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I could feel the tight grip of her hand squeeze my wrist’s bone as she gripped
them too tightly. The area reddened a bit. Nonetheless, it was more than just
the strangeness in her actions that caused me to pause for a moment; I could
also feel the great trouble and fear brewing in her chocolate coloured eyes.
Their pupils dilated as Mother emphasised her intentions to ‘Go’. Her voice
was anxious and frail, more so than I would’ve wanted to recall. It was hoarse
too. Albeit in a daze, I remembered asking: “Why?”, but she never answered.
Mother shook her head briefly as a soft grunt escaped her lips. As if the
answer was obvious. It didn’t need a question, much less an answer in reply.
Or maybe she just panicked. Afraid that a child such as I wouldn’t understand
even if she did.
The sound of shattering glass made its way to my ears with a noticeable
and ear-piercing ring. Heat was felt upon my skin, alongside a sudden sting. A
reddened patch formed around the lengthy cut on my left arm as the cut
dripped with blood in a thin line; it slid down quickly on to the hard and cold
wooden floor, splattering like fireworks.
Mother paid little to no heed to the glimmering mess made on the hard
wooden floor. She also couldn’t feel the throbbing injury on my left arm that
glistened with a spring of crimson liquid. Confident she saw it, I gave not my
first, but last tantrum. I shot her a terrible look and could see that she was
intimidated. By her body language, the flinching of her facial expression and
the trembling of her hands made my ego bloat. This battle was won by me.
The surrounding atmosphere hadn’t been taken into even a speck of
consideration and my immature-self had continued to throw fists and legs into
the air. Wails loud and proud.
She kept glancing to her left and right. Fearful eyes darted into an irregular
360 degree circle. Her patience was finally broken from a crippling
pieces of scattered shards; and the house was left with an open door.
I wasn’t forgotten and left alone in a house motherless, but rather, taken
along and became fatherless. Slight tremors left my hand trembling as I was in
hurricane of events and although the winds were gentle for the first few weeks,
they gradually became rougher with time. The house I stayed in after we left
the housing area was on the outskirts of town. Requirements for basic
sanitation and lifestyle was accessible under the consideration of other folks
that lived nearby, but not close enough to be called neighbours.
Mother stayed alongside me for vaguely a year before she left. Fortunately,
it was till I’d learnt the minimal skills to survive before she decided to run
away. Contact was not completely cut as she still did continue to provide
money once in a while. It was a trippy lifestyle, devoid of any warmth, only
practicality, during her stay. Even every now and then, I still recall her sunken
eyes and hollow cheeks under the brightness of the moonlit night. Mother
would refuse to sleep from night to night. “Dear…” She often mumbled,
whilst staring blankly into an unreachable distance. Her former persona, lively
and cheerful, loving, caring. Gone like vacuumed clumps of dust. Ever since
that faithful day, it was an undoubtable fact she changed drastically. Mother
became a mere hollow casket of her former self. It was deliberate in her glassy
chocolate eyes; the haunting empty that sent chills up my spine without fail.
The glass cup on the other hand, I recalled, fell from an unfathomable cause
till this very day. It was also along those vivid years that I had sometimes
contemplated the true happening behind it. Perhaps a wisp of smoke had
gotten its tail and knocked the glass over. Maybe the incident was but an
was my answer for the ever so popular question. I fiddled with a pen between
The rain that poured heavily outside had lasted for two hours already. Yet, it
The pen dropped after my fingers grew tired. I gave a complicated look
fingers caressed the cover of the journal. I reminisced a time where it was
once my only mental support. The paper and pen kept me going for years as I
first arrived at this foreign place. Yet one day, the leather-clad book was
forgotten, like some locked chest I’d thrown away into the seas of my mind.
The key remained in my pocket, but rusted as it was tossed into the washing
machine. I hesitated to open the journal as my mind was troubled. I felt
embarrassed to read the past memories. Ashamed of what might as well been
my middle school year book, in which I didn’t have. Change were in words;
change I hadn’t the intention to admit.
A chilling wind blew past through the open window. Their hushed whispers
lingering paranoia arose, then laced the thoughts in my mind, rather than
shock. I stood up from my bed and headed to shut the window, but as I did, the
journal flipped open on its own. A yellowing page tore from the impact of the
wind and I was left mindful of the strangeness of the night. “Strange.” I
previously.’
The round and simple designed clock hung on the peeling walls of my
room struck 12 and I was reminded of a new day once again. Giddy as well as
predators that prowl the grassy fields at night. Forcefully tucking myself to
bed, ‘sleep.’ I told myself. It was a chant played repeatedly in my mind, but
my eyelids were forced shut too tightly and it made sleeping much more
difficult instead due to the strain. A single droplet of sweat had made its way
down the hairs of my brows and on to my temples. I noted the spinning
propellers of the fan hanging from the ceiling. They spun and spun. Spun and
spun.
I woke a long time after the sun had risen. My heavy eyelids fluttered open
difficultly. Flinching from the merciless bright sun, I sat up and the leather-
clad journal was by my side. Flipped already open at an unpleasant page, the
flashbacks of fear gripped on to my mind tightly.
‘Box. Forget.’
