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The
Netherton Method
of

Past Life Awareness

and
Integration

Taken from Dr. Netherton's Thirty Years

of Clinical Experience

A Modality for Success

Dr. Morris Netherton

Clinical Hypnotherapy
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Contents

Part One
Theory With Brief Examples Needed for Teaching
Page 1 - 7

Part Two
An In-Depth Report on Anorexia Nervosa
Page 8 - 69

Part Three
Birth Trauma as Source for Chronic Pain
Page 70 - 86

Part Four
Teaching Outlines With Transcribed Sessions
Page 87 - 124
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Part One- Theory With Brief Examples Needed for Teaching

As a client-centered process, a past life session is determined by the

unique needs and abilities of the client. Sessions use techniques which most
efficiently access unconscious trauma and eliminate it from present day living.
A session starts by locating trauma using either body sensations, strong
emotions, or words and phrases which are impactful. The process finds
words and gives them emotions or finds emotions and gives words to them.
Impact of these words and emotions is then found in the physical body.
Greater spiritual awareness is always experienced as a result of the change
from fear and confusion to clarity and self-understanding.
A session recognizes the pre-existence of an altered state induced at the
time of the original past trauma and kept active by the mind's inability to
complete these experiences. The language and emotions of these earlier
incidents serves as post-hypnotic commands imbedded in current
conversations and acted out in current behavior. Once recognized in present
life, they are used to locate the trauma or origin and will be noticeably absent
from today when their control is gone.
A session begins with a brief discussion of the presenting problem as a
way of reaching the point where the client is asked to "close your eyes
because you're already in the experience where we will work." No attempt is
made to induce a state of relaxation as this is counter-productive to fully
realizing a state of trauma. Relaxation and fear do not coexist in these
sessions. The following is an example of the language used by the therapist to
further the session.
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"The scene you're now in holds the answers you need in this session
..... (1) say the first words you think of coming from where you are.....(2) feel
the physical stress in your body and tell me the first physical position that
coexists with the stress.....sitting, walking, lying down.....recognize where you
are as you become conscious of your situation.....(3) tell me the strongest
emotion of which you're consciously aware."
The primary mode of perception is of importance here only as a means
of determining the strengths and weaknesses of the client. The weaknesses in
perception will be addressed as part of the therapy, thus developing for the
client a feeling, thinking, sensate balance.
Once the client responds, focus is deepened and maintained by a
repetition of phrases and sentences that lead through the experience.
Repeated phrases will lead to accessing either emotions or physical affect. A
cathartic release is the goal of this procedure and will be experienced if
continued long enough.
There is a structure of past life incidents that therapist should know and
use to assure completion of the issues uncovered. Presentation of this
structure and techniques for its use require greater detail than I can provide
here. The therapist uses this structure and composition to establish
experiential boundaries that provide grounding needed to clear confusion and
uncertainty.
The content of past life experiences is important only in how it relates
to present time and how it reveals the reason why the trauma is still
unconsciously alive. Once the script is revealed, a process is directed to locate
and erase trauma from various points of the experience. The final trauma to
be cleared is that occurring at the time of death. After all emotions, words,
pain, and confusion are cleared from the complete experience, including
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death, the soul is easily and freely released from the body. Resistance to this
separation indicates some emotional attachment still exists somewhere in the
experience. The mind will easily find this and release it.
Once free of the past trauma, the client recognizes a greater truth
about the experience and is guided to "say and do now what you couldn't say
and do then. Finish it!"
A point of identification carried from the past life death is located
during present life conception and the process of resolution is put in place for
continuation. Further reinforcements are found when mother first recognizes
her pregnancy consciously. This occurs in the second or third month of
pregnancy when her reaction is unconsciously recorded by the fetus.
Another vulnerable point for the fetus comes in the seventh - eighth month
when the physical and emotional pressures on the mother are reaching a peak
of intensity.
During the birth experience, the body experientially survives that
which caused death in the past life. Because of this survival, a negative
survival pattern is created as part of the life script.
The client is encouraged to change this script by consciously resolving
these experiences much as the past experience was changed.
My earliest sessions revealed a client's confusion as the greatest block
to completion of unconscious experiences. The client becomes lost in words
and emotions which lead to an escalating swirl of images and the repeated
answer, "I don't know....."
Once I began using the physical body's reality as an anchor, confusion
no longer controlled the session. The body memory is not subject to the
confusion of the mind. The body's experience remains literal regardless of the
illusions and "tricks" of the mind.
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The physical symptoms that are part of a past life death are carried to
the next conception and reintroduced as part of the new DNA code. During
the first six to eight weeks of pregnancy, the mother's experience will provide
the verbal and emotional components to the physical development of the
glands, organs, nervous system, and indeed, the entire body. Thus, mother's
statement, "My back is killing me" will define the physical formation of the
fetus' spine and connects to a past life by hanging. Sessions during this early
period of pregnancy reveal the process by which physical memory is carried
into this life.
The diabetic body remembers starving to death. Migraine headaches
are physical memories of hanging or blows to the head. Multiple Sclerosis is
the result of memories of lingering battlefield deaths with injuries that
paralyze the physical body. These are only a few of the body memories
carried from past life to the next incarnation.
The most recent advancement in body memory comes with the
research findings of Dr. Candace Pert. Her discovery of emotional receptor
centers and neuropeptides link the mind and body as one entity. These
receptors are encrusted throughout the body in locations ranging from the
brain to the bone marrow of the entire skeletal system – They are ordered by
the DNA, thus placing the receptors present at conception. The receptors
serve as the mechanism that sorts out the emotional information exchange in
the body.

"This messenger molecule (neuropeptide) and cell receptor

communication system is the psychobiological basis of mind-
body heading, therapeutic hypnosis, and holistic medicine in
general."1

1 Rossi, Dr. Ernest, The Psychobiology of Mind-Body Healing, 1987.

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The findings of Dr. Pert and Dr. Rossi may lead to a reevaluation of
some practices dismissed as quackery by modern medicine.
Their findings prove that any emotions can be centered and felt in any
part of the body.

"This system is the backbone of body memory as there is no

longer a strong distinction to be made between the brain, the
mind, and the body."2

If therapy is focused only on physical symptoms, it will find an

unending number of past life and present life experiences which reveal horror
stories of rape and mutilation as reasons and explanations for problems in this
current life. Positive response to their lives is often limited to a "better
understanding" and a willingness "to accept the things that can't be changed."
Real change occurs when the therapy confronts the victim within which
controls the way of life.
The victim as survivor is part of the life script present at birth. Its
foundation is complex and resistant to change. If this resistance is confronted
too soon or with too much intensity, the client may leave therapy because she
feels you, the therapist, are abusing her.
During an intake session, I question the client about any possible
incompleted pregnancies prior to the client's birth. A prior abortion or
miscarriage may be an imbedded source of identity as victim. Many times
the client is also the soul of the aborted fetus which returned to the mother
for a completed pregnancy. If this is true, the aborted fetus was a helpless
victim. When conceived the second time, the soul promises the mother "to
be a good girl/boy this time if only you will let me live. I'll do whatever you
want. I'll make everybody happy if you let me live this time."
2 Pert, Dr. Candace, Massage Therapy Journal, Fall, 1987.
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When the doctor declares the baby to be "alive and well," the earlier
promise now becomes a way of life. This "good girl" is now mother's victim
who must keep everybody happy.
Therapy will often change the core identity from victim to victimizer.
At this point, friends and family of the client will declare therapy a failure.
"It's not working. Things are getting worse." The therapist must anticipate
this change and discuss it with the client before it's onset. Sessions must
continue to resolve this opposite positioning in the client's behavior.
Both victim and victimizer must be addressed in sessions until neither
can control the client. A new position will emerge as these two fade away.
The client experiences the role of the benign observer increasingly present in
making daily decisions and interactions with friends and family. Free of
reactive impulses, choices are made that reflect consideration for the optimum
good of all.
During the prenatal period of transition from past life to present life the
fetal unconscious mind is developing with mother's experience, words,
feelings, and physical sensations, providing the second level of conscious
function. Because of this attachment to mother, a process of separation will
begin, at birth, when the umbilical cord is cut. At this point, the baby's
conscious mind begins its own function with the unconscious mind formed by
the entire nine month prenatal experience. The unresolved issues from past
life as continued by mother's prenatal experience through birth now form the
basis for unconscious beliefs and feelings. The process of separation from
mother also continues the process of past life resolution. I am often
challenged as to the baby's ability to "think" and "know" in uterus. If a
developing fetus had a conscious mind, it could self-identify and think for
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itself. It would consciously problem-solve throughout the nine months and be

born free of unresolved fears and confusion.
The unconscious mind must be formed during a time when conscious
memory of experiences is not possible. The unconscious mind's content must
be accepted without being subjected to the logic, analysis, and choices of the
conscious process. This begins at birth when life experiences will be
motivated by the unconscious script which will be evaluated and changed by
the conscious mind. This process of interaction between the two levels of the
mind will determine the soul's progress toward resolution.
There are also vital points of impact on the baby's physical body as it
passes through the birth canal. An adult's low functioning thyroid gland must
be investigated when the throat is in the birth canal ("slow down, slow down,
stop pushing for a moment"). Dyslexia must be addressed as the baby's body
is turned and rotated during delivery ("that's right, that's right" as the baby is
rotated to the left). This is especially true if forceps are used or if the birth is
a Cesarean section. Migraine headaches must be investigated if mother hasn't
dilated enough for the head's easy passage. Most physical problems are
found during the pain and stress of the birthing process. The manner in
which you experience birth will determine your formula for coping with
stress for the rest of your life.
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Part Two- An In-Depth Report on Anorexia Nervosa

The Treatment of Anorexia Nervosa Using Past Life Therapy

The client entered therapy to address the issues of a severe eating

disorder that had reached a life-threatening stage. The sessions are done two
per day. Each is two hours long and the intensive format lasted for five days
for a total of 20 hours.

As the transition to a sensory experience is complete, the dynamics

begin as this case history of a woman I'll call Ana:

"I see a brick wall in front of me. I'm afraid to leave it, afraid to
step forward, afraid I'll die if they see me. I feel sick in my
stomach and I have intense pain in my head. Many people are
moaning and walking aimlessly with blank, empty expressions
on their faces. They are thin. Oh, God, they are starving!"

"Look at the starving people, Ana. See yourself among them. Sense
your connection with them."

I encourage her more deeply into this unconscious reality.

She frowns as she makes the connection between the appearance of

the starving people and her current life condition of anorexia nervosa.

"They look like me."

"They're my people."
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"I belong to these people."

"My parents are here -- no -- my father is gone. Only my

mother is here. She's so thin. I feel safe here at the wall. They
can't see me here. They won't come for me again if they can't
see me. They won't hurt me again."

"Please don't let them hurt me again."

"Please, let me out of here. I don't want to be here."

I direct her to the first experience in which "THEY" come for her,
urging her to say words as they come.

"Let me go."

"Say it again, Ana. Repeat these words."

"Let me go! Let go of me!"

"They're holding me down on a cold table. A man is holding

my head and pressing me down to the table so hard my eyes are
popping out."

"They're hurting me!"

"Say it to him, Ana. Tell him."

"You're hurting me, you're hurting me!"

She is crying hysterically and struggling against the unseen hands

clutching her forcefully.
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"You're hurting me!"

"What physical sensation do you feel in your body now? Say the first
words that come to mind."

"They're putting something in me. My legs are tied down and I

can't move."

"They're putting something in me like a tube and they're filling

me with water."

"What are you feeling, Ana? Where do you feel the pain?"

"My stomach is filling up. It hurts, it hurts!"

"Say the painful words from your stomach, Ana, what words come to
you?"

"I'm going to die."

"Say that again, Ana."

"I'm going to die, they're killing me. They're filling me up and

killing me."

"Hear the voices around you talking, Ana. What are the voices
saying?"

"I don't know, it's another language. It's German; they're

speaking German."

"The knowledge of what they say is in your unconscious mind. Let

the words come."
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"They're talking about me. They don't care about me, they're
talking about me like an animal. Not even an animal, like I'm
an experiment."

"What are they saying, Ana?"

"This one has not yet started monthly periods. The uterus now
contains 1800 cc of water. As we have seen before, there is an
average difference of 1000 cc in the uterus before and after the
onset of menstruation."

I ask Ana to go over this scene again, telling me where her body is
located.

"I'm in a prison camp. It's a concentration camp. I was in a

crown of people when some guards pulled me out and brought
me here. It's like a laboratory. It smells awful and they have all
these awful looking instruments. They put some kind of clamp
on my cervix and filled my uterus with water."

"How old are you now, Ana?"

"I'm eleven years old. I'm just a little girl."

"Ana, feel your body on the table. Are they doing anything else to
you? Say the first words that come to mind."

"One of them is a doctor, with some assistants. The doctor

says, 'These Jews are very productive. They over-populate the
world and fill the land with their bad blood. Do with her as you
will.' He's walking out of the room. They're going to kill me."
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"Ana, move forward into this experience. As these guards hurt you,
give me the first part of your body that feels pain. What are you
feeling?"

"They're filling me again. They're killing me. I'm going to

die."

"What part of your body is filling. Ana? How are they doing this?"

"They're putting water in my rectum. Oh, God! Oh, God! I'm

so full, I'm full of water. They're killing me, they're killing me,
I can't stand it anymore."

Ana is crying again and in extreme physical discomfort. The re-

experienced pain is not as agonizing as her original experience, but since her
unconscious mind holds the physical pain as part of the total trauma, the
physical agony feels quite real to her.

It is necessary for Ana to re-experience all the original dynamics so the

hidden, charged trauma becomes only a fully remembered experience. To
achieve this, it is necessary to go through the experience many times. Ana's
physical pain and terror are so overwhelming that she will lapse into a state of
shock if we do not introduce the trauma slowly. The session is paced to allow
time for her to regain her sense of balance. Slowly and methodically, we
continue to work the sights, voices, emotions, and feelings of physical pain.

"What is happening to your body now, Ana? What physical sensation

do you feel?"

"He's hitting me and telling me to shut up."

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"Where is he hitting you?"

"He slaps my face."

"What is he saying?"

"This Jewish pig will make no more babies."

"What's the very next thing he is doing to you, Ana? Be in your body,
what do you feel?"

"Oh, God. Oh, no, he's forcing himself inside me. I'm only a
little girl -- he's forcing himself inside me. It hurts. He's filling
me up. He's killing me. He's hurting me."

Ana is totally caught in trauma as the three assistants brutally rape her.
The pain creates emotional shock as she keeps saying over and over, "It's
filling me up. It's killing me, I'm going to die."

Ana re-experiences the physical pain associated with this multiple rape
from beginning to its conclusion and discovers these guards do not kill her,
"We use the bodies of the Jews as we please."

After she gains a degree of emotional objectivity, she spontaneously

connects back to her position against the brick wall where we found her at
the beginning of the session. She can see the starving people. She feels
nausea and terror and knows if she leaves the wall it means "they'll see me
and I'll die." The first words she hears now are from her mother.

"If they come again, I'll help you. I can't let them hurt you. If
the guards come, I will signal you. Run to the fence and grab it,
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press your body to it tightly. Hold the fence, they will not touch
you. It will kill you, but at least you will deny these butchers."

"What are you physically doing here against the wall, Ana?"

"What words come from you or others?"

"I'm afraid. My back is against the wall. I'll be safe here if they
don't see me. I can't let them see me."

"What is your fear, Ana? Give it words."

"They're coming to get me again!" She is pressing her back

against the wall and can hear male voices.

Suddenly her mother is beside her, touching her lightly with love and
compassion.

"Go, my daughter, and remember, I love you."

Ana is sobbing and reaching her hands forward. It is this tremendously

emotional experience which Ana takes with her into death and, through
death, into her experiences beyond.

Her hands reach quickly for the wire that forms the physical
boundaries of her existence in this camp. She knows that she can use these
wires to remove the physical boundaries of her life; to free herself from
further pain and torture. It is hard to separate the jolting surge of electricity
from the scream coming so strongly within her, only when she releases this
deeply impacted scream can she push through the experience to a point
beyond physical death.

"Ana, now connect with any feelings or emotions that are unresolved."
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"I can see myself holding onto the fences. My body is shaking
and moving out of control."

"Are there any physical sensations you feel? Connect with any
feelings of physical pain."

"No, I don't feel anything. I'm not in my body now. I'm

looking at it."

