The New

Old Message

Sandra Kay
 Table of Contents

Introduction page 5

Chapter 1:
The Beginning page 7
Chapter 2:
Missing page 21
Chapter 3:
Misinterpretations page 46
Chapter 4:
The Confusion page 73
Chapter 5:
Condition page 107
Chapter 6:
Laws page 119
Chapter 7:
Religion page 141
Chapter 8:
Communication page 170
Chapter 9:
Freedom page 196
Chapter 10:
Clarity page 214
Chapter 11:
Spirits page 240

Conclusion page 244

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Introduction
I wrote this book to:

 Share in some of the mysteries of God and

clarify the message of Christ.
 Present a school of thought that freed me
from a traditional belief system that contin-
ues to keep people in bondage.
 Reveal and clarify truths that are in the Bible
that didn’t really make sense when using tra-
ditional interpretations.

This book assumes that:

 You believe that there is a God…and you care

what He thinks.
 That you have experienced church to some
degree or another.
 That you have accepted most interpreta-
tions of the Bible because a professional told
you and you really didn’t do your own re-
search.
 You believe in the Bible and quotes from the
Bible hold substantial weight. (Even if it may
not be the correct interpretation).
 That you are open minded enough that you
are willing to state that there may be more
out there to learn and what you already
know isn’t ‘it’.

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  That you are willing to acknowledge that you
have problems or issues that keep you from
being who it is you want to be.

I did not write this book to:

 Persuade an atheist or agnostic to change

their belief system. In fact, if you are either
of these, you might want to put the book
down now- because you will probably get re-
ally frustrated with it!
 Down play the fact that God revealed Him-
self in the flesh in the man Jesus. He did, it
was amazing.
 Take away anyone’s incentive for being a
good person by exposing flaws in the current
presentation of their religion and revealing
God’s true message of salvation.
 Judge anyone where they are at on their
spiritual journey, quite the contrary.
 Disregard any of the goodness or healing
that has taken place in a person’s life due to
their current faith.

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Chapter 1
The Beginning
It is really the preface, but many people don’t read
the preface (I know I don’t) so I am writing this as
the first chapter.

How long have you known about God? I should ask,

how long have you known that God is within you?
It is different for everyone. Everyone has a story;
how their life has unfolded and how God (to what-
ever degree) was a part of that story, if at all. This
book is a helpful tool whether you go to church or
not.

Many people have given up on God because of

church, so this book will clear up some misunder-
standing of who God is and why not having the
whole truth has caused church-goers behavior to
be contrary to the love that they claim they have.

Since I am writing this book assuming you have

some sort of background with God and church, let’s
just talk about how long you have known Him.
Many of you grew up in a house with some sort of
religion; mom, dad, or grandparent making require-
ments. Until one day you found yourself having to
decide on your own how you are going to incorpo-
rate God into your adult life or disregard God.

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So, you find a denomination, attach yourself to it,
attend as often as you are convicted and secretly
hope that all of this isn’t in vain. You watch those
around you, not knowing how it is that they seem
to have it all together and you feel as though you
are still figuring it out. After all this time, you think
you would at least be further than you feel.

For those of you who feel you are strong and solid
in your faith, good for you. God loves faith. Then
you should have no problem reading this book. God
says to sift through everything like wheat and pull
out what is edifying. Hold the information in this
book up to what it is that you believe and see if your
life is truly producing the fruits that God says you
should if you have His truth.

Too often, we find out that people weren’t who

they say they are, at least who you thought they
were. The pastor that gets caught in an affair, the
deacon that is now getting divorced, the Christian
singer that finally confesses to a secret other life.
How is that possible? Our religion is supposed to
give us the power of God, peace that passes under-
standing, unspeakable joy, forgiveness, hope and
the list goes on. If we have all of that, then why are
we all so miserable? Just stop for a moment, think
about what you have learned in church or read in a
Christian self-help book. If you pray hard enough, if
you do good enough, if you believe strong enough,
just walk forward in faith and it will all be great! Just
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lean on Jesus- He cares for you, trust in him, believe
and you can move mountains! So why do we feel so
lousy? Why is life such a struggle? Moved any major
‘mountains’ lately? You have been at this for a while
now, you would think it would get easier. Is this re-
ally what God had in mind? To create a being that
must live life weak and always struggling? Where is
the victory you were promised?

This was my life. I spent 36 years radically devoted

to church and their teachings. Always striving to im-
prove my relationship with God, believing in Jesus
and trying to not listen to the voices in my head that
were always so critical. I tried to just settle on the
fact that Jesus loves me how I am, but I didn’t even
love me how I was! When I was involved in church,
I was usually the Children’s Church director, drama
director, kid’s choir director, a part of the 10% at
church that did 90% of the work. Leading or in a
women’s Bible study, in the choir, camp counselor,
prayer warrior, committee member, events planner
for community outreach, sang the ‘specials’ during
the service, performed at prayer breakfasts, cooked
breakfast for the men’s group on Saturday morn-
ings, tithed regularly, and knew I was going to
Heaven and did not want anyone around me to miss
it. But deep inside I struggled with being what the
Bible was saying I should be and being able to ac-
complish that daily. Whew! I was working hard at it.

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Remember not to: judge, to say nice things, don’t
get caught up in the prevalent gossip, be humble
and don’t highlight yourself even if you did some-
thing amazing, allow people to get credit for your
work because we are supposed to be humble, don’t
stand up for yourself if you are being taken ad-
vantage of because you are supposed to suffer as
Jesus suffered (especially as a woman in church). Sit
down, shut up and listen to the men. Since my child-
hood, I memorized scripture; chapters at a time.
Sometimes when life was particularly hard I would
just breakdown and cry out to God asking for hope,
for something. During this time, I can say that God
was amazing, He did bless my life. He always pro-
vided, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that He
was there, and He did care for me.

But there was this other part of the scripture that I

could not quite make mine. The ‘perfect peace’, the
‘free indeed’, the ‘joy in all circumstances’. Those
were things I felt occasionally, but daily…impossi-
ble.

Two years into my marriage, I had even stood by my

husband’s side, like a good Christian wife, when he
confessed his secret dealings with worldly things. I
set aside any rage I should have felt and held his
hand as he struggled with his addictions. For years I
tried to support him overcoming and making better
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choices; but there wasn’t any change. At this point,
in his ears, my loving support started getting turned
into self-righteousness. For him, my encourage-
ment became judging and he was getting sick of it.
“Why are you always the one doing right, and I am
the only one that keeps screwing up?” So now, the
hard work I was putting into following God and be-
ing a good wife was wearing on my husband and he
blamed me for his uncomfortable feelings of con-
viction.

For 7 years this went on, until I could take it no

longer. I gave up my morals and instead chose unity
with my husband; I took God off the throne and put
my husband on the throne. He made a lousy God.
And, like most humans, when worldly behavior is
validated, the lines became blurred between ac-
ceptable and unacceptable. As I chose to follow my
husband through life, I found myself in the midst of
a destructive lifestyle- but at least I was pleasing my
husband. I no longer had to endure the blame for
his unhappiness. I know many women that are in
this predicament.

I spent those next years of my life trying to make

the hell I was living look good, trying to find the
good in what was around me hoping the goodness
meant that God was ‘still around’, and concentrat-
ing on being a devoted wife. Devoted to whatever
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my husband wanted me to be devoted to; he led
me deep into the world. This is when I found that
there really was no difference between the world
and church. I was miserable either way when I was
alone- after all the noise of life died down at the end
of the day. The only difference was, that the church
used scripture to validate the impious judgement
that was passed on me. I couldn’t understand how
such rejection and judgement could come from
people that were supposed to have truth and God.

I never was bitter at God, never shook my fist or

blamed Him for my lousy life. At least I was suc-
ceeding at something. If you would have asked me
during that time if I had a good marriage, I would
have said “yes”; a good marriage meant you were
getting along - right? Isn’t that what we are told? If
you would have asked me if I was loved, I would
have said “yes”; because I had no idea what love
looked like. I was doing what was asked of me; if I
was being who my husband wanted me to be (even
though it was destructive behavior) then I was ac-
cepted. That was ‘love’.

Eventually I got to the tormented bottom pit of my

hell. Something had to change. I didn’t want to live
the life my husband was enjoying so freely. I des-
perately needed God in the center of my life again.
My husband even sent me to a Psychiatrist stating
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that maybe I needed some medication because I
was not as compliant as I used to be. The lady lis-
tened in horror while I unfolded my life story. She
had to break it down for me what abusive behavior
even was! I truly believed I deserved to be treated
the way I was being treated and even justified many
of his actions and other people’s actions! After
grasping what the basics in a healthy relationship
should look like, I finally asked my husband to
choose between doing marriage his way or doing
marriage God’s way. He did not choose me and our
six children, he chose the world. He said he “wasn’t
used to having to use self-control and had no inten-
tion of starting now.”

During the pit of my despair, I turned to the church

for support. (I’m sure you know where this is go-
ing!) The church kicked me out. I was told to leave
because I wasn’t being a good Christian woman
and standing by my man regardless of how he was
treating me. I was leaving him so I could put away
the world and follow after God and for this I get re-
jected?!

My parents tried to make sense of what was hap-

pening, they at least still talked to me. At the lowest
point in my life, my Christian siblings (who I thought
would rejoice that I was free from oppression)
judged me and refused to have any contact with
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me. So why was it that, if I grew up in a Christian
home, attended church most my life, heard count-
less preaching of how God and Jesus love me, and
fully believed what the Bible says is true; that I had
such rejection? Having heard this message my en-
tire life, I should have felt loved and secure. So why
was I judged so hard and rejected by Christians?
Why would Christians not take the message of
God’s love and forgiveness and encourage me?
Aren’t Christians told to share the message of love
and hope? The Bible says that they will know we are
Christians by our love. Remember I was not asking
them to support a worldly lifestyle, but one that
was aligned with the Bible. Not only was I not feel-
ing ‘it’ but I was being scorned by those of the
church more than those of the world. Something is
wrong here…. with the church. Something is miss-
ing… where is the hope?

That is what this book is going to explain to you.

There is hope.

If churches and Christian families truly lived by the

Word of God, then in my moment of need they
would not have been holding stones. I have no
judgment against those that treated me so ugly.
They probably never had a good example in their
life of someone loving them unconditionally. Unless
your eyes have been open to the true message of
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Christ then you cannot give away what you do not
have. If you had the true message of love, then you
would freely be able to give love.

This scenario plays out over and over inside of our

churches and religious families. I have yet to meet
a Christian that could tell me they have never felt
judged or rejected by a church or family. So, if we
are all gathered in one place to follow after one
God, why do we act the exact opposite of how God
wants us to be? Why do we hurt each other so? I
will explain that in this book.

At this point in my story, I trudged forward in life as

a single mom with my six children, this was my
question to God. If I have been passionately follow-
ing you and believe all that you say is true in the Bi-
ble, then why don’t I feel free?

John 8:31-36
“31
So Jesus said to the Jews who had believed
him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly
my disciples, 32 and you will know the truth,
and the truth will set you free.” 33 They an-
swered him, “We are offspring of Abraham
and have never been enslaved to anyone.
How is it that you say, ‘You will become
free”?”

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 34
Jesus answered them, “Truly, truly, I say to
you, everyone who practices sin is a slave to
sin.35 The slave does not remain in the house
forever; the son remains forever. 36 So if the
Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
This is the verse that changed my whole life. If I re-
ally have the truth, why am I not free?!?! In that
verse, it says that the Jews believed Him, but they
still didn’t get the concept of being free. I must con-
clude that I wasn’t the whole truth. That was a hard
pill to swallow. As much as I loved church, God and
believed on His word, I got to the point that- if this
was His salvation plan and this was the best life was
going to get by following after Him; there really
wasn’t any reason to stick around. I will not say that
I was suicidal, because I had my beautiful children
that gave me a reason to live, but I did want to give
up on life. I wasn’t doubting God, but I was begin-
ning to have doubts about the effectiveness of the
salvation plan I learned in church. This plan that I
had been taught all these years and had put all my
trust in.

This is when God started showing me that the mes-

sage the church delivers lacks vital information. I
am not going to state that everything about church
is wrong. I will say that the church stops short of
offering the true message of Christ. I will admit, as
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God was trying to renew my mind, some of it was
hard to grasp at first. I did not want to admit that
there was a possibility that all the time and energy
I had invested in my religion was for nothing. If I
was wrong about some things, what if I was wrong
about all of it! My reality was falling apart around
me! I didn’t want to have to start over!

But as I desperately searched for truth, I found I had

to let go of everything that I knew to be true so that
God could fill me with HIS truths.

Matt 18:3
“And he said: "Truly I tell you, unless you
change and become like little children, you
will never enter the kingdom of heaven.”

To become like a little child... a child has no precon-

ceived notions about life. A child willingly trusts,
willingly follows…It is then that I really started con-
sidering what MY end of the deal was. Yes, God
loves me and yes, He wants to bless me. But what
was my responsibility? I began reflecting on all the
scripture that I knew so well and started consider-
ing them in a new way.

I will explain more about what our responsibility is

in this book.

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 If I was to really examined my life, even at the
height of my devotion of following after God, I
know that I was never really free. I was not free like
the Bible describes I am supposed to be, not if I re-
ally had truth.
As I continued my journey as a single mother, I was
very broken. I was living in a new state, knowing no
one. I knew financially I wasn’t going to be able to
stay single long, but who in the world was going to
marry a woman with six children?! Plus, I had a fos-
ter child at the time, so that made seven all be-
tween the ages of 8 and 13.
I dated a few men, but it was evident that I was very
guarded and very untrusting. Who would really be-
lieve my story anyway? I certainly didn’t want a ew-
peat.
The best option I had was a man I knew from the
last state I had lived in. He was aware of my past
abuse and stated he wanted to give it a try at
providing a stable environment for me and my chil-
dren. He didn’t have the spiritual answers I was
looking for, but he said he would do what he could.
We were soon engaged for a short time and wasted
no time just moving forward to marriage. He took
on a huge responsibility; not only with kids, but with
a very broken woman.

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I guess it was probably good that he was broken
too, or else he might have seen what he was getting
into! He didn’t have much to offer but at least I had
a man that was willing to start new and try to learn
life God’s way.
It was tough in the beginning of our marriage; we
came from very different backgrounds which
proved challenging. However, God was giving me
the Spiritual Renewal process; a process to imple-
ment His salvation plan to help me be free. It wasn’t
the plan that the church teaches, instead one that
brought clarity to the scriptures, it all came from
scripture, not from any other source. In fact, God
had me throw all my books away. He was making
sure that none of my information came from man,
it was only from God. I started experiencing true en-
lightenment. It only happened after I started imple-
menting all that God was showing me, I was able to
see a very evident change like I have never experi-
enced before. It was making a difference emotion-
ally and physically. It also changed how people re-
sponded to me. I was finally starting to feel alive! I
didn’t realize how dead I was until I started to live.
What a huge difference. Unfortunately, the man I
married had too much pride. He was unable to to-
tally let go and give up all his negativeness. After 12
years he did not want to continue the journey with

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me. Since then, he has died in a horrible vehicle ac-
cident. God is serious when He says, “Do not turn
your back on the truth”.
I am so grateful for my first husband for providing
me with six children. I am thankful for my second
husband and the years he gave trying to do the jour-
ney. I learned so much about how things work in re-
lationships because of my experience with him. I
continue on with no earthly husband, God is enjoy-
ing me being accountable to Him, not a husband. I
do have an amazing man that loves me that is on
the journey also. Single doesn’t mean you are not
being loved. He is passionate about being free and
willing to die to himself. God has been so faithful to
provide unbelievable love. So here I am, at Gods
beck-and-call. I have found my pearl of great price
and I have given up everything I had to keep it. It is
worth the cost.
I want to share my pearl of great price with you.

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Chapter 2
The Church is Missing Something

Are you dead? I know you are thinking “Of course

not!” or you wouldn’t be reading this book. That’s
the physical…I don’t want to talk physically, I want
to talk about being alive or dead spiritually.

There is a lot of talk about death in the New Testa-

ment scriptures, so I want to clarify some verbiage
used in the Bible. Usually in the New Testament,
when it refers to someone being dead, it is talking
about spiritually dead. Example:
Luke 9:60
“Jesus said to him, "Let the dead bury their
own dead, but you go and proclaim the king-
dom of God."

He is not suggesting that deceased people are walk-

ing around burying other deceased people. Here he
is referring to the spiritually dead people.
Important: A key concept to continually have in the
forefront of your mind as you read this book is that
ultimately God is concerned about the condition of
your spirit, because He is Spirit. So much of what is
written in the Bible is referring to your Spiritual con-
dition or status. Not the physical. They were more
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aware of this concept back during Jesus’ time; it
was more understood in that culture.
In fact, there are many things that are written in the
Bible that you cannot understand unless you con-
sider the culture it was written, but I will touch
more on that topic later.
We may not even realize that we are spiritually
dead. I can tell you that there was a time that I
would have insisted that I was alive in Christ, Jesus
saves, I believe in him and I am going to Heaven!!
Don’t you dare tell me I am not! I am NOT like those
people of the world!

I was so arrogant in my ignorance. I had no idea

what I was missing. When God says there is life af-
ter death, He is talking about your spiritual condi-
tion while you are still here on earth. Remember
God is only Spirit. People tend to want their rela-
tionship with God to be on the physical plane (show
God love by what you do), but this cannot be. God
just uses our physical to get our attention spiritu-
ally. It is who we are within that He is concerned
about. When we are who we are supposed to be
then what we do will be pleasing to God.

Most people know that they are not being who they
are supposed to be. Deep down they know that
there is more out there, but they don’t know how
to get ‘it’ and they don’t know what ‘it’ is. They

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don’t want to continually be called or consider
themselves failures, but they continue to feel as if
they don’t measure up. They call where they are at
‘good’. This is as good as it gets. Their argument is,
we are only human, right? There they find comfort
in the panic. Most people have no idea that there is
so much more!

I had to be willing to lay down my life; my belief

system that I clung to for so long. When that hap-
pened, then I started to experience freedom like I
had NEVER had before! I wasn’t driven to do things
I didn’t want to do, I didn’t have to use a lot of self-
control to act right and the voices in my head
started to go away!!! I didn’t know this feeling was
possible!!

As I continued my journey, I realized I was getting

a different response from the world around me. I
started to see things more clearly. I was experienc-
ing a mind free from any distractions. No mulling
over past conversations, over and over… ”I should
have said_____ or shouldn’t have said______.”;
worrying over what will they think of me.

Am I good enough?
That was so stupid.
Why did I do that?
I will never be understood.
I will never get it right.
It is all my fault.

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No one cares.
I am a failure.
I will never fit in.
This will never work.
Bad always happens to me.

I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture.

Can you imagine not having any of those
thoughts?? I used to have those thoughts, I no
longer do. I can finally say that I am free!! Oh! So,
this is what God was talking about? It didn’t happen
overnight, it was a process, a journey that I went on
with God. Just how He likes it.

Romans 6:13
“13
Neither present your members as instru-
ments of unrighteousness unto sin but pre-
sent yourselves unto God as those that are
alive from the dead and your members as in-
struments of righteousness unto God.”

Finally, as I followed Jesus’ example, I started to be

transformed into a being that God could really hang
out with!! More about that in the chapters to come.

1 John 1:5-8
“This is the message we have heard from him
and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in
him is no darkness at all. 6 If we say we have
fellowship with him while we walk in dark-
ness, we lie and do not practice the

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 truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in
the light, we have fellowship with one an-
other, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses
us from all sin. 8 If we say we have no sin, we
deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.”

Walking in the light is walking with enlightenment.

God is Light. For some Christians that sounds a little
‘new age-y’. Then again, I know that there are A LOT
of Godly concepts that the Western World believers
label evil because they don’t understand them.

They are confused because the message that God

intended for mankind to understand and live by is
not being taught. Christians have blindly accepted
whatever version or interpretation of God’s Word
that was given to them. Here’s a quick example: be-
lieving that God would actually forsake Jesus on the
cross. The original text reads “My God who doesn’t
forsake” not “My God, why has thou forsaken me?”
That statement that is presented in the Canon Bible
never made sense to me. Why would the God who
says, “I will never leave or forsake you”, turn His
back on someone that is clearly depending on Him?
But it is widely accepted that God would do that!
He wouldn’t and He can’t! Do your research, there
are many other examples like this.

There are many in the church that say that you can-
not call God and the Universe one and the same…

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this is ignorance that we can’t call God the Uni-
verse. He is! He is in everything! Many, many times
throughout scripture it says that God is light... light
is energy… energy is in everything and this is the
definition of the Universe, everything around us…so
God is the Universe! Much like you say that a pic-
ture of you is you or a reflection in a mirror. The re-
ality is that your flesh is not really you but a combi-
nation of your mom and dad. What makes you is
the blending of that flesh with God’s Spirit. You are
never just ‘you’ until you are released as spirit after
your flesh (that you got from your parents) is gone.
Truly the only thing that is you is your spirit. If you
really want to get technical, your parents are just
the DNA of their parents and so on until you go back
to the creation of mankind which was made in the
image of God. This flesh that you walk around in is
just a borrowed vessel in order to grow the real you,
your spirit. Just as you create your surroundings in
this world which continues to further define you,
He created His surroundings to define who He is.

Yes, we are going to go there.

When I speak of God, I have the understanding that

He is in everything and makes up everything and He
cannot be separated out. Not even for clarity. Some
people want to say that referring to events and hap-
penings around us as ‘the universe is responding to
us’ is sacrilegious…I don’t really care what name
you give it. He is still in everything. It is still Him!
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When I limited my thinking just to please others
narrow-mindedness, I missed out. If I am not free to
say what God is showing me just because it has
never been revealed before; then I am trying to
please man and take on a likeness of someone
else’s take on God that has been failing. It would be
out of fear that I avoid words like transcendence or
universe just because the church doesn’t use it.
These are concepts that the church has tainted, I
don’t live in fear. What if my words allow a non-be-
liever to consider God because it doesn’t sound so
staunch and limited? In the end, God just wants my
openness; I don’t limit the work He does in me by
inserting my own fleshly opinion, therefore He is
only truly able to work when I am open-minded.
Much like how we mold our own children.

I would challenge you to explore this topic on your

own. I will mostly refer to the Canon Bible to clarify
the misunderstood Christian concepts; though the
Canon Bible is incomplete. Men took out many im-
portant books to reduce the power of the common
man. Those running the church wanted to control
the masses.

If you claim to be an atheist, then you contradict

yourself. The mere fact that you say you don’t be-
lieve in God is acknowledging that there is a God to
not believe in, therefore, you agree there is a God.
It would be more correct to say that you choose to

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ignore God. If you mean to say that you choose in-
stead to believe that this world is governed by en-
ergy instead of a God, then you don’t understand
Science. Because all energy has personality and
characteristics. Why not give this energy a name? In
the beginning, the Israelites left God’s name pure
by just expelling a breath when referring to Him.
This is where the word Yahweh came from. Call this
life-giving powerful source the Great Spirit, Mother
Nature (the female essence, nurturing side of this
energy) Allah, Higher Power or any other name;
they are all pointing to the same source. I call Him,
God.

As one who loves God, you owe it to your own spir-

itual well-being to at least relax for a moment and
ponder. If a pastor is telling you to only read from
the Canon Bible and everything else would be delv-
ing into evil things, then they do not understand
who God is. Truth is truth, and it wouldn’t matter
who said it, it is still truth, and truth comes from
God. You should be suspicious of any group that
tells you to only read their literature; especially if
that literature has been tainted. Do your research
on the amount of mistranslations and misinterpre-
tations of idioms in the Canon Bible. It will astound
you. That doesn’t mean ignore the Bible, by no
means! I use it daily to talk with God. The Bible was
specifically written to encourage those that are on
their journey and follow all the rules. It was written

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for a select group of people. Too many people say
they belong to that group but insist on acting con-
trary to what that group teaches. The Bible then
only condemns them, but they do not see it.

Truth can be found in the Laws of the Universe. The

Bible is just giving examples of how those Laws look
when applied to life. Truth can be found every-
where, find truth whenever you can. God is not
wanting us to be narrow-minded. Mankind did a
dis-service to itself when they removed many books
considered scripture and other ancient writings out
of the mainstream. The Canon Bible is full of refer-
ences to these removed books which Jesus Himself
quoted from. They should not have been removed.
The message is clearer when you can read all of the
inspired writings. If God’s word is true, then it
should be evident in all writings. These books that
have been taken out of the Word of God is called
the Apocrypha, Lost Books and Ancient Texts and
many more. Do you know them? Have you heard of
them? Do your research. Find out why they were
removed. You can see how men were trying to use
the Word of God to control mankind. These ancient
writings that were removed contain more truth.

Can you recognize truth? Even if truth comes by

learning or discovering it through a Toltec wisdom
book or the Qur’an. If a person finds relief from
their suffering or is inspired to love God more from
one of these books, then how are you going to say
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that is not from God? Read and discover the won-
ders of God! What are you afraid of? Have we not
power over darkness? As you start your journey, if
a book uses a ‘scary’ word like enlightenment or
mystic, break free from bondage thinking and get to
the meaning. (Which, by the way early Christians
were called mystics and used the word enlighten-
ment often. Maybe you should try it).

So many people miss out on learning about the

truths that God wants us to embrace because they
refuse to read outside the strict lines the church has
deemed worthy. There was a movie a few years
back that addressed a few Natural Laws of the Uni-
verse and many Christians refused to watch it. They
missed out on learning some amazing realizations
about the world around them because it wasn’t
ONLY Bible based. You only deny yourself wisdom!
The Bible is the plumb line, so hold everything that
you read to that.

You would have to know what God’s will is first in

order to determine whether it is ‘keep’ worthy. Dig
in, embrace life, how else are you supposed to grow
in wisdom? Why limit Him.

I am going to hit on this topic of censorship a little

more. Many Christians say that you should only
read Christian authors. If there are such high re-
quirements of the author that need to be met to
read God’s truths, then you probably shouldn’t read

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the Bible. Think about the last part of Solomon’s
life. Ya, he would have been kicked out of most
churches and stripped of any good reputation he
had gained over the years. Jonah was pretty much
an example of what sort of attitude you should NOT
have toward God, but God used him. Hosea was
told to marry a prostitute, why are we reading his
stuff? Ezekiel did things like use a dung pile for a pil-
low and crawled out of his house by way of a hole
he dug in the corner. The church would have had
him locked away. Abraham lied to a king and told
his wife to go along with the lie. Who are these peo-
ple!?

They are people like you and I who have made have
struggled with getting it right, but mostly, they
were following after God in a way that the world
doesn’t understand. If we can read their literature
and learn, why not acknowledge that God can use
anyone or anything? If we are learning His truths
and the results from these truths are positive then
it is of God, don’t limit God.

Remember that the church system we know today

is not based on the teachings of Jesus but on the
entrepreneur ambitions of Paul who had just left a
life of strict regimen that Jesus was so against.
When he got the message of Christ, though he em-
braced it whole-heartedly, he quickly set up more
rules and regulations to control the quiet commu-
nal life that Jesus introduced to his early disciples.
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He insisted on blending his past life with his new-
found freedom that it has enslaved generations to
follow. A big clue that something wasn’t quite right
was the dissention between Paul and the other dis-
ciples. You should question the integrity of the pre-
senters if they both claim to believe the same thing
but yet, are not getting along. Much like our differ-
ent denominations today. Jesus had said that Peter
was supposed to be the cornerstone which the
church was built on, yet everything within the
church today is run according to Paul. Red flag.
Christians became more focused on implementing
the rules that Paul introduced than the peace, love,
and forgiveness that Jesus lived by.

Even Paul preached that in this new life you can be

free from sin and be perfect. Yet, churches preach
that we will never be free of sin until we die a phys-
ical death. That we are human and so we will always
sin, but then somehow ALL our sins were nailed to
the cross and that is it, even the sins we haven’t
committed! They preach that we are forgiven, that
we don’t have to do anything more, Jesus did it all,
no worries, halleluiah we are free. But the best life
we can expect is to always sin and to always have
to ask forgiveness. This is simply not true. This
doesn’t make sense, either you are free from your
sin or you are not.

I see it like this. If you fall off the side of a boat, you
would want someone to save you. Someone finally
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grabs a life preserver and throws it into the water.
They start to pull you closer to the boat, but right
before you get to the side they say, “You’re good.”.
But you insist that you are not technically saved un-
til you are completely out of the water. They explain
that you are saved, they threw you a life preserver,
you should just be happy with that. That is not the
kind of ‘saved” I want to be. I want to be completely
out of the water, I want to be completely saved
from my sin. That would mean I no longer sin.

I am not sure why churches these days concentrate

on the message: that we are sinners, we will never
be good enough, we fall short, we are wretched
people, we are condemned, we are weak, we sin all
the time, we are flesh and will never be perfect.
Many people rest in that, they think it can’t get any
better, so this is what I am stuck with. This is
preached to the people that are supposed to have
known or already found Christ! It is written plain as
day in the Canon Bible that perfection in life should
be our goal. That’s a major concept that is vital to a
healthy walk with God…How do we miss it? I know,
I missed it too when I was in church. I just assumed
that the pastor knew the Bible more than me, so I
just accepted it. Plus, it made me feel better about
my negative existence, since they didn’t really have
the answer on how to accomplish not sinning. It has
worked for all involved for so long, permission to

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live life mediocre without the pressure of perfec-
tion, that we began to accept it as truth. While be-
ing a sinner is a true condition as you begin to learn
the teachings of Christ, but it is not the end result
once you begin to know God and live as Christ. Why
else would Christ say “be ye perfect as I am per-
fect”.