Soft murmurs echoed throughout the room like ripples on the surface of
calm water. The air in the room tensed as shapes began to form blurry images
into solid objects. Wooden chairs and clean wooden tables. Porcelain plates,
stacked messily on the kitchen counter. Familiar sounds came along with the
furniture that was positioned quite simply. Hours passed like seconds, minutes
transformed into days. Concepts of time were twisted down the memory lane,
and I heard the voice of my Mother, loud and clear. She said: “People feel with
their brains, not hearts. Besides, the cut will heal soon anyway, so keep it
down.” I knew then, by that very line, the broken glass represented bad omens
after all.
A sharp pain followed, alongside sharp jabs aimed at the side of my skull.
like carats of falling diamonds, and scattered immediately as they touched the
ground with a satisfying ‘Plop’. After washing up, I was reminded to purchase
another bucket for the leak. Then, I’d go for a relaxing field trip outdoors,
away from the stale air of the empty house. Most certainly, its smell singed the
inner walls of my nostrils. Plus, the scent travelled to my gut and caused
Exposed to the fresh air of the day’s morning, I could feel the dampness on
my legs from the long grass’s dewdrops that had clung to my calves as I took
the time and distance to walk towards the lake a range away from my home.
Upon my arrival, I trudged through the murky lake. Before me were a flock of
cranes with feathers the colour of snow; by the back of their wings were the
blackest feathers of night; scarlet crowns adorned on their delicate heads. The
leisurely view of them frolicking in the water calmed my heart, yet the
whatever tainted the skies, had their eyes on me. My heart shivered while my
itself.
The paranoia grew each time I turned my head behind in order to catch a
look at the entity that I was half-convinced so false. Chills ran up my spine. A
biting coldness crept its way up and seeped into my very bones. The
corner of my eyes, I realized the flock of cranes took off shortly after their
play and rest. Slowly, but gradually, the cranes formed into an organized ‘W’
formation and performed a ballad in the sky. I gave a soft smile in appreciation
to the beauty of it. Furthermore, the sun was rising, completing the wondrous
and I ran- without a single second of thought- heading towards the woodlands
up ahead. We were like cat and mice, predator and prey. To have kept calm
and composure at this time was crucial, and I did so, but not without difficulty.
The scent and sound of dripping sweat was replaced by the rich and earthly
smell of the damp ground. With each and every step I took, more would
follow behind with one leg after another. Afraid to look back, I continued
running. Only the sound of my worn out breaths and continuous, desperate
footsteps echoed in the eerie and dark forest. My luck ran out as I tripped- of
all things- and blacked out momentarily. My legs had tangled before I fell over
nothing, or perhaps the root of an old, aged tree; and I was ashamed of myself.
the fall’s impact. In exchange, my palms were sacrificed instead. The skin that
was once as smooth as pearl, was scraped and peeling. Ruby streams of blood
my nerves. Scattered, small chunks of dirt and soil decorated the wound that
became slightly numb as adrenaline continued to course through me.
I’d fell to my knees, but got right back up with great haste and continued to
sprint. In order to survive, “in order not to die.” By those words, my head
throbbed. It throbbed and throbbed and throbbed harder than even my erratic
heartbeat that threatened to burst from overwork. Suffocating my lungs. I
could hear uneven breaths; they were deep and tired, fuelled with anxiety.
During the entirety of it, the shapeless figure continued to stroll behind me. It
A shiny sheen of sweat layered above my skin, reflecting the gentle rays of
evening sunlight that easily penetrated the forest’s canopy. It left me glowing
redder due to the heat. The entirety of our surroundings was silent, with the
in the sight of the creature that had chased and observed me on a regular basis.
It wasn’t human, I realized, and it’s appearance betrayed that of a common
monster. The lean figure had the height of a teenager. He wore a plain white
mask with slits for his eyes to peer through. Completed with a pair of blue
ripped-jeans and a faded grey t-shirt, I wondered why I ran.
He- I’d abruptly decided- wasn’t all that frightening. His hand quietly
lingered on the top of my shoulder. I observed the situation with more calm
than ever. The two of us kept steady eye contact during the entire time.
Through the mask, his amethyst-coloured eyes met my own. Recklessly, I
mustered the courage to shake the skin-contact away. “What do you want?” I
demanded. Whilst the voice of the question cracked half-way, his figure turned
around. Mask gradually disappeared into the thick clouds of mist that
shrouded the forest, leaving me unanswered. Confused, I returned back to the
disintegrating wooden house I called home. Soft, clean and sterilized white
My eyes laid upon the large oak tree rooted in the backyard. Without the
slightest sound, a pair of feet unhurriedly walked towards it. The tree’s
towering figure had branches spread out far and wide. Clusters of leaves
shaded my head from the rays of light radiating strongly. On the neatly
trimmed field of grass, our shadows merged and I could be mistaken for
wearing an oversized crown. A touch of wind blew. And I had one hand
clutching tightly on the tree’s rough bark; whereas another took over the other.
climb anyway. Nimbly, my feet dangled freely in the air as I swung myself
over a stable branch. I sat alone on the branch of the Oak tree in the backyard.