"Are you pulled back into your body?"

"No, I don't feel anything drawing me back."

Ana experiences her consciousness as it leaves her body at this

moment of death. It's important she re-experience and release all the
elements of physical trauma until she can see her body convulsing on the
fence but feels separate from the feelings of pain and fear. Her body is
peaceful and relaxed which is an appearance seen on the therapy couch with
the re-experience of the consciousness leaving the physical form after a past
life death.

"Ana, based on this experience, what conclusions do you take with

you after death?"

She frowns a little and says, "I'll never let my mother get too close to
me."

"Say that again, Ana, so you can consciously recognize why you feel
this statement is true."
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"I'll never let my mother get close to me. If my mother loves

me, it means I'm going to die. It's really strange I'd believe that
because it really wasn't her fault."

"True, but realize these are feelings you carry with you when you
leave your physical body after that painful and fearful state. Mother
loving you means you'll die. Say that again and release it."

"I'll never let my mother get too close to me."

"Are there other conclusions?"

"If this is what happens when I'm seen, I'll never be seen again."

"Say that again, Ana. Recognize what you're saying."

"I'll never be seen again. I don't like being singled out."

"What does it mean if you're singled out?"

"I'm going to die."

"Tell me all the feelings you have about being singled out."

"I'll never be singled out because if I do I'll die."

"And are there other conclusions as you leave your body?"

"Something about a feeling of fullness. I can never feel full

again."

"Expand that thought, Ana. What does a feeling of fullness mean to

you?"
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"I was afraid they were killing me. I could feel it. I was so full
I wanted to die."

"Okay, tell me the complete experience about fullness."

"I'll never have that feeling again. I will never, ever have that
feeling again."

"Why not? Say the words that will release that feeling."

"I will never, never have that feeling of fullness again because
it will kill me. I will die."

"Here with me in my office, you have survived these experiences.

You have survived your mother loving you, your being singled out,
and the feeling of fullness. Realize your survival here in present t
ime."

Ana opens her eyes and looks at me with a sense of amazement. She
can connect this past life experience with her current life problems which
indicates we have worked one of the experiences causing her current
unresolved issues. The intensity of her issues indicate a pattern of evolvement
through other past lives. Therefore we will explore other life experiences to
discover how these patterns were created. The influence of this particular
death experience on Ana's current life is shown clearly as our work continues.

The experience of rape and death in a concentration camp came during

my second session with Ana. Our first session had been one of gathering
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information about her life, her family, and, more directly, her understanding
of her current problems.

As we meet Ana, she is nineteen years old and already an

accomplished dancer. At the age of sixteen, she had been hired by a dance
troupe as their youngest dancer. She had been mildly anorexic since the age
of thirteen with the anorexia becoming more distinct after she was hired. She
is career-minded and a frustrated overachiever. She feels strongly that she
sabotages herself whenever things go well. She is experiencing nonspecific
anxiety attacks and insomnia with periods of depression. She tries to combat
her anorexia with a strict nutritional program but still has the vomiting
behavior typical in anorexic-bulimics. She has difficulty with constipation and
colitis and is concerned about the affects of her physical problem on her
health, her career, and her life in general.

Ana's appearance is of a fragile, thin, and tentative young woman. Her

face is angular and lean which gives her a haggard look with an overall lack
of vitality and fatigue reflected in her eyes. Her hands tremble and shake
constantly as she talks of her problems. I find no signs of youth in this
nineteen year old woman who shows great tiredness and advanced age in her
otherwise attractive face. Despite her poor health and lack of energy, she is
excited about coming into therapy and has many questions.

Ana previously tried other therapies but found they left her with a
pseudo-intellectual understanding of herself and her problems. She saw a
psychiatrist for three years. Every week she sat with him for fifty minutes
and talked. She had tried two other therapies during this three-year period
while continuing with the psychiatrist, but found no sense of emotional
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resolution of her problems. She had spent a lot of money and time and she
now has only a deep sense of frustration.

Now Ana feels her issues will never be solved by talking about them.
These issues must be accessed within her "unconscious" mind because their
source lies beyond the level of her conscious awareness.

Her previous therapies did bring some unconscious material to the

surface. Many other clients in my practice have had other forms of therapy
and from their experience it is clear that bringing unconscious material to
conscious awareness without therapeutic resolution will not release
unconscious attitudes and will not affect changes in behavior or emotion.
Factually, brining unconscious material into the conscious awareness without
releasing it often places the client in more acute emotional distress due to the
reactivation of unconscious programming.

Ana's prior experience with therapy created a pseudo-intellectual

understanding which is really no understanding. Another client said, after
two years of talk therapy, "I'm overweight because I'm afraid of men. I feel a
need to protect myself from them. I'm afraid of men because of my
relationship with my father." I asked her why she was afraid of her father
and her response was, "He was very domineering of both me and my
mother." This is "understanding" and, yet, this woman is still overweight
after gaining conscious recognition of the fear of father.

Ana is a thinking, hearing, seeing, and feeling being. She has emotions
and physical sensations with these emotions. She also has words and
thoughts that accompany these physical sensations. They are not separate.
Ana is learning how they coexist within the mind/body in a very interrelated
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state. Unless she experiences her human consciousness within all of these
perceptual fields, she can not effect therapeutic change.

How is Ana's fear defined? Is it the thought "I'm afraid of eating"? Is

it a feeling of butterflies in her stomach or sweat on her palms? Is it a picture
in her mind of an act of punishment? Is she hearing words as she is
punished? Does she have other fears that are hidden, and therefore closely
related to her problems?

Her fear is a sensory experience containing words with feelings and

feelings with words. To release the words, she must access the feelings; to
release the feelings, she must access the words. She must release the
experience within each perceptual framework. The sights, sounds, physical
sensations with emotions, feelings, and thoughts, must be released to
completely free her of the experience. Other than this there is no permanent
release. Fear comes from an incomplete, unresolved, and largely unknown
emotional trauma which threatens her very existence. The removal of fear
from the unconscious level comes with completion and resolution of the
experiences contained within the fear.

Thus, the overweight woman who was afraid of her father found no
release in the conscious recognition of this fear. She could not release this
fear until repeated experiencing found her father raping her starting at age
four and ending at age eleven. She had no conscious memory of these
experiences as they all were hidden in her unconscious mind. It was hidden
there because the fear was so great she had to repress her memories of these
brutal incestuous experiences to survive.
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Ana spent three years in "therapy" with a highly educated man talking
about her anorexia but coming to no point of resolution. The theoretical
framework from which this therapist operated was too limited to see trauma
at all perceptual levels. He also did not believe that trauma could originate
prior to the current lifetime. Because of this, Ana's therapy was incomplete
and her resolution nonexistent.

Ana had attended a Past Life Therapy seminar and had seen a
demonstration with another individual. She became enthused about this form
of therapy as a means of resolving problems she had known for so long. She
was frustrated with prior therapy and resistant to taking the tranquilizers
prescribed for her. She had enough problems without taking tranquilizers.
Ana had also been active in fighting her anorexia through these past few
years and is now transferring all her energy toward this new process called
Past Life Therapy.

Her questions, while attending the seminar, are asked over and over
from countless patients throughout the years. I list them here as they are so
common.

"What if I did live before?"

"Do these lifetimes influence me now?"

"Can I actually recall and relive these experiences?"

"What will it be like?"

"What if he was just making it up?"

"How could he have seen and felt and heard all those things?"
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"Where does it come from?"

"How does this fit in with my religious beliefs?"

"During his birth, how could he experience his mother's

thoughts and feelings?"

"Do I have to believe in reincarnation?"

Have you asked these questions of yourself? Are there patterns in

your own behavior that seem unexplainable and uncontrollable? Are there
destructive patterns in your relationships with others, such as your wife and
children, parents, or your boss? Do you have a compulsive eating disorder?
Do you experience wide mood swings? Are you able to cope with stress
effectively? Are you extremely dominant or extremely passive?

If you answer yes to any of these questions, it indicates unconscious

programming that motivates a repetition of certain patterns of behavior. Any
psychological programming that interferes with our happiness and healthy
functioning within relationships can be identified and changed. This is the
purpose of Past Life Therapy.

The answers to the previous questions actually form the framework for
the definition of Past Life Therapy which can be defined as a therapeutic
approach to the unconscious mind which traces problems to their original
source wherever that source may be. Past Life Therapists accept past lives as
fact, however the therapy does not require this belief to be effective.

Giving Ana the answers to all these questions would give her nothing
more than another "intellectual exercise," lacking in completeness and
resolution for her. Her actual experience on the couch will answer her
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questions as we continue. She reluctantly agrees to this and we begin the

process that provides a starting place for probing her unconscious knowledge.

Ana's presentation, in the first session, uncovered elements commonly

seen in anorexia-bulimia that temporarily increase her symptoms. She is to
be married in two months and is experiencing an intensification of the
symptoms she previously has known. Issues she thought were resolved are
re-stimulated as she set her wedding date. She is fearful and realizes she
should not be getting married in her current state of emotional and physical
health.

She experiences irregularity in her monthly periods and, for a few

months, they stopped altogether. She was late beginning her periods as part
of the onset of this problem. Ana also suffers intense intestinal pain
secondary to diagnosed colitis with chronic constipation. She states, "I don't
feel very healthy, I'm not very clean inside."

She expresses obsessive fear of being fat as this will make her an
"outcast." She fears "not belonging" if she gains even the slightest amount of
weight. She feels her need to be thin comes from her fears of "being seen."
She is fearful of having a responsible, visible position in life.

"Sometimes I feel like I'm against a brick wall with nowhere to go. I'm
cornered, waiting, anticipating something that is unknown."

She shows confusion and frustration when questioned about her

parents. This is most evident in her feelings about her mother.

"Every time she tries to help me it only gets worse. I know she
loves me, but it doesn't help. Whenever she comes near me, the
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tension gets worse; I feel more anxious, actually sicker.

Sometimes when she's around I want to scream and never stop.
I can't tell you what she does to me. She really does try to help,
but she always makes things worse."

In helping Ana recognize her problems, they must be defined in simple

statements. This allows her to understand the various issues present in her
behavior. They follow.

1) The obvious presence of an eating disorder which was so severe

as to be life threatening, as seen in the unconscious fear of being
fat.

2) The presence of irregularity and cessation in the menstrual cycle.

3) The presence of an intense fear of "being seen" and of "not

belonging," cause her to stay out of positions or responsibility and
supporting her fear of being fat.

4) Feelings of intestinal pain manifested by colitis and constipation.

5) An existing relationship with her mother that is threatening and

angry, and a sense that her father "isn't there."

All these issues are present in my initial interview with Ana and are
recognized as symptoms rather than caused factors. It is important to
correlate these with the material from her death experience in the
concentration camp. The relationship between her current life situation and
past trauma is:
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1) An eating disorder relating primarily to the intense unconscious

death fear she experienced from feelings of fullness.

2) An irregularity and cessation of her menstrual cycle connected

with the experimentation upon her uterus as part of the
physiological stress incurred from the anorexia.

3) A selection from her peer group of dancers as the youngest

professionally paid dancer in the troupe which activated her
unconscious death anxiety. This came from her fear of "not
belonging" which connected her to a group of starving people in
the camp, thus supporting her eating disorder as a secondary
cause.

4) A relationship now with her mother based on her unconscious

promise that "I'll never get close to mother again. If my mother
loves me, it only makes things worse -- I'll die."

Ana is living out those old patterns in her current life, unconsciously
striving for resolution of these issues. The stress from work we have started
at the unconscious level makes her anorexic symptoms more intense and
debilitating.

At the end of this initial interview, Ana is quite enthusiastic about doing
the therapy. She reflects upon her state of health, her experiences with prior
therapies, and especially upon the one Past Life therapy session at the seminar
in which a young man experienced his prenatal period and birth.

"There's a certain excitement to the idea of having lived before

in a different lifetime. It's intriguing -- there's a big 'what if...?'
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that captures the imagination. What if I did live before? What if

those lifetimes do influence me now? What if I actually can
recall and relive those experiences? What exactly would that be
like?

She feels introspective and hopeful that she will discover the root of
her "uncontrollable and incurable" problems. She continues to express her
sense of anticipation.

"I remember the psychologist running this group talking about

Past Life Therapy. He asked for a volunteer to experience his
own birth. I could feel myself riveted to what he was saying. I
wanted to experience this as did every person in the room, but
he could only choose one. The nineteen of us who were not
chosen sat back to observe, the questions still there, the
anticipation running high. Seeing this man go through his birth
was a pivotal point to me. I was determined to have this
experience."

Ana describes his experience as he experientially relived his birth

trauma from the position of his mother in labor. After seeing this
demonstration, she knew that this would allow her to go past her mind's
boundaries to the source of her problems.

She is ready to take the step from watching another person to her own
experience. We begin the process of exploration with a life experience in
which she finds the expression of a mother's love as the signal for her own
traumatic death.
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"I can't go on with this marriage. When I think of it, I feel sick
to my stomach and panic takes over. I feel angry at being
forced to do this. I'm afraid to go any further. If I tell my
family, they get angry and accuse me of things that aren't true.
They say I'm selfish and don't want children, but it's not true.
I'm frightened. I feel sick, alone and lost."

It is my third session with Ana. We are doing a week of intensive

therapy so I see her daily. It was the session of the previous day in which she
experienced death in a concentration camp and her symptoms have
intensified with extreme feelings of panic and anger.

"After our last session I thought it would all go away, that I'd be
better. But it's worse! I feel worse now than when we started!"

I ask her to lie down, close her eyes, and focus on her sick feelings,
allowing her unconscious mind to trace these same feelings to wherever they
are to be found.

Soon she is again experiencing fear and confusion. She suddenly

begins screaming and twisting her body violently as if to get away from
unseen hands.

"I didn't do it!"

"I didn't do it!"

"I wasn't there!"

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"I'm being pulled out of a group of people. Two men are

holding my arms and forcing me to stand where others
can see me."

"The whole village is here. They're angry with me,

shouting at me, throwing rocks at me."

"Listen to their words. Quote the first words you hear."

Ana is suddenly still and stops talking.

"Repeat the words to me. What are they saying?"

"I don't want to hear them."

She is in a tense silence again, her body taut and her face frowning.

"Just say the words from the one voice that you don't want to
hear."

"Say the first words that come to mind."

"It's my mother, she's near me and I hear her close to my

ear."

"I love your soul more than your body. I had to tell them
about you to save your soul. I love you, I did it because I
love you."

Other voices are interjecting new words causing new feelings for Ana.
The fear pours from her with these words.

"I saw her kill the baby."

"She's no good."
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"She killed the baby as it was born."

"Only witches do that."

"I saw her swallow snakes."

"She let my baby die."

"Burn her!"

Ana is dragged roughly away by the screaming mob as it rushes her

along, shouting and striking at her. She is tied tightly to an upright post with
dry wood in a circle around her. She is crying loudly, trying to scream to
them through her tears and their angry noise that she is innocent, she has
done nothing wrong.

"I didn't do it."

"He was dying anyway. I loved him, I didn't want him to

die."

"You're wrong, it wasn't my fault."

The crowd is beyond hearing her and has an energy of its own. The
fire's heat blends with her stark terror into one overwhelming and engulfing
experience as she screams:

"It's just like the fence, it's just like the fence."

She now spontaneously blends the common dynamics shared by the

two intensely traumatic deaths by electrocution and burning. She moves
through the death scene several times until she releases all of her fear and
pain from this lifetime.
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"Ana, let's move into this unresolved area relating to your mother and
the child's death. Connect back into that same lifetime at the point of trauma
with the baby."

"Give me the first words that come to mind."

She is crying quietly, "Look at you, you can't live."

"Say it again, Ana."

"Look at you, you can't live. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

"Look at the baby, Ana. Tell me what you're seeing. Look at

him closely."

"I see his little face -- it seems contorted in shape. He is

struggling to breathe and working very hard. His face is
blue, almost purple. I know he's going to die. There's
nothing I can do. I know he's dying."

"Talk to the baby, Ana. What are you saying to him?"

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I love you, little baby, but I don't
know what to do. All I can do is love you while you
die."

"Say that again, Ana. Listen to the words, know they are coming
from this past life."

"All I can do is love you while you die. It's almost like
the words my mother said to me at the fence. Her loving
me means my death."
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"That's right, Ana. Keep moving forward to the very next words that
come to mind."