Let’s take a moment and define perfection. I want

to make sure that we are on the same page. Perfec-
tion means without blemish, like what was required
for a sacrifice; “a lamb without blemish”. Basically,
it is saying that there is no negativeness. If you have
joy in all circumstances and peace that passes un-
derstanding, then you have no negative feeling
within. It doesn’t mean you don’t make mistakes, it
just means that when you make a mistake there is
no condemnation, you understand it is what it is
and you move on, you don’t dwell, regret or con-
clude anything negative. You just correct your be-
havior, learn and move on. It was just a moment
and you trust and believe that God will work every-
thing for His good. That is perfection people! It is a
spiritual condition of positiveness not a physical
achievement.

The best analogy is a diamond. A piece of black coal

is put under extreme pressure and a diamond is
formed inside the piece of coal from that pressure.
Then a gem cutter cuts away the coal to reveal the
diamond inside. That diamond is perfect. It didn’t
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even look like it existed when looking at the lump
of coal, but it is in there. It took time to chip away
the black part to reveal the gem inside. Once the
diamond is shaped exactly how the gem cutter
wants it; he then gives it a purpose. A ring or put in
a tool to cut other diamonds. That diamond may
drop in the mud, but it doesn’t change the perfec-
tion. The outside is easily washed off and it can
shine again. This is exactly the process that God
wants each of us to go through. Yes, when we get
rid of ALL our negativeness (our coal-ness), then
what is left is only positive; which is God in us. We
may be dropped in the mud in life but once you are
free, that doesn’t change you back to negative, you
merely wipe off what might have distracted you for
a moment and carry on being positive.
At this point a Christian might say, “but we are hu-
man, and we will always sin and that’s why we need
Jesus, to forgive our sin”. How long are you going to
claim you are free from sin when you continually
sin. It says in the Bible that you are fooling yourself.
To that I say, if you REALLY have what it is that God
is offering, then you will not sin. You may be
tempted, that is not a sin, but to act on that temp-
tation is sinning. Then you have accomplished the
directive to live as Christ. We are not doomed to live
in sin for the rest of our lives. This is not the mes-
sage that is in the Bible. Remember as you read this

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next verse, dead here is talking about being spiritu-
ally dead. God says that He will always provide a
way out, if you still act on the temptation, then you
did not choose God.

Romans 6:1-25
“1
What shall we say then? Shall we con-
tinue in sin that grace may abound? 2 No, in
no wise. How shall we that are dead to sin
live any longer therein? 3 Know ye not that
all of us that are baptized into Jesus the
Christ are baptized into his death? 4 For we
are buried with him by baptism into death,
that just as the Christ was raised up from
the dead to the glory of the Father, likewise
we also walk in newness of life. 5 For if we
have been planted together in him in the
likeness of his death, we shall be also in the
likeness of his resurrection, 6 knowing this:
that our old man is crucified with him that
the body of sin might be destroyed that we
should not serve sin any longer. 7 For he that
is dead is justified from sin. 8 Now if we die
with the Christ, we believe that we shall also
live with him, 9 knowing that the Christ, hav-
ing been raised from the dead, dies no
more; death has no more dominion over
him. 10 For he that is dead died unto sin
once, and he that lives, lives unto God.
11
Likewise also reckon yourselves to be truly

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dead unto sin, but alive unto God in Christ,
Jesus, our Lord. 12 Therefore do not let sin
reign in your mortal body that ye should
13
obey it in the lusts thereof. Neither
present your members as instruments of un-
righteousness unto sin but present your-
selves unto to God as those that are alive
from the dead and members as instruments
of righteousness unto God. 14 So that sin
shall have no dominion over you; for ye are
not under the law, but under grace. 15 What
then? shall we sin because we are not under
the law, but under grace? No, in no wise.
16
Or know ye not that to whom ye present
yourselves slaves to obey, his slaves ye are
to whom ye obey, whether of sin unto death
or of the obedience unto righteousness?”
“17
Thank God that, although ye were the
slaves of sin, ye have obeyed from the heart
that form of doctrine unto which ye are de-
livered; 18 and freed from sin, ye are become
the slaves of righteousness. 19 I speak a hu-
man thing because of the weakness of our
flesh: that as ye presented your members to
serve uncleanness and iniquity unto iniquity,
likewise now, present your members to serve
righteousness unto holiness. 20 For being pre-
viously the slaves of sin, now ye have been
made the slaves of righteousness. 21 What

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 fruit had ye then in those things of which ye
are now ashamed? for the end of those
things is death. 22 But now freed from sin and
made slaves to God, ye have as your fruit
sanctification and as the end, everlasting
life.23 For the wages of sin is death, but the
grace of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our
Lord.”

In this scripture alone, it is very clear that we are

expected (once we found the truth) to not sin any
longer. To walk in the light. If God is all light and
flesh is all darkness, our journey should be about
moving from darkness to light. The problem is peo-
ple stay in-between and this is the worst place to
be. That is why many Christians are the most con-
fused group of people. They know they came from
darkness, they know about the light, but they don’t
know how to get from here to there. The church has
all the right grammar, but not the right interpreta-
tion.
Remember I am coming from experience. I was sold
out on the church’s message, but never received
true freedom. It is like having a full buffet before
you and only going to the salad bar. It is great and
tastes good, but it is not the ‘meat and potatoes’
that can fill you to full. A Christian can say that they
have God’s peace, but if that is the case, they
should never have negative emotion. Let’s consider
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experience conflict or challenges of life, they find
themselves wore out and overwhelmed from trying
to be what it is they are supposed to be. Instead
they experience the “I ate, I should have the
strength, but all I ate was a small salad”. The spir-
itual nourishment they chose was not enough. They
buckle under the weight of life because they are not
partaking of the whole message.
The Bible says that God is working out our perfec-
tion. Going back to the way the church preaches, if
the best thing we have to look forward to in a rela-
tionship with the Creator of the Universe is to al-
ways be reminded of how awful we are? Why?!
That doesn’t sound like a satisfying life! The Law of
Relativity is the only reason why the Bible talks
about us being sinners. Not to make us feel bad
about ourselves, but to let us know where we are
at so we can be encouraged to do what it takes in
order to have perfect fellowship with God on this
earth.
The best that the church can offer is to pray, lean
on Jesus, trust in God…but what does that really
mean and how do I do that. They repeat catch
phrases with no example, then meanwhile… “give
us your money and your time to make this place
look great”. What we don’t realize is if we had the
real answer, we wouldn’t have to ‘try’ so hard at it,
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‘what ifs’ but of witnessing many people accom-
plish this condition. If Church would offer the actual
message that Jesus was trying to preach, then there
would be more free people out there. But the
church has missed some major concepts. If the
church really had the answers, they would be
pumping out a different product. You may think
that what you have in church is the best it gets, I am
telling you it is not. When you have the full truth,
the results are different. I know because those that
have embraced the truths that God has revealed to
me have accomplished just that. We live in a com-
munity where there is no strife and we have learned
how to implement Christ every moment of every
day. There is no faking, it is a safe environment to
be real, to share one another’s burdens (which are
few and far between) and express love for all in a
healthy manner. We are of one mind and God is
among us as we party, we laugh, we live fully, we
enjoy life and we encourage each other to continue
in perfection. We have completely given up the illu-
sions of the world around us and have received
back from God way more than what we gave up!!
We have accomplished in this life everything that
God said in His word we could. It is amazing!!
There is an excellent similitude to five an example
of where the church is now with the Christ topic.
Note the parallelisms in the story of John the Bap-
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 today’s religious groups. It was well known that
John lived in the wilderness and that he denied him-
self all the luxuries of this world. It says he ate locust
and honey! Yuck! (Actually, every beetle on the
earth is eatable, just thought I would throw that in
there). Like John, this is where the church and its
members are currently. The church is about what
you shouldn’t do. Don’t drink, don’t smoke, don’t
divorce. etc. The church encourages suffering and
denial, to keep you out in the wilderness. And the
church wants to take on the full obligation of intro-
ducing Christ into the world. Like John, the Church’s
main goal is to introduce Christ to others. Yet while
John was in prison, he sent word to Jesus asking if
he was the ‘One” or if he should be looking for an-
other?

Matthew 11:3
“When John the Baptist heard in prison of the
works of Christ, he sent his disciples to Jesus
with this question, “Are you the one who is to
come, or should we look for another?”

Don’t you think that it is weird that the man gave

up his whole life to the coming Christ and then, in
the end, missed HIM? John led a strict life; shared
the message of how Christ was going to come soon
and had a whole bunch of disciples. This sounds ex-
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who Christ really was! Why, when it was revealed
at Jesus’ baptism that He was the Son of God, did
John not drop everything and follow Jesus??!! Did
he not recognize truth when it was right there in
front of him? He met Jesus but, yet, he didn’t
change what he was doing. He kept on plugging
along with his own disciples sharing what? Exactly
what was he preaching after that baptism? That
Christ is going to be coming? The Pharisees said that
John had a demon. (They didn’t get it either.)

In contrast…

Jesus comes along and disrupts all the order that

the religious leaders have established. Here is this
lone wolf that is presenting something opposite of
how they were implementing the Law of Moses.
Keep in mind, these are the Laws that God gave Mo-
ses…from God….and now Jesus is saying there is a
new spin. Jesus was saying, now, I want you to live
above the Law. Jesus was accused of being of the
devil himself because it seemed that he was going
against God. But actually, he was going against the
religious leaders added rules they included to keep
the people down.

Think about it, Jesus had to go recruit his own team.

It is not as though they were seeking him out in the

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beginning, he had to go find them. As Jesus is mov-
ing about, he is free to enjoy life, receiving every-
one, tolerating the religious leaders, hanging with
questionable characters, turning water into wine…
and guess what, the religious leaders still aren’t
happy and say he serves Satan!

Sounds like either way you look at it, religious lead-

ers aren’t going to be happy with anything that dis-
rupts their empty rituals. Remember Jesus aligned
himself with the basic beliefs of the religious lead-
ers concerning the existence of God, he just didn’t
like all the rules, requirements and regulations they
were implementing that weighed people down and
made them feel like failures. He challenged them on
which God they were serving; God or god (them-
selves).

Matthew 11:16-19
16
“To what should I compare this genera-
tion? It’s like children sitting in the market-
places who call out to each other: 17 We
played the flute for you, but you didn’t
dance; we sang a lament, but you didn’t
mourn! 18 For John did not come eating or
drinking, and they say, ‘He has a demon!’

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 19
The Son of Man came eating and drinking,
and they say, ‘Look, a glutton and a drunk-
ard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners!’
Yet wisdom is vindicated by her deeds.”
The last verse is saying that you will be able to tell
who is right by the fruit of their actions. Truth will
always win out. Jesus won out, he proved himself,
and John was destroyed for lack of knowing.
Hosea 4:6
“My people are destroyed for lack of
knowledge. Because you have rejected
knowledge, I will reject you from serving as
my priest. Since you have forgotten the law
of your God, I will also forget your sons.”

This is my suggestion. Pursue knowledge. God says

that the ‘Mysteries of God’ and the ‘Mysteries of
Christ’ will be revealed, that scales will fall from
your eyes. God is not a God of confusion and there
are many things the church is preaching that is
very confusing. Start searching for knowledge. One
of the biggest indicators that the church is lost and
harboring lost people is all the judging that takes
place. In my experience the resonation within a
small-town bar can be more satisfying and less
painful than attending a small-town church where
there is judging. That judging comes from not un-
derstanding how the world is set up. If you under-
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by what it is you do and don’t do. It says so in the
Bible.
I have attended many small-town churchs: What
are you wearing? When was the last time you
came? Who are you with or not with? Are you ad-
hering to the rules and traditions established? I
used to tend bar while married to my first husband.
They don’t care what you are drinking, they don’t
care what brand you’re smoking, and if it has been
a while, they rally and buy a round to celebrate that
at least you are here tonight. They don’t have to
work so hard at “getting along”. In God’s eyes, this
bar ‘gets it’ more than this church; unfortunately,
both are lost.
If your life doesn’t line up with scripture: that you
have joy in ALL circumstances, peace at ALL time,
and you do NOT judge (or think any negativity to-
wards anyone); if this does not describe you, then
you are missing something, and God wants you to
have so much more! I have found it, I can help you
find it too!

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Chapter 3
Misinterpretations

There are many things, as I said before, that are be-

ing taught from the Bible that are not interpreted
accurately. It states in the Bible that there are many
mysteries to be discovered. The mystery of God, the
mystery of Christ and the mystery of the gospel.
It is also important to note here that when reading
the Bible, there are three interpretations. One re-
fers to first what is going on within your mind, the
next, your environment and third, the world. I will
cover one and two. If you can’t get those two
straight you cannot understand the third. The
church spends a lot of time on the third without ad-
dressing the requirement that one and two need to
be complete before the third can be interpreted
correctly.
It was God’s purpose to not reveal the whole truth
until the last days. In the end, the removal of im-
portant books of the Bible worked out in God’s fa-
vor, God knew man would show his carnal nature
and remove these significant writings. God was not
surprised. If you are striving to be a good person
(regardless of your religion), God already knows
that you have been trying your best with what you
have been given. Now is the time to reveal to the
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to receive it or reject it. I did not start my life out
with the idea that I would change the world or that
God would use me in such a powerful way. I was
just eager to find truth because I was real enough
to say what I have been offered by the church may
have headed me in the right direction, but I knew
there must be more.
As I started on my journey, diligently seeking, God
showed these mysteries to me and it has allowed
me insight to scripture that I have never known be-
fore. I have mentioned a few already, but in this
chapter, I will reveal more of what God has shown
me. The best place to start is in the beginning, so
that is what I will do.
The very first verse in the Bible gives us a clue that
there are code words to be figured out. The verse
reads “In the beginning God created the heavens
and the earth and the earth was without form.” So
obviously, the ‘earth’ that He created wasn’t the
terracotta planet that we live on, because it was
without form. That was CODE that stated God cre-
ated Polarity so that all things could exist. Heaven
being the positive and earth being the negative.
This is the first example of a misinterpretation or
not understanding the idiom.
It also says that “In the beginning was God
and void”. Something had to happen to have God
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if we look around in nature, we can know Him. No-
where in the world around us are males procreating
by themselves. So why we say that God created the
world Himself? This doesn’t align with how God set
everything in motion.

Genesis 1:26
"Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our
image, in our likeness…"

The implementing of the statement “in our image“

resulted in two separate beings; a male and a fe-
male. Who would the female be crafted after? Wis-
dom is talked about in the Bible as 'she' (reference
Proverbs), so Wisdom inspired God (read the an-
cient book Baruch chapter 3). God and Wisdom
joined forces (they became one) and started creat-
ing.
The ‘us’ is Energy and Wisdom. It had to be male
and female, because that is what it takes to make.
We need to rethink God. Surprise God is made up
of male and female essence!
I can give you a Scientific explanation on what hap-
pened. Nature reflects God. He created everything
as a symbol of His character. Since this is true, I will
show you how even the tiniest atom proves the be-
ginning of God. Nothing is by accident. Everything
in life is according to a blueprint. I will refresh your
memory about the scientific side of things.

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 Hydrogen atom

nucleus

electron
neutron

proton

Every atom is composed of a nucleus and one

or more electrons that are bound to the
nucleus (which revolve around the nucleus)
The nucleus is made of one or more protons
and typically a similar number of neutrons
The number of protons in the nucleus defines
to what chemical element the atom belongs
The number of electrons influences the mag-
netic properties of an atom
The basic role of a neutron is to keep the
protons binded inside the nucleus

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 The electrons of an atom are attracted to the
protons in an atomic nucleus by an electro-
magnetic force

The protons and neutrons in the nucleus are

attracted to each other by a different force,
the nuclear force

Nuclear force is usually stronger than the

electromagnetic force thus repelling the
positively charged protons from one another
atom

More than 99.94% of an atom’s mass is in the

nucleus

Decreased interaction with the nucleus is

the principal reason why electrons, further
from the nucleus, are higher in energy

Who WAS God before Wisdom came along?

Atom

Hydrogen is a chemical element with the atomic

number 1. With just one proton and one electron,
it is the most common element, making up 75% of
the mass of the entire universe.

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 I will represent Him with this symbol

Infinity: a number greater than any assignable

quantity or countable number
A proton has positive charge of 1, that is,
equal but opposite to the charge of an electron

The electron is a subatomic particle,

whose electric charge is negative one

Who is Wisdom?
neutron

I will use this symbol

to represent Wisdom

A neutron occurs when a positive particle and

negative particle collide, they cancel out each
other’s forces and become neutral... that is a
neutron.

A neutron, like the name implies, is neutral with

no net charge

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 The infinity sign that has one larger side is called
Infinitesimal. In mathematics this means an indefi-
nitely small quantity; a value approaching zero.
The antineutrino is an elementary subatomic par-
ticle with infinitesimal mass and with no electric
charge
A free neutron is unstable, decaying to a proton,
electron and antineutrino with a mean lifetime of
just under 15 minutes This radioactive decay,
known as beta decay, is possible because the mass
of the neutron is slightly greater than the proton.
The free proton is stable.
Understand that I am giving you a quick overview
of a very complex process. I am referencing Basic
Science, so for all of you who are actual scientists, I
am aware there is much more detail I could add. I
am trying to make it as simple and clear as I can.
You may ask “What does all this Science have to
do with God?”
I am so glad you asked! The reality is that Science
and God are one in the same. It might be more ac-
curate to use Science as a verb. It is the act of no-
ticing, figuring out, exploring and discovering God.
He is everything in existence. We are all made of
the same thing, we are just configured differently.
We are all connected, we are from God.

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This is the story of our Creator; He was just an
atom of energy. Wisdom (who is not energy) came
along and saw His potential.

electromagnetic force
But before she would join with Him, He had to get
rid of His Negativeness. He chose to separate His
negativeness and become an ION.
nuclear

ION

Hydrogen ion: the nucleus of a hydrogen atom

separated from its accompanying electron

This is the Energy and

best way to Wisdom
represent become One
God

A positively charged hydrogen ion (or proton)

can readily combine with other particles and
therefore is only seen isolated when it is in a gas-
eous state or a nearly particle-free space.
This is the atmosphere necessary for the
beginning of creation.
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In order for this concept to be true, it must be true
across the board, so let’s plug in some other words
to see if it works. Since we are talking about a rela-
tionship, here is the code table:

Atom= existence
Neutron= Wisdom
Electron= male
Proton= female
Nucleus= relationship
Nuclear force= love
Electromagnetic force= attraction

Hydrogen atom
existence
nucleus
relationship

electron
male
neutron
Wisdom

proton
female

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Every existence is composed of a relation-
ship and one or more male that are bound
to the relationship (which revolves around
the relationship)
The relationship is made of one or more fe-
male and typically a similar number of Wisdom
The number of female in the relationship de-
fines to what chemical element the existence
belongs
The number of male influences the magnetic
properties of a relationship
The basic role of wisdom is to keep the female
bonded inside the relationship
The male of an existence are drawn to the fe-
male in an atomic relationship by a different
force, attraction
The female and Wisdom in the relationship
are attracted to each other by a force, love
Love is usually stronger than the attraction
repelling the positively charged female from
one another existence
More than 99.94% of an existence
mass is in the relationship
Decreased interaction with the relation-
ship is the principal reason why male, further
from the relationship, are higher in energy.

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At this point, we can already see why relationships
haven’t been working, we haven’t been doing it the
way God did it.
I am aware of the grammatical infractions in the
previous list; I was more interested in keeping the
integrity of the code words to stress my point. Also,
before you start thinking I am promoting polygamy,
the idea of multiple males and females merely re-
fers to the possessions that come along with each
male or female. The husband and all his toys… cars,
boats, movies, sport teams...he comes as a package
deal. Same with the female. The point is, this is ex-
actly what happens in a basic relationship. That is
because we were made in God’s image, they did it,
so should we.
Now, back to their story.
Much like a blueprint, She gave this energy pur-
pose. Our world was created when Wisdom pene-
trated Energy. Energy chose to apply what Wisdom
had given Him towards creating. The union of the
male (Energy) and the female (Wisdom) is how the
fullness of God came into being. He made His crea-
tion to reflect Him, so the only logical conclusion is
His own existence includes male and female. He
made the rules and He must follow His own rules.
This does not take away from the awesomeness of
who God is, it actually expands who God is because
it is a perfect blend of male and female into one be-
ing. What a great example we now have to follow.
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Technically, when I refer to God, I should say They.
But to avoid confusion, I will continue to refer to
Them as He or Him. In ancient text, it was common
to use ‘he’ to describe either male or female. There
was also the problem of transcribers ‘correcting a
typo’ and replacing she with he so scripture would
line up with their personal theology.
Back to the story. Just like any other couple, once
they set up a place to inhabit, they started consid-
ering offspring, so He created a blueprint for life.
God wants to create a mini-me; Adam. He wanted
to ‘hook-his-boy-up’, so they created a paradise for
him to live in and it states that Adam helped take
care of the garden.
At this point, we need to establish some facts.
Adam and Eve were black. I know, I know…just hold
on, let me prove my case. First off, if you did a DNA
test of every person in the world, everyone would
have at least 1% African in them.

Secondly, what sort of God would put a white man

running around naked in the middle Ethiopia?? He
would definitely need sunscreen!

Thirdly, if you take two white people, they have a

baby…it is white. Do it again…white etc. but if you
have two black people and they have a baby, the
shades are endless. Hence all the different shades
of people on this earth.

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Here is another. the African race's bodies are cre-
ated athletic and more resilient than other races.
This is why there are so many black athletes. Have
you ever noticed the skin of someone of African de-
scent? Their skin, especially on a healthy women's
face, is flawless, you can't even see the pores! And
there isn't much maintenance needed for body care
(olive oil can take care of all their needs), especially
their hair in its natural state. Convinced yet?

Another, the Law of Polarity will prove my point.

Remember that there are opposite extremes to
everything, so since God is Spirit and flesh is the op-
posite of Spirit; Man is Gods polarity. Since God is
light and light is white, man would have to be black
(linier reasoning).

The last one I have, and this is probably my favorite;

it is the artistic creator factor. Being an artist my-
self, if I was going to create a being, I would want to
do everything big! Since God is incomparably more
amazing than me as an artist, consider that He is go-
ing to go all out…Big lips, Big boobs, big butts and
big penises!! Do I have to say more?

If you still are not convinced, then do your research

how the early Catholic Church hired painters of the
day to paint Adam, Eve, Moses, David etc. as white

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people. What if the masses found out that the Cho-
sen People of Israel were black? They felt it might
diminish the churches power. Careful, if black peo-
ple have pride because they truly were the Chosen
People, this would be misplaced because we all
have read about the behavior and tendencies of the
Children of Israel with their complaining and rebel-
lion. There is a balance of clarity and humility that
should take place with this new knowledge.

Enlightenment does not bring resentment but un-

derstanding to our current condition. Remember
that it says that in the Last Days “the last shall be
first and the first shall be last”. This would explain
the struggle that the black race has in our present
age, the feeling that they are last. In the grand
scheme of things, they already had centuries of be-
ing God’s chosen and blessed race. Now God has
moved on from the physical heritage being criteria
for being the chosen race to the spiritual condition
of the person that causes one to be chosen. If a
black person’s spirit is aligned with God, they too
can be chosen. This is not a racial topic. ‘God’s Cho-
sen’ now reflects a spiritual condition. But the fact
still remains, that the black person’s past was ma-
nipulated and concealed by the church much like
the woman’s position. I just wanted to expose the
church. What other manipulations have we will-
ingly accepted as truth that was merely a concept
implemented by man for personal gain and power?

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Again consider… if you had been taught all this time
that Adam and Eve were white…what else is there
that you were taught that is wrong?

Now, back to the beginning of man.

When God created Adam, He said to Adam, do not

eat from the Tree of Knowledge. We all agree that
this was the conversation between Adam and God
and no other creature, right? Just wanted to estab-
lish that agreement now (it’s for later...)

Genesis 2:16-17
“16
And the LORD God commanded the man,
“You are free to eat from any tree in the gar-
den; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of
the knowledge of good and evil, for when you
eat from it you will certainly die.”

Notice at this moment Eve isn't even created yet.

This was only commanded to Adam. Then it was
said.

Genesis 2:18-20
“18
The LORD God said, “It is not good for the
man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable
for him.” 19Now the LORD God had formed
out of the ground all the wild animals and all
the birds in the sky. He brought them to the

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 man to see what he would name them; and
whatever the man called each living crea-
ture, that was its name.“

Note that God noticed that Adam shouldn't be

alone. When I ask people what they think happened
next, everyone says that God created Eve. But this
is not so. God created the animals! It states that
Adam was already cultivating the garden, so what
did Adam need help with? Now, what I am about to
propose is quite challenging, but once it is all laid
out, it makes sense. You will have to let go of soci-
ety’s position currently and remember everything
in the garden was in innocence. Let me just say, be-
fore I go on, that if you look all around you in na-
ture, it is all about sex. God is all about sex. Can you
think of a more enjoyable feel good than healthy
sex? And God is all about us feeling good. Every-
thing from animals to plants to humans is all about
copulation. God had created this sexual being but
there is currently no female of his kind.
What do you suppose Adam needed help with?

We used to have a male Great Pyrenees. Before we

got a female, he was always trying to mount our
miniature donkey. When we got a female, he
stopped. We had kept a male pig for a friend for a
few days and put him in the pasture with our female
cow. Do you know that that pig wore out our cow
because he would not stop trying to chase her

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down to mount her! You can imagine the scene of
this big pig running around trying to mount while
the cow keeps frantically trying to escape! These
things happen in nature.
My point is, it is carnal nature for man to want to
penetrate. This is the core of male essence. There
would be no reason why Adam wouldn’t, as God
brought each animal, to ‘try out’ each animal. It
says he named each and every one. This implies
possession. At this point, before the curse, this
would have been done in innocence, it’s a hole. Re-
member, Adam had not yet ‘ate from the tree’ (wis-
dom). No judgement there. But in the end, it was
concluded that no suitable helper was found. Even
God has said that He regretted some of His ideas.
At this point, I am using the Canon Bible for our
story, but know that there was much more that
went on before our story picks up. As mankind
passed down our story of the beginning, he would
only record that which was relevant to us. Other
historical books and scientific discoveries have
proven there was more going on in the world than
just that which was recorded in our Bible. So, I will
continue with our story, picking up with all that
went on in the ‘garden’.
After God realized that a more suitable mate was
needed, Eve was created. Just like God had taken a
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a small portion of Adam and made Eve. This is ge-
netic manipulation. It wasn’t an actual rib. That was
the only way to describe a part of Adam that he
could spare. They wouldn’t have understood ge-
netic coding back then. This was to help man con-
sider the woman more since she had a part of him
in her. Man is less likely to reject or abuse some-
thing from him. It is not representing hierarchy yet
because the curse of a woman being under the man
has not happened yet. I am going to expound more
on this concept later.
Let me cover quickly about the concept of male and
female modes or essences. When God created man
in His own image, He was giving man power. This is
the male essence. Essence has nothing to do with
body parts, it is referring to the frame of mind; spir-
itually. Male essence is always penetrating, in a po-
sition of power. Female essence is always receiving;
submissive. We all have both essences within our-
selves. In a Board Room with 12 men, the one
speaking or leading it is implementing male essence
and the other 11 are exhibiting female essence, re-
ceiving. When someone is receiving information,
they are in female mode regardless of their gender.
This is how God made it: male is power, female is
wisdom. It is the combination of male and female
essence in each person that allows us to survive. It
is the balanced combination of male and female es-
sence in a couple that is necessary for that union to
be healthy. Finding that balance and union within
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yourself is key to being able to have a healthy rela-
tionship with your partner and once you can
achieve that, you can have a healthy relationship
with God.
There is also another observation in nature that
gives us a clue of God’s intent towards man. If we
observe nature, we see that the highest animal on
the food chain, say, the lion in the Savannah or the
gorilla in the jungle, doesn’t do much work. The lion
has its pride that he gives protection to (power), he
sleeps on average 20 hours a day, and leaves all the
hunting and child-rearing (wisdom) to the females.
This is how God intended life for Adam. Sleep, relax,
enjoy, tend to the necessary needs, have sex, and
let the helper (I gave you), use her wisdom to do all
the other work. All of that changed when Adam de-
cided to have more than just power. He wanted
wisdom too. Wisdom, in the right hands, should al-
low you to know what is beneficial for life as a
whole, not just what you want selfishly now.
I will talk more on this subject later.
Continuing in our story…

Genesis 3:1-5
“1
Now the serpent was more crafty than any
of the wild animals the LORD God had made.
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 ‘You must not eat from any tree in the gar-
den’?” 2The woman said to the serpent, “We
may eat fruit from the trees in the garden,
3
but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit
from the tree that is in the middle of the gar-
den, and you must not touch it, or you will
die.’” 4 “You will not certainly die,” the ser-
pent said to the woman. 5 “For God knows
that when you eat from it your eyes will be
opened, and you will be like God, knowing
good and evil.”

