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Glossary 335
A person who is actually a follow er of Sri Bhakti-
vinoda Thakura must im m ediately accept the re
quest of Lord C aitanya M ahaprabhu by offering
respectful obeisances unto His lotus feet and thus
beg from Him the Hare Krsna m aha-mantra. If one
is fortunate enough to beg from the Lord this Hare
Krsna maha-mantra, his life is successful.
— C.c., Adi 9.36, purport
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false figures and the wrong attitudes and the lies. Get
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but this life that we see with our senses and that
there is no other existence. We have to be very
sorry for this and kick off all bad association. We
have to pray for faith, hear the sastras, and live on
the good side, not the bad side, of our own charac
ters. Because we do have spiritual experience, we
just have to fight to defend it against its enemies.
Therefore, by associating with the devotees and the
learned Vaisnava scholars, and by taking shelter in
the scriptures, we can increase our faith and go
forward. Then we can also accept the glories of the
h o lj name and chant with taste.
Srila Rupa Gosvam i says in U p ad esam rta that
although at present we don't taste the sweetness of
the holy nam e due to jaundice (avidyd), the holy
names are so wonderful that by repeatedly chanting
them, the taste will return. This statement is not
Rupa G osvam i's imagination. The chanting is very
wonderful, it does have a sweet taste, and we will
attain it. Therefore, we will show our belief in the
statement by acting on the basis of it. We will go on
chanting.
So let us come into the company of the Vais-
navas and adm it that we som etim es doubt the
glories of the holy name as they are described. We
wonder how they can really be true. But actually,
dear V aisnavas, we want to be free of this offen
siveness. We want to have full faith in the state
ments of the holy name even before we attain the
right experience. And we do have that hope; we are
chanting on that hope. Therefore, even by confes
sing it, we are feeling renewed strength. We realize
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Promised:
Will fight drowsiness
walk and chant loudly.
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The facing of self and the limit. The japa that goes
nowhere and yet even that little bit leads me on to
try more.
I don't even want to go outside for a walk in the
yard. I don't want to leave this scene of possible
inspiration. N ot that m uch is happening in this
little room as I chant, but it could happen, and in
private, I can write it down. If I go outside, I may
have to say hello and I will be spread out into the
sky and hills and . . .
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Your lotus feet and pray. If You like, You can keep
me in this m aterial world and deprive me of the
spiritual sky; whatever You desire, You are free to
fulfill. But please let me taste the divine nectar of
K rsna's holy nam e. You have incarnated among
the jlvas to distribute the holy nam e, so kindly also
consider me, an insignificant jlva. I am a fallen soul
and You are the savior of the fallen. Let this be our
relationship. O Savior! On the strength of this
relationship, I am begging from You the nectar of
the holy nam e" (HNC, pp. 79-80).
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This is the last entry of the day and the last of the
first week. I am typing. Take a deep breath and se
lect your best thought. It comes out in words. W ith
the typew riter, there are long pauses, like holding
your breath. I keep my line of thought until the
carriage goes all the way to the right and then all
the way to the left again.
I hope to be here tomorrow, breathing and living
and chanting all day long. It is almost childish how
I have to face my pride in accumulating numbers of
rounds even while I am so intent on the beginner's
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word "R ad ha," then "K rsn a," then repeat the de
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W hispering my japa.
This m orning, I could not get deeply into the
reading m edium . I was chanting in dim light,
which was conducive for ja p a but not for book-
reading. Still, I need som ething to dunk me into
the rasa ocean. Between rounds I stopped and read
Srila Prabhupada's assurance that the names of the
Lord put us into direct association with Him. And I
read a verse by Prabodhananda Sarasvati describing
the services the gopis perform in Vrndavana forest
for Radha and Krsna.
I am disappointed in my inability to be more
affected by the readings and the ja p a , but I accept
them gratefully. Everything proves to me that there
is no substitute for devotion in your own heart.
Even reading and chanting will not melt the steel
framed heart in which offenses dwell.
Srila Prabhupada describes the state of feeling
unqualified and yet desiring K rsna's association. In
Teachings o f Lord Caitanya, he quotes Sanatana Go
svami: na prema sravanadi bhaktir, " . . . I have no
asset for hearing . . . " Yet he m aintains hopes of
achieving K rsna, the darling o f the dam sels of
Vraja, "and these hopes are alw ays disturbing m e."