"I'm covering his face so he can die quietly. There's

nothing I can do."

"I love him, but there's nothing I can do. All I can do is
let him die."

Suddenly her body is taut and rigid on the couch.

"Someone is screaming at me. They think I killed the

baby."

"Listen to the words, Ana. Recognize the voice. Say the words."

"They're coming from behind me. Someone is saying,

'What evil possessed you to do this?' "

"Say it again."

"What evil possessed you to do this? Why did you kill

the baby? I saw you. My God, why did you kill the
baby?"

"Listen to the words, Ana. Who is saying those words from behind
you?"

"It's my mother! She thinks I killed the baby. She thinks

I smothered it. I'm trying to explain to her but she is
screaming hysterically, saying I must be a witch. She is
screaming to the whole village that I am a witch that took
the breath of life from the baby."
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"Listen to her words, Ana. What is she saying?"

"You took his breath. You are a witch. Oh, my Lord,

my daughter is a witch that kills babies. She kills babies!
We must purge you of this evil. It is the only way we can
save your soul. It is your soul from God that I love. We
must purge you to save your soul."

This intense phobia of witchcraft and demons causes her Mother's fears
and accusations to spread rapidly through the village, leading to the ultimate
purging of the "evil that possessed her" to save her soul and deliver her from
these satanic practices.

Ana gains conscious objectivity after reliving each of the dynamic

points of trauma contained within this lifetime. This objectivity allows her to
connect the traumatic elements from this lifetime to those of her life in the
concentration camp and to her current life problems. These point,

extrapolated to her current life, are as follows:

1) Her present confused and angry relationship with her mother

comes from two death experiences where her mother caused her
death "out of love for her."

2) Her intense fear of "being seen" or "singled out" comes from the
two death experiences in which she is singled out from a crowd
and sent to a painful, traumatic death.

3) Her fear of not belonging, which was one underlying component

of her anorexia, is closely held within the fear of being singled
out.
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4) There is an added twist in the burning death in that she is accused

of causing the child's death while her feeling of love for the child
is an element in that child's death. This is the opposite polarity of
her death caused by her mother.

After this session Ana reveals she had an abortion at age 17 and that
her mother had one abortion prior to Ana's birth. As you will see in the next
chapter, these abortions evolve directly out of the mother/child death
interplay.

Ana starts our next session in a markedly different mood. The contrast
from her previous fear and panic lends a certain humor to her question,
"How far back does this stuff go?" A Past Life Therapist appreciates the fun
in this.

"You'll find out today. You'll answer your own question," I told her.

I ask Ana of her feelings since our last session. She talks of the
vomiting she often does as a means of avoiding weight gain. At times, she
cannot avoid eating due to pressure from her family. When this happens she
discreetly excuses herself and forces herself to throw up the food she has
eaten. She is quite adept at vomiting as she will show me during this
particularly stressful session.

As she focuses on this eating/vomiting cycle, she describes her feelings

of fullness as causing anxiety and panic, inducing fear she will die if she
cannot eliminate these feelings from her body. Vomiting is the way she clears
the fullness and panic from her body and she has, in fact, thrown up after
breakfast just this morning.
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Closing her eyes, she focuses to the source for these compulsive
actions. Her entry to the source is easier this time, however, and as she comes
into contact with the actual situation, she begins to choke and cough with a
violent convulsion in her abdomen.

"I'm drowning."

"I can't breath."

"My body is filling with water."

"Help me!"

She continues these words of trauma while choking and gasping in

terror on the couch. I urge her to continue moving through this trauma to
experience all the thoughts and emotions, the choking, smothering feelings --
everything necessary to re-experience and resolve the trauma. As she comes
through it to an aftermath of calm objectivity that is seen after a physical
death experience, she begins to relive the facts of this particular death.

She is an infant in a basket set afloat on a river. Her drowning comes

as the basket slowly fills with water, covering and immersing her in sensory
panic. Part of the feeling of panic is the feeling of swallowing and filling with
water.

This feeling is taken forcefully into her unconscious mind during the
moments of her panic-stricken death. We will work this feeling repeatedly
and release it.

I ask her again to direct her unconscious mind to the infant in the
basket and release especially this sensation of fullness. She describes the
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feelings of panic, beginning with the choking and retching movements she
previously experienced. Her abdomen is heaving forcefully as she screams
from the intense sense of fullness. Suddenly, she jerks up violently as the
reality of this past death spills up and over into this current time on the couch.
She vomits into the container I place at her face. It is a satisfying emptying of
herself. Ana has done, here and now, what she could not do then as the
drowning baby. She achieved resolution a thousand years later, but
resolution gained by eliminating the water. She changed this death
experience on the unconscious level by finally expelling the sense of fullness
and experiencing her survival of the ancient trauma. She no longer has to
strive for survival by continually trying to empty herself. She looks at me
with teary, smiling eyes and says, "Well, I guess we took care of vomiting,
didn't we?"

We continue to complete the story of her being set adrift on the river.
Her focus next brings a ritual scene conducted by a primitive tribal people to
appease the gods. The tribe members believe the crops have failed because
the gods are angry with her and her mother.

Her mother was very young when she gave birth. She had not yet
been given in marriage to the father of the baby by the tribal elders. The
baby is born with a deformed spine, causing the village elders to declare the
gods angry and sending bad crops. The only way to appease their anger is to
sacrifice the cursed infant.

Ana's mother is forced to place her in a basket and push her into the
river. She speaks in a dialect that Ana does not understand until I ask her for
the meanings in English –
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"Your unconscious mind will tell what your mother is

saying."

"I love you, baby but you must go. If you stay here,
they'll hurt you, they'll never let you be happy. Go now,
so they can't hurt you."

Ana can hear her mother crying as the basket is swept down the river.
As the basket overturns, she hears her mother's scream becoming a part of
the panic of drowning. It is the same scream that came from her in the death
by fire and her death at the concentration camp fence. Basically, this death
has again defined:

1) Her mother's love associated with the causation of death.

2) The feeling of fullness creating panic, resulting into anorexic

vomiting and also related to her previous abortion, as we shall
later see.

3) The feeling of again not belonging, of being outcast from her

people.

Ana opens her eyes and begins making connections for herself. She
talks about her feelings prior to seeking her abortion in her current life
experience. She connects past life experiences with behavior and emotions to
this current life when she found herself pregnant and unmarried as in the
tribal incident. She realizes why the baby's death, by abortion, became the
only solution for her. On every level, she felt her own survival was
threatened.
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"The baby's father was of another race. I knew my family

could not accept this. I feared they would cause problems
for both me and the baby. I felt society would not accept
a child of mixed racial background. I felt external
pressure to be rid of the baby. I really had no choice in
the matter."

"The day of my abortion I felt depressed and very

frightened. I knew I was killing my baby but I couldn't
help it. I really felt love for it and talked to it all day prior
to the surgery. I was given gas and I remember the
horrible panic I felt going into the darkness. I wanted to
scream but I couldn't. I could remember my mother's
words to me as I was taken away to surgery. Mother had
said over and over again, 'I love you, we all love you. It'll
be alright. Everything will be alright.' "

"After the abortion, I suffered hard cramps and heavy

bleeding for a long time. I remember swearing I'd never
do that again to myself or another baby."

"I was pregnant trying to overcome the feelings of

worthlessness and shame I felt due to my anorexia.
However, being pregnant only made everything much,
much worse."

In fact, the pregnancy had made things much worse. She had existing
unconscious programming that causes panic with feelings of fullness. She
vomited after eating and took laxatives three or four times a week. Her
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abortion, unconsciously, was essential for her survival as she had to be rid of
that growing fullness.

Our work in past life experiences is being beneficial. Now Ana

approaches her sessions with less struggle and pain and finds her daily
experiences are changing. She also feels much of the intensity is gone.

"I'm no longer driven by those awful feelings. I still feel

fear at times and I still have some trouble when I think of
eating but it's much easier, much different now. We can
finish it."

The session begins by asking her to unconsciously locate the source of

her problems at the very beginning of her experience of life on earth. Her
reactions indicate she is within the experience but is reluctant to accept what
she finds. I encourage her --

"Don't judge what you've found."

"Let the experience come as the others did."

"Say out loud what you're thinking."

Finally, she speaks in a halting voice that indicates her reaction to the
scenes she now envisions.

"I see a small hairy animal. It looks like a baby fox or a

wolf. It's playing or moving around. It's eyes are
closed."

"Feel your own body," I tell her. "Tell me what you are physically
doing watching this pup." She pauses a moment, then begins:
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"I can't move," Ana says, beginning to cry.

"If I can't move, I can't eat."

"If I can't move, I can't hunt food."

"I can't live if I can't move."

"I'm hungry but I can't get to my mother to eat."

"Why don't you want me? Because I can't move?"

"I'm so hungry. I'm starving."

"Please feed me."

"I'll try to move, I promise."

"I'll do anything you want if you'll feed me."

Ana is experiencing an animal consciousness. She is experiencing an

integration of this pre-verbal, pre-human consciousness with her current
human abilities which provide words for the scenes and sensations she feels.

Ana's mother comes toward her and Ana is happy that she will be fed.
When mother reaches her, she slowly and deliberately lays down on top of
Ana and begins smothering her.

"She knows I must die. I'm deformed and she must kill
me."

Ana's mother's actions are saying to her --

"You're not perfect. You could never feed and care for
yourself. I can't let you live. You would only suffer."
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Ana panics in suffocation as the trauma of death becomes steadily

more real for her.

"I can't breathe!"

"Mother, I can't breathe!"

"Get off of me!"

"Help me! I'll be good, I'll move."

"I won't eat much, I promise you. I won't eat much."

"You're killing me!"

"Don't love me this way, mother, please don't love me

this way, please, please...!"

She is slipping into death as she hears the loud, mournful howl of her
mother. Her cry speaks of all the sadness in the world when pain is mixed
with a mother's love at the death of her child.

Ana dies quickly due to her condition of starvation and weakness

existing at birth. With this death, she easily relates this animal's suffocation to
her death by drowning and the other incidents of maternal love and death.

And through centuries to come, her lingering howl will become so

familiar.

Ana's problems in current life are caused by the unresolved issues

existing from her past lives. With her death as a deformed wolf pup, we
discover that she dies a death of hunger as an outcast from her litter. This
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death involved her mother in an act of animal love that caused her death as
the only way of expressing that love.

The concept of animal lives causes problems for many people. It is not
necessary to accept this as reality. What is acceptable is Ana's psychological
resolution of a past reality, thus, making this work effective.

Due to this past reality, Ana connected her mother's love with death
and pain. She believed acceptance by those around her brought fear and
starvation as in the concentration camp. She experiences sex with pain, fear,
and death, as these also were in the camp, as the camp sexual trauma also
occurred prior to the onset of her menstrual periods. The procedures were all
done as experiments on her uterus that caused fear and death. The act of
being "singled out" was found in four different lifetimes. She identified
feelings of fullness with stark panic and death found in two lifetimes and to be
found in her mother's abortion. These all were a part of the reality of Ana's
current psychological makeup as she entered this lifetime with these
experiences unresolved.

Ana's issues started with her death as a tiny wolf-like animal. Because
this painfully ended her life at an incomplete stage, she continually attempted
resolution in later lifetimes. Each evolutionary stage she passed contained
elements she needed to complete the unresolved issues from the animal life.
However, each experience also added a new dimension of complexity to the
original issues. The animal life had no malice, no anger, no distorted intent; it
was simply a fact of nature. However, the need to complete that ancient life
experience created Ana's unconscious programming for repeated destructive
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and fearful behavior in on-going attempts for resolution. With our sessions,
she can finally release all the pain and trauma from the past here and now.

Our next session will make clear how these elements were re-
stimulated in the prenatal period thus activating them as a pattern in her
current lifetime.

The prenatal period of life is prior to the development of a functional

conscious mind. When a baby is in a mother's womb, its unconscious mind is
created by the mother's conscious and unconscious experience of the world.
The infant has no rational screening of the input into his unconscious mind
allowing experiences to go directly to the unconscious level making no
independent decisions.

There is no stronger human connection than this mother/infant bonding

during the nine-month period leading to birth. The infant experiences
everything the mother experiences including the interactions with her external
and internal environment. Having no conscious mind to screen these
experiences, they become part of the fetal unconscious mind. This
programming stays dormant until something demands it to function.
Simplistically, the adult experiences self-love and self-acceptance if, during this
period, he receives feelings of love and acceptance from mother. If the
mother has feelings of rejection for the baby, these feelings will serve as the
foundation for the adult self-image.

In the years I have used this therapy, I have consistently found these
prenatal and birth experiences to form the basis for the behavior and
perception of one's Self throughout life. If a mother is depressed or uses
drugs and alcohol, the infant's way of coping with trauma and stress can go
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to one of two extreme polarities: it can become depressive with alcohol abuse
or it can overcompensate to the opposite polarity causing an ability to cope
that needs stimulation in a variety of forms -- going to bars, promiscuity, the
use of chemical stimulants, dangerous sports, or sugar binges -- whatever will
overcome the unpleasant feelings of depression that accompany stress and
trauma.

The prenatal/birth experience becomes more complex when you

consider how these experiences interact with past life programming. When
the infinite mind becomes attached to a physical body, the totality of past
experiences form the basis for the fetal patterns by activating related past life
experiences. This creates many variations on the same underlying theme and
establishes the issues and patterns which will be confronted during the coming
lifetime.

Consider this example involving alcohol addiction as a prenatal

motivation for coping with stress. A black person, during the Civil War, is
escaping from a plantation where he is a slave. He is running with his
adrenaline surging at peak levels. Dogs and masters are chasing him. He is
terrorized, his stomach in knots, heart pounding, sweaty muscles quivering,
his mind spinning wildly. His survival is directly dependent on this state of
over stimulation.

"I've got to get away."

"I can't stand it no more."

"I'll die if I have to go back."

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He runs up a hill to get over a ridge to the river where he can lose the
dogs. He hears the dogs getting closer, causing his anguished desperation to
rise. The stimulation is further heightened:

"I can't stand it no more, I just can't stand it no more."

He reaches the top of a steep hill, faint with exhaustion, his strength
gone; fear and adrenaline are all that keep him going. He scrambles along the
ridge to the other side only to come to a steep drop. He's losing time and his
pursuers are rapidly closing distance.

He climbs down the rocky face finding finger holds here and toeholds
there, finally collapsing on a ledge thirty feet below. Their voices are above
him. Gasping for air, he's fighting panic and nausea.

"Ezzy, we see you down there, get yourself back on up

here."

Ezzy's panic turns to despair. His energy drains from him as the
depression caused by years of brutal slavery numbs him all at once.

"I can't go back, Master. I can't stand it no more. It's

going to kill me."

"I ain't going down there after you, Ezzy. You get back on up
here now."

"I can't stand it no..."

A single shot rings out and hits Ezzy in the stomach, followed by a
second shot in the throat. He falls back off the ledge and down many feet to
the ground below.
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Ezzy leaves this lifetime with the sense of overwhelming depression

with the words, "I can't stand it no more. It's going to kill me." These
feelings of depression come after hyper-stimulation, thus experientially
establishing the two polarities of depression/stimulation.

This unconscious programming comes into place at the conception

starting the next pregnancy. The mother feels the despondency of an
unwanted pregnancy, as she thinks, "I can't stand it anymore, I just can't
stand it anymore. He'll never marry me."

She feels the affects of drinking large amounts of alcohol which the
fetus experiences with her. Mother's overwhelming depression re-stimulates
the existing unconscious programming in the fetus for depression and non-
survival. Later, as an adult, he carries this stress/depression programming
with him. Under stress, he feels, "I can't stand it anymore." He feels he will
not survive. His behavior will find one of the two polarities and will, at times,
swing back and forth between the two extremes of behavior. He may stay in
one of the two extremes, becoming either a chronically depressed alcoholic or
a chronic seeker of drug experiential hyper-stimulation.

In our work with Ana, releasing her past life experiences is not enough.
We also must release her prenatal and birth trauma to make effective changes
in her life current life.

Ana's feelings for her mother have changed. Previously, she couldn't
stand having her mother around her. If her mother showed her love, Ana
unconsciously felt that she was about to die. Now instead of pushing mother
away, she is beginning to feel a defensive attachment for her mother.
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Lingering with these new feelings, however, she still has a diminished fear of
dying if she allows her mother too close.