Let’s look at what the serpent is in the first interpre-

tation. We all agree that God spoke to Adam about
the tree. It doesn’t say anywhere else that God told
anyone else this command. Eve was talking to
Adam here, and the serpent is referring to Adam’s
penis. It’s an idiom. We all know that man has two
heads. There is a saying that: “A man has two heads
and only enough blood to run to one at a time.”. By
saying ‘the serpent’ we can guess what sort of
frame of mind Adam was in when he was address-
ing Eve. When man wants something from a woman
he goes into ‘beguiling’ mode. Now notice that
Adam is reminding Eve that God didn’t tell Eve she
couldn’t eat from the tree. Eve responds with the
affirmation, you are right, God said we could eat
from any tree, but then she reminds Adam that God
told him not to eat from the tree of knowledge. She
wasn’t told not to partake, so she considers the tree

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and eats. Eve has not yet committed any sin be-
cause she could eat from the tree, because Eve is
female and female essence is wisdom, the tree was
hers to begin with.
But Adam is driven, and just won’t let it rest. He
wants the power he has, and he wants wisdom for
his own. He keeps at convincing Eve (by implement-
ing his power) until finally Eve shares her wisdom
and now Adam knows too much. It says in the Bible
that Adam was not deceived, because he knew ex-
actly what he was doing. He knew better than to go
against a command God told him. But Eve was de-
ceived because she was beguiled by Adam’s crafti-
ness and gave in for Adam’s sake not her own gain.
She knew better, but let Adam convince her to do
otherwise. Her sin was not keeping Adam from do-
ing wrong. She had nothing but misery to gain by
giving in. The misery of living with a man that
doesn’t want to listen to the wisdom of a woman
and instead implements his own wisdom. The only
problem with that is, wisdom in the hands of a nur-
turer looks totally different than wisdom in the
hands of selfish power. Regardless, they both
stepped out of their boundaries. Ignorance was
bliss, Adam should have kept things as God created
it.

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One thing that we must take into consideration is
that Adam and Eve were created in enlightenment.
They gave into the negative so quickly because they
had never experienced negative. Unlike our spir-
itual journey today we have built up strength
against the negative forces. They didn’t have that.
Together Adam and Eve pushed the natural order
of things; they both stepped beyond the bounda-
ries that God had set up. This is not what God had
originally created. This is why He didn’t ‘recognize’
them when made His daily visit to the garden. God
knows all and sees all, of course He knew what was
going on! The reason why the story is told this way
was to make the point that, Adam and Eve had
changed spiritually when they chose to step beyond
the boundaries God gave them. That is why it is said
that they were aware of their nakedness, because
they were for the first time, aware of their flesh
(sin). They both exercised free will. After God asked
them what they did, He started giving out the con-
sequences for their disobedience.
First, He cursed the ‘serpent’ that it would be lower
than any beast of the field. The core of this curse is
an insatiable appetite for sex (unlike most animals
that only have sex to procreate). Then He cursed
the ground. This is how I know that God meant for
Adam to be more like the lion or gorilla, basking in
an easy life, because now it is stated that he will
have to work instead. He could not curse Adam, the

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man, because cursing the son would be cursing the
father, and God was not going to do that.
Then He cursed Eve in childbirth. This curse gives
validity that there was additional information that
was not addressed as things unfolded in the garden,
but I will save that for another time. Though child-
birth is painful, there is a greater pain that a mother
experiences for her children. Observing nature, I
watch all of my farm animals give birth and all of
them experience different degrees of pain, this is
unavoidable when you pass something from inside
your body through a relatively small hole. But the
curse of childbirth also includes a different kind of
pain that I will explain to you.
When a man creates his world around him; he buys
a house, gets a job, gets a vehicle, he then nurtures
these things. If he takes good care of what he has in
his world, they will last a long time and he reaps the
benefit of having taken good care. His car doesn’t
just decide not to come home when it is supposed
to or the house doesn’t just get up and walk away
after 18 years. But when a woman creates (off-
spring), it doesn’t matter how well she cared for the
child/children, in our society they are expected to
leave home and she doesn’t get to enjoy the fruits
of her labor by having that child around listening
and always doing what they are told. This can be
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put a lot of care and nurturing into that child. We
call it empty nest syndrome.
Then God gave the curse of conception to Eve. This
is not the actual conceiving, since conceiving is not
a painful process. This is the curse of sexual abuse.
The by-product of Adam’s curse is an insatiable sex
drive. If he has the drive, then women are usually
the target. I have yet to meet a woman that has not
felt the negative effects of sexual abuse. Whether it
is themselves or dealing with a mother dealing with
it, every woman has been affected. Consider this:
The Bible explains the power of the mind when it
states that if a man commits adultery in his mind it
is as if it actually happened. If a man is ‘having sex
with a woman’ in his mind, her spirit is aware and is
being violated. It is as if it actually happened. A re-
sult of this curse can be either lack of wanting sex
because of the pain associated with the abuse or
having a high appetite for sex. This is a complex sub-
ject in which I will not delve into right now. Do not
take my lack of expounding on this topic as a black
and white conclusion on a very complex matter. But
this is not the time to expand on this subject.
Finally, the last result from their choices:
Genesis 5:15
“And I will cause hostility between you and
the woman, and between your offspring and
her offspring. He will strike your head, and
you will strike his heel."
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There it is, the explanation why there is a continual
power struggle within ourselves and between men
and women. Woman wants to implement wisdom,
but she needs a man with power to do it. Man
wants to use power but in order to do that well he
needs a woman’s wisdom. Women need men just
as much as men need women. There is a constant
struggle between the sexes. It was set up that the
two should need each other. All the way back to the
garden. You know the old saying we have in our cul-
ture, “behind every great man, there is a great
woman”. Which brings me to my next point.
When translating the Bible, the Greeks had to break
down some foreign concepts from the Hebrew cul-
ture into their own culture; there was a huge differ-
ence between the cultures. Certain concepts and
ideas needed to be conveyed differently for the re-
ceiving culture to understand. An example of this is
the word ‘garden’. In the original Aramaic text, the
idea of ‘family’ had to be translated into ‘garden’,
because the Greek culture was very different than
the Jewish culture. They had different approaches
to family. The Jewish family was a close-knit atmos-
phere where relationships were cultivated and
tended to. The Greek culture hired outside caretak-
ers for their children, especially for education; their
family unit wasn’t close. When trying to convey the
atmosphere that God originally intended for the
family unit, the Greeks couldn’t say ‘family’ because
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their approach to family would not have reflected
the message intended. So, the word ‘garden’ was
used because the Greeks loved their gardens. They
would care and tend to their gardens the way that
God wants us to tend and grow our family relation-
ships. There wasn’t this plot of paradise ‘the gar-
den’ that they lived in, there was a whole region of
tropical beauty. This ‘place’ they resided in -para-
dise- is a spiritual place of existence that they were
banished from. There are many examples like these
where the original concept was lost in the transla-
tion. The Bible has many misinterpretations that
have been accepted as fact. Do your research.
There are many great resources out there that will
break it down and explain the misconceptions.
Ultimately, God said that the woman would have to
be under the man because she chose to give up the
position of having the wisdom. Men, if you are
walking around proud that you have been put over
women, reconsider. Basically, God was saying, -ok,
you want to be like a god? Then you will be respon-
sible for women. Which means you are responsible
for her wellbeing. Remember this was spoken when
curses were being handed out. If you implement
your power and things don’t go well, then you are
to blame. You are responsible for her actions. It says
in the Bible that if a woman does something wrong
and the man knows about it (and still lets her do it),
it is the man that will be held responsible, not the
woman. Many men seem to forget that with great
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power comes great responsibility. More on this
later.
As you can see, there are many things that we have
been taught that are not correct. Just because your
church preaches it or your family has believed it for
years, doesn’t mean it is truth. If you have truth you
will be free indeed, and we are not walking around
free indeed, that’s for sure.
God didn’t choose to implement the curse, man-
kind did. God had to follow His own Laws, He had to
follow through with the consequences. Sounds like
good parenting to me.
But consider that for God it was a win-win. He was
the one that gave the gift of freewill to mankind,
and mankind chose to open the gift. By doing that,
it made God even greater, before He didn’t have to
be forgiving, patient, merciful etc. But it also gave
man an opportunity to show God that obedience
and love came from wanting to, not from having to.
Kind of like a woman who wants flowers from her
man. If she says something and he gets them for
her, it is not quite the same if he would have gotten
them for her on his own.
God would rather have a relationship with some-
one who wants to eagerly give Him their love and
devotion. Not forced or obligated, but with a grate-
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At this point, you are either relieved because the
revealing of this truth explains where we are at in
this life or you are angry for your reality being dis-
rupted. I understand, it took some time for me to
settle into this ‘new’ reality in the beginning. But
there is a saying “sometimes the truth hurts”. Once
the acclimation time has passed, you will see that it
makes more sense than what we currently see as
truth. It explains a lot of things that were confusing,
ideas that we just accepted because believing-in-
the-impossible was considered faith. Let me assure
you that once you start to get the hang of how
things are supposed to work and how God set eve-
rything up, life is a bit easier to swallow. Being real
about the church should ultimately bring you closer
to God and make the personal relationship with
God that you desire more obtainable.
Now that a foundation of truth has been built, I will
continue with more of the simple mysteries from
Gods Word.

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Chapter 4
The Confusion

What we have been taught in the church has a lot

of contradictions and has ultimately created confu-
sion. Things like, Jesus is God. For one, Jesus is not
omnipresent like God. Many Christians blur the
lines between God and Jesus. They are of one Spirit,
we all are, but the man- flesh- Jesus, has not been
around since the beginning of time, his spirit has
been because he is a part of God, but not Jesus the
man. That would mean there was flesh before any-
thing was created. The same reason why God knew
you before you were formed in the womb. You
were not physically around yet; not until you were
born. If Jesus, the man, had been around some-
where hanging out, then there would be no need to
prophesy about his coming. Plus, that would mean
that there was a created being before any beings
were created. He came into this world just like you
and I. God clearly states that we are all God’s Chil-
dren. We are all a piece of God put inside organic
matter in order to grow. The only thing that was
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The idea of an ‘only begotten son’ is a mistransla-
tion and a huge misunderstanding. Jesus, the man,
was singled out and chosen like many other mes-
sengers in the past. Like others, he healed and
raised people from the dead (did not Elijah raise
people from the dead?). In the Book of Barnabas
(uncovered in the early 19th century), Jesus points
out that other prophets or messengers had per-
formed even more miracles than he, but they were
never equated with God. Why would the people
suggest such a thing for him? In the end, God
wanted to use Jesus and his life as an example just
like he wanted to use the Israelites lives as an ex-
ample. They were chosen to carry out a specific
task. For the church to say that God had an only be-
gotten son, then turn around and say that we are
all God’s children is a contradiction.
Those of you who say, “Jesus is with me.”, are then
stating that at that moment he has picked you to
hang out with. Remember he is not omnipresent,
unlike God, Jesus cannot be everywhere at once. If
you say he is here with you and everyone who is a
‘Christian’ has him with them, then you have
missed the message altogether. What it is supposed
to mean is that the way that he lived is being re-
flected in your life or his approach to life is with you.
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exactly as Jesus did. You are then reflecting right-
eousness and living as God commanded, so really
what you are feeling is God not Jesus. God says
many times in the Bible that He (God, not Jesus) is
THE ONE AND ONLY SAVIOR, there is NO OTHER. So
why does the church preach only Jesus can save
you? Somehow this physical man is supposed to be
in your heart? Jesus only ‘saved’ the lives of those
followers who actually met him because they heard
the message firsthand and had a tangible example
in front of them. The church says that this idea of
‘Jesus in your heart’ is called the mystery of Christ.
But, frankly, the literal concept doesn’t make sense.
They assure you that you are supposed to just be-
lieve, and he will be right there...inside your heart.
If you worship Jesus, then you are a Polytheist. God
says it is just Him, there is no other. If you raise up
a man to be equal with God and pray to that man,
then you are worshipping someone other than God.
God clearly states this makes Him angry. Remem-
ber, even Jesus said,” don’t pray to me, but pray to
my Father who sent me”. It doesn’t get any clearer
than that.
What people miss is the message of Christ. Jesus
came to show The Way. He showed The Way that
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way to respond, how to treat others and how to in-
teract with God. This is the concept of having him in
your heart, to be who Christ is, his characteristics,
need to be a part of your very being. I know I am
restating the same thing again and again but under-
standing this concept is key to your freedom.
Some people misunderstand the scripture that the
only way to God is through Christ. This is true and
makes sense if you are of the understanding that
you have to be all positive in order to fully connect
with God. Again, it is not referring to a man being
that connection. Why would God create something
that would ultimately need to be more important
than Him?
Once you begin to realize that it is in the ‘being like
Christ’ that is going to free you, then you start to
take responsibilities for your own actions. Then you
can start to see the results as you change from neg-
ative to positive.
Galatians 5:22-23 HCSB
“22
But the fruit of the Spirit is
love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, good-
ness, faithfulness 23 gentleness, and self-con-
trol. Against such things there is no law.”
Was Jesus 100% man? -yes. Was Jesus 100%
God? -yes. And you can be too! It says so in
the Bible. Do I believe he existed? -yes. The
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 only difference is that I am not expecting
some external person to free me from what
I have created in my own mind.
The church has also taught us that receiving Jesus is
an event. That ‘something’ is supposed to happen.
I can remember being taught that after someone
asks Jesus into their heart, I was to ask…”so, do you
feel different?” or “There, don’t you feel better
now?”. Looking in their eyes…waiting for a re-
sponse as if I helped start an IV of pain meds and at
any moment all the pain will go away. Many people
were disappointed because the church insisted that
they were supposed to feel a permanent differ-
ence, but that didn’t happen. How many times they
labeled the relief-feeling they felt as ‘Jesus’, that he
had somehow done something to them. Instead of
realizing that the relief came because someone lis-
tened and helped temporarily dump their guilt. It is
God and only God who can make a difference, not
the man Jesus. He is not a scapegoat.

I can compare this to if a person used super

strength to rescue someone. You could say, “Wow!
You were like the Hulk!” That easily gives us an idea
of what the rescue behavior looked like, but it
doesn’t mean that the Hulk was actually the one
there and gets credit for the rescuing. Yet, when
someone takes on the good characteristics of
Christ, somehow that person doesn’t get the credit,
it was the man Jesus that did something. It says in
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the Bible that it counts in your favor if you keep an-
other man from stumbling.

Back to the topic of Jesus forgiving all your sin.

There are plenty of verses that explain that you will
have to answer for what you have done wrong.
None of it magically disappears. You can’t believe in
‘you reap what you sow’ and believe that you don’t
have to answer for what you have done. Again, this
would go against the Laws of the Universe. People
end up, unknowingly, having the negative beliefs in-
side of them. They continue to wreak havoc in their
life, the whole time thinking if they have Jesus, it is
all gone.
Luke 12:47-48
“47
If servants are not ready or willing to do
what their master wants them to do, they
will be beaten hard. 48 But servants who
don’t know what their master wants them to
do will not be beaten so hard for doing
wrong. If God has been generous with you,
he will expect you to serve him well. But if he
has been more than generous, he will expect
you to serve him even better.”
Like the servant that didn’t know what was ex-
pected of him, God also knows that you did not yet
have the whole truth, so His mercy has covered you.
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held accountable for what you know. When you re-
ally start to grasp the true meaning of the message,
the message of Christ, you will start to feel the free-
dom in understanding what God meant for us in the
first place. But remember, it is a process, not an
event. Working out your salvation with fear and
trembling.
God never meant for us to take the responsibly off
of our self and put it onto something else. But, be-
cause of the immaturity of humankind (the Israel-
ites), it started out, that animals had to pay the
price for people’s actions. Hence all the sacrificing
in the Old Testament. A person still had to admit
they did something wrong in the first place to even
feel the need to go get whatever animal was going
to be ‘payment’ for what they had done. God never
meant for man to push the responsibility on to a
third party for eternity. He was slowly changing the
sacrifice from animals to you.
Jesus ‘paid it all’ because he gave up his own
freewill of his life to show you how it is that you
should be living. If you choose to be like him, you
can also achieve perfect peace. Sacrifice yourself,
that is the message. The message is not that Jesus
is going to be your scapegoat. Jesus is the answer
because being all positive is the answer. That is The
Way that he showed us. The Church’s explanation
doesn’t take in account consequences or any work
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ignores all the Laws of the Universe. Scriptures say
that we are accountable for our actions. God sees
all.
God doesn’t want you to have a life in which you
are bound by sin. He wants what is best for you, He
only wants goodness for you. He doesn’t ‘hate’ sin
in the way that Humans hate. The mere fact that
anyone would say God ‘hates’ implying that He
hates like man hates, this shows that they do not
know who God is. He is love, He is light, and there
is no darkness in Him. He isn’t affected by sin per-
sonally, sin is just the absence of God. You can’t
hate absence. Let me break it down for you what it
means when scripture says that God ‘hates’.
God does love us so much if we believe in Him. He
knows what will happen to us when we live in ab-
sence of Him and what it causes us to do. He
doesn’t want us to suffer. I will give a true story to
help you understand this concept.
At the time of this story, I had three little ones in
three years. We were moving out of our apartment
which was on a five-lane road across from a shop-
ping center. It was a rainy cold day and we were
loading up the last of the boxes into the moving
van. Parked in front of the moving van, facing the
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I just finished putting all the kids in their car seats. I
was standing outside the back of the vehicle dis-
cussing with my girlfriend how to get to where we
were going. My oldest, who was three and (too
smart for his own good), knew how to undo his car
seat. He must have felt we were taking too long and
wanted to get the show on the road. He unbuckled,
climbed into the driver seat and proceeded to put it
in drive- just like he always saw Mommy do. I know
that in his mind he felt was doing a good thing,
probably even reasoned that he was doing Mommy
a favor.
My girlfriend saw it first and couldn’t even speak as
she bolted from our conversation. You can imagine
my horror as I turned to watch my suburban start
to pull away with my girlfriend hanging onto the
back of the bumper as if she was going to stop the
vehicle! Being caught off guard as to why the vehi-
cle was moving and having just had a baby, I had a
slow start running for the driver’s door. Faster
friends started running after it as it started its jour-
ney across the five lanes. But my son, did as
mommy always did, he turned the wheel to the
right and didn’t stop turning. This resulted in a
sharp U-turn and proceeded to head back into traf-
fic and back towards the apartment entryway!!!
AAHHH! Do you know- that road is always busy, but
at that moment, not one car even came close! And
by the grace of God there was construction in the
lot right next to the apartments and he was heading
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straight for a small hill of dirt. I was already making
my way to where he was going to end up. As the
suburban came to a halt, I snatched him out of that
vehicle and rushed him inside and proceeded to dis-
cipline him for not obeying mom by staying in his
seat. Ooo, was I mad!!
If it was anyone else’s child I would have been con-
cerned but not mad. I wasn’t mad at traffic, the ve-
hicle, the five lanes, the U-turn, or the dirt pile. A
moving vehicle doesn’t make me mad either. But
my son doing what he shouldn’t when he was told
“to stay buckled” and “some jobs are just mommy
jobs”. I had such an intense feeling of love for him
that I was…. well, how else do I say it... angry. I
hated what he did. We don’t really have a word in
our English language that I can use to describe a
love so deep that I am mad when a loved one is in
danger.
This is what God’s anger is for those He loves. He
has such intense compassion for us. He knows how
the Laws of the Universe work and what must hap-
pen to us in order to balance out our actions, and
we want balance. There is no revenge or score He
needs to settle at this point as long as we are sorry
for what we did. Many times, we have no idea how
close to destruction we really come because we are
not doing what we should.
My children and my vehicle could have gotten hit
by a car, I certainly would not have spanked him if
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he was injured, he would have already received
consequences. (This is the whole concept behind
healthy disciplining of our children). God’s wrath
has nothing to do with being pissed off at us, it is
just a poor translation because we lack the words
to describe it properly.
That is why God sent an example of how we should
act to avoid the negative consequences. Under-
stand that this is only how He feels toward those
that love Him. He is very clear that if you reject Him
and do not follow His ways, then He has no problem
as karma comes back on you because all evil must
be balanced out. But it is the wrong doer that forces
God to have to endure the wrong doers creating
their own misery. God in that position, it is not, on
His own, just flying off the handle being angry.

Consider this next concept when reading scripture.

ALL of Jesus’ disciples experienced walking and talk-
ing with Jesus, they literally followed Jesus around
while he was teaching. They called themselves fol-
lowers of Christ because they followed the message
of Christ. Now let me remind you that they also wit-
nessed his departure. When they state ‘follow’ Je-
sus after he left them, they are not talking about
following a man. They are saying follow the spiritual
concept of who Christ is. Follow, as in ‘be like’, the
example that he gave us.

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John 16: 4-15
“I was with you at the first, and so I didn’t
tell you these things. 5 But now I am going
back to the Father who sent me, and none
of you asks me where I am going. 6 You are
very sad from hearing all of this. 7 But I tell
you that I am going to do what is best for
you. That is why I am going away. The Holy
Spirit cannot come to help you until I leave.
But after I am gone, I will send the Spirit to
you.”. 8 “The Spirit will come and show the
people of this world the truth about sin and
God’s justice and the judgment. 9 The Spirit
will show them that they are wrong about
sin, because they didn’t have faith in
me. 10 They are wrong about God’s justice,
because I am going to the Father, and you
won’t see me again. 11 And they are wrong
about the judgment, because God has al-
ready judged the ruler of this world.”. 12 “I
have much more to say to you, but right
now it would be more than you could un-
derstand. 13 The Spirit shows what is true
and will come and guide you into the full
truth. The Spirit doesn’t speak on his own.
He will tell you only what he has heard from
me, and he will let you know what is going
to happen. 14 The Spirit will bring glory to
me by taking my message and telling it to
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 mine. That is why I have said that the Spirit
takes my message and tells it to you”.
Notice Jesus did not say that he was going to come
and help you. He even said you won’t see me again.
It is the Spirit, which is God’s Spirit, that is there for
us. Not the man - Jesus! His work was finished. He
did his part, he gave up his own freewill in life to
show you how it is done. Having Jesus in your heart
means that you live only having positive in you. It
ends up being a CODE meaning: a-human-that-has-
no-more-negativeness-but-only-positiveness-in-
side. After Pentecost, in every scripture that you
read that mentions the name of Jesus, you can
switch that out with the words ‘living all positive’.
Try it, you will see it works. Remember in the later
years of Paul’s ministry, even he said, “Be like me,
because I am like Christ.” He didn’t misspeak, he
was saying I made it, being like Christ, so you can
just as easily follow my example.
Jesus had to physically leave so they were not dis-
tracted by following a third party. Following after an
external person is idol worship. Again, the word
‘follow’ here is not meant ‘to follow behind physi-
cally’, but to emanate Christ’s characteristics. The
disciples would not tell people to follow behind Je-
sus, they saw him physically leave. They are saying
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do, think and say. When a church says, ‘come to Je-
sus and he will help you’, this is third party, this is
idol worship. When the church calls for you to come
to the altar and meet with Jesus, this is third party.
And yes, I am going to go there...when we hold the
poem Footprints in the Sand near and dear to us,
that is blatant third party. No one is carrying you
anywhere. Only God can be your Savior. Only God
can hold you in the palm of His hand.

Matthew 24:23-26
23
“If anyone tells you then, ‘Look, here is the
Messiah!’ or, ‘Over here!’ do not believe
it! 24 False messiahs and false prophets will
arise and perform great signs and wonders
to lead astray, if possible, even the
elect. 25 Take note: I have told you in ad-
vance. 26 So if they tell you, ‘Look, He’s in the
wilderness!’ don’t go out; ‘Look, He’s in the
inner rooms!’ do not believe it.

Luke 17:23
“People will tell you, 'Look, there is the Son
of Man,' or 'Here he is,' but don't go out and
follow them.”

If you are waiting for Jesus to do the work, give you

a lift or a big hug, you have missed the true message
of Christ. Remember, He says throughout the Bible

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that there is only one Savior and it is God; there is
no other. Why are we taught that Jesus is the one
who saves all? It is when you are like Jesus that you
are saved. God will take care of your needs, not Je-
sus. God can accomplish fulfilling all your needs
through people around us that are being positive
(Jesus). Therefore God created us to spread His
love. He can’t in the way we can, He is not physical.
We are to be an extension of Him.

It is written clearly in the Bible who the Jesus was

on this earth, it clearly explains how he lived, it
walks you through his experiences and finally his
departure. If it is all written down for you, what Je-
sus did, then there would there be a need for the
mystery of Christ. Why would there only be a few
who find it? Why would there be those that will ex-
claim “Christ I knew you!” but God says, “No you
didn’t”.

Matthew 7:13-14
“Enter through the narrow gate. For the
gate is wide and the road is broad that leads
to destruction, and there are many who go
through it. 14 How narrow is the gate and dif-
ficult the road that leads to life, and few find
it.”

Matthew 7:21-23
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 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord!’
will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only
the one who does the will of My Father in
heaven. 22 On that day many will say to Me,
‘Lord, Lord, didn’t we prophesy in Your name,
drive out demons in Your name, and do many
miracles in Your name?’ 23 Then I will an-
nounce to them, ‘I never knew you! Depart
from Me, you lawbreakers!”

That is why I am explaining the mystery to you. The

truth is Christ must be who you are inside. God gave
us the symbolism of taking communion to drive this
point home. To remind ourselves that the responsi-
bility is within us, if He meant it any other way, He
would have used different symbolism. If it was an
external person saving us, the symbolism would in-
volve something that signified something external.
Jesus understood this concept. That is why he also
took communion. He wasn’t eating himself, he was
showing that it is about having positiveness within
you. He continually pointed all the credit to God,
not himself. This was not his salvation plan. It is
God’s.

Jesus was being used by God to bring the: God-is-

inside-of-man and you-can-achieve-all-positiveness

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-as-a-human concept closer to home. Showing that
God is not way out there, but inside of you.

Luke 22: 14-16, 17-18

“14
When the hour came, He reclined at the
table, and the apostles with Him.15 Then He
said to them, “I have fervently desired to eat
this Passover with you before I suffer. 16 For I
tell you, I will not eat it again until it is ful-
filled in the kingdom of God.”

Remember the Kingdom of God is now; when we

reach all positiveness, when we chose to die to our
flesh and be raised as Christ. He was referring to
when his disciples finally ‘get it’. When they reach
their Heaven. Don’t you recall that Jesus said that
there were those of that current generation that
would see the return of the Messiah?
“17
Then He took a cup, and after giving
thanks, He said, “Take this and share it
among yourselves. 18 For I tell you, from now
on I will not drink of the fruit of the vine until
the kingdom of God comes.”
I really want you to get this: When I chose to live as
Christ, when I take communion, he (the sacrifice-
everything-you-have is in me, he) is partaking of the
vine again. Communion is the symbolic act of show-
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my negativeness and I have reached all positive,
that is the first interpretation of the second coming
of Christ… in me. No man knows the hour.
Now, I would like to make another point. Because,
in the very next verse after this beautiful exchange,
the apostles start to argue who is going to be the
greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven! Remember
Heaven is just a positive existence. Obviously, they
hadn’t yet reached the fullness of Christ, nor did
they understand what that really meant.
Most of the time, while Jesus was still with them,
they were having a hard time understanding what
he really meant. They needed things broken down
for them, Jesus even said “you don’t understand
now, but you will later”. It was not until after the
Spirit came that they could walk in the full
knowledge of what it meant to be Christ. We can
read how long it took Paul to get rid of his flesh. In
the earlier writings, he shares of his struggles “I find
that I do the things I do not want to do”. But by the
end he states for us to be just like him, because he
was continually growing.
Another misinterpretation that has led to ignorance
is the subject of Satan. First, I will address the name
Lucifer, since that is the main bases for the church’s
concept that an angel fell from heaven.

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 “How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer,
son of the morning! how art thou cut down
to the ground, which didst weaken the na-
tions!”

This is the only time the word ‘Lucifer’ was written.

