so In other lock-ir.o :.
his father sent him to the pen. When he got out, he killed his stocker in Savanr:.i-,.=-~: ,
father and chopped him up in twenty-some pieces. He raped his icscouldn'tgetin: :-':-._:~.:'::''::.. II
stepmother and took her and the car. She got away from him and and women ha\'~'- ::-.=-,-- -- - ~~ -,
~~-
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slippery surface where critiques launched from a full-blown order offered. Stories circ'..:.:c:c"~'. -,
of right and wrong, true and false, might just slide off. run from the la\\', c: . ~,
Whirl-Marters go on nonshopping sprees. They push empty who evaded the Tey:, -~-- ~ :: -_ ~.-
,"C'
..
carts around the store in a procession, wearing identical Whirl- over the state. AI C:-oC ::: ' .... ::j
Mart T-shirts. Surveillance cameras in the ceiling watch their Oklahoma, bur pec,::.~ :~' c ,"
strange progress through the store. But Whirl-Marters make their Texas state policec~~'" ,.: '.:::
own videos of getting thrown out or of store managers screaming Some say the Te:,:""- •.__: ,'.
at them: "If you're gonna spend so much time in here, pick up an prison guards duriClz C,',::.·· c: .c":
application!!" "The customers like our store!" "Number one, man, They love their \\i-,~, ~':' '..I
on the fortune five hundred. WE'RE NUMBERONE!" and cop killers. PL':::.C 2
Once some Whirl- Marters alerted the media that they were th ey're even caugm, :: ::~':'
l'
going to bring a live chicken into a store to barter for an item the effects of the pc:'
of clothing made in a third world sweatshop. Police and man- in the prisons.
agers formed a human wall to block the chicken's entrance. So The owner of an :C,"
the Whirlers got in their cars and drove around the parking lot Wanted and thinks ::'c :-::':~.'_
playing an antiWal-Mart polka cranked up high on their stereos. one of his trailers. B..:.::.',"
Then they put the whole scene up on the Web. in. He's not sure if" ~..
with his wife.
Meanwhile, one
leaving the trailer LO Z: :::
church. He's the one ~...:: :.:..' .::
park decides to turn C.·.":-: '
; ~_~~~_efifth night of the
m ~ - .:.-: =-.:-ndnapping, playing
iI._ -~e: arrives at 6 AM to let
The nightmarish realities on display in the scene of public Sissy thinks the gu:.-' ~c...":'-". ,~,
viewing are unthinkable, ridiculous, and ritually replayed with "But who cares?~ h- ~__.-:
only slight variations. It's not like the scenes are supposed to be They say the value =~~ _~
ideals or warning signs. They capture a haunted potential. Things People say they're ,i:: .-::~ - _
go off on trajectories. They're pushing something. "Pushing the of 60 Minutes on -
envelope" is a light, popular phrase but it might not capture the tel and jewelers c;:.r.'~~:'_ - -: .
state of things. diamonds, anywa,-,_- _ ~-- --
I could bank on m'.- _
I:; :c.Eddeadly contacts Racism can be a live texture in the composition of a subject. So
~ _ _::_ something bad. Or can dreams of racial utopia.
People of color often smile at her and her daughter in the super-
II: '-.' :::- :=jp into something market. They strike up conversations. They say the baby is so cute.
A tension seems to release, as if a white woman with a brown baby
lIB : ::':':_In is dashed or ful- provides an opening for public encounter.
. ;:: =s sour or takes off Other times, they get vicious stares from white people in res-
-
Ii :c.'.-, rhings turn out to taurants or at swimming pools. You can't tell by looking at people
ID~:
who it will be. Sometimes it's young, hip-looking women who do
it. It's a demanding, persistent stare that says, "What do you think
you're doing?" or "Who do you think you are, parading around in
public like this." It amazes her. She get tense, enraged. She stares
them down. "Who are these people?" "Who do they think they ture because the- _
are?" final boarding caL :) ~__- : __
She wonders what they've been reading and what church they their cell phones :O.~_::. ~ - -- . .
go to or what it is, exactly, that animates them and this trouble. ing video games.