She is also showing considerable change in her eating. While not

totally free of her fears centered on eating, they are greatly diminished. She
eats without feeling panic and without regurgitating and also sleeps well after
the evening meal.

These lingering fears are indicative of the work to be done in the

prenatal and birth stages. The feelings of defensiveness for her mother
indicate a polarity of fear of the maternal love programming that surfaces
later in her therapy.

Ana feels subjectively improved in mood, health, and spirit, and is

experiencing an improved attitude towards her pending marriage. She has
chosen her dress and those of the bridal party. She feels "up" and excited
and ready to continue therapy.

On the couch, her eyes closed, Ana breathes easily with a slight smile
on her face. This significant work will completely release the past life
programming as we begin a very intense prenatal session.

"Focus all the work we've done so far, all the feelings, pain, thoughts,
and emotions into your mother's pregnancy. Consciously connect to that
part of the experience that activates the past life experiences."

Her breathing slows, her relaxed smile dissolves as her face becomes
very tense, her words emphatic.

"She'll kill me."

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"Repeat those words, Ana. Expand this thought."

"She'll kill me if she finds out."

"Whose words are those, Ana?"

"My mother's."

(Father) "We have to get rid of it fast. We've got to find

someone to take care of this."

"Whose words are those, Ana? Who are you listening to now?"

"I think it's my father. Yes, it's my father talking to my

mother."

"Say the next words."

(Mother) "I want the baby. I don't want to get rid of it.
Now can you say that?"

(Father) "We can't have a baby. I don't want to get

married now. There's no money, we can't afford it."

(Mother) "My mother will kill me if she finds out. I

can't be pregnant and not married."

(Father) "Then you'd better get an abortion. There's no

way we can afford to feed a baby."

Ana is crying. Tears run down her cheeks as she holds herself. In
reaction to these emotions which stem from the unconscious memories of
rejection.

"Ana, if you could talk to your mother, what would you say to her?"
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"Please don't kill me."

"I won't eat much."

"I'll be a good girl."

"I'll do anything you want if you let me live."

Her body suddenly convulses in spasms and immediately is very still. I

can barely hear her breathing. She whispers:

"If I lay very still, they won't find me."

"If I stay against the wall, I'll be safe."

Ana's words come as her adult mind speaks for the fetus. The words
she is saying are her adult conscious reaction to her sensory experience as a
threatened unconscious being. This conscious reaction is formed by her past
life programming.

There is a single intense jerk as an instrument finally hits the embryo

and dislodges it from its safe place. Ana is pulled forward and out of the
uterus. She connects this act with being found and pulled forward from the
village crowd in the burning death and with leaving the safety of the brick
wall in the concentration camp. The pattern is the same -- moving forward
from a safe and secure place into the light proves fatal.

As Ana experiences the abortion, she is directly centered within her

mother's emotions and thoughts. She can feel her mother gently crying while
thinking to herself:

"I want this baby, but I can't have it."

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"I love my baby, but it's best this way."

"It would never have a good home without our being

married."

"I can have other children."

"Maybe this one will come back to me."

Ana sobs her mother's tears and grieves the death of this unknown
child. As she regains her own identity she is outside both her mother's body
and that of the aborted embryonic body. She is deeply connected with her
mother and her overwhelming sadness. She wants to give words to these
feelings.

"I will come back to you."

"I promise I will come back so you can be my mother."

"We need each other."

"I'll be back and we'll make all the pain go away."

With these thoughts, Ana feels herself gently lifted away from the scene
as the picture of her mother fades. Her body becomes relaxed and peaceful.

Before I can speak, she begins gasping and breathing heavily.

"I can't breathe, I can't breathe."

She is panicky and tense and in acute respiratory distress. She is again
experiencing trauma.
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Ana has returned to the same mother in her following pregnancy. Her
mother now suffers double pneumonia with periodic asthma attacks. Her
unconscious mind is drawn to this pregnancy at a point of parallel dynamics.

"If I keep this up, I'll kill the baby."

"I don't like this. It hurts."

"Why does it have to hurt?"

"I can't stand being married."

"I've got to get away from her."

"He hates me."

"I'm alone, always so alone."

"I'm scared of being a mother."

"I don't know how to be a good mother."

"No use running away, I've got no place to go."

"I'd be better off if I killed myself and the baby now."

"What kind of life can it have in a mess like this?"

This line of thought keeps spinning through the mother's mind as she
takes medication that eases her asthma attack. Her breathing is greatly
improved as she pats her stomach, saying quietly:

"I love you, baby, I love you."

These words from mother move Ana to experience a different phase of

mother's pregnancy.
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"Why do I keep throwing up?"

"It hurts so much."

"I'm getting so fat, he'll never love me."

She is repeating her mother's words from another point of trauma

during the prenatal experience. It is another variation within the unconscious
pattern motivating anorexia nervosa.

"I don't like to get fat."

"Pregnant women are always fat and ugly."

"I hate being ugly."

"I don't feel healthy."

"I'm sick."

"The doctor says I'm too sick to breast feed."

"I'm not a good mother."

"Everybody tells me I'm ugly."

"He treats me so badly when I'm fat and ugly."

As Ana repeats these words, she realizes they form the foundation for
her feelings about marriage and pregnancy. Mother's feelings about marriage
and pregnancy reactivate Ana's past unconscious programming and marriage
is seen as movement forward, as being singled out and taken from an area of
safety to her own death. It also reinforces the experience in her of this
current life with the dance company. Before we worked her past lives, the
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idea of marriage greatly exacerbated her anorexic symptoms which were

further imprinted by the prenatal stage of her experience with her mother.

................................................................................................................................................

The final phase of our prenatal work uncovers a traumatic incident that
was told to Ana by her mother earlier in her life. However, it was told to her
in general terms and Ana now relives a suicide attempt by her mother during
her early pregnancy.

Ana enters the experience as mother is made aware that she is

pregnant. When her pregnancy was confirmed, her mother suffered a deep
depression causing an attempted suicide with a large number of sleeping pills.
Ana immediately feels and reflects this depressive state.

"He hates me."

"He's not good to me."

"I hate him."

"I'd kill him if I could."

"I'd kill us all if I could."

"How can I bring a baby into this marriage."

"I can't be a good mother like this."

"They'll probably put me in an insane asylum."

Ana's mother is swallowing pills as she thinks words. Ana, too, is

swallowing visibly after each sentence. Her affect is flat and emotionless, her
voice a hollow monotone.
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"I'm going away now."

"I'm killing my baby and sending it to a better place."

"Where does all this pain come from?"

"I'm dying."

"Where am I going?"

"Why should I live?"

"What is there to live for?"

"I won't give that bastard a baby."

"I'll deny him everything I can."

Ana is becoming progressively more depressed and lethargic. She's

barely mumbling as she experiences her mother slipping into
unconsciousness.

Ana feels hands suddenly grabbing her mother and pulling her to her
feet. Both father and grandmother are yelling at her.

"What have you done?"

"How many of these pills did you take?"

"You bitch, answer me!"

Father is shaking mother while grandmother calls a doctor. Father

keeps shaking her roughly.

(Father) "Wake up, damn it, wake up. How many of

these damn things did you take?"
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(Grandmother) "Make her vomit. The only way to keep

her alive is to make her vomit."

Father forces his fingers down mother's throat causing Ana to wretch
and gag with tears streaming down her cheeks.

"Vomit, damn you, vomit."

"Get that stuff out of there."

The probing fingers work their way through mother's drugged

lethargy enough to stimulate her gag response and she cries as she empties
her stomach contents onto the floor.

Mother becomes more awake and crying uncontrollably now that the
pills are gone from her body. Fortunately, father and grandmother have
found her shortly after she has taken the pills.

Ana now knows another cause for her need to vomit. It is easy to
recognize the commanding tone her father used with her mother. Mother
had been depressed by the sleeping pills thus allowing these commands to be
printed forcibly into the unconscious minds of both her and the fetus. She
has been ordered to vomit to save her life which causes the bulimic
component of the anorexia.

Continued probing of the prenatal period reveals no further points of

trauma. We have worked the developmental stress points thus clearing the
emotional connections to past programming. These patterns will no longer be
alive for Ana and re-stimulate her undesired behavior.
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We now begin our work in the most dynamic experience known to

any of us. Birth! Each past life occurrence that is re-stimulated during the
prenatal period is contained in the single experience of birth. Ana will
experience birth as an imprinted pattern within the unconscious mind of the
baby. This becomes the first experience of stress by the infant and establishes
the manner in which she will handle stress the rest of our life. These are the
feelings that now exist due to the process where by Ana began her own
experiences of life outside the uterus.

"We may be able to save the mother, but I'm afraid we'll
lose the baby."

Ana reveals these words as coming from the doctor as we work

directly into her current birth. She is pulled directly into this experience.

"It's stuck."

"It's not moving."

"Push! Push!"

"You've got to help or you'll kill your baby."

"We're losing the mother."

"There's no heartbeat."

"Do something quickly."

The infant is experiencing everything the mother experiences as Ana is

more feeling than the doctors know. During birth, she is vulnerable to the
varying responses of the individuals around her, even though she cannot
understand the words in this pre-verbal state as they imprint upon her
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unconscious mind. In therapy, we access these words and psychic

impressions.

Later, as she attains verbal skills, these words emotionally charged, will
be related to experiences of present time. This happens with Ana as she
relives the anxieties of the medical team as her mother moves close to death
during the next stage of delivery of the baby.

Ana feels the uterine walls around her go dead. The pulsing heartbeat
that has been a part of her existence since conception now stops. Blackness
invades the space where she is immobilized. She feels the panic of those
around her as they try to resuscitate this woman who has suddenly gone into
cardiac arrest.

Ana's effect is more depressed. The resuscitation efforts are frantically

becoming the primary focus of her facing consciousness. She is experiencing
her mother's dying, causing the blood supply to her fetal brain to be cut off.
Time has no dimension, seconds seem like eternity, one intense emotion
blends into the next.

Ana's body is suddenly convulsed by a surge of jolting energy. This

intense wave of power totally engulfs her as it passes through the uterus and
into the infant's body.

"I've got a good pulse here."

"We've got her back."

"She's breathing spontaneously."

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Ana is aware that the medical team is attempting to stabilize her

mother as her own level of consciousness is returning.

Her mother is becoming conscious, saying,

"Get it out of me! Get it out of me!"

"I hate this. I'm sick of it."

"Don't touch me."

"I'm not ready."

Ana experiences intense pain in her neck with the words:

"They're using forceps. My God, that's what it is. I can

feel one along the back of the right side of my head and
the other is along the front of my face running down my
left check. Ooww! They're pulling me and twisting my
head. It hurts!"

Ana feel mother's nausea.

"I feel sick. I'm going to vomit!"

A nurse holds a basin as mother wretches.

"It's okay, try to relax. Keep breathing."

Ana goes back and forth between her own infant experiences and her
mother's fear and nausea. She feels dazed by the electrical shocks and the
extreme anxiety, tension, and anger of the doctor as he tries to complete this
difficult forceps delivery.

"You've got to push, damn it! Don't stop now!"

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"She's going to kill this baby if she doesn't help."

"Push, damn it, push!"

Ana is saying these words of anger with feelings of intense pressure

around her body and forceps around her head. Anyone who believes Ana's
neurological condition at birth makes her impervious to pain, should see her
birthing. It clearly shows the physical and emotional sensitivity that does
exist.

The words and feelings of her mother are implanted into Ana's
unconscious mind thus re-stimulating the dormant mother/love death issues.
Again, death because of mother's love becomes a powerful reality.

Ana feels less pressure around her body as the forceps finally pull her
free. She still feels the forceps in place when there is a sudden coldness and
light. She is pulled, again, from a safe place into a place of fear, pain, and
death, where her screams echo from the electric fence and the burning stake.
She is pulled into another place where people coldly "do their job" and can
"do with me as they wish." She is removed from mother and roughly passed
to other hands. She feels pain in her feet and ankles as they are held together
in one hand with her head upside down. The doctor says, "She's on her
own," bringing a feeling of desperation and fear.

She feels alone and abandoned with feelings of imminent death. These
are all past life feelings triggered within this birthing process. They are
physical and they feel real. There are no words at this infant level -- it is pure
sensation. It could be pure love, joy, and acceptance in some births, but with
Ana, it is panic, anger, pain, abandonment, and a sense of impending death.
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These are experimental realities defining her entrance into this world, this life,
and this time.

She is immersed in these feelings as she feels an object deep in her

throat, clearing a path for air to enter.

"Come on, baby, breathe!"

Slap! Her backside stings as she feels a sudden surge in her chest and
abdomen. The burning pain intensifies as her lungs open and expand for the
first time.

We continue working with her feelings of aloneness and fear of

impending death blended with the physical sensations she is experiencing.
Her focus shifts to an intense feeling of anxiety with a sense of physical dread
and fear. Ana is slowly moving her pelvis as she clenches and unclenches her
fists. Anger swells rapidly inside her as she verges on losing control. She is
instantly immersed in the baby's delivery while centered in her mother's
feelings. She is a wild torrent of movement and words going through the
birthing process once again.

Mother has entered this delivery with tremendous fear and anxiety.
Her conscious experience of this fear is expressed as anger. The slightest
irritation is magnified to an unbearable intensity. It is these maternal
dynamics that are creating the unconscious boundaries of Ana's feelings for
marriage and birth. Her definition of marriage and child-bearing are, thus,
totally dominated by both fear and anger.

"I can't eat this God damn stuff. Get it away from me."
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Mother angrily shoves a tray of food away from her as she awaits
delivery. Anger is in total control of her behavior as a response to her fear
and pain. Her fear is activating her own past issues and Ana's as well.
Because this fear is motivated by unconscious programming, the staff around
mother sees her behavior as totally irrational. Mother, however, knows only
that she is extremely angry and needs to be left alone with no one touching
her.

"Stop trying to feed me!"

"Stop jabbing at me."

"Don't touch me."

"Leave me alone."

"I'm going to be sick."

Mother says a burst of angry words to the nurse caring for her and
lapses into a brooding silence between her contractions. She breathes deeply
and tries to relax but an angry tirade keeps rushing through her mind being
experienced by both Ana and her mother.

Ana is identified with her mother's experience. She is having

abdominal spasms as mother's uterus contracts. She is breathing deeply and
pushing against the couch with her hands. She continually builds pressure
and intensity while her body waits to erupt. Anger flashes across her face as
a nurse asks to check her cervix for dilation.

"This is killing me."

"I hate it."

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"I'm tired of all of you."

"Don't touch me."

"Don't bother me."

"I'm not ready yet."

"Get your hands away from me."

Ana is experiencing mother's reactions as re-stimulation from the

German concentration camp where water was painfully flushed into her
uterus as part of their "scientific" research. She re-experiences the pain and
fear as she is "measured" and abused by unfeeling people who treat her with
no regard for her wants or needs. On the couch, Ana gains the ability to
recognize that which comes from her mother's experience and that which is
triggered from her own memory. She knows her mother's irrational
behavior is being triggered by the experience of her own birth. Mother's
emotional reactions make sense, however, as Ana realizes a very basic
principle -- the manner in which a mother is born will strongly influence the
way she gives birth to her own baby.

The pressure of birth continues as Ana repeats more of her mother's

words.

"Don't let it hurt my baby."

"Don't let it kill my baby."

"Get it out of me."

"I don't want this."

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"I'm too sick to do this."

Ana's mother is going into cardiac arrest with her consciousness fading
rapidly. The anxiety of the doctor and nurses hits a sudden peak as the
adrenaline rush comes due to this unexpected incident. Ana repeats her
mother's fading thoughts during this emergency.

"I'm dying."

"They can't save me."

"I've killed us both."

"I'm alone and dying, and there's nothing I can do about

it."

"Don't let go, don't let go."

These last words are choked as Ana relives the electric jolts used to
revive her mother. This jolt activates the baby's past experience of death by
electrical shock.

"It's that fence again, that same damn fence."

"God, am I tired of hanging onto that God damn fence."

With this realization, Ana is consciously in control of her birth

experience. She has suffered all the major elements of past and prenatal
trauma, experienced them completely, and released them. The remaining
subtle issues are easily accessed and released by refocusing her consciousness
back to "any area that still draws you or is demanding to control you."
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Ana sits up. She is content and at ease with her birth as she talks
about its implications.

"She almost killed me again, didn't she?"

"We both nearly died in a place full of anger and fear."

"I really felt uncared for as an individual; as if I didn't

matter."