It was like a guardian angel of sorts because for years it’d watched me grow
from a child.
littlest of things, I watched carefully while the rounded edges of the leaves
flickered as they flew. They twirled gracefully in the wind. After a long drift in
mid-air, they finally landed on the ground. My hair blew along as well,
covering my eyes in a messed wave. Strands of then even got into my mouth
as I spat them out with much disdain and annoyance. By the bottom of the tree
was the leaning youth yet again. He came without so much as a notice, as
usual. Even so, I believed that my heart had already grown tired of the anxiety
and fear I once felt all too many times. The reason was because my fingers
leisurely plucked an acorn hanging by a branch. And carelessly, I dropped the
fruit. It crashed on the top of his head and ended with a satisfying ‘Ttuk’.
‘Mask’ glanced up, his amethyst eyes flickered briefly with emotions I
supposed was: confusion, alongside wonder and blatant interest. Quicker than
a monkey, he swiftly seated himself on top of a branch protruding next to
mine. His voice was surprisingly young as he made the initiative to speak first:
emergence of a dark night; where the stars rarely appear, and the moon was
Climbing up a tree was of little problem to me. Coming down, on the other
hand… required more time to take place. Mask had already reached the
day compared to any other. Prior to the thought, a gush of blood exploded
throughout my heart- shaking my core- and I found myself falling, leg first,
from the branch after a careless slip of my hands. I saw the world in slow
motion after that. Just then, my eyes experienced brief sparks of light pierce
them from within. It was like Alice down the rabbit hole and into Wonderland.
Mask didn’t catch me from my fall. Instead, he stepped aside with a short gap
from his original position. It was just enough, in terms of distance, to avoid
my plunging body- joint with stiffened limbs.
stars circled my vision, and left the world throbbing and spinning. Sharp edges
of the grass pricked the bare areas of my bare skin; groans and moans of pain
could be heard exiting the entrance of my mouth. It was a horrible day. With
clenched teeth and fists- the sound of damp leaves, earth and grass rustled- as I
forced my aching body to sit up straight. Mask was unmoving. I suddenly felt
I was unable to fathom the root of it all, but the source would not wait until
I did; levels of strangeness resumed to stack up, one above the other. In layers,
so many a time.
face; gently tracing the soft jaw line that was smooth and barely angular.
Average features decorated its fair complexion; nothing was too out of place
or particularly beautiful or crooked. My nose may’ve been blunt, but it wasn’t
flat; Wavy and flowing auburn-brown coloured hair shaped my oval face,
blending charmingly alongside their chocolate brown eyes. Paled, pink lips
with the soft and mellow colour of peaches cracked slightly from dryness.
The characteristic mole underneath my right eye stood out from its plain
face. Thus far, the beauty mark was the only feature I would boast of. A basic
and dirtied white t-shirt currently hung loosely on my slender frame; my pair
of tight maroon jeggings contrasted with the t-shirt in comparison. The golden
necklace I wore held a clock pendant I fiddled nervously. Its exquisite golden
carvings shun underneath the orange sunlight and I believed that the memento
of timeless memories were much more beautiful than any other flower that
may possibly bloom.
pulled the wandering thought back into reality. A sigh escaped from
underneath my breath.
wounds from mainly feeling alone. On the surface, shallow scrapes and
bruising circles laced large areas- if not all- of my skin. Pain flooded my back
with blunt throbs. They were like the drums of a band, rhythmic in beats, but
not as pleasant compared to hearing it by one’s ear than having felt it on one’s
skin. I was more than confident that a garden of black and blues would bloom
on almost every patch of skin on my body. Purple skin would no longer be a
myth.
Mask took my words to heart as he left the moment I ordered it. Frustrated,
my limp hands clenched into a fist which hit the ground angrily. With the
culprit gone, an outlet for my anger had disappeared. I painfully dragged my
body towards the chipped wooden door that was somewhat a distance away.
The number of times I stumbled could be counted with more than one hand.
With the addition of the wound on my palm, my anger could only grow and it
would take more just a night-time bed story to appease it. Finally, I was at the
doorstep; the door creaked open like as if it were rusted metal despite the
material difference; and the smell of earth and wet leaves greeted me.
On the kitchen counter was the first aid kit I’d taken out hours earlier to
wrap the wounded hand. It stood unmoving, untouched and open, as well as
almost empty. The Red Cross above the lid was faded, almost to an orange.
‘Shower first.’ Reminded the souring stench of sweat that exited my pores and
I cringed at the thought of getting into the cold shower with newer open
Everything was settled within the span of an hour and I’d lost my appetite
along the away. The repulsive, but edible microwave food was left alone in the
run down fridge for yet another night. Mother was out and about her business
computer for entertainment or basic communication. For the past decade- even
when I first arrived- the house already lacked any sort of communicative
service to and back the outside world. There was an exception however, the
of collapse. The house also lacked a television. Had I been murdered, no one
would know. I sat awkwardly on the comfortable old leather sofa; and hugged
my knees close to my chest. No monsters under the bed or any zombified dogs
hidden in the closet were out to keep me company that night. Only the
my foggy window; I had fallen asleep in the position set the night before. My
neck ached unbearably as I massaged it gently after relieving the stiffness with
a quick neck stretch, accompanied with resounding cracks.
Burning, agonising pains also came roaring awake. Every inch of my skin
flared without warning. Stiffly, my body robotically cranked itself towards the
bedroom door and tortured its way down the stairway after a quick shower.
