Dear Crush

I always have been wanting to get close to you

Ever since that day happened
I was unaware of the things I felt
I don’t know if you’ll ever know
But one thing is for sure
I’m totally over you by now
I know having a crush on someone like you
Is wrong for it isn’t normal
I still get affected somehow
Over simple matters
Like how you handle yourself
How delicate you look like
Or the way you smile and laugh
The way you call me by my name
Though it’s just simple gestures
Still it lingers
Cause whenever you are near
I still get conscious about everything
And I would over think the setting
If you would really look at me
You would see nothing of some sort
Who would believe me If I ever tell you
How much you mean to me
Even if we’re not close
I still try and get close to you somehow
So I always heave a sigh then act
Like switching seats just to get near your place
Or following whatever water you flow with
Simply seeing you can make me bother
But then when you would begin to smile
I smile too, and when you laugh,
I fell in love, over again
But I know it’s not the same
And I’m trying to move on
Keep my distance away from you
But I still couldn’t move
Cause I was paralyzed by you
And I try, and try to
Knowing that I’ll never do so
The things I wanted to do with you
You may have noticed the changes in me
The way I look, I had rebonded my hair
And also formed my eyebrows just for you
I’m glad you noticed but sad at the same time
You did noticed but you don’t know
That you’re the reason why I’ve change
I see you almost everyday
But you’ll never see me wanting you
Cause you’re so fixated in your own life
And I wish I could be a part of it
Merely demeanishing all the knots
Of the unparalled force you set on motion
Where I was setting you free and try’na move on
But I still have been keeping this letter far too long
Just to say “Goodbye to you my dear crush”
Hope things will turn out greyt