POETRY ON THE ROCKS BY THOMAS RYAN

2018-2019

Standing with Pride Words

Walking hand in hand Words of a war can be fought and we can
not looking back but forward bring peace
speaking the words only our past would we speak to our hearts with words we can
know be healed
or feelings can be shattered beyond our
In the distant skies we look to find our belief
journey Inspiration can come from words
We think of them and yet they are close
The constant foot steps are left behind
We remember them so well We can cast the words around
They walked many steps for us to follow the magic of words and the way we speak
So their steps have made us free can often unite or divide
through our creation when we speak
Where the people of the past have led words can often effect us or not
Today’s community will follow
Side by side Words when spoken tell me about you
Hand in hand Words tell you about me
I think of times when it was wrong Words tell us about the world
Known that people were killed because Words tell us all on how we should be
they were different
The state has said sorry Speak in a word that is kind
It is only words but to many it meant a lot Speak in a world that is not cruel
We fly our flags with rainbow pride Speak your true word and speak the truth
We fly them for our community past of love
present and those yet to come I speak a word I wish to speak and I speak
No dangers do we fear highly of you
We are now the one
I am always there along with others
United we stand
Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender
whatever they case maybe
Our community in the past has stood for
us
In this pride season let us now stand and
be counted as equal
In Ireland we call home let us stand and
been seen as one

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The Lane
In the pretty city
lies our memory lane
People won’t know it as it was near home
If giving the chance to go back there-
again
To experience the times we spent there
I know I have changed
So has the land
Have walked down the lane in pervious
times
Living the memories of the joy we had as
a boy
Oh they were the days of times past
It just flies by so fast
Looking back down the lane
I stand at the edge
laughing to myself
the summer nights we spent playing
The times shared are the times we
remember
the lane back at home
and the memories remain
My Secret Hideaway
Lying down on my bed of roses
my dog by my side as a guard
the birds sing high in the sky
I sit and watch as earth goes by
The words on your tongue I want them to
say
those magical words might only be the
way
Love can carry on in this place
our secret little hideaway
I never want to leave here
I want you to be by my side for years
Together we can conquer the world
But for now let’s relax and kiss each other
in our little secret hideaway
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The Town
Our town the contrast of black and white
Reality is there is so much more to offer
Success or a failure
Night comes day
our town is living and many might say its
thriving
Once a dream to be somewhere else
if that happened it could be a night mare
our town laughs with the confident
people that we have
the reality is Clonmel is our town
we have seen the town in its dark days
W e have shared some great times with
the world
The darkness covers the beauty
There is glimmers of light to come
our town is beacon for the county
We call it home
we have seen it laugh
we have heard her cry
we have watched her sing
we call Clonmel our home
A True Friend
A great friend I have in you
you’re the one I can trust
you understand my feelings
you make life seem so true
I can ask you for advice
Sometime I have never heed
you are there at time when I need you
Your a true friend indeed
A friend I place in you
Is one I put my trust too
Who secrets we shared with
Just to say that a true friend you do really
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One day I will leave
One day I will leave it all behind me and
say goodbye
just one day is what I want to see your
smile
I want to hold you tight and wipe away
those tears
One day I will leave it all behind me and
say goodbye
Just to spend one more day with you
both
Prove to you that even when you gone
the memories remain
Those memories even brighten up the
darkest days
You spoiled my heart with all your love
One day I will leave it all behind me and
say goodbye
Time chooses us in many different ways
I know you are watching us from above
Your eyes are glaring down from the skies
as I remember your lovely smile
One day I will leave it all behind me and
say goodbye
That one day I be reunited with my
parents
That one day will be not a goodbye but a
son reunited with his loved ones
My Secret Hideaway
Lying down on my bed of roses
my dog by my side as a guard
the birds sing high in the sky
I sit and watch as earth goes by
The words on your tongue I want them to
say
those magical words might only be the
way
Love can carry on in this place
our secret little hideaway
I never want to leave here
I want you to be by my side for years
Together we can conquer the world
But for now let’s relax and kiss each other
in our little secret hideaway
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A Line or Two
A line or two might not even be three
A heartbroken that nobody wants to see
A cry by the park in the pale moon light
A lovers cry wondering the hell way
Spending time on my own
Spending all that time thinking why
I stare to the clear crystal waters
only to see a shadow of someone about to
cry
The guy I loved has left for good
the guy I wanted he didn’t care
the guy was my rock so I thought
He didn’t want me it felt he was just to
use me
Sitting alone on the rock
I ask did you leave
Answers I will never hear
Questions that you will never answer
That was many years ago
I need to learn to move
Times are changing so should I
I still sit and ask myself and wonder why
Close your Eyes
I close my eyes and fly away
I seen a place that i can wait for you there
I wish you to come
Please don’t be long
The thoughts you have
the colours command the heart
lets paint the picture
and dream of our house together
Hold on tight and let us lead the way
Allow our garden to grow with time
we can reach out and pick a flower or two
Open your heart and I will give it to you
Close your eyes and look for me
I see your peeking
I know your heart has opened
I see you so close
The one thing I want please don’t let it go
I will get down on one knee someday
and say please will you marry me
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I can say it make you feel like you are at