You will not find this word anywhere else in the Bi-
ble. If you investigate the origins of it, those trans-
lating didn’t know what the Hebrew word that was
written meant, so they put this word down rather
than leave it out (which they did often when they
didn’t know). An easy explanation as to who this is
referring to is only a few verses earlier in the chap-
ter.
Isaiah 14:3-4
“3
And it will be in the day when the Lord gives
you rest from your pain and turmoil and
harsh service in which you have been en-
slaved, 4that you will take up this taunt
against the king of Babylon, and say, "How
the oppressor has ceased, And how fury has
ceased!”
It is clearly speaking to the prophet on what to say
to the King of Babylon. In those days, they referred
to the kings as a ‘morning star’. Basically, it is saying
the King of Babylon has become too proud and had
stopped giving God glory for his riches, so God was
going to humble him and bring him down. If it was
really talking about an actual creature that roamed
the earth and was responsible for all of mankind’s
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troubles, do you really think he is only going to
come up one time in scripture? But to say it is about
a fallen angel? What a peculiar place to start talking
about something they say happened in the begin-
ning of time to an angel.
Let me shed some light about Angels. Angels are not
magical creatures with wings flying around. Angel is
a word to describe personified attributes of God;
spirits of goodness that embody us or other forms
of energy that do good things. They are God’s amaz-
ing personality traits in action. They cannot rebel,
that would mean God is rebelling against Himself.
Only man has free will. Angels are anything that is
implementing pure goodness upon something else
and the only source for that goodness is God. For a
source of goodness of God to choose to be some-
thing different is as ludicrous as my child suddenly
deciding they he is no longer going to be from my
DNA and choosing to be from a different source. Im-
possible.
First, we must establish the difference between the
words Satan and the devil. The church refers to
these two words as one and the same. They are not.
Let me clarify.
Satan is CODE referring to the negative energy that
exists in the world around us, just as God is all
things good around us. But if you choose to be pos-
itive, Satan (the negative around you) has no power
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This is how I know that it was once a part of God.
Only God is omnipresent. He is energy, but negative
energy is also everywhere out there, it is what is left
when God separated Himself from the negative.
Why then does it talk about Satan roaming around
the Earth in the Bible? Because mankind wasn’t
mature enough to understand negative energy as
we understand it today, negative energy was per-
sonified in order to explain that this is a force to
contend with even though you can’t see it. It
sounds like an actual being because this is the easi-
est way to explain science to people that lacked
knowledge. Remember the Greek culture did this
with all sorts of concepts, like love portrayed as
Aphrodite and Aries the god of war. I will show you
later how this negativeness doesn’t really exist.
In the book of Matthew, Peter was showing his
flesh and trying to influence Jesus negatively by re-
minding him of his current negative situation (Sa-
tan). Peter was not showing his positiveness (Christ)
and started coming against God’s will. Jesus re-
sponded:
Matthew 16:23
“But he turned and said to Peter, “Get behind
me, Satan! You are a hindrance to me. For
you are not setting your mind on the things
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What he was saying was, Peter, I want to see more
of the positiveness in you and not the negativity you
are trying to send my way. Simmer down your own
desires and start thinking of God’s. Basically, in this
story, Peter was telling Jesus he was wrong!
This is why the Bible says again and again that we
have power over darkness. Because some of that
darkness comes from within us and we have control
over our own mind. And the external darkness can
easily go just by shining light on it (being positive).
Which brings us to the topic of who the devil is. The
church preaches that the devil is what is causing
havoc in your life and that you have to battle him.
So… in England there is a person being challenged
by the devil, a person in Texas challenged by the
devil, then there is a person in Australia challenged
by the devil. Um, wouldn’t that make him omni-
present? Why is the church teaching that there is a
created being that is omnipresent? Then how can
he be everywhere at once? But you might argue
that he had 1/3 of the other ‘free will’ angels (de-
mons) that are doing his work. Then that would
mean it isn’t the devil. If you are saying that the
devil is on your back today, then you should con-
sider yourself pretty important if he is going to
choose you out of all the people in the world to
bother!
Instead, the devil is CODE for the personification of
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in you are the positive attributes. The devil is you
when you chose to be negative. God refers to this
concept in third party because this isn’t really who
you are, and you can get rid of it. It clearly states
that we are tempted by our own evil desires. When
you do negative things, you are the devil. Take re-
sponsibility for the things you do and quit trying to
push the responsibility and blame on anyone else.
This is the interpretation you need to wrap your
head around before moving on to the others.
So, plain and simple. When you are being negative,
it is called devil. If your negativeness is coming at
me or I conclude what is going on around me is bad,
it is called Satan.
Once I started to understand this concept, it took
away the victim-feeling that I had. The feeling that
I was hopeless against the enemy. But it also puts it
right in my face that I create my own trouble. I un-
derstand that outside negative energy is something
I need to be aware of and I have to learn how to
handle it correctly.
Which brings me to the topic of Heaven and Hell.
I’ll start out by stating that there is no magical place
after we die called Heaven where all the Christian
today are going. Nor is there an awful place bad
people (all the other people that aren’t Christians)
go to called Hell. The early religious leaders used
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a good place’. And ‘if you’re really bad you go to a
nasty place’ to control the people. I can equate this
with the Santa Claus effect. If you are good, you get
presents, if you are bad, you get coal. The perfect
way to control the masses (parents use this to con-
trol children around Christmas). They used fear to
control the people. No one can say whether you did
enough to ‘get in’. They have no idea what is in your
heart. Who is holding them accountable to their
qualifying scale? What if they said you were good
enough and they were wrong? After you die, what
are you going to do? Come back and yell at them?
They have no proof. Meanwhile you keep ‘in line’ so
you get to go to ‘Heaven’. Only God can judge your
heart. If that alone doesn’t convince you then read
on, I have plenty more.
Let me continue.
In the beginning, everything was created in its en-
tirety. When God was done creating everything, He
called it all good. Hell would have been created in
the beginning and God would have called it good.
That doesn’t make sense. And if He did create it in
the beginning, then that means He already had
planned a horrific place for evil people in this world
to suffer forever. But that doesn’t even line up with
the attributes of God. ‘He would so that no man
perishes’. And understanding that God is energy
and energy is in everything -since the church
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that God would have to be in Hell too because fire
is energy. And it clearly states in the Bible that God
cannot be where sin is because God cannot, not be
who He is; which is the opposite of sin (negative-
ness). Positive and negative cannot be in the same
space. Just as you cannot have darkness in a lighted
room. It is just science.
People choose their own negativeness now so in
the afterlife they are still in that negative state.
There is still a position of Darkness in the afterlife,
but it is not how the church preaches. They chose
it, God did not ‘put’ them there.
The other point I have is that the concept of hell
does not line up with the Laws of the Universe. Fire
consumes. If people are standing in fire they are
burnt up. There is no magical law-defying act that
goes on when someone ‘goes to hell’. There is a
story in the Bible about a beggar man and a rich
man that both died. The poor man went to heaven
and the rich man went to hell. It says how there was
a chasm between them, but they were talking to
each other. There is both positive and negative fre-
quencies that spirits exist in in the afterlife, but it is
not the heaven and hell how the church portrays it.
The majority of the time God is referring to our spir-
itual condition; Hell is in the mind. Just like the King-
dom of Heaven, Hell is here on earth (while we are
alive). We create our own hell. Many times, when a
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he fell into the depths of shoal. This is an idiom that
is conveying the idea that someone is drowning (in
shallow water) in their own bad choices. Being in
the desert is also a reference to when someone is
in depression. People say that there were times in
their life that were Hell. There was definitely ‘weep-
ing and gnashing of teeth’! But if it is shoal (shallow
water) when life feels over-whelming to you, roll
over or stand up! This ‘drowning’ is all in your head.
Now on to the concept of Heaven. Consider the fact
that when the disciples were on their spiritual jour-
ney and referred to heaven, they did not have the
New Testament as a reference. They only had the
Old Testament. NO WHERE in the Old Testament
does it ever mention a special place that good peo-
ple go when they die. It states that the kings, when
they died, went to the place of their ancestors,
whether they were a good king or a bad king. Solo-
mon (the wisest man on earth) writes this about
making the most of your life while you still can:
Ecclesiastes 12:6-7
“6before the silver cord is snapped, or the
golden bowl is broken, or the pitcher is shat-
tered at the fountain, or the wheel broken at
the cistern, 7and the dust returns to the earth
as it was, and the spirit returns to God who
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It states throughout the Bible that the Kingdom of
Heaven is now. Heaven is CODE for a positive place
to exist. The Kingdom of Heaven is like “a woman
who has lost a coin and after she finds it, she throws
a party with her friends.”. Her life was once nega-
tive (when she lost the coin) and now it is positive
(she is having a good time with her friends celebrat-
ing). God wants you to focus on making sure that
you are having a positive time during your life here
on earth.
Don’t misunderstand me when I say there is no
heaven, because there will be a paradise that is cre-
ated after this earth is destroyed. And there will be
a New Jerusalem that is going to be rebuilt near the
end to fulfill scripture. But God states that that is
only for the few who find the way. The Bible ex-
plains that out of a cluster of grapes; one grape will
make it. Most of the references to the kingdom of
heaven is targeting your personal spiritual condi-
tion. Because if within you isn’t totally aligned with
God, the other two heaven references don’t even
pertain to you.
You do realize that while the disciples were writing
about heaven, the book of Revelation had not been
written yet, right? John wrote it later as a vision tell-
ing of the final covenant, when there would be a
major shift in humanity and God would establish
peace on earth. Yes, this will take place one day, but
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heaven within you, then you will live in the kingdom
of heaven about you (all of this while you are living
on this earth). Then if you can accomplish that,
there are a few that will go on to the third kingdom
of heaven which is The New Jerusalem which will
also be on this earth. The church has turned it into
an elaborate mystical place that anyone who claim
Jesus gets to go. They use it as a tool in order to
convince people to be really good so they can go
there someday. But what they are proposing isn’t
even physically possible. It gives measurements of
a place that couldn’t possibly hold all the people
from generations past and those currently living on
the planet. Besides, how does that fit into the “only
a few will find it”? Is the church suggesting that we
are going to a planet or someplace far away where
we are going to have mansions and live in perfect
new bodies and see all of our friends and relatives
that were good? Just stop for a moment and think
about what the church is suggesting. I understand
that they are just passing down the traditions of
previous generations, but again, just because your
momma believed it doesn’t make it true. It is time
that we mature in our thinking and really consider
what it is that we are believing.
Heaven takes place in the mind. Hell takes place in
the mind. It is all on what you chose to believe
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The concept of living in your heaven now brings me
to a story I will never forget that happened soon af-
ter we had moved to our farm. We were living off
the grid in a military tent. Life was so simple, and it
was so peaceful connecting with nature. It was like
a non-stop amazing camping trip. People loved
coming to the farm. The outdoor meals, guitar mu-
sic by the campfire, the nearby barnyard clamor,
the stars, the quiet noise of the country at night. We
had invited a few couples over and when one older
woman arrived, she sat in the wooden rocker on
our porch for a while and didn’t say much. When I
finally got around to socializing with her, I sat down
in the rocker next to her and asked “So, what do you
think?” Now, the usual response is, “it is so beauti-
ful out here”, “this place is so peaceful”, “I could live
like this”. etc. But out of this woman’s mouth came
a very loud, “THIS PLACE IS A LIVING HELL!”. Well,
ok… not the response I was used to getting…but I
soon found out that this place reminded her of her
childhood where she grew up with nothing and suf-
fered abuse under similar conditions. This place felt
familiar to her and it conjured up feeling of pure
hell! So how can a place that brought so much
peace to so many people create torment for this
woman? The mind. That is the only factor; her per-
spective, her memories, her experiences that were
painful to her. This is the only difference between
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You have experienced hell. I see you nodding your
head…you sure have been through hell in life. But
you have also experience small glimpses of heaven.
Wouldn’t you want to experience more of those
heaven moments?
Why would God put us on this earth to exist un-
happy just so we can tarry until we get to the ‘other
side’? Do you really think He meant for us to only
have few and far between positive moments and
spend the rest of our time plugging away at our
existence? What a waste of a life. This was not
God’s purpose for us. That is why He had Solomon
write about how everything is meaningless except
for a man to be content with his lot in life and to
eat, drink, and be merry. Are you enjoying this one
life that you were given? Do you have so much neg-
ative in your life that you can’t even enjoy the good
times when they do find their way to you? There is
hope for you. You can be rid of the negativeness
once and for all and finally experience heaven all
the time! It doesn’t mean that crazy things won’t be
going on around you, but once you have made
some headway in your new-found spiritual journey,
you will not be brought down by them or even
struggle with them. As I was scanning stations on
the radio, I heard a pastor say, “The Christian life
can be so discouraging.” That is sad. Following God
doesn’t have to be discouraging, in fact, He tells us
in His word that you will know you have the truth if
you have joy in all circumstances and peace that
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passes understanding. It is possible on this earth. I
live it and so do many others.
I will share with you my experience as I entered into
my heaven. My health improved. I had countless
surgeries while I was living in my negativeness. My
spirit was desperately trying to get my attention
through my physical that I was broken and needed
to be fixed. The physical is one of the ways God gets
our attention. But I now live free from all of that.
There was a new believer that had Ankylosing Spon-
dylitis (a condition that causes calcium to build up
on your joints, very painful, very debilitating). He
was 29 when he was diagnosed. Usually this affects
elderly people, but he was young. He had it and was
getting progressively worse. He was having to give
himself chemotherapy shots in his stomach for
about a year and then he started implementing eve-
rything I talk about in this book. While talking with
him, I discovered that within the last year he had
made some major changes in his life. He had taken
on more responsibility than he could handle in his
personal life, was out of work, and was just dis-
charged from the military, had gotten married and
taken on a bunch of kids that weren’t his. In other
words, he had the weight of the world weighing him
down and he was buckling under the weight.
It was getting so bad, that he was having to use a
cane periodically and even moved into the city, off
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This was a bona fide condition. He was even receiv-
ing disability pay from the military. His life circum-
stances mixed with his negative belief system was
more than his spirit could handle and it was show-
ing through his health.
BUT, once he started targeting all the negative be-
liefs and seeing himself and his situation through
the eyes of truth, his condition left! He was com-
pletely healed from a terminal disease! In fact, he
moved back on to a farm and was enjoying good
health.
All believers with medical conditions have experi-
enced this same result. Complete healing.
Of the many health issues that I battled, I was diag-
nosed with degenerative joint disease. I had the x-
rays to prove it. But when I reached ‘all positive’ by
getting rid of my negative beliefs, that daily pain
went away! I have been able to keep my body fit
and at a healthy weight with ease. I look years
younger than my age. I definitely have a new body
in my Heaven!
I walk on streets of gold. Gold in its purest form is
clear. I can clearly walk through this life knowing ex-
actly what God wants of me. I also have no doubt; I
have been enlightened about things I was confused
about in every area of my life. There are no shad-
ows of doubt in my life and I have an understanding
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The phrase ‘eternal life’ is just CODE for ‘good
health’. In every verse in the Bible you can replace
‘eternal life’ with the phrase ‘good health’. That is
why in the Book of Thomas (found in the Lost
Books) it says, “the keys to eternal life is in the five
trees”. Those five trees are: almond tree, mango
tree, olive tree, lemon tree, and the coconut tree.
Try to eat something from each of these trees a day.
Your health will improve. Of course, being positive
is the most important. Positive people are health-
ier! Eternal death, on the other hand, is CODE for
‘bad health’. You know that feeling, when you are
sick. It feels as though it is going to last forever.
Everything that was written in the New Testament
was for the purpose of getting our spirit healthy. In
the end, that is all that God is concerned about. God
wanted us to get this concept. He gave rules and
regulations (the instructions) to help us understand
the mysteries of life (this is what He originally gave
the Israelites). What better source to learn from,
than from the one who designed it! But it wasn’t for
everyone. Only those who had faith and believed.
What exactly does it look like to do this process of
being free; of dying to your flesh? I will explain later
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Chapter 5
Condition
We all live by a belief system. Every choice
that we make is made according to our belief sys-
tem. The time that you get up in the morning, the
time that you go to bed, and the food you choose
to eat are all decisions made according to your be-
lief system. Everyone has their own belief sys-
tem. This is what makes each of us unique. If you
think that getting up in the morning at 8:00 is
healthy, then you will feel good about getting up at
8:00. You may feel disappointed if you end up wak-
ing up at 9:00. But if someone believes that it is
healthy to wake up at 9:00, they will not experience
that same disappointment. EVERYTHING you do,
think, feel, and say reflect your belief sys-
tem. Hopefully, much of your belief system is made
up of healthy conclusions that allow you to conduct
life in a healthy manner. Every unhealthy thing in
your life is a result of your negative beliefs. Unfor-
tunately, we have more of these negative beliefs
driving us than we care to admit. These conclusions
that we have come up with is what creates our
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from experiencing all the goodness that life has to
offer. These negative beliefs can be called lies. We
live by a bunch of lies, because these beliefs do not
bring life (healthy balance) but death (decay) to our
spirit and flesh.

This process of living and making decisions by our

own beliefs happen in our subconscious mind. Try
labeling for 10 minutes all the beliefs that you are
living by as you observe each and every action and
thought… How exhausting! Just because they are
not in the for-front of our mind doesn’t mean they
are not there. Most of the time we are not even
aware that they are there; let alone realizing they
are driving our actions. It is as if every time we
made a conclusion about our world around us, we
put a coin in our pocket. We spend the rest of our
lives living according to the coins we carry. This is a
big burden that you drag around with you, there are
lots of coins weighing you down. Some may have
more than others, But EVERYONE has a bunch. This
is the flesh side of us that God refers to. If you were
born into human flesh (I’ll assume you are since you
are reading this book), then you have negative be-
liefs that you need to get rid of. If you don’t think
you do, then put down this book, you are in denial
and you don’t need this message.

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A good man brings good things out of the
good stored up in him, and an evil man brings
evil things out of the evil stored up in him.”

The process that God gave me to work out the neg-

ative beliefs is called Spiritual Renewal (SR). In order
to have peace you have to target the negative be-
liefs. It is in us, we need to get rid of it. This is what
it is talking about when it says:
Ephesians 4:20-24
“20
But that is not the way you learned
Christ! 21 assuming that you have heard
about him and were taught in him, as the
truth is in Jesus, 22 to put off by amnesty. The
only catch is your old self, which belongs to
your former manner of life and is corrupt
through deceitful desires, 23 and to be re-
newed in the spirit of your minds,24 and to
put on the new self, created after the like-
ness of God in true righteousness and holi-
ness.”
Right there, in scripture, it is supporting that it is
more than just believing in Jesus. You also have to
contend with your old self, face your flesh (nega-
tiveness). Work out your salvation with fear and
trembling.

Where do we start? At the beginning! It is proven

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life. Science has discovered that before the age of
five your brain is creating 700 neurological connec-
tions a second! Even while you are in the womb,
you are receiving information about life and con-
cluding about the world around you. After five, the
brain changes modes and starts learning by doing.
Therefore, five is the ideal age to start school. But
the timeframe before the age of five is the most im-
portant. This is when all your beliefs are formed. It
is incredible to think that every one of us are walk-
ing around living life according to what we con-
cluded before the age of five. No wonder things are
such a mess. It also brings new light to the im-
portance to the parenting of a toddler!

I came to wrong conclusions early on in my life as a

child, about who I was as a person and how I related
to the world around me. Because of the negative
beliefs that I held so fast to, I was unable to receive
a different or correct conclusion. I believed these
wrong conclusions were all true.

James 1:19-25
“19
Understand this, my dear brothers and sis-
ters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to
speak, and slow to get angry. 20 Human an-
ger[a] does not produce the righteous-
ness[b] God desires. 21 So get rid of all the filth
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 word God has planted in your hearts, for it
has the power to save your souls.
22
But don’t just listen to God’s word. You
must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only
fooling yourselves. 23 For if you listen to the
word and don’t obey, it is like glancing at
your face in a mirror. 24 You see yourself,
walk away, and forget what you look
like. 25 But if you look carefully into the per-
fect law that sets you free, and if you do what
it says and don’t forget what you heard, then
God will bless you for doing it.”
My Grandchildren are being raised with this
knowledge. My children are able to identify nega-
tive beliefs in their young babies and get rid of them
before they take root. We tracked my one grandson
after he was born and observed how much he cried.
We calculated that in the first three months he had
only cried about seven hours. We attribute this to
identifying the negative beliefs as soon as he
started to cry and amazingly, after going through
the Spiritual Renewal process, he would stop cry-
ing. Can you imagine what it would be like if the fu-
ture generation was raised like this! There is hope!

Ephesians 5:1-20
“ 1 Follow God’s example, therefore, as
dearly loved children 2 and walk in the way of
love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself
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up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice
to God.
3
But among you there must not be even a
hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of
impurity, or of greed, because these are im-
proper for God’s holy people. 4 Nor should
there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse jok-
ing, which are out of place, but rather
thanksgiving. 5 For of this you can be sure: No
immoral, impure or greedy person—such a
person is an idolater—has any inheritance in
the kingdom of Christ and of God. 6 Let no
one deceive you with empty words, for be-
cause of such things God’s wrath comes on
those who are disobedient. 7 Therefore do
not be partners with them. 8 For you were
once darkness, but now you are light in the
Lord. Live as children of light 9 (for the fruit of
the light consists in all goodness, righteous-
ness and truth) 10 and find out what pleases
the Lord. 11 Have nothing to do with the fruit-
less deeds of darkness, but rather expose
them. 12 It is shameful even to mention what
the disobedient do in secret. 13 But every-
thing exposed by the light becomes visible—
and everything that is illuminated becomes a
light. 14 This is why it is said: “Wake up,
sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will
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 you live—not as unwise but as wise, 16 mak-
ing the most of every opportunity, because
the days are evil. 17 Therefore do not be fool-
ish but understand what the Lord’s will
is. 18 Do not get drunk on wine, which leads
to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the
Spirit, 19 speaking to one another with
psalms, hymns, and songs from the
Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart
to the Lord, 20 always giving thanks to God
the Father for everything, in the name of our
Lord Jesus Christ.”
All the items on the immoral list given in the scrip-
ture above are things that people do when they live
by their negative beliefs. Wouldn’t it be nice to be
free from them? To live a life that you don’t have to
struggle just to make it through. That is a lousy ex-
istence.
Consider what the purpose of life is for. I have been
shown the meaning of life and I will share it with
you.
It is very simple actually. God, who is Spirit, wanted
to expand His existence. He took organic matter
(clay) and formed a planting pot, if you will, to put
a piece of His energy in. This acts as a sort of ‘pla-
centa’ for His life energy to develop into us. Once
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being born. We pass into the actual existence we
were meant for; Spirit. The biggest illusion is that
we die. Our flesh (this vessel) no longer sustains our
spirit, but we never really die. It says that all
through the Bible. And in Science. Energy is not de-
stroyed just transferred. Our time here in these
bodies are just a gestation time for God’s Spirit to
grow into a separate soul to exist in God’s world,
the spirit world. The parallel universe that is co-ex-
isting along with our physical universe. The church
uses the word faith incorrectly. They use it as the
same as trust and believe, but this is not the pur-
pose of the word. This is the real definition of “Faith
being the evidence of things unseen”, is acknowl-
edging that there is a spirit world engaging all
around us. The good news is that if your Grandma
died, she is not someplace away off in Heaven, she
is right here with you. If you were nice to her, then
she is probably helping and guiding you. This is why
God says Honor your parents, because there is no
love like the love of a parent, and when they pass
on, you definitely want them on your side helping,
so hopefully you had a loving relationship. That is
why it says if you honor them you will have a long
life. After they pass, mom and dad can be there in
the spirit world protecting you and covering for
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or were bitter towards your parents, they are less
likely to do for you in the Afterlife.
I have done many contacting of spirits and this mes-
sage rings true in all the encounters. Once you pass
on into the Afterlife, you become aware of what it
is all about. Many parents, (that I have contacted)
that passed while their child was still young, tell of
being there during the rough times and even pre-
venting tragedies from happening. They are grate-
ful that they were able to be there for their child in
spirit, therefore, grateful that they had died be-
cause they would not have been there to help in
that capacity if they were stuck in the flesh. Ironic
twist, don’t you think? We have been led to believe
that death is bad and lonely, but if you would just
be aware of the spirit world around you and have
faith, then you would know that you are far from
alone. Think of the freedom from sadness and guilt
if everyone would understand how it really works.
That is why the Bible says, “to die is to gain” and
“death, where is thy sting?”. When the Bible refers
to resurrection, it does speak of the physical resur-
rection for the believers in the end but spends most
of the time discussing the process of your spirit go-
ing from dead to living while this body is still alive.
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while you are still in your physical body (this is re-
ferred to in the Bible as the first fruits). Then when
your physical finally dies, you will have a second res-
urrection if you are one of the elect. Either way you
will become aware of what life is really about. Why
not experience this now? You can experience the
first resurrection when you go through the Spiritual
Renewal process. You get rid of all of your negative-
ness and become aware and acknowledge the spirit
world around you. That is why it is said that Jesus
was the first to be resurrected. Because he reached
full positiveness in the physical body. You too can
have this resurrection while you are still in physical
form. There is so much more of this topic that you
will learn while doing the Spiritual Renewal process.
You do not have to live in misery until your physical
dies… you can have freedom now!
There are five things that this ministry brings to the
world:
1. Restoring mankind back to God within
We cannot have peace on Earth without first
having peace in our neighborhoods. We
can’t have peace in our neighborhoods un-
less we have peace within ourselves. We
cannot have peace within ourselves until we
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tiveness). That is what the Spiritual Renewal
process is for.

2. Restoration of the lowly

It says in the end times the last shall be first,
and the first shall be last. This means the
lowly part of you will be raised up to a new
level, the lowly people in your neighbor-
hoods will be raised up to a new level, and
the lowly of the world will be raised up to a
new level. God says He will use the lowest of
the low to bring the message. This doesn’t
just mean poor people. You might have all
the money in the world, but you can be poor
in spirit. There is hope for the lowly.
3. The Spiritual Renewal Process
God has given me a process that works. It is
biblically sound. This process has been
proven 100% effective time and time again.
If you are coming against this process, then
you are against having peace within yourself,
your neighborhoods, and the world. Why ar-
gue against a cure?
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 We need to be enlightened about the reality
of the spirit world and the impact that it has
on our lives.
For centuries people acknowledged the
spirit world. But in our modern times we
have called it superstition and have disre-
garded the truth. Let’s restore the bridge be-
tween the two worlds and work together at
understanding better what is really going on
around us.
5. Learn how to connect to God
God created man to talk with God. The min-
istry brings back that communication so that
we can understand ourselves, others around
us and the world better. It brings us back to
understanding our true purpose on why we
are here. This brings enlightenment on the
Trinity. And accomplishes being of one mind.
Keep reading. There is hope!

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Chapter 6
Laws
Joshua 1:8
“This Book of the Law shall not depart from
your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day
and night, that you may observe to do ac-
cording to all that is written in it. For then
you will make your way prosperous, and then
you will have good success.”

If you aren’t aware of them yet, you should become

well acquainted with the Seven Laws of the Uni-
verse. You need to know these Laws because this is
what the world was built on. These seven can be
broken down into many more, but seven is the basic
number. To understand life, you need to under-
stand how these Laws work. God even says if you
follow these Laws, you will create success for your-
self.
God made the Laws of the Universe. He, Himself,
must follow those laws. He could have made up any
law to serve His purpose, when He was done put-
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laws and put life in motion according to those laws.
So, again, He must follow His own laws. Everything
that takes place in the universe is happening be-
cause life is responding to the Laws of the Universe.
If you are confused about the outcome of your life,
realize that your life has just been responding to
laws that you didn’t know were in play. We need to
get back to these laws for the world to work accord-
ing to what God had planned. Only after we start
understanding these and applying them in our life
will we fully experience the abundance that God
speaks about in His word. I will briefly cover these
Laws.
The Law of Gestation
This Law states that everything takes time to come
to existence. All things have a beginning and grow
into maturity as more energy is added to it.
If you are wondering why things that you want to
happen aren’t taking place, that is because the Law
of Gestation is in play. Find a purpose in life, focus
on and nurture that purpose and it will happen, it
just takes time. It is important that you remember
that you need to put into your universe to get out
of your universe. It is necessary to give God some-
thing to work with. But you can’t make it happen
any quicker, any more than a farmer can make the
corn grow faster. For example, God created seeds
to follow a path to become a plant. If you plant a
corn seed, you will get corn in approximately 95
days. It must follow the Law of Gestation, it is not
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instant- it takes a certain amount of time. The plant-
ing of the seed, mixed with other important ele-
ments, is what is necessary to have this process
come to completion. It must follow this law or else
you might plant a seed of corn and one time it might
take a year and the next time two days…whoa, that
would be a lot of confusion. Since God is not a God
of confusion, He chooses to follow all the laws He
established. That’s why everything happens in its
season; spiritually and physically.
To someone that has never seen a seed of corn
grow into a plant, that would seem like a miracle.
But if you understand the basic process, you would
consider it ‘normal’. You can make it NOT happen
by not watering or nourishing the plant (your hopes
for the future). I would not suggest sitting back and
saying, “God is going to do everything”. Stating this
would show that you do not understand how the
Universe works. Because man, as a whole, has lost
the deep understanding of life and how it works
spiritually, we find ourselves confused about how
we are in this negative situation in the first place.
So many people are frustrated in life because they
do not acknowledge this law.
Let’s go over some more of the Laws. I am going to
be very brief, but I encourage you to research these
laws on your own. There are many great resources
to help you.
The Law of Vibration/Resonation
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I cannot put enough emphasis on the power of our
thoughts and words. It is how the world was cre-
ated in the beginning and continues to be created
today. Everything owes its existence to sound.
Think about it, if God created the world with speak-
ing and we have God in us, then our surroundings
react because it is hearing a familiar voice. If you
are speaking and thinking negative, this is what
makes your world negative. It makes a huge impact
on the spirit world around us.
Matthew 15:18
“But the things that proceed out of the
mouth come from the heart, and those defile
the man.”

