Preface

The reason for this paper is to examine characteristics of my personality. The primary focal point
of this paper will be the way my personality has created after some time. As I age and experience
new and distinctive encounters, my personality has adjusted and grown further. This paper will
give an inside and out investigation into the people and occasions that have impacted my
personality. Personality is characterized as the whole of the physical, mental, passionate, and
social characteristics of a person. Regardless of whether we understand it or not, personality
characterizes us as individuals. There are numerous aspects to my personality, that until the point
that I started this task, I never contemplated. In this assignment I will explain the three
characteristics of my personality using different metaphor from Alvesson Framework. Alvesson
Framework is model of self-reflection that is suggested seven images of identity. The images are
self-doubters, strugglers, surfers, storyteller, strategists, soldiers, and stencils. These model
regard to how the person is metaphorically comprehended in provisions of character or identity.
The first self-identity that I will explain is self-doubt using horse as an animal symbol to
represent my self-doubt personality as horse is closely associated with bad personality because of
bad temper. In this part I will explain my insecurity and anxiety regarding my future ambition to
become manager. I will express my pain as a self-doubter in a poetry written by Rachael Judd. I
will also conduct Johari Window to gain further insight about my self-doubt identity from my
family and friends as well. Next, my second self personality would be struggler. The animal that
I will choose to represent by struggler characteristics will be wolf because it stands for struggling
by struggle with its own kind for food and territory. The pain of been struggler I will express by
using the poetry of Eyan Desir which is known as “Feel My Pain”. The Johari Window exercise
will be carried out for this self -identity too. Besides that, my third self-identity would be
strategists. The reason I going to choose this identity is that I have always been certain and self-
assurance about my targets and aims. The animal that I think will suitable to represent by
personality as strategists will be hawk because hawk always linked with many traditions of
shamans for positive energy due to it has strong mental focus. I will express my positive feeling
regarding my self confidence with poetry written by MS Moem. Then as usual the Johari
Window will utilize to inquiry in detail about my strategists personality. The last part of this
coursework would be critique of storyboard. In this section, I will mentioned about my
experience of using Alvesson Framework which I didn’t have use before, whether it will helps
me to reflect myself in better way or not. Then I will explain the challenges that I face in doing
this Alvesson Framework self reflection coursework.

Self-doubter (Horse)

I believed that I had always been in self-doubt and fear that whether my current personality able
to help me or not to achieve my future plan to become a manager. Therefore the horse seems to
be the best animal to represent me as self-doubter because even though the horse has positive
side but on the negative side it is best to symbolize bad personality as it have very bad attitudes.
The horse is capable of quick start but panic easily. Even though I will start doing internal and
UOS assignments very earlier but then I can easily get panic when I get into stress and feel that I
was in huge burdened at the time where there is a lot of assignments that need to be done and
have too many things to handle and I frequently stay away from any risk associated activity
which I believed that this kind of personality are not good for the person like me who had
ambition to acquired job as a manager where the risk taking is so obvious. As I have ambition to
become manager in the future, I supposed to ready to face any risk at all the time. The horse has
tempestuous emotions. Most of the time when things go wrong or does not work as I have
thought, I can easily get into hot temper and it will immediately change my perception about
people around me included my friends and family member. When I lost my temper I will scream
at them and I will not listen to them at all, and this is also one of the negative characteristic that
exist within me which I feel should have to overcome it because in the future when I become a
manager I should have capability to deal with and manage difficult situation peacefully. So far
this negative characteristics that exist in me was really turn me into horse spirit and have make
me feel self-doubt and fear about whether I can achieve my ambition or not and I was also
somewhere frustrated and unsure about whether I can overcome or not this bad characteristics
that exist in me. So at the moment I was absolutely confuse that how should I bring change in me
so that I can become good manager in the future. The poem written by Rachael Judd can very
well express my pain as self-doubter.

Self-doubt

Controlling my everyday life

Self-doubt

Taking my heart and throwing it against the wall

These two simple lines of the sonnet show that the feeling of depression and self-doubt can be
very painful. However through Johari Window I was really surprised to found out that my
friends does not regard me as a self-doubter because they believe that I have high intensity and
confidence to overcome any difficult situation. They have also discovered me as the person who
always stay calm and rarely get into a hot temper which absolutely opposite of what I had
thought about myself.

Struggler (Wolf)

There are certain things in my life where I found I am struggling. The wolf will be the most
suitable animal to represent my struggle part of life. Although Wolf have excellent strength and
braveness, but it also symbolize struggling by struggle with its own kind for food and territory,
or (in the case of males) for possession of females. In addition Wolf had to struggle with the
conditions of life itself, for example, extremes of cold or bleak terrain. At the time I get busy
with my everyday life I can easily forget about everything I have been achieved in my life so far.
I am always chasing the next new thing. This Wolf spirit characteristic can be identified in me as
I struggle to remind myself sometimes that I am better than I was yesterday or last year. It pulls
me in and surrounds me with negative thoughts and feelings about past, for example failing of
three times in my A-level paper before went into diploma. I want to escape but I just can’t. The
spirits of Wolf that exist inside me has engulfed me and suffocate me. I am more well-read. I
know more things. I am fitter and strongest. I am always trying to improve myself, and it’s hard
sometimes to keep pushing that. To always try to be pushing towards improving some area of my
life is necessary, but it can get tiring as Wolf become restlessness after try to overcome strong
opponent. In large scales of things I be familiar that my struggling are nothing compared to some
other people and frequently wind up feeling remorseful for not having the capacity to perceive
that many blessings I have surrounding me. A wonderful life I have, I truthfully should be very
grateful, and I try to remind myself of that daily. The author Eyan Desir has express his
struggling pain in his one of the poem known as “Feel My Pain”.