The New Start
Sometimes he brings us to a place
where I can’t find the answers
sometimes tomorrow will never be seen
Just confusion all around
Deep inside I do realize
that at times things work for good
even hard times I have been wounded
Sometimes I feel misunderstood
Don’t dwell on the injustice of the past
Stay focused on the heart you have
find the forgiveness you need
and let it go with the freedom of the day
In time you will make a new start
you will be free of the past
Fresh ideas and new friends
Future times I guarantee will be a blast
home
Stand Firm in Your Love
I want to say that it breaks my heart of
what you have been through
The trials and tribulations of love
The ones that life has thrown to you
A couple stands together no matter what
For what is rights its yours to know
against a world love is not lost
for the truth you know the answer
Stunned by friends and family
I got down one knee
to all your beliefs
I took out that ring
and I ask my man will you marry me

Lismore
The town stands on the river black water
the trees cover the beauty of this amazing
place
the water and the windows shine to the
castle skies
Children play down on the stand
I have seen so many fishing in the clear
water along the river banks
A quite stroll through this historic town
Sure it is only a stone through away from
home
The towers of the castle stand tall to
protect
I spent many a summer in the castle
garden when I was small
The town I speak of is in the county of
Waterford
Not far to travel from sea or home
The amazing jewel of Waterford
I would recommend to go and see
The black water is welcoming
Just walk in to the town you will feel free
A gentle smile from the town’s people

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Love forever more. in years to come we meet by the long

Flowers where are they now sandy beach
Love songs we don't hear them
I don't call to see you Because
I don't hear a knock on my door
Because I don't live in my town
Nobody ever remembers Does not mean my heart is not there
did we love each other at all Because of loved ones over the world
did we hate each other Does not mean my heart is now with
No we were never alone them
Life was crazy for years At times I do cry
I had that hard feeling for years Often I speak with the ones I miss
just walk away and roll your eyes I hold them close in my heart
the light is forever more Missing them at times can cause pain
we don't walk near our sandy beach
which was our ship to shore Far from heaven we hear their song
the song from above is real
Our love is over or Did we ever start it if you want the truth
Please talk to me Just once more Listen to your heart
Let me love you please even if it’s just
once more One day they will come
Family members alive or passed away
Leave your keys and walk with me dear the time will be right
We never learned to love each other Just remember to open the door and
Can we walk away from what we had shine that light
Just please let us do it once more
Because they are not here with you
Where have you gone Just remember where ever they are
I will hide forever Love will always be there for you.
you said you loved
But it will be forever more Rap your blanket here their song
it will bring peace to you
and remember where ever they are
Love by Night the still love you and watch out for you
The blue sea on the long sandy beach
the moon yellow and shining path to the
sea
these all startled with the waves as the
leap
as we sing a lullaby and send our little
ones to sleep
For miles and miles the scent of sea air
The fields up the roads sing the song
A tap at the top the animals play
The night light does appear
The song echoes from the mountains high
our voice of cry and joy
I want to see our two hearts meet

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Passing of Time
Tonight I sit by the window
I stare to the deep night sky
I look for the brightest stars
I point at them and know that they are
you watching over us
Time flies by knowing you are gone
Days pass knowing I really do love you
both
Hours get closer to the days end
knowing I both love you so
I go to your grave when I can
I try and speak some words to you both
But my mouth just can’t say what I want
to tell you
I look at the pictures you leave which are
now my memories
I know I still love you both
Time is coming only sleeping you are
Till then watch over us all
And in return I hold you close to my heart
as we all do
Emotions
Missing Love
Don’t know where I find a balance
I just can’t find it anymore
I don’t cry tears
they just pour out so much
I have not smiled in years
I can’t find where it has gone
I don’t want to yell or cry
I just want to fall in love
It’s been years since loved knocked on
that door
been months since a special date was set
It maybe too much to ask
Why I can’t find love
Am I really looking for something I can’t
have
Do I live in the pass
Do I choose another
or confess a dying love
Time will tell
I don’t know why I did
I cried a thousand teats
in life it felt like years

Many the empty feeling I had at night that Love comes and nothing special
comes from within Will it be my time soon
Longing to share feelings but who wants or will I be alone forever
to listen Dying years comes dying love
I have reached out for open arms but
nobody cared
Tears fall from eyes and nobody cared
I tried to pick up the phone to call
You never answered