People want to be flippant with their words, joke,

or make comments that they claim are harmless,
but if they really understood this law, they would
know that every word out of their mouth has
power. Once it is spoken, that frequency is out
there and will have its effect, good or bad.
There is another aspect of this Law, let me describe
an example of how powerful this Law is. If I have
five pendulum clocks put on one wall, and they are
all tick-tocking at their own rhythm, after a short
time they will all be swinging in sync. They have,
through resonation, caused the others to align with
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The Law of Vibration states that everything is con-
stantly moving; vibrating. Nothing rests. As it vi-
brates, it creates a frequency and those having the
potential of the same frequency are drawn to each
other. This is called resonation. Another way this
law is presented is commonly described as the Law
of Attraction. Therefore, like is drawn to like en-
ergy. Scatter a bunch of sheep on a hillside and they
will all find each other and hang out. This might be
a crude example, but you get the idea.
Everything is energy, putting off energy; including
our thoughts or ideas.
My girlfriend and I went to Europe. As we traveled
through many countries, we found ourselves in an
environment where people were speaking a differ-
ent language and living a different life. We did not
resonate at all, we couldn’t. That happening is the
very definition of ‘foreign’. But as we traveled, we
always seemed to find other Americans. Now these
Americans may have been from a state far from
where I lived, but at that moment we were like
neighbors, long lost friends. It was an instant friend
feeling. We resonated, we had something in com-
mon. This is a very important law to be aware of as
you go through life. It is important to choose your
surroundings wisely because soon you will have
aligned with whatever you are around. Carefully
choose what you watch and listen to, make sure it
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by, because if you listen or watch enough, by law,
you must align and soon ‘swing’ in sync with it. Over
and over scripture talks about taking heed of this
law. Not understanding this law can be detrimental,
especially if you are unaware, because you have no
choice- it will happen. This can work to your ad-
vantage or to your demise. If you watch enough
horror flicks, you will invite horror into your life. If
you think negative thoughts about people, you will
create a lot of unnecessary drama. Many times, be-
cause we think we are immune to the effects of this
law playing out in our lives, we assume everyone
else is putting the negative on us. We think we are
having no influence how life is unfolding around us
and we are miserable. We don’t know how incredi-
ble and easy it would be if we would change all of
our actions to be positive, we would then get differ-
ent results.
Try it and see for yourself. Start only speaking posi-
tive words and you will see your world change. You
can make the Law of Resonation work for you.
When you meet someone new and you hit it off
amazingly well, you are experiencing the Law of
Resonation. This is why we have clubs or groups for
likeminded people. Not because we want to ex-
clude other people, but because there is a strong
feeling of unity when like-minded people come to-
gether. When groups are forced to include others
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the group and the bond is not strong, it is trying to
fight against the law. When everyone in the group
is of one mind, the power of that frequency in-
creases. This is how there is power in numbers, if
they are of one mind. It even says in the Bible that
people should be evenly yoked. The Bible states the
importance of sticking to this concept even when
planting a field of crops. Farmers plant their crops
in clusters so that pollination and soil health can
easily be tended to. Can you imagine if that farmer,
that is expected to supply a great amount of corn,
diversified and planted corn, beans, grapes, carrots
and peas every other plant? Then he couldn’t un-
derstand why all his time is spent fiddling with the
diversity instead of the efficiency of the whole field
being just corn.
This is why the Israelites were supposed to just
hang out with their own kind. This has nothing to
do with ‘not loving other people’, God tells us to
love everyone. The intent is to meet with others
with the same thinking to keep you strong and
solid. God was promoting order with good intent.
Discrimination has such a bad reputation, but if you
really think about it, this was His request all
throughout the Old Testament. Stick to your own
kind, marry within in your own people. He knows
how the laws are set up, and He wants it to go well
with you. I am not at all stating that mixed race cou-
ples are wrong. In fact, I strongly support this choice
if this is where you have found love. Our world
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needs to be cured from the bias that people hold
against other human beings. Once we remove
judgement then we can resonate more with greater
amounts of people.
This resonation effect can be found in our churches
today. The reason why mega churches have such a
‘feel good’ feeling is because the Law of Resonation
is being implemented. If you bring together any
great crowd of people and they are all searching
and they all have hope of an experience, then the
feeling will be strong in that place. Interview people
that come out of a great service from a mega church
and they sound like people that are leaving any
event where a group of people shared something in
common (like a rock concert). Both had amazing ex-
periences, both feel energized, both have been in-
spired. Both groups have experienced the Law of
Resonation. Many times, the euphoria on a Sunday
afternoon dwindles fast as you leave the atmos-
phere and find yourself once again in the grind of
life. Those churches that have a more upbeat ser-
vice have higher attendance and less people un-
happy with their religious experience. Hear me; I
am not saying that church is bad and that all people
that attend church are unhappy. I am saying that
unless you have experienced the depth of the real
message behind the purpose of God coming to
earth, you are working way too hard at experienc-
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This law also plays a part on how we have power
over the spirit world. Imagine that you have five
negative ancestors and five positive ancestors
around you. Because you are a blood relative, they
want to be there to help you on your journey. If you
are speaking negative, then you are summoning
and empowering those negative spirits. Remember
they want you to continue on that negative fre-
quency to resonate with you because that is the fre-
quency of their existence. But they have to leave
you alone if you are speaking positive. If you are
positive, then they have nothing to resonate with,
they must leave. Your positive energy then empow-
ers the positive spirits. You summon them and fuel
them to work in your life with your good words.
Trust me, you want to attract those spirits because
they are there to help you. Quit calling on the neg-
ative ones!
There is so much more to learn on this topic. Our
society has successfully produced uneducated peo-
ple that are clueless of the spirit world by calling all
of it superstition. I wrote a book called Insights to a
Parallel World to help reacquaint our culture with
interacting with the spirit world. It is not at all scary,
not if you are educated properly. Unfortunately,
contacting the spirit world has such a bad reputa-
tion because people don’t know what they are deal-
ing with and how to navigate it properly. The carnal
nature of man tends to go straight to the slums of
the spirit world, and they find they have bitten off
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more than they can chew. I show you how to stay
out of the ‘bad neighborhoods’.
More on the spirit world later.

Law of Gravity
We all know this law when it comes to the physical
world, but this is huge in the spiritual world also.
This law ties in with the concept of Karma, but it has
other applications also. God says that He is the
plumb line. Gravity doesn’t have to work hard at
hanging straight. It just does. The only thing that
will keep that line from hanging straight down is if
there is an outside force that is affecting it, maybe
a nail in the wrong place or the wind. Get rid of the
outside interruption and it hangs straight with no
effort. This is what happens when you get rid of
your lies. Being good just comes, no effort. No
struggling to try and do the right thing.
He doesn’t want you to work that hard. Loving Him
and being righteous is supposed to be fulfilling, not
a struggle. If you hear yourself saying that you are
struggling at this whole religious approach to life,
you are missing pieces to your puzzle. You are ex-
actly who God wanted me to reach when I wrote
this book.
And, I will say it again, if reading this causes you to
get angry and defensive then put it down. I am writ-
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I came for the ‘sick’ not the ‘healthy’ (those that
think they are fine just the way they are) ones.
Many Christians do not like this word Karma be-
cause it has ties to other religions. But Karma really
is just the Golden Rule rolled up into one word. In
the Bible it stated that if you cast your bread upon
the water, it will come back to you. Karma isn’t just
referring to bad things happening. It can be good
karma or bad karma. What you give out will deter-
mine what you get back. People are so confused
when they receive what they gave out. They don’t
want to believe they are the cause of their own neg-
ative situations.
The Law of Polarity
This Law states that everything has an opposite.
Hot-Cold, Light-Dark, Up-Down, Good-Bad. What
you are and what you are not, that is what defines
you. Polarity makes existence possible. This was the
concept that early writers were trying to convey
when it was written ‘In the beginning God created
the Heavens and the Earth...” He established the
Law of Polarity first so that everything was able to
exist in-between. The saying “To be or not to be”
sums it up very well. You pick, because what you do
not pick defines who you are just as much as what
you pick. Remembering this helps you to not judge,
because if everyone was exactly the same, then you
wouldn’t be able to be you. You must have some-
one that is not you for you to be you!
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Using the Law of Polarity, I am going to show how
sin is only a word used to describe ‘lack of God’.
Again. Law of Polarity states that there are extreme
opposites to everything: Tall-short, light-dark, hot-
cold, you get it. Tall can be measured, shortness
cannot, it is just a word we use to say ‘not tall’. Light
can be measured, but darkness cannot. These
words that we use, short or dark, don’t really exist,
they are just a state of not being the other. Since
God is light and dark is just lack of light, and since
sin is darkness, sin is only a word used to describe
lack of God. Therefore, sin has no power, this way
of thinking lines up with scripture. Because of this
law the scripture that explains that all sin is the
same makes sense. Lack of God is lack of God…it
doesn’t matter what you are doing. Lying or mur-
der; you are still lacking positiveness. If you walk
into a room that is dark and stub your toe, do you
say, “darn darkness!”, no, you say “I should have
turned on the light”. Sin is a word only used to de-
scribe what we are when we are not all positive,
when we live by our negative beliefs. This is what
makes God angry, because He is in all of us and He
is love. He doesn’t like it when we (the temple that
He is living in) keep walking through life in a nega-
tive state. He doesn’t like it! Get rid of the negative
beliefs! Then all that will be left is positiveness, then
100% God will be shining through you, then you will
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earth 100% man. Which the scriptures tell us over
and over to do.

The Law of Relativity

This Law states that nothing is what it is until you
relate it to something else. Point of view is deter-
mined by what the observer is relating to. The char-
acteristics, value, or quality of something can only
be measured in relation to another object. To be
able to say what something is, you have to be able
to say what it is not. If that was hard to follow, let
me give you an example. If you are standing in a de-
sert with nothing around are you tall or short? Nei-
ther, you just are. If there was a palm tree, you
would be short. If there is a small rock, you are tall.
Labeling who you are is determined by what is
around you.
In the beginning, it was just God and nothing (void).
In order for God to be labeled something, He had to
create something to be compared to something to
be able to define who He is. God’s identity is in who
He is and who He is not (He is not negative, Satan).
He called everything that He is good, so everything
that is not like Him is called evil. When He created
man, He increased His greatness. He is a forgiving,
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give, and so forth.

Not living by this law properly has caused so much

pain in peoples lives. We should be able to see
where someone is at and use it to learn from or in-
spire us. Instead we use it to negatively label others
around us with uneducated conclusions. We judge.
We decide whether someone should or shouldn’t
be without knowing the whole story. We are so
quick to conclude negatively about others around
us in order for us to feel better about our imperfec-
tions. I have found that those people that judge are
usually pointing out people that are doing the same
thing they are also guilty of. When I would do nice
things for people and they would be suspicious of
my motives, I knew that they did not go out of their
way to do nice things for people unless it was self-
serving. Beware of suspicious people because they
are hiding a lot.

I have a story that I use occasionally use to show

just how wrong we can be when we don’t consider
all the factors to the situation.

Let’s say that you have a view into a scene of a man,

a woman and a young child walking across a snow-
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nowhere. As they move across the field, you ob-
serve they are yelling at and start to hit the child
and it looks as though they are unnecessarily drag-
ging her through the snow. The typical conclusion is
to want to call child services and to question their
parenting approach. That poor, poor child. But now
let me add a little more information to the scene. It
is 30 below zero, their car broke down 5 miles up
the road and the walk has caused the girl to begin
to show signs of hypothermia. Help is just up the hill
if she would just hold on. Them keeping her coher-
ent is a matter of life and death. Knowing this now
makes them loving, caring parents trying to save
their child. Interesting how knowing the whole
story can change your conclusion. If only you knew
how many times you were wrong about someone. I
am sure you have experienced someone believing
another person’s side of the story and then con-
cluding something negative about you. We perpet-
uate that cycle in our own lives when we judge oth-
ers, God says then we will be judged. If you don’t
want people judging you, don’t judge. Live above
the law.

Another way this law is improperly implemented is

when comparing makes people feel worse about
themselves. I can’t tell you how many times people
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they would then say in a downtrodden voice, “oh, I
only have three.” As if I had six to make them feel
less accomplished because they only have three. Or
because I was always moving to a new place, I
would share my life experiences just to share who I
was, and they concluded I was just bragging in order
for them to look less than me. This was never the
case. As if I was sharing my blessing to make you
feel bad. I have always lived by the philosophy ‘you
do you and I’ll do me”. If you assume the worst in
people that means you offer your worst to the
world.

We need to stop judging. God requires it. I have

found the only way to do this without working so
hard at it is to do Spiritual Renewal. As you imple-
ment the process, the natural result is not judging
because you understand more clearly how the
world and people work.

God calls us to live above this Law. I have an easy

way for you to achieve His requirements. Spiritual
Renewal.

The Law of Divine Oneness

The next Law has to do with the fact that we are all
connected. Look how around in nature, everything
is in some sort of relationship with something else.
You don’t find a tree just floating around in the air.
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It has a close relationship with the soil; that soil
needs nourishment from the dead leaves, which
the tree must give up for the soil to be nourished,
so it can nourish itself. The more you consider the
other plants, bugs and animals involved, the com-
plexity of this connection increases. This phenome-
non of give and take in relationship to another is
how humans are supposed to work also. When we
start to understand that it is in our giving that we
can receive, then we will be more likely to give. But
it goes deeper than that. Realizing that everything
is made up of a combination of the same matter.
We are all powered by the same force, therefore
everything is just an extension of you. Spiritually
speaking we are all connected. When you interact
with others you are interacting with yourself. If I
treat you negatively, then I am, according to this
law, treating myself negatively. Energy is always be-
ing exchanged, it is you that gets to determine how
that exchange goes. That is why the Golden Rule is
so important. I should treat you the way I would
want to be treated. God emphasizes loving every-
one for your sake, not just for their sake. As you in-
teract with others around you, the God in you
should acknowledge the God in the other person. In
yoga, this is reinforced with the phrase “namaste”
which translated means ‘the God in me recognizes
the God in you’. To help mankind remember how
we should be treating others, God gave us the Ten
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rules that we should try to follow, but to help us
stick to the laws set in motion so that all will go well
with you.

The Law of Cause and Effect

Hopefully you are starting to make the connects be-
tween your life and why it is going the way it is.
The Law of Cause and Effect simply states that for
every effect, there is a definite cause, likewise for
every cause, there is a definite effect. Are you start-
ing to understand that all of these laws are con-
nected? Can you see why Karma is such an all-inclu-
sive word? This law is more proof that you are the
one creating your world, and you are the only one
that can change it. We really have been missing a
very fundamental truth in our world today. The Bi-
ble states this law as “you reap what you sow”.
There is the good side of this law and a bad side.
You can’t expect corn to grow unless you put corn
seeds in the ground, nor can you put corn seeds in
the ground and be surprised when corn grows up. If
you do negative, negative will happen. God had to
create this Law so He could create the world. He
spoke and because of this law things came into be-
ing. Once He was done creating the world the
power of this law didn’t stop. Which means when
you speak, you are creating. How long will we con-
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whatever we want with no consequences or that
someone can magically take it all away. Lucky for
you the Law of Gestation is also at play, so things
are not instantly appearing. But as you speak, your
universe starts to align itself so that what you speak
can come into existence. We are wired to be suc-
cessful. Positive people have learned how to use
this law in their favor for good things to happen to
them. They speak “I will make it” or “I can do this”.
They speak abundance in to their lives. But I want
to point out that, miserable people are also suc-
cessful at using this law, just not for the good. If
someone continues to speak “I am poor”, “I will
never have money” then they are speaking that into
existence, and they stay poor. They succeeded at
what they spoke.
This law doesn’t stop at thoughts or speaking, it also
includes actions. So, if you are tired of negative
things happening to you, step up the positive ac-
tions and things will change. They have to, it is the
Law of the Universe.
The same happens if you put in a ‘prayer request’.
You desire something- you want something
enough, so you keep putting positive thoughts to-
wards it. If it is a small thing, then the request can
be fulfilled soon. If it is a big request, then it will
take a little time. I like to describe it as a Universal
bank account. We all understand the concepts of
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the Bible says that it is counted as righteousness to-
ward you. Consider this a deposit in your Universal
bank account. But if you do negative it is a with-
drawal. If your request in life is big, then you will
have to make a lot of deposits in order to have
enough in your universal bank for that big thing to
come about. The problem is many people want big
requests filled but they haven’t deposited enough
in their account to fill that request. If you walk into
a bank and say, “I want a thousand dollars” and you
don’t have anything in your account, but you insist
on getting it anyway, this is called a bank robbery
and chaos follows because that is not yours to take.
But walk into the bank, say the same thing and you
have made enough deposits to cover your request
then the teller gladly gives you what you request
and you walk out, no problem. Today, too many
people ‘want’ when they didn’t deposit, and it up-
sets the whole balance of life.
A farmer isn’t surprised if he didn’t plant corn seeds
and goes out to his field and there is no corn. But
people are shocked when they ask God for, let’s
say, money to buy a car, but they have not given
away any money to anyone else. Remember the
Law of Divine Oneness says that if you do ‘it’ to
someone else you are doing ‘it’ to yourself. If you
want help, then give help and it will come back to
you. If you want understanding from someone then
give understanding and it will be given back to you.
Remember, the Bible says that if you cast your
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bread (what you have) upon the water, after many
days you will find it. It has to come back to you.
What are you casting out? Because whatever it
is…its coming back.
God says to give to the poor because you need to
be giving, not necessarily for the poor person’s sake
but for your own. Of course, a poor person could
use it, so you are double blessed. If you do give to
the poor, DO NOT make requirements about what
they should or shouldn’t do with the money. You
are not making an investment at that moment, you
are giving. You give because God tells you to, once
the money leaves your hands it is no longer your re-
sponsibility. God will then judge you on how well
you were willing to give. What they do with the
money is between that person and God. Do you
know that in the Bible it says leave the drunkenness
to the poor because this is the best feel-good they
have. I have bought a six pack for the homeless guy
on the curb. At least for the night he can forget his
misery and have some sort of feel-good. I do this in
order to try and balance out all the times that peo-
ple told them not to spend the money on beer. God
prefers to hang out in a temple that is happy rather
than one that is feeling miserable all the time. For
goodness sakes, let the poor man have a moment
of feel-good. You have the means to create small
moments of happiness in your life, like going to the
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homeless person goes to the movies? Almost never.
Let alone sit down and enjoy a hobby.
This Law of Cause and Effect is a big one. So many
people do not want to acknowledge that it is con-
stantly at play. Like the Law of Gravity, it never quits
working in our lives. Understand this law and learn
how to have it work in your favor.
Of course. These seven laws can be broken down to
several more, these are just the basics. You should
research other Laws of the Universe. I am not going
to do all of that work for you. There are plenty of
good books and resources that you can access to
help you enlighten yourself. Seek and you will find.
All of humanity needs to get back to understanding
these laws and start living by them. This is an im-
portant step in order to achieve Peace in the last
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Chapter 7
Religion
I write this understanding that your religion is near
and dear to you. If you are not religious, this chap-
ter will help you to understand why you are not re-
ligious. What is that belief based on? Do you really
know the origins of your faith or why you have no
faith? Have you been blindly accepting what you
have been taught as fact or have you stubbornly de-
nied something without knowing the origins of
what you are denying?
Regardless of what religion or denomination you
follow, if your belief includes loving others, improv-
ing yourself, and respecting your environment
then, up to this point you have been on the right
track. All of these beliefs come from the core of our
origin, and that source is from the highest good fre-
quency regardless of what name you give it. But in
order for us to achieve true peace in our world we
all have to be of one mind. We can agree that the
current set up of each of us going our own way
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that the very system that is set up for unity is actu-
ally the greatest force that has caused division.
Jesus, like many messengers throughout the centu-
ries, merely implemented the Laws of the Universe.
Acknowledging other prophets and messengers
doesn’t take away from Jesus. God says that He sent
many people all throughout history to try and get
His message out to mankind. Please do not assume
that I am down playing Jesus’ awesomeness, by no
means! But what is cool, is that the Bible says that
we will do things even greater than Jesus.
John 14:11-12
11
"Believe Me that I am in the Father and the
Father is in Me; otherwise believe because of
the works themselves. 12 “Truly, truly, I say to
you, he who believes in Me, the works that I
do, he will do also; and greater works than
these will he do; because I go to the Father.”

If Jesus is supposed to be the ultimate, then why

would it say we could do even greater things than
him? Personally, if I am going to have a superhero
that is going to save me, do I really want someone
that I can ultimately do greater things than? Jesus
went through his journey of overcoming the flesh.
Why do you think that he didn’t start his ministry
until the age of 30? It was only after his baptism
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journey takes time, that is why life is considered a
race. Moving from darkness to light. But this is
something that we do within ourselves; Jesus was
no different, he was born in flesh.
Remember he explains that his physical had to go
away so that his disciples could complete the pro-
cess of becoming all positive within themselves
without being distracted by the man Jesus. This is
the same process God wants us to accomplish to-
day. But you can only do that if you begin to really
study and learn how all this works. Begin to die to
who you are in the flesh (that would mean you
would have to start identifying all the things inside
of you that are anti-Christ; negative) and start to fill
the inside of you with all the things that are of
Christ; positive.
If you do not feel you have any negative beliefs to
get rid of, then you are deceived. If you have no
negativeness within then why would you need
God? You are your own god. I am aware that there
are plenty of people out there that would conclude
this very status. Just put this book down and keep
following yourself. I have no intention of trying to
convince you otherwise. Pride comes before the
fall.
But if you can bring yourself to a place to let your
guard down for just a moment and say “Ya, I am not
the person I want to be and if people could really
hear what I am thinking, they would turn and run or
beat me up…”. Then keep reading.

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 2 Cor. 3:14
“However, their minds were hardened, for
to this day the same veil is still there when
they read the old covenant. Only in union
with the Messiah is that veil removed.”

That union that it is referring to is the alignment of

your flesh to God’s Spirit within you. That is what is
going to save you. Becoming all positive.
I wish I knew whether you were grasping this con-
cept or not. If you were here in front of me I could
identify the deer in the headlights look and keep
giving example after example until I saw the famil-
iar ‘ah-ha’ look. But I can’t, so I will continue.
God is so big on symbolism. An excellent example I
gave before is when you take communion. To show
that it is all within yourself. It all takes place within
your own mind. That is why we are told to renew
our mind. Understanding or having enlightenment
about how it all works helps you to respond to-
wards others the way God would want you to.
The moment that you respond to anyone with
judgement and anger because they are speaking
against you, you do not have God in you.
I come in peace, understanding that this may be a
lot to take in. If you are angry with my message right
now, I do not judge you. I can’t judge you; I was
once there. I am only here to relay a message I have
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been given. I have no ill-will towards you if you
don’t believe my message, I am not here to force
anything on anyone. I just want you to experience
the freedom that I have found. Consider that you
are reading this for a reason. Consider that God led
you to this place so that you will have understand-
ing and have a chance to live in freedom.
We judge others out of fearful assumption about
the unknown. But each of us must have our own
personal journey with God. We are not allowing the
other person their own journey when we judge an-
other person if they are not living according to our
belief system. I seek after God Almighty and what
He wants of me. My journey is probably very differ-
ent than your journey. We each have different re-
quirements from God. We should be working to-
ward a common goal and we need to be given dif-
ferent tasks to complete that goal. God refers to
this as being the body of Christ.
Romans 12:4-5
“4
Just as each of us has one body with many
members, and not all members have the
same function, 5 so in Christ, we, who are
many, are one body, and each member be-
longs to one another…”

This is such an important concept I really want you

to grasp. Let’s say you are the ‘eye’ of this ‘body’.
An eye would not say to the ear, “why aren’t you

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blinking, you should be like me, you should be see-
ing and blinking.” But the ear has its own purpose.
Without either part, the body would not be com-
plete. This is how I can say you have to make the
journey your own. I do not mean that you should be
independent of the body, just play your part while
working towards the same goal. Let’s make a
healthy ‘body’ together. Quit judging other people
for not fulfilling the purpose that God gave you. Let
them live out their own purpose within the body.
Can you see how important it is for each member
to be doing their part effectively? You concentrate
on completing what you are called to do and let an-
other be accountable to God for completing their
task God has given them. You cannot judge another
person’s journey.
The moment you say the words “God wouldn’t do
that” you have limited God.
Philippians 2:13
“13
for it is God who works in you, both to will
and to work for his good pleasure.”

I know people that religiously follow their pastor

because he is such a ‘wise man’… ”Well, Pastor told
me that I should do this or shouldn’t do that” Last I
checked pastors are just humans like you and me.
And even though you may know one that is very
knowledgeable in the Bible, that person is not

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knowledgeable about your own personal relation-
ship with God. Trust me, they are still trying to get
it right themselves and now you want them to tell
you what God is saying to you too? Why don’t you
ask God yourself!! God gives us permission to do
this, actually, He desires it! Church should not be
promoting a cookie-cutter Christian. Should every-
one’s journey look the same? Of course, there are
the basics that we should follow so that God is evi-
dent in us, but the details need to be different.
He made you with your specific desires and enjoy-
ments. His goal is for you to live doing what you en-
joy while including Him in all of it, being grateful.
Let’s celebrate our differences while we work to-
ward a common goal.
God just wants to hang out in a peaceful place. Your
journey is exactly that…. your journey. Here’s the
verse.
Romans 14:4-6
“4
Who are you to be judging another
man's servant? To his own master he
stands or falls. And he shall be made to
stand because God is able to make him
stand.5 Again, on the other hand, some-
one may prefer one day above another
day for eating meat; but on the hand,
another may hold every day to be alike.

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 Let each one be fully convinced in his
own mind.”

I muse every time I read many of the Bible stories

when God uses people that the church would not
approve of; or situations the church would deem
improper. Um, what were the spies doing at a pros-
titute’s house in Jericho anyways? And what is with
these godly men hiding and letting Rahab lie to gov-
ernment officials for them and then sneaking out
the back door? Oh no, they would be reprimanded
by the church for such behavior. Yet, that is how
God began the process for the conquering of Jeri-
cho. God can use and do anything He wants. Re-
member Joseph after he was given a high position
in the kingdom? He planted a golden cup in his
brother’s bag. He set him up! The church would not
agree with such ‘evil’ behavior. Here’s the catch, in
the end, God judges the heart. What is in your
heart? What is your intent? If at this moment you
are judging another man’s journey, you are expos-
ing the fact that you do not live by God’s principles.
Besides, this scripture alone should keep you from
judging.
Luke 6:37
"Do not judge others, and you will not be
judged. Do not condemn others,
or it will all come back against you. Forgive
others, and you will be forgiven.”

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This is the classic reap what you sow. If you don’t
want people judging you, then don’t judge others.
1 John 2:4-6
“4
Whoever says, “I know God,” but does not
do what He commands is a liar, and the truth
is not in that person. 5 But if anyone obeys His
word, love for God is truly made complete in
them. This is how we know we are in Him: 6
Whoever claims to live in Him must live as Je-
sus did.”

Churches are full of people who are struggling with

not being whom they know they should be, but not
wanting to expose where they are at spiritually. It
would make their religion and God look bad. They
carry on and share with others that Jesus saves, but
they don’t quite understand what he’s saving them
from. I challenge Christians when they say, “I’m
saved”; “What are you saved from?”. Many of
them say “I am saved from my sins”. I then inquire,
“Oh, really? So, you do not sin?”. And they reply,
“Well, I do sin, but God forgives me of my
sin”. Then I challenge, “so, you are not saved from
your sin, you are just forgiven”. Why did Jesus say
to the women “your sins are forgiven now go and
sin no more.”? Then they say, “I have been saved
from hell”. Then I ask, “that means you’re going to
Heaven?”. And they say “yes!”. Then I remind

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them that the Bible says the Kingdom of Heaven is
now. So, do you feel that your current life could be
described as heaven? Most then can only agree
that their life is full of stress, relationship problems,
anger and bitterness and a lot of unanswered ques-
tions. But many say that life will be better once I
die and go to Heaven. They spend their life in mis-
ery, waiting for it to be better on the other side.
I have heard many pastors preach that to live the
Christian life is probably the hardest thing you will
ever do. But what about when Jesus said, “my bur-
den is easy, and my yoke is light”?
1 Cor. 1:18
“For the message about the cross is nonsense
to those who are being destroyed, but it is
God's power to us who are being saved.”
This passage is present tense “are being destroyed”
it is referring to a present life that is destruc-
tive. This scripture and many others are trying to
get the message across that we must die to our-
selves daily and live as Christ. It is God’s power
working through us (the positive side of us) that is
saving us from that which had us in bondage. And
all of it is taking place here on this earth while we
are still alive. If you are going to church and claim
to be a Christian and your life is miserable what
good is your religion doing for you? It says right
there, in the verse, that the idea of the cross is non-
sense if you are living the life of destruction.
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Again, destruction is anything that is of a negative
nature, anger, bitterness, envy, gossip…

James 1:19-25
“19
Understand this, my dear brothers and sis-
ters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to
speak, and slow to get angry. 20 Human an-
ger does not produce the righteousness God
desires. 21 So get rid of all the filth and evil in
your lives, and humbly accept the word God
has planted in your hearts, for it has the
power to save your souls.22 But don’t just lis-
ten to God’s word. You must do what it says.
Otherwise, you are only fooling your-
selves. 23 For if you listen to the word and
don’t obey, it is like glancing at your face in a
mirror. 24 You see yourself, walk away, and
forget what you look like. 25 But if you look
carefully into the perfect law that sets you
free, and if you do what it says and don’t for-
get what you heard, then God will bless you
for doing it.”
Each time you choose to get rid of any negative be-
lief system that you have, you are coming before
God and laying down your life, dying, so you might
live. You are standing on holy ground. Flesh keeps
us limited, it is only aware of its own boundaries.
The Spirit is aware of everything. The more flesh
you have, the less the Spirit is able to operate in the
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body. The more you die to your flesh, the more
room the Spirit has to work. When you have com-
pletely died to flesh, you are now wide open and
can see things as God sees things. That is exactly
what He wants from us.

Romans 5:9-11
“9
Since we have now been justified by his
blood, how much more shall we be saved
from God’s wrath through him! 10 For if,
while we were God’s enemies, we were rec-
onciled to him through the death of his Son,
how much more, having been reconciled,
shall we be saved through his life! 11 Not only
is this so, but we also boast in God through
our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have
now received reconciliation.”

Ephesians 2:13-18
“13
But now in Christ Jesus you who once were
far away have been brought near by the
blood of Christ.
14
For he himself is our peace, who has
made the two groups one and has de-
stroyed the barrier, the dividing wall of hos-
tility, 15 by setting aside in his flesh the law
with its commands and regulations. His pur-
pose was to create in himself one new hu-
manity out of the two, thus making peace,
16
and in one body to reconcile both of them
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 to God through the cross, by which he put to
death their hostility. 17 He came and
preached peace to you who were far away
and peace to those who were near. 18 For
through him we both have access to the Fa-
ther by one Spirit”

The two groups that are being referenced here is

the flesh and the spirit within our own being. The
God in us being recognized so that our flesh follows
this spirit, not just the flesh. Too many people are
walking around thinking that we are just bodies and
our spirit is something that we acknowledge on
Sundays. But peace comes when you realize that
your existence is the flesh (negativeness) and the
spirit (positiveness) inside of you and you get rid of
your negativeness (flesh) so that the positiveness
(spirit) will rule your being.