Another day has gone

My mind keeps holding on

Sour memories of what that has been

The similar pain I am going through as a struggler as my mind still continue to remember
previous sour memory. This poems touch mine heart upon reading this impressive work of art.
The feedback that I get through Johari Window from my family and friends is that I am partially
struggler that because sometimes I am thinking too much about the problem even though it is not
so big and it is difficult for me to explain myself that there is nothing serious. One of my friend’s
in his feedback has given me advice that “You can change your life and be a new person
overnight," but we both know it's not like that. Personal growth takes time. But maybe there's
something that can make you feel a bit better in the meantime”. Others are also suggest me that I
got to find happiness first it's in you and then drive it to a meaningful life
be thankful that you've got such great parents and be thankful for living.

Strategist (Hawk)
Even though some bad characteristics exist inside me, but I have always been certain and self-
assurance about my targets and aims. Therefore hawk will be the most suitable animal to
represent my positive characteristics and abilities as strategist because the hawk always linked
with many traditions of shamans for positive energy due to it has strong mental focus. Hawks
can soar and fly high in the sky. The spirit of this animal has the power to provide support in
gaining a higher level perspective on any issue or project I undertake. When the hawk appears in
life, it’s perhaps time to be less distracted. By relying on hawk spirit, I am able to overcome my
obstacles that are on my way. Hawk used strong mental focus to target and catches its prey
carefully. Whenever in my life I make any target to achieve I usually will work hard day and
night and put high concentration in order to accomplish it. For example, in diploma I have work
hard to study very well to gain good CGPA. As I was putting more focus on the study I was able
to stop my desire to go for fun with friends and family. Thus I able to achieved my target CGPA
level. Next, the hawk is an animal that performed swift and quick actions. I have ability to start
my any college assignments and projects quickly without wasting too much of time and I also
can make decisions in a quick time. As I believe that “in today’s world whoever start early will
become more successful than those who start late”. Besides that, the hawk is an animal that is
hunt and kill another animal for food. Therefore the spirit of this animal can also represent my
ability and skill to influence and lead others, which I had realize by being group leader many
times during the class activity. I believe that I can lead the team very well and motivate others. In
myself I always have confidence that whatever I want I can achieve through hard work. The
positive characteristics of self-assurance regarding my target and aim have really given me
confidence to become more effective. It also has increased my concentration and commitment. It
brings me sense of feelings that I have the ability to succeed at whatever I put in my minds to.
The poem by MS Moem can deeply express my feeling as a strategist.

Confidence isn’t something

Only for people to possess,

Its quiet assurance that what you do

Will be a success

When I did the Johari Window I found out that even my friends also agree with me that I am
strategist as I know my target and aim very well and I have an ability to become good leader
because I can understand their emotions very well, but also at the same time they believed that
my communication skill can be improve more.

Critique of Storyboard

I spend most of my lives in stress and busy environment, following social expectations while
disregarding my true needs and desires. As I have a lot of worried and stress regarding my
assignments and internship, I feel that this overload tension in my mind has blocks my capacity
to pay attention to my internal sources of wisdom: my sensations, feelings and creative thoughts.
But in this coursework, Alvesson framework offers me the opportunity to challenge my ways of
thinking. I have a tendency to ruminate on the good and bad things; for example, my perceived
weaknesses, mistakes that I have made, or embarrassing moments. But when I reflect myself
using Alvesson framework I started to realize that the things I tell myself about myself are not
always true. Linking the self-identity with animal is something new that I have learn through
Alvesson Framework self reflection. I also have found that the poetry is a very useful tool to
express my emotion and deep feelings, as before this I don’t have too much interest in reading or
writing poetry. For example, it have help me to express painful feelings of being self-doubt and
struggler, and it also has help to express good feeling of being strategists. As per the Johari
Window, its help me to find out positives and negatives within myself. Which is known to me as
well as to others. It included my overall nature. Next, also the area which is only known to others
but not to me. Includes how I react to others and my expression. For example, my friends has
discover me as the person who always stay calm and rarely get into hot temper which absolutely
opposite of what I had thought about myself. Besides that, it does also help me to know area
which is only known to me and not to others. Like some hidden things which make me to move
on in my life that only known to me and not to anybody else. These things only come out in
some critical situations. For example, I struggle to remind myself sometimes that I am better than
I was yesterday or last year. Lastly, unknown area which is almost non predictable area. Nor I
neither my friends aware about this area. In this coursework, the art-based research has been
utilize to connect the storyboard with poem sonnet and Alvesson Framework Metaphor for self-
identity such as self-doubter with horse, struggler with wolf, and strategists with hawk. This art-
based research has been help me to identify and transformed myself and it’s provide me better
reflection of myself. The challenge that I faced in this assignments is linking myself identity to
animal characteristics was difficult. But when I was successfully completed it, I able to see
myself in different point of view. The major challenge that I faced is to reflect myself in three
different identities. Actually I wanted to do video for this coursework, but because this is
individual assignment so there is limited time I have and therefore I not able to do the video.