I laid in bed and looked up to the moon

Just to know you were not there
The flame that has sparked was never
inside
Thoughts of sadness was their
Emotions fires have burnt all day
Love of fires and regrets are pained
Consumed in my own darkness
I have slowly faded away
Once I had a blue sky
Never have I felt so far away

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An Old Heart
In the heart of that place
There was no light
Only a heart that I heard crying
But it was not the one I thought it would
be
Nobody else took any notices
Nobody ever cared
Everything I had was against me
Nothing ever seem as fair
It that cold room
With nobody to talk to
I started to think
Only to find out I never knew
I never tell the friends
I never spoke a word
I was never well
Nobody ever felt as bad as me
I always asked to be fine
I never want to be rich
I always wanted to do right
I never wanted to be lonely
Heart
I have a heart
It was once pure gold
Now it’s gone and I feel old.
We all have problems
I should have spoke to someone
I know it’s hard
But I tried and it never worked
I try my best to control me
But at times it can take me over
I look to a higher power
At time he is not there.
It was time to end
Say goodbye to everyone
But then I changed my mind
And say no wait why
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There is nothing here
Time to grow
Leave what I want
Start a new flow
Grab this year coming
Making it your own
Be happy with your choice
Clonmel owes you nothing
And in return the same to Clonmel.
Start fresh plan ahead
Make the year yours
And hold high your wonderful head
Come walk with me
Come walk with my darling love
Let the steps we share touch our hearts
Come dance on the streets and enjoy the
rhythm of the music
Sing from the mountain tops and enjoy
what you hear
Sit by side and let us find the art of our
love
Walk with me and I will love you tonight
Laugh with me as we gaze to the stars
don’t cry cause I don’t understand why
Dance with me my just for one night
I know we found love which is one
amazing sight
You have found you’re inner peace as
have I
I know my heart is with you as it has to be
I find with my ears your words of love
For once more I ask to please come walk
with me tonight
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Mammy Just life

As you sit in heaven
and cast your eye on us each day
I watch for you knowing the signs
that you never went away
I recall you when you laughed
I recall you watching us sleep
I still feel your arms around me
I just love that who had
You never wished the days away
I just want you back again
I see your signs
Knowing that you never left me
Time will come you wait and see
We will all laugh again
You dad the family and me
Our time will be free
Let us enjoy the memories we have
I love you always
Till we meet again mammy
Remember to watch us over us all and me
Slipping Away
Slipping away from the quite night alone
my mind just wonders way out to sea
from the coldness of the dark room
with the days and hours lingering away
Time in life just slips away
The journey starts as do the seasons
No boundaries will ever hold us back
on course to a long cold winter
all I think of is summers past
On those sandy shores the rain dances
I love to sit in the car in winter and watch
them
my parents are with me as the memories
are sacred
the endless days we spent are amazing
The evening breezes are colder than ever
the nights are really short
Time waits for nobody
as those days just slip away
The end is not near for any of us
The ocean sings songs beyond our waves
Our friendship will always go on forever
Until we leave one of us will never say
goodbye
Clean up the leaves
And the seasons will turn as well
The sea shells we collected at the sea side
We can return them back to the sand
The tides come in and out
Time will wait for nobody
I will never leave you
I love you forever
The memories are recorded for us rave
about
The lessons I learned were because of you
On the earth we do have hell
In heaven they sing your praises
Part of sea we played in will be with us
forever
When the tide comes in on our special
day
Our paths will cross for sure
The oceans will sing and it will be our song
Love always and none of us will never
leave.

