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Elizabeth Garcia

Professor Beadle

Writing 115

09 May 2019

Reflection Essay

The relationship between the writing I do and I have fluctuated throughout the years.

There is always a constant battle of hatred, boredom, and difficulties. Being able to detach these

emotions from my work in the past have never worked. In the end, they always seem to backfire.

Although I still seem to find myself in the same boat today, I use these emotions in a new entire

way. Being able to transition from this has made my writing grow thought it not at the level I

want it to be, it's getting closer every time I’m able to learn from my mistakes and interpret them

in ways I hadn’t been able to in the past. The way to understand my writings flaws through my

own judgment and the help of there, give me insight into what I have shunned myself from in the

past. Due to a lack of understanding of and development I had been too afraid to come about

because of change.

For starters, the transition from my high school writing knowledge had been tested

through the motives of AP Language and Literature class. These class had begun to really test

my interpretation of a text and putting my critical thinking skills into perspectives. Though I

knew this was my reality it always became difficult for me. During this time I hadn’t really give

it much thought because my mind was occupied with other things. Knowing my time to get
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serious with my writing would come one day, I still kept pushing it aside. For example in my Ap

Literature class, I had to prepare for my Ap exam. In order to do so the class and I went through

a series of essay types, and specific essay analysis for the 3 different kinds of essays we are

tested on. Again like I really struggled with this because I didn't take it seriously and had become

lazy and overwhelmed. This semester in my writing 115, the essay announcements had petrified

me. Going through Project Space expectations needed in order to complete the assignment, was

quite different to me. Being able to go through each part spet by step has helped me understand

the concept of time and effort. I was constantly revising my essay, whether it be my self or

classmate, etc. the process had exposed me to do new and different things, for example, the visit

to the LRC. the tutor that had to help me had a way of trying to understand my mistakes and

explain them to me in a way that he felt wouldn't dismiss my ideas, although it was frightening

getting feedback on my working knowing that writing isn't my biggest nor a favorite thing to do.

Following up with the Project Text essay, I was more sure with what I would better

following the previous essay. There was a new component added to the essay, which brought me

back to square one. At comparison the first essay I felt more prepared of the expectations so I

had an upper hand there. Going through the essay I thought I had really well, but when I got back

my essay and grade it was what I had expected, so for my revision I went and read the comments

and reread my essay. I found flaws in it that seemed silly of me to make. I understood now that

the counter-argument was confusing, so I went back and changed the whole counterargument so

that it fit my thesis. I also had changed up the wording because it was confusing once I reread it.

Project Media was similar to project text and again, I felt really confident about my ideas,

but since I had, had a couple of them in my essay and it threw off my essay. Seeing my mistake
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know the counter-argument was different to thesis, going back I would probably argue that the

Japanese had not played an innocent part in the making of the atomic bomb, and putting into

perspective the historical part of it. Being able to use a film and analysis it in any form was part

of my mistake of not coming to a clear conclusion of my major focus in the argument and the

counterargument. But I also felt that my analysis and evidence had been future explained that I

was lacking in the past. This is what had set apart this essay from the previous essays. Adding

the component of presenting my argument had really pressured me to get at least the written

portion of the essay right, because just as unclear my essays had been, presenting part would

only be even more confusing. Though in order to try and present my ideas as fluidly I practiced

what I wanted to say and that really helps my writing because it forced me to look at my

argument through a different form of rhetoric.

Overall this semester, this class especially had really challenged my writing skills. I was

able to do the assignment, with a little room for improvement every time. Since I was really

hesitant about how I felt about the class and its difficulty. My end result and conclusion is that I

really enjoyed the challenges and the overall skills I've learned and hope to incorporate in future

writing classes. Even though I still have a lot to learn this is just one step forward into a growing

and academic future for myself. Maybe something I have to get out of my comfort zone to

experience a bright and better future to come as a result of learning from previous mistakes and

making them wins rather than losses.