Thursday nigh~
which is attendee.. :~ ;::-
are evident in fee.:~~_ ~. .1
There are support groups for the dieting and for ongoing make of the ,Ya,' :~ ~.-,~,
troubles and tragedies. The way it bu::c' ,~,
The public face of Body for Lift is made of excessive self- The way the
expressions that proclaim, confess, obsess, and gush. Not be- carried away. It s~.-"-:- __
cause the body really does just get on track and stay there, but drifts downstrear. __,,::
because it slumps and gets sidetracked and rejoins its Body for Agency lodgec i:- ~:-::~ .•• -
Lift self. It wants and it doesn't want; it might do one thing or tal. It no sooner S~-'-~~: ,J]
another. It noses its way along the track its on until it comes and then holes , _~ li
across a something. The half-formed trajectories are always the together or pull c. . "., ~ ':
most compelling. It's when the body is in a partly un actualized redolent with sme:~' , ,',
state and unanchored that it feels most intimate, familiar, and fires burrowed i:D~"
alive. When the body is beside itself, it pulses in the mutual and heavy things :. ~,~:.'
impact of dream and matter, hesitation and forward thrust. It to jolt it to atten::.:-
wants to be part of the flow. It wants to be in touch. It wants to The body kno-.',' i~:-- ~
be touched. It flexes its muscles in a state of readiness, hums like exhaustion, and rc.""-"-
a secret battery kept charged, registers stress in a back spasm or It can be alert 'Cc ::-.::
a weak limb. air or to a movem,,:-.::: '
Body for Lift says turning fleeting fantasies into a vital force is It can be ponde: ••..•. ' "
about making a decision, but making a decision is itself about emptiness. As a ne'," ,
playing games, looking at pictures, following recipes, mimicking
desired states, inventing social imaginaries, and talking to yourself
:: 5C'conds.You got in the mirror. The proliferating cultures of the body spin around
:-oplex, because I the palpable promise that fears and pleasures and forays into the
_~~-:.out
milk or ba- world can be made productive, all-consuming passions. But get-
ting on track is not the simple, sober choice of a lifetime but rather
1:':1: --:~.:: .. Good morning a tightrope from which you can topple into ordinary sloppiness
L _.==- . : ::-'.' to hear about or an "epidemic of the will" like obsessive dieting.13 And after any
Rt: - ::-:c~ures don't do decision, the body returns to its ordinary buzz.
1liIiI:-:-- ~:·J.C'-we become
i-::;'oodluck with
=~-':ou find some-
. : ":'.'C'just thinking
''::: YOU all at the The body surges. Out of necessity, or for the love of movement.
Lifestyles and industries pulse around it, groping for what to
make of the way it throws itself at objects of round perfection.
The way it builds its substance out of layers of sensory impact.
- =:~-excessive self- The way the body is submerged in a flow and both buoyed and
:c_::' gush. Not be- carried away. It strains against recalcitrant or alien forces, or it
:c_::'stay there, but drifts downstream, eyes trained on the watery clouds overhead.
::: :,ins its Body for Agency lodged in the body is literal, immanent, and experimen-
- ;"_: ::'0 one thing or tal. It no sooner starts out than it gets sidetracked or hits a wall
: c. until it comes and then holes up, bulks up, wraps itself up. It might pull itself
. :::: ::::5 are always the together or pull a veil around itself, build a nest of worn clothing
- c ::.=-~>.- unactualized
: redolent with smells of sweat, or cheap perfume, or smoky wood
. ""_::'~C'. familiar, and fires burrowed into wool. If it gets sluggish, it might call for sweet
: __ ':5 in the mutual and heavy things to match its inner weight, or for salt and caffeine
" ::.:-:::\Yard thrust. It to jolt it to attention.
-: "~:..:.ch. It wants to The body knows itself as states of vitality, immersion, isolation,
. :::::.::'i:1ess,hums like exhaustion, and renewal.
_c_::.back spasm or It can be alert to the smell of something sweet or rancid in the
air or to a movement too quick, a gesture that's a little off.
_c_ ~o a vital force is It can be ponderous, too, gazing on its own form with a zen like
:. ':1 is itself about emptiness. As a new lover, it dotes on revealed scars and zones in
.:=:::cipes, mimicking
~_::.~':":'kingto yourself
on freckles and moles and earlobes. As one of the anxious aging, She scans her dr;:"-L-,
it's drawn to the sight of new jowls and mutant hairs and mottled what might be c.:.::: - :.
skin in the bathroom mirror. smells ofkumqu,,-: ::". ~- - -,
The body is both the persistent site of self-recognition and the mourning dows '"~,: ::::- : c,
thing that always betrays us. It dreams of redemption bur it knows and now breed iL :_-".. ::
better than that too. She knows \\+ - :_-: -.