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LOVE CAN LEAD TO HURT man I want to call my own and share for
Falling in love can sometimes lead to hurt life
and a broken heart and knowing that
heart ache can go on for a long time.
IT’S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY
I stopped loving and I have locked all my
feelings away, I left that side that I don’t It was not that long ago since we found
want to stay. that letter, that one letter that could have
changed everything for all those who may
The love I had is gone for all time. I am
be left behind. In a way it explained why it
sitting here wondering will he ever be
was done yet it never felt right, so he says.
mine. The life I had to what I live, asking
myself what was the true meaning and At stages through he knew something or
will it come back. at sometime it may have happened, he
knew that it might possibly be the only
I pass the spot every day, the spot we
way out.
loved down by the railway with the sun
shining high the clouds so empty and no a Some years ago not in the distant past,
care in the sky. changes came to his life that nobody
would have thought of at him, the first
Times come and go and the reflection of
year started off been good but that ended
the memories lives on. I am asking myself
with sadness which he didn’t want to
will I love again. The guy I chose may be
share.
younger than I, maybe a guy who can
bring the true meaning of love back to a Feeling helpless down and alone thinking
life that I once had. it was time and his friends started seen
changes in him changes that were strange
A direction I might lead to have might
but yet he continued to do what he done
come and go and who knows meet along
to be that better person he always
the way. With my feelings up and down
wanted and to help others but yet
and all over the place, I am friends did my
forgetting him.
guy pass me am I still to find the missing
ace. A balance of life gone a balance that
nearly destroyed a man who was
The joker comes and goes and like a deck
considered a pillar a rock to those around
of cards he should be used but only to put
him and those he had met, he made many
things away and let me there. Jokers like
changes and helped so many but yet he
feelings they can be messed around and
could not pin point why he felt different.
leave the pack from you, ace at the
bottom to the king at the top my time will He now sits still a young man in that
come again when I meet that man and lonely corner wondering what would have
share that smile I once had. happened if he did set out what he
wanted to do all those months and years
Till then I will surround myself with my
ago. He thought of it and for many a time
loving friends near and far and remember
he felt strange and alone that if he did he
the good the times I had cause falling in
would have left a strange misery feeling
love can sometime lead to hurt and a
over his friends and family asking why
broken heart but love can also lead to
gone so early.
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With the help of his friends and family
that lonely corner he sat in is now the
beacon of hope the beacon that will guide
him through so many different things and
as he turns his attention to his higher
power to the one that he looks too for
guidance and hope he turns to his friends
and says I had my black bad days ye stuck
by me you helped me in ways that no
other person would.
I am grateful to you all for making me see
the light seen what I have done to myself
now I turn and ask others who are
travelling in my shoes to speak to those
who need it help and believe that we can
all connect to been happy finding our
balance and to promote what is good for
us and to promote that it’s okay not to be
okay and lets end the stigma against
mental health and lets use this to believe
that we are all good and never let anyone
tell you different.
A PIECE OF HEAVAN
A piece of my heart lives in heaven.
With seen counting from 1 till 7
I hear the angels sing and dance
the sun shine in a bright sky.
The rain falls on the green grass,
A loving couple straight are gay hand in
hand just pass.
We are the one people we love
the lives that will be in heaven
Hearts are everywhere you know I have
mined
I have felt yours and someday it may
rekindle and join.
Bow my head in ways I do
Loving pieces belong to you
You gave me the world
my mum gave you a new life
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Ill smile and bow knowing that we have a
piece of our hearts lying in heaven
THE ONE I LOST
To the one I lost
With this lent of time
I declare my undying love
Knowing not to be mine
I am scared and single
With life so bleak
Not knowing what was wrong
I never turned to seek.
I ask myself so many times
Why do I do it and never at the right time
We have both lost and loved never
knowing why
I can say it over and no hear no voice just
a cry
You lived life in a way I came to know
I rather go different but it time I learned
to grow
You came to be just to see we are
different with time
Came and it was left to be.
You are gone I had to say,
So many people advised me not to stay
I am here heartbroken and all
You left the scar and gone for all time
New life you begin
I asked why it has to be,
My love and life gone and now I see.
You lived double standards I never knew,
So many times my life was blinded by you
And a tear you never shed.
All those lonely nights I had thinking you
were working
Never know it was another bed.
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I’ll NEVER die

I’ll never be With the One I Love.
I’ll never be with the one I love,
I will never get to do what you do
He will never kiss me in the morning
I will never holding his hand as I should do
Brought together to be one
Tipperary we will always love you
Our County for eternity and beyond the
day we die.
Lovers

No holiday I will ever share
No Valentine’s Day card sent to show I
care
The love I for him he will never.
The strong friendship we have his heart is
elsewhere
The tears I am crying not even the pain I
bare.
We have our nights out and the laughs are
fun
Not even a screaming match because I
wish he was the one.
There is only one thing that I will never do
is walk in my front door and say to him
that I truly love you
You and I have shared our silence.
Finding it hard to comfort each other
The way lovers used to do.
Fights and words we never said
We always made up with each other
The way lovers do
Times of joy and sorrow
Sometime we have never seen it through
I used to care what tomorrow brings
Now I care about you.
I care what you bring
What we will see tomorrow
We will face love like lovers
Not lovers just like old friends should do