The hard bread tasted stale and I immediately prepared a glass of water that
barely managed to sooth the minor cuts inside of my mouth. With every sting,
my facial expression winced. Sustaining impeccable curse words from the
Bliss threaded my heart with its delicate feet and professionally massaged the
damaged organ. Mists of chilled air caressed a broadened area of my heart and
I could predict the sight of its owner with close eyes. In less than a second, I
rose and turned around swiftly to face the masked man’s figure. His eyes
glowed with interest as he raised both hand up into the air in a playful
surrender.
shovel- tainted with the bodies, alongside blood of unfortunate ants and
earthworms in which died by its spade- closer to his right cheek.
wouldn’t blemish his pearl-white mask. The dirt-stained tool moved even
closer to his cheek. With widening eyes, Mask sharpened a glare towards my
own.
“Lies. Why’re you following me then?” Unaffected by his intimidation, the
interrogation ceased to stop. “You piqued my interest.” He admitted sulkily. It
gone in two blinks of an eye. Before I could react, gone was he and left were
the declining, sinking leaves. ‘He’ll come back, for sure.’ I thought
confidently.
days after. Pity built up within my chest as I came to a realization that the
youth must me terribly lonely to return time and time again. Particles of dirt
stuck to the gardening glove I wore whilst gardening again. I had squat down
and tended to various projects that involved plants. Mask stood behind me
unnaturally timid. The atmosphere was awkward. Oblivious to it, loud were
acknowledged.
A new day had come into being, whereupon the sun stood as proud as a
peacock amidst the clear blue sky. Waves of scorching heat glowered my mind
into a dizzy mess as an array of stars drifted at the corner of my squinted eyes;
twinkling and buzzing constantly. Even clouds refrained from any
appearances. Sweat dribbled down my forehead like an everlasting waterfall.
They collected at the base of my neck and at the same time, soaked strands of
my voluminous hair that was tied up into a casual pony tail. The effort it took
to see a mask-less Mask stroll towards his ‘second’ home base- as he emerged
from the woodlands- increased by twofold. I had a hand cover my squinted
eyes, protecting them from the wretched and blinding light. For once, his
chilling presence became useful as it dissipated the uncomfortable heat
circling around my body. Once he arrived, the external wooden fence gate
creaked open. The youth placed a sized and bright yellow alarm clock on the
wooden picnic table near the porch. “It’s today.” He said, as the thin metal feet
“What?” I inquired whilst drying the laundry. Beads of water dripped down
said. “Don’t you want to go? Like the last time, when you gave me a name.” A
when is it?”
“At around 8. I’ll set the clock. Found it somewhere, so don’t ask.” Mask
twisted the tiny knob at the back of the clock with great unfamiliarity. Surely,
he had figured out how the setting was, but wasn’t all that used to the
mechanism. Clumsy fingers finished with an audible click after the sounds of
a zipper. The youth then got up from his wooden stool and pulled me
lengthways by the wrist to go somewhere, with the clock in his hand. Before
long, we arrived by the base of the oak tree in my spacious backyard. He put
the clock down and sat near it. His hand patted the ground three times, as if he
would on the door- but by knocking. It wasn’t hard to understand the message
As early as 7 in the morning, Mask literally chilled his way into my room.
Heavy freezing cold mists seeped through the tiny spider web cracks of my
frail window pane. The youth knocked once, twice, but the room lacked even a
mumble in reply. It was difficult to observe the inside because of the heavy-
coloured curtains draped over the framed panes. Frustrated, Mask stood
Their smoky hands touched my feet, bringing it into a heavy shiver. I could
feel the heavy weight of my eyelids as they refused open. Easily, I was tamed
by the unconscious desire to keep my eyes shut. Like that, I hissed a sleepy
snorted. So he took away my blanket with the simple flick of his wrist. The
covers pried themselves free from my iron grip as an invisible force pulled
their ends in contrast to mine. My body tossed and turned; kicked and pulled.
The struggle was real and valued more than just that. It was a battlefield,
nobody takes my sleep. The sense of satisfaction welled in my heart as I kept
my pride bountiful.
back, it was also the first time in years I spoke so many words to someone
else.
Mask: “No fool would stay still under the wrath of someone else.”
Me: “That’s not the point. Moving makes it worse, you insufferable alien.”
Me: “Just stay green, will you?” I flatly said. “And while you’re at it, it is
the reason you’re here isn’t important, I normally prioritize the bed above all
“Come with me.” Mask coolly said. My heart surged with surprise from the
tight squeeze followed from my gut. Immediately, his large hands covered the
entrance of my mouth. “Keep it in.” Nodding, I forcefully kept whatever was
about to come up, back in. We started to walk side by side one another with
matching footsteps. “Fire.” He suddenly whispered underneath his breath. A
crackling flame appeared by the tip of his fingertip. Its lively blue flame
flickered and brought light on and into the dim forest surrounding. Fascinated,
my eyes widened. “Are you a weather spirit? You bring about freezing
going take of that mask?” I inquired carefully. Till this day, I had not a clue of
his appearance, nor identity. Only the lingering image of a pair of bright
Smoothly, Mask took of the cover off his face. His hair was a light brown
with a short, casual cut. His eyes were alert, and somewhat ancient;
satisfied. Just then, the leaves of the trees above us shook. Startled, I heard a
distant cry sound above our heads. My eyes caught sight of a familiar looking
bird of prey perching in its nest in the trees. I vaguely recognised it as a short,
The Buzzer, if I wasn’t mistaken, suddenly flapped its wide wings and took
off into the skies with a ‘V’ shape. Amazed, I watched the white and brown
patterned wings glide from tree to tree. Jumping up and down, my hand
“Mask. It’s your name. Or nickname if you hadn’t already got one.” He looked
down towards the ground. A quick smile I failed to catch laced his lips. Paying
his attention back to me, he asked if I liked birds. “They’re beautiful, I admit.