God has been trying to send this message to us

since the world was created. He wants us to get this
message. I am telling you the same message, just in
modern words. Remember we have been using a
handbook that was written centuries ago.

To really grasp what the Bible is saying, you would

have to consider the culture at the time it was writ-
ten. This is such a key factor on knowing what it is
that God wants from us, but too many times people

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want to insert their cultural spin to God’s Word. I
know I keep repeating this, but it is so important to
understand.

Here is how it went down. After God creates hu-

mankind, He singles out a group of people to share
the ins-and-outs of the world He created. He set
them aside and asked them not to mingle with eve-
ryone else or they won’t be able to concentrate on
what He is saying. Once He establishes a group of
people to share the rules that this world is based
upon, He starts having them take notes. He explains
who He is, His likes and dislikes, and then breaks it
down how mankind relates and fits in with the
world around them. (There are some amazing an-
cient texts that prove this) But He knew that if they
didn’t stick together as a group, this information
would be lost.

That’s why He really emphasized for them to just

hang out and stay with themselves.

Now He has a group that is really listening and start-

ing to get into the groove of how this whole inter-
action/relationship thing works. Interestingly, He
was only able to get their attention after they had
gone through the lowest point in life. Note that
these rules and regulations were given to the cho-
sen people out of love. He didn’t come up with a

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bunch of rules to make everyone feel bad about
their behavior. What was working in His favor is
that He has them depending on Him out in the de-
sert. He just wants them to follow His rules. Up to
this point things are going well.

So, let me back up for a moment and give you some-

thing to relate it to:

We were a military family for 15 years. As I started

having babies, I started raising them according to
how my household was going to be run. I am sure
that you do the same. This wasn’t considered limit-
ing my children, I was just raising them per my rules.
Would you consider me mean or selfish?

Then- can you believe it- I started laying down some

‘pretty harsh’ rules like: sit down properly in your
seat, don’t run into the street, no whining, brush
your teeth (not once but twice a day) Boy! I was just
a mean and demanding Mom! I started explaining
things like: if you touch a stove while it is on, it will
be hot. But some concepts aren’t so cut and dry.
That stove sometimes is not hot and if it is electric,
it may not be glowing red, but it still could be hot.
There is a lot to learn!

In order to teach my kids about how life was going

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home and not have them go live at any house they
wanted to in the neighborhood. This was easier to
do when the kids are super little, not much argu-
ment or questioning the validity of mom’s authority
or intent then. When I disciplined my child for ac-
tions outside of what I set as proper and safe, I was
just teaching them how life works and that there
are consequences for not following the rules. When
I had my children, my goal was not to just have obe-
dient children, but I wanted to concentrate on rais-
ing healthy adults.

At this point, as a parent, if you are not requiring

your child to follow rules and to learn self-disci-
pline, you are teaching them to be a dysfunctional
adult. A child will not magically learn it later. Any
approach to life that they learn, especially bad
ones, form before the age of five. These habits are
harder to reverse later because to reverse bad hab-
its it takes discipline (unless, of course, you use Spir-
itual Renewal. Then it is easy). If you did not teach
discipline, then you did not give them that tool they
would need to overcome.

Back to my example. Life is flowing along, and eve-

rything is fine and dandy. We have a routine at
home, and they are starting to get that Mommy’s
rules are there for their own good. Then my kid
sleeps over at another house. For the first time,
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they start to realize that there are other groups out
there that aren’t following the same set of rules!
Why do I have to go to bed at 9:00 when Sara
doesn’t have to go to bed until 10:00? I found my-
self having to say things like “I am not concerned if
the family down the street drinks soda at dinner, we
are not going to do that here”. You can imagine the
list goes on and on. Not that anything is necessarily
wrong with any of the other things that families
were doing, it’s just that it isn’t going to fit in very
well in our house. As a mom, I must stay firm and
focused.

I want to provide a place where my children can live

and grow; have fun and be themselves in a safe en-
vironment. You can only provide safety if you have
rules, and you can only establish rules if you have
consequences for not following them. My children
quickly learned that if they stuck to the rules then
life went a lot smoother for them. Those that stuck
to the rules spent more time playing and having
fun, and those that didn’t- spent more time with a
sore butt or sitting on the sidelines watching every-
one else play.

Are you still with me? Are you seeing the parallel-
ism? God just wants us to understand how the
world He made works and how to have it work in
your favor. That’s why God has so many rules.
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After He sets up his people, it didn’t take long for
His people to want to do things another way. But
God had to stick to his rules, and He had to enforce
those rules. Somehow that makes Him a bad God?
Many people shake their fist at God. “God how
could you let me reap what I am sowing? How could
you let the Law of Cause and Effect happen in my
life?”

Soon His chosen people don’t even want to speak

with Him directly. They appointed people like Mo-
ses to speak to God for them. They still grumbled
and complained. Then they started rebelling
against those people that God sent to help; because
they are holding them accountable to following the
rules. So, the prophets come and go. In fact, God
says that He sent prophets knowing that the people
would get pissed and kill them! Then at some point,
people stopped communicating with God alto-
gether. Thus, the hundreds of years’ gap while they
were in slavery. Later, the people said “God, we
want a king instead, like all of the other people
around us.” First God said… (the paraphrasing is
mine) ”Really? Can’t you just be happy with me?
Kings really are a hassle and you have to work for
them and give your money to them…” But His peo-
ple insisted, so He gave them a king that they de-
served, that ended up not being the best guy (Saul).

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Slowly the Israelites ‘removed’ themselves out of
the direct line to God. But the big problem it is im-
possible to remove God. You can’t hide. He is in eve-
rything, He is light - He is energy.

Can you imagine how it must have looked to God,

man ‘removing’ Him? Like a 2-year-old hiding under
a blanket playing hide and seek.

In the mornings, when my kids were little, they

would all come and curl up in bed with me. That is
how we would start our homeschooling day. I even
taught them to make coffee and they would take
turns picking a china cup from my collection to
serve the coffee to me. After we all laid around for
a time in the morning laughing, joking and talking,
it was time to start the day. I would get out of bed
and proceed to ‘make the bed’. The game would
proceed with them laying really still on the bed
while I stated quite loudly “Gee, I wonder where the
kids are?” as I laid the covers out over the bed. Un-
der the ‘smoothed’ covers, I would hear muffled
giggles as they would lay as still as could be. Again
perplexed, I would ask “where are the kids?? They
must have all gone to their rooms”, as I continued
to make the bed. Then I would start to feel the
bumps and wonder out loud why my bed was so
bumpy. Do you know, each one of them at a young
age truly thought I did not see them! They would be
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giggling and squirming, thinking they were hidden.
The game would end with me laying across my bed
confused why suddenly “my bed was so lumpy” and
“I guess I would have to start my day without
them”. And every time they would burst out from
the covers exclaiming ‘Here I am Mommy, I was un-
der the covers the whole time!” Each time they felt
the need to convince me that they were not in their
room, but they were under the covers the whole
time!

I guess you could wrap up maturity in one phrase.

Maturity is when you realize God is everywhere and
you quit acting like He doesn’t know.

So, back to God’s dilemma. These people think that

they can carry on however they please, but there
does come a time when God hides His face from His
people (this just means He quits trying to get
through to you). Now, reality check. Even though
the Israelites were doing their own thing, God was
still in control of the Universe, there were plenty
that worshipped God even when the Israelites
didn’t. The Israelites were a people that were cho-
sen to pass on all the specifics on how the world
was put together, what an honor. But there were
times when they had removed themselves so far
from acknowledging God they suffered. Finally,
when they suffered enough God remembered His
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people once again after hundreds of years. Don’t be
one of these people. If you ignore God, He will get
silent. Do you really want to push God to that point?

If you understand that this is God’s story, His movie

if you will, that He is producing. He already has the
entire script in hand, and He is directing each scene.
Some people He chooses to be main characters,
some supporting roles, and the rest are just extras.
We get to choose by our own willingness and obe-
dience whether we get a role or not. He only wants
those actors that are easy to work with, know how
to follow directions, and understand the big pic-
ture. He wants people that are listening to His di-
rection and stick to the lines He gives them. Some-
one who is willing to give up their own desires and
take on what His desires are for His movie. What
happens beyond the main set is just on auto pilot,
governed by the Laws of the Universe. Here’s a brief
layout of the script so far.

The most encouraging revelation I have received

explains why the churches approach isn’t enough. If
we can liken the maturation of humankind to that
of our own maturing process it can be easily under-
stood.

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Peace with
God Infancy
Adam and 2,100 years
Eve Adolescence
The beginning
1,950 years
of mankind
Abraham

Removal of
foreskin fore-
shadowing that Moses
it is your own
The law was
flesh (negative-
given to help
ness) that you
mankind un- Elijah
need to get rid
der-stand that
of within your- The fore-
they need to
self. Men espe- telling of Je-
change their
cially. sus and the
own behavior
idea that the
in order to
respon-sibil-
have peace
ity will be
with God. Be-
moving to a
cause of the
man.
immaturity of
man-kind, ani-
mals pay the
price.

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 It is Time!
The Maturing of mankind

Peace with God

Peace on Earth
Adulthood
Mankind getting
rid of their nega-
tiveness so they
can be restored
back to God

Teenage
1,985 years

Jesus
The bridge between
the idea of animals
suffering the conse-
quences of mankind’s Sandra Kay
sin and it being a hu- The message that
man that must an- mankind needs to
swer for bad behavior take responsibility for
their own actions

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When God first created mankind and He provided
everything for them, much like infants- everything
was done for us. But soon, like toddlers, we wanted
to try things our way. That is when mankind tried
out freewill. Like toddlers, mankind got in trouble
and had to suffer consequences. You don’t have to
have a list of rules for an infant, but the rule list
grows as that infant begins to mature and realizes
they can do things on their own. For mankind, this
is when God gave Moses the Law. But there had to
be a way to ease the guilt of breaking the law, so
God gave animal sacrifice to ‘pay’ for their wrong
doing. I liken this to when you tell a toddler to not
pull the dog’s tail, but the child does it anyway. Let’s
say the child pulls the dogs tail and suffers the con-
sequence when the dog turns and snaps at the tod-
dler. The owner is not going to beat the child for the
injury but will discipline the dog instead. The dog
then has to suffer for the child’s wrong doing. This
is the parallel between animal sacrifice for man’s
wrong doing. The purpose of sacrificing animals was
supposed to free mankind of their guilt, but through
the years the religious leaders added more require-
ments to what God had instated. It then became a
burden for mankind and basically backfired and dis-
torted the original intent. God then made a new
covenant with man. It does say in the Bible that the
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that means. Mankind was maturing and the culture
of the time was used to sacrifices and something
else paying the price for their sin, so God sent Jesus.
Jesus a human that was willing to give up his own
free will, listen to the director and follow the script.

This was the next step. Jesus was acting as a bridge

between something else paying the price and bring-
ing the idea that you are responsible for your own
actions closer to home. Jesus became the sacrificial
lamb that would pay the price; it was to show that
it is a human that needs to take responsibility. This
timeframe in history is likened to the adolescent/
teenage years. If your child does something they
shouldn’t, let’s say, damages someone’s property;
as a parent, ultimately you pay the price because
your child cannot afford the cost, it comes out of
your pocket. They should be the one paying for it,
but they are not mature enough to take full respon-
sibility. But at least we are getting closer to the final
idea that each person is responsible for their own
actions. Mankind proved their immaturity in han-
dling this message when the early church ran into a
problem with the scriptures about dying to your-
self. It was grossly misunderstood, and the church
faced an epidemic of suicides. This is when the
church had to make suicide a damnable sin, to steer
people away from this practice. Then, like the first

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plan for redemption, the religious leaders started to
add to the requirements and burden the people
with more rules. More than God ever intended. The
simple message of ‘be like Christ and be willing to
suffer even the sins of others’ was totally misunder-
stood and the message that truly causes freedom
was lost. He was used as a scapegoat. The message:
Let someone else pay for your wrong doings and
don’t take the responsibility for your own actions
became the accepted tradition. But just because
your momma did it doesn’t make it right.

But now mankind has matured. Now-a-days when

we talk of sacrifice, we are not thinking blood and
killing, we understand that this is a spiritual choice
not a physical one. Athletes sacrifice a ‘normal’ life
to one of great discipline for the sake of their fans.
No brutal killings going on here, just sacrificing
themselves in their life choices. Now that mankind
has matured enough to understand that all of this
takes place in the mind, God can now bring His final
covenant. The one that will bring peace on earth
and oneness with God. The process that I am going
to explain to you causes you to take responsibility
for your own actions. You can’t blame others
around you. You begin to understand that you are
the only one responsible for what is going on in your
life. The good news is: if you don’t like what is going

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on, you can change it. It takes mankind away from
the victim mentality to empowerment that they can
change their world. This leads to freedom. This is
ultimately what God intended all along! Just as the
teenager moves from someone else paying the
price to taking responsibility for themselves as they
move into adulthood, so God is ready for mankind
to take this last step of maturing. If an adult gets a
speeding ticket, they cannot blame the guy in front
of him who was also speeding, nor can they blame
the cop for doing his job. He ultimately must take
responsibility for his own actions, pay the fine and
hopefully he learned and won’t do it again. No one
is showing up and taking the consequences from
him, he pays them himself.

As I speak to people about their lives, so many peo-

ple are convinced their problems are not them but
everyone else. This is the environment that the
church has fostered; the victim mentality. It is time
for mankind to move beyond the blame game and
start taking responsibility for their own choices so
they can be empowered to change. This will bring
mankind closer to God, when they understand that
it is all within themselves, then they will realize that
God is within them also. No more searching for
God, hoping for more of Him…He has been right
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Him? The next chapter will give you the tools to do
just that.

Knowing how the maturing process of the mind has

unfolded allows us to know God better. Likening
our personal growth with the growth of humankind
allows us some deeper insight to who God is.

We all gladly accept that we are made in God’s im-

age. Just to clarify, this means that you will agree
with me that we have been given the same attrib-
utes and behaviors as God. God can do whatever He
wants because His actions are driven by love and
good intent for us. I have come to realize that God
is the master manipulator. Hear me out before you
get hot under the collar.

Mothers are also master manipulators. To the

three-year-old, “That is the most beautiful picture
in the world!” To the five-year-old, “you are the
fastest runner ever!”. Every one of these lies have
good intent behind them, so they are accepted in
our society. But if we are going to be real, they are
still lies. The scripture that reads “do not bare false
witness” is not the same kind of lying. The com-
mandment refers to: a statement given that is not
true to the detriment of another person. If you
know your scripture, then you recall when, God
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the issue; if it was the lying that was wrong, then
God would not have done it. It is the intent behind
it. If you have good intent, then making an ‘untrue’
statement is acceptable. Men know this all too well
when their woman asks, “Do I look fat?” Best to say
“No” even if they are, so that you can move them
closer to self-love. God, because He is only Spirit,
uses manipulation to create, provide, and com-
municate. If you are immature and not understand-
ing greater things, then He will create an illusion
(like a parent does to a child) to keep someone
moving in a positive direction. This is why He loves
symbolism and rituals. They are speaking His lan-
guage. Start speaking and listening to His language.
Start reading your universe, start being aware of
the signs that God is giving around you. Start being
aware of what God is trying to tell you.

The next chapter is so important because I will in-

troduce you to a way to talk directly to God, Muscle
Testing. You can now have direct access to exactly
what God is trying to tell you. No more guessing or
going on a gut feeling.

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Chapter 8
Communication
This world has gone way too long not properly talk-
ing with God. Yes, yes, I know, you say you talk to
God all the time. But you talk to Him on your terms.
You have a one-way conversation with Him and
conclude within yourself His answer. The voice in-
side your head you hear is currently controlled by
your flesh. You have a gut feeling that you follow
and are proud of yourself that you have this special
knowing about what God wants. I know, I used to
be there. But I am here to tell you that what you
have been experiencing is baby talk compared to
what you are really capable of when it comes to
hearing and talking with God. So, if your form of
communication has brought you miracle after mir-
acle daily and a bunch of hidden blessings and
abundance, then by all means, keep doing what you
are doing. But I know that what you experience isn’t
even close to what you can be receiving.
Let me give you an analogy. Let’s say there is a field
full of 100 gold coins. What you are doing now is
digging at random and happening across a random
gold coin and calling that a blessing. But you waste
a lot of your time working and digging with no re-
sults. If I gave you a metal detector, you wouldn’t
waste your time at all digging unless there was a
gold coin; you would be able to find all of them fast.

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The metal detector is equivalent to the method I
would like to show you.
Remember, God is Spirit. His language is energy.
Luckily, He also uses symbolism, which accommo-
dates our physical world. This has been the most ef-
fective way for Him to get our attention, but, many
of us are not listening or observant enough to get
it. There is also the interpretation factor. How do
you know whether you are interpreting things cor-
rectly? In the end, it is a shot in the dark. Wouldn’t
you like a more accurate approach? I am not saying
you haven’t been hearing from God, I am just say-
ing, it is time to improve your skills and I have the
tools that will help you do just that.
In the beginning, when mankind was innocent, they
were aware of the spiritual world around them and
walked and talked with God. This changed after the
curse. When God established the High Priests, He
gave them the Urim and the Thummim so they
could communicate through yes and no answers.
This gave God an avenue to manipulate energy to
give a clear answer to man.
Exodus 28:30
“You are to put the Urim and the Thummim
into the breast piece of decision; and they are
to be over Aaron’s heart when he goes in be-
fore the Lord. Aaron is to bear the decisions
of the Israelites over his heart before the Lord
continually.”
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Many scholars would say that God removed this
form of communication, it was only for the Old Tes-
tament. I would argue that this is still a form of com-
munication with God, He didn’t remove it; humans
are the ones that stopped doing it. Just as the Isra-
elites wanted to have someone speak to God for
them instead of hearing from Him directly. Just like
the tool that God gave the priests back then, He has
given me a tool that is easy for anyone to use.
So, how do I hold conversations with God? Muscle
Testing (MT).
Muscle Testing is used as a form of communication
and works on energy and friction for the answer.
Many people in this world use Muscle Testing for
many different uses. If you have ever been to a chi-
ropractor or holistic medicine practitioner, you may
have experienced this type of communication. I am
not going to spend too much time explaining how.
You can look up many techniques on the internet
and find the science behind it. I am introducing an
expanded use for this tool.
This approach using this technique has been tried
and tested for over 16 years. People in the past
have tried to use MT in the way that I am going to
describe to you, but they did not couple it with get-
ting rid of your negativeness nor include seeking af-
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 John 15:15
“I no longer call you servants, because a
servant does not know his master's busi-
ness. Instead, I have called you friends, for
everything that I learned from my Father I
have made known to you.”

I am not talking about just ‘Dear God’ one-sided

conversations. I am talking about ‘hey, what’s up’
back and forth dialog. It says in the Bible that we
can know the mind of God. Intent and positive en-
ergy plays a big part of the accuracy of ot. And it is
never meant for fortune telling. Muscle Testing is
just for each moment, for the present time that you
are inquiring about.

On the same principle of the Urim and the Thum-

mim; I use Muscle Testing for a strong or weak re-
sponse indicating a ‘yes’ and ‘no’ answer. Practi-
tioners may use your arm held out straight and
push down after presenting a question. It really is
amazing to watch.

I use a one-handed technique; I place my thumb in

the curve of my bent index finger. I apply a little
pressure. If it holds firm, then it is a ‘yes’. If it slides,
then it is a ‘no’. Another way to show that this is not
me controlling this phenomenon is by swallowing.
Try this. Say out loud, “yes, yes, yes” then swallow.
Swallowing is easy. Then say “No, no, no” then try

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and swallow. It is difficult. That is because “no”, is a
negative word, it stops the flow of energy. You can’t
control it. It is just science.

I know at this point many people are challenged at

the spiritual validity of this approach, but at least
hear me out.

First off, if you believe in the Bible, 40% - 60% of the

events that take place in the Bible are of a mystical
nature and are unexplainable. If you want to argue
that many of the stories were just parables or alle-
gories to represent what the writer was trying to
convey, then consider that even believing that radio
waves exists requires believing in unexplainable
and unseen things.

Can you explain radio waves without just saying “I

believe by faith”? If you believe the stories in the
Bible, then we can agree that you do believe in di-
vine occurrences. Are you surprised that His lan-
guage follows suit?

God is just amazing! He is not limited, so if He wants

to communicate through me by Muscle Testing, He
does, and I don’t limit Him.

The other response I have encountered is that the

approach is evil and of the devil. First let me remind
you that the religious leaders said the same thing of
Jesus.

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 Matthew 12:24-26
“24
But when the Pharisees heard this, they
said, "This man casts out demons only by Be-
elzebul the ruler of the demons." 25 And
knowing their thoughts, Jesus said to them,
“any kingdom divided against itself is laid
waste; and any city or house divided against
itself will not stand. 26"If Satan casts out Sa-
tan, he is divided against himself; how then
will his kingdom stand?”

So how can you tell that it is not from evil? My

fruits. The result of my Muscle Testing communica-
tion with God results in freedom, peace, joy, wis-
dom, and life. If it was from any other source the
outcome would be different.

In the end, it is just science. Since everything is put-

ting off a frequency, I am just intercepting the fre-
quency which is the highest good. Since God is the
highest good, it is God that I am connecting with.
The Bible calls it the Holy Spirit, the highest good
frequency. Like tuning into a radio station. Those
music frequencies are in the air all the time, but you
only receive the information when you tune into
that frequency. We don’t think that is weird, right?
Did you know that when radio first came out people
said it was of the devil? It was strange and differ-
ent. I am just delving deeper into the possibilities

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that God’s creation has to offer, exploring unfamil-
iar, uncharted territories. What I am doing has been
proven again and again, not just with me but with
all of those that are on this journey. I hear so many
amazing stories about others that are Muscle Test-
ing and getting amazing answers and blessings!

But in the end, you cannot argue my experience. If

you shared with me that you received a phone call
yesterday and the news you received made you
happy, I would not question your experience. I
wouldn’t say, “I didn’t hear the call so are you sure
it happened, or maybe you just thought you were
happy.” Afford me the same courtesy. God has
proven Himself to me with this form of communica-
tion again and again for years. You couldn’t con-
vince me otherwise.

When I come before God as His child, wanting to rid

myself of anything that might get in the way of us
having a healthy relationship, I know, that I know,
He will not turn me away. I know that He will meet
me and help me because He wants what is best for
me.

Matthew 7:8-10
8
"For everyone who asks receives, and he
who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it
will be opened. 9Or what man is there anong
you who, when when his son asks him for a

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10
Or if he asks for a fish, he will not give him
a snake, will he?”

I believe. I have faith. I know that He will answer my

questions; directly, immediately. I talk with Him all
the time. I ask His opinion on everything.

Numbers 27: 21
“And he shall stand before Eleazar the priest,
who shall ask counsel for him after the judg-
ment of Urim before the Lord: at his word
shall they go out, and at his word they shall
come in, both he, and all the children of Israel
with him, even all the congregation.”

Every word of this book was tested. Every response

that I give someone, He is guiding me through my
testing. If I feel the need to respond in an aggressive
way, I test it first, to see if my heart is pure or if I am
responding out of my flesh. It turns out that always
responding sweet and calm is not always appropri-
ate in God’s eyes. You find out more about what
God likes and doesn’t like and begin to really know
God. Once I started MT, I developed an intimate re-
lationship with God. I wanted His input on every-
thing!!

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 I Corinthians 9:27
“But I discipline my body and make it my
slave, so that, after I have preached to oth-
ers, I myself will not be disqualified.”

I have many stories to tell of how amazing Muscle

Testing is for me, but there is one that is undeniable
proof. I want to tell you what happened.

I had a very important meeting that I was to attend

where I had to present information that I had gath-
ered to a group of people. Two days before the
meeting I was wanting to spend time organizing all
the information into a presentation. Since I ask God
all the time how I should spend my time, I had asked
if I should work in the presentation. God said “No”.
Thinking I had two days to work on it, I inquired the
next day and God said “No” again. At this point I am
reminding God that this is an important meeting
and people would be counting on the information.
I knew I would have some time in the morning be-
fore I left, so, being obedient and trusting God, I still
did not spend my time on the presentation. The
morning of the meeting I got up early and inquired
again. Again, I got a “No”! At this point you can im-
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But God has never failed me before, so I gathered
all the scattered notes and got ready for the meet-
ing. Before I leave the house, I always ask if there is
anything more I need to do or take with me. Curi-
ously, I tested that there was something I was miss-
ing, so I started inquiring what it was. I tested that
it was in my closet. Going to the closet, back in the
corner I tested that I should put on a back brace that
I hadn’t had to use for a long time. The kind that has
a hard panel in the front for support. I reminded
God that I was healed and didn’t need it, but it still
tested to put it on. Obediently, I put it on thinking,
“well, maybe the hour drive to the meeting is going
to make my back hurt… who knows.”.

It had been raining that morning and traffic was

heavy as I was nearing my exit. I got distracted for a
moment putting the shoulder brace part of my seat-
belt behind me (it tested beneficial to do this) and
at the last-minute I realized I was about to miss my
exit. I quick turned the wheel to make the exit and
started hydroplaning. I over corrected twice being
able to stay in my lane, but the third time I found
myself doing a U-turn in the middle of the highway
heading right toward a Semi truck in the lane next
to me. I was going about 60mph when I started to
hydroplane, and the trucker said he was going
about 50mph. So, at an impact force of 110mph I
hit this truck practically head on! My car hit the
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My head hit the steering wheel and I passed out.
My car ricochet off the front of the truck and swung
around and hit the side of the truck then was flung
off to the side of the highway. I had tire marks from
the truck on the side of my vehicle and my axel was
broke.

Now, remember, this is happening approaching a

big city, there was heavy traffic and spaghetti road-
ways with guard rails. My car was planted in a short
section the highway shoulder that that was clear. I
came to, realizing that I was still alive. I got out of
my car and surveyed the damage, it was definitely
totaled! The first thing I did was call my meeting and
informed them that I would not be able to make it.
No wonder it wasn’t beneficial to do the presenta-
tion! God already knew that I wasn’t even going to
the meeting! The trucker had stopped and we
talked for a while waiting for 911 to arrive. (There
is so much more to the story, but that can be for
another time). In the end, I walked away. The med-
ical people said that the only thing that saved me
from massive internal injuries and death was that I
had the back brace on with that hard panel on the
front that dispersed the psi from the seatbelt and
had taken the shoulder support off. Both were the
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I have so many more stories like this one, that be-
cause of Muscle Testing, I was given wisdom be-
yond my understanding. This gives new meaning to
the verse “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and
lean not unto your own understanding. In all your
ways acknowledge Him (I do this by MT), and He will
make your paths straight”.

If you are thinking: if I would be testing correctly,

then I shouldn’t have gotten into the car accident.
But God had shown me a month before that the ac-
cident was going to happen. When it was all said,
and done, I had learned so much from the experi-
ence. He showed me some truths about resonation
with the medical people (that’s another story) and
I got a brand-new car to replace my old one. This is
how God blessed me. He says, “You will suffer a lit-
tle while but in the end the glory will be worth it.”

I always wonder how many blessings I have missed

out on because I had counted on my own under-
standing. Not knowing how much better life could
be if I let God show me His wisdom.

At the time of writing this book, it was over 15 years

I have been living this way. I can’t imagine living any
other way. God and I talking continuously. I truly
fulfil the scripture ‘pray without ceasing’. I am al-

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ways asking God’s input and opinion. If you had ac-
cess to information beyond your scope, why would
you not use it?

Learning how to properly Muscle Test in this capac-

ity takes time. Like any other language, you must
learn the ins-and-outs of how it works. And it works.

Because the Bible is full of truth, it is of God, so

when I want to hear His opinion I can also go to the
scriptures. This is not taking scripture out of con-
text, this is just using words that God already re-
vealed, to give me my message. He can use any
book really. I just MT what source He wants to
speak to me from. It is always on target!