Stand
We love our county till we die
Bound by what we are
Bound by what we will be
Bound what we should come
we stand for county from now and
eternity
To our future I look to our past
the shores many have left
Standing on the bays near our seas
we want you to return
remember this county belong to us
We scream from the mountains high
The County is ours
our hearts belongs to you
and nobody will forget that Tipperary is
ours
We stand together with pride and joy
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TORN
Fires of hell have burned so red
Torn the sheets of a love's thread
Crying tears I wonder why so dear
One heart born with a love so near
It came to be time I tell
Passing of death like the stone to hell
I took your moods and swings of life
I changed and discovered you had a wife.
Why double standards for so long
So much to bear the hurt caused was
wrong
It came and went like spring and fall
A fling that lasted years never take the
bounce of the garden ball.
You wined and dined in sites so far
Never close to home or the local bar.
I always wondered why and now I know
you lived a lie.
Never told I should have seeded a double
standard guy who made one loves bleak.
Torn the hearts of so many I wish I scored
I got my man but a lie you hold a life that
you led
And I was never told
Days I Wonder
I wonder in times gone by
Near the water of lakes I watch with a
wondering eye
I set to be on life goals a truth or a path
sometime life as a whole
I’ve failed in the past I learned so much try
to better myself and let people wonder
why.
Near the restful waters I do not gazes
Wonder was it me are I am gay,
Mixed up on a life I lead never knew will I
fail are or just be so
I don’t know was I wrong or right I need to
speak a truth or live the life I have to seek
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I curl up in a ball and hideaway just to
hear my dear son don’t worry you will be
okay.
The life you will lead will strong and bright
coming of age was super I know it would
be right.
I am here to help seek and find that right
guy for love and a peace of mind.
Some spent years, search months to cry,
weeks laughing and an hour to die,
Friends I had I love to see that wonderful
smile he had to see
You lived a life in a way we knew I love
been there bright and blue.
I speak to you in tears of joy knowing you
can’t answer but in my heart I feel your
joy
They came a time I was in tears I turned to
you and lost all fear.
I look and lay and here I am saying it was
great that you now have made me a
better man.
Never Known
Never known what love is
Nobody ever has really taken my heart
I never spoken to a real heart
I can love someone if I didn't have before
How do I know to say I love you
When I cant even write that down
I want to know what it all about
I want to find that special guy
I want to walk down the beach
I want that special person to go hand in
hand
The person I want has to be special
I want to find love really soon
Years are passing by so quickly
Love and time is running out so soon
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I want to know what love is about
That special guy has to show me
Time flies and goes so quickly
I want to see it all
My heart will never know
I may never find the guy
Will I ever make it happen
Why Mam Why
I am sure the guy had no idea
You told not to take them mum
So I didn’t and drank sprite instead
Feeling proud of one self
The way you told me I would
That I did not drink nor took drugs and not
to drive
Though some friends told me I should.
I made a healthy choice
And your advice to me was right
The party finally ended
And the kids drove out of sight
I got into the car
Sure I was to get home in one piece,
I never knew what coming mam
Something I expected the least.
Here I am lying on the pavement
And I hear the police say
The kid that caused this was flying high
and drunk
And there he lies
My own blood I lay in
As I try not hard to cry
I can hear the paramedic say
Not long these people will die
I was not sure I had no idea
While living and flying high
Because I choose to drink drug and drive
Now I know I would have to die.
So why mum why did I do it?
Knowing that I have ruined lives
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The pain is cutting me
I must have been stabbed like a thousand
lives
My breath is getting weaker
I know you are scared
These are my finally moments
I so was not prepared
I wish you can hold me one more time,
Why did I do it mum why
I just lay down now and die
I wish I can tell you that I love you
And what I did was wrong
I love you all and it was gone
Like the lives I destroyed
I done it and it was so wrong
The time I had was no long
I lost everything I did
My time is over I now
What I did was just so wrong
Angels
May the angels fly to protect you from
heaven
Take you when you leave your bedside
you should always have a coin or two?
That you never leave your glass half
empty
the tears you cry from laughing should be
tears spent laughing with friends
as each hour passes those moments
turn to gold
May lady luck be always near your side
Never stumble upon other people’s
misery always be there with a smile for
them to see
Never say goodbye to a loved one just
smile and say we meet again and watch
over me with a kind ray of light.
To be honest your there in my life and
May those who fly to protect be there for
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your always
LOVE IS NEVER TO FAR
Remember never be alone I am always a
thought away
Words cannot explain
how much I loved you
MINE
nothing could ever compare
what you mean to me
On this night I stand before the powers of
the world and the powers that I love.
you are the love of life
I stand over the mountains and I look out
you're my leaning post
to the sea and I watch the waves come in
although I love my family
as I think of a guy who I love to be with.
you're the one I love most
The evergreen valley the trees so tall I
even though you have leave
have amazing friends but I can’t be with
you'll still be in my heart
the person I love and I just want to call.
you'll always be real close
I stand on the sea front counting the stars
even though we should never part
in the sky and I wish I was there with that
loving guy.
while you're away from me
My life grows just for you
My invite arrived in the post to be at the
you gave me so much
wedding of a friend and says that I have a
plus one. This has come I have a friend but just like a really love should do
not a loved one who I can bring.
There is a guy who deep down in my heart I'm not going to say good-bye
I wish to be with and many days I do often or that I will not see you again
think how I would love to give him all my I'll say I love you, and see you later
heart but only known I think he does feel even though you're gone for good
the same way.
I love you more than you'll ever know
I have laughed and cried and been in I know you'll be on earth
floods of tears only thinking that someday
he might be by my side and these tears
are not fake but true. But not as my shining star
He is my rock as a friend and I love having no matter how far away you seem
him by my side and wishing someday he our hearts will never be far
maybe mine. I think the day will come
when I find my mind and known that he
might have missed a chance for us to be
happy. If a day that comes and he says will
you be mine my arms will open and say
yes that is fine.