But what really baffles me is their ability to take flight.” Free and graceful;
muttered a silent “Thank you.” afterwards, but I failed to figure out why.
Lying down on the prickly field of grass was something I’d gotten used to
after months of practice from the beginning of my arrival here. For hours,
canopies of leaves shaded our relaxing bodies. Gone was the twist of stars that
plagues the corners of my view. Our lying figures were tiny in comparison to
the blanket of shade that covered us. The branches of the Oak tree bounced up
and down. Its leaves rustled in unison. In its midst was the faint flicker of
movement. Pairs of songbirds perched, their tiny beaks carried hints of sticks
and straw. They had come to bring new life in to their own and perhaps on
with threads of another. Change wasn’t easy, but the rosy tint within my
complexion was obvious. Meals were taken on a regular basis, and I’d fulfilled
the basic quota for a healthy lifestyle with proper social interaction too. My
eyebrows were raised with pleasure. I took a deep breath in, then out. My
“No,” He replied, and after a long pause, continuing: “It’s just that... Your
face...”
“It’s weird.” He said simply. I found the innocence in his voice astounding;
it was pure and honest, unlike any other. Mask was a hit man in training
handed a gun for the first time. With words like pellets of paintballs; they
bruised, but dealt no real or major damage. Strangely, I felt more amused than
offended. After hours of relaxing on the grassy field, I stood up for a quick
stretch, and soothed my sore muscles. At the same time, the shape of my
shadow towered over him. The spirit had an expression of surprise on his face
as his eyes lightened up, curious- he always was. My hand reached out to
ruffle his pitch black hair, but stopped mid-air. Perhaps there was a look in my
Me: “No, but I wanted to inform you that the remark was kind of rude.”
“Okay. But I doubt that either one of us would come into contact with any
other.” He sulkily remarked, and nodded sarcastically from our brief exchange
earlier. Just then, the yellow framed alarm clock placed by our feet rang as
soon as its thin and long arms struck 8. The sound was piercing, deafening my
ears. I speedily slammed the rectangular button on top of it, and brought it to a
temporary pause with enough time to turn off the switch. Six hours was gone
whispering breeze cut through Mask and I, producing a soundly ‘whoosh’ past
our ears. “Careful, you’ll trip again.” He reminded. Playfully, I nodded in
response to his remark. Up ahead, was an array of… yellow, glowing lights?
The image wasn’t all that clear as we were still a distance apart, but the lights
were clearly in various sizes and intensity. I sprinted even quicker towards our
destination.
Mask’s leisured strolling kept up with my very own hasty steps. Another
inhuman feat, I noted. Distinct memories flash briefly. My lips drew into a
fond smile as I realized, had the youth tried, he could’ve very easily, caught
me. We were at the tip of our toes. Fresh grass tickled the soles my feet. Mask
floated the entire time, his body drifted in the warm breeze on a single
wavelength like a stringed balloon. And I stopped my run with reason, whilst
looking downwards at my bare feet. “Wait.” I blurted. “Shoes.”
minutes to prep up properly for the festival located in the woods. Cautious of
the protruding roots, fallen branches and prowling animals in the dark, Mask
and I decided to walk towards the designated area instead of rushing. The ball
of flame flickered at the tip of his index finger. Their scarlet flame lit the
pathway, easing our journey. Familiar glowing gazes held their gazes on me. I
dangs. The tiny humanoid figures wielded spears twice the height of their
bodies. With a raised eyebrow, I glanced to the left where Mask stood. His
face came into a rigid expression of distaste and recognition. Without warning,
the imp-like things charged towards the duo. Right before my face, were
jagged teeth that lacked heavily in hygiene with stains of black and yellow in
between; plus, no eye-whites, The imp’s eyes were the heavily corroded
colour of ink. Mask immediately threw the ball of flame- the one that lit our
sudden encounter with magical beings, I couldn’t retort his command or ask to
stay and fight alongside him. It would be a foolish decision that’ll do little to
no good for either of us. Helpless, I escaped alone, lacking a fuss. Yet worry
suffocated my lungs whilst I ran. My head turned to the back as I expected the
youth to appear in thin air once again. He didn’t however, and I was
‘You’ll only make things more difficult if you go. Run and hide. Besides, “If a
friend is in trouble, don’t annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do.
mind knocked out upon the impact of a towering creature unbeknownst even
to me. Surely, it couldn’t have been a bear.
He called out her name repeatedly. No answer. Yet, she couldn’t have gone
too far. Not whilst he fought. His friend wasn’t at home, nor around the edge
of the forest. Mask persevered in his search and was rewarded with the
appearance of her limp and unconscious body; albeit quite pale and weightily
teardrops fell neatly in a single line on to her sickly face. Transparent skin.
