Who Am I ?

Who am I? This is a question you have probably answered at least once in your life.
Well, people say I’m naturally quiet. This is partially true. While I may come out as shy and
reserved to people who don’t know me, I’m actually quite talkative. The reality of matter is
I rarely make the first approach to talk to strangers. I’m usually a lone wolf in social settings,
unless my pack decides to accompany me.
But, when a person approaches me, I’m very friendly and when the stranger is patient
enough s/he may witness my jovial side. Not to be mistaken as a social reject, but my lack
of interaction is not a weakness or a deficiency. It’s just that I dislike engaging in small talk.
I enjoy intelligent conversations and these are rarely found in social settings.
I hate conforming to social norms. I live my life the way I want it to be. The mob
mentality is not for me. This is probably the reason why I have very few friends. I only
associate with people who respect me and trust my decisions. Large crowds are usually
accompanied by too much negativity, back biting and dishonesty.
I’m very loyal to the people in my inner circle. Loyalty is probably my biggest virtue.
I give it to the fullest and also expect the same from the people I give it to. I show utmost
care and love to the people that matter to me. I will do anything in my power to keep them
happy. I am also slow to anger and can tolerate whichever is thrown at me for some time.
I tend to overlook the first instances of misbehavior. However, if the person is
persistent with it, then I give them a piece of my mind and avoid them entirely. It is actually
hard for someone to piss me off to the point that I don’t want to associate with them
anymore.
I’m also very funny to people who have a knack for intelligent humor. My jokes go
over the heads of many people, because they do not understand the intellect behind them. I
never make obscene or racial profiling jokes, because I know the repercussions that they
may have on people around me.
I have friends from different races and I’m therefore very sensitive on whatever comes
outs of my mouth. I go out once in a while with my friends to have some good time.
However, most of my Friday nights are spent at the comfort of my home watching a movie
or reading a book or comics and nowadays I find pleasure in staying home.
My biggest weakness is that I find it hard to trust people. I don’t know if it is a gift or
not, but my first instinct about a person is always right. People tend to mask their true
intentions from me, but somehow I just see through it all. For instance, a person does not
need to tell me that s/he is going through some tough time. I’ll just feel it when they are
around me.
My biggest fear is not achieving whatever I want to accomplish in life. What I dislike
the most in life is dishonest people. Dealing with hypocrites is very difficult, because they
trick you into letting your guard down and you become very vulnerable. They will attack
you when you are down or when you least expect it. The worst thing is that we are always
surrounded by them. I’d rather come face to face with a killer, than stabbed in the back by
pretender. I also dislike uncleanliness, both physically and spiritually.
Answering the question “Who Am I” is quite complex, because our lives are very
wide that there are areas in our lives we have no knowledge of. Sometimes, we do not see
ourselves the way others see us. For instance, we may think we are confident, whereas the
people around us feel that we are too proud and arrogant. Furthermore, our behaviors,
interests and other things that define us may change after a while.