MT is God ministering to me through me. We read-

ily accept that God can use other people to minister
to us, but people want to argue the validity of God’s
ability to minister to me directly through me? Re-
ally? My God can do anything.
I want to address again, those of you that say, “I do
the same thing (talk to God), but it is just a gut feel-
ing.”. There have been believers that used to live by
their gut feeling and God has shown them that this
is not the same. You are still going on your own un-
derstanding when you do this because it is tainted
by the flesh. But I have an even more important

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point to make here. God wants a relationship. Go-
ing by your gut feeling takes the relationship factor
out of the journey.
If we equate our relationship with God like having a
relationship with other people, it might make more
sense. If I am hanging out with a friend, I am not the
only one doing the talking. There is conversation
going on between us. Muscle Testing gives God a
chance to have input. If I am sitting with a friend,
and, let’s say, I need to go to home, I am not going
to abruptly get up and walk away without saying an-
ything. No, I would inform them where I am going.
I am not really asking their permission, I am just
communicating with them. But let’s say, that I tell
them that I am going home, and they say “oh, wait
a minute, I have a friend that is showing up any mi-
nute to give you something and I don’t want you to
miss it!” Then I would wait. They didn’t make me
wait, I chose to wait after they shared information I
didn’t know about. It can be that way with God.
Many times, when I want to do something and He
says ‘no’, it isn’t anything against me, it is just that
He knows more information than I do, and He
wants me to do my thing later. Remember, God is
not making me do these things, I choose to follow
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do something opposite what I want, it is just an op-
portunity to die to myself. Just like Paul wrote “I am
a prisoner, a slave to Christ and I am in chains”, I live
this same way.
Remember God wants only good for us and telling
us “no” is just for our own good. Something as sim-
ple as: There was a new believer beginning to learn
Muscle Testing. She had a craving for crab legs and
tested “should I go to this restaurant and get crab
legs?”. God said “No”, but she really wanted them,
so she went anyway. When she got to the restau-
rant, it was closed. She couldn’t believe it. It was
5:00 pm, why would the restaurant be closed? She
didn’t know, but God knew. She said it was a great
lesson on listening and not always concluding that
God just didn’t want her to have something. She
could have saved herself a trip out into the cold
weather.
Another believer, just learning to Muscle Test as
well, was testing which restaurant to go to after a
session. There were two to pick from and he had a
preference, but God had him go to the other one.
Being obedient, he went to the one God picked.
When he was done with his meal and asked for the
check, the waiter informed him that someone had
already paid the bill. God really does know what He
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There have been times when God has told me to do
things that this world would consider wrong, like
not go to a meeting or not take a phone call. But it
says in the Bible that the world’s understanding is
not God’s. It also says that the world will see you as
foolish if you follow. If I am asking God and I have
good intentions, then there is a purpose for the an-
swer, and I trust God more than man. Maybe that
meeting I missed wasn’t as important as the phone
call I was able to take because I wasn’t in the meet-
ing. Only God knows. Many times, He shows me
why He had me do or not do, but most the time I
just know that it was for my own good and carry on.
Many people have asked “God gives us free will, so
why do you have to ask about everything? That’s
what He gave you a brain for, right?” The curious
thing about this journey is that God says we have to
become like little children in order to enter the
Kingdom of Heaven. Children learn about life and
how it works by asking questions. Don’t assume you
know how life works.
Matthew 18:2-3
“2He called a little child to him and placed the
child among them. 3And he said: “Truly I tell
you, unless you change and become like little
children, you will never enter the Kingdom of
Heaven.”

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God wants to show you where you can approve in
your approach to life, He knows you better than
you. It doesn’t matter how old you are. This is the
only way, to give up all your rights and listen to
what God says. I do this on my own free will. It gives
even more clarity to why Paul says, “I am a prisoner
of Christ”, a prisoner cannot move about freely, but
needs permission to do what he does. A child
doesn’t know beyond its own little world and needs
a parent to guide them on their journey. A little
child asks about everything: Can I have a cookie?
Can I go outside? Can I get up now? Etc. Essentially,
this is how I live, inquiring about everything. Only
God knows what is going on beyond my world. He
knows the best timing, the best foods, the most
beneficial people, the best place, and things that I
may not be aware of. Once I have learned more
about the world around me, then I can move about
more freely. Shopping is super easy for me. No
standing around trying to decide which one to get,
I just Muscle Test it. Many times, I think I might be
done shopping, so I test “Is there anything else I am
supposed to get?” Sometimes God says “Yes”. I
then test where I am supposed to go and sure
enough, He has led me to an item I had forgotten
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Sometimes God has me get things I didn’t even
know I needed. I was driving to an appointment one
day and I noticed a thrift store that I had never seen
before. Because I had resonated with it, I asked if I
should go there. “Yes, after your appointment.” On
my way home, I stopped by that thrift store; having
no idea why I was there. I started testing as soon as
I went in and God led me to the coats. It was No-
vember and it would soon get down to cold temper-
atures. My daughter, who would oversee feeding
animals early in the morning on our farm, was
quickly growing out of her winter jacket due to her
pregnancy. God led me to this big down coat with a
hood for only $12! We looked it up later and found
it was a $250 jacket. Nice. I had no idea she needed
it, but God did, and she was blessed.
Because things like this happen daily when I follow
after God in such an intimate way, there is no way
anyone could convince me to live otherwise.
Faith; whenever we see this word in the Bible, orig-
inates from the same word that ‘believe’ comes
from. But there are two different ways that concept
is being used. Each is translated from the Greek
root word ‘pistis’. The noun form of that word, pis-
tis is usually translated as ‘faith’, and the verb form
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 Hebrews 11:6
“Now without faith it is impossi-
ble to please God, for the one who draws
near to Him must believe that He exists and
rewards those who seek Him.”

I have been shown that this word faith means so

much more than what we have been taught. It
comes from the same root word, but it is not the
same as believe. It is from the noun form of pistis
because it involves a ‘thing’. That ‘thing’ is believing
in the Spirit World, which includes anything that is
energy: God, spirits, Muscle Testing. Notice it says
in the verse that you can’t please God unless you
have faith. The Bible also defines faith as the “evi-
dence of things unseen”. This is when you
acknowledge that there is a whole other world ex-
isting parallel with ours and we can see evidence of
it by the disturbance of energy around us. You must
recognize it is there and learn how to see the evi-
dence of its existence.

Of course, figuring out how God speaks is a learning

process. Intent has a big influence, you have to re-
ally be willing to die to your own desires. Just be-
cause the answer is no, doesn’t mean it won’t be
yes later. Your wording must be very precise.

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Remember, all of the other followers have had the
same experience; it is not just me that has gotten
results. I have found specific restaurants in unfamil-
iar towns by Muscle Testing. I don’t have to use a
GPS to get anywhere. I once drove from Spartan-
burg, SC to my desired destination, Chattanooga,
TN on back roads, at night, by only Muscle Testing.
Amongst people that muscle test, money is quickly
decided: who pays, what to pay, or how much.
Group Muscle Testing is also very effective. Our
growing body of believers Muscle Test for every-
thing, whether it is duo testing, volley testing or
group testing. We love to share the amazing stories
of what God has done as we MT what we do.
My daughter was set to have her first baby shower.
She had plenty of things, but we just wanted to
have a party for her. About a week before the party,
I called her and said, “I am testing that it is not ben-
eficial to have the shower this next weekend.” With
no hesitation, she said she was fine with that and
had gotten the same answer. On the day of the
shower, we ended up having a family emergency
that would have added even more stress to the day
if we also had the shower to throw. God knew. We
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smoother. She was not at all upset at the cancella-
tion, she knows when God says ‘No’ it is for her
good, not anything against her.
Ultimately God has created a language that ANY-
ONE can use. This is a universal language. It is visual
and audible (when my thumb slips it makes a noise).
As I mentioned before, Muscle Testing is done in
groups. We can get a more accurate message
quickly with two or more. We ask a question, then
change the wording if necessary, until everyone
gets the same answer. This way not just one person
is in charge, we can all hear from God. This is truly
what being of one mind looks like. It holds people
accountable.
Hear me, I am not saying that until now you have
not been hearing from God. I have run into many
people that are more in tune with God than others,
the only problem is…how do I know it was God talk-
ing? Maybe that gut feeling they had was the on-
ions from last night’s dinner. I want proof that what
you are getting is actually from God.
If someone came up to me and said, “God says you
are supposed to give me money.” My first response
is, can you prove it is from God and not your own
self? The Bible says that “Destruction is inevitable
for the man whose god is their belly.” This is not
only referring to those that just want to satisfy their
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own cravings, but to those that go on the ‘gut” feel-
ing for their guidance. But with Muscle Testing you
could then present the question before God be-
tween the two parties. They both muscle test and if
it is confirmed ‘yes’ between both parties then
there is an opportunity for me to act in faith and
obedience.
This will be the answer to disagreements. Combin-
ing, getting rid of their negative beliefs (so they are
less triggered), understanding how the Universal
Laws play a huge part in our peaceful existence, and
living under the DIRECT guidance of God. Then we
will accomplish peace on Earth. We have accom-
plished this in our own little world. It has proven
successful in a small-scale scenario, it is totally fea-
sible on a grand scale. As I see it, it is our only hope
in this lost world. Everything else isn’t working, why
not try something new. Something radical. Some-
thing that has been proven.
My vision for the possibilities for this new language
are endless. It has simplified my life. By giving God
full control, the only decision I have to make is to
test. This is why I live in perfect peace. What if eve-
ryone lived like this?!
I use Muscle Testing as I cook my meals, and God
continually comes up with amazing tasting dishes
without any recipes. He tells me what spices to use,
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eyes were really open to the possibilities when God
sent along two chefs from a local upscale restaurant
that wanted to learn about Muscle Testing. I went
to the store and tested what ingredients to get
(some of the items I had no idea what they were!)
We then tested which items each chef would be re-
sponsible for preparing and cooking. When they
had successfully tested how God wanted each dish
prepared it came time for plating. There were six
people at this dinner party, and each had different
taste preferences. Without asking, they merely la-
beled a plate for each person and tested what to
include on each plate. It was amazing to see that
the person that didn’t like hot had tested not to in-
clude the hot sauce. The person who didn’t eat
wheat, tested that pasta was not to be included on
the plate. The person who wasn’t that hungry didn’t
get that second piece of meat and was dished
smaller portions. Now remember, no talking was
going on, only testing by the chefs. It was amazing
to watch.
You can use this for every area of your life. When to
leave, where to shop, what clothes to buy, where to
go on vacation, the possibilities are endless! Re-
member that God knows the desires of your heart.
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ting your spirit to the point that He can open the
flood gates of heaven because there is no negative-
ness blocking its way.
I have seen this unfold in my own life and the be-
lievers around me. You will find that He really does
care, even for the littlest things. But I think the best
reason for choosing to test everything is this:
God says in His word that He will provide ALL your
needs. But when we are living life providing things
for ourselves then we make God a liar. He cannot
fulfill His promise because we are all making most
of the decisions by our self without any feedback
from God. Maybe you go to Him for the big stuff:
buying a house, whether to have another child, or
changing jobs…maybe. But is God then really
providing ALL your needs? You need groceries, you
go to the store you get them yourself. You spend
your money to take care of your needs. With Mus-
cle Testing, you are including God in all your deci-
sions. If you dedicate all the money you make to
Him and consider it God’s money and He can do
what He wants with it. Then, if you ask, “God,
should I buy this shirt?” If it tests ‘yes’ then at that
moment He just provided for you. I can always say
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When I test everything then I truly can say that God
provided. It really brings new meaning to “In ALL
your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your
path straight” and “God shall provide all your
needs”. It really is fun to live this way.
God says that He has sent His Holy Spirit. Muscle
Testing is the manifestation of the Holy Spirit. He
says that the Holy Spirit will make intersessions for
you. That it will guide you. You will receive it. I will
review the word Holy Spirit. In the Bible, the spirit
world describes the energy world we talk about to-
day. Spirit is the same thing as energy. We have
God’s Spirit in us that gives us life. The thing that
causes us to be alive is the energy in our body. Holy
means the highest good. Holy Spirit can be trans-
lated to the highest good energy. Since God is the
Highest good energy and it is that energy that we
are intercepting- this is the Holy Spirit. God is posi-
tive energy as a whole; the Holy Spirit is the positive
energy directed at each of our lives individually.
And we can ‘hear’ from the Holy Spirit through
Muscle Testing.
Start out simple. Like testing what food to eat or
where to eat and move up from there. It is super
important to remember to have fun with it. God
wants you to experience good things, not be miser-
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as you begin to experience and explore the good-
ness of God. Muscle Testing is vital as you begin
your journey of Spiritual Renewal.
Let me build more of the foundation as you con-
tinue to open your mind and learn more truth. Be-
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Chapter 9
Freedom
So, here it is. What you have been waiting for. It is
as simple as this… ready?
Each step of spiritual renewal follows what God laid
out in his word.
1. Identify the negative belief we live by.
This is basically confessing your sins. Living
according to our flesh is a sin. This is where
Muscle Testing can come in very handy be-
cause many times we may not want to ad-
mit that we have a problem, this way the
Holy Spirit has a chance to speak up.
John 3:19-20
“19
. And this is the judgement, that the
light has come into the world, and
people loved darkness rather than the
light because their deeds were evil. 20
For all who do evil hate the light and
do not come into the light, so that
their deeds may not be exposed.”

Remember these negative beliefs or lies that

we have are the reasons why we do what we
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tive reaction to that person or circumstance?
What were you feeling at the time? What
were you thinking about yourself at the
time?
2 Corinthians 13:5
“Examine yourselves to see whether
you are in the faith; test yourselves.
Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is
in you--unless, of course, you fail the
test?”
1 John 1:9
“If we confess our sins, he is faithful
and just to forgive us our sins and to
cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

But here’s the deal. To just say what our is-

sue is isn’t enough. Confession is more than
just speaking, it is acknowledging that we
have been doing something wrong. So, there
has to be more steps after identifying the lie.
Many counselors work in this ‘just say how
you are feeling’ mode and that’s it. The client
sits for an hour and talks about what is both-
ering them and how they feel about them-
selves. They release all of the things that are
currently making them feel overwhelmed or
distressed. It is feeling good to have some-
one bear your burdens with you. But really
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what you’re doing is pouring out a little bit
of a top portion of a very deep problem.
Spiritual renewal is designed to get to the
root of where those feelings came from. We
could compare it to the analogy of fire and
smoke. The moment a negative belief took
root in your life (before the age of five), a fire
was started. The longer the fire burned the
more smoke it produced. Years and years
later you are still living under the contamina-
tion of the smoke that fire produced. To talk
about the problems you are having, caused
by the lie that was planted a long time ago,
is just clearing smoke in that moment and of
course you feel better! But soon, because
that fire is still there, your present life fills up
with that smoke again. Why not do the steps
of Spiritual Renewal and be done with the
negative belief for good (put the fire out al-
together)? Just identify the lie.
An easy way to find what lies you live by is
being aware of the things that make you up-
set. I call these triggers. If someone pulls out
in front of you in traffic and this makes you
angry, then you have just been triggered.
This should not make you angry.
I will use myself as an example. If this was me
getting triggered at someone pulling out, I
would first identify what my lie is. At that
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moment, exploring how I was feeling, I
would admit that the guy pulling out acted
as if I wasn’t even there. I could speculate
that my lie would be ‘I am a nobody’. I would
MT for confirmation from God, and I would
get a “Yes”. I have the lie: I am a nobody. In
a quick review of my life I can recall other
times that I have felt like a nobody. I defi-
nitely don’t want to feel that anymore! Time
to get rid of that one.
Here is another quick way to figure out what
your lies are: If you think anything negative
about someone else, you think that about
yourself. If you are triggered because some-
one is being lazy, then you have a belief ‘I am
lazy”. Any judging that you do indicates it is
within yourself. You cannot give it away un-
less you have it to begin with. I do not judge
because I have no negative thoughts about
myself, so I can’t have negative thoughts
about others. This is called living above the
law. According to the law, if someone yells
and screams, they should get that back. But
once you live above the law, you don’t have
to respond in kind. You understand they are
just triggered. Now go back and read all the
scriptures about living above the law. They
make more sense. Knowing this made me
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 I was sharing this message with a very bro-
ken woman who was looking for help. She
decided not to do Spiritual Renewal because
she was afraid it would make her weak and
be taken advantage of because she wouldn’t
be getting upset anymore. But just the oppo-
site happens.
When a negative person comes at you and
there is nothing to resonate with, they have
no fuel for their negative force, and it dissi-
pates. They end up shutting up. Many people
are only able to continue aggressiveness if
they are met with resistance, fighting back
empowers them. A great physical example of
this is if someone is trying to drag you away.
As long as you meet them with resistance,
they have a force to move. But, if you go
limp, there is only dead weight and it is near
impossible to easily move a limp body.
Find the lie; be real with yourself; what do
you have to lose?
That is all it takes to complete the first step.

2. Go to the memories.
The subconscious mind is very powerful.
There is so much going on up there in our
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 about it, from the moment your heart
started beating, your brain has been record-
ing input of everything, EVERYTHING you
have been doing up until right now…and
now…and now… (you get it).
Your brain is constantly categorizing all the
information; memories here, skills there,
feelings over there and so on. If you experi-
enced it, it is in there.

Matthew 12:36-37
“I tell you, on the day of judgment
people will give account for every
careless word they speak, for by your
words you will be justified, and by
your words you will be condemned.”
2 Corinthians 5:10
“For we must all appear before the
judgment seat of Christ, so that each
one may receive what is due for what
he has done in the body, whether
good or evil.”
Romans 14:12
“So then each of us shall give account
of himself to God.”

I touch briefly before of it being comparable to

having coins in your pocket. Every time you
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take on a new belief it is putting a new coin in
your pocket. Even if you don’t handle that coin,
it is still in there and will continue to influence
your life until you remove it. There are many
times new believers say that they don’t believe
they have particular lie. For example, the lie ’I
am not capable’. They say “No, I know that I am
capable of doing things.” But here’s the deal; if
you EVER in your life said to yourself “I am not
capable of doing that” then you have that lie. It
is just buried in your ‘pocket’. You might not
feel it now because you have learned coping
skills to try and overcome that feeling. You
might as well get rid of it, be done with it, and
quit wasting energy always trying to overcome
it. Finding out where it started is the key.
A good example in the Bible of this step is when
Jesus dealt with the woman at the well. He
went back over what some of her memories
were and where she was living out her life in
sin. Another example where the Pharisees
question what the cause was the young boy
that was demon possessed. The Jewish culture
back then had firm understanding of the con-
nection between behavior and spiritual condi-
tion.
It is very important at this point to keep your
focus and your good intent at the for-front of
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in order to be free. You are not going through
this to find blame or dig up old bitterness and
dwell on that. Remember that your reality is
just that- yours; when you go back to a memory
you are only going back to what your take on
that moment was. There are no such things as
facts when dealing with emotions, only your
perspective on reality. If you take an incident
that five people witnessed, you may get five
different versions of that incident. That is why
God put in place (as stated in the Bible): If two
or more people agree, then that is what will be
considered truth.
Finding where the lie started is quick and easy
using Muscle Testing. If you want to learn more
of what that exactly looks like, I wrote a book
called The Four Steps: A Spiritual Renewal
Handbook along with The Emotional Diction-
ary: A Spiritual Renewal Handbook. Both books
are invaluable to your new spiritual journey
Many people say, “I can’t remember anything
when I was young”. This is because language
was not how you received the world, it was
through experiences. We mostly recall our
memories through language which was firmly
established after 5. If you have a memory
comeback when you smell a familiar smell, this
is remembering through experiences. If you are
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skill to cover up pain that you were experienc-
ing at the time. At this point, just acknowledg-
ing that what God is showing you is true. Agree-
ing that, “even though I can’t remember, it is
possible that I… (whatever your memory is)”.
The feeling is very different if the idea is not
truth.
Many times, the memories that are very strong
(that we just can’t seem to forget) are ones
where lies had been planted in.
Sometimes while testing your memories, you
find out things you had been suppressing for
years. It is ok. This is the best time to face what
you have been hiding from and be free from it.
Many people are afraid to do Spiritual Renewal
because of all the ‘monsters’ in their closet. I
am here to tell you that that closet is an illusion
and all of those “monsters” (negativeness) in
your life are affecting your actions every day,
you have nothing ‘hiding’. Who are you trying
to fool? Why not find out what the ‘monsters’
are, confront them and move them along. It is
that easy, you have that power. Or waste your
energy battling a fictitious force that you could
easily be free from. The goal here is to be free.
When God takes you to certain memories, it
doesn’t mean that these are the only memories
that you lived according to your lie. These are
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dress.
Second step complete.
3. Find a truth
1 Corinthians 3:11-13
“11.
For no man can lay a foundation
other than the one which is laid, which
is Jesus Christ. 12Now if any man
builds on the foundation with gold, sil-
ver, precious stones, wood, hay, and
straw, 13 each man's work will become
evident; for the day will show it be-
cause it is to be revealed with fire, and
the fire itself will test the quality of
each man's work is burned up, he will
suffer loss; but he himself will be
saved, yet so as through fire.”

John 8:32
“You will know the truth,
and the truth will set you free.”

There are many ways to find truths, it is in

the world all around us. The most obvious is
to go to God’s Word. He will give a scripture
that will relate to your lie every time. But
truth is truth, it doesn’t matter who or what
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The very first time I had tested for a scripture
I was working on a lie with my son. He was
having a problem with jealously with his
brother. I tested and was sent to a verse that
simply said, “and they filled in Joseph’s
wells.” I thought I must have tested wrong….
It was a study Bible and it tested to go to the
write-up on the verse at the bottom of the
page. And there I read “this tribe was jealous
of Joseph and so they filled in the wells out
of their jealousy. Are you struggling with
jealousy with a brother or a friend?” I was
astounded. I had to put my Bible down and
take in what just happened. The testing
seemed so random, but yet, here it was ad-
dressing the very topic we were dealing with.
I was convinced, and from that moment on
God continued to affirm my discovery again
and again.
Remember, it doesn’t need to be only from
the Bible for God to speak. Truth is every-
where. Spiritual doesn’t just happen in
church. It happens anywhere you choose to
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4. Go back to the memories and replace the
lie with a truth.

I can’t emphasis enough the importance of

this step. This is what modern psychology
is missing.

All the other steps are important, but this

last one is the one thing that makes all the
difference in the world. I have seen many
times the negative effect of people starting
the renewal process and not following
through. Every time I have witnessed this it
has led to disaster.
Matthew 12:43-45
“43
“When an unclean spirit comes
out of a man, it roams through water-
less places looking for rest but doesn’t
find any. 44 Then it says, ‘I’ll go back to
my house that I came from.’ And re-
turning, it finds the house vacant,
swept, and put in order. 45 Then off it
goes and brings with it seven other
spirits more evil than itself, and they
enter and settle down there. As a re-
sult, that man’s last condition is
worse than the first. That’s how it will
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 An empty "house": When a person has
identified a negative belief system but does
not fill his spiritual house with the new
truth; that person is still left with the lie. But
since the lie has been exposed and the per-
son is choosing not to do anything about it.
this is what is detrimental. This empowers
the negativeness and (not getting rid of it)
has now given it more power. Therefore,
the last step is most important.

I have discovered that finding the truth is

such an intimate time. Here is a chance for
God to speak directly to you. He sends me
to all kinds of scripture, talking about my life
or about what just happened. I relish that
time with God. He truth is so healing.

Again, in this last step, you go back to each of the

memories and trade out the lie that was planted for
a truth.
Going back to the driving example, the next time
someone pulls out in front of me I don’t feel trig-
gered. I clearly see that that person has no idea who
I am and is only acting out of what is going on in
their life, I don’t need to take their actions personal.
Carry on. Maybe they are on their way to see a
loved one before they die and can’t lose anytime.
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Die daily
The amazing thing about Spiritual Renewal is the re-
sult that you get even after working on a few
lies. Our environment doesn’t need to change, the
people around us don’t need to stop what they are
doing, and it doesn’t have to take months to begin
to see the difference.
There was a man that was suicidal, literally mo-
ments from taking his life. I intercepted and he
spent the next two hours working on a group of lies.
His biggest one was ‘I will never be accepted’. He
had a life full of choices that was going to guarantee
that he was not going to be accepted. All his efforts
to do things with people always ended up in rejec-
tion. After only a short time, he had a new vigor for
life and experienced a peace that he had never felt
in all the years in counseling and mental health fa-
cilities. The next day, he called me with the most
amazing news. He had gone into town and ran into
a few people he knew, and they had actually asked
him to do something! This was huge, this had never
happened before. The same people that were al-
ways ‘busy’, all of a sudden, were accepting him. He
didn’t do anything different but change his belief.
He rewired his brain to send out a different fre-
quency and people responded.
When Jesus healed, it took but a few moments of
interaction. He never stated “wow, you have been
sick a long time, it’s going to take a while to get rid
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of your problem”. No! There was a bit of dialog be-
tween the afflicted and Jesus, then Jesus spoke
truth into the situation, the person believed they
could be healed. They took action (got up, opened
their eyes, went and washed etc.), and before you
knew it, there was healing.
After studying the scriptures and examining the life
of Jesus, I realized he gave us what the gestation
period is for our own transformation. I used to say
that it will take as long as you want it to, and this
still holds true. However, According to God’s own
example, the shortest time that is needed to work
on a (groups) lie topics, say, your beliefs about rela-
tionships, is three days. To go from pain and suffer-
ing to resurrection and life is three days. Once you
make the decision to die to flesh, spend three days
dying to self (getting rid of lies). During this time,
change how you say things and seek God’s will over
your own. Repeat this process again and again and
you will be on your way to being able to receive,
here on earth, the heaven that you have been wait-
ing for.
There is an amazing thing that happens once you
start to realize that it is not just you that is living and
acting according to a negative belief system. You
start to realize that everyone else is also living by
negative beliefs. You begin to have compassion and
understanding for other lost people. You realize
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people around you. There is no judging, you know
why they do what they do…they just have a lie they
need to get rid of! Someone can be yelling at you
and there is no rise within you. You aren’t triggered
because you got rid of your negativeness, they have
nothing to resonate with. As they scream, you can
start to hear the lies that they are living by, just by
what they say. As you listen to everyday conversa-
tion, you become aware of just how negative peo-
ple are and how often they express what their lies
are. A very powerful verse is ‘As a man thinketh, so
is he”.
I am so grateful to God, the giver of life, that He
gave me this process. Without it I would still be mis-
erable, just trying to make it the best I can in life.
After He showed me this process, He took me to the
book of Revelation and confirmed to me that this is
the answer that is going to start the reconciliation
between God and man. He took me to the four
horsemen. Each rider is you and each horse repre-
sent each step of the Spiritual Renewal process. I
will break it down for you.
Note: There are three interpretations for scripture.
All three are relevant.
The scripture will address:
1. Your universe within you, your feelings or
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ated. This includes your surroundings, such
as family, work, or neighborhood.
3. The universe as a whole. World affairs,
governments or prophesies about the grand
scheme of things for the future of mankind.
This interpretation of the Four Horsemen has to do
with the Universe inside yourself. There are of
course other interpretations for this passage on the
other levels. It is all connected. It can’t happen big
without it starting out small. Each interpretation is
a necessary step toward the big picture.
1. Identify the lie.
White Horse- conquering
Wanting to overtake your negative belief
system
2. Go to memories
Red Horse- the power to kill
Finding out where the negative belief began
and resides
3. Finding the truth
Black Horse- balances
Holding the truth up to the lie and being
judged for your actions and words
4. Replace the lie with the truth
Pale Horse- death
Trading out the lie with a truth brings the fi-
nal blow of death to your negative belief. Dy-
ing to your flesh
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There are two other interpretations of the horses
written about in Revelation. I only covered the first
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Chapter 10
Clarity

The bondage that we live in is an illusion; like a lion

roaring. The lion’s roar is meant to paralyze the vic-
tim with fear. That roar doesn’t cause physical dam-
age, but it can allow the victim to pause just long
enough to encounter un-necessary trouble. It is the
same when dealing with the negativeness around
us. The unexpected negative might catch you off
guard for a moment, but do not let it grip you with
fear least you get pulled down with it. All of this,
what we think is reality, takes place within our
minds. It is only an illusion.
A great illustration for this phenomenon occurring
is this: You are walking down a path in the woods
and you see a snake. You freeze, heart pumping,
frantically calculating the course of action to take
next. But then you realize it is only a stick. Harmless.
But when your mind registered that it was a snake
your body responded as if it was necessary to be in
a state of emergency! Many times, in life, our mind
does this with different events. Our mind creates
the worst-case scenario and we respond. But if we
would just stop and reevaluate, we would see that
it really isn’t as bad as we thought at all. If we did
this, we certainly wouldn’t be as stressed out as
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ways to get out of the trap of negative thinking, and
of course getting rid of your lies. Live in the now.
Quit comparing life now to life in the past. There is
no possible way this moment could be the same as
any other moment. If you believe that bad always
happens to you then it will. You are focusing on that
and it has to happen. Even if good is happening, be-
cause of the belief, you will only concentrate on the
bad part of what is happening. Get rid of that belief
and things will change. It is only the renewing of
your mind that will set you free.
The goal is to live in the ‘I am” Since God is the great
’I AM’. This is how we know we have finished the
race. To only live in the now. To not live by any neg-
ative labels or not have any negative thoughts
about the past or present or future. To always con-
clude that it is all good, to not take anything per-
sonal, and to not judge. True Peace, True Joy in all
things.
Freedom shouldn’t be work once you are free from
your negative beliefs. No more trying so hard at life.
My burden is easy, yoke is light.
When I first started my journey and I really started
to understand how the whole thing works, I was
very overwhelmed! I realized just how many lies I
had driving me to be the way I was. Is it ever going
to end?! God says to die daily, so I started to just
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to the next. It is like anything else in life, just focus-
ing on the now reduces the overwhelm factor. If a
young mom really started to think about all the
laundry and all the dishes she will have to wash in
the coming years, she might just give up! But, like
the old proverb says, “A journey of a thousand miles
begins with a single step”.
But there is good news! Your journey doesn’t have
to take years and years. My journey took twelve,
but my journey is very different from yours. I did
not have a mentor or a life coach guiding me along
the way. I was being given insight, was learning how
to speak the language, and getting rid of my lies all
at the same time. That lead to some interesting in-
terpretations until I was able to get the hang of
Muscle Testing and what it all meant when God was
speaking. I took time…but I learned. It is all good;
no condemnation.
I went through all of the struggles so you didn’t
have to. I took on the burden of figuring it out so
that your journey would be much easier. Your jour-
ney is your own and the sooner you start on it, the
sooner you will be free. Freedom is the promise
that God gives you. Follow the message and be free.
Philippians 4:7-8
“7
And the peace of God, which sur-
passes every thought, will guard your hearts
and minds in Christ Jesus.8 Finally brothers,
whatever is true, whatever is honorable,
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is lovely, whatever is commendable—if there
is any moral excellence and if there is any
praise—dwell on these things.”
Which brings me to the next topic. If you will notice,
most of the people that Jesus healed had some sort
of physical issue. Lame, blind, deaf, leper…. But not
once did he prescribe medicine or suggest physical
therapy. He just addressed the person’s spiritual
condition. Our physical bodies are nothing on its
own. It is a corpse. To suggest that our emotional or
spiritual condition is not directly related to our
physical condition is ludacris. Our physical condi-
tion is a direct representation of our spiritual condi-
tion. A quick example just to get your mind thinking:
Anyone that has been cured of cancer is because
they thought positive (I can beat this) and most
likely had a great support system (good resonation).
Except, there is no medical cure for cancer… how is
this so? That some people beat it and others don’t?
It is what takes place in the mind that made the dif-
ference. This concept could be book all on its own.
People have asked me if the belief will come back
or is it gone for good. If we go back to the analogy
of the smoke and fire, you can see that if you put
the fire out, then there is no source of smoke. No,
it will not come back. You may be tempted to think
that way but being tempted is not a sin. Even Jesus

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was tempted. You will get to the point of your jour-
ney that all you have to do is ‘truth it out”. Here is
an example:
You had the lie, I am nothing. You went through the
steps and got rid of this lie. Your truth was that with
God you are something; being nothing would mean
God is not in you, but He is… so, you are something.
After that, if you are tempted to say that I am noth-
ing, you just remind yourself of the truth given and
take your thought captive. This is merely nurturing
the new seed until it really takes root.
If it seems like you are addressing the same lie
again, see if you are replanting it. It did not ‘come
back’ on its own.
There may be different angles within the lie that has
not been dealt with, so it may feel like you dealt
with a certain lie before, but as you work through it
you find that it is just targeting an unaddressed
facet of the lie. Kind of like a weed that has a com-
plex root system, just get rid of all the offshoots.
When something clicks, like a CSI case, when the fi-
nal revelation is achieved; every past event has new
light shed on it. That is how going back to your
memories, then changing the perspective, in each
memory cancels all the correlating memories and
they are ALL ‘washed clean’ together. Made as
white as snow.