Pale, beyond compare. Panic continued to grow in Mask’s lungs like rapidly
through his organs, making its way into his heart. He couldn’t breathe; the
blooming flowers with petals of faded greys and yellows suffocated his
oesophagus. With quivering lips, Mask could only purse them tightly; and
with trembling hands, he could only hold her own- frozen ice-cold- tighter.
Her shallow breaths rung in his ears like church bells. The pulse against his
skin grew slower as seconds and minutes passed unhurriedly. The fact that she
was dying was as transparent as the wine glass he’d accidently knocked over
Mask could his legs go numb from an infinite amount of pins and needles
in his legs from kneeling. He lacked the ability to sweat and was thankful. If
not, the never-changing t-shirt he wore would’ve been soaked down to its last
thread from cold sweat. The youth could feel his composure slip. A string of
words were choked down his throat. It was grief. Forcefully, he spit them out.
“Help...” exited his quivering lips. Unfaithful breezes failed to carry his plea.
A chorus of chirping crickets twittered; their cries heard clearer than anything
else within the vicinity.
Shadows, dyed with the colour of abyss, chased me. Faceless, they wore
shredded, hooded robes that were stained with the memories of my father.
The subtle change of scenery was sudden and unexpected, but I could recall
my legs coming to a sprint as they reached towards the final line. The entrance
of the festival awaited me as I ran faster than ever, the fastest I ever had.
Rhythmic footsteps throbbed in unison with my quickened breath. One foot
after the other: ‘don’t tangle, please.’ I inwardly begged. My heart burned as it
switched places with the sink of the stomach. Every strand of muscle in my
legs ached for more oxygen which I couldn’t provide more than I already had.
Mask was behind me, he observed me with a gaze filled with warmth. I felt
bliss and like everyone else, wished it to last for an eternity. The lights grew
closer. Almost to the point my raised fingertips could touch them or grasp on
arrival.
Their glowing abdomens were reflected on the peaceful surface of the lake,
bouncing of it. Hundreds of stars came to life as they buzzed with the
anticipation of another night. He, who had stayed behind me, conjured a ball
of dancing, blue flame. Its tail danced and flickered with vigour. There was the
I played a game of tag with the shadows in the reality of its indefinite and
wretched place. Cracked light bulbs were hung on the low and grimy ceilings
of the dusty, grey corridor. Despite the anxiousness injected into my veins, I
took every given opportunity to take note of the surroundings under the
intention of taking it into an advantage at every- possible- turn perhaps. My
steps echoed on a pristine, tiled marble floor; every square was eroded from
time, but remained sublime in appearance. Hardy clusters of moss grew on the
corners of the steel-framed windows; I was surprised that life, other than mine
could survive in this accursed place. Connectedly, a thin layer of water pooled
by the crevices of the floor and it became no wonder that the resilient moss
could sustain its growth. I’d been running for hours on end, but my feet
weren’t sore. Feeling like a game character from the app ‘Temple Run’
reminiscing of the times I had as a child when phones, much less their games,
were available. The ever-ending corridor was a maze with bucketfuls of twists
and turns, sharp corners and unfortunate dead-ends which I had passed
fortunately more than once. The shadow of spectres nipped at my heels, hot on
Gravity did not apply to them, reminding me of... Who? My fear had long
dissipated, and I only kept the instinctive impulse to run. Thankfully, sweat
couldn’t be excreted here or the loose, blue t-shirt I wore would’ve been
soaked to the bone; specifically with cold sweat when I still felt fear for the
tugged on its shimmering string and clenched on to its cold metal. A series of
doubts started to begin crowding in my mind ‘What if there was no escape?’ I
forever.
I spotted a potential life saver. Along the distance, at around 350 metres
away, was a human sized locker. Quite simply, my body tackled it for a hiding
spot. The door creaked nosily open as I recklessly swung its cool metal door
open. Ghastly layers of dust that lied asleep on the top of the metal scattered
themselves upon the unexpected movements of my violent entrance. Coming
down like a rain of ashes. ‘CLANG’ echoes throughout the grey corridors; the
pointed edge of my elbow accidently hit the inner walls of the locker. Warning
sirens blared at the innermost of my mind. Anxiety crept easily down the
through the narrow gaps of line on the metal door. ‘Please be deaf.’ I hoped.
Except, the rusted metal door was still pried open from the outside.
“No...” His voice was soft, but clear. “Please don’t. No, no, no...” My
frigid skin felt warmth spread on to its cheeks and I could tell that someone
was crying in my stead; by the salt of their tears that unintentionally trickled
into my mouth; or just maybe, the tears belonged to me? Were they fearful for
what may happen, if I were to be caught by the monstrosities that pursued me
face.
hit one of their chests. We resumed the former chase of hope and death; till my
legs stopped running and so did the shadows that chased me relentlessly
earlier. With great courage, I turned towards the hooded figures and stepped
my memories. One I displayed not my first, but last tantrum. Nostalgia hit me
like a tides of odd waves, dyed the colour of locked memories. Brought up,
was the sunken Pandora’s Box. A shadow of eyes, belonging to yours truly,
frantically darted across the living room connected with a dining room in an
artistic blend. Gentle footsteps came across the hard wooden floor. Clicks
came with every step; Mother was all dressed as she readied herself for dinner
with my Father. She headed towards me and gave a habitual peace sign (when
she was happy) with her long and delicate slender fingers. An unclear
silhouette of my own responded in return. It was me, but from the past. They
were the happy moments, forgotten with a hidden purpose. My heart swelled
Father followed my mother soon after. His manly steps down the creaking
stairway troubled me. Wires of the circuit weren’t connecting right. The tiny
bronze cogwheels of my mind spun. Clicking with every turn. The silhouette
of my figure looked no younger than eight, so why couldn’t I revive the scene
before?