It loves and dreads the encounters that make it. It latches onto out on the tracL::.: -
a borrowed intimacy or a plan of some sort. had been dmvn c.: ::: ::
Layers of invented life form around the body's dreamy surges event for the Stf;:;:: ::::. :::
like tendons or fat. gesture, a wide-cl?":
startled amplirucc:
the housed on a c_.:.
party host, maLL; "-:: ~-.:]
There are crashe' :.:.:
She's at a Laurie Anderson show at the Soho Guggenheim. The the stage, the voc.:.:.;
show is called "Your Fortune, $1." A white plastic owl is perched tonight. There arc:==-;--
on a stool in a darkened corner spewing our a stream of two-bit ThatnightBo::·-:: c :":J
advice, trenchant commentary, and stray advertising lingo. Its me- alone. He folh"c: c :-" -. _ - -=
chanical yet sensuously grainy voice drones on and on, transfixing story, Bobby sat '".: :-.: ::::-_'
her in a flood of Hallmark greeting card schlock. But somehow moment of rep:i;:" ~. .:.-
the owl's simple repetitions intensifY the ordinary background high, lonesome ': _:::. -
noise of slogans and cries of alarm, giving it a sensory texture that the penny laid OL :-" •. _
is at once deadening and weirdly ponderous. power. He la:- de,--':. c:':'
Then the owl says something she swears she was just uncon- the long train p."::'; -. -__
sciously chanting to herself: "Sometimes when you hear someone he hadn't, the tL::.
scream it goes in one ear and out the other. Sometimes it passes can sleep with a :: ,,-_:-
right into the middle of your brain and gets stuck there." Sometimes LC.- - -
of being out of place, out ofluck, or caught between a rock and a world.
hard place, and who makes a passionate move to connect to a life They build th::~
when mainstream strategies like self-discipline or the gathering of push things to see '. ,.
resources like a fortress around the frail body are not an option. A Danny grew '-"? .
subject who is literally touched by a force and tries to take it on, young men earnec ~':-.:'
to let it puncture and possess one, to make oneself its object, if names- "Dannl' -':i:'~~:
only in passing. A subject for whom an unattainable hope can be- and skill and a cac:: .~'= "'':JJ1
come the tunnel vision one needs to believe in a world that could Like the time Da::.::. : ._
include one.14 pole in a lightnic; ,~~.- : __"Ln
This kind of thing happens all the time. It's an experiment that thrown open, ane :.'.:'::.- ,"
starts with sheer intensity and then tries to find routes into a "we" to the beer store c:~'~
::,::.
that is not yet there but maybe could be. It's a facility with imag- drove straight thrc.:;'
ining the potential in things that comes to people not despite the through the crops. -=-.'~" ":::i
fact that it's unlikely anything good will come of it but rather be- even after the o\\T;: ~ :.' ., , _ 12
14 See Rajchman, lhe Deleuze Connections, 140-44, for a discussion Claus propped up::, :' :'
of how all "beliefin the world" is lodged in sensation. grabbed a meat c:~~~. _' :'..lJ
: •..•..
cday somebody Abject and unlivable bodies don't just become "other" and un-
- _=-" half, and clear thinkable. They go on living, animated by possibilities at work in
the necessary or the serendipitous.
• - .:.:'.ilh vital hopes.
0
told the cop it was an emergency and he told them to get out of with you on yoe '
the truck. Danny said, "No, really," and opened the towel pressed They are livir.; :..-. ,. -,'II
around his wound. The blood gushed out, spurting all over the out of an even'co.'
windows to the rhythm of his heartbeat. Some of the blood hit ties of all kinds. ~ ,
the cop's face. His face went white and he waved them on, shout- act but more like o...-
mg, "Go.IG o.I"
o
subject into the ::...::~=
Danny and his friends have big parties out in the country or at One thanksg::,:-:- .:: '
"the compound," where he has finally settled down in a hard and people on a bus" :::=='
sweet utopia/hell down by the tracks. They play music all night zone of contact :::.',' =
and the music resonates in their bodies: Matt becomes fiddle, Another time .'. ::
Danny becomes guitar, Rebecca becomes mandolin. They build a at the VA hospiIe:..:....
bonfire, smoke some ribs, tell stories. have their own F: : :.: : , '
Sometimes they perform an attack on the American dream, he found a Mr. '::;~:. ,
like smashing a television set and throwing the pieces on the bon- donated a huge .....'::~
fire while they dance around it. three burners. =!:':-.'