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A note to parents: When our child is young, if we
don’t communicate with effectively and just leave
life up to them, they can come up with some very
unhealthy conclusions about life. The breakdown in
our society is that nurturing the next generation has
been left to strangers and overruled in society by
electronics. Instead of mommies singing to their
children, videos are played to teach basic skills and
we call this learning. But you remove a very im-
portant aspect of learning, children lose out on the
resonation with the parents and learning the values
each family holds. The exchange of energy is lost,
and we are clueless to the adverse effect this has on
our child. Unfortunately, many families don’t even
know what their own values are and leave it up to
the world and whatever feels good that day to di-
rect them.
If you find yourself there, you are not alone. Where
can we turn to for help? True help that really under-
stands? If you care enough to change your situa-
tion, for your sake, for your children’s sake, doing
Spiritual Renewal is the only answer. It allows you
to stop parenting out of your issues and start par-
enting with wisdom.
It is best if you have someone to go on this journey
with. Hence the verse, “when two or more are gath-
ered in His name there is power.”. It is always good
to seek wise counsel, good to have accountability.
Find someone that resonates with you. Don’t worry

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about getting it all correct in the beginning. God is
very patient, and He meets you where you are at.
With good intent, there is no right or wrong. Only
results. If what you do produces peace and your in-
tent in life is to be free and live, then peace will
come. Sometimes people will not agree with you or
even get angry at you. I am not saying that you will
not offend others when you choose truth, but that
is the other person’s issue.
On the topic of marriage:

There is so much that I could write on marriage

maybe one day I will write a book on it, but there
are just a few concepts that I would like to address
in this book.

First, I don’t believe in marriage counseling. You

cannot take two broke people and make a fixed
marriage. How can you fix anything two broke peo-
ple are trying to do together? You need to work on
the individual first and then by the Laws of Nature,
you will have unity. Let me repeat this so you get
this concept.

The man needs to work on getting rid of all his is-

sues that trigger him about his wife and the woman
needs to get rid of what triggers her about her hus-
band. Once each party can clearly understand why
they do what they do and remove the issue person-
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couple comes together, the only thing that deter-
mines whether they have a good marriage or not is
how much the other person triggers them. The
problem comes when people choose their spouse
out of their issues. Nothing like starting out of the
gate backwards!

The relationship between a man and a woman was

determined since the curse. Do you remember the
verse, God said “from this day forth the woman will
be under the man and serve her husband.”? Many
churches that I have been to reach the incorrect
theology that marriage should be like a triangle.
This is not so. This is not even biblical! Instead mar-
riage is linear. The woman answers to the husband
and the husband answers to God. This has nothing
to do with their own discovery of God within them-
selves, but if they enter a union with a partner, this
applies to that relationship. This goes all the way
back to the curse. It wasn’t just a comment to the
women when God said, “you will now be under
your husband”. That was also a heads up to man
since he wanted to be both power and wisdom,
now you can take full responsibility. The Bible is
clear that a Man is held accountable for his woman
behavior. Let me just say, I am not concerned
whether you believe in this or not. I am just explain-
ing how God set it up and if you want it to work, you
must do it God’s way.

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 What they claim it is What it really is

God God

Husband

Husband Wife Wife

If you are having difficulty in your marriage, it is only

because you are not playing by God’s rules. Because
of the Law of Polarity and the Law of Relativity,
when two people get together, they must adhere to
these laws. If one is strong, the other would have to
be weak. By the mere fact that one is ‘weak’, the
other has to be ‘strong’. There is a ‘provider’ and
the ‘provided for’. If there is a ‘caretaker’, there has
to be the ‘taken care of’. The roles should continu-
ally be switching, Man cares for the woman, the
woman cares for the man. If this is not happening
in your marriage, then it is going against the Laws
of Nature. Decay is the only result. Men, if you think
that God made woman just for you to use, you are
wrong. Frankly, woman was given to man to keep
him out of trouble, -not really something to be
proud of. This is not to say that all couples should
stay together. In fact, I believe in divorce. Don’t
panic... settle down… I will explain why.

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Because in this book I have been emphasizing how
everything is connected and nothing stands alone,
this concept is carried over into the marriage topic.
There are a few things that God says in the Bible
about marriage. It gives guidelines to divorce in the
Old Testament, and then expresses a different view
in the New Testament. Stay with me.

Old Testament allowed divorce under a set of pro-

visions all of which accommodated humankind’s is-
sues or short comings. The only tools they had to
utilize was the law and sacrifice. If one stayed
within the laws or rules that God set up, then any
shortcomings can be settled by sacrificing to atone
for those shortcomings. The more one lived outside
of God’s instructions the more problems one faced,
the more sacrifices were needed. God knew that
this would occur, so He have an ‘out’ if things got
really bad.

Switch to the New Testament where God switched

the accountability to each individual because Jesus
was a living example how to implement God’s in-
structions. Each partner would then have the tools
and no excuse. Because the individual choice of be-
havior should start before a person decides to wed.
If a believer is doing their work, they understand
how to walk in truth. They (theoretically) will not
choose a mate out of their issues because they will
have already worked through their issues. Remem-

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ber that the New Testament was written for believ-
ers only, not the rest of the world. Since their per-
sonal relationship with God should already be es-
tablished, they are walking in submission and truth
with God. When they find a partner, there is already
the practice and habit of submitting and sacrificing
so they will have a 100% success rate when they en-
ter marriage. They already have the tools to handle
any challenge that may come their way. This is the
ideal.

The only problem is that our society is not set up to

support this approach. A solid foundation would
have to be laid, accountability the norm, and sub-
mission a way of life. Our society promotes the ex-
act opposite: “Leave me alone”,” I’ll do it my way”,
and “you figure it out on your own”. This is blatant
disregard for the Law of Relativity (and many oth-
ers) and therefore is not an effective approach in
life. So already way behind the eight ball, people
then want to start picking a partner.

How can they make a healthy choice if they are still

so broken in life? God watches as a disobedient
woman and a disobedient man get together. This is
hell. Because even the good intention of love can-
not stand against the negativity that is resonated
when two people are living by negative beliefs. But
God knows how to turn trials into growth. If we
learn and work for/with each other through the
hard times, by the very nature of working together
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you are building unity which will improve your rela-
tionship. But if one wants to work and the other one
does not, there is no unity. At this point, they have
broken their vows because they are not acting out
of love for the benefit of the other person. They are
acting out of selfishness. Once that has happened,
there are no more vows to break. At this point,
there is no ‘God has brought together’. So, why live
in misery, get divorced!!

The church supports self-abuse when they bully a

broken person into continual hell because they
quote God saying, “do not divorce”, but they ignore
all the scripture prior to that that describes how a
husband and wife should act. Do you realize that
this thinking implies that God wants you to live in
misery! That doesn’t sound like my God at all. My
God wants only love and life for you. If a partner has
recognized a problem in the relationship and there
is communication to the other about what the issue
is and the receiving spouse refuses to address the
problem, the covenant of marriage is broken. It is
up to the wife or husband to either: extend grace
and continue to try at the relationship or have the
other person reap what they sowed, and the person
finds themselves alone. There is no right or wrong
here, only intent.

Let me present this as an example. Understand this

is an example and maybe not your story.

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Let’s take a woman who wants to get married. She
meets a man who wants to impress her. Showing
his best side to her when they are together. He says
that he is hard working, romantic, and wants chil-
dren. This is what society has told him the correct
answers are in order to get a wife. He thinks about
it and decides, “sure, how hard can it be, I think I
can do that.” This is what he is supposed to do
(work, have a nice house, drive a nice car, and stay
married forever) and he wants to fit in. The woman
is also aware of the expectations that society has
placed on her, to work, raise kids, have a clean
house, have babies and be married forever and she
wants to do it right. (If your take on marriage is dif-
ferent, just bear with me. I am speaking in general-
ities.)
So, they get married.

Genesis 2:23
“The man said, “This is now bone of my
bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be
called ‘woman,’ for she was taken out of
man.” That is why a man leaves his father
and mother and is united to his wife, and
they become one flesh.”

After they have been married for a bit, he starts re-

alizing that it was much easier playing the part
when they dreamed about it together while they
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him to keep up the façade. The woman was told by
society what a good husband should look like and
her husband is falling short of that, so she puts pres-
sure on him to do better. She took him at his word
that he was this amazing man, so she is waiting. She
is also finding out that what she dreamed marriage
to be isn’t quite the same as reality. So here they
are just starting out this union based on a bunch of
lies.

So here is the pivotal moment. They start to realize

that each are not what they say they are and each
other are not what they expected. At this point,
God says…” Hey, I am here, you probably should uti-
lize my expertise at a time like this!” The success of
that marriage depends on how much positive en-
ergy each partner wants to invest into their rela-
tionship and if love is at the core of their actions. If
one is more committed that the other, there will
not be unity. If one wants to work through the prob-
lems and the other doesn’t, that is not unity. Mar-
riage is not defined by how well you get along when
times are good, it is defined by how one-minded
you are in the bad times. Unity doesn’t mean happy
bliss. It just means together. If two people want to
treat each other rude and have low expectations in
life and are ok with each other’s selfishness; in that
there can be unity. They will have a better marriage
than the couple where the man plugs along selfish,

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oblivious to problems and the women suffers in si-
lence and feels abused and forgotten. There is no
resonation, no unity.

A married couple is supposed to have mutual ‘eve-

rything’ (love, respect, etc.) for each other, if they
do not, they are not one. They are not married spir-
itually. Look at the definition that the Bible gives on
how a man and wife should be for each other.

Ephesians 5:25-28
“Husbands, love your wives, just as
Christ loved the church and gave him-
self up for her to make her holy,
cleansing her by the washing with wa-
ter through the word, and to present
her to himself as a radiant church,
without stain or wrinkle or any other
blemish, but holy and blameless. In
this same way, husbands ought to
love their wives as their own bodies.
He who loves his wife loves himself.”

They submit to each other first. Remember that

God sees marriage as a spiritual condition first.
Then God addresses the tendencies of the man to
be selfish, to not love or compliment his wife. If the
man is not leading the relationship in this way then,
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they are not married in God’s eyes. It is so easy for
either partner to do things in the marriage that are
not beneficial for the relationship, because they are
not resonating and are not putting the other person
first.

Now, since this describes most of the marriages

that are taking place in the world today. I am not
suggesting that everyone should be getting a di-
vorce. I know that if you do Spiritual Renewal, all
your marriage problems will clear up. I see this heal-
ing happen again and again within our body of be-
lievers. This is because you would be choosing to
approach the solution God’s way. Through gaining
wisdom, you find out whether ‘clearing up” means
a healthy relationship or a healthy separation.

I am passionately against the church’s teaching

which tells the man or the woman “God hates di-
vorce” so therefore you must stay in your catastro-
phe. Yes, God wants you to be loved (a reason why
we marry) but doesn’t want you to live in strife
(usually the reason for a divorce). He also doesn’t
want you lying, cheating, stealing, people taking ad-
vantage of another, and selfishness. If the other
spouse does not want to join the other and work
towards unity, by that person’s actions alone they
void the marriage covenant. Every person should be
free to pursue their path in life within God’s pera-
meters not man’s! In the end, God just wants us to
be loved. God is love. If you are not in a relationship
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where you are being loved, you are not experienc-
ing the fullness of God. The Bible says that if a be-
liever is married to a non-believer and there is
strife, it is better to separate.

Since He lives in you, He wants to hang out in a

‘temple’ that is at peace. If you are crying yourself
to sleep at night because the person you are with is
not loving you, then God’s Spirit is grieved. Yes, we
are supposed to keep commitments, but not to the
extent that our own soul is dead due to lack of love.
This is self-abuse.

Now before you run around saying that Sandra Kay

wants everyone to be divorced, let us come full cir-
cle on the topic.

God honors many approaches. Stay in the marriage

and continue to try to work at it, as long as you
choose to be happy, God honors that. Divorce and
do not get into another relationship until you are
where you should be, God honors that. But remem-
ber where ever you go, there you are. Make sure
you have taken care of your issues first, before you
run off and make the same mistake again and again.
God wants the desires of your heart to be fulfilled.
He wants you to be happy and have a fulfilled life.
If you have a nasty marriage because you are reap-
ing what you are sowing, then change what you are
sowing.

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Once the number of free people increase, then the
dynamics of relationships will change. People will
be more balanced and not so needy. There will be
clear direction from God about how and who to
love. All relationships will be driven by good intent
and Godly love. Both men and women will be bal-
anced within themselves and be capable of imple-
menting both of their male and female essence ap-
propriately. No more tyranny, oppression, or abuse.
Men will know how to nurture, and women will
know how to be bolder. Each will stop competing
and start celebrating their strengths and embracing
their weaknesses as an opportunity to let someone
else shine. Total balance. The way God meant for
life to be.

But this moves beyond men and women. This will

also bring balance between races and people. Each
will understand their purpose in life and how they
fit into the grand scheme of things. Unity is the only
result of this journey. I know because this is the
world I live in. And it is Heaven! I want this for you
more than anything. It is the passion that God has
put in me…for you to be free.

Consider this: What is the greatest commandment?

Matthew 22:36-40
“Teacher, which is the greatest command-
ment in the Law?” Jesus said unto him, Thou
shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart,

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 and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
This is the first and great commandment.
And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love
thy neighbor as thyself. On these two com-
mandments hang all the law and the proph-
ets.”

Where in these verses does it tell us how to love

ourselves? Keep looking, it’s there. Read it again…
God is within you. The first commandment is telling
you to love yourself first. Notice how it only says
love with all your heart, soul and mind. It doesn’t
say Spirit. That is because the Spirit in you is God.
Simply put: You must love yourself before you can
love others. Loving yourself is loving God.

This verse makes it clear that we are to love. If you

are not able to provide love for your partner, do
yourself and them a favor, free them. Life is too
short to spend the rest of your life with a partner
that cannot love just because the church or society
says you should. Make sure, however, that you are
not the one creating the mess.

The Laws of Nature always apply; if you continually

speak negativeness into your spouse or marriage,
all you will get out of it is negativity. Quit asking eve-
ryone around you what you should do. Instead have
this conversation between you and God. Whatever
you decide on, do it, act on it, be confident in it. And
do not doubt. Then all will go well.

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Getting advice
Here are thoughts on who you should listen to. Peo-
ple cannot have your relationship with God for you.
Nor should you be looking for what they think God
wants you to do. Have your own relationship. Un-
less a person is free from their issues, they will only
be able to answer according to their own belief sys-
tem. It is profitable to listen to wise counsel. Choose
that counsel carefully. If you ask the advice from
someone whose life is chaotic, then you will get
chaos from their counsel. Take your life and your
relationship with God seriously. As radical as this
new approach sounds, it works. Try it, what do you
have to lose? Make this your own. Don’t just do it
because “Sandra Kay told me to”. You take your
outcome in life into your own hands and choose to
follow after God. This is from God. Follow the pro-
cess that God has shown you through me (the mes-
senger) and you will have freedom.

The roles of male and female

The next topic addresses not only the role of men
and women, but also male and female essence.
Again, I am not concerned with the way that society
thinks today, so I am not concerned about being po-
litically correct. If you do not feel these descriptions
define you, consider that variations of these roles
have been molded by your environment and your
belief system. If you are an aggressive female, con-

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sider that there are reasons you have had to ex-
press yourself in a more masculine manner. And
vise-versa for a man. I am just going to pass on what
God has shown me. I have been fortunate to wit-
ness a body of believers that have been implement-
ing many of these approaches and the results are
amazing! I am going to tell you how it is.

Man was made from the image of God. We all agree

on that right? A man’s character is most like that of
God’s character. Let me name just a few for, exam-
ple purposes. Both think highly of themselves, both
are jealous, both want their way, both think that
their way is best, (stay with me…) both get angry,
and both have the desire to rule. The only differ-
ence is God is omnipresent and made of pure light
and goodness, this is His deal. He is capital G-O-D.
Man does not have a right to indulge in those
things, only God does. Though a man has God
within him, a man going on his own power and wis-
dom is operating on limited awareness. Each of
these characteristics mentioned are distorted when
presented by man. When God gets angry or is jeal-
ous, He does it out of love. He sees the big picture,
sees how everything correlates, and knows what
the future holds; He does for us, for our own good.
When man, operating in the flesh gets angry or is
jealous, he has no choice but to come from selfish-
ness because his spirit is limited.

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Many times, man puts God into the flesh realm and
cannot fathom God acting or being driven by any-
thing different than themselves. If they are, for ex-
ample, an unforgiving person, they will struggle
with the concept that God would forgive them. But
in the end, Man is made in the image of God and it
is necessary for a man to relinquish the tendency to
be their own god in order to let God rule in his life.

This task is not as difficult for women. Women are

wired differently. They were created in the image
of wisdom. Because they are innately nurturers,
they are geared to cultivate relationships. Because
of this, God had the woman be the child bearers.
But remember, the more lies they have the more
distorted their self-worth is, the less confidence
they will have carrying out that wisdom.

Men, if you want your relationship to work, you

need to acknowledge that you are not created with
the understanding of nurturing a relationship. If you
want to have a good relationship with your woman,
you are going to have to listen to her. She is the only
one that is going to be able to give you the keys to
a relationship with her. You cannot follow the ad-
vice of another person to make your relationship
work. Every woman is different. What works for
one woman may not work for another. If you want
to make YOUR woman happy, then you must ask
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are getting this. The only person that has the an-
swer to your questions about what pleases your
woman is your woman. Listen to her, if you don’t
like what she is saying, then you are with the wrong
woman. If you want to keep your woman and have
a good relationship, then you must listen to her
words. Men, if you want to go on your own wisdom,
then you do not have room in your life for a woman.
You have fulfilled both roles as a couple and you will
find yourself alone. Your choice.

But here is the clincher, the dynamics of the male

female relationship is about to change. In the last
days, God says that there will be peace on earth.
Mankind has finally matured enough that we are
moving into the position so God can lift His curse on
His creation. We have not been able to achieve
peace up until now, but He says in the Bible that in
the last days, the lion will lay down with the lamb.
This is referring to how the male and female es-
sence will finally be at peace with one another. This
needs to happen inside each person first, then it will
happen amongst the genders.

Being at peace with yourself means that each per-

son must embrace BOTH their male and female es-
sence within them. Right now, men are running
around all manly with barely any acknowledgement
of their nurturing side. Women are fully embracing
their feminine side, but most are not fully embrac-
ing their male essence within. God wants each of us
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to balance ourselves inside, then we can achieve
balance with others. The world has been moving in
this direction for some time. The movement is now
ready for clarity and focus. I speak truth. If you
chose not to believe it then you are rejecting truth.
Going back to the diagram concerning relation-
ships…. In the end it will look like this:

God God

I I

Male - Female

Know that God Himself went through this when He

became one with Wisdom. He refers to himself as
‘US’. God moved beyond just power and became a
loving, caring and a nurturing God. We need to fol-
low His example.

We have a lot of societal illusions that we live by.

Things we do because society says we should, but
they do not follow the path of God or align with the
Laws of the Universe. We need to start becoming
aware of such things and change our ways. Only
then will change come from within - which will
change our immediate world - which can then
change the World! Don’t you think it is time for a
change? Everyone speaks of how things need to
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working so far. Spiritual Renewal works. It is ful-
filling scripture. It says in the last days that the
seven seals will be broken. Those seven seals are
the seven Laws of the Universe. He who have ears
let him hear.

Once we all begin to live free, the world as we know

it, will change. Scripture will continue to be fulfilled
until the end when every knee will bow and every
tongue will confess that ‘being all positive is the
best way to live’. But as you start your journey, re-
member that you are just an infant. You are learn-
ing and growing spiritually. God will meet you
where you are at. Do not rush the process, Law of
Gestation says everything takes time. And compare
your journey to anyone else.

Many people ask me why they can’t just Find their

own path to truth however they want to. Here is my
response:

If someone gave you a car and you wanted to use

that car to go places, you would also need the keys
to THAT car. You can’t use any key you have laying
around, you would need that car’s keys. You could
push the car and you might get some distance down
the street, but it is going to take a lot of effort and
you aren’t going to get anywhere fast. But if you
agree to take the keys, put it in the ignition, use the
proper pedals as the instruction manual advises,
then you will have amazing transportation! Why are

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you surprised that there would be a set process and
only one approach to freedom in your spiritual life?
You understand this concept in every other area in
your life why would your spiritual be different?
Companies ask that all its employees be of one
mind so they can complete the businesses goal. All
sorts of rules to follow: when to show up, when to
get off, what task you are supposed to do and what
you are not supposed to do. Sports teams want all
its players to be of one mind. If it is a football game,
they want everyone to show up with the same uni-
form not another’s teams’ uniform. If you belong to
a card playing club, you wouldn’t show up with
chess pieces.

God and His spiritual plan is no different. He chose

me to explain the process, but it is His process- not
mine. I am just the messenger that was willing to
listen and give up my life so that you can be shown
the way to peace and freedom. This is the only way
to freedom, this is God’s business plan. Receive it
and accept truth or reject it, either way it is still
God’s plan that He wants me to share with you.

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Chapter 11
Spirits
On the subject of spirits: We are ‘up in arms’ about
the condition of our world, asking why it is all going
to ‘hell in a hand basket’. Why do we longingly look
back at the years past and call those terrible times
the good ol’ days. We watch our youth disintegrate
before our eyes and feel helpless. I don’t have to
remind you of the hatred, crime, abuse, disregard
and entitlement that is running rampant; just turn
on the news. There is a cure. There is another piece
of the message that goes hand-in-hand with the
other tools I have shown you. And that is the re-
newed enlightenment involving the Spirit World.

Throughout history mankind has acknowledged the

parallel universe. Today we called it superstition
and child’s play; for the simple minded and ignorant
people. Then we did away with silly traditions be-
cause we were ‘smarter than that’. Was it really be-
ing smart? I am here to inform you otherwise.

IT IS REAL.

But we don’t have to live in fear as those in the past

did concerning the Spirit World, because mankind
has matured enough to know the power of the
mind. Once you get rid of the negativeness inside of
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spirits because they will have nothing to resonate
with. Once you become aware and empowered,
you can easily have control over the spirit world
that is going on around you. I cover this in my book
Insights to the Parallel World.

When a person dies, they pass on to the Afterlife. It

talks about this phenomenon in every major reli-
gion. The flesh goes to the ground and the soul (the
mass of energy that has be gestating in the organic
matter we call flesh) gets released in to the atmos-
phere: The Spirit World. This is why our Universe is
expanding, people are dying. Scientists can’t tell
you why it is expanding, just that it is. I know why. I
know that you can compare the increased number
of people dying to the increased expansion of the
Universe and they will coincide.

The problem is that today, because of the decline

of religion, more people are dying more negative
than positive. Most people are no longer confessing
all of their sins before they pass on, which means
they are being left in a more negative state when
they pass into the Afterlife. This needs to change.
The Universe needs to balance itself out or we will
continue to tip the scales to the negative side which
will be to our destruction. The Law of Capacity
states that (like a balloon) we will either explode or
deflate. I don’t know about you, but, deflate sounds
like a much better option than explode. We have
the ability to change our situation, we just need to
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know what we are really dealing with so we can play
the game more effectively.

So basically, I have the job of Jonah. I am telling the

world (Nineveh) that even if you don’t serve the
same God I do, get a clue and change your ways or
we will be destroyed. Not believing in God doesn’t
change the fact that energy and Universal Laws ex-
ist. Let’s learn to obey the Laws!

Ironically, God has mankind backed into a corner.

Either we start playing by His rules or we stop play-
ing. Remember, freewill is not the opportunity to
choose whether it happens or not, freewill is choos-
ing whether we want to be on the good side or the
bad side when it all happens. You can prepare your-
self all you want physically, but in the end if you
don’t have the spiritual tools, your physical won’t
help you very much. Remember this whole shift
that is happening is all in the realm of energy. Just
as our wars have switched from physical to tech-
nical warfare, so our personal power is moving from
external to internal. Mankind has finally matured.

There is so much more for me to pass on to you.

Many of you that are out there have pieces to the
puzzle that you are supposed to share, I do not
want to do all the work! This is a part of the process
of becoming of one mind, we all participate to-
wards the answer. God has been preparing the

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world for this message. Open your mind and re-
ceive.

No, I am not a cult leader, I am just a messenger. I

am empowering you to go on your own journey
with others. I am just giving you the hand book re-
written in modern day words about an age-old mes-
sage. I am just here to provide insight and to show
The Way to Freedom.

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Conclusion
Revelation 3:15-22
"I know by your works, that you are neither cold nor
hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. 16 "So then,
because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor
hot, I will vomit you out of My mouth. 17 "Because
you say, 'I am rich, have become wealthy, and have
need of nothing' - and do not know that you are
wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked 18 "I
counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire,
that you may be rich; and white garments, that you
may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness
may not be revealed; and anoint your eyes with eye
salve, that you may see. 19 "As many as I love, I re-
buke and chasten. Therefore, be zealous and re-
pent. 20 "Behold, s I stand at the door and knock. If
anyone hears My voice and opens the door, “I will
come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me”.
21
"To him who overcomes I will grant to sit with Me
on My throne, as I also overcame and sat down with
My Father on His throne. 22 "He who has an ear, let
him hear what the Spirit says to the churches."

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As our example, Jesus had to overcome and so can
you. Spiritual Renewal is that refining by fire so that
you may be rich.
Receiving and living by the truths you plant is the
white garments.
Muscle Testing is the salve so that you may see.
When you go through the process.
The rebuke is when you discover you live by a lie.
The chasten is going back to your memories and the
love is when you receive truth.
You have been standing at the door when you had
a feeling there was something more.
You opened the door when you bought this book or
was presented the message. Are you going to listen
to His voice?
Are you going to start partaking of the richness in
life? Sit down and dine with me and taste and see
that the Lord is good!
These truths that I have shared with you are only
the beginning!

You may conclude that this is too radical, maybe

you should try something less extreme. I am telling
you that I have tried many approaches in my quest
to be free. For years I read, studied, traveled, and

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 implemented many techniques. I made some lead
way with some, but no other approach gave me the
exact tools, answers and results that Spiritual Re-
newal has. Most other methods of freedom con-
clude that you need to just try and think positive.
Just try and practice positive thinking every day. But
that is like planting flowers in a weed garden. Those
approaches do not equip you with exact tools or
even a clear explanation of why you are where you
are and how you got there.

Kind of like throwing you into a football game with

no knowledge of how to play, but because they
gave you a uniform to wear you should just know
what the game is about. Spiritual Renewal gives you
the background of the game, the rules of the game,
the inside information about the opposing team, di-
rect communication with the head coach and the
teams owners, unity with the teammates, a secure
win and the celebration party afterwards! What do
you have to lose? By looking around you, it is obvi-
ous that nothing else has been working for the
world. This works.

There is so much more to learn about: relationships,

about how much God wants us to work, about the af-
terlife, about the importance of our ancestors, the
real reason why we give, how to do battle with the
spirit world, the importance of rituals and so much
more.

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 I want to help you on your journey. This is my life
passion. God created me for this purpose, I want to
fulfill His will. God’s desire is that “none would per-
ish”. Know the truth…the truth will set you free.

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