I want to love care and be there for him

but at the same time I know he may be
too. Love is love no matter who it is with
and I for one wish he is to be mine.

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Love Who You Love
You are who you are
Because you were brought into the world
that way
You can't change it
Instead let yourself embrace it.
There was only ever one of you
You are here for a reason
Remember you are not a mistake
But a gift from somewhere
I can't tell you who to be
Nor can I tell you who to love
That choice is up too you
Gay Lesbian Straight Asexual Bisexual
Pansexual or Transgender
We are all people no matter who you are
So never pretend to be someone else
I dream of a world where one day I can
choose to marry the one I love
Choose to marry where it is not a violation
or should it be a sin
If straight people can get married
Well I am a person I am equal and why
shouldn’t I be the same
Be allowed to marry the one
Book over Its Cover
I never judge a book by its cover
Are those that lie completely bare
Instead of flicking through the pages
I find real meaning somewhere in there
Why judge those around me
Based on what I read and see
People knows life is similar
and who knows it really could be
Rather than a simple judgement
the writing or a quick review
Look and the person who lived in the past
and ask them to read a page or two
I stand alone on the shelf
Thinking I could sell the best seller or two
Read me first and tell me should I judge
you by your cover or should I wait till I
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read the lot and decide on the last of
which is page four hundred and fifty two.
A Christmas Wish
The time is coming tell everyone
I so wish it was here
The best time is at this time of year
Oh the hours I count of each day
I count them on my fingers toes and
thumbs
The minutes most pass quickly
Oh I can’t wait Santa Claus is coming
The first of the snowflakes come falling
down
The branches are leaves are white as they
hit the ground
I don’t mind the cold, though my feet and
fingers are numb
For me Christmas comes but one a year
and Santa come on December 24th.
The Love Stars
Wishing on the stars near the sea
I am standing here with you as my love
Pennies that we have counted are not
wasted
Instead I spent them all just on you.
From the heavens your star shines bright
The waterfall wishes are set in skies above
I dream of you has made me a man
I count the steps till you shine again
I watched the rainbow with clear blue
skies
I have found the leprechaun's gold near
by
The wishes of the waterfall at the stars at
night
These are my feelings that I have for you
Close your eyes take my hand
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I am your peter pan and I know that I am
yours
Let’s fly away to the dream stars above
The dream land of the love stars bright
and high
Tears Once Shed
With my eyes I seen it in your face
The tears that you once shed
No more than one or two will go
Never again will I see such pain there
The passing of my love to your life
The mirror reflects what you cried years
ago
I have seen it clearly the hurt you shared
A dream I have is to release that from you
I took your heart with my life
I spoke clearly to you have our feelings
The night passes as does the days
You are still my only one
Tonight we see the tears one last time
Tonight I call you my love and I want you
for my life
Good Times To Come
Seen the clouds in the morning sky
Followed by the raising of the run
the day has dawned once again
my dreams again will live on
I thought of you when I seen your face in
the morning
as i looked to the west where the sun was
raising
The two currents I have seen
both flowing peacefully by and with a
glimpse they just smiled
Calm was the flow of the river as I think of
you
People stop to watch the peace of the
flow as it passes
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Be yourself with the smiles of the world
Be your bird and fly high in the sky
I like the rays of the summer sunshine
these rays that brings use calm and peace
Today I send you all the best and I wish
you the inner peace of good times to
come.
Much to Love
I never knew that I would find love
As much as I can’t find him I found you
I never knew I had it in me
But I am finally letting it go want to love a
guy like you
I never thought you would be the one
That special guy who could take my
breath away
Someone I want to love and I know I want
you
I think I found someone who will be more
than a one night stand
The one who will be with me and by my
side
I will love you and I hope that it will flow
from you too
Falling in love it could be with the guy I
want
As much as I don’t want too
I want to say that I don’t like you but I
have stronger feelings that you think
I could love you forever but am I really
calling out to the wrong tree
Please let me see can we be friends and in
turn it could be forever.
Friends
I see there is two small boys
One has red hair
the other has curls
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Seen them run side by side
Giggling together to see who first gets to
the big red slide
I hear them say you are my friend
But I am told they only met today
One boy has lived on the block for years
the other has just moved into the estate
today
That two boys played together
somewhat he reached out to be a helping
hand
My song at winter
He was my song at winter
In the chorus I heard it words
My summer time of love
I hear you when spring came along
Your the melody of my heart
I stop to hear its tune
I listen to every word
It was silence you brought to the hall
It seems as though
I have forgot every word you wrote
But yet I remember standing together in a
field full of flowers