They cherish derelict spaces. They occupy a zone of indetermi- maker, drove iI :':.:: '
nacy. They're slippery. There was a lot c ...'~ ~
They live the life of a sheer collaboration produced through see if it was wor:,::::;:
circuits of debts, gifts, affects, and hard necessities. If one of them use it because iI
finds work, he will cut the others in. When they work, they work couldn't use it t,:: .
hard and fast. They build fences and furniture and sheds, cut down making calls age.::-.:
massive trees, xeriscape Bowerbeds, haul brush, run electricity or wanted to dona:e .. ,
plumbing. They gear up for a big job and then knock it out. Then was going on. 11:, ,
they party while they're still sweaty, exhausted, satisfied, together. "Trust is a break. : '. ':u
In the down times, there are long days of hanging out in living probabilities. The ,'. ' •=
rooms set up in the fields beside their shacks. Days of peace or and deliberation, .'
helpless despair. There are art projects built out of rusted metal its own momen'· .... :-.' ' ....
u
and aged wood. There are love affairs. There are rages, fights, ad- from a lock, swe:>;: =1
- -_-_::
"=,~-,-de,
leaving dictions, hunger, sickness, withdrawal, suicide. There are those
::- -;: : =- But the high who come unhinged at times. Those who Boat, unable to connect
- -:::::,- a cop while desire to reality. There are days, or weeks, or months, or years, of
- ;:-_'e---:O the hospi- sad, exhausted, emptiness. There is crazy talk about shooting con-
-_;:-: S::~~drunk, they servative presidents and robbing banks, taking a few rich people
~ ~-_:::-:__to get out of with you on your way out.
- ::: :':- :::-_::
:owel pressed They are living the rhythm of a struggle to wrest a "something"
- _:::::g all over the out of an everyday life saturated with dragging, isolating intensi-
- - _~
__
=:':- ,he blood hit ties of all kinds. More often than not, this is not really a willful
:-:: ~ ::-:em on, shout- act but more like an undoing or a willing mutation that draws the
subject into the prepersonal zone of affect.
- _: _:-_:ie country or at One thanksgiving, Danny spent hours handing out Bowers to
in a hard and
: -:_ :::- ~ :'.'.Tc people on a busy street. It was like he was trying to jump start a
- -:: :-:e-'-music all night zone of contact in the world.
: ~=:~becomes fiddle, Another time, he tried to get a commercial coffee pot installed
=- __=-_::olin,They
build a at the VA hospital for the guys in long-term rehab, so they could
have their own pot and a place to gather. He called businesses until
::-_::_-\merican dream, he found a Mr. Garcia who was very happy to help. Mr. Garcia
;: ::-_::vieces on the bon- donated a huge, used, stainless steel, commercial coffeemaker with
three burners. Danny borrowed a truck, picked up the coffee-
maker, drove it the ninety miles to the hospital and installed it.
There was a lot of paperwork. He called a couple of weeks later to
_____produced through see if it was working out. A clerk said they weren't letting patients
--~ -:: :::<sities. If one of them use it because it was a used machine. He said well, if the patients
-:::-_:he:; work, they work couldn't use it he was going to come pick it up. Then he started
_::0: and sheds, cut down making calls again to see if he could find a new machine someone
It- _ : :-~sh, run electricity or wanted to donate. He was careful to let Mr. Garcia know what
- _ :~,e:nknock it out. Then was going on. This is the kind of thing Alphonso Lingis calls trust.
1rC- __ -=>:ed, satisfied, together. "Trust is a break, a cut in the extending map of certainties and
I'lII_=~ :,:- hanging out in living
probabilities. The force that breaks with the cohesions of doubts
f _ _ - '_-_dcks.Days of peace or
and deliberations is an upsurge, a birth, a commencement. It has
1": - : ..:.ih out of rusted metal its own momentum, and builds on itself ... like a river released
--:-_-_::re
are rages, fights, ad- from a lock, swelling one's mind and launching one on the way.
