Chapter 1

Don’t tell me you loved me, because I know that you didn’t
You tore down my ego and I listened
Don’t tell me you cried, because I know that you didn’t
Why did I, listen?

I was trying to find my light

While you were telling me about my darkness
Wearing a smile to show everything was alright
To make sure I sold my happiness.

Find the surprise in my eye

When you find out I’ve lied
And hold me tight when I cry
Because you know that I’ve tried.

And if my red eyes don’t see you anymore

You can find me on the blue ocean floor.

Chapter 2
The act of self love owned my every part
And all my soul, and both my eyes
It became so deeply rooted in my heart
That all I see is the truth and no lies.

I know the person I want to be

But I still find myself
Getting lost at sea
Hoping that no one hears what I say to myself.

I saw the surprise in your eyes

Because I know that you lied
But I’ll hold you tight if you cry
Because I know that you tried.

And if I don’t see your red eyes anymore

I know I can find you on the blue ocean floor.
Thank You
I never expected this.
I met him as a stranger
on the day the air
smelled like spring and rain.
Now I know him as a friend.

We talked all night

about the way life goes
until the sky turned a dark blue
and my mom called because of curfew.

If only you heard the way

the words fell off his tongue.
I find myself replying them in my head
trying to memorize the wisdom they held.
If only you could hear the hurt,
the hurt that shaped each and
every part of his life.
It made me realize how
brutal life really is.
If only you smelled the air that day.
If only.

How unexpected, though

To think that someone like
him can have so much hurt.
All I can say is
Thank you, God
For bringing this beautiful soul into my life.

Fill The Distance

I breathe in a breath as big as an ocean
And the emptiness inside expands
as big as this room
as big as this house
on and on.
But even though this emptiness inside me has grown so big
it’s not big enough to cross the distance
And I find myself disconnected
from you
and you
and her
and them
As I sit here in this chair
Waiting
As I breathe deeply in
and deeply out
Only to find that it’s not enough
not even a breath as big as an ocean.

Alone
Have you ever had something to say
But no one to say it to?
Have you ever felt so alone
That you asked God why
he took everyone away?
The days are dark,
and the nights are grey
because I have no one to light the way.

Be Strong!
There are times when things go wrong,
But you need to be strong
Because it is a temporary tide
So don’t be afraid and don’t hide
Because you really are strong.

Everything Changed
I might talk the same
And play the same game,
But deep down inside
I've been taken on a ride
Where things were hanged and rearranged.
I feel out of place
You can see it in my face.
Nothing is the same anymore.
The End
No! They say
As I try to fly higher and higher
Almost reaching the sky.
But no.
A slap to the wrist for daring to fly
But again, my wings stretch for as long as a mile
And boom!
a hit to the chest and im knocked down
Lying on the floor so hopelessly trying to find the strength to fly again
And again
And again
I spread my wings further and further
And I fly closer and closer
To the clouds that feel so heavenly
The sun feeling warm
Warming my heart and my smile
And again
Another slap to the wrist brings me right back down to the ground
and i sink deeper and deeper
into an endless sleep never wanting to wake up
because the peace I feel is so much better than the pain of landing
time and time again
on the cold hard ground.

Now she lays lifeless

No longer able to spread her wings.
I guess they should’ve let her fly.