"It was all there in my birth, wasn't it?"

"Everything we found in all those other places was locked

right into my getting born."

"Even her trying to push me out led to death and made

things worse."

Ana has discovered the natural cycle of birth and death as a very direct
experience in the evolution of the human consciousness. This consciousness
has been evolving process are present, microcosmically, at the time of
conception for a being that is incarnating. The following nine-month prenatal
period will create a pattern of behavior that will assure the continued
movement toward resolution by the physical and spiritual being.

The prenatal experience re-stimulates unresolved areas of these past

experiences activating them as issues in this lifetime. These issues will surface
within the daily life experiences of the individual, having been potentiated
during the process of birth. The elements of past trauma and current life
problems are all compacted into the birth experience. Ana's experience, in
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therapy, has given her a sense of peace and satisfaction that these areas are
finished.

One final session with Ana relates her therapeutic work with the
changes in her current life. She will find most of the questions she asked
prior to therapy have been answered by the therapeutic work she has done.

"I want you to come to my wedding. You'll see me get

married, eat a big meal, and be close with my mother at
the same time."

Ana's voice is full of happiness and excitement as she eagerly invites

me to her mother's house where she will be married in a sunset ceremony on
the beach. Five months have passed since I last saw Ana in therapy and it is
hard to realize she is the same woman that was so physically and emotionally
drained in our first encounter. Her joy and enthusiasm are infectious and her
laughter gives me a pleasant satisfaction. I enjoy seeing people in control and
happy with their life once negative experiences and patterns are resolved.

Lifting the control of unconscious trauma reveals Ana's ability to live a

creative and productive life. She no longer lives with the illusion that she
acted from free choice in her life when she actually reacted from unconscious
programming. In fact, she did move from one radical polarity to another,
repeating the same patterns and cycles causing her to feel life to be
"happening to her" rather than controlling her life by making healthy choices.

Ana is now making these choices. Joy is reflected in her voice and
expressed in her graceful, relaxed movements. She now experiences an
inner-spiritual renewal. She is elated at the elimination of her anxiety,
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depression, and anorexia. She had difficulty accepting her good feelings with
a few days of depression immediately after finishing intensive therapy.
However, now her anorexia is gone. The underlying anorexic behavior
resolved after a period of time in which her eating patterns changed.

She experienced a vacuum. Her symptoms defined her state of being

so long that she felt confused and depressed without them. She had to learn
to feel good! This is common when an unconscious pattern has changed.
Integration processes for three or four days during which the conscious and
unconscious function come into alignment. This alignment changes the inner
expression from "I feel bad" to "I feel good." This resolution is common for
the majority of clients in my practice. They experience a dramatic impact for
the first few days after completion followed by a more effective response to
varying life circumstances. These changes continue over a period of several
moths. The permanent changes are the most significant in that negative life
situations still occur, but the client now has choices in these situations. They
solve problems by making healthy decisions.

I was unable to attend Ana's wedding, but I did receive several

wedding pictures. One gave me particular pleasure as it was Ana, her
husband, and her mother. Ana's husband feeds her a piece of wedding cake
as her smiling mother stands with them. This young woman is in control and
will master the events and experiences of living, loving, and growing through
her life's many stages.

Ana continued to communicate with me in the months that followed

her wedding. She was feeling healthy and enjoying a better quality of day-to-
day living. She and her husband went through most of the changes and
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psychological adjustments that all newlyweds experience. She copes well

with the stress of change and is able to communicate her own emotional
experiences during these changes. The therapy did not give Ana a panacea to
make her life perfect, but it has changed her negative self-image and made
her capable of enjoying a healthy response to the normal levels of daily stress.
She now expresses her emotions directly and effectively with a basic sense of
happiness and purpose in life.

The final phase of Ana's life I shared was her first pregnancy. Her note
simply said, "Somebody is on the way to join us. As soon as birth takes
place, we'll let you know who. Love, Ana."

Ana went through her entire pregnancy happily and uneventfully.

None of her old trauma was re-stimulated. The growing fullness in her
abdomen was a source of satisfaction as she focused on creating a new life.
Feelings of fullness brought no reaction of panic or fear of impending death.
My last note from Ana was a handwritten announcement; "Joshua has joined
us. We look forward to a long and happy life together. Thank you for all
you've done. Always, Ana."

Like Ana, could you change your life to make it better? What do you
need to change in order to accomplish your inner potential? What stops you
from doing things to improve your life? Why do you feel blocked?

When Ana decided to enter therapy, she came with issues that
prevented her from enjoying life. My role as therapist was to help her
untangle these issues and facilitate the change of her conscious programming.
She was unable to be fully in charge of her life. She was incapable of choices
and decisions that affected the way she lived. Some people make the right
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choices easily and their lives are effortless. Others are totally incapable of
making any healthy choices. Most of us are somewhere in-between as our
lives are working and functioning, yet, we know we do not approach our true
potential.

Ana's negative programming was so dominant that she was incapable

of making the right choices. This block was such a snarl of negative self-
images and unresolved issues that it kept her from a "normal" lifestyle. Ana
achieved, in therapy, an ability to make the right choices. She no longer acts
from old programming. She actively creates her own life.

Victims of circumstances are people unable to make choices about their

own lives. Life should be a happy experience for which we are individually
responsible. We do not have to be victims of our human experience. During
the course of our lives, we need to overcome many circumstances in order to
continue our development as conscious human beings. Some must overcome
sexual prejudice, others will live in social circumstances of illiteracy with a
dependency on the social welfare system. Still others must overcome the
problem caused by wealth and power. Uniting these circumstances is one
thread common to us all. We strive for completion of unresolved issues that
confront us. Some are able to do this easily while others find it difficult.
Some people use inherent strength to overcome the most difficult
circumstances and, in so doing, enjoy their lives. Others born to affluence
and unlimited opportunity are caught in cycles of despair and self-destruction.

Any therapist is simply a guide. Ana was on her own path of

development but reached a place of paralysis due to her unconscious trauma.
I gave her no answers, nor did I work miracles. I helped her through the
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confusion and fear that existed in but one part of her entire life. I helped her
find her own answers and know her own choices. She now has the ability to
create her life and accept responsibility for her own happiness. After our
brief period together, she continued her journey.

Many traditional therapists create relationships with clients that foster

long term dependency. By my definition, this is anathema to therapy. The
goal should be self-actualization achieved with support and guidance from the
therapist. The term "self-actualization" is a part of the social jargon created
by media overuse. I use it because its meaning is inherently "the ability to
know one's own life and happiness."

The results achieved by Ana were not unusual. I have worked with
thousands of clients who have come to a point of self-reliance and self
knowledge. The human consciousness has a natural drive towards resolution.
Success, as a therapist, comes when that tendency is used to resolve ingrained
harmful issues. The drive is motivated from a much larger context than that
provided by most traditional psychotherapeutic theories.

This larger context includes a range of experiences from past lives

through the prenatal stage and birth to our lives here and now. Imposition of
a limited context creates difficulties for the mind to reach the ultimate source
for trauma. Defined as reincarnation or psychological symbolism, these
source experiences must be reached. Traditional psychoanalyses, in the
opinion of many therapists, does not provide this expanded access to the
original source material.

The goal of any therapeutic modality should be the attainment of

emotional self-reliance. My personal experience is this occurs by resolution of
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unconscious trauma. People who release past issues on the unconscious level
through their dreams and through daily living do not need therapy.
Resolution, at the unconscious level, is reflected in the way they live their
lives. People who do enter therapy are unable to maintain a healthy process
for movement in their lives.

Therapy should bring a change for the better. It should make life
healthier on a practical day-to-day basis. These results should reflect in daily
decisions and make a difference when it "comes time to pay the rent and
discipline the kids." The client has not been helped if positive change is not
seen in the daily manner in which life is lived. They have learned to "see"
their problems, and have learned to "cope" with or to "handle" their
problems. Coping with problems is not solving problems. It is another way
of saying, "I'm adapting to this problem that I can't totally resolve." The
problem still exists. I want clients no longer "coping" with problems -- I want
them free of problems.

The achievement of "coping" is the product of work done within the

limited therapeutic context. If the therapeutic context is restricted, so are the
therapeutic results.

The aim with every client is to obtain freedom from the issues which
are affecting their behavior. This goal is not always attainable on an
outpatient basis which does not provide 24-hour support for serious cases, but
complete resolution is followed by the greatest possible therapeutic change.
Some therapists say they are successful if they gain a minimal degree of
behavioral change in fifty percent of their clients. The definition of success
should come when the client achieves complete resolution of the issues
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presented. They must not return a few weeks or months later. Success then,
comes from a therapeutic process when results motivate positive changes that
last for a lifetime.
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Part Three- Birth Trauma as Source for Chronic Pain

SPECIAL REPORT

PART I

Traditional treatment for chronic pain focuses on physical causes

separate and apart from a client's beliefs and emotions and can be relieved
only by drugs and physio-therapy. As pain enters the chronic stage, it
intensifies and fails to respond to pain-killing medication. With failure comes
confusion, emotional involvement, and questions:
"Why am I still in pain?"
"When will it stop?"
"Can't you do something to stop this hurting?"
"The pain is driving me crazy."
The medical answer is:
"You should be out of pain by now."
"There's no reason for you to feel pain now."
"I'll change your medication to something stronger you can take more
often."
"If this doesn't work, I'll send you to psychiatrists."

The most logical answer is never considered. "As long as you're in

pain, you know you're alive." Given this answer, the client would have a new
dynamic to consider in the mystery of continued pain with no physical cause.
The birth of a baby marks a transition from a nine-month period of
development for the physical body and unconscious mind to the onset of
conscious-cognitive development. This newly developing mind accepts as
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reality the pre-existing unconscious content. The mind's two interacting levels
are in place to provide motivation and meaning throughout the lifetime ahead.
The birth experience determines how stress will be processed
throughout life as it occurs at the basic survival level. Negative survival
patterns are formulated unconsciously and will determine the chronology by
which survival can include depression, pain, paralysis, and struggle to name
but a few. Consciously, these dynamic patterns make no logical sense;
however, the conscious mind takes orders from the unconscious which knows
nothing of logic or rational thinking.
From the onset of labor through the transition stage, fear is
exacerbated by uncertainty, dread, and increased physical pain. Within the
most intensely painful moments, mother experiences her greatest fears for
herself and her baby. Mother feels an intense fear of dying which permeates
her entire being including her uterus and the cord connecting her to her baby.
Physical pain of this baby becomes attached to the fear of dying. As this
reaches its deepest point, the fetus experiences what feels like death. If
numbing drugs are used, this death feels even more realistic as physical
boundaries are taken away. The process is now ready to experience survival
as "pushing," "contraction," and "pulling" move the baby forward to
completion of a live birth.
The progression of events, emotions, and expressions create the first
half of a negative survival pattern. It is an experimental connecting point for
the immediate past life death with its accumulation of dynamics from even
earlier lives. Once re-stimulated, these past dynamics are in place for
continued movement towards resolution. If birth ended here, these past
experiences would motivate death very soon into life after birth. Fortunately,
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the second stage completes the pattern by adding survival following the
feelings of death. The dynamics which existed as part of an earlier death have
been survived at birth into current time. The survival pattern is in place
unconsciously and will control all experiences which threaten basic survival
for the system.
The following outline describes the progressive creation of a pattern
which holds in place pain as a needed component for survival.

1. Start of Labor

This point forms the beginning (or opening phase) of the survival pattern
established by the total birth experience.

2. Increase of Intensity of Pain and Fear Which:

A. Reveals the experiential movement of the experience.

Note: Mother's words and thoughts will begin to reveal predictions

during this phase.

B. Loss of control with panic and hysterics or use of drugs causes the
appearance of Mother's own unconscious experiences (i.e. her own birth;
past-life experiences).

3. Hard Labor - "Crowning", Birth

A. External sources:

Voices (spoken words) of all people around Mother and baby.

B. Internal sources:

Mother's unspoken thoughts (words)

Mother's unexpressed emotions

Mother's subjective pain experience

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Note: Actualization of predictions is taking place.

Baby's physical pain experience

4. First Breath:

A. External source:

Efforts to start breathing with all words said during these

efforts.

B. Internal Source:

Baby's physical feelings inside lungs.

Physical feelings as continued breathing causes "coming alive"

throughout body.

If drugs were a part of the birth, they can be felt beginning to leave
the body. This process can take up to 3 to 4 days.

5. Cord Cut:

Completes separation of Mother and baby.

Baby's conscious mind begins development. As it continues, the

conscious mind accepts all previously unconscious experiences as reality
thus establishing the birth trauma pattern as necessary for survival.

Baby has learned how to react in life to "being on my own," "taking

care of myself," "standing on my own two feet."

Note: Numbers 4 and 5 can be in reverse order. This does not change
the manner in which the session is conducted.

6. Baby Begins Self-Support Life Function Without Mother

Voices speaking during this time can formulate predictions to be

actualized repeatedly in the future.
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If drugs were used, the session must continue until the baby finds the
place where the drugs are completely gone from feelings.

7. Nursery Crib, Incubator or Location Where Baby is Placed

Incubator:

A. External Source:

Words said at time first placed in incubator.

Any incidents that happen in the room in which incubator is located.

B. Internal Source:

Any physical pain felt by baby.

Reactions to first feeding of formula (Mother or bottle) and water.

Note: Baby is still part of group identity and must have the
individual boundaries defined. Baby must be able to know self as
separate and apart from others.

Other Locations:

Crib in home setting (after home delivery).

Ambulance or car after emergency deliver.

External and internal sources are accessed basically as above.

8. End of Birth Experience

Client can formulate survival pattern at this point.

9. Review of Survival Pattern as it Has Existed in the Client's Life

Since Birth

The following is taken from a series of birth sessions with a client in

private practice.
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Susan entered therapy to relieve chronic migraine headaches. The pain

has caused one attempted suicide and many medications including one
experimental which had serious side-effects. None proved effective.
Susan's birth comes first as her mother's experience. As she hears the
words of the doctor that reassure her mother, "Okay, now, everything is just
fine. Everything is just perfect. Just a little longer now and it will be over."

Susan feels the experience as the baby. "What do you feel in your
body, Susan? Recognize the first physical sensation that comes to mind."

"Oh, my head hurts. My head is squeezed as I'm pushed

through the birth canal. My head really hurts. Like the
headaches I have now."

"There are words with the pain in your head."

"What are the painful words?"

"Let the pain and words come together. Say the first words that come
to mind."

" ' Everything is just fine, everything is just perfect. Just a little
longer now and it will be over. That's ridiculous, everything is
not perfect!' "

"Why is he saying these words?"

"He's saying them to make my mother feel better."

"That's right. Unconsciously, you connect these words meant for

mother with the pain in your head. When everything is going fine in
your life, you have a headache."
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The doctor's words define the experience of pain and stress as Susan's
head passes through the birth canal. Pain's definition becomes, "Everything is
just fine. Just wait a little and it will all be over." Mother is depressed in
response to pain. The infant now experiences Mother's depression as her
own. She experiences the physical stress of the delivery, receives words that
the headache is perfect, and slips into a depressive state.

When Susan's husband tells her how "beautiful" she is on a special

night out and she feels things are "just fine," it reactivates her unconscious
experience with the birth trauma and migraine headache starts which "will be
over if I just wait a little longer."

When she takes pain pills, she experiences the depression that follows
her headache. The headache with depression becomes Susan's response
when things "go well" and she is told that she is beautiful. Her husband's
reassuring words become the words of the doctor at birth, her underlying
psychological reality is distorted.

This physician is well intentioned and trying to reassure the mother at

the time of delivery. His patient is in pain, the delivery is proceeding
smoothly, so he says words of comfort to encourage her. These are words
the doctor needs to say more than words her mother needs to hear.