... To have put trust in ... (someone) is to have to put still fur- tures in motherl2-:-~
ther trust in him. Once trust takes hold, it compounds itself."15 trips thrown togC"~:-~
~~ -
Living in the state of being "wide open," these guys can take on dom gathered UD~~~ ~_- :
all the good and bad in the world at one time or another. But this without irony. C;:- ~: I]
is not a state of chaos or sheer negation. It's more like a work of Graham on viti:-:-
initiating, calling out, instigating, inciting. Just to see what hap- quickening that :, ~~ - _lJ
pens. Even if it's not much. there is only ODe ::~ ~ JJI
. .. It is not you: = _ -
valuable it is, nor :-~:~ ;:-TID
splits and becomes fecund. A crackling. A flashing up. queer, divine di,, __
~~:c~
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of a hip store drinking cocktails and watching Mommie Dearest. women flocked te :-: -=- :.
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ing of what it is to be "a mother." But then it breaks up "mother- to marry other i:~:=;- -: -,"Ii
hood" into splintering affinities and differences (a common taste stress syndrome c-:-.,=, -
in books, a shared distance from mother-culture norms, a propen- plained about thC":~:: - :::::]
sity for patience or rage). Then it drifts back into a looser, more just doing their :::: -: TJ"
affective, form of "mother" closure-an instance of hope, a feel- from the twenn--:=:- -- -u
ing of connection to something big running through things. Or the lobby for ano:_-~:~-- ':Ill
I:iiCC ~ : '_~;: -:-ie',lx:en watching She remembers the oddly vital scene at the border one day when
....., _::.=~.l-.ces. Her mother, she was walking over the bridge into Nuevo Laredo. She expected
. __1= ~l:lure or two. She the barbed wire fencing all along the bridge and the gruff treat-
ment at the border crossing. But a scene of a young couple and
::-._;'--.,0 ,his news. She's their children washing their clothes in the river surprised her. The
:.',1: :his is the moment young man dove in. He swam down to the river bottom and then
out across the wide expanse of water, halfway to the U.S. bank
~~:::~, :~ order. Something before he turned back. The water was sparkling in the sun. The
,~.. . ":,,,':':Juple of days. Then breeze was blowing the clothes dry on the one scraggly bush on
= : ::." is smaller, looser. It the bank.
__;:~_-.yater.She wants to Then she saw a group of about thirty men gather on the bank
. -' :he room as if there's and draw together in a semi-circle around a speaker. The man in
the center started to preach, cheering and clapping his hands. The
'::~.::stmasEve party and others joined in. They all started to sing. She couldn't quite hear
-_ :::.":our couch. what they were singing but it was clearly inspirational.
-:...~':--eice storm kills half Walking over the bridge to make the border crossing, the scenes
t: . :=-~__-=nemen in the neigh- below were like a mirage. But real too.
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Marfa is a small west Texas town filled with (mostly white) to innocent slue,:::: ~
ranchers, poor Mexican American farm workers, artists, and bor- an undercurren -: :: '-~:_, -
der patrol. She is sitting in a Mexican restaurant, listening to two beached.
older rancher couples talking about ranching troubles when three She walked cC'.": '
border patrolmen come in and sit down at the table next to her. paper and rub
There are border stories in national circulation about immigrants national "we." T',:: C_'
dying of thirst trying to cross the long, desolate stretch of desert eyes and the nei~:--,:_.'
that these guys patrol everyday. But these guys spend their lunch her inner ear. 1:1:: ::: , : ::1'11
hour today swapping sweet, redemptive stories of rescuing wild fleshy.Their eye, ":::" _':::::ll
animals on their patrol. Detailed, innocent stories. At first, she She chained :',:::" ' -
thinks this is some kind of crazy camouflage appliqued onto the out to be an obs::':'
surface of the things these guys must do and see in the course of friend were figh-:::,z
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their day on border patrol. But then she realizes that the stories cut off her frieD"'-' ,'.
they're telling are about the animals they rescued that very day or emphasis. Pay e.-:::::' .