I remember saying that I love you
There was once a song I heard
It reminded me of you
The song reminded that winter is needed
Just like summer love comes too
A Rose on my Wall
A rose on my wall is for mothers
Mothers who may be here on earth and
the mammy's who are not with us at all.
The rose I share stands really high
The rose has a special place in all our
hearts
The rose I share I want everyone to see
This is the flower that stands from my
garden to the cliffs of the blue ocean sea
Our mothers who are in heaven
Your rose color can be seen from a height
you were the rose that came us love by
the pale moon light
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We remember them by placing a rose just
for you
So no matter where you are dead or alive
My rose that I have I keep it just for you,
The rose on my wall is just anywhere and
its kept for everyone too see.
To Fall In Love
We fell in love with each other
Those special words you spoke
We were always on your best behaviour
The thoughts and opinions
From the moments we made I remember
The lust that came from your eyes
You left me with your heart forever
Saying what you said is completely
possible
I fell in love with someone I never knew
Without any contact things might never
change
I may never know what its like to fall in
love
But first I need a guy to choose
Perhaps the best way is to fall in love
I want this to be with me I want to see
love at first sight
Through my eyes times might be
misleading
But deep down inside looking is hard and
all I want is to fall in love with you
The Road I Taken
Two roads divided with one I never
travelled
I am sorry that I didn't go for both
I now reflect and think the one I took was
completely wrong
I look down that road many a day and
discovered I should have went the other
way.
The road I taken it has more downs than
ups
Turning back I often thought it might have
been good
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Though passing my times in my life some I
might choose to share
This road I taken with my own life no love
which lies completely bare
Telling these stories in times to come
I’m neither rich nor hansom at times I felt
out and poor
I have some kind of heart or feelings to
share
Finding that love it’s hard to bare
Travelling the wrong road should I turn
back
The answer is now I am on mine for 30
years and more
New turns comes with the dawn of a new
day
Someone will say look back and be glad
that the road you took was the road
meant to be for you.
Heaven Is Never Too Far
Words cannot explain
how much you mean to me
nothing could ever compare
or even ever be
you're my dad, my own and only
you're my leaning post
although I love my family
you're the one I love most
Even though you may be leaving
you'll still be in my heart
you'll always be real close
even though we're far apart
While you're in heaven, please watch over
me
and help me as I grow
you have taught me so much
but there is still so much more to know
I'm not going to say good-bye
or that I can't go on
I'll say I love you, and see you later
even though you're gone
I love you dad, more than you'll ever know
I know you'll be in heaven as a shining star
no matter how far away you seem
heaven is never too far
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The Bright Sky
She left this earth like the queen she was
with the amazing eyes that would light up
a town
I spoke to my higher power
and my dear I asked him a favour
He gave me the earth to share with you
the birds sing our song
the tune I hear is your one
and not a note out of place
I cast my eyes to the sky
I seen your silver smile from so high
I know your there high above
I thank my higher power for so much
But above He gave me something special
That was you mam
My queen and a special place in my heart
Looking Ahead
We grew together with silence in our
minds
through the cold winter and dark nights
the ones with the wet weather we wait
and see
Spring can bring change
a time to grow with love and wonder
Summer with the hot sun
Autumn comes with the fruits of love
Understanding your love
I want to keep it forever
Our winters will come
but I know my heart will be warm with
you by my side
True words cone and say
Yes I love you forever
now please marry me and ill led you down
our pathway
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A Homeless Matter Why am I feeling so lonely?

People look and see me
Thinking wow he has the world at his feet
Deep down they don’t know me
But each of you I know has a name or
number
People who see me
Think he can’t be homeless
But deep inside do they know my story
Or again choose not to care
People see me in many lights
I have a sad heart deep down inside me
They think I have a roof over my head
But not one that I can call my own
People who know me
Don’t want to listen to my story
All I want is my own front door
One that I can say look that is my own
And say come in and welcome to my
home.
I wrote this many a time on my Face book
wall.
To say that I will miss you and kisses to all,
Don't look for me I am not sitting on my
window or at the bedroom floor.
The services and prayers won’t be held in
anyone's home.
They will just scatter my ashes out to sea
like I wanted to
I don't know why I am so lonely
You will never know the hurt I am feeling
At times in my life I am so empty
And this is a lonely feeling
I don't have a boyfriend for anyone to say
I love you
I lost a fight which I can’t control

Almost Gone There is nobody to blame only myself and

It has taking over my life
Something that I would I never thought of
doing
I don’t like what I am feeling
Again I feel alone and times not happy
I am feeling lonely
And remember it’s my story that I will just
write again maybe not on my Face book
wall.