The doctor's belief system limits this newborn consciousness to the

definition presented by the scientific viewpoint of modern medicine. This
physician will tell you this infant is coming into the world as an emotionally
blank slate. Her neurological system is believed to be incompletely
developed. Supposedly, there even is no pain felt by a male child when he is
strapped to a board and his penis foreskin cut off. This convenient viewpoint
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circumvents the need to explain the damage caused by this and other current
medical procedures. If the infant is neurologically immature, he cannot feel or
remember any pain or trauma. It also blocks these procedures from being
included as source experience for problems. Health care professionals believe
they need not know techniques to
access these experiences as there "is no memory retained" and "it can't be the
cause of your problems, you were too young to remember it."
Susan experienced relief from her chronic pain as her unconscious
mind continued processing this session for several days. Upon her next
appointment, she stated: "I've always believed pain kept me alive. As long as
I felt it, I could move forward in my life and know everything would be fine.
No more! I'm really alive when pain free, and I intend to maintain this new
way of living."
A follow-up note from Susan eight months later stated she had been
completely pain free and very happy in her marriage and her life.
1. Start of Labor
"Will the pain get worse?"
"Can I die in labor?"
"How long will it take?"
"I don't want to go any further with this."
2. Increase in intensity of pain and fear.
"How long has it been?"
"The pain is unbearable."
"It never stops."
"Somebody help me."
"I'm afraid I won't make it."
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(Mother's self-induced altered state deepens allowing access to more

of her unconscious script.)
"Don't let me die."
"My baby will die."
"Don't let this kill me."
"I feel like I'm dying."
(The fetus feels intense pain in the head as it is pushed against the
pelvic floor.)
3. Hard labor - Crowning - Birth
A. External sources
Doctor: "We've got to get the baby out before we lose them both."
Nurse: "B.P. is dropping."
Doctor: "Help push her uterus."

B. Internal sources

1. Call of mother's thoughts about dying leading to point where

death feels real.)

2. Baby delivered by movement out of uterus through canal

during which time pain is associated with spoken words.
As part of this internal source, the fetus experiences her immediate past
life and the death that ended it.
She was a young soldier in a World War II battlefield. He is frozen
with fear and dread when the orders come to advance on the enemy. As he
runs towards the unseen and unknown enemy he is thinking:
"I don't want to go any farther."
"Will I get killed?"
"Will I get wounded and live in pain the rest of my life?"
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"I want to go home and see my mother."

In the battle, he is killed by a bullet through his head. As he is dying
he thinks:
"Oh, God, stop the pain."
"Oh, God, I'm dying."
"Somebody help me."
"I want to go home."
"I can't feel anything."
Numbness takes away his feelings as darkness invades his
consciousness. Death comes quickly and frees his soul from his body. He is
guided by his last physical feelings of pain, then numbness and his words, "I
want to go home!"
The fetus moves toward completion of birth with this experience, and
others, unconsciously in place.
The survival phase continues as the fetus is born alive.
4. First Breath
A. External source
She is induced to take her first breath by a hard slap which jolts
her spine, shoulders and causes pain in her head.
B. Internal source
Her physical feeling starts reflecting self-support as she feels her
body coming alive. Survival continues to become a reality.

5. Cord cut
Her conscious mind begins developing. All previous experiences are
consciously accepted as reality.
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Pain was the last feeling before death; before the simulated death
during birth; and with the slap that started her breathing. Feeling pain is
attached to being alive. Eventually, being alive will be chronic pain.
A second case revealed memory birth, as a child of nine years, in
therapy exploded with a memory. He saw his mother lying flat on her back
partially covered by green cloths, her face masked, stomach cut open, and
dead. He was being lifted up all bloody and believed that he must have killed
his mother by cutting open her stomach. He had remembered his Cesarean
delivery. Once home from the hospital, finding himself in an angry
environment and afraid he might be killed himself, he quickly
deduced that it would please his mother "if my mind is dead," and he
proceeded to be retarded. This is what he was for nine years until his
unconscious memories of birth suddenly burst forth in therapy. A short time
after this revelation, he was placed in a class of normal children his own age,
where he proceeded to act normally. This clinical report is a warning to us
about newborn cognition.
In hypnotherapy, womb memories are nearly as common as birth
memories. Like many birth memories, they come without request and can
sometimes be verified as true. Some memories are pleasant reports of
everyday life; most, however, deal with life and death issues that have
persisted into adult life as mental health problems.

While in hypnosis, my client Irene remembered an abortion attempt.

To find the trail that led back to this womb memory, we had followed a
particular emotion, a very frightened feeling: "It's too sad. I already
remember it. I was hardly formed and my mom is using some kind of
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remedy to wash me away. It feels real hot....I know she is trying to get me
out of there. I'm just a little blob. I don't know how I know, but I know.
My aunt seems to be giving my mom directions. I can hear her voice and
another woman in the background. She is not supposed to get pregnant.
She doesn't know me....It didn't work either. It had a strong harsh smell,
almost a disinfectant smell, like ammonia, strong, a vile, strong smell....I can
see where I was too; I was way up there, just teeny. I knew nobody really
wanted me then....but I was determined. I was a fighter even then. Poor
mom would die if she knew I knew all this stuff!"
Again, pain is associated with survival. The feeling of "real hot"
persists in vaginal pain each time Irene is confronted with being recognized,
accepted, and wanted. She is unconsciously motivated to feel that friends and
relatives want "to get rid of me." She is constantly aware of intense vaginal
pain that has now become chronic in nature.
After completing our session, she was treated medically for vaginal
infection and the pain was alleviated. She reports a pain-free experience for
over one year.

Chronic Pain
Part II
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The propensity for experiencing chronic pain is present during the

earliest stages of physical development. The spiritual intelligence that joins the
newly-forming DNA strand brings a unique formula for survival which will
be fused with the physical blueprint that guides the mind-body formation. As
physical formation occurs, it reflects the health and functioning needs that will
promote an ongoing effort to resolve survival issues throughout the coming
lifetime. One component of these issues is chronic pain connected to feeling
alive.
The following chart is taken from the outlines used in teaching
regression therapy in my programs for fourteen years.
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PHYSICAL DEVELOPMENT IN
PRE-NATAL TO BIRTH

End
of
Month Conception
1st Eyes, nose, and ears not yet visible. Backbone and vertebra canal form. Small buds
will develop into arms and legs. Heart forms and starts beating. Body systems
begin to form.

2nd Pregnancy confirmed or recognized (2nd or 3rd month). Limbs become distinct as
arms and legs. Digits are well formed. Major blood vessels form. Many internal
organs continue to develop.

3rd Eyes almost fully developed but eyelids still fused, nose develops bridge, and
external ears are present. Heartbeat can be detected. Body systems continue to
develop.

4th Head large in proportion to rest of body. Face takes on human features. Skin
bright pink. Many bones ossified, joints begin to form. Continued development of
body systems.

5th Head less disproportionate to rest of body. Fine hair (lanugo) covers body. Rapid
development of body systems.

6th Head becomes even less disproportionate to rest of body. Eyelids separate and
eyelashes form. Skin wrinkled and pink.

7th Head and body become more proportionate. Skin wrinkled and pink. Seven-month
fetus is capable of survival.

8th Subcutaneous fat deposited. Skin less wrinkled. Testes descend into scrotum.
Bones of head are soft. Chances of survival much greater at end of eighth month.

9th Additional subcutaneous fat accumulates. Lanugo shed. Nails extend to tips of
fingers.
Labor on-set with Birth pain and trauma increasing with progression to:

The experience of a death-like period of time just before or during actual birthing.

Survival of death fear established

Locate place where birth experience is recognized as complete thus creating the
negative survival pattern that will govern the rest of this life experience.
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To continue the developmental stages of chronic pain, the case of

Susan's migraine headaches in Part I will be traced through the nine-month
pre-natal period from conception to birth.
The young soldier brought forward from his death the need to heal a
total head wound and the need to overcome the fear of confrontation and
moving forward in his life. His strongest desire was to return home to his
mother. It was this formula of unresolved issues that his spirit sought to
replicate and continue for resolution by choosing the appropriate conception.
Quotes from sessions are used to indicate the inclusion of chronic migraine
headaches within the fetal unconsciousness.
Conception:
(Mother) "I hope I get pregnant."

"I really want to be a mother."

(ovum, sperm, and spirit are uniting)
"I wonder if he has another headache?"
(father suffers with tension headaches)

"I should get up and get him some aspirin."

First Month:
Backbone and vertebral canal and body systems begin formation to
include "mother" and "headache" cell memory.

Second Month:
Internal organs and body systems continue to develop carrying all
memory for survival.
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Third Month:
Pregnancy confirmed.
"I'm going to be a mother."
"I'm so happy."
("Home to mother" is now an unconscious achievement for the fetus.
The past death is reactivated to also include its physical reality.)

Fourth Month:
Fetal head is large in proportion to rest of the body. Fetus experience
discomfort in her head due to shifting positions in uterus.
(Father) "This headache is killing me."
"I've got to get away from this job."
"My head keeps pounding and pounding."

Fifth Month:
Fetal head development continues with father's verbal descriptions for
headaches recorded unconsciously.

Sixth Month:
Fetal head development continues with distinct formation of eyes.

Seventh Month:
Head and body become more proportionate.

Eighth Month:
Bones of the head are soft and continue to carry pain as part of a
survival pattern.
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Ninth Month:
Development is complete causing fetus to signal birth. As the head
passes through the birth canal, pain is again experienced as a basic component
to being alive. The young soldier, now a girl who doesn't have to fight wars,
is "home with mother" where she will begin healing the intense pain from the
battlefield death.
Susan's example shows the formation of pathology that excludes
abusive or dysfunction parents with a childhood relatively free of trauma.
Source of the pain is clearly the Self while its causes and motivations are at an
unknown level. As the cause is revealed and re-experienced the negative
survival pattern is changed to a positive pattern which affects the entire life
experience.
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Part Four- Teaching Outlines With Transcribed Sessions

This material is intended as general information for therapists when working

pre-natal and birth.
The embryonic period is a time of great sensitivity because it is a
period of differentiation. Factors that may cause malformation are called
teratogens, and include certain drugs, the German measles virus, and x-rays.
Exposure to such a factor, particularly just before the visible appearance of a
structure, will result in derangement of the development of that structure.
Exposure in the first two weeks results in complete failure to develop and the
embryo is naturally expelled from the uterus.

FETAL PERIOD

During the fetal period some differentiation of tissues does continue,

but the major changes are brought about by the rapid growth of the body.
At the beginning of the third month the head constitutes approximately one-
half of the crown-rump (CR) length, or sitting height, but at birth the
proportion has diminished to one-fifth. The eyes are initially directed laterally,
but during the third month the eyes are located on the ventral aspect of the
face: the ears, originally formed in the neck region, reach their final position;
and the limbs their relative length in comparison to the rest of the body,
although the lower limbs remain a little shorter and slightly less developed
than the upper extremities. The external genitalia have usually developed by
the end of the third month, so that the sex of the fetus can be determined by
external appearance.
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During the fourth and fifth months, and the end of the first half of
intrauterine life the fetus lengthens rapidly and its CH, or crown-heel length is
approximately 23 cm. This is about one-half the total length to the full-term
newborn.
There are many presumptive signs of pregnancy, but the three positive
signs occur during the fetal period and include hearing the fetal heart between
the eighteenth and twentieth weeks, visibility of the fetal skeleton by x-ray,
and physical observance of fetal movement during the fifth month. The
mother is usually able to discern fetal movements during the fifth month
(quickening).
The weight of the fetus increases considerably during the second half of
intrauterine life, from 500 gm at the end of the fifth month to 3200 gm by
the end of the ninth month. Subcutaneous fat is formed during the last
months before birth so that the fetus loses much of its former wrinkled
appearance. At birth the fetus is approximately 50 cm long, and the skull has
the largest circumference of the body. At birth the testes have usually
descended through the inguinal canal and into the scrotum.
Table 26-1 outlines the development during embryonic and fetal
periods.
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Table 26-l
Developmental Timetable
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First Week
Fertilization usually in fallopian tube:
Second maturation division occurs, polar body expelled from ovum,
tail separates from spermatozoon.
Male pronucleus combines with female pronucleus to form zygot.
As zygote passes down tube cleavage occurs, forming several small
blastomeres.
After three days, morula (ball of 16 or more blastomeres) enters uterus.
Cavity forms in morula, converting it to blastocyst:
inner cell mass, or embryoblast
blastocyst cavity
outer layer of cells, or trophoblast
By sixth day blastocyst adheres to endometrium, invading epithelium
Embryonic endoderm begins to form on ventral surface of inner cell mass

Second Week
Rapid proliferation and differentiation of trophoblast
Lacunar network develops, fills with maternal blood
Trophoblast erodes endometrium
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Primary villi form on outer surface of chorionic sac, implantation

complete, conceptus embedded within endometrium
Extraembryonic mesoderm forms from inner surface or trophoblast, reducing
size of blastocyst cavity; blastocyst cavity becomes primitive yolk sac
Extraembryonic celom forms from extraembryonic mesoderm
Primitive yolk sac decreases in size; becomes secondary yolk sac
Inner cell mass differentiates into bilaminar embryonic disk:
embryonic ectoderm adjacent to amniotic cavity
embryonic entoderm adjacent to blastocyst cavity
prochordal plate develops from embryonic entoderm.

Embryonic Period
Third Week
Formation of head, tail, and lateral folds
Dorsal part of yolk sac enclosed during folding to become primitive gut
Transverse folding forms lateral and ventral body walls
Gut pinches off from yolk sac, forming yolk stalk
Amnion expands
Primitive streak appears in ectoderm
Third primary germ layer (embryonic mesoderm) forms, except at
oropharyngeal and cloacal membranes and in midline (notochord)
Notochord formed
Neural tube formed from neural groove in ectoderm
Somite formation begins cranially by end of third week
Celom forms (to become body cavity)
Blood islands form
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Two heart tubes formed

Cytotrophoblastic shell formed, increasing surface area for embryonic-
maternal exchange and firmly anchoring chorionic sac to endometrium
Longitudinal and transverse folding have converted trilaminar embryonic disk
into C-shaped cylindrical embryo

Fourth Week
Arm and leg buds develop
Otic pits visible
Heart is ventral prominence
Head and tail folds give curved shape to embryo

Fifth Week
Head grows markedly due to growth of brain
Elbow and wrist regions identifiable; digital ridges appear in hand plates
Eye developing retinal pigment
Auricle of ear begins to form with groove in center (to become auditory
meatus)

Sixth Week
Head larger than trunk, is bent over heart prominence
Head and trunk begin to straighten at end of week
Yolk sac is small, now called vitelline duct
Intestines enter extraembryonic celom
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Arms increase in length

Toe ridges appear in foot plates
Germinal tissues develop

Seventh Week
Head more rounded and erect
Ears not fully developed
Neck forms
Eyelids more obvious
Extremities lengthen, fingers and toes well differentiated
Abdomen less protuberant
Umbilical cord decreases in size
Intestine still within umbilical cord
At end of this week embryo has developed from undifferentiated cell mass to
recognizable human shape.

Fetal Period
Third Month
Head is half of fetal length; body grows to double crown-rump length
Arms grow, almost reaching final length; have separated fingers
Legs grows have separated toes
Heart begins to beat
Intestinal coils visible in umbilical cord until tenth week when they reenter
abdomen
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Eyelids closed; eyes widely separated and ears low set, begin to move to
correct position
External genitalia similar at ninth week; different by twelfth week and have
begun their descent
Placenta develops to final form (two layers)

Fourth Month
Growth rapid, legs lengthen
Ossification of skeleton begins
Ears and eyes in mature position

Fifth Month
Growth rate slows; legs achieve final length
Fatty tissue forms (special type: brown fat)
Hair grows on head, eyebrows visible, fine hair (lanugo) covers body
Skin develops covering of fatty, cheese-like material (verni caseosa) that
remains until birth
Fetus moves extremities

Sixth Month
Gain in weight
Skin wrinkled and translucent
Organs fairly well developed, but respiratory system still immature
Body is lean, better proportioned
Subcutaneous adipose tissue forming
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Seventh Month
Nervous system matures - body temperature control and rhythmical
respiration are possible
Eyelids reopen

Eight and Ninth Months

Skin smooth, color same in white and dark-skinned races (melanin produced
on exposure to light)
Testes have descended to scrotum
Finishing off of development and growth
Fetus usually plump at birth.
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Examples of the Impact of External Sources During the Birth Experience

Incident or phrase embedded within

the infant unconscious Later problems

"Ugly little thing, isn't it?" Low self-esteem with denial of actual
physical beauty

"Get that baby breathing or we'll lose Asthma - Depression Anxiety

it."

"This one will never walk right." Negative self-imaging – Fear of being
(Said about newborn with clubfoot) seen by others.