On the same day, my nervous footsteps found themselves creeping till the
front of a nostalgic room. Weary, I leaned my ear against the oak door in front
of me. There was silence. Foreboding, my steady fingers reached for the
doorknob with a tight clasp. I straightened my back and gave a sigh. Pushing
down the cool metal, rays of the corridor light penetrated the dark, eerie room.
First, my head peered inside and found the darkness impenetrable. The pulse
of heart failed to steady itself. It was I from the past yet again, curled up
within the corner of the square room. Sobbing, it was clear she couldn’t see
me. The back of my hand reached forward to wipe her weeping face stained
with streaks of sorrow. But like dust, this hand of mine could only scatter
apart. Going through the shadows of a repeated recollection easily. We were
trapped between the fantastical realms of dreams and reality.
My ears caught the sound and stench of a putrid liquid droplets that stained
themselves on the formerly red and luxurious, woollen carpet. They touched
the floor with an echoing ‘plop’ ringing in my ears, Pin-drop silenced helped
achieve such feat, I was not grateful. Fear-stricken eyes caught sight of a short,
wooden birch stool. Tipped over as if it were kicked, the various pieces of this
jigsaw puzzle were easily to put together. A pair of hands covered my chin-
dropped mouth. I gasp for air from the hands that belonged to me.
bottom, were a familiar pair of large and cracked feet floating inches above the
ground. Terror struck me like shots of lightning. The frontal lobes of my brain
started to numb, the entirety of my body shivered violently. The room wasn’t
cold, from what I last recalled. It wasn’t the weather either. Little I kept
trembling, curling herself into an even tighter ball than before. Her feet was
against her chest, pudgy arms wrapped around them for dear life. She rocked
back and forth, mumbling incoherent sentence. She was shocked, traumatized.
The face of Dad ended at the beginning of the line. A tight noose, made of
thick rope bound the slender nape of his nape securely. Its rough surface area
cut thinly into his neck. It bruised his sun-kissed skin hues of purple blue.
Stretches of excess rope laid lifelessly on the floor close to my feet. The attire
he wore brought butterflies into my stomach. She clutched her stomach with
both arms and swallowed the vomit that threatened to come out. Never-ending
amounts of drool continue to leak on his favourite tuxedo. It went from his
neck, onto the collar of the tuxedo he wore, and all the way down to its coat.
Stiff limbs, as well as a paralysed body twisted with the rope into a slow
twirl. Mournful sobs replaced the former quiet in the room. They grew louder
and louder till there was darkness. Apples don’t fall far from their tree.
As her eyes fluttered open, my 8 year old self heard the constant wails and
curses of the neighbours outside her window. Confused, she failed to put
anything together. Mother held her hand and told her that it was okay.
“Forget.” She said. “Put them in a box. Close your eyes. Everything will be
over soon.”
Father was a reader with at least one book in hand. “A bedtime story,
please!” his deep and husky voiced lulled me to sleep better than anything
else. Strangely, it was always a dreamless slumber, one I loved the most. His
large palms pat my side whist tucking me in soft blankets. “… and the sullen
King bid farewell to no one before he left. The end, my child.” A peck on my
forehead, a final: why. “It’s because the King loved his family very much,
love.” Closed he, my most precious father. The golden clock remained on my
rising chest. A Lucky seven’s birthday gift crafted by the man himself.
been on my side. My dizzied head knocked softly against his chest. ‘Listen’
read my eyes. Light-headed, I spoke: “They blamed our home. Saying it was
haunted by ghosts or demons or some... unknown spirits. But they were all
wrong, the lot of them, because Dad committed suicide. And no one
acknowledged it. They didn’t want to believe his wise-self would, that
although he had a family, it was still too painful too bear to the point he... he
did the deed. They meant well, but the seeds of paranoia grew.” Mask gave a
“Listen to me, you donkey. My wound... won’t matter soon. I need you to
listen because it does hurt. Because... their words were as sharp as sharpened
knives that cut through our hopeful barriers like tofu and we bled insecurities-
for days, then weeks, and months- on end. It wasn’t due to my father’s
incident however, but the fault of our neighbours. Excuses grew continuously
and we were blamed for even the smallest of accidents. Always, it was ‘our
fault, our fault, and never theirs or anyone else. Mom couldn’t take it, and
left, bringing me along. She was already broken enough without her husband,
the pillar of her being whom she loved very much. And she was pitiful as she
indulged in the wallows of her grief. You need to know all of this, Mask.”