earlier in the week, as if this is what they actually spend a lot of field and her hee.",--
their day doing. She knows there are eccentric characters in Marfa up out of the gL _:-=-
whose lives revolve around sheltering rescued animals-there's the moving back aI'-e : :. - ..-''']
turtle man and the hawk woman and she is sure there are others- She took a de.' -:::
all with their trailers and yards and heads stuffed to overflowing bration. Fields c':, -
with injured animals of that one kind. And listening to the border horses were fran:::"'- - : _ •
patrolmen tell their animal rescue stories adds an odd and simple pueblo was full::' :-'
excess to the heavily scripted image of the militarized border full cloths and bod, -:=,' '
of atrocities. from the native ',':::C
kidnapped babies. -=-: -=-
water of the river. ,-
who then lurchec ~-=-:
tically giggling a:,c::- -
On 9/II she was living in Santa Fe. The talking heads were say- to have to know eL::' _
ing that everything had changed. But to her it seemed more like business.
something had snapped into place that had been building for a
long time. It's not like the shock in the ordinary was anything
new. Here was the same rude awakening from an already fitful
sleep. Then the double-barreled reactions of ponderous commen-
tary and brash reaction. Then the dream of some kind of return
I - ,,=--, ~~ i mostly white) to innocent slumber. Everyone was on alert. But there was also
:.r-- •~:~=~s.anists, and bor- an undercurrent of deflation, like something buoyant had been
a: -:"~'-":'::-'-::1L. listening to two beached.
"':~- •. -.. "':-z ~~oubleswhen three She walked down to the neighborhood coffee shop to get the
n. .,.._'-~ ~-:.=,able next to her. paper and rub shoulders with strangers in the intimate public of a
__ ~_.'-~__,..."jO;E immigrants national "we." The brilliant yellow daisies and blue asters hurt her
CIC':: =-=".",e streIch of desert eyes and the neighborhood stilllifes blurred against the buzzing of
! -- :cc ;-":'~'sspend their lunch her inner ear. The people at the coffee shop looked more tenderly
L c .~.~:es of rescuing wild fleshy. Their eyes were stunned, their cheeks puBY and pink.
- .• =,...~"ories. At first, she She chained herself to the grid. But staying tuned in turned
ilC ~c..:;e ,,??lic,ued onto the out to be an obsession shadowing her. She dreamed. She and her
~'C =-. -'-.-._=_ see in the course of friend were fighting soldiers in a big field. Suddenly one of them
:== - c ~e~~=es,hat the stories cut off her friend's head. The dream action froze into a scene for
i: -- =- '-='::-..:.edthaI yery day or emphasis. Pay attention! Her friend's body was standing in the
;r .. c- • .--' . spend a lot of field and her head was on the ground next to her as if it had grown
I:: __ '="'.:~.'-.-:-:'aractersin Marfa up out of the ground like a pumpkin. The eyes in the head were
l!! __ ,,= s-.iT"als-there's the moving back and forth, surprised and confused.
i: _.''':'::-=
,he,..eare others- She took a day trip to Taos Pueblo's annual Saint's Day cele-
It - . ~=- ':·..:.~ed :0 m'erflowing bration. Fields of high grasses blew softly in the breeze. Dogs and
rl': -".._,:.. ,:er-,ing to the border horses were framed in quiet poses against blue mountains. The
!iii,. - _ '-=_=_, ,,::1 odd and simple pueblo was full of grinning visitors. Native men wearing loin-
::: - -...•.
_= .:..:::arized border full cloths and body paint were running around snatching things
from the native vendors' tables. They ran into the pueblo houses,
kidnapped babies, and swung them, squealing, through the cold
water of the river. With buckets of water they splashed spectators,
who then lurched back into the crowd when they came near, fran-
tically giggling and trying to avoid eye contact. It felt good not
=- -- C ~~~:i::1gheads were say- to have to know exactly what was happening. It was secret. Their
:. _-_=~
:, seemed more like business.
Inside the ceremonial circle, the religious leaders were waiting.
It was beginning to storm. There was thunder and lightning, a
cold rain and a fierce wind. Two strong men made the climb up a
sixty-foot pole in the middle of the circle. At the top was a slaugh-
tered sheep and two big, brilliantly colored sacks full of offerings.