"Quiet down, take it easy, just relax." Hypothyroidism

(Said to mother during acute distress Depressive reactions to stress (acts
and narcotic was administered to reduce glandular function)
intravenously)

"It's a funny little thing, isn't it?" Negative sexual self-imaging with
(Said during circumcision trauma) possible dysfunction, repressed anger
and rage.

Placed in incubator while hearing Schizophrenia; acute sense of social

detached voices from all directions. isolation; claustrophobia, limited
verbalization skills.

Lack of Maternal bonding. Inability to receive or give physical

affection; sense of abandonment;
parental alienation, confused sexual
identity.

Mother receives general anesthesia or Drug abuse; alcoholism; thrill seekers

narcotics. (over-compensatory); depression,
poor identity boundaries.

Artificially induced labor Acute anxiety attacks; agoraphobia

Forceps delivery (fear of open spaces), asthma,
dyslexia.
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The following transcripts are examples taken from sessions in which

physical symptoms were located using the Prenatal Physical Development
outline on page 83.

Number One – Jane

The client is a forty-five year old female recently placed on daily insulin
injections after being diagnosed with adult-onset diabetes five years ago. Diet
control and oral medication have proved insufficient for maintaining healthy
blood-sugar levels.
Jane is twice divorced with one child, a male, now twenty years old
and estranged.
She reports episodic eating disorders including anorexia and radical
diets. She has few friends and no current relationship.
She is asked to describe her physical and emotional symptoms.
Jane – "Physically I get weak, numb, unable to move. I feel
disconnected from my body. Sometimes, it's "like I'm watching what my
body does with no reactions or control. Eventually, I sit and stare until I go
into a coma which feels like going to sleep to me."
"My moods swing rapidly between fear and panic and anger and rage
until I become so confused I can't think or feel. Sometimes, I can't remember
who I am. People have said my name, and I didn't recognize it."
"Once it starts, I experience each insulin crisis as necessary to get
someone to take care of me and love me. The moods increase in intensity as
my need for attention grows stronger. I have prompted a crisis, at times, to
'show them' and 'make them sorry' and I don't even know who 'they' are."
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(At this point, the therapist refers to the prenatal chart to pinpoint the
critical stages of development for the pancreas. For these demonstrations,
conceptions had already been cleared.)
The outline reveals the onset of body systems development in the first
month of pregnancy continuing each month until rapid development is
observed in the fifth month. This indicates this period of time as vital to the
developing functional ability of the pancreas and supporting systems. Mother
became conscious of her pregnancy in the third month after missing two
previous menstrual periods.
Therapist – "Jane, let's realize we are going to locate and change the
physical beliefs and functioning patterns in which diabetic symptoms are
included. You will focus on those times when the developing cells of your
body become embedded with the spoken and emotional language of the
environment which is keeping you alive. We will release these embedded
beliefs and replace them with ones you choose to make you healthy. We'll
begin in the first month of pregnancy, after conception, when your pancreas
is in its earliest stage of formation. Listen to your mother's thoughts that are
enmeshed with this cellular structuring. Let her thoughts become very clear
for you. Quote the first words mother is thinking."
(The technique of sentence repetition is used throughout each session,
but is not indicated in the transcript.)
Jane (quoting Mother) – "I'll die if I get fat. He won't love me if I'm
fat. He'll leave me for a younger woman. I can't eat anything or it'll show.
I'd rather starve than be alone."
Therapist – "Jane, focus on Mother's physical feelings. What are her
physical reactions to her fear of eating and gaining weight?"
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Jane – "She has a headache, is very agitated, her hands are shaking,
and she's very confused. She also feels panic as the time for my father to
come home nears."
Therapist – "Express her panic. Say the first words of panic Mother is
thinking."
Jane (Mother) – "I'm so hungry I could die. Maybe if I lay down I can
forget about food. Just until I hear him coming home, then I'll get up and get
his dinner. I'll tell him I ate earlier so I won't have to eat with him."
Mother falls into a deep sleep and fails to hear her husband come
home. He awakens her.
Therapist – "Quote the first words your father says to Mother to
awaken her."
Jane (quoting father) – "Wake up, you lazy bitch."
Jane notes he has been drinking as he shoves Mother roughly to get
her up.
"Come on, you cow. What do you do all day? Lay around the house
eating? You're starting to look like an elephant. Get up and feed me if
there's anything left to eat in this house."
Jane's mother awakens slowly and with confusion until her husband's
voice gets her attention. She faints while preparing his dinner.
Jane (father) – "Hell, there's always something wrong with this bitch.
She's always in bed or crying. Go back to bed. I'll fix my own dinner."
Father puts Mother back to bed where she re-enters her semi-coma
sleep induced by hunger and fear.
This session is reworked to redefine hunger, eating, love, and
acceptance in a healthy manner. Jane's negative survival pattern is changed
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from "I know I'm alive as long as I'm starving and afraid" to "I am free of my
mother's fears of abandonment and compulsive eating behavior. I am alive
when healthy and happily in charge of my own life."
Jane's second session starts in the fifth month of pregnancy when body
systems are rapidly being completed.
Therapist – "In the fifth month of pregnancy, development of your
glands, organs, and physical systems is being completed. As your pancreas is
readied for functioning, hear your mother's words that repeat her earlier fears
about eating. Say the first words you hear from Mother's thoughts."
Jane (Mother) – "This baby is making me fat. He'll leave me! I'll be
alone! Nobody will love me! He'll hate me if I'm fat. This baby makes me
fat. I hate it! I hate this baby. I wish it'd die. I don't want to get bigger.
He'll leave me! He told me he would! I'll stop eating. Maybe that'll kill it.
At least he will see I'm not fat from eating."
The rest of the pregnancy is described as hazy, confused, fearful, and
tenuous for mother. Finally, at eight months and two weeks, mother can no
longer starve herself and begins to compulsively binge on ice cream,
chocolate cake, and chocolate chip cookies. She sits eating from a half-gallon
carton of ice cream with the cake and cookies on the table in front of her.
She rotates the three eating with rapid, panic-induced behavior.
Therapist – "Think out loud, Jane. As Mother devours these foods, say
her thoughts out loud."
Jane (Mother) – "I don't care what he says, I deserve this. I've got to
eat something. I can't stop. I can't stop until it's all gone. When it's gone,
he'll never know it was here. I'll burn the carton so he won't know."
"I feel sick. I'm dizzy. There must be something wrong with me."
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The therapist notes this last sentence, "there must be something with
me" and continues through the session. Mother finally moves to the couch
where she feels weak and helpless. Almost paralyzed, she drifts into an
insulin reaction resulting in deep sleep. When she awakens, father has found
the cartons on the kitchen table and begins his ritual of drunken abuse. As
this is completed, Jane is directed back to her mother's statement "there must
be something wrong with me." She is made to understand its function as an
absolute command from within her unconscious mind. There can be no
expectations, Jane must have something wrong with her. As long as she
does, she can survive. She then is asked to consciously evaluate this
command from her mother and recognize how it has controlled her life.
Jane – "Growing up, I always had something wrong with me. Bad
colds, earaches, headaches, broken bones, accidents, you name it. My first
husband divorced me because I was always sick. He couldn't take my
complaining any more. My son, today, doesn't speak to me because I'm
always whining about how sick I am and complaining he doesn't love me. I
divorced my second husband because I thought he didn't love me. Nothing
he could do convinced me he really cared about me. It was during that
second divorce the diabetes was diagnosed. I felt if I ignored it, I'd get so sick
he'd finally love me. If I could just keep something wrong with me, maybe
someone would notice and finally love me."
Other of Jane's sessions covered her past life experiences, her birth, and
her infancy, childhood, and adolescent years with her parents. The core
negative unconscious belief was found to be in the prenatal stages of
development when her mother's fears and beliefs were embedded with her
own developing physical functioning abilities.
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Number Two - Ted

Ted is a fifty year old male with a history of impotency which has been
determined as psychological in origin. Medical tests show no blood leakage
or torn tissue as physical cause. He is currently married once for twenty-five
years. His wife wishes to participate in his therapy and shows no pathology
in her behavior or attitude.
A review of the developmental chart shows external genitalia becoming
specific with testes ascending in the twelfth week. By the eighth month, the
testes have completely descended into the scrotum as overall development
and growth is completed. This places the onset of male sexual function
between the twelfth and thirty-second weeks of development.
Therapist – "Ted, we're going to examine the beliefs and feelings which
are included as part of your physical ability to function sexually. The male
body is identified within the twelfth week of pregnancy when the testicular
formation is completed allowing the testes to enter the scrotum. This process
is completed two or three weeks prior to birth."
"Let's separate Mother's reality from your physical development by
recognizing her thoughts and feelings during this critical period. Focus into
the moment when your body is developing male genitals and attitudes and
realize we'll change the attitudes by quoting the first words Mother is
thinking. Think out loud what your body is accepting from your mother."
In session, I asked him to verbalize his inner-experience when
approaching sex. He "thought out loud" until the moment of penetration
when he spoke with fear and concern.
"I'm afraid I'll hurt her. I'll cause her pain, and she won't love me."
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I directed him to the birth experience where he accepts this

unconscious belief. He enters his birth experience hearing his mother scream,
"Get it out of me! It hurts! It's killing me! Get it out of me!" Her baby
son's body was pushing through the vaginal tract as she screamed these
words.
After his delivery, the doctor shows him to his mother whose only
comment was, "He wasn't worth it. He almost killed me."
He easily makes the connection to his adult experience when he, once
again, re-enters that part of the female body. Not wanting to cause pain and
"almost kill" her, he quickly gets out before she found him "not worth it."
A few more sessions traced these beliefs through childhood into
puberty and masturbation and, finally, into his adult experience with his wife
as the woman in his life.

Number Three – Becky

Becky is twenty-eight years old, unmarried, with a successful career in
computer technology. Her job requires long hours of sitting at a computer
station processing complicated formulas for a large accounting firm. Her
congenital scoliosis is causing increasing pain and creating difficulty in
maintaining her focus. She has been treated by leading medical experts with
surgery being the last recommendation. This requires surgically implanting a
steel rod into her back to which the spine is attached to force alignment. This
is counter-indicated for Becky in view of her work situation.
A review of the developmental chart shows the spine and vertebra
canal forming within the first two weeks of pregnancy. The final prenatal
experience for the spine occurs during and immediately after birth.
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Therefore, the entire pregnancy provides the boundaries for the causal
experience for scoliosis.
Therapist – "Becky, we're going to examine the experiences during
which your spine is being pre-conditioned to create scoliosis after your birth.
Let's begin by entering your mother's experience with you in uterus during
the second week after conception. Visualize your spine as a soft milky
substance just appearing to form the basis for your body's development. As
you are aware of this vulnerable condition, Mother's words and feelings are
being embedded within the cellular formation. Say the first words that come
to mind when you hear your mother's voice. Let her words and emotions be
very clear."
Becky (Mother) – "I don't know.....I don't know....there's nothing....I
can't do this...."
The therapist recognizes these as Mother's incomplete sentences
indicating her confusion.
Therapist – "Becky, those are Mother's words. They indicate her
confusion. Let's finish the first - 'I don't know.' Just finish her sentence.
What does Mother 'not know'?'
Becky (Mother) – "I don't know if I love him or not?"
Therapist – "The second 'I don't know'?"
Becky (Mother) – "I don't know if he loves me?"
Therapist – "There's nothing...?"
Becky (Mother) – "There's nothing I can do but sit and wait for him to
marry me."
Therapist – "And 'I can't do this'?"
Becky (Mother) – "I can't do this without him. He's got to marry me."
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Therapist – "Listen to Mother's questions. What's Mother feeling

now?"
Becky – "Desperate."
Therapist – "How is she handling her desperation?"
Becky – "With confusion. She just keeps refusing to recognize her
situation."
Therapist – "What comes at the end of a question, Becky?"
Becky – "A question mark."
Therapist – "What shape is your spine?"
Becky – "A question mark."
Therapist – "What message did your spine receive during this early
experience with Mother?"
Becky – "Stay confused to stay alive."
(Becky twists her body trying to get her spine in a comfortable
position.)
Therapist – "Bring the experience forward to your birth. Make a
direct connection from this early confusion to a point in your birth
experience. What comes to mind first?"
Becky – "My head's being clamped. Forceps are twisting my head and
neck. I can feel it down my spine. It's twisting my spine and pulling me."
Therapist – "Quote the first words the voices around you are saying.
The first words your spine is connecting to this twisted position."
Becky (Doctor) – "I don't know if this baby will make it? How's the
mother doing? I don't understand what happened here? We'll be lucky if it's
not damaged."
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Therapist – "Listen to the question, Becky. More confusion embedded

into your spine. Move through your birth. What finally allows you to leave
the uterus?"
Becky – "The doctor finally cuts Mother and pulls me out. I'm finally
out and alive."
Therapist – "What do you feel in your spine?"
Becky – "It's twisted and in pain."
Therapist – "What must you feel in your spine if you want to be alive?"
Becky – "Twisted pain."
Therapist – "And what must you experience in your thinking?"
Becky – "Confusion."
Therapist – "Put the cause all together."
Becky – "Stay confused and in pain and stay alive."
Therapist – "As you go through life, every time you need to feel alive
and safe about your survival, How do you achieve this?"
Becky – "Get all twisted up in pain and confusion and feel alive. I
work with computers because they handle the confusion for me. I can stay
confused as long as a computer solves the problems."
Becky agreed to being fitted with a brace which stabilized her spine
and eased the pain. Over time, she worked with a massage therapist with
experience in scoliosis and reversed the curvature to only a slight degree of
misalignment. Her sessions had opened her awareness of choices and started
a new line of treatment for her problem.

Demonstration From Day Two – 9:00 a.m.

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The demonstration begins with questions as to known facts about the

client's birth. These questions include the use of drugs, known complications,
unusual delivery procedures (i.e. C-Section, posterior-presentation), forceps,
or unusual family circumstances.
The client, Karl, knows few facts except he was delivered by Cesarean
section. He presents a need to struggle in his life and reports an inability to
start "something more interesting." He experiences constant insecurity with
an assumption that any wrong occurrence is his fault. He is asked to lay
down and close his eyes.
Morris – "Let's begin the session by asking you to realize that
unconsciously you're already focused into the area of your birth experience
where we need to work. The negative pattern that creates struggle,
insecurity, and confusion is within this experience. Let your unconscious
mind say the first words you think of when you hear Mother's voice at this
point of your experience with her. Recognize her voice and quote the first
words she's saying."
Karl (Mother) – "I can't do this any longer. I want to quit."
(He is asked to repeat Mother's words several times until his conscious
mind registers their meaning.)
Morris – "Say the next words from Mother."
Karl (Mother) – "I can't push any more. Stop telling me to push. Help
me! Stop the pain! I can't do this anymore. It's going to kill me."
(The technique of repeating expressions of traumatic impact is centered
here and throughout the entire session.)
Karl – "Mother's hearing the doctor but can't understand his words."
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Morris – "Listen carefully to the doctor's voice. Mother can

understand him but is frightened. What's the first words Mother doesn't want
to hear the doctor say? The first words she hears buy tries to reject. Let his
words come to you and Mother."
Karl (pauses) - "He's saying......."
Morris – "Quote me his words."
Doctor – "This isn't working. We have to do something else. Prepare
her for a C-section. We don't want to lose this baby."
(Karl reports movement around his mother as nurses rush to make the
change to a surgical delivery.)
Morris – "Listen to the words mother is thinking but not saying out
loud. Say out loud Mother's thoughts."
Karl (Mother) – "Thank God. Let them do it, I can't. I knew I
couldn't, I knew it'd kill me if I tried."
Morris – "Describe what is being physically done with mother to ready
her for surgery."
Karl – "Her stomach is being cleaned, she's given an injection, and a
mask is over her face. She's being told to breath."
Morris – "Quote the words telling her this. The exact words she
hears."
Doctor – "Breath deeply and count backwards from one hundred.
Breath, and count backwards. Start counting."
Karl (Mother) – "I'm going to die. I won't wake up. I'll never see my
baby. This is going to kill me."
Morris – "What's Mother saying out loud?"
Karl (Mother) – "100 - 99 - 98 - 97 - 96 ----."
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Karl – "She's going into darkness. I am, too. We're both dying."
(Mother breathes herself into unconsciousness as the other voices
(external sources) become prominent.)
Morris – "Let the other voices come clearly. Realize you're
unconsciously recording voices other than Mother's. Quote me these words."
Doctor – "Check her vitals. Keep close monitor on her. I'm working
the incision now. Get ready for the baby."
(Karl registers mother's reaction to the incision and recoils at efforts to
get forceps on his head.)
Doctor – "It's in the wrong position. We've got to shove it up and out
of the canal. There's the head. Get the forceps on it. Lift it up and out the
incision. Keep pulling, we're almost there. There! It's a boy! A fine healthy
boy!"
Morris – "Be aware of what you have to go through to be a fine,
healthy boy, Karl. Realize the negative pattern formed by these words."
Karl – "I have to be unconscious, in pain, and helpless for my life to be
fine."
Morris – "Let's move on. Do you take your first breath before or after
the cord is cut?"
Karl - "Before. I start screaming immediately and that makes me
breath."
Morris – Be just at the point where the cord is cut. Quote me the first
words being said as you're disconnected from Mother."
Doctor – "You're on your own, young man. Have a good life."
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Karl is encouraged to breath and feel the drugs leave his body causing
him to feel life come through his body. His experience of surviving becomes
complete; and he is fully capable of hearing, seeing, thinking, and feeling.
He is directed back to the point, prior to surgery, where the decision is
made to complete his birth by surgery. He accesses the external voices first:
"This isn't working."
"We have to do something else."
"Prepare her for surgery."
"We don't want to lose the baby."
Additional dialog is uncovered as some confusion has been lifted:
Doctor – "We're going to help you finish this."
"Nothing to worry about."
"Just a little change in plans."
"You're going to be fine."