Mask took in a sharp breath, inducing a light flutter in the wind. The colour
his face was drained similarly to the colour of what I thought might as well
been the colour of a sick patient. Despite my frantic plead, he wasn’t listening.
Through the light in his eyes, there glimmered hope. Therotically speaking, he
believed I could always speak another day, as long as I lived. He’d let me
repeat the speech over and over again and as much as I wanted.
Unfortunately, I could continuously feel the blood drain unstoppably
despite Mask’s effort to minimize the bleeding. He was a wandering spirit that
could not heal. The fact obviously infuriated him, as well as built a deep sense
of guilt that would remain in the pits of his stomach. My own churned from
the larger pressure he applied more so; in a pitiful attempt to keep me alive for
as long possible.
His desperate and glowing eyes were watery and I could tell he wasn’t
ashamed to cry. ‘The reason he probably isn’t might’ve been because they’ve
all already dried up.’ I jokingly pondered. My body trembled once again as
warmth gradually left me at a fastening rate. Mask eyes dilated into slits from
the thought or even plausible fact that I had to go and never come back;
travelling to someplace he couldn’t reach. Like soft sand, he could feel the fine
grains slip through the gap through his fingers in which he could not control
despite placing the other hand beneath it. “Don’t go,” He cried. “Help will
come soon.” Mask lied. His voice was an octave lower than the normality. It
My lips broke from its formerly dying expression into a playful, but weak
grin. I amusingly said: “You’re being logically dramatic; like the main male
protagonist of a tragic play. It’s kinda sweet, if I don’t say. Besides, your ear
twitches when you lie, ya know.” Mask didn’t take the joke as well as I did
becoming notably angry. An ugly scowl distorted his youthful and well-made
features. It complimented the sorrow in his voice. “Stop it.” I heard him say. A
The common perception of space was easily broken down and distorted
with a second-long wait. In mere time, both of us warped back to the spacious
field of my home’s backyard during the verge of a rising dawn. The scenery
was enchantingly majestic as the semi-transparent clouds from high above and
the ancient oaken tree spectated my final moments. Still skies waited for my
surroundings. He was childish that way. Not a trace of sound escaped Mother
Nature.
The clock pendant that hung on the golden chain around my neck stopped
shimmering from crusty blood stains that contaminated its shine. Their ever-
moving arms came to an abrupt halt; glass covering its Romanised digits
cracked like spider webs. Weakly, I managed to sit up from his gentle
embrace. My broken and trembling nails unclipped the clasps of the necklace.
Carefully, I placed it within the centre of Mask’s hand. His eyes widened with
shock. Consequently, his light brows came together into a tight knit. Mask
clenched his hand into a tight ball, holding on to the golden memento.
Particles of light, circled by silver smoke gathered by his fingers, and seeped
through them. Instinctively, I was sure his hand was accidently from clasping
on to my pendant’s thin, round edges too tightly. It made me laugh out loud, as
well as cough just as hard. I guessed the puncture of a few organs because my
entire body hurt; a shot of blood had made its way to my throat and slid back
done just as quickly. My fluttering eyes caught sight of Mask’s face again. His
face was never-changing from the same desperate and panicked expression.
“Smile, okay?” I sincerely requested. “The next time my eyes flutter open -
even if they’re smaller half-closed and you can’t really see them- you have to
smile. Not cry, cause if… ” My throat forced coughs from discomfort, “If you
do, I’d feel guilty to have left you, the heartless donkey.”
I had my head lean on his shoulder. My life had already been stretched for
too long. Taking a brief glance at the deep wound by my side, it was covered
clumsily by a hand coated with blood. The pool of silky crimson poured out
on the grass mirrored our reflections. It was the crack of dawn, whereupon
another day waited. She passed away that morning, whereupon not a thread of
life remained upon her greyish skin.
The mourning youth sat as still as a statue by her stiff corpse. It was
curiosity that brought him to her. ‘Curiosity that killed the cat and a
satisfaction which failed to bring it back.’ He felt empty; the core in the depths
of his soul trembled violently. Transparent, like that unfortunate fall of a glass
hundreds of broken shards hurt her, he remembered. Yet again, he hurt her.
Mask conjured his trademark mask, origin to his name. Quite simply, he
placed it on the freshly ever-growing grass. Then, the youth rubbed his hands
together. Be ridding the dried and crusted blood coating his hands; flake upon
flake, they fell. The rust coloured specks dirtied what was once a clear and
emerald patch of sprouting dandelions; sparkling from sunlight and morning
dew. As he mumbled a name under his breath, Mask lifted a finger and the
plain white mask floated wobbly in mid-air. After an extended amount of time
in what seemed like forever, he landed it with a perfect fit on her facial
features. ‘In exchange for the precious reminder, I too, will offer something of
equal value to me. My belonging.’
And there was time. The one exchange he could not make, nor give.
Exhaustion was bluntly reflected from the dimmed amethyst eyes of Mask.
He sighed once, then twice; and disappeared into nothingness, replacing his
6 years later.
“The house’s a bit soft but it’ll do.” thought Michelle, out loud.
Relaxed, the teenager examined the interior. It was simple and homely. She
reckoned it would’ve been piled with dust after the mysterious disappearance
of its former owner. Despite that, Michelle saw that the house was perfectly
Startled, Michelle took a step back and accidentally collided into the owner