One of the men stood precariously on the top of the pole, untied The ordinary is a ,:-,;: ~. c' -J;
an American flag from the back of his loincloth and held it in the It's also a senso:-c':: , - :.
wind over his head for a long moment, lightning flashing in the And a world 0:- :.':::"-
sky around him. It was amazing. Then he dropped the flag. One moves of intensie:: :.:::
of the religious specialists snatched it out of the wind before it hit She walks th.: '.:'.;:.-.: -'-:1
the ground. Who knew what it all "meant," but it was certainly an morning, laying c:', ~.;-.,~
event in itself The yards are '.-":'.'.::~: : -
A fantasy crossed her mind of staying here; of being whatever The mist ris.:s .,. ~ .
this place was about. A mystery charged with potential. ues of giant bu:l:'," : ~:: - c.' I.
sidle up to ask them what this was all about. Their faces twisted something not q'-.:i:::..::~_ .,~
like they were used to trouble. She slid back away from them
without finishing her question and moved on, ttoubled in many
directions at once.
ing, and alive. This is not a good thing or a bad thing. It is not my intensity, and :-.z= ~ .. -':1J
view that things are going well but that they are going. I've tried solutions ha·::: :: ::
to let go of pat answers I never exactly believed anyway in an effort but there's .. _. : ..UJ
to stay in the middle of things. An impulse ~':'.~.,:,:
~ ~ . - ·:.lliE
Ordinary affect is a surging, a rubbing, a connection of some These imy..:.:o=: - -_" -
kind that has an impact.18 It's transpersonal or prepersonal- not ~ :,-.:- ,=:- _~1G
impulses to\~.'.:.:
about one person's feelings becoming another's but about bodies beginning, iu': ':=~.:- -
literally affecting one another and generating intensities: human an ordinary S2.~"':=~:=;:
bodies, discursive bodies, bodies of thought, bodies of water. 19
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"Full of resonating stories, encounters quirky in their unapologetic ordinariness, and murmur-
ing objects, this book takes me into the thick world of the everyday in the U.S.A. Intent on
critique or explanation, too many scholars hardly know how to experience, much less think,
such worlds, and so regularly give them Big Names like Capitalism and Modernity and Neo-
liberalism. Ordinary Afficts sounds the depths and shallows of intimate, particular worlds cru-
cial to finding our way in the tidal basin of contemporary culture. Here are accounts of lives in
plain sight, but only if we cultivate the deceptively hard pracrices of slow looking and off-stage
hearing. Kathleen Stewart touches the marrow of things by nurturing an oblique and un rushed
sort of attention, one alert to the bio-luminescence generated in ordinary living taken seriously,
without which we are in the dark in politics, philosophy, and cultural theory."
-D 0 N N A HA RAW A Y, University of California, Santa Cruz
''Anything but ordinary, this book rewrites the social sciences from top to bottom through its
bleak and beautiful honesty as to the human condition and the conditional nature of our lan-
guage and concepts. How the author has been able to step outside of the bubble we call reality
so as to render reality is a miracle, yet one we might all aspire to on reading this."
-M I C H A E L TAU S S I G, Columbia University
Ordinary Afficts is a singular argument for attention to the affective dimensions of everyday life
and the potential that animates the ordinary. Known for her focus on the poetics and politics
oflanguage and landscape, the anthropologist Kathleen Stewart ponders how ordinary impacts
create the subject as a capacity to affect and be affected. In a series of brief vignettes combining
storytelling, close ethnographic detail, and critical analysis, Stewart relates the intensities and
banalities of common experiences and strange encounters, half-spied scenes and the lingering
resonance of passing events. While most of the instances rendered are from Stewart's own life,
she writes in the third person in order to reflect on how intimate experiences of emotion, the
body, other people, and rime inextricably link us to the outside world. Stewart refrains from
positing an overarching system-whether it's called globalization or neoliberalism or capital-
ism-to describe the ways that economic, political, and social forces shape individual lives.
Instead, she begins with the disparate, fragmented, and seemingly inconsequential experiences
of everyday life to bring attention to the ordinary as an integral site of cultural politics.
KAT H LEE N S T E WAR T is Associate Professor of Anthropology and Director of the Americo
Paredes Center for Cultural Studies at the University of Texas, Austin.