Next Karl accesses the internal source of Mother's thoughts:

"I can't do this any longer."
"I want to quit now."
"I can't push anymore."
"Stop telling me to push."
"Stop the pain."
"It's going to kill me."
Additional internal dialog is heard as Mother is put to sleep.
Mother – "Thank God. I won't be here until it's over."
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"Help me, help my baby."

"I can leave now."
Two last sentences are heard from the doctor as Mother went
unconscious:
"When you come back, it'll all be over."
"Relax, leave everything to us."
This point of the birth is reviewed thoroughly until all impact and affect
are removed. This done, the entire birthing experience is re-expressed to
reveal the entire negative survival pattern. Karl is encouraged to consciously
evaluate and express his own responses and feelings as the process becomes
complete.
The final step asks Karl to allow his integrated mind function to
formulate the negative pattern.
Karl – "As long as I let others finish things for me, I know I'm alive."
Morris – "Would you like to change that?"
Karl – "Yes."
"What I start, I can finish, and I can finish what I start."
Morris – "Karl, now count yourself out of this altered state Mother
counted you down into. Start with 95. Count out to 100."
Karl – "95 - 96 - 97 - 98 - 99 - 100."
Morris – "Let yourself feel how awake and clear you are. How do you
feel?"
Karl – "That's amazing. I feel like I've finished it."
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Day Two 2:00 p.m.

Small groups meet to continue developing the ability to listen, hear,

and interact with a client. The use of perception modalities for induction will
begin as students start active participation as therapists.

Supervised Group Session: Birth

The following is from the first experiential session from one of four
small groups of supervised students.
Sp. – supervisor
std. – student
cl. – client
Sp – "We'll start by asking for any known facts about our client's birth.
Refer to your intake interview and focus more directly into the questions
about birth."
The students ask for known facts about birth until it is clear the client
has no further conscious memories. One student asks to begin as therapist.
The student's confusion as to induction is noted and assisted by the
supervisor.
Sp. – "Mentally formulate what you want the client to do first. Then,
simply ask him to enter his birth experience where he can do what you want.
Ask his unconscious mind to do what you want and give him a chance to
respond."
Std. – "Enter your birth experience at the point of greatest trauma and
say the first words that come to mind."
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This is repeated, verbatim, several times as the supervisor assists with

timing to allow for a response.
Cl. – "I'll never have another baby."
"It hurts too much."
"He doesn't love me anyway."
"If he loved me, he'd be here."
"I'm so alone."
"I always do everything by myself."
The student is helped with the process of sentence repetition to
maintain the client's subjective involvement.
Std. – "Listen to the external voices, and tell me what they're saying."
This language is corrected, by the supervisor, to a more focused
question.
Sp. – "Be aware of voices other than your mother's. There are people
around you and Mother during your birth. Repeat the exact words you hear
from these voices."
"There is no word comparable word for "quote" in the German
language, thus alternative language (i.e. "repeat") is used.
The supervisor notes this move to external sources is too soon and will
discuss it later.
Cl. (doctor) – "Damn it, hold the light steady. Move that table over
here. Do we have any gas to give her?"
Cl. (nurse) – "No, doctor, we have no drugs. They took the last of
them yesterday."
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Cl. (doctor) – "God damn war! How can we run a hospital with
bombs falling outside? Put something in her mouth to stop her from
screaming!"
A towel is placed in Mother's mouth, and she is told to bite on it
instead of screaming. The client reports distant sounds of explosions which
increases the confusion and panic in the delivery room.
Std. – "Focus into the experience. Focus on the words and feelings
within this confusion. Say the next words that come to mind."
Cl. (doctor) – "Give me the forceps. We've got to deliver this baby
and run for cover. Hurry!"
Forceps are used to pull the baby from the uterus at which time the
cord is cut and the baby slapped to start breathing. The client shows signs of
impaired breathing as the supervisor demonstrates techniques for re-directing
this physical trauma.
Std. – "What happens next?"
The client completely re-enters the trauma of these moments after his
birth. The student is signaled to remain quiet and let him "run the
experience." He reveals that a nurse wraps him in a blanket and runs from
the delivery room to a bomb shelter just outside the hospital. He will not see
his mother again for almost two months.
The student is helped to direct him past the air raid and forward to the
point where he is returned to his mother. This locates a place of safety for
him which he is asked to maintain until the next small groups session.
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Day Three 9:00 a.m.

A didactic presentation discussing "blocking," "resistance," and other

difficulties in processing a session covers the following material.

A. Blocks
Resistance
B. Procedures used by facilitator to move through and past these
difficulties.
All difficulties in processing a session are caused by unconscious
motivation. As such, the actual reasons are unknown to the client. The client
will not deliberately and knowingly block in a session and refuse to continue
through to resolution. The client is doing the only thing possible at any point
of difficulty during a session. People are never blocking or being resistant
"just to irritate you, the therapist." (However, it can certainly seem that way,
at times. Patience, patience, patience.)

Blocking occurs when:

A. One or more of the senses are shutdown during the actual first experience
(when the trauma actually was experienced).
1. Unconscious "can't think," "don't know," etc., etc. Ability to self-
identify is lost and other voices or movements have taken over
without the client knowing.
2. Conscious but blinded "can't see," "don't see anything," "nothing's
there," blind due to blindfold, dark night (room), injury to eyes, blind
from birth.
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3. (Conscious) Tongue cut out or vocal ability impaired. "Can't tell

you," "can't say," "don't ask me." (Client will show signs of struggle
and agitation when asked to talk)
4. (Conscious) Client is at a regressed age which is prior to developing
the ability to talk. i.e. 6 months old. (Client may lay quietly as if
ignoring you questions just as a young baby would do.)
5. (Conscious, in shock) Client is under a strong, life-threatening
command from unconscious sources not to talk.
i.e. "I'll kill you if you tell anyone ____." This from a voice
other than the client's. (This is nearly always found with clients
who have experienced early childhood sexual abuse.)

6. Numb - paralyzed - "can't feel".

Client is conscious with damage to spinal cord or suffers from
birth defect.
Client may also be bound or tied, thus rendered helpless.

7. Client is conscious but is about to hear or know something they feel

will be devastating for them.
This fear of new information will be in the past experience and in
the current one with the therapist.

Other reasons for blocking will be discussed in small groups.

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Day Three 2:00 p.m.

Small group work continues to experience blocking and resistance

techniques.
This small groups session involves certified therapists acting as clients
to simulate the procedure blocks that can occur during some sessions.
Simulation is the only means by which these dynamics can be guaranteed for
the students.

Day Four 9:00 a.m.

Didactics presentation describing procedures for locating and releasing

physical memory. During the demonstration the crossover from emotional-
psychological trauma to physical disease will be shown.

Demonstration: Locating and Releasing Physical Somatization

The client presents chronic pain and partial paralysis in her left hand
and arm which was dominant for the first few years of her life. Paralysis is
exacerbated by efforts to treat the pain with physical therapy and pain is
exacerbated if no treatment is undertaken. She has been forced to develop
her right hand as dominant. The beginning stages of atrophy are noted.
Morris – "Let's focus here into your left arm for a moment. Just feel it
from your shoulder to your finger tips. Let all the physical feelings come into
focus. Remember, numb is a feeling. Keep your focus on your arm. Let's
just become your arm. You feel, sense, think, and react as your arm. What's
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the strongest emotion you feel now, left arm? Under the numbness and
paralysis, what's the strongest emotion?"
Cl. – "Fear."
Morris – "Okay. Now locate the part of your arm where fear is the
most intense."
Cl. – "Here..." (Points to an area above the elbow and below the
shoulder.)
Morris – "Stay with the fear. Recognize it. Say the first words of fear
that come from your arm right here. The first words contained within the
fear, the feeling."
Cl. – "Don't hurt me."
This is repeated several times until emotions surface with the words.
Morris – "Say the next words."
Cl. – "I can't, I can't, I don't know how."
Morris – (Increasing pressure on the client's arm.) "What causes this
pain? What's hurting your arm?"
Cl. – "A hand."
Morris – "Whose hand?"
Cl. "My father's. He's shaking my arm and yelling at me."
Morris – "Quote his words. Hear them very clearly. Say the first
words he's yelling at you."
Cl. (father) – "Do as you're told!" "Do as you're told! The teacher
says you'll use your other hand! Use your other hand! Not this hand. The
other hand!"
These words are repeated and intensified emotionally until they lose
impact and physical sensations are available.
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Morris – "As father says these words into your arm, what physical
feelings do you have?"
Cl. – "I can't feel my arm. It's numb."
Morris – "Connect your father's words with this numbness. What is
your father telling you about your arm?"
Cl. – "It's too numb, I can't use it anymore."
This unconscious decision is repeated and intensified until the client's
conscious mind overrides the father's messages and releases his words from
the client's arm. Morris still clutches the arm.
Morris – "Free your arm from his hand. Move your arm. Take his
hand off your arm. Get the feeling back!"
The client moves her arm until she finally jerks it free.
Morris – "Talk to your father. Replace his words with your own."
The client yells at her father while verbally reversing the messages of
numbness and paralysis.
As the client releases the emotions from her arm, she begins crying and
clutching her left hand.
Cl. – "Don't hurt me! Don't hit my hand! That hurts!"
The client identifies her first grade teacher who is slapping her left hand
with a ruler.
Cl. (teacher) – "Not this hand! You use the other hand. Use your
pencil in the other hand. Do as you're told. I'll tell your father."
As her hand is hit, the client feels it go numb and helpless. The
teacher's words are recognized as being contained in the pain she inflicts with
a ruler.
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Morris – "Recognize the messages your teacher inflicts into your hand
with pain. As she hits your hand over and over again, what words does she
embed?"
Cl. – "Don't use it. She keeps yelling at me to stop using my left
hand."
This second unconscious message is focused for release until the client's
conscious mind redefines reality in her left hand. This reaches a climax when
the client pounds a pillow with her left fist and screams at her father and the
teacher.
Cl. – "I will use it! I will! I will! I don't hear you anymore. I can do
anything I wish." The client is gaining greater cognitive ability to self-identify.
She spontaneously enters the core issue with the following:
"You make me feel different. I'm not normal. Not as good as
everyone else. All the other kids use their right hands, and that makes them
better than me. You punish me as if I deliberately use my left hand just to
spite you. Using my left hand makes me different, not bad, not abnormal.
Leave me alone! Shut up! Go away! My left arm and hand are just fine!"
The session ends with the client writing on a large pad used for
demonstrating charts during lectures. She writes with her left hand, her right
hand, and waves both arms together with equal energy and flexibility.

Day Four 2:00 p.m.

Small groups meet to continue work with clients for physical memory
release.

Small Group Session Focusing on Physical Somatization

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Students continue working with the client who was born during an air
raid. He has continued the breathing impairment from his birth as asthma
throughout his life. The group of four decide to re-enter his experience at
birth at the point where his breathing is impaired.
Std. – "Be at the moment, after birth, when your breathing is difficult.
Let your body feel the panic and stress in your lungs. Say the first words
that come with this experience."
The client's breathing becomes irregular as he says the following
words:
Cl. (doctor) – "Good. He's alive. Keep him breathing while we get to
safety."
The supervisor demonstrates the techniques to disconnect the traumatic
onset of breathing from survival as established by the doctor's words "he's
alive." This is a two-step process as his impaired breathing must also be
separated from "feeling safe."
As the supervisor completes this process, the client is allowed to leave
while the group discusses the session.

Day Five 9:00 a.m.

A final demonstration, for the entire group, in which Morris will

facilitate a session with efficiency while maintaining focus as indicated by the
initial interview.
A brief initial interview will be done first as a means of establishing the
point of focus for the experiential session. The client will be chosen from the
group.
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Final Demonstration for Cohesive Processing While Maintaining Focus

One of the small supervision groups asks Morris to work with their
client for this training period. They have not reached a satisfactory
conclusion as confusion still interferes with clear insights and emotional
releases. Established is a past life which ended in 1943 in a Nazi
concentration camp. The death experience is complicated as several periods
of prolonged shock precede actual physical termination. The client's name is
James, who clearly is still at affect of this experience.
Morris – "James? Listen to me. You will hear my voice throughout
this session. It will anchor you in reality and guide you through the
confusion. Now, very quietly and easily allow your unconscious mind to
enter this death experience at the moment when actual physical death is
occurring. Recognize the death of your body. Your soul lives on. It will rise
free of this camp where your body is located when death becomes final."
James – "Why has God forsaken us? Why has he let this happen to
us?"
Morris – "James. Listen to my voice. Focus on your physical body.
Do not hear voices around and do not hear your own thoughts. What
position is your physical body in when death comes?"
James – "I don't know......" (repeated)
Morris – "James, did you die in a gas chamber or in another place?
Just answer the question. Gas chamber or another place? Focus on my
voice and answer my question."
James – "Somewhere else. A big grave with many, many more."
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Morris – "James, feel your body in the grave. How many other bodies
are touching yours? First answer your body gives!"
James – "Many. They're crushing me."
Morris – "Listen to all the other voices around you. Recognize all the
voices other than our own. Quote me all the words from the other voices.
Release these words from your mind, they're not yours, they belong to those
dying around you. Recognize the difference between you and the others."
James – "I don't want to die." (After each quote he is asked to
identify a male or female voice he hears.)
"Momma, I want momma."
"Let me die, God, let me die."
James slowly recognizes the many voices of those dying with him as he
repeats the litany of horror being absorbed by his own unconsciousness.
Morris – "James, when you have released all the other deaths, focus on
your own. Where in your body does your own physical death start?"
James – "My head. All my thoughts are gone. I'm numb. I can't
breath."
James is directed through a monitored physical death until he finally
separates from his dead body and rises above the scene of a mass grave. He
is encouraged to say and feel everything necessary to complete his camp

experience. When he indicates a willingness to allow departure, Morris closes

the camp experiences.
Morris – "James, your life in this camp is over. It no longer has any
feel of reality for you. You will never return to this experience as it is totally
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resolved for you. Now, move forward in time to the point of conception by
your mother in your present life. Say the first words of that experience."
James is processed through conception and resonating incidents during
the nine months of pregnancy. He is lastly processed through birth as his
negative survival pattern is uncovered and resolved.
Morris – "James, let your unconscious mind recognize this negative
pattern and change it. You will no longer live at survival level. You will live
a happy, creative, healthy life."
James – "I can have my own boundaries and still be alive. I don't have
to be everyone's whipping boy. I don't have to pretend to be stupid so
people will love me. I don't have to hide behind others' opinions of me. I can
have my own opinions, express my own beliefs and be happy or sad or
anything else I want to be."
James opens his eyes and sits up completely free of the cloudy
confusion from the start of the session. He is clear and smiling as he
announces:
"I can also admit I'm Jewish. My real name is Joshua, but my mother
made me use 'James' when I started school. She didn't want anyone to know
we were Jewish."

Day Five 2:00 p.m.

Final large group meeting to review and present outline for the next
training period in six months. Closure comes with the group, and they leave
for their homes.
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