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does when it cuts the fruit with its beak. The main
point is not to be m undane but to be transcen
dental. The w riting method which advocates "first
th o u g h ts/b e st thou gh ts" and the desire to tap
"original m in d /' are theories that contain useful in
spiration for a Krsna conscious writer. Srila Pra
bhupada says we don't believe in the motto, "The
universe is false." W e say material consciousness is
false. But if we can use som ething m aterial in
Krsna's service, it should be done. It can be dyna
mic, but it requires care and direction.
it, but it pulls you down and you don 't act. So the
stopwatch gives you an early warning. If I see that a
full ten minutes have gone by and the summit bead
is not in sight, then I know I must be spacing out.
This is strictly beginner's stuff, but I w on't pretend
I'm above it. Also, I'm eager to get one of those
bottles that emits a fine spray of water to use when I
feel drowsy. Sleepiness can actually be beaten by
devices like this. The use of devices indicates a will
for reform, so they are im portant tools. Later they
w on't be needed. This morning, I also strictly avoid
ed sitting down for that stretch between 4 -5 :3 0 A.M.
Gradually one can learn many of the tricks of the
mind and ways to uproot bad habits.
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will end and a taste for the pure holy name will be
infused w ithin my heart by the pow er of divine
grace? . . . I shall buy and plunder the mellows of
the name of Hari, and becoming thoroughly intoxi
cated . . . I will be constantly immersed in the sweet
nectar of the holy nam e" (Kabe Ha'be Bolo, verses 1,
7).
And you cannot attain this only by staying in
your room and chanting: "W hen will there be an
awakening of com passion for all fallen souls, and
when will this Bhaktivinoda, forgetting his own
happiness, with a meek heart set out to propagate
by humble entreaty the sacred order of Sri Caitanya
M ahaprabhu?" ("Kabe Ha'be Bolo, verse 8).
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n a m a p a ra d h a -y u k tan am
nam any eva haranty agham
avisran ti-prayu ktani
tany evartha-karani ca
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B
babaji— one who retires from society to practice solitary
prayer and meditation
B hagavad-gita— literally, "Song of G od"; a discourse be
tween Lord Krsna and His devotee Arjuna in which
Krsna explains devotional service to the Supreme
Lord as the ultimate goal of life
bhakta— devotee of God
bhakti— devotion to God
Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakura— spiritual m aster
of A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada and
founder of the Gaudiya Matha
Bhaktivinoda T hakura— the father of Bhakti
siddhanta Sarasvati Thakura and a great acarya in
disciplic succession from Lord Caitanya. He authored
many books on the philosophy and teachings of Lord
Caitanya as well as devotional songs collected into
books like Saranagati, Gitdvali, etc.
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c a d a r — sh aw l
c
C aitan y a-caritam rta— a biography of Lord Caitanya
composed by Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami
Caitanya M ahaprabhu— the incarnation of Lord Krsna
who appeared in West Bengal during the 15th Cen
tury to teach love of God by chanting His holy
names, the Hare Krsna mantra
D
dh d m a— spiritual abode; the place of the Lord's
pastimes
Deity— an authorized form of the Lord made for accep
ting worship according to regulations in bona fide
scripture
E
Ekadasi— a special fast day for increased remembrance
of Lord Krsna, observed twice a month on the
eleventh day of the waxing and the waning moon
G
gosvami (goswami)— master of the senses
guru— spiritual master
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H
Hare Krsna m antra— Hare Krsna, H are Krsna, Krsna
Krsna, Hare H a re /H a re Rama, Hare Rama, Rama
Ram a, H are H are
harer nam a (harinam a)— the holy name of the Lord
Hari— a name for Krsna that means "one who takes
aw ay all inauspicious things"
h a ribo l— chant the name of Hari
Haridasa Thakura— great devotee of Lord Caitanya
known as "N am acarya" or chief instructor on chant
ing the holy names
hari-kath a— talks about Krsna and His pastimes
H arin am a-cin tam an i— a book written by Bhaktivinoda
Thakura to give instruction on chanting the holy
name. It is written as a conversation between Hari
dasa Thakura and Lord Caitanya.