Now it seems to be over

The times of happiness I had is gone
Tears drown my pillows yet again
Darkness looms deep down in my heart

Friends are absent from my life

But would I really call them friends
Who cares they don’t
If they did they would have been there

I am sick of reaching to people

Only a few will help
People will always say yes I am there
But they don’t be

This night last year I was nearly gone

I wanted to end it all
Something stopped doing it
But at times I still think I wish I did.

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My Best Man
My mam met someone I barely knew
they had two children plus my sister and I
He never broke my mom’s heart
He gave us a life that was so pure and
good
He was the best man a boy could need
Not the kind anyone wanted to share
Devoted to his family and my mam
that stranger became my dad
I called by his name for years
until a day came and he said son and I said
dad
He taught me so much in life
He gave his family a lease of a life nobody
could share
To that man who stood by my side
as I remember him from the day I met to
the day I laid you to rest
Dad was my best man
Gone from this life no matter where your
spirit lies you are there and remember
you will always be my best man.
A Passing Hello
She makes it up as he goes
Watching people past from her window
I seen the old lady smile
only to know that deep down she is sad
She always smiles back to me
I think it’s her way to say hello
Her other neighbours don't even want to
know
They have packed their bags and ready to
go
At this time she just wants to say hello
An open shopping that she carries every
day, the handles have broken off
I run over to help her and she said hello
The old lady said thank you as smile
appeared, she said today you made a
dream come true
that dream was just to say hello even if it
was just you
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Words Explained
Can words explain what I feel for you
Can I say that I like you too
Nothing will ever compare me to the love
I have for you
Only the feelings will shine through
You are the love of my love of my life
Your in my heart every day
you are always close
Even if you are miles away
While you’re away from me
my love for you grows and grows
I want to share with you so much
As only the time flows
I never want to say goodbye
I know that one day you and I will be one
Even though I don’t see you
I know that my love is true for you
The shining star that you are
No matter what time you shine
my heart is yours
Please say yes and I want you to be mine.
I closed my eyes after I closed the
curtains
To slumber I did sleep
I dreamed of years gone by
Only to dream of Loves soft caressing
breeze,
brushes stroking the canvas - still on the
easal,
Convey the ways that love disobeys -
Yet like a dream catcher I long to seize
that breeze..
I fling my eyes open to a myriad of colour,
to smells and memories I once dutifully
courted, gliding on silken threads of
gossamer dreams, my mind awakes to
sounds of the burgeoning day.
I fell a sleep once again to the dream I was
in only too see a guy I dream of and
wishing he was my Prince.
I think of this guy every day I wish I could
hold his hand but that day may never
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come as I know he is not with me and that
his love for me is none.
Auld Pals
The door is opened pop on in
Take a seat, cup of tea or a glass of gin.
Chat all day of years gone by
It's true what people say time waits for
nobody not even a king.
The stories we shared I was love to record
them all but if I told the guards would be
in stitches and I locked up with no bail at
all.
We shared moments together the
laughing only Ireland can here
To fill the bucket with a tear sure who
cares our time is here.
Laugh one at me and I'll laugh back
Go twice and it will be a day of what did
you say.
A tear of joy and laughter keep it going we
all know a person who needs it more than
one we do
A happy smile one day we will meet and
sit again with a cuppa tea or a glass of gin.
Some pills were my friend and I dipped my
legs in the river
It breaks me inside to thank I was in that
dark place
But back then it felt right to do
My head was a mess for many days after
staying quite and nothing to say
drowning my sorrows that was easing
pain
this was my dark time I try not to see
again
My ears are opened to listen I reached to
some
I spoke to people who I knew helped
No matter how bad it is some days I do
still think
All I wanted to do was join my loved ones
in heaven
And I was told you still have more to give
Your time is not yet came.

A Life Reflection
In the past I did not know what I have
done
at the time I know longer cared
my health, my happiness and everything
else was gone
I don’t know what was going on
Daily stress and my inside was killing
I stopped many times asking questions
when can I end my life
Why am I feeling like this?
Times end quicker just to be near you
Losing my mind I felt I was gone
my faith or higher power could not stop
me
Tired of living I wanted to end
But I felt I was a mistake taking up space
here

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