I
ISKCON— the International Society for Krishna Con
sciousness
J
ja p a — chanting of the Hare Krsna mantra individually
on beads
jap a -m a la — chanting beads
K
Karttika— a holy month in the Vaisnava calendar
corresponding to October-November
klrtana— singing the holy names
Krsna— the Supreme Personality of Godhead
Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami— the author of C aitanya-
caritam rta and other Vaisnava writings, in disciplic
succession from the Six Gosvamis of Vrndavana
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L
Ilia— pastim es
M
m ad h u ry a-rasa— the sweetest mellow in service to
Krsna, referring to serving Krsna in the conjugal mood
m ah a -m a n tra — the Hare Krsna mantra
M an ah-siksa— twelve prayers instructing the mind,
written by Raghunatha dasa Gosvami, one of the Six
Gosvamis in Vrndavana
mantra— a sound vibration that frees the mind from
material thoughts
m ay a— literally, "th at which is not," illusion
m ayavadl— a person who thinks that the name and
form of the Supreme Lord are composed of material
energy. Therefore, they desire to merge into the
impersonal Brahman effulgence of the Lord.
N
nam a— the pure, holy name of the Lord
n am abh asa— the shadow of the holy name; stage when
the chanting is still infested with offenses but the
shadow of the name appears
n am ap arad h a— offense to the holy name
Narottama dasa Thakura— a great acarya in disciplic
succession from Lord Caitanya. He authored many
devotional songs which have been collected in two
books, P rem a-bhakti-candrika and Prarthana.
N ectar o f Instruction— known as Sri Upadesamrta,
written by Rupa Gosvami, one of the Six Gosvamis of
Vrndavana. He also w rote B hakti-rasam rta-sin dhu
(N ectar o f D evotion).
P
Panca-tattva— Lord Caitanya and His associates:
Nityananda Prabhu, Advaita Acarya, Sri Gada-
dhara Pandita, and Srivasa Thakura
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R
Radha[rani]— Lord Krsna's personified pleasure energy;
She is the female equivalent of Krsna
raganuga— spontaneous, loving devotion to the Lord
Raghunatha dasa Gosvami— one of the Six Gosvamis of
Vrndavana who was especially known for his
performance of great austerity; author of Sri M anah-
siksa and many collections of prayers
rasa— spiritual mellow or taste in relationship with
Krsna
rasika— a person or topic which is filled with spiritual
taste in love for Krsna
rati— spontaneous attraction for the Lord
rupanu ga— a follower of Rupa Gosvami
Rupa Gosvami— one of the Six Gosvamis of Vrndavana,
a direct disciple of Lord Caitanya, who was ordered
by the Lord to write many books illuminating the
path of devotion. He wrote many books, among them
Sri U padesam rta (N ectar o f Instruction) and B hakti-
rasam rta-sindhu (N ectar o f D evotion).
S
sad h aka— one who practices sadhan a
sadhan a— system atic practices of chanting and hearing
about Krsna aimed at spiritual perfection
sadhu— a saintly person or devotee of God
sadhu -n in d a— offense to a saintly person or devotee
s'flstro— revealed scripture
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T
tilaka— the markings of sacred clay on the body,
indicating that the body is a temple of God
Tulasi-devI— a bush often found growing wild in Vrnda
vana whose leaves are offered to the lotus feet of
Krsna and who is worshiped by the Vaisnavas
V
v a id h i-b h a k ti— the path of devotional service per
formed strictly under regulative principles
Vaisnava— a devotee of Krsna
varna— occupation
Visvanatha Cakravarti Thakura— a great acarya in
disciplic succession from Lord Caitanya who wrote
many books delineating the path of bhakti-yoga
vrajav asi— a resident of Vrndavana
vrata— vow
Vrndavana [Vraja]— the place where Krsna performed
His childhood pastimes; the eternal spiritual abode
is known as Goloka Vrndavana
I w ould like to thank the follow ing disciples
and friends for helping to produce and print
this book: C aitanya-ru pa-d evi dasi, Sarnga
Thakura dasa and N rsim hadeva-devI dasi,
Kaisori-devi dasi, and Madana-mohana dasa.
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